#nikolai you're so dumb and in love

[everythingroyalty]

Honesto y, count Nicolas is pretty darn good at this interviews thing. Good for him

Hearing him speak English is so 🫣

[osachiyo]

☆ I'd love me a man who.......who'd be fucking brutal in the sheets. Pinning you down by your wrists or shoving your face down and ass up, manhandling you into any position he desires to fuck you stupid on his length. He'd snarl at the way you struggle to keep up with him, calling you a dumb slut who's only good for taking his cock. The most embarrassing part is, he'd make you say it right back to him.

"Say what you are, little slut. Say the only thing you're good for is taking my cock in that cute cunt of yours, say it." He'd grin maniacally, laughing out loud when your eyes cross, not being able to focus on anything from the way his cock bullies into your gooey cunt, hitting your sweet spot with every thrust. He slapped your cheek with little force, growling at you to fucking focus. "I- please fuck! It's too much- I-I can't!" You'd sob, fat teardrops falling from your eyes, your mascara ruined and running down your cheeks as you struggle to form coherent sentences- or thoughts. A low rumble forms in his chest, his hand comes down harshly to your ass, still red from previous hits. You jolt up when his hand makes contact with your skin, pleas falling from your glossy lips as you beg him to take mercy. He'd only smirk at your begging, demanding you to repeat what he told you. Surely you could do such a simple task, right? Don't tell him that you're so fucking stupid for his cock that you can't even do such an easy request? God, he's so disappointed- "I-I'll say it- oh- 'm your little s-slut! The only good th-thing-" He tsks, pinching your hardened nipple between his thumb and index finger, making you jolt and sniffle. "Poor dumb little baby, can't even remember what I said? It's okay, I'll repeat it for you since I'm such a good person, yeah? Oh fuck yes, squeeze me like that- Okay, this is your last fucking chance so listen up, okay? Say the only thing you're good for is taking my cock in that cute cunt of yours." His hips slow down, making you whimper in protest but a piercing glare from him shuts you up. "C'mon baby, you can do it, can't you? Aren't you my big girl?" His hand reaches down to play with your clit, rubbing circles onto the small bud, while moans slip from your mouth. "I-I'm your little slut..mm.. the only thing I'm good for is-" your cheeks burn in embarrassment, your teary eyes meeting his own. You receive a pinch on your clit at your pause, making your legs shake. "The only thing I'm good for is taking your..cock in my...-" he scoffs, slapping your inner thigh as a warning. "Don't have all day, doll." You nod, "taking your cock in my cute cunt.." You look away in shame, your ears burning. He resumes his thrusts, grunting out a 'good fuckin' girl' while he rearranges your insides. ☆

NIKOLAI, chuuya, dazai, JOUNO, LUCIFER, solomon, SATAN, belphie when he's not being a lazy prick, AYATO, KAEYA, CHILDEEE, scaraboobs, ALHAITHAM, cyno, BLADIEEE, jing yuan on a bad day, ATSUMU, iwaizumi, kuroo idk I need to rewatch haikyuu, GOJOO, GETO, TOJIII, I don't know who else so any of your faves!

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[chiliyue-archived]

Addicted to...

Includes; Dazai, Chūya, Ranpo, Atsushi, Kunikida, Fyodor, Nikolai, Akutagawa, Tetchō, Jonō

Tags; SMUT/NSFW, fem!reader. Oral(recieving), biting, rough and soft sex

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Dazai is addicted to the sweet taste of your cunt. His teeth are sucking, biting hard at your bare core, a dozen cresent moons along your plush thighs as he pulls you closer. He just keeps pulling orgams after another, words dripping of faux promises of 'one more.' But he's too addicted to your taste; his tongue is already making teasing kitten licks before treating it as though it's his last meal.

Chūya is addicted to the way you shiver. His fingers are ghostly upon your skin, caged by those gloves of his. Each feathery touch envoke a gasp of surprise from your lips, body slightly trembling as he pinched and kneaded your flesh with care yet greedy intentions. He adores the way you're quivering, becoming increasingly aroused with just a couple touches to your clit, chest and bare skin- foreshadowing of what's to come.

Ranpo is addicted to your thighs, his hands greedy, resolved on kneading the skin and seeing small blooming petals in its trace. Your thighs straddle his lap so perfectly, caging him as he encourages you to bounce on his dick again and again. He can't help but pull on the flesh as you lose yourself to your high, the tips of his nails slightly clawing into the soft skin, all the while he bucks into you, sending a shock of pleasure down your shine.

Atsushi is addicted to the warmth of your walls. He can't express it, but he's so desperate to be inside you :( You clench around him so nicly, making him feel so so so good. He swears he's on cloud nine the moment he slips his cock in your gummy walls before rutting into you in a sloppy pace. You give off so much warmth, and he's groaning out with each thrust. He's so utterly in love with every little thing about you, including but limited to your cunt that sucks him right in with every thrust.

Kunikida is addicted to making you feel good. His chest is utterly filled with so much care and devotion to you. In the heat of the moment, all he can think about as pleasure rocks through his bones is your pleasure. He calls you his 'good girl' as you arch your back prettily for him, his hips still thrusting into you sensually. His voice is dripping with praise as he becomes undone within the comforts of your walls, his cum spilling into you as his lips brush against yours. So long as you feel good, then so does he.

Fyodor is addicted to making you dumb on his cock. If you aren't sobbing, mind too dazed and numb to recognize anything but the way the head of his dick brushed against your abused sweet spot, then he isn't satisfied. You're his beloved angel, but sometimes he wants to see you break. He doesn't mind keeping you in that spot, pulling orgasm after another, watching you flinch at his touch as he continues to overstimulate you. It might be quite cruel of him, but it's an intoxicating sight to behold.

Nikolai is addicted to seeing his cum ooze out of your hole. It was such a lewd sight, which all the more became an addicting scene that burned itself into his head. Both his and your juices were dripping down your thighs, staining the sheets underneath. His fingers danced teasingly against your folds before thrusting it back into you, coaxing a weak whimper from your exhausted form. He chuckles teasingly against your skin, but he doesn't mind using his tongue to clean up the mess, having you tremble for just a little bit more.

Akutagawa is addicted to the feeling you envoke in him. So strange, what this circling warm feeling in his chest...? Love. Gross. Do it again. Your sweet kisses leave him chasing for another one, finggers threading away at your clothing. Your walls hug him nicely, his tip grazing your overstimulated nerves with ease. He would have originally scoffed at being so soft, but this was an interesting change admittly. Akutagawa, who is known for being a ruthless monster in Yokohama, was now squeezing your hand as pleasure pulsed through his body.

Tetchō is addicted to holding your hand tenderly. His movements are so sensual, particularly aimed for your own pleasure rather than his own. His cock filled you up so good, kissing your cervix with each precise thrust. One hand circled around your clit whilst his free was interlaced with yours. His thumb rubbed over the knuckles in a comforting manner as you sputter and whine from his movements. And as he approaches closer to his orgasm, he can't help give your hand a little squeeze as you clench around him tightly.

Jonō is addicted to your reactions. Whether its your shaking body under his teasing fingertips or feathery lips, your thumping heartbeat as he easily slides into you with a single motion, or when you chant his name as you became overwhelmed with pleasure- Jonō doesn't miss a single one. He knows precisely what to do to coax those reactions from you, be it by his tongue or fingers. Amongst such moments he wishes he could see your fucked out expression as he spears you into two with his cock, your heart beat echoing in his ear as he makes you cum.

[mindmelter]

A Body Stealer Tale: Tourists

Nikolay was a muscular and tall man; he was doing his night jogging when he passed by a gay couple; they looked like tourists.

He noticed the two men ogling him, but he was used to guys ogling his muscles, so he didn't pay much attention and just continued jogging.

"Freeze." Nikolay heard one of the men say behind him. For some reason, he did, and for some weirder reason, his vision got blurred and his mind became foggy.

He felt like his brain was hit by a strong blow leaving him disoriented.

"I have to wear this hunk! Take a photo of us babe." Nikolay heard one of them say, he then saw the short, bald guy approach him and cup his sweaty biceps, "His arms are massive, babe. Flex for us, you dumb hunk." The guy ordered, and Nikolay did. While he stood there flexing, Nikolay couldn't form a single straight thought, but he still could feel something was wrong. He felt the bald man's hands grabbing his thick biceps while the other man was taking pictures of them.

"Done," The man with the camera said.

The bald man then turned to look at Nikolay and smirked at him, "You're so hot, thank you for building such a hot body," He said, putting a hand inside Nikolay's pants and cupping his cock and balls, "Soon everything will be mine, say it, you dumb hunk."

"Soon everything will be yours, I'm a dumb hunk." Nikolay said, his voice deep and robotic.

"Where are you going to put him babe? Do you want to bring him to our hotel?" The other man asked.

"No, I can't wait that much, I need to wear him right now."

"There's an alley right here, you could do it there. I will stay here watching the entrance."

"Thank you babe." The bald man then turned to Nikolay, who was still double flexing, motionless like a mannequin. "Follow me to the alley, these biceps are gonna be mine."

"Follow you to the alley... these biceps are gonna be yours," Nikolay repeated mindlessly, following the strange man to the dark alley.

Standing at the entrance of the alley, the man's boyfriend scrolled through the photos he'd just taken of his boyfriend with the muscular stranger. Two years had passed since they first found each other, and every moment had been an exploration, an adventure. This trip to Russia was no different—a celebration of their anniversary and their shared desire to wear men. His boyfriend had always been drawn to the rugged allure of Russian men, and tonight was the fulfillment of that long-held fantasy.

He was used to his boyfriend wanting to wear every hot man they came across, and he loved him for it. He could hear grunts and moans coming from the alley—the grunts belonging to the muscular man, and the moans to his boyfriend

He couldn't help but smile. This was their way to love each other; there was no other way for two body stealers to show love.

He smiled when he saw the hot hunk walk out of the alley with a sexy grin. "So? How do I look?" The man asked, giving him a double flex.

"You look fantastic, babe," He responded in awe; he stepped closer and gave him a passionate kiss. He pulled back and caressed his boyfriend's new face. "We should get back to our hotel, I can't wait to test out your new Russian body in bed."

[oikasugayama]

If your requests are still opennn—Perhaps an alignment chart or hcs of how easily jealous bsd men are. please if you want!

let's goooo! mildly NSFW, MDNI bc that's awkward for me as an adult

Mori is jealous and quiet. He'll be mostly tame, but if someone really upsets him and makes him jealous, he'll put a hit on them. He wont play around when he feels like someone is threatening his relationship.

Fyodor is very, very similar to Mori in this regard. He won't put up with someone threatening his relationship, but instead of putting a hit on them he'll slowly get more and more sadistic, mentioning personal details about this person and their loved ones and threatening them until they leave you alone and Fyodor is sure they'll never, ever come back into your life.

Akutagawa will seethe and will try to pull you away from whoever is making him jealous. He's so quiet and angry on a general basis that no one can tell he's jealous except for you. You know he is because he pulls you into a nearby lockable room and fucks you over the desk, muttering about how dare someone encroach on his property, and don't you dare ever leave him for some stupid idiot like that.

Chuuya will put up with someone making him jealous for a little while but if it goes on too long or if the person starts to act cocky, he gets pissed. He'll slowly start touching you more and trying to get you away from the person bugging him. Later that night he'll fuck you good and sweetly and reassure you how much he worships you and how no one will ever treat you as well as he does.

