#ngl though I am definitely not up to date lmao
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hello, how are you? I hope ur ok!!!
which of the txt members do you think would be more likely to date someone younger than them? like nothing out of legal age you know? but like, assuming Soobin is 25 and his partner is 21, that sort of thing.
I really hope this wasn't confusing, im so so sorry!! and I'm sorry if you felt uncomfortable in any way
im good how are you!!~ first of all i did a 4-6 year difference for all of them and i tried to keep it general. also sorry ik this is an old request lmao
txt most likely to date someone younger than them
warnings - none i don’t think…
genre - fluff, txt x gender neutral!reader,
this is just a personal opinion. feel free to dm me if there is anything that offends you, and please let me know if you would like me to elaborate on anything!
most
huening kai
taehyun
beomgyu
yeonjun
soobin
least
huening kai + taehyun
ngl i kinda feel like kai didn't really think about it...like it just didn't come to his mind. i feel like that could have been a big part of your relationship when you first met, cause he's just... UGH don't hold me to it but i feel like he doesn't think things through all the time...i love him sm though <333
TAEHYUN MAN HE'S JUST- would definitely say "age is just a number" if it ever came up in conversation. like if you were to ask him if it bugged him that you were younger than him, he would shut you up by placing a finger on your lips and shushing you till you gave up. stan terry
beomgyu
also didn't really think about it. it might be on his mind for a little bit, wondering if it does bug you without even asking for the months he thought about it. definitely scared himself 🤭😎
yeonjun + soobin
jjun would like it???? but again would be all "age is just a number" but since its him would include "i am your superior listen to me and obey all of my commands." would 100% tease the shit out of you.
NO SOOBIN- HE WOULD BE NERVOUS YOU WOULD THINK ITS UNCOMFORTABLE FOR YOU- oh gosh i feel like he would stress simself out if you were that much younger than him. thinking that he was too old then looking into the future when hes 100 youll still be in your early to mid 90's oop-
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I'm here for a blind date
Im so sorry for the late request 😭
I've lost track of the days and time.
I'm a 26 year old man, Gay, and I work as a mailman, tying to save up for college. I'm 5'8, wear glasses, brownish red shaggy hair, some stubble.
I'm very anxious, people pleaser, clumsy, kinda dense ngl. Someone can tell me something and it's not guaranteed to get through my brain. I'm not too smart lmao. I'm nice, generally willing to help anyone. I consider myself a hardworking, picking up slack, I don't leave things half-assed.
I do have some issues with trust, I'm generally overly cautious approaching any relationship. Whether it be platonic or romantic.
I like collecting pins, tinkering with things, birds, photography, comics, gardening, and interior design to an extent.
Congrats on 1.5k!
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💜 blind date 💜 the kitchen is now closed! 🔞minors dni🔞 • masterlist • kofi link • tag: finnie1500 (to follow or to block) a/n: is it normal to get jealous of you for a date i wrote? no? ok then💚
"Oh great! Hi! Welcome to the Vill-Inn. I'm so glad you're here and not at all annoyed because if you hadn't showed up I was going to steal your seat! Enjoy your meal, I guess."
A strange welcome, but when you get to your table, you realise why the wait staff might have been planning on swooping in and stealing your date. Sitting across from you is a mass of hulking muscles attached to a stoney, but handsome, face.
"I am... well, most people call me Bane."
He offers you his hand and you take it, surprised by how gentle the hold is, though it's clear he's making a very conscious effort to withhold his strength. Bane seems shy, and really self-conscious, and you suppose you would too if you were bigger and taller than everyone around you. But he is polite, and surprisingly sweet.
The first thing he says to you, beyond introductions, is how much he likes your glasses. It's clear that he's been thinking of a compliment that isn't invasive, or that could backfire. You can tell how anxious he is, being very anxious yourself, so you try and ease up the tension, saying thank you, apologising for being a bit awkward, giving the whole 'I'm very anxious' spiel.
"Oh. That's... me too. I suppose we can be anxious together, si?"
Bane asks how you ended up on a blind date, and you explain that you felt like meeting someone new. You usually find it difficult, given that you're quite cautious and have trust issues, but that you figured it couldn't do you any harm. And this seems to resonate with him.
"I don't have many friends, or other relationships. Trust is a difficult thing to come by."
As he opens up, you realise you both have a lot more in common than you even could have realised. Both clumsy, although for Bane it comes with his size and strength, both a little bit lacking in the self-confidence department when it comes to intelligence. And you can see him breaking into a small smile when you tell him that you hate half-assing anything.
"I can be relentless too. Although... I mean, I won't push you for a second date... unless you want to... have one?"
You definitely do, and you're even more excited when he asks if you'll go bird-watching with him. That way, you can show off your photography skills. He might describe himself as dense, but he's picked up on everything you've said over the evening, unable to focus on anything but you. A very good sign.
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Ngl , i am kinda all neutral about the girls, but seeing some people heated up about some small things like girls arriving to m&g to support boys makes me roll my eyes. Nobody had any complaints when Kat or Stas were involved in snc vids ( well stas wasn’t really c gf, but yk) , but somehow whatever those girls do is triggering the fans and making them think that “they are only using the boys”. I don’t wanna be that person, but if we are taking their logic ( which is not really logical) then it would be Kat & Stas who would appear more as the ones who tried to use anyone ( even though we know it is not true… at least definitely not Kat) , because neither M or K have been participating in anything that snc do. They haven’t been guests on the videos boys make ( though i think that would be interesting to see how they are) , they aren’t models for xplr merch like f.e Kat or stas were for some time . They are just there chilling and looking pretty.
i agree with you, anon.
i think a lot of the hate for the girls is extra forced. like you said, i'm also neutral on the girls. i don't hate them, i don't love them. but my opinion of them leans more positive than not.
does that mean i agree with every little thing they have probably done? no. but i'm not gonna hate them just bc they exist, which is what most of these bitter Bettys sound like to me at this point.
bc if you genuinely hate the girls bc of the meet and greet, where they were kind to fans, didn't take time away from snc, handed out goodies and snacks…. idk what to tell you. maybe you're a hateful person lol
and maybe you shouldn't take pride in being mean 🤷🏻♀️ but fuck me i guess sksk
and look, unless snc start dating girls that are full on famous, not just insta/influencer famous, whoever they are with will always benefit from the relationship. so at this point to me it's tiresome to trying and argue that the girls are using them and blah blah blah.
weirdly, no one cares about who's using snc when it's a guy. but when it's a woman, all of sudden everyone's the clout police lmao
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hiiii so you don't have to reply to this if you don't want but i'm so glad i found you. reading some of the comments about only friends has made me wanna bash my head against a wall and also made me question if i'm even watching the same series as everyone else?? i think the thing that gets me most is when people say that topmew's connection is "shallow" and top only wants him for sex which just baffles me cuz everything we have seen is quite literally the opposite. nevermind the fact that top has REPEATEDLY said he finds mew interesting and wants to date him...we also have him opening up to him about his past trauma and allowing mew to be there for him. and we also have him respecting mew's boundaries and if he does happen to misunderstand something he immediately backs off and apologizes. the contrast between the topmew and topboston scenes were literally staring us right in the face and some still don't get it??? it's exhausting and i feel like a lot of people didn't wanna give this couple a chance to begin with so now they are just saying anything to try and undermine them.
DING DING DING!!!!!!!!!!! (also hi omg thank u i'm glad you found me too💕💕💕💕💕💕 OF COURSE i had to reply to this you are spitting TRUTH, my anonymous friend!!!)
i kind of get it, they're trying to protect themselves from connecting with a couple they think are doomed by the "narrative" - of course, though, it's the narrative of the trailer that they're relying on, not the actual drama.
even so? even taking into account the trailer (which are often purposefully misleading!!!), shouldn't watching them be cute and hot be part of the fun? isn't their being sweet from the start what makes the "betrayal" more interesting? isn't not wanting to see them fall apart a more satisfying experience when they do? aren't we all looking forward to the angst?
i certainly am! i love angst! but angst needs some kind of foundation first. and the foundation that the drama is actually laying down is way more interesting than one or both of them being shitty from the start. it sounds so... joyless to watch them and assume that either of them are always lying or calculating or whatever.
there's definitely stuff that's hinky ngl we're going to get a twist, but i don't think it's anything like what we've seen from the fandom. what strikes me about all the wild fanon/headcanons/predictions is how insanely contrived they would be, even by BL standards lmao. or boring!!! omg top just being a bad guy from the beginning would be so boring!!!!!!!!
anyway, i'm rooting for them. no matter what, they're going to fall in love and no one can take that away from us *hair flip*
thank you for stopping by and giving me an excuse to rant about this again!!!! i love not shutting up about shit!!
#don't even get me started on how no one seems to care that sandray and nickboston are going to have huge fallouts too#and can enjoy them just fine without making up weird shit#anonymous#asked and answered#ofs liveblog
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Like, I'm technically bisexual
but
I'm so fucking gay.
Boys <3 (Feel free to read below, I just didn't want to clog up dashboards with a long ass post with my bullshit rambling lmao)
This is why I don't refer to myself as pan bc, yeah, I can be attracted to anyone, regardless of gender or presentation or anything,
but I've always been more attracted to guys.
Before I figured out I was trans, I knew I was queer somehow but the way I felt about guys didn't feel "straight".
I didn't feel like a girl who liked guys.
And that was hella confusing for a long time until I came across trans stuff online and started reading up and whatnot.
And then, I came out as a gay trans guy, which was perfect for a long while honestly,
but then I realized that I can be attracted to / have feelings for more than just guys so I thought maybe I was pansexual.
Ngl, I wanted to be pansexual because I felt that being bisexual was... looked down on? I guess.
For being "non-inclusive".
When pansexual first started becoming big, it was posed as being attracted to others regardless of gender and bisexual was attraction to guys and to girls. So I called myself pansexual for a while before I realized it wasn't right for me at all because I was so rarely attracted to people who weren't guys. So I went back to gay for a long long time until I forced myself to recognize my rare attraction to women and my attraction to butch / masc identified people who weren't guys.
I started confidently identifying as bisexual when I was around 27 years old, which was three years ago. And now I can very very confidently say that, although I AM bisexual, my attraction leans extremely heavily toward guys and that it is incredibly rare for me to be actually interested in anyone else. I can think a woman is hot but I'm not interested in dating a woman. At least, not right now. If I meet a woman who does click with me and draws me in, I'd for sure be open to being together, of course. I also find myself not really interested in sex? I've been thinking I'm on the asexual spectrum for a long time, honestly. My love languages are physical affection and spending time together and, though I do enjoy reading queer romance that involves sexual themes and sex (very much honestly!), if I think about myself being in those situations, it doesn't really do anything for me? It might be because I'm a virgin at the age of 30 or it might just be because I haven't met the right person OR I AM on the ace spectrum. I do find myself very sensual though. I ache to be held and to hold someone, to kiss them and cup their face in my hands, to lay on each other and to hear each other's breathing and heartbeats. Long, languid make outs and hand holding, being intimate. I adore all of it and I ache so so much for it that I cry sometimes lmao. But, sex? I don't know. It might also have to do with my dysphoria and body dysmorphic disorder, seeing as how I see myself as disgusting and I wouldn't want a partner to interact with my chest or anything lmao. So, maybe some day. I want top surgery for sure, but I'm still on the line between wanting to start T and not wanting to due to how the cis men in my family look. I'm already pretty androgynous and my body is husky. I don't want to lose my hair like the other men in my family and I don't want to get even more "masc" looking. I want to be a pretty, slightly masculine looking guy. And I also do not like being called a "man" because that's not me. I also have trauma related to men so there's that as well. I honestly don't know why I'm typing this all out, but it feels... Nice, to do so, I guess. I think I'm just lonely. 30 years old, no non-long distance relationships because I live in a still very-Conservative state. I'm a disabled bisexual trans guy who prefers guys. I don't have the energy to really go out and meet other queers because of my disability and my job sucking up all of my energy. I definitely don't hide the fact that I'm queer, it's pretty obvious lmao. I wear a pin at work with one half being the bi flag and the other being the demiguy flag with my name and "he/him" pronouns on it. I talk openly about being queer. I don't hide it, I just don't really make it a "thing", if that makes sense? But I'm just so achingly lonely. And I'm afraid that I'm going to die alone. I just... I have so, so much love to give. And I think I deserve to get some myself, y'know?
