#n e ways thanks for asking for this

[emry-stars-art]

Have you ever heard the noises axolotls make? its kinda quiet blub!, when they reach the surface of the water to gulp down some air. Anyway any time i see JellyNeil my mind immediately goes to Neil just making that noise

I HAVE NOW. wow I made a reel for the first time in forever just so I could get this across properly, here you go

(Audio from this YouTube video)

Find the mer au masterpost here 💕

[catscidr]

your blog triggered my homosexual tendencies again. thanks a lot. Please give omega dottore the fattest kiss from me straight on the lips. Let me suck him good

fuck a conveniently shaped omegattore mask is blocking the view oh no……. there’s too much tongue, obligatory censorship

[oorangesoda]

I would like to inform you that your Mr Qi and Callum piece now has irreparable brain worms obliterating my brain.

I legitimately think about this piece constantly so I gotta ask what is the lore behind it all? This has me theorising so bad I pulled up a notebook at one 😭

Again, incredible piece, but PLEASE I need piece of mind I can't stay up at night wondering about the lore implications of Mr Qi personally knowing Callum's pop and it's effect on the CSU (Callum Stardew Universe) even a crumb would do.

First of all:

THANK YOU POOKIEEEEEE 💚💚💚💚 it genuinely means a lot that you enjoy it so much, kinda surreal too?? I’d love to know what theories you’ve come up with so far! (also I’m now forever obsessed with the abbreviation CSU thats actually hilarious to me)

I’m gonna be so honest with you though, a lot of the ideas I have surrounding Mr. Qi and his involvement in the valley - more specifically in regards to Callum and his Pop - are very loose and all over the place. I’m kinda working on writing something more cohesive, so if anything I say now doesn’t make sense or gets cut in the future just keep that in mind :’)

In Callums case, if we’re referencing back to my original Qi post, I like to think that in Pop’s midlife - when the farm is well established and he’s still very spry and capable - Pop is approached by Qi during an trip into the lower levels of the mines, and offered a deal. The contents of that deal however aren’t entirely revealed to Pop at the time, and ultimately leads to a series of conflicts between the two (Pop and Qi) and some very traumatic events not caused by Qi directly but as indirect consequences of the deal or poor judgement on Pops part.

Unfortunately for Callum, because of the way things “ended” between his Pop and Qi, he faces the brunt of Qi’s discontentment/dissatisfaction. Although Qi’s involvement in Cals life doesn’t really kick in until about half way through year 2 of being in the valley. But there are little things that begin to reveal themselves to Cal the longer he lives in and explores the valley. Unfortunately x2 it does end up effecting Cal and Shane’s relationship BUUUUUT that’s a convo for another time ;) (<- aka I haven’t fleshed that part out yet)

[that-was-anticlimactic]

"can you stay?" + atsushi & kyouka

"can you stay?"

atsushi's voice trembles as they speak, and kyouka freezes.

"nevermind."

atsushi laughs almost immediately, blinking away the impending tears and wavng their hands in front of them. "sorry. you don't... that was stupid of me to say. i'm-"

"stop apologizing."

kyouka slides beside them, curling up against their side. she head plops on their shoulder.

they're warm and shakey, and kyouka feels soft on atsushi's neck.

"i don't mind staying."

honestly, she wanted to stay. no matter how many times she watches atsushi - her sibling by everything but blood - get stabbed, the more she fears for them.

it's a little foolish, she knows; she's been familiar with blood and death and gore since her parents died. limbs being torn off and blood slowly oozing out of the body doesn't scare her.

but it does when she sees it happening to atsushi.

(and she doesn't say anything, but atsushi isn't the only one who gets nightmares - she's just better at keeping them quiet)

"you're just a kid..." atsushi mumbles, breaths shaky and uneven. "you shouldn't have to-to comfort me."

even so, kyouka soon feels the cool pads of their compression gloves rubbing her wrist.

"doesn't matter," she says, because she knows you're still a kid, too only upsets them more.

"okay."

they whisper it so quietly the only reasons kyouka hears it is because of her assassin training.

good.

she snuggles closer still and listens to their heartbeat. it starts off quick, but gradually falls until it's steady.

and kyouka is able to fall asleep with the reminder that her sibling is still alive.

