#my ovaries and hormones said Fuck You

[crowempress]

The most fucked up thing abt pmdd at least for me is you can like. Feel the brain terrors Lift as soon as you start your period. Like I'd be in the trenches thinking I'll never feel happy again and then I start bleeding and it's like the grey clouds dissipate and I was like oh I'm normal now

[reginaofdoctorwho]

coming to the awful conclusion i might have to go to my sister for guy advice :/ gonna try to go to the one least likely to talk to my mom about

[teddykaczynski]

today....

i went to donate plasma and i got there before my appointment time though i knew itd take forever. whatever. i never have done it before. i check in and am told to sit and wait until a medtech can take my vital signs. so i do. eventually that step happens, then a computer survey. next i sit again until a nurse pulls me back into an office to get a more complete medical history.

she asks about my ptsd since i said yes i have ptsd on the e-form and she asks when i got it and if its managed and im like uh. mostly? and she asks if i have a doctor helping me with it rn and im like. noo.

she asked a few times if i was on any medications. more than seemed standard. and each time i was like. no. eventually she was like ? how do you got a beard then? and i was like. uh. i took testosterone but i dont anymore. she was like when. i said i last took some a bit more than 4 years ago. she was like why is it still there though? and god i hate that moment when i realize i know way more than this medical professional about this topic like its still there cause its permanent. cause it always will be cause i dont shave.

next she gave me two forms to get a nonexistent doctor to fill out saying my ptsd is managed enough i can sit still for up to an hour with loud noises happening (which i already demonstrated i can since id been sitting in the waiting room for up to an hour....) and then another where the doctor has to say how my "condition" of facial hair but no artificial hormones since 2020 is being "managed" . need to bring both forms back before theyll buy my transsexual blood. HATED it really terrible like god im not a freak YOURE THE FREAKS

like. yeah i have increased facial hair because of hormones but my hair grows in a very similar pattern to my mom. who does not have pcos. many women have facial hair without artificial hormones or pcos. but i have to get a note explaining it cause i have the fucking ovaries to not shave? fuck you

[stunt-lads]

Tmi but do you have any tips to help with periods?

I've had a period for a good, uhh, 15ish years now (and will actually be starting my own next week)

In my experience I do have some tips!

Heat helps a lot. A heating pad or hot water bottle or even a hot shower can help ease the aches and pains in your joints and muscles.

Try to avoid red meat. I tend to be anemic on my period, so I crave red meat, but it can honestly worsen your cramps. (Red meat is things from a cow; steak, hamburger, etc)

Chocolate really does help. It helps in a way I genuinely cannot explain, but if you crave it, indulge in it. (My personal go-to is Hersheys dark chocolate.)

Loose-fitting clothes are your best friends. Skinny jeans and leggings are sick as hell, and I love wearing them, but when you're bloated and uncomfortable, the looser the clothes, the more comfortable you'll be. (I prefer sweatpants in the winter months and basketball shorts in the summer. Elastic waistbands are the best for this)

Those are all the tips I have, but I do have more to add!

Aches and pains in your breasts are super common.

Clots can vary in darkness, thickness, and consistency.

It's normal for there to be a smell, I promise it's okay. (That said, if the smell persists after your period, I do recommend seeing an OBGYN as it could potentially be something else.)

It's all about making yourself comfortable because your hormones are going fucking buck nutty. And as much as people like to shove it under the rug and make it a taboo topic, periods are typically normal for folks like us with uteruses and ovaries. It's severely under talked about, but it's normal. It should be talked about more if anything.

Anyway, this is all I have! If anyone else has things to add, please feel free!

[blubushie]

good morning, this is someone from the discord but i won't say who because i don't wanna get yelled at (sorry!) you said you're intersex, how's that work? if you don't mind talking about it? i'm sorry if this is rude!

I wouldn't have yelled at you even if you'd asked there!

Doctors "determined" that I'm 46,XY-DSD, but there's a fair chance that I've got some other stuff going on because if I am that, I'm atypical. I also have PAIS, partial androgen insensitivity syndrome.

I'm atypical in two regards: one, most blokes with PAIS 46,XY have micropenises. Mine is normal. Two, gonads (or, at least, ovaries) aren't present with 46,XY. When I was born I looked completely normal externally and no one knew that I was intersex. We knew I had some issues because my hormones weren't working properly, I wasn't growing properly, and I was at risk of osteoporosis, but we didn't exactly know what that was about. My actual problems didn't start until puberty, when I was about twelve or thirteen and started getting these bad stomach cramps once a month. Doctors couldn't figure out what the fuck it was and after five months of that I was sent in to test my androgen levels, which is how they found out about my fucked up oestrogen/testosterone issue. And at this point my parents started noticing that I was getting a more feminine silhouette, so something was defo up. I was put on testosterone supplements but that... didn't really help much, because my oestrogen levels were still too high.

