#narcisitic brother

[cybernightwanderer]

2023

And my mother still forces me to parent my brother....

[pointlessjey]

do you beliebe an a fanfic or au where emilia crated her own half mute army whit the children of the ciencie borrow, incluiding kipo and hugo, if so, how do you think the story could go, asaid the posible chield abus that would make emilia more horrible and narcisit than before. in my opinion it could be a good escuxe for make son kipo brothers and sisters and maybe a mega hybrid song mute.

I think all the children would sneak away from Emilia with Hugo as their leader! They'd all probably share a adventure (like canon Kipos) on the surface.

[swevicki]

The mind of Jake Paul part 2

So I just finished part 2 and I am Shook, like I’m seriously questioning every friendship and person I’ve known in my life, if they are a sociopath or not. She said that 1 in 25 people is a sociopath! That is a really fucking high number which means all of us have met a lot of sociopaths. When she was describing the symptoms of a sociopath she literally described some people that I know/have known. This is honestly fucked up.

After this video I do have a theory about Logan and Jake Paul: After all that information I really do believe that Jake Paul isn’t a sociopath but his brother Logan defenitly is ether a sociopath or an extreme narcisist. Think about it, it all makes sense now Logan is the charismatic one, he’s the “good brother” as they mentioned in the video, while everyone kinda hates Jake and thinks he’s an annoying brat. The majority liked Logan or thought “he’s not as bad as Jake” before the suicide forest incident. In all Logan’s apology videos he always talked about himsef how hurt he was how it affected him. About his suicide prevention campain; instead of talking about the suicide prevention itself he always brought back the topic to hiself and how he is helping so many people and almost braging as if he’s doing gods work. If he’s not a sociopath he is at least 100% a narcisist. In the video she literally talked about this, how sociopaths make themselves the victims they manipulate people into feeling sorry for them. I think that Jake is as fucked up as he is because he had Logan and their fucked up father as his role model growing up. No wonder he is violent, narcisitic and slightly sadistic. But I don’t think he’s an actual sociopath with no emotions.  With all this said it’s just a theory with no real evidence and I’m no psychologist.

[cybernightwanderer]

I havent been writting in a while...

Mostly because i just give up, there's nobody out there that will listen, there's nobody out there that can comfort me or even save me from this hell.... Ive tried to stop myself from writting because its pointless and nobody cares... But i want to write today, just because i feel too alone, and i just want to pretend that theres someone out there actually listening. Everything has been the same as always and what im gonna say is repetitive... Today i woke up, i went to clean the kicthen per her order, i cleaned the cabinets and the wall, i was washing the dishes after, and now the floor. As i am cleaning the floor, i noticed there's way too many trash bags, 2 really full trash bags, and knowing that he hasnt been taking them, and its been so tiresome. I go to the living room where she is sitting reading her magazine, and i ask her " are you gonna tell him to take out the trash? ", she turns to me and says " no ", calmly i ask her " why not ? " And this bitch goes " well its a really full bag, and it might break, hes not gonna take the trash with the recicling bags so just leave it " , meaning that his fucking princess wont be bothered to take out the trash but I HAVE TO..... I dont know wether to kill them or kill myself anymore...the fucking anger... Im so angry right now... i busted my face in anger as punishment for havingto deal with this ,because i cant do anything about this situation,.. I cant deal with this slaving shit..i wanna die...

[cybernightwanderer]

Idk wether to break something, or someones face.

This is how i left the dishes i cleaned after my dinner.

After the incident the other day, wich is something very reocurring, and im very, verrryyy tired of it. VERY TIRED. So i've been washing my own dishes and the kitchen in general, and on the note that i left him when he ate my food, i noted : "wash your own dishes, mom's not home and im not your slave." So i went to the kitchen a bit ago to wash my tea cup. And i saw this...

This motherfucker cant even fathom to scrape his butter knife... And he left it there, he couldnt just fucking wash it?? what it takes not even like a 1 minute to wash it. This motherfucker left the spoon there for me to wash it .... ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME????!!!! OMGGGGGG

Seriously ...

