#najeonghyo

[butchyeons]

up in space

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najeonghyo poly domestic au (ft. ryeji). this fic focuses on jihyo, who’s a traveling nurse, coping with a patient she was really fond of’s passing. also she’s trans and futch bc i said so. jeongyeon and nayeon her emotional support butch and femme respectively. they are very in love!!

trigger warning for discussions of cancer and death. i also use the d slur once but not in a bad way?? if any of that bothers you feel free to skip this one! this fic is a heavy read, so pls be warned!

other tags: hurt/comfort, angst, implied sexual content/jokes, grieving, fluff, domestic stuff idk, discussions of being trans/taking estrogen shots

tysm for all the support on my fics so far! it rlly means a lot. hope you all enjoy- and let me know what you think! this au is rlly special to me and i’ll probably write more in the future bc i love them.

———

Losing a patient was never easy. But this time, it was so much different.

Jihyo did her best to focus on the road- on the long expansion of highway ahead of her. Each time she thought about it, more tears pricked at the corners of her eyes, just like how they had been for the past three days of her shift.

Jihyo wanted to blame it on the estrogen, like she always did. But after being on it for five years, there was only so much blame she could place on her shots. In the back of her mind she could hear Jeongyeon chuckling at her, could see Nayeon giving her that look of sympathy.

“Yah, Jihyo. After a while it becomes less of the hormones and more part of being a woman.” Jeongyeon had said over dinner one night, after Jihyo had spent her whole afternoon crying her eyes out about work. Again.

Jihyo thought that she really understood it now.

Yeji was a sweet girl. She had been in and out of the hospital for years, fighting leukemia. She was diagnosed at a young age, grew up with it. Jihyo met her when she was freshly 13. On the day of her 13th birthday, actually. Jihyo watched as her family- her mom, dad, older sister, and her best friend- brought her a cake and sang her happy birthday. She had one of the brightest smiles Jihyo had ever seen.

Jihyo traveled from hospital to hospital- it was her job to go where she was needed, to specialize in a little bit of everything when it came to pediatrics. But in all her time as a nurse, the hundreds of thousands of patients she saw, she had never found herself as attached to one as she did Hwang Yeji.

She always reminded Jihyo so much of herself. Of that scared little girl that had always lived deep inside her, even before her transition. How that scared little girl never gave up, no matter how bad it got.

When she noticed how that best friend of hers- Ryujin, that was the girl’s name- would stare at her like she put the sun in the sky, she knew. And when she noticed how tightly Yeji would hold Ryujin’s hand as she got the needle in her port changed, how Yeji practically clung to Ryujin during her nausea episodes, she knew.

It reminded her a lot of something she lived through.

The sight of Nayeon in her own hospital bed, her leg shattered, half sobbing as she got the news that she would never be able to walk without pain again- how she wouldn’t be able to return to teaching, effectively getting her passion stolen away in a single afternoon. Jeongyeon held her hand, her expression stern, her eyes never once leaving her wife’s face as the doctor explained the next steps- the surgeries, the physical therapy. Jihyo stood there too, on the other side of Nayeon’s bed, exhausted from having to speed halfway across the country at Jeongyeon’s call. She felt like her heart had broken into a million pieces, scattered in every direction by a wind so strong that she’d never be able to find them all again.

Jihyo had only been with them for a year, then. But when she looked at them, she saw an entire universe. She already knew both of them better than she knew herself. She already knew her specialties, the place she held in both of their lives- fitting in exactly where she needed to, when she needed to. She also already knew then that she would spend the rest of her days with them, if she could.

So when Yeji mentioned her girlfriend to Jihyo one day while she was fixing her IV, Jihyo smiled. She listened, like she always did. She told her she was happy for her, talked about her partners, too. How they were the same. How they had each other, no matter what. Yeji smiled back.

“I hope I can have that one day, too, Ms. Park.”

It was just shy of Yeji’s 16th birthday when Jihyo came back to find her bed empty. It had been a month and a half since Jihyo had been assigned to that hospital. The last time Jihyo spoke with her, they talked about school- how Ryujin had taken their soccer team to the national championships after one last tie-breaker goal in overtime. Yeji was sad she couldn’t be there. She wanted nothing more than to be with Ryujin, was what she told Jihyo.

When she was talking, she was falling asleep. She had been doing that more lately. Jihyo did her best to keep her awake as she changed the needle in her port, told her how good she was doing. Jihyo couldn’t help but notice that she looked so pale, how her vibrant smile had dimmed just slightly. She told Yeji to tell her parents that she said hi, to tell Ryujin congratulations and good luck. She said she couldn’t wait to see her again.

Jihyo gripped the steering wheel impossibly tighter. Her eyes stung, angry thorns of tears working their way up to the surface. She tried to focus on the road- the darkness making everything a bit harder to see. She needed to get glasses. She needed to get home. She needed to get to them.

———

It was nearly 2 am by the time Jihyo pulled into the driveway. The lights were still on in the house- clearly, they were still up. Jihyo mentally scolded them for staying awake for her. But the moment she walked up the steps, only for Jeongyeon to open the door before she could even get her keys out, she forgot all about it.

Jeongyeon didn’t say anything, just held her arms out. Jihyo stepped into them, dropping her backpack on the porch somewhere beside her. Her head found its usual spot- the junction between Jeongyeon’s neck and her shoulder, her nose pressed against the older woman’s pulse point. Jeongyeon just held her, like she always did.

Jeongyeon was all muscle- solid, heavy. She worked outside and it showed. She was rough around the edges, her fingertips worn like the sandpaper she used daily. Jihyo never felt safer than she did in Jeongyeon’s arms.

“Nayeon told me everything- baby, I’m so sorry.” Jeongyeon whispered, her lips brushing against the top of Jihyo’s head.

Jihyo couldn’t miss the way her voice cracked. That’s when she couldn’t hold her tears back anymore.

Jihyo didn’t say anything- she couldn’t, didn’t need to. She just cried. She cried the big, ugly tears she held back for the past three days. She pressed herself into Jeongyeon’s shoulder, her face contorted in pain as she let it all out. Jeongyeon just held her, swaying them both as they stood on the porch, underneath the singular dim light that Jihyo had been meaning to change.

