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myuiis · 11 months ago
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lookism 488
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FAMILY DINNER IM SO SOFT
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SOBBING the meta commentary is sending me fr
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Sally on that queen shit
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JACE I MISSED YOU HES SO FUCKING DEVIOUS LOOKING BUT
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homosexuals get it together
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oh he’s such a pretty princess… a cutie patootie… a babygirl
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LAWD HAVE MERCY
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jakes bro hasn’t even revealed his face but he is already SERVING
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myuiis · 11 months ago
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I don’t actually remember my old favorite lol… um… I’m guessing it’s gotta be big Daniel because I was basic (can you blame me?)
fast forward to 2023 and my favs are goo (my ugly piss colored cat) and jake kim (my glorious beautiful talented life-changing king). I’ve always been kinda neutral on goo but I accidentally clicked on a gungoo fic on ao3, got interested, and then chapters 472-477 came out and this man has worked into my brain.
and Jake has always just been a great character, ever since his backstory arc (jake kim arc best arc in lookism you can fight me on this)
Tell me your first lookism fav versus your fav now:
Way back in 2019, my first fav was Eli. I even skipped ahead in the story to read his backstory. I fell in love with it and him as a character because I saw myself in him. He will always have a special place in my heart.
Now my favorite is Eugene 😪
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myuiis · 11 months ago
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because it's written down, you've memorized it
gungoo oneshot
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angst because chapter 479 fundamentally changed me as a person
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ao3 link if yall want:
"You’re going to die in your best friend’s arms. And you play along because it’s funny, because it’s written down, you’ve memorized it, it’s all you know."
So, this is the end, Park Jonggun thinks as he swirls his wine in his small glass, watching his breath turn to steam in front of his face. It’s not a bad one, by any means. The snow falling from the sky in ill-fated flurries that melt as soon as they touch his skin; the faint rumbling of Seoul in the background; Goo’s gentle breathing by his side. 
If anything, Gun thought this whole thing would’ve ended a lot differently. 
A knife fight, maybe, or some other sort of barely concealed violence– teeth gnashing, jaws snapping, claws scratching at each other’s throats. That’s how they met, after all. Standing alone in that junkyard, the sky pouring rain as if it was crying for them, blood dripping from their wounds, bones creaking from the effort of staying upright. 
But this isn’t much better, Gun thinks. It’s unfamiliar. Suffocating. 
It’s so antithetical, so fundamentally opposed to everything they are and were meant to be. Weapons are only supposed to draw blood, after all. Violence is all that they had ever known. 
So why is it that all he feels, watching his rival and partner and best friend of four years sitting on the ledge beside him, watching the clouds split into pieces and fall to the earth, all he feels is something stirring inside– a deep, dark, primordial fear? 
When will you leave? Will you really leave? Will I really have to kill you? Why did you do it, Goo Kim? 
Gun has always been a man familiar with fear. It comes with the territory when you kill for a living. But there’s something strange about this fear; it’s raw, a little bit ugly, a little bit too rough for even Gun to enjoy. 
But what’s worse is this: they accepted it so easily, as if it was carved on their bones, as if it was a script they���d both rehearsed; their end was an inside joke between friends– easy, familiar, funny. Even now, they both understand what kind of person the other is, what kind of choices the other would make. 
It’s like they both already knew this would happen, from the second they laid eyes on each other. They’re not the type of people for happy endings. 
Still, they stayed. 
Did Gun expect a different ending? Was he trying to achieve a different ending in the first place? Goo Kim, what did you do? What do I owe you? Is this really what you wanted after all? 
Is that why, when Goo asked him to drink, for the first and last time, he sounded so sad? 
But once again Goo doesn’t answer any of his questions; once again, Gun is secretly glad he doesn’t. 
They sit there under the roof of the old house, the snow still falling in clumps and flutters, its whiteness shining in the dim sunlight. 
“Hey.” 
The silence is broken when Goo finally speaks again. 
“I think I’ve gotta be on my way now.” 
Gun looks up from his hands, abruptly realizing how much time has passed when he sees the sun already setting. 
“Taejin might start getting worried that you killed me if I’m not back soon,” Goo continues. He cracks a soft smile at his own joke and stares at Gun, as if expecting him to reciprocate the smile. 
He does. 
“Why don’t we finish this bottle first?” he replies, picking the soju bottle up again to emphasize his point. 
“What, I thought you weren’t in the mood for drinking?” 
“Mm, changed my mind,” Gun replies, and that’s the end of it. 
They pour their drinks out and down it all in one shot again, like they did the last time. The alcohol burns pleasantly as it rolls down Gun’s throat, and he remembers why he likes it so much in the first place: it tastes like a fight.
 He thinks he’s drawn to Goo in the same way. 
They haven’t ever drank together, courtesy of Goo’s aversion to alcohol and all things that could be considered a “vice"; but as they sit there together, glasses clinking together, it feels as if they’ve done this a thousand times over. 
They pour out another shot and down it again. And then another. And then another. The entire time, they don’t speak a single word, barely even look at each other. Perhaps this was exactly the kind of ending that was fit for their relationship. 
The irony writes itself. 
