#my mom changed it so it wouldnt kick in until the 70s

[disagigglebilities]

As someone who has heat intolerance and several chronic illnesses that get worse with heat, I hate not having control over the thermostat

[theycallmegothboy]

1-100 >:DDDD REVENGE!!!

FELIXXXXXXXXXXXX >:(( 1. Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora?  -spotify  2. is your room messy or clean? -it’s pretty messy i guess  3. what color are your eyes? -blue and grey

4. do you like your name? why? -yeah it’s fine 5. what is your relationship status? -single 6. describe your personality in 3 words or less -certified intrusive thot 7. what color hair do you have? -brown and rn it’s red 8. what kind of car do you drive? color? -i dont have a car 9. where do you shop? -hot topic, goodwill, target 10. how would you describe your style? -comfy emo 11. favorite social media account -of mine, probably discord or youtube 12. what size bed do you have? -twin >:(( 13. any siblings? -i have 1.5 brothers  14. if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? -probably vancouver, idk canada seems lit 15. favorite snapchat filter? -i like the one with devil horns and a tail but its cute 16. favorite makeup brand(s) -i dont wear makeup 17. how many times a week do you shower? -i used to shower every day, but i dont do anything that gets me dirty so like maybe 3 times but if i leave the house then i shower 18. favorite tv show? -stranger things 19. shoe size?  -8 or 9 20. how tall are you? -5′6 with shoes >:(( 21. sandals or sneakers? -sneakers wtf 22. do you go to the gym? -lol no 23. describe your dream date -making some pie or something together and then eating the pie and then sitting on some rooftop looking at stars 24. how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? -quite a bit actually but i’m saving up for a phone lol so soon it will be like maybe 10 dollars lmao 25. what color socks are you wearing? -not wearing socks but the ones i had earlier were white (ankle length) 26. how many pillows do you sleep with? -just one but it sucks 27. do you have a job? what do you do? -NO BUT IM TRYING TO GET A JOB BUT THE FUCKIN PEOPLE THERE ARE GHOSTING ME AND WONT REPLY TO MY EMAILS SO LIKE SBJHBJS 28. how many friends do you have? -like 4 lmao 29. whats the worst thing you have ever done? -idk nothing super bad but i do a lot of small shit that makes me feel guilty when i realize what i did 30. whats your favorite candle scent? -juniper rosewood 31. 3 favorite boy names -leo, clay, charlie 32. 3 favorite girl names -ivy, uh... idk thats all ive got 33. favorite actor? -no clue 34. favorite actress? -no clue 35. who is your celebrity crush? -not a celeb but i’d smash danny phantom 36. favorite movie? -nightmare before christmas or edward scissorhands 37. do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? -no, but my fav book is probably the prince and the pauper? idk 38. money or brains? -CASH MONEYYYY jk probably brains but if your entire personality is being “smart” like fuck off lmao   39. do you have a nickname? what is it? - a bunch of people call me son (see #49, #100), some call me rat, dumdum, goth boy

