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why am i even here tbh
#isn't life supposed to be for living#how do people do it#how do people keep going i genuinely want to know#the world only becomes a worse and worse place#i've done everything i could but i have no more money left#my voice means nothing and the people i love still suffer#some people suffer and fall and some people keep going through adversity#they fight and they manage to cling to something#i'm not a fighter. i don't know how people do it but i can't.#people say 'we'll be ok. we'll make it through.' and i'm like#how can you say that knowing the cost. how can you promise it's worth it with the road we're going down.#but#i can't give up now. i have work tomorrow.#is that really all i have waiting for me? work and bad news?#delete later#probably don't read this#i'll be fine at some point. i shouldn't be posting this but idk any other voids to scream into.#im not suicidal dont worry too much about me
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Ok this one of my ideas not sure if I have actually read it before or if it was a fever dream. Az has a girlfriend/ mate that the inner circle hasnât met before.she works with marja as a high and has maybe other powers I donât know. I have 2x options in which to take this idea. 1. Azzy gets very hurt on a mission and his brought to you to fix him. Very emotional IC and reader. They save him blah blah. 2. Some of the healers are working on so far out town. Az was cutie and like donât go. She was like boo you go all the time I going to help people. Love you be back soon. But while they are there they are kidnapped by someone ( you pick). Word gets back to Marja who tells Rhys and Az happens to be there. Az freaks out when he hears our name on the list of miss. Blah blah.
totally cool if you donât wanna use. It is just an idea.
azriel being worried about you going on a mission
azriel x reader
fulff
a/n: i ain't really not for angst these days, so i only took the beginning of your second idea, hope u dont mind :)
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âYou will not go,â Azriel sates, and his voice is so commanding and serious you stop in your tracks.Â
âAzriel, weâve been through this. Iâm a healer. This is my job.â
âNo, your job is to heal people being safe,â he explains as if you were stupid. You know he means well, but you are growing more irritated by the moment. âYour job is not putting your life in danger.â
âWell, saving lives in the middle of a war comes obviously with my life being in danger.â
Giving him your back, you continue packing all you need for the journey. You hear his footsteps getting closer, then his hand is on your back, gently stroking. âY/N. Please,â and it sounds enough of a plea for you to turn and face him.Â
âAzriel, you constantly put yourself in danger. Almost everyday I have to see you leave to work, with no assurance you will come back.â
His eyes drop to his feet in defeat. âI know, and I know itâs not fair for me to ask you this. But - I simply donât care.â He watches you again, a spark of confidence and hope settles in his eyes. âI cannot risk loosing you, and the risk of loosing you is higher than yours is to lose me on a mission.â When he catches your frown, he adds, âYou must give me this; I know how to defend myself better than you in the battlefield.â
You let out a soft chuckle, the seriousness of before fading a bit as a timid smile blooms on his face.
But your mind is made up. âAzriel,â you sigh. âI must go still.â
His lips close to a thin line, worry back in his face. He takes your hands in his scarred ones. You are to hear his angry pleads again, but to your surprise, he simple answers, âAlright.â
You open your eyes wide in astonishment. âAlright?â
Your mate grins before adding, âAlright.â And that grin means two things. Trouble, or planed trouble.Â
âWhat is your mind up to, Az?â you ask accusingly, as if he was no more than a kid planing mischief.Â
His grin grows more teasing. âNothing, nothing,â he says as he turns to your travel trunk, putting things. His things. âItâs just that I'm going with you.â
âWhat?â
âWhat?â he says, totally unfazed by the situation. âYou need protection. I want to know you are safe. You are no good with a sword, yet excellent healing people. Iâm quite good with a sword. I think itâs a perfect plan.â
âYou miss that Rhys has assigned you a mission in the Spring Court. Tomorrow.â
He looks at you, looking at you as if what youâve said itâs dumb. âI donât remember that.â
âYes, you do.â
âLove,â he says, and his voice is serious again. âPlease. I beg you, donât make me suffer like this. Let me accompany you. I will talk to Rhys and he will understand. He knows how terrible it is to know your mate is in danger, no mater how strong or brave she is. And you are, but I am not strong enough to spend every second of the following days not knowing if you are safe.â
You sigh, now you are defeated. âAlright.â He smiles triumphantly, so you are quickly to add sternly, âBut no scaring anyone that comes near me, understood?â
âYes, maâam,â and he has that teasing smirk on his face again.Â
-Characters by Sarah J Maas
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pairing: song mingi x reader (no pronouns mentioned, reader has female anatomy)
au/genre: college!au, tutor!reader, mingi does not give a shit about studying, smut
word count: 4816 words
warnings: voice kink (AHHHHH), oral and fingering (reader receiving), reader is a little mean, kitchen sex, anime references, cringe, a joke about adhd, dirty talk... um..., oh right Mingi has a big dick (wbk), everyone's a little silly, unprotected sex (boo âźď¸đđť), premature ejaculation almost, creampie, cum eating... (not reader...), i think that's it. NOT PROOF READ YET!!
synopsis: mingi hates studying, but what he hates way more than that is being perceived as stupid. what mingi loves on the other hand, are pretty people getting flustered about his voice
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mingi shows you exactly what he hates and loves.
a/n: i was almost ready when i saw this tiktok and it completely blocked my mind because it's SO FUNNY, but at the same time, it's men being dudes, dudes being bros, and that kind of made it hard for me to continue. i apologize for the 24h delay đ
taglist: @byuntrash101 @goquokka @ashwoodforest @choisansnotsolegalwife
Mingi is not one to sit there and look at books. Or papers. Or anything that doesn't move and feed his brain with bright colors and his ears with noises, really. He prefers to vibe, and studying is definitely not the vibe. Sadly, studying is a part of his life as a university student. Yes, he chose this path for himself and yes, he was aware that it would involve studying. Still, now that it's really happening and is not just an obstacle to overcome in the far, far future, Mingi kind of wishes he'd chosen something else to do with his life. It's just exhausting, why would he waste the precious time he has left on planet earth on something that doesn't get the serotonin floating? He's pretty sure he has some undiagnosed ADHD simmering up there, but who is he to judge that? He's certainly not studying to become a doctor or whatever.
Anyway, given the fact that Mingi doesn't like to study, he's not had much experience with it in the first place. He's barely gotten his way through school, but uni is a different level. Hence, he needs someone to 1) teach him how to study and 2) make him study, or rather: have a judging eye on him while he is supposed to study, so the fear of being called out on it may light a fire under his ass and force him to bury his nose between the stinky pages of an old library book (on that note: he also needed someone to show him how to check out books from the library).
And that's why you are here, every Thursday afternoon, sitting at the sad excuse of a kitchen counter slash dining table in Mingi's scandalously expensive apartment given its size, growling next to him every time you catch him analyzing the bumps on his wallpapers instead of the letters on the pages.
Mingi generally likes you, even though you are a bit scary, he has to admit, or maybe that's the appeal. You are polite, but you have a way of looking at him that makes him feel like he's getting mansplained by your eyes. Your taunting gaze on him makes him feel small, and he doesn't like that at all. It makes him feel like all these years of drinking milk to make him stand at the 1.84m he is at today were in vain. You always have that one expression on your face, and maybe that's just Mingi's subconsciousness telling him to STUDY HARD FOR GOD'S SAKE, but in the way your eyebrows would scrunch together just the tiniest bit, he reads: God, he is fucking stupid.
He doesn't know which (since he did not pay attention in biology class, nor is he even sure they teach that in biology class) chemical in his brain suffers an allergic reaction every time you look at him like that, but there has to be one. There is nothing that Mingi hates more than being called stupid. Well, except for studying, maybe.
Call him lazy, call him a scalawag, call him witty for being able to get through all of school without reading a single one of the set books if you must, but do not call him stupid.
The only problem is that you haven't, well, called him stupid per se. It's just how Mingi interprets your stares. Also, he desperately needs you because he doubts there will be many other contestants that are okay with getting paid as little as you are (which is all Mingi has left by the end of a month full of PokĂŠmon trading cards). So Mingi just has to sit back and relax and simply take it because, apparently, that's what he gets for not studying his entire life.
A loud ringing wakes Mingi from his peaceful afternoon nap - one that he has really earned this time around, he managed to look through his study notes for a full 20 minutes during his lunch break!
Disoriented, Mingi raises his head to make out his location and what year he is in. It rings again. Slowly, Mingi recognizes the shrill sound as his door bell. He slowly gets up, a quick glance in the mirror tells him that his hair is an absolute mess (which is really a crowning achievement given his buzz cut length) and he has imprint marks from his blanket all over his right cheek, but his sleepy mind doesn't even take it in. Mingi furrows his brows and shakes his head. Who would dare to disturb his peaceful slumber at this ungodly hour (4pm)?
The answer, of course, stands right in front of his door. With your arms crossed and the tip of your shoe drumming a dent into Mingi's "come in if you're a silly baka"-door mat, you raise an unimpressed brow at the sleepy shell of Mingi that blinks one eye after the other.
A few seconds pass until Mingi finally realizes who you are, and his mouth forms an 'o'-shape. Immediately after, he furrows his brows once again, his body slumping forward a bit because: why on God's green earth are you here? Then, it hits him like a truck, the aftermath of the collision blowing the remaining sleep out of his eyes: it's Thursday afternoon!
"Sorry," he says and sheepishly scratches the back of his head, then steps aside to let you enter.
"It's fine, it's only freezing cold outside," you stare at him before stepping in, shudder as you kick your shoes off, slip into Mingi's guest slippers and hurry inside. Mingi's brain does not register the sarcasm drenching your words.
"Let's get to it, shall we?" You ask as Mingi finally manages to follow you into the kitchen. You sit, take out a few sheets of paper from your backpack, then look over questioningly as Mingi has not even moved a millimeter, but instead started yawning like his life depends on it. Your eyes drift down his body. "Or maybe after you've put on some pants?"
Mingi freezes, looks down to confirm that, indeed, he's not wearing pants, but Naruto boxer shorts, then covers his crotch with his hands and buzzes off into his room.
Minutes later, Mingi reenters the kitchen, a pair of sweatpants hanging low on his hips that, yes, he checked twice if he's wearing them the right way around. As mentioned, he is generally unable to properly focus on his studies, but today, it's exceptionally bad. Of course, you'd notice.
"Mingi, are you okay?" There's worry in your eyes â a sight Mingi has not seen. Ever.
"I'm fine, just tired," he mumbles, eyes unfocusing as he stares ahead.
"Yeah, you are? Why?" Mingi's tired mind cannot question why you suddenly seem so interested in his well-being. He also doesn't put any meaning into why you're scooting closer to him, your forearm accidentally touching his.
"I studied during my lunch break," Mingi informs you, a little, proud smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. Something tingles inside his chest as you carefully place your hand on his arm. As he looks over at you, you smile at him, and he notices your gaze flickering down to his lips for a second.
Hold on. Mingi's mind suddenly snaps out of its hazy state and works on overdrive. He might be the type to vibe, the type to just let things play out, but he'd be damned if he didn't notice when someone likes him like that. He suddenly notices the way you started creating skin-on-skin contact with him, the way you want to be closer to him, eyeing him even more than you ever did before. Just... why? Is it because you saw him in his Anime panties?
A few moments pass, and you sit back, then pat your pencil against the book to remind him of the reason why you're actually here. Mingi groans, admittedly a little dramatically and unreasonably erotic, brushing a hand through his hair to flex his biceps right in front of your face. You seem unimpressed.
"Well, fuck me," he chuckles deeply, the rasp in his voice more evident than usual due to his nap. It's then when you tense, he notices from the corner of his eye. Oh. Okay. So it's the voice?
"I'm really glad you're tutoring me, you know?" He purrs, throwing in a little praise to get you extra bothered, and you simply breathe out nervously.
"Heh, no worries," you brush him off. Mingi decides that, for now, he's made you suffer enough and keeps quiet. Instead, he focusses on his studies, although he's already planning his next step to terrorize you with the sultry rasp his vocal cords are gifted with.
"Mingi, focus-"
"No, I get what I have to do, the contents just won't stay in my head." Mingi reasons, his voice unusually, but not by chance, high pitched, eyebrows scrunched as to why the hell he has to do this before doing that only to do whatever next when it wasn't like this for the other exercise he had to do minutes prior. He is not stupid (!), he does understand how this works. It's just that it doesn't make sense, and that is surely not his fault.
"Are you stup-" you start, but shut your mouth before you're even able to call him the dumbest fucker you've ever crossed paths with. Mingi inhales sharply. Oh, oh, you're lucky he is patient, and you're lucky he knows that as soon as he growled a few dirty words into your ear, you'd slam your upper body on the counter without regards of caution, pushing your panties down under your skirt and begging him to take you right there - or at least, that's what he imagines.
Yes, Mingi is super patient, that's just what comes with the entire vibe-personality package, so he does not dump your cute sorry ass on his baka-door mat, but simply closes his pen, lays it on the table and looks at you. A fabulous idea plops into his mind.
"God," he groans as deeply as he can, stretching his arms over his head, "I guess I'm just a little" - he throws in a little moany sigh - "a little distracted today."
"A-are you?" You nod, biting your lip subconsciously. Mingi looks at you without moving his head. "Why?"
"Well, just stuff, you know?" Mingi enjoys how the rumble in his voice makes his throat and - obviously - you feel. "There's just a lot, going on. Like big... big stuff. Stuff that just keeps coming and coming, in and out, just like that. Ugh, I wish I could just let all this frustration out you know, all this pent up stuff." He watches for your reaction.
Unmistakably, your hand holding your own pen in a relaxed manner mere seconds ago now desperately grasps the poor objects until your knuckles turn white, your breathing is uneven and loud as if you'd just ran the entire way from Mingi's place to the next convenience store (seriously, why the fuck is he paying so much for this godforsaken apartment?). And - Mingi's favorite reaction to him ever: you're pressing your thighs together.
Oh, how Mingi loves himself a good reaction like this.
"Big stuff, huh?" Your voice trembles as your nervous eyes search for his. "H-how big?"
"Oh, really big. Just really fucking big," Mingi confirms with a slight smirk. He loves how you just fold easily like that. One second, you're over there feeling superior on your little throne of knowledge that Mingi lacks, and the next, you're making a little mess in your panties just because Mingi so much as spoke. Absolutely incredible. People should start calling him "the rizzler".
"I think-" you clear your throat, "I think I should head home then?"
Mingi smiles to himself as soon as you turn away to pack your stuff into your backpack. His hands automatically reach out to play with his pen, his long, slender fingers toying with the object, inevitably drawing your attention to the movements. "Already?"
"Mhm." You stare a second too long, gulp, then hastily stuff your belongings into the big compartment of the backpack, Mingi listens to the sweet melody of stressed breathing and papers crunching.
As amused as he is, he decides that it is time for the big reveal.
"Keep it in your pants, baby" he looks over, his eyebrow halfway raised, and stops rocking back and forth and fiddling with the pencil as you freeze in your tracks and stop packing. "What?"
Slowly, you turn your head to look at him. "So you know?" You manage to squeak.
Mingi smugly pushes his tongue into his cheek. He loves how you're basically vibrating out of nervousness. "Oh, I know."
You sigh, hands finally letting go of your stuff and motioning defeat. He wonders what's going on in your mind right now. Are you afraid he's going to call you out? That he's going to make fun of you? That he's going to call you a needy slut and send you home? Or are you wondering if he's going to give you what you want? Mingi loves this game.
That's why he decides to make your situation a little more miserable.
"I also know that you think I'm stupid," he explains calmly, trying his best to no longer show any excitement, smugness, or any emotion whatsoever on his sharp facial features to really confuse you. Well, that's what you're getting for (almost) calling The Song Mingi stupid. Just a little payback, is all. He's not going to go so far and make you cry. No, no, Mingi can't handle when people cry, much less so if it's because of him.
Nevertheless, your breath hitches. Oh, you're fully aware that he didn't like you calling him that at all. Oh, how the gears are turning behind your forehead as you're trying to figure out what's going on, and what's going to go on in the next minutes.
"Thought so," Mingi deadpans. Yeah, that's right. Look how smart he is now! Super smart! He's got you all figured out. He knows exactly what to say and how to act to make you feel - and, fuck, does this feel like redemption - stupid.
"I'm sorry-" you start, back facing Mingi's form, but Mingi is not here for it. Mingi has gotten what Mingi wants. Mingi feels as powerful as he imagines a lion to feel, like, every day.
"Dumb fucks good," he simply states, just putting it out there, throwing it into the room for you to do with that statement whatever you like. Mingi's mind is already satisfied, his ego stroked because he's just proven that he isn't dumb. Although... he wouldn't mind a little diddling because, if he's being honest, you're hot as fuck and seeing you react to him in this way- well, he's also just a man!
"What?" You probably think you must've terribly misheard him as you whip your head around to face the confident Mingi smugly leaned back in his chair. Your eyes meet his, and he is sure that you now realize that, no, you definitely did not mishear him. That was exactly what he said.
In the blink of an eye, Mingi feels your presence on his lap, a last final look into his eyes before he feels your lips against his, desperately chewing away the remaining air separating his spit from yours. It's messy, lips colliding, too much teeth and tongue, but it's all raw and desperate. Mingi gets the vibes that you may have had some pent up want for him, but that's honestly the last clear thought he can muster before you grind your hips against his.
A deep groan escapes Mingi's lips, inevitably echoing against your own quiet gasps that just turn louder with every movement of your hips, your hands frantically trying to touch him everywhere at once to the point where he has to grab your arms and pull you back. Your eyes, wide. And confused, but somehow lidded and hazy at the same time struggle to take in Mingi in front of you. Yes, Mingi is aware of the effect of his siren eyes.
For another moment, he simply enjoys seeing how destroyed you look already, but honestly, there is just one thing on his mind.
"I'm gonna eat you out," he informs, waiting for you to nod frantically, whine and scramble off his lap for him to keep his promise. And you do, allowing Mingi to grab your waist with his large hands and lift you onto the counter. Of course, he can't resist getting another taste of your lips, almost losing himself in the soft pillows that frame your pretty mouth, but the hardness creating a tent in his sweatpants reminds him that he should possible attend a little lower.
Hence, he kisses his way over your cheek towards your jaw, then over your neck and down your collarbones. Mingi is not sure what your opinions on love bites are, so he just hopes you can remember him being right here and here and here even without visual proof, he can save that for next time.
Okay, Mingi admittedly was not able to hold himself back completely, his teeth only gently nipping at your skin on his way down. He simply hopes for the best, but your sounds seem to imply that you do not mind him one bit. Instead, you sound as if you wouldn't mind him taking a few bites more.
Impatient as you are, you assist Mingi in pushing your shirt out of the way, the straps of your bra automatically falling down your shoulders to reveal more of you to his hungry eyes.
And as much as Mingi would like to spend hours playing with your chest, he keeps it down to a minimum, kissing the soft flesh while gently pushing the remaining material out of the way for better access. His lips wrap around a nipple, his hands meanwhile busy with massaging the other and carefully holding your waist. God, Mingi loves boobs. But he might love the way your fingers comb through his hair and gently pull on it a bit more even.
Finally, the time has come, and Mingi kneels down on the floor. Pushing your skirt up, hands caressing your thighs, he creates eye contact with your eyes glazed over by lust and want. It doesn't even faze him that he hasn't cleaned these floors in weeks, honestly, he is in so deep he probably wouldn't even realize if the stove was on, lighting his study notes on fire.
He wants to tease you more, make you wait, maybe make you beg even, but he just feels too hungry to keep waiting. His fingers hook into the hem of your panties, pulling them down your legs as quickly as possible before spreading your legs and groaning in anticipation.
Throwing your thighs over his shoulders, he pulls you forward a little further, chuckling as you almost lose balance and smile at him. Okay, maybe Mingi feels a little tingle, and maybe that is not a horny tingle, but that's something to worry about later, if ever. Right now, he has a mission: dive in.
So that's what he does, obviously, planting a careful kiss right on your clit to wait for your reaction. And you do not disappoint, gasping slightly at the first sensation before getting louder and bolder the more Mingi tastes you.
His tongue gently parts your folds, getting a first taste of your juices. You basically cry out as his tongue prods at your hole, carefully easing its way inside to caress your walls.
Automatically, your hands fly to his hair, gently pulling at the roots to find a way to ground yourself, the feeling assumingely overwhelming, Mingi thinks, not to brag, but-
Mingi's eyes roll back at a particularly hard tug at his hair, paired with the way your hips grind closer until you're basically riding his face. Fuck, how are you so hot? Mingi's fingers grab hard at your thighs, loving the way the soft flesh feels in his hands.
To experiment a little more and, first and foremost, to get more rewarding reactions out of you, Mingi lets his mouth wander back up to your clit, gently sucking the nub between his lips, his tongue carefully flicking as not to overwhelm you. At the same time, a fingers sneaks its way over to circle your entrance.
Your throat coughs out a broken moan at this, your eyes switching between looking at Mingi's eyes and his mouth, and closing completely. Mingi loves taking in the pleasure written all over your face. He might not admit it, but he loves this kind of praise much more than verbal praise because your body really can't lie. He can literally taste how good he is at this.
He finally pushes his finger inside, loving how the wetness and muscle contractions are basically pulling him deeper and deeper until past his second knuckle. He feels around a little, trying to find the spots that seem to appeal to you the most, watching carefully how you react to each and every flick of his wrist.
Although, he feels that one finger is not enough to prepare you for the rest of him, so he adds another, massaging them into the spot that seems to be making you see stars with the way you grip his hair even tighter and mutter something he interprets as a warning that you're about to cum.
Keeping his pace, he successfully sends you over the edge, letting you ride out your high on his tongue before removing his lips, only getting his fingers massage the last clenches out of you.
Looking up he realizes you look, respectfully, wrecked, with your chest heaving, your hair a little messy and your eyes hazy and glossy, parted lips asking for his. And who is he to deny them, as he leans in to allow you to taste yourself. You seem to like it.
Pulling back after a while, he looks at you. You look so happy and relaxed like he's never seen before. For some reason, it reminds him of the weight in his pants that he suddenly feels the need to inform you about.
"You make me so hard," Mingi says lowly, carefully taking your hand to prove it to you, "feel." It's more your hand guiding his with how fast you reach down to feel him, eager to touch the outline of him through the sweatpants. And as if you're getting paid to stroke Mingi's ego even more, you gasp at his size.
Mingi can't help but smirk, of course, who wouldn't?
"Big stuff, huh?" You repeat your words from earlier, but this time no longer nervous, but cheeky as you bite your lip playfully. Oh, how Mingi would love to make you choke on his dick right now, just a little, and in a loving matter, but he's honestly waited long enough and he really just needs to be in you right now. And besides, Mingi is more in his giving > receiving era.
Instead, he grins. And he feels like there is something more.
Impatiently, you tug at his pants, successfully moving them a millimeter. Mingi helps you push his pants further down until it pools around his ankles. You giggle.
Damnit, Mingi. Why couldn't you've changed your underwear? Mingi mentally scolds himself, a good amount of his previously earned smugness flying out the window. Instead, he gives you kind of a sheepish look.
"I don't mind," you assure, tugging at his anime boxers next, "it's actually relieving to be reminded that you're still the cute, dorky Mingi and are not possessed by a sex demon."
"Incubus," Mingi points out.
"I don't fucking care. Just get this hideous thing off and have sex with me!"
Mingi does not need to be told twice, although he makes a mental note to scold you later for calling the one and only Naruto printed on a piece of fabric shielding his balls from the outside world hideous.
"God, fuck," you let out, and Mingi chuckles at your reaction to his naked lower half, "come here. Please."
You pull him closer, wrap your legs around him and beg him with your eyes. Mingi wastes not another second, aligning himself with your hole and slowly pushing forwards. Your eyes roll back as he enters you, causing you to hold onto him for dear life as he inches inside, filling you completely.
God, must your walls hug him so perfectly? Must you be so unbelievably wet just for him? Must you make these sounds? Mingi feels like he doesn't want to be inside anyone else ever again.
"I feel like I don't want to inside anything else ever again."
How did that get out there?
You chuckle, and have the nerve to pinch his cheek, as if he wasn't balls deep buried inside you right now. "You're so cute."
Cute?!
Mingi will show you cute. He grabs your jaw, admittedly still gently, and makes you look at him as he pulls almost all the way out until his tip catches at your entrance. "Cute?" And he pushes in all the way all at once. You moan, the feeling too much, too intense for you to still keep your eyes open. Helplessly, you cling to Mingi's body as he repeats the action 4 more times before setting a steady rhythm, angling his hips in a way that should stimulate the spot you liked so much earlier.
With your mouth hanging open and your eyebrows scrunched, you look like the prettiest thing Mingi's ever seen. He wants to see you drool, watch you completely lose your mind over nothing else but his cock. At the same time, he is surprised how good it feels. Well, not surprised that it feels good, but that it feels abnormally good, like he's about to nut in the next minute or so. Hopefully, he's able to coax another high out of you before that.
"What was it that riled you up so much earlier? My voice?" He growls, and you as much as whimper in return. "Yeah, like it that my voice is so deep?" You nod pathetically. "Cute."
"Mingi- 's so good."
"Yeah, am I fucking you good?" Mingi grins and you nod weakly, struggling to keep your eyes open. Mingi really shouldn't be the one talking big because honestly, he feels like if u moan one more time, if ur walls clench around him one more time, he is going to lose it. Something about this entire situation is just super surreal to him, or maybe it's simply you that is the reason for his premature high that is coming for him with fast steps.
"Fuck, baby," he groans, kissing your cheek before whispering, "can I please cum inside?"
"Shit, y-yes," you confirm, nodding quickly as you fight your hardest battle to keep your eyes open, focused and on the man that's currently grinding his tip into your sweet spot. Mingi feels like he loves you.
Mingi also feels like he's loosing his grip on reality, which is why he grabs your hips harder than before, using his strength to really slam his hips into yours with force, drowning his thoughts with the sounds of your moans. There is nothing on his mind except for you, you, you, and the primal need to make you his.
"Please," he groans, not quite sure what he's begging for, but it doesn't really matter in the end, does it? All that matters is that Mingi's ears catch the way you're begging him to cum for you, to fill you up, to please, please finish inside. He is not going to deny you that wish.
His hips stutter, his mind goes numb as he feels his muscles tighten and contract, releasing deep inside you. The feeling spreads in his body, feeling high and happy with such a forceful orgasm like this one.
Everything after is just a blur in his mind, he just remembers realizing that you didn't cum a second time, and he wouldn't be Mingi if he kept it that way. That's why he found himself back on his knees seconds after pulling out, sucking your clit back into his mouth, tasting his own release that's threatening to drip out if it wasn't for his fast fingers pumping in and out of you to push you over the edge.
It doesn't take long until you do, orgasm fueled by the lewd action of Mingi eating his own cum out of you, he assumes. Somehow, you two end up in his bed after, mostly because Mingi is a cuddler, partly because Mingi is not able to let you go yet. Or ever. Who knows.
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Love at first sight \\ Max Verstappen
summary: Max meets his new neighbor and her dog. They spend some time together, and he can't help but realize this might be love at first sight.
In the last few races they had been suffering, there was no better word to describe it, and Max was getting more and more frustrated as the time passed without any progress. He did all he could to help, he gave them his opinions and ideas, but nothing seemed to work properly. Yes, the races hadnât been catastrophic, he tried to do his damn best to bring some precious points home, but it wasnât good to see that the McLarens turned into rocket ships, Mercedes had some great races, and donât even get him started on Charles dragging that shitbox Ferrari into higher positions.
So, no, he wasnât in a good mood, and used the break to sulk in his apartment for a week, only leaving if it was absolutely necessary. Today was one of those days; he had no choice but to go and pick up something he ordered, but he wasnât expecting to meet anyone on the way. Well, he wished he wouldnât meet anyone. But the moment he stepped out of his apartment, he saw a woman stand in front of an apartment that had been empty for a while now, locking the door while her dog seemed to be very interested in him.
