#my roomate is judging me rn :(

[peanutseagle]

sigma meal skibidi slicers

[humongousgothskeletonfarm]

tsc thoughts while reading (beware of spoilers) starting with -

david wymack my fucking beloved

also i never rlly liked/cared for thea but her scene with jean and her nickname for him was cute

chapter 3 thoughts:

jeremy being in awe of neil and the foxes is giving me life

fanfics with alvarez in them gonna go crazy now that we actually have a first name for her (and don’t have to invent one)

oh they rich rich (in reference to jeremy’s family butler?!)

jerejean first interaction!!!!

chapter 4:

omg sunshine court mentioned

having the sudden realisation that i can never read fanfics that have jean’s perspective or anything about the how the ravens work, raven!neil/aftermath of the kings men in the same way again

my neighbours are having a party and while i’m loving the music and absolutely jealous i’m not there, it’s really distracting me from reading

ngl i rlly miss neil and andrew and the foxes please let me see my family soon

‘ what you hold onto is less important than the act of holding on itself’ nora sakavic shut the fuck up you philosophical genius i’m gonna cry this is so real to me

renee i love u

WIT WTF JEAN IS NINETEEN I DIDNT KNOW THAT OH MY GOD BABY HE JOINED THE RAVEN LINEUP AT SIXTEEN WTF

i’m drinking red wine while reading and i think that’s appropriate… also i’m listening to that jean moreau playlist someone made and it’s mega depressing https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5zlPt63Ap0AjJQ1Ff5OKrd?si=75oEzLE8SO-bfJwewM8Evw&pi=a-ge04jIlVTJGY

this is so funny to only me but i’ve been hyperfixating on one direction again and zayn just dropped new music so everytime i read about jean’s raven roomate zane i think of one direction and confused myself a bit about what fandom i’m reading rn

fuck riko u sick fucking fuck u put jean into a box with a singular hole for air and left him to die u fucking cunt

KEVIN ASKING JEAN TO PROMISE NOT TO KILL HIMSELF AFTER NORA WROTE COUNTLESS DRAFTS IN WHICH JEAN KILLED HIMSELF WHILE ON THE PHONE TO KEVIN AND THE ONLY TIME SHE DIDNT KILL JEAN OFF IS THE VERSION SHE PUBLISHED AND THE REASON WE GET TO HEAR HIS STORY TODAY IM SO BROKEN

jean’s ‘gift’ from the ravens with his broken magnets, blacked out postcards and angry letters is making me cry he deserves so much better

slowly realising that this book is gonna be super triggering lol whoops

a cool evening breeze 🥲

THAT CREEPY LITTLE GOALKEEPER IS MY FAVOURITE GUY OK

‘kevin saw nothingn but the court, but jean had stopped hoping for more than that years ago’ shut the fuckkkk uppppp i cant do this anymore kevin/jean relationship is so deeply important to me (i say this about everything)

chapter 5:

SECOND NEIL/ JEAN INTERACTION OF THE BOOK IM SO FUCKING EXCITED

‘of course it’d be you, you tedious malcontent’ ‘good morning to you too’ is so ‘morning sunshine’ ‘fuck you’ coded (neil and matt bromance confirmed)

the amount of mitski on this jean playlist is making me sick

FUCKING SCREAMING OMFG THIS IS THE JEAN/NEIL CONTENT I YEARN FOR

‘abominable cockroach’ aww jean u say the sweetest things 🥰❤️ neil loves u too babe

literally devouring every last scrap of information jean feeds us about neil - his slow, hungry, hateful smile and the madness in his eyes (neil baby i love u never change)

oh jean don’t diss aaron, do u know how many fanfics have been written about u two

tsc is confirmation that jean moreau will come into ur house and judge u based on the contents of ur fridge (and then throw out ur stash of lollies)

‘to have a real match as a palate cleanser’ jean is really trying to win my favour by borrowing neil’s sassiness huh (no wonder i love them so much together) ((and yes i know he’s BEEN sassy ok))

jean reaching for the tv screen as if he could save neil and describing andrew running for neil as if hell was on his heels is making me absolutely giddy idk whether to scream or cry i’m doing both and i’m giggling

I bet on losing dogs is so jean moreau coded omg

holy fuck nora, the moments after the raven/fox match when riko tries to kill neil is fucking amazingly written. reading from jean’s perspective as he watches the game on tv, the tension, the breathless anxiety and confusion of the scene is palpable i coukd fucking taste it, my chest is tight just reading it

JEAN SAYING ANDREW WILL BE COURT IS IMMACULATE

[soombee]

🫂 ｡ﾟ⊹ you’ve built a home in my heart — 01. microwaved strawberries...?