40.how many times have you been to the hospital? -just once i think when i was birthed. i also went once with my brother cause he kicked some scissors i left out on the floor and it sliced his toe the fuck open and he needed stitches and i watched him get the stitches and almost passed out :/ 41. top 10 favorite songs -please dont make me do this i dont have it in me 42. do you take any medications daily? -yea i take 20mg of vyvanse but i need to get it raised to 30 cause 20 is Not Enough 43. what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) -i got some dry fuckin skin yall dont even know 44. what is your biggest fear?  -it depends. the dark is a pretty constant one though 45. how many kids do you want? -like 2 or 3 eventually 46. whats your go to hair style? -in my face, looking stupid 47. what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc)  -it’s pretty small 48. who is your role model? -i dont fuckin know lmao  49. what was the last compliment you received? - “i belive in you, my son, you’re an amazing human being“ (same friend mentioned in #100, not actually a parent of mine) 50. what was the last text you sent? -”no it’s a raccoon“ YOU GET NO CONTEXT LMAO 51. how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? -i dont think i ever hardcore believed in him, maybe i did though i remember sleeping under the tree one christmas eve waiting for him but i was like “oh yeah that makes sense“ i guess 52. what is your dream car?  -i honestly dont give a shit as long as it actually fucking works 53. opinion on smoking? -cigarettes? fuck no that’s nastyyy. weed? that’s fine i guess but wait till you’re like 18.  54. do you go to college? -no. am sophomore n highschool 55. what is your dream job?  -musician/palentologist 56. would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs?  -fuck the suburbs lmao, but also im tired of rural, so like.. semi urban?? 57. do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels?  -no but i take the little soaps >:)) 58. do you have freckles?  -yes 59. do you smile for pictures? -awkwardly, yes 60. how many pictures do you have on your phone?  -dont have a phone but i have like 12 on my computer currently. 4 are of me, the rest are of my cat or random shit 61. have you ever peed in the woods?  -yes 62. do you still watch cartoons?  -cartoons these days kinda suck but like if they were good fuck yeah i would like gravity falls can come hang yknow? 63. do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? -i had nuggets from mcdonalds today so i guess them? i dont really care 64. Favorite dipping sauce?  -i got sweet and sour but i dont like it that much. that schezuan sauce was great 65. what do you wear to bed?  -wouldnt you like to know? ;))  66. have you ever won a spelling bee?  -NO ive only been in two. the first one i misspelled the word “turmoil“ cause i had never heard it before and the second one i spelled the word “owed“ as “ode“ cause i was thinking like ode to joy and then i felt like a big Fool afterwards :(( 67. what are your hobbies? -lol what hobbies 68. can you draw?  -i am physically able to draw, but not well, no 69 (haha). do you play an instrument? -yeah i play a few 70. what was the last concert you saw?  -i saw Chicago in either georgia or tennessee i cant remember in like 2016 71. tea or coffee? -hot coffee, iced tea. NOT the other way around. (i love both though) 72. Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? -starbucks 73. do you want to get married? -sure why not 74. what is your crush’s first and last initial? -dont have a crush 75. are you going to change your last name when you get married?  -idk maybe 76. what color looks best on you?  -i dont know but i wear black a lot and that’s pretty dope 77. do you miss anyone right now? -yeah  78. do you sleep with your door open or closed? -closed 79. do you believe in ghosts? -on the fence. not 100% “oh my god look at these gHoSt oRbS i need to sage my house!!!“ but i accept that there’s some things i wont understand about the world and that i have no answers to. i wouldnt be surprised if there are, and i wouldnt be surprised if there aren’t. 80. what is your biggest pet peeve? -whatever my adhd decides i viscerally hate with a firey passion right at that moment  81. last person you called -my brother (the 1 of the 1.5 from #13 and the one who sliced his toe in #40) 82. favorite ice cream flavor?  -chocolate is dope 83. regular oreos or golden oreos?  -regular double stuff. if you say golden, mint, peppermint, or thin oreos i’m gonna have to euthanize you, i dont make the rules.  84. chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? -rainbow cause it’s prettier  85. what shirt are you wearing?  -queen shirt from hot topic 86. what is your phone background? -i didnt get a phone between question 60 and now but my computer one is some mountains with the moon in the background 87. are you outgoing or shy? -really depends on who i’m around 88. do you like it when people play with your hair? -YES FUCK AAAAAAA (this girl played with my hair literally once in middle school and i was like oh shit and i had a crush on her until the end of middle school true story,,, so ashley if you’re out there-) 89. do you like your neighbors? -to the left they’re fine and their dog is nice but idk what happened to the horses so that’s sus but that’s where our cat came from so they can hang  guess, behind me they’re fine but their boys are loud, to the right they’re fine, and even further to the right are the dope neighbors and waaaaaaaaaay far to the right is a llama and he’s dope as hell 90. do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? -whenever the fuck i remember to/have the energy 91. have you ever been high?  -i dont think so but i wouldnt put it past myself 92. have you ever been drunk?  -not that i can remember, no 93. last thing you ate?  -sloppy joe from a can 94. favorite lyrics right now -”not gonna waste my life, cause i’ve been fucked up“ 95. summer or winter?  -fall. fuck you 96. day or night?  -night but i like it when it’s actually night and it doesnt get dark at like 4 fucking pm cause that makes me depressed 97. dark, milk, or white chocolate? -dark is good, milk is fine, white is only suitable for fancy stripes on chocolate covered strawberries 98. favorite month?  -i vibe with september 99. what is your zodiac sign -sagittarius (was almost a scorpio but i was holding out >:))) 100. who was the last person you cried in front of?  -in person, my mom like 6 months ago, on a discord call, my friend (i love you by the way, you’re the best,,, i dont think he has tumblr but im just putting it out there) like a month or so ago. i hate crying in front of people, i turn into such a hyperventilating snot monster which is not suitable for human gaze and thats the real tea :/

felix this took like 2 hours of my life i will never get back i hate you and i hope you’re happy with what you’ve done <3 <3

also anyone who wants to stalk me, enjoy this information that im handing to you on a silver platter :)) <3