âOliver, just let me lock the door, it will only take a second,â you told the dog when he tried to pull you over to him, but it was a Staffordshire terrier if he wasnât mistaken, and they were quite strong, so no wonder you were yanked after your stubborn pet. Thatâs when you looked up and noticed him, and you flashed an apologetic smile at him right away. âSorry, I donât know what got into him, heâs usually not interested in strangers.â
The dog sniffed his leg, then moved on to check out his hand, and he seemingly came to the conclusion that he was a likable human, because he began to wag his tail excitedly, and even jumped up on him with his front legs. Max wasnât happy by the sudden attention, but he could have sworn it seemed like the dog was smiling at him, so his heart melted a little and he couldnât help but pet him on the head.
âAre you sure he doesnât like strangers?â he asked with a laugh.
You shrugged. âI donât know anymore. I mean, when he met my friends back home, he completely ignored them and decided to retreat into my bedroom to be away from the noise. Then after moving here, we stopped to talk to someone on the street, and when the poor girl tried to befriend him, he just turned around and began to pull me away from her,â you added.
Max took a better look at you, and your kind smile and shining eyes didnât leave him unaffected. You were gorgeous in your own, unique way, different from all the girls he was used to seeing in his life, and a voice in the back of his mind began to convince him to shift the conversation to you. He wanted to know more, he wanted to be your friend, and maybe later he would ask you out on a date, because he really wished he could find out where your relationship could go.
Was this love at first sight? Was this the feeling so many people talked about?
âDo you have a destination or are you just going for a walk around the neighborhood?â he asked you, fidgeting with his watch as he waited.
For a moment, you only watched him with a surprised look, but then you looked down at you dog and let out a thoughtful him. âWell, I usually go wherever he wants to go. I know, not really an alpha-type behavior from me,â you added with a sheepish grin.
God, your smile was contagious, because his own lips curled into a wide smile at this. âHow about joining me? Thereâs a store a few blocks away where I have to pick up a package, but thereâs a dog park if we take a little detour if Iâm not mistaken. We could stop there on the way back.â
You glanced down at your dog who was still wagging his tail as he watched him, so you eventually nodded and told him it sounded like a good plan. It was nice to know you werenât against spending time with him, and it made him believe you might be open to the possibility of getting to know him better, maybe under different circumstances. He liked your dog, but there were things he would rather do without him being around. Or his cats being around for that matter, but they were usually minding their own business anyway.
Then again, he was getting ahead of himself. You were just getting to know each other; he didnât even know your name. So, once you got into the elevator, he decided to introduce himself. You nodded, telling him you knew who he was, then assured him you werenât some crazy fan who was obsessed with him as you supported Ferrari. That hurt, but it was still better than being a McLaren fan at this point of the season. You told him your name, and even told him you just moved here since your remote job didnât require you to stay in your home country.
Once you opened up about your life, he began to empty the backlog of questions he had in his mind, asking you about your job, your family, your hobbies, and when you got to the dog park and let Oliver run around, he even dared to bring up the question he deemed the most important: âDid you move here on your own?â Because he was afraid you would say you came here with your boyfriend, which would mean he didnât have a chance with you. But you only smiled and shook your head, and he could tell you understood what the question was really about.
âI came on my own, and before you ask, Iâm single at the moment,â you told him as you took out your dogâs ball from your bag to throw it for him.
Max watched as Oliver brought it back, but instead of you, he decided to put it down in front of him, so he obediently bent down to pick it up and threw it away again. âThatâs not why I asked,â he lied, earning an adorable laugh from you. âIâm serious.â
âAll right, thatâs not why you brought it up then,â you said with a grin as you nudged his arm with your shoulder. âCan it be my turn to ask questions?â you wondered as you looked up at him.
At this point, you could have asked for anything. You were so nice and kind, almost to the point it hinted at your underlying naivety, and he just felt like being the person who could love you the way you deserved, and who could protect you from mean people who might want to hurt you. It was a strange feeling he hadnât experienced before, this protective instinct that came to the surface as he talked to you. He was drawn to you, and if it was up to him, he would have kept you in his apartment while he wanted to stay away from the rest of the world.
He didnât even notice that he got lost in his thoughts, because he was brought back to reality when he heard you let out a thoughtful hum next to him. He almost asked you what you were thinking about, but then he remembered your question and cleared his throat. âSure, ask away.â
To his surprise, you didnât try to dig deep into his personal life. You asked about his cats, his hobbies, you wondered how he handled being away so much since you would probably go crazy from going from country to country all year despite loving to travel, and you closed your little interview session with a question he barely got with such sincere honesty: âHow are you?â People were rarely interested in this. They asked him how he was after races, how he felt about the car or his results, but this was a question for him, the person behind the real and sim racing mask.
At first, he didnât even know what to say. He wanted to say, âIâm frustrated because our car is terrible,â but at the same time it was also on the tip of his tongue to say something along the lines of, âIâm feeling a lot better now that I met you.â But while one was related to racing, which he didnât feel like mentioning, the other simply made it too obvious that he was slowly falling for you. Considering you only met about two hours ago, it was almost pathetic how much he wished he could ask you out without sounding weird.
But the time wasnât right, you would need some more time to loosen up even more around him, to get to know him in a way a lot of people never got to. In the end he decided to say something neutral. âNot in the best mood, but at least I can see the light at the end of the tunnel,â he replied.
âAnd whatâs that light? New upgrades? Or the end of the season?â you asked him with a mysterious smile.
You.
He couldnât say that though, not without sounding like a creep. âA mix of different things,â he replied after a short break.
After a nod, you called your dog to put him on the leash again, but he was feeling really good where he was, lying on his side and enjoying the sunshine. âI guess Oliver is so tired heâll sleep through the rest of the day,â you told Max with a laugh, then left to collect the dog.
The three of you walked back to the apartment building, spending that time talking about casual topics, and eventually you said goodbye, then disappeared behind your front door. He stood there on the hallway for a short while, watching it as if you would return any second, but deep down he knew you wouldnât come. He should have asked you to have dinner with him, he should have given you his number. Just in case you needed something, of course, after all you were neighbors, it was the bare minimum to have the chance to contact the other.
He spent an hour or two in the sim rig, then he somehow found himself looking for you on social media apps, hoping he could find you. And after some digging, he finally stumbled upon your account, and he didnât hesitate to send you a DM. All he did was write about how you could always write if you needed something or if you wanted to talk, and that simple message turned into a long conversation, one that made him forget about the sim race that took place that evening. If it wasnât for the phone call he got, he wouldnât have remembered it.
In the morning when he woke up, the first thing he did was checking his phone to see if there were any new notifications that could interest him. And there was one that stood out: âYou awake? I donât know about you, but Iâm starving. How does brunch sound?â He had never typed a response faster than now that he sent you a single word: âPerfect.â
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brokenhearted
theodore nott x fem!reader
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summary; theo breaks up with his girlfriend and you comfort him, but things get a little bit heated in the process.
warnings; a bit of angst, heavy make out (this shit is long af), NSFW, some light dirty talk, praising, dry humping, p in v, marking, hair pulling, unprotected sex... that's all, i think. this is kinda a fluffy smut.
author's note; i'm back!! i'm sorry for disappearing for such a long time, i hope this makes up for it ⥠(i don't really like how it turned out, but i hope you do). ps: thank you all so much for still supporting my acc while i was gone! i appreciate it so much.
you had been looking for theodore for some time now; the night had fallen already, and you hadn't heard from him since the day before; he didn't go to class, neither contact you in any way. preoccupied, you headed over the astronomy tower again; you had already looked for him there âlike four times during the dayâ but you decided to try again, after all, it was his favourite place in the entire castle. that time, you actually found him there, sitting with his back against the railings and a cigarette between his lips... classic theo.
when he noticed your presence, he looked up at you and bluntly said, "luna broke up with me." his expression was almost emotionless, but you knew him well enough to know he was hurting deep down.
"what?" you gasped, your brow furrowed, as you walked slowly to take a seat by his side on the floor.
you didn't know what to say or how to act; his admission had taken you by surprise. one part of you âthe part of you that was crazy in love himâ wanted to scream and cry happy tears at the news, but the other part empathised with him, making you feel his pain.
you hated seeing him suffer.
"yeah, she said it wasn't working out," theo replied.
he took one last drag from his cigarette before blowing out the smoke and tossing it aside as he looked up at the stars, his eyes distant and lost in thought. you kept quiet, not wanting to interrupt him so he could let it all out.
"i guess she's right, though. we never really had anything in common." he chuckled bitterly, shaking his head before talking again, "i don't know why i'm surprised, though. i'm not the most lovable person, am i?"
his eyes met yours, and you could see the pain in them. he was your best friend; you knew damn well the baggage he carried on his shoulders, the trauma his mother's death and his father's neglect had caused on him. theo was not one to get attached to people because of that and every time he lost someone, grief hit him like a truck, even if he didn't let it show. you reached to grab his large hand, giving it a gentle squeeze.
"hey, that's not true," you told him, your voice softening to try and reassure him, "don't say that."
theo gave you a small smile, his eyes searching yours to try and find comfort in them. he took a deep breath and let it out slowly as his hand squeezed yours back. you could feel the tension emanating from his body, the pain he was trying to hide. then he looked away again, blue eyes dropping to the floor.
"i just... i don't know how to do relationships, you know? i never had any good examples growing up." his voice was quiet as he talked, almost a whisper, like he was telling you his darkest secret and feared someone else could hear him. "my dad... he never loved my mom. he never loved me. and now i feel like i don't know how to be loved, or how to love someone else," he explained, letting out a sigh, his brow furrowed. "i'm sorry. i didn't mean to bring this up..."
"theo..." you muttered, your voice cracking as you cupped his face to force him to look at you, "that's bullshit, alright? listen to me." you stared at him intently as you spoke, gently caressing his cheek, "you're nothing like your father."
theo's eyes remained locked on yours, his gaze searching for any sign of truth in your words. you swore that you saw his eyes fill with tears as he heard you talk, but he quickly blinked them away, not wanting to cry in front of you; crying made him feel vulnerable.
"i needed to hear that," he muttered, leaning into your touch, "thanks."
"want a hug?" you asked, smiling warmly at him.
you both stayed quiet for a few seconds, just staring at each other with an intensity that spoke volumes, and you were so close together that you could see the little freckles that covered his cheeks and nose, painting his skin like constellations painted the starry night sky.
"please," he responded.
you felt him wrapping his strong arms around your slim body and you melted into his embrace, your body heat mingling with his as you felt the tension leaving his muscles. one of your hands rested on his back, rubbing reassuring patterns on in, while the other caressed his soft waves and he sighed contently.
"you always know how to make me feel better," he murmured while pulling away slowly, his eyes filled with gratitude and a faint smile tugging at the corners of his mouth.
your eyes dropped to his lips unconsciously, your pulse racing; he noticed your stare and smirked.
"of course," you whispered back, "that's what friends are for."
you wished you could be more than friends, though.
theo watched you as you averted your gaze shyly and he couldn't help but notice how beautiful you looked with the moonlight kissing your pretty face.
"you know," he said quietly, "i've always had this strange feeling about us."
"what feeling?" you asked curiously, chuckling; your cheeks flushed as you looked back at him.
theo took a deep breath before answering, "like we're meant to be together... like i was supposed to meet you and spend my whole life with you." his voice was slightly shaky, as if he was nervous about something.
he looked at you intently, waiting for your reaction.
"well, you ain't getting rid of me anytime soon, so yeah, i guess we're stuck together." you laughed, not understanding what he really meant; you thought he was talking about your friendship.
theo chuckled at your response nervously, shaking his head lightly when he realised you hadn't noticed he was actually trying to confess his feelings; he had always liked you, even though he was dating other girl, he always knew it was you who owned his heart. maybe that was why he couldn't just give luna all the love she deserved.
"i mean... as more than friends," he admitted.
he looked at you intently, searching for a reaction from your part that let him know you felt the same way. his heart was pounding in his chest; that was a big step for him to take.
you couldn't help but smile, anxiously biting your lower lip as you dropped your gaze to the ground.
"your mom used to say that we were going to end up together someday," you whispered with longing.
your smile turned into a sad one as you mentioned her; you knew theo missed her a lot, and to be honest, you missed her too. you turned towards him just to see that he was smiling back at you, but his smile didn't really reach his eyes.
"she always knew what was best for me. i miss her so much." he sighed deeply and tilted his head, resting it against yours. "i only wish she was here."
"she would be so proud of you," you told him, trying to make him feel better.
theo nodded, his voice barely above a whisper as he said, "i really hope so."
he looked at you again and smiled warmly. the air felt intimate and special between the two of you; it was like nothing else mattered but this moment together. and you both knew, you were in love.
"i missed this," you murmured, your eyes dropping to his lips briefly once again.
that time, theo's gaze fell to your lips as well, and you felt your heart pounding in your chest. when theo started dating luna, that intimate conversations with him started getting less frequent, making you drift apart slightly and it had made you realise how much you actually needed him in your life.
"i missed it too," he whispered back, "i missed you."
after a moment of silence, he leaned forward, his lips brushing against yours in a soft, tentative kiss. It caught you off guard, but you returned the kiss, feeling like your soul was about to leave your body as his soft lips caressed yours in such an intimate touch.
but then reality crashed you; you couldn't do it, not when he had just broken up with his girlfriend and he was feeling down, so you put your hand on his chest, reluctantly pulling him away to stop him from kissing you.
"we shouldn't do this..." you shook your head; your faces were so close together that your warm breath hit his face. "you and luna..."
"please," he interrupted you, his voice almost pleading, "make me forget."
"theo, iâ" you stuttered.
you were fighting an inner war with yourself; you had been dreaming about that moment for so long, but it didn't felt right to take advantage of the situation like that. you couldn't bear it if he regretted this decision the day after.
he shook his head, as if he could read your mind just looking into your eyes, and cupped your face gently, pulling you closer to him.
"you're everything that's right in my life, sunshine. you're all i need..." he murmured, his voice low and desperate. "you've always been."
your heart melted when you heard him calling you "sunshine". that was the nickname he had given you when you first started being friends; when you asked him why he called you that, he told you that he had picked it because you were the light to his darkness, the only thing that made him truly happy.
you knew theo would never hurt you, that he would prefer to die rather than making you suffer in any way, so any doubt lingering in your mind slowly faded away.
"i'm sorry i didn't have the courage to tell you sooner," he added, his gaze piercing through yours with an intensity that spoke volumes.
"it's better late than never, right?" you whispered, gulping nervously.
you could feel your heart beating in your throat as you stared at him, waiting for him to make a move.
he smirked. "i guess we'll have to make up for the lost time."
and with that, he leaned forward, pressing his lips to yours once more. it was a tender, gentle kiss that started slowly but gradually intensified as his hand slid down towards the small of your back, pressing you closer to his body. time seemed to stand still as you lost yourself in the warmth and comfort of his embrace. you were on cloud nine; lips avidly kissing his and skin prickling wherever he touched you, igniting sparks in your belly. you parted your lips, allowing him to slip his tongue inside your mouth, and you exhaled a sharp breath, whimpering against his lips.
he deepened the kiss, his tongue exploring your mouth with a hunger that mirrored your own. his other hand found its way to your neck, holding you firmly as he continued to devour you with every ounce of passion he possessed. after a few seconds, though, you had to pull away reluctantly to be able to breathe, your chest heaving up and down as you reached up to tangle your fingers in his soft hair, gently caressing it.
he smirked and rested his forehead against yours, his breath hot against your skin. "you're a very good kisser," he murmured, his fingers still running up and down back, leaving a trail of heat in their wake.
he was looking at you with an intensity that made your head spin, your cheeks blushing at the compliment as you smiled back at him.
"you too," you whispered against his lips, unable to resist the urge of leaning in to kiss him once again.
his mouth tasted like mints and cigarettes; it was new, but at the same time, it felt familiar.
you heard him chuckling softly before he returned the kiss, this time slowing things down, as if he wanted to savour every moment he had with you. his hands wandered over your body, memorizing every curve and dip, his touch setting your body on fire. eventually, his fingers found the hem of your shirt, slowly creeping underneath and causing goosebumps to break out on your skin.
your plump lips parted, a shaky breath slipping past them as you felt him caressing your soft flesh ever so delicately, as if he was afraid of breaking you. he took this as an invitation to slide his tongue inside your mouth once again, avidly searching for yours and starting a playful war between the both of you.
you felt his lips forming a smirk against yours, his tongue having apparently won the little play fight it had with yours as he took full control of the kiss. his hand moved down your back, caressing your skin before he gently cupped your ass, squeezing it lightly, which earned him a soft gasp from you. you didn't oppose when he gently pulled at you to bring you closer to his body, making you straddle his lap as he leaned back against the railings.
he finally broke the kiss, letting out a low groan as you settled on top of him. his eyes were dark, and he looked up at you like he wanted to eat you alive. his hands moved to grip your creamy thighs, fingers digging into your skin possessively. you were panting at that point, cheeks flushed and lips swollen from all the kissing, but his breathing was just as ragged as yours, and his heart was beating so fast that he was sure you could hear it if you paid just enough attention to it.
"you're absolutely breathtaking, you know that?" he murmured, pressing a soft kiss to your lips.
you blushed in response, the smile that appeared in your face impossible to hold in. your small hands cupped his face tenderly, and your thumbs caressed his sharp cheekbones.
"don't say things like that," you muttered, getting all flustered and shy suddenly.
his lips twitched in a amused smile at your reaction, but before he could even say or do anything, your lips were on his again and the feeling was so intense it robbed him of his breath for a moment there.
"i want you so bad," he whispered against your lips, hips bucking up to grind against you unconsciously.
and that's when you felt it. he was hard. the mere discovery had you moaning softly into the kiss, hips grinding down onto his crotch in a desperate attempt to feel him once more as you placed your hands on his chest. good lord, the friction was making his head swim. he groaned in response as he slid his hands up your thighs to grasp at your hips, the need to fuck you coursing through him like a wildfire.
"you're killing me here, sunshine," he muttered, breaking the kiss for a moment before swooping back in for another.
you giggled playfully against his mouth, hips still rocking onto the straining erection in his pants. you weren't thinking straight anymore, your need for him clouding all your rational thoughts; theo was the only thing in your mind in that moment. the feeling was mutual. theo's mind was consumed with wanting you, his hands moving to your ass to encourage your movements, eliciting a whimper from somewhere deep in your throat that sent his head spiralling.
okay, so keeping a semblance of his cool was completely out of the window now.
pulling your lips apart with a loud snap, he growled something that sounded like, "you're a fucking dream."
you responded with a harsh tug at his brown curls, tilting his head back to expose the pale expanse of his neck. you attached your mouth to it greedily, kissing and sucking on his skin as you ground against him, which caused him to literally whimper as he shuddered beneath you.
for god's sake, he did sound pretty whimpering.
meanwhile, you felt one adventurous hand slipping underneath your top and sliding up your belly. theo's hand was on a mission, his fingers tracing along your silky skin before he cupped one of your breasts, gasping at the feel of its weight on his palm. he kneaded it, his other hand reaching up to grip the hem of your shirt while he pushed you away from his neck. he looked up at you, silently asking for permission to undress you.
"it's okay," you whimpered in response, nodding with a little smile on your puffy, red lips.
you knew you were in the middle of the astronomy tower, a public place, but you just couldn't bring yourself to care about it. theo didn't need more encouragement than that, he was already tugging your top over your head, tossing it aside before his eyes feasted on the sight of your naked breasts; his gaze was hungry, devouring every inch of your exposed skin.
"you're so fucking beautiful," he whispered, leaning forward to take one of your nipples into his mouth while his hand pinched and rubbed the other.
"theo," you whined as his tongue flicked your sensitive nub.
your hips resumed their previous movements as you fisted his hair once again; your heart pounded in your chest when you felt his hard cock pressing against your aching pussy, both of your clothes getting in the way as your need grew stronger.
fuck, you were so wet.
his breath was hitching from the friction between your hips, and he tore his lips away from your boob with a desperate moan, his lids falling close, a sheen of sweat already glistening on his brow.
"god damn, fuck me already, would you?"
you couldn't help but chuckle at his desperate plea, leaning forward to kiss his lips once more; it was like you couldn't get enough from him.
you broke the contact after a few seconds, your teeth sinking into his bottom lip to tug at it playfully, then, you asked him, "here?"
his eyes flickered around the tower, barely sparing it a glance before his hungry gaze settled back on you. theo's mind was clouded, his cock aching and his fingers already tugging idly at his zipper.
"the hell if i care..." he mumbled, voice raspy from all the kissing.
you helped him get rid of his clothes, lowering his pants and boxers just enough to free his dick, which sprang against his stomach, long and thick; your mouth watered and now you were eager to have him inside you.
how could a cock be that perfect? not fair.
"fuck, come here."
before you could even process what was happening, you felt his hands gripping the hem of your shorts to tug them down your thighs alongside your panties. you slipped just one leg out of them before he pulled you towards him desperately.
you were completely naked, while he was almost fully dressed, and it was unfair, so you forced him to lift his arms up so you could yank his t-shirt off, exposing his ripped abs. thank you, quidditch.
he pulled you flush against him, skin to skin for the first time today and you both moaned; his hands gripped your hips tightly, fingertips tracing over your bare flesh as he guided you on top of his cock.
"gonna fuck you now, sunshine, you want that?" he asked for your consent, lips peppering kisses all over your collarbone and chest.
"yeah," you mumbled in response, nodding eagerly.
you reached down to wrap your small hand around the base of his shaft, placing the tip against your soaked entrance and lowering yourself onto it. since you both were a little too impatient to do any foreplay, his thick cock sliding inside your tight pussy knocked the air out of your lungs.
theo watched your face, lips parted and panting as you slowly took him inside yourself: he gave a low moan when his cock bottomed out inside you, hands gripping you tightly.
"fuckâ baby, so fucking good," he complimented you, whimpering needily.
you stood still for a few moments to get used to his size before you started bouncing up and down on his dick, the delicious drag of his thick cock head against your inner walls making you shiver from pleasure. you gripped his shoulders to try and steady yourself, nails digging into his flesh and leaving bright red marks.
theo grunted, tossing his head back as he felt your walls clutching him. his eyes closed in ecstasy, hands travelling down to grip your ass cheeks and helping you bounce up and down on him a little bit faster.
"shit, baby... so fucking tight," he growled out.
"your cock feels so good," you cried out while dragging your nails down his chest and abs, scratching his skin.
theo hissed as he felt your nails clawing at him. his hands squeezed your ass tighter before he smacked it, groaning. "bad girl... don't scratch."
the slap made you yelp slightly, cheeks flushing red at his words. "wanna mark you up," you confessed, breathlessly, "so everyone knows you're mine."
you stopped bouncing as you felt your legs getting tired, rocking your hips back and forward instead; the new motion made your clit rub against his pelvis, sending pleasure waves down your spine.
theo chuckled, his eyes smouldering. "i am yours, sunshine. always have been."
his hands kept roaming your body, taking in the softness of your skin as he lifted you up just enough to be able to thrust up into you, hard and fast. you grasped at the railings behind him for support, crying out in complete and utter ecstasy as he railed you, hips snapping against yours and creating a wet slapping sound that mingled with your loud moans. your pussy clenched around him, and you felt your belly muscles tightening, signaling your upcoming orgasm. theo's thrusting became more erratic, his breath hitching as he pounded into you, chasing his own release. he grabbed your hair and yanked it back, exposing your neck to him. he leaned in and bit down on the sensitive skin where your shoulder met your neck.
"gonna cum for me like a good girl?" he purred, panting.
"yes, please," you answered between little moans and cries, your voice whiny and agitated.
your eyes rolled back when his hand slid between your legs and his thumb grazed your clit; you trembled in response. it didn't take long for you to reach your peak and when you did, it was with a loud cry.
"that's it, that's my good girl," he cooed at you, fucking you through your climax.
your cunt spasmed around his cock as you came, your juices soaking his shaft. your arms wrapped around his body while you squirmed uncontrollably on top of him, moaning repeatedly in his ear. theo wasn't far behind you, the feeling of your walls clenching around him sending him over the edge. he buried himself deep inside you, whimpering helplessly as he came in your cunt.
you moaned when you felt his hot cum filling you up, pussy still tingling so nicely that you weren't even thinking. "fuckâ i love you... i love you so fucking much." it just slipped in the heat of the moment without you realising.
but of course he noticed.
theo's breath caught, his orgasm still rocking through him. he looked at you with a surprised expression, but it quickly melted into a tender smile, a warm sensation flooding his chest.
"i love you too, sunshine."
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HAZELLLL OH BOY DO I HAVE A GOOD IDEAAAA
OKOK so what if doe! Reader is with vox and readers in heat right right????
But vox can't help reader break it (he's been trying for hours)
So he has to call alastor to help you since he's the only deer vox knows of
Oh my goddd
Hohoho good night awquar đ
Cucking Vox
ăwarnings/promises: Vox x Female doe reader, Alastor x female doe reader, smut, Cucking the TV man, knotting, heat, pussy flooded, Alastor says âgood girlâ, hell is heaven now, youâre engaged but meh, drones were not made for this, Breeding???, humilation of the flat headed prince, Vox loves you, but your pussy love Alastoră
Minors I stg! DNI!
It had been all morning. He didnât mind the stamina required, but his love was still suffering. Nothing was satiating your needs, even when he went out of his way to transform his typically human male prick into something more akin to the wider based cock you needed âŚ. It was still not enough.
As you laid supine and open, the artificial knot full and stuck in you, the whines didnât stop. It didnât have the heat your cunt knew a proper mate would have. His load was too small, your womb quivering in need with every pathetic release he buried in you. A real knot would pulse with the heart rate of the buck claiming you.Â
âNothing?â Voxâs voice was high and worried.Â
âI mean⌠itâs something.â Grumbled into a pillow. You ground against him but it was useless to calm your burning walls. Ever hour that passed without being properly fucked became torturous.Â
âWhat does it feel like? Not getting, ya know,â suddenly he felt shy, voicing the thing he was lacking, âknotted.â
You considered sparing him the truth but your animal brain said it before your human one could stop it, âIt hurts. It feels like my pussy is on fire. Do you know how sometimes the roof of your mouth itches and you canât scratch it? That. For fucking hours.â
Seeing you in pain hurt him, deeper than he could handle. How could he have so much money and power and feel so worthless for you now?
Did he truly have no resources? No recourse? No remedy?Â
As he watched your large doe ears press back into your skull, the solution came to him.
âOne minute babe, you justâŚâ Vox halted as you rolled on your side, fingers coming to your center to have some friction, âKeep doing thatâŚâ
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When the drone approached his patio table, he didnât look up.Â
When Voxâs voice crackled through the small speaker, he didnât look up.
When the question, âHow much for you to fuck my fiancĂŠe?â was shouted at him, he admittedly choked a little on his coffee and finally acknowledged the device.
âWhy on earth would I do that?â Alastor set the mug down to keep from breaking it in his hand.
âTo humiliate me.â
A beat.
A hum.
A twirl of his staff.
âWell in that case, for free!â
Vox blinked twice as he stared at the monitor, âWait, really?â
Alastor mulled it over seriously now. Did he want to have sex right now? No, not really. Did the idea of making Voxâs future wife scream his name sound hilarious? Yes absolutely.Â
He shrugged, getting up from his chair as the drone spun around him, âShit, I didnât expect you to agree.â
âSo you donât want me to bed your gal?â Alastor smiled, âThen Iâm definitely in.â
Vox chewed on a claw, âFuck! Fine just get down here. And I donât owe you any favors for this, so donât even fucking ask.â
âOh Vox, favors? Youâre hardly the one Iâd go to when in need. Youâre not even the first Vee Iâd approach! Ha!â
Before he could crash the drone directly into that smug face, he heard your whimpers from the bedroom down the hall and paused.Â
âJustâ, Vox cradled his screen in his hands, âhurry up.â
It became immediately clear why his former partner had called him of all people when Alastor exited the elevator into Voxâs personal floor.
The living quarters were swimming in the heady scent of arousal. Specifically, a doe.Â
Alastor rolled his eyes, of course Vox found one of the few other deer demons in the pride ring to marry.
âOoh, you are in a pickle, huh?â He leaned against the door frame, taking in the sight of the overlord rubbing your back as you groaned. His eyes fell immediately to the downturned tail above your bare cheeks. âPoor thing.â He cooed.
You couldnât find the will to turn your head to look. A growled, âVoxy?â
âHeâs here to help, babe.â His hands sped up their massaging swirls.