[cybernightwanderer]

Victim complex in little things yay, love it

The lenghts this woman will go to controll me and to ruin my mental health. So my brother keeps the tv on all night at a pretty high volume, and his room is right next to hers. But she never says a word or complains about the noise. If i go to the bathroom in the midle of the night, or go get a tea, very very tip toe. She will complain. I stopped being on calls and late night game sessions with my friend, even if i whisper, so i wouldnt get yelled at all the time, but again my brother has the tv pretty loud whole night. I play early in the afternoon, she complains that i shouldnt be playing, who are the ppl that i am playing with? a "bunch of unemployed useless fucks"?. So i cant play early in the afternoon. So today i did the class projects, sent some resumes, took care of a few paintings, during the afternoon, 19 pm comes up. I join a session of a horror game, im on call with random ppl. She keeps coming in my room without knocking, claiming she wanted to mesure the drapes, keeps insisting on mesuring the drapes coz she wants to change them, even to i already asked 3 times to keep them and gave my really strong points on why. She looks at my screen and looks around. Eventually she leaves my room, after a few minutes she comes back to my room and now is talking about the oven, but keeps looking at my computer screen. I start to get annoyed and ask her to leave. After a bit, she comes back and with another random talk. I get up and stay in the midle of the hallway of the house, waiting, for whatever she wants to say... She says nothing, and as soon as i am about to enter my room she does that mouth noise, she does when shes about to say something. I stop, and i immediatly go to the living room, and calmly ask her " what? im sorry i couldnt hear you ? ", she then goes " oh i wasnt gonna say anything ", so i say " ok " and i go back to my room. At this point my anxiety is too strong, im just sitting in my chair, looking at the door.. waiting. One hour passes by, i manage to calm down, and i re-join the horror game match, since its a horror game, i tend to get overly excited and scared, a few jumpscares here and there that get me to scream. ITS 21PM AT NIGHT, AND SHE GOES IN MY ROOM COMPLAINING ABOUT THE NOISE, ASKING ME TO KEEP IT DOWN... I immediatly lose all my fun, and just give up on the game. This woman, who does a tremendous amount of noise in the morning, has verbal yelling fights with my brother, is telling me, to shut up, because she was on a call with my nephew...THAT FUCKING KID, HAS A GOLDEN SPOON UP HIS ASS, all my childhook i was treated like shit, and she treats this little fucker with so much love and respect, its amazing. Never in my childhood, did she ever even properly payed attention to me when speaking, she would always cut me off or make me feel dumb about the things that i liked. I go to the living room and i ask her why she did that, why she told me to be quiet when shes not even sleeping and she goes " because you are making too much noise, your nephew was asking who was yelling ".... So i tell her " it's not fair, i stopped being on call with ppl, i stopped playing games late at night, so at this hour is my last attempt to actually relax a bit " and she all of a suddent starts acting like a fucking victim "oh i cant say anything, im always the bad guy, im not gonna say anything anymore "

YEAH YOU FUCKING CANT YOU BITCH, I LITERALLY TOLD U I WAS TRYING TO RELAX AFTER CLASS AND ALL THE CLEANING I DID, AND SHE DOESNT LET ME FOR A FUCKING SECOND. YES YOU ARE THE FUCKING BAD GUY.

AND NOW I WENT TO THE BATHROOM AND MY BROTHERS TV IS AT MAX VOLUME WITH FUCKING TV SHOW NOISE, AND ITS 2 AM, AND SHE SAYS ABSOLUTLY FUCKING NOTHING.