Jihyo had been through so much. Her transition was rough- what she expected to be a casual step into womanhood felt more like a downward freefall with no parachute. She lost everything- her home, her family, her entire support system. But it all seemed so trivial compared to this. At the end of the day, she was breathing. No matter how far she fell, she had someone who could catch her. Two amazing people, actually. And they caught her every single time she fell- over and over again.

The other nurses told her Ryujin was there when she passed. They said they had to practically rip her body out of Ryujin’s arms. They had never seen someone so young but so full of love. Yeji had someone who caught her, too. Even if there was nothing left to catch.

Jihyo asked whatever God was listening to make sure that those two girls met again in the next life, and in every life afterwards. It was the least they deserved. The thought of those two never meeting again in this one made her sob even harder.

“I know, baby.” Jeongyeon whispered, her hand holding the back of Jihyo’s head to her chest, her other arm still wrapped securely around her waist. “I know.”

———

When Jihyo finally calmed down, Jeongyeon helped her inside. She left her in the living room, taking her backpack up to their room. Jihyo could only really stand there, swaying slightly as she stared at the ground- unstable without Jeongyeon to hold her up.

Nayeon, who had been sleeping on the couch snoring peacefully with her jaw half slack, finally stirred. Her eyes slowly opened, a smile forming on her lips as soon as she registered the figure in front of her to be Jihyo. She tried to sit up.

“Jih- ah!” She yelped as she shifted, her leg caught at an awkward angle from how she’d been laying.

At the sound, Jihyo came back down to earth. She quickly rushed to her side, helping her adjust. One of her arms supported Nayeon’s lower back, the other going under the backs of her knees. She helped lift Nayeon up to that she was sitting up straight, her legs out in front of her. She counted to three out loud, waiting for Nayeon to give her a nod, before shifting her again so that her back rested against the back of the couch, her feet on the floor in front of her.

“You really shouldn’t sleep like that, Nay…” Jihyo muttered, no real bite to her words, as she kissed Nayeon’s forehead.

“I know, I just wanted to see you.” Nayeon replied as Jihyo sat down beside her.

“I’ve told you not to stay up late for me.”

“Don’t care.”

“Nayeon-“

Jihyo was cut off as Nayeon pulled her in for a kiss. Their lips met softly, Nayeon’s hand cupping her cheek, helping angle Jihyo’s mouth better to meet hers.

If Jeongyeon was rock, Nayeon was fire. Jihyo always melted right into her. No amount of walls Jihyo had built up could ever resist the pure heat that radiated off of Nayeon. At first it was scary- she had never met someone who made her feel so vulnerable, open. But now the heat was welcomed- needed. It kept Jihyo alive. She wouldn’t want it any other way.

“There’s dinner in the fridge if you’re hungry.” Nayeon whispered as she pulled away, her hand still caressing Jihyo’s cheek. “I missed you.”

“I missed you, too. I ate on the way home earlier.” Jihyo whispered, her eyes closed. “I’ll have some for lunch tomorrow.”

The couch shifted behind Jihyo. She felt a familiar arm wrapping around her waist, steadying her.

“You better.” Jeongyeon whispered, her nose finding Jihyo’s neck. “She made it just for you- the pickiest eater I’ve ever met.”

Jihyo chuckled.

“You both signed up for my picky eating the night you picked me up at the bar.”

Jeongyeon huffed, pulling Jihyo’s back against her front. She pressed a kiss to Jihyo’s neck.

“And you’ve been a pain in the ass ever since. I love you so much.”

“I love you more.” Nayeon added, leaning in to kiss Jihyo again. “So much more.”

If Jeongyeon was the moon and Nayeon was the sun, Jihyo was the constellation that lay between the two of them. She needed them as much as they needed her.

“No fighting.”Jihyo whispered between kisses. “I’m too tired to deal with it.”

Nayeon chuckled as she pulled away, her thumb stroking Jihyo’s cheek.

“You started it.”

“Did not.” Jihyo said, smirking.

Before Nayeon could go back in for another kiss, Jeongyeon groaned. She pulled her face away from Jihyo’s neck, both of her arms still wrapped around the younger woman’s waist.

“Can we go to bed?” She asked.

Jihyo tilted her head back, resting fully against Jeongyeon’s front.

“You don’t even have work tomorrow.”

“I wanted to get some work done around the house.” Jeongyeon grunted.

Jihyo hummed.

“Can it wait a day?”

Jeongyeon huffed through her nose, pressing a kiss to the side of Jihyo’s head.

“Do you need a day?”

Whenever Jihyo had an exceptionally bad shift, she always needed a period of decompression. And usually that decompression consisted of laying around with her girls, watching mindless dramas or reality tv, and lots of kisses. And sex, too. But mainly the first three.

“I need a day.” Jihyo replied.

“You can take as much time as you need, Ji.” Nayeon said as she scooted herself closer. “I know how much you cared about her.”

Jihyo sighed, but smiled sadly. Her thoughts were racing still. It felt like an open wound directly on the center of her heart- everything kept bothering it. There was so much she wished she could’ve said or done. She didn’t even get to say goodbye.

“I love you both.” Was all Jihyo could say before the tears came back again.

———

None of them spoke anymore that night. They didn’t really need to. Jeongyeon helped Nayeon get up from the couch, her arm secured around her wife’s waist as she led her back to their bedroom. Jihyo followed behind them, sneaking off into to master bathroom after giving them both one last kiss.

She needed a shower- needed to wash the hospital smell out of her hair, to get the days of built up sweat off of her skin. She did her best to not think about it anymore- tried to focus on the things she could be doing instead, on what she had right in front of her. Her therapist told her she tended to dwell on the “what ifs”, which always blinded her from the “right nows”. And right then, she was home, safe. Surrounded by love.

She was so damn lucky to have them- to be loved by them. They saved her life, and she saved theirs. That’s how they worked. That’s how they would always work.

