#no healthy relationship with her friends will kill the patient

[j-crow]

vro does NOT know 😭😭🙏🙏

[atimesfeeler]

I like to think that in his universe, Logan was attracted to Jean first (we stand a bi king) and then he really liked how Scott reacted and pushed the whole thing just to get a reaction out of him. And bc he liked the thrill of fighting with Scott (he doesn’t realize it at first of course, but he’s like a little kid yanking on pig tails at recess) and then Jean dies and it’s not fun anymore. And Scott is grieving HARD and Logan is the only one who can relate to Scott so they get closer and closer. It’s still fights but it’s also holding Scott while he cries or sleeping next to him bc Scott hasn’t slept alone since a teenager (but not ever really allowing himself to fall asleep just in case he hurts Scott) and they kiss, and it means something. But Scott isn’t ready. He feels guilty. He’s grieving. So Logan waits. He can be patient.

But then Jean comes back and the first thing she does is try to kill Scott with a kiss. Thank god Logan followed him out to the woods and realized something was off before Jean could disintegrate him. Logan is a little less faithful in Jean returning to herself and more resentful of her trying to kill Scott because he’s so devoted to her and he loves her in a way Logan feels he’ll never be loved and she tried to kill him. He knows what it’s like to be a monster and hurt the ones you love, but he keeps Scott close just in case. And Jean does try to do the same thing to Logan but it’s wrong it feels wrong and this isn’t what he wanted.

Charles, Logan, and Scott manage to get through to her and she doesn’t die. Logan doesn’t have to kill her like the og Logan does. In fact, everything goes back to ‘normal’. Jean gets her powers under control and Scott and Jean get back together, leaving Logan in this awkward middle. He used to love Jean and he still does, just, not as much as he grew to love Scott. He almost loves Jean because Scott loves her so much, sees her as this goddess, his savior. And Jean is happy to add Logan to their relationship, but he’s definitely their honorary third and it’s not a healthy poly relationship. They love Logan in the dark but they don’t treat him like they are all a couple. Scott and Jean will go on dates and come back and invite Logan to their bed and he’ll take what he can get. He tells himself it’s fun and it is, and he’s a good f*ck and he’s sure that’s what they see him as. It’s fine.

But sometimes it gets to him. So he goes out drinking a lot. Scott proposes to Jean and Logan’s heart breaks. He leaves bc there’s nothing there for him. He can’t keep doing this. He comes back sometimes to do missions when they need his help, but as the wedding approaches, Logan comes back less and less. They call for him for missions and Logan doesn’t show. He feels… used. He feels more alone than ever and he wants to go back, to his friends, his family, but he can’t see Jean and Scott so happy without him. After all, they flirt with the bad boy but don’t take him home.

And one night Logan is drinking his life away and Scott calls and it’s urgent and they need help. Logan lets it go to voicemail. He passes out drunk and doesn’t realize the mansion was attacked until he sees it on the news the next morning and by then, he’s too late.

They are all dead when he gets there. People are all around the mansion, news reporters, scientists, police. Logan shoves through them all. Someone killed them. Killed them all on their sleep. Stryker maybe. Logan cradles his friends in his arms and something in him snaps . Maybe someone handles the bodies too callously and Logan severs their hands from their body screaming “Don’t TOUCH them!” And then it’s over. It’s a blood bath. The news crew reports what Logan has done before he kills them too, hating that it’s just a spectacle to them, a big scoop, something to watch on TV.

People try to hunt him down after that. It doesn’t work. The world hates Logan and what he did. The schools slaughter is buried by Logan’s horrific reaction and people hate mutants. He really does turn the whole world on mutants and the X-Men and sure, he had reasons but he will never forgive himself for them.

Anywho I have a fic where I talk about Scott and Logan’s relationship:

[justafriendlystranger]

New member~

:Introduction:

This is Caleb Otis! A teenager who's barely surviving in a destroyed city, in an apocalyptic timeline. There has been a virus that's rapidly been spreading around the world called the "Necroa Virex" It is a brutal, highly contagious disease that doesn't create zombies but instead destroys its victims from the inside out, leaving them conscious of their slow decline—a fate that terrifies both the infected and the healthy.

This virus spreads rapidly through airborne particles and direct contact, making it one of the most contagious viruses in history. As the infection rate skyrockets, cities become overwhelmed, and medical systems buckle under the sheer number of patients, unable to provide care for the masses. With no known cure, governments enforce extreme quarantine measures, which only heighten fear and isolation among the population. Civil unrest grows as people, desperate to avoid infection, turn against one another. Mistrust spreads just as quickly as the virus, fracturing communities and pushing society toward collapse.

Like Sylas, He fights and fends for himself but with him it's much more extreme. He kills every survivor he comes across with to take anything that can help him survive longer, his only main objective is to survive alone cause he's extremely distrustful of the very few people he sees, either from the virus or from the same mentality that he has.

:How he met Trickster/how he became a member:

He met Trickster when he was scavenging for food, he saw her without any protected gear which led him to believe that she is already infected. He sneaks out behind her and strikes her from behind with a sledgehammer and kills her, but seeing that she has nothing on her, he continued his journey like nothing happened,,, but what he didn't expect is to see her again.. It's been a few weeks since he saw her and he was sure he left her on the ground bloodied and broken, to the point she's unrecognizable,, but there she is, in the same spot wearing the same clothes.. It's probably the stress of the situation he is in right now,, maybe the first is just a hallucination. And maybe this time she has something on her that'll help him, so like before he kills her again... It's driving him insane cause he feels like he's stuck in a loop cause he saw her again in the same spot, wearing the same clothes and very much alive with no injuries. (ah yes, typical Trickster with her psychological torture ^///^) He can't do this anymore so he tried a different approach, he went in front of her, talking to her.. "who are you and how are you doing that?" he said. And that was the start of their 'freindship'! of course Caleb was very skeptical about her so it took Trickster over a year and a half to fish him out of his comfort zone and get him to convince that he has a place for him where he doesn't have to fight everyday for survival,, and she knows he wants that more than anything,,,

:Info:

General info! he's around 17-19, he's 5'8, his birthday is December 28. He suffers from severe PTSD and still thinks that there's a virus around, that's way he's very hostile to visitors and the family members. He kills visitor cause he believes that they might bring the virus inside the house and he thinks the family members are either also unclean or just a figment of his imagination cause no amount of people can survive at this point.. Well maybe except for trickster, but he thinks she's just playing along with his delusions (which he appreciates). He believes that the house is just some sort of bunker and that's why trickster isn't letting him outside. It's kinda hard to talk to him cause he thinks people there are just in his mind, he'll still answer but just vague ones.

:His relationship with the other milkshake mansion members:

Trickster: friend Casimir: infected member that needs to die Rosemary: a nice imaginary friend Chaoxiang: who? Willow: neutral Hayden: a quiet hallucination The twins: infected member that needs to die Penelope: an annoying hallucination Elijah: neutral ( @gachaclubideas) Talissa: neutral ( @gachaclubideas) Juliet: neutral ( @gachaclubideas) Tsutsuji: a quiet hallucination ( @n0vatsu) Yoake: neutral ( @n0vatsu) Star: a quiet hallucination ( @startheimpactfangirl ) Kema Umi: a quiet hallucination ( @alcohol1maid ) Trevore: an annoying hallucination ( @edgywithaheart )

Milkshake mansion belongs to @boiling-potato !!

he's already open for asks!! ^^

(his normal clothes when he's not in the milkshake mansion)

[im-out-of-it]

PSA: JUST A SMALL ALEC BOOK RANT AND WHY I CANT STAND THIS PARTICULAR LINE (ok I went off but this is mainly about anti book Alec and how I don’t like the writing for him) (also mixed with how wonderful show Malec and Magnus are) (also show Alec is GREAT)

I hate that Alec says this line in the books because every part of Alec that CC writes doesn’t make any fucking sense.

in TMI, Alec is very moody in the beginning and doesn’t want clary around due to her wrecking every mission they go on and acting like she knows more than they do. (WHICH WE FUCKING STAN GO HOME CLARY)

I also hate the way Alec is portrayed as if he can’t fight which never made sense to me. basically all of TMI Alec is awful and it’s like CC was off it and decided hmmmmm how can I get this character killed off???? let’s make him as awful as possible- ah shit, people actually like him but I don’t so now I have to tolerate him and make him do insane dumb fucking things- CC probably when she planned Alec

TEC- Alec is seen as caring, admits that he never had feelings for jace, just liked having a friend around, is patient, communicates with Magnus (and Magnus does too) and actually has a respectful and healthy relationship with Magnus

some bonus stories- Alec is seen as being kind and generous and even Magnus is surprised that Alec is being a kind shadowhunter since he isn’t used to that in a shadowhunter (when they find that wolf hurt on their date and Alec is there helping, and Magnus thinks that alec will report it. and this is very early tmi so alec is shown as being kind and caring and helpful to the downworlders in one aspect of tmi but in another, he’s the complete opposite- more whiny and biphobic and childish)