#bisexuality#bi awareness week#trans guy#demiguy#ace spectrum#asexual spectrum#disability#invisible disability#fibromyalgia#fibro#queer#queer writer#wtf else do I tag this as#idek lmao#mine
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Hi there!! I haven’t been in reading ac fic for a few months (I got very burned out, and I had low spoons and the only thing my brain could concentrate on was my fav movie, Tron: Legacy, so I watched that 20 times and then went through the Entire Ao3 Tag, front to back, back to front, I think I’ve read all of it at this point), but!! Today I started to slowly get caught up on your fics. I am now up to date on Eagle of Alamut and absolutely I am in love with it so so so much. I just. Ugh. Everything about it is so good. (I also love that you have it tagged as probably not a slow burn and it’s 60k+ and they haven’t met yet lmao. It’s a slow burn, but not because they are dancing around each other but cause they haven’t met yet lmaoooo).
I then read The Assassin, The Ghost, and The Heir, which was. Really good lol. I haven’t played GoT yet (I want to tho), and so I think the characters where a bit hard to follow for me personally, but I love all the moments with Darim and Desmond, and I loved Darim’s pov a lot.
And I’m probably gonna put Beloved Moon on my kindle to read, tomorrow?? Or maybe tonight who knows, I am in a reading mood, and my insomnia has been acting up so I’d probably have an update for you at like. 3 am lmao. (You might not remember me, but I was that anon who read The King, and the entirety of fiat mihi in one day, back before it had Altair’s pov chapter. So yeah. I read Fast. Oof).
I am, right now tho, rereading The Second cause it’s one of my all time favorite fics ever. And then I might reread Project Eurydice, cause those are also some of my favorites of all time, lol. A lot of your fics are on my favorites list 😅🥰
Ahhh, anyway, all this to say thank you for making such amazing fics!! I love them all so much, my favorite trope is time travel fix it, and you always do it so well <3 <3 <3 I’m also just giddy that my dumb adhd brain is letting me read AC fic again, and I guess I wanted to share, oof. Sorry for rambling at you, and I hope your week goes well!! 🖤🖤🖤
I’m glad you’re feeling better and please focus on your health first. My fics will always be there for you whenever you feel it. :)
Oh man, the ‘slow burn’ in Eagle of Alamut. Yeeeeaahhh… I’ve had comments about how it should count as a slow burn already. XD
I still remember I read one that was like: ‘this is hardcore slow burn, other slow burns wish they were this slow, and slow burn goals’ and I’m like “It’s… I mean… it’s not like I’m sure yet just how fast and how hard Altaïr is gonna fall in this one but… uuuhhh…”
I promise, if it takes a while for Altaïr to fall, I’ll change the tag to “holy shit it is slow burn i’m so sorry” XD
(But, teecup, when will Altaïr appear?) Uuuhhh… I might… be planning to do it… in a specific special date? Maaayybbeeee???
I’m glad you enjoyed The Assassin, The Ghost, and The Heir, I really enjoyed writing Darim’s POV and his interactions with Desmond (if you can, you should play GoT. It’s a really good game… although I don’t have any leg to stand on with my opinion since I grew up watching Kurosawa Akira films so the bias is definitely there. Even the PS4 version is so beautiful. If you can’t though, watching let’s play with or without comments is an alternative you can look into :) It’s very old timey samurai movie vibe).
Oh man, then I hope you enjoy quickly reading all the fics you haven’t read yet, hahahaha.
Aaawww, I’m so happy to read that and it always makes me smile knowing you guys reread the fics I write. The Second is probably one of my personal favorite Yew Branches but that’s mainly because it’s the first one I wrote and I had so much fun writing Desmond getting such a loving family. (Also, I’m a sucker for Darim and Desmond interactions of any kind XD)
Oh, man. Project Eurydice. Ngl, Old Master is still one of my favs mainly because it’s a 50k fic all posted in one chapter and it’s the only fic that AO3 was like “hey, dude, I know you’re trying to update but I can’t, there’s too much, you’ll be seeing this error-try again later page a lot, sorry, man”. It’s the main reason why any fics that exceed 30k get the multichapter fic treatment. (sometimes, I do still think if it should be better if I edit it to be multichaptered instead). I had hoped to write a new fic set on that one around Ratonhnhaké:ton’s birthday but April was… well… March and April were not cooperating with me this year. Maybe some other time. We’ll see XD
Feel free to ramble all you want here in my ask box or even in AO3. I always try to answer them with a bit of a ramble of my own XD
#ask and answer#no but seriously#i made a promise to myself never to delete any fics#even if i am no longer in that fandom or i don’t like it anymore#because they might become my dark history but they are my history nonetheless
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LMAO I just saw all the master lists on my feed and they look CLEAN im crying the Karasu one being filled is so funny but also talk about a blessing to Karasu nation
SHREK AND FIONA LMFAOOOOOO WAIT SO REAL I’ve also never watched shrek in its entirety I’ve only watched like clips of it in passing?? Never took the time to actively sit down and watch the whole movie oops that would actually be hilarious though and LMAOO SATOSUGU COSTUME wait nagi Lowk is perfect as Gojo though soooo
Manifesting we both return to normal too this is not fun LMAO it’s ok once the sickness goes away the inspiration will be back x10 stronger trust….
FRRR wait also speaking of im just realizing they skipped over the entire fight scene between Rin and Shidou after the first match????? Not that I care THAT much abt those two but I WANTED TO SEE OTOYA AND KARASUS REACTIONS????? Maybe they cut it there and decided to add that extra scene in ep1 but I’m lowk not happy about that but it is what it is I guess….
KIDNEY BEANS LMFOAJS that’s too funny and now that you mention it I see the vision…but fr maybe they just said Barous special like that so he gets his own color LMAO
Anything next to Karasu bfb looks small LOLLL ok but the kiyora fic was fr so cute…the fact that you basically hit all his main personality traits before pwc and the egoist bible drop though is CRAZY
frrr you can really feel the quality over quantity with kyoani it’s just >>>> also FR also the reason why I basically never watch the isekai genre too (I also just don’t enjoy the one piece art style on top of the way the women are drawn like…)
LMAAOOAA no because it’s actually such an entertaining dynamic but it’s funny cause we see like Karasu and yuki like high giving or something mid match too like canonically we don’t see beef but the dynamic matches their characters so well but wait the subgroups you’re making are cooking omg imagine tabishoken….thats just my lineup of gentlemen like hello??? Also YEAH I am surprised we don’t see much interaction with yuki and Karasu or others in general tbh (maybe it had something to do with his one track mind mindset from the ln because of his eye issues?) wish we had more I need more filler eps honestly also otoya bachira Shidou would probably cause property damage they’d be so out of pocket and chaotic LMAOO
YUKI AGENDA FULLY IN MOTION he was just too beautiful I WAS JUST GONNA BRING UP IGAGURIS FANTASY BECAUSE I FORGOT TO LAST TIME LFMOAAOAAOOAOAIAHSIAOAOAA THAT WAS SO FUNNY FR LIKE WTF the way he imagined Rin smiling and standing all proud like igaguri was his right hand man had me SENDING Shidou as a wingman would be an experience itself like the lead up of prepping for the date would be insane (imagine rseu after oaeu jkjk unless….)
Mmm yuki fic…ok but wait that cast is kinda dangerous wdym Barou as a guard and Karasu taking over yutas role um….that looks like prime swerve material…/j LMAO wait I’m ngl I actually kinda forgot about hollyhock and peregrine while listing that out (clearly) SHDGSHSHS my bad but also wait your workload/plans are kinda insane
ME TOO no because I never would’ve imagined all of our twin moments either like this is insane…Karasu really bringing people together LMAO
- Karasu anon
HAHAHA OMG YAYY i’m glad you like them!! i didn’t want to do smth too complicated given how many characters i’ve written for and probably am still yet to write for…like i know for a fact i’ll need to make barou, yukimiya, and noel noa ones in the future so i didn’t want smth that would waste a ton of time but this is just a simple divider + recolored manga panel (plus unicode for the masterlist label) so it’s really easy to make while still looking nice!!
HAHAH no me too i feel like i generally know what happens in it because of pop culture but when i was younger i didn’t really watch a lot of movies or anything so i never actually watched it!! but omg i just think a shrek and fiona costume for miraeita would eat so hard he would definitely think it’s hilarious (bonus points if we make karasu come with us as the donkey) and HELP satosugu costume with nagi is actually too fire i fear he’s literally the same height as gojo too and he has the pale hair and he’d probably be chill with wearing the outfit becuase it’s just black clothes LMAOAOAO stroke of genius right there
we can only hope 😭🙏🏻 this weekend is halloween weekend so i know for a fact i will be offline because i will be #partyingitup…developing lore most likely 😩 if any guys bother me i’m telling them i have a boyfriend and showing them yukimiya though i am not in the mood after the last time i went out ended up being the basis for the kiyora oneshot 😓
yeahhh i noticed that too i wanted to see karasu being salty and otoya making fun of them…it does feel like they replaced it w the scene in episode one but also i feel like it does a disservice to shidou’s character?? because in the manga they get in a fight because they can’t agree on scoring goals whereas in the show shidou just randomly jumped rin for like no reason SDKFHJS
IT’S LITERALLY THE SAME SHADE AS UNCOOKED KIDNEY BEANS i can’t stop laughing sae slander is so funny but yeah ig barou is just that guy no one can top him or copy him or even that close 😤 speaking of barou i cannot wait for his goal in the u20 match they better put every single drop of their budget into that idc about isagi’s goal or the rin v sae showdown or shidou or whatever just give me five seconds of absolute glory from barou and do justice to the celebration with him nagi karasu (and ig isagi is there too but idc abt him) and i will be happy
HAHAH it’s funny because compared to most of my stories for other fandoms (anything from aot, pomegranate ink, hurricanes/hummingbirds, my one atla fic) karasu bfb is pretty short?? like back in the day i could’ve finished that in a week MAX LMAO i’m getting unproductive 😓 it’s the fall slump happens every year but trust once winter hits i’ll be hit with insane inspiration and write something soul crushing and life changing like pomegranate ink again
yeah the op art style is not for me idk how people simp for characters from it SDKLFJH on the whole i’m more picky about art styles than animation because that’s what matters to me more than the quality of the animation hence why i would rather watch smth like bllk than op even if the animation for op is technically better LMAOOO and yeah i have literally never watched an isekai anime all of my isekai knowledge for the aegislash arc/hollyhock rin is based on those korean villainess manhwas where i’m also really picky about the art style but there’s so many of them that it’s possible to do that
THAT’S WHAT I’M SAYING like we have a lot of canon evidence of karasu messing with other guys (apparently he was yelling at bachira for being naked and making fun of tokimitsu for not being confident during the day before u20) i think yukimiya is like. the ONLY character we actually never see him slandering or saying anything mean to actually?? probably because there’s nothing TO make fun of SKJDHF but yeah so basically the beef is actually just entirely made up by me but it just always ends up making so much sense that i can’t stop adding it in
LMAO no because karasu barou yukimiya are like the responsible cool adults of bllk (barou = strict father that lowkey also spoils his kids, karasu = problematic fun uncle, yukimiya = role model rich uncle) they would get along so well meanwhile bachira shidou and otoya would be insanely problematic it would just be shidou and bachira randomly getting into beef with strangers and otoya cheering them or like it would otoya trying to teach shidou how to rizz people or smth and bachira critiquing even though he has ZERO experience with which to be critiquing KSLDJFH
SHIDOU IS LIKE AN ANTIWINGMAN TBH LMAOAOA like imagine him introducing a girl to karasu…karasu’s already like bro i am not hearing you out whoever you’ve brought for me is going to be insane if they willingly talk to you 😭 omg wait rseu where it’s the opposite of oaeu and shidou WANTS to set his teammates up with girls and be involved with their love lives but no one trusts him so they’re like “GO AWAY” and he’s like “NO SHE’S PERFECT FOR YOU HEAR ME OUT PLSPLSPLS” and somehow he’s actually right?? like he guess their perfect types every time but no one wants to admit it…wait and instead of aiku + niko we have charles as shidou’s sidekick and instead of being an unpaid intern charles actively makes things more difficult for shidou by ruining his reputation with the bllkers further and making them even less inclined to listen to him