:: u got up at 2 am to get some snacks at the convenience store down the street. for your inconvenience, you quietly opened the door to meet a peculiar sight, someone trying to sleep on the floor across the hallway because their roommate has their gf over .. ?

warnings ⚠️ none !!

word count : 700 / 0.7k words !!

incheon, 2:53 am

“ahh im so hungry,” you grab your keys and wallet from your vanity, “i wonder what seven eleven has rn..”

this hunger pierced through your stomach, it was a craving that refused to be ignored, demanding immediate attention. you walked over to the living area to find hyunjin laying on his stomach, watching a new episode of the kdrama he’s been binging throughout the week.

“oh yeah, which filling did u want in the riceball?” you remembered his reply under your tweet

“salmon or tempura’s good, thank u love” he muttered, still focusing on the tv screen

— the nickname “love” sure is a charming term of endearment, especially coming from your childhood bsf.

“do u want me to go with u? its like pitch black outside” the blond shifted his attention onto you

“no, ill be fine, thank u tho”

“alright then, be safe” he reverted his attention back to the screen, “i dont wanna sleep hungry tonight” he says in a teasing tone

“whateverr, dont blame me if u see a bite out of your onigiri” your giggles filled the room.

you turned the doorknob and walked over to the elevator. as u neared your destination, a flicker of movement caught the corner of your eye and your curiosity piqued. you stopped in your tracks and turned toward the source of the movement. and there they were, sprawled across the rough carpet flooring of the hallway, was an uncomfy stranger, his features softened by the dim glow of the hallway lights.

“what the..” you mumbled with confusion mixed with concern, “are you alright?” you voiced, extending a hand in an offer of assistance. he blinked up at you, a mixture of exhaustion and horror reflected in his eyes.

“oh, shit, i didnt think anyone would be awake rn,” he quickly sat up, “my bad, im not homeless or anything. my roomate js has his gf over and i did not wanna third wheel..” the handsome stranger explained with weariness

a moment of silence passed between you two. in that fleeting moment, you made a decision fueled by empathy and a tinge of adventure. “well, how about.. ” you proposed, a smile creeping upon your lips. “instead of the rough, ugly floor, you sleep at my place tonight? im sure my roommate wouldnt mind”

“forreal??” his tired eyes looked up at yours.

“duh, i cant let you sleep out here, what if u get abducted??” you couldn’t let his pretty face touch the dirty ground..

“alright then, where are you going rn?” he took your hand as support to stand up, he was quite tall..

“just the store down the street, wanna come with?” now you looked up at his head.

“yeah, my treat tho, as a thank you”

4:42 am

“oohh wait” riki rummages thru the tote bag 7eleven gave you, he pulls out the pack of strawberries he bought. he approached the microwave, “do you want some?” he turned around to ask you

“depends, what are u gonna do with thrm?” you tilted your head in confusion

riki places the strawberries in a bowl and washes them thoroughly. “microwave them” you squinted your eyes and let your eyebrows frown

“microwaved strawberries…?” you were star struck, he left you speechless

“yup” with a smile, he carefully placed the bowl of red strawberries inside and set the timer. as the microwave hummed to life, riki leaned against the counter, eagerly waiting for the warm strawberries that awaited him. the soft whirring grew louder, and he watched through the transparent window, gently warming the strawberries and releasing their sweet fragrance.

