#my younger self would be sooooo happy!!!

[circuslollipop]

i'm sooo happy i finally was able to sketch a margaery i'm satisfied with!! a feat i haven't been able to do for like a decade!!!

[thestarfishinjootsoffice]

Hi, thank you for finally replying to my ask! I actually forgot I even send an ask to you and I forgot what idea I had in my mind at that time. You said I could send again sooooo can you please write platonic headcanons with the main 4 during the hunter exams, where reader is Kurapika’s younger sister who’s the same age as Gon and Killua and also semi-mute? She rarely talks, seems shy and always clings to Kurapika. Oh, but she’s as capable as her brother, that’s why everybody else was surprised at her skills and strength

Sorry if this is too long, don’t rush it and stay safe!

Yesss!!! I'm so happy when people request anime too!! Lesgooo!! You stay safe too!!

Saving kurapika for last!!! 😍

Warnings:

Relationship: platonic!

Main four x kurapika's younger sister!

Gon

Tbh you were his best friend besides killua.

Tries to make you as comfortable as possible since he isn't completely dumb and notices how shy you can get. He thinks it's kinda similar to kurapika, considering he isn't exactly chatty either.

Also, he lowkey freaks out the first few times you spoke, his first reaction was literally-

"Y/n, you can speak!?" *gets bonked by killua* I swear he isn't trying to be rude.

This dude will drag you everywhere and tries to get you to know you more and to possibly make you feel safe enough to speak to him more. He definitely doesn't mean any harm.

Since you are the same age as him and killua he thinks it's a must for all three of you to be friends.

Sometimes his behavior can get overwhelming to you and make you get even more shy.

"Woah, you are really close to kurapika! Killua doesn't seem to be that close with his siblings. Well I wouldn't know since I don't have any." Would ask questions about you and kurapika.

Was shocked af when you had shown off your skills. Didn't necessarily think you were really weak but didn't think you were this strong.

After whatever you did he would praise you and stay stuff like "wow! Y/n I didn't think you were that strong! That was so cool!"

Would stop worrying about you a little less. Now knowing that if you were ever in danger and there was no one, you would definitely be able to protect yourself. (Let's hope whatever you're fighting against isn't too strong.)

"Hey y/n! Come over here for a second!"

Killua

Probably acted kind of a jerk to you the first few times.

But then after a while seeing that you weren't all that bad he started loosening up a bit. And then eventually you became friends with him.

Would've thought you were weak if it weren't for that zoldyck blood in which he sensed something far stronger within you.

Still even so he still thought you were nowhere near as strong as him. And overtime he started to become a little protective of you.

"Y/n you can speak!?" Killua bonked gon on the head.

Doesn't mind your quietness. He prefers it, he likes how energetic gon is but he also wants someone he can vibe peacefully quiet with.

He's kinda jealous of your closeness with kurapika. At first he thought that younger siblings could never get along with their older ones but clearly you and kurapika proved him wrong. He wishes he and illumi could have a healthier relationship sometimes.

If he's feeling especially silly and happy he might try to separate you from your older brother's hip and get to hang out with him instead during free time.

Killua's not shy, just self reserved. Even so he can understand most of your behaviors.

Wasn't that surprised when you had shown how capable you were when you had to fight against an enemy. Though it doesn't necessarily change his opinion on you. He feels a little more at ease.

"Why don't you hang out with me and gon for a little while?"

Leorio

You're like the little sister he never had.

Didn't really pay you much mind as you never really did anything outstanding for the majority of the exam but as he spent more time in your presence the more he started appreciating you.

You grew on him quick, he's now also your older brother.

Because of your pretty introverted nature he felt quite obligated to be at your side a lot.

Will almost cry if you want to spend time with him, he's never been this happy before. Although in the hunter exam the amount of things you can do is pretty limited.

You're somewhere without kurapika and someone goes out of their way to talk smack in front of you? Don't worry you'll see leorio sprinting towards the person in a very loud and aggressive voice.

"HEY WHAT THE HELL DID YOU JUST SAY!?"

Since leorio is more in his delusions most of the time he'll think of you as kinda pretty weak. Don't get him wrong it's not like he'll force it on you, he just feels like he needs to help out in stuff mostly.

Around kurapika alot so that also means he's around you alot, it's a win win. You get two protective and older sibling figures by your side.

Jaw dropped. It dropped to the ground and 5 feet more under. Now he feels kinda bad and embarrassed he thought of you as something that needed help with.

Still tries to help you as much as he can when you're about to be fighting with someone.

He tries to look calm even though he made a dumb expression earlier. Although he does hold a proud smile.

"You were really cool..!"

Kurapika

Kurapika doesn't mind it when you seem to cling to him 24/7. In fact he likes it. As in he feels more at ease when you're in his line of sight. Being the two sole survivors of your clan it's really no wonder.

Of course this without a doubt forms an inseparable and unbreakable bond and trust.

Your older brother was the only person you could comfortably be alone with until the hunter exam. It took kurapika by surprise when you actually decided to hang out with someone other than him. It's not like he hates it but he feels a little uneasy, something you've had your entire life suddenly being away from you is something not so many people can be okay with.

He warms up to the idea eventually though. In fact he does enjoy seeing you interacting with other people. Seeing you by yourself without him with gon, killua and leorio and others sends a melancholy wave of pride through him.

He encourages you to spend more time with your now called new friends.

He wants you to spend a bit more time being independent before he goes away for something which he never told you about or plans to ever tell you about. (Ehem.. Revenge)

Knows you are fully capable of stuff but it doesn't stop him from feeling obligated to do something for you.

Anyone who brings slander to your name in front of him must be a real hell of an idiot.

Not surprised at all like killua after you leashed your skills fighting a random monster or opponent or something. He already knows after all he was the one who taught you everything you knew about anything really.

"I'm proud to have you as my sister y/n..."

Sorry if the last part seems rushed, it's because I am in a rush actually 💀

[roosterbruiser]

OMG IT TURNS OUT I CAN ACTUALLY BE AT THE SLEEPOVER AND I'M SO EXCITED

I'm sooooo sorry if you've received this request before I'm not sure if it went through because my tumblr was a bit fucked up but it seems to be working now!!!!

