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Orianna
I forgot to post this
don’t watch act 3
#no#arcane season two#arcane#arcane singed#arcane orianna#arcane fanart#arcane act 3#arcane act three#I m going insane#I crying#I’m crying#nd they made it worse#I hate daughter and father tropes#I’m going to kill myself
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#yall not rocking with my adventure time art?!?? /j#i felt like going back to pixel art for a bit. havent in years#ishmael lcb#limbus company#project moon#art i made#pixel art#im still keeping my distance from indulging in projmoon work too much. its hard when its been a very big influence on me#and also a special interest#its been hard but i think im finally coming back to my old interests#sometimes i hate being nd. like pretty often actually. but what can you do#sorry for the rant yall#but to me losing a special interest/big source of comfort felt worse than a major breakup. idk how other nd people handle it
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The way in some myths Chiron's daughters both get turned into horses by the gods (on two separate unrelated occasions btw) and in pjo he's forced to watch his adoptive children (campers) die young more or less because of the gods so he's just in a constant cycle of grief over his kids
My mans is just suffering eternally all because of the gods
#worse cause one daughter was turned into a horse because she was trying to warn him of his fate (the arrow thing) and the gods (Zeus) said#Nuh uh#nd the other was because she got pregnarnt and hid from him (does not give a reason why she hid) & Artemis felt bad so she made her a HONSE#pjo#percy jackson#GODS I WISH WE KNEW WHAT HAPPENED TO CHIRON'S BIO KIDS IN PJO#ONE MENTION RICK#ONE PLEASE#percy jackson and the olympians#pjo hoo toa#rrverse#pjo Chiron#Chiron pjo#wolffox speaks#DID HE MOURN THEM? THE PREGNAR ONE GAVE BIRTH AND THE CHILD BECAME HUMAN LATER ON IN LIFE#WHAT OF THAT CHILD RICHOLAS???#DOES THE CENTAUR MOURN HIS CHILDREN?
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throwing up rn this shoujo is hitting me in the guts rn w the reality checks 💀 uhm. Shit dude
#i think itll become smth i adore ngl#fl protag#crossdressing/genderfucky antagonist/love interest w obsession issues and#&^$&*>*$*#like no that hit to hard#not to mention the isekai part like i havent seen a story go so hard w/ the trauma and fuckups of the first life#esp w/ her brother IM GETTING GUTPUNCHED#reminded me i pissed my brother off for a total of 30 mins and started groveling instantly like i know I KNOWWW#theres times i would Not have done that nd ignored him bc of my own issues that subsequently made his issues worse bc#he didnt have anyone on his side 💣💣#infeel so bad for the MC but i also feel so goddamn bad for her brother#missing those small signs bc youre caught up in your own head to the point thay something so darastic happens...#sobbing#toe babbles#my heart hurts my brain fumbling
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#i wish i could make my mom understand that when im finally moving out and gone she will prob never have to deal w me again#she complains so much#she says so many hurtful things#sometimes when i've manage to keep myself together and not mess up ...#i get lulled into beleving it's all fine. and i forget that we have a dysfunctional and unhealthy relationship#bc as soon as i make one MISTAKE. say ONE wrong thing.#or anything she doesnt like or approve of. as soon as im not a quiet perfect subdued child#who doesnt disturb or annoy her#she completely just. like idk the metaphor.. i forgot. but she just clams up kinda idk?#it's like suddenly she just slams the door in my face and shuts me out completely#and all she does is say more hurtful things and get angry with me#and tell me to just move out and go away and everything#and when i try to tell her that i will do that and never bother her again#she gets even angrier and tells me im childish for being so stupid and 'hating' her#and for like. yeah being childish and oversensitive#but????? i cant.. im just too weak. too sensitive to deal with this#to in sense be 'perfect' in the way that im not allowed to slip at all. im not allowed to slip up in the tiniest#i made a mistake bc im so fkn anxious i feel like im shutting down. and she just got mad and upset at me#and now every thing i saty she twists and interprets as me being difficult and childish and having a tantrum#i havent felt like this in a while.. so i forgot that she does this. shes done this sm times and it makes me feel so guilty for even existi#but she calls me selfish and weak for even voicing thoughts like i dont wanna exist#i feel like she actually doesnt care abt me bc ever since i was a child i've tried reaching out for her#for her to help me bc i wanna dword. and not keep going on#but she just tells me im selfish. that other ppl deal w that too. nd i just need to suck it up and deal w it. does she not care if i would.#and i have so often felt like w me she is the child. she has tantrums. she lashes out on me. she ignores me. gives me the silent treatment.#im NEVER allowed to get upset w her. im never allowed to ignore her. and now when i made a fkn mistake she immediately thinks im doing it i#a malicious way and that i want to mess with her. and she doesnt even let me explain bc she just decides that everything i say is bullshit#i just feel like absolute shit now. i rlly did forget how she makes me feel. and its so hard bc i feel even worse now bc she makes me feel#ike this. then she gets even more mad at me and guilting and shaming me for being upset. so my body is shutting down bc idk what to do#and i've always been shown and taught that im not allowed to exist or be anything or anyone. everything hurts so much rn
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🎃 -- halloween . . . terror is trending !
