#my prof didn’t text or email me so hopefully he didn’t need me for today

[ihopeucomehomesoon]

accidentally slept for 10 hrs

[jungshookz]

Ramenboy!tae who works at a lil ramen joint and ur dragged there by Jungkook who loves to abuse Tae’s employee discount and wow they have a competition — eat this massive bowl of ramen in ten minutes and get free ramen for a month and u cannot lose to this heathen known as Jungkook and now u’ve made an awful first impression on Tae and ur mortified but he’s just impressed~ and high key thinks ur cute and now Jungkook needs to play matchmaker in the most disastrous way possible (cue chaos) 🔥anon

→ pairing: kim taehyung x reader

→ genre: nonidol!au, ramenboy!tae, comedy, tiny pinch of fluff, jungkook is an idiot and you might be one too because you just ate a gigantic bowl of ramen 

→ wordcount: 3.8k 

→ note: i’m sorry this took so lonG! u sent this in a while ago but i saved it in my notes because it’s.,, so cute,., this is less about taehyung and more about kook and y/n competing with each other lol!!!! my stomach exploded just thinking about eating five pounds worth of ramen idk how y/n did it 

(gif isn’t mine!) (also i was ecstAtic when i found this gif!!!! how pErfeCt)

this has quite possibly been one of the worst weeks in your entire life

you don’t know how it’s happened but on every single day of the week something has gone wrong for you

monday - your alarm didn’t go off so you accidentally skipped two veRy important lectures that were crucial for the finals

tuesday - your alarm diD go off but when you got to your first class (on time!) you didn’t realise that your prof sent out an email in the morning saying that there was a room switch for the day and the room was in a building located all the way on the oTHER end of campus so you basically missed out on half that lecture

wednesday - you have a big gap between classes on wednesdays so usually you just hang out and study in the library buT when you got there someone had taken your favourite spot so you were forced to go to the really, really quiet study area (no one’s allowed to make a peep otherwise ya get the booT) and when you stepped in you stumbled over someone’s laptop charger that was plugged into the wall and literally fell the floor in less than a millisecond with a big SMAK and everyone in that room looked like they wanted to rip your head off (especially the owner of the laptop charger)

thursday - you ordered a chocolate almond milk and banana smoothie because you wanted to treat yourself but somehow they fucked up your order and it tasted like they threw oranges into your smoothie instead of bananas and by the time you decided you wanted to go back and demAnd that they fix your order the line was like a hundred feet long so you were forced to throw out your $10 smoothie

friday - todAY,., you got your grades back for your midterms and uh.,,. all i’m going to say is u might want to spend a little more time studying and a little less time on tumblr

whatever

you’re just glad it’s finally friday because you are going to hibernate in your room over the weekend to recover from everything

you were going to head straight back to the apartment after classes today but jungkook insisted that you guys hang out today!!! even though you basically see each other every day!!!!

unfortunately you’re just not in the mood to do anything because you’re grumpy and tired

also it’s that time of the month

so like

you really reALLY aren’t in the mood to do anything

but of course

because it’s jungkook

he didn’t give you a choice (he dropped to his knees and literally just started sCREAMING until you said you would hang out with him and then he hopped back up onto his feet and was like heehee oki!! let’s go, friend!!!! as he wasn’t just screeching a lung out in the middle of the schoolyard a second ago)

and this is where he decides to take you

a dinky ramen joint in the city

“why couldn’t we just have gone to watch a movie?” you groan and flop your head back “also we had lunch like two hours ago-“

“and your point is??” jungkook scoffs as he flips through the menu

“if we eat now it’s going to ruin our appetite for dinner and thaT’s going to throw everything off course- hey quit iT” jungkook reaches back blindly to whack your face gently to shut you up

ur a great person and he likes u a lot but you need to relax ur asshole sometimes (he literally said that to you within the first week of knowing you and when you gawked and responded with ‘my asshole is SO relaxed and loOSE right now!!!!!!’ in the middle of the cafeteria he knew that this friendship was meant to be)

“listen, i was craving ramen and i always come here because i know one of the guys who works here so i always get a discount…” jungkook trails off as he continues looking through the menu “okay, i know what i want!”

“okay give me a second to- woAh-“ jungkook drags you into the restaurant before you get a chance to look at the options

oh

this place is a lot bigger than it looks

spacious booths on both sides with obscenely red leather seats

square tables scattered around the place

it seems like it’s doing pretty well in terms of business because almost all of the tables are full

“jungkook!” both you and kook turn at the source of the sound

who is

who is tHAT

floppy, soft brown hair peeking out from behind a red bandana

a little blue apron wrapped around his tapered waist

a stained white v-neck (it looks vEry good on him and usually u hate v-necks on guys)

and his smile is very.,,. boxy?

your eyes widen when he approaches you two

you immediately duck behind jungkook and pray to god that you look somewhat presentable

you look down at your outfit

okay

jeans and a cute little flowery blouse

okay!!! not bad!!! hopefully your eyeliner hasn’t moved from your eyes to your chin tho

“hey, man!” they do one of those bro-hug things and he gives jungkook a couple pats on the pack

jesus

even his hand is hot

“table for one, as per usual?”

oh my god

and that voiCE?

silky smooth is the only way to describe it

“i actually brought someone with me this time! this is y/n.” jungkook points behind him and you poke your head out a little

taehyung tilts his head to get a better look at you and he offers you a warm smile

your heart skips a beat and you feel your cheeks grow warm

“ah, so this is a date?”

“taehyung, please.” jungkook scoffs and pauses “…my standards are higher.”

“hEy-“ you scowl and smack his arm before moving out from behind jungkook

you turn to face taehyung and you smile shyly “hi”

he sticks his hand out for you to shake and you take it graciously

he gives you a firm shake

“hi! i’m taehyung but you can call me tae if you’d like. any friend of jungkook’s is a friend of mine!” he grins and grabs two menus from the front before leading you guys to a booth in the back

you slide in on one side and jungkook slides in on the other side

taehyung hands each of you a menu

“i’ll be back with some water and to take your orders in a couple minutes!”

“okay, thank you!” you chirp and let your eyes linger for a couple seconds as taehyung walks off to wait on another table

jungkook narrows his eyes at you for a brief second

interesting

veRy interesting

“ah, let’s see what’s good…” jungkook hums and opens up the menu while stroking his chin

what a dork

“you literally jusT checked out the menu outside-“  

“hey. look at this!” jungkook pulls a flyer out of the menu before flipping it over to show you

he wiggles his eyebrows

you squint and lean forward to read the small text

you should’ve brought your reading glasses with u

“the big bowl challenge… finish a five pound bowl of ramen in ten minutes and get free ramen for a month-“ your eyes widen and you pull away as if jungkook just zaPPed you “are you insane?! five pounds???”

“it wouldn’t hurt to try!!! if you finish the bowl, it’s free!!! and free ramen for a month?!” jungkook points to the flyer again

“well, you go ahead and enjoy filling yourself up, i’m just going to get a normal sized bowl of ramen.” you scoff and shake your head as you flip through the menu

their new spicy ramen looks pretty good

you might go for that one

ooH and it comes with a side of dumplings for $2 extra

“you just don’t wanna do it because you know you’re going to lose.” jungkook sighs and leans back against the booth and casually flips through his menu

you drop your menu and gawk at him “wha- lose?? trust me, if we were to compete, you would be the loser here.”

“all bark, no bite…”

you clench your jaw in frustration and let out a huff

jungkook knows how competitive you are and he knows exactly which buttons to press to get you to fall for his tricks every single time

he’s so sneAKy

“c’mon, let’s do it together! i know how to make things more interesting. not only will we be racing against the clock - we will also be racing against each other.”

huh

that doEs make things more interesting

“what happens if i beat you?” you raise a brow and put the menu down

your spicy ramen and dumplings can wait for next time

“mm… i’ll buy you smoothies for a week. and if i win, you have to do my laundry for a week.”

oh groSS

you don’t want to do jungkook’s laundry

he has spiderman boxers with holes in them n stinky socks

but those smoothies are expensive

and really yummy

are you reALLY going to force yourself to consume a five pound bowl of ramen just to shove it in jungkook’s face

also,…,., do you really want taehyung to sEE you consume a five pound bowl of ramen

“-and i will be partaking in your ramen competition.” you snap out of it when you realise jungkook’s already ordering for you guys “and we’re alsO going to compete against each other to see who can finish their bowl the fastest!”

you can’t really change your mind now

you’re not a coWARD

you sit up a little straighter before propping your chin up on your palm and reaching up to tuck a strand of hair behind ur ear

hopefully u look cute under this dim lighting

“oh, really?” taehyung looks between the both of you before scribbling it down on his soup-stained notepad “my money’s on y/n.”

“you’re a traitor.” jungkook responds immediately and slaps his menu shut “y/n’s going down and she’s going to do my laundry for a week.”

taehyung gasps lightly before shaking his head and tuning to look at you “god y/n.,., you better win because one time jungkook left a pair of socks at my place and i swear to god i was this close to moving out because of the stench… i don’t want anyone having to go through the pain of-”

“okAY okay don’t u have a job to do???” jungkook scowls and hands his menu to tae and you do the same

“i will return shortly with two monstrous bowls of ramen!” taehyung chirps and heads off towards the kitchen

you let out a little sigh before leaning back against the booth

jungkook clears his throat

“what… was that?”

“what are you talking about?”

“y’know, the-“ jungkook starts giggling like a maniac and reaches up to pretend to tuck hair behind his ears over and over again “that!”

