#no dean rambling this time

[hakusins]

hakudean mini event! first rq: cu alter by freak anon!

[saturnneedsspace]

*Cas anytime he remembers Dean exists*: :)

[raevenswritingdesk]

And wait what’s this hERE COMES JACKLES WITH A STEEL CHAIR

[welcometogrouchland]

my Stephanie Brown hot take is that she should get mad bitches now that she's single in comics. Yes yes shipping BUT the one time she had sex she was punished by the narrative via teen pregnancy. I think she should be allowed to have as much sex as she wants with zero consequences. Could be a lot of sex, could be a little. Point is she should get to do it without getting narratively baby trapped this time. she should get them pregnant, actually.

[overactiveprefrontalcortex]

whatever they were feeding him in s1, why tf did they stop

[coca-colas-truck-driver]

“oh, wow. she dumped you.” CUT! hey, jared, could you say it more sympathetic and less betrayed? no? okay, just- i guess thats fine?

but the “you loved her, and you dumped her” isnt posed as any kind of question, sam doesnt ask why, because he doesnt really care about the why, he just likes that dean had done it. then dean barely gives him a look and suddenly its “oh, wow-“ and the smile he just had is gone and sams looking like he just got told the trip to disney was cancelled over being told it was the other way around. this isnt sympathy its like jealousy mixed with curiosity idk

his tone just goes from teasing to bitter so fast, he doesnt follow dean into the car, and looks around for a second while he thinks about he feels about that. because dean has always been with women, and while it had made sam bitter ever since he was eleven and could place the feeling he got watching dean come back to the motel room covered in hickeys and scratch marks, he had gotten over it after stanford. he didnt have any right to feel that way, and realized how wrong it was he did when he was in a stable environment away from the other half of that co-dependent relationship.

now the feelings hed never addressed about dean fucking anything that is human and wears a skirt are back for the first time since he left for stanford, except this time its about a genuine romantic connection dean had. dean had loved cassie, and she left him, and he just told dean to go talk to her. had been making innuendos about them all day, even

[secondbeatsongs]

when you're into the Big Ship™ in a Big Fandom™, you have the luxury of having an OTP - a real One True Pairing, where you can read about just them for ages, and you will never run out of fics, and everything is perfect and beautiful and nothing hurts

but when you go to a smaller fandom, you'd better pray to whatever god you worship that someone else in this room ships the same thing that you do, and that if they do, they're writing more than late-night crackfic, because you're on thin fucking ice!

and how small is your small fandom? is it less than 100 fics? maybe even...less than 20 fics?

welp, then it's time to make peace with that god and either open up a text document or learn how to ship everything, because it's swim or drown babey! and your ship is sinking fast

anyway all of this is to say that after hanging out in small fandoms and shipping less-common pairings for a while, going back into a Big Huge Fandom™ is wild because suddenly it's like...wait, why didn't I ship these people again? I don't remember. why was I only sticking to one ship in this fandom?? boring of me, honestly. these guys should make out.

[entropyofnuance]

Also also also. Let’s talk about John Winchester. Let’s talk about the fact that your abuser can love you and you can love them back. And the way Dean feels his emotions so strongly which leads him to be so full of love and also so full of anger. He is a reflection of John Winchester in this way. Dean loves his father as his father loved him and they are both severely traumatized and they are both soldiers in a war they never asked to be in and have only been taught love and anger and responsibility and failure and fear. When anything threatens their loved ones, even if it’s another loved one, the threat must be taken out. This is absolute. It’s why John was so hard on Dean. It’s why Dean is so hard on Sam and on Cas and on Jack. It’s why they yell so loud and punch so hard and hug so tightly. They are desperate men. At their core they are scared by what they have had to become strong against and a man that has something to lose is a man who should be feared.

John Winchester loved his kids. He loved them enough to want them safe at any cost, even if it made him the villain in their story. Dean knows this kind of love. It’s the only love he’s ever had. He knows it like he knows the beat of his own heart, it’s his as much his as it is his father’s. Fits him like John’s old leather coat. Dean understands the loss his father has gone through. He understands what losing Mary meant. The burdens they carried were the same.

Sam has known a kinder love. The love of his brother. His brother who would keep him safe against any monster. A love that didn’t have the weight of responsibility, and so Sam never posed a threat to the safety of John’s loved ones. Sam understood love to be stolen Christmas presents and the last bowl of cereal and a ruffle of hair during class change. Because of Dean, Sam never understood John’s love, and so he focused on the abuse. He focused on the love he couldn’t find from his father. Oh man oh man oh man. I could write a thesis on them.

Oh god I’m going to keep going. John had to leave. He had to find what killed Mary. He had to leave Lawrence and go on the road and find Azazel. But he refused to leave his kids, the way his dad left him, because he loved them so much. And yes, he would leave to go on hunts, but he always came BACK. John had been hurt before and so he taught his kids how to defend themselves so they would never go through the pain he has felt. He taught them to never turn your back on your family. He taught them how to hunt the ghosts and demons that could take from you those you love most. He was obsessive and so deeply sad and Sam and Dean are cut from the same cloth.

“Everything you’ve done, you’ve done for love”

(I also just want to clarify: I am not condoning John’s behavior. He 100% abused his sons and that was not okay. I also recognize the differences between him and Dean and how important they are. However, I wanted to point out that the static “villain” title for John Winchester is doing a disservice to understanding the beauty and complexity of Sam and Dean both, and his love, however painful, is just as important to the plot as his hate is)

[acediscowlng]

i wanna see an spn and dbda crossover to happen partly because i wanna see edwin play trauma olympics with the winchesters and the look on sam and dean's faces when this prudish edwardian child inevitably and inexplicably wins

[hakusins]

you can't look me in the eye and tell me that seth didn't birth anubis himself like look at this???