the witch of ramshackle, the guardian of diasomnia's longs...auburn.
this card is an sr. (vignette 1) (vignette 2)
summon: i wish malleus and lilia would have though to ask me if they could use my residency as their halloween set-up...
groovification: did you see diasomnia's set-up!? i can't believe they built all of that so fast!
set to home screen: let's go see everyone else's displays! i know they put lots of effort into them.
home transition 1: grim no, you can't eat that--! ugh, thank you for reigning him in. he doesn't know when to stop sometimes.
home transition 2: you know, i thought it would be kind of hard to take this seriously since it's a bunch of teenage boys, but they actually pulled this off.
home transition 3: i saved up some money and bought some candy for my friends. i put extra in some of the bags...hey, don't guess who those bags are for!
home after login: i'm not good with horror! these boys get way too rowdy during this season...i need to have a girl's night with on my own to recharge...
home transition (groovy): which display was the scariest..? give me some time to think it over!
tap home 1: you know...this purple is kinda cool! i think it looks good on me, hehe.
tap home 2: you want me to take your picture? oh, of course! what kind of angle do you want?
tap home 3: your costume is so cute! it really clicks with your dorm's theme, ehehe.
tap home 4: i don't know how our housewardens do it...they're kind of amazing. i think i would get overwhelmed with all of this. eh!? what do you mean i'm technically a housewarden too!?
tap home 5: if you want to find me tonight, don't look into the library. i've avoiding idia shroud like the plague.
tap home (groovy): those degenerates who only care about their magicam accounts have gotten on my last nerve...don't tell anyone i said this but i hope malleus zaps them.
#🐙! auburn's yuusona <3#i still need to replay the halloween events because i dont remember them at all#but i think this one and part two are different?#isnt the first one cute nd shit and then the second one is when yuu gets “kidnapped” at the end of halloween?#and so they have to go into the spectral realm to make sure halloween passes?#ok the memories are coming back kinda JDSJJSDJSD#SO IN MY TIMELINE#MY YUUSONA WAS DROPPED INTO TWST BEFORE HALLOWEEN#and yk halloween week is super fucking hectic#so she was a WRECK since she was still getting used to everything#but it also meant she got to spend time alone#yk...until she met ace and deuce#since shes obviously super upset/homesick but doesnt want to cry in front of everyone bc ew???#she goes to find a secluded place to cry for a while#and thats when ortho found her and tried to comfort her#she goes out on snack runs at night sometimes and one night she recognized ortho and went over to thank him#and THATS when she met idia for the first time#cue her trying to make conversation and him doing his irritating mumbles under breath that people CAN HEAR#so gets increasingly more annoyed and fed up with him and remembers him as the guy who made her night worse by assuming things about her#so my yuu meets the shroud brothers pretty early on in game#ANYWAYS.
