wildsayeed

[blue-bujo]

Last week in my Weeks. I typically don't use stickers this big, but I like how they fill out the pages. Would do again.

Fountain pen: Pilot Kakuno, F nib

Ink: Ferris Wheel Press Roaring Patina Black

Stickers: Stickii Club

Other: Zebra mildliners

[hwestalas]

On the anniversary of the destruction of Boromir's Bane, I would like to honor him:

This is set sometime in the first couple weeks of the Quest, at sunrise, as the Fellowship sit around their little campfire in a small hollow after a long night of marching. The other Hobbits are probably blowing smoke rings with Gimli and the leaders, but Pippin is still a tweenager, so he dozed off on the biggest person present.

(The grass on the horizon represents the rim of the hollow, and the white thing right below his belt is supposed to be the Horn in his lap. I did my best with the straight-on perspective on his legs, but I was in way over my head and it shows. Body proportions are also off, but live and learn!)

Note on this and future art posts that look like ink on cardboard:

A few years ago, I discovered a planner that not only helps keep track of the wide world of practicalities, but contains not one, not two, but FOUR blank cardboard surfaces! I've gone through about ten, and the majority of those forty-odd surfaces are covered in fan art.

I generally sketch the drawing in pencil, then trace it with gel pen. I could never draw humanoid anatomy accurately (or, as in this case, at least recognizably) without a lot of trial and eraser.

Anyway, this is the first drawing from the planner where I chose a theme of LOTR examples of the Four Loves in C. S. Lewis's book. The first one he calls "Affection." It refers to the bond that forms through familiarity, whether or not you have anything in common. The most iconic example is the love between parents and children, or siblings, or other relatives; but it can form between any people who spend a lot of time together.

I figured it fit with a huge Man and a tiny Hobbit who went on a journey together and ended up ready to die for each other. Also, I just wanted to draw that size difference! People who look (or are!) wildly different, but are close anyway, is the cutest thing. ^_^

[thatjazzyplanner]

12.31.22

Happy New Year’s Eve! Starting my year by journaling about my New Year’s resolutions, all focused on living a balanced and happy life ☺️ what are your new year resolutions?

[bujobby]

golden brown & mushrooms theme this week to indulge in the pre-fall wistfulness 🍄

[auraswatercolors]

The first week of the semester: the beginning and the end

[zipsunz]

some of my favorite pokémon 💕🌈

[islandgirlacnh]

You know you’ve had a busy day when your AC friends comment in it!

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

A procession of confessions.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

[sanska]

Ariadne explaining how to navigate the labyrinth (and after) to Theseus. It’s important, she’s committing treason for you Theseus, don’t look at her like that.

[inkskinned]

yesterday while feverish i wrote about how boats can moor next to each other like pigeons, cooing with the gentle rap of water against their hull. you once said that that the way i see things - birds in the water, feathers in marina paint - was "childish and naive." you said i'd been misdiagnosed - "it can't all be adhd. you might be just kind of stupid and lazy."

i still do certain things like how you taught me - turn the pillow case inside out before putting it on. drive defensively. hate myself entirely.

the prompt for this poem is "mahler's fifth." i wish it wasn't, but mahler's fifth was our song. it ended up in my book. every person that knows your name has promised me they'll give you one swift rabbit punch, right to the face. dean read the book and showed up on my front porch, drenched in sweat from running the 8 miles at 4 in the morning. he was shaking. pacifist and gentle - he works with children - i'd never seen him furious. a punch isn't going to do it, he said, and then said i'm sorry. i had to come to see if you were okay.

mahler's fifth was mine first, like my girlhood. i like the way each movement piles onto the next movement, each instrument bleeding into the next. i like the horn version the best. before i met you, i danced to it on grass still-wet from sprinklers.

later you would tell me that the way you heard it was somehow better. you understood something in it that i couldn't quite wrap my fingers into. once, on our anniversary, you asked the classical music radio station to play it for us. we missed hearing it because we were fighting. one of the things people get wrong about abuse is that sometimes victims are, like, brutally aware of the stupidity of our situation. what do you mean that you thought i wasn't good enough for you? you? you're just... nothing.

sometimes people can pull the poetry out of your life. i watched my words become clothesline, and then thin out into kite twine. i watched you chew through every good syllable of me. so many good songs and places and moments were ruined. i am glad you didn't like most of my music - less to tie back to you.

but still mahler's fifth. the music swells, and i am 21 and throwing up in a bathroom on my birthday. a woman i will later refer to as lesbian jesus runs a cool hand down my back, her perfect pantsuit starch-pressed. she told me to leave you. she said - and this is true, and not an invention of rhyme or fantasy - i'm you from the future.

i am 22, and i got home from an award ceremony, and i remember you telling me - you act so proud of yourself when you're actually so fucking embarrassing. i took you to disney world. you took my virginity. i gave up visiting spain for a week with my family - i instead choose you, to spend the time just-cuddling. you called it "our fuck week." the music swells. it probably should have been a red flag that for about 3 years - i just gave up on crying. my grandfather died and you said nothing. my uncle died and you ghosted me for 3 weeks. you said i need to protect myself from your ongoing tragedy.

every so often i come back to the memory of one of our last afternoons in person. i had just told you that i wasn't going to law school, despite the free ride - i was going to join a creative writing program. master's in fine arts. i was going to finally do it - i was going to follow my dreams. this blog was already internet-famous. however reluctantly, i would occasionally refer to myself as a poet. i got into umass amherst's writing program for fiction authors. it is one of the the top 5 programs in the country.

wait are you seriously considering actually attending that? dumbfounded, you turned completely towards me in your seat. for the 3rd time in our relationship, you almost crashed the car. you actually want to be a writer?

the first time i went viral, it was for a poem i wrote about you:

he wants to say i love you but keeps it to goodnight because love will take some falling and she's afraid of heights.

every time i see that, i want to throw up. you weren't in love with me, you were in love with the control you had over me. a little truth though: i am afraid of heights. you caught a rabbitgirl and skinned her alive.

mahler's fifth still makes me sick.

give me that back. give me back music. give me back everything i had before you. give me back fearlessness. give me back bravery. give me back a scarless body.

give me back what you took from me.