A blurb where Jake and the reader lose their virginities to each other would mean EVERYTHING to me I have had the worst week 😂😭😭😭 but so happy to actually be at the sleepover!!!

lying in the twin bed in Jake's room, panting as you blink up at the ceiling in amazement, you swallow hard. there's a Charlie's Angels: Full Throttle taped to the ceiling and Lucy Liu is watching you try and compose yourself.

god, if you didn't love Jake as much as you do, you'd hate to be staring up at this poster right now. it all feels so boyish--like finding a porn magazine tucked under his mattress or a peculiarly stiff sock. but you know that he keeps the poster on the ceiling because he genuinely loved the movie--dragged you to it four times--and likes to say, "good morning, angels." when he wakes up, much to his roommates annoyance.

if you went back in time and told your pre-teen self that you'd lose your virginity in a stuffy dorm room in the middle of Christmas break, tangled in Crate and Barrel sheets, beneath a Charlie's Angels poster, you think that the younger version of yourself would pepper spray you.

here you are, though.

you're both still coming down, skin slick with sweat, bodies still prickled with want. you're lying mostly on top of Jake's warm body and he's absently tickling his fingers up your arm, a grin eating his face.

"so..." you breathe, glancing up at him. his eyes gleam as he looks down at you. "that's sex, huh?"

"sure is," he says before pursing his lips. "was, I guess."

nodding, you return to staring up at the poster. he's watching you, though, your warm body weighing him down to the mattress perfectly.

"are the reviews in yet?" you ask, yawning.

"we literally saw it four times," Jake says, nose wrinkled and eyebrows furrowed. "I'd hope the reviews are in-!"

but then you're scoffing and looking back at him with a grin.

"I meant the sex, you dummy!"

"oh," Jake says, cheeks a touch pinker than before. "uh...you go first."

Jake's only saying this because he's afraid of giving his honest review--which is dropping to his knees and bowing down to you.

"it was good," you tell him, brows raised. you're not lying--it was good. a bit uncomfortable for a few minutes, but enjoyable. sweet. "okay, now you."

"I raise your good and give you impeccable," Jake says, even including jazz hands. "like, mind-blowing."

humming, you nod.

"it was pretty mind-blowing," you agree, chewing on your bottom lip. "the most mind-blowing three minutes of my life."

Jake scoffs, offended. he sits up, points an accusatory finger at you, and dodges your pinchers when you go for his flushed cheek.

"hey!" he complains. "it was three and a half and you know it!"

[mirtinis]

Marty’s favorite Hannibal fics

Hi!! I’ve been reading a lot of hannibal fics recently, sooooo I’m gonna make here a list of my favorite ones.

Canonverse

✿ The Long Weekend by Devereauxs_Disease [42k words]

Feed your dogs, leave a note for Alana. It had been such a tempting offer, one that buzzed around in Will's mind. He responded on instinct, pressing his mouth to Hannibal's. Then, he ran for all he was worth... When Hannibal finally finds him, he makes a proposal: Spend one weekend together, and make a decision once and for all about his and Hannibal's fate. Can Will still play Hannibal to get the evidence he and Jack need? Or is he playing a new game now?

✿ A Postcard and a Knife by Canis_cosmos [37k words] - canon divergence S03 E05.

Pushed from his train and relying on a hallucinated stag to lead him to Florence, Will is drawn up short when he reaches a junction and his guide disappears. The path he chooses leads him to the right place, but entirely the wrong time. ...Or: Will needs pre-med Hannibal's help, and has to avoid becoming Il Monstro's latest art project without revealing the truth of their relationship.

✿ one more kiss before we turn the lights off by akadefenders [7549 words]

Will comes home to what he expects to be an empty home as Walter and Molly are away visiting his grandparents. What he comes home to is an old flame...

✿ Conditioned Stimulus by harleygirl2648 [1779 words]

It turns out you can train your husband and your dog with similar methods, as long as they both get a treat. Or, Will Graham is a manipulative little shit who tries Hannibal's nerves.

✿ Storm Chasing by Devereauxs_Disease [1467 words]

Prompt Fill: Will finds out that Hannibal doesn't like storms. He figures out how to help his favorite people eater forget about the storm.

✿ SnowStorm by reflectiveless [8013 words]

Hannibal is over at Will’s house during a snowstorm and power outage. He doesn’t react as expected and hides in Will’s closet until the danger is over. Will does his best to take care of his therapist.

✿ Once More by Simbeline [5539 words]

More than 10 years after the Fall, Will Graham and Hannibal Lecter are living together, presumed long dead by the FBI. When Will goes fishing in the morning as usual, he accidentally stumbles through time and meets his younger self. Despite being happy with how his life turned out, he decides to risk meddling a little.

✿ tessellation by bleakmidwinter [5373 words]

Hannibal and Will are caught. Jack interrogates them both to gauge Will's innocence.

✿ Sweet Dream (or Beautiful Nightmare) by Ravenne86 [5555 words]

This is a fic that came to being based on this prompt: "post-TWOTL Will wakes up sweaty and agitated from nightmares, Hannibal soothes him by touch"

✿ When It Rains by BonesAndScales [3068 words]

In which Will desperately needs a hug. And who is Hannibal to refuse?

✿ Photobomb by Devereauxs_Disease [21k words]

When Hannibal pops up next to Will in an FBI Academy graduation photo, the result is innocent enough...until Will's coworkers play with photoshop and make the image so much worse. Will would laugh it off, but it seems he can't take a picture without Hannibal showing up in the background. Can Will shake his persistent photo buddy? And more importantly...does he want to?

✿ Your Ex by murdertrout [3810 words]

We usually assume that Will clammed up about his past when he was with Molly. But what if actually Will tells Molly way, way, way too much about his relationship with Hannibal? Or, the one where Will starts talking about his “ex" and doesn't stop.

✿ Scent of a Woman by Devereauxs_Disease [4860 words]

After the fall, Will assumed he and Hannibal would progress to a romantic relationship. So when Hannibal comes home smelling of fancy perfume, Will is...distressed. How do serial killers handle jealousy and romantic confessions? Not well, y'all...NOT WELL.

✿ Dancing with the Beast by proser [86k words]

In order to catch a mediocre serial killer, Will must pose as Hannibal's date for a series of pretentious social events. Hannibal is dramatic and jealous as ever, and Will is having a great time without the encephalitis. Of course, it's a love story.