“i have no idea what you’re talking about. also, just out of curiousity-“ you take a small sip of water, “how do you know taehyung?”

jungkook pokes his tongue into his cheek before leaning back and crossing his arms

“why do you ask?”

“i told u it was out of curiosity” you respond innocently and shrug

“we’re in the same literature class. he’s a pretty nice guy!” jungkook nods before going quiet “.,,.,.he’s also a pretty single guy.”

you give him a pointed look “don’t do that.”

“what?? you were curious and i answered your question!”

“i’m terminating this conversation.” you roll your eyes and cross your arms

jungkook hums and leans over to check out the little boxes of extra toppings on the side

pretty standard stuff

extra green onion.,.some ginger.,,. salt, pepper, chilli powder

“you ever think about how long it takes for people to shred green onion into these thin little-“

“how long have you known him for?”

jungkook’s shoulders droop

obviously this conversation has been resurrected from your termination

“ah… almost a year?” he shrugs and peeks into the little pot of shredded green onions

you gawk at him and lean forward

“…and you didn’t think to introduce me to him until now-“

“i thought you weren’t interested.” jungkook slaps the ceramic lid back onto the pot

“i’m just making conversation”

“i juSt tried to make conversation about green onions and you completely shut that down-“

“also, going back to my point, i never even asked you if he was single or not, all i asked you was how-“

“but if you were to ask me if he was single or not then i would respond with, yes, y/n, taehyung is very single and i’m sure-“

“alrighty, here we go!” you immediately shut up and give jungkook a warning look when taehyung appears at your table carrying two trays propped up on his shoulders

you swallow thickly when you see his biceps flex slightly

.,,.yes.

Yes To All Of That.

taehyung sets your bowl down in front of you carefully as to not have any soup splash out-

oh god

this bowl is.,., it’s a loT bigger than you thought it would be

there are like four boiled eggs in here

a tiny mountain of shredded green onion

six pieces of seaweed

ten thin slices of pork

you reach up and tie your hair up into a ponytail

ya gotta put the hair up when it’s time to get down n dirty

“get ready to lose, y/l/n” jungkook grins and rubs his hands together in anticipation

“in your wildest dreams, jeon.” you snap back immediately and pick your chopsticks up

“since you guys are competing, i brought two timers for you“ taehyung plops two little clocks down in between the two of you and you make sure to smile politely at him before looking back at your bowl

you don’t mean to brush him off but you’re tryINg to figure out the most strategic way to finish a bowl of ramen this big

and so it goes

the next ten minutes of your life will be the most important ten minutes in your entire life

here’s your game plan:

eat aLL the toppings first to get them out of the way

just go hAM on the slurping

use your chopsticks to really shovel and paCK the noodles into your mouth

if necessary don’t even chew!!!! just swALLOW

and then at the end chug down the broth because by the time you finish the noodles the broth will have cooled down a little bit

jungkook’s game plan is just to eat and enjoy himself

he doesn’t care whether he beats you or not

he just wants to see you shovelling food into your mouth like a maniac in front of his friend that he’s pretty sure you’re vERy attracted to

evil??? only a little bit

>:-)

“alright, you two ready?” taehyung keeps his fingers hovered over the start button on each timer “in 3, 2, 1… go!”

you immediately slurp up a giaNT spoonful of noodles and regret that decision almost instantly because hOT HOT HOT

it doesn’t matter

you gotta do whatever it takes to win

whATEVER it takes babY

okay jungkook was originally going to just enjoy himself but his competitive streak has officially kicked in so now he’s slurping up the noodles just as quickly as you are

side note

the broth is actually really good

and the eggs are cooked to perfection

and the noodles are also cooked to perfection

perfEctly chewy and perfectly slurpable

you definitely see yourself coming back here and it’s noT just because that taehyung boy is cute okay

speaking of taehyung

he is vEry impressed with your progress so far

most of the people he’s seen do this challenge have struggled a bit at the start but you seem to be doing just fine

jungkook’s noodles keep slipping from his chopsticks and taehyung laughs lightly when some of the broth splashes onto his face

he wonders why jungkook’s never mentioned his cute friend that he’s realising he might be slightly attracted to even though he literally only knows your name

u cute

u real cute

“you’re eating like an animAL-“

“says the one shovelling noodles into her mouth!”

“at least i-“

you and kook simultaneously bicker anD eat and taehyung snorts when you threaten to shove a spoonful of chilli powder uP his- [statement redacted]

you pause for a split second when you see jungkook literally swaLLow half an egg

good god

wat dat mouf do

swallow half a boiled egg apparently

“tiME” you smack your hand against your timer and wipe your mouth with the back of your hand because you feel yourself dribbling a little bit

let’s see

nine minutes and thirty eight seconds

not bad!! for a FIVE pound bowl of ramen

jungkook slurps up the last of his serving and whacks the timer

nine minutes and fifty two seconds

oOh

close call

jungkook drops his chopsticks into the bow and pats his chest a couple times before wincing in discomfort “the noodles are stiLL going down the hatch”

“alright, that’s ti- oh.” taehyung rounds the corner and hits the side button on his watch “you’re both done!”

“yep, we’re both done..” you smile weakly

you don’t know if you can ever eat another bowl of ramen again

you don’t know if you can look at boiled eggs the same way without imagining one sliding down jungkook’s throat

“congratulations, you two!” taehyung peeks into both of your bowls to make sure there’s nothing left “you’re both the noodle champions!” he stacks your bowls together and picks them up “i’ll be back with your prize t-shirts!!”

great.,,. you’re both nooDle champions.,,. but at what coST

o god

and taehyung just witnessed you inhale a five pound serving of ramen 

his first memory of you.,,.is seeing you shovel like five pieces of pork into your mouth while glaring at jungkook 

ahHHHH 

aT WHAT COST

“i think i’m pregnant.” you groan and lie down on your back

you sit up a little to look at kook “and i think it’s yours.”

jungkook glances back over at you “if it’s a boy, we name it ramen. if it’s a girl, we name it ramena.” he slouches back against the booth and stares into space “i have something to tell you too”

“what”

“i’m definitely pregnant and it’s definitely yours.” he rubs a hand over his bloated tummy and lets out a louD belch and you groan quietly

“you’re repulsive”

“i’m carrying your child, how dare you speak to a pregnant man like that?” jungkook sits up quickly but immediately regrets it

he lets out another belch and you whine before throwing a balled up napkin at him

god

u can smell it from here

“oh, god. the baby’s coming.”

“if you puke it all out you’re immediately disqualified-“

“i don’t caRE the bABY’S COMING-“ jungkook slides out of the booth and you can’t help but laugh at the sight of him sprinting to the washroom

you stop laughing when you feel the ramen coming up a little bit but you swallow it down because there’s no way you’re losing after that baTTle

“where’s kook?” you jump and immediately sit up  

you point to the washroom “he’s about to give birth to a ramen baby through his mouth”

“…huh” taehyung kisses his teeth “well, do you want your picture up on the wall?” he shakes the polaroid camera and your eyes widen in mild panic

heCk no you don’t want your picture up on the wall

“oh, god no. i do not want anyone knowing that i ate a five pound bowl of ramen in less than ten minutes.” you snort and shake your head

taehyung laughs lightly before pointing to himself “but i know that you ate a five pound bowl of ramen in less than ten minutes.”

“mm, that’s true.” you purse your lips before sticking your pinky out “pinky promise you won’t tell?”

taehyung grins and sets the camera down so that he can wrap his pinky around yours

he stands up a little straighter and clears his throat

“i promise,” he presses a hand to his chest, “i, kim taehyung, will not tell anyone that you, y/n y/l/n, successfully consumed a five pound bowl of ramen in less than ten minutes-“

“good-“

“iF-“

“…if?” your brows knit together in confusion

if

if whAT

“if you give me your number.”

huh

you have to admit that was kind of smooth

and unexpected

but a nice kind of unexpected

you snort and feel the apples of your cheeks growing warm 

you clear your own throat before sliding out of the booth and getting up

taehyung stands up straighter as you press your own hand to your chest “i, y/n y/l/n, will happily give you, kim taehyung my number if you don’t tell anyone that i successfully consumed a five pound bowl of ramen in less than ten minutes.”

keep in mind the two of you still have your pinkies locked together

taehyung nods firmly and lets go of your hand

“your country thanks you.” he salutes and you can’t help but giggle when his right eye drops in a wink  

you feel your heart go all warm and gushy

and it’s noT from the heartburn

:-)

okay wait

it might be a little from the heartburn  

help me help you make your wishes come tru (aka send me a request)

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[seasonalherpes]

