#my sanity was going haywire

[alvojake]

no lube, no protection, all night, all day, from the kitchen floor to the toilet seat, from the dining table to the bedroom, from the bathroom sink to the shower, from the front porch to the balcony, vertically, horizontally, quadratic, exponential, logarithmic, while I gasp for air, scream and see the light, missionary, cowgirl, reverse cowgirl, doggy, backwards, sideways, upside down, on the floor, in the bed, on the couch, on a chair, being carried against the wall, outside, in a train, on a plane, in the car, on a motorcycle, the the bed of a truck, on a trampoline, in a bounce house, in the pool, bent over, in the basement, against the window, have the most toe curling, back arching, leg shaking, dick throbbing, fist clenching, ear ringing, mouth drooling, ass clenching, nose sniffling, eye watering, eye rolling, hip thrusting, earthquaking, sheet gripping, knuckles cracking, jaw dropping, hair pulling, teeth jitterbug, mind blogging, soul snatching, overstimulating, vile, sloppy,moan inducing, heart wrenching, spine tingling, back breaking, atrocious,gushy, creamy, beastly, lip biting, gravity defying, nail biting, sweaty, feet kicking, mind blowing, body shivering, orgasmic, bone breaking, world ending, black hole creating, universe destroying, devious, scrumptious, amazing, delightful, delectable, unbelievable, body numbing, bark worthy, can't walk, head nodding, soul evaporating, volcano erupting, sweat rolling, voice cracking, trembling, sheets soaked, hair drenched, flabbergasting, lip locking, skin peeling, eyelash removing, eye widening, pussy popping, nail scratching, back cuts, spectacular, brain cell desolving, hair ripping, show stopping, magnificent, unique, extraordinary, slendid, phenomenal, mouth foaming, heavenly, awakening, devils tango ever bro could cause a nuclear bomb inside me and I'd still ride.

[hearturn]

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[hirotheinkling]

Murder Drones Headcanon: Time Travel

In my personal Murder Drones headcanon, time travel is possible (although there is a limit to how far into the past you can go but no limit to how far into the future you can go), and all Murder Drones AUs coexist with the main Murder Drones canon as branching timelines which are the result of time travelers messing with the timeline (Changing the past does NOT change the future, but rather creates a separate, alternate timeline which exists independently from the main one. Basically MCU and DBZ time travel logic). There is also the Ministry of Timeline Preservation (MTP), an organization which is dedicated to preventing the further creation of new branching timelines and in some cases erasing existing ones if they are deemed as a threat. A total of 1,277 branching timelines have been created ever since time travel became possible, and 129 of them have been erased over the course of the MTP’s history, so 1,148 branching timelines currently remain.

Here is the full list of Murder Drones AUs I’ve compiled and their designations by the MTP!

TL-00 - Main Murder Drones Timeline / Timeline of Nyx Doorman (@thecosmiccrow)

TL-01 - Solver Uzi AU by @electrozeistyking

TL-02 - Murder-Verse by @captainparks

TL-08 - Reverse AU by @the-mighty-e

TL-12 - Revival AU by @solarspinel

TL-15 - Absolute Clone AU by Murdernoname on Twitter

TL-63 - Electric Shock AU by @leefl00f

TL-109 - Solver Khan AU by @mushiemooon

TL-115 - Bombberry AU by @shinyshade8026

TL-135 - Replaced, Reused, Recycled AU by @genericnam

TL-156 - Stationary V AU by @lilywily143

TL-196 - Intertwined Codes AU by @withered--s0uls

TL-200 - Pirate AU by @anxietyoverreaction

TL-248 - Murder-cons AU by @plastyi

TL-250 - Solver Virus AU by Tesedy1 on Twitter

TL-251 - Purple Terror Swap AU by @tirkras (Erased by the MTP)

TL-288 - JCJ Opposing Forces AU by @CUST0MIGHT on Twitter

TL-313 - My Immortal AU by @jazzstarrlight

TL-322 - Apocalyptic AU by @starlightohstar

TL-346 - Infested AU by ClockLeaf on YouTube

TL-370 - Mini Uzi AU by @megbanned

TL-372 - Requio AU by @cosmosaii

TL-425 - Nix Doorman AU by @devastator1775

TL-442 - Haywire Swap AU by @yadchi-i-guess

TL-448 - MD Feral AU by Shelly Humboldt on Twitter

TL-454 - MD Personality Shift AU by @reverienco

TL-486 - Dormant Absolute Solver AU by @withered--s0uls

TL-501 - Ghost!N AU by @Space_Dem0n on Twitter

TL-532 - Rare Bites AU by @electrozeistyking

TL-536 - Absolutely AU by @starryinkart

TL-588 - Doll’s Judgement AU by @rottentricks

TL-619 - Upgraded Disassembly AU by @waytowne

TL-639 - Tiny!N AU by @electrozeistyking

TL-643 - Parallel AU by @lunamoonxy

TL-652 - Haunted House AU by @roseofhybrids

TL-706 - Swapped AU by @nanarauwu

TL-741 - Trio Swap AU by @sifishsticks

TL-776 - Immortal Vuzi AU by @devastator1775

TL-799 - Serial Designation U AU by Zzsark_Stormbeard on Reddit

TL-814 - Fearless Four Swap AU by @sd-candydrone

TL-844 - Timeline of GlitchCyn by @jazzstarrlight (Erased by the MTP)