✿ Room for Two by Devereauxs_Disease [3069 words]

Everything is going exactly as Hannibal planned. He, Jack, and Will are forced off the road and must stop for the night at a motel - where there are only two beds. Unfortunately, Jack decides that he and Will are going to bunk up, giving Dr. Lecter the nice single bed. This...is not part of Hannibal's plan. But Dr. Lecter has never been afraid of a little improvisation.

✿ Just One Night by Churchb0y [2341 words]

The tension rises between Hannibal Lecter and Will Graham when the two are forced to share a hotel room the night before inspecting a new crime scene. There had already been tension between the two these last few weeks, but Will could simply decide to pretend it wasn’t there. Now that he was spending a night with Dr. Lecter though, he had no way out of it.

✿ Love in the Time of Corona by Devereauxs_Disease [32k words]

Will and Jack are wrapping up a case outside of Chicago when a shelter-in-place order strands them at their motel. Will is frantic trying to find someone to take care of his dogs. Alana is busy, but luckily her boyfriend volunteered to look after all seven of Will's dogs. Will sheltering-in-place show Will a different side to Hannibal? Or will the cannibal crack when the dog hair starts to pile up?

✿ Something Else by HotMolasses [2137 words]

“Why didn’t you pull away, Will?” he said, genuine curiosity in his voice. “When I was mere inches from you, with a deadly blade in my hand, you leaned toward me. Did you hope I would kill you?” “Because I wasn’t thinking you were going to gut me.” he said. “When you put your hand on my face, stroked my cheek I thought…” the room blurred around the edges because Will had kept his eyes fixed to a single spot on the floor for so long. Now he forced them to look into Hannibal’s face. “I thought you were going to do something else.”

✿ Friends don't frame friends: a lesson for a clueless cannibal by canniballadyfelixtristis [5041 words]

Ear? What ear? Will Graham doesn’t try to thwart Hannibal Lecter’s plans for him. He just does. By accident. And then on purpose.

✿ Golden Promises by Shotgun_sinner [68k words] - season 1 divergent as of Sorbet.

Will stays for the dinner party, where he may or may not hallucinate that Dr. Lecter is wearing a gold plug in front of his friends. Hannibal gets Will treated for his encephalitis, and they grow closer in Will's recovery than they ever were before. The maybe hallucination keeps Will up at night, and he learns that the feelings he has for Hannibal might not be platonic after all.

✿ Google It by Devereauxs_Disease [3928 words]

Will knows that Hannibal is checking up on his Google searches, so he decides to check up on his cannibal's inquiries. Will Google searches bring them together or tear them apart?

✿ Good Cannibal, Sit by Devereauxs_Disease [1678 words]

When Will won't tell him why he's being a sour Graham Cracker, Hannibal decides to give him some mushroom tea and see what happens. He was expecting emotional revelations, instead he gets a weird hallucination and ear scritches....

✿ Consenting to Dream by emungere [32k words]

A seduction through physical objects. It starts with a scarf loaned to Will on a cold day, but Hannibal, as usual, isn't satisfied with anything small.

✿ SERIES: We Shall All Be Healed by coloredink [3 works, 11k words]

Hannibal and Will do drugs together. That's it. That's the series.

✿ SERIES: Fluffy Murder Husbands by harleygirl2648 [29 works, 73k words]

✿ SERIES: Professor Will Graham by americandreamboat [5 works, 7381 words]

AUs

✿ Crystalline by The Druid Girl [59k words] - Stripper!Hannibal AU (sort of)

The proprietor of a successful restaurant, Hannibal (who may or may not be a serial killer and definitely WAS an exotic dancer in his youth) is coerced by an old acquaintance to take a job dancing at a bachelor party. When he shows up, he realizes a mistake has been made, but he also realizes something far more interesting: the groom to be is hotter than Mt. Vesuvius. Circumstance and intent lead the boys where it always should: into bed. A lot.

✿ Lean On Me by OneWhoSitsWithTurtles [2205 words]

Written for the airport-related AU prompt: "I fell asleep on your shoulder and you were too polite to move or wake me up AU" with a Hannigram twist.

✿ The Secret Existence of Hannigram by Rising_Phoenix [6000 words]

Hannibal and Will have been married for three years when Jack Crawford approaches Hannibal with the request to assess Will - a marriage nobody knows about, and the couple has way too much fun with this.

✿ Professor Graham's Cheekbones Hotty & Extraordinary Foodie Husband by TheSilverQueen [3320 words]

Online classes due to the quarantine are how Professor Graham's students learn that: 1) Professor Graham has a cute dog; 2) Professor Graham is married; and 3) Professor Graham's husband is smoking hot.

✿ In Sickness and in Health by BonesAndScales [76k words]

Everyone knows that Will and Hannibal are married. Not everyone knows that they are married to each other.

✿ Diamond in the Ruff by Ericurrr [12k words]

Will Graham loves dogs but can’t have them in his apartment. When he gets fired from his job as a dog walker, he turns to walking shelter dogs and bonds with a group of seven misfits. While walking his beloved bunch of shelter dogs he runs into Hannibal. Literally. Little does Will know that Hannibal has been watching Will from afar and wants to give him everything his heart desires, starting with a home and all his dogs from the shelter.

✿ Falls the Shadow by littlesystems [72k words]

An AU where Bedelia is Will’s psychiatrist instead of Hannibal, Will makes a series of increasingly questionable life choices, and no one should ever take Bedelia’s advice. Ever.

Hannibal extended universe

✿ A Fucking Parent Trap Scenario by Devereauxs_Disease [26k]

After smelling Freddie Lounds on Will, Hannibal realizes he's been betrayed. Despondent, and plotting a bloody dinner party, Hannibal finds himself in an upscale bar. When Nigel walks in, things change. Rude, loud, and somehow sporting his face, Nigel is a disturbance Hannibal doesn't need. ...Or does he? Nigel suggests a swap based on his favorite movie - The Parent Trap. What happens when Hannibal and Nigel switch lives? Well, let's find out together, shall we?

[uraosol]

HEEEEYYY SOOOOO the hellaverse made me remember my love for demons and HOW COULD I FORGET THE OG, NOUGAMI NEURO!!!!! I would LOVE to see these two interact!!!!! And when I found out that Alastor is 7 ft....and Neuro is 6'2"....I HAD TO DRAW THAT LOLOLOL I have a few headcanons!!!!

