#nc//nameless

[zoromashii]

I like to think as everyone else was putting together their outfits Kal was desperately trying to tie the wire to his wrists with only those two claws and his teeth

[woashi]

“Look, Tell me

Why you

Turn into something you’re not.”

[serpentlily11]

Neural Cloud but wrong dialogue only

[greensagephase]

what made you wanna name the story non-violent communication?

Hiii, nonnie!! Thank you so much for the ask (and also, I'm sorry for the delayed reply! I took off tumblr yesterday)!! 🥰 Thank you for asking this question because I don't think I've ever talked about it before!!

Long story short:

THIS SONG RIGHT HERE!!!!!!!!! 🗣🗣🗣🗣 If you haven't listened to it, pls do!!😭It's one of Miguel's songs and has part of his dialogue at the end of the song before it transitions to "Givin' up (Not The One)" in the album!!! The transition is (in my humble opinion) ✨😭✨😭✨ !!!

If it has a million fans, I'm one of them. If it has one fan, I'm THAT FAN. If it has zero fans, it means I'm no longer on this Earth!!! 😤

This is my fav song from the album!! I'll explain why below the cut! I'm going to give a short (lol, I yapped too much, I gave a whole story time) explanation because I love this song sm 😭 so if you care to read a bit of an analysis on the songs, then proceed, if not, pls disregard the rest lol and thank you for sending this ask!!!

So I first heard the song a day or two before I posted the first chapter to NC, which was late July 2023. I watched the movie in June but I only listened to the songs that I really, really liked (I love all the songs but some a little more than others) that were included in the movie without listening to the full album, so I hadn't listened to this song because Miguel's songs (this one and "Givin' Up (Not The One)") are not included in the film. I only found out about "Givin' Up (Not The One)" because it was all over tiktok lol

So yeah, I listened to the song for the first time a day or two before the first chapter was posted and fun fact, the first chapter I posted for NC was actually nameless lmao!!😭😭 I didn’t know what to title it (I’ve always been bad with titles), so it was just a writing post with no title. I didn't think much of it either because my og plans were for the story to be like 3-4 chapters total (past me would've been shocked I'm still going with the story and that we're 249k ish words in just from the main parts of the story, not counting the one-shots lol).

As I mentioned, I hadn’t heard the entire album yet but after part 1 was posted, I sat down and FINALLY listened to the entire album to appreciate it (I've since then listened to the entire album like a hundred times (Metro Boomin was my #1 artist of 2023💀)) and once I listened to it in order, I immediately knew I wanted to title my fic Nonviolent Communication. 🥹❤️

When I heard both of Miguel’s songs right after the other it made something in my brain click.

I felt like it was so, so fitting for what I was trying to achieve with my story, even when I was planning to make the story like 4 chapters long lol.

So my explanation for connecting the song to my fic:

I'm probably going to sound crazy, or like someone who gave the song too much thought but hear me out.

In a way, I felt (and ofc everyone is going to find a different vibe, feeling, or meaning to a song but this was mine) like it was kind of ironic how "Nonviolent Communication" didn't receive much attention like his other song, "Givin' Up (Not The One)" did, which is more... out there (???). It's more like !!!! You know? Like the lyrics themselves and the production are more bold and strong, more “rough” for lack of a better word. Despite it not being in the film like "NC", everyone knows it! Everyone also knows Miguel's dialogue because of it, "But I'm not like the others..." and so on along with his little quote about "being Spider-Man is a sacrifice" at the end of the song.

Then, you have "Nonviolent Communication." It's the second song with the least plays on the album on Spotify (after "Nas" which is another one of my top fav songs from the album), and the lyrics and production are an entire different vibe from the other song!! It's so much more softer and vulnerable, even slower.

You let me fall first, then you dream awake I'd do anything to bring you to that other place We speak so differently alone, love like Vincent we are low Watch for constellations, soft as cloud formations That will never leave, much as duty calls If I'm in over my head, I'll swim Niagara Falls

It still has themes of being Spider-Man but it's not so !!!! like the other song is. It's truly so much more vulnerable and soft, and even has romantic themes included. And at the end of the song we have another part of Miguel's dialogue, that's often disregarded, included, "I'm this dimension's one and only, Spider-Man... At least I was," which I'm always !!!! about because one, his tone for that part is much softer (almost sad), and two, I feel like him no longer being the only Spider-Man in his own dimension goes along with him not feeling like a true Spider-Man, and no longer having this one thing to himself that he can have in common with other spider members.