Also I couldn't get erections at this point, for some reason. Doctors think it might've been because of how my penis itself is structured. Either way, it doesn't get enough of a blood rush to actually get erect. Most I can manage is just a half-there erection. Sensitive but not noticeable as an erection to anyone but me.

So after three years of this shit (and being put on T) I ended up with a masculine silhouette, but I still grew breasts. Very large breasts. Not fun, and everyone hung shit on me for it.

And doctors still didn't know why the hell my oestrogen levels were so bloody high, so they gave me an ultrasound and it turns out the reason why I was having those cramps is because my abdominal muscles were clenching as a result of me having a hormonal period, and that was caused by the fact I had a very undersized ovary on my left side. We'd always thought I was just born without a left testicle but nah, it was an ovary. I can't recall if it was just ovarian tissue or an actual ovary. Either way, I got a laparoscopy but instead of going directly through my stomach they entered at the base of my penis (there's reason for this, I'll get to that in a tic). So they removed my one single ovary that'd been causing so much trouble, and at the same time they were doing that they also put in an implant so I can get erections, which works out just fine. There's a little button I press that fills two rods in my penis with fluid whenever I want an erection, and the erection does not go away. It lasts until I crack my dick in half like a glowstick, which then releases the fluid back into the reservoir. All in all it works great, I love it, and everyone else either thinks it's weird or adores it since I can keep my erection indefinitely no matter how many times I orgasm.

Also on that note, I don't produce much semen. My prostate doesn't work properly and produces very little and my seminal vesicles are undersized so I can only make enough semen for maybe two rounds and then I'm dry, and it takes me about a week (or sometimes two) to refill my seminal vesicles. On the plus side, this has helped train me to orgasm dry, so there's that. Also my knacker is fucked so I don't produce viable sperm (though luckily I do produced testosterone, just... not much). I'm completely sterile (though I reckon I would probably be sterile anyway because of whatever's going on with my chromosomes).

Anyway, a few months after I went through all of that, I finally got top surgery (and some reconstructive surgery on my penis because there was some shit there that was a little fucked. Mostly tight skin, I'm fine now).

I'm still embarrassed about the top surgery scars, mostly because people see them and then they assume I'm trans (like gynecomastia isn't a thing) and they wonder what's in my daks, and it's even worse when I take my clothes off because then they see that scar at the base of my penis and wonder about that and assume phalloplasty and it's a whole thing. It sucks all around. I get assumptions from trans people, I get assumptions from cis people, I was at Bondi once with my shirt off and had a trans tourist bloke walk up to me and start discussing it because "I was the only other trans guy on the beach" and it was hell to explain that we aren't brothers in that regard. I'm kinda shunned from both groups. I don't fit in with other cis blokes because I'm very visibly not like them (once my shirt come off, at least) and I don't fit in with trans blokes because I'm also not like them (even though they keep trying to claim me whenever they see my scars). This (and a feeling of being exposed in general) is a big reason why my clothes stay on during roots.

Since you're in the Discord you might've seen that thing yesterday where everyone revealed they thought I was transmasc and Wander said I'm the world's most transgender cis man, which... is amusing, in a way. And not wrong. I've been on T, I've had top surgery, I've gotten a penile implant, I've had an oophorectomy, I chose my own name. So it's not wrong. I've kinda been back and forth between everything, and for a long while I struggled with my gender because of my outwards appearance especially as a teenager when I sounded and looked like a girl before I was put on T. Even when I was actively living as a girl for two years until I was 16, I just did it to fit in. I passed as a girl, people only ever saw a girl, and that... bites. A lot. My therapist was insisting I was a transgender girl, and that things would be less stressful if I transitioned and just embraced my feminine side, so... y'know. Peer pressure. I became a girl.

And that's the origin of the whole "bushgender" thing. My concept of gender is still very much fucked between that and the autism. This is also why I hate wearing skirts. Or any clothing that registers as feminine to me. Or just... being feminine. Femininity is a major sore spot for me. Which is hilarious, because I like it on other people. Really like it on chicks. I just hate it on me.