Now it's been awhile since I've read MTNN BUT CORRECT ME IF I'M WRONG, Neuro did mention that there are demons stronger than him right??? But that he is pretty strong, so I think he could be in the Ars Goetia AND IN PART BECAUSE HE IS BIRB TOO kekekeke these ideas are just for fun ofc xD But I can also see him being an Overlord!

I will be drawing Neuro and Stolas together next! Cause...birbs!!!! And also, my younger self would be hollering at how far I've come because I remember struggling drawing Neuro and now....he is so easy and it brings me so much happiness drawing him, because MTNN was one of my BIGGEST obsessions so thank you Hellaverse for reminding me of MTNN UwU

[joshuamj]

Thoughts on the Omori Manga

I was kind of generous with it, but overall? Mixed feelings, leaning toward negative. This is just the first chapter tho so who knows?

The Art: eh?

The scary parts are drawn well and there are some panels I quite like (the 2 below for example), but otherwise it often looks a little awkward/uncanny??

A big thing is, I think Sunny shouldve been drawn less expressive. He often looks a bit too... happy? Like its fine to draw him horrified and such when he's Going Through It, but he's drawn with those little white pupils a lot at the beginning, which make him look a lot like his younger, more carefree self

I think for the most part, he should've just been drawn like this:

It captures his vibe of Tired/Out of it/Depressed, much better

The Manga's Approach to the Story: not good for people new to Omori (imo), but has potential for an interesting retelling for previous fans

It was quite strange to start with the Real World rather than Headspace, but it could turn out interesting. It will definitely miss the impact of the game's storytelling, but they may still be able to make an enjoyable enough story out of it, yknow?

Doing it this way allows them to emphasize different things than the game. Like the battle with Aubrey, for example. It was so good in game since the player was so used to casually slicing away enemies with the knife, and the Aubrey battle served as a shocking wake up call. You can't knife people in real life like that! But I think no matter what. this couldn't have hit as hard in the manga regardless of if they did headspace first.

But what they did do in the manga was better emphasize Sunny's actual action of slicing Aubrey! Like Basil and Kel are appropriately alarmed and horrified that Sunny has just pulled a knife from nowhere and (quite badly) sliced their old friend with it.

I do, however, think they made it look way too deliberate on Sunny's part.

Like in game, it was more a mistake, while in the manga they seem to be going for Sunny being Extremely Traumatized and just lashing out, but then they portray it like this??

Like, maybe if they had Aubrey actually go after him with her nail bat while she was saying those cruel things, him drawing the knife would have looked more instinctual and a mistake. Here it just looks like he's ready to stab her in cold blood :/

The ending is sort of interesting tho. It does a fine job of showing how headspace is a sort of coping mechanism before we even see it, by having Sunny retreat there after slicing Aubrey.

Overall, I think there is potential in doing Realworld first, Headspace second, but I think it does miss out on a ton of the game's original impact and storytelling

Finally, Aubrey (tm): hot take maybe, but I lowkey like how she was portrayed?

Like, dont get me wrong, she was quite violent and it hurt seeing her legit hit basil with a nail bat, but it sort of works? in my opinion at least.

Shes been hurting for so long and she directs that hurt towards her old friends, and combined with her more aggressive personality, it doesn't seem too wildly out of character i think.

Plus, itll add some good Angst when she gets her moment with the gang and realizes how she's been acting. Like, girl, you are gonna feel sooooo bad for how you treated Basil and what u said to Sunny (character development!)

And it really helps that when she falls to the ground after getting sliced, pictures of Mari fall out of her pocket. It helps signal to the reader that Aubrey isn't just some horrible cruel person, but that there's something more at play

And the way she's collapsed almost looks like she could've collapsed out of grief, or is bowing deeply, and implies she's really hurting. Somehow they did Sunny so dirty with him standing over her with the knife, yet did so well with this Aubrey panel.

I think I just like the portrayal of someone who is very flawed in their grief without being some Big Evil Bad Guy, yknow. Like no, this is a hurting teenager lashing out and making mistakes.

End:

So yeah i managed to find a fair amount of things that have potential in the manga, but who knows if itll be followed thru on..

[sunfortune]

been thinking about your thoughts on book lovers since ur blog became emily henry discourse night. i’m someone that likes emily henry books but i think the issue is the stories she’s telling are like litfic or women’s fiction stories but then she has to like fit them into a romance novel. so like book lovers is this really tender story about the like trauma of grief and having to raise your younger sibling and like shaping your life and career around that to the point of unhappiness, even years after that shaping became unnecessary, shoved into this little teehee premise of like wouldn’t it be so silly if the heartless big city other woman from the hallmark movie got a small town romance teehee. and i’m not opposed to a romantic subplot OR a flat out romance novel but in book lovers the romance unfolds in these weird almost gimmicky ways around the heart of the story which is the sisters. so then it becomes like hey why are you here. about the romance. in the romance novel. anyway sorry about this i just couldn’t get it out of my head or figure out how to articulate my thoughts about it until now. all love<3

i agree! in both of the books i’ve read of hers (book lovers and happy place) i think she has very compelling main characters. (in happy place i felt genuinely moved by the main characters pov and her problems with her parents. and in book lovers i really had high hopes for the way her character was described before the execution killed it) BUT then the romance doesn’t have the same draw. and isn’t incorporated into the book in a way for the connection OR the tension to land. (happy place was a bit better than book lovers tho) if it was chic lit or the romance was a subplot it would be different. but the issue with emily henry is her books ARE romance novels at the end of the day. so when the romance falls flat…the parts that are admittedly done well can’t really make up for that. -for me at least!

also i think another thing is her main characters are very interesting but No other character truly is. including the love interest. which is what truly hurts any sort of connection. like i have read and watched sooooo much mediocre NONSENSE (i’m self aware) that i have a drive to want better for bc the interpersonal relationships in them just /slap that Hard/. but in emily henry’s books that concept is nonexistent. every relationship you see play out on screen, including the friendships (looking at happy place) do not pack a punch. at all. they never have me on the edge of my seat hoping for a resolution or happily ever after or whatever

which is why these books don’t even make me mad when they’re not good. bc i don’t Care about any relationship to be like i wish this was better </3 they deserved more </33. i’m just perplexed by why these books keep getting lauded as the pinnacle of contemporary romance. when they are Nothing of the sort

[archivalofsins]

Remember that timeline convo between Amane and Kotoko, where Amane thanked her for not treating her as a child and that she’s not so scary, to which Kotoko responded, “Why would I treat you as a child? I still am the person I was at 12. Also, you’re not so great, suck on that B-.”

