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Aw man, I did not realise the fall fitzier exchange was a thing that was happening—let alone in time to to participate in it—but I am literally doing the final editing read thru of the next installment of the law au; I was planning to post it today, and now there is absolutely no way i can do that because it is going to get so buried among 45 new fics, without any of the publicity boost of the exchange 😔😔😔
#feeling very left out in this chili's tonight 😔#😔😔😔#new fic to read though#which as a reader i am not at all complaining about#but....you know
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deepthroating a gun without breaking eye contact...... he put his entire gongyussy into that | SQUID GAME 2
+ the video because the sound he makes when he puts the gun in his mouth? [redacted]
update: he improvised that. the man really said i'll go full slut.

#my beautiful unhinged wife..... you know the salesman is an utter freak on the streets and in the sheets#i watched one episode of the new squid game for the plot#the plot: gong yoo showing off his lack of gag reflex <3. he gloc on that glock etc.#the way he drags his bottom lip down with the muzzle of the gun sjhfsgfjhfgkj. redacted redacted redacted.#anyway. new username to celebrate#he put his entire ahjussy into his performance here. his ahjussiussy. his ahjussussy. you get it.#mutuals/followers from my old asian drama blog remember when train to busan came out in 2016 and for one and a half months#and i slipped back into my obsession and i was just a gong yoo shrine? ;_____;#i'm on the brink of regressing.......... help.....#also pardon the quality realised only after exporting that my grain was too strong -.-;#gun tw#blood tw#gong yoo#squid game#squid game spoilers#squidgameedit#netflixedit#tvedit#kdramaedit#uservik#chewieblog#userbbelcher#userisaiah#it's been a while i forgot what other tags there are…#long post#you know what.#gay#i cannot read salesman/gihun fic because i dislike ljj with a burning passion though.....
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Storyboarded my favorite interaction from ch6 of Bloodstained Hands… what a troll…
#kakashi hatake#might gai#digital art#bloodstained hands in a world of white#artists on tumblr#naruto#kakashi time travel#sometimes I get sad that I’ve read through so much of the kakashi time travle fics that it’s harder to find new good ones#like this one#seriously though I have a problem
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I’ve been reading and reading-reading one of the best JJK fics I’ve ever read, which is:
“the heroine is annoying, but she dies spectacularly at the end” by SiqwithaQ on AO3 or @hockeyisforthegays PLEASE go read it, good shit!!! It’s got time travel, character study AND interesting dynamics!!! Not ship focused but I think that really adds to fleshing out more characters than a romance centered fic would, I’m so for it!
There’s already a lot of conspiracy jokes (which I find funny every time) but thought I’d add in my two cents ^u^
#spacy's art#spacy's stuff#itadori yuuji#jjk yuuji#jjk shoko#jjk geto#jjk gojo#boring heroine fic#I’ve had so much fun reading this fic and trust me#I am biting at the bars of my enclosure whenever a new chapter comes out#ofc I prefer the author take their time though so I wait patiently the rest of the time
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Where are all the Sakamoto days found family fics? Hello? Especially with Shin starting to live with them and everything? Excuse me?
EXCUSE ME?
I really just gotta do everything on my own here. What the hell.
#Already like 2k words in#I'm not kidding#I'm writing during my lectures#And lost like an hour of progress when I changed the tab on my tablet for one second to translate a word#But seriously this manga has peak found family and everyone is ignoring it#(Says me who hasn't done anything than read the manga till now either)#Though 624 fics for just the manga isn't so bad I suppose#Hope the anime will atract lots of new fans#Sakamoto Days deserve more attention#sakamoto days#sakamoto days shin#shin sakamoto days#asakura shin#shin asakura#sakamoto tarou#When one character gets 4 different character tags and everyone else get 1#Cause the last name drops late#Aaahhhhhhh
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My question of the day:
How many words do you aim for per chapter when writing? And, is there a chapter amount that you prefer reading?
For me personally, I always try to get my chapters to be like 5-7k words. I normally have like 2 or 3 scenes I want to write in each chapter and too short wouldn’t include everything I want, but at a point if they get too long, I just move the last scene to the next chapter.
