#nabobo lang ako

[s-ixx]

Nabobo ako kausap mga tao sa fb marketplace, ang lakas pa mag haggle ng mga tao don. kapag sinabi mong fixed price, mag offer pa rin sila ng mas mababa sa presyo mo. naka-indicate na nga sa description lahat ng details, hindi pa basahin. buti na lang mabilis ako nakabenta sa phclassifieds. putek, sakit sa ulo.

[sselleb]

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Good bye contractual-ization! loljk Just left my 2019-mid 2023 (4.5-year time span) part-time/RA/GA/full-time jobs in UP or academe sector. I was initially feeling really emotional (just don't let my colleagues see it) because I really treasure my experiences there, and the people I met there. Nalulungkot nga ako na di ko sila nabilhan ng gift at di rin ako nakapagpapicture tas nakapag-official byebye na ako sa office. <insert supposed last day picture ko sana sa work ko> Throwback time. Late 2018. I got an email from my adviser if I have some spare time to do some freelancing research job while reviewing for boards. Of course I said yes. As if naman nag-aaral talaga ako sa boards lol. Then there I met Ate Janel (officially i guess. met her already in Solar during undergrad pero quick hellos lang), Kuya Leo, Kuya Billy, Carlo, Ate Jade. Naging 2 separate research jobs pa 'to because another company was interested on a different electric vehicle segment. Notable person in this job: Ate Janel! Really fascinated sa pagiging organized ni Ate Janel. One of the people na I look up to when it comes to being "manager" and "leader". She has great people and communication skills. Also yung work experience ko dito with Ate Janel, I consider it as my keystone job experience sa professional/personal life ko haha. I significantly improved my "stranger" communication skills here; doing cold emails, calls, and meetings. Really appreciate yung one-time casual comment from her na nagimprove yung "introvertness" ko during this time. Ni di ko nga alam kung nag-thank you ako pero up to this time naalala ko pa haha. Sweetest person ever too! Always check my welfare nung namatay si Papa, nung nagkacovid ako mag-isa, nung may sunog sa knl. SUPER LOVE HER. DESERVE ALL THE BEST IN THE WORLD. Then, comes 2019. I was working as graduate assistant for Intelect x CHRG project. Worked with Kuya Billy, Juls, at Aaron for the tech of the charging station. Very rewarding yung naging dev ko dito kasi ang multi-function yung last board ko hehe. Even now kaya ko iutilize yung old board ko to do simple relay switching.

Notable person of the job: Kuya Billy! He was also nice to work with, and genuinely funny person rin. Galing ng labview skills! Didn't know I can do "logging" from my UART comm lines to save csv in a laptop during battery characterization. Very very helpful rin kapag may times na nabobo na ako kasi di ko alam solution sa noisy signals ko. He's the type of person na gusto ko maging technical lead/manager kasi you'll feel na yung output mo ay important at impactful; and very hands-on sya sa technical dev.

