#ngl this is like a genuine fear of mine

[jelly-of-many-ships]

I genuinely hope I never learn about stuff like sherlock holmes & oscar wilde in english class cuz like there’s absolutely no way I would be even somewhat normal about it and I really don’t need an entire class knowing how much of a fucking nerd I am lmao

[unpopularopinionbydemand]

Boys in Love - Ep. 1 Review *✦

— Overall Thought: I like the main pairing ???

Okay, so first: I'm so upset that I didn't realize that this had started coming out. YouTube??? The f*ck is going on ??? Bc I am a broke college student, I have unfortunately turned into a pirate. Please don't hate me :,/

Anyways, let's get into the review!!

ep. 1 ratings 𓄷 7 - Pretty good for a first episode. It's not higher than a 7 cause I did fall asleep during, not the series fault, but. a tired college girl's fault. Nice setup, the cinematography is f*cking gorgeous, and MR.DIMPLES !!!!

spotlight couple of the week 𓄷 SURPRISINGLY ENOUGH, SHANE & KIT !

spotlight actor of the week 𓄷 Papang (Tan) -- He's already serving so much of what I wanted him to be, I LOVE IT

*✦ review:

Decent first episode, and this is coming from someone who genuinely hates first episodes of most BL series.

Lots of tropes already, 'come closer or you'll get ran over by children', 'let me wipe that for you', just to name a few.

So, who was going to tell me that Mick is Win's (2gether) brother?? I was sitting there like, "why do I feel like I know this dude..?" Either way, he honestly really surprised me. So far, I'm enjoying his acting which is rare when it comes to new faces, especially with GMMTV. Luke (Kit) isn't all that bad either.

Papang !! He's already playing everything I needed and more. The overbearing, overly-perfect teacher meets the cute/chill newbie. I fear, they will quickly become my favorites (especially since they're giving me the vibes of the teachers from Heartstopper)

MR.DIMPLES !! I'm more of a slow-burn girlie, so I don't LOVE the fast-pace relationship that I feel is coming, but it's Mr.Dimples, so I won't complain too much. Chokun is a f*cking cutie, like seriously, he can do no harm. Aston has this thing he does with his eyes which is kind of freaking me out a little, ngl, but other than that, I'm enjoying them.

What took me by surprise is how much I'm loving the main pairing. I didn't care for them much during the trailer, and I didn't think that would change, but when you present to me two actors that are relatively good as newbies, then I'm sold. I'm excited to see where their story goes.

As far as the cinematography, it's gorgeous. Did GMMTV switch providers or production houses, or however that works? Their series have been looking so different lately (in a good way of course).

Weekly Gripe:

I'm not sure how I feel about the voice-over quite yet. It's not annoying enough to make me feel perturbed, but it will also annoy me if it just randomly stops, so for their sake, I hope they continue it.

*✦Moment of the week:

Of course, it's the scene that I watched religiously when the trailer came out. No surprises here.

Be back next week to squeal about them some more.

(All gifs/pictures are not mine, and belong to their rightful owners :)

[sol-consort]

You're working through the main missions now, but do you have any favorite side missions at the moment? Thoughts on the tarot card graffiti?

Flaming dick man, flaming dick man my beloved.

He never picks up, but I still call him from time to time. Hoping for an update on Mr.stud's implant, maybe a review?

I only finished Watson's side missions so far. Picking a quest randomly while travelling through the city, mostly when I'm fresh out of eddies having blown it all on clothes stores.

Tier 5 drops seem to be common, so I guess I'm at that level. This is my current build and the weapons I use.

I'm kinda lost at the moment, so I'd greatly appreciate any advice! I'm trying to achieve a stealth takedown/ long-range sniper build. I don't like smart weapons either. The second I finish Skippy's quest, I'll get rid of the implant... maybe. The tattoo is cool, ngl.

Most thing I'm confused about, where do I invest my points into? Do I keep going with the Cool/Reflex/Tech combo until they're all 20? What's with the locked sixth category at the bottom? Do I save points for it just incase?

I still haven't used the reset points ability, apparently it's a one-time thing.

Is there a way to change the appearance of weapons? Like their colours? I found a cool pink/gold Grad sniper! From an enemy.

but then I crafted a higher rarity one, and it physically pained me to do the switch to an all black sniper.

Also, I got the memory wipe quickhack, and it's been a godsend in taking down those cyberpschyos non-lethaly. Just wipe their memory, crouch behind them, and press X. Regina seems delighted. I wonder if it makes a difference if you kill them or not? Idk, but Regina's praise is enough, honestly.

I love the tarot cards! The art style, I mean.

A lot of times, I just stand in front of them and attempt to guess which card it is before I scan it.

So far, I've colexted 11 cards and guessed 0 right out of those.

It's impressive at this point how consistently inaccurate my guesses are, probably because I keep yelling, "THAT'S DEATH RIGHT! IT'S GOTTA BE" at every card I see, seeing how it's the only card I remember the name of. But hey, eventually, it gotta be death, right?

Does something happen when you collect them all? I thought they were just a nice little extra egg hunt mini game. Imma focus on finishing the collection today and see for myself.

I finished the Evelyn Parker mission, the one after finding Dr.fingers. It was... hard to go through. I kept pausing many times, considered dropping the mission a lot. The things you see, a lot of them are genuine fears of mine, some things I even relate to. It was terrifying. The complete loss of autonomy, the naked corpses laying around, the furnace they used to dispose of them as if they were bags of trash. The indignity of it all. The writing's on the wall inside the cell with the handcuffs, "I'm not me not me not me not me not me"

I don't want to get into it, so I won't. I'm glad this game had this section, and how they didn't tiptoe around the subject but completely showed it to you bare.

It also really changed my perspective on Johnny. How little empathy and regard he seemed to have about the whole place, the victims, even Evelyn herself. Calling her a dumb whore, saying he would've just splashed water on her face then and there, forced her to answer his questions. Saying "or she might be a good actor" as if she was faking the traumatised state she's in

Is Johnny a bad person?

It depends. Do the ends justify the means?

As a regular person to deal with, a friend, a partner, a brother, he has a certain charm to him. Rough and sarcastic, witty with his insults, but cool nonetheless. He has the air of a cooler older figure who doesn't give a shit about all the posers, who smokes, rides bikes, weilds a katana, and just be badass in general. So when you're in a car with a guy like him, you can't help but go along when he says, "Ready to roll, or what?" You want to go along with his flow, it's infectious. The way he gives advice is too convincing, even if you hate him, you find yourself agreeing because he seems to have his shit figured out.

As a human? He's self-centered and has very little care for other human's lives or well-being. True/chaotic neutral? He won't go out of his way to harm someone for some sick kick, but he won't help someone just because either. He's sceptical and doubtful of people. He has no courtesy, no grace, no politeness. All social rules are set ablaze. He will insult even his dearest friends if they get on his nerve. He is not above harming others to achieve his goals. He has no care for casualties or consequences.

As an activist, he's not afraid to stand up and yell the crude truth eveyone else is too afraid to say. He's the one with a lifted fist when others have their heads buried in the ground, he tried to shake the world awake, truly tried. Not for a legacy, not for fame. He saw the corruption and tried to cut it from the root, he's the king at the frontline of the march into battle, ready to sacrifice his life for the cause. He wanted to eradicate evil, merciless, steered by his convection, immune to bribery and seduction. He's the perfect leader you want for a cause, the one who actually gets shit done and won't settle for less than complete overthrow of the rotten system.

Johnny would've prefered blowing up the whole Deathhead operation base, rather than sneak in, without a care to the possibilities of still-alive victims being in the building. The only reason he didn't encourage you to, was because he wanted the information Evelyn had. He didn't give a fuck about her safety, only wanted to use her to advance his plot.