#I guess I’m just wondering bc the chapter I’m writing is like over 10k words and I feel like I’ll need to break it up soon🫠🫠🫠#but I guess for my 2 readers the good news is there won’t be as long of a wait for the chapter that comes after this one😆#when chapters get too long#unless I’ve brought the fic to my kindle I just…don’t like it#I don’t like having a small scroll bar on my phone & I normally can’t read a chapter in one sitting bc I’m such a slow reader#chapter size does NOT affect whether I’ll read something or not though bahahahahahaha#bc good writing is good writing😌👌#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fandom#hphl
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spuffy fic rec
part 1 - part 2 - part 3 - part 4 - part 5
Circles by toooldforthis [5k]
They're so near and yet so far away. A post-series reunion oneshot.
Centering by PennyDrdful [21k]
Post-Intervention. The monks never managed to get the Dagon Sphere to Sunnydale. Thanks to his own research, and full access to the Council's resources, Giles has discovered its existence and location in Elk City, Oklahoma. Viewing it as imperative in the defeat of Glory, he sends Buffy and Spike on a road trip to recover it. Anger, snark, and UST ensues.
Myth Taken by Twinkles [23k]
In a comfortable Californian town in the year 2110, Benji meets his new neighbours and discovers a strange tale of family history that skews the lines between fact and fiction.
Undead by noripori [26k]
Buffy’s finally on the verge of ending things with Spike. Then she finds out he’s dead. Starts from an alternate version of s06e15 “As You Were”. Buffy thinks some of Riley’s military boys killed Spike. Her reaction surprises everyone, most of all herself. Turns out Spike’s as alive as ever, but when he gets back, it’s Buffy who isn't quite the same.
Close to Home by Sigyn [33k]
It’s Homecoming. Buffy is trying to reclaim her place as a popular girl after Angel was unceremoniously dusted returning from whatever hell dimension he’d been in. Unfortunately, fate seems to have decided to throw another vampire into her lap. Desperate to win back the affections of Drusilla, Spike has come to win Slayerfest. But the loss of both loves hits a little close to home for Spike and Buffy. They both have a lot to learn about what Homecoming means.
The Heart's Filthy Lesson by rivkat and MustangSally [37k]
In 2001 the evil from 1936 has reared its ugly head. A Nazi demon with an unpronouceable name and a vampire henchman has decided to use Sunnydale as a recruiting center for the disenfranchised and discontented undead. How will Buffy/Spike and the rest of the Scoobies manage to consign this particular evil back where it belongs? Written at the beginning of Season 5.
Ripples on a Hellmouth by stuffandnonsense [48k]
It's 2023, and an epic war is underway between good and evil. This time around, good is losing. But Willow's found a way to turn the tides by sending Buffy back into her past. The catch? She can't change anything directly. Will Buffy choose wisely and save the world, maybe even herself? Or just make everything worse?
Persephone the Wanderer by Kirinin [54k]
When Buffy returns from the dead, she brings something unusual with her, and leaves something important behind.
Beg the Liquid Red by Eurydice [87k]
A night out to try and forget Angel's meddling in her life leads Buffy down a different path than the one she had planned. Old faces are like new again, and what's new is most definitely old.
Lil' Ripper Makes a Friend by Soulburnt [227k]
From a challenge by tempestt: When he was a wee laddie, Rupert Giles found himself in a bit o' trouble. Come on, we all know 10 year-old Giles would've been a little hellion. Spike, who's around because he's hunting the slayer Giles's grandmother is assigned to is impressed by Giles's swaggering bravado and helps him out. In doing so he dubs Giles Lil' Ripper. A much more fitting name than nancy boy Rupert. So begins an on-and-off, life long friendship between the two... When Spike shows up in School Hard Giles immediately recognizes Buffy's description so he sets up a meet. After finding out why Spike is at the Hellmouth, Giles strikes a deal. He'll help Spike heal Drusilla if Spike agrees to help his slayer for an indeterminate amount of time.