Fast forward 2021, I was hired as full-time researcher for a project building a novel motor. Hooray! First full-time job ko 'to. Honestly, I don't know kung anong specific job description ko rito, I was expecting to code and do embedded pero di natuloy. I was just trying my best to assist in whatever output is needed or if assistance is needed. Halfway the project rin kasi ako umalis. Overall feeling ko in this work experience was mostly guilt.. Felt really guilty leaving Kuya Soren alone sa project kahit verbally na nya inexpress na mahirap kapag umalis ako kasi testing na sa next phase huhuhu. Sorry po. Notable person of the job: Kuya Soren syempre! Ang talino and creative nya. Very expressive rin sya kapag nageexplain/nagsusulat. Which actually I liked kasi sa mga narrative reports, naiintindihan ko yung thought process nya sa research/design/tests, nagfefeeling matalino rin tuloy ako haha. Kidding aside, grabe hands down po, one man team talaga! Top notch yung technical at engineering skills! Learned so much about mechanical design, motor control, and academic paper writing working under SRM. There were moments na sinasabi ng peers ko na it's time to go outside UP projects na kasi wala raw mentorship dito. Pero pinaglalaban kong mentor ko sila Kuya Soren at Sir Lew kasi dami ko naman natutunan under SRM. Which actually with the benefit of hindsight, I took for granted. Hays. Sana nagawa/ginagawa ko na thesis ko eh! Year 2022-2023. Been involved with various part-time research consultancy projects and e-trike E&E design. Honestly, this 1.5 year experience was actually the moment in my life that I felt so underachieved. Haven't moved on with any progress on my thesis. Haven't even got my component deployed on the e-trike testing. I know I'm trying so hard to make sense of my debugging and be as attentive as I can be on other tasks for the projects. But I felt most of the time, I'm talking to myself. I was supposed to be the "expert." But I know I'm not. There were moments I'm thinking maybe I'm just getting more dumb as day the goes by. Or most likely, I just didn't ask for the support I needed. All I know is that I hate working on this specific SDK from TI that I can't reconfigure arghhh HAHAHA daming bugs magalaw mo lang ng onti. Maybe naging successful pa ako kung sinulat ko lahat from scratch. Mygad. Notable person of the job: Kuya Leo, of course! Friendly to everyone tapos mahilig sa chismis lol. Isa sa mga gusto kong skills na maadapt from Kuya Leo ay yung presentation skills nya. Very knowledgeable and confident kasi yung aura nya haha. Alsooo, naalala ko from the very first day of my onboarding sa NICER, everything I needed was procured. Kahit dami kong problema (technically speaking), he's always reminding me don't be pressured and may workaround sya so I can take my time. Nasobrahan na ata sa leniency though huhu. Feel ko talaga baby na baby ako sa team kahit as a senior srs haha. And then that day came, I was told that the next round of the funding will not be pushed through, and we'll have to look for other opportunities with 3 working days before the end of the month (!!). I just repeat this thought in my head: "Syempre after all my internal drama, it's just business. Walang funding. Walang income, syempre. I should not take things personally, all is just business. " Ahhhh I know I am ending this at a sad note. But I am really sad hahahuhu. I felt so underachieved and I don't like the feeling of it. I can wait for the next round of funding/projects and continue with my R&D life (and lecturer/teaching too).. but I strongly crave some control in my life and di rin naman ako mayaman. Iniisip ko kung waiting for the next funding lang ba talaga kaya ko gawin. Di ko ba kaya solusyunan yung current problem ko which was: wala akong kontrata at this moment?

So I tried applying in industry and selling my skill set out there. I sent multiple applications for embedded/firmware engineer na may hybrid / WFH set-up (oo choosy ako hahahaha) I got an offer that met my expected salary. Full WFH set-up. With trainings pa. Ang chill pa ng mga technical interviewers/future teammates ko. My immediate supervisor was even yung delivery manager na ng division. Sa utak ko, hulog nang langit na yung opportunity. The only reason why I will decline this is kung SUPER LOVE KO MAGSTAY SA UP. But not really. Gusto ko lang iend yung MS ko kaya ako nagsstay. That's it. So I accepted the industry job offer. 3 days nalang before my starting date. Yayyy. THE END.

[atamabs]

18/365

1st shift ko na wfh.

It was hell. Yung pressure, stress, at taranta ramdam na ramdam mo. Para akong nabobo sa ibang cases kasi di ko alam gagawin. Biglang pumasok yung memories ni access na wala kang kasupport support kahit meron naman si cogni. Hindi pa kumakagat yung aux for documentation kaya habang nagdodocu ka for your previous case bigla na lang magring yung soft phone mo. Shuta.

Meron akong isang call, ayaw nya tanggapin yung reason ko. Naghanap sya ng pharmacist... tinanong pa nya ko if alam ko ba ginagawa ko. Yung ego ko as pharmacy shit at yung ego ko as bpo agent natapakan ng malala. Sabay eh! Walang preno! Tapos yung supervisor na pinasahan ko ng call— taena yung feels nya parang ready sya manapak if may mali akong sasabihin! Kahit ba thru phone yung boses nya kasing lamig ng yelo! After nung call nagpaalam ako sa tl ko ng mental health aux, buti nagegets nya ko sa part na yon kaya pinayagan ako. I cri. Shutangina

2nd to the last call ko yon buti na lang medyo maayos yata yung last call ko.

