#neil perry doesn't die

[blakenation1]

dead poets society and it's the same but neil perry doesn't die so it's not

inspired by charli xcx - brat and it's the same but there's three more songs so it's not

[churrosbitxh]

some different things I learnt from the original script of the Dead Poets Society by Tom Schulman for the first time

*These are my personal review and thoughts about it*

Mr. Keating is so Brat coded

Todd is sassier? Angrier? Idk he definitely isn't that awkward as he's shown in the movie just really sad or frustrated most of the time (relatable boi-)

The boys swear. Like, a lot. Especially Neil. Sad most of the swearings were cut off in the movie :(

There are more poetry mentioned, really nice.

Keating is Todd's personal bully. As an introverted person myself I would have hated Keating irl not gonna lie, but he's a nice person and he has his reasons so I forgive him.

Neil is so dramatic. Also very Impulsive. And also very Hotheaded.

Knox is so fucking creepy I can't even-

McAllister definitely has homoerotic desires for Keating and I stand by my word

Meeks is definitely gay- or Aro. He's cute.

The metaphors for sex and orgasms are crazy

Neil is a supportive bf

More mentions of Todd's parents, and how Todd is very aggressive about that topic

Charlie is a goddamn menace, but dorkier than the movie

Surprisingly, I hate Cameron even more now.

Charlie treats Cameron worse than the movies, though Cameron snaps back at him more in the scripts

Pitts being a Neutral Chaotic is interesting

Pitts and Charlie's chemistry is cuter than I thought

Mr. Perry and Nolan can rot and die

Todd doesn't sign the papers to fire Keating (not really mentioned in the movies if he did or not, though.)

Well this are the things I noticed that are a little different from the movie and the script, I did read them partly before but I finally finished them today and I'll just.. Cry on the floor... Like Todd..

Though I loved most of it, I liked how the movie explained some parts a little more detailed, just wished some scenes made it in the movies too.. And the boys feel a little more alive- Like real guys around their age, puberty and creepy has a thin line between them

But seriously, I thought movie Knox was a creepy lil boy, but the original Knox gives me a little hard time to love him.

AND ANDERPERRY IS REAL

[gonzo-rella]

Headcanons: Charlie Dalton, Neil Perry and Todd Anderson Taking Care of Their Sick S/O

MASTERLIST | AO3 | KO-FI

Relationship(s): Charlie Dalton x sick!gn!reader (romantic), Neil Perry x sick!gn!reader , Todd Anderson x sick!gn!reader (romantic)

Warnings: The reader has a cold so... yeah. Also, since I'm sick myself, my brain isn't really working at it's normal level so apologies for any mistakes! (Let me know if I need to add any)

(A/N: Unfortunately I'm still sick (it's only been a few days). Fortunately, I'm still motivated to write headcanons to get me through this relatively mild illness (and I'm starting to feel better)! I've got a Todd one-shot draft that I started a year ago and never got around to finishing, so here's my first offering to the Dead Poets Society fandom. I'd love to write more for it, both reader-insert and not. I'm not sure if I'll end up writing any more sick fics (I've already written hcs for Yellowjackets and Abed Nadir and Annie Edison from Community) since I should be better soon, but if you're still interested check out my fandom list and requesting info and feel free to send an ask!)

CHARLIE

Charlie will jokingly tell you that you’re disgusting.

If you’re not amused by that, he’ll awkwardly but sincerely apologise, his mortification thinly veiled.

He isn’t entirely sure what the hell to do to make you less sick.

(He'll have to consult his more medically knowledgeable friends for advice)

He will ask you if you want him to kiss it all better.

(And he will not hesitate to kiss you when you give him the go ahead)

Suffice it to say, he does not care all that much about getting sick himself.

(A small part of him hopes that he does get sick so you'll have to take care of him)

He will spend so much time with you, you’d think you were dying.

He will also get you anything you ask for (even if it has no clear use in making you physically better- he just wants to make you happy).

If his earlier attempt at joking doesn't work, he'll still persist in cracking jokes and making you laugh to make you feel better.

(If your laughter causes you to break out into a coughing fit, though, he will feel awful).

NEIL

Neil knows exactly what to do.

He may not like his dad's dream of him becoming a doctor, but damn he has such a knack for looking after you.

He makes sure you’re drinking enough fluids and taking any medicine you need to take.

No matter how disgusting you might get, Neil is completely unfazed the whole time.

If anything, he'll find it funny and try to keep you in as high spirits as possible.

If he does mind getting sick, he certainly doesn't show it.

For example, he doesn't hesitate when kissing you on the cheek or forehead.

He loves you so much that it really won’t matter to him if you can- or do- get him sick.

He’ll regularly ask you if there’s anything that you want or need, and if you’re comfortable, and if you’re too hot or cold.

It’s evident that he cares about you getting better.

