#neg cw

[dreamhot]

a part of me feels tethered by the fact that dream wouldn't WANT us to be angry on his behalf, but . it's also just this sense of bone-deep sadness over watching him get kicked over and over again like man just give him a break. just for a BIT.

[attroxx]

each year the pre bday depression gets worse.

[tierra-paldeana]

// i love beig aboutto work on thigns only for it t start thunderingng i ahahte mylfie

[moonridge]

ooc: venting a little

trying so hard to balance taking care of myself and feeling like people will be upset with me or not want to interact anymore if i am not Constantly doing things because i got that schweet rsd + bpd combo. being caught between i really want to do things but i don’t have the energy. it’s like the longer i don’t do things the worse i feel but if i try to force it im not taking care of myself. and i don’t wanna keep posting this stuff on main because i don’t want to drive people away or clog everything up but i am honestly such a mess rn

hewp… hewp me…

[beskar33]

Just had the scariest run-in with a cop, dude was like yelling at me and threatening me while I was just sitting there trying to charge my phone. Like bruh I just want the world to leave me alone for once😭wtf is this month

[destinybcnds]

[ hey so if I'm quiet or unresponsive for a bit it's because my roommate fucked up my mood even worse last night and sleeping it off didn't help much ✌🏻 ]

[faehrys]

antis are like i hate this guy so much i’m gonna look for porn that looks like him

[rahbid]

i feel like canon characters/writers. never give my ocs a chance in the sense of power and combat ( without asking me about her feats or for explainations or her skillset/abilities ) and it's starting to make me Sad.

i understand that it's more difficult to quantify ocs since one doesn't have their immediate canon to rely on but im like ... here. to answer questions. and i don't wanna have a pissing contest or argue or fight with people, i just want a fair shake and to be listened to.

[tierra-paldeana]

// computer-less and dealing with trauma-related thoughts on top of that. this really isn't shaping up to be a better month. i don't wanna jinx it but i feel almost paralyzed and my brain just doesn't shut the fuck up

[divile]

i'm unwell rn so if anyone wants to get my d.iscord hmu. i may make an rp specific d.iscord so i can just plop that shit on my blog but for now. i am using my personal private one. so send me a dm or 💖 this if interested n i'll shoot u it in a dm.

i love to write here i just don't have the energy to keep up with dash roleplay right now. i've got a lot of drafts (mostly memes i love all of u for sending them ty) and i'm feeling kinda sorta overwhelmed with how much i'm behind on (not just rp wise but also blog wise in general. like i still don't have my abouts up 💀) and i'm kinda between getting shit w my meds figured out so it's fucking things up majorly.

neways sorry for the mini vent i just don't wanna keep this blog in limbo with how i've been feeling lately, but i'm a lot more active on d.iscord and i'd love to write there too 🥺

[moonridge]

ooc: hjgrhgr

[lastoneout]

Ya know when people told me "when you're finally safe enough that you can leave survival mode and start to let go of and process your c-ptsd/trauma things are probably going to get really, really bad before they slowly start to get better" I thought that was reasonable. I did not understand that by "things are going to get bad" they meant "you're going to find yourself in the worst mental state of your entire life, but dw, that means it's working" and tbh I simply wish someone had been more clear.

Edit: If everyone could please take a minute and think about what it must feel like to be struggling and then have multiple strangers say to your face that they find the prospect of going through what you're going through so horrifying that they'd rather kill themselves and then stop leaving comments like that I would greatly appreciate it.

[ly-cub]

I think the whole way ambessa and Mel's story went is such a disservice to both of them... Ambessa looks so small and insignificant in the grand scheme of noxus with her like idk 20 man army? And just killing her just before the year of noxus? That seems crazy to me. And I don't even want to start talking about how little I like Mel turning back over to become noxian

[faehrys]

you mentioning kwt all the time is your biggest red flag as a blog i think

then unfollow

[rahbid]

hi friends! sorry! i had an inkling to write but unfortunately my life is down the entire drain and this is probably at least a semi-hiatus announcement.

[dreamhot]

like it doesn't matter if it was only called in as a 'joke' or in hopes of scaring them into cancelling it . the fact that anyone feels they're in the right by making a shooting threat because they don't like this guy is so beyond comprehension that i feel ill. like what fucking reality are we in that a person (or multiple people!) can think this is a valid way to express their hatred for someone. holy fuck man