Six ways to Sunday (PART TWO OF TWO): Marc Spector x fem!reader🌙
PART ONE IS HERE
Summary: It was only ever meant to be a one time thing. Just a one night stand. A casual Tinder hook-up with no strings and even fewer feelings. Clearly, you had both decided that once wouldn’t be enough; but you’re still not sure you’re on the same page about what qualifies as too much.
Rating: EXPLICIT. This is 18+ ONLY. Minors DNI. By clicking to read more, you’re agreeing you’re over the age of 18, have read the warnings, and you’re prepared to read adult themes.
Genre: hurt/comfort, smut, light angst, some fluff and silliness.
Characters: Marc focussed, cameos from Steven, fem!reader.
Word count: 12k. I know, I’m a mess, okay?
Author’s note: I’ll keep this brief (unlike the fic), and say two things. 1) I wrote 21k for something I intended to be a one-shot. No, I don’t know why I’m like this. But I needed it out of my brain so here we are. 2) I didn’t mean for the smut to go in that direction, but the thigh was right there, so if anything it was a purely logistical decision, don’t look at me. If anyone makes it through this, thank you, and I hope you enjoy it 🧡
Warnings: explicit smut (eventually), masturbation, porn watching, dick pics, blow job, handjob, thigh-riding, cum swallow, cum play / kink, daddy kink (brief) / bratty reader; pain kink if you squint; p in v mentions, oral mentions, fingering mentions. Hook-up / casual sex partner situation. Marc being emotionally witholding and keeping secrets. Injuries and blood (not graphic), wound care. Alcohol consumption.
GIF by the wonderful @damerondjarin 🧡
How do you get yourself into these situations? You have to wonder, as you watch the dark streets of London slipping by the window of your Uber.
The contrasts and subtleties of your urban playground are extreme. The shadows shift along with each neighbourhood you pass, stark variations in architecture, vibe, affluence. Each building and each street a pleasingly different character. You love that about London - always have. How it always felt to you like a series of different identities, coalescing into one huge, vibrant city system.
You sigh out a terse breath as you take in the different facades and faces of the buildings which sluice by the rain-mottled glass pane. Lit windows with a glow of home, and sketchy, hidden corners alike - all bandaged up safely in the dark.
The city looks safe while it sleeps, but you know there are an array of secrets hiding in the shadows. You can’t help but see the mirror to your own situation. Indeed, the shadows are the only place you ever meet Marc, and you know not whether it is his comfort or cover. Your security, or your threat. You know not whether his eyes could ever be lit for you; with a bright glow of home. Or, instead, whether his shadows will be your downfall, secreting you away from streets you know and taking you into unfamiliar territory. Making you feel so entirely lost.
You clench your fists, nails digging crescents into your palm. A sea of nausea rolls in the pit of you as the car slows to a drag, along one street in particular.
“Is it roundabout here somewhere, or what, sweetheart?”
Maybe. You consult your phone. “Yeah. Anywhere here will be fine.”
Will it? Will it all be fine?
The car jolts to a stop, and as soon as you have thanked the driver and stepped out, he is gone.
The street is dark and deserted. Nothing much to report aside from an urban fox digging through a tipped over bin. It’s all battened-down shop shutters and closed curtains. You look for signs of life, and you see an attic room at the top of the tall, narrow building directly before you. It is lit with an oranged light, cutting through the night sky and towering above you like the beacon of a lighthouse.
What danger lies ahead that it warns you of, you wonder? Is it the glow of a safe harbour, or are you about to be dashed upon the rocks?
There’s no way of knowing.
How do you get yourself into these situations?
You take a deep, lung-expanding breath - for courage - and you push on the front door to the building, finding it already ajar. Your instincts scream at you to turn around. Now. Your head tells you to… but your heart? Well, your heart is undecided.
All you know -all you’ve been told- is that Marc needs you. Not someone. Not something. He needs you.
Something’s wrong, and, if that’s the case, you don’t intend to let him down. Even if you can’t be sure whether he would do the same for you.
Twenty minutes earlier
Blissfully, you have the evening all to yourself. Your roommate has been spending an increasing amount of time over at her boyfriend’s, and tonight is one such occasion. And so, to celebrate your solitude, you’ve poured yourself a nice glass of red wine. You’ve ordered in from your most beloved local eatery. For now, you have your favourite trashy show on the big TV in the living room, and for later, a very steamy date planned. With your vibrator, that is.
That’s right. No sign of Marc. Not for weeks now.
You try desperately not to contrast your situation with your roommate’s, as she spends time with her hunk of a man, and you binge watch a whole series of The Ultimatum. You try not to think about the fact you are nothing more than a booty call for a man who is – to say the least - giving you seriously dodgy vibes. You wonder idly, how do you get yourself into these situations? And, importantly, should you give more thought towards how to get yourself out of them, instead of stubbornly doubling down?
Of course, you mean Marc. Your latest bad decision.
However, you very quickly toss that thought. You’re getting plenty of orgasms out of your latest bad decision, so, on balance, you consider that things could be a lot worse, actually.
Still, just as you tried to block out thoughts of your roommate and her altogether smug coupling, you try desperately not to think of Marc. Unfortunately though, before you’re even halfway through your takeaway you already have your hand down your pyjama bottoms and his name on the tip of your tongue, so that ambitions not going super well. You even open up your browser, about to search for some variation on alleyway porn – so help you - hoping to relieve the desperate ache between your legs.
Maybe you’ll even send him a picture. Maybe he’ll like that. Or, maybe, as is often the case, he won’t reply to you for weeks and you’ll be both pissed off and disheartened, dealing once again with your rather pronounced post-dick-haze.
Anyway, you digress. Basically, you’re thinking about Marc. Marc and his strong hands and his… oh god, all of him. All of him in you and on you and around you. All of him, and your fingers are massaging your clit and the porn you found is shitty but you think you can get there anyway and unnngggg, maybe you should send him a picture, because you’re getting wet and you know how much he’d like that. Sure - sometimes he doesn’t reply for days or even weeks at a time; but other times? Well, at other times, he doesn’t seem able to resist you.
God, you think as you idly glide a finger through your folds, trying not to focus on the fact you’re not able to pleasure yourself half as well as he does. You really don’t want to be this hung up on him, based on little more than the power of his dick.
And yet…
You slip a finger inside of yourself.
You’ve Googled all of his potential sins to see if you can find something to pin on him and you can’t find him guilty of anything. Shocking as it is for someone who has been known to (consensually) spit in your mouth and has a list of secrets as long as his (rather sizeable) dick, there are surprisingly few red flags. He told you plainly, upfront, this would be a no strings situation, and that’s exactly what it has proven to be. If anything, instead of feeling resentful towards him, you should be lauding him - for managing to consistently tell you the truth and get you off with equal fervour. In fact, the more you think about it, he’s quite the catch, actually.
Though – and there’s the rub - that’s the problem, isn’t it?
You can’t quite “catch” him.
Oh well. You pick up the pace and pressure of your ministrations below your waistband, trying to forget him and focus on the task, quite literally, at hand. However, you do a terrible job of trying to forget him, apparently, as - in the very next moment - you are opening up your message chain with the man, scrolling and perusing for your favourite, magnanimously-gifted dick pic.
Okay. So you had told him you wouldn’t be waiting by the phone for him… but what he doesn’t know can’t hurt him. Right?
You pause your scrolling abruptly, practically drooling as you land on an especially veiny, throbbing rendition of his dick, his head flushed a deep, ruddy colour and weeping from the tip. You commit it to memory before you clamp your eyes shut and focus on the memory of it, buried up inside of you. At least – you try. Try to focus on that and only that. The hardness of him, to keep the hints of softness away. You try to push aside the thoughts of his long lashes fanning shut in ecstasy. Of the little blessed smirk he does - on the rare occasion when you actually make him laugh. Of the soft brush of his lips up your neck and the reassuring rasp of his hand against your skin and the subtle contours of the veins in his forearm and the way you want him to be your boyfriend and that even the moon reminds you of him now.