(send me a sentence (+ a ship/character) and i'll write the next five sentences)

[deus-ex-mona]

o h hey that’s mona (wearing the costume sena designed) on a billboard at the same spot as sena’s hanicos display from kawaiku naritai—

[poisonheadcrabsalesman]

sad prompt time:

Naval officer visits Fernando's family to inform them that the Infinity is lost, presumed destroyed

There are men in uniforms waiting on their porch when he comes home.

His wife, his dear wife, shutters away all her emotions and becomes stone faced. He wishes he could copy her.

The notification officers confirm who he is and then they give him the news, as if they hadn't already figured out why two Navy boys were standing on their porch. A ship he doesn't care about lost with one of the few people he had left. Presumed destroyed. No body, no grave, no record of a life lived.

"Deep regret" this and "deepest sympathy" that and a folded flag of a government he hates and the feeling of powerless he hates more. They'd already lost their grandchild and daughter-in-law. They'd already lost their home. This strike is too much to bear and he sags against a chair.

Fernando was supposed to be safe, a civilian on a ship. He wasn't a soldier, he was an engineer. He threw himself into his work after-

They hadn't seen him in months, top-secret posting meaning that calls home were few and far between. Censors reading and rereading every letter between them.

He's struck by the sudden swell of feeling, throat closing as stoppered grief uncorks and streams from his eyes.

When was the last time he saw his son's face not through a screen? Held him in his arms?

The officers tip their heads and march out the door. The flag mocks him from the countertop.

[allpromarlo]

the way yuta says “itadori yuji” in the s2 finale has been lodged in my brain for months now and idk if it’s ever gonna leave

[lexbiini]

25 for the end of year asks!

hiiihihi

25. Did you create any characters (in games, art, or writing) this year? Describe one

yay yippee im so glad u asked >:3

I made. So many guys this year. mostly little ones for uni assignments but also I made at least three that are near and dear to my heart so I'd like to introduce you to a girl who doesn't really have a name (because her story was written in first person and had no dialogue), but I toyed around with calling her Julia.

(don't look too hard at her hands)

She's a 12-13 year old girl who loves frogs and was very excited about theme parks in theory, but became VERY disappointed when she actually had to deal with loud people and long lines and the midday sun while waiting for the flume ride (and with how slow most of the actual ride ended up being). She is not scared of the dark but has a projector night light that makes a bunch of pond fish and frogs swim around her room. She would rather wear rain boots than any other footware in any situation (socks bad unless they have some wiggle room) and has a big chew necklace she doesn't love fashion-wise, but can't argue with the practicality of having it Right There when there's. The Horrors (aforementioned people and sweat and lines and being forced to wear sneakers).

I was obsessed with her for like two weeks and I still love her dearly<3

[maschotch]

whenever I go into a cm rewatch (be it an actual rewatch or just random episodes) i STILL try to be like. ok maybe this time i won't find jj completely irritating...

and every time she's still as irritating as ever afdghfjgj

like I don't know if it's just bias setting in but i swear I notice more and more just how often she sounds so condescending for no damn reason? like girl what is your deal...

i experience the EXACT same thing. i really really try to give her a chance, but i think i just dont like the way she’s written. im pretty sure her character trope is supposed to be “conservative mean girl in high school 10 years later” since they literally call her that, which is a trope im not really a fan of in general. her humor always seems to punch down and make fun of people. like everyone makes fun of reid at some point for being a nerd, but everyone else also engages with him genuinely ab his nerd shit. i honestly cant think of a time jj does that without giving a backhanded compliment (feel free to correct me if im wrong). i definitely might be oversensitive to it but it honestly seems like she HAS to put other people down. that plus the typical shitty cm writing makes her truly unbearable for me

i think what baffles me the most is how popular she is with the fandom. i really just need a jj enjoyer to sit me down and explain her appeal bc after so many rewatches i find more and more reasons to dislike her. ive found ways to make her character interesting to me (she belittles people bc she’s has imposter syndrome, she’s rude to will bc she feels stuck performing heteronormativity, she cant take criticism but is extremely judgmental of others bc thats the environment she was in growing up) but that still doesn’t make me like her any more. theres also shit i dont like about other cm characters too that i disregard as bad writing (early seasons derek misogyny, hotch’s overzealous nationalism, emily’s city girl retcon, etc). i would be willing to do that with jj, but when you take away everything i dont like, there’s not a shred left. shes just A Good Christian Girl™ with Am Attitude™ and A Gun™. and imposters syndrome and internalized lesbophobia

[bangcakes]

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[lia404]

For the writing ask!

