#neil would go absolutely feral about it

[giolovesyousm]

neil would love ping pong.

i just know that don't ask me why

[exyrpf]

Exyblr Dashboard Simulator based on what I personally see on sportsblr:

2/?

📜 realexyblog

haiku because exy is back:

GOD, why are my teams

SO fucking bad at exy?

FUCK this FUCKING sport.

#and i watch sports for why? entertainment? no way

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♛ queen-of-exy

I WAS RIGHT ALL ALONG! KEVIN DAY IS A QUEEN SHES LITERALLY A QUEEN ITS ON HER FACE

💃fox-me-up follow

queen on the court, pillow princess on the mattress amiright

♛ queen-of-exy

ive never felt more understood, I am kissing you w tongue

#marry me tumblr user fox me up

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🌞 blonde-jeremy-knox

i'm just gonna say it. i know we're all thinking it. jeremy knox eats ass like it's his JOB.

👁 jean-mor-uhoh

babe literally no one was thinking that but i'm proud of you for speaking your truth

#we're friends but what cost. when all u talk about is jeremy knox eating ass.

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🧚 goalie-stan

#dan wilds #psu

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🌄 softkevinday follow

He lived. He served cunt. He died. He was Resurrected. Served more cunt.

#kevin day

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👸🏻 kevindazed follow

absolutely busted a fucking nut watching kevin day switch hands like that oh my god my nut was so forceful it created a new dimension.

🏳️‍🌈 gay4stickball follow

hey can i join you in that dimension

👸🏻 kevindazed follow

Sure, just bring some snacks or something

🏳️‍🌈 gay4stickball follow

hell yeah!!!!!!

#thanks youre the best do you like doritos?

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😎 foxyknoxy

the best exy team in the nation is a LIBERAL ARTS COLLEGE how many of those students even go to the games when your school is full of artists and theater kids. your student section must be wACK

😎 foxyknoxy

*sorry, 2nd best exy team in the nation

#fuck you theater kids!!!!!!!! can't even appreciate a good sport !!!!! anyway go trojans

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🙈 ittybittyminny follow

Andrew Minyard should get a little bite and chew. As a reward. Maybe a small gnaw. nomnomnom Maaaaaybe as a treat he can rip a throat out, but only if he's really really good

#only if he's REALLY GOOD and maybe tests negative for rabies but whatever you can't win em all

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🏳️‍🌈 gay4stickball follow

favourite exy rarepair????

☀️ usctrojanny

ACTUALLY !!!!! was thinking about this earlier and while ive never seen anyone talk about it.......aaron minyard and neil josten would be 👀 kinda cute???

🏳️‍🌈 gay4stickball follow

omg wait why have I never thought about guys before!!!!!!!! noooo why did you say this, i can totally see it!!!!!! Neil would probably have to lean down to kiss aaron 🥺 do u think he has ever had to lean down to kiss someone 😭

☀️ usctrojanny

And obviously, u know me, im always here for a striker/backliner matchup

🏳️‍🌈 gay4stickball follow

this is all i'm going to think about for the rest of my life now, thanks, fuck you

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👅 nastyneiljosten

I want to put neil josten in a jar and shake the jar so violently he turns into sludge and then pour a drop of that sludge on to a petri dish so I can see what kind of bacteria he produces.

🦩 exyonmymind follow

what happens to the rest of the sludge?

👅 nastyneiljosten

*sluuuuuuurp* *swallowing sounds* *sluuuurp* *gargle gargle* *more swallowing sounds* yummy yummy in my tummy

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🐋 sexyexy

headcannon that neil josten is so feral bc andrew bit him and gave him rabies so now he's a literal rabid dog

👢exyinaphonebooth follow

You can't make headcannons about real people don't be freaks

🐋 sexyexy

exy players aren't real they're my little dolls that I can put into any situations I want and you can't stop me

#thanks anyway did u know andrew minyard gave neil josten rabies

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🧸 mreow-bearcats-mreow

ARE THOSE REFS FUCKING BLIND ????????!

#exy lb

👨🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻 talk-exy-to-me

Kiss cams are only acceptable during sporting events if they zoom in on two players

🗣️ jeremyknoxes follow

ok but what if they're wearing a face mask

👨🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻 talk-exy-to-me

smash your cages together obviously, don't be a pussy #love wins

🗣️ jeremyknoxes follow

fair enough

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🌸 softexy

Andrew and Aaron Minyard

#exy #andrew minyard #aaron minyard #palmetto foxes #psu #web weave #poetry

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[anavatazes]

They found Abby TLOU2

https://www.ign.com/articles/hbos-the-last-of-us-season-2-finds-its-abby-in-kaitlyn-dever

Now, can all the ASSHOLES that hate Abby LEAVE the actress the FUCK ALONE! After the immense hatred that poor Laura Bailey received for playing a fictional character in a video game, I am fearful how poorly Kaitlyn Dever will be treated, in particular concerning her connection to Pedro's Joel.

⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️SEASON 2 SPOLIERS⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️

You are warned. If you don't wanna know what happens, don't go any further.

⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️

Ok. Now, for that already know what knows what happens in Part 2, Abby kills Joel in a very horrific manner. Not rehashing it, nor do I really want to turn this into another Abby bashing post. Not my favorite character, but I don't outright hate her, and won't tolerate that shit right now. Time and places, people.

I am concerned because of the absolute hate STILL felt for the character, that it will seep over to the actor in full force, much like it did for LB. Many can't seem to be able to separate the actor and character from each other. They still body shame Abby to no end. I've already seen a bunch of comments where they began body shamming the live action actor before she was even cast.

The misogynistic idiots can be ignored to a degree. But what really worries me are the Pedro fans, similar to the Joel fans, are gonna be so pissed when they see Abby kill Joel. And they didn't know it was coming. Some people can remain oblivious, somehow, in this day and age. How feral are they gonna be? How reactionary are they gonna be? Are they gonna be able to separate the actor from the character? And, more importantly, are the rest of us Pedro fans gonna be mature enough to help guide them to a safe place to get their emotions out where it won't be a complete nightmare for KD AND Pedro?!

Because, c'mon, you can't tell me, that when Pedro sees any fan of his hurt anyone that it doesn't hurt him? The big smush pillow that he is? I see so many people passing around videos and memes about how they're not responsible for your reactions to their actions. That may be so, but you do need to be held accountable if those actions are causing harm. A point that is sorely missed those. The Pedro Fandom is overall protective of our Pedro.

So, I want to kindly ask the Fandom, with love, that when we see this shit happening, and especially when it happens when the show airs, (picture lots of mom/grandma finger pointing here, because that's me), to be nice, be mature, ask them to remember what our Squish Pillow would do (even if he is more chiseled and less squishy right now 😉)? Are we adding to his anxiety? We don't need to do that. The man has more than enough for all of us and don't need no more. Nor does he need another fucking excuse to shrink more away from social media!

Besides, I don't know Kaitlyn Dever. I've never heard of her. I look forward to learning more about her, and seeing what she brings to Abby. Do she and Craig make me see what Neil wanted me to all along? Or is it the same old? But I know this. I won't hate her. She's a human being. Very few things on this planet could make me hate her, and her playing Abby is not one of them.

[luvbug724]

the kevjeanee posts you're adding to my dash are actually making me go feral thank you for doing god's work 🙏🙏

imo kevrenee as a dynamic is very very underexplored. hear me out: kevin, the absolute asshole that no one in the team can bear to be around, aka "its rotten work", x renee, who believes that everyone can be forgiven, or "not to me, not if it's you" ofc thats only at the surface level. but,

also in the first jeanee scene at the banquet, when renee introduced herself to jean, right after the ravens cornered kevin, neil and andrew. renee just looped her arm in kevin's out of literally nowhere??? and kevin had no reaction, despite being hyper vigilant because the ravens were around??? you cant tell me that we arent missing something there.

THERE IS SOMETHING MAGICAL IN THE AIR. kevjeanee........... the seed has been planted. i do really think renee would let kevin have an outlet i think she'd let him talk about history even if she's not actually listening :) it's not her fault she's not listening he has a lot to say and she has a very short attention span. in return kevin listens to her talk about whatever silly little thing she's interested in and then also religion and he LISTENS bc its interesting to him both as a historian and as a Catholic ? let's discuss

the idea that kevin let renee do that because it comforted him........... and then we bring jean in.................... bro let's go. kevjeanee im into it. lets do it

[luciferfemme]

Like here's the thing... I'm going absolutely feral about that scene every single fucking time... because Aziraphale looks sooo devasted about his coat... he's had it for like over a hundred years and he looks so pouty and Crowley's just like awww poor baby... fuck guess I gotta fix it for you... whatever shall I do... and then he just does but not like you know a SNAP like a normal thing... no no no... ever the "flash bastard" Crowley has to BLOW IT AWAY. Getting into Aziraphale's proximity! He gets close and just blows it away.

Mind you Aziraphale's complaint of why he can't miracle away the paint on himself is because he would always know it was there but when CROWLEY does it for him... ever his knight in shining scales... he is GIDDY. He's grinning like the fucking SUN. He lit up like New Years! And it's another instance Neil has said was the happiest he's been in YEARS!

like.

I"M LOSING MY FUCKING MIND!

AND THAT'S THE SCENE THAT PRECEEDS THE WALL SLAM THE GAYEST FUCKING SCENE IN THE WHOLE SHOW. SEND HELP.

[creative-jackalope]

4, 24, 40!

[Writing ask game]

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4. What’s a word that makes you go absolutely feral?

Oh there are a lot, I like words,,, but the moment I read this all of them flew out of my head because of course they did JGKFDGD.