THAT’S LOWKEY WHAT I WAS SAYING like as much as i love yukimiya having karasu and barou also being royal guards would have me SWERVING SO FAST for literally both of them 😭 like serious but gentle guard barou and sassy but talented guard karasu who likes to joke around to make reader feel better when she’s upset??? HOW CAN YOU EXPECT ME NOT TO FALL FOR HIM i think atp if i’m writing for any other character i need to just not even include karasu or nagi in the stories because i WILL swerve for them 100% of the time…barou’s on thin ice i think if it’s just him though i could stay loyal to yukimiya 🤔 wait ykw maybe we should just make the side characters opps so there’s no chance of swerving SLDKJFH change of plans yuta’s role is now going to be isagi and barou is going to be gagamaru (not an OPP per se but irrelevant to the miraverse) /hj okay maybe barou can stay but karasu has got to GO alright wait and instead of otoya as inumaki i’m throwing hiori in because he kinda fits better tbh (he’s not QUITE as mischievous as inumaki but giving hiori a joking side is more believable than giving otoya a serious diplomatic side yk)
HELPP i haven’t even updated peregrine since june and hollyhock since july so i don’t blame you for forgetting abt them anyways yeah the workload is a bit crazy rn hence why i’m trying to not have too many new ideas 😭 also side note ever since posting my masterlists i’ve gotten so many new followers i guess because they probably showed up in the character x reader tags?? so all of my older one shots from the summer are getting revivals (ex fwtkac) which is kinda funny…yk what’s truly insane actually is how popular OTOYA’S bfb is?? i thought the karasu version would be the one that more people read but i think besides seabird the otoya version of bfb might be my bllk fic with the most notes (i’d have to go through and check for sure but yeah) lowkey insane but no complaints ig
REAL i still think it’s crazy how we’re always syncing up…anyways i know i sent you a bazillion tik tok links in the second ask i responded to yesterday (which actually i posted that right as you sent this so ig we were online at the same time LMAO) but here are a few more because the edits are going crazy atm
BAROU EDITTTT bro i feel like i NEVER talk about him outside of our convos but i love him sooo much he’s so fine i don’t understand how he doesn’t have so many more fans
this is fr the audio that plays in my mind when yukimiya comes on the screen LMAOO
THE WAY THEY MADE YUKI SMIRK AGHSHHDSJKSJDNDD thank you 8bit THANK YOU 8BIT 🤩🤩🤩
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(embarrassing) rant on friends under the cut
feeling very petty recently because I have been avoiding two of my girlfriends lately. very very close friends of mine, I’d say they’re the closest I have to best friends at this stage in life although we have known each other ~2 or 3 years. faith-wise, our values are very v different and I just ignored that initially cause we had lots in common besides that and they were basically there for me and I for them. since Ramadan though I’ve just been craving someone to have “deen talks” with (iykyk) so I have been praying for righteous companions/friends since then. now, when I prayed for this I didn’t know whether my friends would become more religious or I would be granted new friends that have the same values as I do but I have noticed that our friendship has been fading, feeling less intense in my heart atleast. I don’t know how I feel about that. I feel like a lot of our friendship hinged on stuff we did for the plot and discussing about that (dating apps, going on dates, talking stages, etc etc) and now that I have just taken a breather from any and all talking stages or putting myself out there, the group chat is so dead 💀 like its sad. and funny thing that may have caused me to feel guilty about this is the fact that since forever i have been the one out of the three of us that was obsessed about getting married soon / finding a SO. one of my friends claimed marriage was not for her, the other was so-so ; she wouldn’t worry about it , it wasn’t a priority but she eventually wanted to (we were all single). In a lovely turn of events, life (god) works miraculously, the one that claimed she would never get married got married this June masha Allah and the other is getting married next month. when I think about the fact that I’m distancing myself from them I wonder whether it’s because I feel any jealousy or bitterness at all (god forbid) but really, I can honestly say no because I feel like over time I’ve just lost the desire to actually get married. I’m so comfortable at this stage in life that change, even a good change makes me reluctant to embrace it. sure everyone wants to be loved lmao but no I am not jealous of the fact that they found their life partners , they definitely deserve the best. another thing being the fact that they did nothing for my birthday this year, after consistently throwing a celebration every year after we’ve become friends. it’s a given for us to throw a celebration each year for each of our birthdays, and ngl considering I turned 25 this year I was looking forward to hanging out with them and taking nice pictures, eating cake and all. literally a few days before my birthday I was showing them a video and saying I wanna do this on my birthday! So they’d know I was excited/looking forward to it but yeah, it’s been two months and they haven’t reached out to even meet up. but yes they did wish me on my birthday. and yes I do feel embarrassed that I feel bad that they did not celebrate my birthday bc ofc they aren’t obligated to 💀 anyway, they’ve been asking to meet up and I’ve just been stalling because I just feel like my hearts not in it anymore ;-; and ever since they got married / got into a relationship, (I understand life would change, their priorities would change too) it just feels like they don’t have anything to talk about with me 🤷🏽♀️ hence why the group chat is dead , cause maybe I was the one that kept it alive all along.
Like I said, a very petty and self centered rant.
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Duuude I also definitely will main this character so I made myself a PBE acc and I am telling you rn, that man will need 7000 buffs to actually have utility in team fights, I was doing 1v1s against standard mid lane stuff and seeing what items he'd use and the like but honestly? His W+Q needs a buff bc there's NO WAY that the fucking AP it takes at max lvls and with full build will only increase 15%. IT GOES FROM 30% TO 45% AND THEN?? that shit is nowhere near a taxi (legit any character with Youumus will beat him) to team fights and his shield is also super weak like an EKKO AD not even AP had a stronger shield and even though Hweis increases over time if you stand in the circle its still weaker because by the time your shield increases the base one it gives as soon as you pop W+W will already have been torn through by whoever you're fighting against, although he does have a pretty good dmg in the rest of his abilities but the like hooming thing his E+W has barely does that, ik swains doesn't do that but at least Swains W is almost global, like, the range on the E+W is smaller than Q+W 💀 it should be switched ngl
I'm guessing someone will say, like a Dev, that if you want a better shield then build supp items but Hweis PRIMARY role is mid lane and uh a Katarina is definitely tearing through that micro shield in a Q+E plus if you just stand in the circle the Kata can set up her R right beside it or do a lil dive and dip💀💀💀💀 and yeah there's a fear but the hit box is nearly skinnier than Zoe's Q, which also, fears can get absolutely ignored by most assassin, that fear is NOT getting a Katarina, Ekko, Fizz or Zed off of you babe
200 years of game design moment (also Briar received 3 buffs after her initial release date)
Me (yes i got obsessed w the character): 🤓☝️
bro i love your analysis omg??
but you’re actually so right abt his shield bc, yeah, while it does stay as long as you’re on the circle THAT DOESNT MEAN SHIT IF IT BARELY PROVIDES ANY ACTUAL SHIELD?? plus i quite dislike how stationary it is for the little shield it actually gives. like its ABSOLUTELY PERFECT when i need to stay still and type “karthus, dear, would you be so kind to grant us the privilege of an ultimate? my enemy laner is quite low” BECAUSE I CANT PING IT ANYMORE
okay i just watched matty’s video and u can now ping ults so long as the cd is 50>
mb i have beef with phreak.
LMAO IM JUST IMAGINING KARTHUS ULTILNG AND HWEI CROWDING HIS ADJACENT TEAMMATES INTO THE CIRCLE LIKE SERAPHINE W FOR THE MOST MINUSCULE OF SHIELDS
hey, at least he tried
when i tested him in pbe i only ever used his w spellbook for w
that being said, you’re completely right abt assassins, as an assassin player myself🤓 (i play varus and talon, dabbling in just a hint of zed)
that tiny ass shield is NOT protecting his squishy ass from anyone and that fear is not keeping anyone with any sort of mobility from closing the distance
outside of his overall kit, i quite like his vfx and sound design. watching his moves go off is just satisfying idk
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OKOKOK EP TWO AND THREE CLEARED. Keisuke is unbeatable I Am Positive I kept fucking pausing to GIF this and that and I swear I've never had this many GIFs on the hard drive 😭😭I need to hunt him for sport [AFFECTIONATE] Pleeeease drop the Cutest Tsutsumi Characters list... I must know...
DON'T REMIND ME OF TSUTSUMI'S POSSIBLE RETIREMENT I'LL MISS HIM SO BAD 😭😭😭😭😭that aside :] he's a nice man I respect him :] To Say The Least... OH BUT he did some dialect work in Kagerou Touge [only as the transgender chicken he plays not his actual character], Bali Big Brother, Tonbi, First Penguin, and uhhhh Jo's Singular Line LMAO [not all Kansai exactly IIRC but more Kansai-adjacent than Kanto]. Kagerou and First Penguin are my faves though methinks
DEFINITELY CHECKING OUT THE MOVIE WHEN I GET THE CHANCE... very intrigued about how it does things differently and of course the Snap Seal Of Approval means a great deal to me...
Kase is SUCH a bitch in the anime and manga perhaps especially Because he did have potential as a voice of reason but he's just being a hypocrite and abusing his knowledge of the situation; he's able to justify it only because he's Not Forty-Five Which Would Be Creepy But Twenty-One Is Fine Dude Trust Me which... is pretty real NGL guys like that do exist... in the same vein, on one hand I do want him to face some sort of consequence, but on the other hand I guess it's also pretty real for him to be able to get away with it. I Guess.
If nothing else I do really appreciate that episode for the contrasts between how Kase and Kondo act on [basically] the same "date," and how Akira reacts. Like OBVIOUS what the message of the ep is given Akira's thing with the pamphlets but let me cook... 'Cause Kase is conventionally attractive, he's not [as far] out of her age range [although he's still DECIDEDLY out of it], and a lot of girls who don't know any better would be thrilled to be pursued by a "cool mature guy" like him, but Akira cannot stand any of it. But with Kondo, the complete opposite, who is totally unattainable, she feels safe and comfortable.
Even so, she re-enacts Kase's behaviors on her "date" with Kondo, because that's what she knows and kids mimic the adults in their lives whether they know it or not, and it's largely by her own self-restraint that she doesn't go in for that kiss at the end and things don't end as badly as they could... MANY thoughts... head full...
BUT YEAH. NO. YEAH. The last couple eps go SO hard and for WHATTTTT 😭😭😭😭😭Haruka and Akira got me so fucked up... Haruka winning that black cat for her coinciding with Akira starting to back off from Kondo and rekindle things with Haruka instead... the rumor WAS real... uuuuugggggghhhhhhhhhhh
And CHIHIRO MY FRIEND CHIHIRO good god spending the whole fucking show thinking Kondo was just reminded of his wife or some girl-who-got-away by Akira... and then he picks up the book and It's No Help because Chihiro is a gender neutral name... AND THEN TURNS OUT IT'S HIS BOY BEST FRIEND REPRESENTING HIS YOUTH AND HIS PASSIONS AND IT'S ALL IN PARALLEL TO HARUKA AND AKIRA UUUUUGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
OK that is enough for now I promise I will actually send in something RGG-related at <3 Some Point <3 SORRY to anyone having to scroll past these last couple of asks lmao
THATS WHAT IM SAYING literally my number one selling point for this show at this point is Keisuke Is The Cutest Old Man In Media Ever Please Witness Him. on the subject of Cute Men though the Cute Tsutsumi Chara list is relatively small since most of his roles evidently has him p serious or. Heinous. so like. top five's like:
1.) Keisuke (Tsuma, Shogakusei ni Naru) 2.) Saenai (Super Salaryman) 3.) Nobata (Not Quite Dead Yet) 4.) Ikegami (Why Don't You Play in Hell) 5.) Tsugaru (Hero SP)
a very hard list for me to make considering i think he has plenty of cute roles (if not just cute moments) in one way or another but..... thems the ones that had me going (´◡`ʃ♡ƪ) the most..