#not finished with the last one but the two thirds i've read earned it a spot on this list#anyway i hope you guys are enjoying the recs#and that they're helping you navigate the vast spuffy landscape and discover new authors#sometimes i feel like i see a lot of the same names + fics being recommended (both on here and on the EF discord)#and though many of them are popular for a reason and feature in this series#i'm trying more and more to bring in a little diversity#spike x buffy#buffy x spike#spuffy#spuffy fic#spuffy fic rec#spuffy ficrec#spuffy fic recs#spuffy ficrecs#mine
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Allow me to present this gorgeous magazine cover of Chase and Kyrahlise I commissioned from @javs-arts! I love it so much! <3
#my headcanon is that Lavinet helped style them for this photoshoot but Chase had a lot of input on it too#so Kyrah doesn't have much jewelry when she joins the Shepherds even though she really likes it#because if she only has money for one thing she's going to get a book or new paint supplies instead of jewelry#but over time between buying a few pieces herself and gifts from Chase she ends up with a nice little collection#thanks to kingdom-dance for helping me pick which pose to go with! <3#shepherds of haven#shoh#chase trinaeste#oc: kyrahlise niriviel#the timing of getting this commission is kinda funny#because I *just* figured out some things about the Magical Heist fic I've been thinking about for well over a year#and it has morphed into *a lot more* than purely a heist#I'm excited to keep working on it but it'll take a long time I'm sure. though the time will pass anyways#also guess who spent 20 minutes looking up a grammar rule for one of the headlines#if you guessed it was me you are correct! lol#English grammar rules my beloathed#does anyone read all these silly tags I put on things? well if you do sorry they're a mess and thanks for reading them
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you might've seen this in an ask already, but decided to post here too; a collection of Tenmas from Yara's fics, since I love the differences that thrown into different timelines and happenings give him!
#going to have a delightful slow breakfast while reading the new update to OoS#he might be my own fav of the bunch because he's bordering being recognizable in the right way.. kinda like in the fic itself#like if you see him separately: oh who's this fella? but in context like this pic: .....that's Tenma. right?#lowkey happy I've been drawing more fanfic fanart lately bc I hate how I struggle with leaving comments and I can show my love this way#got like... at least four scenes from different fics I'd like to draw but we'll see if/when I can get to those#I'd apologize for tag rambling but you know me at this point. I am unable to not tag rant#own art#inazuma eleven go#matsukaze tenma#(this probably deserves a character tag haha)#(I should backtrack to tag cgaracters though for my own archiving purposes)
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For reasons to be expanded upon at a later date (because I love the little bits about Boothill and possible paranoia/betrayal canon gives us so very dearly HNGH) I think Boothill like... He won't let himself fall into disrepair or anything of course, but he reeeeeeeeeeally does not like letting other people poke around at his body. It's a necessary evil to him. He does whatever maintenance and repairs he can himself. He started out with a massive knowledge deficit, simply because he didn't really have any exposure to that kind of technology until he left Aeragan-Epharshal, but he's taught himself a lot since then, he worked really hard at it!
Anyway, the point being, Boothill generally isn't super trusting of people.
But I think he would come to make an exception for Himeko, since he trusts Dan Heng a lot, and Himeko is one of Dan Heng's once-in-a-lifetime dearly beloved companions.
Himeko is so unflappable, I don't think she would even bat an eye about anything he throws at her, either. Like she enters the Parlor Car one morning (she's always the first one up) and Boothill is already there, waiting for her.
"Mornin', Madam Navigator."
"Good morning, Mr. Boothill."
And despite the fact that he blatantly broke into the Express (Pom-Pom is NOT happy about this JDKSAJDSKL), Boothill tips his hat, greets her politely, and is nothing but respectful when he says he has a favor to ask of her. Except it won't stay a favor long, of course- he has every intention of paying it back.
Himeko never agrees to things blindly, but she does bring up that all the knowledge Boothill contributed during the Charmony Festival was essential to preventing the universe from being pulled into Ena's Dream. And they were able to hold onto the Jade Abacus because Boothill used Tiernan's burial relic to summon the Galaxy Rangers instead. The Astral Express owes him a debt of gratitude, and besides, he's a friend of Dan Heng's. Of course she'll try to help him.