âWho, exactly?â
âAlastor! The radio demon. A plea-,â He began but couldnât finish.Â
Vox laughed nervously, âHeâs a deer demon! Like you!âÂ
âYou grabbed a random deer demon off the street to-,â
âNo! Not at all! Though, admittedly, the only other deer demon I know.â As you made a noise of disapproval, he added, âHeâs an overlord! An old pal, even.â
You heard the strange man guffaw. Finally, you rolled over to lay eyes on the supposed cavalry your beau had summoned.
Oh.Â
âHmm.â Something in you unspoken yet still demanding made you roll into your back and drop your knees open.Â
He hadnât anticipated a fellow deer in heat. Vox had offered him more than just fucking his girl, it turned out. Alastor had come mostly expecting to laugh in Voxâs face as a second best humiliation and head to cannibal town, but seeing how Vox was so desperately in love, well, how could he say no? What more delicious of a meal could exist than splitting open Voxâs ego while splitting open his doe with the same effort.
Still on the bed, Vox felt the air shift as he stood between Alastor and you.Â
âWell, I uh, guess Iâll leave you two to it.â His screen flashed a pink haze of embarrassment.
âOh? Abandoning her already?â With a snap and a flourish of his fingers, a plush reading chair materialized on the opposite side of the bed. âTake a seat, old chum.â
âYou canât be serious.âÂ
Alastor loosened his bowtie, âYouâd really leave your vulnerable and needy betrothed all alone with a man? Tsk tsk.â
Vox laughed, âYouâre not a man.â
âOoh, correct.â Alastor reached the bed, undoing his belt, âIâm a buck, right little one?â When his hand reached out and slid down your calf you trembled. Even his skin on yours felt different than Voxâs. âNow take a seat.â
His flat face turned to you, who could only nod as a long claw dragged down your shin.
Vox settled into his chair and crossed his arms. He wanted to say something snotty about how he would make more money on his cell during the little romp than Alastor could dream of, but the sound of Alastorâs zipper made his throat close.
âIâll need a little assistance to catch up to you, sweetheart. Mind lending me a hand?â Alastor rested his knees on either side of your thighs, body hovering over you as he knelt.
You briefly considered arguing, but as his other hand pulled his still soft cock from his pants and the scent of him hit your heightened senses, you found your body sitting up. Your hand went into his as he placed it around himself. His fist around yours as he showed you how to stroke him.
âIs that really necessary?â Voxâs voice seemed to glitch.
âOf course! Iâm only capable of knotting when in rut. And a rut can only be triggered by a doe in heat. Iâll need her touch and scent to ⌠get the show started, so to speak.â Alastorâs hand left yours, index finger coming to lift your chin. The first eye contact of the evening, funnily enough coming after skin met skin.Â
Deep red eyes shone down on you behind a widening smile, âGood girl. Iâll take care of you.â
âYouâre obnoxious.â You slurred, a second wave of his uniquely virile musk rolling off his heated crotch. âGood girl? You just met me youâŚ.Old timeyâŚâ, the lights in your brain shut off, âfuck. Fuck.â Your mind was a blank piece of paper, the word âbreedâ scrawled haphazardly as your hand felt the weight of his erection.Â
Vox had never seen you make that face, nor your eyes lose focus and dilate quite like that either. He couldnât help but glance at the thick appendage in your fist.
A look shot to his own lap, he hadnât considered girth into the equationâŚÂ
Your mouth opened, saliva pooling in your cheeks as you brought him to your lips. Alastorâs hand snaked back to grab you by the hair and gently keep you off of him, not needing someoneâs spit slathered on his skin.Â
âOkay now-â As Vox interjected Alastorâs hand sat still on your head.
âIâll allow it.â The radio demon had a change of heart at the upset tone of his former friend.
Your tongue blanketed your bottom lip to welcome Alastor in, cheeks hollowing from the size of him alone. Why did he taste like that? Like someone you should only view from your knees? A power to his sweat that made your pussy clench.Â
Just a few bobs of your head and he was pulling you off, the job done when Vox seemed to slouch back into the chair in resignation. Large and warm hands guided you onto your back and then onto your right side. Your line of sight was your husband-to-be, claws digging into the fabric of his summoned chair.
It was nice to be handled in your heat. To have strong hands move you around your bed as they wanted you, that alone nearly distracted you from the throbbing of your pussy now showing behind your thighs. Alastor lifted your left leg and used it to pull you to him, a wanton whimper from you when he lined up.
His chuckle was more than annoying, but you were in no position to argue. The sound of impatient tapping momentarily took your focus away; Voxâs foot hitting the tile floor. Your eyes followed up his body to meet his stare just in time for you to let out a loud, shakey gasp. Another came before you could catch your breath, the stretch burning as Alastor pressed in.
He began small incessant thrusts, your slick lubricating his intrusion with each withdrawal.
Vox watched entranced as your body seemed to melt into the bed with every snap of the deer manâs hips. You had spent the morning tense and sweating, so to see you so lax and comfortable was momentarily reassuring. But as your head lolled back with Alastor bottoming out, a flame of jealousy began to roar in sincerity.Â
âFuck,â you tried to keep the commentary down to spare your love, but you could feel your walls spreading around Alastor in a way youâd been praying for since you woke up aroused and pained. When he was fully sheathed you had to grip your pillow to keep from rolling onto your back and spreading yourself wider for him. The baser part of your brain urging you to give yourself over to the more-than-suitable mate.Â
âYou sweet doe, youâre burning up inside. And so swollen. Feeling better?â Alastor said it with such a clear voice you wondered how he was unaffected by your twitching pussy.Â
With a nod you buried your face into the pillow clenched in your fists. His thrusts slowed. âYes,â you ground out. The rhythm picked up again.
âBetter than Vox could manage?â He side eyed Vox.
Your left foot came up and pushed at his chin, âShut up and fuck me.â
âHmm, afraid I canât do both,â Alastor pulled out entirely, lower head rubbing side to side as he spread his own precum along your folds.Â
Closing your eyes to not see Vox, you mumbled, âYes.â He wrapped his arms around your left leg for leverage and thrust back into you with a single push. With a shift of his hips his cock hit against your g-spot with every entry. Your breaths quickly devolved into raspy gasps.
You felt a rush of slick as your body responded to the stimulation. The sound of Alastorâs cock sliding in and out of your arousal reached Vox despite being a ways away from the bed. The previous flame in his chest began to lower. Watching your body rock along with the obscene sounds of you being fucked was having an unexpected effect on him. With a gulp he let his hand rest on his lap, a gentle pressure as he palmed his growing erection.
The deep reach of the radio demonâs cock churning up your insides was felt by you and seen by Vox.
âYouâre doing so well, dear. Look how wet youâve gotten.â One hand came down to run past your clit, âI promise to have you dripping.â He turned his head fully to Vox now, âThatâs why Iâm here, after all. To breed you.â Vox opened his mouth to shout when Alastor rolled you onto your stomach. The curve of his dick resumed hitting your inner spot, wide cock dragging against every inch of your walls. A pleasured cry, your pillow lost. Bringing your legs up and out you let instincts take over.
The yell died in Voxâs throat. His hand shifted to rubbing his cock through his pants. âAre you done yet?â He saw the swelling bulge at the base of Alastorâs own cock.
You didnât hear the question, only processing sticky flesh slapping together and your own loud moans.
âMy knot needs to be bigger. I want to make sure I plug her up well.â Alastor knew he could finish now but he just needed a few more moments of fucking with the overlord. His eyes came to watch himself disappear into your seemingly too small hole, âIs that what you want? To be stuffed with my knot?âÂ
You vaguely registered his gaze had moved from where you two connected up to your face. A hand coming to tug at your tail and grip it from the base tore an answer from you, âPlease. Please, Please.â
âDo you remember my name in that brain fog?â He took both ankles now and pushed your legs as wide open as theyâd reach.
Vox could see the shine on Alastorâs growing knot as he seemed to push more and more in with each thrust. His palm felt the slight damp of his precum soaking through his pants.
He had a name? Right. Yes he had a name. You dug through the mess of your thoughts, an empty room of smoke and sensations, and found it. âAlastor. Alastor please!â Vox had entirely disappeared, it was just the thick cocked buck pounding into you in your bed now.Â
âAww, thatâs a good doe. And are you ready for my knot?â Your legs struggled in his grip as you attempted to thrust back onto him to take all he had for you. He hummed, hips slowly as he fought back the pending release, âBut youâre still so tight⌠did Vox even try to fuck you?âÂ
Vox cried out a small, âOh, come on. Jackass.â It didnât stop his hand though. He couldnât argue Alastor was thicker than he was, even his knot seemed unfairly large.
âFuck you,â you managed, stomach muscles tightening and drawing your body toward him as the pleasure ratcheted up by leaps and bounds.Â
Alastor pulled out entirely again, releasing your legs. The whimper you let out momentarily softened Voxâs cock. âIâm sorrrrry,â you pouted, âCome baaaack.â You thought you would cry, as soon as he was out of your cunt the painful throb was creeping back in. You needed his skin on yours. His body in yours.Â
You were rolled onto your stomach, his hands wrapping around to pick you up by the hips. On all fours, he sunk back in. âShh,â big palms stroke down your back, âdonât forget to breath, sweetheart.â Your body was meant to take a knot during heat and you knew you were capable of taking it, but a small panic made you crawl up the bed as the large, throbbing bulb threatened to tear the delicate skin of your opening. Those same powerful hands you praised before now dug fingers into your hips and held you still. Bruises he hoped Vox would have to see for days.Â
A small sob as he mercifully forced the rest of himself in with one harsh thrust, his crotch finally coming into contact with your ass. Again, without thinking, you pulled away and saw stars. It took just a second though for your brain to flood your body with the feel good chemicals it had been withholding all day. The pulsing knot vibrating against your puffy g-spit, wide cock head just barely breaching your cervix and flooding your womb and walls with thick cum; it was everything you needed. Your vision went white as your orgasm made your thighs give out, body going limp entirely.
Vox knew very well what it meant as your entire body trembled, hips stuck against Alastor as the rest of you went boneless.
Alastor took a deep breath. It was oddly refreshing, a form of stress relief he hadnât considered before. Long claws made barely there lines up and down your thighs.
Pressing his chest into your back, he carefully grabbed your body and rolled you onto your side again to face Vox, him still behind you.
Vox stood up, saw the tenting of his pants and sat back down, throwing one left over the other, âWell! Thatâs finally done with. You can get the fuck out as soon as your freak penis goes back to normal.â
Alastor laughed, your mind entirely having checked out in your blissful state. Your stupid and content smile spread wide as his body shook slightly behind you. He propped himself up on his elbow to look at Vox.
âYou went through all the trouble of finding one of the few other deer demons in hell to replace me, yet didnât bother to learn about her biology.â His grin morphed into a smirk so wide his black gums were showing, âHeats last several days, Voxy.â
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Burn
My heart always hurts when I watch the cutscene where Astarion burns under the sun. Dammit Larian Studios
Summary: You chase after Astarion when he runs away from the rising sun and remind him that you chose him.
You watch as blue lines crawl across his skin, steam rising as the sun eats away at him once more, now that he is free of the parasite. You hear the panic and sadness in his voice as reality sets in â he is no longer immune to the sun, condemned forever to live in the shadows. His ruby red eyes lift to meet yours as his skin scorches, an apology falling from his lips and he rushes to find shelter before you can say anything.
âAstarion!â You shout, watching his fading figure. He doesnât look back, of course he doesnât, he doesnât have the time to when all he can think about is how his skin is searing. Your other companions remain rooted but your legs find an extra burst of energy and soon you find yourself hot on your loverâs trail, desperate to find him.
âAstarion!â You call out, panting from the exertion. Running like that just after defeating a Netherbrain was not a good idea, and you can feel your head spinning. You squeeze your eyes shut, trying to steady yourself and lean against the nearby wall, getting as much air into your lungs as possible.
âAstarion,â you gasp, forcing yourself to keep moving, telling yourself that the vampire was suffering more than you were. You stagger onwards, barely remembering where you last saw him and pray that he hasnât gotten far.
You make your way to a stack of crates hidden behind a docked ship and find a figure huddled in the corner, shaking. You stumble towards the figure, fingers hastily fumbling for the clasp of your cloak which you throw around the figureâs shoulders, pulling him into a tight hug.
âStar,â you breathe, relieved. You feel his arms slide around your waist tentatively, cautiously hugging you back.
âWhy are you here?â He whispers. The scent of your lifeblood fills his nose, causing fangs to peek out but he holds himself back, holds the hunger back.
âFor you, of course.â You continue to hold onto him tightly. âIâm not leaving you alone, not ever.â
âWhy?â He can feel you, feel your warmth, your touch, but a part of him still nags at him, trying to convince him that this is all just a dream, that you want nothing to do with him, not when he is confined to the darkness. He runs his fingers through your hair, taking in the fact that youâre here with him, that you came for him when you could be out in the new dawn with the others.
âWhy? Because I love you, Iâm hopelessly in love with you and I donât want a future without you.â Your fingers ghost over the burns, an ache in your heart when you see how badly the sun has burnt him. Even as the sun scorched him, he still took the time to apologise, to look you in the eye, to tell you of how much he enjoyed the journey.
âEven if it means being unable to live in the day? Being unable to feel the sun on your skin?â The words cause a lump to form in his throat. He wants to push you away, tell you to find someone else, someone better. You deserve so much better than whatever he can give you, you deserve to be able to live with the sun warming your skin, you deserve â
âYes. I know what it means to be in a relationship with you, I know it means never seeing the sun again, never feeling its warmth, but itâs a price Iâm willing to pay if it means I get to spend the rest of my life with you.â The fierce fire he fell in love with back then burns in your eyes, daring him to deny you your choice and he feels himself falling for you all over again.
Your devotion to the people you care about, the lengths you would go for each of them, the love you had for those around you. He had once found all these traits foolish, but now they were his saving line, the reason you were currently kneeling by his side, tenderly caressing the rough burnt skin of his cheek as you firmly declared your intent to remain by his side for the rest of your life.
You pull the cloak over his head and shoulders, ensuring they cover as much of his skin as possible.
âI look terrible, donât I?â He gives a hollow laugh.
âAnd yet still so beautiful. Itâs not fair how you can pull that off.â You chuckle, tilting your head to offer your neck to him.
âDrink up,â you say with a smile so bright it blinds him. âThen weâll head back to Elfsong Tavern and discuss what to do next.â
He tugs at the cloak around him. It smells of you, the scent deep and warm. He buries himself in it, grateful for the protection it provides and gently rests his lips against your bare neck. His fangs prick your skin, and then dig deeper as blood begins to flow into his mouth. The cracking blue lines on his skin start to fade, his usual pale likeness coming back as he drinks your precious lifeblood, savouring every drop freely given.
âThank you,â he whispers against your neck.
âAnytime,â you murmur back, holding him close. It always brings a sense of comfort, feeling him in your embrace, breathing in his scent. You hold him for a while longer, basking in the feeling of his cold undead skin against your warm living skin until the others find the both of you.
Your group makes its way back to Elfsong Tavern while shielding Astarion from the sunâs rays. The walk is filled with a quiet yet comfortable silence, exhaustion from the dayâs fight and thoughts of the future that lay ahead setting in.
Everyone files into their own rooms, leaving you and Astarion standing in the corridor, facing one another.
âYou really mean it?â He asks. He has to confirm, he has to make sure that he is making the right decision to entrust a part of his future to you.
âMean what?â You tilt your head quizzically.
âThat you donât mind staying with me.â He shifts his weight from one leg to another, playing the corners of the cloak over his head.
âI mean it. Weâll find a way to get you walking in the sun again, and if we cannot, then I donât mind spending the rest of my life in the shadows.â You take his hand in yours, squeezing it tightly. âYouâre all I need, youâre all I want in this future of my choosing. I hope Iâm in the future you choose as well.â
In the future he chooses? HeâŚoh right. Cazador is dead, there is no master to tell him what to do, to control his every move. He can decide what he wants to do next, where he wants to go, who he chooses to spend his time with.
And he wants to spend it all with you.
âOf course you are, my love. Thereâs no one else Iâd rather have.â He flashes his usual smile, eyes softening at the way you light up upon hearing his words.
âThenâŚletâs start planning it, together.â
âTogether.â He agrees, liking the way his new future sounds. Even if he had to skulk in the shadows for eternity, maybe such a life wasnât so bad with you around. He would have you to wake up to, be able to hold you, be loved by you, even if he had to burn under the sun.
He wouldnât have it any other way.
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Hi hi! The blue man deserves more attention. It's criminal how much I adore him. Anywaysâ Kurt x Reader(97' works fine but whatever you prefer)
Reader is a mutant with abilities that make her cold to the touch. So she wears gloves and sweaters and avoids touching people so they won't be uncomfortable. But oh the blue man won't just have that since it's obvious reader is touch starved. I mean, this man does not hesitate hugging Rogue. A bit of fluff, cuddles? Maybe a love confession from Kurt, like the definition of "your beauty never ever scared me" on both ends. I don't know anymore I'm rambling at this point
Chilled to the soul
Kurt Wagner x fem!reader Words: 1.2K A/N: The way I desperately need a hug from that man
It was a cold evening. She sat by the window, her gloved hands wrapped around a mug, looking out at the starry sky with sad eyes. Her legs were pulled up, almost disappearing under the long, thick sweater, which he knew she didn't need because her mutation didn't allow her to perceive or suffer from temperature differences.
Kurt hated having to see her like this. He knew she only wore those sweaters and damn gloves so that others wouldn't feel uncomfortable and she didn't like them herself, but she put up with it. He had watched her in silence for the last few months and years, but he had reached a point where he couldn't stand it any longer.
On quiet soles, he walked across the room toward her and settled across from her on the windowsill as his tail whipped slowly back and forth. "Are you all right, my dear?" She looked over at him and smiled, though he could see the slight glimmer her eyes held: tears. "I..." she wiped her eyes with her sleeve.
"It's nothing. It really is. I'm just a little..." Her voice broke off and she took a deep breath to regain her composure. Carefully, his tail wrapped around her cup and lifted it from her hands to set it on the floor. With her eyebrows drawn together, she looked at him. "Kurt, what-?"
"Shhh," he murmured, taking her hands in his. Carefully, he began to pull on her gloves, whereupon she pulled her hands away, her fingers trembling slightly. "You don't want that." He looked up. "I know what I want. The question is whether you want it. If you don't, I won't."
Her eyes were wide and still glistening, but this time not with tears and hesitantly, very slowly, she put her hands back in his. He smiled and the tip of his tail ran over her calf. "Thank you." Tenderly, he plucked first one, then the other from her hands and placed them carefully beside him on the windowsill.
Then he held out his hands and waited. Kurt wouldn't force her, he knew how touch-sensitive she was and he would give her the time she needed.
Her eyes fluttered back and forth between his hands and his face and he could clearly see the doubt in them, but just smiled. "It's okay. As soon as you're ready."
She swallowed audibly, but nodded and stared at her hands as if she couldn't believe they were hers. Then she took a deep breath and gently ran one of her fingers over his bare palm.
The cold automatically spread through his body and he suppressed the urge to shiver, but she seemed to have noticed because she immediately withdrew her hand. "You're feeling uncomfortable, I'm so terribly sorry."
She reached for the gloves, seemingly with the prospect of leaving, however Kurt's tail wrapped around her wrist, intent on catching her by the fabric of the sweater, and she paused.
"Please don't. It's not unpleasant," he whispered, leaning forward slightly, his hands still outstretched. "It was just a little unfamiliar."
She looked at him and he could see the despair and at the same time rising hope in her gaze.
"I don't know Kurt..."
"Please." Her gaze traveled over his face and for a moment he feared she would refuse his request - which he would respect. But then she sighed and turned back to him. Slowly, her fingers approached his palm and this time he didn't flinch when her skin touched his. She was careful, her touch no more than a breath at first, but she became bolder the longer he let her do it and began to let several fingers dance across his palm at once.
His eyes never left her face and when she finally released hers from his hands and looked at him, she nodded slightly. That was all the invitation he needed.
Quickly, almost greedily, as if he had been waiting for this for ages, he closed his hands around hers and, after some difficulty, intertwined their fingers.
Her fingertips tapped against the back of his hand and he couldn't help but smile broadly at her, even as the cold spread through his body. It wasn't too strong, bearable, and clearly worth it if he could see her wondering, hopeful, craving look in return.
Tears gathered in her eyes and slowly began to run down her cheek. "Shhhh, it's okay," he murmured, carefully putting his arms around her, close enough for her to feel him, yet far enough away should she want to pull away. For a few moments she was frozen in his arms and Kurt wondered if he had gone too far, but she sobbed quietly and wrapped her arms around his middle.
She tucked her head under his chin and buried her face in his top as she clung to him like a drowning woman. Kurt smiled slightly and pressed his hand lightly against the back of her head, burying his fingers in her hair. He didn't know how long she had been in his arms, but he really didn't care. His heart was pounding in his chest, but this wasn't for him, it was for her.
It took a while for her to detach herself, but even then she only left his arms enough to look at him. Her cheeks were puffy from crying and her eyes were red, but she was beaming from the bottom of her heart and Kurt couldn't help but think that she had never been more beautiful. "Thank you, Kurt." Her voice hoarse and low. Despite its softness, he heard her perfectly. "Thank you for not shying away from touching me."
"How could I?" His voice was soft and gentle and he carefully ran a finger over her cheek to wipe away a tear. By now, he barely registered the cold. "You are beautiful, my love." His next move was a little forward, but he couldn't stop himself. He hungered for her touch and after tasting it, he was sure he would never get enough.
Kurt leaned in, but paused when his lips were just mere millimeters from hers. As much as he craved it, he was a gentleman. If she didn't want it, he wouldn't hold it against her.
She looked up at him in surprise for a moment, her eyes wide and searching his. Then, as if making a silent decision, she closed her eyes and leaned forward, closing the distance for good.
Kurt had the feeling that he had arrived in heaven. Her lips were cold, but so incredibly soft and tender that he felt like he was melting. Wrapping his arms around her waist, he pulled her closer, feeling her body against his. He closed his eyes in pleasure, his head spinning from her closeness and the sensation of her snug against him.
She, in turn, buried her hands in his hair, making it impossible for him to move in any direction other than forward, toward her. Kurt didnât know why he should complain. The sensation of her fingers entwined in his hair sent shivers down his spine, grounding him in the moment. Every fiber of his being craved her touch, and he felt a profound sense of contentment wash over him.
She may be cold to the touch, but God, she sparked a fire in him that threatened to engulf him and Kurt felt no need to fight back as long as it meant he could stay in her arms.
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Day 22: magic | Tom Riddle
smut
TW: use of magic during sexy time, coming in front of people, Tom is a possessive freak, piv, spitting, spanking
You were sat in the Great Hall, picking at your food. You hadnât seen your boyfriend at all that day, you missed him, but the hardest part was that you didnât know what he was up to. You didnât know why he disappeared on you, now your mind was full of questions, wondering if you had done anything wrong.
Suddenly, you felt a pang of need in your lower belly. You furrowed your eyebrows, shifting your weight slightly, not quite understanding what was happening. Your mind flashed with images of your boyfriendâs nude torso, making your need grow even more, you whined out loud.
âY/N? Everythingâs okay?â Pansy looked concerned, and just as you were about to respond, Tomâs voice filled your head.
I can see you squirming, honey, is something bothering you?
His tone was mocking, but you couldnât focus on it. âYeah, Pansy, itâs just a headacheâ She nodded, not entirely conviced, still she resumed talking with Draco.
Are you ignoring me, doll?
Tom could speak to you through your thoughts, it was nothing new to you. Yes, it did scare you from time to time, especially because he always knew what you were up to, always knew what you were doing but, most importantly, who you were with. Some might think he was quite obsessive, and honestly you couldnât disagree, but you knew what you were getting into when you started dating him. Anyways, what was knew was that somehow he could make you think what he wanted.
Youâre thinking way too much, baby. Yes, this is new, but how fun is that that I can control your pleasure?
You widened your eyes as another wave of intense pleasure hit you. It was like Tom was there, touching you. You could almost feel his calloused hands tracing your skin, his hot breath on your core, except you were fully clothed this time, and Tom wasnât there.
I bet youâre so wet right now, do you think I can make you come like this? I think I can. This would do wonders to my ego, let me tell you. Making you come from my room, with just the use of a little magic? Yeah, I think we can make that happen.
Suddenly, your mind flashed with vision of Tom in only his boxers, his abs awfully defined, so much so that you could actually see the little veins on his hips, the happy trail leading to his cock. You wanted to go to your room, but as you made to get up, you fell back onto your seat.
Huh-huh, donât get too bratty now, dollface. I said youâll be coming there, in front of your friends, didnât I? So I expect you to do so. Also, no touching.
You wanted to hit him, to make him suffer, but you couldnât. You wanted to hide your face, but then you would have drawn the attention of your friends. You were thoroughly fucked, and you didnât even know what you did to deserve that. He was being fucking mean.
Iâm not mean, thank you very much. This should be a pleasurable experience for you, isnât it? Should I intensify the pleasure, then?
Somehow, you felt a hard pressure on your G-spot, your eyes damn near crossing, your panties getting impossibly wet while you stifled a moan. You felt your nipples grazing harshly against your bralette, you swore you could smell your arousal.
âY/N, youâre awfully quietâ Draco was staring into your eyes with a soft expression, and you wanted to die on the spot.
âI-â You had to interrupt yourself, before you actually moaned and made a fool of yourself. âI donât have anything interesting to say, you know? Been studying all-â You took a big breath. âAll dayâ
What a good girl, so polite. I love how good youâre being, recently. You can come now, baby
The pleasure intensified, making you come in seconds. You bit your lip, all your energy spent on trying to school your expression as much as you could.
Now, baby, Iâll give you five minutes to gain your composure. Then, youâll be finding me in my dormroom.
There was no need to knock, Tom opened the door, grinning at you. He didnât give you the time to get mad at him, one of his hands gripped your neck, shoving his tongue deep in your throat. You moaned, you really couldnât resist him.
âSuch a good fucking girl, doing as I said. I fucking love you, my little pet. Now openâ You did, and he let spit dribble down into your mouth. âNow swallowâ Again, you obeyed. He groaned. âLook at you, all fucked out, and we havenât even begun. Come on now darling, bend over.â
Your chest was pressed into his bed, you felt the boxers fall down his thighs, his cock teased your entrance. âYouâre so fucking wet, so pathetic. All this for me, huh?â You nodded. Despite having come earlier, you already felt needy. He pulled in just the tip. âBeg me, baby. What do you want?â
You were used to Tomâs antics after a year of dating, you already knew the drill. âFuck me, daddy, please. Iâll be goodâ
He groaned, with one swift thrust he entered you. One of his hands gripped your ass, your skirt now covering your lower back. âFuck, I love youâ
You moaned. âI love you tooâ He slapped one of your ass cheeks, the sting sharp.
âYouâre all mineâ His lips were suddenly below your ear, sucking a purple stain. âYou wonât cover this, understood? Everyone must know you are mineâ It might be considered toxic, you knew that, but he was so sexy when he got this possessive. His hips rutted against the soft flesh of your butt, the room filling with smacking sounds.
âI need, moreâ He smiled, one of his hands circling you, pressing on your throbbing clit.
âAre you going to come for me? Marking your territory, baby? You know Iâm yoursâ
Your eyes crossed, your vision turning black as you came, once again, him following not long after.
You both regained your breathing, him still into you. You smiled. âSo, now youâre so obsessed you found a way to make me come from afarâ
He chuckled. âDonât get too bratty when Iâm still inside of you, dollâ
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They were too late to get you back.
Warnings: mention of death, arguments, angst with no happy ending, neglected reader, jealousy.
Diluc x reader, Alhaitham x reader
"Never got the chance to apologize.."
DÄ°LUC
Diluc and you were not the type of people who would fight often, been a relationship with him almost 4 years. Sure, everything is going well.
Well... it was going well. For the past 1 year everything changed for you and him. He barely came home, interact with you, ignoring you most of the time... and kept arguing, fighting over small things.
You never opened your mouth or fight back, you loved diluc so much that it was starting to hurt. Your shared room started to feel cold, no more morning kisses or hugs before diluc went to work, cold breakfasts and dinner all by yourself. Even if he did join the diner he would be quiet all the time, not even looking at you.