Gratefulness Post on the Eve of my 21st Birthday

I never write text posts, but somehow I had to get this joy nugget off my chest. When I was a kid, my only dream was to work hard, live in a big town, and work in a lab. My childhood idol was Marie Curie, so while it was rather vague, I knew that at some point in my life I wanted to write some stuff down in a chart while wearing a white coat.  Two years ago, I got accepted in the Psychology program at McGill, which is a few hours from where I come from. I also got accepted (with bursaries covering full tuition) at some universities near my hometown, and my parents offered to pay for an apartment back home for my partner and I to live in. I didn’t have savings past a few thousand bucks, which apparently is not even enough to buy all your textbooks for the first semester, but I knew what I wanted to do. I moved to Montreal!!!! It was so scary!!! So many of my close friends were genuinely hurt - and I felt their pain - because I chose to move away and my dedication to my studies and work was gonna prevent me from visiting. I also had little to no money, and I had - at the most - two friends in this new town. My boyfriend was finishing up a contract back home before joining me, so I spent the first two months fully alone, sleeping with a hunting knife like a mature and responsible adult. Two weeks after I moved was my birthday, and I was working at Walmart at the time. It was honestly extremely humiliating, because people in big towns apparently love dehumanizing retail employees, and I would get belittled so many times a day most of my breaks were spent crying. And I have been in retail since I was 14; I have had my share of assholes. However, there had never been so many so often, and it was almost impossible to handle. So on my 19th birthday, I worked a whole eight hour shift at Walmart, ate my lunch in silence in a terrifyingly small breakroom, got a plate thrown at me because I said we ran out of bubble wrap, and then left at 4pm with absolutely no clue what to do with myself. I ended up eating a crêpe at a frozen yogurt place, and then went to the movie theater all alone. Honestly, the second I heard my first lecture, it felt like a thousand additional plates could have been thrown at me and it would’ve been worth it. I really thought it was only gonna be uphill from there. But then I made a bunch of mistakes, and out of a true lack of confidence, missed out on a ton of opportunities. I tend to be a very assertive and bold person when I want to, but that trait always gets turned off when I don’t know what I’m doing. And I definitely did not know what I was doing then. So I stayed in a cute little corner, sent a few emails around looking for work, and actually never found anything remotely close to my field for my first summer break. So, on my 20th birthday, one year after moving to Montreal, I worked on that exact day as a phone lady for a furniture company. I had to lie to get the job, saying I was taking a break from my studies, and the lady seemed weirdly excited to meet me. I quickly found out why: while I tend to show up at every workplace in incredibly chic, professional clothes, everyone there was dressed like they had given up on life. I had also studied everything about that company to get that job, making me sound like the next CEO of Apple.

So on my 20th birthday, I showed up for my first day at a job I didn’t intend to do for more than a month, and actually got sent to the boss’ office to be told I was going to be trained to become a manager in a few months. For someone who wants a job in customer service, this would have been a dream. But for me, who had lied my way through thinking there would be no repercussions, it was nauseating. I was terrified of letting this nice woman boss down, I was terrified of all the employees getting to know me and seeing that I was a major nerd who would never ever quit school, and worst of all I was terrified at the thought of riding a train of lies for forty hours a week for the next month. So, I spent the entire day working, hiding in the bathroom, and running out as fast as I could at 5 o’clock. I remember discovering that the next bus out was in 30 minutes while I was straight up in the middle of an industrial desert, and choosing to run back home in my fancy loafers because I was terrified of staying near the office for a second more. 

That night, I went to dinner with my partner, tried not to cry the entire time, and then I ran back home to work on my disappearance. I made all of my social media accounts insanely private, blocked the company’s emails, blocked the company’s fifty phone numbers, turned my wifi off, put my phone on airplane mode, then put it on night mode on top of it, and then finally lost my mind and took the SIM card out of my phone and cried myself to sleep. I never showed up for work the next day, staying off the grid for the following week (I even took my friend’s phone to call my parents and tell them I was doing a “technology cleanse”.). 

This takes us to this last year. That year, something in me changed. I realized that as long as I was working towards my goals and doing what I wanted, nothing could take me down. I took out a loan to stop doing crazy jobs, booked some extra classes to advance me as a student, and vowed to be “extra”. 

Being extra meant always going one step further. I would show up to class dressed up. I would go see the teacher after class. I’d send them emails about fun youtube videos related to class materials. I’d contact every single person who worked in a Psychology lab in town. I would go to all the mixers, regardless of how long it would take me to recharge. Knowing I was aiming for a doctorate, I studied for entrance exams exactly one year before most people would start thinking about taking them. I kept up with current researchers like a true stalker. If you want to know what Simon Baron-Cohen is doing right now, trust and believe that I can tell you. 

I can’t actually say this was easy, because it was honestly the hardest year of my entire life. My partner of countless years briefly left me because of mental health issues we both had not seen coming, I spent a whole month selling my book collection to pay for groceries, I failed one of my favourite classes because I kept falling asleep in the days before the final, then learned I was falling asleep because I had contracted mono, and two weeks later I was told I needed heart surgery due to a disease I had had under control since birth. I actually started laughing in the cardiologist’s office, because of how ridiculous that year was. He did not laugh, but I was thorougly entertained.

Still, being extra paid off. In November, an Honour student asked me to help with her research project, and I got so excited I spent night after night in the school’s library. I read and tweaked and rewrote pieces of her paper countless times, and she got an A! She loved my work and energy so much that she recommended me at her lab, and they immediately hired me!!! Then, some fantastic profs agreed to help me with my applications, and with their help I was handpicked to work at a top hospital in a rehabilitation program. As an undergrad!!!!! At that point, I could already have died happy.

I actually took a step back for a month to get my heart fixed, so while this incredible interview happened a few weeks ago, I only started working today. On the eve of my 21st birthday. In the morning, I went to my lab, put on a white coat, pulled out my files, and tested some participants. Then, I had a super fun conversation with a friend from work, who giggled at the sunburns my partner and I got at the waterpark this weekend. He also told me I got the approval on one of the projects I want to run, so (if I work hard enough) I will now have numerous projects under my name published even before I graduate . Then, in the afternoon, I took off my white coat, walked a few meters to the neurological hospital, put on another lab coat, took the cart with the girl training me, and we went around helping out patients. The work was so unbelievably gratifying, I still can’t believe it. One patient was apathetic when we arrived, but actually grew so happy that by the time that we left, she thanked me for reminding her of her youth again.

That was the eve of my 21st birthday. After two whole years of messes, confusion and fear, I actually finally got everything I was aiming for. Since I want to be a Clinical Psychology Doctorate student, I still have a long way to go before I get where I want to be. But for now, one whole year before I finish my Bachelor’s degree, I am already changing people’s lives in a concrete, tangible way, and writing up research that will influence my field and hopefully make a dent in the mystery that is the human brain. 

I work hard, I live in a big town, and I work in a lab. I don’t have everything figured out, but on the eve of my 21st birthday, I got to write stuff down in a bunch of charts and wear a white coat. 

Tomorrow, I cleared my schedule so I wouldn’t have to work. Thankfully, my budget can now handle it. I am going to go eat a crêpe at a frozen yogurt place, before watching a movie all on my own. I want to relive that 19th birthday as a way to commemorate it, as a way to remind myself that it will always get better. Those crêpes are gonna be delightful, and I won’t be wearing a Walmart uniform while eating them. And that movie is gonna be so great; I will go see it because this type of movie is my guilty pleasure, not because I am alone in a big scary town. 

Remember that things always get better. They don’t always evolve at the speed we would want them to, and god knows there are going to be numerous setbacks on the way. Your mono could put you to sleep right as you’re cramming for that big final, your relationship could be on a break for weeks, or your heart could quit on you just for the heck of it. That’s okay. You can do it. You can lift mountains, you can split oceans apart, and you can absolutely conquer the world. Keep holding on, stand by everything you believe in, and your hard work will pay off. 

[writer-k-pop]

School Sucks

Description: You’re still a student and lately its been more and more difficult. You’re stressed because of upcoming tests and projects. But luckily your boyfriend is there to help. [TOTAL FLUFF]

Warnings: Slight swearing 

This is very long and I’m sorry for that but hopefully you enjoy it! xx

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Kim Seokjin

“Shit!” You exclaim. Leaning back in your desk chair, you glance at the clock. 8pm. 

Okay, it’s not that late yet. You think to yourself. You stretch your neck before plugging in your headphones and going straight back to the paper that refuses to be finished. Being so attached to your laptop, you didn’t hear when your boyfriend enters your home using the key you had gotten him a few months back. 

You don’t even notice when he knocks and opens your door. 

Jin sees you at your desk, face just inches from your screen as your eyes scan the page for the information you need. He knows you’re stressed and doesn’t like seeing you so stressed. 

Rubbing the back of his neck, he walks over to you and taps your shoulder. You jump slightly, not expecting the touch, and turn around.

“Oh, Jin, when did you get here?” You ask, giving him a hug.

“Like two minutes ago.” He replies, rubbing your back. “What are you working on?” 

You sigh, “It’s my research paper for class.”

“How’s that going?” He asks, moving to massage your shoulders when you sit back down.

“Awful, Jin, just awful. I just can’t seem to write it and it has to be five pages and I’m sitting here with two. TWO!” You put your head in your hands, “This is stupid. I hate this.” 

“You need a break.” Jin says defiantly and spins your chair back to face him. 

Before you can realize what he’s doing, he has you over his shoulder and begins walking out of your room. 

You slap his back, “Jin! Where- I have to finish this paper! Put me down~!” You whine but he doesn’t flinch.

He walks until he reaches the living room and sets you down on the couch. 

“Don’t move.” He commands but as soon as he’s in the kitchen, you bolt right back to your laptop. 

Not two seconds after you sit down, Jin runs into the room. He closes your laptop before picking you up yet again. 

Instead of going straight to the living room, he walks to the kitchen and grabs a tray of fruits and snacks he prepared. With you and the tray in tow, he makes it to the living room and sets down the tray of food before setting you down. 

“What are you doing?” You ask as he wraps his arm around you, preventing you from escaping back to your room.

“We are taking a break, (y/n).” He says turning on the TV. “You are too stressed so I’m fixing that. At least for a little bit. Ahhh.” He says and holds a strawberry for you to eat. 

You eat it and pout even though the strawberry is really sweet. You cuddle closer to Jin as a random movie begins to play. 