Wait, what?
You want him to be your what, now?
You peel your eyes open, staring down at his dick pic in horror now, as though it is some cursed object; for how else could he have such power over you? How else could this hard man make you soft for him without cause or reason? How else, unless his dick was quite literally charmed?
Fortunately, you don’t have time to complete that thought, but unfortunately, you are unable to launch yourself to completion either, as the phone you are staring at indignantly rings brightly, mocking you without care by playing Debussy’s clair de lune - your assigned ringtone for Marc before you’d lost your sense of humour about such things.
Shit yes. It’s Marc. Calling you. Miracles are real, Gods do exist, and everything will be okay.
Your wank will be okay, as Marc can most definitely help you to… completion.
“Marc?” You answer so quickly it is probably embarrassing, your heart hammering and your hand continuing to play with your slick folds. After all, there’s only one reason he ever calls you. Sometimes, you resent that; but right now, you view it as rather fortuitous indeed.
“You have to come,” the voice says.
“Mmm. Ok, Marc,” you purr. “I think I can manage that. I’m already halfway there.”
“No. Um. God. Excuse me. Sorry. You have to come and help, yeah?”
You freeze. That’s not Marc.
“There’s an awful lot of blood, right, and I don’t know wot I’m doing and he’s too bloody stubborn for his own good…”
You sit bolt upright on the sofa, adrenalin piping instantly into your bloodstream, your heart beginning to hammer. When you speak again, there is no soft docile purr left in your voice any longer. You are no kitten, but all of a sudden a cat with claws. “Who is this?”
“Steven Gr– look, it doesn’t matter. A friend, innit?”
Your thoughts swirl. “Marc, this isn’t funny.”
“I agree, and believe me I’ve had words.” This voice. Another man. A British accent, in a roundabout way. Reminiscent of Marc, but not quite close enough. “But he needs you. Please.” You feel charged, but you don’t know what to do with all of this adrenalin, exactly, struggling with the shift in gears. Did this guy say something about blood? Is Marc hurt? You try to glean what you can from the few words spoken so far as you formulate your questions. Steven – is that his name? – sounds shaken. Panicked. Maybe even a little bit teary. “Ow! Oh, bloody hell that stuff stings!” You think that the voice turns his head away from the receiver. “What the hell did you tell me to do that for?” Who is he talking to? Is it Marc? You strain to hear. “Well, obviously I don’t know what I’m doing. I can tell you when antiseptic was invented but I don’t think that’s going to help us. What a monumental eff up this was.” The voice becomes clearer again as you blink uselessly in confusion – tips back towards the receiver. “Look. Sorry about all this. Can you just please come? Marc – he’s gonna be fine and dandy, nuffin’ to worry about, I promise – but he needs you, yeah?”
Something is resoundingly off, and that statement, is perhaps the most glaring red flag of all. “I doubt that Marc needs me for anything.” After all, he’s been consistently clear about that.
“He does. He does, trust me.”
Your eyes narrow with scepticism. “I barely trust Marc. Why on earth should I trust you, Steven?”
Steven’s voice becomes small. A little sad. “Well. Because we don’t have anybody else.”
Your mouth forms a taut line, but this guy’s seeming distress is tugging on your heartstrings. Maybe that fact will reveal you as a fool. After all, you’ve listened to your heart and not your head overmuch lately.
“Please,” Steven implores one more time, still sounding frenzied, but gathering himself for his final plea. “If I text you an address, can you come?”
You fully stand now, urged on by the jitters sparking through your body. A series of alarms are blaring in your head, and this whole thing sounds shady as fuck. Has someone taken Marc’s phone? If so, have they hurt him, or worse? Have they somehow seen the saucy pictures you’ve shared with Marc and now they’re trying to entice you over? Will they hurt you too? It seems there are a million banal or nightmarish things that could be going on here, but only the one outside chance that what Steven said is true. That Marc really does need you.
“Can I talk to him?” you ask firmly, wanting to verify even a slice of this directly. “Put Marc on the phone, Steven.”
“He can’t come to the phone right now, yeah? Can I give him a message?”
“Fuck.” You comb your hand over your hair in distress, trying to figure out what your next move should be. But already, in your heart of hearts, you know exactly what you’re going to do. After all, Marc drags you to him, like the moon drags the tide, doesn’t he? And so, if there’s even an outside chance that it’s true? That he needs you? You’re going to be there for him – even if you doubt that he would do the same for you.
You close your eyes, pinching the bridge of your nose between your fingers. There’s so much of this which doesn’t add up -not at all. You feel like this is about to be a really bad decision; but you already know you’re going to make it. You’ve been doing that an awful lot lately. “Fuck. Steven? Don’t worry. Tell Marc… Tell him I’ll be right there.”
Twenty Five Minutes Later
This is a bad idea. You know it’s got to be a bad idea. At least, if this all turns out terribly, it’s not going to blindside you, right? That’s something? That at least you saw the horrors coming?
Indeed, as you make your way up the winding stairs in the building, ears straining for any sounds which may signal danger, footfalls as stealthy as you can make them, you let every possible scenario play out in your head. You’re barely prepared for a single one of them, so it doesn’t help much, but you don’t have much else to go on, do you - besides having dropped your location in the group chat and googled “how to stop blood loss” in the Uber over here.
As one last ditch attempt you search “best self-defence strategy”, hurriedly scrolling through the results. Unfortunately, you are already failing to heed the best self-defence strategy of “running”, your feet carrying you ever closer to the threshold of -what you believe is- Marc’s place.
When you arrive at the top landing, you see a cracked open front door, fuzzy light pooling from around the edges of the frame. No signs of forced entry. (Isn’t that the first thing they always check for in crime shows before they jaunt inside? You forget.)
First, you tug in a deep breath, in through the nose and out through the mouth, just like in yoga class, in an attempt to steel yourself. Then, as quietly and as nimbly as you can, you push the door open wider, hoping to avoid any kind of ambush. To give yourself an advantage against any danger which may well befall you on the other side. The door inching open has no effect, besides a grating squeak, and so, with equal caution you suck it up and enter, still keeping a watchful eye.
Seeing no-one and nothing of suspicion so far you press onward, eyes hurriedly scanning the interior of the flat for information and clues. Your eye is drawn up toward the staggering eaves and the dark, aged wood. To the piles upon piles of dusty books, and to the illuminated fish tank smack bang in the middle of the room. Bile leaps up into your mouth as you venture forwards a little more, but finally, upon seeing that no trap has been sprung, you dare to call out his name. The sound comes out strangled and afraid at first, and then, as you take a few further steps, you muster greater courage from somewhere in your gut, protecting your voice deeper into the space.
“Marc?”
No response.
Something is wrong, you think.
Something is very wrong, and a hard gulp lodges in your throat and it’s too hot in here. Too hot and the air is thick with the scent of copper coins and it makes you feel sick and all you can think of is counting pennies with your Nana way back when. Counting pennies and the metallic tang rubbing off on your fingers and maybe your brain is trying to take you back to a happier place where the present moment can’t hurt you. Taking you away from here since you’re shaking like a leaf. Shaking, because you’re afraid; but, even so, you know you have to face your fears. Know you have to do it; for him, because something is wrong.
“I’m here.”
Your head whips in the direction of the flattened voice, and then finally you see Marc’s form. See him tucked behind a thick wooden pillar and laid out on the floor, his tan-brown skin on show as he languishes in black boxers. You see him now, his back propped against the long edge of the bed, one smooth, muscled leg stretched out before him. The other leg, bent at the knee, the tender sole of his foot curling towards his inner thigh.