TL-845 - Swap AU by @lumineary-arts

TL-894 - Songbird’s Sanity AU by @miss-emmie

TL-906 - Double Time Loop AU by @electrozeistyking

TL-929 - Timeline of I.N.K. Uzi and N by @jazzstarrlight (Erased by the MTP)

TL-957 - Firebitten AU by CoffeeTheDragon on AO3

TL-992 - The New Dawn AU by @kkolg

TL-1008 - Late Solver Sam AU by @rory-multifandom-mess

TL-1027 - Oilrose Family AU by @chaotically-coz, @starlightohstar, @the-silliest-of-maggots, @serial-designation-jey, @serial-designation-vee, and @shinyshade8026

TL-1039 - Evil! AU by @megbanned

TL-1060 - Ghost Drone AU by @electrozeistyking

TL-1102 - Serial Designation Uzi: Reassembled AU by _SupremeCommand on Reddit

TL-1111 - N’s A Monster AU by @electrozeistyking

TL-1152 - Amalgamation AU by @electrozeistyking

TL-1164 - Telenovela AU by @bloomvictoryart on Twitter

TL-1186 - V-lociraptor AU by @dragons-hoard-of-fandoms

TL-1204 - Mercy Drones AU by @rory-multifandom-mess’s boyfriend

TL-1215 - SD-C AU by @bloomvictoryart on Twitter

TL-1238 - Fusion Protocol AU by StoryScripter on AO3

TL-1242 - Human Biker AU by @rory-multifandom-mess

If you would like for me to add an AU which is not currently listed, then feel free to reply to this post and let me know, and I will look at it and then add it.

Murder Drones Time Machine Design Contest!

I would also love to see a design for a Time Machine which is fitting for the Murder Drones universe, so I am holding a contest to see what all of you guys can come up with! You have until August 5th at 12:00 PM UTC to reblog this post and attach your art of your time machine! After that, I will conduct a poll including your submissions which will run for a week to decide the winner!

Edit: I originally set the deadline to July 25th, but @electrozeistyking suggested that more time was necessary for the contest, so I’ve extended the deadline!

[moonlight-prose]

You asked for old man! Logan thots. I’m gonna give you old man! Logan thots. Also, hi hehehe 🤭

SO, my favorite thing about him other than the fact that he’s fucking old as dirt, is that even if he’s very rough along the edges, he’s also the tiniest bit pathetic. Sure, he’s giving, he can be soft when he wants to be especially if he’s too tired to care, but he probably just likes sitting you on top of his face and licking and sucking away at your pussy after a long day at work. Or he likes to have you on his lap so he can touch you through your underwear, maybe even grind and hump you through your clothes as he kisses you.

To me, old man! Logan is the perfect mix of pussy drunk and just enjoying pussy as it comes. No rush, no fuss, he’s just here for the vibes lmao.

note: the sound i made when reading this is beyond feral. please excuse my mind going haywire beneath the cut. i have no excuses. i just really love this old man.

Old man Logan is done with having to pretend he's incapable of feeling pain. After near a century of getting bruised and sliced open and treated like an animal, he deserves some time to just be. And with that comes the need for intimacy. He never got the luxury of it before - never wanted it.

So he's absolutely a little pathetic about getting his mouth on you; entirely at ease to suck at your clit languidly as if you're not shaking above him from too many orgasm too fucking fast. He's fucking knackered. He's pretty sure if he tried to fuck you into the mattress, his skeleton would give up.

You're clutching the headboard with tears in your eyes. Thighs strained with how many times he had you ride his mouth. You're pretty sure if you look down you'd see nothing but glazed hazel eyes and a furrowed brow.

His mind shut off an hour ago; his body taking over to do the rest. And you've become the means to an end in order for him to find some sanity to cling to. He's gone dumb with it. The taste of your pussy the only thing he really needs after a long day.

Other times he'd drag you on his thigh, mouth open and panting into yours with high choked sounds he'd never admit to making. He'd kiss you stupid. Spit and teeth and just a bit of your slick from where his fingers were knuckle deep in your mouth.

Tonight though he's got you seated right where you wants you. His cock is a leaking mess on his stomach, but he can't fucking care.

Especially when you brokenly sob above him, another wave of slick pouring into his mouth. He grunts, fingers digging into your thighs, and suffocates himself.

Far too lazy and slow for you to even notice. At least until he forces another one out of you; his mind a blank slate of white noise as you struggle to breathe.

[peacefulmultishipper]

(Copy and Pasted from Reddit with some tweaks)

I think the major issues of Lanolin come down to that it’s the heroes (as well as fan favourites) that she was being harsh too and Mimic (a villain) being supportive towards her attitude as it benefits his plans so of course, it frames her in a bad light to many fans.

We know what’s really going on as we get to see the villains’ plans and motives but Lanolin doesn’t and that’s where people tend to forget that the characters don’t share the knowledge that the player/reader does which can be frustrating.

Genuinely outside of her not checking if Team Sonic were okay, Lanolin has been understandable in her actions because she’s right that boards going haywire and the Team standing on the track are hazards.

She’s also made it clear that she will not do favouritism when it comes to her work as shown throughout the issue and is a stickler for the rules…this lines up with previous issues and the character overall.

As I’ve said many times before on the Sonic subreddits, I hope she gets an arc or even a special where she learns to chill out from another character (Maybe from Big since they’re complete opposites) and eventually apologises to Silver.