[wanderingcas]

what if i abandon all my projects and write a character study of dean's heteronormative lifestyle being blown to pieces by certain circumstances leading to his and lisa's divorce and then having to face the most secret sides of himself that he's known for years but long repressed. what then.

[unforth]

Prefacing this TGCF post with: people can draw and write however they want forever and I support them and this is about my personal view of these characters.

Anyway.

I saw a post today that had Xie Lian singing "when will my life begin" from Tangled and it drove home what really bugs me about a lot of fan casts of Hualian onto popular media (see also my Howl's Moving Castle take). It's this idea that Xie Lian is, well, waiting for his life to begin, and Hua Cheng swoops in and makes it exciting, when this is imo so utterly antithetical, and in fact opposite, to canon.

Xie Lian has lived and lived and lived. He was a prince, he fought in wars, even during his 800 years fallen the whole book is an exercise in showing that he WASN'T just waiting around, he kept doing things the whole time - Fang Xin Guoshi and General Hua and and and. AND he also cultivated to the point of ascending again. Xie Lian is a fucking bad ass idealistic martyr who doesn't know when to quit and at least to me that's the whole point of his character and I love that about and for him so to see him inserted into existing franchise AUs as the wilting flower waiting for a moment to shine is utter character erasure and it makes me insane enough that I'm writing this post about it even though I think I shouldn't and even though I genuinely don't want to rain on anyone's fandom parade. But like. That's not him!

You know who it is?

It's Hua Cheng!

Hong Hong'er lives in Xianle, a kingdom where all this stuff is happening, and he just watches from the sidelines. He's an observer at the parade. He's just some kid. And then he falls (or jumps, or is pushed, you pick your interpretation) and he's caught by literally the coolest guy in the entire kingdom. He's the nobody who gets swept off his feet! And it changes his whole life! Like I think it wouldn't irk me so much to see Xie Lian get typecast that way if Hua Cheng wasn't right there literally living his "I met God and it changed my whole life for the better" fantasy. He seriously deserves to get recognized for this. I get that he's the loud flamboyant one so that makes it seem like he should get cast as a Howl or a Flynn or whoever, but like. He was waiting for his life to begin, and it does, when he meets Xie Lian.

And like. I get that these are kinda competing interpretations that depend on when you look at canon - I'm looking at the original 800 years ago events, others are looking at Hua Cheng coming in 800 years later - but still the "present" in TGCF isn't imo about Xie Lian having waited to be saved, he hasn't been in a hat shop for his whole life boredly making hats, he's never stopped moving and never stopped adventuring and never stopped striving to change the world. Hua Cheng is living out his "you saved me now I save you" fantasies but fundamentally they save each other over and over and over again and that's beautiful and I hate seeing it erased to make Xie Lian into the wilting flower. Like. The one who basically hasn't done anything that whole 800 years is ALSO Hua Cheng. We don't hear about him going off and having idealistic adventures. Everything we know of that he's done was directly related to Xie Lian (ie burning the temples). Other than that he seems to sit around in Ghost City chilling with his ghoulies. So again, finding Xie Lian is what pulls him out of his funk and prompts him to start acting for good, whereas Xie Lian has been acting for good the whole time.

Ugh. I should shut up now, just, I've been in this fandom for four years and this has become such a pet peeve of mine because it reflects such a huge disconnect between how I perceive these characters and how much of the rest of fandom does. And that frustrates me, cause I wish there was more content in line with my perception.

[morallygreyintrovert]

We talk a lot about Dean being touch starved but what about Cas????

He went millions of years never being touched except violently in heavenly battles. Then spends 10 years getting scraps of affection only in the form of a quick ‘welcome back’ hugs, the occasional pat on the back and accidental shoulders nudges.

Cas doesn’t know the loving touch of a parents hands combing through your hair when you’re poorly. He doesn’t know what it’s like to run into the excited arms of a friend because the weekend was too long a time to not see each other. He never got to experience awkward teenage first touches like a quick peck on the lips or holding hands because you can’t bear to to be apart. Or the caring gesture of another human being delicately massaging knots out of your back to ease your suffering. No one’s ever stroked his cheek affectionately or adoringly kissed him on the forehead just because. He’s never shared a shower with a lover and had his hair washed for him and got to feel how light you feel when you’re completely taken cared of.

He’s not touched starved because he’s never been touched. He has no idea what it feels like to be loved physically. He’s dying of starvation and he has no idea because he never realised it was an option for him to be fed.

[evie-doesnt-write]

It’s so funny to learn that other people also did not know Dean had a brother before watching Supernatural, I thought I was stupid

[amorcie]

This came to me in a vision.

Loosely based on this:

This comment is my favorite thing about this video because it captures perfectly how I feel towards *that* moment in the musical.

Remember kids! We live in a society!

[shallowseeker]

the common perception by the fandom is that castiel smells like electrical surges (i support this) but what if he also sounded like electrical appliances. dial up noises

Headcanon accepted. I think we should at the very least have gotten cuts to Cas where it's implied his brain is making these noises.

Or the psychics could hear it: "All I'm getting from you is colors... and I hear... dialup noises."