He's hunched, posture dejected. Breathing laboured and light pooling across the contours of his body, shadows gathering in the recesses. He grips the neck of a bottle in the circle of his hand and his torso sways a little, a sharp, cutting breath sucked into his lungs as he swivels his head towards you, wincing and grabbing his left shoulder as he does so. You note now how his skin is marked with a pattern of deep reds and blooming violets, a particularly angry congregation of colour over the meat of his shoulder from blade to collarbone, and trailing down his bicep.
As you crane a little closer again, that is the moment you see the blood-stained cotton balls littering the floor. It is also the moment you feel your heart liquefying in your chest out of sheer concern.
“Marc!” you sound out – a round note which punctures the brooding, eerie calm of his shadowed cave, your body barrelling towards panic as you make haste towards him.
Your eyes flit over his form and around the room as you prepare to hunker down before him. “Are you alone?” you ask urgently as you scan over the wounds on his body, in case whomever inflicted such injuries might still be lingering – or might return.
He blinks an affirmative, as though nodding might be too much effort, his mouth slanted down at the corners, and his eyes gathering dark beneath the thick set of his brows. “As alone as I’m gonna get,” he offers defeatedly. You’re not sure whether that is a dig at you showing up, or what, but it’s not crucial enough of a detail to chase – for now.
“Steven?” you inquire, with a disobedient tremor in your voice, hurriedly setting down your handbag and shrugging off your coat, discarding them on the floor.
“Steven’s…. uh.” Marc manages to look sheepish.
“Let me guess. He can’t come to the phone right now? Jesus, why in the hell would he leave you like this?” You voice is too high of a register, and you are well aware of it, your words coming too fast. Your face is contorting in panic and your hands are shaking. Skimming over Marc’s body like bird’s wings, urgent and fluttering, hovering over him as you assess his injuries.
Your interactions are typically hard and rough and reckless, when it comes to this man -just the way he likes it - but you are trying your utmost now to be gentle. You can be gentle with him, if he needs it, and he evidently does in this moment. “Marc?” you question urgently, eyes widening and voice infused with yet more panic as your gaze licks across the skin he has exposed to you. You are searching keenly for clues and explanation, reassurance and solutions all at once; but you don’t find a single one of those things. Not until you meet Marc’s gaze. When you do, you find his stare steady and calm. Alarmingly calm, even, given the circumstances. Deceptively calm, perhaps. He even extends the hand of his good arm out towards your own, ever so slowly, squeezing your shoulder as though to reassure you.
Shit, this is all wrong. You should be helping him, and so, you make a more concerted effort to quell your spiking alarm.
“I asked Steven to go,” Marc says smoothly, a slow, unhurried tone you guarantee is meant to bolster you. You don’t know him well, by any means, but you know him well enough to know when he’s placating you. This? This is screaming if from the rooftops. “Before you got here, I asked him to go.” You blink at him, taking all of this in, your mouth still as dry as cotton-wool. Your eyes full with shivering tears. “Look, I’m sorry that he dragged you into this,” Marc forces a thin, contrite smile, but you can see through that too. Can see the truth of things. For the first time, in your experience, Marc is shaken. “He’s a bit of a panicker,” Marc stresses. “He overreacted.” Another, all too deliberate squeeze of your shoulder.
No.
No, you’re not falling for it.
“Bullshit,” your eyes sweep his body once more, making a more thorough catalogue of his injuries this time. “I’m with Steven G on this one. I think you’re under-reacting.” Marc winces, as your fingers gently crook under his chin, surveying him for any gashes and scrapes across his face. Your gentle, careful hands turn over his palms, your study sweeping up and down his arms. You have him obediently hunch forward so you can inspect his bare, muscled back – after a bit of a telling off, anyway.
From the way Marc moves -or doesn’t- you estimate he may have a cracked rib, or at least heavy bruising. A shiner or two which may develop on his face overnight, but judging by the bowl of melting ice packs on the bedside table, you can deduce he has already iced those. The main concern, and the culprit for the field of blood-red cotton balls littered like a garden of roses around his reclining form, are the puncture marks across his shoulder. A series of small, jagged gashes extending over his shoulder from collarbone to blade in the shape of a crescent.
The wound leaves him hunched and stony, weeping red ichor as though he is a fallen angel who has been torn from his wings. Conscientiously, you trace the shape and patterns of these strange wounds. And, if you didn’t know better, you’d conclude that they looked like bite marks. What on earth could have been so large as to have taken a chunk out of him like that? What on earth could be the culprit? Dog would be the most obvious choice; but you’re quite sure you’ve never seen a dog with a maw as big as that.
“Marc. What the fuck happened to you?”
There is a familiar beat as he looks at you -maybe he’s always just trying to buy himself some time - and then, he shakes his head softly from side to side. “I was jumped.”
“By who, Marc?” you say incredulously. “Tony the fucking tiger?”
Another beat, and he evidently opts to plead the 5th.
Wow. He’s not going to tell you then? At least, not everything there is to know, and not anything at all of use?
It makes you a little peeved, if you’re honest. He might not have wanted to drag you into this, but you have been, and he’s not even going to do you the dignity of trying to explain it? Still, you know better than to kick a man while he’s down, and by the look of him, he hasn’t had the best day, has he?
Marc nods promptly, down to your side where your handbag languishes next to you. “What were you planning to do with the 12-inch kitchen knife in your purse, sweetheart?”
Hmm, you snort. Nice try, but he’s not deflecting that easily. “I improvised. Just in case.” You catch the glint of the blade in your bag, but then you stare him down with just as much steel. “If you won’t tell me anything, fine. But, you need do need to go to the hospital. Like, now, Marc.”
“I’m fine, alright? I’m a fast healer.” He looks cagey, but glosses over it expertly. “I just need a little, uh, divine inspiration is all, and I’ll be right as rain by morning.” He looks up at the ceiling then, as if to summon it, but nothing seems to come to him.
You exhale a long sigh, chewing on your lower lip. He must be in pain, you venture, but he’s barely showing it. A valiant effort, sure, but you can read his body better than that, can’t you? Have learned how to interpret every twitch of muscle and slip of tendon. Every flicker and contortion of his face. You see that fixed set of his jaw, muscles writhing over bone. The veins standing out in relief; roping through his forearms. The terse breaths rising and falling in his chest and the tell-tale wince on the flare of his rib cage.
You know. You can see that he’s hurting; and therefore, maybe Steven was right. If he’s too stubborn to go to a hospital, maybe Marc does need you tonight.
You look at him. Making every effort to look into him and see past what he presents at face value. And, if on your first pass your eyes saw little, cloaked with frenzy and panic… If on your second you were able to assess and catalogue his injuries, it is on your third pass that you see him. Not a body. Not someone. Not just anyone. Not his deflections. You see Marc.
You see that glint in his eyes - which drives you to distraction - perfectly exhibiting his stubborness. You see the way a hard swallow dips in his neck when he falters briefly under your study, showing you he can be vulnerable after all. You see the tangle of his curls cascading over his sweat-dampened brow, showing a rare crack in his cool, controlled façade. You observe the tension in his arm as he coils his hands more tightly around the neck of his bottle; perhaps the biggest giveaway of all. The sign that he wants some relief, in one form or another.
So, later, you may care that he did not tell you what happened. Later, you may question your choices – chalk this up to bad decisions. But, for now, you resolve that you will give him relief in any way you can. You will give him care because he needs it, and regardless of who he is and all the things you do not know about him, you know who he is to you.
“Does it hurt?” you soothe, your voice gathering weight. Becoming less flighty and panicked. Becoming cool and calm for him, because he needs this, you think.
You continue to look into him, and Marc is the first to drop your gaze; in itself a rare thing. His mouth and brow become stern, straight lines, everything drawing down. He squirms in position, his muscles rippling and the motion causing him to suck air through his teeth. His silence is enough of an answer this time.
Yep. It hurts.