I understand the dislike of her character (even as I typed this all out, I don’t like her either) yet definitely agree with that Twitter are blowing this out of proportion especially by those who hate IDW but that’s Twitter in a nutshell and won’t be surprised if people are here are doing the same in that one tag that shall not be named for my sanity. lol

TLDR; People don’t like sheep for being too serious and mean especially to our heroes.

[pennysperfectpolls]

Adoption poll round 2 match 15

Natural Harmonia Gropius “N” (Pokémon)

Emil Sinclair (Limbus Company)

Propaganda under the cut

“N" Natural Harmonia Gropius (Pokémon) Propaganda

Listen. Liste-N, even. N is in desperate need of a better family. He grew up with Pokemon, and was then "adopted" at a young age by Ghetsis, who wanted to use his ability to communicate with them. From the moment of his adoption, N was isolated from most humans and was only given the opportunity to speak with Pokemon who had suffered at the hands of humans. This pushed him to the direction of Pokemon Liberation- He believed by separating people and Pokemon, the world would be perfect. And Ghetsis only encouraged it, forming Team Plasma and crowning N as the king.

Believing N to be fully brainwashed and unable to be deterred, he set N out to preach and convince people to release their Pokemon. As the story goes on, N is challenged by seeing many people and Pokemon getting along and enjoying each other's company. He's stubborn about it for a long time- But when you finally beat him in the final stretch he finally starts accepting that maybe he was wrong- That maybe different ideas in the world CAN co-exist, as can people in Pokemon (though not needing Pokeballs is definitely still a thing he would like to happen.)

And this... Well, what do you think Ghetsis does?

He goes haywire! He calls in good-for-nothing, warped, defective, a freak without a human heart! My poor boy not only gets his worldview shaken, but the guy he considers his dad just loads up on the insults- No doubt to intimidate him! N deserved soooo much better than Ghetsis, which is why I'm submitting him for Tumblr Adoption. He is able to start healing later- Like look at his battle sprite between Black/White vs Black/White 2! He's smiling! And his encounter theme! It's so much more cheerful in BW2! It's not called "Prisoner to a Formula" anymore- It's "N's Theme"!!!! He so deserves blorbo title. From start to finish, a prisoner and tool to learning what he wants and who he really is! He's N, babes, and I'd give the world for him!!!!!!!!!!

Also he says "Burn, baby, BURN!" in Pokemon White while awakening Reshiram. This is so important. To me.

———————

had a crush on him as a kid and now i think he’s neat

Emil Sinclair (Limbus Company) Propaganda

poor boy went through so much tough shit and then just kept going through it, he needs some love.

his whole family was murdered by one of his only "friends" and then she continued to torment him psychologically, even when she wasnt in his life anymore. and then he had to join a brutal company that requires him to kill lots of people and die repeatedly, which he is not equipped for mentally.

oh also one of the best ways to use him in gameplay requires keeping his sanity as low as possible. lil bro needs a break 😭

[thompsborn]

(“You don’t have to do this,” Peter told him after his first day back on patrol. Harley was leaning in close, much closer than Peter could mentally handle, as he examined a blooming bruise on his temple. “I’m fine.”

“I don’t trust your definition of fine,” Harley was quick to reply, though his words came out distracted as he brought up a hand and gently brushed the tips of his fingers along the edge of the bruise. “You’ve told me that you’re fine a lot since I’ve met you, and now I know that it hasn’t been true a single time. I’m just making sure that you really are okay. For my own sanity, mostly.”

Peter felt the back of his neck heat up with a blush that he could only hope Harley didn’t notice. Still, he rolled his eyes and said, “I think I have enough experience to be able to tell when I’m okay or not. I mean, I have been doing this since I was fourteen.”

A small tug, barely visible, more like a twitch of the lips, pulled at the ends of Harley’s mouth at that. He didn’t look upset, per se, but he definitely seemed disgruntled as he leaned back and dropped his hand to his lap. “Yeah,” he murmured. “I guess. Just…” Trailing off, he shook his head and then hesitantly met Peter’s gaze. “I just want to make sure,” he said, hushed and almost a little bit sheepish.

That response made Peter pause. He released the hem of his shirt from where he had been anxiously twisting it between his fingers, let it fall back into place. For a moment, silence hovered, and just when Peter was about to part his lips and ask what was wrong, Harley suddenly spoke up again.

“What was it like? When you first… When you became Spider-Man.”

There was a crease between Harley’s brows, but his eyes were genuine and curious as he peered at Peter.

“Um.” Peter faltered, thinking. “The first couple weeks kind of sucked, honestly. My senses were suddenly going haywire, you know? I could hear people talking from blocks away. The temperature felt a lot more intense, too, like… what would have just been kind of cold suddenly felt freezing, and what would have been kind of warm made me feel like I was about to pass out from the heat. And with my strength, I kept breaking things and not being able to explain it when May asked, and it just—it was… it was a lot.”

Harley nodded, looking entirely and hopelessly enraptured by Peter’s every word.

Peter continued with, “Thankfully, May thought I was sick and let me skip school for a few days. I had to convince her to go to work and leave me home alone, but once I was able to, I used those days to try and get used to the world again. It was really overwhelming. Still is, sometimes. Sensory overload.” He waved a hand vaguely through the air, musing, “You’ve already seen that, though. The day that Harry brought me back to your guys’ dorm to let me take a nap, that’s what was wrong. Just another overload.”