Dazai is expected to be loud and whiny and obvious when he's jealous, but he does that for show a lot. When he's really, truly, obviously jealous, he's silent. He's quiet and cold. He'll make snarky remarks and start belittling whoever is bothering him. He's cruel and vicious, like back in his Mafia days. To you he's smug and cool, using his low and level voice until you're squirming and afraid of what he's gonna do. (What he does is fuck you until you're dumb and drooling, too worn out to even speak)

Sigma, Junichiro, and Oda aren't jealous, and they're very chill. Sigma doesn't exactly know to be jealous--you're his and that's basically a contract between you, so he's not worried when someone else shows interest in you. You're lovely, why wouldn't someone else like you? Junichiro may get whiny if he thinks you're giving someone else too much attention, but he isn't jealous in the way that others are. He knows you're coming home to him. Oda thinks you're a free person and can do what you want. He's confident in your relationship. Not jealous.

Bram and Nikolai couldn't give any less of a shit about someone flirting with you. They'll both go sicko mode and kill a man in cold blood if he crosses a line, and they know that everyone knows they think that way, so they're not jealous at all because they're so damn vicious.

Fukuzawa isn't really jealous and he's very calm, but he does like to keep close to you if someone is getting too friendly.

Ranpo will straight up whine and tell someone to leave his partner alone and stop flirting with them. If they don't go away, he'll straight up tell you he's getting jealous and wants to leave.

Poe will write sad mopey poetry about being upset that someone wants you. He'll even get mopey and handsy right in front of them. He feels very insecure when someone flirts with you, so he absolutely is the jealous type and he makes it very obvious. You have to remind him a lot that you want him and no one else.

Ango and Kunikida are similar. No one expected them to be the jealous type, but they both waited for so long to be in a relationship. When they finally found the perfect person adn settled down, they vowed to protect you and that relationship. They get jealous when someone is overstepping, and they get cunty about it. Very passive aggressive, and not afraid to lie to make the person go away or to pull you away. I can see Kunikida early in the relationship being annoyed that you "let" someone make him jealous, but he'll cut that out when you tell him it isn't your damn fault.

Mushitaro is CUNTYYYYYY when he's jealous. He's like if Mori and Fyodor weren't passive aggressive. He'll straight up threaten to murder someone and remind them that his ability lets him commit the perfect crime. He'll insult people, belittle them, do anything to make them go away and then ignore you for a few hours becausea he's mad someone else wanted you.

Atsushi is like Poe in that he's insecure so he gets jealous sometimes in a sad way, but he also gets jealous in a possessive way when someone flirts with you. He's the type to give a devastating one liner ("wow it's so funny that you think you're handsome enough to flirt with my partner (: ") and then he'll take you home and fuck you whiny and needy.

Tachihara is similar to Mushitaro's snippy, rudeness, and he'll fuck the shit out of you in the bathroom so anyone who wanted to flirt with you hears it and knows to leave you alone.

[yurislotusgarden]

Wearing their Clothes, Part 2

ʚїɞ Separately! Fyodor Dostoevsky, Nikolai Gogol, Sigma x Reader

ʚїɞ Keep in mind English is not my first language, so you may find mistakes!

ʚїɞ Part 1 for those who want to read it <3

ʚїɞ word count: 1164 (Fyodor - 329, Nikolai - 368, Sigma - 461)

ʚїɞ Tw's: None! Just pure fluff, pet names used, reader's gender is not specified in any way, probably ooc but I live for soft characters

Fyodor Dostoevsky

No matter what, you getting his ushanka won't be an accident or a surprise for this Man. He probably knew for quite a long that you wanted to try it on.

Probably would make sure that you won't get it for Some time just to tease you and see your reactions to failing. 

Once he decided he had enough torturing teasing you, he would leave the ushanka on a chair or the bed, in a way that it looks like he for once, doesn't have it in the bathroom with him (Yes the rat showers even if forced) and just left it there. 

So, you obviously had to take your chance and try it on.

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"Myshka, what are you doing?"

He definitely came out faster than you anticipated. You spun around, looking like a deer caught in headlights. To say that you took off the ushanka at the speed of light would be an understatement. 

"Ehm... Nothing?" A raised eyebrow. 

"Nothing you say."

 "Yup! Absolutely nothing! Was just looking if my eyebrows are equal!" A dumb response? Very much. Did you care? Not in the slightest, not right now. 

"So my ushanka in your hand doesn't exist?" Fyodor started to walk up to you as he said that. 

You threw the ushanka onto the bed in a hurry. "I don't know what are you talking about Fedya" 

"Sure you don't" 

Fyodor picked up the ushanka from where it lies and put it gently onto your head, fixing the few strands of hair that fell on your face. Are you hallucinating or do you see a small smile on his face? 

"You look nice in it, Myshka" 

“Really?”

“Of course, I wouldn't lie to you after all.”

You looked better in the ushanka than the dark-haired Man first thought, to say the least. And if he told you that you can wear it whenever you want, then no one needs to know, yeah?

Nikolai Gogol 

The little shit /affectionate I swear 

He probably knows you wanna steal either his hat or his cape, but wouldn't give you an opportunity to steal it just to see your reactions. It's amusing and he wants to see your emotions what can I say? 

I feel like the first time wouldn't be an accident but planned by him. Casually kidnapping taking you out in winter or just a colder day without letting you get warm clothes first, resulting in shivering and being cold soon enough. 

"Cold?" Came with a teasing smile from the clown. He knew what he was doing and had the audacity to tease. You swear you will hit him with something once you're back home. 

"Shut up, Kolya. Why did you even bring me out here so suddenly?" Your confusion was as clear as a clean glass. 

"Why, to have Some fun! Time for a quiz, dove!" 

"Oh no" 

You swear Nikolai loves giving you quizzes that no one but the rat Fyodor could get or guess. You could bet with the dark-haired Man in question and win the bet.

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"And you lost once again!" 

"I did" You chuckled. As much as you lose, they certainly never feel like ones. "So what happens now that I lost?" A good question as every time you lose, Nikolai manages to make the 'punishment' -his Words not yours- a different one. 

"This!" 

And before you realized it, you felt something heavy on your shoulders, but it also was warm. Looking at yourself, you see that Nikolai put his cloak over you, and fucking hell if you could you would just curl up in a ball and sleep, or even hibernate in this shit. The material inside is softer and warmer than you thought, no wonder he doesn't get cold.

"Your cloak?" 

"Didn't you want to try it on, dove?" 

"Is that why you brought me out in this weather in my pajamas?" 

"Of course! How else could've I given you the honor of wearing my cloak?" 

"..."

"Dove?"

"...Listen here you little shit-"

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Next week he whined all around, whether at home or at work, all because of you not cooking his favorite cookies that you do every week.

Sigma

I had to think about what would you even steal from this Man but then I remembered this guy wears heels. 

You probably wouldn't need to think of it that much, it would probably be a random idea you got when noticing that he left them somewhere. I feel like he Has a big ass room in the Sky casino, an apartment more like, so getting the heels that would be left by the door wouldn't be hard at all.

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You have to say, that even tho the heels don't fit perfectly on your feet, you are absolutely slaying the look. 

"I have to steal them more often goddamn" You mutter to yourself, looking in the mirror.

You continued to walk around a little, just for fun, the heels were more comfortable than you thought, and now your confusion about how does Sigma wears these every day and doesn't complain about feet hurting has been cleared up. 

"Name? Have you seen my heels?" Fuck. 

"No? Why?" From what you know he doesn't wear them after 10 pm (22), since people tend to not come to his office much after if anyone even does, so why is he searching for them at 11:30 pm (23:30)? It's almost midnight for fucks sake. 

"They need me down in the Main room, but I can't find them." 

"Maybe you left them somewhere else and don't remember?" 

"Maybe"

You thought you were safe when you heard him walking away… until you heard him walking directly to the bedroom where you were a few minutes later. 

'Shit-' You thought as you realized that and took if the heels, lightly throwing them under the bed so it looks like they were left there after being taken off by Sigma and kicked under by accident. 

You went back to standing in front of the mirror just as the Man Opened the door. 

"You sure you didn't see them?" 

"Yeah. Why?" 

"The heels are under the bed" Came the soft reply from Sigma, together with a finger pointed at the pair of shoes. 

You leaned down, making it look like you didn't know. 

"Oh, sorry love" To your pleasure a barely noticeable blush appeared on his cheeks due to the pet name. 

"Don't worry about it" A quiet response this time. Sigma Walked over to get the heels before putting them on. 

He stopped at the door before he walked out of the room and turned back to you. "I know you tried them on [name], just so you know." And casually Walked out. 

You want to jump from the window. Fuck. 

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Sigma didn't mind, not at all. In fact, he bought you a matching pair of heels. It’s needless to say that this pair is one of your favorite shoes.

Notes, comments, reblogs and anything else is greatly appreciated <3

[theanimeoftheblackbunnymask]

What type of yandere do you think sigma and nikolai would be?

Sure!

Links: {Masterlist} {Jouno and Tecchou Yandere Idea}

Nikolai Gogol (Yandere Idea)

Nikolai is a lot to deal with, privacy is no longer a thing. Nikolai will never give you moment of peace. He's always talking to you, throwing random quizzes at you, using his ability to either see you, touch you or just mess with you.

But don't let this fool you, Nikolai is quite the manipulator. Nikolai tends to guilt trip you a lot, and likes to mock you and degrade you for his personal amusement while he hugs you.

A question you ask yourself a lot is if he actually loves you. It's not on a "He treats me like shit," kind of way, it'd more like, "He treats like I'm a pet/doll."

Nikolai often dresses you up in little outfits and has you help out with his tricks, even if they're super easy. Nikolai confuses you a lot. He claims that he hates human emotions and will kill you eventually, but his actions often contradict himself.

Also, out of all the yanderes, his punishments are the most cruel. His often energetic personality becomes a lot more sinister when he's upset. His smile wouldn't have any joy, it would sadistic and filled with anger, and the look in his eyes send a chill down your spine. When it comes to actual punishments, I can see Nikolai being on the more physical and emotional side of things. His punishments are often a mixture of emotional and physical pain. He'd always start his punishments off as a game, giving you two options on which game the two of you will be playing. This really fucks with your brain because he'll purposely make the game you choose harder and more painful. Games often very, but all of them end with you hiding in a dark corner, hugging your knees as you cry. Nikolai would only laugh at your expense and tell you that you're no fun. But keep in mind, his energy and joy during punishments is all an act, if you tic him off during these punishments, even a little bit, the facade will drop.

If it wasn't clear enough, Nikolai is definitely on the more playful and teasing side of things as a yandere, rarely taking things seriously and constantly being a pain in your side. It takes a lot to make him mad, he's attempting to lose all emotions afterall, but if you do, he just becomes a husk of a person, a truly terrifying sight.

King of stalking. He can literally disguise himself as anyone, and he uses this skill to his advantage. He often pretends to be the worker at places you often go to. That one Cafe across the street, oh yeah, he was hired there last week.

However, despite his strong desire to kill you, his biggest fear is losing you. You make him feel something, you make feel love, you make him weak. You keep him bound to the chains of emotions and make him never reach true freedom, so he wants to kill you, to be freed of you. But, the way you smile, the way you cry when he hurts you, the you walk, the way you yell at him when you grow sick of his mind games and quizzes, he grows more and more obsessed. He can't let you go. He just can't.

Fyodor influences his actions like crazy ngl. He loves talking about you, especially to Fyodor, and one day Fyodor told him that if he truly wanted you to love him, even if he does cruel things to you, he'd have to break you down into nothing, make you dependent on him for everything, and then build you back up in his image. However, Nikolai wants a doll that still has a lot of life in them, making you cry and scream would be much more enjoyable when it's sincere. But, a sweet, quiet, obedient doll, he wouldn't mind that either. With Nikolai, I feel like your actions will dictate how he'll want you.

Nikolai is very hard yandere to understand, and if his darling even wants to try and use Manipulation to get their way, you got another thing coming. Nikolai is far from dumb, and is also extremely aware, so sure, he'll play into the idea that you're gaining control over him day by day, but in reality, it's the other way around.