You reach your hand out toward him, and for a moment Marc draws back from you as though your touch might hurt him too – though whether he fears cruelty or kindness, you are not sure. Cautiously, more slowly this time, you try again, reaching -with a soft sigh of air- to gingerly comb his coiled hair back from his forehead. For a moment, Marc’s face weighs heavier, brow burdened - almost with contempt that you would dare to be so tender with him. But, after only a few moments of you drawing his curls back with the slow rake of your fingers, Marc’s eyes close, lashes fanning out over his cheek. His lower lip quivering for a moment, as though this kind touch has moved him with a far greater force than that with which it was dealt.
His lips part as though to speak. His eyes busy all too suddenly with schemes, no doubt plotting to take back some power. To regain some control. To direct how this is going to go… But you decide no. Not this time. This time, for once, you resolve that he is going to relinquish just a little bit of control to you.
“Shhhh. Shushhh,” you soothe, voice as level and pacifying and calm as you can make it. “It’s alright. You’re alright. I’m gonna help you, Marc. Just tell me. Tell me how to help you.” You shift your hand to cup his cheek, and for a blessed moment, Marc leans into it, subtle tears pooling in the corners of his deep, umber eyes. For a moment, you see more than a sliver of him. More than the face he shows you; but, he quickly shrouds it again. He allows his relief to last for only a moment, before he remembers himself - and in the next, he is clasping his hand firmly around your wrist, drawing your touch away from him as though it is a cruelty.
“First aid kit. Bathroom cabinet,” he says brusquely, plenty of heft to his voice now. Almost as though he’s overcompensating for the cracks you seem to have found in him, sealing them over. He nods over in the direction of the bathroom. “I wouldda had this taken care of by now. Steven was being a wuss about the whole thing. Poor fella nearly passed out from the blood.”
Ah, yes. The mysterious Steven. A mystery within a mystery. More and more, you are coming to the conclusion that you must understand Steven in order to understand Marc.
You whisper that you’ll be right back and you venture through the space, cutting towards the sink. The basin is coated with splatters of red already, the first aid kit opened and resting out on the slimline shelf, some of the materials spilled out and on to the floor - as though the panic you had heard through the phone had transpired as chaotically as it sounded it had.
With another deep breath to steady your nerves, you gather up the more obvious supplies from around the place, tracking back to Marc. You can’t help but skim your eyes around the place - over his desk and shelves as you walk - drinking in the titles from the spines of the towering piles of books and mentally cataloguing his possessions. Looking for any clues you can find to aid you in solving the mystery of him.
Puzzles? Poetry? Egyptology? Far from answering your questions, the rabbit warren only deepens. Complicates. Your theories fracture and branch into yet more questions.
A divot carves itself into your brow. This… This can’t be what he was keeping from you, can it? The reason he never has you over here? A deathly secret penchant for ancient history and Rubik’s cubes? It doesn’t add up, but you can’t help but trying to do the sums regardless.
When you kneel back down, close to Marc’s half-reclined body, no doubt he can see such questions in your eyes - especially since you do little to mask them. After all, you’re not quite as comfortable with secrets as he evidently is. Still, you rationalise. It has to count for something, that he’s honest about the fact he’s holding things back, doesn’t it? You softly shake your head, and, casting your mental abacus aside, you turn your attention to the task at hand, preparing to patch his wounds.
He takes a swig of the whisky. “Anaesthetic,” he deadpans.
You are not amused. In fact, you feel taut with worry, and you avoid meeting Marc’s gaze, even as he studies you intently.
You can feel his eyes follow you, soft and hazy and slow blinking as you tend to him. Cleansing the gashes. Wiping up the inky red tendrils. Gently dressing his wounds. It must hurt, but he barely so much as winces – only the occasional ripple of his dense muscles. A shock undulating down his abs to the dense trail of hair sneaking below his boxers. A clench darting down his bare, muscled thigh as one application of antiseptic particularly smarts. It draws your eye, his body. Stretched out before him all sculptural; but still, you remain focussed. You make sure that your hands remain slow and careful. As tender as you have ever touched him.
You can’t bear to look him in the eye as you care for him like this, your hard, strong man all weakened, but you find you can still read him all the same. Can hear his breathing slow and soften under your care. Can see some of the tension fall from his packed shoulders.
After a while of being weighed by Marc’s intent study, the attention begins to burn you. And so, you can’t help but reach for a distraction – whether for him, or for you, you’re not sure. “You know. You should take me out to dinner.” You look at him then, eyes glancing off one another’s as sharp and strong as two blades colliding - but you do not linger long enough for him to cut you. Only long enough to enjoy him flailing for a moment, and so you can’t resist a delicious smirk to rival his best. “That’s how you stop the bleeding isn’t it? Apply pressure?”
You bite back a tentative grin, but you swell a little with pride as your joke earns a lazy, involuntary flash of teeth from Marc.
“Clever girl. You made a joke,” he interprets coolly. In a mildly patronising tone, no less, which you know you shouldn’t enjoy half as much as you do. And yet, when you look up at him, searching out the rare warmth of his smile, creases radiating out from his umber eyes, you have to look away all over again. He looks at you with such a delicate, complex heat brewing there that it floors you.
“I Googled ‘stopping blood loss’ in the car over,” you chat idly, reaching to deflect. Finally admitting to yourself that perhaps you do wear some masks around him after all. That you do have some secrets; you don’t wish him to know quite how much he destabilises you, for one thing. Leaves you reeling. “Clocked some baller self-defence moves too.” A bright but subdued grin lights your features, as you continue to tape down gauze and apply dressings. “So don’t you dare mess, Marc. I’m hard now.”
You sit up taller, with a little, definitive nod of your head. You have concluded your efforts. You resist the urge to dip and plant a kiss to his collarbone to mark it. There, I’ll kiss you all better.
You shiver, when Marc’s warm palm curls around your upper arm, smoothing over your skin at a few centimetres per second. “Baller moves huh?” he asks, a shroud of desire falling over his voice as his touch traverses your smooth, forgiving skin. “What did you find?”
Ironic, sort of. Self-defence, as a topic of conversation with Marc? It’s laughable. Useless, really. As of lately, your self-preservation instincts are all off-kilter. You have no defences against him, and he knows it too, from the look hiding beneath his hooded gaze. His hand sneaks up, smoothing beneath the sleeve of your pyjama tee and cupping your shoulder, the rough pad of his thumb drawing circles – little orbiting moons.
“Top strategy was running,” you intone, voice faltering, eyes fighting the urge to close as he smooths you, and tongue almost slack in your mouth.
“You should have,” he says plainly, and you don’t doubt it. Not for one second.
A gulp dives down your throat. “Guess I’m not very good at knowing when to quit.”
He dips his perfect chin down, briefly, to his meticulously patched shoulder. “Guess I should thank you for it.”
You search his face inquiringly. You are a ball of questions, looking for answers, yet finding his eyes as impenetrable as the engulfing black, swallowing up his burnt umber irises.
What are you into, Marc? Funny, that the first DM you’d sent him would be your prevailing question even now.
He has a past. You know it. You can taste it on him. Taste it on his tongue when he fucks it up into you, all reckless abandon like he’s been parched of anything good for longer than he would care to tell. Can feel it on his hands when he applies them with lethal precision to make you fall apart – skilled and trained and dangerous and relentless. Can see it in his want-tortured face when he looks at you like he doesn’t deserve a damn thing that’s his in this world. You know now, you think, that he doesn’t keep you in the dark because of anything you lack. Instead, it’s simply that he’s lived there for so long, that he must have forgotten what the light feels like. Must believe that he is only loveable in pieces. In shadowed fragments. Pieces of the moon – that whole celestial body - slipped to you in crescents like illicit little trinkets you gather and guard like you could piece him together if only you had the key.