After she finished blowdrying her hair, too exhausted to do her sacred skincare routine, she slinked out of the bathroom. Nayeon was already asleep again- snoring loudly. Next to her, Jeongyeon was still looking at her phone. As soon as Jihyo got into her pajamas, she leaned over and turned the bedside lamp off. Jihyo crawled in between the two of them, doing her best to not jostle Nayeon, who just shifted slightly, her arm instinctively throwing itself over Jihyo’s waist in her sleep.

Jeongyeon adjusted herself so that Jihyo was resting her head on her chest, like always. Jeongyeon was warm- she got so warm when the three of them slept together that eventually she just opted to sleep in boxers and nothing else- but Jihyo needed it. Her body shivered a bit, still adjusting to the temperature shift from the bathroom. Somehow, Nayeon wiggled even closer to her, her arm getting even tighter as she was still snoring.

No matter what happened, Jeongyeon and Nayeon always kept Jihyo tied down, grounded. No matter how high up she floated, they always managed to pull her back in. They had a gravitational pull all of their own- the sun, moon, and stars all in one bed together.

“Love you.” Jihyo muttered, her eyes finally closing easily for the first time in days.

“Love you too. Always will.” Jeongyeon answered.

It didn’t take long at all for both of them to fall asleep.

———

The next time Jihyo worked at that hospital, the head nurse, Dahyun, stopped her.

“Hey, Jihyo. Someone came by and left this letter for you a few days ago.” She said, handing an envelope to her.

Jihyo raised her eyebrows, examining it. It was a yellow envelope, her name written on the front. It was held closed with a sticker of the smiling cat emoji. She thanked Dahyun as she folded it in half and placed it in one of the pockets of her scrubs, heading off to help another patient.

When she got to her lunch break, she finally got to check it. She sat in her car, her lunchbox out on the seat beside her. Inside, Nayeon had made sure to pack all of her favorites to last her for the few days she was gone, along with her usual handwritten note wishing her good luck (which was Jihyo’s favorite part of lunchtime). She picked out one of the sandwiches and a bag of chips before closing the bag back up.

She reached inside her pocket and pulled the envelope out. Jihyo carefully opened it, doing her best to not rip the cat sticker, taking out the letter that was inside. It was written on notebook paper in blue ink- the page covered in other tiny, scribbled drawings of cats. The handwriting was a bit messy, but still somehow neat- extremely unique. When she noticed the name at the top, Jihyo smiled.

Ms. Park,

This is Shin Ryujin. I’m not sure if you’ll remember me, but you took care of my girlfriend, Hwang Yeji, up until she passed. I wanted to write you this letter as a way of saying thank you. You helped her through some really hard times, without even knowing. Her parents weren’t really happy about us being together. Of course, they wouldn’t leave her, but they scolded me and her a lot. It sucked to have that on top of everything else.

But what didn’t suck was when you were there. You were a really good shoulder for her to lean on. She was always so happy telling me about you and your partners (wives? I hope you guys get married or something). You helped her accept a lot of herself. That helped me accept a lot of myself, too.

She wanted to be a nurse, just like you. She wanted to open her own hospital, eventually. All she ever thought about was helping others, no matter how sick she got. She even still tried to give blood when we did blood drives at school for her. She was the sweetest girl I had ever met. I think I’ll love her until the day I die. I hope you feel that way about your girls, too.

Even though there was nothing that could be done to prevent what happened, you really saved her life. You saved mine, too. Please, keep doing what you do. You really were a lifeline for two clueless lesbians, haha. Hopefully you’ll help more in the future. In fact, I know you will.

Thank you for everything. I can only hope to meet you again in the future. I’ll never forget you. I hope you never forget us.

- Shin Ryujin

P.S. We won the championship! Thank you for the well wishes. Yeji passed a few days after. I told her I’d win for her- and I did.

I think I’ll keep doing everything for her.

Attached to the letter was a picture of them. It was a selfie- Ryujin holding the phone up while Yeji smiled that same brilliant smile that Jihyo always knew. She was bundled up in a jacket, sweater, and a beanie, while Ryujin only had on a sweatshirt. They were at the beach- the ocean waves crashing onto the shore behind them. The bottom of the photo had a date written- February. Yeji had passed in late April.

It was a lot for Jihyo to read, to take in. She felt a pit form in her stomach- a black hole that would open up and swallow her. She set the letter and photo down, taking a deep breath to steady herself. She looked out at the side of the hospital building- trying to count the bricks on the side of the wall, trying to give herself something to keep her grounded.

It really wasn’t enough. She needed something stronger, needed her gravitational pull- she needed her universe.

Jihyo immediately pulled her phone out and called Jeongyeon. Really, her number was off limits except for emergencies. But she figured she would let this one slide. She quickly found Jeongyeon’s contact and pressed the call button.

The line rang a few times before someone picked up. Jihyo was met with the clear sounds of a jackhammer whirring in the background, along with men yelling at one another. And then there was Jeongyeon’s laugh.

“Mind your business- Seriously, Changbin. Get back to work- I’m your boss. I can do what I want. Shut up.” Jeongyeon yelled- clearly, one of her guys was up her ass about her taking a phone call.

After a few more moments of bickering over the sounds of heavy machinery, Jihyo listened as a door slammed- all the noises cutting out in an instant. She smiled when Jeongyeon huffed.

“This better be good, Park Jihyo.” She said, annoyed. But that act faded immediately, like it always did. “Are you okay?”

“Yah, Jeongyeon. I’m pregnant. It’s yours.” Jihyo said, grinning as she took a bite of her sandwich.

“I’m finally gonna be a dad?” Jeongyeon asked in that stupid, playful voice of hers, feigning excitement.

“Seems like it. Was daddy just not good enough for you?”

“Oh that’s never enough, baby. Need to actually get you-“

“Oh my god, Jeongyeon- shut up.” Jihyo said, cutting off the older woman, nearly choking on her food. “You’re so- god you can’t even- you’re disgusting!”

Jihyo sputtered over her words as she coughed. Jeongyeon just laughed. Typical.

“God- are you busy?” Jihyo asked once she was able to breathe.

“I’m at work, Hyo. Yes.”

“Well do you have a second?”

“For you.” Jeongyeon sighed. Jihyo could hear her smile through the phone. “What’s wrong? You never call at this time. Did something happen?”

