#my2024

[casswithmywholeheart]

Something I had in mind for quite a while now..

[chippothy]

YEAH??

curious about what's in store for you for 2024? :D

Let AO3 decide!

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[sleepytoadvk]

It was great year. Maybe I will post some of my old arts here in a time.

Also, no arts survived hellfire of what my PC death was, so I lost all I got from January😭😭😭

[mightbelola]

Mostly Bitter

No one here at the airport knows that I had just lost my twins at birth three days ago. No one here knows I’m tearing my back wearing this brace thingy around my waist just so my back would stop collapsing because my legs are falling off. My head is about to explode, and I just want us to get out of here. My family thinks I’m crazy for leaving, but I hope they understand after all of that.

It’s bittersweet. Bitter, mostly.

We cried yesterday. We cried our heart out. When he cried like that, I realized how it had hit him just as hard as it hit me. They were his children too, you know. He was so happy, he was so positive the girls were going to be healthy, and they were, and that in probably three months from now, we’re going to have twenty fingers, twenty toes swaddled in a travel cot, all dressed up in twin strollers, strolling around the park, two baby carriers over his shoulders, one on his front, one on his back. I would be with my camera, can’t decide whether to film it all for memories or just live in the present because the present would’ve been too beautiful for us to take our eyes away. He was so happy dreaming about it all and just so, so quickly, our dream turned out to be our worst nightmare.

We went to see the place where they’re resting. He held my hand so tightly because he knew how nervous I was. For a moment, I felt completely disconnected. I was trying to feel them, but I couldn’t. One moment they’re kicking me so hard, and one sudden moment later, they’re gone. The only connection we had was that one thing, their kicks. When I can’t feel them anymore, I feel so lost, so empty.

I saw their graves, just two stones without names, and my head went blank. I didn’t know what to say.

But,

”I’m really sorry you had to go. I’m sorry I couldn’t hold you longer. You were there, weren’t you? Why can’t we keep you? Why did you have to go too soon?”

I don’t know.

Only if I knew.

I guess I could’ve known. I could’ve known not to do too much. I didn’t know how too much was.

Should’ve just stayed in bed, shouldn’t have done all that. Shouldn’t have run errands, should’ve cooked the cats. Maybe, I shouldn’t have come back after all. Maybe it was all my fault. Maybe all of it was wrong.

I still don’t know.

All I know is that, if I want to start over, I have to know what went wrong, or why, or will we be okay again?

Because right now we’re a mess.

Everyone at home keeps reminding me to rest, take it easy, don’t do anything, just lie down, drink tea, sleep, live.

I feel like I just woke up from death. I feel like a ghost.

I don’t know what to do with myself anymore.

Back in Medalla I had it all figured out, but I’m back here, still can’t decide whether to take a rest and fix my broken back, or to start cleaning the kitchen counter, or the boxes in the bedroom, clothes on the toilet floor, or to unpack the bags, or to do dishes, or sleep, or eat, or shower, or cry. So many possibilities, none of them interesting.

I don’t know when we’ll be okay again.

“But hey, I wish I could stay awake to welcome you. I was so weak I passed out on your birthday. But when we last said goodbye, we stood there under that black umbrella in the sun, looking back at you, your dad and I. How are you real? It feels impossible. Sad you had to go too soon, good thing is we will never forget you. I hope you know that I will think of you everyday and every night until the moment I die. And even after I die, when this is all over, I hope I know how to get to you. I hope we will see each other again. I really hope so because how do I love you forever already when we had just met? I thought you were mine for a while. I thought I had you. But I really can’t lose you now so, please come find me later, if you can.”