Something mildly alarmed crossed over Harley’s features. “I didn’t see anything but you passed out in Harry’s bed looking like a breathing corpse. That was from an overload?”

“I mean…” Peter wobbled a hand back and forth in a so-so manner. “I was exhausted, to be fair, because I was looking into the crime boss guys, and not getting enough sleep can sometimes lead to overloads, so it was, like… a combo hit, I guess. But Harry saw how I was in class. He told you, didn’t he?”

“A little bit, but not—not a lot of detail or anything.” Harley frowned, the crease between his brows growing deeper. He looked like he wanted to ask more, like he wanted to dig into every detail the way that he seems always keen to do, but instead he shook his head. “What about later? After you got used to your senses?”

Peter considered, thinking back on when he was fourteen and slowly but surely finding balance with his abilities. “It was… kind of fun,” he admitted. “At the start, no one knew who Spider-Man was, so I didn’t really have any enemies, you know? It was… it was exciting, realizing that I could do something to help people. I made my web fluid and web shooters, I stitched together a shitty suit, and I just went out there whenever I could and helped whoever I came across who needed help. The hardest part was keeping it from May and trying not to let my grades drop, honestly. And then Tony…”

Something pained settled over Harley’s features. “Tony,” he echoed with a nod. “Showed up, right? Out of the blue, no warning, was just—suddenly, he was there. Same for me.”

“He was eating May’s date loaf,” Peter said, almost absently, only to let out a laugh at the memory. “May couldn’t cook or bake for shit, though. He spit it out when we got to my room.”

The ends of Harley’s lips tugged again, only this time up, a barely-there sort of smile. Thoughtfully, Harley mused, “I wish he introduced us. I wish—I mean… I think it would have been cool. Knowing you back then.”

Peter tried to imagine it—him, not as weighed down by everything like he is now. Back when his nightmares consisted mainly of Toomes and collapsed warehouses and being tangled up in a parachute while sinking through the water of that lake. Tried to think of a younger Harley being mixed in—probably just through the phone since Harley lived in Tennessee, but the two of them becoming friends.

Harley getting to meet Ned and MJ through Peter, too.

That made Peter pause, trying to picture it. Ned and MJ and Harley. Maybe, somehow, meeting Harry and Gwen later in life still. All of them as a big conglomerated friend group. May still alive. Too good to be true. Or maybe everything would have still played out the way it did and he would have lost Harley to the spell, too. He tried to imagine a Harley who knew him before but doesn’t know him now and found that picturing himself, Peter Parker, at this point in time without Harley is… kind of impossible. It isn’t just him that has helped Peter get to this point, he knows—Harry and Gwen have been equally huge factors in Peter slowly but surely getting better—but Peter, as he is now, wouldn’t be here without Harley. That’s just a fact.

“I like knowing you now,” Peter decided to say, his heart feeling dense and heavy in his chest.)

aka chapter sixteen of homeward bound is coming along. not very quickly, but it’s happening.

[subskz]

lee know oral fixation?? what if i just phased out of existence? the thought is so painful…

him being a little brat until he’s got some fingers shoved into his mouth to keep him shut 💔 or maybe even catching him when he’s needy and letting him suck on your tits 😖

pink anon what have you done to my brain… how can i recover?? -🐾

as if the clip pink sent wasn’t already a critical hit…now this is gonna make my brain go haywire 😭

poor lino feeling so antsy when there’s nothing occupying his mouth…naturally his go-to method of letting you know that he needs smth is just being as insufferable as possible until you get the hint and indulge him. he can’t run his mouth anymore when it’s filled w ur fingers after all ♡ the way it would soothe him instantly once his pretty lips wrap around them…suddenly he’s the most docile lil angel for you

n for the sake of my sanity i don’t even want to think abt how content he’d look sucking on your chest, letting out cute lil hums as his eyes flutter shut and his ears burn red ❤️‍🩹

[spellbcok]

𝐇𝐖𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐓𝟏𝟓 : plot call ( for my sanity i'll make a separate post related to starters ). i won't be dropping any on-going threads, nor will i begin anything new or post any non-headcanon memes until after the event. but feel free to do so on your end. hit the heart and i'll message you for event related plots. under the cut are basic ideas of where my muses minds are at and whether or not they will be involved in any way.

for all muses: i'm up for any or all of my muses getting injured or injuring others (purposefully or not).

anya jenkins: self-preservation will kick in almost immediately. they will be hiding or seeking out someone she has gotten close to who are more fit for combat. most likely, though, they'll be trying to find a way to get the hell out of dodge as it's very much their mo.

ji euntak: she will be out there, jumping in front of swords (metaphorical or literal) aimed at friends, family, strangers. basically willing to save anyone, the self-sacrificial type that she is.

lorelai gilmore: being an extremely privileged upper middle class woman whose biggest hardship was being a single, teen mom (which, granted, was difficult), this will be her first experience with such violence outside of watching it. but mama bear instincts will kick in and she'll be doing whatever it takes to search for/protect rory.

lydia martin: her banshee abilities are really going to go haywire. she'll be drawing strange pictures, finding dead bodies, and maybe have her first scream / wail ? outside of trying to deal with that, she is also part of the fbi so she'll be working out who the killer(s) is/are. definitely would love for her to find bodies as it's kind of her thing, but obviously would not be something we'd know at this very moment. soo feel free to just say 'if my muse dies lydia can find them' and if it happens then i'll include it in her threads and what have you.