He’ll sit at your bedside and try to take your mind off of how you’re feeling.

But, he will insist that you need to rest up, so when you’re asleep or trying to fall asleep he’ll be as quiet as humanly possible to make sure he doesn’t wake you up.

If he does end up waking you, he’ll feel terrible about it.

He’s so loving and caring anyway, but especially when you’re sick.

TODD

This guy is fucking terrified.

He assumes that anything he does will only make you sicker.

A small part of him is convinced you will die under his care.

So, he begs Neil for advice, and Neil humours him so that Todd doesn’t drive himself nuts.

Todd will regularly ask you if you need something, and he’ll repeatedly offer you whatever Neil advised him about.

He’s also completely torn between his innate desire not to get himself sick, and his deep love and affection for you.

So, please don’t get upset with him if he recoils almost every time you cough and sneeze, because he does spend as much time as he possibly can at your bedside.

Speaking of which, Todd sits at your bedside like a loyal golden retriever.

He’ll hold your hand (internally panicking about your high temperature, of course) and place the occasional kiss on the back of it.

He’ll also read some of his poems, works in progress and completed, out to you, and he’ll make sure to pick plenty that are about you specifically.

Sure, he’s nervous, but you love his poetry and all he wants to do is reduce how terrible you feel.

[iamgonnagetyouback]

✧˚ ༘ ᴅᴇᴀᴅ ᴘᴏᴇ��ꜱ ꜱᴏᴄɪᴇᴛʏ ⋆｡˚

⁀➴ ⁿᵃᵛⁱᵍᵃᵗᵉ ʷⁱᵗʰ ᵐᵉ

✰ ➵ angst ♡ ➵ fluff ୨ৎ ➵ funny

⋆ 𝐍𝐄𝐈𝐋 𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐑𝐘

𝐀 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 - Neil Perry x Reader (part 1 | part 2 [coming soon]) (✰/♡)

neil perry x reader where he is 'terrible' at acting (୨ৎ/♡)

⋆ 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐄 𝐃𝐀𝐋𝐓𝐎𝐍

charlie dalton x reader who doesn't think that idea of her dating him could be that absurd (✰/♡)

charlie dalton x fem!reader who tries to make charlie jealous (✰/♡)

charlie dalton x reader who can't figure out her feelings (✰/♡)

charlie dalton x reader where he doesn't have to pretend anymore...atleast not with her (✰/♡)

charlie dalton x reader where he falls for her every autumn (୨ৎ/♡)

⋆ 𝐓𝐎𝐃𝐃 𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐎𝐍

coming soon

⋆ 𝐆𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐑𝐃 𝐏��𝐓𝐓𝐒

coming soon

⋆ 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐗 𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐄𝐄𝐓

coming soon

⋆ 𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍 𝐌𝐄𝐄𝐊𝐒

coming soon

⋆ 𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐎𝐌

𝐏𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐂 𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐀𝐂𝐊 - Todd has a panic attack after seeing Neil die in his dreams. (✰/♡)

𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐃𝐀𝐘 - Just another normal day with the boys. (୨ৎ/♡)

ˡᵃˢᵗ ᵘᵖᵈᵃᵗᵉᵈ 「¹⁷.¹¹. ²⁴」

[parkerloves]

MYSTERY BOY? GIRL? || Neil Perry x Fem!Reader

MASTERLIST

paring: neil perry x masculine!fem!reader

summary: neil has a partner but he's quite discreet about it, so everyone is confused because they don't even know their gender

fc; maia mitchell + pinterest girls (but picture her as you like)

warnings: modern au and a very confused charlie

note: her user is "weltonismybitch"

neilperry has posted!

liked by weltonismybitch, charliedal and 37 others

neilperry: study... date? idk but it was kinda productive... sometimes

tagged: weltonismybitch

charliedal: WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY DATE?

neilperry: I know girls don't like you that much, but you don't know what a date is?

romeo.like.knox: sassy neil is brutal god

weltonismybitch: next time, try reading instead of being on your phone

neilperry: I'll try next time

weltonismybitch: next time?

neilperry: please?

weltonismybitch: you need me to not fail maths

weltonismybitch has updated a story

liked by neilperry, charliedal and 13 others

caption: he spent half an hour searching for a book he already had a copy in his back

neilperry has replied to your story

you weren't joking about telling everyone

I deserve having fun now that some of your little friends are following me

they won't shut up with question, you know that?

have fun darling xx

charlie and neil's texts

weltonismybith has posted!

liked by neilperry, toddy.anderson and 37 others

weltonismybitch: so the test we have tomorrow is a chess one right? (I need to stop hanging out with this idiot)

tagged: neilperry

neilperry: you were literally the one who brought it in the first place??

weltonismybitch: who said it was for you?

neilperry: if you hate me just say so

weltonismybitch: you're going to lose your pretty privileges if you keep talking

neilperry: sorry ma'am 🫡

charliedal: @toddy.anderson WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?

