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yesterday while feverish i wrote about how boats can moor next to each other like pigeons, cooing with the gentle rap of water against their hull. you once said that that the way i see things - birds in the water, feathers in marina paint - was "childish and naive." you said i'd been misdiagnosed - "it can't all be adhd. you might be just kind of stupid and lazy."
i still do certain things like how you taught me - turn the pillow case inside out before putting it on. drive defensively. hate myself entirely.
the prompt for this poem is "mahler's fifth." i wish it wasn't, but mahler's fifth was our song. it ended up in my book. every person that knows your name has promised me they'll give you one swift rabbit punch, right to the face. dean read the book and showed up on my front porch, drenched in sweat from running the 8 miles at 4 in the morning. he was shaking. pacifist and gentle - he works with children - i'd never seen him furious. a punch isn't going to do it, he said, and then said i'm sorry. i had to come to see if you were okay.
mahler's fifth was mine first, like my girlhood. i like the way each movement piles onto the next movement, each instrument bleeding into the next. i like the horn version the best. before i met you, i danced to it on grass still-wet from sprinklers.
later you would tell me that the way you heard it was somehow better. you understood something in it that i couldn't quite wrap my fingers into. once, on our anniversary, you asked the classical music radio station to play it for us. we missed hearing it because we were fighting. one of the things people get wrong about abuse is that sometimes victims are, like, brutally aware of the stupidity of our situation. what do you mean that you thought i wasn't good enough for you? you? you're just... nothing.
sometimes people can pull the poetry out of your life. i watched my words become clothesline, and then thin out into kite twine. i watched you chew through every good syllable of me. so many good songs and places and moments were ruined. i am glad you didn't like most of my music - less to tie back to you.
but still mahler's fifth. the music swells, and i am 21 and throwing up in a bathroom on my birthday. a woman i will later refer to as lesbian jesus runs a cool hand down my back, her perfect pantsuit starch-pressed. she told me to leave you. she said - and this is true, and not an invention of rhyme or fantasy - i'm you from the future.
i am 22, and i got home from an award ceremony, and i remember you telling me - you act so proud of yourself when you're actually so fucking embarrassing. i took you to disney world. you took my virginity. i gave up visiting spain for a week with my family - i instead choose you, to spend the time just-cuddling. you called it "our fuck week." the music swells. it probably should have been a red flag that for about 3 years - i just gave up on crying. my grandfather died and you said nothing. my uncle died and you ghosted me for 3 weeks. you said i need to protect myself from your ongoing tragedy.
every so often i come back to the memory of one of our last afternoons in person. i had just told you that i wasn't going to law school, despite the free ride - i was going to join a creative writing program. master's in fine arts. i was going to finally do it - i was going to follow my dreams. this blog was already internet-famous. however reluctantly, i would occasionally refer to myself as a poet. i got into umass amherst's writing program for fiction authors. it is one of the the top 5 programs in the country.
wait are you seriously considering actually attending that? dumbfounded, you turned completely towards me in your seat. for the 3rd time in our relationship, you almost crashed the car. you actually want to be a writer?
the first time i went viral, it was for a poem i wrote about you:
he wants to say i love you but keeps it to goodnight because love will take some falling and she's afraid of heights.
every time i see that, i want to throw up. you weren't in love with me, you were in love with the control you had over me. a little truth though: i am afraid of heights. you caught a rabbitgirl and skinned her alive.
mahler's fifth still makes me sick.
give me that back. give me back music. give me back everything i had before you. give me back fearlessness. give me back bravery. give me back a scarless body.
give me back what you took from me.
#nosebleed club#sorry stephen not ur fault#just like. thinking#writeblr#spilled ink#warm up#every time nat is like - oh let me get that for u#im like .... this is a trick right like ur gonna be mean now bc u did something nice rn#so obviously if ur being nice now either u did something mean and im about to learn about it#or you're going to BE mean#or ur gonna hold this over my head forever and i'll never get a nice thing ever again?#and every time nat is like .... babe i just actually like u#lesbian jesus story is 100% real btw. she also told me not to be an event planner#literally changed the shape of my life
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#animecore#girlcore#anime core#pinkcore#otakucore#pink core#anxietycore#cute core#kawaiicore#femcelcore#nat#doki doki natsuki#ddlc natsuki#ddlc#doki doki#doki doki literature club
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Dustin: who do I see in the tavern?