Boothill fidgets a bit, quickly brushes off the thanks, and tells Himeko he's having a problem with error codes. He keeps getting the same one, seemingly at random times, but the darn thing has no obvious cause. Dan Heng mentioned Himeko had been the one to rebuild the Astral Express. He knows it ain't the same, but it's not like he's askin' for any major repairs or nothin'. He was wonderin' if she could just take a look, maybe offer him some insight, since she seems to be somethin' of a mechanical wonder.
So Himeko walks him back to a another car, where she goes to tinker with machines without them crowding her bedroom. It's all neatly laid out and organized, and it only takes a second for Himeko to locate some specific device with a long cord. Instead of plugging it in herself, she holds the end of it out to him, like an offer rather than a demand, and Boothill visibly relaxes a bit. He still eyes it just a little warily for a second, but he accepts and plugs it into the port on his side.
Himeko pulls up the list of all recent errors, and they really are all the same. Boothill has had multiple temperature alarms over the past couple of weeks since the Charmony Festival, and they know it's not the environment, because Penacony is mostly dreamscape and kept mild year-round. The long-forgotten natural deserts are too far away.
Boothill is staring from the corner of his one good eye, so Himeko turns the hologram to let him see what she's doing easier. They don't appear to be false alarms. His internal temperature spikes and then slowly lowers again, high enough that if it lasted it would eventually cause damage.
One option is for her to start rooting through personal data, figuring out what he was doing at the time of each code, and tracing cause and correlation.
Instead, Himeko reads out the timestamps, and asks Boothill if he minds sharing what was happening around him when it occured.
Two weeks ago: He and Dan Heng went to explore Dreamflux Reef and found a bar- nice place, good atmosphere. Woman runnin’ it was a doll. Boothill left fer not even two minutes to get them drinks (Dan Heng knows like nothin’ about liquor, Madam Navigator, can you believe this guy) and when he came back, someone had already stolen his seat and was hittin’ on Dan Heng! Dan Heng didn't even care, just shooed ‘em off. Boothill laughed and said not to let him get in his way if he wanted to meet someone. Dan Heng looked at him like he'd grown a second head. Why would he want to leave with someone else, when he came here to be with Boothill?
Twelve days ago: While laying low- er, just rustlin’ up some grub- in the Moment of Blue, Boothill passed Dan Heng with March and Caelus playin’ on the beach, buildin’ sandcastles and the like. When he passed by again almost two hours later, they were still out there, with Dan Heng pullin’ March through the water on her inner tube and Caelus hangin’ off the back of it. He swam so fast! You'd think he was part water snake or somethin’. He looked happier ‘n a cat in a sunbeam… He has a nice smile, doesn't he?
Eleven days ago: Boothill was killin’ time in Dreamflux Reef when he turned the corner down a shady alley and saw Dan Heng, surrounded by three men demandin’ “protection money.” None of ‘em stood a chance, they were all on the ground before Boothill even blinked! So cool! Boothill wants to see that spear of his closeup- Anyway, Dan Heng stepped on one of ‘em on his way out, hahaha! Boothill stepped on the same guy a second time as he hurried to catch up.
Eight days ago: Here on the Express, actually. Boothill had mentioned bein’ curious about the archives, and Dan Heng personally invited him.
(“I remember that day, I saw you in the hall.” “Was there any problem with the heating that day?” “No, none. I don't think the temperature has anything to do with these error codes. I have a different theory, keep going.” “If ya say so.”)
Boothill was fascinated by an entry on aeons, and from a single question he asked about Lan, the two of ‘em ended up talkin’ fer hours. About aeons and Paths and Emanators, Acheron and Self-Annihilators, the Sea of Nihility, Tiernan, the Nameless and the Galaxy Rangers, their burial relics and their customs. Dan Heng finally just started writin’ and editin’ the entries in real time, with Boothill pointin’ things out and tellin’ him what to add in. They were at it so late that Boothill ended up sleepin' on a couch in one of the cars.