toddy.anderson: liking a friend's post?

charliedal: REALLY? NOT EVEN A PRONOUN?

toddy.anderson: are you blind?

neilperry has posted!

liked by weltonismybitch, charliedal and 37 others

neilperry: okay MAYBE I spend a little too much time with @weltonismybitch

charliedal: I hate you both and I DON'T EVEN KNOW THEM

meeksie: dude calm down, let neil be happy with... whoever this is

pittsie: I'm offended about the fact that he hasn't introduced us yet

neilperry: ... with time

weltonismybitch: and now he doesn't have his own music taste

neilperry: so should I stop listening to your music?

weltonismybitch: if you want to die, sure

weltonismybith has posted!

liked by neilperry, charliedal and 37 others

weltonismybitch: will everyone shut the fuck Up about if it was a boy or a girl who is making out with my boyfriend?

charliedal: good, I don't have to add something else to the list of things I'll have to fight your dad for @neilperry

neilperry: now stop talking about my girl?

meeksie: after meeting her

toddy.anderson: I promise they can be a bit more normal

weltonismybitch: just a bit? not really worth it, I think

romeo.like.knox: we have cigarettes and chocolate

weltonismybitch: when and where?

toddy.anderson has posted a story!

liked by neilperry, charliedal and 13 others

caption: so I can finally share this?

weltonismybitch has replied to your story

you're going to be dead in like 10 seconds

I GOT NEIL'S PERMISSION

so he'll be dead too

run

I love you?

shush

weltonismybitch has posted!

liked by charliedal, neilperry and 23 others

weltonismybitch: pretty weird people, also kinda decent (even though they cheat A LOT)

tagged: neilperry, charliedal, romeo.like.knox, toddy.anderson, meeksie, pittsie

charliedal: I DID NOT CHEAT!

weltonismybitch: liarrr

neilperry: you did cheat meat

charliedal: NOW YOU TAKE HER SIDE? auch

weltonismybitch: he better

meeksie: but be honest, how did HE pulled YOU?

weltonismybitch: good question, idk

neilperry: MEEKS? you're supposed to be my friend

charliedal: NOW YOU FEEL MY PAIN

weltonismybitch: I'm surrounded by idiots god

[burntoutyouth]

“I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately... I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life... to put rout all that was not life; and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived.”

― Dead Poets Society

Have you ever felt like drowning but when you're on land? Like oxygen is all around you but taking every single breath feels like going through a war. When you're holding back those tears, keeping a straight face and your throat is aching so much that you just want to give up? It's like drowning in everything. And nothing. You feel everything but want to feel nothing. Every bad memory, every bad feeling, floods your mind. And for a while you try to break through the waters. You try to remain afloat. Throwing your hands and legs in a desperate attempt to reach the surface, to swim towards the shore. Quite desperate, yet futile. After a while you stop. And you let yourself drown. You let yourself go deep, deep, and deeper still. Hoping that you'll reach the bottom. Hoping that you'll finally escape this. But It's an endless pit. It keeps going on and on and on. But you can't really die from this drowning. Because you can still breathe. Your lungs are still fully functional, taking in air and pushing it out. Air in, air out. In and out. But you can't do the same with those echoing voices in your head a and the things you are being told. Words that push through you and go in but you cannot push them out. It grows there, inside you spreading its root deep. Deep, deep, so deep. You hope it to grows around your heart and stops it from beating. Stops this mess once and for all. But it doesn't because of course, a parasite will never kill its host. And that leaves you drowning and yet still breathing. Not alive, not in the truest sense of the term. But just breathing.

(this sounds so fucking suicidal , might just follow Neil Perry's footsteps 🥰)

(I need to go to a therapist)

(oh nvm, I'm broke. Ig I'll just go and listen to THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT)

[deadpoetperry]

~ INTRO POST ~

“I went to the woods because I wanted to live deliberately. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life. To put to rout all that was not life; and not, when I had come to die, discover that I had not.”

-Henry David Thoreau

— — — — — — — — — — — — — —

~ WELCOME ~

This is a character roleplay blog for Neil Perry (portrayed by Robert Sean Leonard) from the 1989 film Dead Poets Society.

The film takes place in the year 1959, but that won’t be acknowledged for the sake of this blog being well past that point in time.

Neil is a seventeen year old student in his junior year of high school at Welton Academy, an Episcopalian all-male preparatory boarding school in Vermont. His parents want him to go to Harvard and be a doctor, but his dream is to act.

His friends are Todd Anderson, Knox Overstreet, Richard Cameron, Steven Meeks, Gerard Pitts, and Charlie Dalton. (If you have a character blog for one of them, please message me; we could be mutuals and roleplay together!)

Keep in mind that none of these blog posts are canon and that they are for entertainment purposes only. That being said, headcanoned content will be incorporated.