I could go on about this but this is already so long 😭 but anyway, I think that part is usually disregarded, much like Miguel’s soft side that we don’t get to see a lot of in the film. We’re given very little of soft Miguel and the majority is him being angry, stressed out, scared, and frustrated (rightfully so) with what’s happening.

So, hearing both songs, I felt like they represent two sides of Miguel. One that is more direct, bold, and rough, maybe even “violent.” It’s the side that’s most known to probably all the spider people and fans alike. Some people only see Miguel as an angry man that’s determined to protect the multiverse and sacrifice anything, since he’s already given up so much.

But then there’s the side of him less known (less seen), one that we didn’t see much of but that many of us picked up on. He has a soft side despite being through a lot, and has a lot of love and care to give. He’s a man that’s capable of having nonviolent communication, someone who can fall first, speak differently with someone when he’s alone with them, and be willing to do anything to “bring” that person “to the other place” - while still being Spider-Man and sticking to his duty that comes with such title but not sacrificing those very things.

So yeah, I heard the songs and it just clicked. “Nonviolent Communication” to me is the soft side of Miguel that we don’t get to see much in ATSV, but it’s still there. And so, I decided that it was the perfect title for my fic because of my interpretation of the song and my goal with the fic: show Miguel’s soft and vulnerable side that I so desperately hope we get to see more of in BTSV (I am begging the writers to do Miguel justice!!!!!!!).

I hope this made sense, maybe as I mentioned earlier, I’ve given too much thought to this (I’m an overthinker) but that’s my version and I love the song SO MUCHH!!! It was my most heard song in 2023, so I guess that says a lot :)

If you read this far, thank you so much!! I definitely talked too much but I seriously love Miggy and this song so much and I always get so emotional listening to it lmao 😭 but yeah, thank you for the ask, nonnie!!! I hope you're having a great day/night!!!🥺🥰

-Alondra❤️

[orphiceonian]

˗ˏˋSILVERV WEEK: DREAMS ´ˎ˗

read on ao3

For as long as she could remember, V’s dream had been to survive.

Then she met Jackie, and dreams of survival turned into dreams of the major leagues. To have their names whispered alongside those of Blackhand and Bartmoss.

They had pushed themselves to the limits for that dream. The long days of negotiating gigs and the long nights of sleep lost to their lofty dreams of becoming legends in their own right.

Then Konpeki happened and V’s dream of becoming a legend died in that cab with Jackie.

V’s dream turned from making it big to making it to the end of the day, month—year if she was lucky. She felt like she was sixteen again, taking bottom barrel gigs from a shady fixer just so she could afford rounds for her scrap-built gun and bandages for her wounds.

For the so-called city of dreams, NC had a way of taking that away from people. Chewing up their hopes and dreams and spitting them without a hint of remorse.

Courtesy of the relic overwriting her very existence, her dreams became twisted by images of a war she’d never fought in. She’d wake at night, images of muddy trenches that ran red with blood etched onto her eyelids and a burning sensation curling up her left arm, mirroring the nightmare Johnny had endured.

V brings it up a few times, lets him ramble about the war, words laced with a bitterness at the government and his delusional younger self. He had enlisted at fifteen with dreams of fighting for a better tomorrow, a dream that cost him his arm and his sanity.

She used to dream of mattering to the world. Of being something other than an SIN or a nameless face in the crowd. It was an unrealistic dream but it had kept her going even when her body screamed to stop—spite and anger pushing her forward.

Just her luck she ended up mattering to the man who was slowly killing her.

The merc wasn’t sure when ‘me’ had become ‘us’—when ‘I’ had become ‘we’. She suspected it had happened somewhere between the Pistis Sophia and the oil fields. Somewhere between those two moments they had both released it was them against the world—that their survival was dependent on one another whether they liked it or not.

For as long as she could remember, V had dreamt of survival.

She still dreamed of it, still fought for it, still chased it.

She hoped that one day it would come true, for the both of them.

[carolinagirl80]

you said you were at spnnc, how was it in your opion ?

I had the best time today! I really did! I’ve been here all 3 days, but todays energy was just so high.