I can say that I tend to like words that are very visceral ("visceral" is kind of one of them actually, on that note). I want words that I can taste, words that sound like they feel.

...

Alright I sat on this question a bit and 30 minutes later finally remembered something. The word "despite" is one that I just. Adore. I have to fight not to overuse it. It is so versatile and it can swing from being incredibly tragic to overwhelmingly hopeful; the constant is that it always implies a similar sense of struggle in my mind. I have a lot of emotions about this word. More emotions than I thought I did, actually.

Related: I love swear words. There's a certain oomph that can be carried by a well-placed "fuck".

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24. How much prep work do you put into your stories? What does that look like for you? Do you enjoy this part or do you just want to get on with it?

I tend to get very bogged down in making sure I know exactly what is going on and what I want to do. This usually take the form of very scattered notes of plot points I need to hit or events that need to happen, or at least mapping out in my mind what will happen and when. I don't always know how things will end exactly but because I work very sequentially with my plots, lots of A happened which lead to B which created C, I usually want to make that very solid foundation first.

... However. I will often find that I end up with exactly how I want a scene to go before I've worked out any of the connecting elements, and then desperately want to go write that right now out of fear I will either forget or lose the fire. And then suddenly there is a massive amount of text in front of me that was entirely unplanned and I am not fully certain of how it even got there.

So! I suppose overall it's kind of situational whether I say "if I don't pre-plan exactly how many hairs are in this background character's beard then I'll die" or "hold my flower I'm going to black out for three hours while I slam out 4k words of action off the dome". But it does tend to be either all or nothing when it happens lmao. Most of the things I do are like that to be quite honest.

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40. Please share a poem with me, I need it.

Here and Away by Neil Hilborn [discusses mental health and self-isolation]

I like a lot of poetry, but I especially have a soft spot for spoken word and slam poetry. Neil Hilborn is one of my favorite poets in that area and I own exactly one physical poetry book and it is Our Numbered Days, which I purchased several years ago while travelling to attend my uncle's funeral.

Oh boy, was it a time to get that book in particular!

Many of the poems have a focus on Neil grappling with grief and the inevitability of death, as well as general mental health struggles. But this one in particular, Here and Away, hit me like a freight train because I related to it immensely.

Some lines I would very much like to highlight in particular:

"It takes so much less energy to not exist than it does to exist and get burned. I've been burned so much I'm not me anymore."

"Whatever you are feeling right now, there is a mathematical certainty that someone is feeling that exact same thing. This is not to say you aren't special. This is to say thank god you aren't special."

"Build a house, even if every wall leans to the left. [...] Love how you hate yourself sometimes, because goddamn, at least there's still something to hate."

"But I hear the world is ending soon. When we go, and we're all going to go, I will be part of it."

[alister312]

Hello! I’m Alister and below the cut you can find my about me/intro post for the SP Olympics event :)

For starters, my favorite ship is of course Gregstophe aka Gregory/Christophe from the movie. I’ve got various metas and fics about them if you’re looking for characterization inspiration (or scenes for drawing inspiration 👀 my gregstophe tsot fic is my current passion project). You can find all the important stuff in my pinned post. I love them both individually as well, though I do slightly favor Christophe 😅. I’ve also got more ships with him that I enjoy, namely Damstophe (Damien/Christophe), Kenstophe (Kenny/Christophe), and Tophlovski (Christophe/Kyle)

My second favorite ship is by far Style! I love most anything with them, but particularly fond of their Stick of Truth sonas. I’m just very drawn to the concept of regal elf king Kyle in love with his noble and faithful human knight Stan (who is definitely in love with him too)… it’s a very good concept to me. I also really like very regular AUs with them, just like high school or college or domestic stuff. The one thing I will say is that I’m not really a fan of the bleached hair Stan design but otherwise go nuts!

I have a fun AU I adore that I tag as “Kendy vs the World” but usually just call it my “kendy scott pilgrim au”. As you can probably guess, it’s a Scott Pilgrim AU with Kenny as the titular Scott Pilgrim and Wendy as Ramona Flowers. Other roles include Marjorine as Knives, Henrietta, Thomas, and Clyde as Kim, Stephan, and Young Neil respectively, Kyle as Envy Adams, and Christophe as Wallace Wells. Wendy’s (Ramona’s) exes are Tolkien (Matthew Patel), Gregory (Lucas Lee), Stan (Todd Ingram), Bebe (Roxy Richter), Kevin McCormick and Kevin Stoley (Ken and Kyle Katayanagi), and lastly Cartman (Gideon Graves). It’s mostly based off the movie because I’ve seen that and I’ve only read a few of the graphic novels.