~ ROLEPLAY RULES ~

- Don't be rude. Just because the mod (@cosmicbobatea) is an adult, doesn't mean they're going to tolerate rude behavior.

- No explicit NSFW. Some mild or innuendo content is fine.

- Cursing is fine for the most part, but please refrain from using slurs whatsoever.

- Homophobia, transphobia, racism, pedophilia, xenophobia, etc. will not be tolerated.

- If you want to interact as a character, use anonymous ask. Character blogs are perfectly fine.

- If you want to send art in asks, please do, by all means, but keep it SFW.

- Do not spam asks!

- For any OOC (out of character) asks, please specify in your ask.

~ TAGS ~

#askneilperry - used for asks on this blog

#neilsayscarpediem - used for any in-character posts on this blog that aren’t asks

[johnbottoms]

neil perry literally doesn't die like. no idea what ur all talking abt. sure i havent seen the last 20 minutes of the movie but that's a crazy thing to add at the very end of ur movie like thats really insane I think

[fandomfiish]

Getting a call at exactly midnight, only to hear that you'll be dying within the next twenty-four hours was something that Neil Perry fears, that's why he didn't join in the Deathcast because he felt that not knowing when he'll die seems more natural, and would ease his nerves. After all, he had plans for himself, he wanted to act! He wanted to be on the center stage performing to live audiences like he used to when he was young.

To a certain Todd Anderson, it might be a call from god, all his life he's been tossed aside, friends he can count with just his fingers, parents who never looked at him like they look at his older brother, he thought that maybe he can finally rest without any pain. Sure he doesn't know how he'll die, but the prospect of all his pain ending was more important to him than that. Though his parents forbid him from signing in the Deathcast, after all, they still had these gargantuan expectations towards him, yet have no plans in helping or supporting him. Which is why he sneakily signed himself up.

Charlie Dalton was a carefree individual, a ray of sunshine that brightens up the room, he was known to be a guy whole lived by the phrase 'Carpe Diem' and well with that and at the time good friends decided to playfully sign themselves on the Deathcast, he didn't at his friend's disappointment. Carefree as he might be, he still has plans on his own, and hopefully, he could live long enough to make that plans to fruition.

Knox Overstreet was a man whose life was well ahead of him, he worked hard for this yes and it makes him prouder of how hard he's come, though the expectations of his parents still weigh on his decisions, or how he wished he could've become a cook rather than a lawyer still resides in his brain he tries to think best at how's life been treating him. And maybe since his life is now stable, he could start pursuing his dream of cooking.

Steven Meeks and Gerard Pitts, are both good friends of Charlie Dalton and the reason why he's a third wheel most of the time. Both found each other through their shared love of robotics, while Gerard was tall, awkward yet passionate, Meeks was more of the inquisitive one, a fact given how much research he made once they learned of the DeathCast, and upon further research, he decided to agree when Pitts said they should sign up, at the pretense of both of them telling if they get a call so they'll spend that day to the fullest. Hopefully, it won't come till a long time has passed.

Richard Cameron, Neil's friend who studies the same course as him. Pragmatic, logical, and thinks this whole Deathcast thing is simply uninteresting. Why would you spend your energy on your death when you can just live and continue on while being clueless about your own demise, it was how it was always been before Deathcast started. People have started to become dependent, fearful of that fated call. Which is why he didn't sign himself on the Deathcast.

"Who knew the day that I'll meet you, the day that I'll fall for you, is the day I'll lose you."

On December 15 just as the clock strikes twelve Neil Perry and Todd Anderson receive the fated call that tells them they'll both die today. And fate weaves to make them meet in the cafe where Charlie Dalton was playing, and with the addition of four other newfound friends, the group decides to cancel all their plans just to help the two enjoy their final day to the fullest, one final grand adventure to live what could've been a lifetime in just a day.

(Idk who to tag, but idk If you wanna see this when it drops hopefully this week tell me if you wanna be tagged. Buuuuut @inahallucination it has arrived JASKDJAKSD)

[nocturnalnewsiestrash]

Okay so I had to take a shower and let my body stew while I let my brain stew on this topic specifically (the shower DID take like an hour oopsies) but this means I have a lot of ideas about it.

So to preface I'm also a dead poets society girlie so my brain tries to say oh I know exactly the thing for this! and goes to take the box labeled Neil Perry thoughts, headcanons, and scenario runthroughs off the shelf to use but I tried to avoid that and instead think about how the school would act objectively and then go deeper into Charles character. But also like, be aware of that effect.

I'm also an education major and come from a long line of education people so I'm quite familiar with how schools act especially when things crash and burn. They always choose a scapegoat to take the fall. There's a few ways they do that

1. They choose one person who was so involved with the issue that they're already going down no matter what so the school lets them be the one responsible for ALL of it, usually a faculty member or multiple faculty members.