So in conclusion, Nikolai is definitely one of the more scary yanderes. He's extremely deceiving, but if I had to compare him to Fyodor, Dazai, or even worse, Jouno, than he's a fucking angel.

Sigma (Yandere Idea)

Sigma would be the sweetest fucking yandere, dear lord.

Sigma is probably the only yandere in BSD that wouldn't be abusive in nature. Maybe a little bit manipulative, but that's damn near about it.

I can see Sigma being a very protective darling, wanting to keep you away from any harm, emotional and physical.

He would do everything in his power to keep you a secret. He's already in a very dangerous position as a member of the DOA, but if Nikolai, or even worse Fyodor, finds out about your existence, he can't help but imagine what they'll do to you.

I'd say the relationship Sigma would have with his darling would be pretty normal for the most part. Whenever he comes home after a long day at the casino, he always makes sure to get you a gift, may it be flowers or a piece of jewelry.

Sigma would be very awkward with his love. He's barely lived life, let alone been in a relationship. The feelings he has for you are very foreign and often causes him stress, but whenever you do something romantic for him, he often goes blank.

Now, would Sigma kidnap you? Ehhhh, maybe, it depends. Sigma doesn't want to hurt you in anyway, and if you're not very keen on the idea of being kidnapped, he'll have to find another way to get to you.

When it comes to the topic of punishments, Sigma hates them. Sigma is extremely patient, so making him so upset to the point he'll punish you is a fucking talent. But, his punishments would be very light. He'll lock you in your room as a punishment, but the moment you start crying and begging to be let out, he caves. He has a massive soft spot for you and just wants your love and affection.

One downside of being with Sigma is your freedom. Sigma is very concerned about your safety, so in the beginning he would keep you hidden while he tended at the casino. However, as time went on, his paranoia began to grow. What if someone finds you and you get hurt? What if you get kidnapped? What if you left him? Thoughts like that would race in his head while at the casino, causing him to not be at the top of his game. So, he decided to keep you at the casino with him, keeping in his office while be worked. Keeping you secret from the DOA became significantly harder, but at least you're not alone.

You would definitely get stockholm syndrome with Sigma, if not just fall in love with him normally. Sigma is such a sweetheart, probably the best boyfriend in BSD. He is very awkward in the beginning due to him being unfamiliar with romance, but once he gets more comfortable, he becomes the perfect boyfriend.

[yawarakaizai]

I LOVE YOUR AESTHETIC SM!!

i was thinking..

gn doll reader with nikolai.. i feel like he’s obsessed with dolls (bj dolls/porcelain dolls) he’d treat you delicately and.. ahh.. i need HIM. CARNALLY.

ⵌ THIS LITTLE WORLD IS YOURS TONIGHT

SENDER Doll ! Reader (GN) RECIPITENT Nikolai Gogol (BSD) CONTENTS He took the utmost care of you, treating you how he believed you should be treated. He loved every part of you, and that included your feisty temper, even when he was so nice and caring towards you. NOTE bratty reader, pet-names, usage of 'daddy', possessiveness, suggestive content, genitalia mentioned (or rather lack thereof), mentions of fyodor + sigma, size difference, reader is a ball-jointed doll, non-sexual nudity, rich nikolai lolol, spoiled reader, mentions of punishments/implied punishments (spanking), feminine clothing (dresses) COMPANY Smarty

A/N hii ano n! tys m f or your req (>///<) nikolai is one of m y fav es actu al ly, , hes s o swe et , craz y and aa aa a <3 i hop e you enjoy this small fic! !! it was f un t o write ꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱ i th iink nikolai would be s o silly w/ a re ader who' s a dol l !! he'd p air well w ith a br att y doll .. s o here 's th is !! \(^///^)/

" Noo! I don't wanna! "

Your whine was met with an exaggerated sigh of mock-sadness.

" Oh, but please! You'll look utterly adorable in this! "

One thing about you was that once your mind was made up, there was no way of convincing you otherwise. It was always your way. At least .. usually.

" Don't wanna means I don't wanna. "

You stood in the middle of the room nude, your hands placed on your hips, your head turned to the side away from the man knelt on the floor before you with his pleading eyes, a white gown bunched up in his hands.

Stubborn is what you were. And goodness, did Nikolai not love and hate it at the same time.

You were his sweet, spoiled doll. He wouldn't want it any other way.

" Ya know I love you best when you're behaved, doll. " He was dumb to think you'd relent your attitude so easily. Nikolai was being soft today, thankfully. On a hard day, he would've had you crying out bent over his knee promising to be a good doll next time.

Peeking from your shut eyes, your glass eyes stared curiously and intently on the dress he insisted to hell and back you should try out.

Frilly, short and virgin white - like every other garment he'd buy for you.

You most certainly are appreciative to have such a generous daddy. One who'd adorn you in only the best of dresses and accessories, showing you off to all who'd have the misfortune of coming across Nikolai.

He'd boast about how lucky he is to have you, with you shyly hiding behind his large stature, your fist gripping onto the hems of his shirt for your own comfort. You were timid around others that weren't your daddy. You'd shrink at compliments from others and cling to Nikolai; afraid to lose him.

Nikolai adored you for how bold you were with him. No matter the façade of a pure, innocent angel you'd display to all - he knew just what you were in private.

" Fine. But only this dress. Otherwise, I'll go straight to Dostoy and tell on you! "

" Yes! Yes, oh, how sweet you are! "

Standing up to his feet, he immediately began to tie the matching garter to your porcelain thigh, tightening it enough to ensure it wouldn't slip off.

" You'll look beautiful. I could not rid the thought of you wearing it from my mind. " He rambled on, guiding your head through the many frills of the dress, pulling your arms into the sleeves and smoothing out any wrinkles in the fabric.

You found it to be too short, as you'd find when you'd spin around the dress would ride up with the air and thus exposing the area humans considered intimate.

Although you possessed no genitals, Nikolai still found your body erotic.

" It's too short. " You'd protest, to which he'd reply, " It's perfect. "

It could be said Nikolai found you aesthetically pleasing to look at, as many would come to agree. Even Dostoy - as you'd call him - began to take a keen interest in you, requesting for your co-operation in being his muse for a while.

He had painted a lovely portrait of you. One you kept in an expensive gold frame, hung over your prized vanity table.

You did not pry too much into your daddy's life, and that included his relations with Dostoy. All you knew was that Dostoy was above the other, and the two had mutual respect for one another.

" Can you sit still for me, doll? Need't put these on ya. "

Nikolai rummaged through the many shopping bags he had hauled into your room, not expecting to have caught you during your brattish hours.

Nodding in silence, you allowed him to clip bows and pearls to your soft hair, having to kneel down to properly align everything perfectly and just the way he wanted them to be.

By the time he was done, you could feel the weight on your head having increased from how over-the-top he had gone.

" Daddy.. "

You huffed, puckering your red lips childishly.

" You look elegant, I promise you. "

Placing his hand on the lower end of your back, he carefully guided you towards your full-body mirror hanging adjacent from your large wardrobe.

Studying your reflection, you stared up at his grinning face. " You look dumb. " You remarked, continuing to twist and twirl. It wasn't that bad.

" I knew it'd be perfect, " He creeped behind you, wrapping his arms around your hips with his head resting atop of yours, " ya gonna thank your daddy for bein' so kind and sweet, aren't ya doll? " He murmured, lightly letting some of his heavy weight loosen on you, immediately making you yell out to him.

" Hey! Watch it! Daddy! Too heavy! "

You did your best to support him as he only laughed over you, " Catch me, catch me, doll! " he joked around, threatening to faint at any second, soaking in your desperate attempts at hoisting him back up.

In one fell swoop, he swept you off your feet over his shoulder, in the process, accidentally letting a stray bow come undone, falling to the floor below.

" Gonna go parade ya to Sigma. "

He praised, hand straying up your skirt and onto your bottom, in response you immediately whacked his back, stifling an "ow!" as your delicate hand forgot how tough he was, especially his upper body.

" Think he'll get mad when he realises I spent his money on all this? "

" Daddy! "

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feat.: Dazai, Chūya, Ranpo, Atsushi, Akutugawa, Kunikida, Fyodor, Nikolai, Poe

content: nsfw, size difference, dacryphilia, degradation, praise, breeding kink, sadism, kitchen sex, spanking, oral sex, tit fucking

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DAZAI enjoys it greatly whenever you ride him, especially if you face him while doing so. Really, what is there not to love? You're bouncing up on his cock, either eagerly or while glaring at him because of a teasing comment that just fell from his lips, and your tits are following the rhythm you set; a steady up and down, up and down.

There's nothing he likes more than watching you fuck yourself dumb on his dick, and his sly smirk stretches wider when your thighs begin to tremble with exhaustion. Don't believe for a second he'll have mercy with you, though; he's way too busy kneading the soft skin of your tits or hips between his fingers to actually thrust into you. Besides, you're doing just fine like this, right?

“Oh my, belladonna, don't tell me you're getting tired already! What a shame. You were doing so well, too. Come now, I'm sure you'll manage to keep going until both of us cum, won't you?”

Even without use of his ability, it's terribly easy for CHŪYA to lift you up and pin you to a wall to fuck you right then and there. His grip on your hips is tight; he can't help but huff out a gentle laugh when you whimper and try to hide your face in his shoulder to stifle your moans and mewls while his hips slap against your ass.

Your thighs shake adorably where they're wrapped around his slim waist; his pace is anything but slow as he all but pounds into you, the head of his dick nudging against that one sensitive spot inside of you. You moan into the kiss when he reaches down to rub circles around your clit, each thrust of his accompanied by wet squelching noises and, yeah — you're pretty glad that Chūya doesn't need any help to support your weight, given how your knees feel awfully weak right now.

“What a lucky man I am to have such a pretty girl on my dick, hm, baby? Fuck, you feel so damn good around me. You're gonna drive me crazy if you keep moaning like that.”

RANPO'S preferred position is you riding him, especially with your back turned to him. This way, you set the pace — though he's quick to whine if he deems it to be too slow, too lazy —, meaning he doesn't have to bother with constantly pounding into you, but he does like to occasionally thrust his hips up, catching you off-guard whenever he meets you half-way.

It's also the perfect position for him to grab your ass in the meantime; he doesn't hesitate to pinch the skin meanly or to outright spank you while you continue to ride him all obediently. Your high-pitched moans and whimpers make his dick twitch inside of you, especially when you sob because a slap unexpectedly hits your upper thigh rather than your already bruised butt.

“You really make the most adorable noises, darl. I could listen to your pathetic mewls and whines all day. Either way, hurry it up a little, will you? I still got a case to solve.”

Frankly said, ATSUSHI doesn't care in the slightest bit how he's fucking you. He doesn't have a favourite position; the only things that matter to him are that he's as close as can be to you and that he's able to see your face well; he doesn't want to risk missing out on your fucked-out expressions whenever he hits that one special spot inside of you and you clench so tightly around him.

Still, he likes being able to lean up and suck hickeys into your throat and neck in whatever position you're both doing it in; whenever he's pounding into you, his hips slapping against yours, he gets the overwhelming urge to mark you up and claim you as his. Besides, you whimper so adorably whenever his fangs graze over your sensitive skin, so who can blame him?

“Ah, fuck, you feel so good around me, love. You're so good for me, fuck, 'm close—, so tight. And you're all mine, aren't you? Yeah, ah—, that's right.”

It's no surprise that KUNIKIDA'S ideals extend even to sex, and it comes as even less of a shocker that his favourite position to take you in is missionary. Still, it'd even be his preferred one if it wasn't so traditional — he enjoys the way you're panting into his shoulder while your arms are thrown around his neck and how you cry out and arch your back off the bed so prettily when he reaches down to draw steady circles around your aching clit.