He'd figured there had to be something to make Dan Heng chatty- he'd caught just a glimpse of it that first night they met, sittin’ at the bar in the Reverie together. He'll have to ask about the archives more often, if it gets him all revved up like that.
One week ago: After that night of energetic discussion, Dan Heng was apparently hyped up, because after he'd downed some of Himeko's coffee (“You had some too, right? What did you think of it?” “It was great, even better'n chewin’ bullets!” "Thank you! That was my newest brew, I can't wait for everyone else to try it.") he actually asked Boothill to go hunting with him. Boothill asked who their target was, and was surprised when Dan Heng pulled out photos that looked like they were from March's camera, of all things, instead of a bounty or wanted poster.
And as he sat there, studying these pictures, Dan Heng explained that he wanted to hunt down these specific memory zone memes to record them into the archives. Planets with so much memoria are a rarity, especially with the Stellaron's activity thrown into the mix, which has surely affected the local “wildlife.” He might not get another opportunity like this for a long time. And Boothill had talked last night about his extensive expertise in tracking and hunting, so he should have plenty to offer here, Dan Heng would like to learn from his experience and see how he does things!
And oh, Madam Navigator, by the time Dan Heng was done speakin', his eyes were practically sparklin'! Just lit up like the sun! Boothill could scarcely believe it! The two of them couldn't even wait another day, they set out that very morning. It had been a long, long while since Boothill had tracked someone- er, somethin’- without the intent to capture or kill. It was…actually really nice. Nostalgic, but in a good way. It might even have been his favorite day on Penacony…so…far…
Boothill trails off as a couple of realizations crash into him. All the temperature alarms he's spoken about thus far- they've all happened in the company of Dan Heng. And now that he's thinking about it, he's pretty sure even the ones he hasn't yet talked about were with him, too. Dan Heng has been responsible for all of his error codes, every. single. one.
The screen in front of Himeko suddenly refreshes to the top of the list, displaying a new notification for the current time. Alert! Core temperature above normal range.
Himeko's knowing smile is sly as a snake.
Wwwwwelp, would ya look at the time, Boothill has some errands to meet, people to run, y’know how it is, he should really get goin'-
“Oh, Mr. Boothill? About that favor.” And Boothill jolts to a stop in the doorway because fudge, he can't just leave without hearing her out. He'd given his word. He has no problem running out on someone he thinks deserves it, but Himeko really had been kind to him to try and help him out. Her voice is just as knowing as her smile, Boothill can't turn around to look at her, or else he knows he won't be able to disguise the sound of his cooling fans kicking on.
“Don't make Dan Heng wait too long, ok~?”
“Y-Yes, ma'am.”
#honkai star rail#henghill#bootheng#Himeko KNOWS abort mission abort!!!#I really love Himeko sorta looking after Boothill the same way she does her crew even if he's not one of them haha. She's so sweet with-#-Dan Heng. She really seems to adore him and wants him to be safe and happy. I think she would be so happy he's found a new friend!#She wants to help this happen!! So get to it Boothill!!!#Was yapping about this fic to Ray and she nearly fucking oneshotted me: 'It's especially funny because we've got a Vidyadhara and a cyborg-#'-they literally have all the time in the world. SHE's the one who wants to be around to see it happen akfbbsbd''#AND JUST. GOD. Himeko knowing that she won't outlive Dan Heng. She's only human. She can't compare to a Vidyadhara lifespan. So she wants-#-to make sure Dan Heng has as many people as possible. She wants to know he'll be taken care of and not be lonely even after she's gone.#Himeko wants to see this important moment in his life happen she wants to be around for it *sobbing*#I'd been wanting to write this for a long time though because for me henghill is all about the little moments. like. they talked so much-#-back and forth in 2.2. they spent so much time together. they get along shockingly well. Dan Heng could have gone almost anywhere to wait-#-for the trailblazer to wake up after defeating Sunday. And instead of anywhere else Dan Heng returned right to Boothill's side. Was still-#-hanging out with him at the Reverie's bar. Still just chattering away. The point is that these two have a strong friendship to build a-#-romance on! They enjoy each other's company! They like spending time together! And I love that! I want to see their mundane nights!!#They'd have such fun dates uweh... They go on a coffee date and miss Himeko's coffee haha#(fun story Boothill's dialogue about Himeko's coffee was originally going to be 'it was uh...an experience. ain't nothin' else like it in-#-the world.' 'thank you!' But then I read Boothill's parlor car dialogue and? it turns out he LOVES Himeko's coffee? go figure ajfldjas)#(afaik he and Dan Heng are literally the only ones. how cute is that haha)#hsr#boothill#himeko#dan heng#hsr boothill#hsr himeko#hsr dan heng#my fics
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What the SOTR book looks like when you're also a fanfic writer.