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tried blender for the first time the other day
#silver spills#i dunno if i can even tag this as art#its more like.. abominations of my creation#me nd 2 others had 3d modeling software open nd another friend gave us prompts#these are my “horse” and my “fish”#strangely very helpful way to learn the sculpting tools#was fun and i learned :3#plus my gf made even worse abominations bc she actually knows how 2 use blender lmao
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How good is Rio’s cooking?
11/10 and no i am not biased
#𑁍: the only thing i never liked that she made is what i like to call The Purge Of The Tupperwares In The Back Of The Fridge#𑁍: which is exactly what it sounds like and boiled to death in the crockpot w a bunch of beef broth#𑁍: also somehow she only made it on days when it ws boiling hot nd it made it worse. BUT TRUST her cooking made my dad propose to her so😌#atsv#𑁍 ¡a su servicio!#spiderman roleplay#miles morales rp#marvel roleplay#miles morales#spiderverse#atsv miles#across the spiderverse#roleplay#atsv miles morales#spiderman rp#spiderman across the spiderverse#spiderman: across the spiderverse#spiderman atsv#Spiderman#rp#marvel rp#rp blog#roleplay blog
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🎃 -- halloween . . . terror is trending !
the witch of ramshackle, the guardian of diasomnia's longs...auburn.
this card is an sr. (vignette 1) (vignette 2)
summon: i wish malleus and lilia would have though to ask me if they could use my residency as their halloween set-up...
groovification: did you see diasomnia's set-up!? i can't believe they built all of that so fast!
set to home screen: let's go see everyone else's displays! i know they put lots of effort into them.
home transition 1: grim no, you can't eat that--! ugh, thank you for reigning him in. he doesn't know when to stop sometimes.
home transition 2: you know, i thought it would be kind of hard to take this seriously since it's a bunch of teenage boys, but they actually pulled this off.
home transition 3: i saved up some money and bought some candy for my friends. i put extra in some of the bags...hey, don't guess who those bags are for!
home after login: i'm not good with horror! these boys get way too rowdy during this season...i need to have a girl's night with on my own to recharge...
home transition (groovy): which display was the scariest..? give me some time to think it over!
tap home 1: you know...this purple is kinda cool! i think it looks good on me, hehe.
tap home 2: you want me to take your picture? oh, of course! what kind of angle do you want?
tap home 3: your costume is so cute! it really clicks with your dorm's theme, ehehe.
tap home 4: i don't know how our housewardens do it...they're kind of amazing. i think i would get overwhelmed with all of this. eh!? what do you mean i'm technically a housewarden too!?
tap home 5: if you want to find me tonight, don't look into the library. i've avoiding idia shroud like the plague.
tap home (groovy): those degenerates who only care about their magicam accounts have gotten on my last nerve...don't tell anyone i said this but i hope malleus zaps them.
duo magic: malleus, we have to protect ramshackle! || i assume that mean you're giving me permission, yes?
#🐙! auburn's yuusona#i still need to replay the halloween events because i dont remember them at all#but i think this one and part two are different?#isnt the first one cute nd shit and then the second one is when yuu gets “kidnapped” at the end of halloween?#and so they have to go into the spectral realm to make sure halloween passes?#ok the memories are coming back kinda JDSJJSDJSD#SO IN MY TIMELINE#MY YUUSONA WAS DROPPED INTO TWST BEFORE HALLOWEEN#and yk halloween week is super fucking hectic#so she was a WRECK since she was still getting used to everything#but it also meant she got to spend time alone#yk...until she met ace and deuce#since shes obviously super upset/homesick but doesnt want to cry in front of everyone bc ew???#she goes to find a secluded place to cry for a while#and thats when ortho found her and tried to comfort her#she goes out on snack runs at night sometimes and one night she recognized ortho and went over to thank him#and THATS when she met idia for the first time#cue her trying to make conversation and him doing his irritating mumbles under breath that people CAN HEAR#so gets increasingly more annoyed and fed up with him and remembers him as the guy who made her night worse by assuming things about her#so my yuu meets the shroud brothers pretty early on in game#ANYWAYS.