I have a few children of ships I ship that you can find if you search the tag “sp next gen” on my blog! You’re welcome to ask me more about them if you like (I have a google doc of lore) but honestly just seeing those scamps doing whatever (either with each other or their parents) would make my day 🥰

Favorite characters (besides any in previous mentioned ships I like) are Damien, Kenny, Red, Bebe, and Craig. For Craig in particular I really like Youth Pastor Craig… I’m a sucker for religious imagery! Him with Imp Tweek or Angel Kenny makes me feral every time.

I’ve got a lot of rather rarepairs that I love and always love to see! You can ask for others if you’d like but off the top of my head I think my favorites are Dyde (Damien/Clyde), Rola (Red/Lola), and Lanskov (Corey Lanskin/Davey Solokov). They may not make much sense to you but I like them lots :3

If you’re still not sure what exactly I’d be into or wanna hear more headcanons/preferences of mine, I am absolutely open to chatting or being sent anons! I love talking about pretty much anything ever

In the end, I’ll probably be happy if people do anything for me at all, so don’t stress too hard about it! I’m very excited to participate in this cool event 😎

[slujactivist]

right??? the foxes are quite queer, even tho only nicky was out when we met them, but thats just bc there are so few of players lmao. 3 out of 9 if a significant amount (and im a bi kevin truther, so in my heart of hearts its 4 out of 9 and thats more then half of the lineup, pretty good). but the trojans??????????????????? those bitches are all queer and i love it!!!

i am qute excited about lucas tbh. i what to know everything!!!! how will he react to his brothers death???? how will it affect how he treats jean????? im worried about lucas lmao. i like him, i think. he can get nasty bc he is confused and got scared and he fucked up real bad, but he apologizes and now his life is about to change forever and i wanna know how he will cope. how do you grief a once beloved brother you don't know anymore? a brother who became a monster? how is his grief affect the team? how will it affect jean?? i cant wait for it!!!!! speeking of polycules, neil/andrew/kevin and jean/jeremy/kevin are both quite popular. do you like them???

the first two weeks of new antidepressants are always terrible, i hope it stops being terrible soon <3

thank you anon <3 I'm adjusting, but it's definitely been a Struggle lmao

As for the polycules, i am Quite Fond of both of those trios! I will say that I am kinda picky about kevandreil content just because of how Specific andreil's existing dynamic is, but you can absolutely tell that nora had them all involved together in early drafts 😂

(I read a really great fic one time where the foxes gradually discovered that neil was sleeping with Kevin and started getting offended and mad on Andrew's behalf after Everything Went Down. When nicky finally broke and told him 'your boyfriend is sleeping with kevin!!!', all andrew said was something like 'I would hope so, otherwise My sleeping with Kevin would be pretty awkward')

kevjerejean I go Feral for, the Angst, the Dynamics, The Complicated History, the fact that jeremy somehow pulled two of the best class I exy players who happen to be the snarkiest people on the planet??? Amazing, gorgeous, they both make jeremy go grey prematurely probably but that's okay

[theaethernetconnection]

Friendly reminder that when season 3 gets confirmed Neil Gaiman likely won't tell us right away, especially because we would absolutely go feral (which is justified).

Quote from his blog post:

"We've been keeping it secret for a long time (mostly because otherwise my mail and Twitter feeds would have turned into gushing torrents of What Can You Tell Us About It? long ago)"

Hi Mr Gaiman, you'll probably never see this but I'll ask anyway, were you already planning a sequel to Good Omens before the show was produced?

and that

love u

Here you go.

[giolovesyousm]

1, 15, 21, 22, 23, 25, 27, 34, 36, 38, 49, 50

damnn thank you bro these are a lot!

1. who is/are your comfort character(s)?

have many actually, at the moment I'll say neil perry ofc, samwise gangee from LOTR, hange zoe from aot, lately I've been going with Jo march from little women! I rewatched the movie and absolutely went feral about it, I'm going to reread the book

15. are you a parent? (all answers qualify)

my books are my babies so yes, I'm a full-time mom

21. something you’ve kept since childhood?

literally everything, I had (have) A great attachment to all my things and just couldn't throw them away, I would have felt guilty, so all my toys and peluche are still here with me lol

23. how do you feel about chilly weather?

def not my fav, I like the hotness, I hate being cold or sm I love feeling the warm of the sun on my face, shoulders or whatever, I really dislike wear many clothes and go out with 2974millions of layers on bc it's damn it cold outside

25. perfume/body spray or lotion?

why not both?

27. about how many hours of sleep did you get?

in school days I think 7/8 hours, in the weekend or holidays way more, I really like to sleep, I'm very good at that

34. is there a song you know every word to by heart?

there are plenty actually, I love learning songs by heart, especially if they have great lyrics, the last one I learned I think is champagne problems by taylor swift, I always listened to it but never really hearing

36. how many times have you changed your url?

here on tumblr never actually, this is a very common nickname of mine and I like it this way

38. a soap bar that smells good?

mhh idk man I don't use soap bars unfortunately but at home I have those SBC soap that are really good, my mom buys them and they're like the best in england or something ??