TDA and extra- I won’t go into this because I still hate the way Alec is written. he doesn’t get improvement in the writing. he’s still someone who seems to think about jace first before his whole identity and he’s continually being done dirty by CC

but my whole main point is- this is said by jace I believe in the show but I don’t like that this line is said by Alec in the books because he’s in many times been mentioned as being kind and generous to downworlders who don’t have the same views as his parents do. even in the show, Alec isn’t being awful to downworlders even if he’s just doing his missions, he’s not actively saying shit like this

he doesn’t want part in wolf business because I’m sure he knows how messy it can get. this line is mostly my beef with how Alec is portrayed in the books. because Magnus is the literally the kindest fucking being who gets done dirty by CC as well in the books, and I don’t feel like they touched on Magnus as much in the show. like they definitely give Malec more screen time but Magnus has been around for many centuries yet we don’t see him be with friends as much?????

like his whole life is basically about Alec and I would have loved to see him be around the warlocks more (and yes he does spend time with them in the show) but it’s just my preference to see more of Magnus + warlocks + downworlder community

this line makes sense when jace says it because he’s a complete worthless shit to everyone and no one ever holds him accountable. but my whole thing is basically book Alec saying this because it doesn’t make any sense. it’s the fact that the writing for alec is never stable. it’s either “oh he’s nothing like his parents and it’s rare for Magnus to meet a kind shadowhunter!” to “wow he’s biphobic, can’t stand his boyfriend has a past, and has to be childish to everything” to “oh but he’s not his own person and jace is always in his mind” to “oh! but he’s the consul and he’s gotten so far but can’t speak other languages or be as skilled as jace but is still the person who saved jace HOW MANY TIMES?????” it’s like CC never knew what to do with him.

but I do love this whole picture because it shows how caring Magnus is and how most shadowhunters view the downworlders as evil when they’re the opposite. Magnus goes out of his way to be helpful to the people who would dare to murder or punish him for any senseless act- but Magnus is still there, being helpful to everyone 🥹

[myths-tournaments]

Awful Characters Round 3 (1/8)

Propaganda under the cut!

GREGORY HOUSE

He’s the medical malpractice doctor from the medical malpractice show. Man has never had a healthy relationship in his life and isn’t about to start now and by god he will break any law. Loyal but super weird about it, and makes everyone around him worse but also more interesting. He’s insufferable and I love him.

The show is regularly called the medical malpractice show. Everything he does is either questionable, illegal, dangerous, or all of the above. He’s said countless racist/sexist/homophobic things at any given opportunity, even to his friends. He has exactly one friend who is a thrice-divorced loser oncologist who only really stays with House because he's afraid of who would get hurt if he didn't. House will do anything to solve a puzzle or — God forbid — prove a point. He regularly puts people in danger to prove points of figure things out. His only morally redeeming quality is that he’s turned this obsession onto medical cases, and so usually the patients live. The show acknowledges multiple times that the only reason anyone tolerates his constant abuse is that he's a good doctor.

IANTHE TRIDENTARIUS

Her number one hobby is ruining every person's that she knows life. Her second hobby is being soooo slutty about it despite looking like a literal wet rat. Her third hobby is having an extremely unhealthy relationship with her twin. Her other hobbies include cannibalism, wearing a maid outfit, being extremely convinced she is the main character, the badboy sexy love interest and the villain. 'Why', you may ask. Well, the answer is, for shits and giggles #justgirlythings i, aswell as literally everybody else in the fandom have gone through the pipeline from hating her to desperately wanting to fuck her. expect for i still fucking hope she dies and doesn't come back for good. (that would literally solve all of everybody's problems) as god intended (EXPECT FOR. one of her hobbies literally is gaslighting god) She is fucking horrible i will love her until i die and even after that

parks and recs jean ralphio voice she's the woooorst!! The moment she learns she has to kill someone to become a Lyctor (aka a more special necromancer), she doesn't hesitate to kill and cannibalize the guy who has been her cavalier since childhood… cavalier who she also totally bullied as kids, she was allowed to choose one guest for her and her twin sister's birthday party each year, and she would always pick whoever she thought her cavalier didn't want to see there! While other characters are shown to regret the process of becoming a Lyctor (which involves someone close to them dying)/were forced into it because of circumstances, Ianthe has absolutely no regrets, she believes she did what she had to do

The author once said of Ianthe: "I don't think she's been nice to anyone, if she has I'll go back and change it." She killed and ate the soul of someone she has known all her life so that she could become a necromantic saint and tormented him plenty before that. General negging, ganging up against him, always inviting people he didn't like to their birthday parties. She doesn't regret killing him. I think she is repulsed by the idea that his digested soul is affecting hers. She helped her crush lobotomise herself so she would be in Ianthe's debt, and later lied and said she didn't see the corpse of a woman her crush killed under her bed (why did she do that? I do not know). She has a bone arm because her original arm was cut off, she hated the replacement so her crush cut THAT off and grew her a new one out of just bones. She had it gilded and only after that did she decide to help her crush deal with the person who had been repeatedly trying to kill her. She wants so badly to be the main character but people keep interrupting her villain monologues.

she has her own content warning tag

She's such a bitch to everyone all the time, she causes nothing but problems, she tries to do a villain speech but fumbles it because her tummy hurt, she is the awfulgirl of all time

[ripgray-moved]

really REALLY thinking about the fact that peter didn't have a single relationship that was healthy / didn't have some kind of power imbalance for him to learn how relationships were actually supposed to function? his relationship with charlie was coloured by the fact that he, in a lot of cases, was playing "parent" for her ( and she was deemed rather moderately disabled, meaning she was particularly vulnerable had he had any bad intentions towards her— he didn't, but this vulnerability doesn't disappear regardless ), his stepfather was absent which made his love feel very conditional from a young age ( despite his obvious love for his children ), and his mother was extremely abusive towards him. his grandmother, ellen, literally groomed him and he doesn't have much extended family because ellen fucking killed them in an effort to give paimon a host, meaning he's lacking a grandfather / uncle / cousins. steve's family is practically nonexistent. like, even his mother and stepfather, they have a relatively healthy relationship on the surface but the script clarifies that annie used to be steve's patient? she was discharged from his care before they got together, but they met under the basis of these pre-assigned roles and it's honestly very odd / unprofessional of steve to pursue her at all. there're hints of annie having this sort of "saviour complex" with him at the beginning, before her mental state begins to deteriorate and she develops this "coldness" towards him. there's all sorts of things wrong with them and their relationship. the only "friends" peter manages to make are other stoners / users, which pushes him further and further into his toxic cycles / addiction(s) ( and none of them are real friends anyway; they're party friends; drug friends; 'give-me-a-puff-of-your-blunt-'cause-i'm-all-out' friends ). even the friendship he forges with the family dog is very abruptly destroyed because annie kills it ( while controlled by paimon, i must clarify— she's not that cruel ) and then gaslights him about its existence until he genuinely believes that he concocted a dog so that he wouldn't feel so lonely. THIS MAN HAS NO FUCKING GOOD EXAMPLES IN HIS LIFE??????????.

[craftypineappl]

First Poem I’m posting on here its called August 25th, this was one of the first poems I wrote so be patient I have some better poems on the way.

“all i can think about is august 25th

The only day ill forever miss

Is this telepathic

Wanting you like this

Cursing in my mind

Havent done that in a while

Thought i was over toxicity

But it feels like youre breaking me

Dont know if i like you

Or just miss what we had

I never get over my feelings

I guess thats kinda sad

7 months since august 25th

Life’s been ok

I still want to kiss

These days thats all i wish

Look for you wherever i am

I guess you could say im your biggest fan

Maybe all i want is validation

Or someone to go on my ‘dated list’

I know that i liked you

But was it something more

I think my feelings just plateaued

Sometimes they seem to overflow.

A loop in my mind playing august 25th

The day that i realized i liked you like this

I think of you whenever someone mentions relationships

I know we never dated

But in my mind i lived it

All those fake scenarios,knowing we would never make it.

I replayed every second of that day

Till i could say those lines like there in a play

Your laugh makes my heart implode

Eye contact haunting me like a ghost

August 25th

It wasn’t fair

You feeding my ego with your constant stare

At least we’re friends

Still wish it was more

Want you to drive in

And pick me up at the door.

Never liked me lowkey

But your brother knows my face

those facetimes live in my mind rent free

I guess she won the race

August 25

i know it was never healthy

but the way you looked at me made me feel like i was wealthy

rewriting lines upon lines about only one day

am i your inner demon feeding on the prey

or was i meant to save you,be an angel in your eyes

keep you away from her bitter disguise

saw only your jacket and it made me feel like dying

i want to move on but its never the right timing

felt myself blush when you appeared in my dream

sometimes it makes me want to scream.

August 25th

The only date on my mind

Now we’re just hard to find

Your a tattoo carved in my subconscious

I can’t help that I still want us

You pull on my heartstrings like no one else can

Was this all part of your master plan

I guess this is my burden, my permanent curse

I wonder what would’ve happened if the roles were reversed

Would you tell me you wanted me

Or would you write poems like this about that day where everyone else just melted away

August 25th

My day forever a bittersweet memory

The way you say my name still killing me

Everyone saying that y’all should break up

Just thinking about agreeing is making me tense up

It’s not like they’re wrong

It’s why i wrote that song

Walking around by myself on a budding trail

You probably think this is just a tall tail

But this almost love pains me every day

Thinking about the words, I didn’t say

When I think of August 25th

Your face comes to mind like an augmented bliss

I guess you were the one that got away

I wonder if I could’ve ever made you stay

Did you choose her over me or was I even an option?