You did kept your mouth shut, holding for a hope... a hope for your future with him. Until you heard the conversation with Jean. The last knife that would break you.
"She's so useless, I cant keep up with her annoying presence all the time. All she do is stay at home and distract me from work... she keeps finding noneless things to argue with me. I just want to break the ties with her already, being with her is so tiring."
"Am I... that bad?" Who knew your dear lover was thinking of you like this for the past 1 year. All you wanted was too be like the past relationship you both had. Warm bed, morning kisses, happy breakfast and dates. Covering your mouth trying not to make any sound you left there sobbing quietly.
You did everything, I mean really everything. That all arguing was really nothing for him? You just asked for him to stay by yourside for more. You were slowly draining from inside, you had no one but diluc. Only his presence was keeping you sane but this cold mansion was making you crazy.
You returned back to the mansion, you had enough. Talking with him would go nowhere after all. You wanted his attention, you wanted him to see your worth. Going to the storage room picking up the sword once you held before moving in with your so called lover. Taking a mission from katheryne, you walked to the lawachurls camp.
You were going to show him that you are still worth for something, that you could help him with everything if he asked for it. Even if it meant death. Standing in front of the big creature holding your sword tightly you ran towards to it.
..Oh how wrong you were, thinking you could defeat that monster. Laying on a pool of blood coming from your head. Suddenly feeling peacefull for the first time after 1 year of suffering from neglect. Looking at the shining stars above you. Your head ringing from aches, sword a meter away. Faint screaming noises from back. You couldn't bother to look that way.
"Please..." a faint voice big hands caressing your cheek, weird it wasnt raining but you could feel wetness on your cheeks. Turning your eyes to the voice. Hands wiping away your blood.
"Diluc.." your throat dry, coughing the blood. Your beloved, your future. How could you hate him when he was the only one left in your life? Ä°s this really how you were going to die? As a pathetic advanturer? Few tears sliding from your face as your blurry vision tried to capture every beauty on his face.
"Jean is coming here so... please... please dont leave me now..I wont neglect you anymore...I will beg on my knees once you recover... so dont leave me here all alone.." Ah... was he also holding a hope on his hands too? A future would be great with him. Your eyelids feeling heavy, heart beating slowly as the seconds passing, his voice becoming more and more faint.
"Sleep...Can I sleep in your arms?" Your head falling to his chest, inhaling the scent for the last time you missed for so long. Diluc holding your cold body close to him, screaming and crying cursing to the celestia as you drift away from him.
Alhaitham
Alhaitham was no bad guy, I mean if it is you, he actually is willing to do anything for you. He is sure workaholic, but you guys were making sure spending time.
You met him in akademiya when you guys were like 18-19. Ä°t wasnt a love in first sight infact you hated him because he was a cocky man. He barely cared for any situtations, always one step ahead of you, teasing you even if other cant really understand his way of teasing. But overall because of kaveh you guys did get along sometimes.
Suprisingly he was the one who confessed with a valentines card, it was cute since he was shy about it and now its been 7 years.
Alhaitham is good at fighting so sometimes he takes dangerous missions other than being scribe and that worries you a little. You were just a researcher in akademiya so you cant always be with him. First time meeting with The Traveler your mind was at ease since they were with Alhaitham and helped him with secret missions in desert.
From 7 years to this day he is also not the type of person who really shows affection towards to someone but you, it made you feel speacial. But after all that archon saving missions he invites traveler to dinner, hanging out with her more and more. You told yourself that you were not jealous and its normal to hang out with people they like.
This became so often that you were feeling so neglected, you couldnt even talked about this with alhaitham since you felt like he wouldnt care about it.
You were in your room with kaveh, he was trying to finish his desings as you were staring at the ceiling. "Saw alhaitham with a woman today while coming here." Kaveh broke the silence. "Do you know her?" He turned to you.
"You mean the traveler?" You asked tilting your head. "Uhm no? Traveler left to fontaine almost 1 week ago..." he was cold sweating, your eyes widened from shock. Then who he was meeting up with for 1 week?
"Kaveh... tell me your joking?" You laughed. Ä°t was probably one of the jokes he was making right? But he remained silent looking down. No you wouldnt believe it until you see it with your own eyes. "Y/N wait-"
You stormed off to the Sumeru City streets heart beating like crazy. You stopped 20 meter away from alhaitham, hiding in the corner. You saw him... his betrayal as he caressed another womans cheek. She was beautiful, long silky hair and shining eyes, thin and elegance body. Your eyes watering slowly as you watched him lean for a kiss.
You ran from there. As fast as you can, till your lungs gave up. Entering your shared home to pack things up, you looked at youself on the mirror. Hair that looked horrible, sleepy eyes, body that looked like a frog in your eyes. But her... she was beautiful unlike you. You cried for the first time after years, wiping your tears as you packed your things. Leaving your room with no trace of you.
Kaveh on the other hand, explaining alhaitham that you saw everything. Panic rising in him he ran to the shared house. Walking inside slowly, trying to hear if there were any noise. "Y/N? I.. I came home?" He shouted. Feeling weird like the house got colder and quiet. His heart still beating like crazy he rushed to your room only to be faced with a tidy bed, empty warddrobe and empty studying desk.
This was a cruel joke on him right? You were joking, pranking him to make him regret for not telling you sooner it was for a mission right? His hand covering his face as he falls on his knees calling out your name a few times before breaking down.
Looking around trying to find anything that belonged to you, walking inside the house he spotted a letter.
My beloved lover,
I had to leave our home because my heart was hurting too much. Sometimes, I saw things that made me scaredâlittle moments that maybe meant nothing but felt big and heavy to me. I've always struggled with feeling good enough, and these fears made me feel even smaller.
Leaving wasnât about anger; it was about being so overwhelmed by sadness that staying felt impossible. I never wanted to run away, but I couldnât shake the feeling that maybe I wasnât what you needed.
I'm really sorry for any pain my leaving has caused. I hope one day we can understand each other better, but for now, I need some space to work through these feelings.
Take care,
[Your Name]
That was it, you left without giving a hint where you went. Guilt eating alhaitham up. For him you were perfect, you were everything he needed. Even your silence made him happy and peacefull. He was never good at showing his emotions and expressions but when you were with him he felt like he didnt need to force himself. You understood everything about him.
He lay down on your bed, a faint scent inhaling as he slightly squezzing the letter in his hand. Murmuring your name, begging to the teyvat to bring you back to him.
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suffering from nightmares/having trouble sleeping properly due to stress? say no more! cw: mention of panic attack. mention of fake character death. spoilers. angst to fluff. fem!reader
ACHERON is a light sleeper, so anything can rouse her from her slumber. she likes to spoon you and prefers you to be near the wall while sheâs closer to the door to protect you if anything happens. if youâre having a nightmare, stirring in her arms and mumbling incoherent words under your breath, acheron will immediately wake up and know whatâs going on. she wonât wake you. no, sheâll hold you tighter, pressing your back into her front, occasionally kissing the nape of your neck and softly whisper in your ear, talking you through it. â youâre not alone, iâm here. â and â shh, itâs okay my love. youâre in my arms right now, youâre safe. â
if youâre having trouble sleeping, acheron will stay awake and talk to you about anything you want. if you just want her to talk thatâs fine, sheâll just ramble on about some philosophy or if she remembers, sheâll recall some funny one-sided interactions she had with random people. you donât wanna talk and just want her to hold you until you fall asleep? no problem! sheâd quietly lull you into her strong arms and rests her chin on your temple. her calloused hands rub your back, occasionally drawing non-existent shapes against it. ngl, i see acheron unconsciously rubbing your ass and shyly apologize once she realizes what sheâs doing (please continue).
if youâre having a terrible nightmare and wake up into a panic attack, struggling to differentiate whatâs real and whatâs not, thatâll be one of the rare times where acheron is scared to death cus ur her baby frfr.
(donât attempt what acheronâs doing because people react differently during panic attacks and some do NOT want to be touched while having one. verbal redirection and MAYBE minimal touching is okay. )
â (name). (name)! look at me, hey. â acheron grabs your wrists, trying to hold you still while you hysterically sobbed and trembled. you frantically tried to escape acheronâs firm grip, shaking your head. â i-i ha-have to get out of hereâi-i canât be hereâyou donât understand!âyou babbled, struggling to kick off the sheets and scramble out of the bed. sheâs quick to pin you down against the mattress, straddling your hips to prevent you from escaping and hurting yourself.
â you have to calm down. do you know where you are now? can you recognize me? you need to look at me. iâm begging you. â acheron pleads, voice nearly cracking as she desperately tries to connect her amethyst eyes with yours. for several minutes, she tried to reorient and reassure you as you struggled to fully grasp reality. once you tired yourself out, it took some time for your loverâs voice to finally reach you.
â thatâs right, calm down. deep breaths, focus only on me my precious girl. no, no, donât look over there, only at me. â she whispers, releasing one of your wrists to brush the strands of hair sticking to your sweaty forehead and caressed your face lovingly, wiping the tears away with her thumb. â i-iâm sorry, â you choked out, âi didnât mean toââ
â itâs alright. you needânt to apologize. i understand, my love. night terrors are truly horrible. â acheron dips down to firmly kiss your forehead. she removes herself off of you and protectively pulls you into her midst. â you nearly scared me to death but i know it was nothing compared to what you were experiencing in that nightmare. i promise that who or whatever is the cause of that dream, iâll reduce them into nothingness if my blade can reach them. no, iâll make sure of it. â
BLACK SWAN doesnât sleep, sheâs a memetic entity after all. if time allows her to, expect her to lay in bed and cuddle you while you sleep. her nimble fingers would comb through your hair, while your head is settled on her generous chest. you prefer to sleep on top of her because her presence is so soothing. that includes her voice, itâs so smooth and low, itâs like water when she hums and whispers sweet things into your ear. unfortunately, that still isnât enough to escape from nightmares. as a memokeeper, black swan knows when youâre having a nightmare. sheâll enter into your dream and save you from whateverâs troubling you. when you wake up, sheâd stroke your back and kiss the side of your head tenderly. â that was quite the nightmare, wasnât it? was i there to save you, my dear? â black swan softly asks, sliver of tease in her voice.
you canât sleep? thatâs no good. sure she has the ability to ease your mind and body but physically comforting you with her touch is simply better. your cute sighs of content and the feeling of your body melting against hers is a savory memory to have. if you wish to talk, sheâll talk about the memories she witnessed, her favorites which is the ones with you in it, and then the downright ridiculous ones that she had collected from others. oh? donât feel like talking and just want silence? thatâs fine. sheâll simply hold you close tillâ you fall victim to sleepâwhich wonât be long because her touch is sooo therapeutic and this woman knows it.
of course there will be times where she wonât be there with you due to her duties but if you call her name, especially with urgency, sheâll do her best to come to you as soon as possible.
â bl-black swan! â you hurriedly called out into the darkness, breath irregular and tears threatening to fall from your eyes. another night, another nightmare. you thought, running a shaky hand over your face. after a few minutes of waiting, there was still silence, no familiar weight on the bed, no angelic voice confirming her presence, no arms reaching out to embrace youânothing.
â sh-she must be busy. iâm foolish to think she would come the second i call her. â you hide your face into your hands, sniffling.
â itâs not foolish, my dearest. you musnât think that, â a gentle voice says in front of you, as the mattress softly dips. â i heard the frantic call of my name and i did my best to wrap up some matters as fast as i could. iâm a little late, my apologies.â warm hands grasps your hands, slowly peeling them away from your face. once your watery eyes finds hers, black swan offers you a beautiful warm smile. â thereâs my pretty darling, come here. â as if you were the most fragile thing in the universe, she delicately pulls you into a embrace and presses a quick kiss right below your brow. she sways you in her arms, humming a soothing tune you donât recognize.
â if you wish, allow me to erase that awful nightmare from your memories. â
FIREFLY is a sweetheart when it comes to you, her precious love. she puts you before herself and sheâll continue to until her very being fades away. so if youâre awake, sheâs awake. youâre asleep, sheâs asleep. in bed, firefly wants to face you while holding your hand, it grounds her and she hopes it does the same for you. when sheâs on missions, youâre always on her mind, she has you to come back to after all. if youâre having a nightmare, firefly is quick to notice it and wake you up, greeting you with a sweet smile reserved only for you as your eyes flutters open. â itâs just me, (name). â sheâd whisper, brushing the messy hair away from your tired eyes. firefly leans down to land a chaste kiss right between your eyes.
having trouble sleeping? thatâs okay, firefly will do her best to entertain you while youâre up. if you want to talk about anything, go ahead! sheâll listen and share her thoughts with you. she herself doesnât really have any fond memories to share except the ones she has with you. oh, you donât want to talk? okay, let her hold you then. because of her fire element, sheâs warm so i can imagine her protectively enveloping you in her arms, legs tangling with yours, and nuzzle her nose into your temple. your ear is pressed against her chest, the soft rhythm of her heart is all you hear besides her faint breathing.
unfortunately, firefly wonât be there all the time with you because of her missions, so nights by yourself are a little common.
with a heavy heart, you lift your head from the pillow, sitting up. cold sweat rolls down the side of your face as ominous darkness swallows your form. â a nightmare. â you murmured, glancing to the empty side where your missing lover should be. sheâs on a mission and is expected to come back soon. you exhaled deeply, snatching your phone from the nightstand to look at the time. â its nearly one in the morning. i need to sleep beforeââ
â youâre awake. â a deep, low robotic voice observes, heavy footsteps entering the shared cabin along with the sound of shifting metal. your drowsy gaze turns over to the looming, large mecha walking towards the bed, itâs blue slits glowing in the darkness. â well, i was sleep but i can guess you can see how that went, sam. â samâs large metal hand reaches out to gingerly touch your cheek, it felt warm and comforting against your skin. â yes, i do. would you like for me to get you a glass of water or anything that you desire? â
you rest your hand over samâs, giggling, â no, i just desire you and you. â your hand then points at the mechaâs chest. sam pauses before a bit, taken back by your gesture and chuckles fondly. they retract away and takes a few steps back. â as you wish, my love. â blue lightly highlights sam from head to toe and wisps of flames wraps around its form. not a moment later, firefly emerges from the short-lasting flames, smiling warmly at you.
â itâs nice to also see you again, firefly. â
ROBIN is another sweetheart! she makes sure youâre all comfortable before anything else. much like firefly, she loves to lay in bed while facing you. robin adores your pretty resting face and often times retrains herself from touching you. if youâre having a nightmare, which is rare because of robinâs angelic presence, she wonât wake you up, instead, sheâd sing a soft tune and stroke your hair. â donât worry my muse, â she whispers, dulcet voice filled with love and a hint of sadness, â youâre not alone. when you wake up, iâll be here to comfort you with open arms. â
canât sleep? no worries, if you want, she can relax your body so you can sleep! oh, you donât want to? you want to just talk to get your mind off of things? okay, robin will listen to whatever you have to say with a fond smile. sheâll gladly give you a response if you want her thoughts. if you want her to talk, sheâll talk about her tours, songs sheâs writing (excluding the ones that are about you cus itâs a surprise ;)), and her brother! donât feel like talking? thatâs fine, sheâs gonna admire you until sleep overtakes her.
robin absolutely hates it when you have terrible nightmares, it breaks her heart to see you in a state of distress.
â sweetheart, are you alright? â she asks worriedly, touching your shoulder and tilts her head to the side to see more of your face. you breathed heavily, casting her a tight-lipped smile that didnât reassure robin one bit. â mhm, â you bring her into a hug, burying your face into her shoulder, breathing in her lavender scent. â just a small bad dream. donât worry, robbie. â you muttered, holding back a sob. it was just a small bad dream where your lover dies right in front of your eyes is all.
her wings flutters with sadness as your body trembles against hers. she wraps her slender arms around your frame, softly frowning. â a small bad dream that left you like this? please donât lie to me, love. i want to help you. â
â you already are, â you hold her tighter, voice evidently cracking, â by being here with me.â robin feels warm tears stain her nightgown, her lips pursues.
â noâplease, allow me to see your face so i can wipe your tears away and ease your mind. â
after a brief moment, you tentatively pull away from her shoulder, letting her see your teary face. her jade eyes glosses a bit. robin cradles your cheeks, brushing away the small droplets of tears with the stroke of her thumbs. she leans forward and rests her forehead against yours. a warm feeling whirls in your stomach and spreads through your body like a wildfire. your tense muscles relaxes and your troubled mind gradually clears. your lover places a lingering kiss against your shaking lips, silently promising you that itâs going to be okay.
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Late Night Talking
Hirai Momo x fem! reader
Summary âââ> Y/N canât fall asleep, so she has a late-night conversation with her wife to help her relax.
Genre: hurt/comfort & fluff
Warnings: mentions of loneliness
A/N: I just had to write this one out. I havenât been able to get this scenario out of my head for weeks! I hope you enjoy this little drabble I wrote out <3 You can also check out my other stuff if you would like! It is very much appreciated â¤ď¸
Word count âââ> 2,360
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â 2:00 AM
You hated not being able to sleep on nights like this these.
You were currently sitting up in bed, restless, trying to do whatever you could to fall back asleep. You tried counting sheep, blinking your eyes rapidly to get them tired, and turning over to your side, but still nothing.
Meanwhile, your wife Momo, was sound asleep right next to you. Her chest rising slowly up and down, mouth slightly open with drool coming out of it, and one of her hands interlocked with yours. She was for sure sound asleep, and you were also a teeny bit jealous that she could fall asleep faster than you could. But of course, you still didnât mind the cute sight of her sleeping.
Today had been one of those days where life kicked just you in the ass over and over, and you couldnât do anything about it. Work had been really busy today, and it brought you to the edge of a nervous breakdown just waiting to happen.
Your boss kept stacking an endless amount of papers on your desk, demanding that each paper be finished at a certain time. Along with your coworkers who kept pushing your limits, trying to constantly talk to you and be a distraction while you were working. You usually love them to death, but today just wasn't one of those days.
Work was one of the main things you were stressed about, but other kinds of thoughts had been running through your mind as well. About four hours ago, when you got in bed comfy under the covers, your mind started racing and thinking about things that worried you even more. Th negative thoughts had taken over, bringing your mood down severely. In your mind, you were fully convinced that you felt lonely and bothersome to others.
Lately, you didn't feel like you had anyone to turn to. Your friends were good people, but they just weren't good listeners, so you felt like you couldn't tell them anything really personal. With Momo, it was easy for her to tell when you were feeling off. During hard times, she had always been a shoulder for you to cry on, and you would never forget it. But lately, it wasnât so easy for you to reach out to her.
She had just gotten done with the world tour, and she was absolutely exhausted. You felt like you would be another burden to her if you were to tell her about your struggles. So you tried to suffer in silence for as long as you could. But it was eating you up inside, and it was becoming too much. In the back of your mind, you hoped Momo would notice first instead of you trying to come forward about it.
While you were deep in thought, you didn't realize that Momo had slowly woken up beside you. She fluttered her eyes open, only to find you sitting up and not asleep. She grew worried, so then she shifted around in bed, rubbed her the sleep out of her eyes, and began to speak to you.
âHey, what-â Momo muttered in a low whisper, causing you to jump in surprise at the sudden voice coming from beside you.
âAhhh! Oh my gosh, Momo. You scared the shit out of me! Donât scare me like thatâŚâ
Momo chuckled, âSorry honeyâŚâ She slowly leans over, and gives you a soft kiss on your forehead. When she pulls away, she brings her hand up next to your face and gently moves your hair behind your ears.
âI didnât mean to scare you. I was just wondering, what are you doing up this late, hm?â
You smiled at her sweet gesture, and then sighed at the thought of how long youâve been trying to sleep for.
âIâve been trying to sleep for a few hours now⌠But no matter how hard I try I just canât fall asleep.â
"Hmmm... maybe I can help with that. Talk to me honey, what's been on your mind lately? Is there something else bothering you?"
You got nervous, knowing you had to finally confess to her how you felt. " Well, I don't know... I don't really want to tell you because I know you just got off tour, so I wouldn't really want to bother you with-"
Momo quickly interrupted you and put a single finger over your lips saying, "Nope, shush shush. That doesn't matter at all. No matter what happens with my job, or how busy I am, you are always my top priority. You are my wife after all honey. I will help you with whatever you need."
You smiled, feeling so thankful that your wife is as sweet as she is. She always makes you feel loved with her kind words and affirmations. You exhaled a long shaky breath and looked up at the ceiling trying to think of what to say to her.
Expressing your feelings out loud wasn't always your strong suit, but tonight, your wife made you feel as if that wasn't ever a problem in the first place. Momo sat up and layed on her side, looking at you intently, making sure to give you all of her attention.
"Well... lately I've been feeling really stressed out from work and I don't know how to deal with it. My boss keeps loading me with so much work, giving me unbelievable dates for when I have to finish them. He doesn't do that to anyone else in the office but me. It's like he hates my guts or something... I-I also feel really pressured, since next week I have to present a very important slideshow for a meeting with all of the advisors and the CEO. I have a really bad feeling that I'm going to fail and lose my job. Even worse I might disappoint everyone, including my parents."
Momo pouted after hearing your confession, feeling sad thinking about you being stressed out. She hated seeing you this way, especially since it was happening right under her nose.
"Oh, baby I'm so sorry. I've always hated your boss too, he gives me the creeps. And, I know exactly how you feel about worrying if you'll disappoint people. Itâs the worst kind of feeling. We canât control how people feel most of the time, but we can control how we rise above from the mistakes we have made. So if someone gets disappointed in you, they were never supporting you fully in the first place. I know youâre gonna do great on your presentation. Youâre the smartest person I know, and youâll figure it out like always. Just do it like how you always do, and I assure you those businessmen will be impressed. And if you fail, I will be right beside you to comfort you, and we can figure it out together. If your parents do get mad... let them. They need to understand that mistakes are normal in life and that it's not the end of the world. You are a hard worker Y/N, don't ever forget that."
After Momo was done talking, she softly grasped your hand and brought it up to her lips, giving it a sweet and loving kiss. She then looked back up at you and smiled, "I love you so much Y/N. I know you're gonna do great next week.â
âThank you, honey... But thereâs something else I have to tell you too.â
Momo tilted her head in confusion, âHmm? What is it?.â
âWell... lately Iâve been feeling really lonely and Iâm not really sure why. Itâs not because of you at all, I just have these negative thoughts that go through my mind sometimes making me think that nobody cares about me, and that Iâm a burden to everyone. Itâs really bothering me and I donât know what to do about it.â
Your eyes started watering up over the emotional confession you just shared, and tears began to flood out of them. Momo quickly noticed, so she wrapped her arms around you to bring to closer to her embrace. âNo no no, itâs okay honey donât cry.â
She got a little bit emotional too, seeing you in such a state like this. Momo loved you with every single fiber and cell in her body, so seeing you like this really made her tear up inside. She held you for a little while rubbing your back and saying sweet nothings in your ear to help calm you down some. âI love you so much... Youâre so sweet and kind. Youâre so beautiful. Iâm so lucky to have you as my wife.â
Not long after, she moved her hands to both sides of your face and gave your forehead a soft and loving kiss. She looked you in the eyes reassuringly and said, âYou are so loved, I promise you. I wouldnât be able to function without you. Please donât ever hesitate to come to me when youâre struggling okay? I donât care if I just had a long day at work, or if Iâm on tour, Iâll always be there for you. Your friends, the girls, all love and care about you very much.â
She gave you another peck on the lips, and rubbed her fingers along the sides of your arms. You could tell by looking in her eyes that she was trying so hard not to cry, and that she meant every single word she said.
âYou are never, ever a bother to me. In fact, you make my life so much more brighter, and happier every day. Youâre the reason I get up every day and get so excited to do things. All because of you. You are so special to me Y/N I donât know what I would ever do without you.â
You smiled a chuckled a little bit, remembering when she first proposed to you at a beach. You two had been walking on the beach for some time, when she all of a sudden gets down on one knee and asks you to marry her. You said yes of course, and gave her the biggest hug while she spun you around in circles.
The funny part about this story is that right after all of this happened, Momo had seen a couple of crabs coming towards her, and got spooked making her immediately run off with you still in her arms. She had sprinted all the way back up to the shared hotel room you guys were staying at. You couldnât stop laughing for about thirty minutes after the little incident, and that had turned into one of your favorite core memories with her.
Momo smiled after she realized she had made you giggle a little bit, âHey what are you laughing about silly?â
You leaned into her embrace a little bit more, falling more in love with her with each word she said to you. She always knew exactly what to say in order to make you feel better.
âOh nothing, Iâm just remembering the time you ran off on the beach because some crabs scared you.â
Momo laughed along with you and leaned back away from you a little bit so she could look at you directly. Her hands rested next to your hips, just rubbing small circles around them.
âOkay listen, at least I had a good reason to run away from them! Crabs are scary...â
âHoney there were only two crabs on the beach. TwoâŚ.â
You looked at her with your head tilted, questioning what her actual argument was. She was being so cute you couldnât take it.
âMy point exactly. Any crab is a threat to me! I am not trying to get pinched by one any time soon.â
You started laughing again uncontrollably and even snorted a little bit, leaving Momo sitting there stunned. She had no clue what to do now. All she could do was just stare at you in awe, and listen to your adorable laugh she always loves to hear.
About thirty seconds later once you were done laughing, you sat up again and gave Momo one of the biggest hugs you could ever muster up.
âI love you so much Momo. Thank you for always making me feel loved.â
Momoâs eyes teared up a little bit again, and she hugged you even tighter, not wanting this moment to ever end with you.
âYouâre welcome Y/N. I'm always happy to help you."
You rested your head comfortably on her shoulder and smiled, feeling your eyes get drowsy from the comforting aura Momo constantly gave off. She quickly noticed and gave your forehead a gentle kiss once again. She whispered, "You getting sleepy honey?"
You nodded and mumbled, "Mhmm..."
Momo smiled and chuckled at your sleepy tone of voice. She then shuffled around in bed, and held onto you as she layed her body back down flat on the mattress. Then she pulled the covers over you two, and layed you on top of her so you could be comfy. She kissed the top of you head one last time, and rubbed circles around your back.
âGood night honey⌠I love you so much. Wake me up if you need anything okay?â
You smiled and hummed a response, âOkay⌠I love you too.â
Before Momo had tried to fall back asleep, she watched you for a little while, rubbing your back and making sure that you were okay. It broke her heart that you had been feeling this way for some time. But she swore to herself that she would pay closer attention, and would help you the best way she could this time around.
After a while, she finally felt content enough to fall back asleep, and gently wrapped her arms around you, closing her eyes knowing you were safe with her. The quiet sounds of your breathing perfectly matched with Momoâs heartbeat that you were hearing underneath you. You two had always worked in harmony no matter the situation. And right now, you and Momo were both asleep knowing everything would be okay.
You were no longer worried about that stupid presentation at work, and all of the papers you had to file that week. As long as you had your wife by your side, you knew that no matter what obstacle you had to face you guys could overcome it together.
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DAFFODILS (Chapter One)
FEATURING Eris Vanserra x pregnant!reader
SUMMARY The Spring Court has gone to shit, and while you would normally be able to tolerate it, the new discovery that you were pregnant pushes you to the gates of The Autumn Court and unknowingly into Eris' arms.
CONTENT WARNINGS pregnancy, Eris being a slight douche (you know how it is yall), violence (reader is kicked in the stomach), and mentions of Tampon (Tamlin).
AUTHORS NOTE who's excited for the kick-off of yet another series? I am! Of course, I had to start an Eris series, I love him too much not to! Strap in, darlings, I have a feeling this is going to be a long one.
SERIES MASTERLIST
The once vibrant Spring court had gone to shit, a shadow of its former glory. Tamlin, the once revered and compassionate High Lord, had vanished, abandoning his people to suffer in the decay his negligence had allowed to fester.
Amid the desolation, there were attempts to salvage what remained of the Spring Court. Lucien's name surfaced as one who strove to preserve our home. I recall his desperate sacrifice on Calanmai, offering himself to Ianthe in a futile bid to rescue us. He still occasionally visits, perhaps clinging to a hope that he might stumble upon signs of revival, our High Lord restored to his former benevolence. Yet each return only reinforces the stark reality of our decline, leaving him unsurprised by the sight of our dwindling realm.