So, do the ends justify the means? If a bad guy is using an innocent bystander as a human shield, would you still shoot?

What Johnny wants to achieve is noble. How he's achieving it is the farthest thing from the word.

It's not a situation of circumstances, either. A lot of times, he has many other choices, but he still walks this road specifically. No one is forcing his hand. This is how he operates willingly, enthusiastically, even. He mocks V when you pick the softer options.

Also talking about how complex of an antagonist Johnny is, look at those cool pictures I took!

Cool = symbolism

You know how if you zoom in with the camera at Johnny, he glitches out into blue because he's a hallucination?

I position V on the ground, with him above on purpose to showcase the power imbalance. With V sitting between his feet, the more control they've giving up to him—or more accurately, with Johnny sitting on their mind, as in their brain.

So it paints him as this powerful being pulling V by the strings along, like a puppet with its master. The corpse he's piloting.

But then you zoom in and

He begins to disappear, once you take a closer look.

He fizzles out like a mirage, there was no puppeteer.

And all that's left is just V.

What was that saying again? the most powerful prisons are those in your mind.

[direwolfrules]

EAH Glee AU

I do not have time right now to work on my actual writing- midterms are done so now we're just jumping right into final papers- but have an AU outline post.

Professor Pied Piper, taking inspiration from some of his best high school memories, gets Headmaster Grimm to reinstate the school glee club.

Meanwhile, Madame Baba Yaga fears the new activity will steal away talent from her prize cheer-hexing team, the Ever After High Cheerios (I can’t think of a good fairytale-ification for this, I will accept suggestions). To rectify this situation, she sends in three of her girls undercover with the goal of sabotaging the glee club.

Basically, Pied Piper is Will Schuester, Baba Yaga is Sue Sylvester, and chaos ensues.

Glee Club Members:

Apple White: She joined because 1) she's good at singing 2) she genuinely enjoys singing 3) her mom was in the Glee Club and led them to winning Nationals. I'd say she's the Rachel Berry or the Quinn Fabray, but I'm not gonna do that thing where I entirely change a character's personality to make them fit into the role of another character...for the students anyway. Look, Apple's got enough drama in her life, she doesn't need me making her crazy enough to send someone to a crack house out of jealousy.

Raven: Uh, in the books Headmaster Grimm won't let her take Muse-ic because it's not an evil class. Luckily, because of a bizarre loophole in the school guidelines for competitive teams, Headmaster Grimm can't ban her from Glee Club. Everyone say thank you Giles.

Daring: He joined because he was told it would give him extra credit for the serenading skills portion of Advanced Wooing. Also, Apple asked him to join because they didn't have enough boys in the club and Daring's been trained to never ignore a request from a damsel.

Dexter: He’s there cause Raven’s there? And also cause he is a genuinely great singer and unlike Daring needs the Advanced Wooing extra credit? Also, I just kinda want him there.

Darling: Her mom made her join. Queen Charming really said “I’m gonna take a page from Snow White’s book and live vicariously through you, offspring of mine”.

Briar: She really likes the idea of a team competition where she won’t put her teammates in danger if she falls asleep. Also, she checked the competition rulebook, as long as they don’t all leave the stage when she has a narcoleptic episode they won’t be disqualified.

Humphrey: Every Glee AU needs a white-boy-who raps and Ever After High has one already built-in in the form of Humphrey Dumpty.

Maddie: She’s there cause Raven’s there. It’s utterly hattastic!

Kitty: She’s there because she remembered her mom talking about how some of her fondest memories of high school revolves around messing with the glee club, and Kitty wants dearly to be like her mother.

Lizzie: We’re completing the Wonderland ensemble. Lizzie joins because she needs an extra curricular and the Invisible Tree Situation has gotten so out of hand they had to disband the croquet team. Great voice, ngl.

Justine: Not the strongest singer in the room, but she’s capable of choreographing numbers like nobody’s business.

Meeshell: Listen, canon’s pretending her singing in that webisode was something amazing. So like, we’re pretending now too.

Duchess: I picture her as a Sugar Motta-type character. Cannot sing, massive diva, but they gotta put up with her cause her family’s donating to the club budget.

Melody: Listen, it’s her dad’s club. She can’t just not join. She’s banking those supportive daughter points for a rainy day.

Lawrence Bonecrusher III: Listen, I just it'd be funny if Professor Piper says the ever-insane "You're all minorities, you're in the glee club" line and there's the one orc student in the school just sitting there with his eyebrow raised. He's also the Matt of this AU. For some reason never speaks when in a scene.

Faybelle: Captain of the Cheerios, totally not here as part of a scheme by Madame Yaga to DESTROY THE GLEE CLUB!!!!

Nah, but seriously, this whole AU was born of me going "What EAH character would say the iconic 'I'm a closeted lesbian and a judgemental bitch' line?" and her face popped into my mind.

[blubushie]

ngl i struggle heavily with writing the mercs because of how much the fandom influenced my perception of them. seeing people propagate their interpretation as the only correct one and dunking on other people's interpretations makes me especially insecure because what if I'M the one who is mischaracterizing the characters.

refreshing the source material doesn't help either because i don't trust my judgement and i still fear that everyone else is seeing something i'm not and their interpretation of canon is more correct than mine LMAO

This is a video game from 2007, mate. These characters have changed so much since their inception that people probably couldn't guess them if you took away foundational qualities from the comics, and the obvious. But if you add "Professional shooter who kills people for a living and has a strained relationship with his parents but a strict moral code" is Sniper, and any TF2 fan from 2007 would know that. If you add "Professional shooter who kills people for a living, has a strained relationship with his parents, a strict moral code, was born in an underwater country and shot into space to land on a neighbouring above-water country, died, was resurrected, immediately shot the guy who originally killed him" then that fan is gonna have a hard time guessing that you're still talking about Sniper.

These characters have changed a lot. Sniper alone in fandom eyes has gone from "hardarse rough Outback sexyman with abs to rival Paul Hogan" to "uwu tall softboy who's shy and scared of people and too timid to be an assassin" to "sadistic killer who gets his rocks off on tormenting his enemies with jars of his own piss" to "Just Some Bloke". The general fandom interpretation of him this year won't be the same next year, or the year after that—hell, it's not even static by month.

All this is to say that respectfully: this is a non-issue. This is a you problem (specifically that of your insecurity and likely fear of inferiority—you're afraid that being "wrong" about your characterisation makes you a lesser fanartist and a lesser fan, and therefore inferior to the "better" fans).

Never seen a fandom case of imposter syndrome, so that's a new one. Anyhow...

As long as you're not perpetuating harmful stereotypes (see: "Demo is lazy") then genuinely no one will care about what you say except if they like it. Write your headcanons, you'll be fine. At the worst someone will privately giggle about it to their mates on Discord about how incorrect you are, and you'll never see it, and no one will care the following day when they have to catch the bus for school the next morning.

Interpretation of canon means no one's really correct and no one's really wrong. It's interpretation. Do what you want forever—there's no rules here and no one is going to put you in fandom gaol if you go against the beliefs of the masses. Odds are people will like your hypotheses cuz at least they're something new and fresh.

[doppel-doodles]

FOR THE TRIO OF IDIOTS! + Bai

(Katie, Klara, Arthur and Bai) :3

𝗰𝗮𝗶𝗽𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗵𝗮 〜

𝗰𝗵𝗼𝗰𝗼𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗲 𝗺𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗶 〜

𝗺𝗮𝗶 𝘁𝗮𝗶 〜

𝘁𝗲𝗾𝘂𝗶𝗹𝗮 𝘀𝘂𝗻𝗿𝗶𝘀𝗲 〜

You can find Bais for anything but tequila sunrise here and here!:>

Anyways EEEEEEE thank you Lee!>w<♡ feeding my obsessions fr fr

Caipirinha- What does your oc's voice sound like?