Eddie: you see in the corner a man with a dumb, pretty face and more hair than smarts: Sir Stefan the Betrayer
Steve: Eddie….
Eddie: Sir Stefan is the most traitorous man in the kingdom, you cannot possibly trust him, he will steal your most treasured possessions
Steve: babe, I said I was sorry about eating the last pop tart
Mike: …I cast fireball at Sir Stefan
#steve asks to roll to seduce the DM#it’s a nat 20#steddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#hellfire club#dustin henderson#mike wheeler#stranger things#incorrect stranger things quotes
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Frank Sinatra, Nat King Cole and Dean Martin at the "Friars Club" (1957)
#Frank Sinatra#Nat King Cole#Dean Martin#Friars Club#1957#1950s#Old Hollywood#Classic Hollywood Glamour#Old Hollywood Glamour
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YELLOWJACKETS WEEK Day 2: Favourite Character - Natalie Scatorccio (& her under-appreciated headband)
#yjweek2023#usercleo#yellowjackets#yellowjacketsedit#yellowjackets spoilers#natalie scatorccio#officially starting the nats headband stan club off with this post#who wants to join#also thanks for all the positivity on day 1 despite the fact im a week late to this lmao
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Since my three Yellowjackets ships are either half-dead or getting there, I've been calling Jackie, Nat, and Van the Dead Wives Club
#yellowjackets#jackieshauna#lottienat#taivan#jackie taylor#nat scatorccio#van palmer#dead wives club#only they were never married#they should have been#im weird about these three#like yknow what i wish these three hung out and became friends
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random harmless nats headcanons for funsies
- she likes strawberry and cherry - big fan of flavored (chocolate / strawberry) milk, but not regular milk - likes milk chocolate but not much else. (yuri likes dark chocolate) - strawberry shampoo. - probably got called ‘strawberry shortcake’ atleast once. cute pet name, and i think that’s why she hated it. would probably tolerate it from her girlfriend(s) if not outright like it - would play the fuck out of visual novels if she could, especially ones with either an ambiguously gendered protag or a lesbian protag - would also play things like stardew valley or peaceful keep inventory minecraft. would get defensive over how she decorates her houses, though. - the big one. she LIKES cute, she doesn’t really like BEING cute. it feels condescending, and that’s why. but it feels like the only way she’s recognized as a girl is if she’s all pink and cutesy, so she sucks it up and tolerates. kinda sorta not really. - if she lived alone / with her girlfriend(s) she would totally own a cat. which would totally be named minori
#doki doki literature club#ddlc#ddlc natsuki#hi it’s me again#friendly reminder that i enjoy headcanoning nats as transfem#that’s why i said “‘recognized’ as a girl”
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What is it with marvel always let their characters falling to their dead???
#Or almost dead... Bucky. Loki. MJ.#What if Clint died...#& now Lilia...#I bet it happend more... But I can't think about anyone else...#I am also at work & should do something else#Oh gamora fell...#& Rhodey...#marvel movies#marvel show#marvel#agatha all along#marvel infinity war#captain america civil war#bucky barnes#loki marvel#rhodey#gamora#They could do a club...#Does this sentences even make sense...???#Anyway...#lilia calderu#seven hours later i remember that Nat also fell...
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How did you feel. about the gorilla
hello nat. i love the gorilla. he is perfect. and so is his gorilla friend. who i was also ecstatic to see as i did not previously know of his existence. a gorilla feast! i was expecting one beautiful gorilla and i was blessed with TWO OF THEM
also this is what my brain did when i saw him and his friend for the first time:
#thank you nat#to be clear i also do love goreinu he is also my friend :)#also i did guess that the gorilla was nen like. way back when i first learned about nen. but i did not expect his special power :)#or why he would even be here in the first place!#media club plus#mc+#lilly watches hxh#hxh#media club plus spoilers#mc+ spoilers#kinda?