His hands, you can guess, moving over you now with an aching, slow pace, have done things you might not want to know about, and maybe you should run. But you feel too the regret pouring off of him. He’s cool and calm but that is chaotic. It’s messy and brutal and unforgiving, just like the way he takes you, as if you and his pain have become one and the same. As if he fills you with it for even one moment of respite.
“Marc,” you say plainly, cracks in your voice like fractures in old walls of stone as you settle your hand over the top of his. “You know. I’m not asking. But if you ever do want to tell someone?” A lump bobs down his neck. “You know you can tell me.”
He knits his brows, shadow pooling more densely in the hollows of his face. He tugs in a slow gust of air, as if to launch some words of confession here and now. Of explanation. However, you know better than to expect that from him. How could it be that easy, when he’s been holding back for so long?
“Marc?” you launch on a taut line of breath, knowing that there is at least one question you have to ask, this hole in your knowledge far too glaring. “Who the fuck is Steven?”
Marc grows uncomfortable, squirming in place. Hunching his dense shoulders closer towards his ears. Swapping the position of his bent and elongated legs around and back again. All that, but when he starts talking about Steven, his face is as open as you’ve ever seen it. Lit with an affection that, quite frankly, you did not know he was capable of.
You feel words writhing under his skin. On the tip of his tongue, and so, you begin to gather up the soiled medical supplies from around Marc, hoping that dividing your focus will allow him a little more room to open up, should he want to.
“We’re… roommates. Sometimes he lives here, sometimes I do. Sometimes we’re both around.” A lazy flash of teeth glints from beneath his curled lips, and, when you glance at him fleetingly, it might be the most unweighted you’ve seen Marc’s face since you met him. “Sweet fella. Quite the nerd. Talks like a goddamn Victorian chimney sweep.” A small smile bursts on to your face and Marc checks himself, becoming more serious. “Our, uh, schedules were never supposed to intersect. Did everything I could to keep things separate. But he… Uh.” Marc nods slowly, bringing his palm up, sawing the pads of his fingers back and forth along his lower lip, mouth downturned and his eyes shifting from side to side. It looks like there is more to say. Much more to say. Like he reins something in, before speaking with finality. “He’s a good buddy. He, uh, got me out of some sticky fixes.”
You are wordless as you process this. At first, you had wondered whether the connection with Steven might have been romantic, or sexual, but after hearing Marc, you’re no longer convinced of that. He speaks about him in almost a brotherly way. Like he recognises a part of himself in the dude, on some level; however different they may be.
Still, you arc your eyebrow in Marc’s direction, looking at the one bed, pointedly. You’re not exactly lapping his whole story up about “roommates” without question, but there’s something which rings somewhat true in his words and his tone and in the set of his face. And so, even if you give this subtle nod to the fact you aren’t entirely placated, you opt not to challenge him any further on his business. “Well.” You pump your eyebrows. “Rent’s a bitch in central London, I suppose.”
Marc’s eyes glow at you then like lit moons, with gentle admiration, his lips curling with a small smile. You finish gathering up the supplies and hint that you’ll be right back, discarding the bloodied scraps into the bathroom bin and tucking the first aid kit back behind the mirrored cabinets. Then, you take a deep breath and cross to Marc once more. He’s still laid out where you’d found him, and it can’t be all that comfortable. Still, he appears to be enjoying gazing out of the window, where it frames the night sky. “Do you want some help getting up onto the bed?”
“Nah. Come sit with me for a mo’, will you?”
You stand before him, looking doubtfully down at the floor for a moment. Contemplating whether this may turn out to be another bad decision as you feel Marc’s heating gaze dragging over you. You reciprocate, looking at him all stretched out below you - looking delicious despite having been almost eaten alive – and it is only then that you have the wherewithal to consider your own appearance for the first time since arriving.
The verdict?
Mild horror ensues.
Shit.
Given the urgency, of course, you’d rushed over here without giving much thought to your aesthetic, shoving a coat and pair of boots on top of what you were already wearing. Usually, when you meet up with Marc, you are dressed to kill, aiming to provoke all of his senses and sensibilities towards one, very specific end. Him fucking you. In fact, you have your bratty, come get me, not as innocent as I look, eat your heart out then eat my pussy, succubus-chic aesthetic down to a fine art, even if you do say so yourself. However, right now is a different story, and you are serving rather… different vibes. Vibes which, to your disdain, now have Marc’s lips tipping up into an infuriating smirk. In particular, he seems to be fascinated with your “cookie doughs and cookie don’ts” pyjamas, the top emblazoned with a pattern of cute little cartoon foodstuffs.
Well, fuck. It’s a different side of you than Marc usually sees, that’s for sure. You fold your arms defensively around your middle, but even if you are doing your best to scowl at him, you can’t quash a brief, wry smile at your own expense.
Marc looks up at you, quirking a thick, dark eyebrow. “What d’ya got underneath? Are your panties as sexy as the rest, honey?” he teases darkly, and despite yourself a heat snakes up your spine like his voice alone is charming it.
He’s really going to go there? Going to talk about underwear right now, when last time -feeling bolder than you are in this second- you had shoved your dampened and discarded knickers into his pocket. You recall, with a rush of arousal, how he’d fondled them and gathered the scent of you up, lifting his girthy fingers up to his nose to inhale you into him.
“Fuckin’ perv,” you sass boldly, and his blackened eyes glint with challenge - obsidian dark. The planes of his face angled and just as harsh as his strident palm usually is when it slaps a sharp sting across the globes of you, and god, you can’t believe that even like this, all beaten up and still withholding his secrets that he could illicit this heat in you, your core warm and flickering for him like a candle in the dark.
Your pussy clamps down on nothing as your eyes trail over him, all splayed out on the floor like this. Your stomach flips disobediently when he wraps his broad fist around the neck of the whisky bottle and tips it up for a swig, wrapping his smirk around the lip of it, the spirit lurching and gurgles as he sucks. As he drinks, his knuckles bump up against the tip of his strong nose and god. It’s the wrong time. The wrong time to think about this -wholly inappropriate – but all you can think about is the fact that those fingers have been buried in you, all the way to the knuckle, making you come undone with precision. The memory of it is buried even deeper.
“I’m sure these will drive you wild, Marc,” you caution, tugging the waistband of your bottoms down to reveal your huge, comfy briefs, peppered with adorable little clouds and rainbows.
Marc actually licks his lips. “Don’t get me wrong. I like your usual look a lot, honey.” His voice curls in you like a come hither finger, beckoning you closer. “But this side of you’s kinda cute too. Maybe I’d like to see you like this more often.”
“Right.” You pump your brows, sceptically, and - against your better judgement - you plonk yourself down next to him now, your back settled up against the frame and your neck braced against the lip of his mattress. “Except… I think you’re high from blood loss, or something,” you say snidely. “Because this is the side of me you didn’t want, remember? The side you don’t get.”
You hurriedly fumble the bottle of whisky from Marc’s warm hand for some belated Dutch courage. The amber liquid burns a satisfying trail down your middle as you tip it back for a generous, rousing swig. Blech. You screw up your face. And, as you pass the bottle back to him, Marc looks at you warily from beneath his endlessly long lashes.
There is a beat as he blinks at you. Tension writhes through his jaw in the face of your gently steeled expression, before he forces a taut, indecipherable smile on to his mouth. “Yep,” he clamps his lips into a thin line. “Right.”
You try desperately not to let even a hint of frustration or disappointment show in your face. You’ve always known this. That it’s just sex. Has never been anything else.
Still, he stares you down, and you try not to drop your gaze to his lips. Try not to imagine all the ways you might kiss some feeling into him. Some feeling other than pain. You resist him for now, but it feels inevitable somehow. Inevitable that you will have your lips on him tonight, like the timing is written in some ancient iteration of the night sky and you are powerless, simply waiting for the stars to align.