BUT WHAT DO YOU MEAAAN NOT TO REMIND YOU YOU TOLD ME ABOUT IT FIRST (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)(;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) an important thing to remember anyhow.. maybe in the future he can direct movies that feature other cute middle-aged men (❁´◡`❁) greatly doubt any others will ever compete with The Paragon Of Middle-Aged Dudes but they can try...
you had me at Trnsgender Chicken huh. OH BUT YEAH i figured hiroshi was kansai-esque with his mannerisms/speech. bali big brother was one of the movies on my To-Watch list so i know what to look into this week now (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)
OH BUT I THOUGHT YOU SAW THE MOVIE i watched it ahead of time because of that ☠️☠️ BUT i look forward to you checkin it out !! again its p different tonally in some parts, esp with the vibe to haruka and tachibana's relationship (tho of course the underlying issue of their rocky friendship still exists, its just not as evident as it was in the anime).
AH BUT YEAH i appreciate kase for what he does as a narrative device and as a character in THAT regard i really like him: serving as a cautionary reality for people like tachibana who could be taken advantage of if around the wrong people while he simultaneously acts as though he knows what's best for her (and again, he has a point in her and kondo's age difference being egregious, but he's not exactly sailing on smooth waters either). with that in mind i appreciate that aspect of him didn't overstay it's welcome (for multiple reasons of course LMAO)
NOOO BUT HARUKA AND TACHIBANA'S RELATIONSHIP MENDING BY THE END THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I WAS THINKING TOO especially when they showed off haruka had her lil cat bro hanging on her bag.. and it was that hot-pink color to balance out the black one tachibana had (very kuromi/melody core if you ask me).... it really was super sweet that kondo and haruka got to mend their past relationships by the end of the anime like AAA it was SOOO good the build up and execution and eveything.. and i LOVE how the anime ends with the implication kondo and tachibana will start to really work on their aspirations- i always like those endings more than the ones where we see them already succeeding (❁´◡`❁)
AND YEYEYE THAT'S WHAT I THOUGHT THE BUSINESS WITH CHIHIRO WAS GONNA BE TOO !!!!! IT WAS DEFINITELY INTENTIONAL ME THINKS LIKE ugh... AtR is masterful as all hell for everything it does i truly loved it a lot...
#long post#snap chats#my seal of approval is worth something... and what if i said Teehee LMAOO#BUT i do hope you enjoy it (❁´◡`❁) it might not have tsutsumi in it but yo oizumi certainly does a great job as kondo me thinks#with it being live action and Just A Sprinkle more serious than the anime tachibana isn't as comedically explosive anymore#but she can still be curt. i was a lil upset that yoshizawa and nishida didnt keep their cute relationship#but again i get it.. we only have so much time and we dont wanna bounce around with the focus#again there are some changes that made me like. Hm. BUT nothing i hated#LIKE HOW THEY CUT OUT TSUBU LIKE NOOOOOO MY LIL MAN..... but ill live i suppose....#and again there were changes i DID enjoy- like for one thing i like how tachibana's mom is actually here LMAO#but ill save all that for when you finish the movie 🤭 i hope you enjoy ! and i hope you enjoy the rest of tsuma ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶#moving on... ye neednt tell me how you respect mr tsutsumi... i am aware no worries friend..#with that in mind it is hard makin my Cute Tsutsumi Charas list...#'snap you put ikegami on the list' i did. because he was cute and silly and just a lil quirky#i was gonna put hiro on the list but then i remember how most of the time i wanted to hit him with a trout#he's still cute to me tho but tsugaru's just a flavor of awkward that i really thinkg is endearing#hiro's cute in that he's a stubborn old man who's still earnest. also he loves his wife and Wife Guys always get points#but alas... his wife isn't around anymore so we don't get to see that much.. have to deduct some of those points...#i also thought toru (pure) was cute but he's more Brooding cute and his cutest moments are with yuka#and i wanted to keep the list limited to Cute Mostly On Their Own#BUT ANYWAY. ENOUGH OF THAT BEFORE I GO ON TOO MUCH.#i couldnt find any of the other kansai-infused media.. i tried looking for tonbi but i wasnt sure which one he was in#and when i checked the cast list of either of them i didnt find him credited.. i COULD just check his imdb but. laziness is an illness yk..#potentially lying on the bali plans too... KA only has the raw footage but i COULD try to 47 Ronin In Debt my way through it...
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(Marks an X on the calendar going till Sunday where you read on red pen" Skye' Sky fic") - no pressure with the date..
Your first interactive-anon??? I am special! 🥳 (that is definitely going to go over my head). I should get a better anon-name than two dots for when you become utterly famous 🤔
Spicy chips?? That must be good, i love spicy food.... On the beach we usually have boiled and buttered corn, grilled cheese or fish and fries. Come and I'll share my food with you 😌
I will drink one 🍹 just for you tomorrow <3. And you... hm... well... read one less boring finance themed chapter for me? 😬
I have no clue what subject you study.. like... Marketing returns? Sociology of money making? How to declare your earnings III, aka Better Call Saul Season 2? Tell me the name of the book you have on the far right corner of your desk? (don't cheat!).
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“skye’s sky fic” is a thrilling title ngl i wanna use it😭 i am bad at coming up w titles so i mostly name them after song lyrics lmao
ahaha you can choose any name you like anon! the two dots are adorable to me tho :)
BOILED BUTTERED CORN SUPREMACY TBH ITS CORN A BIG LUMP WITH KNOBS IT HAS THE JUICE ~it has the juiiiceeeee~ I CANT IMAGINE A MORE BEAUTIFUL THING🫶🏻🫶🏻 i can be a little annoying something hgbgjd
okay dokay i’m gonna skip a stupid chapter today tho HAHAHA i am well familiar with the entire book except for the one chapter i’m skipping it sounds boring anyways.
i study a variety of subjects and they keep on changing with every semester. here, i’m talking about my supplementary degree, not the professional one. there are like six semesters currently i am studying basics of microeconomics (like theory of demand, theory of supply, etc.) some of the other subjects include business studies, law, taxation, accountancy, and so on. sorry for talking too much, i don’t like leaving out details😭
though, the book on the far right corner of my desk is sense and sensibility by jane austen LMAOSJHSBK
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Ok ok ok, so has anyone thought about the fact that after TFW escape the zombies and there's a quiet moment, Cas will realize that the only reason Chuck kept resurrecting him was just to watch him fail over and over because it was entertaining to him? And that when he died that last time, Chuck must not have felt like bringing him back because he was bored with him and without Jack he would have stayed dead? Which means that his dad cares even less for him than he already previously thought?
(Of course Dean would comfort Cas when he admits that he doubts the point of existing anymore)
Ooft, you have a good point, and that sounds like a very tough realisation to have. Poor Cas :/
#ask emma#ngl though I am definitely not up to date lmao#probably not the best person to send your s15 theories to#zaffrefic
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GOD I'M FINALLY HEREEEE
Something is happening here. The tension in the room crackles with more electricity than the storm outside. You make your way to the couch, blanket tight around your shoulders, and settle in next to him, a good five inches away.
so we're sitting together in a dark room at 3am and listening to the storm huh... interesting... i wonder what could happen... interesting...
“No fucking idea,” he says. His arm slides a little on the couch as he shifts, coming to rest on your shoulder, his hand hanging behind you. You wiggle to give him room, his forearm cushioning your cheek as you look at him.
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You both laugh at yourselves. Namjoon’s hand closes over your shoulder blade, ever so gently pressing you closer to him. You wonder if he can feel your heart hammering against your ribs.
ohh we're so close now?? when did we get this close?? i'm definitely not complaining tho
“Yeah,” you say quietly. “I’ve been there.”
He looks at you, then. “Do you want to talk about -?”
“No,” you say firmly. “Right now I very much do not.”
YEAH namjoon we're here to talk about your problems and your problems only! leave our issues alone <3
“I could say the same to you,” you point out in a whisper. Namjoon’s laptop shifts into sleep mode, the screen going dark, leaving you both lit only by the streetlight outside. There’s only the sound of the pounding rain, the low rumbles of thunder, for one beat, two beats. Then you’re crawling into his lap, lips seeking his, hands on his shoulders for balance, blanket forgotten behind you.
i kid you not i literally gasped. i BLINKED and suddenly they're kissing oh my god i did not expect this turn of events but i am so here for it oh my god jesus lord get it honey! oh my god what does it mean. where do they go from there. THEY LIVE TOGETHER 😭
When you finally break to breathe, you gasp for breath against his neck. He holds you tight, both arms around your middle, like he’ll try to keep you there if you bolt. Like he expects you to bolt.
i expected her to bolt too ngl 😭
How, if he did what she asked and met up to talk, he’d be falling right into those old patterns - Elyse says “jump” and Namjoon says “off what?”.
i gasped again bc this line was SO GOOD JO WTF 😭 "jump." "off what?" YOOOOOOO SHUT UP 😭
You said you like him, and he believes you. But it doesn’t remove what he can see clear as day - Taehyung was there first, Taehyung takes up most of your heart.
i'm sorry but after the kiss i kinda forgot all about taehyung lol i was like NOW DATE! AND GET MARRIED! and then i remembered oh tae's a problem right right okay lmao
“No,” you say quickly. When he stops talking, you cast your eyes down again, take a breath, and then meet his eyes. “I don’t regret it,” you say quietly, making sure he knows you mean it. “I don’t want to pretend it didn’t happen.”
honestly i'm very proud of her, she's handling it with much more chill than i expected. good for you gurl
[12:05 PM] Yoongi: you’re nearing your daily emoji quota, jung [12:06 PM] Hobi: it’s only been six!!! 😤
why are we silencing this man LET HIM USE HIS EMOJISSSSSS 😭 i love these 2 so much lol
“Wow,” Yoongi says, one hand on the steering wheel. “Very assertive of you.”
okay this was very hot of him and i would like everybody to talk about mffmhh!yoongi more he is very hot and i want him
“I’m still curious, though,” Hobi pipes up, voicing Namjoon’s conflict for him. “What if she’s pregnant?”
i fully SCREECHED why is he like thissss hobi stop 😭
They all help organize the groceries - or, rather, most of them help, and Taehyung and Jungkook watch from the kitchen table, happy to be babied.
i fully went 🥰 at this line. the babies please i love them please let them be babied all the time
Jungkook’s head swivels, immediately interested just from the secrecy alone.
hehehehehheheheehhehehe boylie
Jungkook looks at him sideways, a little sly, and Namjoon avoids the gaze as best he can.
ok i misread and i thought it said SHY and i was like oH???? so it's like that huh jungoo?? 😭
Taehyung gets up, clearly a little pissed. “I appreciate the concern, I guess,” he grumbles. “But I’m not a kid. And I don’t need Y/N. I’m fine without her.”
we're really in it now aren't we fellas... i'm still very much on the tae defense squad tho. i think we can all agree that he loves her a lot as a friend and their friendship is important to him, and ofc acknowledging that she has feelings for him would have significant consequences for their relationship so i genuinely understand why he doesn't want that, which is why i think he didn't wanna admit that he is a priority for her. on the other hand, i think i've said this before but it's not evil of him to feel weird about her "pulling away" or not always being there the way they're so used to! he can not want to admit that his best friend has romantic feelings for him and feel off about her potentially dating someone - these things are not mutually exclusive!
V. Say What You Mean || KNJ
(banner by @/itaeewon)
Title: My Feet to Follow, and My Heart to Hold (Masterpost)
Rating: NSFW - minors dni
Genre: college!au, roomie!au, angst, s2l, the absolute slowest of burns
Pairing: Namjoon x female reader, unrequited Taehyung x reader
Beta'd by @/kookstempo, @/casuallyimagining, and @/toikiii - thank you endlessly!
Summary: You know a lot about the many types of love thanks to Kim Taehyung. You love him as the only person you see as “family”, you love him as your very best friend, and you love him as the beautiful, funny man he’s become. But when a twist of fate during your senior year has you rooming with his good friend Kim Namjoon, you just might find that you have plenty left to learn about love.
Lesson One: there are such things as a right way and a wrong way to love and to be loved.
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You and Namjoon weather a storm together.