“You’re a good student, (y/n), and I know you’ll finish the paper, so just relax for a little bit, okay?” Jin says quietly into you hair before kissing you. 

You nod and feel a wave of exhaustion hit you like a bus. Jin notices your eyes drooping shut, grabs the blanket next to him, and laying it over you.

He smiles at you as you drift off.

“I love you, (y/n).” 

Min Yoongi

What is THAT?! You think to yourself as you stare at your text book. We never learned that in class!?

You’re spending a chill day at the boys’ dorm but what was supposed to be a couple hours of studying have turned into hours and hours of confusion and searching for the right answers. You’ve basically taken over the whole kitchen table with your notes, homework problems, textbooks, and writing utensils. 

Yoongi has been dropping by every now and then to see how you’re doing and making sure you’re drinking water and eating some snacks to stay focused. 

“Fuck!” You yell throwing your highlighter and pen off the table. Sighing, you put your head in your hands. 

Yoongi briskly walks in and looks at the pens on the floor, then to you, and back to the pens. He picks up the highlighter and pen as you move to get back to studying. 

“Oh, Yoongi!” You say as you spot him across the table. “I’m sorry. This class is stupid and I’m like 100% certain we did not learn any of this stuff in class. My teacher’s crap.” 

“What subject is it?” He asks, picking up some papers and looking them over.

“Philosophy.” You say, flipping the page of your textbook, “Dumbest class to ever exist.” You peek under the table looking for you highlighter and pen. “Hey, have you seen my-”

Yoongi holds up the two writing utensils and smirks, a plan developing in his head. “These?”

“Can you give them back, please?” You ask, holding out your hand.

“And if I don’t?” He asks, his mischievous grin growing.

“Yoongi, please.” You whine.

“Come and get them.” He says.

Groaning, you get out your chair and walk over to him. Standing three feet in front of him you holding you hand.

He shakes his head, “Closer.” You take a step closer but he motions you to come closer. As you do so he reaches his hand out and grabs your hand. Throwing the utensils on the table, he drags you away from your study materials and into the living room as you struggle against his grip.  

“Yoongi, I have to study.” You complain when he cuddles you on the couch.

“It can wait 30 minutes, (y/n).” Yoongi says kissing your cheek. “I think you can afford to give your boyfriend thirty minutes, no?”

You sigh. “I guess I can.” You give in and get more comfortable. “But if I fail this test, I’m blaming it on you.” 

He laughs, “You won’t fail, (y/n). You’re too smart for that. Too smart.” 

Kim Namjoon

“When will you be done with that?” Namjoon asks you as you flip the page of your textbook.

You shrug, “I have no idea, Namjoon. I have a test tomorrow and need to study.”

“Can I help?” He asks.

You shrug again, “I don’t know if you can, I’m sorry.”

He nods in understanding, “I’ll be in the other room if you need anything, okay?”

You nod and go back to reading the page full of words that you supposedly need to know.

Your phone buzzes with a message from (y/f/n). 

Yo, we have to know chapter 8 for the test too. Prof just emailed us. The text read.

Are you serious?! You reply in a slight panic and check your email on your computer.

“Hello all, sorry for the late notice, but I wanted to remind you that the test tomorrow covers chapters 5,6,7, AND 8. Good luck!”

“MOTHERFU-” You yell and kick your legs out. But you completely forgot about the bar underneath the table and ram your shin into it. “Oh shit.” You mumble gripping you leg. “Oh shit, that hurt.” 

Namjoon runs into the room, “What happened???” 

You wince as you rub your leg. “I just hit my leg on the table.”

“How?” He asks walking over to you and checking your leg.

“My professor just emailed us and told us that our tests covers a whole extra chapter and I got mad and hit my leg.” You say.

“Well you definitely bruised it.” He says looking at the red mark on your shin. 

“This is impossible.” You groan.

“Impossible for who?” Namjoon asks.

“Me!” You say, “There’s no way that I’m going to be able to study for all four chapters in a day!”

“You can do it.” Namjoon gives you a kiss on the cheek, “You’re smart and you can do it.”

You sigh, not believing him.

“Come on, let’s get some ice for your leg and take a break.” He says, standing up and bringing you up as well.

“Why?” You allow yourself to be pulled up.

“Because you love me and I’m cute?” Namjoon inflects and pokes his cheeks. You laugh and nod.

“I do love you.”

Jung Hoseok

“Screw this. Screw that.” You mumble to yourself while throwing crumpled up pieces of paper towards the trash. You were at your house trying to come up ideas for an essay that is due in three days but nothing is coming to mind.

You phone buzzes and you quickly grab it, eager for a distraction.

I’m coming over now! I have coffee and food! Your boyfriend, Hoseok, texts you. 

Okay, I’m doing homework so I’m sorry in advance if I’m not around. You text back and get right back to this darn english essay you have to write. 

30 minutes later and no idea has come to mind. Like none. There are crumpled balls of paper thrown all over your living room and you’re frustrated.

“I’ve arrived!” Hoseok yells when he opens the door. “Where’s my girl?”

“In the living room.” You call back, “Frustrated as hell.” You add under your breath. 

“What are you doing?” He asks, sitting down on the couch and scanning the mess you have made.

“I have an essay due in a few days.” You tell him. “And it’s stressing me out.” 

“Why?” 

“Because I have no idea what to write about.” You lean back on your hands.

He takes a sip of his coffee, forearms resting on his knees. “What’s the topic?”

“It’s a research paper. I have to find a topic and write about it’s history and impact on today’s society.” You explain.

“Have you tried...” Hoseok pauses and thinks, “What about cell phones? Boats? Books? Music?” You shake your head after every one.

“I’ve thought of all those but nothing has stuck!” You lean forward and lay your head on the table. 

“What about you pick an influential company and write about that?” He suggests.

Your eyes shoot open. “Oh my goodness! You’re a genius! I’ll do it on SM Entertainment and their impact on the KPOP music industry!” 

Hoseok smiles proudly, grabs his drink, and lays out on the couch like he’s the best thing in the whole world. 

“I’m what?” He asks cockily.

“You’re a genius and I love you.” You smile and throw a ball of paper at him.

He smirks, “I love you, too, (y/n).”

Park Jimin

Two days. The project is due in two days.

And it isn’t even halfway done. Fuck. 

You roll your neck from side to side and breathe out. In your head, you begin to do the math of the amount of sleep you can afford to lose working on this project.

If I go to bed at midnight, I’ll get 6 hours of sleep... That should be enough. You think to yourself and get right back to working on the project. 

At around 11pm, Jimin and the boys get back from rehearsals. He walks into his room, expecting you to be fast asleep but is startled to see you at his desk, glued to your computer screen. Books and papers are strewn all around you. 

“(y/n), why aren’t you sleeping?” Jimin asks, worried.

“I have to work on this project. It’s due in two days.” You reply without looking at him.

“Isn’t that the one you’ve been working on for like a week?” He asks setting down his bags.

You nod, “It’s a big project. I’m almost halfway done but I still have a crap ton of work to do.”

“Okay, I’m going to shower.” Jimin says, kissing your cheek before heading to the bathroom.

After Jimin’s shower, he resorts the bed and watches you for a couple minutes before pulling out his own laptop and starts doing some work of his own. 

“(y/n)?” Jimin asks softly, grabbing your shoulders after some time. “It’s 2am, you should go to bed.”

Your eyes go wide and search for the clock. Shit.

“You should really go to bed.” Jimin says attempting to pull you away from your computer. 

“But I’ve gotten barely anything done.” You whine but your tired body lets Jimin drag you to his bed.

“See, watch.” Jimin says once your both on the bed. “You take the blanket and go bloop and block out any stress and go to sleep!” He covers his face with a blanket before falling onto the bed and curling up. 

“I wish it were that easy, Jimin.” You slightly laugh.

He opens his blanket fort up for you to crawl in next to him. “Then come join me in mine.” 

Once cuddled next to him, it takes you no more than 5 minutes to fall asleep. Jimin kisses your forehead.

“You worked hard, my love.” He whispers before falling asleep.

Kim Taehyung

How the hell is that answer wrong? You practically scream to yourself as you look at the answer key to the practice exam. What am I doing WRONG?

You let your head fall and hit the table. Yeah, it hurt but you were too frustrated to care. 

“Hey, (y/n),” Your boyfriend, Taehyung, pokes his head into your study area, “Do you want to join me and boys for some snacks in the living room?”

You look up at him and smile apologetically, “I can’t, I’m sorry, Tae. This is a huge test and I don’t understand any of it.”

“It’s okay, you can get it! I believe in you!” He says happily and blows you a kiss. 

You stretch and tie your hair back once he leaves. Sitting back down, you go through the problem again, finally understanding what you did wrong for that one problem. 

Moving on to the next, you feel confident but when you look at the correct answer, all hope shatters. You let out a frustrated groan and decide you need something to drink.

Walking towards the kitchen, you hear the boys laughing and being loud, as usual. In the kitchen, you grab a bottle of juice and some crackers.

“Do you need any food?” Jin asks, refilling his water.

You shake your head, “No, I’m okay, thanks though.” You mumble before heading back to your study area. 

You check your phone once before heading straight back into the world of problems that make no sense at all. 

You don’t know how much time has passed until someone knocks on your door.

“Come in.” You call out, not looking up from your work.

“Still?” Taehyung’s voice says. “You’re still working? (y/n), it’s been 5 hours since you started. Don’t you need a break?” He sits down across from you with a worried expression.

You shake your head, “No, this is just starting to make sense!” You say with a smidgen of hope laced into your tone. 