2. They don't have a clear person to take the fall so they make people that they already wanted to get rid of the scapegoats. Basically the kill two birds with one stone scapegoat method

3. They make it the students' faults entirely, blaming it usually on them breaking some rule and suspending/expelling them to avoid addressing all the cracks in the system that LED to students being able to do whatever they did or didn't do

4. And if it's REALLY bad and too obviously a fundamental issue in the school they let 1 or more of the higher ups take the fall for what happened so the school can stay afloat

Now in Charles death, the boys were clearly not supposed to be out there at the lake so they were definitely Breaking A Rule there. Since there were no staff there when Charles intervened, and also not out at the lake, it's more a through the grapevine, he said she said, "up to interpretation" situation at least in the boarding schools mind. And if these boys who hurt Charles were considered to be his friends, then that gives the school a perfect chance to twist it into not a complete ignorance of his death but instead a twisted version that makes them look better and less guilty as the school itself. Schools will make decisions internally for a reason, and then publicly say they made that decision for a completely different reason in order to spin a tale where they aren't the bad guy or at least as much of the bad guy.

So because of this here's my idea of how the result of his death went: St Hilarion still chose to say that Charles did die, that he died of hyperthermia. But they would twist it to be instead of Charles being beaten by other boys and THEN dying of hyperthermia, because that would raise questions about how they ALLOWED that to happen and call into question their care and safety as a school, that Charles and his "friends" as they choose to view them deciding to sneak out and daring each other to go for a winter swim. And claiming that he died of hypothermia as a result of this careless misbehavior. Because claiming that the death occurred as a result of breaking the rules clears them of fault because they have the rules there and the boys broke them and that's how it led to such a tragedy because of silly boys not following what they had in place because they would never let that occur on their watch.

They then either suspend and/or expel the boys for breaking the school rules and make it clear to the public that they will be cracking down on these rules. They write the boys off and get rid of them and then pretend the problem doesn't exist and never happened. Even if everyone aware actually knows that that's untrue and know through the grapevine bits and pieces that poke holes in the schools story it doesn't matter because PUBLICLY its the truth so it therefore is written in stone as the truth.

Making the students the entire scapegoat under the idea that it's more digestible to parents it was an accident occuring from misbehaving so they won't be scared to have their sons go there, and it absolves them from being involved in not supervising them well enough that a student was able to be beaten badly enough to have internal bleeding and hyperthermia so extreme that he dies without any awareness of the school.

So I think they told both Charles parents and the public that his death was essentially his fault from misbehaving and breaking rules to cover their own asses and let them believe their son died from being a stupid reckless boy. Which from what we've seen of his father he would be quick to believe. In his eyes Charles dying because of misbehaving makes sense to him and so that's final: his death was a stupid mistake and he once again failed to teach him (through physically beating him) to behave. And now we haven't actually seen much of what Charles' relationship with his mother was like but even if she notices somethings fishy in their story whether that's from knowing those boys weren't actually Charles' friends or even knowing in her heart of hearts that Charles would not do something like that, we already saw her not say anything as her husband beats their son, so there's no way she'd speak back to him about flaws in the facts and what he's already decided on about Charles death.

So that's what I think the "covering up" of Charles death actually was. Because I can't imagine Charles parents talk about his death much. And if they do I can't imagine it's to rehash the causes of it. So I don't Charles and Edwin would have learned this from them I bet it was learning about it in the newspapers. Which is so devastatingly awful. But yeah sorry this was so sad it is just what my brain came up with

That moment when the camera focuses on Charles after Crystal tells Edwin that she thought about how her parents might be scared and looking for her after looking into Becky Aspen's mom's mind breaks my heart.

Charles would know how his parents reacted to him going missing.

He's been looking in on them for 30 years.

The boarding school covered up what happened to him.

Did they tell his parents that he died?

Did they tell his parents he ran away?

Do they know whether he's dead or alive?

Did his dad even care?

[readyourimgaines]

Possible Story Idea. Take a vote.

Were I to write an alternative ending for Dead Poets Society in which Neil Perry doesn’t die, how many of your would read it? 

[mauvefayette6]

Secret Admirer

master list

Todd Anderson x he/him reader

Dear Todd Anderson,

You don't know who I am but I know who you are. I'm in your English class and loved the poem. You're an amazing writer and I aspire to be just like you.

Love,

Your secret admirer

Todd read to out loud to Neil whose grin got wider and wider.

"Who do you think it is?" Neil asked looking at Todd who shrugged.

"A secret admirer? Never had one of those before," he laughed putting the letter on his desk before grabbing his book.

"That's it?" Neil said throwing a pillow at him, "you're not even fazed!"

"Will Neil, how should I have reacted? Thrown a search party?" Neil nodded and Todd rolled his eyes.

"We'll get Charlie to search!" Neil stood up quickly almost falling.