Hays

[will-be-the-chase-forever]

I don't know but I want to share this, tumblr may not be the right place but dudes can be really so fuckin scary

Naglalakad kami kanina kasama ko yung pamangkin ko and she's 11 yrs old bumili kami ng ulam, tapos nadaanan ko yung bahay ng kaklase ko nung SHS andun siya sa tapat nila nakaupo along with his friends di ko alam kung tropa niya talaga yun.

And he pointed out how my body and my face changed and plainly joke abt it "Ang laki na niyan ah" one of his friends asked for barya pang yosi I refused kase di ko naman siya kilala. For all the wrong reasons i never thought someone will do something nasty towards me. Someone hug me from the back and grabbed my boobs so hard and caresses my hips, girl ang sakit pukinangina pumiglas ako, sabay yuko kase parang nahiya ako.

tapos lumakad na kami kesa patulan ko pa umiwas nalang kami kumbaga kasi bata yung kasama ko at baka kung mapano pa kung magiiskandalo pa kami tsaka ewan ko nashook ako di ko alam gagawin ko nabobo ako.

Kinurot ako ni Iya kasi bakit di ko daw binawian sinabi ko nalang kilala ko naman yun, kaklase ko yun nalungkot ako para sa sarili ko kasi I used to be so intimidating and maldita pero wala akong nagawa, natakot naman ako para sa pamangkin ko kasi kung ako na trans nangyayari sakin yun pano pa kung sakanya na na tunay na babae. Sinabi ko nalang sakanya na kapag siya lang lalabas wag na wag siyang papabastos bumawi siya sampalin niya yung solid kase alam ko kaya niya naiyak ako lalo nung nagiinsist siya na balikan namin pero di ko talaga kaya.

Girls Ingat kayo 🥺🥰

[love-amihan]

random chikading ko lang: kanina lumabas kami ni ate kasi bibili siya ng bra tas nung magbabayad na kami inalok ako ng bra tas sabi ko ayoko, tas bigla ba namang sinabi sakin 😔 ayaw mo ba yung may foam (nabobo ako sa spelling yaan mo na) magmukha kang tomboy ay bakla pala 😔 di masakit arouch – yō's alter ego

yawa naman kay kuya manong/ate manang, grabihan sa words 😔 sapikin ko siya one time para mag-sorry siya agad 😤

[captain-jinji]

Reflective Journal #1

The transition of traditional to online classes isn't easy. I never really talk that much so the things that I might say here won't make sense and i just wanna get this out of my system in some way. I can't really focus on the online classes no matter how hard I try. I feel like a lot of us who enrolled this term isn't doing it to advance but rather to not get left behind. Online classes took a toll on my mental health plus hindi siya akma sa learning style ko. I gotta admit, I really am struggling from online modular class. But I still managed to get through it don't worry.

I felt like I forced myself too much to do things that I can't normally do. Which I finally realized about myself. I should have asked for help rather than struggling. I’m lucky to have someone na hindi ako hinayaan mahirapan. These past few days ilang oras ako nagaattempt sagutan yung pinapagawa sa amin pero di ko pa rin talaga maintindihan yung iba. Hindi ko maiwasang mafrustrate. I don’t know kung nabobo na ba talaga ako, or gawa lang ng learning approach or masyado lang ako nag-iisip or all of the above lol. Hindi naman ako nagbre-breakdown dati pero ngayon halos araw-araw na. Dami kong sinasabi okay.