Every actor I met was just so nice, well except one, who will remain nameless. That one just seemed like acknowledging you was beneath them. (Common complaint from people apparently). I got autos for everyone who was there, so I met them all.

I’ve always loved Alex (not in a thirsty way because he’s too young for me!), but today just solidified that I’m an Alex fangirl now.

Although he was a little tired yesterday, Jensen was in a very good mood all weekend. He did confirm that he was filming Friday night, so he had to have gotten to NC last minute.

A lot of attention paid to the devastation in western NC which was touching to see as well.

[encountersltd]

THE DEFINITIVE ENCOUNTERS LTD BLORBO LIST

aka if you make content of these characters i owe you everything and would love to see it (within reason, no nsfw-- that's not what i want to see and for some of these characters it's just plain illegal)

with that...

Abbie (MINDWAVE)

Abstracty (ONE)

Accessories Shopkeeper (Neopets (NC Mall))

Adventure Tim (Adventure Time kaboom! Comics)

Agent Princess (Adventure Time kaboom! Comics)

Agitha (The Legend Of Zelda: Twilight Princess)

Almond (Cucumber Quest)

The Amoeba Boys (The Powerpuff Girls)

Argenta (Pokémon)

Astro Man (Mega Man 8)

Austin (The Backyardigans)

AVA (Cyberchase)

Bacon (Cucumber Quest)

Balrog (Cave Story)

Barinade (Legend Of Zelda: Ocarina Of Time)

Barnaby B. Beagle (Welcome Home)

Baroness Von Bon Bon (Cuphead)

Bashmaster (Donkey Kong Country: Tropical Freeze)

Queen Bea (Super Secret Secret Squirrel)

Beanish (Beanworld)

Big Dog (2 Stupid Dogs)

Blipbug (Pokemon)

Blizzaurus (Super Princess Peach)

Block Man (Mega Man 11)

Test Subject Blue (Nitrome)

Bob the Ball (Within a Deep Forest & Knytt Underground)

Boomer (The Powerpuff Girls)

Mr. Bump (The Mr. Men Show)

Bunny (The Powerpuff Girls)

Buttercup (The Powerpuff Girls)

Buzz Buzz (Earthbound)

Cabby (Inanimate Insanity)

Candi / Kazami (Splatoon)

Caterpillar (Pocoyo)

Charlie The Unicorn (Charlie The Unicorn)

Circi (Drawn To Life)

Citrus Twisty (OK K.O.! Let's Be Heroes)

Clover (Inanimate Insanity)

ColorMan.exe (Mega Man Battle Network)

Cosmo (Sonic X)

Cucumber (Cucumber Quest)

Daffy Duck (Looney Tunes)

Princess Daisy (Super Mario Bros. series)

Daizy (Wow! Wow! Wubbzy!)

Little Miss Daredevil (The Mr. Men Show)

The Darwinians (Darwinia)

Dee (PBS Kids Bumpers)

Ditto (Nitrome)

Dizzy (Bob The Builder)

Lord Dominator (Wander Over Yonder)

Dora (Dora the Explorer)

Dr. Hipster (MooseBox)

18-Volt (Warioware)

Err (Aqua Teen Hunger Force)

F (Alphabet Lore)

Subject 005 (Kidutus)

Foxtail (OK K.O.! Let's Be Heroes)

Frank Frankly (Welcome Home)

The Fruit Witches (Adventure Time)

Papa G (Kid Cosmic)

Professor Garbanzo (Beanworld)

Glitchmaster (Cucumber Quest)

H (Those Dancing Letter GIFs)

Hammer (Protagonist Object Show)

Haru (A Year Of Springs)

Headdy (Dynamite Headdy)

Herbert P. Bear (Club Penguin)

Iciclia (Atomic Betty)

Impy (Impy And Wormer)

Isa (Dora the Explorer)

Jenny (My Life As A Teenage Robot)

Jo (Kid Cosmic)

Jonny 2x4 (Ed, Edd, 'n Eddy)

Jojora (Mario & Luigi: Superstar Saga)

Julie Joyful (Welcome Home)

Kaeru (Kero Blaster)

Kay K (DoubleDuck (Italian Disney Comics))

Kelly (Star Vs. The Forces Of Evil)

Kenny (My Life As A Teenage Robot)