Anyway, that's about as well as I can explain it. I've got all the male bits (and then some female pieces) but none of them (except my penis now) work all that well. We don't really know what's wrong with me, but to cover my arse the docs say it's very atypical 46,XY-DSD. My chromosomes haven't been examined yet but I reckon that 46,XX is actually the more likely. 46,XY means I'm biologically male on a chromosomal level, and my genitals reflect that, but the presence of ovarian tissue suggests I'm defo not 46,XY since that's never present in that condition. The more likely of the two is that I'm 46,XX, which would make me biologically female from a chromosomal perspective. It would also explain my height and my issues with testosterone production while also explaining my normal-appearing genitals, since 46,XX often results in normal male genitalia but primarily results in hormonal issues (which is what I primarily have).

So yeah, we're going with 46,XX.

[swiftfootedachilles]

Ack, I fucking love your take on omegaverse! I enjoy it actually (the scenting, breeding, and the feral/primal shit), but I have the same problem with the complexity of how female alphas impregnate others and the whole giving birth through your butthole (shitting-the-baby-method) stuff.

Annnd I check all the fics that you recommended and I was surprised to see that I've read all of those 😭 Like maaan. Fantasy/Supernatural/Anything involving not complely human characters stuff are like my freaking favorite! This is coming from a girlie who started reading werewolf and vampire original stories on wattpad on 2016.

That being said, I want to reco a fic. It's fantasy/magic with Seer!Mickey. It's a short and light read :'›

https://archiveofourown.org/works/33299758/chapters/82689130 (idk how to do that hyperlink thingy, sorry!)

i just dont understand why many omegaverse writers hate tras or intersex characters 😭 SO many times ive seen people (using hiding on anon) saying stuff like "youre not one of those omegaverse writers who thinks all guys should have holes do you 🤨" like whats so wrong with men having vaginas 😭

in my utopian omegaverse i see (what would be considered in our universe) intersex characteristics being very common. ofc fandoms need their weird giant dick fetish fulfilled, so alpha adrosex cis women or transmascs can have lower cervixes since omega guys/transfemmes always have tiny dicks?? whereas omega androsex cis women or transmascs have higher cervixes to make room for alpha guys' or transfemmes dicks ig.

if you ask me, i think cis alpha women can also have dicks and cis omega guys can have wombs. sex isnt just decided based off genitals, so they could still have internal sex organs, secondary sex characteristics like fat distribution or having breasts, and hormone levels that dont fit into "typical" androsex ideas of what a man or woman is. there are also many different ways that people can have both set of sex organs. they are rarely both fully formed, but its a fake universe where people have fantasy world characteristics so who cares!!

actually, scratch everything i just said! there is no assigned gender at birth! each individual can decide how they want to identify as they get older, so there is no cis or trans! theres only the spectrums of alpha and omega! alphas with wombs and breasts with one undescended teste and higher testosterone/androgen/estradiol levels where they grow more hair and have deeper voices and are territorial! omegas with dicks and no womb but have ovaries and a natural urge to nest and care for children even if they cant carry the child themselves! alphas and omegas with both sets of sex organs or ambiguous genitals! maybe instead of betas being awkwardly-misplaced normal people, they can be people born with ambiguous genitals and, during puberty, dont end up presenting alpha or omega. maybe betas dont present until the meet their mate, or maybe they never present. maybe their presentation involves showing distinct characteristics of both alpha and omega! idk im talking out my ass here! i just think we should get more creative instead of sticking to some made-up rules a group of supernatural fans invented on livejournal

and ive actually already read that fic and i love it! urban fantasy holds a very special place in my heart 🥹 and i had a similar experience lol when i was young i was OBSESSED with twilight and was very much team edward bc i was obsessed with vampires for some odd reason? and now i like blood and romantic cannibalism so look where that landed me

[wake2bake]

I just have to say to all my ovary housing homies that do not settle for crappy doctors.

For the first time in the last 15 years of seeing My general practitioner for my annual pap I went to an actual OBGYN.

Now I had given myself anxiety all day about standing my ground on my birth control options and needing a hormone free option as well as standing my ground on my decision to not have children. I made sure to psych myself up that no matter what they said I was going to be heard on what I wanted.

I walked into the office and I was met with words of affirmation saying that you are seen, you are heard. You are safe here. Went and met my doctor and for the first time ever I didn't get the face or the tone of. "Are you sure?" She simply said I support you in anything that you need for your body. I almost broke down in tears because I had stressed myself out so much of making sure I don't back down from what I want because I have tend to do that and she made me feel like a human and not a fucking breeding machine.

