#my worst creation yet: an internet poisoned asshole

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The Guardian says: do you really think Torvah didn’t think of that. get a load of this moron lololol

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How rumors and lies spread like a virus.

In the background, I’ve been working on a very long rant about issues commonly seen online. Such as drama, rumors, theft etc. But I haven’t been able to think about the other subjects a lot, just this one, because it hits me close. It continues to break me, haunt me, tear me to shreds. So, I’d like to use my voice, if I can’t use it towards the people who continue to hurt me, I will use it in a place where I know some will listen.

I don’t see many people talk about how rumors and lies spreading can really destroy you, I suppress a lot of hurt from this. 

Please, listen for a bit. 

 I understand the internet can be a safe haven for some people, it’s honestly a really cool and useful tool. You can look up anything, buy things online, share and sell your creations, meet new people, search for restaurants, hell you can even learn a whole new language and do schoolwork. Of course this place does have its cons as do all things.

Social media is a widely popular way of connecting with family and friends along with keeping up with the worlds events and sharing your thoughts or creations with anyone in the world. Unfortunately social media isn’t all sunshine and fuckin rainbows. You can’t control who’s gonna be an asshole to you, there’s gonna be someone out there who’s not gonna agree with you or just not like you in general so they’ll do what they can to get a rise out of you. The simple solution is to block those who hurt you but doesn’t exactly solve everything now does it?

 People will spread the dumbest shit online just for the attention. That’s what it’s all about, attention.

 Say there’s someone on the internet who doesn’t like you and they want to hurt you, so they spread a rumor. They could say anything like you committed a crime or you hurt them in so many ways. Unfortunately most people who don’t fully know you, or maybe some who even know you, will believe those rumors. 

Rumors are like viruses, they spread one way or another, going from one person to the next and it’s so poisonous, filling a persons head with these infectious lies, re-wiring their brain to think the worst of you. No one really thinks to go to you though. I guess it has something to do with fear, they think that if the rumor is really true then they want nothing to do with you, but rumors aren’t always true! 

Honestly, it really helps to get both sides of the story. Not a lot of people bother to even TRY to get both parties sides. Though sometimes when the second party tries to use their voice to fight the lies spread, they’re silenced. Who cares what they have to say? They’re rumored to be this awful being, people will just think they’re just trying to cover their own ass. Imagine how painful that is, having awful lies spread and not even being able to fight because who the fuck cares. It’s equally painful when you see someone you care about having rumors spread about them. Yet still if you try to fight for them, you’re shot down for even TRYING to defend them! No one wants to believe you because they believe you’re only refusing to believe the rumors since you care about them even if you know damn well that the rumors are false.

Sometimes it’s not even rumors. 

Someone could hurt you online or you fight with someone and the instigator will often warp the story to make it look as if they are the victim, you have no idea how much that bothers me to no end. 

People have different perspectives, but if you wanna tell someone about your disagreement, whether you instigated it or not, tell it as is. Sure, it’s your side of the story, but it doesn’t mean you can exactly say whatever the fuck you want. You can’t just lie since it’s your side, because then it isn’t the story at all, it’s just another virus. 

I’m not putting this here just to fan girl or whatever, but, Will Ryan has a song that perfectly describes how painful it can be to have lies spread about you but you’re unable to fight back. It’s called Trojan, it talks about the Trojan virus. Looking like nothing much on the outside, but filled with so much bad shit on the inside. You don’t see it.

You don’t see the pain when no ones able to speak out. It feels like you’re chained to the ground and the space you’re in is continuously filling with water until you’re fucking drowning. All these words coming from so many different directions, drowning out the sound of your own voice, drowning out the sounds of your screaming.

Look, if you ever want to talk shit or post a lie just to harm someone, just think to yourself what could happen. Someone very close to me had someone post a lie about them, it changed their life in the worst way. It ruined their career. It continues to ruin their life. It hurts.

That’s all I have to say right now. If you don’t want to listen to this, then I really don’t give a shit anymore. If you want to accuse me of vague posting about someone, hey! Go ahead! I don’t fucking care. I’m too upset right now to care if people want to start talking about me again.

I hope some of you will understand why I made this post, why it’s so important to me.