Section Warnings: language, drinking, kissing, pov change
WC: 6k
The world is mine: blue hill, still silver lake, Broad field, bright flower, and the long white road A gateless garden, and an open path: My feet to follow, and my heart to hold. - Journey | Edna St. Vincent Millay
Thursday October 25th
Something wakes you up in the middle of the night, hours after you’ve been asleep. You lay there, eyes closed, listening to see if you can identify what it was.
You become aware of pouring rain, and a flash startles you just seconds before the apartment shakes with a clap of thunder.
Mystery solved, you think. You pull the comforter up to your ears and try to get comfortable again, but your mind starts immediately racing - about the assignment you should have finished last night and didn’t, about what you’ll submit for your next poetry assignment, about Taehyung, about Namjoon, about yourself.
It’s too much. Lightning brightens your room again and you sit up, reaching for your phone. A quick check tells you it’s almost three am.
You wrap yourself up in a throw-blanket you keep at the end of your bed and shuffle out to the living room.
You’re surprised to see a light in the living room - the light from Namjoon’s laptop on the coffee table. He’s on the couch, hunched over to type, the screen lighting him up from below.
He turns when he hears you, looking a little like a kid caught up past bedtime.
“What are you doing up?” he asks in a whisper, which is so fucking cute, because it’s not like he’s going to wake you.
“The storm,” you say, your mouth struggling to form the words, your body still mostly asleep.
He sits up straighter, pushes the laptop away. Like suddenly this is serious. “Are you afraid of storms?” he asks intently, like he needs to know, like he’s ready to make it better. “Come rest out here so you’re not by yourself.”
You can’t help but smile. “No, it just woke me. I’m not scared.”
“Come here anyway,” he suggests, his voice like gravel.
Something is happening here. The tension in the room crackles with more electricity than the storm outside. You make your way to the couch, blanket tight around your shoulders, and settle in next to him, a good five inches away.
He shifts mostly sideways, facing you, and rests an arm along the back of the couch.
Thunder cracks again and you jump. Namjoon narrows his eyes.
“There’s a difference between scared and startled,” you say defensively. Then you look at his laptop screen, a word document open, the cursor blinking patiently as it waits. “Are you working on your book? It sounded like you were in a flow.”
He shakes his head. “I couldn’t sleep, so I thought I’d work on it. You just caught me for the one sentence that happened to come easily. I barely wrote anything.”
You settle sideways on the couch, facing him, leaning against the plushy back. His arm rests near the top of your head.
“Why couldn’t you sleep?” you ask. Then, you smile a little deviously. “Are you scared of storms?”
He ducks his head against a little giggle, then looks up at you through his bangs, the smile still on his face. “Would you think less of me if I said a little?”
You giggle too. “I’ll protect you,” you tease.
“My hero,” he quips, huffing out a laugh. Then, more seriously, he adds, “I couldn’t sleep because… my ex texted me today.”
You sit straight up, your blanket falling off your shoulders and pooling around your middle. You fix it in a hurry, trying to watch his face as you do. What had made him open up? You two had never talked about anything super serious or personal before, except the one conversation about your family, which had been brief.
“No shit?” you say, once you’re wrapped up again. “What for? I mean, do you want to tell me about it?”
He exhales, peering over his own shoulder to watch the rain cascade down your tall front windows. “To be honest,” he says slowly, eyes on the water, “I really do want to talk about it. But I don’t want to unload on you. I can wait until tomorrow and catch Yoongi or Hobi.”
“I’m up anyway,” you point out. “I don’t mind. It might be nice to get the perspective of someone who isn’t a twenty-three year old guy?”
“Okay,” he sighs. “The thing about Elyse is…” He takes a long pause, seeming to weigh different choices in his head.
“You don’t have to pick your words carefully,” you say quietly. “It’s just me. You can say what you mean.”
He sighs, turns back to face you. “It’s hard,” he admits. “I’m careful about my words twenty-four-seven.”
“The thing about her is, what?” you prompt. You scoot a little closer, the knee you have bent underneath you just barely touching his.
He shakes his head. “Elyse was… amazing. I was so crazy about her. I don’t mean to imply that she was a bad person - I don’t think she is, at the end of the day. But she knew… how I felt, and sometimes it felt like she…” He pauses again. You wait him out, and he continues, “Sometimes it felt like she’d play games, try to see what my limit was. Does he love me enough to… whatever, or something. I’d bend over backwards for her. I’d do whatever she asked. I thought… if you love someone, that’s what you should do.”
You wait to see if he’s going to continue, but he seems to have stopped.
“So what happened?” you ask, even though you’d heard Yoongi’s interpretation of things at game night a few weeks ago - “he loved her way more than she liked him”.
He laughs once, darkly. In the unlit room, his eyes shine black. “She figured out the answer to her little science experiment was the limit does not exist, and got bored. About the same time I figured out that me doing everything she asked and her giving me the bare minimum back wasn’t a healthy relationship, so it’s for the best.”
“What an ass,” you mutter.
He shakes his head. “I’m not sure she even realized what she was doing. She just needs… she has some growing up to do.”
You take this in silently. It’s valiant of him to defend her character, despite being hurt by her. You kind of like that he isn’t the type to name-call, even if maybe she deserves it. It makes you feel like if things started with you and ended badly, he’d still be respectful after.
“So what’d she want today? When’s the last time you talked?” you finally ask.
“Not since we broke up,” he admits. Behind him, a flash of lightning lights the neighborhood, illuminating the tree outside the window before darkness falls again. The resultant roll of thunder comes less like a crash and more like a grumble, the clouds disgruntled and complaining. “She asked me if we could meet up.”
You lean forward, almost getting in his face. “Is that where you were tonight?”
He laughs at your enthusiasm. “No,” he assures you. “I told her I’d think about it. I went out… just to walk. I needed to clear my head.”
“Did it work?” you ask with a little smile.
He laughs again, reaching up to rub his face with his hands. “No,” he says, the word muffled by his palms. “No it did not.”
“What do you think she wants?” you ask.
“No fucking idea,” he says. His arm slides a little on the couch as he shifts, coming to rest on your shoulder, his hand hanging behind you. You wiggle to give him room, his forearm cushioning your cheek as you look at him.
“Got any theories?” you say.
“Several,” he says dryly, and you laugh.
There’s a sudden burst of lightning and thunder at nearly the same time - you’re still airborne jumping from the flash when the slap of thunder startles a scream out of you.
You both laugh at yourselves. Namjoon’s hand closes over your shoulder blade, ever so gently pressing you closer to him. You wonder if he can feel your heart hammering against your ribs.
“Do you think she wants to work it out?” you ask, and he closes his eyes, fingers twitching against your back, like the question pains him.
“I don’t want to think that,” he says, voice barely above a whisper.
“Would you say yes?” you ask.
For a second, his gaze is hollow. “I’d like to say no,” he admits. “Logically, the answer is no. But sometimes she just… has this pull over me. It’s like I’m powerless, no matter what logical decision I came to.”
“Yeah,” you say quietly. “I’ve been there.”
He looks at you, then. “Do you want to talk about -?”
“No,” you say firmly. “Right now I very much do not.”
He doesn’t take his gaze off of you. “You deserve more,” he says finally, like it’s so simple. “You deserve more than someone who can’t even see how much you’re willing to give them.”
“I could say the same to you,” you point out in a whisper. Namjoon’s laptop shifts into sleep mode, the screen going dark, leaving you both lit only by the streetlight outside. There’s only the sound of the pounding rain, the low rumbles of thunder, for one beat, two beats. Then you’re crawling into his lap, lips seeking his, hands on his shoulders for balance, blanket forgotten behind you.
You press your lips to his, hard, and you feel his hand on your back instinctively pull you closer. Then you lean back, panting more from shock than anything else. “Sorry,” you gasp. “I shouldn’t have -.”
He cuts you off, surging forward to recapture your mouth, his hand flat on your back pulling you in, in, in. His spare hand comes up to cup your cheek, so gentle, like he’s afraid he’ll break you. You want more, need more, and you lightly suck his plump bottom lip between yours, teasing it with the tip of your tongue.
He growls, immediately moving his hand from your face to clutch at the dip of your waist, and a shock of desire shoots through your belly as you both shift. He leans back against the arm of the couch and you throw a leg over his lap, not breaking the kiss. He kisses you hungrily, forcefully, hands settling onto your hips. You can feel the press of each fingertip into your body, ten little divots.
He toys with your mouth, more skilled with his tongue than you would have expected from him. You groan into the kiss, wrapping your arms around the back of his neck to pull him impossibly closer. He raises a hand to tangle it in your hair, both of you trying to get closer by degrees.
When you finally break to breathe, you gasp for breath against his neck. He holds you tight, both arms around your middle, like he’ll try to keep you there if you bolt. Like he expects you to bolt.
“Namjoon,” you whisper. “I should have… that was out of order. I should have told you first - that I like you. I should have said it first.”
His hold loosens, just barely, just enough that if you hadn’t been paying attention you might have missed it.
He laughs against your hair, reaching up to smooth it down. It’s the first time you’ve really noticed how fucking large his hands are. He tips your chin up with his index finger, urging you to look at him. “Me too,” he tells you seriously, looking into your eyes. “I could have told you that, too.” He kisses you once more, chastely.
Part of you would like to keep kissing, but it’s the middle of the night, and you’re surrounded by the dark, and your eyelids are so heavy. You shift to stretch your legs out, laying next to him but draped partly over him. He keeps one arm wrapped around your back as you settle against his side, laying your head down on his broad chest.
“Is this okay?” you ask, suddenly feeling very unsure. You’re unsure of a lot of things - starting with A: how you ended up like this, and landing at Z: where you go from here.
He gives your body a squeeze as an answer, his spare hand curling into a fist that he uses to cover his mouth as a yawn overtakes him. He reaches for the blanket you’d abandoned and tugs it out from under you, flapping it and letting it flutter over top of you both.
You lay there in silence for a while, listening to the rain, listening to Namjoon’s heart. Then, quietly, you ask, “Do you think you’ll do it?”
“Do what?” he murmurs. You tilt your head to peek up at him. His head is back on the arm of the couch, and his eyes are closed.
“Go meet her? Do you think you will?”
He shakes his head, his thumb stroking your back over the thin pajama top you have on. “No,” he says finally, sounding half-asleep. “Not going.”
You nod against his chest, curling your fingers in his shirt and closing your eyes. The rain, his heartbeat, and the thunder sing you to sleep.
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Namjoon wakes with a crick in his neck and sweat gathering under his tshirt. It’s bright - brighter than normal for morning in his bedroom. He has a split second of absolute panic that he’s missed an alarm and is late for class or work, but that panic is knocked off course as his body catches up to his brain to inform him that he’s not in his bed, and he’s not alone.
He looks down at the top of your head where you’re still cuddled against his ribs, breathing heavily. His arm tightens around you instinctively as everything from last night comes back to him.
Elyse’s text, out of fucking nowhere, tilting his earth off-axis.
Laying in his bed, wide awake, thoughts racing. Pouring over every faction of their relationship, the good and the bad, his faults and hers, his merits and hers. Obsessing over each mistake he made, the ways he needs to change in order to not repeat the past.
How she had ended the conversion - “think about it, Namjoon? for me?”
How, if he did what she asked and met up to talk, he’d be falling right into those old patterns - Elyse says “jump” and Namjoon says “off what?”.
He reaches slowly for his phone, trying not to wake you. You stir at the movement, but settle back in. His phone tells him it’s still early - barely even seven. You’ve only slept a few hours since you’d talked. Since you’d kissed.
Namjoon wishes he had time for a walk; he needs to get his head straight, even more than he did yesterday.
He needs to know how you feel. He needs to know what’s happening here. He can’t make decisions without all of the information, it’s just not how he operates.
You said you like him, and he believes you. But it doesn’t remove what he can see clear as day - Taehyung was there first, Taehyung takes up most of your heart.
Namjoon’s not a jealous person, by nature. He likes to think he’s pretty emotionally mature, too. But if you’re going to be with him - and he’s fully aware that the conversation hasn’t even gotten that far yet, he’s getting ahead of himself, no one has discussed being together in any capacity - then you need to be with him. Not as second place, not as a consolation prize.
He’s willing to give you the time and space you need to figure that out, to decide if you can do it - give a good-faith try.