“Really?” Taehyung asks, resting his forearms on the table. “You’re doing great.”

You smile at his words but the smile drops instantly when he drags out, “Buuuuut...”

You look up at him and rest you head in one hand. “But?”

“Can we do something?” He asks. “The boys left me and I’m bored.”

You sigh, knowing that he isn’t going to give up any time soon because he’s stubborn when it came to hanging out with you. “Can I finish this practice exam and then we can take a break?” You ask.

He nods and puts his hands on either side of his face. “Okay, I’ll stay right here till you’re done.”

You laugh at his squished cheeks. “Aigoo, you’re cute.”

He smiles, “I know! And you’re smart and will pass this test!”

Jeon Jungkook

“This project is due in a week! What do you mean my introduction isn’t good enough?!” You yell at the email you received from your professor. “It’s fine! I’ll just flip the table and give up on this project!” You yell sarcastically before groaning and leaning your head on the back of your desk chair.

“You okay, (y/n)?” Jungkook, your boyfriend, leans against the doorway to the room.

You nod, “I’m fine, it’s just that my professor is a dumb asshole.”

“What did they say?” He asks walking over to where you are.

“Just that my project introduction, the thing the whole project is based on, isn’t good enough.” You roll your eyes, “So you know, I’m completely and utterly fine.” 

Jungkook leans down to hug you from behind and rests his chin on you head. “Whoa there, bunny. If you keep going with that tone, you could actually kill a man.” He jokes making you laugh slightly. 

You sigh, “I’m just so stressed about this project. It’s like half my grade and to have my professor say it’s not good enough is like a punch to the throat.” 

Jungkook’s face scrunches up in pain at the thought of that. 

“Well, are you almost done with the project?” He asks.

You nod, “I was ahead of schedule but now I have to change the introduction which is going to change literally 75% of my total project. I don’t think I can do it.”

“Don’t say that!” Jungkook says. “You can because you’re smart and a really good student and you know this topic. Did I mention you’re smart?” He laughs at himself. 

You shake your head at his silliness, “I’m sorry, Jungkook, but I really get started on this.” 

“Ah, I understand.” He gives you a kiss on the cheek before walking out.

Two hours later, you’re still stuck at the computer. Jungkook knocks and walks in with cookies and two cups of milk. 

“(y/n), take a quick break and have some cookies with me.” He says setting the food down on the small table on the floor.

You stretch your arms and nod. “Okay, I’m coming.”

Sitting down, Jungkook breaks off a bite of cookie and feeds it to you. 

“Mmmm,” You smile and close your eyes. “These are really good. Did you make them?”

“If I said yes, would you believe me?” He asks and you shake your head. “Yeah, you’re right, Jin hyung made them.”

“Jin needs to teach you how to cook and bake.” You take a sip of milk.

“Wanna know what Jin hyung taught me instead??” He asks excitedly.

“What?” You ask.

“A ham sandwich walks into a bar and orders a beer. But the bartender says ‘sorry we don’t serve food here.’” He says and you have to fight the smile thats creeping onto your face. 

You love/hate terrible dad jokes but have to fight the urge to laugh.

“There’s more!” Jungkook says happily, looking at your face. “I used to have a job at a calender factory but got fired because I took a couple days off.” 

You lost it at the second one and fell onto the floor laughing. Jungkook smiled and laughed, loving the sight of you smiling and laughing. 

“I’m going to kill Jin for teaching you those.” You say in between breathes.

“But you love me!” Jungkook says.

You nod, “Of course I love you, Jungkook.”

“Good, cause I love you, too, (y/n).”

[canaryatlaw]

okay, so. I woke up some time before my alarm went off (I don’t remember exactly when) and quickly deduced I felt like utter crap thanks fo my period, and was just like yeah today isn’t happening, so I sent a quick email from my phone to let them know I wasn’t coming for the babies room and went back to bed. I woke up sometime around 12 or 1, something around there, to the sound of my roommate apparently cleaning our whole apartment, which was pretty great because our dirty dishes stack was growing pretty high and when I’m already stressed out about school stuff cleaning shit like just gives me even more anxiety and I legit like, cannot function with it lol so I just end up not doing it and then feel bad about it, but whatever, it’s done now. So I had some breakfast (leftover fried rice from Friday night and a few oreos) and set to work on this stupid legal drafting assignment that’s gonna be the death of me. The more I think about it the more irritated I am about my grades because like, I know, objectively, that I am a good writer. And with the last assignment I sent it to my brother, who is a bona fide lawyer to look at it first and give me feedback, and he changed a few things but ultimately said it was good so like.....is it just something about this lady that she hates my writing, even when I was actually working in the office we’re pretending to be in my supervisor thought I was the best writer and gave me super complex motions to draft and argue in super high profile cases because he believed in me that much?? I’m just hoping, praying, that there is some sort of curve to the grading, probably not the traditional curve because there’s not enough students in the class from that, but so that I don’t end up flunking the goddamn class. If I end up getting a shitty grade (which I probably will) I have half a mind to challenge the grade because  it think there’s a fairly good chance I’d win on that claim, but at the same time assuming I at least pass I’ll be graduated and does it even really matter? Like one shitty grade, assuming my other ones are solid, really won’t affect my GPA very much. Sure it’ll look shitty on my transcript, but what’s one shitty grade out of 30 A’s, A-’s, and B+’s? sigh, I’m ranting. it’s just really gotten under my skin lately. Anyway. I set to start walking, but my prof hadn’t answered either of the emails I wrote her yesterday about the format of the motion or what kind of cases we should be citing, and I didn’t really know how to move forward from there, so I ended up texting the one other person in the class that I actually know, who was actually one of my mentees last year which makes me feel bad for going to him with questions lol but I didn’t have many other options here. So he clarified what exactly the format should be, so from there I started writing the introduction, and then got to the argument and figured I’d start writing the rule based arguments and then worry about the case based arguments. So I found the relevant portion of the statute, and just started typing, and before I knew it I’d written 3 full pages of argument. I always do this, I get super super anxious about writing the argument section of things because I always think I can’t do it, but then when I actually get to it, it just happens like it’s the easiest thing in the world. I just wish I could convince myself of this for once instead of going through the anxiety every damn time. Sigh. I started looking at cases again to see if I can find anything on point, which is difficult because what I’m looking for is a very specific case type, and out of those cases the courts almost always side with the state when I need cases where they side with the parents and those are pretty much nonexistent, so hopefully tomorrow my professor will answer my email regarding the cases and I can have somewhere to go from there. It was like 6:45 at that point and for some reason I was craving vanilla cupcakes, so I found a small batch recipe and started making those, popped them in the oven soon enough and got them out right before Brooklyn 99 started. It was airing two new episodes in a row tonight, and they were both fucking hilarious. This show is just so damn good, I don’t even know how to describe it. After that I figured I might as well watch the last episode of Jessica Jones season two, and much like the rest of the season, I was rather underwhelmed. The scene with them saving the family from the burning car was pretty good, but the rest of it was just.....idk, it just didn’t have any of the same appeal as the first season and was just a pretty disappointing storyline. I was especially disappointed by their storyline between Jessica and Trish, because I’d heard it was supposed to be good, but IMO it was very much....not good. I don’t really know what they were thinking there, but oh well. I was finished then so I figured I’d start watching Krypton since that was on my list to catch up on. So I watched the pilot for that, and the first half was relatively boring, but the second half was actually pretty damn good and I enjoyed it, so I’ll keep watching and see what happens going forward. And oh yeah, I did laundry sometime in between all of this, which means I accomplished all of my goals for the weekend except cleaning up the disaster area that is my room right now, but that’s alright, I can live with that. And yeah, after the episode ended I started getting ready for bed and ended up folding some laundry beforehand so the thicker items could finish drying all the way because our dryer sucks and never full dries things like jeans. sigh. but yeah, that’s about it. I have PT in the morning, but it’s supposed to be in the 20′s and snowing, so I am really not looking forward to having to deal with that. lovely. oh well. Talk to you then. Goodnight babes. Have a good one.

[noheroes-allowed]

week 2

day 8: it feels good to be productive even though I really didn’t do much, had an hour phone call with my professor to go over my essay and he went into too much detail lmao and I really wanted it to end starting halfway through, watched hp 2&3 with my bro, spent two hours on refactored, am wearing a new sweater and socks I haven’t worn before and it’s nice, they’re moving forward with my background check so summer isn’t cancelled still as of now! hallelujah

day 9: jeremy released a new song, watched both hp 7’s today, watched wheel of fortune, sent refactored emails, played piano, forgot for like two minutes what day it was and thought it was wednesday, got a call from my recruiter and she told me they’re having a meeting tomorrow to decide what to do about the program eeeeeep, wore a new sweater today with my cat socks, kristina said she’d give me a list of questions but they never came so now keith is winging it tomorrow, texted keith if he was busy and if we could call later and then we did and I was less nervous this time about asking even though he never got back to me on what movie they ended up watching if they ever ended up watching which I don’t think they did and he just needed to get off the phone but it’s ok bc he was honest this time (update: he actually watched jerry maguire with his mom and that comforts me)

day 10: idk why but I can’t figure out how to make oatmeal at home? the two times I’ve done it now including today is not as good as when I made it in my apt kitchen, played piano and uke, asked my bro what day it was bc I’m starting to lose track of time :(, worked on refactored but didn’t work on my slides yet and was highly unproductive, potato salad at dinner, need to get a drug test lol, keith called me and it was work related but I like hearing his voice in any capacity, called Cat and got wrapped up in myers briggs again lmao, looked up my compatibility again and it said I’d have difficulties with jenny’s type lmao which is also jaja’s type, oh and I saw a real cat in this catastrophe! she let me pet her and everything. plus she looked like my aunt’s cat and it was very lovely after my run 