Hindi ako sanay sa ganitong setup and i know na marami akong reklamo yun kase nararamdaman ko at sa totoo lang ang hirap talaga ng online class. Hindi makafocus ng maayos at the same time iba yung atmosphere. Bukod sa andaming distraction at temptation, ibang iba din talaga yung interaction sa online class. Pero dahil ayoko mapag iwanan hanggat kaya ko gawin itutuloy ko kase ito na ang new normal online classroom setting eh, may magagawa ba ako? Kung meron man siguro hindi nalang ako nag aral at next year ko nalang binalak pero hindi ko pinili yon kasi sayang ang taon eh, kahit nahihirapan ako sa ganitong setup nandito na ako and no choice na ako. Hindi naman sumagi sa isip ko na sumuko at kahit mahirap ang ganitong setup para sa akin at marami akong reklamo gusto ko rin naman ‘to eh yun lang ang hirap lang talaga kase hindi ko expected na magiging ganon ang result nitong online class i thought it was easy pero it’s a big NO mahirap matuto sa ganitong situation kailangan mo lang imotivate sarili mo para ipagpatuloy ang nasimulan mo. I still managed to get through it. Aight rant is over.

[okk9tsu]

ok so🥶🥶🥶 bigla ako nawala idk bat ko pinahirapan sarili ko pero it was so sudden i was trying to figure out how to get ur ring size😭 medyo nabobo ako kanina😭😭😭 o @kei ‘di pa ko pagpapakasal ha😔✋ HAHAHAHAHAH CHAROT I CAN SEE HIM SAYING “who says i will??” PFJRJHRKR HAHAHAHA😭😭😭😭K.O.🥶👍💯 so yeah i was buying rings since it’s live it took 3hrs😭😭😭😭 HDKDJKEJEJFK hindi ko din alam bat ko ginawa pero ok😭😭🥶 lmao hope u ate na i feel sabaw😭😭😭😭

HAHAHAHAHHA SINABI TALAGA AGAD KAY KEI NA AYAW PA MAG PA KASAL 😭😭 'who says i will' POTA PAG AKO IKAW MA HAHAMPAS KO TALAGA YAN 😭 TAS SABAY PUNTA KAY USHI AT MAGPAKASAL SAKANYA CHAROT AHAHAH mag seselos naman pag sinabi mo na edi iba na lang pagpapakasalan mo 😒😒 bitch pick a struggle the fawk 😐 !! WAIT MAY NABILI KANG RINGS?? :00 I LOVE BUYING RINGS THEY'RE SO PRETTY :(( AND IT MAKES MY HAND PRETTY TOO :(( IMAGINE MATCHING RINGS KA WITH KEI AHHH KILIG AKO <33 CUTE NON SIGE BONGGA GUSTO MO YON?? USTO KO YONNN

[rhyrztl]

Yesterday..

Ilang araw na kong naghahanap ng work sa jobstreet, indeed , monster at kung saan saan pa.. then kahapon may dalawang nagtext for exam ng interview daw.. edi ayun di ko nireplyan.. BECAUSE IM NOT REALLY SURE ABOUT MYSELF..

That’s why I talked to bryan.. feeling ko kasi di enough or di maganda yung experience ko.. should i start from the buttom again? Kasi iba yung kalakaran sa malalaking company unlike sa previous work ko.. as in parang nabobo ako.. ayun sabi ni bryan feeling ko lang daw yun.. nagkataon naman na may inaapplyan sila ni lj so nirecommend nila ako.. i got a phone interview then may one day process sila..

Tapos ngayon nabasa ko yung email nung tumawag sakin.. and then my world fall apart ulit 💔😭 parang di ko kaya yung responsibilities.. parang “am i fit to that job”.. kaloka! im doubting myself again again and again.. tang ina di ko alam kung tutuloy ako sa saturday.. penge naman pong self confidence yung sobra sobra ah!