“at least try it before u judge me” riki turned around with a bowl of microwaved strawberries placed in his hands, “come try some”

you got up and walked over to him. u stood in front of the microwave, the bowl of freshly microwaved strawberries in rikis palms, and skepticism + excitement settled within u. u took a strawberry from the bowl and bit a piece off, a burst of unexpected flavors met your mouth. the warmth intensified the strawberry’s sweetness and released an enchanting aroma, it almost smelled like your perfume. it was definitely a delightful surprise.

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taglist :: @aernx 🫶

[aliceoracleollormusic]

I wish I could leave.

Hi you might not know me and I might not know you but it doesn't really matter, I just need to vent...

At least to myself and doing that by writting is for the very frist time in my life alluring.

tw ahead : psychological abuse and violence.

I'm at a point where my mind's fuzzy and I'm literally like , can someone pls numb my mind ? Coz' there's some moments that still makes me turn back to a mindset where I'm like I wish I could leave .

I wish I could leave. I really do.

But I'm 20 in 2 months 21 yo and doesn't have a stable income yet so I can't, I don't have to leave with my mom and my step-dad but in my father's house everything is so lonely and empty it scares me to death . Like I'm actually recovering from a 11 years of deep depression and suicidal crisis . So loneliness is to avoid at any cost.

But here's the thing. My mom's house.

My mom's house is very poorly served station, like ther's only one train each hour and it's 1 hour and a half long to go to the nearest city .

Back here I don't really know anyone coz' my life, friends , school is on the nearest city . So it is like a trap that I'm closing in on myself .

My step dad entered our lifes back when I was four . Back then from what my mom told me I was pretty happy to have a step-dad and he was happy to have me and my mom.

But something changed when my half little sister was born (8 yo). From then to now my step-douche has been really abusive , when I was judge too hysteric my step-douche and mom , but mainly step-douche , forced me into having a freezing cold shower to "calm myself down". And most importantly my step-douche used to hit me .It was only thwacks so back then being so young I didn't consider myself being a batttered child because he never leaved marks . But oh boy did he left ugly scars on my soul.

I've been in depression since then for many trauma throughout my life . But he sure is a constant abusive that lead me to lots of anxiety attacks , hating myself for being fat (he would and still does , now with the help of my little sister because she believes everything he says only 13 yo now. he's hiding every little snacks from me , saying he's helping me out coz' I'm fat. I'm curvy yes, but that shit really fucked me up during my teenagers years coz I thought noone would ever want me coz' I was fat.) That lead me to being in a toxic relationship with my highlyabusive ex boyfriend , but this is not the point of today's talk.

My step-douche doesn't hit me anymore coz' now I can defend myself and he knows I would call the cops. BUT he still insults me . like every 2 months I would say . Enough for me to make dozens of recordings at some points on one of my olds cellphones (no I don't have them anymore unfortunetly.) I've been to cops about it once, nothing 's been done ofc. And once our neighbourgs at our previous house had been alerted by my sreams so much that they called the cops . When they did arrived I was at the time in a state that my parents called "hysteric" which wasn't true ofc since it's made up , I was probably more doing an anxiety crisis. My mom ask him to stop insulting me from whore, to dick head, to go fuck yourself , to asshole, to shit and many more but only once everything has calmed down and ofc it does nothing coz' this guy only cares for himself and his daughters. When they argue (him and my mom) it's because she wants to leave him , but let's be real if she didn't when he used to hit me it's not gonna happen now.And no he's never gonna change and no I will never forgive him.

I don't think this post's gonna be read and if you do you would probably keep going about your day bc of different reasons but I don't know what to do.

Right now I'm just trying not to be triggered and go back to my suicidal thoughts but right now I really wish I could leave .

Leave to be roomates with whoever cares and give a fuck anything's better than keep being close to this messed up dick.

I wish I could hug you whoever is reading and just lay in the sun on the grass talking about everything and nothing.

I'm not depressed rn , just sad. It is really hard for me not to go back to where I come from (depression and suicidal thoughs) but it's not helping the little of ego and braveness that is left in me to be so insulted. And being considered like the thing trying to set my setp-douche and mom appart by him and my little sister who doesn't even imagine what I'm going through . I know it's not her fault I am just sad and trying to fill up the void in my bedroom tonight as I may go to bed feeling a single tear coming out of my eyes for me to try again my best tomorow .