Chocolate Martini- Do they refrence anything?

Mai Tai- What was their childhood?

Tequila Sunrise- What are their hobbies?

Baí

Tequila Sunrise

Baí enjoys any and all things fashion, he both learns about it but also makes his own as a pass time. That also led him down the path of collecting vintage items as well as fashion magazines, he has a couple stacks from his favourite models one of which is Adrien Allard actually:)

Yes he also makes theater costumes as well as historical garments so bro does know the difference between Regency and Roccoco fashion.

I do also imagine him dabbling in cosmetics especially making his own! Would flip if you'd let him do your make up ngl-

Arthur

Caipirinha

I'm torn on Arthur on one hand I love him with these super soft almost feminine voice, like the og French singer of that song "La seine and moi" from a monster in Paris.

But on the other hand him with a deep ass morning voice tho-

Either way he would probably always sound sleepy, lots of yawning and words kinda getting slurred. His speech pattern is just very mumbly he stumbles over his words A LOT, tends to be really quiet and soft spoken.

But his tone cane be sharp and ice cold when he wants it to be as well as completely unhinged-

Chocolate Martini

In his more recent design he does not refrence much, the coat tail of his lab coat is meant to vaguely allude to butterfly wings as well as having several gold butterfly accessories for funsies!

His overall attire is just more work appropriate for doing mad scientist shenanigans.

Mai Tai

Bro doesn't have one.

He was born and raised his brother when he was barely out of diapers himself, then his sister was dumped on him to, not to mention the family legacy that he was meant to surpass.

A bloody massacre they called a legacy.

When he wasn't playing the parent he was studying, or working or doing extra activities on behalf of his parents and or siblings and of course looking for a therapist on speed dial once bro turned 18 and had a bank account-

Tequila Sunrise

Well science is Arthur's profession,hobby and life passion it brings him genuine joy to work and learn but he definitely has other interests outside of that.

He likes cooking, it's science but edible!-^- and he can make a few dishes from a variety of cuisines!

He also studies a lot about other cultures, mainly things such as mythology,folktales,legends and the likes! It relaxes him and feels him with giddy wonder!

Klara

Caipirinha

I always imagine a boisterous lil girl who almost yells out 90% of her sentences, very cute and high pitched! But also big on emotion like you can tell when she is angry, when her voice cracks or when it shakes with fear.

But in the rare quiet moments she has it can be soft,comforting even it will fill you with joy when you hear it because you know it's okay now.

Also a very casual way of speech, she definitely has an accent that she got by imitating Adrien and his way of talking!

Chocolate Martini

As stated in Mings post him and Klara refrence each other but she is also based on old sona designs of mine as she is my very first oc and used to be my persona,(hence why she also shares a resemblance to Duppel, my current human sona).

Mai Tai

As Klara is still a kid her childhood is still in full swing though for her age a lot has happened, while being in a very privileged and loving household Klara is sick and fragile, often having to spend a lot of time in hospitals.

For that reason she also is homeschooled now, though because just like her dad she is a child genius and genuinely needs way more challenging education already just to be kept busy.

And of course there is a lot of pressure to not just live up to but surpass both her folks, and a lot of it doesn't just come from outside parties but from herself.

She already sees herself as a burden, not being able to carry such a legacy would be unacceptable.

Tequila Sunrise

Klara has looooots of different interests, she is one of those kids that tries everything but hey at least some have stuck around!

She is really into robotics, tinkering with machines and scrap junk she finds around her dads lab, a lot of their toys are things made by her!

Astrology and stargazing is also something she likes, she doesn't belive that strongly on stuff like horoscopes but it's very fun to research for her, her and her dad also bond over the learning mythology and stories behind star constellations!

Lastly there is reading, she can't really sit still most days but when her health is so bad she physically can't do anything else getting lost in another world is a better alternative than rotting in bed. Her favourite genre are sci-fi and Fantasy!:D

Katie

Caipirinha

Katie has a very soft spoken voice, a little meek and hushed but definitely feminine and just as comforting as it is haunting to listen to. Probably also has a slight French accent as she is more used to speaking that language!

And when she was a kid she had a lisp no doubt.

You also don't hear a lot of emotion in her tone, always very calm and composed, her manner of speech is very proper but she definitely speaks as few words as possible when people she is not that comfortable with are in the room.(she doesn't say anything when strangers are around-)

Chocolate Martini

Much of what applies to Klara also applies here just with the addition that Katie was deliberately designed to be her sisters opposite but also her compliment while making sure the two of them are their own distinct characters.

They look their best together but are also great on their own!

Mai Tai

Katie had a lot of issues growing up, she has switched schools A LOT both because of behavioural issues and because she was ostracised and even bullied by some of her classmates.

If she was real unlucky teachers would even disdain her.

Also having a sister who's as fragile as a dried up leaf compared to you made her put a lot of pressure on herself to "not be a bother" and just bottle up a lot of her issues, by the time her parents caught on the damage has already been done.

Despite that her own family loves her just asuch as she loves them and as youngest she is DEFINITELY spoiled rotten just a little bit.

Tequila Sunrise

She has lots of hobbies! Art for one, painting can let her express a lot the emotions she keeps inside, not to mention it's quiet and doesn't overwhelm her, very good when she is stressed or overwhelmed.

Aside from that she is learning ballet, and even figure skating, she is a little bit of a diva who loves the stage but it's another art form that let's her express herself with her body! Plus it's fun!

Very into classical music, I can see her playing string instruments like a harp or something lol maybe even piano with her dad.

She also considers sparing with her mother a hobby, they smash things together!

[smileyoureoncamera]

Okay so I just finished the all of us villains duology (after postponing and then forgetting about it midway lmaooo) and it was definitely a favorite of mine! I'm going feral about it ngl. ANYWAY I think one of my favorite things is the character development of all parties. Apologies for not being able to spell

Isobel who was basically manipulated under the guise of family to participate in the tournament. Like think about it, even though she was part of the main family she really wasn't because of her parents divorce (I think my brain is fuzzy) and then once her BFF just yeets her as champion she forced into the limelight and then loses everything except the people who only care about her stays as champion aka her dad and his side of the family so she loses the ability to trust. And then the shit that happened with Alistair who she had to trust because of losing her ability to see magic and then he basically dropped her for his brother (same tho) and then having to relearn to trust and be trusted? Reid being the person to basically help her relearn to trust??? To help her figure who and what she really wants for herself and not based on what other people tell her???????

Briony who was raised to think that being a champion was an honor and not a death sentence who really thought that she could do good and then realized well fuck being a champion ain't it and tried to remedy that who sacrificed herself and who tried to be better her entire arc was genuinely one of my faves like and then the fact that she died in that room in the castle and no one will know exactly how it went down????? The what if will haunt them forever, she really was in a sense the first brick thrown ksbsjheisjkejejd

Finley mr.perfect I think him really branching himself off from those expectations was absolutely stunning and subtle. Like hold on he really gave me hs quarterback with cheerleader gf vibes who just went with his cookie cutter life??? But then discovers actually there's to life than that and I think that's great. Honestly my brain is blank with him rn but YEET I kinda wanted more interactions with him and the others

Gavin in particular is also a fave mostly because I love characters who pull themselves from the pit like he genuinely would have done whatever it takes to win and prevail simply because his family just immediately gave up on him and everyone else refused to help and I respect that something about a character refusing to let the odds win like the strength that takes is amazing and also his relationship with al was so good ngl like he genuinely hyperfixated on him and was like nah imma be the only one to kill him that's peak romance right there that slow burn enemies to lovers was PERFECT but also his relationship with hendery? I think they were really similar narrative wise, two people destined to die and didn't or in henderys case came back