Because Pepperidge Farm remembers.

That said, God, I really thought it was some strand of leftover moral keeping her from attacking Amane, not a lack of opportunity.

I remember it sooooo well. That interaction lives in my head rent free!

20/06/18

Amane: Thank you very much for teaching me. ……but, though I realise it’s strange me saying this after I asked you, I must admit it’s kind of unexpected. You give off the impression of someone who wouldn’t want to get involved in things like this. Kotoko: ……well, you’re not wrong. I’m surrounded by people who could all be murderers, so I don’t plan on going out of my way to talk and make friends. I can’t let my guard down.But I like ambitious people like you. If you want to study more, then I’m happy to teach. Amane: I see…… You look scary at first impression, but I quite like the way you treat everyone equally regardless of whether they’re older or younger than you. You don’t just treat me like a child or anything like that. Kotoko: Treat you like a child? Hah, you’ve got to be kidding. Back when I was your age, I was already the person I am today. I don’t have any plans to let you get away with something just “because you’re a child.” ……remember that. There, I’ve finished marking. 83%.How do I put it… Even though you act like this, it’s not like you’re super brilliant at studying or anything, huh.

Kotoko really said in that voice drama if it wasn't for Kazui interferring and Mikoto taking so long to fight she would have jumped that kid. She has always and will forever be about it. When she said remember that she meant that shit.

This is the perfect example of the phrase when people tell you who they are believe them.

Don't give them a defense, don't say you're probably overexagerating, you probably have poor self-esteem. We can unpack that after taking they asses at face value. In order to fix an issue one first has to accepts an issue exists.

Definitely puts all those injured children throughout Harrow in a new light. Especially given her focus in the voice drama of others not being able to do what it takes to actually implement change. People were really like it can't be that bad and Kotoko barged in cd drop like,

"Ha; it's gonna be worse! SO, STUPID WEAKLINGS LIKE YOU ALL SHOULD JUST SHUT UP AN LET ME PROTECT YOU! You're way too soft- What were you thinking that you could make friends?! That these people would change if you were nice and understanding enough. That we'd all hold hands and laught together if you just forgave us? You're far too kind- AND NAIEVE! What next are you just going to forgive them because they're attractive? You need me to do the things that need to be done that you yourself clearly can't do. That's what cooperation is."

It's been amazing because she came in last part of trial two and really gave the audience and Es a kick to the face for all our behavior up until now. Like it's the biggest fuck all of you of trial two. Honestly she kept hitting she did not miss. Not one fucking time. She held that mirror up and shouted at that bitch until it cracked.

Ooooo, boy....

I was not expecting to come out of her voice drama like well now hold on she's a bit wild, a tad unhigned, definitely unforgivable to some, but um she's speaking some truths. There's some truths there that a lot of people who participate in Milgram are not going to like to hear but need to hear regardless.

It was so satisfying to see. Especially after everything this trial. It was just perfect actually after everything we've been through and the logic we've all seen. That- Yeah we deserve to get to sit with that for a bit.

[ulabewriting]

Harryo Duncan.

he/him.

TW : mention of bullying, (cuteness overload)! ! !

• "Ah, welcome back ! I was actually thinking about you ! ... Not like– wait, not like that– I was– like, I found a book you might like so, uh–"

• hides behind the shelves when people he doesn't know enter the library.

• the biggest studio ghibli fan. owns tons of goodies.

• always wearing dr. martens because he thinks it makes him look cool :) (still a cutie patootie)

• for the longest time, you thought his name was "Duncan" because that's what's on his little library card. When you two get close, he tells you his actual name— he plays nervously with the fabric of his shirt, a blushing mess when he whispers : ".....Harryo. My, uh... You can call me Harryo. I– I'd like it if you called me by my name. Please."

• gets along with Angela, the actual official librarian, his supervisor. They're very close. (he still calls her Mrs. Pierce, though.)

• addicted to cinnamon rolls. One day, you brought him some to thank him for all the help he gives you and he pretty much melted on the spot. You swear you saw him stare at the baked goods with stars in his eyes and honestly, he looked at you the same way the whole day too–

• talented violinist. He's very shy (no shit) about it though; you only learn about this when he invites you to his place for the first time. You see a violin in a corner of his room and suddenly, he's blushing again, rubbing his neck awkwardly and telling you about the numerous competitions he won when he was younger. He started playing when he was 9.

• 6'4 and all limbs, basically. You started calling him "slenderman" at some point and it always makes him grin like an idiot. <3

• despite being so tall, he feels very petite somehow? He's just so delicate and sweet, he's just– Must protect at all costs! ! !

• his body is always cold, especially his hands, no matter the weather and season. He gets a bit worried when you hold his hand for this reason; what if it's uncomfortable for you? what if HE makes you cold? When you hold his hand in yours though, he gets all flustered and cute.

• "Would you mind staying like that a little longer ? I like your warmth... a lot."

• so soft-spoken, it's insane.

• reads whenever he's free. He likes any kind of book but, his favorites will always be love stories and poetry.

• very studious. He was a straight A student.

• takes medication for his (social) anxiety. Getting this place as an intern and interacting with people all day... it's a big deal. Even though he doesn't have the best self-esteem, he knows he's doing good. doing better.

• used to be bullied in middle school. (hahaha awkward introverts are so ridiculous (ew))

• cries very easily when he's happy. Absolutely stoic when he's sad, upset.

• has a terrible handwriting, but still leaves you cute little notes here and there. (like "i think you'll like this one!" on a piece of paper glued to the book he slides to you in silence or "see you later, pretty" on your mirror after he spent the night at your place and left early in the morning to go to work.)

• gets distracted pretty easily.

• "Sorry... uh... sorry, you were saying ? I just– I was looking at your eyes and like, they're really like this one semi-precious stone. You know, the beautiful one, how's it called–"

• a big fan of vinyls. Has a huge collection at his place. He regularly goes to thrift stores to buy old, rare ones.

• One day, you say you want to accompany him and he just. he just loses his cool. suddenly, he doesn't know how to act anymore, and he's blushing so much, and his heart his racing, and he bites on his bottom lip and–

• hides his flustered face in his palms when you call him cute. ;)

• “I’ll be the love interest of your romance for as long as you’ll let me be. I wouldn’t know how to exist outside of your book anymore… I don’t want to.”