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friendly reminder that self harm is lying to you
#the worst is when it promises you'll feel better and then you simply. do not. you feel worse and then you want to harm again bc surely that#will make you feel better right? THAT WOULD BE A NO. IT DOES NOT.#anyway today i went to spotlight cause i was sad cause i got the result for my 35% assignment i really struggled with. 32.5%. failure.#and at spotlight i made the foolish error of buying without knowing price. but like who makes a book a normal softcover crochet pattern boo#$55?! anyway it's a lovely book and am excited to try a few of teh patterns but the guilt is eating me alive#and also im super stressed about the assignment i have to turn in on thursday and haven't started#anyway i was literally four and a half hours away from being seven days clean#and i am just so sad right now#and i reopened one of the scars on my wrist too while on shift this morning so that's fun#not badly but it's just gonna mean it scars even more isn't it because of course#i was feeling incredibly awful for some reason i can't even remember and i kinda clawed up my arms. and no i don't count that as#breaking my streak bc it didn't cause much damage#i just. placement is so wonderful but life is so so hard#i don't know i want a hug and the assignment done and everything bad unmade#and the scars i have to look at every day on placement gone.#i want to talk to s but i haven't responded to her last message and i don't know how to respond but i need to respond to that#:((#honestly actually i think i want to talk to aunty. friend's mum. in person. and get a hug. i want a hug.#im just. So Sad. and i want my brother and Ransom and this is not helpinga nd i don't know what would if anything
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it's me and all the women in literature described in despondent unhappiness in a marriage that they don't hate but don't enjoy as they should and who feel as if they're not the way a woman should be and who yearn to be free of their husband and children not because they despise them but because they're not for a husband and children and who can't say that they're miserable but who feel a numb kind of despair in all that disconnectedness and disconnectedness and disconnectedness. they are just like me for real
#we have the same kind of depression 👍 but also. i can see so clearly that that's the way i would be if i still thought i was a girl.#and i had grown up to get married to someone and tried to be a woman and a mother like that. god...#edna pontellier hold on. i'm going out into the sea with you. we'll drown together.#laura brown from the hours on my kin list 👍#need to reread the hours so bad. opened up my copy of it to check if laura had killed herself at the end or not for this post#and just skimming the last few chapters made me tear up. god. but there are still the hours aren't there? one and then another...#and then you get through that one and then my god there's another...#um. books that make you go 'okay so maybe i have wanted to kill myself a little bit all these years. but maybe i'm going to be okay'#the book ever honestly it is Everything to me#and kate chopin's the awakening is good as well. much to be said about the depiction of people of color in that novel#but the depiction of edna pontellier's mental state is so. ough.#glances at the ratings on goodreads nd stuff have made me so irritated.#god forbid a woman commit the ultimate selfish sin of leaving her children behind because she's so miserable by killing herself.#because far worse than the thought that she could be losing all her personhood moment by moment#and wasting her life away feeling like a shell of a person#pales. in comparison to the thought that she could POSSIBLY abandon the children she didn't really want to have.#of course it's a bad situation for the kids. sorry to raoul and etienne. but they will survive.#condemning the main character for having the audacity to go off and die... sickening. i hate people#valentine notes
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SERIOUSLYYYYY HOW THE FUCK DO I GET COMMUNITY POSTS OFF MY FUCKING DASH TUMBLR ISTFG I DONT WANT THEM ON MY DASH!!! I DONT EVEN CLICK THE FUCKING COMMUNITY BUTTON WHEYYYYYYYYYYYY
#*sobbing noises*#ik i alr made a post abt this but i lost it afterwards#THEYRE GETTING WORSE ALSO#LIKE FINE IG AN SKK PIST OR TWO WHATEVER#BUT I DONT WANNA SEE SOME RANDOM PERSONS VENT ABT THEIR TEACHER FROM APPAREBTLY THE AUTISM COMMUNITY#LIKE IM SORRY BUT ALSO MY DASH SHLD BE CURATED BY ME ND MY OBSESSIONS AND IM IT SOUNDS MEAN BUT LIKE WHYYYYY#SERSLY HOWWWWWW ND WHY#enea rambles <3#charlies mushroom corner#SHOO !!!#i prefered tumblr live over this!! atleast then u jst have to avoid clicking it- ITS ENCROACHING ON MY FUCKING HOARDS AND I DONT WANTTTT IT#WHY AM I SEEING SHIT ABT SMBODY WORKING AT AN AQUARIUM LIKE GO AWAYYYYYYYYG
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#i tried inking the first one and had to stop b4 i made it any worse. also forgot to clothe them. so. highlighter tool#i wanna grab ice/la/nd by the face and wiggle him around that SHOULD BE ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#art tag#p
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trying to decide “am I actually sad abt smth or do I just need a lot of sleep”
#owen.txt#I’m thinking I just need a lot of sleep#but idk I’m feeling a bit lonely nd sad again#but could be made worse by high lack of sleep
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I have to believe that the small things I do matter even though I barely get any notice or feedback. Probably because they're so small people barely notice them. Even small things take a lot of effort from me, or seem to.