Alistair WHOOOOOO BOY WHEN I SAY HE WAS FAVE BRUH I absolutely love his character, the angst! The trauma!!!! He is wrapped in grief and I am here for it. I love how when he was introduced it was basically as the big bad wolf and he was! The monster everyone feared and then Hendry dies and it's like ACTUALLY he is simply traumatized and it's beautiful. When Hendry dies it's basically revealed that it was just them against the world and when he looses that he just sinks into his grief and despair and then with isobel he kinda learns that he doesn't have to just bury himself like that and then it's revealed that the tournament can be broken and he finds some type of reprieve but when he realizes that he would loose hendery right after he immediately throws that idea away because he just lost then gained the one thing in the world that mattered and he isn't gonna lose it again and then the curse??? Be for real without it he would have impossible to defeat. He was determined to be the monster everyone said he was to keep the one thing he cared about and I fuck with shit. I also really liked how his relationship with Gavin essentially like lead to him? Processing his grief? The loss? Of hendery? And then if course hendery being the final nail in the coffin to tell him let go it's okay you will be ok. He was so important to me because he was sculpted as a monster then became a monster and then realized no I don't have to be, I'm not. Idk kshsisjksjs

Hendery my bbboooyyyyyyyy he deserved better but okay the set up for his play in Alistair being the champion like looking back at it it was foreshadowed so hard. I'm glad we got to see moments where yeah he's still a lowe like he grew up in that environment where he was expected to be a monster even if he was the 'softer' brother and getting revenge on what they did to him was expected and deserved but I also love how he was just as fierce. He was the light to Alistairs dark lol i think the focus of their sibling bond was my fave part because they grew up separated from society they didn't interact with other people their age and they knew that everyone hated them it was literally them against the world and then the family took that from them idk man I have thoughts. His fear of dying again and leaving. Like kshskjdjdjd he was definitely one of my favorite characters

Reids story being controlled by grief is PEAK he went through so much shit and decided actually imma fuck shit up and take yall down with me and that's so valid of him but I also really love how when he became a champion he realized that huh there's actually a chance. His character development in particular was one of my favorites I wish I could put my thoughts into words.

And don't even get me started on the tournament like I NEED TO KNOW THINGS like we have the vague stories of how the relics came to be but I wanna know the full details. What really started the tournament why it started WHO started it. It's implied that others tried to stop it I wanna know THEIR STORIES kskshiwhsiejsjs

[late-tothe-party-07]

Rating TMA fears because I'm bored (rating based on how scared I'd be if actively forced to interact with them)

Starting off strong with "The Eye": 3/10

It's actually more of a favorite than a fear. I'm constantly trying to see ways I could implement a similar thing in my books

The Spiral: 6/10

I like this one a lot (cause Michael, and cool color pallet, and funky vibes) but the thought of not being able to tell if I'm losing my mind and time seems to slip through my fingers faster than ever is a bit disturbing ngl

The End: 5/10

Death is a pretty big anxiety of mine, but I cope by just not thinking about it. So even if I was faced with this fear, I'd just try very hard to pretend I wasnt

The Slaughter: 7/10

The insatiable and desolate numbness of everything being dead is more sad than scary, but if I was the one being killed then maybe it'd be more scary.

The Web: 9/10

I wholeheartedly, genuinely, despise feeling in any way, manipulated. So if faced with this, I think I would burn everything and laugh as I burned too.

The Desolation: 4/10

I like fire, even if it was lightless fire. It's just a little guy and also the wax lady Jon met was kinda cool sue me.

The Stranger: 9/10

I don't frick with that living doll type crap! And clowns! Frick those guys. Anything plastic needs to stay fricking dead

The Lonely: 4/10

Ik I would eventually lose my mind with no contact and thus, no reason to be socially acceptable at all, but for a while I'd be chilling. And if I get fog and a boat it's even better

The Vast: 1/10

Oh no! Endless grass! Whatever shall I do *lays down and sleeps* (also Simon Fairchild and I would get along immensely. I'm having tea with that dude and Idc if he kills me later)

The Buried: 6/10

Half of me would just fall asleep (I did it a lot as a kid. Squeeze in somewhere small and knock out) but the other half of me knows if I ever went caving, and pushed, and realized there was no way out.....

Yeah no. No thank you.

The Dark: 7/10

Loved loved loved the Blanket Episode, but I still need a nightlight and I got trauma that usually took place at night lmao. No shadow demons here. Nah.

The Corruption: 8/10

Ive gotten conditioned to not care about messes but if a single bug touches me I am respectfully skinning myself, throwing it in the wash, and dying.

The Flesh: 9/10

*gags* Nope. Cartilage and tendons and skin flapping off just- *gags*

The Hunt: 9/10

An insatiable mindless thing always chasing and nothing. Nothing. Will stop it? Horrifying. Thanks I hate it. The only thing I think will save me is me just laying down and accepting it because that would be no fun for whatever's chasing me

The Extinction: 10/10

I purposely avoid "End Times" posts of any kind cause in 2020 mom would talk nonstop about it, and I went into a paranoid spiral that led to several panic attacks, and I refused to go outside cause I thought people would round us up. So like The End, I usually just avoid thinking about it. Absolutely would not be able to handle lmao

[unmakingandincorporeality]

Spoilers for Scott Pilgrim takes off

So 13 years ago Scott Pilgrim (the film, and then, much more effectively, the comics) called out a bunch of really shitty traits of mine, and it was the catalyst for a lot of self work and personal growth—it said stuff I needed to hear in a way I was able to listen to, and it means a lot to me for that reason.

It was also really powerful to experience a piece of media that showed a protagonist who is simultaneously pathetic and aspirational. Like, ngl, I saw a lot of who I am and a lot of who I want to be in both Scott and Ramona. It felt good to admire them and aspire to their better qualities, while also wanting them to do better to prove to myself that I could be better, and seeing in their depictions the ways in which some of the things I aspired to be actually sucked and needed rethinking.

(that last bit didn't actually feel good tbh, some of those books made me sick to my stomach and it took a long time before I was ready to read them a second time.)

And the new series has so much more in it that I want to talk about. Like, how the whole vibe of the show captures how being in love and being loved back feels, because it's not just that the other person feels really cool, it's that they make you feel like you're awesome, that they make the whole world feel like an adventure.

But the thing that I'm really dying to talk to someone about right this very second is the last episode, the bit where even older Scott is talking about how he spent ten years like a monk training every day to master all sorts of skills and shit, and even older Ramona is just like "it sounds like you just didn't go outside for ten years"

Because that narrative, of cloistering yourself and doing monklike work every day to perfect your abilities, is so, so common, and it's so, so bullshit. But it's SO FUCKING EASY to use it to justify not getting out of your fucking room, which is something I've absolutely been doing lately.

Anyway. I'm glad a work that I love and that helped me grow a lot came back and immediately punched me in the face with more character flaws I ought to be working on, but still made me feel excited about being the kind of person I am. I think, more than the other versions did, "Takes Off" really nails the important nuance that Scott and Ramona aren't truly aspirational figures, but they also aren't bad guys. They're flawed people who often hurt other people with their emotional cowardice, but they're also genuinely cool and exciting and are worthy of love. That the best case scenario isn't that they stop being Scott Pilgrim or Ramona Flowers, it's that they start being better to the people they care about and who care about them.

Anyway I'm gonna go hide under a rock for fear of judgment from people on the Internet seeing me call Scott Pilgrim (the character) cool

[owchie-wowchie]

44, If you die I'm going to kill you, Made Inevitable.

hmmmm, I sorta struggled on this one ngl

Bright silver stars were sewn into the royal blue curtains surrounding the dark wooden stage. A large cracked stone mask was placed on the back wall, its black, abyss-like eyes staring out unnervingly. At least, it was unnerving to most souls; personally, Paul found it rather beautiful. At the current moment, Paul looked into those eyes as his hands danced over the ivory keys of the piano standing on this stage.