49. can you skip rocks?

I always try I swear!! but it's not my thing ig

50. can i tag you in random stuff?

of course you can! whoever you are feel free to tag me in stupid things or send me whatever you want, it makes me kind of feel special

[theravenkin]

something i just really like to think about is neil starting to show his actual personality to the rest of the foxes post-canon and them being shocked.

before they knew about everything, he had to keep up the shy, quiet, ordinary, unsuspecting neil josten act. but post-canon, i like to think that he lets loose a little, allows his real personality to show. he actually lets them see ruthless, blunt, hot-tempered neil josten.

i believe in neil having a very specific "im about to raise hell" expression where he does his scary smile and his eyes go absolutely feral, and the others learn that if they see that expression, they need to step aside. also, i think the others might underestimate how good of a liar neil is. he'll have them convinced that he's innocent but andrew will insist that he's lying; the others, at first, think andrew's being mean and bitter, neil's too sweet to be faking this time, why would he lie about something small like this? ...and then neil's expression completely changes from "innocent child" to "chaos demon" frighteningly quickly. it's absolutely terrifying. andrew sees the horror on the other's faces and just goes, see? gullible morons.

what makes this even better: i like to think that once andrew sees that neil won't be pushed around anymore, and also that neil won't let his people be pushed around either, that andrew feels like he can let down his guard a little bit. like...he feels like there is someone who is willing to and capable of protecting him for once. so andrew might actually relax a little bit...while neil gets more unhinged. i just love this trope and all the possibilities.

like, imagine neil does or says something shocking to the upperclassmen, and they turn to andrew and are like "??? are you gonna control him??" because they're used to andrew being controlling over his people. but andrew doesn't feel the need to control neil when he's like this (tbh he's not fully sure that he could). so he just shrugs nonchalantly and stares blankly (and, if you look closely, admiringly) at neil while he wreaks havoc.

it's just like...wait til the upperclassmen realize that neil is far more willing to fuck shit up than andrew ever was. wait until they realize that andrew just wants to drink hot chocolate and talk shit with his therapist while neil crosses people off his hit list. you know?

[high-queen-of-exy]

I like to believe the last straw that made Neil finally fight Jack up was that he said something really fucked up about Andrew. Probably about either his childhood or that he's crazy, and Andrew doesn't care, but Neil is pissed because it's one line too many this asshole is crossed and he goes FERAL.

The Dan and Matt look on in absolute shock because Neil is their ✨child✨ and he is so sweet and how!?!? Kevin and Renee share a "finally" moment, Allison is a little proud, Nicky would make some joke about how Neil couldn't have been THAT sweet and good to be with Andrew (gets him smacked but oh well) and Aaron.....

Aaron realizes that maybe Neil did love his brother, maybe he cared, maybe he understood Andrew better than anyone else on the team, maybe he wasn't going to hurt him.

And if he smirked a little while watching Neil verbally berate Jack after hitting him with a racket, fucking prove it, cus he'd rather die than admit it to anyone.

[niche-user-name]

the foxes and their preferred social medias

neil would go absolutely feral on twitter. he can’t use his phone for the life of him so twitter is the one social media he learns how to use and boy does he use it

nicky is a snapchat dude. we all know this. maybe we are too afraid to admit it because he uses everything but like… it’s nicky. snapchat is his favourite. it just makes sense.

allison has the perfect instagram. it’s the perfect blend between pictures of her looking incredible and genuinely entertaining content. if you aren’t following her, you should be.

kevin pulls a jeremy renner and just develops his own social media app. except it’s less self absorbed and is just basically an exy platform where pro players and sports news channels can post. he thinks everything else is a waste of time

renee is a textbook pinterest girlie. hacking into her account and looking through her saved pins is how allison knows what to get renee for her birthday. she also almost exclusively uses whatapp to message people

matt is great on tiktok. he’s the one pulling tiktok pranks on the foxes and going viral.

aaron mostly uses reddit. we can be upset about it but we know that it’s true

dan i’m bringing to tumblr. she uses other things as well in the way that most people do, but she has the most fun on here. i don’t really have reasoning for this just vibes.

andrew. oh andrew. he refuses to get any sort of social media on principal. he gets an instagram forced upon him when he joins a pro team but he uses it minimally. he only ever posts mandatory game announcements that he is contractually obligated to post. this is a front. he secretly runs the most popular fox hate page on instagram. the public is 99% sure it’s a joke of some kind run by the team itself because the individual foxes keep sharing the posts and the team just thinks that it’s kevin. after they’ve all graduated it becomes the #1 place to get your minyard-josten rivalry news and the account tears into them both equally. neil finds out about the account when trying to upload a photo he just took to andrew’s official instagram. the world becomes a little confused by the account’s sudden pro andrew stance. under neil’s influence the account turns into a more general fox update page, with the occasional snarky comment. no one ever finds out who is behind it.