I guess teenage feelings are filled with caution

Thinking about the nights I spent making playlists

All about the song I wrote, and how I almost played it

Would you have noticed who it was about?

For second, would you even doubt?

August 25th

Was it all one-sided

You looked like a person I could confide in

My sister knows the face I made when you actually answered

Maybe that’s just your normal standard

You took me down roads I don’t know how to get to

These days, you’re the only thing I pursue

Writing this poem, knowing you’ll never read it

Does that make me a little conceited?

The southern in your voice makes me feel like I’m on fire

But god knows I’m never quitting choir.

[crimeronan]

oh. i've been thinking about your oc quartet recently. mainly. devin. tells us about devin.

:D :D :D!!!!

god i'm trying to think of things about devin that i haven't already said. she's an exhausted chronically ill mess who's filled with undying rage, she's a predestined martyr who keeps delaying sainthood by Stubbornly Staying Alive, she's a snarly cunt and somehow also much kinder than anyone expects her to be....

rafi spent a good chunk of time earlier today laying in bed with me and doing analysis of the quartet, which is Amazing. everyone get yourself a rafi who will analyze a story you haven't even written yet with you. we talked a Lot about devin's relationships to the other three quartet members, so that's what's on the brain right now.

bc like. devin's relationship with nova is godawful, obviously. fated soulmates, arranged marriage, forced family siblings, whatever you want to call it, they are Not Good For Each Other. devin is so fucking angry at nova for everything that's happened between them, nova is so fucking desperate to make devin be Good, and the two of them are the only ones who can understand their own specific illnesses, so they remain codependently tangled up in each other.... it would be a lot easier if their relationship was an uncomplicated, loveless political marriage. that they both have complex feelings for each other is what's killing them.

devin's relationship with sol is a lot less complicated on the surface, but not exactly healthy, either. the two of them have suffered similar trauma at the hands of similar (sometimes the exact same) people, they both have an undying rage toward The System (TM), they both like killing people and having weird sex about it, etc. sol is out here like "i'm evilly manipulating you" and devin is like "it's not evilly manipulating me if i fully want to do this and know you're trying to manipulate me" while sol is like "Let Me Have This,"

but devin and RUBY.

rafi and i talked So Much about devin and ruby.

bc on the surface, sol is everything that nova isn't. ie: she's a mean bitch with no friends, who sucks. and ruby, on the other hand, is Nice. and patient. and sweet.

and devin finds that..... Fucking Terrifying.

bc they recognize that demeanor from nova. and nova is only nice and patient and sweet in service of an agenda. and ruby doesn't seem to have an agenda.

so what...... what Does she want.

there are Several Key Events that influence how devin's perception of ruby changes, i won't get deep into them here because i should save at least Some scenes for the actual book. but there's something about like... devin's inability to believe that ruby genuinely respects people's autonomy, because of their relationship with nova. and how ruby's overtures of friendship make devin want to climb out of his skin.

and there's also something to ruby being a mixed Black woman with a noticeable 'foreign' accent, and devin being a dark-skinned transfem person who doesn't know her birth parents & was raised in nova's Deeply Colonialist culture. the two of them sharing experiences with regards to gender and sexuality and race and ethnicity that nova and sol don't.

sol is from the same country as ruby and shares her native language -- but she has also done So Much to assimilate and get rid of her accent and culture and even parts of her name. ruby and devin have similar experiences with being visibly part of a diaspora, feeling out-of-place, navigating where they stand in tachni and in the broader world. devin and ruby also share a desire to protect and help people that sol and nova typically do not.... what with nova desperately wanting to preserve the status quo, and sol wanting to burn everything down without caring what the consequences are.

there's A Lot happening with them. their relationship probably has the most potential to be Functional, but that doesn't mean it's boring or conflict-free. devin and ruby have so much conflict it is Fucking Unbelievable. but they both genuinely want what's best for the other, which is.... something that neither of them are used to having in a partner.

[joonslfttiddie]

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Chapter 36: Illegal...

💜Fic Pairing: OT7 x OFC

💜AU/Genre: Reverse Harem/Polyfidelity/Ghosts/AMBW

💜Warnings: Adult content/Adult language

💜Rating: R

💜Word Count: 3732

"You know we missed you," Tia answers Taehyung, then kisses his lips before doing the same to Jimin. "How was work?"

"It was fine. Got a lot done, but it was hard to focus. You were heavy on my mind which is why I'm back a little earlier than expected."

"Damn... same here. I couldn't stop thinking about you. I lowkey felt like something was wrong," Jimin adds.

"That's exactly it. Like she was in danger?"

Jimin confirms Taehyung's assumptions with a nod.

"This is wild, but I felt the same way. The feeling was so strong, it woke me from my sleep. I damn near killed myself rushing down the stairs when they rang the doorbell," Jungkook admits to the others.

"They?" Taehyung is obviously confused.

"Oh, my bad. So, there was an accident..."

"ACCIDENT?!" Taehyung and Jimin speak together, interrupting Jungkook.

"Stop, I'm okay, I promise," Tia reassures with guilt written all over her face. "I feel so bad to have worried you all, but I'm fine. Namjoon took great care of me."

With perfect timing, Namjoon emerges from the living room to join everyone in the foyer. He looks a little nervous but smiles as he waves.

"Hi, guys."

Jungkook places his hand on Namjoon's back and flashes a wink when he looks at him. Taehyung and Jimin, still clearly befuddled, come to extend warm greetings. They look at Jungkook who just simply smiles and nods his head. When they look at Tia, she is transfixed on Namjoon, and he is on her.

"What's wrong?" Namjoon is asking Tia, wiping at his face, thinking there must be something on him.

"You," she says, her tone enticing. "You and those dimples...that smile should be illegal. Jungkook, arrest this man for burglary," Tia commands and pauses, leaving everyone on edge and perplexed, "he has stolen my heart," she says, covering her face, embarrassed at her own corniness.

Tia's POV

Thankfully, I was able to get a same-day appointment with my therapist, Monique. I've been seeing her for years, as the saying is true, that every therapist needs a therapist. It's bittersweet that the session is virtual. I know I'm safe at home, but I do prefer to see her in person.

"Tia! It's been, what, two months? How are you?"

Laughing lightly, I reply, "Well, that's a loaded question. Where do I start?"

"Wherever you would like to start."

There is a comfortable pause while she patiently waits for me to get my thoughts together.

"Well, let's start with some good news, I guess."

"Okay, tell me. What makes you happy these days? Let's hunt all of the good."

I love the way that I can talk to her, like we've been friends for years, yet she's still able to keep an unbiased opinion and help me see things from different perspectives. She will also call me out on my shit if necessary. I tell her all about the men in my life and how I met them all, and also about the potential with Namjoon. There is no judgment from her, as she asks questions and listens to me ramble. I tell her about the renovations to the house and that I am pretty happy considering the other things, which we end up discussing later in the session.

"Yes, I remember when we last spoke, you'd mentioned that you were in the process of purchasing your first home. I'm so proud of you, so glad that the process went smoothly, and that the renovations came out the way you envisioned them," Monique said. "And as far as the fellas go, it sounds like they all sincerely care about you. Your relationship is not conventional but it's healthy...that's all that matters."

"Yeah, thank you for saying that. I must admit, it's different, and sometimes I wonder what others will think."

"That's understandable, but what other people think is their business, not yours to worry about."

"Facts," I respond with a soft smile. "I did want to speak with you about something specific to our situation."

"Okay."

"Well, I've told you all the good things, but there have been a lot of difficulties this past month. I'll get into the details in a bit, but my loves, Grey and John, have been instrumental to my recovery."

"Uh-huh."

"I don't know if I'm overthinking things, as I tend to do," I pause, attempting to push back the tears trying to well in my eyes. "But I find myself wondering if I'm using the guys, using sex as a way to distract myself from everything that has been going on... from the trauma of it all. Also, am I using them as a security blanket? Thoughts like that seem to keep creeping into my mind."

"I see that these thoughts make you feel a bit emotional," she replies and I nod in agreement. "Exploring a polyamorous relationship does not guarantee safety. Things can still happen. When you are with them, are you thinking about how they can protect you? Do you initiate sex with a diversion from reality in mind?" She pauses briefly before asking one last question, "Are you only concerned with what they can provide for you or is the relationship reciprocal?"

"It's funny that you say that, seeing how I met Namjoon today. The accident that happened earlier was completely because of my decisions. I do think about how safe I feel when I'm with them, but not specifically that I require protection from them. I find myself relishing in the feeling of safety, love, and authenticity. This is something we're all experiencing for the first time, together, and I've not had this with any other man in my life... not even my own father, for that matter."

"Tia, your father died. I'm sure if he had a choice, he would have been here to care for you and provide all of those things."

"Yeah, I know."

"All of the characteristics you just mentioned, are they reciprocated?"

"Oh, absolutely. With whatever this is that we have going on, I hope that I'm enough for all of them."