The spotlights above glinted on the black grand piano, streaks of blue coursing over it. He rested on the plush bench, sitting completely straight while soft music filled the air. A few hums left him here and there as he perfectly played a song he's never heard before in his life.

Loud footsteps hitting against the wood floor cut through the gentle music. Paul continued playing while Wiley strode across the stage and leaned against the piano. They pulled a bright green apple out of their jacket's pocket and took a bite out of it, juice dripping down his chin. Paul continued playing, creating a backdrop of sound during conversation.

"Out of all the theaters in all the dimensions, you just had to walk into mine," he said playfully, smiling.

Wiley swallowed their bite, facing away from Paul. "Do ya know what's comin' up?" they asked.

Paul shook his head. "I'm afraid I don't."

Wiley dragged their sleeve over their mouth, looking out at the rows of empty seats facing them. "It's my... anniversary," Their glittering green eyes looked far away. "Of when I stepped through that portal."

"Sounds fun," Paul commented, still playing.

Wiley paused for a beat. "Didn't feel like it back then." They ran a hand through their greasy hair. "I mean, I see the light now but," They chuckled humorlessly. "All those years ago, I felt like I was goin' insane."

Paul chuckled as well, harmonizing with the piano. "Yeah, I get that."

It seemed Wiley didn't hear Paul talking. "When I left my old life behind, I left... some folks." They sniffed the air harshly before pulling away from the piano side in the blink of an eye, darting over to the bench. Wiley shot out a hand and aggressively grabbed Paul's chin. They twisted his head to look up at them and Paul finally ceased his playing.

His eyes grew wide as Wiley leaned in close to his face. "Y'know why I spend so much time here?" Paul didn't dare so much as twitch, fearing that the slightest move would make Wiley move away. "Cause," They ran his free hand through his hair, Paul leaned into the touch. "I know you'd never leave." Wiley closed the small gap between their faces and pressed their lips on his, nails still digging into his chin. Pain rushed in Paul's stalling veins, pushing his blood around, allowing Paul to feel actual excitement.

They pulled back, grinning coyly, a goofily genuine smile on Paul. "If ya know what's good for ya, that is."

[oncominggstorm]

1, 4, 7, 8, 9, 42, 54, 81, 85 (for yesterday's ask game if you're still doing it) :D

1.) whats your favorite thing in your room?

I mean TECHNICALLY it's gotta be my laptop, I use it constantly and love it. But for whatever reason my laptop doesn't really feel like it's "in" my room (even tho like...it is. I am in my room with it typing on it rn lol), cuz it doesn't have like, a set place. It's on my bed with me during the day and then legit I just put it on the ground at night cuz there's no room anywhere else haha.

SO that being said, my favorite thing that's actually like, a PART of my room, would either be my lava lamp, my pikachu plushie, or my squishmallow 😊

4. whats a rare fear that you have?

Honestly I feel like all my fears are pretty common? The main fears I can think of are the dark, ghosts, bees/wasps, rejection, being alone forever, and losing people I love...and none of those really seem rare tbh 🤷‍♀️

7. what was your favorite thing as a kid?

Favorite thing?? Like, EVER? Of ALL the foods and colors and tv shows and toys and activities etc etc, the MOST favorite? fkladsjfldasjf. Uhhh. Hmmm. Well, I got obsessed with Harry Potter around age 9 or 10, and that was obviously like, a HUGE part of my life for a really long time, so probably Harry Potter. I genuinely am struggling to remember what I liked when I was younger than that tho 🤷‍♀️😂

8. favorite coping mechanism?

......ngl it's weed 😂 I need to find something better, and I do genuinely want to try to take a break sometime soon cuz it's definitely not the best for me (also expensive af). But it's the ONLY thing that ever really works. Every other way of coping I've tried before just like...does not work. Well. Shoving everything down and distracting myself with tv or video games or disassociating can sometimes help a bit too. But not as well. And that's also not that healthy of a coping mechanism either 😂

9. whats your favorite love language?

Probably quality time? I just want someone to actually WANT to be around me, to talk to me, to do things together, etc. But also I'd say paying attention to the little details about me, cuz what I really want is for someone to REALLY know me and still like me anyway. And words of affirmation too for SURE. I am someone who CONSTANTLY needs to be reassured that everyone doesn't secretly hate me lol. So people telling me they care about me, telling me they appreciate me, telling me things they like about me, etc. is big for me too haha.

42. whats one thing you wanna do but havent yet?

How do I pick one? There's so many lol. Have sex, get married, travel internationally, visit a national park, write that original story idea I told you about, have a best friend, get actually good at drawing, learn a different language, win the lottery, the list goes on and on lol

54. whats your best hottake?

Hmmm. Well the first one that came to mind was that Chicago style deep dish pizza is the best kind of pizza (yes, better than new york style). And while there definitely ARE gonna be a TON of people who disagree on that (and I WILL maintain that they are WRONG), I kinda doubt y'all have Chicago style pizza over there? Sooo maybe not that one 😝

So then I thought "The 13th doctor was better than the 11th" but you already know that opinion of mine haha 😂

So I'm gonna land on this one: Laziness isn't real 🤷‍♀️

81. whats your least favorite animal?

Well if insects count as animals it's 100% frickin wasps. Honestly all of my most hated animals are insects lol. For a non-insect it'd probably be some sort of fish or ocean creature tbh, just not sure which one. But fish tend to freak me out a little

85. do you like soda?

Waaaaay too much lol. Like I actually have 3 cans of diet 7up on my bedside table rn 😂

Thanks Marce :)

[1d1195]

It’s understandable to just wanting to be over with things! Especially since you’ve mentioned how hectic this past month has been and how it seems like it’s not letting up :( just please remember that it’s okay to feel a bit off but put yourself first (easier said than done I know) you deserve a bit of peace💕

Yay to a new bag and towels!! Also Christmas shopping?! You know that’s probably the best option tbh lol oh I use to LOVE Lizzie McGuire, it was something I loved watching after school when I was younger!

I fear hot professor could save me 😭

Sam, I genuinely think you’re absolutely talented! Wayyy before we started to chat more beyond your stories, I really admired your writing style! As well as how you have and continued to create characters that I feel so deeply connected to which was a rarity for me?!? Like I don’t have to grasp at things to compliment because YOU DO GREAT WORK! Which leads me to my thoughts on the made to be extra… SAM WDYM ITS NOT OF MERIT?!😭 the made to be babies are literally a fave of mine!! And this extra was so cute😭 I genuinely love how effortless the dialogue between them and the students feels like it’s not forced at all! But even then your banter that you write in general is super realistic which I think helps with(at least for me) emerging deeply into the story! Plus you know how much I love a little jealousy moment even if we were TEASED of what he would do 🤭 so so cute! I’ve missed them ngl! I loved reading it!!

Hope you’re okay so far! I’m really wishing you an easier week! Also no need to write something so you can post, trust me no one will be upset! Wishing you the best my love!!-💜

AHHHH! Middle of the week message! Does this mean you're having a good easier week!? I love that!

I try to be an earlier shopper and I promise myself I'm going to do REALLY good and start in like September but it doesn't usually work out that way. What I need to do next year is just buy amazon and target giftcards. Like one a month for $50 and worst case scenario, I use them myself. Best case scenario I have 12 people I don't need to buy presents for 😂

I LOVE Hilary Duff she's a QUEEN

A hot professor could save any one of us! Nothing to fear there!!