day 11: my mother woke me up this morning to drive her but it was unnecessarily early bc I didn’t even have to pick her up more than an hour later, finally left my neighborhood even though it was only for like 10 min it was still nice to fucking get out, my oatmeal this morning was actually good finally, spent like three hours curating a playlist oops, there’s like nothing in the fridge and it upsets me bc I want an actual meal but I’ve literally just been eating rice and bread for lunch this past week and it’s not working, played piano and uke, my supervisor emailed me and said they’re gonna pay for the past few days even though we haven’t been working! but I’m locked out of the time period so idk, saw the kitty again, texting :), filed my taxes which is the only thing I’ve really accomplished today but does that even count as being productive? lol I don't think so. also I haven’t done any school work in literally 16 days holy fuck I really need to get my shit together. but also I feel like I’m finally adjusting to this mess and trying to enjoy the moments I can

day 12: had a zoom meeting with my supervisor and I think I might pick up extra hours, peed in a cup, my mom finally bought groceries and there’s so much more fruit in the house and carrots! I can finally eat my hummus again, started watching the tv shows I keep up with again meaning I’m finally adjusting I think and not obsessing over the news like I did the first week, played piano, worked on refactored slides but it’s taking a lot longer than I expected bc I am procrastinating but also my kids did not do a good enough job and I have to pick up their slack, organized my google calendar so hopefully now I will finally stick to a schedule, my mom finally made a good dinner with our new groceries, got a free book yesterday bc there was a table giving them away and they were all suspense themed which isn’t typically what I read but we’ll see if I like the one I picked out, was gonna go to bed early but ended up watching harry styles tiny desk concert oops

day 13: watch svu today, practiced uke a really long time and I think I’m finally confident with two songs lmao. it’s taken me a really long time to learn them but I’m excited to try party favor next, rescheduled Iceland officially, I’m enjoying maggie rogers tunes, worked on refactored slides for fucking hours and still haven’t finished, called Cat, my mom is paranoid

day 14: I slept so fucking well this morning. it was so bizarre and I hadn’t slept this well in like more than a month and it may have been bc of a stupid reason, practiced uke, FINISHED THE FUCKING SLIDES, I sent this nytimes article to my environmental econ prof from last sem like three days ago bc it was talking about vsl and he got back to me today! cool, I think I may be going a little crazy ahahahahahha I need social interaction and segc is holding an update meeting tomorrow so I guess I’m looking forward to that, still have not worked on my essay and I probably won’t be tomorrow bc I gotta do cti work ugh. this essay just does not want to be written

[canaryatlaw]

Alright, let’s get this post written because I have an 8:30 am PT appointment. Today was pretty good all around. Woke up to my alarm at 11:20 and got ready, then headed to school. Bus orgs was boring, of course, so I didn’t pay all that much attention. Then I headed to the PAD office and was alone for a while, so I texted my mock trial-eboard friend since I knew she was around at this time and she came to hang out, she was avoiding the office because one of the other former mock trial team members that tends to frequent the office and isn’t anyone’s favorite person was there earlier, but he was gone now. I wasn’t feeling whatever food I packed, so I went down the street to try the new Mediterranean place, same chipotle style ordering like most of them have now. Pretty good all around, I stuck with simple stuff as usual because I can generally have it without issue haha but it was enjoyable, they just didn’t give me nearly enough pita bread for all the hummus they gave me (but I can forgive that). Back at the PAD office I began filling out a fellowship application, it’s with an immigration non profit, which isn’t exactly what I want to do, but they’re based really close to where my family is and it’s public interest, so it could be a good foot in the door at least? But they wanted two 500 word answers to questions like “why do you want the fellowship?” and “what do you think is the most pressing need for access to counsel in immigration law today?” (The latter of which I talked about deportation hearings and how those who don’t have counsel are almost unilaterally deported) which took some work, but I managed. Then uploaded resume and transcript, now I just need two letters of recommendation, so I emailed my old LARC prof and one of my OPG supervisors for those. I get the feeling my LARC prof is gonna email me back like “why are you applying for this? This isn’t what you want to do” and I’m gonna be like yeah, but I want a job....can’t hurt to apply, right? Guess we’ll see what she says. Went to the DV practicum, which was missing a lot of people tonight, and wasn’t all that interesting, but our courthouse did get a shoutout in the textbook as the first dedicated domestic violence courthouse in the country, so that was cool. When class ended at 7, I hightailed it down the street to the pub/restaurant the CFLA speednetworking Event was taking place at and met my fellow eboard peeps and some other friends there, and mostly just watched as the speednetworking event went on (if you’re wondering what speednetworking is, think speeddating, except with Networking). Things worked out pretty good, we had a LOT of students and a fair amount of attorneys so the ratios worked out thankfully. I got to greet my juvenile justice prof, who introduced me as his favorite student, which made me smile. OPG sent a lawyer I was friendly with, so I said hi to him as well. Our adoption law Professor was able to make it, so that was good as far as variety goes. And then one of my old assigned mentors I hadn’t seen in a while was there so I got to talk to her for a while, and we talked about job prospects because she works for a judge and she was saying they always hire their interns so if I wanted to intern there in the spring that could be a good possible job option. It’s a possibility. It’s divorce court, so not exactly what I want to do, but it’s in the general family court area and dealing with kids, and she was saying you get to research a lot of really novel legal issues which does sound like fun, so I’ll consider it. Talked with eboard peeps about future events for a bit then headed out. Since it was Thursday I stopped and got ice cream on my way home since I’ve made that my little getting through the week award. I tried their seasonal “snap-o-lantern” flavor, which was pumpkin ice cream with crushed ginger snaps, and it was quite good. Got home and turned on Arrow, all around pretty solid premiere I’d say, and I’d mainly attribute that to the story being based around black Siren and Katie Cassidy’s stellar performance in the role. Just had to switch from my phone to my computer because my tumblr app was straight up refusing to publish my posts (thankfully I had the text of it copied so I didn’t lose it). Anyway. I knew Thea wasn’t gonna die, but I hope they don’t keep her in a coma long, cuz that will suck. the stuff with William was interesting, I totally don’t blame the kid for freezing Oliver out, his life has clearly been uprooted and while it obviously wasn’t intentional it is really Oliver’s fault, so I understand why he would feel the way he does. Hopefully their relationship will develop more and reach a better level throughout the season. The stuff between Dig and Dinah was interesting, as was the stuff between Dinah and Quentin. my friend pointed out how inconsistent it was for Quentin to be like “she’s my baby girl” with e2 Laurel when he was totally the opposite when it was soulless Sara who was very much still his baby girl. but anyway. the Black Canary/Black Siren fights were AWESOME, and I hope we get to see more of those. It’s very interesting that they both have the canary cry metahuman status so it kind of puts them on an equal playing field somewhat. Obviously Black Siren is gonna have a ways to go with any redemption arc. Finally, WHERE IS NYSSA?????? I was very annoyed that we did not get any confirmation on whether she made it off Lian You alive, and they better be covering that soon. but yeah, that was my feelings. then I stayed up to watch the Cubs game (they won!) and here we are and now I’m tired and gonna go to sleep. Goodnight darlings. Happy Friday.

[canaryatlaw]