If he's honest, Kunikida has to admit that he lives for cumming inside of you, especially in missionary position. You've got your thighs clamped tightly around his waist as he spills into you, filling you up, and your resulting whimper is a heavenly sound. In the end, he even gets to press a gentle kiss to your lips, and his smile is warm and loving as his gaze meets your hazy one.

“Good girl. You always take me so well, don't you? I promise I'll fill you up just as good. Ah, you feel simply heavenly around me, darling.”

FYODOR'S preferred way to fuck you is to simply bend you over the closest flat surface — usually the kitchen counter —, your legs spread wide enough that you struggle to keep your balance and your back arched prettily. Really, it's not like he's against having you warm his dick while he's working or taking you multiple times in missionary in your shared bed, but there's just something peculiar about you, wearing a cutesy apron and stirring whatever meal you're having today, that makes his arousal spike all of a sudden.

He still manages to make it look like fucking in the kitchen was your idea; he just leaned down to give you a simple kiss, after all, and suddenly you were all over him. How curious! And, well, here you are now, bent over the pristine kitchen counter, your dress flipped up for easy access, with Fyodor thrusting into you from behind while he scolds you for not paying more attention to what you're cooking. The noodle water is bubbling already; careful that it doesn't boil over before he fills you up.

“Oh? Let me get this right, love; first, you're lewd enough to beg me to take you right here in our kitchen, and now you're even letting this distract you from finishing our meal? If I didn't know better, I'd say you simply wish for your hardworking husband to starve, though the way I know you, you're probably just too busy being a cock-hungry whore to actually pay attention.”

NIKOLAI loves taking you from behind. He's got one large hand on the back of your neck, pushing your head down into the pillows, and the position is just heavenly in itself — you look awfully adorable like this, head down and ass raised, your back arched into a pretty curve and your thighs spread wide, giving him a perfect view of your dripping cunt.

Whenever he's pounding into you, he makes sure the bed rocks with the force of his thrusts; and, oh, aren't you the cutest when you cry out sharply just because he spanked you once? To be fair, his hits are strong enough to bruise, and 'once' quickly turns to repeatedly, but it's your own fault for clenching so tightly around him in response! The only disadvantage of taking you doggy style is that Nikolai doesn't get to see the tears that drip down your cheeks, but, well; there's still many opportunities to make you cry afterwards.

“Oh, look at ya, doll — crying already? That's adorable! You've taken much worse before, too; believe me or don't, but I'm being gentle right now! Hah, so you do think I'm lying? I'll gladly prove the opposite to you! Let's see just how tight you'll get once I actually put my strength behind each hit!”

AKUTAGAWA likes to see you on your knees, especially when you're all but drooling with eagerness to suck his dick. It's mainly about power dynamics; he feels in control when you're on the floor, your legs spread wide to show off just how wet you are just from pleasuring him, one of his feet pushing in between your spread thighs to keep them open.

His pace is rough when he fucks your mouth, his dick pushing down your throat, and he doesn't bother to stop even as you all but choke and sputter, saliva dripping down your chin and tears welling up in your eyes.

“Fuck. Yeah, that's right. Take it. Hah, I bet you're even wet right now. Are you enjoying this? Fucking slut. Fuck, that's good—”

Despite hesitating to admit it, POE is another one who enjoys it greatly whenever you kneel in front of him. The sight of you with your tits out and eager eyes focusing on his dick makes heat rise to his cheeks; and who can blame him? You are pretty lewd like this, squeezing your tits together with your hands just so he can fuck them, his dick sliding over your smooth skin, sticky with precum.

Occasionally, you even stick your tongue out to give a quick kitten lick to the flushed head of his cock and, oh, it's no surprise that he cums almost immediately, spilling onto your chest and collar bones. He is, however, quick to urge you to get up and lie down or sit on his lap so he's able to please you, too.

“Oh, God—, good girl, that's good. You're so pretty like this. Ah—, come on, it's my turn now. Let me make you feel good, yes?”

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Taking the BSD boys to a cat café pt.1

This can be platonic or romantic, whatever you want. I apologize in advance if there are any mistakes, but English isn't my native language.

Word Count: 1.4k

Gender Neutral Reader

Feat. Atsushi, Dazai, Chuuya, Akutagawa, Fyodor, Nikolai

Atsushi

He was rather excited to visit this cat café you've been hyping up. He loves cats, so, naturally, he would love to sit around so many of them while enjoying a nice beverage.

You both walked into the café and the smell of fresh coffee beans instantly hit your nostrils. As you looked around, you admired the cute cats you were surrounded by. You guys found a table and sat down. A waitress came over to you, took your order, and soon brought it to the table.

"How are you enjoying this experience so far?" you asked Atsushi before you took a sip of your cappuccino.

"It's quite nice actua-" a cat climbed up his lap and interrupted him. You chuckled at his surprised face. He soon relaxed. The cat seemed to get very comfortable, and Atsushi began to pet it gently.

"We've been here for about 10 minutes now, and a cat is already starting to like you. To be honest, I'm kind of jealous" you say with a soft smile on your face, "Perhaps they sense you're one of their own" you make the same dumb joke about his ability.

"I'm a tiger!"

"Same difference!"

You both laugh. You spent at least 2 hours at the café playing with the cats. It was a really fun experience that you enjoyed very much.

Dazai

He's obviously a cat person, so when you brought up the idea of visiting a cat café the next time you go out, he expected it to be quite a pleasant experience.

Dazai was sitting at a table. You, however, were at the other end of the shop playing with a bunch of kitties. His face had a bitter expression plastered all over it. The cats loved you, yet they seemed to hate him. He had already been scratched a dozen times while you were sitting on a soft carpet and petting a cat that was laying calmly on its back. Eventually, he got bored looking at you having fun without him and abandoned the coffee table.

You were sitting and petting a random cat and were completely lost in admiration for the adorable creature when suddenly a hand was placed on your shoulder.

"Don't ignore me for the cats! They can't be more important than I am!" Dazai whined and crouched down to you. You laughed at his childish antics and stopped petting the cat. You grabbed his hand and gently moved it closer to the laying animal. With a relaxed motion, you showed him how to pet the cat properly. He finally managed to befriend a cat and was overjoyed.

At the beginning of the date, he wanted you to leave as soon as possible, but now he cherished each second you spent there.

Chuuya

Chuuya's a dog person, but that doesn't stop him from having a soft spot for cats as well. When you suggested going to the local cat café he thought that it would be a normal hangout.

"When you asked me to go to a cat café with you, I didn't expect I would end up in these predicaments" Chuuya was sitting across from you at your table surrounded by half of the cats in the building. For some reason they seemed to love him. There was a cat sitting on his shoes, a cat quite literally sleeping on his lap, a third cat being pet by him and a small kitten which was toying with the chain on his hat barely keeping its balance on Chuuya's shoulder.

You were laughing and holding up your phone to take a picture while he did his best not to move much so he doesn't disturb the cats. Suddenly, the kitty on his shoulder fell down right onto the cat on his lap. A loud meowing was heard and the cat jumped from his lap onto the floor and ran away. The one laying on his feet got scared and ran the opposite way and so did the cat he was petting. Now he was holding the small kitten in his hands because it was the only one left. A genuine smile crept up on his pretty face at the small animal.

"This one is quite troublesome" he said and all you could do was lean your head into your palm and savour the moment.

After leaving the place, Chuuya couldn't help but feel a little sad he had to leave his new friend. He knew that he couldn't adopt him since he worked at the Port Mafia and he wouldn't have enough time to take proper care of the creature and also couldn't guarantee a safe environment for it, but he was determined to return soon.

Akutagawa

Akutagawa was uncertain about your suggestion. He didn't think that spending time along unpredictable creatures all around you was the best way to make use of one's time.

You both were sitting at the table sipping from your drinks. He watched you pet the cats who passed by your table and wondered what could possibly be so good about them that they made you so happy. Yes, they were cute, but beyond that he simply couldn't think of anything else.

As Akutagawa was tasting his beverage, he felt something nudge his leg. Slightly annoyed, he looked down, only to be met with the green eyes of a black slender cat cuddling his legs while gazing back at him. There was something about that stare that made his heart go weak at the adorable creature. He reached down to rub its head, and the kitty purred into his gentle touch. All of a sudden, he felt a warm feeling all over his chest. A small smile appeared on his pale face, and at that very moment, he realized why you appreciated cats so much.

The both of you spent the rest of the day playing with the cats and left the café very pleased.

Fyodor

You still remember the suspicious stare Fyodor gave you after you asked him to go to a cat café together. He did prefer cats over dogs, but hanging around a place filled to the brim with them seemed below him. Still, he agreed to entertain you since he appreciates your company and does not want to upset you.

And there you guys were, sitting on a lonely table close to the window. He had ordered white tea and didn't expect to actually like it as much as he did. He looked over to you and slightly opened his mouth to start a conversation when he noticed your attention was entirely occupied by a cat. You were smiling and playing with the cute animal while he stood with his mouth still open. He couldn't help but feel slight irritation that you'd prefer talking to a cat over him. Soon enough, though, the cat left your side, and you looked back at Fyodor.

"Why don't you try engaging with one of the cats?" you asked him, and he sighed. He glanced at a nearby cat laying on the fluffy carpet and reached his hand out to pet it. He found running his hand through the thick fur quite calming and continued to do that for a while.

"Perhpas it isn't so bad after all" he said.

"I told you you'd like it. We should go here more often. It's quite relaxing and you're always very busy and tired so it's a nice place to chill out for once."

You did end up coming there frequently when you had free time.

Nikolai

He loves any and all animals, and so when you offered him to sit at cat café he was thrilled.

As soon as you walked through the door, he immediately went up to pet all of the cats one by one. He was basically like a little kid at a candy shop. Once you sat down, he couldn't contain his excitement.

"Quiz time! How many cats will we be taking home?" he asked with enthusiasm.

"We can't adopt any right now and you know that, right? Besides, you'll most likely lose them during the first week" you reply calmly.

"Aww. A shame!" he exclaimed and stood up, "That means we have to spend as much time with them as possible." As soon as these words left his mouth, he picked up one of the cats. You watched in amusement as he played with each and every one.

You practically dragged him out of the building when it was about to close, and he ended up memorizing each cat's name.

Thank you so much for reading this, and I really hope you enjoyed it! If you find any of the characters a bit OOC, I'm really sorry. If you want, you can always send me a request to write something (my post about rules and requests is pinned)

[rougepearl]

Chapter 2: Down

❝𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙧𝙩𝙨 𝙖𝙨 𝙖 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙡𝙮 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙡𝙙 𝙞𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙫𝙞𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣, 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙨𝙡𝙤𝙬𝙡𝙮 𝙗𝙚𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙣𝙨𝙚 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙧𝙤𝙣𝙜 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙤𝙣. 𝙎𝙤 𝙬𝙝𝙮 𝙙𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙮?❞

Obsessive Behavior, Manipulation, Dark Content, Alcohol Usage, Mentions of Drug Usage, House Parties, Unhealthy Relationships, Out of Character, Kissing, Sadism, Blood mentions, Cunninglingus, Breathplay, Psychological, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat

𝐍𝐢𝐤𝐨𝐥𝐚𝐢 𝐱 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ Wordcount: 6,575

You still remember that night so vividly.

Sleeping into his arms, hugging him close. While he kept humming a soft tune into your ear until you fell asleep.

It feels like only ever since that one night it seems you've only gotten closer to Nikolai.

It's only been about three weeks since then. A month or so if you count the past.

Yet all the time it was an outing. To museums, on walks around the parks, cafes together, running each other's errands together.