"Well, from the sound of it, they support and encourage each other as well. Maybe it doesn't all fall on you, as long as your intentions are good."

"Yes, it may sound crazy, but I would do anything for them. And there is no favoritism...I care about them all equally yet differently."

"That is beautiful and I am so glad that you are happy. From what you've told me, it doesn't appear that your goal is to use them more so than it is an instinctual responsibility that they all feel to keep you safe. These are elements of a strong, healthy relationship. I would, however, like to recommend that you all have a sit-down and talk about what you all expect from each other, details regarding your sex life. For example, will there be relations between the guys or just with you, contraception, and any other concerns you all may have."

I feel so much better after speaking with Monique. She is always able to help me see things more clearly and get me out of my own head by validating my thoughts and reassuring my thoughts. I go on to tell her about the stalker, me being poisoned, the life-saving hospital visit, and the mental issues I was having as a result. She goes on to express how overjoyed she is that I am not allowing the hardships to take over my life, pointing out my strong will to leave the house today.

We come to the end of the session with her saying, "If you're having a feeling or something is telling you to move a certain way, maybe follow your intuition. And remember, it's okay to pause and just be every now and then. It's okay to take a break from being strong. It's okay to live a soft life, allowing others to love and care for you. It's okay to focus on the good things sometimes." I gasp then laugh at that, having just heard it from Taehyung earlier, causing her to ask, "What?"

"Oh, nothing. Tae, coincidentally, said the exact same thing to me today."

"Hmm... coincidence or confirmation?"

We log out of the session, and I take a moment to just think...to just be. I sit in the silence, trying to turn my brain off for a second. My eyes are closed, and I'm here...just existing, trying to silence my thoughts.

This must be what meditation is like. Damn, I'm still thinking, but I'm trying not to. Fuck, I suck at this. Suck...I wonder what my babes are doing. Oh wow, I'm such a freaky frog.

My mind races for a bit longer with me combating my internal dialogue, not entertaining it. I notice immediately when my mind goes quiet, but only for a minute.

"Can't hear with a chaotic mind. Calm down. Focus. Breathe."

Ok, I hear that! Typically, when I'm thinking, I hear my own voice within, but this... this is not me. I'm taken aback, wanting to open my eyes and stop whatever this is, but I decide to stay here. While this situation is strange and new, the voice is comforting, familiar, and warm. I'm noticing that it is coming through in short phrases, rather than eloquent sentences. I am also able to take comfort in knowing what this may be. My mother often spoke of being "led by the ancestors" and would often require silence so that she could "listen". I wonder if this is what I am experiencing. Just as quickly as I think that, it answers.

"Exactly. Gifts beginning. Flourish. Age irrelevant. Blessing not skipped. Very strong. Practice. Seven. You feel them. Love. Trust. Safe. Okay. Let go."

I can hear it, and I am able to understand!Tears are collecting behind my lids. A chill runs through my body; there's a feeling like someone has a grip on my heart, and I'm experiencing shortness of breath. It's not uncomfortable, but definitely noticeable. It is similar to the feelings I face when having an anxiety attack, but this is more of a suggestion instead of something that takes over my body. Taking in every detail and feeling, I place my hand over my heart and lean in completely.

Jimin's POV

"So, is this normal? Is this how all of this goes?" I have so many questions yet Jungkook and Taehyung are focused on the TV screen, seemingly chill, like they are used to this.

"Why? Are you jealous of Namjoon?" Taehyung asks, obviously trying to be a smartass, never averting his eyes from the video game Jungkook is playing.

"No, I'm not jealous at all. I'm asking if it's normal to have these feelings."

"What feelings, bro?" Jungkook's tone is less condescending as he continues to click the buttons on the controller.

"Like, the pull to Tia and knowing when she needs me. The pull to you both. And now, this feeling I have towards Namjoon. It's like being in a pitch black, dark ass room full of puzzle pieces but being able to pick the ones you need because they glow in the dark."

"Damn, man, that's deep...perfect analogy. There are thousands of people in this city, but I only feel connected to you two and Namjoon," Taehyung confesses. "I don't know if it's normal, but this is what we're experiencing together and with Tia."

We all just shrug, giving up the urge to understand, and look up when Tia emerges from the basement.

"Hey! How did it go?" Jungkook asks the question we are all thinking, placing the Playstation controller on the coffee table. I was so worried when Taehyung mentioned to us what she'd said earlier, about using us as a distraction. I wonder if she was able to speak with her therapist about that.

"It was really good! I feel so much better... so much lighter," she says, making her way over to join us in the media area off of the kitchen. "Where's Namjoon? Did y'all scare him off?"

"He had to leave to hand out the rest of his business cards. There's one for you on the island. He owns a landscaping business," Taehyung informs her.

She comes to stand behind the sofa that the others are sitting on and runs her fingers into Taehyung's hair, her nails audibly scratching along his scalp. The feeling is clearly intoxicating, as he melts into the couch, his eyes rolling backward, and his bottom lip tucked between his teeth. Laughing, she moves to give Jungkook some affection, only for Taehyung to reach over his head trying to grab at her wrists.

"Oh, Jagia, don't be like this. That wasn't nearly enough!"

"Hey, stop! It's my turn, right, Noona?" Jungkook talks to her with his head lifted and resting on the back of the couch.

Tia leans over his upside-down face and places a kiss on his lips, her hand resting on his throat. Taehyung and I just watch as their tongues dance, their lips moving in sync with each other like the most perfect tango. We are completely captivated by their exchange until she releases him with a 'muah' sound.

"Right."

"Fuck that, I want one of those," Taehyung protests. We all get a good laugh before Tia moves back over to him to give him the same treatment as Jungkook. I watch how gentle her fingers move over the skin of his throat, her thumb brushing over the stubble on his jaw and chin. She's not even touching me, but I'm growing, beginning to push against my zipper. When she's finished, she lets him go and stands, looking down at him. He sits up, flashing a smirk while blushing, again eliciting laughs from us all.

When Tia looks over to me, my eyes go wide, not because I don't know I'm next, but because of the way she slowly approaches me, like a lioness stalking down her prey. Her hips sway effortlessly, her thighs jiggle slightly with each step. The way her shorts stretch across her pelvis and thighs is a clear indicator of how phat her ass is...I can damn near see it from the front. Jesus, I've never wanted anyone so badly in my entire life. I gulp down the lump in my throat, happily yet nervously awaiting what is to come next.

When she reaches the chair I'm occupying, I offer her a smile and reach out for her, holding her hips for support as she climbs onto my lap. With her hands playing at my neck, she peers into my eyes, like she knows it's one of my biggest turn-ons. Eye contact and hearing 'yes sir' turns me to putty every time.

"Hey," she whispers.

"Hey," I retort, moving my hips slightly in an attempt to adjust my now, very prominent erection.

Fuck, I hope she doesn't feel that.

She nods, as if reading my mind, and grinds down on me. My mouth falls open, the feeling is amazing and what I didn't know I needed. At the same time, my eyes drop closed due to the shock accompanied by pleasure, and she takes the opportunity to tilt her head, leaning in to take my lips against hers. Kissing her feels oddly familiar, like I've kissed her everyday for an eternity but this is our first REAL kiss. Her movements are slow and intentional, savoring every second as her warm tongue grazes my bottom lip before sucking it into her mouth. I move my hands from her hips, sliding over her plump ass, up her back, and letting one continue to her nape to pull her in, deepening the kiss. Holding her like this has me feeling like a virgin, overly excited from their first kiss. When she moans into my mouth, I have to pull back, unable to compose myself.

"Feels like your first time, doesn't it? Don't feel bad...she had the same effect on us, too."

Taehyung doesn't speak but nods his head, agreeing with Jungkook. Tia simply wipes any remaining lip gloss she was wearing from my lips before adjusting herself to sit facing the other men, her cheek resting on my chest with her legs draped across the arm of the chair.

"Cut it out, guys...you're making me sound like some kind of temptress."

The two men make eye contact with each other before bursting out in laughter. What the fuck have I gotten myself into? Is this woman after my soul? If so, I think I may just hand it over willingly if it would make her happy. She shakes her head, not entertaining their behavior before changing the subject.

"So, the thought crossed my mind before, but my therapist just confirmed it. Since we're all here, I think we should talk about this...about us," Tia announces, but there is a sense of uncertainty in her voice.

"It doesn't feel right, does it?"

She looks up at me and answers in the smallest voice, "No." She looks down to fiddle with the gold rings on her fingers.

"We aren't all here, are we? Did you feel it, too? With Namjoon, I mean," Taehyung asks the question to no one in particular, but we all know what he's speaking about... the instant connection and desire for Namjoon is evident.

"Yeah, it was like a long-lost relative had found his way home. I honestly didn't want him to leave, but I knew he had to. Should we call him?"

Tia sits straight up, the obvious excitement in her eyes when she responds to Jungkook, "Do you think we should?"

"Shit, why not? I'd bet money that he's probably waiting for you to call, hoping it's not regarding your lawn."

Jungkook's POV

It's so cute how excited she is, with a pale shade of nervousness just below the surface. We all go to sit at the island, Tia practically skipping across the room. When I slide the card across the marble in her direction, her eyes grow wide in surprise.