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Mall Suki
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If there's not an episode next season where the doctor goes back to the 40s, meets Nat King Cole and the credits role while "Nature Boy" plays then why are we even here??
#THE LYRICS WERE MADE FOR THIS CHARACTER#also the mysterious way the song was delivered to him really lends itself to some alien shannagans#plus Ncuti Gatwa's doctor would love Hollywood and the post war jazz club scene#and nat king cole would be a fascinating person to explore#also the obvious need to highlight more black historical figures in who#the outfits would be incredible#Spotify#dr who#whovians#the doctor#new who#the 15th doctor#ncuti gatwa#doctor who#pretty please#it would be so cool
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I have a headcanon for the series that Natasha has a book club (Like Reese Witherspoon and Oprah) where she sends out a monthly book. This was encouraged by Pepper and Maria for publicity. But they have to call her each month after she submits her choice, because it cannot be Tolstoy every time.
And for seven months, she doesn’t submit Tolstoy once and they can’t believe it. But then they look at the first letter of each title she submitted, and it spells out Tolstoy
(Also, if anyone would be interested, I just thought of trying to compile a list of all the books mentioned in the series to actually have a version of Black Widow’s book club lol)
#thenatandwandaseries#natandwandaseries#ao3 fanfic#the nat and wanda series#marvel fanfic series#ao3 writer#ao3#marvel fanfiction#natasha romanoff#headcanon#head canon#book club#black widow book club
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Nat King Cole and Billy Eckstein at the Royal Roost, 1948. The Royal Roost was a jazz club that became one of the most legendary venues for modern jazz. Its heyday only lasted eleven months but in that time they presented all of the great names of the bebop era. It was located, not on 51st (Swing) Street, but at 1580 Broadway between 47th and 48th Streets.
Photo: Herman Leonard via the Fahey Klein Gallery
#New York#NYC#vintage New York#1940s#jazz clubs#Herman Leonard#Royal Roost#nightclubs#modern jazz#bebop#Nat King Cole#Billy Eckstein#vintage jazz
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Just a reminder that if you believe that a BL actor having a relationship in real life means that he betrayed or deceived fans, that's a you problem. Same for them changing up ships. Solely a you problem, no one else's fault. It's fine being a fan and liking fanservice hell I love it myself, but going into that and believing they are actually dating when they are just doing their job, that's on you. BL ships aren't deceiving anyone in their right mind, they are selling a fantasy and that is KNOWN. This is not an industry veiled in mystery. I need certain fans to seriously stop making actors lives a living hell just because they didn't upkeep delusions 24/7.
#as much as I love aspects of the BL fandom I hate so much about it#im getting really tired of peoples bs#wish I could translate this into mandarin and send it to Nat Chens hate club
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(Nat speaking! I took a look at the Imgur and it looks very nice! The only problem is we may need to condense it even more.
(I’m not going to post the link for the sake of keeping the final product a surprise to the viewers, but I’m still going to jot down my thoughts.
(For example, while it is funny, we don’t need to put down all of Buttercup’s internal struggle with distinguishing the poems. There’s more, but I’ll now that you have an account, I can just dm you the rest of my thoughts complete with revised images.
(Don’t get me wrong, I love the fleshed out stuff and I personally think it’s much better, but summaries are meant just to give a brief recap! Dialogue, sadly, is limited to only the most important stuff.
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🔸Hello ! You can call me Echo or Nat. My pronouns are she/her. Rules are in the description. Welcome to my Ask Flowey blog! If you are interested, I have other blogs listed below:
🔸DDLC and UT crossover blog (Flowey is turned human to avoid suspicion):
🔸Reblog account:
#ask flowey#ask blog#ask undertale#mun#nat#intro#side blogs#ddlc#doki doki literature club#crossover#reblogs
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