Well, the good news is I managed to drag my ass out of bed at the appropriate time today, so that's a win. Alarm went off at 10:10, got ready and went down to school to meet up with mentee number 1 for lunch. We went to the little salad place across from school I've never actually been to because I can't really eat salads (most salad dressings bother me, and I'm not eating plain vegetables because fuck that shit) but they also have wraps and such so I got one of those and had the dressing on the side and it was pretty good, despite definitely being "healthy" with like a whole wheat tortilla and such (so not a fan). It was good though, we just talked about life and dealing with work and everything in between, and how things change second semester. After we went back across the street to school and I dropped my stuff in the PAD office before heading down the street and hopping on the bus for a quick trip to the gym. I was meeting mentee number 3 at 2:40 when their class let out and it was like 12:50 at that point, so I had enough time to get a decent work out in at least. Did the arms and legs machines for a little, then the abdominal ones which of course I tried not to strain myself too much on because I'm going to the kickboxing gym tomorrow and I don't want to injure myself and not be able to do that. Then I did like 25 minutes on the exercise bike with intermittent periods of going crazy fast to match whatever music I had on just for kicks. Around 2:10 I headed back so I had enough time to get there and everything. Hung out in the PAD office for a few and helped one of the girls on the school mock trial team run through a witness direct she was trying to memorize (as the witness). After that my mentee showed up, and we walked down the street a bit to find a place, we were looking for a specific bakery but ended up finding one that had delicious looking sweets in the window and just wound up going there. It was a cute little place, they had breakfast food and sandwiches and "specialty juices" (that were like $7 ffs) and some very nice desserts so I got an earl grey and lavender cupcake that was delicious and she got a brownie and she basically just vented to me about everything going on because she was feeling so stressed out and I totally do not blame her. Apparently they're still switching stuff up in LARC and the profs still aren't communicating well, like they'll tell one kid something in office hours that contradicts what they said in class and everyone just ends up confused, it's a mess. So I let her vent and gave her my best advice, and told her I could hook her up with a family law contact for the interview she has to do for their "preparing to practice" program they make the 1L's do which is well intentioned but executed very poorly (and I confessed to actually faking that interview using a colleague of my dad's, lol). But I think overall it helped and she was able to calm down a bit, just you know take one day at a time and all that, and it will get better as you go on, and property just sucks for everybody and use quimbee because if it wasn't for them I would've royally flunked property (but instead ended up with a B+). So that was good I think. Went back to school and hung out in the PAD office some more (it's basically just my default at school place since it's in the lounge anyway). I tried to switch some things around in my mock trial direct and cross based on the feedback we got from the scrimmage this weekend, and sent it to my coach for feedback. I asked her about responding to the other side's motion in limines (pre-trial motions) especially on the hearsay objections to the texts because the exception they had previously listed only applies when the declarant is unavailable and I don't want to try and use that in front of a judge who's gonna realize that and just think I'm a fucking moron. She wasn't super helpful at first but I emailed her back with a more explicit question regarding it so hopefully that will help. Sigh. Ate some more of my wrap before class (I only ate half at lunch) then went to crim pro. We were spending the whole period on the Strickland opinion, which is the basis for the ineffective assistance of counsel standard (or appealing on the grounds that your defense attorney sucked). I was already very familiar with the standard thanks to the undisclosed podcast following the Adnan Syed case as they'd discussed it thoroughly. It was an interesting discussion though, and we for once actually talked about the case and discussed that parts of it, so that was nice. I did raise my hand once and of course referenced the serial case because it was on point lol. Our prof did a good job of explaining her opinion and why she wasn't a fan of the opinion (she's an appellate defender so she deals with a lot of these cases) and basically said she thinks the standard should be if counsel was ineffective and whether it was harmless error or not, not if counsel was ineffective and if the outcome was prejudiced by that, which is the current standard and is much higher. It made sense to me being that I think criminal appeals are already way too hard to win, and this opinion definitely showed that. So yeah, it was a good class. She let us out a little before class which was nice. Went home and watched Arrow, which was a curious episode. It largely centered around the gun control debate and was definitely the most political the show has gotten, although the conclusion was basically placating to both sides by saying we should have common sense regulations that don't restrict freedoms (without specifying what those are because that would cause more infighting). The plot was interesting enough though, if kind of overdone for its type. The last flashback scene and then the follow up between Rene and Curtis bugged me though, because it was a terrible misrepresentation of the child welfare system. And like, I'll be the first person to tell you the system has a TON of problems, but you don't need to invent more problems for it that don't exist. Like pretending a kid would get taken because of a single home invasion is bullshit, without other compelling evidence of the parent's actions (and in this case those of the surviving parent, so the mother's alleged drug use wouldn't have factored in) that would not happen. The same goes for them supposedly not letting Rene see his daughter, that's just straight up false because unless there has been some seriously disturbing violence (or if the kid doesn't want to, but that didn't seem to be the case here) parents are ALWAYS allowed visitation, in fact it's a major factor in deciding whether the kid will get returned home or not, and not visiting your kid is a great way to make sure they stay in the system forever. The same goes for his quip about "counseling." If a kid is in the system, they have to provide as many services as needed for reunification- which means he would absolutely be offered counseling and likely soooo much more. And then the end when Curtis was like "my lawyer friend is gonna help you get your kid back" I'm sorry, but no. If you're not visiting your kid and doing your damn services, there's no lawyer in the world who can get you your kid back. It's that simple really. There's nothing a lawyer can do if you're not gonna do your shit. It doesn't work like that. So all of that bugged me and I'm sure this was an unnecessary rant but you all know how false legal bullshit like that on tv shows bugs me so here we are. And yeah, that was pretty much my day. Tomorrow is work, then kickboxing, then small group. Should be good, and until then I'm gonna get some sleep. Goodnight dudes. Sweet dreams.

[canaryatlaw]

So all in all, today was pretty good in a bunch of random little ways, which is cool. Alarm went off at 9:55, took the train to school. I sat next to the cutest baby on the train and he was looking at me the whole time just totally enthralled and it was so very cute so of course I was making faces at him for like half the train ride, haha. Got to school right on time for my 11:30 meeting with my field placement advisor, same one from last semester and my former LARC professor. Of course she's the perfect person for the job because she used to work in the office I work in and knows half the people that are there because of it, lol. We have to do the 3 meetings a semester as required, but at this point we've really talked through most of it so she was just asking me about what tasks they've been giving me and if I had any interesting cases, so I told her about the one I saw yesterday about the girl's whose arm was broken in four places from a "restraint" and of course she was horrified by the prospect and said it would probably be referred to special litigation for a suit against the residential facility, so that made me feel somewhat better about it. But yeah, it was a pleasant little meeting. After that I headed down to the PAD office to hang out and eat some lunch. My plan for this time was to bang out the rest of my LARC assignment, which I figured could take a while. I was debating with myself last night if I should wear or bring gym friendly clothes because Wednesday afternoons is one of my now designated "gym times," but I knew this was gonna take a while and then I had a haircut so I opted against it, but surprisingly the LARC assignment didn't take as long as I thought, pretty much just because I ran up against the word limit pretty quickly, and that's that. I know what I wrote is, objectively, good convincing legal writing, but I don't know if it follows the "formula" we're supposed to use for LARC which irritates me. I would probably put more work into it if it were actually be graded and not just a grade for handing it in, but even so it's not like I slacked off on it, I did put a solid amount of work in, so that's good. I was kind of annoyed I didn't have my gym clothes at that point, but in reality there was other stuff I needed to get done so it was probably good that I had a chance to do that. One of those things was getting the application done for the nonprofit in NYC I would like to intern at over the summer, which was interesting. They just wanted a cover letter, resume, unofficial transcript and writing sample, pretty basic, so I start writing my cover letter and I have to laugh because last year I was like struggling about what to put in a cover letter on applications, but now I literally have so much to say and talk about it was probably the longest cover letter in existence (it was almost the whole page) but I just had a lot to say and I think it was all good things to include. I just had to do the final touches on my resume, like update my GPA and changing my class rank from top 15% to top 10% (which, I have to say, was immensely gratifying). Unofficial transcript I can just get off online, so that's easy enough, so that just leaves the writing sample. They didn't give any parameters about length or anything on it, so I texted my dad and asked him if I should use one of my academic things I've written for LARC or if I should use the school memo I wrote over break, and he was like oh definitely the school memo so of course I went with that. It's like, 4 pages long, which is probably a bit long for a writing sample but I think it's all good. Of course since I was sharing it with a third party I was obligated to change the personal information, so I changed the name of the school to "Anchorage Christian School" because I figured Alaska would give them enough distance 😂 so that was good. It was just a debate between if they wanted like real world application versus the formulaic LARC stuff, and I think they would side on real world, so hopefully that'll work. It felt good to get all of that handled and turned in, since it's been in the back of my head as something I need to do for a while now. As I was getting ready to leave for my haircut, the PAD president came in and asked me if anyone has talked to me about the PAD mock trial team. One of the board members who's on the team sent out an email a few days ago basically as an SOS call that one of their members got injured and wouldn't be able to compete next month, so they needed an emergency replacement. Upon reading it I kind of had a feeling it was going to end up on my doorstep, just because of the experience I have and such, but I didn't do anything about it immediately because they practiced Tuesdays and Saturdays and I have class on Tuesdays, and that's generally a deal breaker, but it still managed to get back to me haha. The PAD president was apparently talking me up to them (he's on the school team) so I sent a tentative email saying I could maybe do it but couldn't do Tuesday practices, and then left for my haircut. As I was going down the stairs to the subway entrance there was a girl coming up and she's like "uh, you may not want to go down there, there's some guys fighting and it's not looking good" and sure enough I just hear two guys shouting at each other and random slamming into random things and such and I was like haha fuck no so I walked to the other end of the block to get in at that entrance cuz I ain't dealing with that shit. Sigh, Chicago. While on the train I got a phone call from last year's PAD president who's now one of their mock trial coaches, but since I was on the train I let it go to voicemail to deal with later. Got to ulta and saw my stylist, who immediately let spill that one of the girls in my class that she knows is pregnant, which I definitely didn't know haha but I'm sure I would find out soon enough. So that was interesting. But yeah, for the rest of it we just did our normal discussions, and we always have really good and satisfying discussions about things that I definitely enjoy. I had her do the same short cut I got in October when I was there last and then just got caught up with shit and let my hair get obscenely long and was driving me nuts so here I was again lol. Towards the end she was telling me that her cousin, who was a freshman in college, had attempted suicide a week before thanksgiving, and then had just attempted again two days ago, which is of course a very sad and difficult situation, and she wanted to hear my thoughts because she knows I'm somewhat of a mental health advocate (or at least I'd like to think I am. It's in my profile so it must be true, right?). Apparently he had been away at college, and after the first time didn't go back, but just started up again with the spring semester a few weeks ago, and he was like really insistent about going back to school which is totally understandable, the stress and the loneliness just kind of got to him, and he was saying things like "I don't want to die, I just don't know how to deal with these waves of depression." I started off by saying that no two people have the same mental health journey, and different people respond to treatment in different ways. I said he obviously needed to get into therapy that would teach him some coping skills for dealing with depressive episodes. He had been inpatient for a few days after the first one and is there again now, but I said if a longer-term inpatient program was available they might want to look into that, or at least some sort of group thing, hopefully among peers (though I imagine finding a group of teenage boys willing to participate in such a thing could definitely be a struggle). And yeah, he obviously wasn't ready to go back to school, and college can be a really big trigger for some people because it's such a life change and they just don't know how to deal with it. And of course I said try to avoid saying anything that would make him feel guilty because he's already overwhelmed with guilt, and to not treat him any different or like he's fragile, because that's not how anyone wants to be treated. She said she would tell her family what I said, so hopefully some of that could be helpful. I told her a little about my work with twloha at college and how so many have such a need for that sort of thing. He's out of school for now though, which is definitely a good move. I feel bad for his parents because I can imagine they're going through hell right now, to almost lose their son but decide to let him go back to school only for it to happen again, and now they're going to be terrified that they could pose him at any point, and I really can't imagine dealing with a child of yours being suicidal, like that has to be so so difficult for a parent, something I definitely didn't realize the extent of when I was younger, but I can see now that if I had killed myself, it would've completely destroyed and devastated my family and like....I'm just really glad I'm still here. Anyway. Left ulta and took the train back to school, heated up my food and headed to class for another session of crim pro. It's been an interesting class so far because the prof is very focused on like wanting to hear our opinions about issues in the criminal justice system and the specific questions she asks, which is cool, but like, means we don't always get into the cases and actual learning haha. Tonight we didn't actually start the cases until after the break when class was half over. She let us go at 8 though, so that was nice. Went home, and I was debating to watch Arrow or Frequency off my dvr, but I ended up being bad and staying up to watch both even though I have to be up at 7 am for work tomorrow. I watched Arrow first though, pretty much just because I was so curious to see what they were gonna do with Laurel/black siren, and it was....interesting. I didn't love it, but that's no surprise. There were some moments and some lines that were very good, but others just kind of fell flat for me. I kept getting stuck between wanting her to actually be willing to reform and become good again, but Oliver's like naive belief that he can make that happen makes me think it's not going to happen, lol, cuz he just makes it seem kind of unachievable, so I guess we'll see what happens there. I liked the Felicity not listening to Oliver just for kicks, haha, and I very much enjoyed the legal intricacies of the Diggle plot, and was quite satisfied with their conclusion there. I am definitely not a fan though of some random ass meta girl who has a sonic scream waltzing in there and just becoming the black canary because like......are you fucking kidding me? We're doing this again? Just stop, stop trying to replace Laurel and either do her justice or move on. You're just forcing comparison now, and there's a very slim chance you're going to beat your original work with Laurel. Like, just LET IT GO already. I do like that they kept the door open for more black siren, and I hope they take advantage of that because I want to see Katie Cassidy on my screen as much as possible. After that I went straight to Frequency, which of course was the season finale, and I was pretty happy with it! I knew they would have to pull something out after last week's conclusion, and I think they did an excellent job setting it up that everyone reasonably thought the deacon was the nightingale, but then were able to pull the rug out at the last minute in a way that's still actually entirely plausible, so I applaud them for not jumping the shark there. I was very entertained by the flipping back and forth and the world changing in the middle of a conversation so that you can't be talking to your mom about her patient because she just died but 20 years ago that is still playing out right now. Like, it's just so good. I felt bad for all the people that kind of became casualties, like Megan and Gordo's dad (poor Gordo, I know he didn't like his dad but no child deserves to have their father shot in front of them). And I knew her talking through the radio when the guy was there was gonna lead to him smashing it, lol, that was pretty predictable. The ending though, when she comes out of the garage and the house isn't lit up, holy shit I was ready to murder someone if they left us on a cliffhanger or just straight up killed her mom, because that would've been all kinds of awful and I really hate when shows legit don't wrap up a story just for the sake of having a cliffhanger. So I was happy to see the conclusion to that. They left it in a good place too that the story is finished, but they still left in the possibility for a second season (I don't think it's been renewed yet?) so I was glad to see that. And yeah, that was my day and I've officially rambled on for way too long here so I'm gonna end it now. Goodnight babes. Sleep well.