It was to the point that the nicknames that he would have for you would start to come out. Small nicknames like dove, sweet, dear… It's almost like…’No it couldn't be’

At first a few times you were uncomfortable with it at first, but you eventually have gotten used to it.

He had gotten so close to you that you forgot what your main problem was. Your tragic life tale. Disappearing, no whereabouts and no callbacks from your friend’s.

The only time you would remember this, was when you would go to the police station or to a private office with a detective who was trying to solve the mystery.

But it wasn't like he’d call you in frequently anymore. Now that he had a hold of your phone number he would give a call or text wondering to confirm something on your end.

And usually these times would happen when you would be around Nikolai as well. The last time you can recall, you were at a diner with him in the close outskirts of the city.

Although it was considered rude to pick up a phone whilst you were eating, you had to. And excuse yourself outside.

But Nikolai… He would soon come outside just a few seconds later.

Pulling a cigarette from the inside of his nice jacket and lighting it, standing right beside you.

Not too close. But close enough to give himself some amount to hear in and eavesdrop quite a bit.

Or would sometimes peep over your shoulder trying to read the messages. It was obvious at times. But later he would be more sneaky with it, then ask you about it later throughout the day.

But it's not like it was that important.

He would always be there for you.

To ask you if you’ve been alright.

If you needed anything he would give it to you.

Always wanting to give his sweater to you

His idea of showing love was mainly gift giving and affection. Oh he would love to hug you, carry you, would just want you near him.

After almost every outing, if his place was closer, Nikolai would insist on you just staying there instead of walking back to yours.

And you would, as his place did look nicer, more cleaner, and more welcoming than yours. Though there have been times where he has been to yours.

But while his place was very spacious.

It did take some more time to clean around.

To figure and find out where he was at, whenever he would call you over to him.

So this time, the mentions of wanting to get a pet were concerning to you.

While you knew exactly what for, you still played dumb. In an attempt to refuse.

As you knew it wasn't for his benefit at all, but much rather for your own.

“Nikolai…Why would we need a dog?”

He points his finger at you, while he still has that playful persona around

“I think a dog will suit you for times when I can't be around you.”

You're left standing there fiddling with your hands. Pressing your lips together, trying to think of something.

He notices this look on your face quickly, and instantly runs happily to you from across the lounge room,

“Don't worry, I can buy all the stuff for our pet. I just want you to be safe, that is all…”

He comes closer, and trips you into his arms, causing a small squeak to be let out.

Embracing you, while holding you tight. Looking up at him, he looks down at you.

There it was again

That sly smile he makes right before you finally cave in.

“I guess you're right…”

Instantly he lets go of you, and immediately runs to the chair beside him, grabbing his coat.

As he continues to walk in big strides, he continues to search for his belongings quickly before leaving.

“Right! Now let's go!” “W-What! Now?”

He turns around to look at you again, throwing his sweater in your direction, falling onto the floor before you can catch it. “Yes, now. Better sooner than later!.”

Once heading outside, you had purposely forgotten to grab a beanie to find a way to go back and not go.

Tugging on his arm slightly trying to stop his steps.

“Oops! Guess it's a sign we…shouldn't… go…”

But it seems like Nikolai had brought one for you.

He was always prepared with things for you. No matter the occasion.

Putting the beanie on frustrated, continuing to walk down to this local pet shop that was nearby, you still tried to set your foot on the ground trying to tell him there is no point in really getting a pet.

It's not like you were in grand danger all the time.

“I'm telling you Nikolai, I can protect myself on my own. I don't need anything else.”

“You're really gonna try to change my mind after we’ve been walking for over ten minutes already?”

He was right about that.

Walking all the way over here, to not get anything.

But still… Should you- No.

But- No, no, no.

What's the whole point?!

Now that you’ve lost contact with some old people, there really wasn't any more dangerous people to worry about.

Not unless-

Unless he was trying to refer to someone else you’ve introduced him to… He keeps looking at you for a moment with knotted brows and a smug look.

Long enough you start to get uncomfortable with it.

His chest puffs big and he sighs for a second, letting the air from his mouth create a small fog. “Fine, but at least a small one. Just so you can have company.”

He grabs both your hands close to him, bringing you closer. “Would you do that for me?”

You realize no matter how much you protest he'll still insist on his idea

Releasing the tension from your chest, you relax your shoulders and finally have him let go of your hands.

“…Fine, you win.”

He grabs a hold of your hand again and instantly his energy is back up.

“Splendid! Let's go!” Dragging you along with him as he opens the door to the store.

It was already late, and it's all Nikolais fault.

If only he hadn't seen the birds, bunnies, and fishes in their own cages, we would've probably left way earlier.

He went on a whole monologue at the store with you. Over you calling their cages to be their “natural habitat of being here.”

Mentioning the words “bliss is ignorance” or something along those lines…

But finally after hours of trying to decide which animal to adopt, you had landed your eyes on a small little puppy dog.

Curled little golden blonde locks.

Big black eyes that just scream dearly sweet.

And you couldn’t forget the floppy big ears that would wobble everytime it walked.

“Oh you're just so cute!” You pitch your voice high, nudging your nose against the little dog’s nose.

Nikolai, who's opening the door to his place, turns around confused at your remark.

“Hm? Oh, the dog.”

But you don't pay attention to a word Nikolai says, as you are too focused on the adorable face this puppy has.

Too busy with your new little dog,

Ducking and walking under his arm as he holds the door, you proceed to hold it carefully in your arms, almost rocking it like a baby.

He walks in after you and stretches his upper torso as he closes the door and heads over to the sofa.

Where the bright lonely stars barely shine but show slightly across the sky.

He lays down on it. With an arm over his head, covering his eyes.

Groaning in pain, it was obvious that he wasn't feeling well.

“Why did I do it… Why…”

”Why?”

“Why?”

”Why?”

He's been acting weird lately… No, not even lately…

It seems like he's had something from being able to clear his mind but has only grown to show it further.

He continues to repeat it over and over. You catch on eventually and look over to him.

He looked stressed. Something was definitely bothering him on the inside.

”Nikolai…are you okay?”

You utter at him, still holding the dog in your hands.

Holding it close in your arms, you walk over to where Nikolai was at, sitting right beside him watching him.

Placing the dog down, it hurries to run around the area. Lapping around in circles and bumping into many things.

You place your hand on his arm that is resting above his face, ”Is everything okay?”

“Hm… Yeah just- just tired about something.”

“...While you were gone that other day.”

Right, you forget that he probably has a job too. Except one that you knew nothing about.

He never really speaks about it. Matter of fact, he ignores your questions that mention anything to do with what he does for a living.

His past? Where does he have all this money from? His whereabouts when he leaves at night on some days.

No matter how sly you can be, he always manages to find a way to change the topic.

He moves his hand away, instantly looking up at you with his eyes, softly.

A smile shows upon his face, a subtle yet great one.

“Be a good doll, could ya’ bring me the keys to my car, please.”

Nodding and getting up from the sofa, you begin to walk around.

Slowly stopping in your tracks as you remembered.

“Uhm… Where do you keep them?”

“Drawers in the front of the living room.” He says, as he lays his head back down onto the soft pillow.

Head turning to the side.

Eyeing you as you go to retrieve his keys.

Opening every drawer. Starting off with finding a lot of stacked books.

Then note taking paper. A few black pens here and there.

Polaroid photos that have white opaque tape covering the picture.

While he couldn't see from his angle, you tried taking one of them off but it seemed like he sealed it somehow.

Coming to the last four drawers on the other side. Finding more strange stuff that he possesses.

Strangest being a torn hat…

Closing the drawer you place your hand on one of the others, trying to budge it open.

Realizing the drawer is hard to open.

Before you can try to force it open again, Nikolai, who sees this, immediately gets up.

“Don't open that one!” He rushes over and places his hand over it, causing you to be startled…

“W-What?”

‘Quick… Come up with something’

”I'm, I’m- hiding a gift for you.” Getting rid of his hands off the handles, he grabs your shoulders and makes you walk away from there, almost tripping you in the process.

“It's a big box, so it makes it harder to open. Sorry for ruining the surprise doll.”

You look at him and back down to the drawer.

Wondering if he's really telling the truth or if it was another lie of his

You realize this is the first time he’s ever panicked too.

Usually it was his smug facade. So this had caught you off guard as well.

“…It's okay.”

You slowly back away, feeling a bit guilty if what he was saying was true.

But could it be…

Something that important that he doesn't want you to see?

Of course, it only filled your curiosity more.

He lowly bends down a bit and grabs the running dog, picking it up in his arms.

“Here.” He opens the bottom drawer beneath the one you were going to grab; Where his keys were.

Handing them to you as he continues to hold the dog in his left arm. “Go find something to feed it. I’ll be staying here making something to eat.”

”Are you sure? I was planning on staying home today to clean.” Nervously speaking, you suggest that he doesn't do anything. Much rather to just relax and chill around.

Since you'll be leaving either way.

“Don't worry. I also wanted to ask if you wanted to tag along with me to a friends gathering just upstairs either way. “

“-Upstairs?” Confused, your voice pitches a bit higher at the shock of what he had just said. Pointing your finger to the floor. “I thought this was the highest ground!?”

He eyes you up and down for a second, before getting closer to you. This feeling- Allowing you to pet the dog.

Your focus is on it instead of Nikolai.

A blank expression can be seen on your face, he sees this and tries to uplift your mood again.

“Ya’ know, there's more above to there is below.” He smirks, you press your lips together as there's a possibility that what he's trying to say was exactly what you were thinking of…

”So?”

He approaches closer, to the point where his whole body is nudging against you.

Holding the dog close to your face. As he mocks the big eyes and sad frown it was making, pleading you.

Looking back and forth at the two faces,

“…I guess so, I don't have any plans…”

He clasps his hands together, a smile grows on his face again.

“Wonderful! Alright then, go find something for it and I'll stay here cleaning, then we can leave!”

You keep a hold of the dog while you grab your coat, trying to place it around your shoulders.

“Got that.”

Alongside grabbing his keys from the counter where they were laying now.

Just before you can leave he stops you for a brief moment.

A bit annoyed at what he has to say now, resulting in tapping your foot slightly up and down…

He gestures his hand to his eye as he winks, allowing himself to let his other side take over.

“Take your time, dear!”

___________

“Are you sure it'll be alright?” Turning to Nikolai, as you grab your small jacket that he had got you last week, wrapping it around yourself.

“It's already midnight dear, look, it's asleep. I'll have someone come by and take care of it for the night either way. They live a few floors down.” He says as he reassures you by holding your shoulders.

“Nothing will happen, come on now.”

Upon arriving, you notice another drastic change in scenery.

The seating around was more luxurious, but still dismissive in color.

Different people in abnormal conditions. Leaning off walls, bumping into places.

It was way different than the ones Nikolai hosted. Not the kind you'd go to.

“Uhm, Nikolai…”

Facing him, he hums in response.

“You said it was a gathering, not a fucking house party with strippers and everything all over the place.” You smack him with your little purse.

He lets a small “ow” out, while rubbing his arm a bit as he shrugs. “Still a gathering.”

”Why ya’ mad one of these will take my attention off ya’ doll?”

Ignoring his small talk, crossing your arms, you look ahead at the ‘club-like’ scene.

He realizes now how wrong he felt lying to you, he doesn't like to see you unhappy, it'll make him feel that way too.

”Just a little while, it won't be long alright.” He says as he tugs on your arm.

It took a while.

Letting a big sigh out, as you follow right behind.

Immediately walking further inside, you start to notice the stares that some people seem to give you.

You hold onto Nikolai’s arm, as you both continue to walk wherever he was dragging you.

Hoping it would bring some comfort at least.

But it only seems to draw more attention.

‘Does everyone here know him or something?’

Double takes to look at you.