#sotr spoilers#sunrise on the reaping#haymitch abernathy#today is all about writing haydove actually#and there's not an important section or a nice turn of phrase in this book that I cannot find lmao!#had to go buy more stickie notes at the store because I ran out like half way through this thing#did you also experience a great deal of mourning while reading this book? (apart from the depressing storyline in itself)#all those “killed” headcanons#I certainly did#but then your head eventually started gearing with new ideas based on the new material?#ways to work around canon and/or infuse canon and headcanons together for your fics in progress#like having two different pieces of fabrics and sewing them together with nice embrodieries#to hide the most obvious seams#how I loved this book - even with that wretched epilogue about haymitch going it solo#forevermore with a wrecked liver promising death soon (no though - just no!)#I cried like a baby at the end with him by the grave#suzanne collins - you're a genius writer!#this might just well be the best-written book in the entire franchise
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overwhelmed by the urge to delete the fics i just posted 😔
#godddddd i hate my own writinggggggggg#everytime i open my doc it's like... should i just delete it all#i cannot BELIEVE it's reaching like what 30K now??? FOR ONE SCENE????#ONE SETTING????#WITH ONLY TWO PEOPLE????#i'm embarrassed#everytime i come up with a new dialogue there's a part of me that goes “okay that's funny write it down”#while the other one is like “kana bro enough with the banter no one wants to read this shit”#gahhhhhhh#anyway yeah i hope you guys will still like the new husband!jinwoo fic even though it's shitty 😔#i cannot believe they haven't had sex yet asdfasdfasdf#though in reality maybe they're only spending like... a half an hour flirting with each other#but still... 30K????? this is insane even for me
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more first look pictures from apple tv (my favorite presaux characters + murderbot!)
#murderbot tv show#murderbot tv#murderbot spoilers#preservationaux#the first look picture of the whole team together was the cutest though :)#also i think the characterization of everyone felt a lot better in the new footage and i kinda wish they led with that framing!#but it was still so rad to see! esp bc i watched it immediately before texting my sib parent and friends that i was okay after surgery lol#because a friend sent it to me like LOOK AT THE MENSAH MOMENTS and i was like amen amen amen#i may have woken up screaming and crying mid-surgery but today was AWESOME for my mental health somehow lol (oh maybe the meds..)#(also i don't think i was screaming bc there was the intubation but i felt like. real screamy when i woke up LOL)#i will probably stop spamming about the show now because i have a lot of bookverse fic i urgently want to finish revising in case the show#changes my reading of things especially because .. the wips involve bharadwaj/pin-lee and mensah/pin-lee and also the otp of course.. 🥺#so i've been so anxious the show will lead my brain (ocd) to cold turkey some/all of them#(mostly bharadwaj/pin-lee since things seem very different there.... the one time i love a canonish f/f ship... 😭 (i'm fine though))#okay sorry to anyone who read this tag journey
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i think it's probably somewhat clear that i see isolde and kakania as lesbians (seems to be a common hc anyway) but i think i want to explore how that'd fit into their respective characterizations, not necessarily only from a shipping standpoint. note that this does get into headcanon territory, still i try to keep it as in-character as i can
i think kakania would actually be pretty open about it. in the 1910s?? i mean sure, she's already a controversy as she is ... an arcanist, an uncertified psychiatrist with unconventional methods, an outspoken member of society who stirs up public opinion. might as well give herself one more reason to be a subject of controversy. those who are set on hating her probably have no intention of changing that, so hey, might as well authentically be herself in every possible way including this. among those who have a more positive opinion about her, i do think this would make her somewhat of an icon. she draws other members of the community toward her. she lets them know that she is there for them and will fight for them. that they can turn to her and she will not scrutinize them for it. she'd tell them, no, there is nothing wrong with being this way. it isn't something you need to be "cured" from
in line with this, i think it would make sense for the "circle" to be a queer safe space. in fact, i like to think theophil himself could've been bi and thus would've accepted his sister's sexuality. but due to her own inhibitions (which i will touch upon later) i don't think isolde would ever have told him.