I appreciate your kindness as always 💕 I loved the Made to Be series and they're so cute and I LOVE writing their little banters (the way the students talk to them is essentially how my classroom is run). I think that's also might be why it feels so realistic. I LOVE posting and honestly it might be the only thing that is making my week right now. I think I'm going to try to post something tonight (Thursday) or tomorrow. It's been a really emotional week and I need something that makes me happy.

I hope you killed your test and your hot TA professes his love to you and you have the best weekend planned 💕

xoxo

[sweater-daddiesdumbdork]

Thank You for adding this to @yenzys-lucky-charm and mines challenge. 😍😏

This was so friggin good and my little dark romance loving heart was absolutely smitten with Steve. 🖤

As soon as we were introduced to the situation these two in, I could feel anticipation about what might happen. I mean a woman can't help but notice right? You made him the right amount of intimidating and soft in parts. At least in the beginning.

Ngl those tattoos, why am I a weak hoe for a man in tattoos??? They make me feral, I swear!

Then when Steve shifts, like he is trusting the reader enough to let out this other more intense side of him? Yes ma'am I AM HERE FOR THAT CONFIDANT FLIRTING. Steve knows the signs, picks right up on the readers interest and arousal. If I was in that situation, I would be too.

The fact the reader even decided to go for it... damn that's a risk, but well worth it if you ask me. Sounds like Steve is... talented. Would I b going to my knees? 100 percent absolutely. No shame, I am what I am for fictional characters.

Can I'm say I'm surprised he busted out and went straight to the reader, not at all. In his mind she's his, and she hasn't done NOTHING really to say otherwise. I mean sure it's implied but well Steve might not think in that way.

So her fear? Genuine (I mean if it was me, I would be addicted to the adrenaline rush and terrified at the same time 🤣😏) I wonder if she will convince him to go.bck? I doubt it, he really seems set.on being the one to take care of the reader which is just such a Steve vibe.

I absolutely was addicted to this, I've been in my dark romance era lately and this just hit oh so good.

Thank you again so much for this! It was such a good read.

talk so sweet when you’re doing bad things

✨Pairing✨: inmate!softdark!Steve Rogersxpsychiatrist!black!reader

Summary🪄: Your pining isn’t in vain

🚨: 18+ NO MINORS!, oral (m!receiving), unprotected happy adult times (please be safe out there guys and girls!), language, obsessive like behavior, implied stalking, mention of masturbation (f!receiving)

A/N🎤: ✨HAPPY SPOOKY SEASON🎃!!✨ this is my submission to the Horny Hoes Hootenanny hosted by @sweater-daddiesdumbdork and @yenzys-lucky-charm and I hope you guys like what I came up with☺️! Also please support the other works for this event and even submit your own if you feel inclined💕!

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Dialogue Prompt: “Don’t act all innocent when we both know where your mouth just was”

Tropes/Situational Prompt: the villain/monster has feelings (or thots) for you

You didn’t have to hear a name to know which escaped inmate the news anchors were currently talking about.

“Blonde white male, blue eyes, 6’3, considered highly dangerous.”

You knew him very well having had him as a patient for about a year now. Pretty much the same amount of time his hulking body - yet soft features - has plagued your dreams and hidden fantasies. That first night it happened, your imagination vividly playing in your resting mind how his thick fingers would touch you just right to have you writhing and moaning for more, you were…flustered.

It wasn’t the first time - and probably wouldn’t be the last - that a patient made a surprise appearance in one of your dreams. Details and analysis from earlier sessions still fresh in your subconscious and lingering into your resting state. It was how you felt afterwards though, that told you this instance was far different. You desperately - and a little shamefully - wished you could sink back into that erotic dreamland when you awoke throbbing and needy from the scenes now branded in your memory. Sometimes you even found yourself daydreaming about his muscular, tattooed arms wrapped tightly around you. His soft lips gently pecking along your face before journeying down your heated body to where you wanted him most. That dark beard scratching and tickling your inner thighs until it ultimately became soaked.

Although that hidden primal urge wanted differently, every day after you expertly maintained your professionalism during your sessions with him. Carefully dissecting his words and explanations to make sure he wasn’t a danger to himself or others - well, no more than what other people already believed that is.

However one day, something shifted.

Gone was his reserved attitude - clearly deciding whether to fully trust you - and instead, a man who seemed…one step ahead. Dare you say a little smug. Admittedly, this new aura had a familiar warmth spreading along your lower abdomen causing your thighs to squeeze together as you slightly shifted in your seat.

“So, how are you today Mr. Rogers?,” you asked turning to a fresh sheet of paper in your spiral notebook.

He sighs, briefly widening his thick legs as he gets comfortable. His tattooed hand scratching along his bearded jaw. “Good as I can be. And I think we’ve known each other long enough that you can call me Steve.”

“Is that what you would prefer?”

For the first time, a hint of a smirk paints his pink lips thinking of a few names he’d prefer you call him. It’s unknown to you though as your hand moves along the page scribbling notes. “Makes things more comfortable right?”

Finally you look up from your writing to meet an intensity in his sea like eyes you’ve never experienced. You can’t look away though as you feel yourself slowly become flustered. “Are you not comfortable during our sessions..Steve?”

He pauses for a moment simply letting his eyes roam along your features - as if analyzing you for a change - before leaning forward with elbows on his knees. “What’re you writing?”

“Just observations. Notes for your file.”

“We can’t make our own notes?”

“Um..of course. I would actually suggest journaling as a way to manage your emotions; your thoughts. Keeping up with other suggestions from our sessions you might find helpful.”

“And my own observations,” he adds leaning back in his chair. “Like you.”

“What exactly do you mean ‘like me’?”

“Like how you seem…different. Bothered maybe.” You subtly try to calm your increasing pulse as he crosses his arms across his chest. His muscles straining against the white tee that have you near dripping already. Swirls of black ink forming various pictures and cursive words on his arms teasingly persuading you to kiss each one.

There’s no way he could tell was there?

“Thank you for inquiring, but this session is about you Steve,” you answer closing the notebook in your lap. “And as a warning, that question is ina-,”

“Must be tiring though. Always doing for others, yet no one there for you.” Steve’s tongue peeks out ever so gently wetting his lips. “No one to take care of you.”

“I’m an adult. I care for myself.”

“My point exactly.” Steve’s head just barely tilts while his vice drops an octave lower. “We both know everyone shouldn’t do everything alone.”

“I think we’re done here,” you quickly respond so he couldn’t go farther and crumble your resolve. “Have a good day Mr. Rogers.”

There’s a slight mischievous tilt to his lips as he stands. Cords of muscles moving under his shirt with such a subtle movement. His hands clasp in front of him turning to walk towards the door where a guard always waited to escort him back to his cell, and you can’t help but silently admire the expanse of his backside. From his broad shoulders to his thick thighs, the sight causes that pulse between your legs to start again.

“You too” is all he says once he’s near the door, but his earlier words leave a lasting impression throughout your day. You can’t seem to focus on your other clients constantly thinking of his deep voice, his pink lips, the intense way he looked at you that wasn’t uncomfortable but made you feel seen.

That night was the fastest you’ve ever came - squeezing and clutching around the rubber toy inside you so hard you genuinely thought there’d be an indentation when you finally pulled it from your messy core.

Something also snapped in you, wanting - needing - to know if Steve was just as good as you fantasized. That’s admittedly how your arrangement began, first sweet talking the guard into taking his lunch earlier after overhearing his child was sick. “He hasn’t had any violent acts in a little over a year. His file can attest that he’s currently not a danger. I’ll be fine, your kid needs you.” Reluctantly, he followed your suggestion but would of course try to be back in time for transport.