And now, here I stand, just beyond the borders of the Autumn Court, clad in nothing but the ragged remnants of my escape, imploring the impassive sentries to grant me sanctuary within their walls. They offer no response, their stoic countenances unmoved as I plead and weep at their feet.
In my disheveled state, I must present a pitiful sightâmy attire threadbare and stained, my once-glamorous countenance marred by streaks of dirt and smudged cosmetics, my limbs adorned with bruises like macabre adornments.
As I teeter on the brink of desperation, a voice cuts through the stillness, emerging from the depths of the forest to my right. The guards snap to attention at its sound, their posture stiffening even further, if such a thing were possible, in deference to its commanding presence.
"What is the meaning of this?" The voice, smooth as silk and sharp as a blade, belonged to a man with cascading locks of fiery hair, who strode forth from the underbrush with an air of regal authority.
Gods, he was a vision to behold. Despite the earthy stains marring his attire and the tousled state of his tunic sleeves, he exuded an otherworldly allure.
"A mere denizen of the Spring Court, attempting to beg her way into our domain, my lord," one of the guards grumbled, offering a curt bow before callously nudging me aside with his boot. I winced as the blow landed squarely in my stomach.
"And what, pray tell, do you think you are doing, you imbecile!" The fiery-haired man's voice dripped with disdain as he strode forward, confronting the offending guard with palpable fury. "Can you not discern her condition, you fool? She carries life within her."
My heart lurched as I instinctively cradled my abdomen, a protective gesture born of maternal instinct. Though every fiber of my being yearned to retaliate against the guard's callousness, I forced myself to breathe deeply, refusing to succumb to the animalistic urges that society expected of Spring Court members in these desperate times.
"Are you alright?" the man inquired, his amber eyes ablaze with a captivating mix of concern and authority, their gaze so intense that it stole the very air from my lungs.
"I'm⌠I'm fine," I managed to utter, brushing aside the tangled strands of hair obscuring my face and inhaling deeply to steady my frayed nerves.
"I must apologize for the behavior of my soldier. Rest assured, appropriate measures will be taken, my lady," the man assured me, his smile radiant as he inclined his head with graceful deference. His charm nearly brought a wry laugh to my lips.
"No need for such formalities," I replied weakly, the weight of my displaced status as a refugee gnawing at my throat like a persistent ache. But I steeled myself with the thought of my unborn child, a beacon of hope amidst the chaos. "I am no longer a ladyâwell, not in the traditional sense, anyway."
"How so?" the man persisted, his expression a blend of curiosity and genuine concern, prompting me to draw my arms tighter around myself.
"I find it quite audacious for someone whose name I don't even know to ask such personal questions," I retorted, feigning a hint of indignation that rang hollow even to my own ears.
"Fair point," he conceded with a charming grin, though his adherence to formality still grated on my nerves. "Allow me to rectify that oversight. My name is Eris. Eris Vanserra, Heir to the Autumn Court," he declared, and I felt a strange mixture of relief and weariness wash over me at his introduction.
Eris. Lucien had spoken sparingly of his older brother during his time in the Spring Court, but whenever he did, a profound sense of affection tinged with melancholy colored his words. I shook myself from my reverie, extending a hand in a gesture of polite acknowledgement as I reciprocated with my own name. Eris repeated my name softly, testing it on his tongue, and my heart twinged at the striking resemblance in mannerism between him and Lucien, one so distant yet familiar, the other painfully close.
"Now," Eris began, his hands making a smooth, sweeping gesture that hinted at his readiness to delve deeper into the matter at hand, "what brings you to the borders of the Autumn Court, my lady?"
"The Spring Court isâŚ" My voice faltered, and I let out a weary sigh, my hand instinctively resting on my still-flat stomach for comfort.
"It's gone to shit," he finished for me, his smirk sharp but not unkind.
"Well, I wouldn't have phrased it quite so bluntly, but yes," I responded, my fingers tracing small circles over my abdomen. "That place and its ruler are no fit environment for a child. Considering the proximity of your court, I was hoping I might find a new beginning here."
"What about the father?" Eris inquired, one eyebrowâa mirror image of Lucien'sâarching skeptically.
I clear my throat awkwardly and look at my well-worn shoes. How does one tell the Heir to the Autumn Court that they are pregnant with his youngest brother's babe? How does one also explain how he is mated to another female, that they knew as soon as that brother found out about said babe, he would give up all hope to find his true mate in order to be there for his child?
"Not in the picture," I manage to say, my voice faltering slightly as I reach up to scratch the back of my neck, a gesture betraying my discomfort.
Eris hums, a low, thoughtful sound that vibrates with suspicion, his striking eyes narrowing as he scrutinizes my uneasy demeanor. The weight of his gaze feels like it could peel back the layers of my hastily constructed defenses, compelling me to confront truths I'd rather leave unspoken. Eris's scrutinizing gaze doesn't waver, and the silence stretches taut between us like a bowstring. "Not in the picture," he echoes thoughtfully, each word heavy with the promise of unasked questions.
I nod, feeling the weight of the moment settling around us. The air in the forest seems to hold its breath, the usual whispers of leaves and distant calls of woodland creatures falling into a hushed reverence. "And you must understand, my lord, that my child is my utmost priority," I assert with unwavering resolve, emphasizing his title with a hint of disdain, as if challenging the very foundations of our unequal stations.
The guards stationed behind me draw in sharp, anticipatory breaths, seemingly prepared for their lord to mete out swift retribution for my boldness. I steel myself against the expected blow, a silent rehearsal of defiance.
Yet, the expected strike does not materialize. Instead, Eris regards me with what could only be described as admiration. His gaze, intense and calculating, appraises me not as a threat, but as a formidable presence in my own right.
"Well, little fox," he begins, his voice carrying a playful undertone that belies the depth of his contemplation. He strokes his chin thoughtfully, his fingers tracing the lines of his jaw as if to physically underline his ponderings. "It appears you've presented quite the compelling argument for yourself here."
The use of "little fox" â a term perhaps meant to denote cunning and resilience â sparks a flicker of amusement within me, mixed with a surge of cautious optimism. His demeanor suggests a blend of challenge and respect, hinting at a dynamic that could evolve beyond mere formalities or supplications. This man before me is not just the heir to a court; he is a strategist weighing his next move.
"You seek shelter for yourself and the babe?" Eris inquires with a hint of slyness, as if to subtly test my resolve, though it's a point I've already made abundantly clear.
"Indeed," I retort sharply, refusing to waver under the weight of his penetrating gaze.
"Then shelter you shall have," he declares, pivoting on his heel to fix the guards with a stern glare. "You will allow her passage," he commands, his tone uncompromising. The guards, obedient to their lord's decree, quickly acquiesce, parting to allow me entry with a mere flick of Eris's wrist.
The heady scent of spices and autumnal freshness assaults my senses as I approach the threshold, beckoning me forward with its tantalizing allure. It's as if the very essence of this court implores me to embrace my true purpose, to seize control of my destiny without hesitation. The boldness of it all catches me off guard, stirring a sense of rebellion that courses through my veins like wildfire.
Pausing at the threshold, I find myself suspended between the tranquility of the wilderness behind me and the vibrant chaos of the court ahead. I hesitate, grappling with the weight of the choices that lie before me.
Eris slows his stride beside me, as if attuned to my uncertainty, and extends his armâan offering both courteous and suggestive. His demeanor exudes confidence and assurance, as if he expects me to surrender to his lead without question.
But I refuse to yield to the expectations of courtly decorum. Chin held high, I meet his gaze with unwavering resolve, ignoring the disheveled state of my attire as I assert my independence. My feet remain firmly planted, refusing to advance until I am ready, on my own terms.
Eris's arm lingers in the air for a moment, a flicker of surprise crossing his features at my defiance. His amber eyes search mine, silently probing, yet beneath the scrutiny, I detect a glimmer of curiosity and⌠respect.
"I am quite capable of managing on my own," I declare, my voice steady despite the storm of emotions raging within me.
His expression softens, and he nods, gracefully retracting his arm. "As you wish," he concedes, gesturing for me to take the lead as we finally step through the threshold together.
The walk through the streets of Autumn was like stepping into a painting come to life. The cobblestone pathways wound gracefully between quaint buildings adorned with intricate carvings and vibrant splashes of ivy. Overhead, colorful banners fluttered in the gentle breeze, their designs depicting scenes of seasonal splendor and courtly festivities.
Stands and stalls lined the streets, each one a miniature wonderland of treasures waiting to be discovered. From intricately woven tapestries to gleaming trinkets and baubles, the offerings were as diverse as they were captivating. Merchants called out to passersby in melodious voices, their wares displayed with care and pride.
The smells that wafted through the air were a symphony of sensory delights. Spices mingled with the scent of freshly baked bread, their fragrances intermingling in a tantalizing dance that made my mouth water. Roasted chestnuts crackled and popped over open fires, their warm, nutty aroma floating on the breeze alongside the sweet perfume of ripe fruit and fragrant flowers.
Eris's sudden change in direction pulled me from my reverie, my gaze following his lead as we approached a magnificent structure nestled within the heart of the Autumn Court. The Forest House loomed before us, its grandeur and mystique commanding attention as we drew nearer.
Surrounded by a wrought iron gate, the house stood as a bastion of elegance amidst the bustling streets. Tall trees swayed gently in the breeze, their branches reaching out to embrace the ancient structure with a sense of reverence. Vines climbed the walls, their verdant tendrils weaving intricate patterns against the weathered stone.
The sight of the Forest House sent a shiver down my spine, a visceral reaction to the aura of power and mystery that seemed to emanate from its very core. It was as if the house held secrets untold, whispering tales of bygone days and forgotten legends to those who dared to listen.
"Wait!" I called out, the urgency in my voice halting Eris in his tracks. His steps faltered, and he turned to face me, a glint of amusement dancing in the depths of his eyes. The sunlight filtering through the canopy overhead cast dappled shadows across his features, lending an air of intrigue to his already enigmatic presence.
"Yes?" he inquired, his voice smooth and tinged with playful curiosity, his smirk hinting at secrets hidden just beneath the surface.
"What's going to happen to me? Where will I stay?" I blurted out, the fierce confidence I had summoned earlier dissipating like morning mist in the face of uncertainty. Nervously, I began to pick at my nails, the weight of the unknown pressing down upon me like a heavy cloak.
Eris regarded me with a knowing glint in his eyes, as if he had anticipated my question long before I had voiced it. "You will stay with me, of course," he replied simply, his voice carrying an air of nonchalance that belied the gravity of his words. There was a subtle confidence in his demeanor, a quiet assurance that spoke of his authority within the court.
I recoiled at his casual response, a surge of apprehension coursing through me. "But what about Beron? Won't he object to having a⌠a lowborn in his household?" I ventured cautiously, the weight of his father's disapproval looming like a specter in the back of my mind.
"Nonsense," Eris scoffed, his arms crossing over his chest in a dismissive gesture. "You are now a member of this court, and given your condition," he added with a subtle nod towards my abdomen, "it is only fitting that you reside in more suitable accommodations." His words were tinged with a hint of defiance, a silent challenge to anyone who would dare question his authority.
Despite his reassurances, doubt gnawed at the edges of my mind, uncertainty clouding my thoughts like a thick fog. "Absolutely not!" I protested vehemently, a surge of protectiveness coursing through me as I instinctively placed a hand over my stomach, as if to shield my unborn child from the absurdity of Eris's suggestion. "I refuse to stay in your chambers, Eris. It's⌠it's utterly preposterous."
Eris's eyebrow lifted slightly, his gaze holding a hint of amusement mixed with something darker. "Stubborn, aren't we?" he remarked, a smirk playing at the corner of his lips. "But if you prefer to sleep on the streets, far be it from me to stand in your way."
His words, though seemingly casual, carried a sharp edge that hinted at the depth of his cunning. It was a subtle reminder of his position of power, a reminder that I was at his mercy whether I liked it or not.
I bristled at his thinly veiled threat, my jaw clenching as I met his gaze with a glare of my own. "You wouldn't dare," I challenged, though a flicker of uncertainty danced behind my eyes.
Eris's smirk widened, the glint in his amber eyes turning predatory. "Try me," he replied, his tone dripping with promise and menace in equal measure.
With a frustrated huff, I reluctantly relented, realizing that I was in no position to defy him. "Fine," I conceded through gritted teeth, my hand slipping from my stomach to clench into a fist at my side. "But don't expect me to thank you for it."
Eris's smirk softened into a smirk, his gaze lingering on me with an intensity that sent a shiver down my spine. "Who said anything about gratitude?" he mused, his voice low and husky. "I'm merely extending a courtesy to a fellow refugee."
His words were laced with sarcasm, a reminder that his generosity came with strings attached. It was a stark contrast to the charming facade he wore, a glimpse of the ruthlessness that lay beneath.
I swallowed hard, a bitter taste rising in the back of my throat as I followed him towards the Forest House. It was clear that my time in the Autumn Court would be far from easy, but as I glanced back at the crumbling ruins of the Spring Court behind me, I knew that I had no other choice.
As we reached the grand doors of the Forest House, Eris turned to me with a smirk. "Welcome to your new home, little fox," he remarked, his tone dripping with irony. "Try not to get too comfortable."
My brows furrowed at his words, suspicion creeping into my mind. "What's the catch?" I asked warily, narrowing my eyes at him.
Eris chuckled, the sound sending a shiver down my spine. "Though I do have one condition," he said, his smirk widening into a grin.
"And what is that?" I asked, a sinking feeling settling in the pit of my stomach.
"You must walk with me once a day for the duration of your stay," Eris declared, his tone teasing yet firm.
My jaw dropped in disbelief. "You're joking," I exclaimed, disbelief evident in my voice.
Eris's grin widened, his amber eyes dancing with amusement. "Do I look like I'm joking?" he retorted, his tone challenging.
I narrowed my eyes at him, a surge of defiance rising within me. "This is ridiculous," I protested, shaking my head in disbelief. "I won't be your captive audience."
Eris's expression softened, a hint of something unfamiliar flickering in his eyes. "It's not about being captive," he said softly, his voice uncharacteristically gentle. "Consider it⌠a chance to explore the court, to clear your mind. Besides," he added with a smirk, "I could use the company."
I bristled at his suggestion, my pride warring with my better judgment. "And if I refuse?" I challenged, crossing my arms over my chest.
Eris's smirk widened, a glint of mischief in his eyes. "Then you'll miss out on some truly breathtaking views," he replied, his tone teasing yet earnest.
I sighed in frustration, realizing that I was fighting a losing battle. "Fine," I relented, though the words tasted like ash on my tongue. "But don't expect me to enjoy it."
Eris's grin widened into a smirk, his eyes alight with amusement. "Oh, I have a feeling you'll come to enjoy it more than you think," he remarked cryptically, before turning to lead the way into the Forest House.
As Eris escorted me to the grand Forest House, his steps were measured, exuding an air of regal confidence that was unmistakably his. His fiery locks seemed to dance with each movement, and his amber eyes held a glint of mischief, hinting at the cunning that lay beneath his charming exterior.
Upon entering my chambers, Eris's gaze swept over the room with a critical eye, a subtle smirk playing at the corners of his lips. "I trust the accommodations meet with your approval, my lady?" he inquired, his voice smooth as honey but tinged with a hint of sarcasm.
I nodded, unable to suppress a smirk of my own at his thinly veiled jest. "They're quite lovely, thank you," I replied, matching his playful tone with one of my own.
Eris's smirk widened into a grin, his amusement evident in the curve of his lips. "Excellent," he remarked, his gaze lingering on me for a moment longer than strictly necessary before turning away to survey the room once more.
As I explored my new surroundings, I couldn't help but notice Eris's watchful gaze following my every move. It was as if he were sizing me up, gauging my reactions to the opulence that surrounded us. I couldn't shake the feeling that there was more to him than met the eye, a depth of character hidden behind his charming facade.
Spotting the single daffodil on the table near the window, I couldn't suppress a chuckle at the sight. It was a quintessentially Eris gestureâplayful yet meaningful, a subtle reminder of our earlier exchange. I picked up the note beside it, the elegant script a testament to Eris's attention to detail.
"I will be seeing you real soon, little fox. Wouldn't want you slacking off on our daily walks now, would we?" the note read, the teasing tone perfectly in line with Eris's mischievous nature. I couldn't help but smile at his audacity, the unspoken challenge sparking a flicker of excitement within me.
Setting the note back down, I turned to find Eris watching me with a knowing smirk, his amber eyes alight with amusement. "I take it you approve of my choice of decor?" he quipped, the smirk widening into a grin as he met my gaze.
I rolled my eyes playfully, unable to suppress a laugh at his antics. "It's certainly⌠unique," I replied, the hint of sarcasm in my tone mirroring his own.
Eris chuckled softly, a sound that sent shivers down my spine. "I'm glad to hear it," he replied, his gaze lingering on me for a moment longer than strictly necessary before turning away to hide the flush that crept across his cheeks.
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Iâm simply in love with your portrayal of Simon/Ghost. This fandom has so many incredibly talented writers, I am glad I stumbled upon your work! Your interpretation of his character is among my favourites 𼰠if it interests you, I would like to request a comfort fic w a femme reader who is perhaps not active on the field herself, but more on the intelligence/IT side of the operations (you can totally change this if you want, itâs up for your interpretation!) who is capable but suffers from insecurity and imposters sydrome (yep I am totally projectingđ¤Ťđ¤) and during a mental breakdown bc of the stress from work, Ghost of all people, who she previously has only seen during a few briefings and never has approached bc of his intimidating reputation, finds her. Cue to the stoic scary big man who has previously only stared her down turning out to be actually very supportive and appreciative of her work because he always has noticed her. Itâs up to you if want to keep it sfw or not! But a dash of softdom/service top sprinkled w some praise kink wouldnât be the worst thing in the world𼴠I would love to see your take on this if this idea interests you, and itâs totally fine if it doesnât 𼰠itâs always a pleasure to read your work regardless! Have a good one! âđťđ
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â Simon "Ghost" Riley x F!Reader
â Ghost stumbles upon you, after-hours, during a breakdown.
Explicit sexual content under the cut. Read at your own risk.
It was approaching two in the morning. You were running solely on caffeine and nicotine- neither of which were helping your dry eyes or headache. The light of your monitors was the only source in the room, completely enshrouded by darkness as you stared blankly at the screens. You'd hoped it would help you focus, think more clearly, but so far it had only isolated you further, brought nothing but pressure and stress.
It wasn't supposed to be difficult, it was supposed to be easy. It was supposed to be easy for you. You'd studied computer technology and engineering for years- built and coded programs for organizations all over the world. You'd worked within the military for nearly a decade, providing the most proficient and reliable support among your similarly-rated peers. You were quite literally an expert, but you didn't feel like it. Not with the unfinished assignment sitting before you.
Laswell, Price, the entirety of 141- they relied on you. They relied heavily on your abilities to guide them through their fieldwork, to do the digging they couldn't reach while on location. Though, as you leaned back in your chair, your lip red and raw with irritation, your back aching, you didn't feel reliable. You felt the familiar sting of failure, of total disappointment.
It bubbled up in your throat, escaping in a series of curses, shoving yourself away from the desk before you wound up damaging thousands of dollars of equipment. You paced, stared, and paced. Your mind swimming with questions, re-thinking every sequence, every key, every exhaustive search you could possibly pull- and still hadn't decrypted the data.
Your hand slammed down on the desk, scattering the pens and piles of paperwork you'd accumulated over the many hours you'd spent stewing in front of the code screen. The cursor blinked at you- waiting, taunting you, filling you with dread.
"Y'alright in here?"
A gruff voice pulled you from your anxious stupor, and you yanked your hand from the desk, gasping sharply. You looked up, finding Ghost at the doorway.
In the dark, you could hardly make out his silhouette, but the outline of his mask was a stark contrast against the pitch-black room.
"Didn't mean t'scare you," He said, taking a few steps forward. "Heard somethin' in here."
You let out a sigh, your heartbeat relaxing back into its regular rhythm.
You'd heard his voice before, usually over the comms, and seen him during briefings, but you'd never spoken in person. You knew he had a reputation for being tough and commanding; it put you on edge watching his looming figure in the darkness. He was undeniably intimidating, especially as he stalked toward you.
You stepped back, letting him around the desk to see your monitors.
"You're up late," He said, examining the screen.
"Trying to decode this shit," You huffed, forgetting about his domineering presence once you refocused on your failure. "It's taking me longer than it should."
"Looks complicated," He replied, his eyes meeting yours briefly.
"It is. It shouldn't be, but it is," You sighed again, sitting down as he looked over your shoulder.
"How long you been at this?"
You ignored his question, leaning in to further examine the code screen.
"It's late. You should sleep, get back to it in the mornin'."
You furrowed your brows, looking over your shoulder to find him closer than expected.
"I don't need sleep," You shook your head. "I need to figure this out. I'm close."
An epiphany sparked in your head- a brute force attack you hadn't yet tried. You quickly typed in the keys, waiting with baited breath as the screen paused.
A flickering script reading 'denied' came across your screen, typed out in front of you for confirmation. Validation that you'd failed, again.
"Fuck!" You shouted, cradling your head in your hands. "I-I can't figure this shit out, I can't do it." Your voice broke, hoarse with strain.
You looked up at him, your eyes now watery with frustration and anger.
"'Ey," He said, leaning forward. "Relax. I dunno much about this shite, but seems you're doin' alright."
You tilted your head. "Laswell needs these documents for Shepherd tomorrow, and I've got nothing to show for it. It'll be my ass getting dismissed. It's not alright."
"Shepherd can wait," He said. "You've saved our arses more than a few times."
"It's not enough."
"It's more than enough. Relax, you're givin' me a bloody headache."
"I can't relax," You looked up at him with blood-shot eyes.
"If anyone can do it, 't's you. Seen you handle worse than this." He gestured to the screen, a flippant motion.
You sucked in a deep breath, nodding slowly. You were more than shocked to hear the comforting words from Ghost. A man revered for his deadly hands, ferocity. The irony made you giggle, short and quiet, though he heard it.
"What's funny?" He asked, moving to lean against the desk.
"Just didn't expect you to be so supportive. Appreciative."
"I see what you do," His gaze was unwavering as he stared you down. "Couldn't do it m'self. Owe you my life, if not more."
"Not quite," You quirked up a brow.
"Yeah- quite. Raid in Las Almas, no other escape routes, Price called you in and we were on the way out in minutes."
You bit your cheek, nodding slowly, your eyes shutting as you digested his words. He was right- you'd done your fair share of evac and location support, never losing a soldier. Regardless of how horribly the assignment was going, you couldn't deny only you had the capacity to complete it.
"Thanks," You nodded, looking up at him. "I'm just in my head, stressed out."
He cleared his throat, sitting up a bit straighter.
You leaned back, grabbing a cigarette from the nearly-empty pack on the desk, and lighting it up.
"You want one?" You asked, offering him the package.
He took one, offering a quiet, "Cheers."
He lifted the cover of his mask up above his nose- it took every ounce of strength not to immediately watch his lips as he stuck the cigarette between them. Even then, your eyes glanced at the newly-discovered flesh, diverting your gaze when he locked eyes with you.
You inhaled deeply, letting the nicotine coat your lungs, before exhaling into the monitors before you.
"Should get some sleep," He said, standing up.
"Yeah," You nodded, shifting to lean forward. "Yeah, I will. Just a bit longer."
He sighed, bringing his gloved hand down on the keyboard.
"I'll break it in half if I need to," He said, his voice low and threatening.
You swallowed, raising your brows at the unexpected reaction.
"Alright," You huffed.
You stood to your feet, putting your cigarette out on the ashtray beside your mouse. He did the same, arms folding over his chest as he waited for you to leave your station.
His adamant opposition to letting you continue was admirable. Attractive, even. You hadn't anticipated feeling grateful, or happy to have had him find you.
You'd kept your distance from him, though you'd always find your eyes gravitating toward his. He'd already be staring, watching you from across the briefing room. At first, you'd been terrified, wondering if you'd done something to piss him off, but nothing ever came of it. Instead, he'd lift his head to find you, check over his shoulder to look at you.
He found you intriguing, attractive. A brilliant woman; smart, educated, someone he was glad to have on his team. He'd seen the countless hours you put in, the calm tone of your voice every time there was a stress signal from one of the men. You held it together for them- the least he could do was the same for you.
He liked the way your eyes studied the screen, the way you'd chew your lip raw. Though it wasn't in your best interest, he found it alluring. His mind wandered when he'd see you, nothing appropriate at all- only to satisfy the heat that curled itself inside his intestines when he laid his eyes on you.
He remembered seeing you for the first time, wondering who you were: laptop on the desk, pen in hand, bright-eyed and eager to please. Immediately, he'd fabricated images of you in his mind- images that he'd play through during the lonely hours of the night.
"Why are you up?" You asked suddenly.
"Couldn't sleep. Don't sleep much."
You shook your head, "And yet, you're lecturing me." A small smile lifted your lips.
"For your own good," He answered.
"That's interesting," You mumbled.
"Why's that?"
You breathed in, "You've only ever stared me down, don't think we've had a conversation before."
"Y'can say a lot without talkin'," He retorted.
"I wasn't sure whether you wanted to fuck me or kill me," You grinned.
"What's the consensus?"
"Still not sure," You held back a grin.
"Would've killed you by now."
You laughed, "That's not very comforting."
"Should be. Only leaves the former."
He moved closer, standing up straight as he unhooked his legs.
You were pleasantly surprised, though your nerves had been roused from their short slumber. Heat washed over your cheeks, climbing up your spine before returning to the crest of your thighs.
"Think y'could use some stress relief," He said. "Y'seem pent-up."
You pulled your lip between your teeth, your eyes shifting between his. It was tempting, more than your mortal being could possibly resist.
"Maybe," You uttered, your hands twitching with anxiety as he neared you.
He cocked his head, "Maybe ain't an answer."
"Yes," You blurted. "I could. But not if you're taking pity on me."
He chuckled, a sound you'd never heard before from him, though it was somewhat deformed. Amusement and disbelief rather than enjoyment.
"Sweetheart," He cooed, his chest nearly pressed against yours. "It ain't pity. Y'should know better."
"We'll, you're not exactly approachable," You said, tilting your head to meet his gaze. "Haven't had the pleasure of speaking with you before."
He nodded, "S'alright," He said. "Had enough o' watchin' from afar, though."
You breathed out, long and cathartic as it passed your lips. Releasing every worry and anxiety, relieved to be able to focus solely on him- on Ghost.
His hand reached your waist, softly pulling you into him, finally connecting your bodies. You let out a quiet grunt, your hands raised at your sides as you took in the feeling of his body against yours.
"Y'can touch me," He grinned. "I won't bite 'less you ask."
As if you weren't already aroused, soaking your panties, he only made it worse. The heat of his hands on your waist had drawn out any thoughts in your head, his voice so close- so clear in front of you was mesmerizing.
You apprehensively moved your hands to rest on his shoulders, your palms gliding against the taught muscles, another extended sigh as you tried to ignore the burning in your gut. He liked the contact, your small hands searing a brand into his skin.
He stared at you for a few moments, his eyes raking over your face, the face he'd seen in his dreams more than anywhere else. He must've made a pact with the devil, something sacrificed to have you in his hands- finally.
He leaned in, soft lips touching yours. It was fleeting, the softness, before he backed you against the desk with no regard for the equipment on it. Still, his lips held your attention, his tongue gliding between your lips to clash against yours. It was open-mouthed, messy, especially as he lifted you to the desk and bullied himself between your thighs.
You moaned faintly when his hand slid down your side, taking a handful of your ass and squeezing harshly. His other hand worked your shirt off your torso, parting only for a moment when the fabric passed your neck. His hands on your bare skin created a feeling of tightness in your gut- especially as he squeezed and grabbed at you, truly appreciating the curves of your body against him.
To your chagrin, he was still fully clothed, in his fatigues, like he lived in them. Even at two A.M., the man never quit. You weren't complaining; you rather liked the sight of his fitted uniform, especially as it squeezed his forearms and thighs, showing the bulk of muscle and veins beneath tattooed skin.
You were antsy, however, to feel him. All of him, against you.
"Take it off," You whispered against his lips, tugging at his jacket with clenched fists.