Instead, for now, Marc takes a deep swig out of the bottle, perhaps for some courage too. “Look. I know it’s gonna sound like a load of baloney, but I swear. I’m trying to protect you.” His eyebrows slope up, his expression contrite.
You shake your head tiredly. “From what?”
A beat. Buying himself some time. Thinking about which sliver of him to hand to you. “From my life. This playground of gods and monsters in my head.” He relinquishes the bottle and presses the heels of his palms into his eyes. “From me.”
“I don’t need you to protect me,” you snipe wearily. “I know my own limits, remember? My own mind too.”
“I believe that,” he says softly, and in earnest. “But you don’t know mine.” His words are spoken in a monotone of defeat. With all the pallor of spent ash. There is no threat you can decipher in his words; only fact. Only apology. Maybe you should run, but you do not want to. You only want to draw him closer.
You contemplate him for a moment. Marc with a “c”, a crescent curl like the bending of a tongue or the crooking of a finger. His body stretched out before him, spilling out from the lip of the bed like the golden pouring of dawn over the horizon, yellowed light pooling around the dips and swells and contours of him. He’s beautiful like this. Softer. You’ve grown so used to having him fast and dirty in the dark. To stealing mere glimpses of him through the shadows; but you could get used to him like this, you think. Could have him bare and long and slow in the light and devour him whole.
You search Marc’s face, and you see gentle resignation there. His secrets and his deflections are many, but in this moment, there is a truth harboured there. All you see is a felling. You see the walls in his eyes crumble like they were forged of an ancient stone. See his will flake and give way to dust as he collapses, under the weight of his own need for you.
It was only ever meant to be once; but neither of you can get enough, can you? It doesn’t matter what he keeps from you, any longer. He’s told you so many times, so plainly, all that he can’t give you and doesn’t want to take; but he’s never once told you to stop.
A hard swallow bobs down his corded neck as you move your hand unthinkingly across to his bare thigh - languid circles, beginning with an innocent attempt at comfort - and quickly corrupting. A divot carving into his brow as you tenderly caress the meat of him. “I suppose you’re right, Marc. I don’t know anything about you. Not really.” With a pained expression, he flattens his hand over the top of yours, tentatively lacing his fingers. “Maybe one day, you’ll feel like talking. But, in the meantime, you should know. There are plenty of hot men in London who would be willing to spit in my mouth and never call - but who won’t also need me to patch up a mysterious bite from the Loch Ness Monster. I have options, darling.”
Marc nods in resignation, albeit, the weight in his face giving way to a sudden, dark smile, carving out an etching of mirth across his cheeks like beauty from stone. It’s the kind of smile which sinks desire through your middle, like the hot, liquid burn of spirit, his half-moon eyes blazing just as bright.
“Sure,” he drawls, in a voice as thick and dark as the shadows coalescing in the hollows of him. As smooth and sweet as nectar. “But how many of those schmucks would fuck you so good your eyes roll back into your skull, honey?”
Fuck.
His words make you physically sweat, a hot prickle dancing across your skin. A clammy slick beneath your palm as Marc moves your hand up and up his thigh, closer towards the bulge which begins to strain against the thin material of those tight, black boxers. “Uhhh,” you whimper, greedy and hungry for him now, heat snaking up your neck. Your core turning over as he drags the tide of you, your body doing his bidding. “How dare you use facts and logic against me?” you bluster, trying to distract from the rising swell within you, even while your voice drums in your throat like a locust’s wings; brittle and tremoring.
You don’t want to give him the satisfaction, not at all. But at the same time? God. You remember how good it feels when you do.
“Besides,” he says, inching your hand further - ever so deliberately - up his leg. “You sure as hell know at least one thing about me. You know how to take me apart, six ways to Sunday. Don’t you, Princess?”
Hnnnnnngggg. “I know a thing or two about that, yeah.”
You shiver as he slides your hand closer to his crotch. You feel the heat bleeding through the thin fabric, and the hard, straining mass of him swell beneath your touch.
“You shouldn’t tempt me, Marc,” you say shakily, breath quickening, a pulse of desire thrumming under your skin. “I had a tragic failed half-wank earlier. I have plenty of… steam to work off.” His hand on top of yours, he moves your palm back and forth up the length of him, until he is hard enough that your fingers can curl and grip him through the soft, black cotton. He’s so warm.
“Do you always make jokes when you’re nervous?” Marc teases, somehow managing to maintain a relatively cool façade, even if you can feel how much he’s aching for more of your touch.
“Oh, you noticed?” you sing-song, tone dripping with sarcasm. “Clever boy.”
“Brat,” he counters darkly, with a curl of his delicious lips, and for that, you punish him by squeezing his cock in your palm until he shudders. His own palms flatten, fingers splaying out across the floor by his hips as though he half expects to fall through it, plummeting -perhaps- along with his bedding need. “Show me,” he commands gruffly, hastily clawing some power back. “Show me how you take me apart.” Marc lifts his gaze to you then, a clear plea in his eyes. His brow still twisted by this perpetual weight, and jagged shards of pain scattered across his face.
He looks at you. He looks at you like Steven was right. Like he needs you. Like he is swept up in it - a force even stronger than the steadily coursing river of want throbbing in his blood.
“Y-you want…?” You hesitate, not forgetting his injuries for one second. “Now? You’re hurt and-“
“-I know my own limits, honey,” he breathes, darks eyes enthralling you entirely. “I can tolerate pain. But I’m not sure I can wait a second more to feel the ways you can give me pleasure.” His gaze flits gently around your face, reading you like a book, cover to cover. Seeing if that’s what you want to. If you didn’t, you are sure he would back off in a heartbeat. But the truth is, you do want him.
No; more than that. You need him, too.
And, the moment he realises it? The stars align.
You are practically fall on to his lips, swinging your body around to straddle his thighs, his warm broad hands clawing desperately to rid you of your clothes. Your tongue shoves greedily over his. He tastes of the hot boil of spirit in your mouth. Of salt and sweat. His stubble rasps your throat as his lips work you and there is a tumult, barrelling and urgent.
With your cooperation, your lower half is soon bare before him, your heat settled over the meat of his thigh, arousal slick and liquid against his warm, firm flesh. Unthinking, chasing your want, you tilt your hips to grind down on him, his quad flexing and providing a divine pressure against your folds as his tongue opens your mouth up, stealing air from you. He snatches a shattered moan from your lips as it blooms from deep within your chest, grabbing hold of your hips and guiding you back and forth, rocking you more vigorously against him.
If you had the sense to move, you’d move. Move to sheath his hard cock inside of you. The veined shaft which he now pumps languidly in the circle of his fist, watching how you use his body to get off with slack-jawed awe. However, what you’re doing feels so good you can’t even imagine forsaking a morsel of this pleasure; not even in favour of promised gains, and so, you stay. You brace your weight carefully against his good shoulder and the lip of the bed, and you grind.
“That’s it, honey. Hop on and finish yourself off on my thigh, huh?” You mewl for him. “Think you earned this, for taking care of daddy, didn’t you?”
God, it feels good. It’s embarrassing, how quickly you are unravelling. Breathy moans falling past your lips and the glide of your slick heat coating his leg and his arms folding around your waist. His mouth sucking and laving greedily at your tits, the heft of them swaying in his face as you grind and rock yourself into oblivion. His thigh, clenching and shaking beneath you with how much watching you pleasure yourself is turning him on.
“That’s it, sweet girl,” he praises, dipping the elastic waistband of his boxers beneath his balls to expose the full length of him to you, sitting heavy and proud against his taut stomach, hard and veined and needy. “Got yourself all worked up, huh?” He speaks with that biting, patronising, soothing edge to his voice. A distilled blend which never fails to take you higher. “Ride daddy’s thigh -just like that - and I promise I’ll make it alllll better.”