"Neil! We don't need to get anyone envolved, okay?" Todd threw the pillow at Neil who was already opening the door.

"Oh come on Todd! It could be anyone and we have to know!" Neil insisted but Todd shook his head.

"It's really not a big deal we don't have to hunt this person down," Todd insisted Neil sat back down and finished his chemistry homework.

"You're no fun Todd, I would be searching ever inch of this school for this secret admirer." Neil sat back down his chemistry book on his lap as he flipped the pages.

"It's not a big deal. Besides it could've been a stupid joke by someone else at this school." Todd chuckled.

"What if its Lizzie? She's in our English and chemistry class!" Neil said and Todd shook his head. "What if it's Nancy! Or Betty or Veronica! What if its Damaris!" Neil went on and on naming all the girls in the class.

"Neil! I'm trying to read! Can we leave this for tomorrow? Or can we just never pick up this topic? Let it die down?" Todd insisted and Neil groaned loudly.

"Oh come on! You're not even a little but excited or curious on who it might be?" Todd shook his head and Neil groaned even louder.

"Oh stop it Neil, do your homework," Todd laughed. Neil let the conversation rest, but he couldn't help but be curious, who could be sending notes to Todd?

Todd wasn't in the slightest bit curious about who it was, if this person wanted to be known then they'll tell him and if they wanted to be kept anonymous then thats how they'll be kept.

Todd and Neil sneaked out that night to the cave, Neil was quietly laughing and talking to Todd.

They entered the cave as Neil initiated the meeting. Charlie brought his saxophone after everyone insisting he played it again for another poets meeting.

"I have an important announcement to make!" Neil called, everyone turned to look at him and Todd's expression fell.

"Neil no," Todd shook his head but Neil smirked.

"Our very own Todd has a secret admirer!" Neil said and everyone cheered, Todd's face went bright red as everyone congratulated him happily.

"Who would've known! Our very own Todd Anderson," Charlie smirked and winked at him causing him to blush harder.

"What are you implying?" Todd whispered and Charlie winked, and as if telepathically Todd understood where Charlie was going. "Charlie!"

"I didn't say anything!" Charlie laughed but Todd only blushed a deeper red.

"You guys are crazy, just because I received a letter doesn't mean they're in love with me!" Todd stood up and looked at them, "whoever it is wanted to be anonymous, can we leave it that way?"

"No!" They all sad in unison before laughing. Todd shook his head and say right back down. Trying to reason with them would be useless.

"Toddy has a secret admirer," Charlie chanted a smirk on his face. Neil grinned and joined in on the chanting before everyone began to chant and walk in a circle.

"You guys are annoying..." Todd mumbled watching his enthusiastic friends chant and walk in circles.

"Yeah, but you love us," Charlie winked.

Todd laughed at this, the meeting ended as everyone headed back.

The next morning Charlie knock on their door, Neill was the first to get up and open the door seeing Charlie still in his pajamas.

"Dalton,"

"Perry,"

Charlie entered the room and slapped Todd with the envelope causing him to wake up and rub his eyes.

"What? What's the matter?" Todd mumbled looking at the red envelope that now laid on his lap.

"Your secret admirer must not know where you sleep," Charlie smirked and Todd shook his head.

He opened it and read it to himself,

Dear Todd,

I hope that's your room, if it isn't then oops. I hope sending you letters doesn't creep you out, if it doesn't then you can write me back and just leave it under your door. Enjoy your Tuesday morning.

Love,

Your Secret Admirer :)

"What does it say?" Charlie asked eagerly,

"It says that Charlie Dalton should go get dressed or he will be late!" Todd laughed standing up and going to his closet to put on his uniform.

"Boo, I will find out what that letter says!" Charlie pointed before leaving the room to go to his own.

"What does it say?" Neil asked once Charlie was out, Neil put on his uniform as Todd was getting changed.

"It's not important Neil Perry, now let's hurry." Todd rushed Neil out the room and to the breakfast area, Neil was still insisting Todd to tell him what the letter said.

Entering their English class Neil searched the entire room, all the girls didn’t look suspicious.

You sat at the far left of the class room, Todd sat in front of you. You watched Neil and Todd enter the room and just smile at Todd. He had no idea that the author of those letters was a guy, a guy who was in love with him, so deeply in love with him since he got here.

“None of the girls look interesting, none of them even make eye contact with you,” Neil grumbled.

“What if it’s not a girl?” Todd asked sitting in front of you, Neil sat besides him.

“Hmm… None of the guys are even looking at you Todd, I doubt its a guy though. None of them are even remotely romantic enough to do something like that,” Neil winked.

“I disagree Neil Perry,” Todd laughed taking out his notebook. Mr. Keating stood in front a smile on his face as he looked at his students and then his eyes landed on you.

“Mr. (L/n),” he spoke and you tensed up, you felt eyes on you as your palms began to sweat. “Please, come up here.”