“You call if anything goes left, alright? Remember your panic button,” the man, maybe 10 years older, states peering dead center into your pupils so you’d know he was serious and he’d know you were listening. A quick nod sends him on his way to retrieve Steve; leaving you to mentally prepare yourself for what was to come.

A smirk tugs on his lips once the door closes behind him. His deep blue eyes raking up and down your seated body; appreciating the black, knee-length pencil skirt you chose to wear rather than your typical slacks. “Good afternoon Steve.”

“Afternoon,” he replies slightly tilting his head forward in greeting. “Since we’re still meeting, I take it what I said wasn’t all that bad. That you might’ve even agreed with me..”

Fast forward, your secret rendezvouses were still going strong. You on your knees for him just as you were that first day gladly bobbing up and down his throbbing length. Your hand not clutching his thigh twisting and rubbing what you couldn’t reach.

“This is how you act a week without me huh?,” he smirks with his larger hand clutching the back of your neck. When you peer up at him through wet lashes - moaning as you nod your head - he nearly comes undone cursing under his breath as the veins in his neck distend in that way you love so much.

Just as you feel him twitch in your mouth, he’s quick to pull you off causing you to gasp for breath as he maneuvers you to your feet. Turning you so your back would hit the wall as he hurriedly pushes your dress up over your hips. As usual, he’s met with your bare center glistening and ready for him.

“Fuck..need to be inside you,” Steve whispers against your lips before claiming your mouth as he’s done plenty times before. His tongue easily dominating yours only makes you wetter and thighs feel sticky.

“Steve please,” you pout. “Fill me up.” His hand grips under your knee simultaneously lifting and spreading you so he could slide in. His member thick, red, and leaking when he pulls down his orange pants. Luckily Steve wasn’t in the teasing mood, roughly entering your needy hole and making you loudly moan before his mouth was covering yours again.

“You’re gonna get us caught sweetheart,” he chuckles kissing along your jaw and neck. “Then again, maybe that’s what you want.” His pace begins to quicken as your hands clutch his shoulders and fingernails dig into his skin causing him to groan. “Want someone to see how good I make you feel? How deep you take me?”

“Steve,” you whine letting your head fall back against the wall. The slapping of his hips against yours nearly drowning out your panting and whimpers. “S’close.”

“I know, I know. God you’re so pretty like this, all blissed out and dumb.” He practically growls into your chest trying to hold on for longer, but he knows he’ll be gone soon the way you squeeze around him so tight. Even after all these months of meetings.

His free hand moves between you to circle your nearly raw nub as he switches between kisses and nips along your breast making you arch and tears prick the corners of your eyes feeling that addicting wave overtake you. “Ste-..I-…plea-,”

“Give it to me, cmon.” It wasn’t long after your release crashed into you that Steve was following, burying his face in your neck as he kept his moans and whimpers low. His hand massages your achy thigh while he pecks along the column of your throat in an effort to calm you down.

“My pretty girl. Did so good for me.” You couldn’t help but giggle feeling your cheeks heat at his words.

“T-Thank you Steve.”

How so much can change in the matter of hours.

-

Sat on your couch, knees pressed against your chest, all you can do is listen as the man rummages in your fridge and pantry trying to find whatever it was he wanted. The television playing a game show you’d usually be interested in, but now can’t even hear it with the pounding in your ears. Your heart still thudding since first leaving your bedroom to investigate the noise you heard and finding him in your living room.

“Figured you’d want some,” he states placing the cup of peppermint tea on the table in front of you. How he knew, you didn’t have the stomach to think about let alone how he knew where you lived in the first place.

“Y-You shouldn’t be here,” you whisper as he sits on the opposite end of the couch. Your first words to him tonight.

Steve just lowly chuckles. “Don’t act all innocent when we both know where your mouth just was.”

“That still doesn’t give-,”

“Then why leave your key?,” he counters. “Of all our sessions I didn’t even know you had them. Yet today there it was.”

You didn’t purposely leave your key. Already in a rush when you arrived that morning, you just left it out rather than placing it in your wallet like usual. It wasn’t until you were in your car on the way home that you remembered it shining against the hardwood off to the side. According to protocol, you should’ve notified someone but you figured you could just get it the next morning and use your spare in the meantime.

In retrospect, you realize Steve must’ve seen and swiped it when you weren’t looking. Probably when you were cleaning yourself up and righting your dress.

“The key was just out Steve,” you carefully try to explain seeing the confusion in his features. “I didn’t leave it on purpose.”

“So now this is all my fault?”

“No it’s no one’s fault-,”

His sudden movement - standing to pace along the expanse of your bay window - startles you to stand yourself and ready to run if needed. “Can’t you see I did this for us?!”

“I-I know Steve, but-,”

“No,” he darkly chuckles shaking his head as he steps closer. “No don’t even try. This is real and we both know it!”

You quickly wipe away the tear falling from your eye trying to stay calm; hoping you could turn the situation around. That feeling entirely fleets watching him pull out his notebook and flip through the dated pages smudged with something…shiny.

“I saved these just in case you tried to deny it. Make it seem like I was the crazy one.”

Cautiously, you close the gap between you. Luckily he lets you hold his hand when you reach out towards him. “Y-You’re not crazy and I’m not denying anything Steve.” His frustration shifts to a soft smile gazing into your brown eyes. “We need to get you back to your cell though. You don’t wanna ruin all your progress right?”

Somehow you steady yourself not to flinch when his hand rises to caress your soft cheek. His thumb lowering to trace your plump lips he loved so much.

Love. He loved you. And if his mother taught him anything, you do any and everything for those you love.

“I can’t do that. You need someone to take care of you like only I can. You didn’t even check your windows before you went to bed sweetheart.” You can’t fight the tears now fully letting them flow as your future vanishes before your eyes.

“Hey it’s okay, I’m here now,” he coos. Those arms you once fantasized about now burning against your skin for a different reason. “No one’s separating us again.”

[maurenislife]

i hate tiktokers and mf lifestyle youtubers

now before i say anything im not hating

im not even really hating on what you think cause i dont wanna be or have a desire to be known for anything cause thats not even my mode or my goal in life and i dont idolize anything cause im not a sad 16 year old who yearns for a image that i liked and bookmarked on the internet ANYWHO ...

everybody thinks your a instant hater cause ur just jealous...... umm newsflash u fucking junkie whore, whats not meant for me isnt mine to have and whats not done for me i can do myself it takes nothing to get a few coins and prance around in a marble counter cosplay

trust.

Moving foward this whole brigade of wannabe lifestyle whores

they all immolating and channeling which i think is quite impressive down to the candance and lingo etc. its impressive :) all the copy and pasting they do is quite impressive to see, and ill sit with a popcorn bucket and vape to laugh at it all cause its a waste of time.

a long time ago i stopped being jealous of certain lifestyles and things cause once u can attain them or find a way, or figure out how the sausage is made its not that hard and that isnt impressive or even likeable in any sense

people are immulating at a high frequency and the universe can sense imposters and non believers who do not live in. their truth and go cower in fear and just simply conform one thing they will never know if nobody can smell it the universe can sense it even if nobody can see, universe sees, it feels, it calls out, it grasps you

Everybody wants to potray and cosplay a shitty portray aina but what u dont know is lets say even if u make it big, get the sponsorships, the trips reap the benefits of u raping your own life with cameras and tripods what is it all for? fuck money, fuck the gift. fuck the family feeding for just 45 seconds what are you gaining in spirit?

like what in your femmine spirit and the many who have died along the way for you to get here are you proud the answer might still be yes just to stick it to me or it might be genuinely yes cause you in turn think you are very much a success i mean thats what you have been showed and by scoreboard standards band 4 band u beat a bitch >

you didn't though lame you didn't, the inner work didn't completed and i honestly dont give a fuck if a bitch got a isn't for me of why i dont know her and im not in her household,

bitch with your content I AM IN YOUR HOUSE, I AM IN UR BRAIN, your constantly gagging up information every-time u take a bite into a stupid food u bought cause of your audience and everytime u gag up information when you say spend the day with me

we see inside your frame even if its all a act what does that inherently say about you???