🧮💕😊

Why do I keep missing asks? It took longer than you probably thought, but here are some (long long long) answers! And the ask game is here for those who are curious. (Is it better practice to only keep the emoji or to put in the whole question? I went for emoji-only because I find the lack of context amusing, but maybe I'm the only one amused.)

Below the cut: answers, WIPs, tips on my writing process, and rambling.

🧮 - 20 words is not a lot, especially when you're like me and you have many WIPs at once. I like working on all of them little by little, like building puzzles that always end up complete at SOME point.

Malik hates my original character;

Emissaryshipping with a side of smut;

Puzzleshipping beast tamer alternate universe;

Shooting stars. Bang, bang.

Here you are! That's exactly 20. I could add more but the other WIPs are more dormant. I'll get back to them once I'm done with the ones up here.

(I like this "20 words maximum" limit. It reminds me of the snowflake method to build stories in which you have to start by writing your story in only one sentence. It's an incredible starting point. Difficult, too.)

💕 - I hate writing what. More seriously, there are multiple parts I like in my writing process, and while the most satisfying parts really depend on which story I'm writing, I can think of the three parts I like most:

The remnants of a dream: I never write my stories in order, and often begin by the middle or the end. So when I start a new story, I lay down the foundations in bits and pieces that come as they want. It's small sentences, sometimes just words, thrown on the page, kind of like what remains of a dream when you've just woken up, and you're writing things down super fast so you don't forget. The more those tiny pieces appear, the more come to my mind, so at the end of the process, I sometimes have already 2k words written. While it looks completely nonsensical from the outside, it's actually the moment that lays down the bases of the story: these scraps and lines already give a tone to the character, and an idea of how they will react to events. One of the reasons I like this part of the process so much is that it can happen anywhere, and while I sometimes sit down and have so many ideas to throw on the page, usually, I do it little by little. Five minutes in the metro, two sentences when I wake up, taking a break from work by adding a paragraph... Sometimes, when I drag this step for too long, I begin writing elements that are contradictory, but it just helps me see the different possibilities.

The epiphany: in general, it's not an actual epiphany, but rather the moment when I've finally found a way to organise all the bits and pieces in a structured story, with a beginning, an end, a something akin to a plot (even if I am usually guilty of writing too much charastudy.) This step is a lot of cutting and pasting in my document, a lot of "[FIND SOMETHING TO WRITE HERE]" that I try not to forget when I'm editing the story, and other "[JE SAIS PLUS COMMENT ON DIT EN ANGLAIS FIND THE WORD ALREADY]". I write to myself a lot at this stage, to remember why I put this or that paragraph in this or that place. Sometimes, I cut thousands of words and paste them in another document, because they won't make it to the final story. Sometimes, I move paragraphs 10 times before finding where they fit best. At this step, the story is like a massive Swiss cheese, with a good structure but so many holes. I love Swiss cheese.