But, you should probably talk about if either of you wants to pursue this in the first place.
Would he want to date you? If he boils it down to the simplest facts, then sure. You’re smart, have similar interests, you make him laugh. He finds you really pretty - likes how your eyes show your moods before the rest of your face does, gets knocked down by your smile when you really mean it.
Add in your baggage - loving someone who doesn’t want you. He doesn’t know the ways this affects your emotions or mentality, but he’s sure if something starts, he’ll learn. Would you be able to let go of the familiar? Would you constantly compare him to this idealized, “untarnished and pure” love, as you’d once described it? Would you cling to insecurities of never seeing an equal love, having experienced the lack of it for so long? There’s no way for him to know. There’s no way for you to know.
It’s less simple now.
Add in his baggage - he knows Elyse left him a little fucked up. A little less trusting, a little afraid to love. His problem, over and over again, was loving too much, creating an unbalance. Or maybe it was choosing wrong, choosing partners who could only give less.
It’s hard to fight the instinct, now, to pull it back, to temper it, to tamp it down. If he started something new, no matter who it was with, he’d have to be aware of that, have to actively fight against the urge to protect himself.
He doesn’t know if he’d be able to discern if a partner is fucking with his head the way Elyse would, or if they were just mixed up, just flawed.
Maybe it’d be easier not to try.
This thought goes out the window when you stir beside him, stretching your toes down to the far end of the couch, burying your face into his side to hide from the morning sunlight streaming in the big windows, whining a little.
“Good morning,” he says, feeling the smile take over his face.
You freeze, your entire body going still. He can feel you hold your breath, feel your heart hammer against your back under the weight of his arm.
Then you seem to remember where you are, what happened, who you’re with. You exhale, and he wonders if he hears relief in it.
“We need to install curtains out here,” you answer, instead of good morning. Then, you reach up and use the top of the couch to pull yourself into a sitting position. Namjoon sits up more too, partly to give you room, partly to look at you.
You seem unsure for a minute, tongue peeking out to wet your lips nervously, eyes on the ground.
“Y/N,” he says gently. He knows a spiral when he sees one. You don’t look at him, so he reaches out, brushing a thumb lightly along your jawline. “Hey.”
You look up, the uncertainty written all over your face. “Sorry,” you say, though he can’t imagine what you’re apologizing for. “Did I fuck everything up? Should I not have done that?”
Namjoon shakes his head, still smiling. “Did it seem like I wasn’t into it?”
You make a face. “No,” you admit. “But I still feel like I demolished a boundary.”
He laughs a little at this, quietly. “It was a joint effort. But, I think it’s okay. I’m okay - are you… not? If you regret - or, I mean, if it’s better - we can just pretend it didn’t -.”
“No,” you say quickly. When he stops talking, you cast your eyes down again, take a breath, and then meet his eyes. “I don’t regret it,” you say quietly, making sure he knows you mean it. “I don’t want to pretend it didn’t happen.”
“Good,” he says, laying a hand on your blanket-covered knee. “Me either.”
You rub your eyes sleepily. “What time is it?”
“Nearly seven,” he tells you.
“I have class,” you groan. “I need to go shower.”
He shifts out of your way so you can get up, helps you untangle your legs from the throw-blanket.
“Hey,” he calls as you cross the threshold of your bedroom. You pause, backtracking to look at him expectantly.
He gives you a playful smile. “Thanks for protecting me from the storm,” he says, and you laugh, giving a teasing eyeroll, before disappearing.
Namjoon rubs his face, stretches, and makes his way into his own room. When he returns, freshly showered and ready for class, you’re already gone.
–
Namjoon tries to keep things to himself. He tries to process on his own, sit with his thoughts, sort through his shit.
He cracks before noon.
[11:49 AM] Namjoon: so if i tell you guys something
[11:49 AM] Namjoon: it needs to be SECRET secret
[11:49 AM] Namjoon: none of the guys can know, seriously
[11:51 AM] Hobi: ominous, my dude
[11:52 AM] Namjoon: Y/N kissed me last night
[11:54 AM] Hobi: wait, what??? 😲🤯🫢
[11:54 AM] Hobi: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[11:55 AM] Hobi: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[11:56 AM] Yoongi: ok but why
[11:56 AM] Hobi: ���.yoongi.
[11:57 AM] Namjoon: fuck you yoongi
[11:58 AM] Hobi: i need all of the context pls
[12:02 PM] Namjoon: uh the backstory is elyse texted me yesterday? 😅
[12:02 PM] Yoongi: again… but why
[12:03 PM] Namjoon: tbh i have no clue. she wants to “talk”. i havent told her yes or no yet
[12:04 PM] Hobi: 👁️👄👁️
[12:05 PM] Yoongi: you’re nearing your daily emoji quota, jung
[12:06 PM] Hobi: it’s only been six!!! 😤
[12:07 PM] Yoongi: 7
[12:07 PM] Namjoon: guys???
[12:08 PM] Hobi: 🤐
[12:08 PM] Yoongi: 8
[12:09 PM] Namjoon: GUYS
[12:10 PM] Yoongi: ok ok go ahead
[12:13 PM] Namjoon: ok so i was up at like 3am bc… elyse texted me and i just… had a lot of thoughts
[12:13 PM] Namjoon: and we had that storm and she woke up and came out to the living room and we were talking… about elyse… about idk relationships in general and idk the vibes were right and she just kissed me
[12:14 PM] Namjoon: so that happened for a little and we fell asleep on the couch?? like fully woke up with her this morning??
[12:14 PM] Hobi: oh shit 😲
[12:15 PM] Yoongi: wow man
[12:17 PM] Hobi: so what now?
[12:17 PM] Yoongi: what about taehyung?
[12:20 PM] Namjoon: those are indeed both questions 🙃
–
When you get home, Namjoon is standing beside his bed, folding shirts and putting them into a small, faux-leather travel bag. You give him a quick wave as you shuffle past the door, then do a double-take when you notice the bag.
“Are you… leaving?” you ask, coming closer.
He looks at you, surprised, hands stilling mid-fold. “You don’t know?” he asks. “We’re all going away this weekend. The guys.”
You frown, glance at your phone in your hand, like you’re wondering if you missed a text. “Away?” you repeat.
Namjoon turns to face you. “Yeah, we’ve had it planned for a while. We’re all staying out by this brewery in the countryside? We’ll be back Sunday afternoon.”
Your frown deepens. “Who all is going?”
“Me, Yoongi-hyung, Hobi,” Namjoon lists, “Jin-hyung, Jungkook, Taehyung, and Jimin.”
Your frown turns into a full pout. “Who am I going to hang out with all weekend?” you cry. “Leave someone here! I don’t care who it is, anyone will do!”
Namjoon shoots you a smile and resumes folding. “You’ll be okay. It’s just two nights.”
“Two nights!” you howl dramatically, clutching at your face like you’re The Scream. “I will simply not make it.”
“Maybe you can get some writing done,” Namjoon suggests lightly, crossing the room to dig out a pair of shoes. “No distractions.”
You give a hmph of dissent. “Whatever,” you say eventually, before heading for your bedroom. “You’ll just miss me and come back early. All of you.”
Friday, October 26th
“Did you ever answer Elyse?” Hobi asks from Yoongi’s passenger seat, turning clear around to peer at Namjoon in the back.
Namjoon stares out the window. “I told her I was going away for the weekend and I’d get back to her after.”
“Wow,” Yoongi says, one hand on the steering wheel. “Very assertive of you.”
“Shut up,” Namjoon grumbles.
“Are you going to meet with her?” Hobi prods, ignoring the bickering.
Namjoon isn’t sure. He’d told you no, but he wasn’t sure you’d care if he changed his mind. He could change his mind, right? “I still don’t know what the fuck she wants,” he mutters. “It feels like a trap.”
“Glad your sense of self-preservation is working,” Yoongi says. “It is a trap. Elyse is a puppet-master. She just wants to make you dance. If I ask Namjoon to come, he will. You know how she operates. Wouldn’t it feel good to prove her wrong?”
Namjoon doesn’t answer this, and Yoongi lets him get away with silence.
“I’m still curious, though,” Hobi pipes up, voicing Namjoon’s conflict for him. “What if she’s pregnant?”
“I will kick you out of this car,” Namjoon growls, shoving his knees through the seat into Hobi’s back. Hobi bends over with laughter and Yoongi’s shoulders shake. “Don’t even say that,” Namjoon continues to scold. “Don’t even give the universe any ideas. Fuck.”
“You’ve been broken up for four months,” Yoongi points out. “I think she would have told you before now.”
“Puppet-master,” Hobi reminds him helpfully.
“I want to go home,” Namjoon laments. “Turn the car around.”
–
The house the guys rent is plain and sparsely decorated, but the real pull is the expansive wooden deck, from which there is a beautiful mountain view. It’s also a short drive into town, not far from the brewery they’re touring on Saturday, and sleeps seven - which was important, because they’ve all agreed they’re too old to share beds, now.
Yoongi’s car is the first to arrive, which means they get to choose rooms first. Namjoon picks a small single that’s practically in the attic; he doesn’t mind the size - he’s just happy it’s a space he doesn’t have to share, and that it’s far from the main floor where the most noise will be.
After doing a quick unpack and making a list of what they need, they load back into the car to make a quick grocery run. By the time they get back, trunk loaded with snacks and drinks, there are two more cars in the driveway, indicating that the rest of the group has arrived.
They all help organize the groceries - or, rather, most of them help, and Taehyung and Jungkook watch from the kitchen table, happy to be babied. As they do, they discuss the general plan for the weekend.
“Today is kind of open,” Jungkook, who is the mastermind of the trip, tells them. “I figured we’d eat together tonight, but everyone can do what they want today.”
“The lake is close,” Namjoon says. He’d looked it up before they left. “I thought I’d walk around there.”
Yoongi gives him a sideways look. “You walking to get there?”
Namjoon gives him a sheepish smile. “I was hoping someone with a license might want to join me.”
“If Yoongi-hyung is okay with me taking the car, I’ll go,” Hobi says.
Yoongi shrugs. “I brought work to do, so I’m staying here. The car’s all yours.”
“I wanted to go into town,” Taehyung admits. “They actually have a few small galleries I wanted to peek at. A few shops, too.”
The group inevitably splits up for the various activities. Seokjin and Yoongi both opt to hang around the house, Jimin and Taehyung take a car into town, and Jungkook joins Namjoon and Hobi in the car towards the lake, wanting to do something a little active.
It’s probably not as active as he would have liked, being just a flat, paved trail around the lake’s perimeter, but when Namjoon apologizes Jungkook insists this is still better than following Taehyung and Jimin around the town’s shops.
The lake, small enough to look across, glitters under the mid-afternoon sun. They walk the whole trail in about an hour, strolling and talking. When they pass a pavilion with benches, they sit for a while, watching the water, the ducks, the clouds floating by.
Hobi talks about his recent job search, the hardship of applying place after place, how he’d worked hard for his competitive internship and how it didn’t seem to be paying off. Jungkook shares a little about his thoughts about graduating after next year, where he might want to go from here - the uncertainty that he’d picked the right field, that he’d see success. Then, as he’d dreaded it would, the conversation lands back on Namjoon and Elyse.
Hobi is the culprit, asking Namjoon, “Do you want to talk about the text you got?”
Jungkook’s head swivels, immediately interested just from the secrecy alone.
Namjoon sighs, looking out at the water, leaning heavily on the pavilion’s wooden railing. “No,” he grumbles.
“You probably should talk it out,” Hobi presses. “You’ll need a clear head about this. For multiple reasons.” He’s being cryptic, since Jungkook doesn’t know anything about you. But Namjoon understands and resents that he’s right.
Namjoon flops backwards onto the bench, staring at the pavilion’s roof. “Elyse wants to meet up,” he says. He can’t see it, but he knows Jungkook’s eyes go wide.
“Why?” the younger man asks, shock in his voice. “What could she possibly want?”
“To make sure I’m miserable?” Namjoon suggests. “To win one more round of If I Ask, Will He Do It?”
“You could still say no,” Hobi points out gently. “In fact, if you’re asking, my advice is to say no.”
“That’s definitely the power move,” Jungkook agrees. “Refuse to play the game.”