IM REALLY PRAYING NA SANA PAG PINUSH KO TO EH MAGING MAAYOS, I MEAN MAHIRED NA KO.. KASI KUNG HINDI TANG INA PARANG GUSTO KO NA LANG TUMAMBAY! 💔💔💔😭😭😭

[l0verseyes]

aahhhh salamat po talaga sa advice!!!!! gahd sisimulan ko na mag aral kahit summer pa lang. ust din yung ate ko :)) sa senior high kasi ang hirap ng lessons tas sobrang hirap ng exam parang nabobo ako nang todo huhu kaya kabado ako sa college pero idadaan na lang sa tiyaga :) thank u po uli!!

np np!!! just dont take it too seriously try to have fun too ehehe

[viluvr-archived]

ginalingan ko po mami kaso kasi yung math tas sci nabobo ako di kasama sa nilesson ni sir yung iBang questions👹👹👹

-orig anakshie😎

💔💔💔 ok lang yan sablay din ako sa math, math lang 😝😝😝 sige mag Susalat aq mamaya 😈😈😈😈

[mariaaaadosssss]

gosh nakakaloka itong april, ewan ko ba tuwing birthmonth ko ganito simula nung college ata hahahahaha. Well kahit okay ka sa lahat hindi mo napapansin na nakakadrain pala talaga no? Yung ramdam mo yung pagod sa lahat. Iba din talaga ang buhay. Magiging okay din ang lahat, ayoko nanaman dumating ako sa point na wala na akong ganang pumasok at lumabas. At ewan magulo lang last month pa ako hindi makapagwork ng maayos parang drain yung utak ko kahit may ideas at gagawin parang ayaw gumana nabobo na ata ako ganon yung peg. Hindi ko na alam, paano ako magiging mayaman neto kung ganito? Diba?nakakapagod na din yung laging late ang lahat basta masyadong hindi pwedeng ikwento. Tapos yung iba na matagal ka ng walang pake alam may mga fakenews pangkinakalat sabi nga ng isang friend ko masyadong mataas ang tingin sa sarili, wala na akong pake eh pero ayaw magtigil kapag hindi pa tumigil naku siya na talaga putanhan ko kasi ang ganda na ng peace of mind ko simula ng nawala sila tapos ganyan sana okay ka lang teh, buti sana kung totoo eh hindi naman. Grabe talaga yung holyweek ngayon nagstart ng hindi maganda pero may part na masaya pa rin. Basta ewan parang may nagjijinz ng life ko pero papatalo ba ako be kahit sabihin kong ayoko na hindi naman ako susuko ako pa. basta ewan. Hahahahaha natatawa na lang ako. Fighter ako be. Magulo talaga ang isip ko. Basta yung mga dasal ko at wish okay na ako. Yung crush ko hello sana magkita na tayo kasi kung hindi ikaw ang magiging jowa ko sayang naman hahahahahaha ilang years na tayo hindi nagkikita pero crush pa rin kita, ano bang need kong gawin para kahit magreact or magpm ka sa story ko? Tangina naman. gusto ko ng yumaman sa totoo lang dapat 30yrs mayaman na ako tapos may malaking business na or company ilang yrs na lang yun. Basta hindi talaga ako magsesettle sa less.

[lihamsaasawa]

Ngayon ko lang napag add add mga dates. Nabobo ako bigla puta haha

[statusquo-ante]

Recently lang ulit ako nagbukas nito. Dami na yatang bagong features ng site/app at nabobo ako bigla haha nag-play ako music sa isa sa posts tapos may lumabas na player sa baba. At yun na nga, hindi ko na alam paano alisin. May ginawa ako na hindi ko alam kung ano pero nawala siya. Deactivate ko nalang kaya to at delete ko na yung app hahah

[tedsminion]

lods wag moko murahin sensitive ako /j di ko rin naman naintindihan para akong nabobo sa mga shortcut na salita 🙂 di ako marunong mag comfort sa dm nalang ba? - ▼・ᴥ・▼

Sorry sorry </3 pero wala share ko lang. kamusta ka naman bae?