Also, it was the least painful procedure I've ever had because anytime I've ever had my annual it was extremely painful and traumatizing don't even get me started on when I got my IUD inserted that was very traumatic.

So don't settle for general practitioners that don't have enough specialty knowledge hell don't settle for the specialist putting you down either, if I found this gem in my area there is hope that there are others out there as well. I know my privilege of living in Cali helps that but please hear me out that us with ovaries do not have to live in pain and be seen as the norm.

[dadjokeslady]

genuinely i mean this in good faith: if you understand that biological sex is immutable and real, and that saying so is not transphobia, I think you will find that many terf/radfem blogs aren't "pure transphobia". but if you decide it's not for you or you don't agree, I have to give you credit for being open to other views-- not many people are willing to take the time to do that.

Well, buckle up, this is gonna be a wild ride.

Sex has multiple facets, you can see it as chromosomal, physiological, hormonal or secondary characteristics...

Chromosomal informs physiological informs hormonal informs secondary characteristics.

Chromosomal is immutable, every trans person in the whole fucking world knows it, if you see some pretending trans people would say otherwise, it's a straw man.

Hormonal is absolutely mutable, and so is secondary characteristics, someone presenting it as immutable is in serious need of re reading a couple things, that said, nobody is seriously saying you can't change your hormones, develop breasts, deepen the voice and most of the secondary sexual characteristics.

Physiologically, it is possible to change up to a certain point, namely, you can remove gonads, which medically makes someone intersex to some degree.

Now, let's be honest, I don't have the faintest idea of what are my chromosomes, it is probably XY, given the physiological expression I have, but it might as well be a weird condition...

If you see a trans person whose transition is fairly well going, you won't be able to tell their physiological state, you can, to some degree, assume that a trans woman do not have ovaries, but you can't know much more than that.

Now lemme finish it, saying sex is immutable is not necessarily transphobic, but it's a pretty good sign of other positions one might hold that are necessarily transphobic. The discussion is nuanced as fuck, and screaming that "sex is immutable" seems a lot like an attack on a straw man that prelude another hell of transphobic shit...

[insectfem]

I love female medicine. i love knowing my female body and the intricacies of menstruation and other female body functions. so shit like this just makes me so upset.

I've been going to the gynecologist longer than any girl my age (that i know), and it was a lot of effort and pain. i was embarrassed at my knowledge of the female body, i made people uncomfortable when i was upfront about what was happening to me, but i also learned so much that i never would've known had i not gone through what i did

there's a lot of misinformation and ignorance about the female body and gynecology. and a lot of it is perpetuated by other women. in high school, i did a personal experiment where id ask random girls if they knew what a Cervix was... a whole lot either said idk or "doesn't that have something to do with the neck?" a very large number of women think that 'vulva' and 'vagina' are interchangeable. women don't understand the hormonal and structural necessity of the uterus and ovaries. women are being failed when it comes to being taught information about their own bodies, be it from school, or their parents, or themselves.

all that to say... it is the job of medical institutions to uphold the integrity of gynecology. and to fight against the misinformation

it is the job of medical institutions to say "no, the cervix is not just a hole. the cervix is a vital part of female reproductive health and will be treated as such."

if you can not even name the parts of the female body without cowering in fear of being called a transphobe, then you have absolutely no place in the medical field.

i honestly have no patience anymore. women will get sick and ignore their health because of this. women will die because of this bullshit. i don't give a singular fuck about transpeople and how offended they get at the statement "women have cervixes"

stop being fucking cowards

We need to rename trans women as castrated males with butchered holes/stinky manholes and penis will be called weapon of mass destruction and r*pe tool

[sexynugget]

i was thinking about shitposting while i was googling so my history now includes:

"why did God give me hormonal acne."

my shitposting idea was:

god saw that i was trying to get rid of the lovely cysts on my ovaries and said: you know what's missing? cysts in her fucking face." thanks god.

[euphoric-rambles]

I want to comment as someone who got a hysterectomy at 33 (and am now 35).

Why did I do it?

I was diagnosed at 26 with a rare form of uterine pre-cancer called Atypical Polyploid Adenoma (APA) and had recurrent tumors in my uterus with some transformation of the cells indicating a chance of high malignancy. Meaning there was a higher chance that I could develop an aggressive form of uterine cancer. Over the course of almost a decade, I visited my gynecologist, oncologist, and GP several times a year. I had annual transvaginal ultrasounds (where a wand is shoved inside your vagina to take pictures of your uterus and ovaries) along with several D/Cs. A D/C is where a doctor shaves a section of the impacted uterine tissue with a laser--think Darth Vader lasering out your uterus.