“Well, no. But yes.” Jihyo answered, setting her food down to tap at her phone. “Wait. Let me add Nayeon- I need you both here for this.”

Jeongyeon hummed. Jihyo started the three-way call, the line ringing a few times before Nayeon picked up.

“Hi baby!” She said cheerfully. “Oh wait, you’re both here- did something happen? You never call at work.”

Despite their obvious differences, Jihyo thought it was almost comical how similar Jeongyeon and Nayeon were. Jihyo sighed, smiling down at the call screen.

“I got a letter today. I wanted you both to hear it.”

So, Jihyo read it out to them. By the end of the second read, she was fighting back her tears again. When she told them about the picture, it was nearly impossible to speak without her voice cracking.

It was the estrogen- had to be that. She just took her shot yesterday. That’s what she told herself. That’s why everything felt so heavy, why her voice fluttered between octaves, a bird angrily trying to claw its way out of a cage. The typical symptoms of second puberty- of womanhood.

Jeongyeon and Nayeon were both silent. A few moments passed before there was a sniffle on Jeongyeon’s end.

“Hyo, oh my god.”

Jihyo couldn’t hold back then. She grit her teeth, leaning back into her seat, her body trembling as she gripped her phone- trying to hold back the sobs. She gasped for air without meaning to. She wished she was home, wished she was between her sun and moon.

“You saved her life, Jihyo.” Nayeon whispered.

In Jihyo’s mind, all she saw was the night they met. She had never even been to a gay bar before- but she was down on her luck, needed to have a good time. She still felt like she was pretending, felt like she was dressing up as the idea of a woman. She needed to be around people like her. She had been taking her shots for a month then- living in her car as she traveled from hospital to hospital, praying her patients and coworkers would just be decent. Decency was found few and far between back then.

She was just about to call it a night when a couple came up to her. They asked for her name, asked if she lived in town- said they’d remember seeing a pretty face like hers. When she explained she was just in for a few days before she took off on call again, they asked if she’d like to go home with them- to stay for the night, to have some fun. And how could Jihyo deny the most gorgeous butch and femme she had ever seen of anything, especially after they bought her a drink and showered her in compliments. And then the one night stay turned into a permanent residence, into stability. Decency turned into real, genuine love.

A whole ocean of people were in that bar that night, but somehow the tides pulled them towards each other. She wasn’t even trying to be seen- wanted to let the waves just take her where they felt. But every day she thanks whatever divine being blessed her with the lifeboat that was Yoo Jeongyeon and Im Nayeon, how they pulled her on board and allowed her a spot in their crew. She had her life saved. And more importantly, she got to keep doing the same for others because of it.

“E-Even if she didn’t make it, you saved her.” Nayeon said, clearly choked up on her own tears. “Both of them.”

Jihyo nodded. She had finally calmed down. She stared at the half eaten sandwich, sitting haphazardly in her lap.

“I saw so much of myself in her.” She muttered. “I saw so much of us in both of them. She deserved so much more than she got. Both of them did.”

There was a moment of silence again. The black hole in the pit of Jihyo’s stomach was gone.

“You’re really amazing, Jihyo.” Jeongyeon said, her voice distant. “I don’t even have the words.”

Jihyo let out a huff, smiling. She could feel the floorboard of her car underneath her feet, registered the texture of her shirt as she brushed some breadcrumbs away. Back down on earth.

“You two are biased.”

Both of them made noises of protest, which crackled over the speakers of her phone.

“So what if I am?” Nayeon asked. “You’re one of the most selfless people on this planet. I’m lucky to have you- Jeongyeon and I both are.”

“I will say it until my last breath and mean it every single time-” Jeongyeon cut in. “You are amazing, Park Jihyo. God. You are a life saver- literally.”

Jihyo leaned back in her seat, finally taking another bite of her sandwich. There was no point in arguing with them- that’s how it always was. But their words helped her feel real again. She felt like a human being by their sides.

“Fine. Whatever you say.”

“We wouldn’t say it if it wasn’t true, and you know that.” Nayeon said softly.

Jihyo smiled, her face still wet from her tears. Her speakers vibrated when Jeongyeon chuckled, sniffling again.

“God- you call me at work and make me cry. The guys will never let me live this one down.”

Jihyo rolled her eyes, wiping up the last remnants of her emotions with the sleeve of her undershirt.

“So what? They’ll never understand what it’s like to be a woman. Not like we do, anyways.”

Nayeon hummed in agreement, her sweet, bunny-toothed smile clear as day over the phone. Jihyo wished she could see it. Jeongyeon laughed- that bubbly, staggered laugh that Jihyo absolutely adored.

“You’re damn right they won’t.” Jeongyeon said firmly.

———

From that day forward, Jihyo kept the letter and picture in her glovebox. She got over it the best she could- she had to. She knew better than to dwell on it for too long, to spend too much time thinking about the “what ifs”.

But when she was having an exceptionally rough shift, she looked at them. When she was mentally beating herself to a pulp, telling herself how she needed to be better, she thought about them. When she broke herself down to her barest, most raw essentials, examining every part of herself thoroughly before putting it all back together, she reminded herself that there was a point. She had to keep going. If not for herself, for other people. She had people to help, lives to save.

If Ryujin could keep going, she could, too. She had someone to fight for- and so did Jihyo. She had two people.

She was back home, snuggled inbetween Jeongyeon and Nayeon in their bed that was so clearly not made to fit all three of them. Her back was pressed as close as it ever could be to Jeongyeon’s front as Nayeon kissed her, their noses bumping into one another from the weird angle. It made Jihyo giggle, made Nayeon smile even harder. Jeongyeon pressed a kiss to the back of Jihyo’s head.

“Would you two love birds cut it out so I can sleep?” She mumbled, her voice muffled by Jihyo’s hair.

“You’re off tomorrow.” Nayeon said bluntly between more kisses.

Jeongyeon groaned. “I have to get the light on the porch fixed.”

Jihyo eyed Nayeon, who gave her one last kiss, before shifting so that she faced Jeongyeon. Nayeon’s arms replaced Jeongyeon’s easily, finding their usual spot at Jihyo’s waist.