Lampy (Protagonist Object Show)

Lasermaster (Cucumber Quest (even though they only appear in a non canon guest comic i love them a lot. wish they were real))

Liam (Kidutus)

Little Dog (2 Stupid Dogs)

Lullaby Princess (Adventure Time: Secret of the Nameless Kingdom)

Lurerre the Abysroid (Mega Man ZX)

Maggie Pesky (The Buzz On Maggie)

Heavy Magician (Sonic Mania)

Magolor (Kirby)

Maji Mentaro (Robot Band PiCPAC)

Maria Socket (Robot Band PiCPAC)

Mathman (Square One TV)

Maurecia (Wayside)

Meat Boy (Super Meat Boy)

Meap (Phineas And Ferb)

Meep (Kid Cosmic)

Megamind (Megamind)

Melodytchi (Tamagotchi)

Melon Bread (Gunstar Heroes)

Metro Card (Protagonist Object Show)

Micro Puffs (The Powerpuff Girls (DC Comics))

Milla Vodello (Psychonauts)

Mimi (Super Paper Mario)

Mina (Jelly Jamm)

Misery (Cave Story)

Misty (My Life As A Teenage Robot)

Misty (Pokémon)

Mole (The Modifyers)

Mutemaster (Cucumber Quest)

Myron (Wayside)

President Nanao (Kero Blaster)

Little Miss Naughty (The Mr. Men Show)

Newton (LittleBigPlanet 3)

Nightmare Princess (Adventure Time: Secret of the Nameless Kingdom)

9-Volt (Warioware)

Lady Ohdette (Kidutus)

Orion (My Life As A Teenage Robot)

Pablo (The Backyardigans)

Pandora (Mega Man ZX)

Pato (Pocoyo)

Peridot (Cucumber Quest)

Pheromosa (Pokémon)

Phoney Bone (Bone)

Plague Knight (Shovel Knight)

Plank (Ed, Edd, 'n Eddy)

Colonel Pluck (Donkey Kong Country Returns)

Poison Ivy (Batman)

Popple (Mario & Luigi: Superstar Saga)

Printer (titletext[])

Prometheus (Mega Man ZX)

Quack (Peep And The Big Wide World)

The Queen (Jelly Jamm)

Rachel Bighead (Rocko's Modern Life)

Rachel Wilson (The Amazing World Of Gumball)

Ristar (Ristar The Shooting Star)

Robotboy (Robotboy)

ROM The Spaceknight (ROM: Spaceknight)

Roselia (Pokémon)

Rosemaster (Cucumber Quest)

Rubber Band (Paper Mario: The Origami King)

Salad Fingers (Salad Fingers)

Sandy Cheeks (SpongeBob SquarePants)

Saranoia (Yin Yang Yo!)

Science Cat (Adventure Time)

Shannon (OK K.O.! Let's Be Heroes)

Shed Resident A/V Robot (ItemLabel / Nemo's Factory)

Siren (Stretch Panic)

Skrawl (ChalkZone)

Slumber Princess (Adventure Time: Secret of the Nameless Kingdom)

Small (Big And Small (i don't know much about his source material beyond the house game but he is an absolute angel so on the list he goes))

Snap (ChalkZone)

Sparkster (Rocket Knight Adventures)

Specter Knight (Shovel Knight)

Spectra (Danny Phantom)

Splaat (Klasky Csupo)

SpongeBob SquarePants (SpongeBob SquarePants (he just had to go here))

SpongeBob's Tongue (SpongeBob SquarePants)

Squilliam Fancyson (SpongeBob SquarePants)

Squirps (Super Paper Mario)

Squish (My Life As A Teenage Robot)

Starlow (Mario & Luigi)

Strobo Gonzales (Robot Band PiCPAC)

Sue (Hanna-Barbera Pac-Man)

Professor Sunshine (OK K.O.! Let's Be Heroes)

Susie (Kirby)

Swiper the Fox (Dora the Explorer)

Sword Shark [R.I.P.] (Adventure Time)

Taylor (ONE)

Tennis Ball (Tennis Ball on His Day Off)

Terrormisu (Wario: Master Of Disguise)

Terry (That Food Chain episode of Adventure Time)

Texty (ONE)

Tico (Dora the Explorer)

Tinker Knight (Shovel Knight)

Togepi (Pokémon)