You reluctantly stood up walking to the front but your head was low to not make eye contact with anyone, they can’t see you if you can’t see them.

“Ladies and gentlemen, my good friend here, Mr. (L/n), came to me yesterday with a question.” Your heart began to beat faster. What question could it have been? You confided ever piece of information on Mr. Keating. He was like the father you wished you had. “Would you like to share your question?” He smiled and you shook your head.

“No…” You whispered but Mr. Keating dismissed it.

“He asked, about a famous poet,” Mr. Keating smiled. “Oscar Wilde.”

Mr. Keating allowed you to sit back which you gladly did, you didn’t look up as Mr. Keating talked about Oscar Wilde. You felt your face heating up as your heart was still beating extremely fast.

Todd and Neil paid attention but Charlie zoned out to his own little world.

Class was dismissed as everyone talked about the poetry Mr. Keating talked about.

“Interesting class, now we have to write a report on him, that’s so not Mr. Keating,” Charlie grumbled. They walked to the library where they sat at their usual spot. They looked at all the books but not a single thing was about Oscar Wilde.

“That’s weird? There’s nothing about Wilde, how are we supposed to do our report?” Knox asked still scanning the “W” section.

“Maybe it goes by first name? Let’s look at the “O” section?” Charlie asked walking to the O section.

“Charlie, they go by last names, why would they change it for one single poet?” Knox asked following Charlie.

Charlie ignored him as he scanned the section, yet nothing about Oscar Wilde was there.

“We didn’t find a thing about Oscar Wilde, what the hell? How are we supposed to do this report?” Charlie grumbled.

“We have no choice but to make some things up, brain storm.”

The evening was spent on some stupid jokes, dumb ideas about who Oscar Wilde was and the rest was spent on other homework.

Todd and Neil walked to their dorm room as yet another letter was on the floor.

“Another note?” Neil asked and Todd nodded opening the letter.

Dear Todd,

Strange class? Mr. Keating is an extraordinary teacher. I went to the library and didn’t see a book that had anything to do about Oscar Wilde, strange isn’t it?

Love,

Your Secret Admirer

“What does it say?” Neil asked and Todd shrugged. Todd opened his closet and took out his pajamas.

“Nothing important, they just pointed out the lack of Oscar Wilde information…” Todd got under the covers facing his wall.

“Boo…” Neil whispered in his sleepy voice before drifting off to sleep.

Todd sat up grabbing his small reading lamp and some paper writing down a response.

Dear Secret Admirer,

Hi. I don’t know if you’ll get this, but I can only hope. You got the wrong door the first time, glad you found the right one :) I’m okay with the letters it feels nice, I don’t know who you are and it’s alright if you’d like to keep it that way.

Best regards,

Todd Anderson

Todd smiled at his letter before slipping it in an envelope. He’ll leave it under the door for his secret admirer to take. He laid on his bed smiling at the door before drifting off the sleep.

That’s how the system worked between Todd and his admirer.

Dear Todd,

I’m glad you don’t fund the letters creepy, I feared you would be crept out by it.

Love,

Your Secret Admirer

Dear Secret Admirer,

I’m more flattered then creeped out :). I’m really glad there’s someone else I can talk to

Best Regards,

Todd Anderson

They exchanged letter, Todd was never curious about who it was and was just happy that someone found him interesting to talk to. Neil and the rest of the Poets were eager to figure out what girl it was. Who in their English class could be sending Todd letters?

Dear Todd Anderson,

I think it’s time you find out who is the author behind the letters. I would like this to be private, I know how eager your friends are to find out. Don’t bring them. At midnight come to the trees at the back of the school.

Love,

Your Secret Admirer

Todd read the letter with a smile, Neil raised an eyebrow and was going to grab the letter from Todd’s hands but Todd’s fast reflexes clicked in.

“Neil! No!” Todd laughed shoving the letter in his pockets. Neil groaned and flopped in his bed disappointedly.

Todd anticipated for midnight, he didn’t know if he should go twenty minutes ahead or go right at midnight. Figuring he’d rather be early he took off at around 11 once Neil was asleep.

He walked down the stairs and then outside the school jogging to the trees where he sat below one. He sat on the other side resting his head on the trunk. He closed his eyes anticipating his secret admirer’s appearance.

He heard leaves crunching and a shaky breath, he could tell whoever it was ran here.

“H-Hello?” Todd stuttered, you stood on the other side of the trunk resting your back on it.

“H-Hi,” you whispered closing your eyes and clenching your fists.

“What’s your name?” Todd asked but you didn’t answer.

“I’m surprised you came, but I’m glad, I really am.” You chuckled, you took in a deep breath before revealing yourself.

“(Y/n)?” Todd said in a tone of surprise. You nodded your head facing the other way your hands on your side.

“I-I hope you’re not disappointed, I heard Neil, he thought it was a girl,” you chuckled and Todd grinned standing up.