“It’s not that hard to change a lightbulb, baby.” Jihyo whispered as she took Jeongyeon’s face in her hands, her thumbs circling the apples of her cheeks. “I think you’re just getting worn out.”

Jeongyeon rolled her eyes, pursing her lips into that signature annoyed smile she always did.

“It’s because of you two.”

Jihyo smirked, Nayeon made an annoyed sound somewhere behind her. She pulled Jeongyeon in for a kiss- deep, but soft. Their lips moved the same way they always had, always would. When Jihyo felt Jeongyeon’s tongue swipe against her lower lip, she shifted again- sitting up to straddle the older woman’s hips, her hands finding her bare chest- never breaking their kiss. Of course, Jeongyeon was already shirtless, heat radiating off of her tanned skin from how closely the three of them were pressed together. Nayeon moved closer, clinging to her wife, her mouth finding its way to Jeongyeon’s collarbone. When Jeongyeon whimpered, Jihyo finally pulled away.

“You love it though, really.” She said, smirking. Her grip tightened, earning another small sound of need.

The sight of Jeongyeon underneath her, of Nayeon holding onto her as if she’d slip away would never fail to make Jihyo feel like she was in heaven. The way their bodies moved together, how natural it all felt- Jihyo was the luckiest person in the entire world. Her whole universe squeezed onto a king sized mattress; the sun, moon, and stars all contained in three tired, old dykes.

Jihyo rolled her eyes. Nayeon pressed a kiss to Jeongyeon’s cheek. Jeongyeon just smiled.

“I do.”

———

Jihyo stepped down from the ladder, wiping the sweat off her brow that had formed in the brief time it took for her to switch out the old lightbulb on the porch. It was the dead of summer now- the sun baring down its rays angrily, warming everything up to what felt like a boiling point.

Beside her, Nayeon sat in one of the chairs, in sunglasses with her favorite sundress on, three glasses of fresh lemonade on the table next to her. Her legs were propped up on the wicker footrest they bought after her accident. A random piece of white wood furniture among all the black metal. It didn’t match the set, but it worked. Jihyo always thought it was funny that she could relate to a footrest.

“She’s still got it in her, doesn’t she?” Nayeon asked, referring to their third half.

Jihyo turned, watching as Jeongyeon fought to turn their push mower on. She gave the chord a few more good pulls, trying her damnedest to get it started. That thing had been giving her hell for the past few weeks- it was on its last leg, needed to be replaced the moment they got it. But the three of them were stubborn, wanted to get their money’s worth out of the 20 year old hunk of metal that they bought used at a garage sale. All ₩40,000 worth.

“I’m more so concerned about why you feel the need to babysit.” Jihyo said, sitting down in the chair beside Nayeon’s.

She took a good look at Nayeon- at the way her bottom lip poked out, pouting as she judged her wife. She pushed her sunglasses up on her head, revealing those beautiful, round eyes. Her face scrunched from the sunlight, her nose crinkling. Jihyo thought she was the prettiest person to have ever existed.

“There’s a masc shortage, sweetheart.” Nayeon said, shifting to get her glass of lemonade off the table. She took a sip. “I can’t have anyone trying to steal her from us.”

Jihyo chuckled. She watched as Jeongyeon finally gave up, letting out an annoyed groan as she kicked the side of the lawnmower. As if by magic, the machine whirred to life. Jeongyeon let out her excited squawks, jumping around it in a circle with her arms up before turning to look up at them on the porch, a giant grin plastered on her face, adorned by those beautiful crescent moon eyes.

Jihyo waved, smiling back. Nayeon clapped beside her, cheering. Jeongyeon took a bow before adjusting herself and cheerfully flexing her biceps- putting on a show for her two favorite girls, as always. Nayeon whistled, and Jihyo rolled her eyes, laughing. She looked like an idiot. Jihyo loved her more than words would ever describe.

“I don’t think anyone besides us wants her that badly, Nay.” Jihyo huffed out, taking a sip of her drink.

“I’d sure hope so.” Nayeon said, looking over at her. “I’m selfish. No one deserves her more than we do. I don’t wanna share.”

Jihyo shared the same sentiment, but didn’t say it. She sat back on her seat, watching as Jeongyeon finally got to mowing the grass- sweat already ruining the muscle shirt that clung to her torso. She glanced over at Nayeon again, who was smiling so brightly, laughing as she watched Jeongyeon do her best to maneuver that piece of junk around the front yard, pulling her sunglasses back down over her eyes.

These were her people. They were her reason for existing, for continuing to exist. They made life seem so simple- so perfect. She had something to fight for that was real, tangible. She was so lucky to have this, to have them. To have them share themselves with her, to lay everything about themselves out on the table for her. Over and over, they shared everything. Jihyo never knew she could have this much love for more than one person- she never knew soulmates could be a trio until she met them.

“I’m gonna go get dinner started. Wanted to make kimchi stew for you.” Nayeon said. “Help me up?”

Jihyo set her drink down. Wordlessly she got up, going over to Nayeon’s side, taking her empty cup from her. She lifted Nayeon’s ankles up and off the footrest, gently setting her feet down on the ground. She moved to wrap her arm around Nayeon’s waist, counted to three, waited for Nayeon’s approval, before hoisting her up. They stood there for a moment, ignoring the heat, pressed as close together as they possibly could be.

“Thank you, baby.” Nayeon said softly, pulling Jihyo in for a kiss.

“It’s not a problem, Nay. You know that.” Jihyo said, smiling as Nayeon pulled away.

“I know.” Nayeon whispered, tapping Jihyo’s cheek a few times with her fingers. “But can’t a girl say thank you to her emotional support futch every once in a while?”

Jihyo snorted.

“I guess she can. Especially when you say it so sweetly.”

She helped Nayeon get inside along with their empty cups, her arm never leaving the older woman’s waist until they made it to the kitchen. Nayeon insisted she could handle it from there. And really, Jihyo knew she could, but the worry would never leave. She had come a long way since the accident- her body bounced back shockingly well. She just needed a little help getting started still, and Jihyo was more than happy to provide it.