Digital Tome III (Robot Band PiCPAC)

Tony (ONE)

Tool Star (Dora the Explorer)

Tortilla (titletext[])

Trix Rabbit (Trix Ads)

Twink (Paper Mario 64)

Unelma Varzai (Kidutus)

Uniqua (The Backyardigans)

Veri (Kidutus)

Victoria Von Bathysphere (LittleBigPlanet 2)

CommanderVideo (BIT.TRIP)

Waluigi (Super Mario Bros. series)

Wander (Wander Over Yonder)

Wario (Super Mario Bros. series)

Whippy Creamy (ONE)

Woggle (Protagonist Object Show)

Wormer (Impy And Wormer)

Wubbzy (Wow! Wow! Wubbzy!)

Agent Xero (The Modifyers)

Queen Xhan (Kid Cosmic)

Mr. Yuk (Safety PSA)

Zazz (Sonic Lost World)

Zeena (Sonic Lost World)

Zoe (Monster Prom)

Zoogina (Zoog Disney)

[beevean]

An incredibly petty nitpick, but I hated Legion in the Netflix show. It wasn't even Legion! Legion is the demon that surrounds itself with a shell of zombies that it controls. The "Legion" in NC was just a bunch of mind controlled people (not even zombies!) that were levitated (why does mind control also grant telekinesis?) into a sphere for absolutely no reason. Would it really have been so hard to just have Isaac create Legion proper instead of doing THAT to the coolest monster in the games?

And this is what the visual references amount to: all flash, but without a deeper understanding :D

To be fair, sometimes the references are cool. I didn't expect to see Gergoth or Malphas. I sure didn't expect to see the statues from the various save rooms! And I don't mind the idea of bringing back some iconic bosses, even in a shallow "look at this!" way, and from what I remember from the fight, it was pretty well done. It helps that it's by far the best part of S3E9, compared to the frankly boring Trevor&Sypha section and... whatever the fuck they did to Alucard and Hector.

But, when you take everything into account, Legion, N!Isaac's boss at the end of S3, was... a dude. A completely random, nameless, voiceless, not-foreshadowed foe that only stood in the way of N!Isaac and the solution to his bigger problem, a solution which he had learned about two episodes prior by a woman he randomly met. The magician, and Legion by default, had no meaning to him. The people that made it were just random humans that N!Isaac had no qualms in finishing off; and of course, he was too Cool to succumb to the Magician's spell, so much for a wizard who can literally levitate hundreds of people.

... lol, imagine if he had to fight Nuculais like in CoD. Now that would have been a treat. C'mon, a holy monster spawned from darkness in a blasphemous place of worship would have been perfect for your CHURCH BAD series. But that would require deeper research :P

[dramioneasks]

Hello! I'm going through a bad reading block right now. It's so bad, that even if i open a two shot i end up not finishing it. Do you know any fics that are so stimulating that they help me get out of my reading block? Maybe something with a good plot but easy to follow?

Thank you!! Lots of love!

Random recs for long, AU-ish fics with interesting plots and characters:

Title: Lost Images Author: EvilGu Rating: M Genre(s): Romance/Humour/Mystery/Drama Chapters: 51 Word Count: 226,022 Summary: Epilogue up! MARRIAGE LAW Hermione must marry Draco Malfoy- the only wizard that (begrudgingly) petitioned for her who is not actively trying to kill her. If only there was some loop-hole… Can the unlikely pair survive marriage, in-laws, ghosts, murderous enemies, and their own traitorous feelings?

Title:The Fool, the Emperor, and the Hanged Man Author: ianthe_waiting Rating: NC-17 Genre(s): Action, Adventure, Angst, Dark, Drama, Mystery, Romance, Suspense Chapters: 29 Word Count: 221,893 Summary: Ten years after the fall of the Dark Lord, Hermione Granger leads of life of self-imposed obscurity, that is, until the day Headmistress Minerva McGonagall is murdered and a certain ‘hero’ is responsible. 

Title: Res Ipsa Loquitur

Author: Halliwell19

Rating: M

Genre(s): Romance, Drama

Chapters: 63

Word Count: 433,069

Summary: What if Draco Malfoy was sorted into Gryffindor? This is a retelling of the Harry Potter series as if Draco had been in Gryffindor and a slow burn Dramione friends to lovers story.