But what caught a glimpse of you. Were a few groups of older women around Nikolais' age who were murmuring stuff.

Eyes widening every now and then.

Did they know him too…?

Seeing that the place is mostly crowded with men, you assume they're Nikolai’s friends.

And that maybe the small group of older women were their flings or wives.

You feel a grab on your arm tugging you upwards, instantly straightening up.

“Actually nevermind, let's go over here.” Nikolai walks to where a group of men seem to be playing a card game...

But with… other things alongside

“Is that who I think it is?” Turning around and seeing an old man fix his shirt before standing up and pulling Nikolai into a big hug.

“Haven't seen this one in a while.” He grabs him by the side, showing him off to the other guys around. This feels familiar

“Alright now, ‘just felt like I needed to make a comeback.” Nikolai shakes his hands in front of him, causing the others around to laugh while holding their cups.

Causing big spills to occur.

One of the men saw you hiding behind him, leaning to the side a bit calling out for you. “Want one big pal?” A rolled paper with a substance falling off.

“I'm…good thanks-”

Awkwardly and shy, you feel another hand on your shoulder. Causing you to jump a little

A more feminine voice is heard from the right side of the ear

“Hey dear, come over here won't you?”

Nikolai turns around and laughs at the sight “Don't be scared doll, that's just Nastasya. An old accomplice…”

He giggles as he proceeds to take a sip of a perse like drink that he had just received.

Clenching it with his hands, soon slamming it on the counter.

He begins to laugh like a maniac completely lost in his mind.

You turn back around only to see the woman's faint smile again

Before she asks if she can take you away for just a second.

”Go ahead… Don't worry Y/n, you can trust her.”

Letting her take you wherever, he waves his hand at you before you can be dragged away again.

You're seated at a small table with her.

No chairs, just sitting on the floor.

The music continues to play. She places an arm on the table whilst the other pulls a cigarette from her coat's pocket. Carefully placing it in her mouth.

“Ay! Light me over here.” She raises her hand, yelling loudly as a tall man in all black comes forwards and places the lighter right on the cigarette.

She coughs a bit before deciding to place it on the side of his lips, giving herself a chance to talk to you. ”So… How’d ya’ do it?”

Her voice can be heard as harsh, raspy. Like she's been sick lately. “Uh… How’d I do what?”

“Oh dear, you know what I mean.” She speaks as she places her hand on top of yours.

“How did you get him to talk to ya’? “

Her jaw can be seen moving from side to side as she tries to hide it, puffing air out every now and then from her cigarette.

”Uhm, I'm sorry miss- but- I really have no clue what youre talking about.”

This was uncomfortable. Pressing your lips together, she comes in closer to your face.

“You look like you could try going numb for once.” She jolts her head up a bit. Smelling the faint scent of tobacco on her lips.

‘That makes sense now’

Is this why Nikolai throws his weekly hostings?

Could he be trying to numb something? Certain feelings? Guilt…?

Regardless, he's always a mess afterwards…

Contemplating for a bit, you start to wonder what it would feel like ”...Should I?”

“The party only gets fun when you're in your own cloud~”

After hours have gone by,

It seemed like her relationship with him was that they were close friends. Like from when they were teens of kids… just something.

She did mention stuff regarding his pasts in childhood moments.

Only after getting on a rush with her and a few others.

Her rants about him though… only left you wondering so many more things?

Where did he get all this money?

What did he do in his earlier life?

Why was he here in this city now?

But you couldn't feel the need to ask anymore questions. Your lips felt too heavy. Swollen even.

Every inch of your face felt like it had fallen asleep, A static going on inside your body.

Not an ounce of consciousness in your mind.

It felt as if you could jump and be as if you weren't on gravity.

Almost like if you were a balloon floating high up in the skies.

While it felt amazing, there were some parts you didn't like.

Such as the trembling cold that kept eating you up.

How strong your throat felt. The fizzling in the back.

The sharpness in your nostrils. Feeling the urge to sneeze every second.

The ‘good but chilling’ spine shivering goosebumps that came along with it.

It all was too much.

But now you understand why. Why-

Cheering was heard from the other side of the main room. Causing everyone to stop for a minute and turn their heads.

This brought you back down, attaining your awareness again.

Realizing where you were, again.

”You know, you're quite young too…” Your attention is drawn back to Nastasya for quite a second.

“So you never told me how you both met?” You completely ignore her though.

Still looking over at Nikolai as he grabs something from a drawer, placing it directly in the middle of where he was at with his fellows around.

Seems like they were about to play some sort of dangerous game but… no.

The drawer

No- you almost forgot.

“I- Uhm- I forgot to … do something actually.”

“Oh, no problem dear.!” She stands up with you. Except her body facing the other direction

“If ya’ need anything you know where to find me”

You thanked her enough, dismissing her while you still could.

Looking around trying to see where Nikolai had gone, you couldn't see him around.

He didn't seem to be anywhere in your field of view, so you grabbed your jacket, went ahead and exited the place.

Immediately heading back over to his place.

“-Oh my God!”

Right…You were still heavily intoxicated.

It felt so weird. You needed to rest amongst some place or lean against the door frame.

Slouching onto the couch, resting your arms and legs.

You turned sideways onto the pillow. Trying to take a minute of all of this in.

“Wait!”

Almost forgetting why you came back, you open your eyes again.

Getting up in a hurry, going back to the drawers from earlier.

What could he be trying to hide from you…?

In an attempt to budge it open again, you sigh of defeat upon noticing it didn't even move an inch.

Until you can hear a small ‘Clink!’

Before realizing what that meant.

It was locked.

God, if only you knew a piece of his mind

Where could he have placed that key?

Heading to the kitchen drawers, you slide them open. Scavenging through them, finding nothing.

Then proceeding through the other different rooms in hope you'd find something.

To your surprise you did find a lot of odd items. Such as needles, yarn, a bunch of ripped up and crumbled pieces of paper.

A handwritten journal that was in another language.

But not what you were looking for.

Lastly you had gone to the top shelf near the books he had, getting onto your tippy toes to reach your fingers inside the small space.

You can feel…small scraps of paper… And- of like a metal, but was big and heavy.

Next to it was, something cold

That feels small like a-

A key!

Sliding it off the shelf, having it drop to the floor.

Picking it up and then going back to the original drawer.

“C’mon this better work…” Muttering, as you slowly turn the key. Hearing the small clasp noise from inside the lock.

Eyes gleam with joy, a smile on your face.

Hands on the handle, other on the drawer to pull it out.

A creaking noise, as it opens slowly. Hearing the scraping sounds.

Finding a bunch of random shit again.

Taking out a flashlight along with other junk, searching for something in that drawer.

Excited to find… nothing.

Nothing but a clear box that caught your attention for a bit… You grab it and bring it closer to inspect the contents inside.

Hairpins, a button…

Little some collectives

Was this his gift?

Or did he hide it whilst he was cleaning…

If it really was just this, why didn't he want me to see in the first place? “Hm, guess it did work.”

Frozen, upon hearing that voice, you stopped what you were doing. Your mind races fast to the point your eyes just hold their gaze.

Swearing you felt your heart drop to your stomach.

Turning your head over whilst the small box in your hands drops back inside the drawer.

Hearing the small clash of the items inside.

“Nikolai!… When did- you get back?” A nervous tone in your voice can be heard.

He leans on the thick doorway, as he picks his nails before facing to look at you again.

”Quite a while ago… Now, why did you come back?”

”I- I left my purse in here, I needed it!”

“Liar.”

He laughs at your words. Holding onto his stomach. “You're such a bad liar.”

Watching the grip around his shirt grow more as he continues in a hysterical manner

Smiling mischievously at you, he steps closer.

His hand hiding from his back finally being revealed.

There it was, your purse. Right in his hand,

”I knew you’d be back, so I hid it.”

Frustrated with his humorous tone, you yell at him out of distress. Causing you to come back to your senses for a bit from before. “…Hide what?”

Just upon saying that, his smile stops for a second, Eyes widening as if he remembered something.

Something is up with him… There's definitely something wrong.

He’s hiding something way deeper than that.

You knew it, but didn't want to actually think if it was true.

“You're full of shit.” Both you and him were not thinking straight of this whole situation

You run up the stairs to his room, not looking back. But you can hear his voice and footsteps right behind you.

Forgetting to lock the door, you turn back around and face him close once again.

“You have something going on…” Your chest felt heavy. “You- You-...”

“I have no idea what you're saying.” A faux expressive look on his face, as he remains standing close. Not moving any further back.

He grabs hold of your shoulders. Making you sit on the edge of the bed.

Sighing, with his head down, he takes a few deep breaths before speaking again. ”...If you really wish to leave whatever this is, then you can go ahead.”

He comes closer, grabbing your chin softly with his hand. “These fun times we've had together will be the end.”

You try to resist his touch, but he manages to get your hand away from him either way.

He continues to whisper close to your ear. Dangerously close.

”But we both know you wont leave, because you don't want to.”

He presses himself against yourself. Feeling him through his pants.

Your heartbeat began to go faster than it already did. His teeth were just inches away from your neck.

You bet he could probably feel your own beat too.

No, no, hear it.

His eyes are still looking into yours.

Mouth agape, unable to process a word in your own head. He took this to an advantage.

With his hand on your chin bringing you closer, slowly.

Resting his lips near yours, before he finally brings himself to let go.

He's gentle, tender, and soft with you. Pushing his body closer to yours, causing you to tumble across the mattress.

Lips parting for just a mere second.

Hand caressing the hair out of your face. Bringing himself to lean over you, pressing his arms on the side of your body.

Without any warning he grabbed your face again with both his hands and instantly pressed his lips against yours. This time roughly.

Kissing you hungry, with almost all the desire in his body.

Unexpectedly and rushed.

Was this being rushed?

Regardless, you wrapped your arms around his neck. Breaking the kiss, he pulled himself up to take his shirt off.

But before you could take your top off, his hands came over yours.

As he gave you a menacing look

You let go of your shirt, and place your hands to the side, as he took off your own clothes.

Button by button,

layer by layer.

Throwing them onto the floor.

You felt bare.

The cold air kept touching softly against your naked skin.

You had tried to cover your upper body with your arms. But Nikolai had other plans in mind.

”Fuck, youre so pretty.” He said as he started to kiss you again.

Except this time, only bringing his lips lower.

Down to your neck.

He began to swirl his tongue in circles on the side. Causing you to breathe heavily under his touch.

His teeth slightly scrape the edges of your skin, before he finally latches himself onto you.

Leaving many but very minor hickeys all around.

Peppering with small kisses afterwards.

”N-NIkolai!”

He hears you, but he doesn't stop.

Instead it only drives him further.

His tongue licks down your chest, to your torso.

This all feels too much

Until he gets to the lower part of your body.

“Take it off f’me dove.” His voice, stern yet breathy.

You slowly drag your hands closer to the button of your skirt, pulling the zipper on the side down.

As he proceeds to take it off of you.

He sees the small wet spot on your panties of your leaking wetness. Cooing at the sight. “Aw, look at this.”

He says as he grabs your chin, squeezing your lips together harshly, not allowing you to speak but rather make a squeal.

“All for me.”

He lowers himself to your lower body again. Pulling your panties to the side, bringing his mouth closer.

Again, kissing and preparing you for himself. His licks, going softly against your clit.

He sucks on it, making you more hot inside.

His hand on your hip holding you down, preventing you from squirming all over the place. Whilst the other he uses to stroke his dick lazily, as he gets more pumped up. “Ah~ P-please…”

“~Please what?” He says as he looks at you from below, his eyes piercing straight at you. His scar, showing slightly.

“Use your words dove.”

“You know what I-Im saying-…” His voice cuts yours off, shutting you up while you continue to breathlessly moan.