NOT A WORDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

[cybernightwanderer]

My brother is a great car salesman, he cashes other ppls money, and his only job is speaking pt 1

So our house is very " damaged ", from years of lack of money, our older brother punching, kicking, throwing things around and destroying the house overall. The cleaning was usualy up to me ( dusting, sweaping, furniture cleaning , bathroom cleaning, kitchen cleaning + washing the dishes from all the meals from everyone , cleaning the floors, cleaning the walls, so on and so on ). And other reasons. Here's a specific detail, my brother never lifted his plate from the table, ever, when my mother would simply ask for him to put the table, it would turn into a war. And she instead of teatching him, " NO , you have to participate in this house, since you refuse to clean , you will do this " so my brother would go on a non stop rant on why he shouldnt and wont do it, calling my mother lazy. My mother would get tired and just give in to the precious little boys complaints. So who would have to do it you ask? Me. Yes, aside from everything that i already did, it had to be me. Oh and if i even complained or sighted i get threatned with phtsical violence, and if i shivered for too long in fear i would get slapped or beaten up, wich a lot of times i did. Specially because my brained started to reach in " fight or flight " but i instead would freeze in fear. Note : my brother was unemployed, would spend his days on the playstation, and wouldnt help out with anything, not even money. Me : working and studying, would have to come home and do all this, even before i was working and studying aswell btw ( and contributing with money ). Now, im not gonna be here giving all the examples possible of all the situations that i had to go throught because " my brother wouldnt do this or that ". Ocasionally my brother likes to act out as if he is the best person in the world, the most intelligent, he is above everything and everyone. And for a fact, he thinks hes the best person in this family. So sometimes he likes to judge, criticize and trash, give unsolicited opinion to other ppl in the family, telling what they should and shouldnt do. Something he learned from our mother and grandmother. It created a really big problem ( as always) 2 years ago or so when he came back to live at home, when i wasnt speaking to my mother ( because she was treating me more criticly as shit and i tried to kill myself to escape that, and he decided to comment on how lazy , unthrustworhy , basicly just trash talking about me to my mom and incentivating her to be even more volatile to me ,etc etc and the funny thing is i hadnt speaking in years to him at that point, so basicly it was like a stranger shit talking about me. I heard the conversations a few time, he spoke with such confidence, like he actually belive what he said to be the ultimate truth.

[cybernightwanderer]

Goes beyond his way to be a slacker.

My brother left his dirty dishes the other night in the kitchen, 2 plates a lot of tablewear and a few cups, and the tray, all dirty and with trash on it. I picked it all up and gathered it up in the tray and put it aside, and washed my own dishes. It stayed there for 3 days, today i woke up and went to the kicthen and noticed he mixed his dirty dishes with my mom's dishes from this morning in order for me not to be able to " run from it" ... i hate my brother, so much. Such fucking disgusting behaviour, i cant even , the amount of anger i have rn, i didnt even feel like eating breakfast anymore.... fucking hate this shit

[cybernightwanderer]

My mom left for " vacacions " for a week.

My mom left this morning for vacacions, wich basicly means vacacions for me, so i thought. Like i always let it be know, my brother doesnt cook his food, wash his dishes ( and everything related, scraping the plate of leftovers and putting the plate to wash etc ) He doesnt fucking wash his clothes or even fold them, he doesnt clean anything in the house even tho he messes everything a lot. Now, since its just the two of us home, idk where my brother got this but he assumed ill take my mothers " duties " to him. And in a way to avoid stressing out with him eating my food as always, i cooked him a few croquetes i bought, there was soup and there was rice for him, and i cooked for myself some vegan pasta without any seasoning. I hid the pasta in the back of the fridge and put his food in front. Now my brother is known to eat my food, but lately he has been under check because my mother noticed a couple of times i barely ate dinner ( and the whole hospital - dangerous low lvls of iron, she is " a bit concerned " in case i cant do house chores and such anymore for her obv ). Ive been with really bad insomnia and my monthly time is up, so it means a lot of cramps, barely being able to move, and bare minimum for me. So i made my meals for today and tomorrow and made his meal for today. I was about to fall asleep, but was having some bad flashbacks/memory surges from recent events, i was trying to calm myself down because i was reaching a panic attack, so i got up and decided to eat some fruit before 3 am, so i could still fall asleep before 4 ( in order not to screw up my sleeping schedule, that i literally fixed yesterday and it took me almost 3 months to fix and a lot of suffering ). Guess what i see when i go to the sink, all his dirty dishes from 2 days, that were hidden in his room and MY FUCKING PASTA BOX EMPTY.

YES, EMPTY.