[canaryatlaw]

So today was pretty good, and I'm not too abominably tired (just a little abominably tired) so I can deal with that for now. My alarm went off at 7 but I had basically figured I could pass off my morning obligation since it was for the judge shadow for the child and family law association and another e-board member would be there anyway so I texted her and went back to sleep until my typical Friday wake up at 11:10, then got ready to go to school, which turned out to be a bit of a bust because it turns out I didn't actually have class....I thought that may be the case because we were supposed to have oral arguments this week (despite mine not being till next week), and that's all it says in the syllabus in the week, but the week where we just had individual conferences and no class it specifically said no class in the syllabus so I figured we had it....apparently not, lol. I mean it makes sense since our prof has a trial to deal with right now, but I got there and nobody else was there so I texted someone and confirmed we didn't have class lol. I wasn't too mad though because it just meant I could take my time at the gym and have a good workout, so I went to do that. Took the bus to the gym, and did the whole arm and leg workout thing for a while before moving on to abs. I was trying not to piss off my back too much because it's really been bugging me lately, but I managed to do so anyway. I got a good amount of ab workouts done though, so I was satisfied with that. By the time I got to the exercise bike though my back was really killing me and my stomach was starting to hurt, probably from overdoing it on the abs even though I tried not to, so I wound up bailing from the exercise bike after 20 minutes because I didn't want to overdo it more and injure myself in the process. It was still a really good workout though so I was satisfied. I stopped at the little tea place that's right there that I've wanted to stop in on (and it's the more prudent choice then stopping in on the Dylan's candy bar that's right there) and got some hibiscus Apple cider and a croissant which were both very good. Took the bus back to school then and chilled out in the PAD office till our meeting, and in the mean time I did a couple communication based things and also caught up on updating the company tumblr because I was nearly 3 weeks behind and the queue was down to like, 110 posts, which is at least half depleted haha so I had to deal with that obviously and restock it properly. I had been texting my mom about my tiredness issue and why I didn't want to go to a doctor about it, and she was saying she just started seeing a new doctor there that's been good. It's not that I don't want to go to a doctor, I just don't want to go to a doctor who doesn't know what he's doing, and unfortunately I've had a good amount of experience with those. It's hard too because when you google "mono experts" almost all of them are some form of alternative medicine and like at this point I have almost no trust in any sort of alternative medicine just because of all the bs I've been through with it, and I don't want to walk out with some loony diagnosis nobody's ever heard of and they find in everybody who comes in, because been there done that and it hasn't helped at all. Sigh. Idk what to do there, we'll have to see. I was also emailing with children's rights about an estimate for when they can let me know about the internship. This was prompted by an email I received the other night from my current office regarding a conference in May they always send all their law clerks to that sounds really damn cool and they want to know by March 15th if the law clerks want to go, so if I'm staying there for the summer I'd want to know by then so I can definitely go. They said they could definitely let me know within the next two weeks, so that's good. I'm still feeling good about them, I think they're just analyzing all their recipients before making any final decisions which I can understand. So around 5ish people started arriving for the meeting so I talked with them and all, and we started at 5:30. It was a pretty basic meeting, just talking about plans for the rest of the semester and such and everything we need to get done. My spring break friend who runs the donate and days had texted me yesterday asking if we wanted to sponsor the march donate a day so I brought that up and we decided we could, and someone else could attend (as I'll be at HVFF that weekend) so that was good. We also decided to scrap the other March service event I was supposed to be doing, some sort of bracket game for March madness that I didn't know the first thing about, just because it didn't ever make much money, so that's at least one less thing for me to have to deal with. Heading home after the meeting, had some food and then turned to my tv shows while catching up on other stuff online. Apparently my tv decided not to record this week's episode of Powerless, so I'll have to figure that out at some point. Same with Suits, which I'm now behind on (which I'm somewhat apathetic to since I've not been enjoying the show all that much lately). Speaking of such, I started with 24: Legacy which was enough to finally get me to call it quits with the show. I gave it more than an ample chance and it just wasn't doing it for me, so I'm done with it for now and I don't feel bad about it. Next up was Riverdale, which I had to watch last week's episode and this week's episode of. I have to say, Riverdale has become like the land of shitty parenting. Like there was so much crappy parenting going on in these two episodes it made me so angry. Like you're just asking for your kids to be screwed up. The plots were good though, plenty interesting. I'm of course interested in where they're going with the whole Jason thing, and I have to say POOR CHERYL MAN she has to deal with some crazy ass parents, clearly. That sucks. I felt very bad for Josie as well during her storyline with her dad, who seems for all intents and purposes awful. I definitely appreciated the whole Polly storyline, especially with Betty finally finding her sister and (spoiler) finding out she's pregnant. Dude, if I were Betty and I found out my parents did that to my sister I would never trust them with anything, ever. So messed up. Like I said, land of shitty parents. But like I said, overall I enjoyed both episodes. Lastly I watched this week's episode of Training Day, which was of course preceded by a short but sad tribute to Bill Paxton. Still don't know what they're doing with the show going forward from here. They can't really keep it going without him, so they'll have to figure out how to end it one way or another, which sucks because it likely means Kyle will never figure out who killed his dad, which was kind of the whole point of this thing. Sigh. The episode was good though, interesting topic, but I liked following the prisoner's escape and finding his family and trying to save them. It was a well-executed plot, although I have to strenuously object to it being that easy to break out of prison, lol. If it were, the folks at prison break did WAY too much work. But yeah, I like the way they wrapped everything up and just generally did a good job with it, and that was about it for my night. Sleeping in tomorrow of course, then hopefully making a target run and doing a couple other errands like hitting up the post office and possibly visiting my friend Louis in his nursing home, I'll have to call and inquire about visiting hours and hope they work for me. Hopefully I won't sleep all that late so I'll still have time to get shit done, although I do of course look forward to the sleep, which I'm going to get a start on now. Goodnight mah people. Lots of love.