nam onjo: she's pretty unfazed by everything and just trying to get through each day. anyone sus will be tased and/or pepper sprayed first and asked questions later. ** new addition: she sees an opportunity to make a quite a bit of money by basically being a errand person for those in hiding. so hit her up on the taskrabbit-esque app if you need some takeout delivered or more alcohol or whatever. there's an injury/death tax so it'll be pricey but at least your muse won't have to take the risk themselves!

sabrina spellman: another self-sacrificial one, but she's going to actively fight people who mess with her loved ones as well as try to figure out who the culprit(s) are. she's been practicing her magic so she'll use that for defense. and, just like riding a bike, she might spout out some more powerful and dangerous spells that could cause injury.

tatia: no stranger to death and chaos, tatia knows how to protect herself. she'll likely stay in her studio or apartment and avoid everything. maybe she'll go to some trusted people/friends because safety in numbers and all. but she is definitely not going out of her way to help anyone or solve anything.

tinker bell: tink is still learning how to use a cellphone and now she has to avoid murderers? how annoying. the fairy is not about that and will fly away from threats. possibly goad and be a little brat about it tbh. she's also learned a bit about capitalism and the whole supply and demand thing, so she'd be willing to sell a bit of pixie dust so your muse can also fly (limited, so far 1/3 taken).

**** new muses

brenda bates: she is enjoying the chaos but feigning disgust and sympathy for the victims. she is likely having a house party or attending one because she's from the 90s and that is what they do in the face of a crazy serial killer being on the loose.

one specific plot idea i have for 1 unlucky muse is for her to injure them while in her hooded mask (image). with all the chaos, her crime will just get lost in the sea of others. however, her crimes emulate urban legends so i can give you a small list or if you have one in mind feel free to send it to me.

chloe decker: she will be investigating. she is not only trying to figure out who the culprit(s) is/are but why this was happening. she's from la so she is familiar with serial murders and strange happenings. but these sudden bursts scream otherworldly doing. she would know since she has spent time with the devil, a demon, and an angel.

[tallmantall]

James Donaldson on Mental Health - Getting anxious over Anxiety Depression?

A lot of people who are exerting too much of their brain power usually exhaust not only their physical strength when engaging in various multi-tasking activities, they also tend to over extend their brains up to the point when it plainly needs some good old time for relaxation. A lot of busy people who seem to cannot fathom the idea of relaxing and taking time of from work, as well as their worries, tend to actually start having nervous breakdowns, anxiety depression and all sorts of mental illnesses that can cause a person's sanity to go haywire, fortunately, if you're one of those poor unfortunate ones who are unable to distress and is constantly worried and fussing over things, there are actually available cures and various treatments for treating anxiety depression. Anxiety depression is actually characterized by all sorts of irregularities and erratic behavior from the person who is suffering from it, this is usually due to certain stress triggers that may tend to easily cause a person undue jitters and stress. Also, a lot of people who tend to get easily nervous over stressful activities are actually prone to having anxiety depression, its just a matter of being strong-willed when it comes to facing difficult and stress-prone activities. It may be pretty hard to overcome at first, but trying to be calm and cool in times of extreme pressure is what'll actually save your mental health from going totally downward spiral. When it comes to effectively curing one's self from a mental illness, one must keep in mind that you have to be actually honest with yourself and assess what kind of depression or mental illness you actually have, go to reputable psychiatrist to get yourself diagnosed correctly as well as be able to get the right depression treatment for yourself. Here are the various types of depression: Manic or Bipolar depression - characterized by sudden and extreme changes in one's mood wherein one minute he or she is in an elevated state of euphoria while the next minute (day or week) he or she is feeling to be in a personal hell. Postpartum depression - characterized by a prolonged sadness and a feeling of emptiness by a new mother wherein physical stress during child birth, an uncertain sense of responsibility towards the new born baby can be just some of the possible factors why some new mother go through this. Dysthimia - characterized by a slight similarity with depression, although this time, it's been proven to be a lot less severe, but of course with any case, should be treated immediately. Cyclothemia - characterized by a slight similarity with Manic or Bipolar depression wherein the individual suffering from this mental illness may occasionally suffer from severe changes in one's moods. Seasonal Affective Disorder - characterized by falling in a rut only during specific seasons (i.e. Winter, Spring, Summer or Fall) studies however, prove that more people actually fall in to a rut more during the Winter and Fall seasons and lastly, Mood swings, wherein a person's mood may shift from happy to sad to angry in just a short time.  #James Donaldson notes:Welcome to the “next chapter” of my life… being a voice and an advocate for #mentalhealthawarenessandsuicideprevention, especially pertaining to our younger generation of students and student-athletes.Getting men to speak up and reach out for help and assistance is one of my passions. Us men need to not suffer in silence or drown our sorrows in alcohol, hang out at bars and strip joints, or get involved with drug use.Having gone through a recent bout of #depression and #suicidalthoughts myself, I realize now, that I can make a huge difference in the lives of so many by sharing my story, and by sharing various resources I come across as I work in this space.  #http://bit.ly/JamesMentalHealthArticleFind out more about the work I do on my 501c3 non-profit foundationwebsite www.yourgiftoflife.org Order your copy of James Donaldson's latest book,#CelebratingYourGiftofLife: From The Verge of Suicide to a Life of Purpose and Joy www.celebratingyourgiftoflife.com Link for 40 Habits Signupbit.ly/40HabitsofMentalHealth If you'd like to follow and receive my daily blog in to your inbox, just click on it with Follow It. Here's the link https://follow.it/james-donaldson-s-standing-above-the-crowd-s-blog-a-view-from-above-on-things-that-make-the-world-go-round?action=followPub But the type of depression that has actually been proven to be quite common among people is anxiety depression, which is actually characterized by the state of being overly anxious about things. Anxiety, a supposedly normal behavior that'll actually help a person adjust more to a certain stressful activity like first date jitters or a grueling exam the following day. Anxiety actually helps you get psyched up towards facing certain "difficult situations"; anxiety therefore is actually a good thing. Anxiety depression however, is simply the opposite, not to be easily dismissed as a "case of the nerves"; Anxiety depression is in actuality an illness that can be caused from the biological makeup of an individual, or in other words, a hereditary illness. Also, there are actually various types of Anxiety depression, each having its own unique characteristics. Take for example Generalized Anxiety Disorder or GAD, this kind of Anxiety depression is a lot more complicated than the average Anxiety depression, in spite of possibly being a day-to-day habit for those who suffer this kind of Anxiety depression, Generalized Anxiety Disorder actually makes the individual quite more paranoid than usual, anxiety attacks are more frequent, even absurd at times. They can even be anxious even when there's no apparent reason that calls for them to behave in such a way. People suffering from Generalized Anxiety Disorder actually shows a lot of symptoms, from lack of sleep, to being unable to relax, getting tired easily, cannot concentrate on what they're doing and even suffering from depression.  This kind of Anxiety depression is still curable; just a little work will actually do the trick. Consult a reputable cognitive behavior therapist who'll help give the individual the therapy that he or she needs to help him or her loosen up, also prescribed medicines are sort of a must to help these individuals battle anxiety attacks, help them calm down and relax. Read the full article