“I’m relieved, I didn’t want it to be a girl,” he grinned and your face heated up.

“Really?” You whispered and he nodded. “Well, Imm glad, but don’t tell your friends… Please?”

Todd nodded his head and brought you in for a hug that surprised you.

“Then it’s official. We’re friends,” Todd grinned and you nodded.

You two became friend and soon the poets caught on that you were Todd’s admirer. They weren’t mad or surprised.

Todd and you got super close in such a small amount of time. Todd got nervous around you and you got nervous around him. You didn’t want to pressure him into a relationship, you didn’t even know if he was in anyway queer.

“Can I ask you something?” Todd said while you two were studying in his room. You hummed in response allowing Todd to continue. “Do you… Do you like guys?”

You tensed as you looked at him with a confused look, “Why?”

“Well, I was looking back. Remember when Mr. Keating said you asked about Oscar Wilde?” He asked and you nodded. “Well, Oscar Wilde is gay and that’s why there was nothing about him at the library.”

“I do, I like guys,” you smiled. You didn’t know people were going to be able to put those things together but Todd is extremely smart.

“Me too…” Todd smiled and you grinned back at him. “Would you like to maybe be my boyfriend?” He whispered and your grin grew wider.

“I would love to be your boyfriend,” you hugged him tightly and he hugged you back even tighter.

[fandomfiish]

adds in the tag so you can ignore it when it's sad

patient todd and doctor neil where neil comes in to do a check up but the second he comes in, todd’s heartbeat increases frantically so neil gets closer to see whats wrong and todd’s heartbeat gets even higher and todd’s like red and the nurses assigned to him also look worried until they realize he’s just being gay

meanwhile neil’s still panic-y

or 

canon divergence au where todd comes to visit neil after his attempt and everyone panics when his heartbeat increases cuz they really don’t want neil with his circumstances to be stressed or anxious, but when they come in neil’s just bright red while todd’s panicking and asking what’s wrong, which is making him even redder

idk

[poetofthedyingstars]

DPS CHARACTERS AS RANDOM FILIPINO MEMES ON MY PHONE (yet another filipino content) PART ONE

charlie:

translation: the N on my name stands for Napakapogi (very handsome). Is there a N on my name? Yes! Because I'm handsome.

todd (probably everyone) @ mr. perry

translation: what do you mean closure? im gonna curse you until i die fuck you

neil after performing:

keating when they indirectly wanna insult everyone particularly mr. perry and nolan:

translation: (this line is always used to mock people when they say something or do something) weh? nevermind, it's done, it's finish.

(HELP THIS IS SO HARD TO TRANSLATE CAUSE IT DOESN'T SOUND SO GREAT IN ENGLISH)

when knox told the poets he fell in love /light-hearted

translation: what the fuck are you talking about?

keating:

translation: [why are blaming me?] it's like, it's my fault.

meeks:

translation: i'm just gonna translate the ones that aren't in english! “yes pangit ako” means yes, i'm ugly. and then if you can't read the ‘gunthe lang’, that means beautiful. and the ‘tangina ang ganda’ basically just means ‘fuck, im so pretty’

neil:

translation: i just can't. i just can't anymore.

us to anderperry:

translation: ay, wow! ay, im so jealous. im just gonna go home crying.

todd (probably everyone as well):

translation: just because im smiling, im happy? why can't it be because im hiding the pain you caused me.

part two

[sonitoburrito]

He wakes up once and then he wakes up a hundred more times, cold water doused on warm skin. Charlie stands over him, his eyes are red from crying but Todd doesn't know that yet.

He knows what happened before Charlie utters the cursed words. Neil's dead.

A part of his soul dies with him.

°

Charlie's hands are on his shoulders, talks about a funeral going over his head. He can feel the wave overtake him, his ears hurt, his heart hurts. And isn't that funny. A heart can't hurt. They are homonyns.

And Neil was supposed to be forever.

Is his father going to be there?, he asks.

Yeah Todd, Charlie replies.

Okay, he says back.

Charlie looks over. He was my brother you know?, he says.

I know, Todd's voice breaks.

And he really really loved you, Charlie sniffles.

I really really loved him too, he could almost taste a life with Neil. They would be forty and living in a tiny apartment in New York and loving and loving and loving. He would be an English teacher, a poet, a partner and, in the best of his dreams, a dad. A husband, hopefully, to Neil Perry.

And he'd die first, he'd die a hundred times, so he could avoid that harsh wake up from Charlie, from Meeks, Pitts, Cameron and Knox.

He wakes up once and then he wakes up a hundred more times, cold water doused on warm skin. He keeps waking up for the rest of his life. He wishes he didn't.

[brainzz]

Im going to spend the next 5 hours reading fanfiction of DPS where everything is the same exept Neil Perry doesn't die he just spends a long time in the hospital but hes alive alright