“Then why does that feel like letting her win?” Namjoon complains, a little whine in his voice. “Wouldn’t that look like I’m still affected by her, like I can’t handle being around her? And that’s not the case. Shouldn’t I prove it?”
“Namjoon-ah,” Hobi says gently, “what if you go and she tries to get back together?”
Namjoon lets out a sound that’s both a laugh and a growl.
“Seriously,” Hobi presses, insistent. “She could! What will you do?”
“She might not even mean it,” Jungkook mutters, toeing the ground with his sneaker. “She might do it just to see if you’d say yes.”
“You’re making her out to be way worse than she was,” Namjoon protests. “She was immature, not evil.”
“I think it looked worse from the outside,” Jungkook explains kindly. “Watching you play her games… it sucked for us, bro. I hated seeing you go through that.”
Namjoon feels discomfort in his chest; he hates that the conversation landed here. He doesn't want to talk about Elyse. He’d rather talk about you, about where that will go - if anywhere. He’d rather work out what he wants from you, hear some opinions on what the guys think you’ll want.
He’d rather talk about kissing you, how it had felt like the lightning outside the apartment came from inside his bones, how your body had fit so neatly beneath his hands, how he had slept deeply with you pressed against his side.
He’d much rather talk about that. But he can’t. Not with Taehyung still tangled up in this.
“I don’t want her back,” he says, firmly. “She’s not even on my radar right now.”
Jungkook looks at him sideways, a little sly, and Namjoon avoids the gaze as best he can.
He’d told you he wasn’t going, before you’d fallen asleep.
“Find out what she wants first,” Hobi finally suggests. “Don’t go unless she’ll tell you.”
“Yeah,” Namjoon says, turning his head to look back out over the lake. “Maybe.”
–
The guys grill out on the deck for dinner, lounging around on the wicker furniture with drinks and snacks as Yoongi and Seokjin take turns turning the meat with a pair of tongs.
They stay, drinking and laughing, music playing quietly from someone’s bluetooth speaker, until long after dark. Some of the older guys head to bed - Seokjin, then Hobi.
“You can see so many more stars here,” Taehyung observes at one point, laying backwards across Jimin’s legs, eyes on the sky.
“Way more constellations,” Namjoon agrees, following his gaze.
“You know,” Taehyung continues, voice slower and more lilting than normal - Namjoon wonders if he’s a little drunk - “Y/N hasn’t texted me once.” He lets his voice fall into a pout. “I swear, she has a boyfriend she’s not telling me about.”
Namjoon snaps his mouth shut, feeling the blood rush to his face, even though he knows he’s not your boyfriend, knows he’s not the reason you aren’t texting Taehuyng. Or, well, he could be the reason - it just wasn’t because you were at this exact moment too busy spending time with him. But maybe you had another reason.
He wonders if you really are pulling away from Taehyung by degrees. He wonders if it could be because of him. Does wondering that make him full of himself? Or just an idiot?
Yoongi’s eyes are on him intently, and Jungkook murmurs to excuse himself and rises, heading into the house and away from the mess he probably senses. Jimin watches all of this silently, but says nothing.
Someone has to speak.
“You know that’s not true,” Namjoon says, finally. “No one comes to the house but you guys.”
“I know,” Taehyung mutters. “But still. Something’s off.”
Namjoon’s not sure what makes him brave enough to say it - maybe because he’s been drinking, maybe because the speaker is playing something soulful and moving, maybe because the vibe seems to be along the lines of Therapy Night. Maybe because Jimin and Yoongi are still here to do damage control. But he opens his mouth and asks, “Taehyung… what would happen if she did start to date someone?”
Yoongi’s eyes go wide and he hurries to mask it, faking a yawn that he covers with one large hand. Under the table, Namjoon kicks him lightly in scolding.
“Ah,” Taehyung says, flapping a hand at them. “You guys know I don’t see Y/N that way. Our friendship isn’t like that.”
To you, Namjoon thinks.
“Seriously,” Taehyung insists when he’s met with silence. “She can date whoever she wants. She can do whatever she wants.”
“Right, I know,” Namjoon says quickly, before Taehyung can get too defensive and shut the whole line of conversation down. “But seriously - it would really change things, don’t you think?”
“It doesn’t have to,” Taehyung says petulantly.
Jimin hops in for the first time, and Namjoon’s flooded with relief that someone else will push this line of questioning, to take the focus off of him.
“But Tae,” Jimin points out, “when she does, and things get serious, and she starts spending all of her time with some guy instead of with you? Telling him about her day instead of you? Calling him for dinner plans instead of you? Will you be okay? Both of you?”
Taehyung laughs - but that’s the thing about Taehyung. It’s all a big joke from the outside. But Namjoon’s known him long enough to know that Taehyung laughs louder when he’s got an emotion to hide from.
“What,” Taehyung protests through a defensive laugh, “do you think I’m helpless, just waiting around for her? I do okay for myself!”
“We’re not implying that you don’t,” Namjoon says. “It’s just… I remember when Elyse started spending more of her time with me instead of her girlfriends… they hated it, hated feeling like they weren’t her priority anymore. She had a hard time with that - some of her friendships were never really the same.”
“You shouldn’t feel bad about that, hyung,” Taehyung says, missing the point entirely - or avoiding it. “That’s what’s supposed to happen. Your partner becomes your priority. Your friends have to figure it out, if they really love you.”
For a second, Namjoon feels something like relief, and enough time passes that he thinks the conversation is over. Then Yoongi asks, quietly, “Do you think that you could do that with Y/N? You think you could ‘figure it out’ if she had someone else to love? If you weren’t her priority anymore?”
Taehyung sits up, brows furrowed. “I’m not her priority.”
All three guys snort in tandem.
Taehyung exclaims wordlessly in indignation. “I’m not!”
“You are,” Jimin tells him, placing a hand on his arm in apology for the tough love. “And based on your whining tonight, the rest of us are just worried about how you’ll handle it if that changes.”
Taehyung gets up, clearly a little pissed. “I appreciate the concern, I guess,” he grumbles. “But I’m not a kid. And I don’t need Y/N. I’m fine without her.”
Without another word, he heads inside. Jimin gives a heavy sigh, shoots Namjoon a look that he doesn’t want to decipher, and follows.
Yoongi looks at Namjoon silently.
“Fuck,” Namjoon says, lowering his head to press it against the wooden dinner table. “I know, man. I know.”
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SKZ As Your Plus One At A Wedding
Genre: fluff
Warnings: References to drinking
Author’s Note: I feel like this idea just shows how I old I am lmao. Do you have any ideas? They can be ~spicy~, fluffy, or angsty. Send me an ask!
Chan:
The best plus one ngl
Would come as a friend or significant other
He’s polite and extroverted so he has no problem fitting in, even if he knows no one at the wedding
Definitely the type to come as support for you if you’re anxious
Probably overdresses because he wants to make a good impression on your friends/family
May accidentally lose track of you because he’s so into another conversation
Excited about the food
Keeps his hand on you the whole time; whether it be a hand on your knee, holding your hand, or gently touching your back as you make your way through the crowd
Will look like he’s drunk on the dance floor even though he didn’t drink a drop
Encourages you to be part of the bouquet toss
Congratulates the newlyweds politely whether or not he knows them personally
If there’s karaoke, get ready for this man to perform the hell out of a love ballad
Minho:
On the quieter side unless he knows the couple, but even then he will probably stick to your side
WILL turn heads no matter what he is wearing and he is completely oblivious to it
You know in Pride & Prejudice how Mr. Darcy is standoffish and kinda rubs some people the wrong way initially? Yeah, that’s Lee Know. But, don’t worry, any bad impression will be short lived
Probably will only come with you if you’re extremely close or dating
Keeps close watch on you, especially if you’re more outgoing than him. As you flit around from table to table, he’ll admire your natural people skills and charisma. Otherwise, he’s there to make sure you’re comfortable and happy at ALL times
Happy to spend the reception drinking and dancing
Will somehow charm the grandma at the wedding. Probably by being polite when getting food or something
Outside wedding? He will find a cat
Even if there is dancing at the wedding, he will want to leave early
Speaking of dancing though, he will show off his skills before leaving ofc and will probably try to pull you in with him
Will slow dance with you and gently hold you as this is the one type of dance he’s not confident in, especially when its with you
Decent plus one, but will be more comfortable at a wedding where he knows more people than just you
Changbin:
He will pretend not to be upset that you might be taller than him in heels, BUT he also finds it insanely attractive
Ears go red when he sees you all dressed up
His shyer side comes out in a crowd, but if you’re also shy, he will be more than happy to take on a more social role
Polite and probably buys a gift even though you offered to put his name on yours
His surprising romantic side comes out, but does not tamper down his chaotic side as he pulls a flower out of one of the centerpieces for you towards the end of the night
Makes a good impression on everyone despite being a bit nervous about it
Insists on driving you to and from the wedding so you can have a good time without worry
You will probably have to force him to dance with you
Grabs your hand halfway through the ceremony cause he’s romantic like that
Stays to help clean up and definitely offers to take any leftovers
Goes to get you cake and comes back with the biggest possible slice and a wide grin
Pretty good overall and he will be a lot of fun
Hyunjin:
Shyyyyy
Unless he knows the couple, you might have to beg and/or act cute to get him to go with you
Might have a drink to help loosen up
Polite, but not overly talkative and does not let you leave him alone
Will dress to impress and likely will want to match you in some way; whether it be matching his tie to your dress or wearing complimentary pieces designed to go together this will be one facet of the wedding Hyunjin will take very seriously
You encourage him to talk more and be more social which he eventually does do as he gets comfortable
When the dance floor opens up is when he truly becomes comfortable and will definitely turn heads with his dancing
Will likely start being his goofy self more at this point
Becomes a bit cuddly and clingy towards the end of the night
Even though he didn’t want to come, the boy is a romantic and will be touched by the couple’s vows and the romantic atmosphere. It will make him feel even more in love with you as the night goes on
He’s a tad shy, but a good plus one
Jisung:
Poor Hannie is soooo anxious and shy cause of his social anxiety :( (it will be better if he’s familiar with the couple or several others at the wedding)
Still, he will go as long as it’s with/for you
Before you leave he will jokingly cover you with his jacket, but it’s his way of saying he thinks you look beautiful
Overly polite at times and may snack a lot to prevent himself from either embarrassing himself or you even though most people seem to find him friendly and charming
Will be relieved when the ceremony starts so that everyone goes quiet and he can just focus on you
Will probably focus on you more than the wedding tbh, he thinks you look so pretty and he’ll have to constantly stop himself from reaching up and fixing a loose curl or adjusting your bracelet
Excited about the cake and he uses that to get through the more social parts of the reception
Will probably dance with you, but might make you act cute for it
Secretly will love the slow dance and it may or may not inspire a new song
By the end, he is starting to enjoy himself more and has probably been accepted into your friend group and is making everyone laugh so hard that other tables begin looking your way
Idk why but I feel like he’s gonna want to stop at McDonald’s on the way home
Lets you fall asleep on him on the way home/to the hotel
Felix:
Very excited when you asked him to be your plus one
Will spend weeks fretting over what to wear and what to bring with you may have to help him calm down his anxious enthusiasm
Making a good impression on your friends/family is very important to him so he will be extremely polite and friendly. Basically, the king of small talk who keeps the conversation going through the lulls
Might cry during the ceremony, but it depends on the vows and if he knows the couple or not
But, he will bring tissues in case either of you end up tearing up
Will thoroughly enjoy the wedding and will have so much fun dancing and taking part in any and all reception activities
If there’s a photo booth, he’s going to pull you in and the two of you will take cute and funny photos together
As the night goes on and he becomes a little more worn out, he’ll become a little more romantic towards you. He might want to constantly hold your hand or may sneak a kiss on your cheek
Feeds you cake because he’s adorable like that and doesn’t care if others around him think it’s corny
Holds you close during a slow dance and may even softly sing in your ear
Leaves the wedding with more friends
Will make a photo of the two of you from the wedding his phone background for the next few months
Seungmin:
Agrees to go with you without hesitation even though he probably doesn’t want to go
Literally breathless when he sees you, but tries to hide it. Though, at some point, he will let it slip that he thinks you look gorgeous
Constantly looking out for you, especially because he notices others noticing you
Casual, friendly, and polite, but mostly keeps to himself
Offers to hold your purse outside the bathroom so that he doesn’t have to talk to strangers
A complete gentleman. He holds doors for you, gets your food and cake, carries your heels to the car after you got blisters from dancing.