meanwhile for isolde ... i think it's more complicated. having a sexuality outside of the norm would be a deviation from the socially acceptable definition of the "perfect noble" she tries to be. so even if she were to ever consider it, she would simply end up pushing those thoughts away. no, not a chance. this shouldn't bother her at all. she's supposed to be perfect, yet she already has enough problems in her life as a member of the dittarsdorf family. considering the possibility of herself being anything but straight would lead to more problems, wouldn't it? and that's the last thing she needs. nonetheless she's ... never been attracted to a man either. but she tries not to think too much of it. maybe she just needs to wait it out. or so she tells herself
now to piece it all together ... i do really like the idea of kakania being her ... awakening. in fact i think it would make a lot of sense for her story, what with kakania being the metaphorical key to the doors that have always surrounded and confined isolde ... so hear me out. when isolde started associating with her and the circle she realized that it felt far less suffocating than ... pretty much any other aspect of her life. it's like a breath of fresh air. kakania in particular would fascinate isolde, in a way that makes isolde question things about herself. perhaps she even comes close to having a realization. but again, isolde remembers who she needs to be, and stops herself short.
eventually though, she would learn what kind of person kakania is, and what she believes in and fights for. this only deepens isolde's admiration further and she finally comes to a point of acceptance about her feelings. alright. i can accept this realization now. she no longer pushes it to the back of her mind. there's still a bit of repression and shame left in there but meeting someone who has not only awakened her, but also wouldn't judge her for it, has changed something within her entirely. the feelings overflow and she can deny it no longer. but again, at the end of the day she still needs to be perfect and socially acceptable. she can't just ... exist as freely as kakania does. but it's alright, isolde has feigned compliance for so long regardless of however difficult it might be. putting up with expectations has been a regular part of her life. so there it is, something authentic about this actor that she can't show to anyone else because it doesn't fit the part that she's supposed to play. kakania is allowed to know though, of course she is. it can just be their little secret. and one way or another, she'll figure out how isolde feels toward her. surely kakania would be quite honored to be on the receiving end of the affection of such a wonderful lady. as long as this affection doesn't eventually turn into a catalyst for destruction, right ...
#reverse 1999#r1999#kakania#isolde#isokania#ermmmmmmmmmmmm. yeah guys here's the Lesbian Essay alright#at this point i'm considering writing fic#even though i feel like plot isn't exactly my strong suit#nonetheless if you read through this entire word salad. i hope you enjoyed it#and i hope it makes Sense#i want to sort out more of my thoughts#i don't play when it comes to hyperfixation. i will dissect them. i will understand them#adding this to the new tag#lesbian kakania agenda
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Tease Tidbit Tuesday 🏙️
Tagged by @diazsdimples & @tizniz. Make sure to check out what they shared today! (and maybe send James a virtual hug or a stupid punny joke? He’s been sick for 3 weeks and I’m sure he could use some cheering up 😘)
I have been wanting so desperately to write the past few days but a cold has my sinuses putting so much pressure on my head I feel like it’s going to explode, plus it’s school holidays and it’s been raining so I’ve got two very energetic kids with cabin fever running around causing mayhem 😅.
