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[attroxx]

each year the pre bday depression gets worse.

[tierra-paldeana]

// i love beig aboutto work on thigns only for it t start thunderingng i ahahte mylfie

[moonridge]

ooc: venting a little

trying so hard to balance taking care of myself and feeling like people will be upset with me or not want to interact anymore if i am not Constantly doing things because i got that schweet rsd + bpd combo. being caught between i really want to do things but i don’t have the energy. it’s like the longer i don’t do things the worse i feel but if i try to force it im not taking care of myself. and i don’t wanna keep posting this stuff on main because i don’t want to drive people away or clog everything up but i am honestly such a mess rn

hewp… hewp me…

[destinybcnds]

[ hey so if I'm quiet or unresponsive for a bit it's because my roommate fucked up my mood even worse last night and sleeping it off didn't help much ✌🏻 ]

[rahbid]

i feel like canon characters/writers. never give my ocs a chance in the sense of power and combat ( without asking me about her feats or for explainations or her skillset/abilities ) and it's starting to make me Sad.

i understand that it's more difficult to quantify ocs since one doesn't have their immediate canon to rely on but im like ... here. to answer questions. and i don't wanna have a pissing contest or argue or fight with people, i just want a fair shake and to be listened to.

[faehrys]

you mentioning kwt all the time is your biggest red flag as a blog i think

then unfollow

[dreamhot]

i hope the primeboys meetup has a death toll

[divile]

i'm unwell rn so if anyone wants to get my d.iscord hmu. i may make an rp specific d.iscord so i can just plop that shit on my blog but for now. i am using my personal private one. so send me a dm or 💖 this if interested n i'll shoot u it in a dm.

i love to write here i just don't have the energy to keep up with dash roleplay right now. i've got a lot of drafts (mostly memes i love all of u for sending them ty) and i'm feeling kinda sorta overwhelmed with how much i'm behind on (not just rp wise but also blog wise in general. like i still don't have my abouts up 💀) and i'm kinda between getting shit w my meds figured out so it's fucking things up majorly.

neways sorry for the mini vent i just don't wanna keep this blog in limbo with how i've been feeling lately, but i'm a lot more active on d.iscord and i'd love to write there too 🥺

[tierra-paldeana]

// computer-less and dealing with trauma-related thoughts on top of that. this really isn't shaping up to be a better month. i don't wanna jinx it but i feel almost paralyzed and my brain just doesn't shut the fuck up

[moonridge]

ooc: hjgrhgr

[lastoneout]

Ya know when people told me "when you're finally safe enough that you can leave survival mode and start to let go of and process your c-ptsd/trauma things are probably going to get really, really bad before they slowly start to get better" I thought that was reasonable. I did not understand that by "things are going to get bad" they meant "you're going to find yourself in the worst mental state of your entire life, but dw, that means it's working" and tbh I simply wish someone had been more clear.

Edit: If everyone could please take a minute and think about what it must feel like to be struggling and then have multiple strangers say to your face that they find the prospect of going through what you're going through so horrifying that they'd rather kill themselves and then stop leaving comments like that I would greatly appreciate it.

[ly-kos]

Noxus being so horrible is also like the biggest reason why I hate noxian Mel.... Like guys I think there were other reasons Mel didn't deeply associate with being noxian other than just her mom bad...

[rahbid]

hi friends! sorry! i had an inkling to write but unfortunately my life is down the entire drain and this is probably at least a semi-hiatus announcement.

[faehrys]

hyperfixating on a creator you hate has got to be the saddest thing a person can do like at least leave the fans who express positive feelings towards that creator alone they don’t care that you’re miserable

[ly-cub]

I think the whole way ambessa and Mel's story went is such a disservice to both of them... Ambessa looks so small and insignificant in the grand scheme of noxus with her like idk 20 man army? And just killing her just before the year of noxus? That seems crazy to me. And I don't even want to start talking about how little I like Mel turning back over to become noxian

[dreamhot]

see the thing getting me is that even if this is just part of a larger modpack & wasn't an intentional inclusion, you know. you KNOW that wouldn't fucking matter if this was dream's project. someone could've hacked into the damn server and added this shit to something dream was working on completely without his knowledge and people would still rip him apart for it until the end of time. but here? i'll be shocked if we see a statement about it. guess we'll see !!