You submit a symphony of breathy, almost pious moans to Marc as he watches your every move intently – with awe. You may be the one getting off but you swear the act is dismantling him piece by piece with every nudge of your clit and glide of your folds over his skin, releasing a pool of molten slick over the contoured muscle of his thigh. Taking him apart every time his cock is nudged against his own stomach as you roll your hips, the swell of your belly providing him this delicious fiction as the motion pins his shaft in the space between you. Breaking him with every wet suck or swirl of his tongue or roll and pinch of finger and thumb against your nipples. Wrecking him with the tipping back of your head in ecstasy while he tastes the bead of sweat gathered in the valley of your breasts. Devastating him with each smooth, keening note falling from your pretty mouth, your noises sinking desire like a stone through his middle.
You look at him beneath you as you undulate like a wave on top of him, all hooded gaze and disbelieving lips. You feel his hands clamping at your soft middle, gathering up rolls of flesh as he works you down on him, increasing the pressure against your folds and your aching, swollen clit. He looks delicious, all muscled and sturdy, and you want his body everywhere. You want to take him in your mouth and taste the swell of him on your tongue. Want him sheathed inside you as you sucker him deeper until he is spilling over and up into you.
“Fuck,” he breathes - a wrangled sound, his voice sunken as your end blooms from your centre, catching you off guard. You gush over him, eking out every aftershock and leaving an artwork of dripped slick – pale nectar smeared along his tan brown thigh which now glistens and shines like moonlight beneath you. “Fuck, baby. So fucking hot.”
You shudder down from your high, core still fluttering for him, and your relief is only momentary. As soon as you peel open your screwed-shut eyes and witness the wrecked expression on Marc’s face – the sheer wantonness of him – you are crawling with an urgent need all over again. You look down at him as he groans and helplessly fucks himself into the circle of his fist, looking fit to pop and spill his seed over his knuckles. You’d like to see that; but you have other, more devious plans for him.
You can plainly see the strain of both his torment and pleasure playing over his features. With a grunt, he quickly lifts and rocks the bottle to down another messy swig of whisky, the sharp odour eddying between you with his ragged breath. He is so undone with pain and want alike that a liberal drip sidles from out of the corner of his mouth, the bead rolling down his chest, a rivulet coursing between the meat of his pecs.
“Can I… help you?” you offer breathily, arcing your brow and nodding down to his needy length. “I… I can be gentle with you.”
“I… I don’t mind if you aren’t,” he responds, thoroughly caved-in by need, face all crumpled with it, body even hunched as though he buckles under the weight of it. “Please.”
He begs you. The sheer force and command of him subdued, for now, he must finally know how it feels – to be at your mercy. The strength and power of him compromised, his pleasure hanging by a thread which you could dangle in front of him for hours, if you wanted. You could tease him and torment him in all the ways he teases you. Take him apart, piece by piece. Take him to the edge and back again. But… as much as you think you would like that, there is something in his eyes which makes you want to be a little more generous.
“I don’t want to hurt you, Marc,” you soothe. No more pain for him. No pain. Enough. Marc looks like he’s had enough dealings with pain to last a lifetime, and you think it’s about time something changed. You think he deserves softness, and so, you give him a promise as soft as the kiss you plant, just below his ear. “Gonna take care of you, baby. Going to make you feel good.”
When your soft, dulcet tones filter into the shell of his ear, Marc’s face twists with a new burden. A burden which seems to collapse him more so than all the others you’ve seen so far.
You climb off from his thigh, shifting your body back so that you can arc your mouth down over him. “So beautiful, all spread out for me like this,” you praise, leaning to trail your mouth down his neck, your tongue laving at the valley of his chest and lapping up the bead of amber liquid. “Don’t need to worry,” you kiss across his skin. “Going to look after you, Marc. I’m right here.” You suck on him, on the meat of his pecs, tracing your fluid tongue over each ridge and contour. Flicking across his nipples until they harden and he whimpers - a delicious, cracked-open sound. With a wolfish, crescent grin, you lick and mouth over his abs, settling yourself in between his thighs and bracing your palms against them as you dip hungrily towards him, swiping your tongue around the swollen, ruddy head of his cock and collecting the salty pearl of precum, the taste of him flooding your tongue.
“Fuck. I…” Marc shudders, fumbling for words as you nuzzle your nose into the dense, grizzled hair at the base of him, inhaling his musk. As you flatten your tongue and lick a broad stripe along the underside of his shaft, relishing the ripple of his veins and contours as you travel up to the tip of him. His cock twitches, swollen and needy and desperate – so desperate - to be enveloped by the warm cavern of your mouth.
“What?” you ask playfully, travelling back to the base of him and sucking his heavy balls into your mouth, releasing them with a gentle pop. “What do you want, Marc? What do you need?” You apply a pattern of kitten licks and kisses along the length of him, disappearing the tip of him between the petals of your lips.
“God,” he shivers, voice full of holes. He throws his head back on to the lip of the mattress, tipping that sharp, angled jaw and nose up to the sky.
“There are no gods here, Marc. Only me. Only you and me. So tell me what you need.”
You suck at him a little harder, taking him deeper into your mouth, engulfing him and he engorges to his full stretch. Your ministrations are meticulous; perfectly calculated. Perfectly precise. You do know. Exactly how to take him apart. His eyes practically roll back into his head and he lays a pattern of terse breaths as though he’s trying to stave of his end already. You can tell that he’s fighting it. Trying not to give in to you so easily. Marc; always so strong. So fucking stoic. And here you have him, little whimpers and whines spilling liberally from his lips.
“What do you need, Marc?”
He screws his face up momentarily, before his jaw drops open with a shocked gust of breath as you work him harder, his hips chasing you as he fucks up into your mouth. “More. Need more.” he pleads. “More of you.”
“Mmmmm,” you hum around his shaft, his head dropping back down simply -it seems- so that he can look at you in awe. His hand hovers above your head, guiding you down on to him again and again with the scarcest of contact, as though you are his gentle bird.
I’ll take care of you, Marc. I’ll take care of you if you’ll let me.
“Please. Please. Please,” he begs. So beautiful. Such pretty offerings. Such jewelled words, his length heavy and thick and warm on your tongue. His eyes are spiking with tears of frustration, his hips bucking to surge into the circle of your throat; gently, languidly – you are in control. His thighs are shaking. His abs rippling and biceps clenching as the string in him tightens, preparing to snap. His body preparing to shoot his load into you. His palms flattened and braced against the floor.
You want him. You want him like this; soft and bare and slow.
Your head bobs more vigorously on his cock, taking him faster and deeper and you know that he’s close. You know, and as soon as you taste the first flood of his tang spilling over, you scrape two fingers through the slick you had pooled on his thigh, gathering it up and unceremoniously shoving the taste of yourself across the flat of his tongue. His lips clamp around your fingers instantly, obediently, eagerly cleaning every drop from you as he moans around your slickened digits.
The flavour of your release seemingly makes Marc’s own orgasm deepen and heighten too. His cock pumps his warm seed into your throat, and you feel the zip of each pulse shooting across your tongue as you drain every last drop from him, swallowing him down with relish.
He shudders down from his high, length softening quickly and his chest still lightly heaving. You relinquish him from your mouth, swiping the tang of him from your teeth and lips with a lazy swipe of your tongue. He looks sleepy and sated -entirely spent- his lashes fanning out as his blinks become long and slowed. He reaches for you. Reaches his palm out to cup your cheek. Draws you gently to his lips. You bask in this softer glow of him – his eyes lit and glinting, but this time, not with a hot, fiery desire, nor that shadowed glint of steel. This time, the glow you find there is gentle and constant. Something more akin to moonlight.
You did always like the night. You always were a nocturnal animal, but oh boy, do you love to see him shine for you.
Marc gathers you up, and together, you bundle carefully into the bed. He lies on his side, on his good shoulder, and you -laying on your back - swell with emotion as you feel him nuzzle into your side. Still, you can already feel the shadows beginning to cling to you. Can feel the afterglow giving way to that familiar dark.