[gilmores-glorious-blog]

random dead poets society things from the fourth viewing by someone who’s been obsessed with this movie for seven months:

- “mr. keating’s spotify would be so boring it’s just ALL THE SAME SONG.” - my friends and i talking about keating and his obsession with the 1812 overture

- i just realized that when neil’s shirtless in the locker room he has a bunch of freckles on his shoulders which first of all,, 🥺🥺🥺,,, but also,, now i have a neil and cam freckle buddies agenda

- mr. dalton you are so bisexual it astounds me

- charlie’s projecting with the “to feel tall” reply i don’t make the rules

- there’s two scenes that i interpret as characters stimming and they make me so unreasonably joyful (the first one is charlie’s little jump at the end of the “then i saw the congo” scene and the second is neil smiling and stomping his feet a bunch after getting cast as puck)

- chameron being on the rowing team together <3 but also why is cam wearing a sweater while rowing that seems dumb,,

- this has been said time and time again but: neil fucking perry invented ‘no ❤️’ and i love him so goddamn much for it

- the scene where neil is telling everyone he got puck makes me absolutely feral,,,, the happy neil,, the supportive friends,,, the charlie and cameron in pajamas in their room together,,,, the anderperry,,,,,, it’s too much :,)

- charlie’s “TO INDEED BE A GOD” is my favorite thing ever,, he truly is one of the most Characters.

- god chameron is just. they are so. yeah. i love them. they are my everything.

- screaming and wailing and gnashing my teeth the sweaty-toothed madman scene makes me go insane

- but god do i wanna hear neil, cam, and charlie’s poems……… that’s what fanfiction is for

- forever and always thinking about the Neil Perry In Love face

- never in my entire life am i getting over the “poetrusic” scene,,, it’s just so good and i love charlie so much,,,,,, the energy of the bad saxophone with the good poetry and the franticness of the poem matching the sound and then the abrupt change to the smooth and beautiful music.. it’s so amazing <3

- i go a little bit insane when cameron, neil, charlie, or todd smile/laugh….. these boys just deserve everything and i would give anything for them to be happy 🥺🥺

- somehow i’d forgotten about the desk set scene and now i’m. :,). they are boyfriends your honor.

- charlie dalton is so important to me,,,, i know he’s objectively an asshole when he brings the girls to the cave but the way he chooses to resolve it.. with the phone call and everything that follows……… i have so many emotions about it and him,,, that’s my comfort white boy

- i think there’s a point where keating calls charlie ‘ace’?? and if i’m correct than that’s the cutest shit i’ve ever heard 🥺

- everytime i watch this movie i get a little concerned by how much i project onto neil,, as a sad gay theatre kid whose parents are more concerned about my academics than my acting opportunities…… it hits a little too close to home,,,

- even though i’ve watched this three times before, i managed to block the ending from my mind as i was watching until like,, the start of the play and then i just started panicking like ‘oh FUCK oh SHIT here’s where shit’s about to go down’

- i am constantly being destroyed by the neil and charlie friendship,, watching charlie be so excited to see neil in the play that he stands up upon seeing him hurts so goddamn bad when you know what’s coming… not to mention the “he’s good. he’s really good.”/“i was good. i was really good.” parallel because.. jesus fucking christ i can’t handle that!!!!!!!!!

- neil’s so happy right before he leaves with his dad… i hate knowing what that post-show high feels like, it makes it so much worse to see everything come crashing down around him

- i am forever thinking about how the music that plays as they go to their first dps meeting is the same music that plays during neil’s suicide. absolutely awful parallel, i hate it here.

- the amount of Thoughts i have on cameron not being there when todd finds out about neil’s death/not being in the snow with them all afterwards is…… Astronomical.

- charlie not singing at neil’s funeral is something that can be so personal.

- fucking hell the end of this movie is bad enough without shipping chameron, i do not need all this additional pain holy shit

- i really. Can Not Handle the fact that the last time we see charlie is when he punches cameron.

so yeah. agony, suffering, absolutely devasting, i love it so much, they make me so fucking happy.

[octaviasdread]

The Dead Poets as Tumblr Blogs/Aesthetics:

Neil: theatre! Dark Academia. Shakespeare nerd who keeps a Yorick skull to recite his lines to. He’s drawn to the drama of ancient cathedral ruins and loves testing the acoustics of grand Victorian theatres. Constantly quotes Christopher Marlowe with flippant yet dark jokes about Mephistopheles and Faustian pacts.

Todd: Light Academia. Cosy knit sweaters, museum day trips, and notes app poetry when inspiration strikes. He lives in second-hand bookstores or with cups of tea cradled in his ink-splattered hands. Happiest reading Oscar Wilde or Frank O’Hara with folklore playing softly to the sound of rain outside his window.