"Nuh uh, Koo, you call him."

"Why do I have to call him?" I'm obviously teasing her...it's cute the way she's acting, as if she's anxious to talk to her high school crush. I, of course, pull my phone from the pocket of my hoodie, and lean over the counter to get the card back. I start to dial the number when Tia stops me.

"NO! Wait... oh my God. Why am I so nervous?"

"He IS fine as fuck...maybe that has something to do with it?"

"Maybe so," Taehyung agrees with Jimin.

"T, cut it out. You know you're a baddie. What's the worst he can say?" I try to encourage her, continuing to dial the number.

"So cute," Taehyung says, pulling her into his arms. Jimin moves to grab a wine glass from the cabinet before rushing to the fridge to pour Tia a glass. I don't think he realizes what he's doing, not knowing all of the details behind why she was sick when he first met her. I'm a little on edge awaiting her response, having not pressed the button to begin the call. I don't know if this will trigger her since that's how that fucker decided to poison her, by spiking her wine. Taehyung doesn't seem to notice, too preoccupied with loving on Tia. I'm on the fence, unsure if I should interject or allow this to play out. I hope this will not hinder her recovery, but I choose to fall back, making room for her to handle it herself.

"Here you are, beautiful, maybe this will help take the edge off." Jimin sits the glass in front of her.

Please, don't be afraid, Noona...please.

She looks down to see the red wine sitting in front of her and is, thankfully, unbothered. She does ask if he brought this bottle himself or if he found it here.

"Ummm... I brought this from home. It's one of my favorites, so I wanted you to try some. I'm sorry, did I do something wrong?"

Jimin seems to be examining her expression, anticipating her answer.

"It's a long story...I'll tell you all about it later. But no, Jimini, you've done nothing wrong. Thank you."

We all watch in amazement when she lifts the glass to her lips, sipping the crimson libation into her mouth. It is astounding how brave this woman is, yet she's acting so skittish over a phone call. I'm assuming the others feel the same way, watching her in awe as Taehyung kisses her temple, arm dangling over her shoulders, and Jimin leans across the island, beaming at her, his crescent eyes on display. She licks her tongue out to collect the small drop of wine left on her plump lip which causes me to mimic her, licking my own. She is so enchanting; I am completely and willingly entangled in her spell.

I'm touched by the amount of trust she has in Jimin after only meeting him days prior. There is something magical happening here, within us. Our love, our bond, is obvious and deeper than the ocean is. I know it's not the liquid courage as the alcohol hasn't even had time to make it into her system, but she leans over the island to take the card from my hand. It is amazing how the smallest move that she makes turns me on in such a major way. The heaviness of her breasts causes them to bounce when she's sat back on her stool. My eyes wander to admire their fullness, up to the dip of her collar bone. Shit, even the way her bra straps are pushing into her soft skin has my dick jumping.

She finally makes the call and puts it on speaker, holding it casually to her lips. When her eyes dart up to look into mine, my heart skips a beat. What's wild is, I bet she isn't even aware of the effect she has on us. I'm assuming he's answered when the corner of her mouth tugs up into a smirk and though it's quick, I catch the way her tongue traces the edges of her teeth. Fuck, this girl can have anything she wants from me.

[just-walk-around]

I don't read or watch the twilight saga, I only have seen some parts. But I love fanfics, I twilight fanfics are part of all the group of shows that I like. But my queer ass prefer a platonic relationship than romantic between Bella and Edward. WLW and MLM is the best friendship ever.

Edward (sad, dramatic, repressed hundred years old but still mentally teenager gay): I'M A MONSTER, AN ABOMINATION THE WORST, GOD WILL NEVER OPEN THE DOORS TO HEAVEN FOR ME.

Bella (kinda depressed, sarcastic, weird, grow up to fast, absolute disaster lesbian): DUDE, IS JUST A FUCKING SPIDER!

Bella x all female vampire (except esme that woman is her mother figure you can't change my mind) is delicious.

Alice? Friends to lovers, calm gf and too much energy gf, "sweast and t shirt is enough" "as your future wife I have full right to change your clothes" "my Future Fucking what?!" "opps spoilers" , oh you are weird I weird too! Besties!

Rosalie? Rival to lovers, tsundere gf and oblivious gf, "I fucking hate you" "oh, then what you buy me a new car?" "BECAUSE THAT SHITTY TRUCK HURT MY EYES", family intervention because they Will never get together otherwise "I'm not jealous!"You just make a boy cry because he told her how nice her hair looked!" "wow your sister is beautiful but she is a bitch, just because she is hot and smart and have a pretty smile and..." "Bells just ask her out this is painful to watch" "I don't love her!" "Bella take a moment to think about everything that happened between you two, EVERYTHING and tell me again that you don't love her" "I.. *processing information" "HOLY FUCK I'M IN LOVE WITH YOUR SISTER""Congratulations you are THE LAST TO KNOW IT! "

Any of the Denali trio ? Teacher x student, "I have met this human for one second now I love her I will provide everything for her I will make her happy Fucked up!Edward stay away", patient gf with hurt gf.

Victoria or any volturi girl? Enemy to friends to lovers, reluctant gf and resigned gf, denial, denial and more denial, the bad guys are actually doing good things, "I will never fall in love with you" "I have all the time of the world darling". Unhealthy relationship going to healthy relationship.

The other vampire clans? The possibilities are endless!.

PLUS PAPA BEAR CHARLIE JUS GOING FULL SUPPORTIVE,HE COULD EITHER BE PUTTING RAINBOWS STICKERS IN HIS CLOTHES, "YES SIR I LOVE NY GAY DAUGHTER DO YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH IT" OR HAVING NO IDEA HOW TO GO ABOUT IT, "So you like tits? I like tits too! I mean, uh" "did you need um you know advice? About you know?" "dad please you are killing me" the best Is that he wouldn't care if his daughter is dating a vampire BUT THEY ARE SO OLD, HE WOULD BE LOOKING THINKING IS THIS PREDATORY BEHAVIOR? AND BELLA BEING LIKE DAD WE JUST ARE HOLDING HANDS There will not be a shotgun he will buy a freaking flamethrower he will spend all his money for a fishing boat to buy it. Because God dammit he is a dad trying his best!.

Edward x Jacob? Enemy to friends to lovers, cross lovers, cat bf x dog bf, homophobic Edward, denial denial and more denial, supportive cullens or slightly homophobic because of their differents ages trying their best to overcome their views for their son/brother, VS the pack "my imprint is a boy" "That's okay we love you and support you anyway"" he is a vampire""WHAT THE FUCK YOU SAY?! EXILE FOR JACOB, EXILED FOR HUNDRED OF YEARS"

Edward x Emmett? I get us in trouble bf and I get us out of trouble bf, calm bf and too much energy bf, grumpy cat bf and dumb bear bf, "babe what animal is the pink panther?" "dear, is in the name" "I think is a lion" "love of my life is a panther" "I Google it panther aren't pink" "AND FUCKING LIONS ARE?" "You do something stupid again don't you" "no, I just think he will like some roses for his room and a new piano" "sure"

Edward x jasper? Learning together to live with overwhelming powers and the guilt of our decisions and mistakes.

And just for the shit of it, Edward x Aro, Carlisle going FULL PAPA BEAR ON IT.

Like it could go the hurt/comfort route or the comedic route and it will be amazing.

[devil-doll13]

Abigail Williams SFW Alphabet 🖤

Tw: Angst, Unhealthy relationship dynamics, mention of Abby killing people because of course.

Note: I’ve done Max’s and Zach’s so now onto Abigail’s. A chunk of this has been sitting in my drafts for a while so some of it is kind of outdated probably, just be aware lol.

This can be read platonically or romantically in most cases

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

At first, not at all. Abigail’s a bit shy and even cold if she doesn’t know you well. Once you get past that initial stage though, she actually really loves affection! She is actually incredibly touch-starved but she herself doesn’t know it. Abby barely knows what an actual loving touch feels like to be honest, it’s both frightening and heartwarming all at once.

Doesn’t vibe with too much pda though. She gets too flustered tbh.

B = Best Friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

Any friendship with Abigail starts off slow. She’s even more wary of strangers now than she was in her youth. One thing that’ll help is if you both show vulnerability in some way, it helps her to connect with you and see you as a trustworthy person. Once that’s established it’ll happen naturally. Doesn’t really have any other (living) friends so you’ll become her bestie by default.

To be honest though it’s a little dangerous to be her friend, as while it’s unlikely she’d ever hurt you intentionally… Black magic is black magic, and since she doesn’t really know what a healthy relationship looks like and is known for various degrees of jealousy and a violent/cruel streak, it could become toxic despite her trying to be harmless for you.

But she’s a ride or die friend. Seriously, trust her to bury the body if you kill someone then take you out for icecream later. Only thing is you need to have that same attitude towards her or she might feel betrayed or something. (You might already have some dubious morals if you’re her friend anyway.)