I also had several biopsies of my uterus taken. Uterine biopsies are some of the most targeted pain I have ever felt. The doctor has to open your cervix to get into the uterus. This is often completed while the patient is awake and without any pain relief. After my first one I was crying so hard my oncologist was concerned I might be having a panic attack.

Could you have just had D/Cs for the rest of your fertility?

I could have, but the stress, anxiety, and pain was getting to me. As any patient with cancer will tell you, the anxiety is excruciating. I also had serious conversations with my oncologist about the likelihood that I could get pregnant (many of my tumors grew on my fundus, where an egg would implant) and the chance that the hormonal changes could trigger that transformation into cancer. To me, it wasn't worth the risk. That may not be true of other patients.

What was the prep like?

I went through an oncology department so my prep was to fill in many, many legal documents that said I understood that my fertility would be gone and could not come back. Otherwise I faced no pushback from my surgical team.

The prep for the surgery was the same as is for any other same day procedure. No food after midnight, bath with unscented soap.

What does a hysterectomy feel like?

You're under general anesthesia so, at the time nothing. I elected to have laparoscopic surgery and my surgeon used a DaVinci robot. Which, is SO FUCKING COOL. They asked as they were wheeling me in if I had questions and I was like !!! YES I want to know more about the robot. There is an option to have a vaginal hysterectomy where the uterus is pulled through an incision in the vagina.

What's recovery like? Do you have scars?

I'm not going to lie, the first day or so was pretty awful. I had trouble walking and getting up and down off the toilet. My boyfriend had to help get me with a lot of basic functions. But after the first week, I was fine.

I was also pretty bloated following surgery as they inflate the area with air. Be open with anyone in your home, you're going to fart for a bit. Depending on which pain meds you receive (again, I went through oncology, I was given Percocet) you may be constipated which HURTS if you push after surgery.

I do have four tiny scars that are the length of my pinky nail. After two years, one has basically disappeared and one is in my belly button. I've explained the remaining scars away as falling as a child and people believe it.

Do you regret having a hysterectomy?

Again, my reasoning for doing this was not political but the answer is no. I categorically do not regret the surgery at all. When I woke up I sobbed that I was free and that it was over. I suffered for almost a decade and have never been happier.

Do you still get a period?

I do but not in the sense that I bleed. Again no uterus. But I do get a 'period' where I get cramps and moody. My hormones are still firing but often misfire, like I get bladder cramps (thanks Prostaglandins) because the hormones are looking for my uterus, thus I also get period diarrhea. There's a fun video from gross science that covers period poops. I do not have the period weight gain or acne that I had when I was menstruating. But that's my experience, I'm curious what others have experienced.

My hormones function normally because I still have my ovaries.

Do you have any other side effects?

I had my cervix removed as well and that is partially responsible for my ability to get wet during sex. I can still get wet but it is a little different. Climaxing also feels different, almost muted sometimes, which sucks. But I can still climax, I've just had to work differently with my partner.

I also did not have any post surgical complications but I know two other folks who had hystos and one had trouble urinating right after and needed a catheter for about a week.

What else do I want you to know?

I need you to understand that a full hysterectomy means you cannot and can never get pregnant. There is no way to take eggs from you and this cannot be reversed. Do not be mistaken--this IS permanent sterilization.

I am not stating this to scare you but to make sure you understand there is no going back. I think at this very political moment anxiety is SO high but please really assess whether or not you ever want biological children. If you do not that's ok, and a hysterectomy might be an option for you. Others have suggested other options which as also permanent sterilization techniques.

My ask box is always open for questions on hysterectomies. Make an informed decision and surround yourself with folks who love you.

if you're looking for a sign to get the hysterectomy, get it. if you are wondering if you will feel freer, less burdened, more optimistic, lighter without your uterus, you will. if you simply want to never get periods again, get the hysterectomy. if you want to have sex with a different person every day forever and never worry about getting pregnant, get the hysterectomy. if you don't know whether or not you want to stay on hormones, get the hysterectomy anyway. if you're afraid you're too young, and that people will judge you, get it anyway. you don't have to live in a hostile body. you are the one who gets to decide what it will and will not do.