[itsofficiallyme-ailnrms]

Long Story

So I have a boyfriend na guys!!!!!!! Can you believe it? No? Yeah me too! I finally commit to someone na. HAHA Feb. 07, 2021 we are doing fine as of now. Malapit na din kami mag one month. Today is march 2nd! We met sa dating online app! Yeaaaahh finally someone’s decent and a lot better, I finally get what I want. But hey our story doesn’t end there actually, we are just starting✨

Mid of October I remember we match and started to chat. Chat na puro stickers lang haha. That time may nanliligaw sakin, remember james? Yeah James the builder charot. I was so focus kay james kase bet ko sya ih. But at the same time I’m checking my tantan from time to time kase si james walang pake sakin. I felt it. He just want me kapag convenient sakanya. It sucks I know. I even had a hard time leaving him coz akala ko magbabago pa sya. Stupid me for believing to that idea lol. Anyway, so yeah I’m talking to Mr. Bean and also there’s another guy that wanted to meet me that time din. Mr. bean is malayo and the other guy is malapit lang buttttt Mr. Bean wanted to see meeeeee! Yieeee kahit malayo sya. Si other guy kase palagi din busy so we didn’t have a chance to met di nagtutugma sched.

Hiningi ni Mr. Bean yung messenger ko but I give him my ig account and from there I found out what’s his name. My loves name is Jomel🌻 HAHA lagyan natin sunflower coz he is my ray of sunshine! Uhmmm okay ang lande HAHAHA We first met December 1st. That’s also the time I ended on what’s going on between me and james. I reject him na finally. I also send long messages to him rejecting him I dunno if he read it but whatever, I need my peace of mind. Kase feeling ko that time when James started to court me ang gulo gulo ng buhay ko. Bigla akong nabobo naging tanga. Bastaaa HAHA ang sama. Butttt little did I know there will be someone na ibabalik ang inner peace ko. Pasokkk baby! HAHAHA chz.

So yeahh we started dating Dec. 1st I don’t know if he’s real or just wanna play games..... until now I’m not yet so sure about that. But he always says he serious about me- well lahat naman ganun talaga sasabihin if ever you are attracted to someone for a while (oh sorry for being overthinker😅) but can you blame me? Nakita ko na yan before eh. Naranasan ko na. Potekkk. Marami lang talaga kong bad decisions that’s why I overthink a lot. If we continue dating is it the right choice I’m making for the first time? You know??? I want to do right choice now. I guess I’m making right choice. You are my right choice Jomel💕 cheezy ko mejj kadiri.

So yeah, dating dating dating hanggang sa naging kami na. And sana tumagal pa. I really hope we ended up marrying each other. I just want him. And he’s so nice. He always assured me that he loves me everyday. He’s making effort to see me. To feel loved. Ang kinaiinisan ko lang sakanya, parang tinatago nya ko. Hays is it becoz maaga pa? Kase feb lang naman naging kami eh😏 haysss siguro legal both sides ill be satisfied kung ano meron kami. Diko na hihilingin ipost nya ko sa socmed nya. Makilala lang ako ng side nya okay nako. That’s my only wish right now.

[abibiyuki]

Kagabe, bago ako matulog, nagdasal ako na bigyan ako ng sign kung dapat na ba akong pumasok sa work. Mahigit 6mos na din kasi nung huling duty ko. Di naman ako natatakot para sa sarili ko, natatakot akong mahawaan ko mga kapatid at pamangkin ko kung sakaling magkaroon ako dahil sa pagpasok ko. Also, kaya naman maka survive kahit hindi pa magwork. Pero kagabe, di alam. Bigla ko lang naisip na manghingi ng sign. Tapos di ako nakatulog ng maayos. Hahahahahahahahahahhaha Shet! Tnry ko isipin yung card rules, medyo nabobo ako! Literal na hindi ko maalala. At nalilito ako sa rules. So sabi ko, mukhang di pa ako ready pumasok. But, alam kong kaya naman. Konting refresh lang para mabuhay uli mga brain cells ko na 6mos nang natutulog. Lol

Sa COMMISSION talaga ako kinakabahan. Baka bobo na ako kumuha ng 5% at mag payout. Hahaha

P.S

Nagcomment pa din pala ako sa post nila on who's willing na mag stay in sa hotel. Para daw sa mga walang modes of transpo papuntang work. Shet nakakakaba. Parang 1st day uli. 😂