After a few more kisses and some filthy comments about what they’d be doing later from Nayeon, Jihyo went back out to check on Jeongyeon. The lawnmower had finally given out, but thankfully Jeongyeon had just finished the yard. She was sitting on the steps, slamming the glass of lemonade that Nayeon had left behind for her.

“You good, Jeong?” Jihyo asked, her arms crossed as she stood behind her.

Jeongyeon finished the glass, grinning from ear to ear as she tilted her head back to look up at Jihyo.

“Never been better, Hyo.”

Jihyo rolled her eyes and helped pull her up. Jeongyeon stretched her arms out, her back cracking loudly. It made both of them laugh. Jeongyeon took the opportunity to pull Jihyo into one of her bear hugs.

“God- Jeongyeon- you’re so sweaty.” Jihyo protested. Her arms wrapped right around Jeongyeon’s waist, her head finding its spot on her shoulder. “Get off of me.”

“You love it though. Can’t get enough of it.” Jeongyeon teased, pressing a kiss to Jihyo’s temple.

“Shut up.” Jihyo hissed, finally pulling away. “Go take a shower.”

Jihyo went back into the house and Jeongyeon followed her. While Jihyo stopped to take her shoes off, Jeongyeon got right behind her, landing a smack on her ass and causing her to yelp.

“C’mon baby. You wouldn’t be complaining about it if I took you right here- you love it that much.” Jeongyeon said, smirking mischievously before running off, back to their bedroom.

“Shut up!” Jihyo yelled, regaining her balance. “Oh my god. You and Nayeon are so nasty! No decorum around here.”

“Wouldn’t be fun if we had any, and you know it.” Nayeon said, peeking her head out from the kitchen. She had her usual grin on her face.

Jihyo rolled her eyes. She walked back to the kitchen and rejoined her partner, helping Nayeon prep the ingredients for the stew. After a bit, Jeongyeon finally came back down- freshly showered, her short, wet hair messy from where she lazily towel dried it. As Jihyo was cutting up pieces of tofu, she watched Jeongyeon walk up behind Nayeon, her arms wrapping around her waist.

Jihyo smiled at the sight of the two of them. Nayeon smiled, leaning back against her wife, whispering something up to her that Jihyo couldn’t quite catch. Jeongyeon just chuckled, her nose pressing into Nayeon’s hair.

She couldn’t help but think about them again- about the life they could’ve had together. She couldn’t help but see a future for them every time she passed by that hospital room. The way Yeji would speak and Ryujin would just listen, smiling. How Ryujin would hold Yeji’s hand the entire time. They deserved something good more than anyone else. She was happy they had each other until the end.

She could only hope to have a love like that. Well, she didn’t really need to hope for it- she had it. It was already right in front of her, their force of gravity pulling her in over and over again.

[hirazaki-myoi]

[tdoong15]

hello kai, long time no see. am here to request a baby sana with caregiver jihyo going to the park with to meet with toddler SMC well jihyo and 2yeon (or whoever u think should be SMC caregivers) are having coffees and chatting while watching the littles play in the sand while sana is just poking it with a stick and sometimes shovelling sand into a bucket or eating it ya know like a baby anyways hope you are doing good

Hello Chimp, I'm doing well I'm currently preparing for an exam on the 23rd and 25th January (it's like that because one is 3 hours and the other is 5 hours plus on the 24th it's my off day where I can relax) also this is very sweet.

Little!Sana Toddlers!DaChaeTzu Cgs!NaJeongHyo

Warnings: none

Sandcastles + parks

Sana had been feeling extremely little throughout the whole day, thankfully Jihyo has been looking after Sana immediately when she was told by Momo and Mina about Sana's regression. Sana was currently on the floor playing with some stuffed animals when Jihyo got a message from Nayeon

Nayeon🩵🐰: hey Jeongyeon and I are taking Dahyun, Chaeyoung and Tzuyu to the park because they're full of energy. Do you want to join us with Sana?

You: Hang on, I'll check with Sana.

“Hey Sana, would you like to go to the park with Nayeon, Jeongyeon, Dahyun, Chaeyoung and Tzuyu?” Jihyo questions in a soft tone. Sana turned around and looked up and she grinned and babbled happily. Jihyo took Sana's response as a yes so she messaged Nayeon the answer.

You: Yeah we'll join you guys :).

Nayeon🩵🐰: Great we'll meet you two at the swing set.

Jihyo reads the message and she starts preparing everything for the park since she was being cautious in case anything would happen to anyone but she mainly put her focus on Sana since she was regressed to a really young age. She then placed everything into a bag and did a double check ensuring that everything was in the bag before she picked Sana up from the floor. “Alright let's go to the park.” Jihyo said with a smile, Sana was distracted by the collar of Jihyo's shirt so she didn't pay attention to Jihyo.

Throughout the walk to the park Sana would either make loud squeals down Jihyo's ear when she saw something that she found pretty or she would tug on Jihyo's shirt because she felt like it. When they reached the park, Jihyo looked around for the swing set which she found fairly quickly due to the School Meal Club laughing hysterically. Jihyo walked over to the sound with Sana in her arms. “Jihyo we're so glad you could make it” Jeongyeon says while she hugged Jihyo, her attention was then immediately changed when she heard Sana whine. “And everyone is really happy that you're here, princess Sana.” Jeongyeon said to calm the baby down.

Sana immediately stopped her dramatic whines and she clapped a lot when she heard Jeongyeon's words, Sana's claps actually alerted Dahyun, Chaeyoung and Tzuyu. “Sana!” They all shouted whilst they stumbled over to Jihyo and Sana, all three of them bounced up and down slightly out of excitement because they wanted to play with Sana, who was initially stunned by the sudden loud sounds but she quickly started to laugh and wriggle out of Jihyo's arms because she wanted to play with DaChaeTzu.

Jihyo obliged when she felt Sana moving in her hold and she placed Sana on the sand next to SMC. “Remember don't play too rough, I don't want any trips to the hospital. Also play fairly.” Nayeon tells the girls and they all nod their heads except Sana who was flinging sand around herself. “ ‘Kay we'll be weally good mommy'' Dahyun reassures Nayeon, Chaeyoung and Tzuyu both nodded their heads in agreement. “Alright then we'll be sitting at the bench if you need us,” Jeongyeon explained and she pointed to the bench.