[gracewithducks]

Like a Tree (Jeremiah 17:5-10)

My family recently returned from a trip to Florida. We went primarily to visit family – my grandparents are in the process of moving out of their Florida home there as we speak – and we wanted to visit them, to enjoy some sunshine together and to swim in their awesome pool, one more time before they sold. Unfortunately the weather didn’t cooperate. Our visit was overcast and cold – not “polar vortex in Michigan” cold, but still, Florida cold, 50-and-drizzly cold, too cold even for little girls to go in the pool. Fortunately, even though the girls missed the pool, we had a lovely visit with grandma and grandpa, and we also had a surprise in store: the girls didn’t know it, but we were going to Disney World. So there was this one beautiful day. It was one day when the sun actually came out – and I tell you, I think I am at least partly solar powered, because when the sun came out that afternoon, it was like my soul woke up – and the sun was shining and it was in the 70s, probably the most beautiful day of our whole trip. And I remember so vividly sitting that afternoon on a bench in the sun, with my eyes closed, the light on my face, letting the crowds bustle right on by, taking a break in the sun in the happiest place on earth... and my hands are like this (up in front of me, fists almost closed), one hand tightly wrapped around each wrist of my four-year-old, who is in the middle of one of the most epic and out of control temper tantrums of her life. You see, Disney is a wonderful place. And my kids got to go on a lot of amazing rides and meet a lot of fantastic characters. Along the way we learned that both of my girls love roller coasters. They love the thrill rides, the dips and the swoops and the big drops and the wind in their faces... they both love the roller coasters, but many of those rides for safety reasons require you to be a certain height to ride. And for a lot of those rides, in order to be safe, in order to get on the ride, you need to be at least 44 inches tall.

I can now tell you with absolute certainty that, with her sneakers on, when she stands up as tall as she knows how – B is exactly 43 and 3/4 inches tall. And sometimes life is hard when you’re 43-and-not-quite-another-whole-inch tall. Sometimes it means your sister and daddy go ride Space Mountain, and you get left behind.

B and I did a lot of fun and special things while daddy and big sister stood in line. We rode the People Mover – which is a really nice ride, but it’s not Space Mountain. We met Buzz Lightyear – and he’s a really cool guy, but he’s no Space Mountain. We went on the Carousel of Progress, which has the voice of Tom Hanks and a catchy song and lots of educational value and a rotating theater and absolutely no waiting at all... but it’s no Space Mountain. And now we had to wait just ten more minutes, ten more minutes for daddy and sister to finally ride their ride and come meet us. Ten minutes until our family was back together and we made our way to dinner with Cinderella. And those ten minutes were the longest ten minutes of our lives. I told B how lucky we were; we did all those things while daddy and sissy just stood in line. I reminded her we were at Disney World, and the sun was shining and we were on our way to meet Prince Charming. I explained to her about lap bars and rules that are meant to keep her safe. I told all the things that were right. I told her why. But all she could see was that it didn’t feel fair.  And she screamed at me. And she cried. And she stomped. And she kicked. And when she started hitting, that’s when I held her hands and didn’t let go. We were past the point of reason. We were neck deep in the disappointment and anger of a not-quite-44-inch-tall four-year-old who was hot for the first time in days and who was tired and overstimulated and who didn’t want to be the little sister any more. And all I could do was hold on. It’s easy in those moments to let it get to you. Too often, I do. Too often, I forget that’ I’m the adult, and when the kid starts yelling, I yell right back.  Too often, I start thinking: we never should have come. This is why we can’t do nice things. I start to feel like a lousy mom. I should have found a better way to keep her happy. I should have taught her how to manage her feelings. And when she’s yelling, “You’re mean” and “You’re a bad mom” and “I don’t like you” – sometimes, it feels like she means it. And in that moment maybe she does. So I hold on. I hold on to her, literally, so she doesn’t hurt herself or anybody else. And I hold onto the knowledge that this too will pass – and the amazing thing is, it does. And I hold onto how much I love her, and how much she loves me. And the sun shines. And the tantrum ends. And life goes on. B probably doesn’t even remember that tantrum. But I do. And what I remember most is the calm that I had – which isn’t like me at all – the calm, the peace, that helped me hold on.