I have hope, otherwise I wouldn't do them and would give up.
I do wish I could do more than just small things. At least know i made a difference in some way. Perhaps these things are too small... well, they do matter but larger things would make more of an impact. If I could do more than just post things on social media that barely get any response. (Or have enough $ to give more than just a drop in the bucket) Or if I could help the people who really need it, be part of rescuing them. Make a difference so i actually help save someone, and so I know that I'm not just doing just the minimum, barely above nothing.
Small things matter, but larger things matter more since they actually help get things done rather than being a tiny pinpoint against the dark (so small most ppl might need a telescope)
I want to be able to help more, be someone who can do something meaningful for the things I care about. But am I even capable of more than this -- mentally or emotionally capable of doing something meaningful. Having the capacity to do something valuable that someone actually wants (research/writing that helps the ones being hurt by russia; fight Russian propaganda; raise awareness/ be an influencer-- be an expert that people listen to and respect-- "make the world a better place") - how when I'm the sort of person (could i become stronger, tougher when I'm this sensitive artist-- part of the reason I care in the 1st place...) that falls apart at small amount of pressure-- if things got so bad I was threatened with prison, bodily harm-- would i back down? Would I acquiesce bc I was too scared? Have convictions but suppress them? Or by "accepting" the awful reality, the evil overlords, would I begin to gradually accept what they do-- I would be responsible for allowing them to hurt others. But i wouldn't be able to do much against them in the 1st place. One could easily expect this cowardly position from me despite my convictions-- but would it come down to it, would i make the right choice? What would going to prison do other than hurt me- no one would notice. I would know. Someone has to stand up to it... if no one does, if they all give in, of course the darkness wins then. Few would notice if i died standing up for what's right. Being such an insignificant person, how much would it matter either way. Perhaps it would make a difference in some way... perhaps give my life meaning... or perhaps standing up for it would mean staying true to my convictions, true to myself... do i really believe it if I'm not willing to sacrifice for it. I would at least find out what i was made of, if I was capable of doing the right thing under impossible pressure (somehow not fall apart.... find the strength in the end
#why im inspired by these “sensitive#ppl who still stand up to the russian systrm#ukraine#political prisoners#me#story#in the end...#right and light and good...#exist Nd worth dying for#or being tortured for... which may be worse#i want to HAVE MY WRITING MAKE AN IMPACT#help the ones who need help most#and have an impact on the situation#at least fellow Americans#but few even know me and those that do....#dont respect me s....o..#but does it matter#gah i just wish i could KNOW what i do does something#i really have to do more#degree?#what could i do that would have maximum impact?#what im made for?#i have this in my soul for a reason.....#i see the world in this way: conflict between light and dark#maybe others dont see it like this so i cant convince them in this wsy but how when this is what convinces me#i had too much caffein and sugar this morning......
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my sister also recently conceded that she "might be a little bit autistic" because she realized that the main reason she keeps accidentally dating shitty guys is that she can't clock that they're being mean to her as it's happening
#samble rambles#nd#versus being sarcastic or joking around#like not that she makes excuses for their shitty behavior but that it genuinely doesn't ping as shitty until they get much worse#girl I've been there#this is far from the only autistic thing but this is what made her finally go wait........
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