[neinnerr]

Honestly I feel a little bit insane right now...I do know this is indeed the consequences for my actions or perhaps the lack thereof, but damn.

I went to the ophthalmologist today because I had a problem with a relatively recent prescription. They ran some tests and turns out I need a different prescription because i have both myopia and astigmatism, and I wasn't aware of the latter. So everything is fine, they checked my eyes and then my doctor goes,,, "do you have headaches often?" And i just stood there like, no? Not THAT often, only the normal amount i guess. And he goes "do you have any hormonal problems? Are you getting treated for something?" So i said that yes, i do have some hormonal problems, i was diagnosed with hyperthyroidism last year and i probably have polycystic ovary syndrome but I'm not on any treatments rn and i told him so, and then he told me i should get my brain checked for tumors... you have no idea how overwhelmed i felt right that second, like ????? Literally out of left field, I just went because i wanted a different prescription and i went out knowing that the nerves of my eyes are kind of fucked up and that it might be because i have a brain tumor,,, be for real

I stopped receiving treatment for my thyroid thing because I can't afford it and my medical services don't cover it, and my dad is not very helpful. It was tiring and draining as hell having to beg my dad for money for my appointments and tests and honestly i don't think it will get better.

I know it's not urgent to get checked right this moment because i really have no symptoms and it might be nothing, but my anxiety won't let me know peace and right now i would very much like to drop dead

I'll have surgery soon too and i gotta go to the dentist and GOD when will it stop,,, I KNOW they're all relatively small things but they keep piling up and I can't handle not even the smallest of these problems. Bye. It would be so much easier to just die already I can't see me past my 20's.

[strokes-of-everything]

A “renowned,” “world-class,” well-known university health system I used to go to has repeatedly emailed me trying to get me to enroll in their fertility research study, and I finally got pissed off enough to email them back to politely tell them to fuck off.

A little background: PCOS appears to be the flavor of the day in terms of diagnoses, and, just like always, there’s a COMET study being done with the NIH to look at “treatment options.” I should probably say I have serious issues with the study design for the COVID COMET study before I start tearing into this one, but I digress.

Much like how PCOS is the flavor of the day, using birth control pills to “fix PCOS” is also the only thing traditional OB/GYNs and Reproductive Endos will suggest to help you. This COMET study is looking at three treatment arms to examine using BC pills vs. metformin for treating PCOS:

Birth control pills only (even though that’s bullshit, because there’s so many combinations of estrogens/progestins now that you need to control for this variation)

Metformin only (also mostly bullshit for a lot of PCOS sufferers)

Metformin and BC Pills (I did this. I was miserable. YMMV, but it’s just bandaids for root causes)

Long story short, I went into this “world-class” health system begging for bio-identical hormone replacement because I’d spent a year with no cycle, and I was 23 at the time. I’d stopped birth control a year previously (I used it for PMS and acne), and my period just never came back. I couldn’t get out of bed. I had god awful fatigue. I had hot flashes, and hair loss, and a bunch of other menopausal symptoms. I was completely ignored.

I was diagnosed with PCOS because “my ovaries had the required number of cysts.” Nevermind the fact that coming off of extended, continuous BC use can cause this. If your doctor tells you you can “just take BC continuously without a bleed,” they are clueless. Do not do that. The nurses told me that my old doc was told to leave the practice because she was suggesting this to all of her patients. I found out too late.

The larger issue was this: my estrogen level was that of a 70 year old woman. My progesterone levels were undetectable. My testosterone levels were also extremely low; in PCOS, testosterone levels are also elevated outside of the norm. (Testosterone deficiency is also a symptom of long term BC use, but apparently no one in the mainstream medical community cares enough to address it.)

I didn’t have remotely the FSH and LH levels required to stimulate ovulation, much less have a period. In PCOS, you normally see elevated LH. At times, these were both close to 0 for me.

But they took one look at the ultrasound and said, “Yeah, definitely PCOS.” Because that’s what doctors are trained to do now—memorize a textbook, ignore abnormal cases, prescribe birth control, and send you on your way.

Thankfully, I managed to find older doctors who understood that 60% of TBI patients will have some kind of hormonal disruption, even if you have an mTBI. And that they can manifest in the months after the initial injury even if they aren’t immediately apparent.

I am extremely lucky I was able to use the pandemic telehealth loopholes to find doctors who understood how my TBI sent me into hypothalamic amenorrhea and HPA dysfunction. But the delay this health system caused by labeling me with PCOS and shoving birth control at me may have wrecked my fertility for good.