• very timid and nervous about physical touch but, once it's inserted in your relationship, he's sooooo down for it. He's definitely a hugger. always wants to hold hands too though he's too shy to say it; you often catch him staring at your palms.

• his glasses slide on his nose all the time, and it's absolutely adorable.

• talks with his hands.

• favorite color : beige. His eyes get so soft whenever you wear this color; he looks at you like you're the most comforting thing he's ever seen... because you are.

• very humble about it, but is an amazing cook! He likes to feed you to show his love. He'll prepare you some hot tea in your favorite mug, a heart-shaped pizza for dinner, pack your lunch before you guys go out for the day.

• kind of awkward with pda. Like he won't french kiss you in public, but if you ever manage to steal a little kiss before you part ways in front of the library, his skin will go crimson and he'll whisper a high-pitched "love you, bye", then run to hide in the nearest aisle.

• likes to be the little spoon.

• whimpers and whines. like, a lot.

• super super close to his mom. He calls her every day! She's his bestie. He doesn't talk to his dad; he hasn't been around since he was born.

• talks about you ALL THE TIME when you're not around. His mom and Mrs. Pierce know everything about you before they even meet you.

• could sleep anywhere. Some stairs, a public bench, the floor, against a shelf... Sometimes, he starts falling asleep, his head lowering, then he suddenly snaps his eyes back open. He looks left and right, embarrassed as hell, praying that nobody saw him.

• hates horror movies. He hates them.

• Yep, you guessed it, he's... a scaredy-cat.

• the only person you know who actually wears a tie every day.

• too handsome for his own good. There are always some people admiring and whispering about him and he has absolutely NO CLUE.

• doesn't like talking to people, really... you're the only exception. He loves talking to you.

• likes to drink, but very much a lightweight.

• becomes extroverted when he's drunk lmao.

• has dimples. They're so powerful– they go crazy when he's chewing, almost like flashing lights.

• love language? making playlists. (quality time - just sitting in silence with you honestly; he’ll be so happy he won’t stop smiling to himself. gift giving - but it’s like…. books, cute rocks he found on his way to work, flowers, weird little drawings, pretty sea shells. . .)

• probably the most awkward guy you'll ever meet, but he's twice as charming.

• "Hey, I hope our book never knows an end. I want to write sweet nothings with you forever."

[constantfragmentation]

hey, just came here to tell you that i'm so so relieved that i was able to find your blog again !! and your jane eyre au fanfic with silco !! honestly, 'bend but not break' was (and still pretty much is) one of my favourite fanfics ever; not aus or silco fanfics, i mean one of THE best fanfics i've ever read. cannot even begin to describe how sad i was when i lost the ao3 link, and when i wasn't able to remember your blog's url.

and it was a shame, because BBNB was just *chef's kiss* 🤌. i literally stayed awake until sunrise reading it the first time, already getting inpatient for the next chapter. and i think it's mainly because you capture silco so so well, and you get 'jane eyre'; and you capture the dreadful air of the novel, and those little acts of tenderness and romance... and your smut it's quite great too. like, i still can't get over The Opera chapter, even after all this time 👀👀

still, now that i did find you, i'm not only gonna read that one, but i'm gonna get started on all your other works !! i know i'm getting repetitive but i just don't know how to express just how great i think your writing is. so for now, i just hope you get to read this !!

hope i didn't weird you out or anything !! please, have a great day, and stay safe <33

p.s.: i'm gonna read bbnb rn, until sunrise if necessary, just like in the good old days !! so if you hear someone's heart breaking, it might be mine !!

Omg?! Thank you! No, you are not weirding me out in any way.

I am so very humbled. You have no idea. I'm still learning as a writer, and I am my own worst critic.

I'm sorry I haven't been online to respond to this earlier because I've been really sick with the flu and binge watching Poldark (again).

I've been technically writing fiction since 2015 and it's been a learning curve with each story. For some odd reason, historical eras seem to fit my style in writing. I can do modern but this era I feel like I can sink my teeth into it.

I'm a huge fan of gothic horror/suspense/romance. So, yeah, I guess you can see that in the choices I make.

I must admit I'm not all together happy with the last chapter of BBNB, I might want to change some things in that chapter before moving on (maybe because it might meld into the next chapter better? idk).

Even though I have approximately 5-6 chapters (depending on how big the chapters get, I'm terrible about posting novel-length chapters) left in Bend, it should be an emotional rollercoaster. There are soooo many things I have left to run with before it ends.

As of the lastest chapter, I'm deviating from Jane Eyre a bit, while still holding onto certain plot-points for context but I want to play more with the Regency Arcane/Silco's world.

I do have other ideas for Silco stories I want to write. One will deal with a younger, hot-head SIlco. Another I'm tempted to play with a Roaring 20's Underground.

Then I have a story that I'm developing into an original gothic novel. I have maybe too much on my plate. LOL

It's moments like this when I wish I didn't have to 'work' a regular job to pay the bills because I would literally write all day, every day.

I can't tell you how much I appreciate you sending me this. It really does brighten my day. That may sound cliche, but it does. I admit I don't have the greatest self-esteem, but I'm working on it.

That someone likes something I've written that much to comment at all and tell me they're re-reading it... my heart is going to explode.

I am working on both Regency Silco stories. When my head doesn't feel like a fog-horn inside of a 100lb bowling ball, I should be in a better space to be creative. It's zapped when you feel exhausted. Working 60hr weeks lately probably hasn't helped my health any.

Thank you again sooooo much for this. Never feel like you're bothering me or weirding me out. I love and embrace all comments, good or critical.

[fieldofdaisiies]

frost and fireside <3

fireside - if you had your dream wardrobe, what would it look like?

Ooooh I really love boho style, and floral (but I own many floral things so I don’t know if it counts) and definitely going into the direction of cottage core and light academia

frost - if you could give some advice to your younger self, what would you say?

sooooo many things…..