Whoever you are I love you...

THank you for reading...

[killingtimewithpandemonium]

Tagged by @funkynoshes , thank you 💙💙💙

Rules: answer the questions and then tag bloggers you would like to know better.

Name: Kiana

Nickname: I don't think anyone really calls me any nicknames although I used to know a guy who always called me KitKat and I was pretty fond of that.

Zodiac: Pisces, and a very stereotypical one at that.

Height: 5′3" (or 5'2" if you ask either of my roomates but they're wrong)

Languages: Just English rn but i really really really wanna learn more. (Especially french and Italian)

Nationality: American

Favorite Season: AUTUMN!!

Favorite Flower: Sunflowers and California Poppies

Favorite Scent: vanilla and honey

Favorite Colors: Usually my go too color pallet is in the red/pink/orange/yellow zone but lately ive been gravitating towards a sort of light blue/dark blue/creme/gold thing so who knows really

Favorite Animal: Sharks, all sharks but I'm especially fond of bonnet head sharks they're baby.

Coffee, Tea, or Hot Chocolate: I mean they each have they're individual appeal is the thing. I think iced coffee in summer, cocoa in autumn, and tea in winter so they each get fair appreciation (spring deserves no appreciation beverage its evil)

Average amount of sleep: Bold of you to assume I sleep lol (like 3-5 hours most nights adhd is a bitch)

Dogs or Cats: Dogs and cats are both super great if we're just judging them as animals but i cant keep either as a pet, my preferred house animal is rabbit?

Number of blankets you sleep with: Well usually only one but theres always at least three on my bed of varying thicknesses bc I live in a garage and it sometimes gets really cold or really hot.

Dream Trip: Scotland (I just wanna disappear into a little foggy seaside town no ones ever heard of for a couple months with no one but me and maybe my bunny. Visit a lighthouse. Bake some bread. Just exist in an unfamiliar place until it becomes familiar yk?) Or Italy (a good portion of my moms side of our family is Italian and I REALLY wanna learn to actually cook Italian food the right way, and see the art there etc etc)

# of followers: 110

Random fact: Ive seen the band waterparks live once for every US tour they've ever been on (10? Times) the first like three were coincidental but once we realized we decided to just keep it going bc their tickets are usually cheap anyways and we haven't missed one yet (not being able to see live concerts during this pandemic has been killing me dude)

Ok I really don't have anyone specific in mind so I'm just gonna take the cowards way out and say if you're reading this and feel like doing it go ahead and assume I definitely want to know more about you and consider yourself tagged 💙

[supervillanelle]

I WANT U TO ANSWER QUESTIONS 14 THROUGH 50 FOR THAT ASK THING, OR IF THATS TOO INSANE A NUMBER JUST PICK SOME RANDOM ONES, IDK BUT I LIKE READING YOUR ANSWERS SO IF U DID ALL OF THEM I'D THINK THAT WAS GREAT anyway idk why im yelling now get 2 work

ALLISON WTF?????????????????? THATS 37 QUESTIONS IM LAUGHING SO FICKING HARD FGKSHSDUDUFUDUFIFKGIGIFIFUCUAGSGDHFJFIFJDJSJSUSJIVJCIHXHOXHCHXIGXYSYYDJFLKFDKFAKFAKGZZG IM GONNA DO IT HANG ON

(It was supposed to be 37 questions but i skipped the ones i had already answered, okay?)

16. Do you do art? Using what (pencil, watercolor, etc)?

Not at all 😩 i have no talents, babe

18. What’s your zodiac sign? Do you believe in astrology?

im a leo, and i dont believe in astrology, but sometimes i can relate to my sign

19. Favorite old film?

Old films are really not my thing BUT i really like scary movie 1 and 2, and the exorcist (those were the only old movies i could think of im sorry shakshskshsj)

20. What’s your hairstyle?

ugh okay its curly and brown and very short and it needs to be stopped

21. What weather is the most beautiful, in your opinion?

I really like when its sunny with clear skies but like, its not awfully hot, its just, nice

22. What upsets you most about the world?

Lots of things upset me, but two things upset me the most: how much prejudice there is, and how unfair the world is!!!