I’ll be damned if I don’t say something before they do it to someone else.

If you have PCOS, and metformin and birth control aren’t helping your symptoms, you can consider seeing a FEMM provider for options that aren’t just the birth control pill. I know people who have gotten better with trying things like Vitex (chaste berry), low dose naltrexone, progesterone cream, acupuncture, and an anti-inflammatory diet. Stress reduction is also key.

There are doctors out there who see that the BC pill is not a panacea. Don’t let shitty, pharmaceutical industry influenced studies and physicians convince you otherwise.

[fuck-customers]

There are just some customers you never forget.

I will never forget the guy who said my 'attitude was disgusting and that I should be ashamed of myself' cause I said I couldn't sell him the paper cake box since it had the logo of the company on it (such a stupid policy).

I will never forget the woman who gave me a business card for some sort of makeup technician(?). The reason she did this is because I have HORRIBLE acne. I'm not exaggerating, red irritated bumpy dry+oily skin, blemishes all over my forehead, cheeks, chin and jawbone, sometimes I get cysts along my jawbone or near my nose. I get flare-ups when my period is approaching. It didn't help that the hair net I had to wear would reveal all that. Because you know makeup will totally solve the problem. It might hide the redness but all the bumps, scars and cysts? How is makeup going to hide that?

I will never forget the other woman who said I should blend spinach in a drink to help my acne. She said it helped her so much with all 'this', motioning to her stomach area, and said it would help me too. Maybe she meant ovaries since hormones can also cause acne but idk. She was kinda vague about it and I didn't want to talk about it. Seemed like it was a personal struggle to her.

I will never forget the mid-age Spanish dude who said I should get the large aloe leaf I didn't know the store sold in the produce section and rub that on my face which will help with my acne. He came back a couple days later, another aloe leaf in his cart and asked if I tried his method. No fuck off I don't have a sunburn my skin is irritated with all the hormones, genetics and probably all the stress I get from customers like you. Even if it helped with the redness, it won't help with literally all the other problems.

I will also never forget the guy who said I need to eat more carrots to help with my acne.

Also the woman who gave me an attitude cause she wanted to buy a cake topper, but she wanted it for free cause it comes free with a cake. She was not buying a cake. I told her how much it cost and she started giving me 'tude saying that's a new policy she's never had to pay before blah blah blah. Ma'am. I've never seen your face here before and I've been working here for a year. Buy the 8$ topper or not I do not care. I do not get commins for this.

ALSO this one woman who made zero attempt to communicate with me. She only spoke Spanish and my white pale-ass self does NOT. I could say very very basic things regarding orders but anythin other then what's on the form (not in Spanish, only English) I don't know how to say. There was no one else in the department with me who spoke Spanish and they guy who I usually call to translate was not at work at that time. I could ask what flavour, what day do you want the cake for, basic stuff. This woman did not want a basic cake. She wanted a fondant cake with a popular luxury fashion brand on it. I know this because she pulled out her phone showing me the cake. The part that makes me mad is that I pull out my phone to use Boogle translate so I can tell her, 'no, we can't do this, fondant cakes needs two weeks in advance and we can't do logos'. She wanted a two tier fondant cake for the next day. She was not getting it, not using her own phone for translation, I'm clearly struggling over here tryin to pronounce everythin tryin to not sound like a gringo, typing in my phone responses and she's not budging. She eventually throws her hands up and leaves clearly frustrated. I tried to help lady🤷 She wasted so much of my time too.

[celtyradicalfem]

“I have not said a single god damn thing about trans women in this entire thread. I don't give a shit about your opinions on trans women, I've let it out of the argument, I do not care. I'm not arguing for or against trans rights here.”

Your concern trolling is based on false conflation between female sex specific medical conditions and adult human males

We both know what you are trying

“YOU'RE the one who apparently cannot have a conversation without bringing it up.”

I made the observation that gender identity ideologues falsely conflate blackness, Jewishness and femaleness with transgenderism for their political convenience

You are using women’s appearances to your political advantage to force female athletes to compete against male athletes

“You absolutely cannot both say that higher T levels make someone a man and also that higher T levels in PCOS don't apply to you. You're arguing in literally both directions.”

You are arguing in reverse

Male chromosomes set off a developmental that results in high testosterone levels that set off male puberty and irreversible male advantages

Women with high testosterone levels are within a range that does not overlap with the lowest male testosterone levels

“Maybe it's a lack of empathy”

Did you ever consider how she felt?