First of all, that you don’t always have to make everyone happy - your own feelings also matter

Secondly, just because someone says you are overweight when you are clearly not does not mean you habe to change anything about yourself

Thirdly, in your life you will lose friends but also find new ones, that is just how life is…

Fourth, just because someone says you are boring it does not mean you are, people just like different things

Fifth, life has many downs but also just as many ups - you have to appreciate and enjoy every day, thanking the good people in your life and be grateful for what you have

And sixth, breaking up after a one day relationship is not really a heardbreak (this goes out to my 11 year old self…)

[lavender-femme]

Happy Tuesday hottie 🌹

frost - if you could give some advice to your younger self, what would you say?

spice - have you ever encountered a house that you believed to be haunted?

cocoa - if you could have any type of hair, what colour and cut would you have?

omg I adore you ty for sending these!!

frost— oh this is a hard one! to my childhood self I would probably tell her that the people who don’t want to be her friend aren’t worth the time anyway. keep reading and learn more from your grandma while she’s around and your mom before her brain betrays her. To my adolescent self I would say get help. You are worth the vulnerability it will take to get help. Also you have adhd lol. (That got a little deep oops 😅)

spice— I don’t recall any houses, but the dance studio I spent my whole childhood in had an upstairs and there were definitely ghosts that lived up there. they were friendly ones though! My dance teacher had sooooo many stories about them

Cocoa— okay I’m actually having a sort of hair crisis right now so this one is appropriate. First I would figure out what type of hair I actually have because right now there are super tight ringlets around my hairline and then long vaguely straight and wavy hair. I just wanna figure out what’s supposed to be there y’know? But beyond that I would love to have the natural hair color I had when I was around 5-7 because it was brown but also had golden blonde highlights that complimented it all so nicely!

i forgot how much I love answering asks ahhh ty ty ty

[stabbyfoxandrew]

Hi Aerie, happy Saturday :)🌈 if you want to participate and answer, may I ask some autumnal questions? (https://www.tumblr.com/stabbyfoxandrew/729840970044260352/autumnal-asks)

frost ~ lantern ~ cinnamon ~ fog ~ harvest ~ ghost

Ps.(I am grateful to be one of your 400 followers and read your AUs, they mean so much🥺🤍)

frost - if you could give some advice to your younger self, what would you say? 'get a job and gtfo of there!' lol :') also stuff like 'those people aren't your friends, find better ones' younger me knew that, but was afraid of being alone :')))

sorry these answers got LONG! i'm gonna put a break here

lantern - how did you meet your best friend? What were your first impressions of each other? okay so... my very best friend is my younger sibling! as for my other two closest friends, each of them (seperately) messaged me on here while i was having a Really Really Awful Time in my life (i won't give you my entire life story but it sucked a lot) and i thought they were both very sweet to check on me bc no one irl gave a shit lol

cinnamon - if you had to live in a time period different than the present, which would you choose and where? hmm... well, honestly, call me lame but i think i'd have liked to have been an adult in the late 90s, early 2000s. instead of ya know being in elementary school. i can't imagine going any further back and i don't wanna skip ahead either. i guess i would stay in my home town? i don't know where else i would be

fog - how well do you think you’d do in a zombie apocalypse scenario? oh baby i'm kms immediately! i'm not fuckin with that shit LMAO

harvest - what fictional character do you most identify with? Why? somehow every character i've ever read about disappeared from my head upon reading this. however, for the purpose of answering the question i'll pretend it's aftg characters only. and then i would say nicky i think. he's gay with unsupportive parents and basically raises his younger cousins while he's still a kid himself?? uh... hello. also i think he's a decent person he's just stupid and that's so me : )

ghost - is there someone that you miss having in your life? many. recently though, my granny (my mom's mom). but also i don't miss being around her bc she was sooo fatphobic and treated me like shit my whole childhood. :') i miss the good times we had though. a lot.

also that wasn't a question but thank you sooooo much! <3<3 i'm so glad you're here it makes me so happy to see you in my askbox every wipw!!! <3<33

🍂autumnal asks🍂

[whiskeyswifty]

I wanna know what you think of Olivia's vampire?? Please and thank you 💖 I'm obsessed with your replies

i'm so sorry to report, dear anon, that olivia has never been and is still not For Me, to say it politely. It's very much music For The Kids, and that's great! Younger generations always need things that are their own, separate from the adults in their life. That's not to say it's lesser than anything else because it's for the kids, not at all! It's just for a demographic I'm not a part of and don't feel any kinship to right now (which is a good thing lmao i'm an adult i shouldn't be in spaces for kids). It's also not to say as an adult, you can't enjoy her music! If you're able to connect with it via the younger version of yourself, that's beautiful and i'm so happy for you that teenage you gets to feel validated. So many of my friends love it for how as a teenager, they would have related to it. I connect to a lot of other younger artists right now for the same reasons and because taste-wise, they're doing things that really click with me, so it's just not a good match, olivia and I. that's all!

A number of factors probably are why i don't enjoy her music writ large. 1. my youth was NOTHING like what she sings about. Like polar opposite teenagers truly and my younger self doesn't connect to or relate to anything she sings about. it's entirely too earnest for me then and now, but thats just my personal thing! not a value judgement. 2. she has the post-lorde whisper/raspy/talk singing voice that makes me SQUEAL with laughter when i hear it. idk your age, or if this is now a dated reference, but it's the bananies & avocadies vine voice lmaoooo sorry! It sounds so silly to me because of that vine (rip) and HE WAS prophetic was he not??? sooooo many gen z girls sing like that and it's borderline unlistenable to me because of my brain worms. 4. at this point, if all of the above are also true, and all you have left is "sad story about a boy happened to me", sorry to say but genuine heartbreak songs about boys from girls are just white noise to me. I've been a full blown lesbian for so long at this point, NEW content about women genuinely, earnestly weeping over men just doesn't connect and i can't sympathize or relate or bring myself to feel any type of way about it. that's just not my world, sorry you're going through all that or sorry that happened to you, it sucks and it's terrible, but i'm not interested in engaging with that content. men, straight ones especially, are ancillary at best in my world. you have to be a legacy artist to move me whilst singing about A Man, someone who snuck in early and earned my favor before i realized i was a lesbian (hence the topic of this blog lol). again, not a value judgement! just my personal taste.

about the song itself, it just sounds like driver's license the sequel to me, which is great and not a knock! it makes sense to me strategy-wise. it worked the first time, so if it ain't broke, use the same release strategy for the next album. seems like she has a decent team behind her who are setting her up for success which is great! there are some solid lines in it, but at my geriatric age (over 30 lmao) i'm extremely sensitive to clunky lyrics. blame the near perfectly threaded and composed early taylor work for that i suppose, although i'm sure there are others at fault. a half-formed idea or a half-committed idea turns me off so quickly, and the mixed metaphors in the chorus (?) of the song really make me itch. "sold me for parts" and then the vampire metaphors about consuming conjure totally different imagery and dynamics and the friction between them i find jarring. both are interesting and i would have loved to have seen the depths of each plumbed creatively! commit to one and explore the ways you can weave that metaphor with reality to really pack a punch! however it sounds like a very sensitive situation that she went through so perhaps clarity in songwriting is not possible for this event in her life. idk much about her but that's what i gleaned at least. (WCS is wayyyyyy better and more fully formed and articulate than dear john, to give you an example)

I totally recognize her prominence and am happy for her and all her success! This is not a hater post, i don't have any ill will towards her. i'm not annoyed by her. I don't think about her, unless asked, tbh. i think she's an amazing figure for younger fans to have in their pop culture life and i wish her all the success and happiness in the world!