Title:Counting the Days Author: olivejuice28 Rating: M Genre(s): Romance, Fluff Chapters: 102 Word Count: 465,465 Summary: The third and final installment of the “More Than A Thousand Words” series follows Draco and Hermione through another year of life. With weddings to plan, jobs to secure, and lots of decisions to make, they and their friends will be extremely busy in the months to come. Join them on the last leg of this journey as they chart a course for a future that has been a lifetime in the making. *While this can be read by itself, there are many references to the previous works all throughout, so it would truly be best to start at the beginning. :)*

Title:Every Part of Me Author: PotionChemist Rating: E Genre(s): Romance, Hurt and Comfort Chapters: 70 Word Count: 243,722 Summary: Hermione Granger and Draco Malfoy have been hiding a secret for the past five years. Something brought them together during sixth year and then the war ripped them apart. Four years after Voldemort’s defeat, Hermione is married to Ron Weasley and Draco has recently married Astoria Greengrass. When they reconnect at the annual Victory Ball, Hermione tells Draco something about himself that he never knew, and it explains why he’s been dreaming of her since he let her go…Is it possible that Fate herself tried to unite the two sides through Hermione and Draco? How did all of this begin in the first place? Can their damaged bond be repaired five years later?*will be going back and forth between sixth year and present through flashbacks for the first half or so* 

Title: Nocturnus Author: In_Dreams Rating: E Genre(s): Romance, Action, Adventure Chapters: 57 Word Count: 214,617 Summary: When an underground power stirs in France and threatens the fragile post-war balance in England, Draco steps into a seat of power to which he is the heir by birthright, determined to protect his family. Intent on justice, Hermione volunteers for the role of his partner and adviser, neither of them aware of the ancient and twisted web of chaos they’re about to walk into.

Title: Remain Nameless Author: HeyJude19 Rating: E Genre(s): Romance, Angst Chapters: 51 Word Count: 312,316 Summary: How did it feel? It felt like he was barely holding it together. She, of all people, should shun him. Or yell at him. Curse him. Spit at him. Take out her wand and blast him off the face of the earth. It was crushing guilt and relief and confusion all at once when he looked at Hermione Granger. The monotony of Draco’s daily routine had become both a lifeline and a noose. But this new habit of grabbing coffee with Hermione Granger is quickly becoming a reason to get out of bed and is unfortunately forcing him to re-evaluate his inconsequential existence. Hermione is living her life in fragments, separate pieces scattered about, and she can’t find a way to step back and let the full picture form. Why are morning meetings with Draco Malfoy the only thing that make sense anymore?

Title: Rewriting Destiny Author: mayawrites95 Rating: T Genre(s): Romance, Adventure Chapters: 76 Word Count: 327,788 Summary: They thought after Voldemort’s fall that the world would get better. But they were wrong. The Death Eaters are still ruling, using politics instead of hexes. With the dwindling Wizarding population and no one left to fight, they must go back in time to before Voldemort rose to power to fix what broke in the past. Nominated for Best James and Best Peter in the 2018 Marauder Medals! 

-Lisa

[defiantdreemurrs]

hey yall its bandcamp friday, i dont really have the energy to get excited for Reasons but as before im still trying to save up to move out of raleigh and move in with my sister and moirail, if any of yall were looking to check out my music todays a good day to do it, if not then a reblog for visibility would be appreciated

[uglypastels]

Sorry for anon, but I'm too embarrassed to go 'public'. Just came back from my vacation, and started catching up on NWE -btw: loooooooove it, and I can't stop thinking about it. But that is beside the point for now.

I read some of your posts, and let me tell you- I understand. Not having friends or not fitting in... it sucks.

And probably I should just shut up at this point, because it's not very constructive, but I just spent last 10 days pretty much alone and I have a need to talk (tumblr is my safe place, and I consider a lot of people here my actual family).

I would kill - and I mean really, I would commit a murder to have parents like yours. My mother was abusing me when I was a kid. Took adventage of me when I was a teen, and stole from me when I was an adult. All that while hurting me physically and emotionally - for which I still felt responsible - and thought I actually deserved it. I can't even think about my so-called dad without burtsing in tears.

It took me years of therapy to start healing and go NC. Now, in my late 20ies, I feel like I'm just starting what my peers did when they were in their teens. I have no friends, no family, no support system. No partner.