It wasn't long until all of the littles were playing in the sand together, despite Sana being significantly younger Dahyun, Chaeyoung and Tzuyu all figured out ways to incorporate her in their games, even if she just hit the sand with the back of the shovel. On the other hand, Nayeon, Jeongyeon and Jihyo were having some coffee from the local booth, they were keeping an eye out on the littles but they obviously gossiped about things they thought were worthy to talk about such as things that happened backstage.

Sana, Dahyun, Chaeyoung and Tzuyu were all having a sandcastle competition but since Sana was so small Tzuyu decided that she wanted to team up with Sana so the competition could be more fair, Dahyun and Chaeyoung didn't argue with the idea since they also thought that it was only right that Sana had a partner for the competition. With that in mind, the four girls started to build their sandcastles, except for Sana who was trying to eat the sand. “Nuh-uh Sha-Sha sand is yucky.” Tzuyu says in her quiet voice whilst she carefully took the sand out of Sana's hand and she added it to the sandcastle.

When the castles were completely finished, Sana slammed her hand down on the sandcastle and she blabbered a lot but she had a smile on her face so the School Meal Club took it as a good thing. “Yep dat's good Sana-shi” Chaeyoung decides to just agree with what Sana said before continuing “Mommy, Mama and JiJi who wins for the best sandcastle?” She yelled at all three of them which immediately got their attention and headed over to the sand pit area.

Nayeon, Jeongyeon and Jihyo all observed the sand castle and they all huddled together to create a verdict. “Okay, this is a very tough decision so we need a description of each sandcastle design so we know who to truly pick.” Jihyo explains and Dahyun quickly clears her throat because she wanted to explain hers first. “I made a happy tuwtle family ‘cause it's SUPER cute.” Dahyun put emphasis on the word ‘super’ because it wasn't a basic type of cute, it was the best even though it looked like blobs. Chaeyoung glares at Dahyun's creation before she explained her sandcastle “I made evewyone hewe.” She simply states and she shows her creation with full confidence. Next up was Tzuyu and Sana to say what theirs was, well it's more like Tzuyu will speak and Sana would just do whatever she wanted “Um we did a pwincess since we awe ones” Tzuyu tells 3Mix while she made sure that Sana didn't eat any sand.

Nayeon, Jeongyeon and Jihyo huddled together once more to decide the winner and after a minute they decided on the winner. “This was a very difficult thing to judge since they're all amazing but we have decided to give the win too Sana and Tzuyu” Jeongyeon revealed which made Tzuyu cheer happily and hug Sana, she was kicking her feet along with giggling loudly because of Tzuyu's reaction to them winning. Meanwhile with Dahyun and Chaeyoung, they refused to be sore losers so they congratulated the winners.

By the end of it all everyone was playing in the sand even the caregivers because it was a great way to bond since they were now all playing together. They did this until darkness started to arrive and they all went home, but Sana decided to store some sand in the pockets of her pants because she liked the feeling of it.

Hiiii I hope you all enjoyed reading this at whatever time of the day you read this at. Anyway how do you guys feel about Twice's 13th mini album coming out? Personally I'm excited and I think it's going to be something similar to Feel Special and When We Were Kids for the meaning.

[sleephyuns]

please rank the most likely to bottom in tied together au 🙏

1. Jeongyeon. Like yeah she doesn’t really have a single topping bone in her body, but she also actively wants to bottom because it’s what she likes the best. Likes feeling overpowered once she gets in the right headspace for it.

2. Nayeon/Momo. Tied because Nayeon is queen of power bottoming but also likes topping her wife. When she’s with Jeongyeon she tops ofc. When it’s Najeonghyo, and on the rare times she and Jihyo mess around with each other (usually it’s the both of them fucking Jeongyeon), she bottoms for Jihyo. Usually it’s if Jeongyeon’s tired so Nayeon is nice and lets Jihyo finish with her. Momo loves submitting whether she’s topping or bottoming. Just wants to be ordered around really. She somehow manages to top Jeongyeon but Nayeon’s usually there and pulling the reigns really lol. With Mina she switches and with Sana she bottoms. So they’re both like 50/50 with all relationships.

3. Mina. Currently in the story, she usually tops. Like I said switches with Momo occasionally, but still. She did buy a strap just for Momo to use on her when she’s in the mood.

4. Jihyo. Would have been last until Sana came into her life and shook things up. Now she lets herself bottom as a treat.

5. Sana. Likes having control so it just comes naturally. Might bottom once in a blue moon but even then it would be power bottoming. Tops Momo, used to top Mina and now tops Jihyo too. Let’s see who’ll bottom for her next… 🫢

[jihyocentric]

ERMM..now that i think about it, jeonghyo in general 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩

i'll think about it, bestie! my heart is always open for najeonghyo sooo... i'll see if i can make it fit with one of my next jeonghyo fills. i'm probably only posting drabbles in july though bc this month i really don't have any time to write ☹️

[chaerrytwice]

3mix

[otwicepairing]

3mix ft. Tzuyu/∞

[placeoroutlet]

➢ᅠ➢ᅠ➢

[kfantasies]

Just imagine 2yeon teaming up to Dom Jihyo...