"Bossy woman you are," He teased, pulling away as he unbuttoned the shirt.
"I know what I want," You shot back, your eyes now narrowed in on him.
He hummed, satisfied with your answer. "That so?"
You nodded, smug and prideful, a sense of power- you had complete control. Your hands supported your weight behind you, leaning back, watching the show as he stripped from the shirt. It fell off his torso, revealing the toned muscles beneath, and he yanked the other sleeve off with impatience.
Your jaw was slack, looking over him as he neared again. This time, his hand slid up your throat, gripping the delicate area with a firm hold. He forced your eyes to meet his, a noticeable grin on his lips.
"You listen to me, sweetheart," He said, in your face. "And I'll take care o'you. Spread your legs."
You shivered, an audible gasp leaving your lips. The things you'd have done to hear filthy words leave his mouth- the voice that rung in your ears at night, made your pussy flutter. Now, he'd offered his services to you, rather enthusiastically, too, admitting he'd wanted it for a long time. If nothing else made you feel better about your shit progress, he surely could.
He kept eye contact while his hand worked open your pants, pulling them and your panties down your legs with speed and precision. He wasted no time pressing your thighs to your chest, tucking you into an uncomfortable position before kneeling in front of you.
"No thinkin'," He warned. "'Less it's about cummin' on my face."
Your head fell back, groaning softly, lifting back up again only when he pressed his lips to your pussy. Then, you watched with anticipation building in your gut, trembling in your limbs and a heavy ache settling in your womb.
He slid a warm tongue between your folds, a gentle touch you hadn't expected from the brute of a man. He watched you the entire time, took in the sight of your lips parting, sucking in a long breath, shutting your eyes as you basked in the pleasure. He couldn't help but form a grin, his lips engulfing your pussy in an open-mouthed kiss.
His attention moved to your clit, faint licks crossing the sensitive area that coaxed quick jolts from your body. He settled into a rhythm, and your body adjusted accordingly, leaning into the new and overwhelming feeling.
"Yeah, right there," You said, a hushed tone, like you were speaking to yourself.
He grunted in response, another warning.
"Sorry," You said again. "Feels so good." It was a quiet whine.
You wanted to run your fingers through his hair, grab at something, anything that would connect you to him, so you settled for his forearms. Your palm gripped the flesh of his arm, squeezing, just as he did to your thighs.
His tongue expertly traced your clit, circles and delicate licks that made your back arch, opening yourself up for him to taste.
"That's it," He uttered, muffled by your pussy. Even speaking against you made you clench, stare down at him with lust on your face. "There's a good girl."
You exhaled, nodding in agreement, submission to his mouth as he returned to his rhythm, falling in tandem with the heavy breathing leaving your chest. His eyes hadn't left you, watching and studying your expression for every hint of pleasure. He was intent on learning exactly what you like, though it was difficult to discern through the flurry of expressions on your face.
Your brows drawn together, jaw open as you choked down a gasp, breathing heavily into the dark room. He could make out your face, but your silhouette was blackened against the light of the monitors. He could see the swell of your breasts, your thighs, the curve of your waist against the backlight. He could even see your eyes, when you'd drop your head to watch him devour you.
You began to shake, tensing against his mouth when he continued at a consistent pace. He was thorough in every aspect of life- this was no exception. He didn't let up, even when your pussy drooled with cum, instead, he licked it up with his tongue, moaning softly against you at your taste.
He stood to his feet, unbuckling his belt as he stared at you. Your chest heaved, toes curled, leaning back as you watched him. The light danced on his abdomen, highlighting every hill and dip on his torso, the scars that scattered the skin. It was a sight that had your brain resetting, recovering as though you hadn't been covered in a layer of sweat and left breathless from your orgasm.
His cock stood erect when he yanked his trousers down, and he didn't stall any longer. He stalked forward, leaning into you, his hand on the desk behind you as he pushed his cock through the tight barrier of your hymen. He was absorbed, swallowed by soft inner-muscles and velvety walls, slick with your cum and arousal.
He pressed his lips to yours again, not allowing for much deliberation or accommodation- he was far too aroused to wait. You planted your heels against the desk as he thrusted his entire length into you, quickly meeting your cervix with a gentle graze. It made you suck in a sharp breath, and move away from his lips.
You saw his eyes, the look of possession and pure lust in them. You merely stared at each other, a nauseating intimacy while he thrusted inside you, further disturbing your lower stomach with a tightness.
"Oh God," You choked, your hands reaching around his shoulders, clinging to him. "Don't stop- don't fucking stop."
His hand reached around you, holding you against him, the other gripping your thigh with a bruising constraint.
"Fuckin' Christ, you're tight, sweetheart," He breathed in your ear. "You all wet for me?"
You nodded, breathing an enthusiastic yes into his ear, clenching at his back with your fingers. Your nails dug into the slick flesh, feeling his muscles move as his hips tilted back and forth into you.
All you could smell, hear was him. The scent of his heavy body soap, like pine, mixed with the cigarette you'd offered him earlier. His breathing in your ear, heavy pants as he relished in the tightness of you- the slippery walls encroaching on his cock.
"Such a good fuckin' girl," He mumbled against your neck, his lips dragging against your skin. "Say you're a good girl," His voice rumbled through his chest. "Fuck me- all for me."
It was haze-inducing, incoherent mumbles, quiet gasps and sobs as you clung to him. It worsened when his fingers played your clit, sliding between your bodies to rub over the sensitive spot.
"I'm a good girl," You gasped. "I'm your good girl."
"'At's right, sweetheart- takin' me nice and deep."
It didn't take long to clench around his cock, another wave of nauseating pleasure that rendered you absolutely useless as he drove into you.
"Fuckin' hell," He stuttered.
You'd constricted his cock, pulsating around him with every contraction, nearly sobbing into his shoulder when he continued with his thrusts.
He finally pulled out, tugging on his cock as he released his cum over your stomach. He exhaled sharply, before gathering his composure.
You grimaced as you stood to your feet, trying to clean yourself off as best you could.
You watched him shrug his jacket back on.
"Get some rest," He nodded once, gesturing to the doorway. "I'll check on you tomorrow."
"Is 'check on me' an innuendo? Should I wear my good underwear?" You grinned, pulling your pants back over your backside.
"I'd shag you if y'had on a bin bag, sweetheart."
"You're sweeter than you let on," You teased, laughing.
"Not for most," He cocked his head. "Guess you're lucky."
"Well, thank you," You smiled.
It was genuine. A distraction, however unexpected and unusual, that did make you almost forget about the assignment.
"I'll be around," He paused. "If you're feelin' like takin' your frustrations out."
"Goodnight, Lieutenant."
He walked off with a short nod. You paused for a moment; the temptation to curl yourself up at your desk and continue your assignment was gnawing at you. You clenched your jaw, took a deep breath in when you recalled Ghost's words, and finally decided to turn off the monitors.
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âDidnât mean to make your heart Blueâ || [2/âŚ]
- OPLA! Buggy x F!Reader
"Do-mi-ti, why not me? Why not me?"
â Mitski, "Washing Machine Heart"
Pairing: Buggy the Clown (Live Action) x F!Reader
Part 1 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6
Summary: You were an apprentice of Gol D. Rogerâs crew in your youth, long before his eventual demise. Along with the Red-Haired Shanks and Buggy, you were a formidable trio; the embodiment of a new generation of pirates yet to come. But times changed, and so did you and your friends. Years have passed since you last saw Buggy following the dispute that you thought ended your friendship. When you finally reunite with the blue-haired menace you once considered your closest friend, itâs under less than âfriendlyâ circumstance.
Warnings: Fem!Reader, Canon Typical Violence, Slight Canon Divergence, Buggy is an asshole, The reader used to go by "Cross-Hairs" in the past, hot tension, resentment and love, flashbacks, Reader is strong AF
A/N: Buggy's behavior in this chapter kinda gives off Yandere-vibes, but he's not. He's just really desperate, and a general asshole, (and lonely).
He's dead.
Gol D. Roger, captain of the Roger pirates, your captain, is dead. Pierced through the back by the Marines like a pig for slaughter, a death unworthy for someone of his rank. He deserved to live a long life, drunk on rum, surrounded by his friends and crewmates, before being finally laid to rest in a casket and shipped off with the waves as per tradition.
As chaos ensues and all hell breaks loose, his corpse remains on the same stand where he met his end, left to roast in the warm sun. At the very least, he did not leave this world without flipping one last bird at the Marines.
His final words leave such a domino effect upon the witnesses, one that will last for years to come. Sailors, pirates, men, women, and children all head toward the vast oceans in a hurry, ships pushing off the docks at record speed as they prepare to hunt for his legacy. To claim his title for their own. A title he earned and subsequently put up for auction.
The Marines were hoping that his death would mean the end of Piracy, but as though fate itself had something else to say about it, it had the exact opposite effect.
You're not moving with the swarm of people. The race goes on, but you do not.Â
You're still standing in the same spot as you were when you watched the officers drive their spears through your captain's back, having ceased to function as you saw the man who practically raised you, succumb to the same fate that claims all in the end.
Even as people are pushing their way past you, shoving you in God-knows how many directions on their way to the oceans, you can't find it in you to move on your own accord.Â
The world has gone deafly quiet now, everyone else is gone, and you're its sole occupant now. Despite the unrest going around, and the wind that brushes against your neck, Roger's last words echo in your ears like the whispers of a ghost.
"Wealth. Fame. Power. I found everything this world has to offer. Free yourselves! Take to the seas! My treasure is yours to find!"
Someone - whether accidentally or not - thrusts against your stomach, and you take a tumble to the ground. The world finally perforates your consciousness, yet it leaves you exposed to its chaos. You attempt to stand up, but the ongoing movements from all around halt your efforts.Â
You raise your arms to shield your face from further damage, suffering several pairs of feet and a handful of scratches from the crowd. Nothing too bad, but you don't dare to try and get up just yet. Your initial plan is to just stay put until the storm is over.
That is, until you hear a voice calling your name from somewhere in the crowd, muffled by the ruckus, but still audible for you to make out among the many others.
"COME ON! HURRY!"
You're hastily pulled up to your feet and collide face-first into a chest. Looking up, you only manage to register Buggy's hand tightly clenched around yours in a near-painful hold as he pushes you both through the ongoing crowd.Â
While trying to navigate through the masses, you raise your head to gaze at his face.
Not unlike your own, his eyes are stained with tears.
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Nothing is in its correct shape when you blink your eyes open. For starters, the room is spinning at an incredible speed, and for seconds, there is twice of everything. Two coats are hanging on the rack just on the edge of your vision, the same color and length and everything. You discover you have two pairs of hands and feet as you sit up, and at least over a dozen iron bars are separating you from the rest of the room.
In a minute or two, your sight establishes yourself. The world has become one again, but to your chagrin, you discover that the number of bars caging you remains the same.Â
Shaking off the dizziness and nausea that accompanies your waking, you get up to your knees and discover that, once again, you're fucking trapped. This time, it's in a metal cage hanging off the floor by a hook and chain, swinging you lightly back and forth with each fraction of movement you commit yourself to.Â
Exhausted from simply waking up, you clash your forehead against the bars. "Shit."
"Well, good to know that your colorful vocabulary remains the same."
You snap your eyes up to see Buggy striding into the room, and your gaze immediately narrows.
"And your eyes." His right hand dislodges itself from his wrist and hovers over to you with an outstretched finger, where it lands right in the space between your eyes. "Sharp as ever, if not even sharper. Careful, you could kill someone with those."
"Wishful thinking," you murmur indignantly and raise your hand to wave off the offending appendage. Like a fly will with sugar, it merely withdraws for a few inches before returning to the same spot.Â
You elect to ignore it as best as you can.
He feigns a horrified gasp at your words and clutches his chest with his remaining hand. "Such harsh words! I thought we were friends, you and I. I mean, what kind of friend would threaten the other with their life so cruelly?"
Friends? That's rich coming from him. You haven't considered him as such since the day he left. You won't even dignify that with a response, and so you merely turn your head to the side and rest your cheek against the bars.
His voice lowers a few octaves, enough for you to differentiate between the real him and the act he puts on for a performance. "Then again, what kind of 'friend' leaves the other behind?" His footsteps come closer, each one weighing heavier than the last. "What kind of 'friend' abandons the other?"Â
Your eye twitches, but you still refuse to look at him, much less speak to him.
"What?" the Showman farce has by now ended and been buried as he takes one last step forward. "Nothing to say? I'd thought that after twenty years, you'd be happy to see this handsome face."
As much as you want to admit that, yes, the years have done wonders on his face and he most definitely would've been categorized as 'handsome' in your dictionary, you don't.Â
"What do you want me to say?" You tilt your head marginally to the side so that merely one eye is aimed at him. "That it's good to see you? That I've missed you?" Even though both of those statements are true to some extent, he doesnât need to know that.
"Well, I could go for all of the above if you insist on being cordial, but for starters, an apology might suffice enough on its own." If you weren't already looking at him, you'd think that heâs joking. He isn't. Heâs as serious as a heart attack, and heâs not smiling this time. All you can think at the moment is that it's strange not to see a clown smile.
"An apology?" You withdraw the impulse to scoff. "What, exactly, do I have to apologize for?"
He doesnât answer right away. In fact, he doesnât do or say anything at all. You can't even hear him breathing, and itâs twice as eerie as his general demeanor. It's a foreboding omen that signifies he's on the edge of his temper like a bomb sizzling just before it goes off.Â
"What do you have to apologize for?" he echoes.
That's all the warnings you get before the cage rattles with enough force to knock you back against the other side of the cage. Buggy's hand curls around the iron bars with such vehemence that it almost looks like he's about to break them right off the hinges.
He leans forward until his nose barely brushes against the cold steel placed between you, his bright-blue eyes near-bloodshot with the way they glower. Even now, with the few feet between you, you find yourself almost drowning in those blue irises of his.Â
"You left me. You betrayed me!" he shouts loud enough for his voice to reverberate throughout the room, all thoughts of maintaining his composure thrown out the window the moment you inadvertently admitted your own cluelessness. "Just like all the others! Shanks, now I could've predicted that, but you?"
His hand dislodges yet again to point an accusatory finger at you, but it maintains a safe distance this time. Probably afraid of what you'll try to do with it if you get your hands on it.Â
You have to give yourself some credit. You've not lost your temper once since you ended up here. In your adolescence, you would've torn him a new one fo the trouble, but you can't be bothered this time around. Youâd have thought two decades of separation wouldâve led to some pent-up fury like it has done to him, but all you feel is ⌠well, nothing.
Nothing yet, anyhow.
"What you did to me, now that was cruel. That was something I did not expect, but you did it, and for what?" The cage continues to shake as his fingers dig into the rods. This time, you observe, heâs keeping his head slightly tilted downwards, rendering you unable to detect his eyes. "For Red-Haired fucking SHANKS!"
With all the movement going on in your limited space, youâre jolted forth again like a ball and cling to the front bars with your hand positioned right above his. Even with the gloves and the short distance keeping you separated, you can feel the scorching heat emitting from him.
How long has it been since you were last this close to him? It was underneath the stars, you unexpectedly recall. You were clinging to him, crying your heart out as the death of your captain had finally been processed. He was holding you close, whispering something you could not make out at the time.
It was during a time when it was just you, him, and Shanks. The three of you, against the rest of the world, ready to live up to Gol's legacy and become the Pirates of the New Age. With  Shanksâ leadership, your strength, and Buggyâs general unpredictability, nothing could stop you.
But now you're here, a captive. No longer a friend, no longer a...Â
It never went that far, anyhow. No use bringing it up now when itâs hardly relevant.Â
When Buggyâs raspy breaths slow down and his hold on the iron rods lessens, you decide to finally speak.Â
"You're the one who left, Buggy," you say, your words laced with such apparent apathy that no one wouldâve guessed what youâre feeling. In reality, you want to scream until his ears literally pop.Â
Your chest constricts just to say it out loud, but you won't even stop and address the tremble that threatens to claim your voice the more you go into it. "I went with Shanks, because who else was I supposed to go with? The Roger Pirates were spread to the fucking corners of the earth, Gol D. Roger was dead, and you left. I had no one except for him. You closed that door, not me."Â
Silence reigns loudly upon you as you're left there, nearly breathless after your little rant despite having kept your voice even throughout it. You feel pathetic, childlike, small. People say that admitting something is the first step towards overcoming it, but you feel neither achieved or relieved of any burdens.
You just feel ... small. As small as you were the day he disappeared from your life.
Buggy doesn't say anything, his countenance empty of any tell-tale signs regarding what he might be feeling. It's almost ironic. The man who used to wear his emotions on his sleeves, the same expressive man who used to spend hours bragging about his capacities and capabilities on the Oro Jackson, has now been rendered mute like a mime instead of a jester.
His eyes find yours again after an unknown amount of time, only now, it's not just bitterness and resentment you have to salvage from them. For a second, just a brief flash of the moment, there's something else. Something vulnerable.Â
It goes as quickly as it came.Â
He shoves himself from the cage, his indecipherable gaze â now laced with both anger and regret â lingering on you before he starts pacing around the room, having calmed down from his outburst but being no less agitated by the turn of events.Â
"What are you talking about?" he demands, sounding a tad more curious now than accusatory. "You were already going to leave with Shanks before I booked it, I just beat you to it."
This time, it's your turn to point an accusatory finger toward him, lowering your voice just enough for him to hear you recount the most painful memory you have, save for Gol D.'s death. The memory you had spent almost two decades trying to bury deep down inside you.Â
"The last thing you told me was that you wished that you'd never even met me, and then you fucking left me behind to go do who the fuck knows what. Which, apparently,â " You gesture to your surroundings with a dismissive wave of your hand. "â Includes enslaving people and keeping them in cages."
"Hey, people are allowed to have side-gigs!" he retorts, almost boyishly as if you didn't just have a serious argument moments ago. "Don't judge me! You used to steal shit when we were kids, but you didn't hear me bitching about it!"
You roll your eyes. Some things don't change, that being the childish bickering, not the enslaving and caging bit. Your lip inclines upwards for just a second, and it declines just as quickly. You lean back against the other wall of your cage and heave a breath, tired of it all
"Speaking of kids," he rests his arms atop a crate to his left. "What's up with you and Rubber-Boy over there? Luffy, was it?"
Your lip drops to a scowl. Looks like the kid's Devil Fruit powers have come to light, one fruit eater to another. "What about him?"
Buggy smirks and pulls out a knife from inside his coat. He turns it playfully in his hand, balancing the sharp edge at the tip of his finger as though in deep thought. "He yours or something? 'Cause, I gotta admit, I never took you as the white-picket-fence type."
Heâs joking, right?Â
Right?
"He's not mine.â
The look that befalls his face almost seems like ⌠relief? Heâs quick to mask it though with a half-assed smirk.
"No?" He tips his head to each side and lets the knife lie on the crate. "You sure as hell seem protective over him, and I know for a fact that not just anyone earns the favor of the legendary Cross-Hairs.â He puts a hand under his chin, feigning a motion of deep thinking. âWhat'd he do? Save your life? You found him in the trash? Or did you shag up with his daddy or something?"
You raise an eyebrow. "I made a promise."
At the mention of this, he promptly ceases with his ridiculous guesses and his words turn sharp. "To whom?"
"None of your fucking business." You're pretty sure that if he learns that you made that promise to none other than Shanks, he'd unleash a different kind of hell not even the death of Roger could hope to spark.Â
Rather than pushing the matter, he shrugs with an air of indifference. "I just find it funny, that's all." He chuckles, but his tone lacks any visible sense of comicalness. "You, one of the most notorious pirates to ever cross the East-Blue, disappeared for a decade to do what, exactly? Look after a simple-minded brat who talks shit about becoming King of the Pirates."Â
He snaps his attention back to you and moves closer to the cage again, crouching on his knees to gaze up at you instead. "Sorry not sorry to burst that little bubble, but that title will belong to me. Once I get the map your stretchy little runt has hidden, I will find the One Piece. I will become King. I will be known, and I will be loved."
("You were loved,") a part of you wants to tell him. The part that still lingers in your shared past. ("You were always loved.")
But you keep your mouth shut.
He perceives your silence as a sign to continue. "You know, despite everything that happened, I'm opening my heart to forgiveness, for old timesâ sake."
"Forgiveness?"
He smiles, but this one, you discover, is genuine. At least, in comparison to all the other ones he's flashed you beforehand. It's a lukewarm feeling, but familiar. You're almost tempted to reach through the bars and feel his cheeks, trace the edges of his lips, and smudge away the red make-up just to know if it is real or just a figment of your imagination.Â
"If you convince Rubber-Boy to hand over that map of the Grand Line, I might consider opening a special spot in my crew, just for you. I know better than anyone what you're capable of. Hell, it'll be just like old times, like nothing ever changed. You and me, against the rest of the world."
Slowly, he reaches his hand up and towards you through the bars, palm open for you to take.
"Don't you miss it?" he whispers, wistfully. "I do. Save for the One Piece, it's been the one thing I've wanted more than anything else."
You blink, and a feeling settles over your chest. Not uncomfortable per se, but not kind either. Like being enveloped by a warm yet tight blanket, staving you off the cold but suffocating you all the same.Â
Your dream. You remember your dream. The one you thought gone forever, now seemingly resurfacing from the depths in your heart where it initially drowned. To travel and explore the seas, the three of you by each otherâs sides until the very end. Thatâs all youâve ever wanted.
Now, Buggy is opening up the possibility of that dream coming back to life again.Â
You're tempted to take his hand, feel the warmth that once held you so openly when you were younger.
You raise your hand to him ever so slightly.
"Fuck, Rubber Boy can come too for all I care.â He proceeds to add. âHe's a special case, and there's nothing I appreciate more than special ones."Â
Your hand stops and promptly withdraws.
Buggy raises his eyebrows in shock, his fingers curling as they were about to grasp at yours only to find empty air. "What? What is it? What's wrong?"Â
Luffy.
You shake your head. "He won't give up. He won't give up on his dream."Â
"What, Rubber-Boy?" he scowls like the name itself tastes like bitter venom on his tongue. "He's just a stupid kid, he'll grow out of it. Once he sees that there's no way he would last in the Grand Line on his own, he'll get in line."
You take a deep breath, preparing for the confrontation that's about to come with your next words. "He won't, and no power or authority on this earth is ever going to be able to change that."
A flash of hurt crosses his facial features, only for a second, yet it feels like longer. Then, it stops, and all that's left is the same bitterness he showed that very day.
Snarling, Buggy pulls his hand back and gets back up on his feet. âI shouldâve expected this. You never choose me!" he flares and pulls both his hands to his chest, gesturing to himself. "It's always someone els- Always someone fucking else. First Shanks, then this damn brat! Why?" He briefly pauses, as if weighing his next words. "What did they ever do that was so special that you decided to stick around for them that I didn't do?"
Youâve just about had enough of his self-pitying attitude.Â
"I never 'chose' Shanks!" you hiss back at him. "It was never a choice. Why was I supposed to 'choose' anyone for that matter? What made you reach the conclusion that there had to be a choice at all?!"
He parts his jaws to answer with what you can only expect to be yet another sneer when the curtains behind him parts, and a member of the troupe enters. A dark-skinned man with a Mohawk of sorts, with filed teeth resembling a shark more than a man.
"Boss, the kid ain't saying nothin' about the map." The man ("Sharptooth", you decide to call him for now) says with a deep twinge of aggravation. "We're already at nearly thirty-damn-feet, and all the little shit does is fuckin' laugh at us."
Buggy does not even turn to address the man, his attention solely at you, but you can tell he's irritated by this interruption.
"Sharptooth" turns to you, having just realized youâre here. A sinister grin spreads along his cheeks, and he licks his upper teeth lecherously. "What do we do 'bout her? Is she up on the menu yet? I'm starvin'."
You crouch down, one hand positioned between your knees like a predator ready to lunge at the slightest movement. Truth be told, despite your reputation, killing someone has never been one of life's greatest joys for you, and it's been a while since you last committed a murder. However, the years have done little to weaken you, and you're not afraid to get your hands dirty if the situation demands it.
You'll be sure to let him know first-hand that if he dares to try anything.
"No," Buggy replies, voice void of any tangible emotions. "She'll snap your neck like a twig before you can get within a foot of her." He turns to face the disappointed performer, and before the latter knows it, a severed hand clamps around his throat and dangles him above the ground with what you can only expect to be a bruising grip. "I am, on the other hand, not limited by such proximity."
The man's face begins to pale as the blood flow to his brain is cut short, but the grip does not lessen at all.
Buggy speaks like heâs having a normal conversation. "She stays here, and no one, and I mean no one, is going to touch her. Understood?" His soft say leaves no room for opposition.
You watch as "Sharptooth" struggles to form a coherent sentence as he desperately clings to the hand keeping him afloat. "Y-Yes siâ Yes, Captain. W-We won't!"
With a bored swish, the hand shoves the performer back a good two feet, where he crashes to the ground and clutches his neck in search of air.
"Splendid!" Buggy attaches his wrist back and claps his hands together, his Show Man act replenished. "Now, be sure to tell the others of that little fact, and while you're at it,â" he draws his palms away from one another in a straight motion. "Add another five feet."
The crew member wastes no time shuffling from the ground and all but books it out of there.
Buggy heaves a deep and dramatic sigh, exaggeratedly slumping his shoulders, and swings back to you again.
"Supporting casts, am I right?"
You don't bother with a reply.
He takes this with a lackadaisical shrug. "Now, as much as I'd like to continue this intriguing, little tĂŞte-Ă -tĂŞte, I'm afraid I'm needed elsewhere. The show must go on, but Iâll come back before you know it."
It doesn't matter when he'll be back. You don't plan on waiting for him. You've already waited twenty long years, and as your temper simmers evenly under your skin, you intend to get one thing across.
"Just remember this, Buggy,"Â
You lean against the bars, pressed so tightly that it feels like your body is about to push through the narrow gaps. "If you do anything to the kid, anything at all, and you can consider our past six feet under. I'll come after you, and when I'm finished,â"
Fist clenched; you deliver a solid strike to the bar that rattles throughout the room to the point where it feels like even the ground is quacking from the force. Buggy jumps a few steps back in retreat, and when he looks up again, his breath halts.Â
Where there was once a straight bar keeping you contained, there's now a prominent curve pointing out towards him. Not nearly large enough for you to squeeze through, but it's there, nonetheless.
When you lower your fist, knuckles red but intact, you finish your warning. "â Not even your Devil-Fruit powers will manage to keep you intact."
His eyes flicker between you and the now-deformed iron bar. Unexpectedly, he only stares, neither returning a threat nor even a joke to ease the tension. He doesnât say anything at all, and the absence of words leaves nothing up to interpretation.
Buggy knows better than anyone that you don't make half-assed threats. Never you. Once youâve set your eyes on a target, you donât rest. He recalls the look of pure bloodlust in your eyes from back when you were young. It was neither cruel nor sadistic, but it felt cold to witness. Ice incarnate.Â
A predator just following its prime instincts.
Whenever someone posed a problem to either you or your crew mates, you would counter it with a threat. It didn't matter how bold-faced it sounded, you always made sure to see it through.Â
As a teenager, he begrudgingly thought that it was hot as hell. You were. Watching the way your eyes would almost glower as you made good on your promises, it did things to him.
Now, even when he's on the receiving end of it, it still does.
He can't deny that the feeling hasn't diminished. For what itâs worth, it means that youâll keep your focus on him. Heâll have your eyes, all for his own now. Those very eyes, always so sleek and ready to cut and by God, he realizes at that moment just how fucking much heâs missed them.
How much heâs missed you.
âWell,â he says as he makes his way to the exit. âI guess Iâll see you in the front row.â
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"Oh, so we DO love Steve..." | Part IX (FULL)
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Steve Harrington x Bauman!fem!reader enemies to lovers, heavy angst, hurt/comfort, upside down mayhem, S2-S4, post S4 universe hot-take, end-of-the-world / dystopian setting, ugly fights turned smut (...but with hella plot). 18+
CHAPTER IX WARNINGS/NOTES: t.w.'s - language, innuendo / sexual undertones, mention of dr*gs and abuse and childhood trauma, Max in a coma, talks about death, difficult confrontations. 18+
AUTHOR'S NOTE: This is the 9th chapter, written in full. Not action packed, but vital to the plot. Lots of beautiful moments in here that I really took my time with writing because at this point, I am just so in love with this concept. We learn more about Bauman's past. Steve and Jonathan finally have that talk. Murray is a proud uncle. The kids are adorable. Steve's dream isn't only his. And everyone prepares for doomsday.