Of course, by far the most interesting side to being close to her is the possibility that she would take you under her wing as a student. Deep down there is a wish to know someone as knowledgeable in mysticism as she is, but for lack of that person she feels some draw towards teaching it, creating her own little protégé. This is also very practical for her; she may even end up living in your house and turning it into a place for rituals and potion-brewing so be careful lol. It might be for the better if this doesn’t happen tbh, because then she might reach further and develop a whole coven, (teaching is pretty addictive for her, and so is growing in power) just as The Organisation feared she would. Maybe then she’d have a chance of surpassing even Lucy, her infamous witch mother.

C = Cuddle (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

Abigail loves loves loves to cuddle! She craves being close and feeling your warmth. It’ll take a while though, so you need to be a little patient here honestly. If you try and get too close too fast she’ll flinch and recoil away instinctively. You both need to go slow at first, and be gentle. If you’re the same way it actually helps oddly enough, because Abby understands and feels less afraid that you’ll mean her harm. Because she’s so angular she isn’t the most comfortable, but she tries.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

Abigail honestly loves the idea of domesticity, but she only keeps it as a distant fantasy in her head. She never knew what it really felt like to have a family that actually loved her so she sometimes thinks about that now and again. It feels like a distant dream for Abby though, so she fools herself into believing she’s happier alone so she can focus on her occult studies. It’s something that’s slowly eroding away the little semblance of humanity she still has left.

She’s a pretty good cook and baker! Her signature is definitely pie. Especially apple pie. It’s kind of relaxing for her since it’s such a mundane task. Don’t be afraid, It tastes and smells nice, if only she had someone to share it with yeah?

Abigail also likes to keep things relatively clean, but it does sometimes get a bit cluttered… She’ll organise everything now and again to make sure it doesn’t get too out of control. Sometimes she does lose things, partially because she doesn’t have a stable home.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

Abigail goes hard for the commitment so it takes a lot for her to think about ending things unless you do something really drastic yourself. Honestly I could see her as putting up with toxic behaviour in exchange for ‘love,’ just because she needs it that badly, and getting into an extremely dysfunctional dynamic because you’re both terrible for each other. Not that that would end well for anyone involved, of course.

… But if it’s some kind of cheating or betrayal (especially if you help the witch hunters on her tail…), she’ll really have nothing else to say to you. That’s really her limit and breaking point. She won’t hurt you back because there’s a part of her that still loves you, but anything you had is gone now. She’ll leave in the dead of night without a trace. As if she never existed in your life at all. Don’t ever try to go looking for her, it won’t end well.

F = Fiancé(e) (how do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

Abigail really needs commitment in a relationship honestly. She can’t do casual stuff, she could never be vulnerable with someone she doesn’t trust completely.

Abby doesn’t care for a big wedding or anything, she’d rather just elope with you and marry informally, preferably far away from a church. She loves the idea of exchanging rings as a symbol of devotion to eachother, though. She’ll never take hers off. It makes her heart feel strangely warm when she looks at it.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

Abby’s typically very gentle. Soft soft touches like you’re made of porcelain, it literally doesn’t matter how strong/tough you are, if she’s your friend she’ll always try to be cautious with you. It might seem surprising if you’ve ever seen her with… A victim before, since that’s when she’s at her most brutal, physically. She can switch it up in a heartbeat for you, but don’t forget there’s still that vindictive side to her.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Once again… Making herself physically vulnerable to someone will take time and trust. Especially getting that close. (She remembers the last time she let someone hug her… It didn’t turn out well)

Her hugs are gentle, she seems to be a bit delicate in the way she wraps her arms around you and squeezes just ever so slightly. She’s not always the best at comforting others but she tries. Abby feels a bit bony though so careful of her sharp little elbows.

I = I Love You (How fast do they say the L-Word?)

Abigail loves you before she can even stop herself. Honestly, it’s a 50/50 whether she’s fast or slow to say it. She thinks it over in her head before she says it, like with most things. But those words feel foreign to her; she honestly doesn’t remember if anyone ever told her they loved her. If you say it first, she’ll probably get emotional and say it back immediately. She enjoys saying it to you and hearing it back. It’s a verbal confirmation to her.

Just know you aren’t going back from this if she can help it…

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous)

… Abigail has a jealousy problem, honestly. Borderline possessive, even. In her mind, if you’re in a committed relationship then you belong to her as much as she belongs to you. That might not be the healthiest, but it can be worked on over time. She can be like this with friends too, she has never really had a friend group so it’s hard for her to adjust to one. In the end, she’s just insecure and afraid you’ll leave her. It can be managed better with some time and communication.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Abigail kisses gentle and soft, whether as a platonic gesture on the head or a romantic one on the lips. She’s a little shy at first, so she visibly blushes afterward. She enjoys it though.

(She might end up leaving lipstick marks behind too… By accident or on purpose? Hmm…)

L = Little Ones (How are they around children)

Abigail’s alright with children as an adult actually. She tends to gravitate towards the quieter, more wallflower types like she was as a kid. She enjoys indulging their curiosity too.

As an aside, children tend to either love her or be afraid of her. Not that she tries to scare them at all, it’s just the way they react to her presence. Especially babies. Just like when she was a kid and she couldn’t hide her true nature as well. It’s a coin toss really.

M = Mornings (How are mornings spent with them?)

Abigail really has her own day and night cycle… But assuming she’s staying in one place with you closeby, she’ll probably adjust out of necessity.

She isn’t a morning person, I’ll tell you that much. Abby also has wicked bedhair, it’s quite comical. She’ll get up and get herself looking how she wants and probably do breakfast if she needs to. Her go-to is pancakes or cereal, but to be honest she’s been known to skip it.

Abigail really lives her whole life at night. At least it feels that way; the day is just time she spends waiting for the sun to go down. At least the natural lighting helps when it comes to art and studying, and the autumn leaves look nice in the light. That’s basically it though.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

I’ve talked before about her having fun in the graveyard, so I’ll talk about the other stuff.

Mostly, if Abigail is keeping to herself that means she’s doing magic, studying or up to something else you hope won’t backfire… There’s always so much to read and not enough time, so you might have to actually remind her to take a break before she misses both dinner and breakfast the next day.

Long drives at night where she’ll just sit in silence and listen to music. Sometimes she’ll turn off the car and just sit alone in the dark. She thinks a lot during those times. You might never know what about. Abby also likes going to places with music, assuming it’s the kind she likes. She’s pretty selective about it because crowds in any other environment are irritating to her, but basically if they’re playing Sisters of Mercy it’s fine. You’d be surprised by how much she loves dancing too, though you’ve never seen anyone quite move like she does; it’s a bit unnerving. Anyway dance with her, it’ll be fun!

There are times she’ll practically be nocturnal; awake at night and asleep during the day. If you ever wake up in bed and she’s not there, or she’s not in her own bed, it’s probably because she woke up from her dreams again. Late night talks and baking sessions can become a habit if you join her. You might even get a glimpse of what she dreams about.

O = Open (When do they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

Hoo boy… Yeah, this girl has some secrets. Vulnerability, in its truest form, is hard for Abigail. It takes a long time for her to really open up. It sometimes comes in short bursts, like she’ll just say something that might feel out of the blue, but really she’s testing the water to see how you’ll react. If you react in a way she deems good it will help a little, but it’s hard to know how you ‘should.’ Both overreactions and ‘underreactions’ are dangerous, she will clam up if she feels she revealed too much too fast.

Sometimes it’s for your sake as well, or at least she believes that. You might think you know her well, but will you ever know her truly? Perhaps not…

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Abigail is typically quite a patient and calm person, at least on the surface. She certainly has… A bit of emotional instability, which really shows in moments of distress, rage or when her ego is hurt. Or sometimes she’s just overwhelmed and stressed by something, which can make her frustrated. She’ll feel pretty bad if she snaps at you and you didn’t deserve it, though. Abby will definitely apologise later because she fears ruining your friendship, but that doesn’t mean she won’t do it again tbh.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

Abby prides herself on knowing you well. Like everything you tell her about yourself she carefully stores it away for safekeeping. She kind of studies you, like you’re one of her tomes full of esoteric knowledge or something. Also, if you ever tell her a secret or open up to her about something difficult… She never takes that for granted. She knows herself how hard it can be to make yourself vulnerable to others and trust them in that way, and she would never betray that trust you put in her. She’ll seriously take your secrets to the grave.

R = Remember (What is their favourite moment in their relationship?)

You were both driving around the pitch black, in the middle of winter when it was snowing heavily. Just listening to music in absolute silence. Just enjoying eachother’s company, admiring the scenery outside, all the ice and snow and the moonless night.

Something about that just struck her as special.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

Abigail may not have the physical capability to protect you or shield you from harm, but know that if you’re her friend, she definitely has the means to hurt and torment them. Seriously, you have this sorceress just waiting for someone to fuck up and warrant a punishment. They’ll probably end up dead if she’s pissed off enough… Hope you’re ok with that. You gotta remember she’s a witch after all, and by befriending her you’ve basically made a pact with someone like the devil. She can teach you, if you like.

She’s shocked if you try to do the same with her, but she definitely feels very touched by it. Suffice to say, Abigail has never really had someone try to protect her before. The fact that you think she’s even worth the effort really means a lot.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks)

Dates/outings with Abigail can really depend on how you both feel and what you want to do. It can be anything to a fancy dinner to just driving around aimlessly, she’ll enjoy both. Anniversaries don’t matter to her that much tbh, she appreciates your relationship (platonic or romantic) every day anyway.