The Ladybug: actually, this one comes after the writing stage and happens at the editing stage. Its name originates from a glorious episode when I became serious with getting real feedback on my stories before publishing; my partner, who is also a writer and an excellent editor, cast a look at the story, went "...uh", clicked and typed and then turned to me, saying "all the red words on the screen, here? They're adverbs." Until then, I had never noticed how much I overused adverbs, but with so much red in the middle of the black font, the text was looking like a ladybug. So the name stuck. Now, it's not only adverbs: once I'm done with writing, I give the story a short cooldown of at least one day, then read it again with a very critical eye and spot all my written tics. It can be that my characters seem to keep sighing. It might be that they say "yeah" every two sentences. It might be that I've used the structure ", and" or ", but" every sentence for three paragraphs. It could be the ridiculous amount of "get/got", of em dashes, or (because I never learn) of words that end with "-ly". I list all of these. Then I use the research function, and I check how many times they come up and their distribution in the text. And that's when the fun starts: I need to remove them, replace them, reformulate whole sentences, rethink some scenes that are too close to others. It's beyond writing; it becomes a fun game of logics. It's like translating from English to English (or French to French, depending) or playing chess and swapping pieces. And sometimes I also get the satisfaction of discovering that what I thought was an unbearable writing tic actually happened only 3 times in a 6k-word story. The search function can be an incredible tool that gives me an objective point of view where mine is completely distorted by the annoyance of having found yet another ", and" ten times in my story. (As an example, if I were to Ladybug this answer, I'd probably try looking up all the words in "-ing". As I'm writing now, I feel like I've been using a ton of these and not all of them are justified. I could probably rephrase a lot.)

There's another moment I could mention, that I like a lot but still doesn't make the cut to what I "prefer", because it's a bit of a hit or miss. It's The highway, when I've been listening to Freed From Desire in repeat mode for 4 hours straight, my brain has disconnected and my hands are typing who-knows-what. I'm in the zone, and often it feels nice; but most of the time, I'm just very frustrated, because the circumstances around me make it hard to reach this state, and I usually only reach it very late at night. So I'm tired, and upset, and even if it's amazing to reach this level of flow in writing, it's still very uncomfortable.

But now that I sit down and think of it, that does make many moment I like in writing. Maybe I don't hate writing what.

😊 - I write well. If it were in French, I would even dare say I write very well. It's a skill I've been honing for the past 30 years of my life, with a lot of trials and tribulations, really terrible results and surprisingly good ones. I don't think I have the best writing style, because there's no such thing and it's all a matter of taste, but I like the grasp I have on the words and the meaning I want to give them. While I'm not the best at plot, I'm good at structure and pacing. I'm extremely demanding with myself, but not in a crippling perfectionist way anymore. From the outside, this whole paragraph may sound arrogant; the truth is that, while there's very little I am self-confident in, my writing is one of them. So, yeah. My writing in English is what it is, of course, but I know that I write well in my mother tongue. I suppose the way I've seen myself grow and evolve as an author plays a huge part in it. I like the control I have developed over my writing.

Thank youuuu for sending this ask! It was super interesting to answer.

[easeupkid]

36, 72, & 85 for wrapped asks :D

hehehe :)

36. minnesota- samia

72. legs- boyish

85. go as a dream- caroline polacheck

[oorangesoda]

Respectfully, on my knees and in the most polite way possible could I humbly ask for more Farmer Callum with his hair tied up? It quite simply gives me life.

Crunchy? For you? Anything 😌 Callum doesn’t usually tie up his hair unless he’s at home, but this is my world he’s just living in it >;)

Took this as an opportunity to work on facial perspective as well as an excuse for hair up Cal, if you see anything nefarious, no you didn’t 😌

Once Jas warms up to Callum and gets used to him being around, I like to think he lets her give him “makeovers”. Cal was a little put off about it at first, but it’s become a very healing activity for him, and he can tell Jas appreciates his participation 🫶

[strike-9]

saw a post on here about making friends as an adult and i feel conflicted cuz like, overall i agree that all you have to do is get the courage to show up and get the ball rolling by talking to people/getting their numbers even if it feels cringe or 'wrong' to do so however i can't help but raise my eyebrow at the 'act like they're already your friend' part because some people lean way to into that to the point where they forget we're not actually friends yet which inevitably leads to them saying/doing something that's pretty out of line so like. yes put yourself out there, talk to them and get to know them but please remember that people need to actually like, warm up to each other which could take weeks of speaking to them regularly at minimum

[deus-ex-mona]

tfw you nearly out yourself on main…

[rainingincale]

ok idk if this is just the old color again butshe's soooooooo pretty

I picked a colour directly from this new image so it might be the same? But i honestly dk, i just do my best to try blend everything together but thank you soso much!!! 😁😁