[ofpensandpapersblog]

GOING OFFLINE

I know I don’t owe anyone an explanation, but here it is anyway.

For the past few days, I’ve been completely detached from social media (FB Meta, specifically) since I was sick, and my anxiety got triggered, among many other things.

Today, I logged onto my account to get some files and I got the chance to scroll through some posts… then I felt a pang and I can feel my mind going haywire again.

That’s when I realized that I deactivated (and went into isolation) to keep my sanity.

Those who are very close to me know that I’m experiencing some personal issues, especially with my mental health. (Side note: I am not diagnosed and not seeing a professional, yet.) I’m dealing with my 'demons', resurfaced traumas, and other stuff; reconciling with my emotions and letting myself feel instead of overanalyzing and blaming myself in the end. The strong façade cannot cope anymore.

Maybe because I’m so used to life’s hustle and bustle that it felt like I needed to always be in a rush; to put myself even in the tiniest, peculiar space I know I cannot fit; to not rest, or feel, or be human at all.

Being online became unhealthy for me either. My mind got filled with negatives—it made me compare myself to others and feel bad for not being included even when there’s a big ‘you cannot sit with us’ sign hiding in plain sight.

Going offline made me realize that I needed to step back to protect my peace and safeguard my mental health. I needed to focus on myself and my own journey without feeling left behind or being filled with what ifs.

I know social media is just one aspect to consider, and there are more to the story that meets the eye, but I believe I’m going through this to be able to rest and heal from the things that hurt me and caused me pain and to be able to feel alive again with the help of God’s grace and mercy—ONE STEP AT A TIME.

No, I’m not going to remove myself completely from the digital scene but yes, you will see less of me. If there’s really a need, there are tons of ways you can contact me.

Again, I don’t need to explain myself to anyone but if you happen to read this, please try to understand.

In all these, I still praise the Lord for the gift of life.

PS. BIG SHOUTOUT TO MY CONSTANTS!!! I'm always grateful to the Lord for having you guys in my life. Thank you for being there for me and for going through the storms with me. I love you guys!

[sizzlingtigerglitter]

Perseverance: The Duct Tape of Dreams – How to Stick it Out Until You Win 

Ah, perseverance. That glorious word that sounds so inspiring in commencement speeches and motivational posters, yet feels suspiciously like chewing gravel when you're stuck in a creative rut or staring down a seemingly insurmountable to-do list.

Don't get me wrong, I'm all for chasing your dreams with the ferocity of a squirrel after a particularly plump acorn. But let's be honest, the path to success is rarely paved with rose petals and unicorn sprinkles. More often, it's a pothole-ridden highway decorated with flat tires, existential dread, and the occasional rogue banana peel.

So, how do we persevere when the going gets, well, not-so-good? How do we channel our inner Rocky Balboa and punch through life's metaphorical Adrian? Fear not, weary dreamers, for I come bearing gifts: the comedically absurd yet surprisingly practical guide to sticking it out like nobody's business. better focus and concentration

Step 1: Embrace the Inner MacGyver (Because Duct Tape Fixes Everything, Right?)

Imagine your goal as a magnificent spaceship destined for the glittering nebula of achievement. You've got the blueprints, the engine humming, and enough ambition to fuel a SpaceX launch. But then, BAM! Reality throws a cosmic wrench in your plans. The engine sputters, the navigation system goes haywire, and you're left floating in the void, feeling about as useful as a chocolate teapot in a space vacuum.