Like, sexism, homophobia, racism, thats so fucked up and some people actually agree with it??? lik what the fuck? how can you hate someone just for being different than you? and sexism is just so bad bc we’re so used to it that we accept all kinds of stuff bc its just normalized to us, you know? We accept men acting like shit and we agree with them and support their behaviour bc we learn that way, that men can be shitty and they dont have to try to be better people, but we’re so quick to judge women for literally anything they do, and it just keeps being normal to us!! we need to fucking change the way we act!!!

And with how unfair the world is, like, some people have so much while some have so little! its so fucked up!!!! and believe me, i know its not my place to say this bc im fucking privileged but its just so fucked up!!!!!! people like me who were born in a family with money just go through life so easily, we dont know shit anything and we still have the nerve to think we’re bettee than others, its so fucked up!!! And there are people who were born with no money, with no decent family, and just bc of that its allowed for them to live like shit? to not have any kind of support in life? if they need food, housing, medical care, they just have to deal with it and be strong and get through it, or start working as a fucking child?????? its just so fucked up but its never gonna change bc the people who really have money just dont wanna give up a tiny bit of their huge privilege to make it fair for everyone else, and everyone just have to be ok with all that???

23. Are you in love right now?

God no

24. Do you have a crush? If so, talk about them!

I have a lot of crushes GSKSBSKSBSKSBSK i have online crushes, i have real life crushes, i have crushes that mean nothing to me and i just like them so im not bored shakshjs BUT theres this girl, shes kinda bi? (that what she says), shes my friends sister and fuck i just wanna make out with her for 3 days nonstop, shes just so fucking pretty, and funny and hot and nice and smart and fuckkkkkkk im lonely

26. Do you have a lucky number?

Not lucky numbers but like, just numbers that i like, 5, 7, 12 and 15

27. Have you ever wished on a star? What about on a fallen eyelash?

On a fallen eyelash yes but its not something i do all the time lol

28. Do you believe emoji spells to work?

What the fuck are emoji spells?

29. Do you believe in magic in general?

Dude shakshskssh no!!!!!

30. What’s the most beautiful thing in life, In your opinion?

I dont know dude, i think freedom is pretty beautiful to me, having the freedom to do what you want, loving who you want, being loved, being happy with yourself without any pressure idk if that makes sense

31. Opinion on the color pink? What about baby blue?

I love both!!!!!!! Literally my thing

32. What instrumental sound is your favorite?

I love saxophone and violin!!

33. Do you like the sound of wind? What about the sound of rain?

Wind not so much, its kinda scary tbh, but the sound of rain is just great!!!

36. Imagine your ideal life, the life you wish to make, what will that look like?

Ok so i have like, two different thoughts, i either live in a small apartment, in a big city, im not good with living with other people but i hope this changes, so eithwr alone or with a roomate is fine by me, with a cat and/or a dog, and im happy with my life! Or, if i end up being super rich, i live in a big house, again by muself ot with roomates is fine, and i have way more than just a dog and/or a cat, and a big pool, and im happy with my life (tbh just picture jenna marbles’ life and its that!!

37. Do you wear makeup? If so what’s your favorite type of makeup or specific makeup product? Favorite store to buy makeup?

only when i go to some party or bar and i wanna make out with someone, otherwise i never use it, and i dont even have make up, i use my sister’s or my mom’s

38. Do you wear dresses? If so what’s your favorite dress you own?

I do!!! I cant really explain but like, its above the knee, no sleeves but like a thin strap? and its dark blue with little green zebras all over it

39. Ever been heartbroken? How do you deal with it?

Romantically or in a friendship? Yes for both. I just stay sad forever, but it just gets less shitty with time

40. Who’s your closest friend? What do you love about them?

In real life its this girl from college but rn shes actually mad at me so idk if shes still close to me lol but shes so nice and funny