 At a recent gathering of moms, a speaker talked about grace – specifically in the context of marriage and parenting. They said, grace as a state that you’re in, a state that God puts you in, a state of being where you are loved and valued just as you are now, with no conditions or changes – and if you’re in that state of grace, if you know who you are, and you know that who you are is someone who is beloved and valued by God, and you know that nothing can change that – then you can weather the storms that come.

 And the speaker never used this imagery, but I wish they would have – because that’s what comes to mind when I read our scripture for today:

 Blessed are those who trust in the LORD, whose trust is in the LORD.

They shall be like a tree planted by water,

sending out its roots by the stream.

It shall not fear when heat comes,

and its leaves shall stay green;

in the year of drought it is not anxious, and it does not cease to bear fruit.

 Blessed are those who are rooted in the LORD – who are planted by deep water, who can weather the drought and the heat and the storm. Blessed are those who know that your value doesn’t depend on whether or not your kids throw tantrums, or if they get into the best schools, or your house is a mess, or how your job is going, or if you’re married or single or widowed or divorced – your value doesn’t change when you have a bad day, when you mess up, when you get completely overwhelmed… you can keep going, because your roots run much, much deeper than that.

 There is something powerful about being rooted in God’s love. There is something powerful that comes from knowing that you are beloved by God, that God values you so highly that God would trade God’s own life for yours – and nothing that happens to you, nothing that you do, nothing that you don’t do – nothing can change who you really are: you are beloved by God.

 It’s a powerful truth. It’s a powerful image, and it’s one I need to hold onto more often – I wish I could tell you that every time my day spirals out of control, every time my kids lose their tempers, I manage to hold onto mine. I wish I could tell you that I always draw on those deep roots, that I turn my face to the sunshine until the storm passes. I don’t. But I’m working on it… and the good news is that, even when I blow my top, those deep roots of God’s love still don’t let me go.

 But this imagery, this scripture, runs even deeper than that; it’s about more than just the strength that helps us get through our lousy days. Even in the middle of that miserable tantrum, when B was fighting and screaming and railing with all her might, part of the reason I could keep holding on is because I knew: I was right. I knew that, no matter how much she yelled, she couldn’t go on that ride. And even if I broke all the rules and found a way to smuggle her onto that ride, even though it might make her happy for a few moments – it wouldn’t be the most loving thing I could do for her. She couldn’t go on the ride, because she wouldn’t be safe on that ride; it wasn’t made for her, and as much as she wanted it, it wasn’t right for her. And no matter how much, in that moment, she screamed that I was mean and life was unfair – I knew that I still loved her, and eventually, she’d know that all I was doing was acting out of that love.

 When you know what you’re doing is right, when you know it’s rooted in love – even when that love doesn’t look the way people want it to, even when those decisions are hard and your voice is unpopular – when you know, then it’s so much easier to keep holding on.

 There’s a reason that this image – of the tree, by the water, that will not be moved – there’s a reason that it became an anthem for the civil rights movement. Because when you know what you’re doing is right, you can weather the storm, you can weather the drought, you can hold on through the violence and the hatred and the anger – because you know, deep down, love will prevail, and if you keep holding on, if you just don’t give in, sooner or later, justice will roll down.