May gently place his hand on your knee/thigh under the table both as a comfort to himself and as a way to show his affection as he worried others thought he didn’t care for you (literally no one thought that lol)
If an opportunity arises (or if you force him), he may get up and sing a love song
Will dance with you if you ask, but prefers to sit through the reception or do other things
Weirdly prepared, he has bandaids when a kid fell and scraped their knee and he somehow remembered to grab your lipstick so you could refresh it
Likely won’t drink beyond perhaps a class of champagne during the toast
Just happy to see you happy
Jeongin:
Happy to go with you, but worried about what others will think of him
Spends a lot of time getting ready and may even help you get ready too
Will actually give good advice when you’re stuck choosing between two dresses
Everyone is charmed by how sweet and cute he is, especially when he’s around you
Others will notice how he seems so smitten with you regardless of if you two are dating yet or not
Goes bright red when you ask him to dance and kicks himself for not being the one to ask
Probably arrives early enough to help set up and may stay late to help clean up
Will do his best to make you laugh during dinner which only endears him to the rest of the guests at your table
Watches over you if you drink and makes sure you don’t drink too much
Eagerly listens as you point out old friends and family and give him all the tea. Honestly, he couldn’t care less, but loves hearing you talk and seeing you laugh at old memories
As he grows more comfortable in the environment, his trademark brand of sarcastic humor will work its way out
Somehow, by the end of the night, the two of you will end up holding hands
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Dating Yunho ~
❧ @yunhobabygurl asked: Hi!! I’m a big fan of your work and I am really enjoying your relationship head cannons,can I request a dating Yunho from ateez?? :) ❤️❤️❤️
❧ Anon asked: Heey can I request dating yunho (from ateez) headcanons plzz
❧ A/N: I’ve really been in my Yunho feels even though he’s not my bias 😂
Hongjoong | Seonghwa | Yunho | Yeosang | San | Mingi | Wooyoung | Jongho
~※ Main Masterlist ※~
♡ ok y’all I’m so ready for this
♡ look at how cute he is oml
♡ I lub him
♡ ok as a boyfriend he’d be so sweet
♡ like so incredibly sweet
♡ big puppy energy
♡ he’s quite clingy and loves to shower you in affection
♡ he kinda keeps it under wraps in public
♡ but in private or with the members, he’ll be real touchy
♡ he’s big on cuddles and kisses
♡ he loves to peck your cheeks, shoulders, and hands
♡ in private he’ll kiss your lips a lot too
♡ he likes to be the big spoon due to his height
♡ there are other reasons why too but thats for later👀
♡ but he’s definitely not against being the little spoon
♡ he could spend years with his face buried in the crook of your neck
♡ he’s quite the romantic
♡ might try to plan things he’s seen in kdramas
♡ but he also likes more simple dates
♡ romantic doesn’t always equal extravagant
♡ oh he’s definitely into couples items
♡ matching jewelry, shoes, clothes
♡ though tbh, he’d much rather you just steal his clothes
♡ he loves how you look in his clothes
♡ he also talks about you a lot
♡ like he brings you up in conversation quite a bit
♡ it kinda annoys the members
♡ but they know it’s just because he loves you a lot
♡ ok ngl I was v excited to write the dirty stuff ~
♡ this man is a dom
♡ i think he could sub on occasion but he’s mostly a dom
♡ a soft dom
♡ he’s a cute ass sub tho
♡ you bet he’d love to be called puppy omg
♡ ok as a dom, he’s so kind but a touch rough
♡ like the manhandling and marking type of rough
♡ this man got a size kink
♡ I’m definitely not projecting lmao
♡ loves how tiny you feel and it makes him crazyyyyy
♡ slight bulging kink too
♡ same reasoning as the size kink
♡ will definitely put a hand on your stomach to feel himself inside you
♡ he’s all praise and very little, if any, degradation
♡ he’s a sweet lover, what else can I say
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AIKU AND PROF BIRCH THEY BOTH HAVE THE MF STUBBLE LMFAOOOOOOO
LMAOO no wait that’s so real Karasu being like “maybe *I* need a ground type then I can compete with yuki and show him I’m the man”
Oh yeah huh I didn’t even register that LMAOSJ er anyways HAHAH wait this can be fake death instance #1 Karasu scared shitless like “oh fuck no is she dead where’d she go damn where’s staraptor when I need it” LMAO the way we both thought about the death instance is so funny I hadn’t even read that part of your response yet truly on the same wavelength!! Bro that’s fr me we keep talking about Karasu and I have to keep reminding myself that hes not the love interest in pursuit
LMAOA I imagine them standing outside the base for the abusers or sth getting ready to go in and otoyas like “woohoo a date with nurse joy here I come!” And readers like “we’re so cooked” but in the end they somehow succeed time to cook up what Tullia and Karasu are doing LMAO wait imagine idk like a sorta filler ep moment maybe when you don’t feel like writing/posting something that super central to the main plot and we get the team split up first we see otoya reader then we get a snippet of Karasu tullia LMAO truly dumbass x dumbass chemical reaction there’s no strong duo than that!!! HAHAH another tally already this is so funny maybe he sends his staraptor out like usual but no one can find them fast enough to help them and they’re just like “hey guys!” Cue the “ARE YOU FUCKING INSANE” LMAO
REAL early gen art >>>> im never getting over the scovillain jumpscare it fr haunts me like what the hell is that…
Omg gojo dynamic from pi I agree that was peak (watch me be one of those people swerving to Karasu)
Ok circling back to birch because I saw the separate post first SO REAL ITS REALLY IS GIVING BIRCH??? Bro even his shirt and pants are kinda reminiscent of aiku colors and like I said the fuckass STUBBLE and the vibes just match too well he definitely would get chased into a tree by some runt pokemon LMAOOOOO retired soccer player Aiku is just Prof birch fr
Yeahhh I thought legendaries might’ve been too much which is why I only kinda considered it as a side plot only but when I was thinking of that I fr thought yk zekroms head is kinda giving karasus hair LMAOOO zapdos also gives really strong chigiri vibes but RAYQUAZA I love rayquaza I remember using its mega really often LMAO
Real an iPad is a more convenient size wise also I’m ngl I am a Google office (??) HATER I remember having to move a doc from word to gdocs and the entire formatting got fucked up and I was like what the fuck just happened????? Like the margins and spacings doubled and shit but wtv….i don’t use it unless i have too google sheets is also ASS bro my dumbass just said “wait is pages not on apple comps/macs” then I remembered that you said you have a windows….the way I already forgot that info from like two seconds ago….
JJK BORUTO crying lowk unless the sequel directly address and includes the current characters I probably won’t bother with anything beyond whatever makes it to my social media feeds either
LOOKING FORWARD TO IT aikulations or not I’ll be ready to laugh
YOU DESERVE IT you truly at the goat of goats wait that’s also so cool that’s essentially what I do when I read (except in reverse order) I lowk wonder how many things we imagine are the same (like small details yk) like I have a very clear visual of what the restaurant they sat in looks like and the outside and the parking lot (buildings and architecture are my greatest enemies in terms of drawing and layout though so I fear I won’t be able to draw it out but maybe I can find a similar looking place?? We’ll see LMAO) but yeah that essentially happens whenever I read stories and books too it’s kinda funny when I see cover art for a book and I’m like oh that’s not what I imagined but ok go off
But OMG???? I will keep my eyes peeled fs but if you’re saying it’s something insane it’ll definitely be something where I lose my mind over so now I’m even more curious LOL also that’s so me I definitely unintentionally pass out more than I should only to wake up and be like haha oh shit
LMAOO tiktok please send a hot audio Mira’s way!!! Im still amazed by bfb though 41k is actually insane for a one shot if anything I feel like that just means your next long fic is just gonna be HUGE wait actually speaking of assuming pursuit is like the pi long fic equivalent for bllk where do hollyhock and peregrine fall on the scale? Just kinda curious LOL not sure if you meant for those to be of the same length or if they’re not like long long if ykwim
Also I’d like you to know that right as I was about to hit send i select all’ed (??) this entire ask and almost deleted it I think if that happened I would’ve passed out
- Karasu anon
THE AIKU BIRCH PARALLEL I WAS CRYINGGGG it was too good 😭 the vibes match up SO well too i can just see niko rescuing him with a random starter pokémon so well LMAOAOA niko the true protagonist of pursuit boruto nagiy/n daughter charles and kurona are just side characters in his adventure
okay ykw is hilarious i just checked yuki’s team and he has an electric type too (manectric) so karasu DEFINITELY needs a ground type because of his electric type ptsd 😭 once he gets garchomp and lucario though he honestly has a good shot at beating yuki just in terms of type match ups though…like talonflame easily takes breloom, honchkrow can deal with alakazam, lucario packs up steelix, garchomp beats noivern and manectric, so the only one left is azumarill and ngl i think one of the birds like staraptor or pidgeot has a decent chance against that KFFJDJSJ so at the end of the day karasu does clutch up 🤩
LMAOO the funniest thing is like because she gets deino relatively early (i think it’ll be her third pokémon??? she’ll catch joltik beforehand) none of karasu’s birds have fully evolved yet so he’s just like WHERE IS MY DAMN STARLY in my mind his birds don’t evolve until he runs away because they need that freedom and consistently tough battling to really be pushed into evolution yk?? but no you’re so right pursuit karasu is so ideal man like nagi’s lucky reader brotherzoned karasu immediately or else he’d be in trouble (jk)
LITERALLY bro otoya’s just thinking about how nurse joy will love him after his (she won’t) meanwhile reader’s like yeah we’re done for but somehow they pull it off (probably thanks to joltik aka undisputed goat of reader’s team) but omg imagine it’s like reader and otoya going through hell trying to save all of these pokémon and then the chapter just cuts to tullia and karasu trying on clothes FJSKDJSJ infernape’s getting a massage karasu’s buying treats for starly it’s truly such a contrast 😭 HELP reader and otoya are subject to an entire lecture from karasu afterwards (mostly otoya because reader told karasu it was his fault) they’re just sitting there like niko after the game against team z LMAOAOAOA
IT HAUNTS ME TOO DW I THINK ABOUT IT QUITE FREQUENTLY AND NEGATIVELY HAHAAHA the early gen art with the water color vibe is so pretty though i love it!!
please it’s okay i’m doing my best not to swerve myself 😟 it’s fine though as long as i give a pi gojo vibe to him too it should be okay i hope…like this is our stressed out bird obsessed big brother DJFJSJS we have to lock in and go crazy for nagi fr
okay wait imagine that pursuit is kind of like a prequel to the main games?? in the sense that reader and nagi and all fix training and the perception of trainers so it’s closer to what it’s like in the game series…and then niko is the protagonist of the games themselves (i can def see him w one of the little zygarde cells as well as zygarde itself) with nagiy/n’s daughter, charles, and kurona as the little trio of rivals ☝🏻 nagiy/n’s daughter getting yveltal (taking after her mother in terms of looking sweet but having demonic team members), kurona getting xerneas, and charles getting nothing (him with a legendary is TERRIFYING)
brooo google suite sucks but it’s more convenient than word because i can access it on my phone without any extra effort 😓 so a bit more convenient than word for that reason but it’s so glitchy and annoying that i just switched to pages straight up LMAOAOAOA
i feel like everyone must picture smth different!! especially because i don’t describe settings to the point that it’s very obvious what you’re supposed to be imagining just general vibes yk…i feel like it’s probably based on your prior experiences?? but if you ever draw or find reference images do send them in hehe i will appreciate it 🤩
AAHHH I’M ASSUMING IT LIVED UP TO THE HYPE pursuit drop last night was crazy fr 😰 given that the mini prologue was 2.5k words alone i think we can predict that the word count is going to be insane 😭 peregrine if i had to guess would be in that 80-100k word count range and hollyhock could be more or less than that really depending on how deep i decide to go with the lore and how much of the in between i decide to show!! if that makes sense LMAOO
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