A violent, glorious start, filled with snarky threats and bloodied fingers; a peaceful end. Like the slow fizzling out of stars that were never big enough to go supernova. Was that what Gun and Goo were to each other? 
Friends, colleagues, lovers that never were? 
Lovers, Gun thinks, whispers silently, rolling around the word on his tongue like he’s trying to weigh it, trying to scope out its smooth edges and sharp corners. It’s heavy. Unbearably so.  He doesn’t think it fits them, doesn’t think it ever will. 
Love is a tender, tender thing. Gun and Goo haven’t got a single bone in their body made for tenderness. All of their bones are for breaking. 
Gun looks over at Goo, only to find that Goo had already been staring at him for who knows how long. When Goo sees that he’s been caught, he doesn’t look away. Instead, he only grins. 
…Gun doesn’t know what it was. Maybe it was the way the light bounced off the rim of Goo’s glasses and fluttered off his lashes like stars. Maybe it was the way Goo’s face looked especially pale amongst the snow, so pale that Gun thinks he’d fade away if he didn’t grab him. Maybe it was the alcohol. Maybe it was the slight flush on Goo’s cheeks or the farewell that didn’t yet slip off his tongue or his annoying smile that Gun needed to wipe off his face. Maybe it wasn’t anything at all, but at that moment, it was so easy to just lean forward and take. 
So he does.
Gun leans in and kisses Goo. 
The moment is stretched thin to infinity, like time has just stopped. Goo makes a surprised, muffled sound and tenses, but the movement is brief. He eases into the kiss as well, as if he’s been waiting all his life for this, as if they’ve done this a million times.
The feeling of Goo’s perfectly maintained lips against Gun’s own chapped pair isn’t unfamiliar. Neither is the coolness of his glasses against Gun’s nose nor the way Goo shifts in his seat. 
After all, they had spent the greater part of the last three years together, and they had needed to explore some more… primal urges.
But what is unfamiliar is the tenderness. 
Gun and Goo’s kisses had always been tongues and teeth: a fight, a challenge, a dare. A battle for superiority, like everything else they’ve ever done. At the end of it, Goo always tasted like blood, whether it be his own or Gun’s.
The taste of Goo, unstained by blood or anger, is something softer, smoother, so much so that Gun hardly believes that it’s really the blonde that he’s kissing. Goo tastes like rain and home cooked food and dollar-store soju. 
Is this what a goodbye tastes like? 
If so, Gun thinks that he wants to say goodbye to Goo again and again and again. This is nice, he thinks. If the Earth stopped spinning right then and time stopped flowing, the fact that they’re there together in the first ever moment of gentleness they’ve ever shared would be enough.
Gun doesn’t remember who pulls away first. Maybe Goo did, judging by how he instantly moves to adjust his crooked glasses or rearrange his scarf; or maybe it was Gun himself, as he instantly moves to fix his hair. 
The moment ends, and they both pretend like nothing ever happened.
Goo is the first one to acknowledge it.
“You know, you’re actually pretty good at this stuff when you’re not trying to eat me alive,” he says, and it sounds noncommittal, like a joke. As if none of that just mattered. 
But the crack in his voice at the end gives him away. 
“But don’t think that it’s enough to get me to stay.”
Yeah. 
Gun knows. 
Goo is a breezy, capricious person. His moods come and go like the wind. But when he sets his sights on a path to walk, storms on his brows and a hurricane in his steps, there’s nothing in the world that can stop him. 
Gun isn’t any exception.
Still, it’s nice to know that he was at least a temptation. 
Goo dusts off his dustless coat and moves to stand up. There’s still a bottle of soju left in the bag he brought, and he points to it.
“Anyways, I’m actually leaving this time. That’s a gift for you. Have fun drinking alone, loser.” 
Gun snorts. 
“Yeah, thanks. Have fun drinking with your secret friends as well, idiot.” 
Goo smiles, but there’s no mirth behind it. There’s a swirl of other emotions there that Gun can’t quite put a finger on. Sorrow, melancholy, regret, but not wishfulness. They would’ve gotten to this point anyways, no matter what happened. 
“I will.” 
Goo turns to leave. Before he does, he gives a backwards glance at Gun, annoying smile still hanging off his face. 
“Hey,” he begins, and he sounds a little sad. Just a little. “It was nice while it lasted, Gun Park.” 
“Mhm.” 
And Goo walks off into the sunset.
Except–
Gun doesn’t know what came over him, perhaps it was the alcohol again, but whatever painful, ugly, tender thing drove him to kiss Goo the first time drives him to cup his hands around his mouth and shout:
“Kim Joongoo!” he cries after the figure in the distance. “Stay alive until the next time!” 
But Goo doesn’t turn around, doesn’t even acknowledge him. Gun can’t let it just end like this. No, he wants, he–
“Kim Joongoo!”
Did you hear me? 
Can you do that? 
Will we ever meet again? 
(Of course they will. They’re bound at the bones, joined by their flesh and their tendons and by something far greater that won’t ever, ever let them leave the other. Like two stars bound by each other’s gravity, they’ll never truly be able to leave. It’s hard to tell where Gun ends and Goo begins.) 