 I’ve been thinking a lot about temper tantrums and the deep roots of justice lately. We find ourselves, as a nation, guided by leaders who are willing to bend the rules and abuse their power and manufacture a crisis in order to get their way. And sometimes it seems easier to just give in to the tantruming todder – but in the long run, all that does is hurt them and everyone else. If our leaders want to address a real national emergency, then let’s talk about the 1 in 5 children who go hungry in America.[1] Let’s talk about the 1 in 5 Americans who can’t afford or access the health care they need.[2] Let’s talk about the 100 Americans who are shot and killed every single day – and the hundreds more who survive being shot and have to live with the trauma and the fear.[3] Let’s talk about the fact that our national infrastructure has been reviewed by the American Society of Civil Engineers and given a grade of D+.[4] Our airports, our dams, our water pipes, our roads and bridges are literally crumbling out from under us. Let’s talk about the real global threat of climate change, and the reality that we are running out of time to do something about it – if we haven’t already.[5] Let’s talk about the fact that, here in Michigan, hate crimes are on the rise,[6] and the people of Flint still don’t have clean water three years after a federal state of emergency was declared.[7]

 One of the other scripture readings suggested for today is from the gospel of Luke, from Jesus’ sermon on the plain. Jesus sees the crowds, the multitude who have come to him for healing and for hope, and he goes down to a level place – he goes and stands with the people on level ground. And Jesus says,

 Blessed are you who are poor, for yours is the kingdom of God.

Blessed are you who are hungry now, for you will be filled.

Blessed are you who weep now, for you will laugh…

But woe to you who are rich, for you have received your consolation.

Woe to you who are full now, for you will be hungry.

Woe to you who are laughing now, for you will mourn and weep.[8]

 Jesus’ words challenge us – but this, this is the root of his message, and this is where we are meant to be rooted, too. Are we content to be a people who speak comfort to the rich, who stay silent in the face of abuses, who rob from the starving to fill the pockets of the powerful? Or do we, like Christ, put ourselves on level ground with the community around us? Are we proclaiming good news to the poor? Are we healing the sick, and feeding the hungry? Do we weep with those who are weeping – and work to bring them peace?

 It’s a lot. But Jesus never promised that discipleship would be an easy road. And it’s more than any one person can do together. But if enough of us keep holding on – if we refuse to be silent – if we don’t give up the fight – then there is always hope.

 Holding on is exhausting. But I keep holding on, because I know what’s right, and I am rooted in God’s love, and I believe that – if we keep speaking up, if we keep holding on, if we refuse to give up, then we will keep bearing fruit – and in the end, when the chaff is withered and blown away, justice will prevail and love is going to win.

 In the coming days, the United Methodist Church is going to make some important decisions. They’re the same decisions the church has been facing since the very beginning: are we going to be about laws, or are we going to be about love? And many of us are anxious, because those decisions are going to impact the kind of ministry we do, together. But here’s the thing: I may be anxious, but I am not afraid. I am not afraid, because I know what God has called me to do. I know where God has called me to serve. I know that God’s love is for everyone, everywhere – and the sin that God is calling us confront is greed, is the love of power, is injustice and prejudice and racism and fear. And I am going do all I can to keep speaking hope, to keep speaking truth, to keep following that calling God has given me, regardless of what the General Conference decides. I am going to keep doing justice, and loving mercy, and walking humbly with God – no matter what.

I, for one, by God’s grace, am going to keep holding on. I’m going to choose what’s right, even when it’s hard. I’m going to turn my face towards the sunshine, and I’m going to put my roots down deep. I am going to trust that the truth can set us free. And I am going to trust that God’s grace is sufficient even for me.

  Oh God, help us to be trees planted by your waters. Give us roots that run down deep in your love. The icy storms around us are turning us brittle and cold; give us tender spirits and warm our hearts again. Help us, even in dry and difficult seasons, to bear fruit of your grace. Make us people who do justice, who love mercy, and who walk humbly by your side. In Jesus’ name we pray; amen.

[1] https://mashable.com/2016/07/14/child-hunger-united-states/#7uhoiUr0jaq3

[2] https://abcnews.go.com/Health/Healthday/story?id=4509618&page=1

[3] https://everytownresearch.org/gun-violence-america/

[4] https://www.cnbc.com/2017/03/09/engineers-give-americas-infrastructure-a-near-failing-grade.html

[5] https://www.usnews.com/news/best-countries/articles/2019-02-10/climate-change-isis-seen-as-greatest-global-threats-survey-finds

[6] https://www.hollandsentinel.com/news/20181114/fbi-michigan-hate-crimes-on-rise

[7] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Flint_water_crisis

[8] Luke 6:17-26, abridged.