I went alone for my summer vacation. I live alone. But I am alive! And I'm my own person.

I am free. I am healing.

My point is, I learnt to appreciate small things. I am happy with my crappy apartment. I love my cat. I like my dead-end job. I love my online community of nameless strangers. I am glad to be alive and safe.

Yes, I am jealous reading about people having family, friends, boyfriends, girlfriends, and supportive parents. Or parents taking them for vacation, and just spending time with them. Or even just treating them like actual human beings... (I am also happy for them).

And yes, there is always someone that has it worse. And just because I had it worse doesn't mean your feelings are not valid.

What I'm trying to say is, things change. Things get better.

It may sound pretentious, but if you can figure out a way to be happy about small things you have- your life may feel better.

Just to wrap up with more trauma dump- your mom helps you with ideas for your fic. My mom, showed up drunk to my singing recital and tried stealing somebody's coat, and then puked on my music teacher. She only came because they had free snacks, which she also loaded into her bag (together with the trays they were served at).

Your writing is beyond amazing. May sound cheesy, but you have a rare talent. Storytelling is a gift! And you just got it!

You are smart, funny, you are loved. You are also very young and have so much time to experience all the things you are missing now.

Not sure where I'm going with it... but what I'm trying to say. I feel like what you wrote is relateble

And I've been there. Still am there.

So... thank you for opening up. You are not alone. Things change. Life is surprising.

Hope I didn't upset you- I meant well.

XOXO

i know i am still quite fortunate and privileged with my situation and my family, but there is also so much that i do not share and that i do not want to share on here, despite this being my safe space to rant and cry and yell whatever i feel. i have gone through shit and am still going through it, and only share so much of my day-to-day life with everyone here, and even with what i know of myself I'm sure there are people who have (had) it worse. but like you said, that does not invalidate my own experiences.

i appreciate your kind words and the sentiment of what you wanted to say, but this trauma-dumping trying to compare people's situations (or at least in the way that it comes across as comparing it) is not the way to go about it.

[zoromashii]

nameless dies: he has no name

[woashi]

Nameless Psychosis has got me thinking…

Did Carrie ever leave a note when she died?

How did Rory know it was the girls from school to push her to such a point where she killed herself?

Now I’m gonna throw the idea of the note out of the window and say that Rory DID know it got that bad and “thought she could’ve handle it” so he never stepped up, he never intervened because HE would’ve been more involved than he already was.

“About being MY sister” he says talking about the reasons why Carrie was bullied in the first place.

And I think about the KNN Rory and I know that that he isn’t Rory Rory but he mentions to be there when a friends in need. Maybe a part in his head is still feeling shame of letting it happen?

He wasn’t only upset that he lost his sister he was upset that he had the chance to stop it and he never took it for his own selfish reason of not getting too involved with it.

Similar to how Alex could’ve stopped the final pushes that made Rory kill himself.

Rory reached out and Alex was like “no lol? Robot time.”

Or maybe that’s rly obvious and I’m shitting out of my ass like I always do idk.

It may be in your face but I’m stupid.

Also I’m dead set on NC to be a manifestation of both Rory’s and Alex’s guilt.

Alex’s own guilt about letting him and his sister grow distant and Rory not stopping Carrie from jumping off the overpass.

They’re both neglectful brothers in their own way. But I think the “Good Brother Bad Brother” is complete bullshit, because they both hold good and bad traits. The “muddling up” NC does is probably just a red herring and is there to fuck with you because I believe both are bad and good and since she gets dubbed Carrie but looks like Allison …erm… idk

I think that cause for the ad read for the GBBB(<-lol cba doing it again) it was the other way round of how I thunk it.

“Like uhhh no? Rory isn’t the bad brother? He cared about Carrie even more than Alex cared about his sister!!” Well, erm… you’re both wrong because that’s not how people work!

They’re both bad. They’re both good. They’re both extremely guilty about how they’ve treated their sisters.

Idk I’m rambling at this point and it’s 1am which means I sprout a LOT of nonsense like one time I thought the reason alex wore glasses was because it’s a metaphor for how short sighted he is with everything eueueueue… no.. that’s just a character design, Ray… you’re better than that…. Good erm… YIIK scholars give me a finger wagging if I’ve got anything wrong or if I’m saying the obvious and I sound slow!!!!!!!!!!!