Goo turns around in the distance, and–maybe it’s a trick of the light– but he smiles back. It’s something small, reserved, and it’s entirely sincere and free of trickery. It’s something Gun thinks only he has ever seen. 
And Goo turns back around and walks off. Gun looks at his retreating form until he is consumed by the snow entirely. 
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myuiis · 11 months ago
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honestly gun stronger than me fr because if goo said this to me i wouldve cried right then and there
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myuiis · 10 months ago
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(same anon who asked for sinu analysis) well first off let me ask your thoughts on YeonhuixSinu
Despite my undying love for this man- I'll admit they're cute n all BUT I always felt it was undeveloped.
I don't know if it's just me but when Jason (I think) said he'd snitch about him being with neko to her I was confused back when he was still under the influence of those pills at workers. Like, Did I miss something? Did I forget something from the gaps between the arcs? Idk. But even if she was shown to be worried over Sinu, it didn't seem romantic at all especially that all the big deal girls cared too. PTJ also made it seem like an already established relationship and I'm still questioning when?? She seemed to know him well and all but no hinting of any romantic attraction was there, just your average big deal romanticism and admiration lol.
I understand that PTJ has to leave some details away for the sake of the pacing but I think he could've at least thrown some hints here and there.
ok yeah. so this won't be a super long post because i am tired but good lord i am very... lukewarm about sinu and yeonhui. im with you on the "who?" when yeonhui was mentioned again in 2a. now im glad that sinu is with someone he's happy with but man... sinu and yeonhui is just such a mid ship compared to literally anyone else he could've been shipped with. let me explain.
yeonhui's lack of presence in the story. now this is probably the main reason i find this ship so lackluster. how am i supposed to root for a ship when the female love interest is literally like npc #125? while she did have more presence than the other girls on the street, this isn't really a high bar considering ptj's track record writing female characters. and this isn't to say she was boring or had a bland personality either (even though she KINDA did...). she was strong and independent, stood up to samuel when he tried to extort them for money (iirc), bore the burden of sinu's sacrifice and stayed strong for big deal, and was there to comfort jake when he learned of the news. she could've been a REALLY interesting character because she was so strong and also stuck to her ideals in the same way sinu did, so they could've been such a power couple, had yeonhui been developed more. it would've been nice to see yeonhui and sinu strategize about how to protect big deal together, or see more of yeonhui bandaging and caring for sinu after he gets hurt, or seeing sinu bring yeonhui gifts and money... or anything, really. the two have barely have any substantial interactions over the entire arc besides the last part where sinu's about to sacrifice himself, so much so that it makes me wonder... who is this yeonhui person? why are they important again.
chemistry. this mainly comes up to personal preference but yeonhui and sinu feel more like an older sister-younger brother dynamic to me. yeonhui took sinu in as a child, fed, clothed, and cared for him, and then continues to take care of him as an adult, which comes off as big sis behavior. again, some people may like this dynamic romantically, but i personally find it super platonic and sibling-leaning.
other sinu ships. idk. just find it a LITTLE heteronormative that any man and woman who share a little bit of screentime together are instantly a couple while sinu and jake can be out here pulling "you are my everything" and "i came back to big deal for you and you alone, jake" moments, and they'll still be just "good bros". again, kind of up to personal preference, but if you compare yeonhui x sinu to jake x sinu or even samuel x sinu, there's a clear lack of interactions and chemistry for yeonhui x sinu
so yeah. thats kinda it. this ended up being way longer than i expected so im not gonna write a conclusion paragraph but those are my thoughts around yeonhui and sinu together romantically.
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myuiis · 11 months ago
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Hi! Are you familiar with the anime JJK? Can you do a female Gojo Satoru X lookism men characters? Where Gojo dies and reincarnates as a female in the popular webtoon lookism. She applies as a teacher in J-high, loves teasing her students and protects them from the big baddies (Gun, Goo, James Lee etc. xD) but they fell in love with Gojo (although Gojo being gojo he will likely compare his previous male self to them and says that he is way better than them) . Gojo still is strong but without curse energy and still has the 6 eyes but not as OP she can just see very well.
Thanks for the ask ^^
aaah this sounds like such a good idea! there’s so much potential for shenanigans and crack!!
unfortunately, I haven’t read or watched any jjk and don’t plan to in the near future 😭😭 I know a little bit about gojo but not anywhere near enough to write as complex of a fic as you’re suggesting so I don’t think I’ll be able to him or your idea justice 😭😔
but thank you for the idea! I’ll keep it brewing in the back of my mind if I ever do decide to consume jjk media
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myuiis · 10 months ago
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Can we please get a sinu analysis anytime soon? (It's ok if you don't want to tho <3)
oh my god I know I promised the sinu analysis weeks ago but I never got around to it 😭😭 if you guys have topics you wanna hear me rant about pls tell me I’m not too sure what to do
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myuiis · 11 months ago
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I really like your drawings especially the gungoo ones ^_^
OH MY GOD GUNGOO4LIFER HAMANTHA??? THE “gun x goo canon” HAMANTHA??? thank you sm 🙏😭😭 this means sm to me
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