BUT! I did manage to write a little something for LA Lonely so yay (even though it may not be great, at least it’s words)
Pre snippet here
Buck is woken up by the shrill sound of a phone ringing. The bed jostles, Buck letting out an annoyed grumble as the warm body that is wrapped around him disappears. There is a kiss pressed to his naked shoulder, a whispered apology and then the rustling of the blankets as the person leaves the bed, answering the phone with a quiet hello.
Rolling over to check the time, Buck’s surprised to see that it’s almost 9. Usually his body clock wakes him up at 7am everyday, whether he stayed up late or not, so sleep-ins are a rare thing. He rolls onto his back, groaning as he stretches his arms up above his head. There’s a slight ache in his ass but it’s a reminder of the fantastic sex he had last night and honestly, Buck doesn’t mind the discomfort.
He hears footsteps on the stairs, the wood creaking slightly and then the most attractive man Buck has ever laid eyes on is standing at the foot of his bed wearing nothing but underwear and a soft apologetic smile that has Buck’s tummy swooping.
Eddie.
The man’s name is Eddie, Buck remembers. And remember he should because he was moaning it loud enough last night.
Eddie has a phone pressed between his ear and shoulder as he picks up his jeans and begins to awkwardly shimmy them up his legs. “I told you, I overslept. But I’m getting ready now and can be there in —” he looks down at his wrist and frowns, his eyes sweeping over the discarded clothes on the floor before zeroing in on Buck’s second nightstand where a clunky watch sits. Eddie grabs the watch, quickly checking the time before he begins strapping it on. “I can be there in 20 minutes, 15 if the traffic is good.”
Buck feels a pang in his chest and then instantly chastises himself. This was just another hookup, a one night stand —nothing more than that. He was foolish to think that what he felt last night with Eddie was anything real. It was just the hormones.
Eddie may have stayed, but that was probably because he was hoping to get lucky again this morning. Or like Buck, he slept in and didn’t get a chance to sneak out before Buck woke up.
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#spoiler alert: Eddie would stay if he could but fatherhood calls and well that’s a call Eddie will always answer#daffi writes#wip: la lonely#Buck is being all self deprecating#but what else is new?#buddie wip#buddie#I really really want to finish Rival Firefighters so I can dive into my other wips#(and also post the first chapter for you guys!)#and I’m soooo close#but between the pounding head and the energetic munchkins .. I haven’t been able to keep the smutty writing beans going#though I have been on a bit of a little fic reading roll atm which is nice 😊#having to slow down and rest (more like being forced to by my husband haha) gives me time to go through my MARKED FOR LATER library#okay I’ve probably rambled way too much#hugs to everyone ❤️
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take some thoughts abt borrower au scrapper while i work on bugs and holding myself together
in versions where the Constructicons are human hes just Literally On Holiday like on an island somewhere and the others video call him periodically but he's got his phone turned off 99% of the time. it was his idea to get the others a house to fix up while he was away lol. hes also working, doing consultation and design work ajbdjkdnbdjsvbfhf
and in versions where theyr borrowers hes staying with getting tormented by (one of) prowls exes and their son and it's all really weird and the vibes are so so bad but in a fun way. i do NOT know how itd work but the image of it is just so so funny to me,,,,
i am the arbiter of my own fate and my fate is to continually spout out strange combinations of characters.
#i read a fic that had tarantulas and scrapper interacting for a bit and i think my brain just went “...... *huh.*”#originally i was like. itd be funny if they were all meant to be holidaying together but someone fucked up their plane tickets so#scrapper ended up going to like. a tropical island#while the others are off in some cottage#springers green. scrappers green. tarantulas is tarantulas. i feel like springer would be either a teen or an adult#like. god. if he was an adult though imagine u go visit ur dad who ur trying to reconnect with but its like super weird#borrower au#i need a better name for it eventually but im lazy#anyway i feel like any au where tarantulas lives and also gets to interact with springer would be so. so soso so awkward and bad for them#like the worst type of father son relationship but one that's really fun to play around with#scrapper in these two versions are having opposing experiences. lets say that.#velwy.txt#WATCHING BEAST WARS HAS PUT A NEW APPRECIATION FOR TARANTULAS IN MY BRAIN#awful weirdguy <3
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