“I bet no one has ever touched you like this before… Oh yeah? What were ya’ saying?”

“Please, just f’fuck me.”

Feeling a smile creep on his lips, his tongue on your clit stops.

Bringing himself up, he lets go of the belt, letting himself show to you.

You can see the outline, it's throbbing hard. He’s hard.

“As you wish.”

He comes closer, aligning himself within your entrance.

His body leaning on top of yours, you can see the heavy breathing within his chest.

Without warning, he thrusts himself into you. Immediately covering your mouth with both your hands and turning your face to the side.

He sees this and brings himself closer to your face.

His cock deep inside of you, not moving. Yet here you were, panting over the large stretch and burning sensation it was beginning to feel.

“Don't hold back, I wanna hear all of you.” He pulls your hands away from your mouth forcefully.

He speaks lowly “Ready?”

You begin to smell the liquor on his lips, mixed with his usual scent of dark cherries.

Like the smell of autumn-winter.

But chose to ignore it.

”Mhm.”

He lets out a small ‘Kay’ before he begins to start to move again. Going in and out of your cunt slowly at first.

You let out a few small whimpers at first, just before you scream his name.

You're squeezing him hard, he can feel it.

You feel him.

He was addicted to you.

“-gh God. I can't help myself, I'm sorry… dove.”

Long before you knew it, he was pumping himself into you faster.

He brings his lips to yours again, slamming himself onto you. Kissing you roughly, as his hips move along inside of you.

His grip on your hip is deep. Feeling like a small bruise is slowly forming.

Your moans are constantly being muffled by his aggressiveness on your lips.

Everytime you gasp for air, he immediately brings himself onto you again. His free hand in your hair, messing it up. Tangling it, playing with it, tugging on it.

Soon enough he makes your legs go from his waist to his shoulders.

Allowing himself more access to you.

He’s hitting your spot with every thrust he makes. Eyes closed in the process “Mmph… N-Nikolai! Mph!~”

He's finally gone undone, this is what he's been wanting to do since forever.

Just as he continues to go on a rapid and beastly speed, he brings his teeth to your lips. Biting on them.

Causing a small trail of blood to start to flow down your chin. He brings his awaiting tongue and trails forward to it.

“Agh~ Nikolai… Too much!”

His face close to yours again, as he opens his eyes, looking at you with both of his eyes. As small beads of sweat drop from his forehead.

”Fucking- Shut up.”

He says before he lets go of your hips, placing both his hands on your throat.

Making sure to give you small moments of times when he’ll release you then grab you again like his doll. “A-Augh-“

He looks straight into your eyes, not breaking contact. All whilst you feel the small knotted bead in your stomach start to grow.

Nikolai feels this, as his thrusting becomes more vastly paced.

He can feel you sucking him whole. The way your pretty cunt takes him so well.

Tears begin to form, falling down your cheek to the side of your hairline..

He brings his tongue close.

Licking the side of your cheeks, closing in near your ear.

“Come- Come for me.” He says, whispering with breathy tones in his voice.

Instantly feel a rush of ecstasy overcome you.

You finally feel the knotted bead inside, start to deform.

Your eyes rolling back, moaning loudly over and over again. Repeating Nikolai’s name, crying from both eyes.

His thrust continues, going slower with each one.

He groans at feeling your juices on his throbbing dick, causing him to release inside of you.

Feeling the hot warm liquid ooze inside, it feels weird, off, strange, yet so amazing.

He remains inside of you for a second, before he collapses on top of you. His hands roaming your body, bringing you close to him.

You're left panting, head resting on the mattress.

As you close your eyes, you feel his hand in your hair.

Caressing your hand.

Whispering things like “You did so good”

“You felt amazing- No, you sounded amazing…”

Finally after minutes of being there with you.

He brings himself to pull out of you, hearing the small squelching noises as he slowly takes his dick out of your cunt.

He rests for a bit before he gets up, standing there. Seeing yourself laid across his bed like a mess.

Especially the way his seed continued to leak out of you.

A sight to behold for him.

He continues on, and eventually leaves the bedroom for a second. Closing the door behind him

Lifting your head up in confusion, you ask where he's off too.

Yet he doesn't respond, and instead leaves you alone for a few minutes.

You bring your body to the side, allowing yourself to look on the other side of his room.

The window is closed. And you don't see a clock around the walls.

No alarm, no clock, nothing. But it's dark, the room is dark. And there was not a single ray of natural light coming from that window.

How late was it by now?

Hearing the door open, you turn back around and see Nikolai dressed in loose dark blue pajamas. “-Im back”

“Here, and follow me.”

He has a towel in his hands, you stand up and he gently wraps it around your body.

Before he grabs your hand up high and brings you with him downstairs. Taking you to the bathroom.

Upon opening the door, you see the bathtub ready, filled with water.

“I'll be cleaning upstairs, come up when you're done.”

He presses a soft kiss on your cheek. Walking away and leaving, closing the door behind him.

You bring your hand to the towels stacked in the cabinet. They’re warm

He just took them out of the dryer. Or maybe placed them in there for a few minutes while he was gone.

Unrobing yourself, you step inside the tub. Closing your eyes for just a second.

Allowing yourself to fully feel the warm bliss of the water against your skin.

It's been roughly around 8 minutes already, you wonder how Nikolai is doing.

All you can think about is how you'll wake up tomorrow morning. How bad your head might hurt tomorrow…

Opening your eyes again, you look ahead and see the small wooden tray filled with all your favorite snacks.

Such as chocolate, sweets, cold water, etc..- Wait

What is that…?

Sitting there for a minute just staring at the said object.

Slowly fixing your posture up, splashing the water around just a bit.

You bring your hand over to the small shampoo bottle on the tray.

Bringing it closer to you, turning the bottle around.

No expression on your face, just a blank one.

But inside you felt a gust of wind just breeze over you…

This was the same one you use.

Regardless, you open the cap off. taking a big whiff of the strawberry scent.

Really taking a deep breath at the same time.

Trying to relax your body back in the tub.

But no matter how much you tried, you just couldn’t.

You stare off into the distance of the bathtub, still holding the small bottle in your hands.

Seeing your reflection in the tall mirror that was standing there…

Your wet hair tips, naked body, everything frozen in time.

Really having deep thoughts about what might be happening. Mind spiraling in a sense of realization.

Dots connecting one by one.

Could I really be a hundred percent…

I didn't want to think about it, but I’m scared I might be right…

Was this… the start of true colors finally showing?

[ilovechuuy4]

I just need a quiet place where I can scream how I love you ✭٭*

Nikolai Gogol x Gn!Reader

Warnings; rushed, not proof read

Description; surprising your boyfriend for his birthday?

A/N: JDBCUS THIS WAS SO RUSHED AND LATE I'M SORRY IF IT'S NOT GOOD AND THERE IS MISPELLS. IT'S A QUICK AND RUSHED DRABBLE FOR KOLYA'S BDAY SORRY BUT HAPPY BIRTHDAY KOLYA🎂🎉🍰🍭🍬

You woke up early today, and it was intentional. You wanted to surprise your boyfriend, not with some stupid April Fools joke but for his birthday. It was dumb of yourself to wake up at 6am to go gift shopping and get a cake but Nikolai has such a distinct schedule of sleep it's not funny.

You were roaming the store grabbing different things, you weren't sure what exactly to get him, he was a damn clown for fucks sake. You were looking through every aisle until you thought, the pom-pomson Nikolai's outfit and on the end of his braid was getting old.

You rush your way through the stores and make it to the pom-poms, you didn't think Nikolai cared what color so you ended up getting a variety pack. You sigh softly, the basket was filled with little goodies, pom-poms and the cake that read, "happy birthday, Kolya."

The cake was confetti with a silly clown iced on by the words. The sidings were covered in rainbow sprinkles with dollopes of icing circling the top and bottom. It was simple but thoughtful.

You hurry home it was around 7am now, Nikolai would wake up soon and "demand" the usual love and affection you always gave him. You set the cake in the fridge and grab a gift bag to put all the other goodies along with a handwritten card.

By the time you were done Nikolai had gotten up, making his way through the quiet house and now right behind you, wrapping his arms around your waist, nuzzling his face into your creek of your neck. "My dove, you weren't in bed, what're you doing up," he said, he seemed a bit more possessive than usual, maybe he just didn't sleep much.

"Where were you? You're always in bed at this time.?" He asked, his eyes were shut as he takes in the sent of your shampoo that lingered in your hair from last night's shower. "Oh, I went out to get some things." You said, his white haired man pulls away before he eyes the cake on the counter top, a smile spreading on his lips.

"Mhm? You went to go get a cake? For what?" He said cheekily, you knew he knew why you went to go get the cake just from his silly attitude he had and the way he was all giddy. "You know what, Kolya." You said with a soft chuckle, leaning into Nikolai's embrace.

"Yea I guess I do, sweetheart. I appreciate it, I really do." He said, kissing your neck softly. You reach over the counter and grab the gift bag, turning around so now you were face to face with your boyfriend before handing him the bag with a smile. He took the bag and rummaged in it, a bright smile on his face as he sees all the different sweets and the bright colored pom-poms.

"Awe, sweet cheeks, you shouldn't have." He said with a soft sigh, gently picking you up and placing you on the counter, his hands resting on your thighs rubbing up and down them slowly his finger tips grazing your inner thighs. "The pom-poms are very cute, I'll wear them everyday." He said with that usual bright smile he always gives you.

"Now how about we dig into that cake, and make I'll dig into you later." He said with a devious grin before he leans in, kissing you slowly. You kiss back, a soft hum coming from your throat as you close your eyes. "Happy birthday Kolya." You say against his lips, making him squeeze your thighs softly.

[chiliyue-archived]

Does he fuck or make love ?

Includes; Dazai, Chuuya, Ranpo, Kunikida, Atsushi, Nikolai, Fyodor

Tags; SMUT/NSFW, fem!reader. rough sex, biting, teasing, overstimulation, nicknames(Belladonna; Doll), pure filth

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Fucks

How can he resist when you're his cute little Belladonna? To DAZAI, your whines are like blissful bells to his ears, each moan causing his cock to twitch just the slightest bit in your mushy walls. Each time you look away from him, his nimble fingers go to the bring your face back towards his, chin grasped firmly with his fingers- and when he isn't busy keeping your attention, the pad of his thumb is making work at your core coaxing more whimprs fall from your mouth. Hickeys and blemishes of purple dots litter around your shoulders and inner thighs, his pace was relentless but you just felt so good. Even as tears start to prick at the corners of your eyes, Dazai pays little mind, he may even tease you for it- he came to recognize all your repsonses, he'll quickly become aware if anything was truly causing you discomfort. Afterall, his cock feels so warm and welcoming in your cunt, it was a wonderful opportunity to fuck you up.

" My my~ my sweet Belladonna, barely started and you're sobbing. Worry not, my darling- I'll make you feel good, just keep those pretty eyes on me alright~"

He's a little jerk that loves to see the sheer desperation in your face as you work yourself off his dick. RANPO is quite lazy and a tease at that, he'll make you work for it, laying down, hands behind his head(that or fumbling with your chest) all while your muscles strain to keep bouncing on his hard cock. He quite addicted to the sight befor him; your fucked out expression, lips glistened with drool all by your own doing. He makes you beg for it, telling him what it is you desire. Tongue clicking that you were 'simply giving up now?'But soon enough, his hands plant on your waist and he proceeds to thrust into you without any remorse. His smirk only grows at the mewls you make as his dick hits every right spot. And he adores how you prettily arch your back off the bed, arms reaching out to him for support. Even as you reach your release, his pace doesn't falter, the filthy sounds continuing to echo in the room. His mouth only adds to your torment, spewing out teases that turn your face a crimson red. Any attempts at shielding your burning cheeks is met with a gentle slap against your thigh.