This, my friends, is where the MacGyver in you steps in. Duct tape (figuratively, of course, unless you're actually building a spaceship in your garage – no judgment) becomes your weapon of choice. You use creativity, resourcefulness, and a healthy dose of self-deprecating humor to patch up the leaks, reroute the circuits, and keep your dream spaceship (or career, or relationship, or whatever your metaphorical vehicle may be) hurtling towards its destination.

Remember, sometimes the most ingenious solutions come from the most ridiculous places. So, channel your inner inventor, embrace the absurd, and don't be afraid to get a little (or a lot) goofy in the pursuit of your goals. After all, who says saving the world (or at least your sanity) can't be hilarious?

Step 2: Befriend the Phoenix Within (Rise from the Ashes, Baby!)

Life has a knack for throwing metaphorical flamingos at your face just when you think you've got things under control. A project flops, a relationship fizzles, and suddenly you're curled up in the fetal position, convinced you've peaked at "unemployed couch potato."

But here's the thing: setbacks are like spicy wings – they burn going down, but they leave you wanting more (of success, not wings, unless you're really into that sort of thing). They're opportunities to learn, to adapt, and to rise from the ashes like a magnificent, slightly singed phoenix.

So, next time you face a flaming flamingo (or metaphor of your choice), don't wallow in the ashes. Dust yourself off, channel your inner Beyoncé, and strut your way out of the metaphorical fire. Remember, every setback is just a push-up for your soul, making you stronger, wiser, and even more fabulous in the process.

Step 3: Weaponize Self-Deprecating Humor (Laugh in the Face of Failure, Then Punch it in the Nose)

Let's face it, sometimes the only way to deal with the absurdity of life is to laugh at it. And what better target for your comedic barbs than your own glorious failures? Self-deprecating humor is the ultimate underdog superpower. It disarms negativity, diffuses tension, and reminds you (and everyone else) that you're not taking yourself too seriously.

So, go ahead, crack jokes about your failed soufflé, your disastrous haircut, or your inability to parallel park without hitting a mailbox. Own your imperfections, laugh at your stumbles, and let the world know you're okay with not being perfect. After all, who wants to hang out with someone who takes themselves too seriously anyway? Plus, a good laugh is a great stress reliever, which can give you the mental boost you need to keep pushing forward.

Step 4: Remember, You're Not Alone in the Circus of Dreams (We're All Clowns, Just in Different Costumes)

The road to success is a crowded highway, filled with fellow dreamers juggling flaming chainsaws, riding unicycles on tightropes

[inafarfarawayland]

We meet again in this high roads of mine

Let’s open up some wounds. Mama passing was the biggest downfall I see in your entire life as 31.

I saw you crying, it hurts & how I wish i can take your pains away but I know I can’t. There I was standing, giving all my supports from far. I wish i can hug you & say it’s okay to cry yourself out. I won’t say be strong, time will heal. Who says it will heal? We just move forward with a big hole that we will carry for the rest of our lives. It will always be the the missing piece that you’re longing for

I try to keep my sanity for the past 1 week. Keep myself busy whole week long. It sounded selfish of me but oh God, how I miss you a lot. I couldn’t do anything

Then this week, it felt like a bomb was dropped again.

You said you will be away to accompany her, for 1 week, again. I know I shouldn’t said that word.

I should’ve know where I stand kan?

It’s when you ‘mistakenly’ updated her instead of me, I went haywire again. It triggers my short temper. 2 weeks before this, you did the same thing.

You tell me how to be patience when I can’t even functioning straight up. Do I have to mirror you? Do we go back to where it’s all started? Do you will come to me when you’re in need of it?

[furiaae]

Asteria resembled a fish gasping for air as every synapse in her brain seemed to be going haywire all at once. Cloud's whines and pants were so close to her ear, his breathing against her skin, everything felt like his entire being was just aching to be within her own very being in a literal sense.

She could feel his own pulse racing with how close he had her pulled up against his body, like trying to mesh them together to become wholly one. Asteria felt herself squirm, could hear the pitiful whimpers rise from her own throat without her even realizing the sounds were coming out until they did.

To her, it was the most taboo feeling to have him like this and yet at the same time it felt entirely right to have him seemingly at her mercy. He could very well be doing this to lower her guard, to make it easier to make her powerless and deliver her right to Sephiroth. Yet maybe it was the way she couldn't extract a hint of true malice from the other's soul that made Asteria weaken further in Cloud's hold.

"What...What could you possibly need my help with..?" She whispered as she attempted to keep hold of the last dregs of her sanity and with it, the last dregs of her stubbornness.

@hiislegacy

"... He won't. Not if you have my protection." Cloud continued to pepper her with light kisses, holding her close to his form. He whispered between breaths, needing her like the oxygen in the air. "Sorry about that, but I promise to make it up to you. Please, please..." He practically whined with warm and heavy pants on her skin, acting on his instincts, allowing them to take over any of his more logical thoughts and reasoning.

After all, it is what Sephiroth would have wanted him to do, and to be like. Free of all restraint, or the binds that kept him down. So he listened to his body, and it's needs. It was almost like a calling in the back of his soul, beckoning for him to never let go. "I want you so bad, Eri... Won't you help me?" He wasn't sure why this feeling was so strong, but he wasn't going to ignore it.