41. Introvert or extrovert?

Introvert that becomes too much and bery annoying after you get to know

42. Do you like MBTI? What’s your MBTI?

I have NO IDEA what mbti is

43. Would you be a fairy, a mermaid, a vampire, a siren, a or an angel?

I think id be a vampire

44. What’s the best song a friend has ever introduced to you?

ive been thinking about this for a while now and i cant remember the last time someone showed me a song

45. Parlez-vous français?

No (thats no in french btw)

46. Most beautiful place you’ve been to?

London and nyc are fucking amazing

47. Where/when do you truly feel at home?

When im home alone in silence ugh amazing

48. Does smiling put you in a better mood? Try it right now, you’re smile is goreous!

Not really? Im good but thanks?

49. Favorite shoe you own?

All my flipflops, my converse and thats it

50. Can you walk in stilettos? Do you like them?

I can and i actually love wearing heels i think my legs look great on them

[softboyholland]

Could we have Spideychelle if they were in University? Love the headcanons you've had so far, they're so good~~~

ok because they’re really smart they both get into the same uni

with scholarships and all

can u believe

tony is a proud iron-dad

so he buys peter an apartment that is fully furnished as a ‘congrats, son’ gift

best dad ever

meanwhile, michelle is looking for a place that is cheap and affordable

she knows she could just go up to peter and room with him for a bit but her ego is too big for that

but it’s 2 weeks before her first sem starts and she’s homeless

because she already kinda told her parents that she has a place to live and all

she finds herself knocking on his door at 8 pm w her suitcase, in her pjs

ofc he answers and is shook

bc lets be real, when is he not shook

surprise surprise! there are 2 bedrooms

michelle crashes on the couch tho,,bc the other bedroom is covered in moving boxes

who knew peter had a lot of stuff amirite

actually, the whole apartment is a MESS

it’s covered in a bunch of boxes

but she’s too tired for that rn so she thanks him and she’s out in a few seconds

the next morning, she wakes up and she’s not on peter’s couch?? tf??

she sits up immediately and is ready to  F I G H T

but then she sees the blue lightsaber lying in the corner

and she’s like ‘oh, so i’ve not been taken’

she takes her time to really take in peter’s room

his bedsheets smell like him and everything is so cozy and warm and smol

she wants to lay here forever

but then it hits her

‘if she was here, where was he?’

he’s on the couch, passed out

she stands there and stares at him for a bit 

then she decides the best way to wake him up is by flicking his forehead aggresively (stydia, is that u?)

he’s panicked for a moment but then he sees her and he calms down

“i was fine on the couch, you know.”

‘i was out anyway, i didn’t get home till 3 am”

ah. spiderman duties.

she decides to make him breakfast, it’s the least she could do

but he convinces her to stay there permanently

they could split the bills

and

“it’ll be so cool, mj! we’d me roOMATES!”

and she agrees and

oh god what did she get herself into

part 2

ok so they’re one week into uni and things are good

turns out, that living with each other was a good thing

mj cooks for him bc lets be real, peter can’t cook for shit

she also cleans around the place and organizes his stuff because she’s secretly a perfectionist

it’s nice to come home to peter trying to hum the imperial march obnoxiously

peter isn’t a slob but he can be real annoying with his web fluids and whatnot

and mj is making friends??yay!!

turns out people at college are so much more cooler than the losers at midtown

though she misses them

ned is over like almost everyday

although her room is furnished now,

she falls asleep more on the couch than on her actual bed

but she never wakes up on the couch

hmm i wonder why

and there’s always a mug of tea waiting for her in the morning on the kitchen counter

she also always finds little chocolate bars on her pillow

esp after a stressful day

so life is basically gr8 right now

but then mid terms roll around

peter is surprisingly calm and chill about it

but he’s super smart so she gets that

she’s super stressed tho

cos she really wants to be responsible and make her parents happy

but it’s hard

she’s having the worst day

her first paper is in two days and she is nowhere near ready

her clothes are ruined bc of the pouring rain

and all her notes are ruined

she really wants to cuddle up in her bed and maybe eat one of the chocolate bars on her pillow