You give us yourself and think we got no right to comment

okay enough of jealous prefacing and putting the condom on for yall

Wannabes

These women grew up being ridiculed or extremely loved theres no inbetween because both have the ultimate libido and desire to be seen and heard and viewed in a certain light to get illicit reactions out of other people... its odd ngl

i look at my tiktoks and its all been jokes i crack on me or stuff me and my friends did drunk and just goofing im not saying everybody gotta take that route i do appreciate lifestyle influncers who serve the purpose of showing us the viewer and cost breakdown of spas or vacations or maybe even a resturaunt or things i might wanna go do

like who am i to get mad at them for the sake of curiosity and further knowlege on a place i intend to visit i never been like dope case closed type shit

But if you a wannabe ..........................................................

its a waste of time and energy and your soul and we see it bleeding out for a "look at me mommy" like its sad.....

you can tell the want the mommy to compliment their outfit and the sister to ask where did you learn to do your makeup? and the auntie to ask where can i get that slice of pizza

they want the overall appeal of who is gonna ask me

who is gonna notice me and with each clip you see apart of them kinda just yelling out to the universe not only notice me but award me for being noticed and nobody is gonna do that not even 1 million viewers can set you free,

COPIER

you know the one philposhy thingy of the barnyard picture and like idk ill have to look this up but basically to break it down simply

theres a pic of a farmhouse and soon it gains popularity every mf wants to go and soon its like a disney w a giftshop its copied and copied till it loses its meaning idk look that shit up its a real philosphy and its deeper than what im saying but i ont got time for allat yo

bitches copy till they mf face turn blue and they want it to have the same effect the 1st one did

but the reality remains your immulation ends there

your cleaning the same marble counter like everybody else

taking the same pic on that goddamn boat like everbody else

wearing the same oufit bookmarked and tagged on pintrest like everybody else

its a waste..... why do we need 567,000 copies of the same bitch doing the same shit its lost its meaning besides "you did it"

like ................... no

and i dont wanna be different either and throw my hand in and see who can do it better cause why its so dumb

live ur life like ??? u gone spend ur 20s and 30s chasing after whats not yours ............... no thx

[slnnohan]

mmm not to get personal or sappy or whateva but even tho i post art for myself , etc, seeing nice tags on my miku is so so nice,,

[truth-over-solace]

Wanna preface this by saying that OP did a very good job rating objectively and that I wish mine could be the same, but I rated mine purely off of how much they inconvenienced me and the vibes I felt while listening. I say some stuff I'll probably regret upon a relisten, so take what I say w a grain of salt lmao

20. Hard Reset - Wasn't interested in old people w weird dogs.

19. Personal Screening - Cases already don't stick well in my mind, but an anticlimactic ending makes it especially forgettable, sorry :(((

18. N/A

17. Give and Take - Ehhhh idk I just don't vibe w the case, though I really liked Gwen and Lena's whole exchange. I justify this being really far down because Gwen and Lena were only like 5 minutes worth of a 20 minute episode with a case I wasn't all that interested in.

16. Introductions - Didn't take to Needles, sorry.

15. Well-run - Didn't take to Lady Mowbray either, but I like her a Lot more than Needles.

14. Futures - Would rate it higher, but others took priority.

13. Pet Project/Marked - couldn't decide which one I should put in 18th so now they both share the 13th.

12. First Shift - Not the best, not the worst. I listened to this on a discord server and this was when the official trascripts weren't working and the unofficial site hadn't made transcripts yet so I genuinely understood nothing so that affected my opinion. I liked the reanimation case, but the ruins case less so.

11. Getting Off - Would rate it higher as well, but others took priority. Out of the Big Scaries (Bonzo, Mowbray, Needles), I like Bonzo best.

10. Making Adjustments - I remember liking it so much on account of I actually understood what they were saying bc transcripts were up and running by then so that had a hand in my opinion of it. I also really liked the ending line. This would be higher if others didn't take priority.

9 Running on empty - OH I really did not like the case for this one, slips through so fast I could not care for it even if u put a gun to my head, BUT Gertrude and Gerry are there, and their episode deserves to be in the top ten

8. Rolling With It - I play Genshin and related hard to the Gambler's Fallacy lmaooo

7. Taking Notes - Grifter's Bone part two electric boogaloo, I also really loved the gore in this one. It's written by the person who wrote The Town Whispers (still still still holding out for that season two finale i swear to god), so I am biased as well.

6. Anti Social - hahahaha this should be way lower but it was a lot of fun to be in agony over the equivalent of a child saying "skibidi gyatt rizz" at one in the morning

5. Social Stigma - I love In5oul, I love Gwen, they're both in this episode, and that's why it's rated high.

4. Saved Copy - The twist !!! I also loved the Not!Them so like ahaha

3. Solo Work - Scared the shit out of me ngl, it was like a Fear Soup made just for me lmao

2. Saturday Night - "Can he read???????" also i just love Gwen so like. and also also the implications of [error] is super concerning but I wouldn't have known there was [error] if it hadn't been for the transcripts that were already available upon episode drop so plus points to an already great ep

1. Putting Down Roots - I don't have the words to describe how much I loved this 10/10 I would also like to be gaslit by the plants in my bloodstream that I should give my life to them. Loved the case, loved Alice and Colin in this as well.

My ranking of The Magnus Protocol episodes thus far, from least to most great (and why):

20. Personal Screening. Too much build up, not enough pay off. Dumbest main character award.

19. Hard Reset. I just kept zoning out, sorry.

18. Pet Project. Sneks. Not bad, kind of lackluster.

17. Anti-Social. Others might put this lower, but it was so god awful that it at least made me laugh.

16. Solo Work. Corpse case hit me right in the heart, but the organic conversations need some work. And oh, miscommunication trope, they could never make me like you.

15. Social Stigma. Bit long-winded, though I do enjoy hearing avatars speak about losing their humanity and finding the "loving embrace" of their god. Compelling, even.

14. Running on Empty. Case was fine, would probably be lower if not for GERTRUDE. MOTHERFRICKIN'. ROBINSON.

13. Rolling With It. Love a return to form with a classic statement. But the fedora trench coat combo gave me high school flashbacks.

12. Give and Take. Stranger ritual? Hell yes. Only wish we got more.

11. Marked. Parts dragged, but very creative use of an email chain. "The deep will care for his bones..."

10. Making Adjustments. The body dysmorphia + body horror statements in TMA really struck a chord with me, as did this one. Not particularly "scary" though.

9. Futures. The inevitable demise of those who try to cheat death will always slap.

8. Saved Copy. "Huh, maybe the narrator will become evil out of jealousy-- OH."

7. Putting Down Roots. Constantly felt unsettled, and the professional/analytical language changing in time with the doctor's transformation was very well done.

6. Getting Off. Mister Bonzo's on his way he wants to stay he wants to play, Mister Bonzo's on his way he wants to stay he wants to play...

5. First Shift. For "canaries should stay above ground" and "some of him" alone.

4. Introductions. Yeah I'm a sucker for any Michael-esque character.

3. Saturday Night. Excitement and intrigue at every turn. Many questions posed but also an eagerness to decipher them. Also, "Can he read???"

2. Taking Notes. A haunting story that flowed like a withered old man was telling it directly to me beside his grand fireplace.

1. Well Run. Horrifying concepts, great B-plots, Lady Mowbray, excellent suspense and sound design. 10/10