@furiaae

[fushigurocest]

So I finished The Deep literally minutes ago and I’m left mind boggled. (It’s a funny feeling when a book does that) I really don’t know how I feel about it. I was enjoying it up until the point of Dr. Toy’s incident and so forth. it went haywire and all reality was lost. It’s like I wanted it to end but it just kept going with all these push and pulls of all these horrors happening to poor Luke. In the end I figured it would have ended up like “Annihilation” in which it did with these “other worldly beings” and it truly fell flat for me. I do love how it made me uneasy. (My peanut brain barely grasped the grotesque scenes and layout out of the trieste, it was hard for me to get a picture in my brain)lThat’s the only reason why I picked it up and finished it so quickly. I hear his other books may be better so I look forward to them. What are your thoughts and analysis to this? Anything left you wondering?

4/5⭐️

First of all, I love talking about this book, and I am so so so excited that I’ve reached the people on this website that want to talk about it!

With The Deep, I felt a similar way after my first read. I had the feeling that I was missing something. However, I found, on my second read, that I thoroughly enjoyed the latter parts of the book when I started looking at it in a more symbolic way and not so much literal; for the entire book, we’re seeing the world through Luke’s eyes, and after Toy’s incident is when Luke really begins to crack mentally. I think the confusing imagery really drives home the fact that Luke is losing the remnants of his sanity, and we’re forced to watch it. We’re just as confused and scared and helpless as Luke is.

The way I look at it is: the point of the first half of the book is to set up the story. Why is this happening? What’s the point of it all? What’s the purpose of this suffering?

And the second half of the book tells you that there never was a point to the suffering; it was all just a game, and the deaths of these innocent people meant nothing in the grand scheme of things. The focus shifts more to “How does this make you FEEL?” (And I think by answering that question, we give meaning back to the deaths of these characters, in a way.) From my perspective, the purpose of the last parts of the book is to feel more than to fully grasp what’s happening.

And yes, there’s so much in The Deep that leaves me wondering! And, personally, I love that. I enjoy that there wasn’t really a cut-and-dry answer. It leaves so much to be interpreted and picked apart and analyzed, and that’s one of my favorite things about reading! But I respect when that’s not other people’s cup of tea, as well.

TL;DR: I think the latter parts of The Deep hold up a lot better when looked at symbolically, and I don’t think we were meant to get answers for everything, and that’s why the book is so incredible to me.

I haven’t read The Troop or Little Heaven yet, but I’m starting The Troop today, and will definitely say my piece on it when I’ve finished it! I’ve heard different things from different people, and it seems like The Deep, The Troop, and Little Heaven all have their fair share of people who hold them as their favorites. :-)

[warheroics-blog]

Belinda’s Blog Cleanup 2017

As many many know, I have way too many blogs than I can really keep up with, and in the next few months and perhaps years, it will get even harder to try and keep active on everything. My attempts to try and keep up coupled with busy real life has just not mixed well and it’s effecting my ability to be active. 

Because of this, I had to force myself to make the decision to close down and archive some of my blogs and really dramatically cut down the number of blogs I actually could really be active on so I can properly devote myself to everyone I’m RPing with.

With that said, here’s how things will go from here. The blogs below are grouped into three different sections:

 The Active section will consist of blogs that I will be devoting the majority of my time on. 

The Semi-Active | Low Activity section will consist of blogs that I will occasionally go on when the muse finds me, these are blogs that I’m not yet willing to part with because there are still people that I’ve promised interactions to - usually one or two people on each of those blogs that I still have threads with that I will continue to do when I can.

The Closed | Archived section will consist of all the blogs that from this point on will no longer be active, they are finished and the blogs will now exist as archives.

Hopefully with this clean up, it will make things a lot easier for me to keep up with and won’t run me ragged.

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ACTIVE (7)

Theseus Scamander (Fantastic Beasts/HP) - @warheroics

Alfred Pennyworth (Gotham) - @waynesprotector

Sebastian Rivers (ASOIAF/GOT) - @dutyandhcnor

Lothar Karstark (ASOIAF/GOT) - @thebcneless

Jon Solo (Star Wars) - @greatpxwer

Davits Draven (Star Wars) - @allianceintel

Magnus of Mercia (Vikings) - blog incoming

SEMI-ACTIVE | LOW ACTIVITY (9)

Harley Keener (MCU) - @starkconnected

Isaac Hughes-Stark (MCU) - @osirisrebcrn

Percival Graves (Fantastic Beasts/HP) - @gravefate

Magnus Graves (Fantastic Beasts/HP) - @immcvable

Brand of Dale (LOTR/Hobbit) - @martyrxdking

Brandon Snow (ASOIAF/GOT) - @northernseer

Gryff Whitehill (ASOIAF/GOT/TTGOT) - @sxmethingtoprxve

Ashley Stubbs (Westworld) - @galifuckinleo

Hel Greyback (Fantastic Beasts/HP) - @hxllhxund

CLOSED | ARCHIVED (9)

Sam Chisolm (Magnificent Seven) - @dulysworn

Cole Rogers-Stark (MCU/Marvel Comics) - @starkspangledjunior

Jack Thompson II (MCU) - @thompsonlegacy

Sam Kirk (Star Trek) - @firstbornkirk

Lorian (Star Trek) - @cptnlorian

Rickon Stark (ASOIAF/GOT) - @wildandfierce

Snap Wexley (Star Wars) - @snappyrecon

Mattia Solo (Star Wars) - @flawlessincompetency

Gareth Mallory (James Bond) - @lxngmayhereign