but then she hears it

she hears peter and a girl

she can hear said girl’s giggles coming from his room

and michelle is never jealous of another girl ok

WOMEN NEED TO SUPPORT AND LOVE EACH OTHER

but it’s hard when she’s having what could possibly be the worst day of her life and the guy she’s most definitely in love with is probably in there with some other girl who’s probably SO MUch more prettier than she is and she’s about to fail her mid terms

she wants to cry honestly

so she does

she does what every girl does

she grabs a tub of ice cream and aggresively sticks her spoon into it and sits on her bed

and reads

she’s reading a bunch of sad poems and she’s cryinf and her mouth is full of rocky road

and peter’s stupid chocolate bar is staring at her like he’s judging her from next door

once she’s run out of ice-cream, she calls her brother

“yes?”

and she cries

because she misses him and she misses midtown and she misses when peter parker was her nerd and she misses being responsible and actually good at school

but her brother has to be in south africa now, being a good doctor and shit

so she calls ned

and she’s having a panic attack now

and ned’s voice is so calming it makes her calm down for a bit

ned is at the apartment in a few

what a good friend honestly

and she starts crying again

because he’s such a nice person she doesn’t deserve him

ned realises that she’s just sad and stressed

ned also suspects that this has something to do with peter

once she’s asleep

he knocks on peter’s door

peter and girl are making out

ned is disgusted

so he chases the girl out and hits peter with all his strength

“dude! what was that for!’

“michelle was literally in tears and you’re making out with some girl?”

protective!peter

“what happened? where is she? is she ok?”

“yeah, no thanks to you.”

so ned tells him everything

and he’s like ‘the chocolate bars are sweet but i think she needs her roommate and her best friend.”

and peter’s mind kind of goes into a slideshow of all the times she’s been there for him

when ben died and she was the only one who didn’t give him that pity look

with his ptsd after the infinity war

helping him calm down and study for the sats

the one who told him his results mid-battle

the one who constantly takes care of him and his wounds after fights

the one who cooks him breakfast

the one who pushed flash into a bush when he was making fun of peter

and then he realises that he’s been such a fratboy dick lately

michelle only wakes up at 2 am the next morning

her room isn’t a mess anymore

there’s a glass of water at her bedside table

she tries to go back to sleep because call it a feeling but she just knows that peter is awake and she doesn’t want to look at him rn

she’s too hungry for that

so she carefully sneaks into the kitchen

it’s empty, thank god

there’s a container with some spaghetti in it

but oh wait! there’s a note

‘figured you’d be hungry. p.s. i didn’t cook this don’t worry’

she’s kinda still mad at him but halfway through the meal

she realises that peter is gonna meet other girls and his life isn’t going to revolve around her anymore

he’s probably going to marry some pretty girl who’s super smart and awesome and nerdy

and she’ll be all alone with her stupid college degree and a bunch of cats, still in love with peter parker

little did she know lmao

so she’s not really mad at him anymore but more mad at herself because of all the people in the universe, she had to go and fall for peter fucking parker

she decides to study because what good is being emotionally stable if she’s going to fail her mid-terms amirite?

so she pulls out her book and

OH MY FUCKING GOD YOU GUYS GET THIS

there are little flashcards waiting for her

and she already knows this is peter’s doing

her heart feels like it’s going to burst because it’s so full

so beyonce is blasting through her headphones

and she’s studying with this stupid smile on her face

because of peter fucking parker

thank god tomorrow is a saturday

peter stops being an asshole and running away from his crush on mj

they become a hella lot closer

michelle hugs him when she gets her results for the paper she was so worried about

she treats him when he gets his results

aunt may is secretly planning their wedding

ned really wants to propose to michelle on behalf of peter

tony may have a few rings picked out already oops

basically spideychelle is #married

[sunnysmiiles]

update: I AM STILL FEELING THE SAME only my head hurts so much more. I wanna take a nap but my roomate is likely gonna judge me and I really don’t wanna deal with it rn‼️

my head is killing me and i feel very utterly alone! I miss being young and having like 20 internet friends and just having people to talk to….I hate feeling so lonely and anxious