Knox: 1980s aesthetic. The John Hughes rat pack are his religion. Constantly on pinterest making outfit moodboards inspired by characters from Saved by the Bell or Pretty in Pink. Tries to force his friends into recreating The Breakfast Club in detention (dancing montage included). He cries over Instagram live when ABBA announce their return.

Charlie: This boy embodies the 2014 grunge tumblr aesthetic. His blog is all black & white photography, existentialist quotes, and Effy Stonem gifs sets. He draws inspiration from vintage styles, wearing leather jackets and dark sunglasses as he sits in hipster cafes with black coffee, and a cigarette in hand with the arctic monkeys playing on repeat. He’d start quoting vines ironically but they soon become his entire personality.

Cameron: Studyblr. Colour coded notes, podcast recs, and nature walks to take photos of vivid rainbows or glowing sunsets. His blog is full of positive affirmations and time dedicated to helping stressed students sending late night tumblr asks. He occasionally slips into Beatles stan account territory (which has nothing to do with McLennon😅), he’s just learning their songs on his clarinet okay.

Meeks: Fandom tumblr. He’d absolutely be in his element writing deep character analysis and johnlock fics with cursed memes and crack vids peppered in. I can just imagine him going down a youtube or wiki rabbit hole on a random topic at midnight but still somehow finding time to study and do well in school.

Pitts: COTTAGE CORE. This man would go absolutely feral over small farm life. He’d be reading up on irrigation techniques, creating a planting schedule, and video calling Meeks about different plants he’s found. Harvest season becomes baking season, and I think he’d be fascinated by the science of baking. Overwhelmed by fruit pies, the boys would enter him as a contestant on the Great British Bake Off where he creates elaborately constructed cakes with wild experimental flavours.

Ginny: Witchcraft tumblr. Mythology and the Hellenistic Gods are her passion. She loves anything spooky and she’s fascinated by the idea of working with nature to harness her own power.

Chris: True Crime. Her blog may have a pink and white theme but she’s been obsessed with mysteries since she dressed up as Nancy Drew for World Book Day. She knows everything about famous cold cases and posts updates for ongoing investigations. Gif sets from shows like Twin Peakes, Buzzfeed unsolved, and Riverdale are also common.

Stick: I feel like he runs a photography blog? Idk why.

[jadegrey711]

Trouble

Soft dark!Andy Barber x Fem!Reader

A/N: Hello everyone! So recently I’ve become absolutely obsessed with both @navybrat817​ and @stargazingfangirl18​ who both write absolutely amazing stuff and I want to be them when I grow up. So when I found out Siri was doing a 5k writing challenge i figured i’d throw my hat in the ring and maybe get out of this depression writing slump. 

So I decided to make a vey very very! Soft!Dark Andy Barber x Fem!Reader. Seriously it’s like Dark Light lol. But I hope you all like it! I hope to do another one before the month is over but let’s see shall we? 

*NOT MY GIF. Credit in the TAGS*

Word Count:1484

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This story is for 18+ ONLY. It contains sexual themes that are not suited for younger audiences so if you’re under 18 my blog and this story is not for you. Please make sure to read at your own discretion and remember that you are solely responsible for your content intake. 

WARNINGS: Sexual Situations (18+ ONLY), Overstimulation, possessive Andy, deeply jealous Andy, Oral sex (F Receiving), Vaginal sex. 

Other warnings include very mediocre writing. 

He watched you from a distance as he continued talking with his fellow associates, making sure to keep a watchful eye on you as you chatted with the wives. He smirked to himself knowing you must be bored out of your mind, but you did it for him and he loved you for it. 

Suddenly though, Andy watched as Neil Logiudice approached you from behind, putting a hand on your arm. You seemed startled for a minute and then smiled, putting your hand on top of his and Andy saw red. 

He barely registered what the others in his group were talking about. Because his gaze was focused solely on you and Neil and how cozy you were in each other’s company. How you and the other women laughed at some joke he made and about how in the three minutes he had been standing there he hadn’t been able to keep his fucking hands off of you. He felt like breaking each one of those fingers, making sure he let Neil know that he was never to touch you again. He could feel his whole body vibrate with violence as he continued watching, knowing you were none the wiser. 

Neil was nice enough and he was an associate of Andy’s so when he put his hand on your arm to get your attention you let it slide, putting your hand on top of his and gave it a friendly pat fighting the urge to swat it away immediately. You were at a party full of Andy’s work friends and associates so making a scene over something small would not be a good impression on either your part or Andy’s; so you let it slide and you let the other four times he touched you slide as well. Even as you were mentally flinching each time he did it. After the fourth time you looked around the room for Andy, looking for an escape of some kind and immediately found him; across the room and boring holes into the back of Neil’s head with that dark gaze. 

You took that as your cue to quickly excuse yourself, saying that it was getting rather late and you should go and find Andy. Everyone waved you off as you departed from the group and over to where Andy was. 

“Hi honey.” You smiled, grabbing his hand and lacing your fingers with his and while everyone else in the group was still talking you heard Andy sigh and grip your fingers back; turning his face towards your he gave you a small smile. 