[maharbaikkaz]

pagi ini kami bangun agak siang,. ku pikir bisa menidurkannya lagi agar aku bisa bersiap lebih awal dan selesai dengan cepat,. ternyata dia ingin menemani,. jadilah gerakku lebih lambat, menuntunnya, menggendongnya, menyalakan tv untuknya. bahkan melakukan urusan pribadi sambil mengawasinya dengan pintu terbuka.

setelah ku pikir semua akan berjalan dengan baik, dia tantrum. bokongnya merah -kurasa dia iritasi, jadi ku olesi minyak kelapa murni untuk melembabkan kulit dan meringankan iritasinya.

pada waktunya harus bekerja, dia jadi tantrum, ingin dipeluk dan dimanja, padahal sudah sejak pagi kami bergumul saling peluk dan tertawa, ternyata,.. semakin lama bukannya semakin cukup, melainkan semakin butuh untuk lebih lama lagi.

dia menagis sampai tangannya ikut tersiram kuah sayur yang baru saja matang,. haaahhh,.. maafkan aku yaa Rabb,. aku menghela nafas untuk kejadian yang sudah ditakdirkan. lalu saat hendak menyiapkan alat pumping dan ice pack, ternyata kedua benda itu sudah ada didalam tas, yang artinya asip yg kuperah kemarin, botol dan ice packnya tidak dikeluarkan. lagi-lagi hatiku mencelos, aku harus membuangnya ke tempat sampah karena asinya sudah rusak, dan tidak bisa membawa alat pumping karena kondisinya tidak siap, waktu terus berjalan,. "aku tidak bisa optimal di tempat kerja"

aku ingin membiarkan waktu berjalan dan masa bodo dengan keterlambatan, tapi aku ingat alasan awal aku bekerja. sehingga pagiku selalu dipenuhi keterburu-buruan,. sesuatu yang tidak ingin aku lakukan tapi seseorang dikepala ku terus berteriak "cepat! cepat! Cepat!" disisi yang lain ada seorang wanita lembut yang melambaikan tangan sambil bilang "go,. life in the moment"

26.1.2024

ternyata tidak ada hari sempurna bagi seorang ibu, hari dimana semua berjalan sesuai dengan keinginan, hari-hari seperti itu rasanya tidak akan pernah ada. sebab hari -hari itu ada di dunia, dan ini menegaskan betapa fana nya kehidupan dunia ini,. betapa tidak sempurna-nya.

setiap hari adalah hari dengan berbagai emosi, cerita dan pengalaman baru, jalani saja,. nanti kamu akan terbiasa dan mulai bisa melihat kebahagiaan-kebahagian kecil yang berharga,. fluktuasi keadaan yang membuatmu selalu teringat padaNya.

[simplesimperey]

💕🎀🦷benxkenji? In MY2024?🦷🎀💕

[tylered-up-in-blue]

genderqueer, annoying, best walker in the service x deeply emotional but grizzled old Irish alcoholic #my2024

[ribbons-in-autumn]

it's my2024 or something

[fuckingstupidbracket]

sitting in an ambulance during a bring me the horizon concert was not on my2024 bingo list

[k1ira]

#selfimprovement #my2024

[casswithmywholeheart]

*throws these and vanishes*

[theirstoryofevents]

The return of jorts was not on my2024 bingo card but I am not complaining.

[eobdtooluk-blog]

Alientech KESS3 Update: Added Keihin A6244103100 RH850 R&W via OBD

Alientech KESS3 ECU Programmer released a new upgrade on June 5th, 2024.

Exclusively on KESS3 and Powergate: work via OBD on the Keihin A6244103100 RH850 ECU of the new KTM Super Duke R 1390!

Update details:

Work quickly and efficiently on the brand new ECU of the KTM Super Duke R 1390 (MY2024) directly from the OBD diagnostic port. With this new protocol, you can increase the performance of this incredible bike and satisfy even the most demanding customers with a specialized and reliable service.

New supported ECU:

Keihin A6244103100 RH850

Unlock the full potential of the twin-cylinder engine equipped on the maxi naked bike, the star of this new development. With KESS V3, you can ensure a quick and professional intervention, risk-free, and significantly enhance performance.

Keihin A6244103100 RH850

KESS3 BIKE OBD

KTM RD, WR in OBDDuke1390 Super Duke R EvoPetrol140 kWDuke1390 Super Duke RPetrol140 kW

Activate the KESS V3 BIKE – OBD protocols and discover all the opportunities that motorcycle reprogramming can offer you.

[k1ira]

#my2024

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[k1ira]

it's all about your perception of things.

everything is meaningless unless you give it one.

#mindset #My2024