This motherfucker, used my pasta as A SIDE DISH for the croquetes. He didnt eat the rice or the soup, he ate the croquetes and 2andhalf doses of unsalted pasta with mushrooms and corn......... I

CANT

FUCKING

DEAL

WITH

THIS

.... Obv i had a really bad panic attack, hit my fucking head again. Now it hurts, im dizzy, i cant sleep. And im so filled with rage.... I dont know how tomorrow im gonna manage to make food, and ill have to make for him extra or hell eat mine again... i cant i just wanna cry...

[cybernightwanderer]

" i have to take out the trash and my brother doesnt because hes working and im unemployed "

Ok, but what about all the way since my childhood, to teenage years, and also when i started working, until now?. What about when he was unemployed and i was working? or doing everything else? Was he still working then? I do everything else, shouldnt he at least take out the trash? My mom quotes " you are here living under my roof, and he has a job, so you are gonna take it, and not one more word about it "

" he has a job " .... Im unemployed right now. But what about when i was working 12/14h a day, 10+ days a week, and when id come home, id still have to wash all the acumulated dishes i didnt dirty, take out the trash when id get out or come back. Wash the kitchen and the bathoom and so on?? oh and the times you forced me to cook for my brother because you werent gonna be home that day. Cook for my brother? my older brother? who stays home all day?? who works 6h and then is home playing games all afternoon and hasnt even taken out the trash or wash his dishes???... Funny

[cybernightwanderer]

My brother is a great car salesman, he cashes other ppls money, and his only job is speaking pt 2

But anyways im deviating from what i wanna talk about. So the house is a mess, my mother is kind of a hoarder, and my brother WHO DOES NOTHING, NOT EVEN WASH HIS CLOTHES goes to her and gives her a whole rant on why she should fix the house and how he will pay for everything. Then tries to convince her to get a loan to wich i immediatly cut the conversation and tell her " dont do it " because i already know im the one who is gonna be stuck paying it if all goes wrong and he doesnt chip in like he says so. He gets mad at me during the conversation, speaks over me, and calls me a few names followed by " you really like the sound of your own voice dont you " at this point im like??? That whole hour was him yelling at my mom calling her lazy and dirty because the house is disgusting and it should be fixed right away. And that was the only moment i actually said a word. Oh and a nice detail from her is that " nobody helps her at the house " / " nobody cleans anything " , ok then i guess i should stop doing the cleaning that i already do? since im not doing anything right? Skipping on all the drama ( screaming , same conversation over and over again ). He manages to convince my mother, so she comes to me for advice. And by experience on how many times my brother stole things and money from me, and in 2018/19 when he managed to trick me into helping him and hed pay me 300 euros ( i was unemployed at the time and desperate for money because of my moms threats ), he took advantage of that, i helped him, and when the time came, there was no money, and he even scolded me about even daring to ask. So as you see my brother is a raging scam artist. Now, my mom and me spent the whole week with construction apointments, it was exausting but it was done, she finally has a budget and list of things aproved to go, she gives the paper to my brother and he completly ditches it. Obviously the house fixing and money he said he would put in to fix the house ( wich honestly hes just waiting for my mom to die, and basicly decided to undeniably doi this to claim the house as his own when she dies - wich is irnonic because he lived and does again, never payed for anything or done anything - and i did )

Today i woke up, i decided to focus and do my course work for the day, because im a little behind coz they dont actually teatch shit. I was finally understanding what i was behind on, and as soon as i go to the bathroom she goes " come here, i need you to go and take out the trash, clean the bathroom, clean the kitchen, wash the disshes NOW ", i tell her calmly im just doing something ill do that in a bit" she speaks louder and angrier and says " Not later , go now" , so i completly dropped what i was doing, and just went to do all that " non cleaning " as she likes to label it, took me 2 hours at most, now im sitting here my hands are wrinkly from all the water, my back hurts, i smell like bleech, and im too tired to go back to the work that i was doing... And honestly already mentally drained because she keeps ordering me to do the things my brother refuses to. So i guess im gonna stay behind on the course.