“Do you want to get out of here?” He whispered in your ear.

“Definitely!” You whispered back. Before you plastered a smile on your face as Andy said goodbye to everyone and then put his hand on the small of your back and guided you out the exit. 

**

Later that night after you both had gotten home, gotten into bed and as Andy had your leg over his strong shoulder while he devoured your soul between your legs did he bring up Neil. 

You writhed on the bed, your fingers tangled in Andy’s hair as you felt your orgasm coming on fast with the pace he was eating you out at. When suddenly Andy surprised you. 

“You good friends with Neil now?” he asked nonchalantly against your folds, before he sucked harshly on your clit. Making you groan. 

“What?” you asked confused at what he was possibly asking you right now as he was sucking all rational thought out through your pussy. 

“Are you good friends with Neil?” He asked again, giving your clit another harsh suck. And you felt your legs convulse. 

“What the fuck Andy?” You asked but the sound of his name was more of a moan as he added two of his fingers and pumped your sweet pussy. 

Andy didn’t give for a minute as he continued to suck and lick at your folds until you finally came, but instead of gently working you through your orgrasm, his fingers kept their harsh pace as he looked up at you. 

“You seemed like real good friends when you let him put his fucking hands on you.” He growled as he placed an open mouth kiss on your pussy. His other hand pulling the hood of your clit back before placing another one of those kisses there and sucking it again. 

“Fuck! Andy! I’m gonna come again.” you cried out, feeling that the pleasure was starting to be too much for you. But the way that you started to pull on Andy’s hair to pull him off or the way your hips turned away from him his touches didn’t deter him one bit as he continued with his interrogation. 

He leaned up from you and watched his fingers stroke in and out of you before he added a third one, earning a low whine from you as you felt yourself building up to another orgasm.

“You didn’t answer my question sweetheart. Why did that fuck think he could put his hands on what is mine?” 

“Andy.” you moaned, trying to get away from his touch but he wasn’t having any of that as he placed his heavy bicep over your stomach, keeping you there at his mercy. 

You felt that sinful tongue run through your folds again, his thick beard scratching your thighs adding whatever sensations you were feeling to new heights. Then he pulled out his fingers so he could fuck you with his tongue now. Your third orgasm coming like a runaway freight train. You felt your toes curl as your third orgasm washed over you making you lift from the bed like Andy was performing an exorcism on you. 

You felt tears in your eyes as you tried again to pull away from Andy’s touches feeling your thighs tremble uncontrollably now but Andy wasn’t stopping not until he got what he wanted from you; not until he got an answer for why Neil thought he could put his hands on what didn’t belong to him. 

“Fuck Andy! Stop!” you sobbed. “He just came up to me. I didn’t want to make a scene about some guy putting his hand on my arm so I didn’t do anything  about it. I knew you were right there if I felt uncomfortable and I did; so I left.” you cried out, feeling the tears roll down your cheeks. “Please honey stop.” you sobbed. 

You watched in relief as Andy pulled his plump lips away from your aching pussy, and felt your pussy clench at the sight of his beard absolutely drenched in your juices. But your relief was short lived, as you saw the look in Andy’s eyes, the feral look they held in them. 

“He made you uncomfortable?” 

“Yes, but I came straight to you. Please Andy I can’t take it anymore baby please.” you whined. 

“I should break everyone of his fingers for laying a fucking hand on what’s mine.” He said softly, placing chaste kisses on your inner thighs and you let out a small cry. You watched in relief as he climbed up the length of your body, and ladened you with soft hungry kisses, letting you taste yourself on his tongue. 

“I love you.” he said softly, giving you another soft kiss. “I’m so glad that you felt that you could just come to me when you were feeling uncomfortable. I never want you to feel that way again so next time, you’ll just stay with me the whole time okay?” 

You quickly nodded and kissed Andy back. You both just stayed there like that for a minute, him hovering and stretched over your body, ladening you with soft kisses before he pulled away from you and gave you a wicked smile. 

“But I think you have one more in you baby.” he said and before you could even react. Andy grabbed the back of each of your legs, bringing you closer to him, before he swiftly impaled you with his achingly hard cock.

Andy set a brutal pace obviously trying to get you off one more time before he loses all control. You let out a high keen, and grabbed onto Andy, your nails raking down his back; a small revenge for him absolutely wrecking you tonight all because of some asshole touching you. 

“I’m gonna fill you up so nicely baby. No one will ever have any doubt that you are mine.” he let out a low grown. “And that I’m yours.” he growled leaning down to suck and place kisses on your neck. 

Without warning your orgasm crashed over you and you were sure that if Andy wasn’t there pressing down onto you, you would’ve snapped in half from the force of it. As Andy chased his own end, he kissed the tears that were flowing down your cheeks. 

“Nothing fucks with my baby.”