Alright get this

Restless babaygirl!jihyo  not being able to sleep one night

She tries to force herself back to sleep

But she just ends up tossing and turning every few minutes

She attempts to wake them up

The first time she is unsuccessful and she is met with an annoyed jeongyeon who tells her to go to sleep

It takes a mix of whining and grinding against the both of them to wake them up

Nobody even bothers turning on the bedroom light

They make quick work of her clothes

She’s whimpering as soon as she feels their hands come in contact with her skin

Her noises are quickly silenced by two fingers slipping into her mouth(they’re not nayeon’s she can tell because they’re not as long)

Without warning, nayeon enters three fingers at a quick pace

Her hips respond in seconds rocking in sync with nayeon’s fingers

Lips are on her neck, nipping roughly at her sensitive skin

Everything is happening so fast and jihyo’s making a mess all over the bed and jeongyeon and nayeon’s fingers

Jeong’s fingers are out of her mouth and holding onto her hips as soon as her whines turn into heavy breaths

She knows as soon as nayeon switches to one finger that they’re not going to let her come

She can’t even find her voice to beg them to let her

[butchyeons]

Love the 3mix au, any spare headcannons sfw or nsfw it’s up to u? keep up the good writing love ur work :D

omg tysm!! i’ve got other fic ideas so i’m sure you’ll see more from them. but for now here’s some stuff i accidentally left out of the original post/other stuff i’ve thought about! these are all sfw lmao

every night nayeon makes jeongyeon’s lunch. she also meal preps for jihyo, too. jeongyeon is more of a snacker due to her being outside and on her feet all the time- she just doesn’t have a big appetite. so nayeon makes sure to pack her lighter, protein/nutrient packed snacks + a few refillable water bottles. meanwhile with jihyo, she needs to eat bigger meals- she doesn’t get time to snack throughout the day due to the nature of her job. she also leaves for work for a few days at a time before coming back home for a few days. so nayeon does her best to meal prep things that she knows jihyo likes and will actually eat. both of them also get handwritten notes every single time bc of course they do (jeongyeon’s construction crew always makes fun of them, but she doesn’t care one bit)

since jeongyeon’s getting older, and bc she’s so clumsy and loves to just not lift things correctly, her back hurts a lot. lmao. so jihyo often gives her massages before they go to bed, so long as she has the energy for it

jihyo rlly wants a cat but jeongyeon rlly wants a dog, which is why they haven’t made a decision on getting a pet still

jihyo also rlly loves frogs. like they’re probably a special interest of hers. she rlly wants a pet frog but nayeon is terrified of them 😭 so she has settled with a tiny frog plushie that she keeps on the dashboard in her car. nayeon gave it to her for her first birthday they got to celebrate together after getting together

she also has a set of scrubs that are covered in pictures of frogs. the kids really love them. she also has a set of scrubs with unicorns, tigers, and cats. often times she’ll keep little toys and pieces of candy in her pockets for the really young kids she works with. more than once they’ve found toy cars in the washing machine from where she forgot to take them out of her pockets

jeongyeon and nayeon were actually next door neighbors growing up. nayeon’s mom always told her to stay away from jeongyeon- “she’s a troublemaker” “she’s one of those”. but we all see how that turned out

one of their favorite things to do all together is having a movie night once a month. they all pick of movie (which is so hard bc they all have different tastes) and then afterwards they will critique the ever loving hell out of it. they keep a list of the movies they watched over the year and have an awards ceremony at the end of the year in the damn living room 😭 they all get dressed up for it!! nayeon picks all the winners, much to jeonghyo’s dismay

jeongyeon loves to bicker with both of them. she’s always teasing them. najeong have argued like an old married couple since they were kids, and nayeon swears up and down that’s a love language all of its own. jeongyeon always has to find some way to get under jihyo’s skin. but they both love it so much. meanwhile, nahyo fully never left the honeymoon phase. they’re always so sappy with each other!! they’re each other’s babies fr- emotional support futch/femme + their big dumb loser idiot butch

ok that’s all for now. i rlly love this au so bad if y’all can’t tell. i’m gonna try to write more for them soon!!

[twicetagramjpg]

i know all of twice care for each other, but who are the closest friends? i am just getting to know them and i am curious about it :)

hmmm honestly idk this is hard question.. but i mean just from my observation namo are like attached at the hip LMAO but also dachaengtzu, najeonghyo, jline are all close! i would recommend watching time to twice episodes to get to know each member more and seeing their different friendships :D

[twicearoundthesun]

I just read your supernatural au on AO3 and omg IT WAS SO INTERESTING

Also are we going to find out more about the past from Dahyun, Momo and Sana? I'm curious about the past from them all but I think I'm the most interested in the past from those three. And is there a mc? At the beginning I thought it was NaJeonghyo but then I thought it was Chae and now I'm not sure LMAO. Sorry for asking so much I'm just curious. Thank you and have a great day.

Also I'm now 🍩 changed it cause I found out there is already a 🍫

-🍩

I'M SO GLAD YOU LIKE IT!!!

Yeah! The next chapter actually has a Samo flashback. Dahyun will be eventually, I have part of a flashback about her written but it won't be for a few chapters yet... I'm neglecting Dubu a bit in that story at the moment oof. I'll fix it i promise!

Mc=main character? Nope, I want it to be about all of them. NaJeongHyo's been at it the longest and theyre kinda in charge, and Chaeyoung has grown up around all of this, and they have the mystery of their parents' disappearance looming over them in the story, but Mina's got that interesting past that she can't even remember, Momo's their strongest fighter & Sana holds them together and the two of them came from somewhere not so great, Dahyun and Tzu are their babies with troubled pasts who are gonna be very very important to the plot soon....... I want each of them to be like important & interesting to the story in some way.

Oh! Honestly i think you both popped up at the same time, i don't think choco bar anon was taken last week. I didn't realize there were two of you! Welcome!

[petitecatto]

💌 ꒰ nayeon, jeongyeon, and jihyo icons, najeonghyo headers! ꒱

like or reblog if you save! ♡

don’t repost.

[pupvivi]

Can aunties najeonghyo visit the kids and they get to see jeong's form? 👀

Oh I can see them thinking Auntie Jeongyeon being the coolest while Momo just needs to be held by her closest wife due to this betrayal.

"We have the blood of dragons, but they think Jeongyeon is cooler." Momo fake cries.

Nayeon snorts and Jihyo rolls her eyes.

[otwicepairing]

3mix/∞

[milfsana]

I feel bad for Jeongyeon stans but at this point your right Nayeon and Jihyo are gonna get all the lines and we just have to accept it at this point. Personally I've just stopped caring about line distributions unless someone gets no lines.

The only way for Jeongyeon to have more lines is to debut a NaJeongHyo subunit. And even here Jihyo and Nayeon as the main vocals will have more parts to sing. It is what it is.