Abby likes to help you with different things, especially with cooking because she knows she’s good at that. She kinda has the habit of going passively into orbit around you sometimes, just quietly enjoying your company. It can come off as a bit creepy the way she stares at times honestly… Like she’s tryna leech off your positive vibes

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

Um… Aside from the fact that she’s a murderer? And she’s definitely killed innocent people before?? And she’ll probably continue to do so???

A real relationship-killer can be her habit of being so closed off and hiding things. Seriously, it’s a really bad habit, she doesn’t even mean to do it half the time, it’s like she thinks you just don’t need to know, ever. Also some of her jealous and possessive behaviour, I could see that getting out of hand. It needs to be addressed and dealt with immediately while it’s small, or it could become something more insidious… Her idea of what constitutes loyalty is kind of concerning too, because she’d definitely try to get you to do a blood pact tbh. That gets even worse if she takes you on as a student of some kind, because now she needs to make sure you don’t leak her secrets or take advantage of the power she’s bestowed upon you; it’s natural for her to want the upper hand in everything, including your relationship.

Really, there are plenty of reasons why a relationship with Abigail isn’t advisable, too many to list here.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

A little vain, to be honest. Of course she is, she’s a sorceress! Always likes to have her hair in place and her makeup flawless. She feels a bit naked without it.

(Inside she is more insecure, more self-critical of the strange creature she sees when she looks in the mirror. Her lifeless complexion, all of her ugly scars and all the bones jutting out at odd angles. She hides behind her makeup and fancy clothes; it is a kind of spell she casts, an illusion. If she removes it, will you see the real her, the monster? The vile abomination, see the rot and maggots writhing underneath? Will you leave her, then?)

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Abigail doesn’t do casual relationships, platonic or romantic. But honestly, sometimes she gets overly attached way too fast, or even projects feelings that aren’t there. She’s the kind to believe in soulmates too. Once you’re in her heart for real, you’re in there forever, until either of you dies.

But this is Abigail we’re talking about here. Even death can’t keep you apart in the end…

X = Xtra: (A random headcanon for them)

Abigail’s attraction to poetry as an art form comes mainly from the fact that she felt like she couldn’t express her feelings to anyone when she was younger. It all comes out in that; a little stereotypical, maybe. She has an easier time writing stuff down instead of saying it sometimes.

If you become her friend/s/o I can see you becoming something of a muse, so expect gifts of artworks she feels are adequate enough. She doesn’t wanna come off as creepy or anything you see, it’s not like she uh watches you constantly or anything…

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

People not respecting her personal space/privacy, those who can’t keep secrets/are gossipy, pressure to open up before she’s ready, cheating, betrayal

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habit of theirs?)

Abigail sleeps like the dead. Once she’s out, she barely moves. She is cold, her heartbeat only faint. Even her breathing slows to an extreme degree. It’s actually slightly unnerving how lifeless she appears. It reminds you that she actually did die, once.

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[avamhollis]

walk (make me cry challenge)

[ walk ] matty helps ava walk by staying by their side and holding onto them

"I said I'm fine," she insists, trying not to wince each time her right foot touches the floor. They said doctors make the worst patients -- obviously those people have never met a hitman with a nursing degree.

She has been warned before: heels are not the appropriate shoes for a work night, and she's spent years proving her bosses and peers wrong by excelling with every hit and looking fine while doing it. But tonight, she was too quick to jump and land poorly on her ankle.

Most importantly, she let a target get away -- they did. Matty is by her side, which seems to happen more and more often lately. Best friends is what he claims and she pokes fun at him every single time, but it's hard to reject the premise when this is what they do for each other.

Years ago, she wouldn't have bat an eye before leaving a co-worker behind and getting a kill herself, but this has obviously evolved into something that goes beyond a professional relationship. "Doesn't even hurt, stop looking at me like that," she snaps, hopping forward on her one healthy foot, heel dangling from her free hand. "I shouldn't even be seen with you right now."

[handathepandaff]

I'd like to suggest Head Over Feet by Alanis Morrissette if it's not in the playlist and I'm going to go on a tangent about it because I've been thinking about it for a while now so I hope you don't mind because this is going to be long

The lyrics just remind me of things that have happened in BoL like

I had no choice but to hear you

You stated your case time and again

I thought about it

Meg and Evan were stuck together when they got out they were forced to listen to each other. Like actually listen and not just hear the words.

You treat me like I'm a princess

I'm not used to liking that

You ask how my day was

Obviously this is after they get over their differences and start growing closer. Evan treats her well. So well that even her friends take notice of how their interactions are different from theirs. Meanwhile Meg is/was used to being killed by Evan during the trials so her enjoying how he treats her is something she finds weird but not unwelcome.l, especially when he asks her how she is.

Your love is thick

And it swallowed me whole

You're so much braver

Than I gave you credit for

That's not lip service

They love each other so much that they basically feel it between them. Evan's love encompasses Meg like a blanket and she feels safe around him in a way that doesn't compare when she's with her friends. She also thinks he's braver than she realized, especially when he confronted Jeffrey at the barn to save her and when he went after her when she decided to follow Feng and got kidnapped. She even tells him outright that he's strong and it's genuine, not just to make him feel better.

You are the bearer

Of unconditional things

You held your breath

And the door for me

Thanks for your patience

Unconditional things isn't just referring to love. It refers to their friendship, trust, affection, etc. What Evan feels for her is lasting and makes such an impression that it's hard to not notice it.

He is also a gentleman and treats her like a man would a lady from his own time period. Evan is also patient with her, especially after the events with Jeffrey and Herman and the pain and torture she went through, allowing her to set the pace of things and not simply rush into it.

You're the best listener

That I've ever met

Again with listening. They communicate with each other. It's obviously not perfect but they still talk to each other. And not just about problems. Megmillan talks to each other about their pasts and their feelings and other conversations that people would deem irrelevant, like during their grocery shopping spree.

You're my best friend

Best friend with benefits

What took me so long?

Technically Nea takes the title of best friend, but Evan can be Meg's other best friend. And the benefits obviously aren't referring to sex yet but to the safety and care they give each other. Meg even realizes in the story how much she wants Evan. Not for anything materialistic he can give her, but everything about him.

I've never felt this healthy before

I've never wanted something rational

I am aware now

Even before their time in the Entity's realm Meg's life can't compare to how she lives now. Evan definitely lives better now, especially with Meg and her friends around.

In a way Meg loving Evan is "irrational" because of their past, but considering how complicated it is and the understanding they've come to, it's justified that they both want each other.

Now both of them are aware of what their relationship is and what they both want from each other and the bond they have.

All those verses and I still haven't talked about the chorus yet

You've already won me over

In spite of me

And don't be alarmed if I fall

Head over feet

And don't be surprised if I love you

For all that you are

I couldn't help it

It's all your fault

For us it was obvious when their friendship became something more because we started reading because it was tagged Megmillan but for Meg she never expected to fall in love with a killer.

The lyrics could also be her yelling Evan that he shouldn't be surprised or doubtful that she's fallen in love with him, because he's a better person and that's why she's drawn to him. Her falling in love with him is "his fault".

I actually have never heard this song until today and it BLEW ME AWAY and I added it to the playlist immediately!! I definitely didn't mind this at all, and actually I loved reading your interpretation of the lyrics and how it relates to our favs! I'll never be able to listen to this song without thinking about them now <3 thank you so so so so much for this!! <3

[yourtoradorasextendedwarranty]

Ok so for context. I don't know this guy. However, the clip came across my dash and I have a few things to say about what the lady here is saying. Things that bother me, and things that we should get out of the habit of teaching young girls. This is the clip: (Keep in mind my comments are fully about what the girl here is saying, not the guy. These are my own thoughts on this)

So I have SEVERAL thoughts about this. First is the consistent thing I've personally seen for a really long time and have not just experienced on my own but several of my friends have dealt with on all sides of this. TOO MANY WOMEN seem to want to date shitheads. That's not a joke, that's not a lie. That's not even an exaggeration. This is not one of those Incel, "OH well she only dates chads". No. This is a, women like men that abuse them, talk shit to them, mistreat them, and tear them down.

I have seen it for YEARS. My friends have seen it too. And you can go off and say, "Oh well it's because women want a confident man who can protect them." Have you ever heard the phrase, "The fury of a patient man", before? But the thing is it's not that. It's an attraction to violence and aggression. I have no friends personally who'd ever hit a woman, but some of my friends know guys like that. Hell, I KNOW guys like that. And if I ever caught them, I'd be in jail.

But this mentality is so broken. And it's not healthy. She strait up said, "I'm looking for Husband energy, and treating me properly and being kind isn't husband energy". So you want an abusive spouse then? But then she follows up with, "I can be manipulated".

So let me get this straight. (Preface, I'm not talking about ALL women here, just a large number of) A lot of women, want a kind man, who's also a bad boy, who's also always around, but who's never around, but who is away enough to make a lot of money, but will sacrifice his job for you, but if he does he's not a good provider. Is willing to give you the world, and WILL give you the world, but you don't actually want it and if he does provide you'll feel guilty about it, but also a man that shows his emotions, but also doesn't show his emotions. A man that will actually cry but when he does you view him as less of a man.