Bonus: If you love the song "This Little Life," well then you are in for a treat. It heavily inspired this chapter, and it will be back...
PROOFREAD UNTIL MY EYES BLED. IF THERE ARE STILL TYPOS, SORRY BOUT IT. 18+
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Steve Harrington was no stranger to nightmares.
Heâd learned how to endure them. Over the years, he made friends with his demons. So much so, it got to a point where he got too used to having them around. He just nodded at them as they lurked in the darkest corners of his sunshine mind, letting them exist as lonely, miserable wallflowers who were never noticed in the daylight when he was awakeâŚwaiting for their fleeting moment of popularity after dark, when his eyes were shut. He didnât address them when he was awake. Because if he addressed them, that would mean they were real. But if he let them have their way at night, forgetting them the next day and acting like they did not exist, that meant they had no power over him. They didnât mean anything. They were nothing.Â
They meant nothing.
At least, thatâs what Steve told himself.Â
Every night before shutting his eyes, he steels himself for whatever hell he was going to face. From the ripe age of four, he learned to simply expect the unexpected when it came to sleeping. Sleep was never going to be his friend â whether he was sleeping alone, or with a friend, or holding naked girl in his arms. Steve was made to suffer in his sleep. His subconscious was a world that was built upon a foundation ruled by the reality of absent parents, being an only child, high school flings that left him longing and the endless search for love. It consisted of repeated dialogues â sometimes the incessant arguing between his parents, or the jabbering of Tommy H. and Carol, or hearing Nancy chanting bullshit, along with all the other voices of people who filtered in and out of his life. Bullshit, bullshit, bullshit. Â
Sometimes, Steve was running away from his own voice in his head. There were nights when, within his own nightmares, he himself was the nightmare. That really came into effect during his last year of high school and the summer after he lost Nancy. Adding the entire element of the upside down into his life only fed his nightmares. They were bad before, they were bad then, and they were worse now.Â
Trauma after trauma, loss after loss, fight after fight, bloodshed upon bloodshed.Â
Every punch to his eye. Every word slapped across his face. Every other worldly creature he was made to battle. Every moment he was paralyzed with fear of losing one of his kids.Â
Nightmares loved Steve. And they knew exactly where to find him, every single night.
But right now, sleeping next to you, it wasnât nighttime. It was still day. Daylight shown through the windows of your assigned guest room in the Harrington house â curtains drawn, and the gloomy afternoon sky filtering the space around you both.
And here he was, fast asleep with his cheek resting on top of your chest, as your heartbeat thumped against his ear. One of his toned arms was looped around your waist, having closed his eyes and letting the steady rise and fall of your chest lull him to sleep. Steve had been fighting sleep for the last two nights. Especially the night after you died in his arms. He had just barely brought you back to life, and he knew that as bad as his nightmares had been beforeâŚall of them amounted to nothing compared to the nightmares that would undoubtedly follow him after that. Steve wanted nothing to do with sleep. He was damned for all eternity when it came to sleep, and it was sure to bring him a life of insomnia after the real life nightmare that he was made to face when wide awake.Â
Thatâs the beauty of being asleep: you have to wake up.
Steve told himself that every night before he went to bed. He told himself that no matter how bad it got, he would still wake up. And once he woke up, it would be over.
He learned to do that after he went to the county fair one year with his friends, back in middle school. Heâd gotten on a ride, peer pressured by Tommy H. and not wanting to look like a chicken.Â
Every second of the ride, Steve was petrified.Â
He wanted off, he wanted off, goddammit let me off he shouted. Â
Then he remembered having been told by the county fair worker that the ride lasted four minutes. Steve took a deep breath, realizing heâd likely been on it for already half that time. So he counted to himself. Counting down the last half of the ride, he told himself over and over: eventually, this ride has an end. Â
Sure enough, when it did finally come to an end â and when everyone was let off the hellish escapade â Steve realized that he had found the glitch in the matrix. The warp in time. The secret superpower to conquering fear. Suddenly, he wasnât so afraid anymore. Which is why now, whatever nightmare he was made to face, he would endure it â knowing that the sweet relief of waking up was just right around the corner.Â
And after all: stranger things had been proven real in Steveâs real life, far more than in his wildest dreams.Â
Loving you had turned out to be the strangest thing of all. Â
Even more so, the lack of nightmares that came with that was also strangeâŚ
Because right now, as Steve finally succumbed to sleep instead of fighting it, lying next to youâŚhe was not trapped in a nightmare. His subconscious did not have him roaming the unpredictable pathways that led to the darkest corners of his mind. His demons had ceased their dance. Vecna, and all his other worldly monsters, were not the stars of this particular show. Steve was not trapped in the midst of jabbering chants coming from the voices of all the people that he loved, all the people who had betrayed him, or even the voice belonging to himself.Â
For the first time in years, Steve Harrington was dreaming.
It wasnât anything drastic. Nothing that could exhaust him, to where any hours of sleep hadnât felt like any sort of sleep at all. In fact, his subconscious state wasâŚserene. Quiet, peaceful. It was almost unsettling in a way.Â
Little bursts of yellow â pastel and sunshine and lemon â colored the dark walls inside his mind. A light breeze gently wooshed in the distance, coming seemingly from nowhere but still fanning his face and the flop of his perfect hair. Somewhere, someone was humming. Almost like a bird, or the sound of a foghorn super far off in the distance. Maybe even the distant drums of a far away land. The rhythm came and went, but it kept him company. As if it were some little song made up in his head as he went along, saying, âHey, Iâm right here. We are in this together.â
On the other side of Steveâs closed eyelids, you laid beneath him in his yellow crewneck. The air you breathed softly, in and out of your nose, fanned across his forehead and his perfect hair. And while your heartbeat was not even, it was there â beneath his ear, drumming in a makeshift pattern, inventing its own rhythm as it went.Â
In the real world, your uneven heartbeat reminded you both that you yourself were not in the clear. Not yet.Â
But currently, in this new world that Steveâs subconscious had just discovered, it reminded him that he was no longer alone. Not with you.
In the real world, Hawkins is in trouble. Cursed.Â
And while none of you had figured out how to break that curse just yet, along with VecnaâsâŚone curse had been broken. Â
Youâd broken the curse to Steveâs endless nightmares.
But would this world even allow for you both to explore a future together, in which you had broken this dark spell cast over Steve Harringtonâs lifeâŚ?
***
Seeing Nancy shuffling out of Argyleâs room is the last thing Jonathan ever could have expected. And heâd seen a lot of shit that prepared him for the unexpected.
The perplexed look in her eyes. The determination in her step to get the hell out of there, despite clearly having been given some sort of useful information after sharing God-knows-what conversation with his Cali best friend.Â
The two lovers at war made eye contact. It was quick, fleeting. But tense. Â
Eddie and Robin watched as Jonathan turned to stare at Nancy over his shoulder, and how she froze for a moment to stare back at him through her glassy, wide blue eyes. Her gaze, fixed on him, went from longing to hardened. Nancy walked away, and Jonathan letting her without a word only motivated her to keep walking.
And now, Jonathan had been in Argyleâs room for a good long while. Eddie and Robin had left behind their own little comforting conference of sorts to join the adults downstairs, while the kids had set off in other directions of the Harrington house.Â
But before that, during all the upstairs drama, Joyce and Murray had been having some drama of their own in the basement.
âYou did what?!â
By now, Murray had recounted every single part of his story and how heâd played a huge role â along with you â in how her son had ended up with Nancy Wheeler. Murrayâs once upon a time had rendered her speechless.Â
Even Hopper â whoâd heard them go downstairs and immediately followed when he heard Joyce start rocking the boat as she pressed Murray for information â now stood there beside Joyce, having just listened to everything â stunned.
Because when in the world did you all have time to fall in love, fall out of love then fall back in love / new love like this? How the fuck were you all managing that on top of the upside down mayhem?
âMay I remind you both how you two lovebirds have spent the last few years developing your own slowburn of a story arc?âÂ
Murrayâs question was dripping in condescension. But it was valid. It also came from the heart. He loved these two humans to death. And they loved him back.
While Joyce felt an enormous amount of joy that her son had ended up with the girl he lovedâŚher heart ached for Steve. Sheâd grown to love him like her own over the years, especially these last several months as she lived under his roof. She had no idea just how broken up heâd been about Nancy. Joyce couldnât help but feelâŚalmost guilty.
But Hopper was shaking his head with a sort of proud grin, noting how as much as Murray had been the one to rock the boat â you had been its captain at the wheel. He pointed out how you had steered that wheel without even trying.Â
âWere they even friends in high school?â Hopper asked curiously. âHarrington and Bauman â I canât see your niece even having time for him back then when he was a punk.â
Murray went on to proudly confirm that assessment, along with explaining how youâd simply participated in your Uncle Murrayâs meddling because you happened to be there that night and itâs just a sort of family tradition that you both had formed over the years. And when Joyce asked him how someone like you had not been swept up already by some guy, Murray had scoffed. He looked bitter â in the way that a protective parent is on behalf of their own kid.
âMy niece deserves the world. Not one stupid guy at that high school could give her a mere city, let alone a globeâs worth. Doesnât mean she didnâtâŚtry. I know she was into one guy for a good while at one point. Some friend sheâd made with one of the athletes who shared A.P. classes with her. She helped him study. Something she never did, unless it was with the girls and guys from her class that had weekly study group nights. But this kid she likedâŚhe was smart, and he liked her back. She more than liked himâŚand he let her. Then, as all the petty high school boys do, he ditched her and all her efforts and hours spent studying and helping him pass his classes with flying colorsâŚfor a bimbo. A blonde, hip shaking, Pom-pom waving babydoll whoâs all body, no brains.â
Joyce frowned. âBauman is beautiful. Sheâs body, beauty and brains.â
âYeah well,â Hopper mumbled, shaking his head disdainfully. âIn high school, if youâve got a dick, weâre letting it do the talking for us.â
âPoint is,â Murray continued. âIt hurt her. Big time. But thatâs the thing about my niece. Given our Bauman blood, we donât easily succumb to our sentimental feelings. We just let it broaden our dark comedic chops and cynical worldview. My niece doesnât have mommy or daddy to run home to and cry. Sheâs an only child, so no siblings to help care for and bond with. Yeah, sheâs got friends. But mainly at school. Sheâs got herselfâŚand sheâs got me.â Murray smiled at that. âBetween me and her grandmother, weâve been the ones that raise her. But to be perfectly honest, my niece pretty much raised herself.â
Hopperâs heart clenched. For both you and your uncle.Â
âSheâs great, Mur,â Hopper murmured. âYouâve been there for her and it shows.â
Murray was quiet at that. He hated compliments. But he didnât flinch or get snippy. He actually looked humbled, silently appreciating this observation.Â
Joyce sighed. âMurrayâŚyou really have been an incredible uncle to her. I know that IâveâŚgiven you a hard time about things, butâŚreally. Youâve never missed with her.â
Murray was still quiet. He looked everywhere but at his two best friends for several beats. Finally, he gave a curt nod. But it was grateful, and full of love. Mainly for you.
âThatâs my kid.â
Murrayâs voice cracked a bit. It was the most unusual sound in the barren basement of the Harrington house, bouncing off the walls despite its soft decimal in volume. The tight lipped grin on his face as he finally made eye contact with Joyce and Hopper said it all. He loved the shit outta you, like any good parent loves their kid.
âI didnât get the white picket fence life. Or a lifelong love story with some gal. I got dealt a crazy family of addicts and narcissists and loons. Had a brother who married a gal from rehab, got her pregnant while they relapsed and went forward with having a kid that didnât stand a damn chance at surviving it.âÂ
Murray pursed his lips before he continued. âThatâs the first goddamn miracle Iâve ever witnessed. That little fetus somehow made it, all of 5 pounds at 9 ounces. Ready to get the fuck out of the womb and live. It made for an early arrival and the risk of being premature, on top of being a crack baby.â
Murrayâs eyes shone with a certain kind of fondness. It held both sadness and joy. And his voice was the gentlest it had ever been as he spoke about you.
âShe didnât have one thing wrong with her. Not one thing. Perfect lungs. Perfect heart. Perfect brain activity. Not cursed from the drugs that coursed through her motherâs veins and doomed her life from the start. That kidâs been outsmarting everyone in her life since she was a seed.âÂ
Joyce and Hopper couldnât help but chuckle at that. Their eyes shone with Murrayâs, having been parents themselves and unable to fathom being so reckless when bringing life into this world.
âI didnât get my own kid,â Murray continued. He looked at Hopper. âI didnât get a Sarah.â Then to Joyce, âOr a Jonathan, or Will. A kid whoâs my own flesh and blood that Iâd fight for to the bitter end.â
Murray stood there, resolute in what he was getting at. âBut I got her. I got a niece who loves me. After she was born, I got my dadâs mom to take her in while I traveled and worked. Sheâs the only family member Iâve bothered keeping in touch with. Sheâs an odd one. But she had a home and money and willingness to take in a stray. She never thought sheâd ever get a granddaughter. Donât even think she really wanted one much till she was handed one to take in. Between the two of us, we raised her. She got thrown at whoever would take her and that was fine with me. Meant she still had a damn shot at a life. Thatâs what we gave her. The rest? Sheâs done herself.â
Murray sniffed. Then, smirking at himself âÂ
âIâd like to think my being an unorthodox parental figure of sorts is why sheâs built for the war.â
Hopper grinned at that, swallowing back tears of his own. He squeezed Murrayâs shoulder. âYeah, she is. Kid could survive the damn streets of New York on her own.â
Murray laughed at that, and so did Joyce â she finally shook her head and wiped away a couple motherly tears. She took a deep breath, looking up and shifting gears with the topic.
âYou know,â she started. âCall me a hopeless romantic⌠But Iâm pretty sure that Steve Harrington has hopelessly fallen for your niece.â
Hopper snorted. âGod, I havenât ever liked the idea of two youngins together the way I like them.â
Murray grinned big. âYeah thatâs a plot twist even I wasnât expecting.â Â
The cynical gentâs expression suddenly went from warm to grave. ââŚdonât ever repeat that.â
The adults all shared a heart laugh at that, making their own comments on how the two mortal enemies turned out to be lovers. Hopper cringed at the word, along with Murray â and Joyce gave your uncle hell for that, given heâs the self-acclaimed mastermind at love.Â
âMy witch doctor hours are limited when it comes to my nieceâs love life,â he argued, but it was all with humor and fondness. âI already orchestrated the basics.â
âWhich wereâŚ?â
âCalling her out.â
Joyce smiled. âWhat do you think of them?â
Murrayâs expression softened. He contemplated that for several sincere moments.Â
âSurprises me to say itâŚbut I think sheâs got someone who loves her fully. Will love her fully. Thereâs actual years there, backing them up. Years of real life shit. Abnormal shit. Valid tension, deeply rooted hatred that turned out to be love. She saw Harrington for who he was, and sees him for who he is. I mean â Jesus, she was there for all of it. Steve Harringtonâs redemption arc was witnessed by her just as much as those kids that heâs taken on as a babysitter. Well, and the Robin girl. But thatâsâŚnot the same thing as what heâs got with my niece. No threat there.â
Hopperâs eyes narrowed at that, curious. But Joyce gave Murray an all-knowing grin, knowing what he was getting at.
âI donât think sheâs on the same field,â she winked.
Murray winked back. âExactly.â
Hopper blinked. ââŚalright, you guys lost me.â
Joyce waved him off, continuing. âSo you like him with her. Maybe evenâŚapprove?â
Murray slowly nodded. âDidnât think thereâd be a guy who stood a chance at that. But given the wholeâŚletting us all stay here and saving her life thingâŚyeah. Iâd say Iâm very good with those two being together.â
Joyce nudged him with her elbow. âMaybe you should tell him that. YâknowâŚgiven youâre at fault for âruining his life,â too.â
Murray rolled his eyes. âOh come on, those two never stood a chance with your broody son standing in the way of that.â
âYeah wellâŚthat broody son of mine isnât making much sense right now,â Joyce shook her head. She sighed, worried. Hopper stroked her back. âI need to talk to him.â
âLoverâs quarrel,â Murray pointed out. âBest let that be up to him and Wheeler.â
âYeahhh, well,â Hopper sighed. âEmotions are high right now. Maybe a little adult intervention would be good for them.â
Murray patted them both on the shoulders, back to his usual self. âWELP! You two have a large time with that. Meanwhile, Iâve got a date with a second drink calling my name.â
***
You watched Steve sleep on top of your chest, thinking about the words heâd spoken to you before dozing off.Â
âWhat about France? Or Switzerland, somewhere with a bunch of acres and nature and a lake nearby or something?â
Youâd smiled at Steveâs question. âHow would we get the Winnebago over there?â
Heâd stared at you for a moment, eyes sparkling as your words landed. A deep grin formed on his face.Â
âYou really liked my little dream on wheels, huh?â
You grinned back. âYeah. Itâs not little. Itâs big.â
He shrugged sweetly. âI mean, itâs not a mansion. Or a house. Itâs a home on wheels. Honestly, a really small home on wheels, butâŚI dunno, I just â wanna travel. With my family. Not leave them behind at some big house while I go off and explore god knows where without âem.â
You played with his fingers, listening to his every word. He wasnât used to this. Having someone who was happy to justâŚlisten to him ramble. Was he even one to ramble at all? Or is that something you just brought out in him?
âI just dream of thisâŚthis little life of sorts,â he continued, speaking to you and also to himself.Â
You smiled at his words. âI think I like this little life.â
Steve could sing at your response. Something about that one sentence after heâd just further divulged into what a bright future looked like in his mind made him feel on top of the world. The lovesick joy in his eyes, and in his heart, made you melt.
 âI only want that little life with you,â he whispered to you, cupping your neck as he bent down to press his forehead to yours. You loved when he did that. Too much, way too much.
You nuzzled your nose to his. Steve loved when you did that. Too much, way too much.
âAnd the nuggets,â you whispered back with the cutest grin. Then, daring to say it â âOur nuggetsâŚâ
Steveâs heart soared at that. OursâŚ
The happy little laugh Steve breathed against you was the prettiest sound in the entire fucking universe. He caught your lips in a kiss, sweet and soft and firm.
âYour heart needs to get its shit together,â he breathed before kissing you again.
âI know, I know,â you breathed back with that playful attitude he had come to love, gliding your lips against his. âSuch a pain in the ass. I know you wanna rail me, Harrington.â
He deepened the kissing, his fingers sliding up from your neck into your hair. âYeah, god forbid I actually just want you to be okay. I only wanna fuck you senseless.â
You sighed into his mouth, clutching his hips with one of your hands and a fistful of his shirt with the other. âYeah, you dirty, filthy assholeâŚâ
He sucked on your tongue, cutting you off. âBe nice, princess.â
The two of you had eventually pulled back, knowing that you needed to wait on Dr. Owenâs to bring you whatever goddamn medicine was supposed to help even out your heart arrhythmia. Steve had moved in your arms to rest his head over your heart, cheek pressed to your chest with your heartbeat in his eardrum. You could feel him shaking. So, you made up a little tune as you felt fatigue taking over you.
âI think I like this little lifeâŚ
This little lifeâŚ
I think I like this little lifeâŚ
This silly little life.â
You could tell it made Steve smile as he held you closer. He murmured something sweet to you about liking the improvised melody, to which you murmured something back about it becoming a hit one day. Steve let your soft spoken singing play in his mind, giving him the sweetest of dreams as your voice trailed off.
And now, you were awake â humming it again. Steve was still fast asleep on your chest, which brought you tremendous relief. You dared to think it might be the only medicine your heart really needed.Â
There was a soft knock at the door. You craned your neck towards the source of the sound, curious. Steve didnât move a bit. He was out. It made you grin. You sighed lightly, planting a soft kiss on top of Steveâs perfect hair. Slowly, gently â you found a way of standing up without waking him. Little did you know, the sleep he found in your arms couldnât be bothered easily. He slept harder with you than he ever had in his life.
You padded over quietly to the door, opening it slowly and only enough to show you. Your uneven heart was flooded with warmth as you stared back at 5 familiar faces.
Dustin, Mike, Lucas, Will and Eleven all stood there. They held random things. Board games, snacks, and pillows with blankets.
âWe are inviting ourselves for a sleepover,â El said.
âA very unexciting one,â Lucas clarified.
âYes, no excitement,â Dustin agreed.
âJust some good ole fashioned card games that donât hit pique anxiety,â Mike added.
âAnnnnd drawing,â Will threw in, lifting his bag. âArt is always therapeutic. Good for the soul. And the heart.â
You felt yourself getting teared up, looking at their faces with pure love and joy. You chuckled wetly, your chest clenching as you so sorely wished that the sixth nugget was awake to add her sarcasm and unwavering love to the mix.
âPlus it really sucks about the mandate coming soon,â Lucas added sadly.
âYeah,â Mike nodded. âBefore we know it, weâll all be cramped downstairs in the basement or out there in the middle of nowhere.â
You gave them a sad smile.
âA not-exciting sleepover sounds like a grand plan,â you nodded with a wink. Then, cocking an eyebrow, âSo Iâm hosting then, huh?â
âYeah, your roomâs bigger than ours,â Dustin said.
âTrue,â you winked. âOrrrr, we could go over to Maxâs room and have her join us?â
All of them nodded excitedly. You smiled, turning back to look at Steve sleeping peacefully in the bed.Â
âGimme a few minutes to wake up mom and tell him that Max needs some attending to first, so that we can successfully host a sleepover in her room.â
They all quietly cheered, carefully moving to set down their array of stuff inside of your room. They caught sight of Steve sleeping, snickering to themselves like they were all 8 years old again. You shook your head at them with the biggest grin on your face, adoring how Lucas and Dustin were just so tickled with Steve being in your room. Will and El were giggling into their palms, with Mike shushing them but snorting himself. That made everyone fight back even worse laughter, and you ushered them out quickly before closing the door behind you. Man, you loved these kids so much.
You went into the bathroom, freshening up a bit and turning on the shower to let some hot steam hit your aching shoulder for a bit.
he sound of Steve murmuring your name made you hold off on that.Â
You walked out, beaming at him as he stared in your direction while sitting up. You were back in his arms in seconds, mumbling into his neck.
âHey, sleepyhead.â
âJesus, how long was I out?â
âA good chunk of hours.â
Steve groaned, pulling you impossibly closer to him â still mindful of your bad shoulder. You giggled in his grasp. His ears perked up, craning his head up towards the bathroom door as he heard the stream of water running.
âHow dare you think of showering without me?â he scoffs incredulously in your arms.
You continued giggling harder as Steve nuzzled his face into your neck, pretending to attack you as he smothered you with groggy affection.Â
âJust needed to relieve my handicap a bit,â you sighed contentedly.
With that, Steve rose to stand. He was scooping you up into his arms before you could blink, carrying you into the bathroom. He lifted your shirt off, then his. As you stripped your pants, be took the hair tie from your wrist and ran his fingers through your locks, tying it up with ease. With a kiss pressed to your neck, he took your hand and escorted you into the hot stream of water. You watched Steve wistfully as he shed his pants and joined you.
As Steve gingerly massaged the soap into your shoulder blade, you remembered you needed to tell him about the plans that had been made for you both that evening.
âBaby?â
He hummed in response, loving when you called him that.
âThe kids have the evening cut out for us tonight,â you started.
Even with your back to him, you knew his eyebrows were raised. âOh yeah? What, am I making some crazy dinner feast out of canned goods now?â
You sniffed a laugh, turning to kiss his jaw. âNo, weâre on for a sleepover in Maxâs room.â
âSâthat so?â he mulled, a grin in his voice.
ââTis so. That, or in here. But I donât know if we can move her. Plus, I really want her to hear us all talking as much as possible.â
He exhaled, a kiss pressed to your shoulder. âAlright well, Iâll need to go ahead and get her taken care of before we all take over the room.â
âSounds good,â you sighed contentedly.
You both finished up, and as you got changed into fresh comfy clothes Steve was eyeing the pile of stuff that the kids had unloaded into your bedroom.
âDamn, they just decided to dump the haul here?â he asked.
You snorted. âYeahhh, they like to make themselves at home here.â
Steve rolled his eyes, but the fondness behind them said it all. He loved it. Â
Noticing you struggle with your shirt, he quickly moved to help you pull it over your bad shoulder carefully.Â
âNeed to get better at asking for help, angel,â he winked at you, pulling your arm carefully through the sleeve.Â
You blushed at that, playfully rolling your eyes. âNoted.â
Steve shook his head as he made sure that your shirt was straight, lost in thought for a moment. âGuess we all wonât be able to hang out up here soon,â he murmured. âOutside of the basement.â
Your heart sank, knowing he was referring to the impending doom that loomed around the corner with the whole mandate going into effect next week. âYeah,â you mused. âMight as well make the most of tonight with them before we have to go back to doomsday mode.â
He nodded sadly, planting a kiss to your hair before grabbing your discarded clothes along with his to start a fresh load of laundry.Â
âIâm gonna go start a load,â he said. âCheck with Hopper on when Dr. Owenâs is getting back here with your meds.â
You sighed. âYeah, thoseâŚâ
Steve looked at you solemnly. âHey.â
You gnawed at your lip, looking up at him.
âYou will be okay,â he told you. His tone was firm yet soft. Confident, despite the worried undertone laced around his voice.
You gave him a light smile and nod.Â
âIâm serious, Bauman,â Steve continued, his brown eyes boring into yours. âWeâre getting you on these meds and if they donât work, then weâŚdo the next thing that does.â
You knew he was stressed. Too stressed. You hated seeing just how fearful heâd been when he lost you before, and how much the fear of losing you again was eating away at him. Of course, Steve being Steve, he now insisted it would be fine. Heâd broken down in front of you when it all happened, unable to stop it. Normally, heâd never let that happen. But given the dark reality of things, and just how much everything else had caught up to him, he wasnât able to be his usual positive, nonchalant self with you over the last 24 hours.
With a mischievous look in your eye, you patted your chest. You gave it a little knocking rhythm, beatboxing under your breath so that heâd laugh. After a moment of Steve glaring at you, the corner of his lips finally twitched up into a grin. He tried to hide it, but youâd already seen it before he could turn away.
âDonât worry, Harrington,â you told him. âIâm not even close to being done bothering you.â
He turned to look back at you longingly, a smile ghosting behind the way he bit his lip. He nodded.Â
âDonât think that ever really had an expiration date, did it?â he asks, teasing you in his husky voice that you loved whenever he was getting coy with you.
You smirked. âNever.â
He took a moment to soak you in with his eyes. âGood,â he said. âIâm keeping it that way.â
You knew what he meant. Donât you dare fucking leave me again.Â
And you had every intention of keeping your word. Iâm here as long as youâll have me.
Steve intended to keep you forever.
âNow,â you said, moving towards him. âLetâs go have a big ole sleepover with these six nuggets so that we can stop the end of the world and have another six later on down the road, yeah?â
Steve glowed. He stuttered a bit, unable to breathe. âY-you really want that? S-six of âemâŚ?â
You shook your head, smiling up at him as you stood toe to toe. âHell yeah, I want that.â
You kissed his jaw. Then, moving to scoop up a bag of the kids snacks â âThatâs more buckets of Halloween candy for us down the line.â
Steve smiled and blushed unabashedly, shaking his head with the happiest eye roll youâd ever seen.Â
âSo weâre gonna be that family, huh?â he asked, moving to grab a sour gummy from the bag youâd just opened.
âWe will win every costume contest, Harrington,â you said seriously, that signature dry humor of yours coursing through your Bauman blood at full speed. âIâm very competitive. Don't worry, the kids will be too busy having a great time to know that their mom is secretly a little psycho.â
Steve tugged at the gummy worm between his teeth with the most mischievous, flirty glint in his eye. You could smell his perfect skin mixed with the scent of the raspberry candy. âAhh, so you are mom. Thought I was mom.â
You leaned up on your toes, inching your lips towards his where he still dangled the gummy worm. âIn this era? Youâre mom. Iâm dad. Next one, Iâll be Mommy.â
You bit at the end of the gummy worm, going full lady and the tramp with it like a loose spaghetti noodle. Steveâs lips and teeth stretched into a wide grin, eyes swimming in sex and lust as they looked down at you. You both bit and sucked the gummy worm till your teeth and tongues met. In the lowest, sexiest of husky tones, Steve told youâŚ
âWell in this one? Iâm daddy.âÂ
His tongue lapped your mouth, tasting like sugar sweet candy. âYour daddy.â
Before you could completely dissolve into a hot mess of a puddle, familiar voices from the other side of the door sounded off.