“I need you to go,” Marc resonates, his sudden and unfeeling voice vibrating through your chest as though he means to target your heart, with brutal precision. “You have to be gone before I wake up.” Perhaps he does mean it. To hurt you. Isn’t everything he does so very deliberate? “Please. Can you just trust me?”
Can you? Can you trust him?
“Okay. Okay, Marc. I’ll go.”
Now? Is that what he means?
And yet, Marc’s arm tightens around your middle, his thumb drawing idle patterns down your side, as though he expressly wants you to stay. For a moment, you freeze there, unsure how to react to this unheard of affection from him. Then, in the next moment, his small voice cuts through the mellow dark. “Would you…” He sighs and tries again. “Would you… Tell me something about yourself? Anything. Please.”
Oh, Marc, you plead inwardly. Please don’t hurt me. Please don’t ask for more, unless you’re sure that you actually want it from me.
Still, despite the flutter of locusts swarming in the pit of you you steel yourself, losing your fingers in his dense tangle of curls. “I’m afraid that’s redacted, baby,” you state coolly, a wry smile painting your features. That’s right. Two can play at that game.
Marc doesn’t fight you on it. Not at first. Probably assumes it’s the least he deserves. For our part, you fully intend to continue being steely and aloof; that is, until his thumb skims a spot on your side which tickles, sending a chaotic shiver through your body. Fracturing your resolve, an involuntary giggle explodes from your chest.
“Are you ticklish here?” Marc asks, targeting the precise spot again, and you can hear the unfettered smile which curls his mouth as he learns this about you.
“Sorry. ‘Fraid that’s redacted too.”
However, try as you might to be like him – all cold and stoic – that just isn’t you. And so, when Marc digs his fingers into your side once more, you can’t help it. Your bright, melodic laugh fills the room. And, from the way Marc squeezes you a little more tightly, you wonder if it might just have filled his heart too.
“You need to stop making me laugh, sweetheart,” Marc complains. “It kinda hurts.”
“No, thank you,” you respond firmly.
“No?”
“No. I think I prefer seeing you happy.” Against you, you feel Marc expel a long, contented breath. “Now shut that pretty mouth, would you, and get some rest?”
“Brat.” You feel the meat of his cheek shift against your chest, and you know that he is smiling.
“Er. Excuse me?” you chide good-naturedly. “Was that backchat?”
“No, Ma’am,” he humours you. “Copy that.”
Combing your hand through Marc’s inky curls, you smooth them back from his forehead, until his eyes are almost weighed by sleep.
“You know,” you breathe softly, before lights out. Something you need to get off of your chest. “I don’t want to hurt you, Marc, but I… I can’t heal you either.”
He stiffens against you, and there is a jagged silence. A stretched moment before he finds the right words. “I don’t need you to heal me. I just…” He swallows.
“What?” Tell me what you need.
“I just,” his voice cracks, pain splintering his robust, smooth tone into pieces. You weren’t ready for it to break your heart. You weren’t ready either, for the tears which shimmer violently in his eyes as he battles valiantly to restrain them. “I just need a little help.”
“Oh, Marc,” you soothe, as a single, disobedient tear shivers over the bridge of his beautiful, prominent nose. He sniffs and huffs a frustrated breath through gritted teeth. And, you do everything you can to take care of him, in this moment. To promise him that you’ll take care of him. You soothe him, and you pull his head into your lap, stroking his curls back from his forehead until he falls asleep.
The Next Morning
Steven wakes up to an empty bed, and, as usual, starts the day by sitting bolt upright, in a panic.
“Owww!” he complains, as pain shoots liberally through his… His shoulder? Ribs? No wait. Yep. His whole body. “Aaaaahhh,” he groans, clamping a hand over his racing heart, adrenalin firing as he works back through the chain of events since he was last fronting.
The blood. He remembers the blood.
He remembers… you.
“It’s okay. You’re okay,” Marc smooths calmly.
“Oh yeah!” Steven begins sarcastically. “Just another completely normal one? I don’t think we are okay actually, Marc, are we?” Yes, Steven is definitely freaking out. A giant jackal bite to the shoulder will do that to a person, no doubt. Eyes wide, Steven tips his head up to the ceiling. “Khonshu – hiya. Excuse me? This absolutely kills. Any chance we could grab the suit for a minute, mate? If it’s not too much trouble?”
“He’s pissed at us, Steven,” Marc reminds him. “He’s just letting us stew.”
Steven points his face upwards again. “Is this because I called you a pigeon? So sorry about that. You’re a swan, honestly. A majestic swan, yeah?”
“He’s not coming yet, buddy. I’m sorry.”
“It bloody hurts, Marc!”
“Yeah. I know it does. Look, why don’t I take the body for today? You sit this one out. Jump back in when Khonshu’s being less of an ass. Alright, pal?”
Steven’s eyes soften, glimpsing Marc’s reflection and his steady calm in the bottle of whisky by the bedside. “You’d do that? For me?”
“Yeah, Steven. That’s what friends are for.”
“That’s really lovely of you.”
“I… uh. I also wanted to thank you, for what you did last night.”
“No problem, Marc. I think you just need to remember you’re not alone, anymore, yeah? That, and to feed Gus 4. I can’t go through anymore fish.”
“Alright then, buddy. Let’s not get all mushy. Let me sub in, would you? Let’s get you out of this.”
“Yeah. Just a minute.” Steven picks up Marc’s phone, flipping it open. “Need to do summink first. One sec, yeah?”
“Wait. What are you doing?” Marc asks in a rare panic. “Don’t you do that, bud.”
However, to Marc’s horror – probably - Steven continues to type out a message. To you. “Hiya. Thank you for what you did for me last night. You’re so completely lovely. Can I take you out to dinner? If you would like to. No pressure or anything. Not trying to be creepy. Promise. Marc Spector xxx”
Steven hears Marc groan. Looks back to his reflection and sees that the guy is covering his face with his palms.
He feels like Marc will want to murder him; but that’s okay. He’s pretty confident that he can’t actually take him out. He kinds thinks he needs him, actually. Thinks they’re a team now. Need each other.
“What in the hell were you thinking?! Do you think she’s ever going to message me back again now that you’ve-“
-The phone dings brightly in Steven’s palm.
With surprise and delight, he opens up your reply. “Alright. But my schedule is a lil unpredictable, shortcake. Wait by the phone?”
A delighted, even smile beams out from Steven’s face.
Marc tries, to the best of ability, to restrain his own, mirroring smile, but he can’t quite manage it.
“Okay. You’ve gone and done it now. Time to sub me in, bud.”
Steven’s eyebrows shoot up, his eyes widening. “Are you sure?”
“Yeahhhh,” Marc says in a resigned tone. “Seems like I owe you a coupla favours.”
Steven’s eyes roll back, and Marc takes control of the body, bedding himself in for another day of pain. It’s okay though; after all, he’s become pretty used to that feeling. To a world of hurt. That is, until lately. Until there was you. Marc truly does hope he can protect you. And maybe… Maybe he really can, now that he’s no longer alone.
For a moment, Marc stares, dumfounded, down at the phone in his palm, before he lands on just the right thing to say. “Copy that.”
All Marc has known for a long time has been pain.
Maybe, just maybe, it’s time for a change.
“Marc’s got a girlfriend,” Steven sing-songs, as Marc crosses to the bathroom mirror.
“Shut up,” Marc snipes, but he still can’t mask his smile all the way.
THE END
Hiyaaa! :D I hope you enjoyed this, and if you did, please consider reblogging and/or leaving feedback! That would mean a lot. Thanks so much for reading, and I will have more Moon Knight content coming soon (because I’m a mess and I slipped and fell in a pit of hyperfixation). Lotsa love, and wishes for a lovely day. Luna.
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