Frankly? Too many women have this mindset of consistent contradictions and because of it, men can't find meaningful relationships. And I'm not talking about the men that ONLY want to f*ck around. There are a lot of men out there who are looking for more than a hookup. And they've been looking for them for years. We are living in a pandemic of loneliness because dating has become a, "We are kinda just friends that f*ck sometimes but I don't want to get too attached" type of thing. Dating in your 20's should not feel like friends with benefits.

But more to the point with this lady in the video. WHY would you want to be manipulated? Because that's what you are alluding to. What's more, you are asking a guy you deemed nice, respectful, etc, and you want him to ignore your wishes that you worded out clearly? And YES I understand the whole, "Women like men that fight for them", mentality. The issue with that mentality is there is a subset of women that don't have a line in the sand. They will go out of their way to insult, offend, and sabotage their own relationships just to see how far their man is willing to go to fight for the relationship.

Frankly speaking? That's toxic as hell. For the past 15+ years we've told men, "When a woman says no, it means no and f*ck off". NOW you want them to both keep that message as a teaching, AND to also ignore it? Inconsistency like that is why men kill themselves at higher rates. It's a fight in which we literally can't win.

Again. This is NOT directed at all women. At all. I have mutuals, and people I follow that are happily taken and have been for a while. And I wish them all the best. But I can almost promise that none of them are like this woman. (I don't know all my follows a mutuals that well so a few might be like her. I don't really know). My point however stands. Please do not teach your daughters to be like this. And if you have friends that think like this. You need to tell them WHY it's a problem. Because they will be alone and unhappy. Or they will end up in an abusive relationship where they believe he's the only one that will ever love her, and "He doesn't really mean it, he's just correcting me".

Which sadly is something else I've had to grit and bare through. Because the conundrum is, "Call the cops, and the man potentially doesn't go to jail, and in the process I lose a friend and the ability to know that she's even still alive if the report get's tracked back to me, or let her go through what she is going through, knowing that it's wrong and that I could physically do something about it." Real life is shit sometimes in those situations. But that's more to my point. The way this girl is headed if she doesn't get some sense about her, is exactly into that kind of relationship.

[mestos]

CA headcanons that im too lazy to draw or have no idea how to write

Putting them together to keep my brainrot ongoing and ONE DAY draw them...

Shinichi/Conan:

- i am a firm believer in glasses shinichi. i know glasses for this character is stupid lore integral but i literally don't care. My basis is that repercussions of being shrunken takes form in the slightest ways, such as weaker immune system plus weaker vision. it was inevitable anyway as well, given his bad screen practices and genes. he wears circular glasses though as shinichi and only wears it at home, and vehemently refuses to be seen outdoors with glasses.

- that post that's like, "i love my men with blood on their hands and traumatized"? i love to hc b.o takedowns where he actually kills gin. shoots him. Fucking murders him and destroys his principles. i need him to actually face a stake in his life and be it this sort of loss??? so much room for growth.

- contrary to how hes portrayed, even if he praises holmes as his god, he genuinely does read other mystery novels. often seen with a pocket mystery novel

- tbh. i think of them as different people but not haibara/shiho as different people Hahahah!! I love the idea of growth in the form edogawa conan. I think in a no antidote route, conan is less serious, still snarky, but more willing to tease. exceptionally casual and confident, but humbled with scars. Understands his limits but also very sweet to his gf

- in a no antidote route, i also hc conan to be more explorative. my conan experiments everything with his two bros mitsuhiko and genta, praises them both, and actually wants to find a seperate hobby that makes him different from the shadow he once was

- in a no antidote route he also dyes his hair a lighter brown to be different

- hes closer to mitsuhiko! in fact he is so proud of mitsuhiko very often, and supports him where he can. they study together. he and genta are both in soccer teams, and they go to practice together and hang out with the team

- also i am in firm belief he can be a romantic if hes not thinking about it. but sometimes he does know what hes doing. and is pretty damn good at it.

- unsurprisingly easily jealous but isn't that petty about it

Shiho/Ai:

I have lesser HCs for haibara bc i actually am fine for the most part with the canon supplement material. i just feel bad for her lol i want to save her from the show's canon...but!

- her self destructive behaviour can sometimes cause a wedge between them. he is very patient with her all things regardless, but they have had a fight about it before—and she knows she needs to do better, in order for their relationship to work. He cant always be the only one apologizing

- despite being the one who seems unfallible she's just very good at hiding when she's embarrassed/affected by shin/con. he gets pretty good at figuring this out a few years into their r.s.

- (SA mention) i definitely think she has some kind of unprocessed SA trauma behind her, but contrary to what people may think, she isnt sex-repulsed or unwilling. they have healthy times for it and both of them explore things at their own pace together. she trusts her partner with herself and has found her own autonomy after everything

- i double as a seraran stan but i think she and ran would actually be good friends too!!!!!! even if she wouldn't be as close to her as shin would ever be, they have lunch together once a month as adults and often talk about their partner's tendency to get sucked into cases and their fangs...

- i strongly hc shiho as demisexual/demiromantic. even supposedly if in any canon of mine she doesn't get w shin (unlikely) she takes time to herself and live freely independently until she finds her own partner. i dont think its some cut off goal of hers to get one anyway, she feels loved as she is and is fine with that

- she has trouble voicing when she's touchstarved. he tends to notice, though, and acts quickly. she avoids the feeling vs him being needy about it

- in a no antidote route she experiments growing her hair out once. it felt foreign, and difficult to maintain her curls, so she cut it the next summer. shin liked it either way though

CoAi/ShinShi :

- ShinShi move in together at age 20-21. he proposes relatively early—only after 3 years of dating—but they dont get married until they are like 26. they just kept putting it off lmao

- penthouse apartment in the city. Its luxurious but shiho constantly jokes about the idea they get bombed. shinichi doesnt like it.

- Shin gets his license immediately after turning 20. Shiho tends to do most of the driving still, but they take turns during road trips with the kids

- If ShinShi revealed their identities to the kids (whether the kids figured them out on their own or not), shinichi puts on his conan glasses for them and shiho puts on a similar, adult sized sleeveless turtleneck whenever they're together. they assume the roles of Conan and Ai with them (even going as far as introducing themselves as such to other people with the kids). It gives them a state of normalcy even if they have a larger age gap, intergenerational friendship alongside some parenting.

- they do get two dogs. shiho allows him to name only one of the dogs and of all names he chooses its freaking watson. the other dog is named vivi. short for vivianite, a mineral that can form on decaying corpses. Watson is a german shepherd while vivi is a pomeranian husky mix

Will update if i ever think of more

[myths-tournaments]

Awful Characters Round 1 Part 1 (2/8)

Propaganda under the cut!

ASHFUR

I’m pretty sure Ashfur is the single most controversial character in the entire series (which is 100+ books long). He’s a very fun villain, but he is DEFINITELY a villain (a fact that was widely disputed when he was first established as a villain, circa 2009). Why the controversy? Well, because Ashfur attempted to murder his ex’s adult children so that said ex would “feel the same pain he felt” when she broke up with him. While Ashfur didn’t succeed in his murder attempt, he did manage to destroy his ex’s life (as well as her children’s). Soon after this, Ashfur was murdered by his ex’s daughter. HOWEVER, the ex’s son later spots Ashfur in cat heaven (long story) and demands to know why such a terrible cat was granted entry into heaven. And you know what the answer was? “He was a good cat who just loved too much.” That’s right! If you’re so down bad that you try to kill your ex’s kids, you’ll still go to heaven because you were acting out of “love”! Back when this book came out, the majority of the fans were young teenagers or tweens, and many fans took this excuse at face value. For YEARS (while the fans grew up), Ashfur’s status as a villain sparked vicious arguments. A decade later, Ashfur did make a return in the books, when his ghost possessed the body of his poor ex’s husband so that he could get closer to her, almost destroying the cats’ entire society in the process. By now, everyone has matured enough to recognize how terrible Ashfur is (thankfully), but you may still be called a terrible person for liking his character, because a good portion of the fandom is unable to separate liking a character and agreeing with his actions.

GREGORY HOUSE

He’s the medical malpractice doctor from the medical malpractice show. Man has never had a healthy relationship in his life and isn’t about to start now and by god he will break any law. Loyal but super weird about it, and makes everyone around him worse but also more interesting. He’s insufferable and I love him.

The show is regularly called the medical malpractice show. Everything he does is either questionable, illegal, dangerous, or all of the above. He’s said countless racist/sexist/homophobic things at any given opportunity, even to his friends. He has exactly one friend who is a thrice-divorced loser oncologist who only really stays with House because he's afraid of who would get hurt if he didn't. House will do anything to solve a puzzle or — God forbid — prove a point. He regularly puts people in danger to prove points of figure things out. His only morally redeeming quality is that he’s turned this obsession onto medical cases, and so usually the patients live. The show acknowledges multiple times that the only reason anyone tolerates his constant abuse is that he's a good doctor.