[lifethroughlenss]

Planner vs no planner/pro and cons

Hey there! In this blog post I will be writing about some of the pros and cons of having a planner along with the pros and cons of not having a planner.I will also share my favorite planner with you all and give you some tips and advice on how to enjoy your planner for 2023 and beyond so buckle up.

I'm starting off with the cons of having a planner.

Okay let's say you buy a planner to star organizing and crushing your goals without procrastinations.You feel happy about It and ready to take on anything,but soon after you start writing out your goals and plans for the day or week you regret you even started writing.If this sounds like you I can truly relate.Writing your day on paper can sometimes feel like a sentence,It makes you feel bound and tied up basically forced to do something you no longer want to do.You feel obligated to take 'Rachel' to the baseball game even though you are sick. You begin a pattering of just doing It because the paper says to and you are no longer happy or motivated to do anything, not what's on the planner or outside of It. And If you are one who likes to minimize and keep clutter low profile than having 'more books' can sound and or feel unideal or overwhelming.Your planner can start controling you when it was supposed to be the other way around.You may put a few things down you want to get done before the week ends but when you don't get it done you feel bad and disappointed in yourself.Then you pile everything you did not do onto the next day and then you have way too much to do again,and it's just creates a big circle of unmotivation and defeats the whole idea and point of a planner.'You should never live for the planner,the planner should live for you'. I think one of the reasons why I have to much on my plate in one day from my planner Is relativly simple It Is so easy to write anything and 'everything' but we have to have self-control to remember to not overwhelm ourselves so that we can keep our motivation,crush our goals,see a brighter day by getting what needs to be done done.I know I feel really good when I have accomplished my goals even the small ones. A goal doesn't have to be big like go to Paris by the end of the year or buy a new car.It can be something as little as wake up early journal and buy coffee from the cafe' near you.You should never make a goal just to make a goal It should be something you truly want to accomplish a desire or passion.

Now that we got most of the cons out the way It Is time for the pros.

You sleep calmer and wake up feeling rested and motivated.The idea of a planner Is to be able to get goals completed,and your day and weeks planned so that you will actually get done what you need and or want to.And it can be a blessing If you have the right mindset,mercy with yourself and a lot of patience.You get your goals done not only quicker but more often.After you write down your aim for the day and accomplished It you have free time to do what you want 'that Is only If you do not procrastinate' you sleep better knowing you got your most important plans down pack.You are more at ease when you wake up.It pushes you to be more creative In your day.You have more overall peace and less worrying.You wake up at a good time according to your plans.It makes you feel satisfied.

Okay It's time to get Into the pros and cons of not having a planner.

Cons always first.

You procrastinate so much.You wake up later than you would If you were to have a planner.Your goals are not accomplished as quick or often.You are not as motivated without a plannner.Your sleep Is'nt the best or your morning before work.You lack creativity and drive.Your days are more messy than taco night with your toddlers.

Time for the pros!

You save space on your book shelf drawers or wherever you place your books.Less clutter,which for some people that means less or no paper books. You feel free to do as you want.I know I wrote earlier this will unmotivate you but for some people this Is best.If you are a great self motivated anyway this can be perfectly fine,but for those of us who need a little extra motivation a planner Is best.There really aren't many or few pros of not having a planner.

Let's move on to advice and tips:

#1 Never ever live for the planner,let the planner live for you.

#2 Only make goals that you truly desire,want,need or something that Is simply a passion.

#3 Give yourself mercy and patience.

#4 Read a motivational quote everyday.

Now I am going to share my favorite Planner with you all.I bought this planner from amazon The brand Is Freedom Mastery. It Is $ 26.95 with a 5% coupon at the moment.the Planner Is called Smart womans life planner.It has 212 pages,faux leather and It has a vision board,weekly tracker,reflective pages,world map,goal planner pages,journal pages,stickers,a pocket,pen holder and much more! I recommend It.The best part Is the It Is undated. This Is not a sponsor. Link https://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/B09GRJH7W?psc=1&ref=ppx_pop_mob_b_asin_image

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[blue-bujo]

Last week in my Weeks. I got to spend 8 hours running/playing Dungeons and Dragons this weekend, with almost 5 hours pinned under a friend's cat. It was glorious.

Fountain pen: Pilot Kakuno, F nib

Ink: Ferris Wheel Press Roaring Patina Black

Stickers: Stickii Club May vintage pack, "By her Sword," Honeyinked on etsy

[fruitstickerr]

scanned my 2024 planner ✮⋆˙ punched a hole on the cover so i could put miffy & angel blue charms ପ(๑•ᴗ•๑)ଓ ♡

[thatjazzyplanner]

11.12.22

I didn’t have much to journal about yesterday so I just included some highlights ☺️

[bujobby]

i'm not typically a fan of blue and orange together, but these stickers were an inspiration for this week's theme 💙🤎🧡

planner: clever fox undated pro

stickers: pipsticks

[masterofiodine]

cap is in his element