âEEEEWWWWWWW!!!!!!â
âSTEEEEEEVE!â
âOh my god oh my god oh my god oh my god ââ
The sound of all your kids gagging and losing their shit were making for an orchestra of triggered teens, and you both jumped at the noise. After gasping, Steve threw his head back and huffed incredulously.
âSeriously??â he snapped.Â
You buried your face in your hands, unable to keep yourself from laughing in pure humiliation â but also in adoration.
âYou shitheads are listening in, seriously â Jesus.âÂ
Steve huffed and puffed, but it was clear as day he loved it. You did, too. He moved to open it while you stood back, snickering into your palms with flaming hot flushed cheeks.
âHello,â he said, voice flat.
âYouâre disgusting,â Dustin scoffed.
âAnd youâre an eavesdropping ass hat.â
âWhy do you smell like gummy worms?â Mike asked suspiciously.
âBecause you left them in my room, Wheeler,â Steve said wryly.
âYeah, for tonight!!! For all of us!â Lucas scolded.
âWell Sinclair? Maybe donât leave your candy unattended in my room.â
âItâs Baumanâs room!â Mike said.
Steve opened his mouth, then shut it. âRight yeah, well. My house, but yeah.â
âLord, I canât unhear this,â Will grimaced, but even he was grinning.
âYou werenât supposed to hear it at all,â Steve pointed out defensively.
âIf youâre gonna fuck around, youâre gonna find out.â
Eddieâs sing-songy voice was new to the mix as he walked past them all, carrying a bunch of things as he made his way downstairs. âHowdy folks, donât mind me.â
Steve snapped his fingers, pointing at him as he looked back at his kids. âThat. What he said.â
El looked at everyone curiously. âWhat does being daddy mean if Steve is that for Bauman ââ
Everyone cut her off with sounds of disdain.
âNoooope! Nope, nope nope nope.â
âNothing, absolutely nothing.â
âLa la la la la la la la not talking about this la la la la.â
âAlright, enough,â Mama Steve silenced the kiddos. âMove along.â
âNo, weâve been waiting for 30 minutes,â Mike griped.
âItâs okay,â came your voice as you emerged from the room, standing next to Steve. âWhy donât you kids come on inside while Steve gets Maxâs room ready?â
They all took you up on that offer, shuffling past you both and making their way inside. Steve shook his head as you grinned, pinching his side.
âDonât worry, theyâll be grown up and outta the house before you know it.â
You winked at him before making your way into the room with them. Steve watched you fondly, hands on his hips in true Mom Steve Harrington fashion. He had that signature sexy-sassy look on his face that everyone had come to love over the years â you especially. Despite being annoyed, Steve felt his heart fill to the brim as he watched the kids scatter the bags of candy and show you the card game selections. You were hugging El closely while Dustin pointed out that he had plenty more candy hidden in his backpack. Will was telling you about his newest art collection ideas, and you excitedly listened to him while Mike and Lucas bickered about which games were better for everyone.
âSteve, youâre joining us, right?â Dustin asked.
Steve scrunched his face in confusion, doubling back with his shoulders. âYeah, wasnât that already happening?â
Dustin shrugged. âJust making sure youâre not gonna be lame.â
Steve shook his head. You looked over at him as you smiled.
âFâcourse heâs joining,â you winked. âItâs not a party without mom.â
Steve narrowed his eyes at you playfully, making your shoulders shake with a chuckle.Â
He felt more at home in his own house than he ever had in 19 years.Â
__________________________
Jonathan watched Steve make his way into Maxâs room, knee bouncing.
He was seated in the living room, next to Joyce. Sheâd cornered him earlier, after watching Nancy move to sit on the porch alone and stare at nothing as she sat on the steps. Robin had moved to join her eventually, giving her company and offering to lend an ear.
That sprang Joyce into action, and she found Jonathan standing outside of Argyleâs room with Will. Sheâd found them both talking, happy to see her boys were in deep conversation and bonding. She could tell theyâd been doing that for a little while now, and when they both looked up at her the three Byers all shared warm, solemn smiles. The boys looked a bit sheepish. Mostly the oldest.
Jonathan knew his mom wasnât gonna let him off the hook. And if he was being honest, a good honest talk with his mother about something not having to do with the upside down was something heâd needed for a long time.
So they talked. Joyce listened while Jonathan spoke, and he listened while she responded. It was the perfect blend of expressed empathy, disappointment and motherly advice shared on her end. He admitted to the fight with Steve in the alleyway, back when Will was missing. And he admitted to making a move on Nancy while she was still in a relationship with Steve. She brought up Murray telling her about him getting drunk at the Hendersonâs house, 2 years backâŚand he shamefully ducked his head as he wrung his hands. But Joyce just rubbed his back, reminding him she wasnât here to berate him and only to talk through things the way they always have: as mother and son.
âYou know, JonathanâŚâ Joyce spoke softly, her heart heavy. âI donât think I ever really thanked you for everything that you did in helping me find Will.â
Jonathan did a double take, brow furrowed. âWhatâre you talking about, of course you did ââ
âNo,â Joyce shook her head. âNo, we talked about it, sure. I verbally thanked you.â
âMany times, mom,â Jonathan assured her.
âJust listen,â she cut him off gently, clutching his hand. âI lost a sonâŚbut youâd lost a brother. We both lost him. Twice. God, twice⌠and each time was a brand new hell. We didnât even have time to process the first round.â
Jonathan chuckled darkly. âWould we ever have processed that? I mean reallyâŚâ
Joyce grinned at that. âPsh, yeah. Doubt it.â Looking back at him with a softened expression, she continued. âPoint isâŚin the midst of all that stress, and searching, and worryingâŚyou were still going through so much. Not just with Will missingâŚbut everything else, too.â
Jonathan listened to his mother as she looked deeply into his eyes, clutching both his hands. She went on to tell her eldest son every validating thing a mother could tell her child. She recounted every single thing that Jonathan had been dealing with outside of Will going missing, and it hurt her to relive it all just as much as it hurt Jonathan to hear it all over again. When Joyce got to the part where sheâd had to make them all move, Jonathanâs eyes watered up.Â
âYou and Nancy were just beginning to dive into things deeply,â she was saying. âReally, youâd both gone through so much together and finally you both got to justâŚstart being a couple, and then it all went wrong again, so that â that forced you both back into the upside down bullshitâŚâ
âMom,â Jonathan said, a bit shocked.
âIâm serious,â Joyce said back, eyes fierce and full of love. âJonathan, youâve had to be an adult since you were just a kid. Since you were Willâs age. And then you finally get into a relationship with a beautiful girl, and immediately youâre thrown into war. Not even able to enjoy your teens going into adulthood. Even Nancy, sheâŚsheâs been through so much with you. And nowâŚâ
Joyceâs voice trailed off. She sighed, exasperated with herself. She re-centered, turning back to her son.
âI love you,â she told him, eyes full of love. âSo much, you just donât know. You are justâŚa good person. And the fact you feel overcome with guilt as though youâre not ââ
âI havenât been a good person, mom,â Jonathan murmured, voice wobbly.
âJonathan,â Joyce whispered, squeezing his hands. âJust because youâve not acted right in certain waysâŚthat does not make you a bad person. Do you understand that? Because if not â then whoeverâs telling you thatâŚwhether itâs someone you love, or a stranger, or yourselfâŚstop listening. Seek within. Listen to your heart, because itâs never going to steer you wrong. And no, thatâs not just some dumb cliche saying, itâs true. Your mind will confuse you, and your soul will get shaken. But your heart? It will always lead you back.â
Jonathanâs lip trembled, and Joyce held him tight as he shook him her arms. He clung to his mother, overwhelmed.
âIâm afraid Iâll never say enough, mom,â he wept into her shoulder. âTo Steve, or to Nancy⌠Iâm actually more sure about what I need to say to him instead of her.â
Joyce chuckled early, squeezing him tighter. âAw, baby⌠Donât overthink. Say whatever is going to give your heart peace. Youâll regret anything you never said far more than anything that you did.â
***
âTrust me kid, Iâm in the doghouse now for the hell I raised on the phone with him.â
Hopper stood in front of Steve, along with Murray. Theyâd just spoken with Dr. Owens on the phone, whoâd told Murray that he wouldnât be able to bring them the medication until tomorrow morning. Murray had managed to remain calmer than Hopper, to both their surprise. Now, they stood in the kitchen with Steve â filling him in.
Steve took a deep breath through his nose, exhaling just as deeply out his mouth like a puff of air heâd been holding while running a hand through his hair. Murray looked at him with a somber, empathic expression.Â
âDoesnât mean Iâm not just as furious about it,â Murray pointed out. âBut given the wholeâŚhaving a target on his back thingâŚIâm trying to have some sort of grace about it, mostly for her sake. And yours.â
That made Steve look over at him gratefully. He couldnât imagine the stress your uncle was experiencing, knowing your heart â literally â was on the line.
âSays heâll be here with it as early as he can be,â Murray added. âJust keep doing what youâre already doing. Which is the most.â His lips turned upwards at one of the corners. âThe most, and then some.â
Steve allowed himself to give your uncle a sad smile back, appreciating being seen by him. Heâs all that you had as far as family goes. With a nod, Steve let that news settle into his brain. He reached out to shake Murrayâs hand, who shook it back firmly and dared to pat his shoulder. Physical affection was so not his thing. But heâd make an effort for the guy his niece was in love with, and who not only saved her life â but was still doing everything he could to keep it intact.Â
âKids sleepover, huh?â
Hopper changed the subject, grinning at Harrington â who chuckled lightly.
âYou guys know about this?â
Hopper shrugged. âWe mightâve told them to allow themselves some fun for one night, before we all go into lockdownâŚâ His expression turned grim, a thought pushing its way to the forefront of his brain. âAnd whatever plan needs to go into action.â
Steve knew what he meant. Getting back out there. He swallowed hard, giving him a quick nod. No one was ready for this. But were they ever really âreadyâ for any of this?
Murray and Hopper told Steve to not give any thought whatsoever to anything relating to doomsday until the next morning. They insisted that they just take the focus on laughing and soaking up the night with you and the kids. Steve was surprised at how certain they both were about it, but despite it being out of character for them in an endearing wayâŚit scared him. It meant that they knew just how much everyone here was at risk. It made a sharp chill run up Steveâs spine.
Eventually, Steve had made his way up to Maxâs room. He was sorting through it, making room for you all to camp out there. El had already turned her little cot bed into a floor couch of sorts, which made Steve grin.Â
He talked to Max out loud as he checked her vitals. Lucas already had, along with Joyce and Hopper. Still, he always wanted to make sure.Â
âNot sure if this is gonna be one of those nights where Iâve gotta make Dustin cut the attitude during games,â Steve was telling her with a smirk as he straightened her pillows. âHonestly, itâs probably an excuse for Mike and El to be able to cuddle at night. So Iâll likely be chaperoning the entire night. Good thing I got mad good sleep with Bauman today.â
Steve moved to close the curtains, watching the sun begin to set behind the trees in the distance. It looked dull, given all the debris and toxic air.
âYou know whatâs crazy?â he asked her. âEver since I started sleeping with her â like actually sleeping, head outta the gutter Max â itâsâŚI havenât had a single nightmare. I always have those.â
He moved to discard some of the kidsâ loose candy wrapped and one of Dustinâs empty pudding containers, glancing over at her sleeping form.
âSeriously, itâs weird. Itâs like she justâŚmakes them all disappear.â Steve scoffed a laugh at that. âWhoâd have thought⌠Sheâs been a nightmare to me, and now I canâtâŚcanât even stand to think back on the times I never saw her like I do now.â
Steve looked around the room, seeing it was good for the night. It would be a tight squeeze â but having shuffled Maxâs bed over enough so that they all had room to play games and draw on the floor with snacks, it would do. He sighed, taking a second to sit on the edge of the bed near her feet.
âMaybe this is a good thing,â he murmured. âTonight. Hearing all our voices at once. Arguing and bickering and laughing the way you all do together.âÂ
Steve poked her knee. âThink thatâll kick start you again, red? Wake you back up so that you can give us all shit?â
Her silence isnât as long as he expects it to be whenever he hears a knock. Steve looks over to the open doorway, finding Jonathan standing there. He looksâŚwary. Rough, and timid. Standing awkwardly with his hands buried deeply in his pockets, he shoots Steve a very quick, uncomfortable right-lipped grin.
âHey.â
Steve blinks. âHey.â
Jonathan rocks on his feet for a moment. Finally, he clears his throat. âCan I come in?â
Steve blinks again, but eventually nods. âYeah. Yeah, sure, yeah.â
Jonathan moves to lean against the wall, next to the doorway. Steve would laugh at the fact that this is Byersâ way of âcoming in,â if it werenât for the fact that he was so clearly nervous about something. Steve had a few guesses as to why he was here. He knew this had been coming, and he wishes heâd been the one to initiate it. Because they really needed to talk.
Theyâd needed to talk for 3 years.
âLook, Byers,â Steve started after waiting for what felt like a century for Jonathan to say something. âI owe you an apologyâŚâ
âNo,â Jonathan cut him off.Â
It made Steve look at him in surprise. But Jonathan continued before he could say anything else.
âNo, itâs me who owes you an apology.â
Steve stared. ââŚwhat?â
Jonathan sighed, scratching his neck and praying the words could find him as he finally dove into what he needed to let off his chest.
âLook Iâm not good at this,â Jonathan said. âTalking, I mean. You know Iâm weird.âÂ
He gnawed at his lip, pensive and twitchy. He looked down at his feet a lot, feeling tense under Harringtonâs gaze. But he sucked in a deep breath, going for it.Â
âBack in 1982, you had every right to break my camera.â
Steve froze. âNo, I didnât.â
âYeah. Yeah you did. I shouldnât have been spying on you guys like that. âCause even though I was looking for my brother, itâŚit turned into me justâŚfollowing the sound of you all partying and watching from afar. So I mean, technicallyâŚâ Jonathan chuckled under his breath darkly. âTechnically, I was being a stalker.â
He looked up at Steve finally, finding him looking at him in pure shock.Â
âYou were dating Nancy,â Jonathan continued. âAnd I tookâŚreally inappropriate pictures of her. In a moment when you both were havingâŚor well, thought you were having a private moment together. That wasnât alright. And ifâŚif someone had done that to me and my girlfriend, I wouldâveâŚprobably done the same thing. And honestly, you getting mad at me in the alleyway that morning ââ
âDude, no,â Steve shook his head. âDonât take the blame for that. That was all me. It was shitty, what I did to Nancy. And what I said to you.â
âYeah it was, but you found me in your girlfriendâs room, Steve,â Jonathan told him. âI was in there with her, in her bed, sleeping next to her when she told you that she was with her family. It lookedâŚfucked up.â
Steve was just staring again. How in the hell was this happening right now? And why had he himself never made it happen sooner?
âSo you chewed me out,â Jonathan shrugged. âAnd no, you shouldnât have publicly humiliated Nancy like that at allâŚâ
âI kick myself for it every day,â Steve murmured. âTrust meâŚâ
âI know,â Jonathan told him, voice softer. âI know that now. IâveâŚknown you have for a long time. Nancy told me. I know you apologized over and over.â He took a moment, going back. âBut what you said to me was justâŚyour way of saying fuck you. You felt used, tricked and stupid. After youâd protected Nancy from a guy whoâd proven himself to be a creepy stalker, and it looked like she slept with him. So you lashed out. Like any teen guy would.â
âI called you a queer,â Steve says incredulously, cringing at the memory. âI even went as far as saying you were the reason for Will going missing, along with your mom. It was low, Jonathan. What I said and did was just â flat out low. No excuses. None. Iâm the one in the wrong.â
âSteve, we both were.â
Jonathanâs voice finally finds confidence. It makes Steve look at him in another light, as if heâs truly seeing Byers for the strong-willed young man that he is. It occurs to him now that maybe Jonathan has been going through some soul searching of his own, just as he had over the last few years. Clearly, he still was. Both of them were.
âWe were barely 17 years old, and stupid,â Jonathan kept going. âWe â we didnât know how the hell to deal with anything. Much less a missing kid, or a guy related to that kid whoâd taken creepy photos. We both were idiots.â
Steve let that land. And it actually made him laugh, sheepishly.Â
âYeah,â he nodded slowly, scratching his neck. âYeah, I guess we were.â
Jonathan laughed too. It was still tense, a bit awkward. But it was becoming lighter. For both of them.
âShit, Byers,â Steve shook his head. âHave we both been feeling awful about this for years and just⌠not saying something about it until now?â
Jonathan sighed. âSounds like it.â
They were both quiet for a moment, letting this newfound revelation settle into existence.
âThanks for the new camera, by the way,â Jonathan added. âI know that was you.â
Steve looked back up at him, finding kindness and sincere gratitude in Jonathanâs eyes. It made him feel shy. Worse, yet better at the same time.
âLeast I could do,â Steve shrugged.
Jonathan sniffed a laugh, shaking his head. âYeah, well⌠You didnât take the credit for it. You let Nancy do that.â
Jonathan pursed his lips, brow pinching as he shifted against the wall and stared down at his feet again. Steve waited as he watched him curiously.
âYou extended way more kindness to me than I did you,â Jonathan said softly. So softly, it made Steve wonder if it was actually what he said.
âI shouldnât have pined after Nancy,â Jonathan said. âI shouldâve asked her out. Like actually asked her out, while she was single again. Before you two got back together.â
Steve felt his stomach jump. This wasâŚa lot. So much was being covered right now in this conversation.
âBut instead, I just sulked and pretended I still wasnât in her thoughts at all. Even though I knew thatâŚthat she liked me. But I also knew that she liked you. So I just⌠I convinced myself it wasnât ever gonna happen. Because that was safer. And hating you made it easier to do that.â
Jonathan looked ashamed of everything that he was saying now, but certain about it. Steve just listened, not daring to interrupt him.
âI might not have cheated with Nancy the first time you both datedâŚbut I did the second time. And thatâs not⌠thatâs not right.â Jonathan sighed, taking a breath. âBut I was a coward. Maybe not when it came to the upside down and finding Will, but up here? In regular real life? I am. Iâm a coward. I donât say whatever it is that Iâm actually feeling or thinking, or wanna say. I justâŚwait for circumstances to make it happen for me. You donât do that. You justâŚgo for it.â
Steve scoffed. âTrust me, IâmâŚIâve been a coward for years. In many ways, many times, for many reasons.â
âYeah, wellâŚyou still didnât steal someone elseâs girlfriend instead of actually making a move. And Iâm reallyâŚreally sorry about that, Steve. Iâm sorry I swooped in like that, and thenâŚdrunkenly bragged about it to Bauman Squared while you were in earshot. It made you take it out on her, when she didnât deserve that. I did. All she did was call me out on it with Murray. They both had no idea it would turn into this.â
That made Steve squirm. He thought about how heâd been pining after Nancy still, even when she was with Jonathan. He took a deep breath, knowing he needed to let that off his chest too.
âLook,â Steve started warily. âHonestly, I really appreciate everything youâre saying. And really â apology accepted. Completely.â
Jonathan could tell that Steve meant it, and he visibly relaxed some once he let that settle into his bones. He released a breath of air that he hadnât even realized he had been holding.
Meanwhile, Steve was holding his own.
âAnd youâre right,â Steve continued. âWhat I did to Bauman? Taking it out on her like that wasâŚwell it was projection. Cowardly projection. Instead of taking it out on you and Nancy, I took it out on someone else. Because that was easier. Because it meant that I still got to be the unsung hero in Nancyâs life, and a bigger person than you.â
Jonathan stared at him now, surprised to hear this. He wasnât expecting his confessed guilt to lead to Steve admitting guilt of his own.
âIâll probably be telling Bauman Iâm sorry for as long as I live,â Steve continued, voice solemn. Honestly I feelâŚshitty beyond belief, knowing that I couldâve been kinder to her all this timeâŚmaybe even spared myself way more heartbreak...if Iâd just gotten mad at you guys instead of her. Because then, I mightâve gotten close with her and discovered feelings for her before this all went down.â
âMaybe,â Jonathan pondered, nodding. âThen again⌠I donât think youâd have fallen for her nearly as hard if it hadnât been for you giving her shit for it.â
They both awkwardly chuckle at that. But it makes them both sad to think about it. How youâd taken the brunt of it all.
âFuck, she didnât deserve that,â Jonathan huffs. âAnd Iâm â Iâm the one who caused it.â
âNo,â Steve shook his head, eyes sad and dark as they swam in regret. âNo, that was all me. I was an asshole. And truthfully, I was still so hung up on Nance that I didnât know how to even remotely look at another girl. Let alone one I convinced myself was responsible for taking that away from me, knowing damn well that it wasnât. Nance wanted you, and you wanted her. Plain and simple.â
Jonathan looked ashamed all over again, but Steve held up a hand.Â
âTrust me,â Steve assured him. âShe wasnât mine to keep. I get that now.â
Jonathan slowly smiled at that. âYou love her, donât you?â
Steve knew who he meant. You.Â
âYeah,â Steve whispered. âYeah, IâŚdonât even know what to do with it.â
Steve stared into thin air, lost in thought. Jonathan didnât push him, just watching him and waiting for him to go on.
âI justâŚlook back on it all and wonder how. How did I not see her in high school, orâŚsee during the summer of â84 that she was clearly perfect?â
âIt takes time,â Jonathan said softly. âShit doesnât always hit you right away. I know that better than youâd think.â
Steve pursed his lips. âYeah. Yeah no, youâre not wrong. I just⌠I dunno. I guess Iâm justâŚâ
He took a deep breath, knowing he needed to get this over with.
âI was still hung up on Nance while you were in California,â he continued, making eye contact with Jonathan again. âSo much so thatâŚI told her I was. And IâdâŚhoped to get her back. I wanted to steal her back from you.â
Jonathan sighed, giving him a small smile.
âI know,â he said. âShe told me.â
Steve stared. Oh.
âBelieve it or not,â Jonathan continued. âIâm notâŚmad about that at all.â
Steve blinked. ââŚwhyâŚ?â
Jonathan chuckled. âSteve, I actually stole your girlfriend. I had it coming.â
After several more blinks, Steve coughed out a laugh. Was he serious? As Jonathan laughed with him, he realized that he truly meant it. He wasnât mad.
âSorry man, but I won that round,â Jonathan chuckled.
âFair,â Steve chuckled back. âGood game, man.â
Jonathan nodded awkwardly, shuffling his feet. âYeahhh, good gameâŚâ
They took a few moments of silence, letting the tension wear off some more. It wasâŚnice. This weird sort of talk was nice.
âI guess what Iâm trying to say is,â Steve continued. âIâm sorry, too. For going after Nance again, and not just⌠facing you both sooner.â
âS'alright,â Jonathan told him. âIâve honestly been a really shitty boyfriend these last several months.â
Steveâs brow furrowed in confusion.
âLong story,â Jonathan waved a hand. âThatâs my own wrong that I gotta make right with Nancy.â
Steve contemplated that. Had whatever was going south between Jonathan and Nancy, unbeknownst to him, been the reason sheâd seemed to be interested in him again? Or was that just the tipping point for her, and her buried lingering feelings for Steve?
Regardless, it didnât matter now. Steve was so in love with you, he couldnât see straight. But it did make him wonder.
âAnd honestly, I donât blame you,â Jonathan said, smiling. âNancy, sheâsâŚperfect.â
Steve smiled at him. âSheâs pretty wonderful,â Steve agreed. âIâll always adore her. ButâŚâ
ââŚbut you found your person,â Jonathan finished for him. âYour âperfectâ person.â
Steve grinned. âYeah. She makes everything make sense for me, and I justâŚgod, I love her.â
Jonathan nodded, still smiling. âI know how you feel.â
Steve fiddled his thumbs in his lap, staring down at them and feeling his stomach knot up. There was another thing he needed to own up toâŚ
âJonathan, what I said to youâŚâ Steve murmured, eyes still downcast. âYesterday, back at the fenceâŚwhen BaumanâŚâ Steve winced, skipping that part. â...it wasnât at all ââ
âI deserved it.â
âOkay, youâve got to stop doing that, will you let me feel bad for at least one thing Iâm saying?â
âNo, and especially not this one.â
Steve sighed, perplexed. ââŚand why is that?â
âBecause I deserved it.â
Jonathan watched as Steve just gaped at him, biting back amusement. He let the sincerity of the serious topic ground him again.
âYou all searched and fought relentlessly for me and my mom when this all started,â Jonathan went on to say.
â...I so did not do anything from the start.â
âMaybe you donât think you did? But you did.â
ââŚI so did not.â
âYou got there. And besidesâŚlike we both said earlierâŚlots of misdirected projection. And lots of long overdue confrontation. On both our parts.â
Steve couldnât argue that. Byers was right, at least in this case.
âYou were still mad at me,â Jonathan continued, âand I was just mad at myself but convinced that everything and everyone else â you included â were the problem. Not me.â
Jonathan gnawed at his lip for several moments, clearing his throat. âYou basically unleashed years of deeply buried resentment onto me in one foul swoop. I gotta say, your wordsâŚshit hit me hard.â
Steve frowned, ducking his head a bit. âI honestly donât even remember some of it. I justâŚsaw red.â
Jonathan snorted. âBlind rage will do that. Shit, I donât even remember swinging on you back in â82. Apparently, I did a pretty nasty job.â
âI was positive youâd done permanent damage to my nose.â
âYeah, and then you took an even worse beating from that Hargrove kid and the Russians,â Jonathan said, nose scrunched with a laugh. Steve laughed, too. They had to laugh about it all at this point.
âChrist, man,â Steve groaned. âItâs a wonder my face isnât the prime subject for plastic surgeryâŚâ
Jonathan shrugged. âAnd you wonder why we all hate you so much. Youâve gotten your ass beat so many times, and still look good.â
Steve smirked. âThanks.â
Jonathan winked. âIâm sure Bauman Squared digs it. All the battle wounds.â
That actually made Steve blush. âPsh. Compared to the fall she took? My experiences look like a walk in the park.â
âSo Dr. Owens is bringing her meds tomorrow, yeah?â Jonathan asked, brow pinched with worry.
Steve sighed, raking a hand through his hair before crouching over his knees, elbows pressing into them. âYeah. Yeah, that canât come soon enough.â
Jonathan looked at Steve with a somber expression. He hated that he was going through this. Seriously, when was Harrington going to catch a damn break?
âSheâll be alright, man,â Jonathan told him kindly. âSheâs got you. Got all of us.â
Steve nodded. âYeah, sheâs gonna have to be. Iâll lose my goddamn mind if she â yeah, she has to be.â
âShe will,â Jonathan nodded, speaking firmly. Assuringly. âSheâs not going anywhere.â
Steve bit his lip, staring at his hands. Â
Jonathan shuffled his feet, feeling shy again before asking⌠âSo heyâŚare we cool? Like actually really, finally cool?â
Steve looked up at that, eyes shining with relief and kindness. He stood up, extending a hand out for a firm handshake. âYeah man. Weâre cool. For good.â
Jonathan felt relief wash over him entirely as he shook Steveâs hand, pulling him in for a tight hug. And Steve felt like he had just made so much peace with his old self in a multitude of ways, over one honest conversation with Byers. While he wished it had happened sooner, he realizedâŚmaybe if it had, it wouldnât have led to this. This true sense of peace that came with newfound mature understanding that both of them had grown into individually.
Byers and Harrington could be friends now. They both had peace to find with Nancy Wheeler, but if they were being brutally honest with themselves â that wasnât going to be possible until the two of them had hashed it out, once and for all. And now that they had, Steve could let Nancy know that he had finally moved onâŚonce and for all...and so could she.
And Jonathan could go make things right with her â whether that led to them deciding to take time apart, or getting his girl back.
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