" Don't coward now, Y/N~ not when your were just begging me to take over~ I must say you look adorable like this."

FYODOR loves to see you beg for his cock. He'll over stimulate you with his fingers, tongue, kneading your skin with greedy hands and he'll do this for hours. He pays little mind to your whimpers or how you feebly grabbed onto his shoulder for support. 'Tell what is it is you truly want, my dear.' He would say, lips lazily burshing agaisnt your cheek and fingers curling within your heat. At that point all you could do was babble his name incoherently, chest heaving as shivers ran down your spine at the immense pleasure. Fyodor would tut, you became so dumb with just his fingers alone, tears pricking your irises and thighs clenching together begging for more. Soon enough he'll have your legs wide open, bottoming out with just one thrust. That was in itself was enough to make you see stars, but Fyodor's hips were already setting a brutal pace slapping into you again and again and again. A smirk grew on his face as tears started to prick the corners of your eyes; seeing your fucked out expression becomes a sight that engraves itself in his brain forever, impaled and marked by him and him alone.

" You take me so well, darling. Now don't start crying, you were asking me to fuck you like this just a couple minutes ago. Now be a good little dear and take what I give you."

Makes Love

KUNIKIDA doesn't like saying he fucked you- no, the term is too vulgar and not a proper representation of the feelings he has towards you. Yes, he can rather rough- especially when you're brat- but in many instances, he's very attentive and places your own pleasure before his own. Even now that he has you all spread out against the mattress, his length deep within your most sensitive spots, his always being aware of your comfort. He's aware of his own strength, his cock can easily spear you in half and make tears run down your face, but unless provoked otherwise or requested by you, he keeps himself in check. He has a pace that makes you both feel good, his lips brushing your cheek whilst you mewl beneath him. Sweet nothings and praises drips from his voice at every chance he gets, making sure you know well just how good you make him feel; a low groan would escape him whenever you clench around him, fingers taking you vacant hand or drawing shapes at your cilt. His pace gradually speeds up, adoring the way you lock your legs around his waist. He wants to make he fulfill all your desires, afterall he feels good if you do as well.

"A-ah- you take me so well, my love. Such a good girl, taking me so well. Just a little more, okay? Just like that."

ATSUSHI finds every part of your body to mesmerizing; he always so gentle and careful when kneading at you skin, asking if 'this was okay?' Or 'do you feel good?' He reciprocated your red blush, setting a gentle pace enjoyable to the both of you. Small love bites littered your shoulders, areas in which you can easily cover up, only for his eyes to view alone; he would press chaste kisses to those marks his way of apologizing for being too rough. Soft moans and mumbles of praise would escape him whenever you carded your fingers through his hair. His eyes would pinch shut as gave his length kitten licks, his words of encouragementmeeting no ends. In intimate moments such as these, he finds himself subconsciously grabbing your hand, gently squeezing it as you both approach your high. Atushi gently wipes away your tears as he thrusts into you a bit harder, his thighs trembling with how deep he went. As he approaches his climax, the only coherent words were his expressions of 'I love you.'

" So good, you feel so- good. Ah- y/n, I- Love so much, I can't p-properly express it-! Please cum with me, please-"

Both?! Both !

He tries to be gentle(unless you otherwise wish for him to be rough) and make you feel so good and loved, but the moment you clench around his cock, CHŪYA loses all control. Your legs were wide, bascially folded in half beneath him. His thrust only speeds up, defined arms holding onto your hips- bruises were sure to form with his grip. But the moment tears prick the corners of you eyes, Chūya would pause. As much he was close to his own sweet release the last thing he wishes was for you to be in genuine pain. A chuckle would escape him as you mumble how good he made you feel, your words causing his dick to twitch, only adding to your pleasure with a whine. His hips resumed to rut against you, his lips connecting with many parts of your body; collarbone, chest, wrist. All before finally connecting with your lips, muffling your cries as you reach your climax. He may be rearranging your insides as his tip kisses your cervix and rubs on all the best spots, but that's how he shows he loves you.

" You must be addicted to my dick given the look on your face. If you keep squriming amd making those sounds, I won't be able to hold myself back. But thats maybe what you want, isn't that right Doll?"

It's quite difficult to read NIKOLAI'S expression, especially in heat of the moment when pleasure rocks through your entire body with each precise movement of his hips. Your face is buried within the pillows, your euphony of sounds muffled as his long fingers wrap around the curve of your neck. He applied menial pressure but it was enough to send jolts of pleasure and fear down your shine. How long have you been in this position? You've lost count. Perhaps it was cruel of Nikolai to make you continue like this, panting and grabbing the headboard for support; but the sweet moans and hiccups you echoed back at him- the way your tongue rolled his name when he thrusted into the right spot- it was addicting and he shamelessly succumbed to the pleasure. He would chuckle at the whimpers you make as his thrust grow harder, the sounds of your filthy actions echoing in the room. Purple and red crescent moons formed along the sides of your thighs where his fingertips gripped onto tightly. Along with forming blemishes came the display of bites along back of your neck. He would bite down hard and without worse, his cock twitching at your whines of pleasure and pain. But not matter, he will gladly lick away your tears while his words say the most meanest of things with a dabble of praise in between. But with how clench around his cock, he knows youre adoring it just as much. He could be unpredictable, but he knew how to make you so weak.

" My pretty darling, is the pleasure too much for you, hm~? But I must admit, you feel wonderful, clenching me around like that~ I feel as though I can do this all night. What do you say, care to test the limits~? "

[iridescentdove]

Helloo, I was thinking about a scenario with Nikolai and a twin sister reader who’s similar to Lynette if it’s possible. Tyy 💕

Nikolai Gogol x Lynette! Reader

Hello anon! I'm back ... again. I'm an on and off person in this app at this point lmfao. By the way, requests are closed for now everyone! But you can still ask me questions and other stuff. Let's start.

Lyney is a more reserved girl. She rarely talks to others out of her own accord, letting Lyney (in this case Nikolai) do the talking for her, and dissuades essentially any attempt to speak with her by saying bizarre responses. Whenever she needs to talk, she speaks briefly and frankly.

NIKOLAI GOGOL:

Both of you are literally the polar opposites, it's kinda funny. Nikolai is that one fun dude at parties and you're just the one sitting in the corner watching him like 🗿

Nikolai: dumb bitch

You: dumb bitch's caretaker and sister unfortunately but whatever

Honestly he's not annoying, he's actually just cheerful around you and loves to hang around you. He's one of those rare actual good big brothers! <3

Often you're very reserved and prefer to keep to yourself, so he does most of the talking.

He doesn't let you see Fyodor, or even breathe in his direction. We all know why. And i'm pretty sure even Nikolai is sane enough to know he won't let anything happen to you. You're his precious little dove, aren't you?

People find you two a fun duo ngl

Like, you're also his assistant when he does magic and you both are unintentionally goofy as hell.

It's not even a coincidence at this point, I can totally see this guy being Lyney. Imagine he's just being down bad for Fyodor and you have to drag him away like "not again bitch"

He fr needs to chill. Like we know you want to kill him but tf that light skin stare for 🤨

I'd like to think that both of you take the time out of your day to have some fun together. Given BSD is just death, death and more death.

I totally headcanon Nikolai to love amusement parks.

He cannot stop trolling. The moment you're not looking he's out here making children CRY

You have to drag him away to stop him from getting kicked out or something.

Nikolai isn't overprotective, but he's not chill either. I'd like to believe that he trusts you, but at some point if someone even so much as looked at you weird–

They'll be in the seventh circle of hell pretty quick.

He honestly loves how chill and seemingly reserved you are, the fact you're so patient with him, he appreciates a lot.

But will be very dramatic when it comes to showing love to you. Come on now, he's a clown. what did u expect

"My dear sister says she is on her period. I am too. It's uterUS." "That doesn't mean you can wear my PADS"

... 😐

Okay nevermind, sometimes he does get overbearing. But you guys are the perfect siblings anyway.

Sorry if I couldn't do a scenario, I had no idea what to do. Writers' block still has me.

[oikasugayama]

Helloooo! I love your posts and I was wondering if you could do one of your charts with the bsd men for when you’re anxious and if they’d be good at comforting you or if they’d try their best, tried but failed and if they’d be just straight up shit at it, hope you’ve had a nice day :3

I have a few similar requests for cheering you up when you're upset, so here are my general thoughts as someone who suffers from anxiety:

Fukuzawa has the wisdom to say something genuinely helpful and calming. He also helps you with mindful breathing and makes you some tea.

Nikolai, in one of his sentimental moods, teleports you to a calmer, more peaceful location where you can calm down and feel safer.

Junichiro tells you what helps him when he feels anxious, and he comforts you by relating and talking through the situation.

Chuuya doesn't really know how to help anxiety, but he asks questions and gets you to talk and work through what's bothering you. Oda also does this but with more experience (I just noticed he's in the wrong spot, he should be further left than Chuuya)

Ango can't do shit doesn't do shit. His own anxiety paralyzes him.

Kunikida technically tries to help but he ends up making you feel worse by telling you all the other shit you should be worrying about instead.

Atsushi really, really, really wants to help but the poor kid is the most anxious person you know so he ends up making himself anxious and then you feel bad for making him feel bad.

Mori surprisingly makes you feel a little better by just talking about other shit until you stop consciously thinking about what was bothering you. It's still in the background but not as intense.

Bram tells you not to worry and that all will be taken care of. To him he's not helping, but you believe that he really will take care of the situation on your behalf so it helps you to know someone is in your corner.

Poe offers you a new novel he was writing, so you get to play in a fictional world. It's the best distraction ever.

Sigma doesn't know what anxiety is so he has no idea how to help. He tells you you can use any of his resources and that's about it.

Dazai says he'll jump off the roof with you so you don't have to deal with it anymore, and it at least makes you giggle. He'll keep saying dumb shit and you don't doubt that he really thinks offing yourself is a solution, but you also don't take him seriously so the giggles help.

Ranpo says anxiety isn't real so just don't worry -_-

Mushitaro tells you some depressing ass story of a time he was very upset as well and it just fucking sucks.

Fyodor either tells you to look to the lord for strength (I am so not joking) or he finds a way to twist you being anxious into an argument about you not believing in his ability to protect you/have things go his way.

Akutagawa says he'll kill anyone or destroy anything that's upsetting you. You really don't dig the destruction and it makes you feel worse.

[kaeyx]

I have something to add the Yan!dazai who kicked you out after Stockholm syndrome imagine you're running through streets when your see him crying his eyes out only for him to disappear.."lucky" for you you have now caught an eye of certain clown and he thinks you're just the cutest thing ever!! He, look how better HE treats you!! You should start loving him back yeah pretty pleaseee? however Nikolai won't let you go so easily..

(wonder what Dazai would do in this situation..)

Ougjshj you'd be so scared at first because this is a stranger, he's not Dazai, doesn't have Dazai's voice or body or laugh. But he babies you like Dazai used to, he scoops you up and pats your head and pinches your cheeks, cooing at you like you're a pet. It's so painfully familiar you could cry.

And Nikolai is of course infatuated with you, pretty thing that cries so easily and hangs off his arm with that sweet, dumb look on your face. Who starts tearing up when he's out of your sight, it's adorable. He promises to never let you go like that meanie Dazai did, and he knows he'll keep that promise.

As for Dazai? Two ways. One he actually got tired of you and couldn't care less, even if he does find out. And two, he was considering picking you up again because you sound so cute crying like that, hoping he'll come back and take you away even though he treated you so badly. But he miscalculates and Nikolai snatches you up from right under Dazai's nose! Now he's annoyed, he lost his pretty doll and if he wants another he'll have to break them all over again.