[copias-girl]

The bad part about TCAC is that it ENDS, and I will suffer waiting for the next chapter... aaaah it hurts 😩😩

The story is getting better and sexier after every single chapter, and this one specifically was sooooo good. The Satanic Mass was just 💋👌 CHEF'S KISS. My poor little pitiful ratman, he was never touched before.... by the way, I'm pretty excited to see a little about his past, if you will. My headcanon is that he had a sad and lonely childhood, for 3 reasons: his mismatched eyes, the fact that he didn't know his dad and because his mom was a single satanist woman, considered to be filthy, worthless and a sinner. Imagine being a single mom, satanist and much probably feminist in the 1960-1970s decade? Sister Imperator surely suffered a LOT (not counting Nihil's cheating) and so did her child. I think she was his only friend, Copia is mama's boy forever (yeah i think he knows she is his mother unlike the fandom usually theorizes, but he surelly doesnt know Nihil is his father). This is why he grew up so shy and used to be bullied and mistreated, even among his own people (satanists).

Look at that pretty shy boy. He is afraid of even looking to the reader, imagine when she finally decides to eat her prey? Kissing him in front of everyone? Finally fucking and giving him the most pleasurable love? Ooh he definitely will pass out, at least metaphorically. Imagine, after a great and satisfying fuck, Copia looking down at the sister while she sleeps with her head on his chest and hugging his body?? Imagine she kissing his squishy belly full of rigatoni and body-worshipping him to give him courage! OMFG this is killing me 😩😩

Anyway. I absolutely love your writing, guestie!! ❤️❤️

Awww!! That’s so sweet of you to say!! ♥︎ I’m gonna be dialling up the heat in the next chapters so I can’t wait to post that for you all! 😈🔥

And I’m happy you liked the mass chapter, it was so fun to write!! I’m enjoying writing all the little parts about daily life at the ministry! It really immerses me into the story and I hope it does the same for all my wonderful readers too!

But yes I do headcanon Copia to have been kind of a lonely child. He was raised alongside the other Emeritus brothers, but obviously he’s years younger than Terzo and Secondo so maybe they didn’t play together very much. And obviously Primo is way older than all of them. And yes I do think that if he was going out in the regular world, his mismatched eyes and gentle demeanour would have made him the target for some mean comments 🥺 ugh my poor baby, this is making my heart hurt 🖤

Personally I headcanon that he doesn’t know Sister Imperator is his mother, just because in the chapters she stops herself from saying it (in the doom call chapter) and also in the homecoming chapter she says she can’t call him Papa, and when she asks if he knows why he just says because of Nihil. And obviously Sister Imperator cares for him and is always in his corner, but Copia just thinking he’s an orphan makes him even more lonely and lovable 🥺

But omg YES Ghestie I am so excited to write that part!! If he can’t even handle reader in these chapters, imagine when she goes full force and is begging for his cock like?? Poor sweet rat man is gonna be going into cardiac arrest. And you KNOW reader is a lil exhibitionist sooooo yeah she’s definitely gonna be up for some public shenanigans 👀👀 AND YES HIS RIGATONI FILLED BELLY OMFG I LOVE IT SO SO MUCH LIKE- imagine him being kinda self conscious about his body and reader just worships the FUCK out of him 🤤🤤🤤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

[back2bluesidex]

I apologize for the madness that's about to be unleashed.

Here is my live reaction read for "Like Crazy" :D

"It all started as a bet"

"Jimin hyung’s charms” Jungkook smirked." the kid needs walloping (-_-) who asked him to be THIS problematic?? Unprompted???

Taehyung groans as if he is very much disappointed with the younger’s advances, “Jungkook, are you a dick head?" THANK YO- "Is that even a reasonable bet? Jimin can fuck her tomorrow if he wants.” Now it’s the time when Jimin smirks." fuck the three of them (-_-) they're literally the worst

“She’s pretty but the question is… is she easy?”

"For the next twenty days Jimin kept on following you everywhere you went. He totally enjoyed the shocked expression your face would produce every single time you crossed paths with him." when he's a stalker 🥵👌💦💋

"What would they say if they knew a girl from nowhere had been shaking off Park Jimin’s advances." men ☕ wHO DOES HE THINK HE IS

"So Jimin doesn’t miss the chance when you try to get away from the annoying guy." he should look in the mirror more (-_-)

"As soon as your bodies touch, he got to inhale your scent and fuck you smell spicy." spicy?? miss madam had a bit of a jerk chicken? (T-T)

"It was a daydream but seeing it taking the shape of reality is completely different." right?! like you sit and think in your head how wonderful would it be for something to happen and then when it does you're like "no thank you"

oN THE CAR?! Like heathens?!

so he's p*nty sniffing now? ok joe goldberg go off 🙄

he put THAT in her MOUTH? y'all need jesus

"Now who are you to deny Park Jimin?" queer and annoyed (-_-) is who I am, this man needs to be HUMBLED

anyway, happy to see the sequel is out, I'm going to fistfight this Jimin next to a trashcan 🥰

Okay sooo......

I am spell bound.....

The live reaction is better than the story itself... Dang! I enjoyed it more than I enjoyed writing the story. 🔥

And about Jimin... 🌚

Lemme tell you that Jimin's character is actually a bit cocky, a little self-obsessed and a tad bit spoilt. Sooooooo..... Yeahhhh.... He needs to be humbled........ He will be humbled him if I continue this as a series. Let's see...

Also, thank you sooooo much for reading my stories and taking your time to send me this ask. It makes me sooooo damn happy. 😭💜