#my takeaway was yay sacrifice ig

[daemon-in-my-head]

Sorry I just watched something so:

Gortash needs to survive. And Durge needs to embrace Bhaal. Because together they can be glorious, they can return to the past. It's still possible if they try. They're convinced they can. After all, everything that has happened was orchestrated by them.

Except now, on top of the brain waiting for their final command, something isn't quite right. They were always meant to be equals, but this way to rule, this way to achieve their goals would render that most cherished delusion they've held onto false. If Durge does what their god demands of them, what their sister has died for, what so many others have been killed for, they will ruin the dream of that person who must've been so important to them once. More important than their own life.

So Durge struggles for but a moment. Incapable of telling right from wrong. Unable to determine their next move. Losing control of the situation they've sacrificed so much for, handing the final decision to someone else in the end. Failing at this one task they should've never failed.

And this split second of indecisiveness would spill their blood and ruin. The last bit of sanity was sacrificed to the father they refused to escape, and their body surrendered to the man with a will of iron.

The very same tyrant who had just doomed himself, using the dagger that had just taken an illithids life to take the life of yet another monstrous creature. Cutting the thread of the life he'd once lost alongside his one chance of salvation. And all of it simply to save whatever small bit remained of the treasure he had lost, the dearest he was about to lose again.

He was damming himself to make the impossible choice they couldn't. Ruining himself so his equals long lost, one true wish wouldn't have been for nought. Embracing his damnation so that the one he treasured, the one who had gained a chance to break free, may yet find a way to return to the arms of the gods they'd long forgotten. So that they may yet rest with the remains of those they had treasured and been treasured by in days long past.

Help.