Do you ever consider how your male chauvinist pig behaviour harms women?

Do you ever ponder how your shitty ideology erodes women’s right?

“maybe you just don't care about whether your views a contradictory”

Women are female

PCOS is a female sex specific medical condition

“I don't know, but I'm tired of this conversation.”

We are tired of losing out right over male mental masturbation

“Hate who you want”

I don’t need you permission to hate men

“do what you want”

I will continue to exclude male from feminism

“but just stop fucking judging LITERAL cis women”

You likened me to men because I have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome

You are being a hypocrite by your own fucked up standards

for being "Too manly" and judging them as men”

I never said any woman looked “too manly”

I said male athletes have no right competing with female athletes

You brought up female athletes appearances to sneak an obvious agenda then got mad when I didn’t concede your delusions

“based on some fucking idea of what a woman is supposed to look like, to you.”

Millions of years of evolution and you pretend we can’t see with our own eyes the difference between male and female

“I don't care if you hate me, I don't care if you validate me, your opinion of me literally does not matter to me”

Obviously you are hypersensitive to criticism

“i'm asking you to reflect on the contradictory stances you hold because you somehow separate out genetics and hormones”

I have been extremely consistent

You just confuse your non arguments with my opinions

“as if they're two entirely independent topics, black and white, instead of the weird soupy mess that is the human bodies genetics and hormonal variations.”

Why trans so weird about human bodies?

It is not as difficult as you like to pretend

“The human body is fantastically complicated”

How many trans ‘women’ have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome?

“intentional reduction of complex topics down to simple digestible lines isn't feminism - it's ignorance””

Men do not get to tell women how to feminism

Get your dick back in line

So, the amusing thing about the olympic boxer thing is that this is the exact thing a lot of trans people have been warning about for years, that people that have been considered women their entire life are going to be punished because of genetic variations beyond their control. Where's the line, exactly? PCOS raises T levels in women who have it, is that unfair? What exactly is the 'bar' for them to be under? It's way more cloudy than people realize or want to think about, and now it's in the forefront.

[sillyrabbit81]

Rabbiiiiit! Can you imagine being at a part with Sy, and you decide to whisper something in his ear, and the mother fucker looks at you like this?

😳😳😳

Ok Nyxy. You killed me so hard with this it only took me three days to respond with this little drabble. Blame hormones and that man's hot as fuck face!

Pairing: Captain Syverson x Female reader

Word Count: approx 400

Warnings: Implied smut, Sy being a horny sexy bastard. I luv him!

Masterlist

Testing

Your phone beep at you. You looked down and saw the alarm that reminded you to test your ovulation. You sighed, looking around the back yard, and almost decided to ignore it. But you and Sy really wanted to have a baby and neither of you were getting any younger.

You went to the bathroom, and took the test, waiting five minutes. You played on your phone while you waited, the test had been negative this morning, you thought it was unlikely to be positive this afternoon.

Checking the test and comparing it to the chart, your eyes went wide. Oh fuck. It was positive, your ovulation hormones were surging, indicating that you were ovulating or just about to. Fuck. You nibbled your lip as you thought about what to do. You could just wait and tell Sy when you got home, but if you waited much longer, he would start getting too drunk to perform.

There was another problem, the second the test came back positive you felt the rush of blood between your legs and your whole body started to throb. You wanted Sy right now. You couldn’t wait hours, it wasn’t going to happen. The thought of him filling you, pumping his seed deep within your womb, creating a baby together, made you cross your legs.

That did it. You left the bathroom and made your way straight over to Sy.

Grinning lazily at you he brought you under his arm as you got close. He continued to talk to his friends though, so you tugged lightly on his shirt and gestured for him to come closer.

Wrinkling his forehead, he leaned down asking a little concerned, “What’s up Sweet Pea?”

Cupping your mouth with your hand you whispered in his ear, “I’m ovulating.”

Sy leisurely pulled back and looked at you, smirking, his eyes full of mischief. Damn he’s hot as fuck when he looks at you like that. You swear, if you weren’t already ovulating you were sure your ovaries would have spontaneously released an egg. “Really?” Sy said slowly, his smirk growing bigger, despite trying to hide it from his friends. “Right here, right now? Or should we try and make it home?”

“Now,” you said urgently.

Growling Sy grabbed your ass and walked you to the house. “Here, hold my beer,” Sy said to his friend. “My wife is ovulating, I gotta go make a baby.”