[littlewalken]

Ghesties have you seen these ghoul helmet beads? They also look to be a good size for action figure heads.

[fairrryprose]

[BOOK TOUR] THE SPARROW AND THE OAK TREE // JAMIE JACKSON

Today, I'm pleased to be a host on the tour for THE SPARROW AND THE OAK TREE by JAMIE JACKSON, hosted by ESCAPIST BOOK TOURS! This is an adult fantasy romance, with magic, romance (heavy on the romance!), a spirited horse, and... zombies? Check out my review for the book below, as well as a link to find other stops on the tour for more exciting content!

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Book Blurb:

Unicorns don't exist, and dragons aren't real, but the Fae are. And they are to be feared.

Or so the tales say.

As the sole sorceress within the Lion King's court and kingdom, Isolde is valued for her power, provided she fulfills the king's commands.

Her task? Deal with a child who has emerged from a forest no one has returned from in over one hundred years. As Isolde works to fulfill her order, accompanied by her nameless guardian, she'll encounter a creature she's only heard of through myth and legend...

When he kidnaps her.

See Also: 

(This is our attempt at a bit of fun. We ask our authors to come up with a few short, clever, possibly pop culture laden, descriptions of their books just to give a little taste of what’s to come for readers.)

Pride & Prejudice & Zombies Goes Medieval

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Book Links:

Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/Sparrow-Oak-Tree-Jamie-Jackson-ebook/dp/B0BM8BR346/ 

Barnes & Noble: https://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/the-sparrow-and-the-oak-tree-jamie-jackson/1142798365 

Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/63347302-the-sparrow-and-the-oak-tree

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My review:

3.5/5 stars

This book has a very cozy cast of characters, mainly revolving around 3 (4 if you count the horse named Horse!) -- Isolde ("Sparrow"), our Sorceress; Tristan ("Oak"), our Fae; and Bear, Isolde's guardian with a mysterious past with the Fae.

As a fantasy romance, it leans more heavily towards romance, where the love story between Tristan and Isolde is the crux of it and unfolds like a sweet (and tragic) whirlwind; it deviates from the Celtic legend and reminds me much more of Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet. The story is fast, with emphasis on developing the romance, and I felt this made the other characters and other plot elements fade into the background. For instance, we have Bear, who has had dealings with the Fae before, and these are alluded to, yet it's not too deeply delved into, which is a shame as I thought it could have added more to his characterization, to endear him as a solid character to us and not someone who's just comic relief-ish/the more solemn and serious character who keeps everyone on track and fixated on their goals. He's a more realistic and grounded character, with depth to be uncovered, while Tristan and Isolde are more reminiscent of dreamers in love.

There's also magic, deals with the Fae -- as one would probably expect from a Fae story -- and, in a turn of events, zombies. I thought that the action could've been more detailed/intense and with more worldbuilding, but the romance was really well-developed that what occurred at the end did make my jaw drop.

If you're looking for a bittersweet love story with hints of magic and action, this is the book for you!

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Book Information:

The Sparrow and the Oak Tree by Jamie Jackson

Series: N/A, Standalone

Genre: Fantasy Romance

Intended Age Group: Adult

Pages: 385

Published: February 14th, 2023

Publisher: Self Published

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Content/Trigger Warnings:

Shown on Page (things clearly told to the reader): 

Blood and gore

Harsh language

Sex and sexual situations

Alluded to (things only mentioned in passing or hinted at):

Sexual assault

Possible animal harm (the horse is unharmed)

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Author Bio & Information:

Jamie writes books with words in them. She lives in Charlotte NC with her husband, three feral children and two badly behaved dogs.

Find her at:

Twitter: https://twitter.com/VillainLeaning

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/villainleaning/ 

TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@villainleaning Tumblr: https://www.tumblr.com/villainleaning

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Check out other stops on the tour below for more exciting content!

[st-louis]

i have a few music recommendations for today, but this is my highest. nameless mist has become one of my favorite bands, and she does it all on her own, no bandmates. self-described trans anarchist depressive suicidal black metal from raleigh, nc. you can also support her on bandcamp.

there’s also a new vvilderness album out, and while i’m really enjoying it, i am concerned that it’s retreading a lot of the same ground he’s done previously.