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I let myself rest and now I'm daydreaming about academia and academic research and writing again
#send help#academia#archaeology#i cant dedicate multiple years of my life to going back to do more study just bc im bored rn
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He is fighting a war. Just got his arms back. Has been fighting for his life so intensely that even we as the audience are unaware of the passage of time. And still has time to fanboy.
#people be like 'deku is such a weak crybaby mc'#like YOU try reciting the exact model of the clothing you're wearing after being severely injured#and going through the most intense emotional journey of your life#for no other motivation than pure dedication to being a nerd#mha#bnha#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#deku#mha deku#mha 421#mha manga spoilers#mha manga panels#bnha manga spoilers#bnha 421#bnha spoilers#mha spoilers
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the thing about art is that it was always supposed to be about us, about the human-ness of us, the impossible and beautiful reality that we (for centuries) have stood still, transfixed by music. that we can close our eyes and cry about the same book passage; the events of which aren't real and never happened. theatre in shakespeare's time was as real as it is now; we all laugh at the same cue (pursued by bear), separated hundreds of years apart.
three years ago my housemates were jamming outdoors, just messing around with their instruments, mostly just making noise. our neighbors - shy, cautious, a little sheepish - sat down and started playing. i don't really know how it happened; i was somehow in charge of dancing, barefoot and laughing - but i looked up, and our yard was full of people. kids stacked on the shoulders of parents. old couples holding hands. someone had brought sidewalk chalk; our front walk became a riot of color. someone ran in with a flute and played the most astounding solo i've ever heard in my life, upright and wiggling, skipping as she did so. she only paused because the violin player was kicking his heels up and she was laughing too hard to continue.
two weeks ago my friend and i met in the basement of her apartment complex so she could work out a piece of choreography. we have a language barrier - i'm not as good at ASL as i'd like to be (i'm still learning!) so we communicate mostly through the notes app and this strange secret language of dancers - we have the same movement vocabulary. the two of us cracking jokes at each other, giggling. there were kids in the basement too, who had been playing soccer until we took up the far corner of the room. one by one they made their slow way over like feral cats - they laid down, belly-flat against the floor, just watching. my friend and i were not in tutus - we were in slouchy shirts and leggings and socks. nothing fancy. but when i asked the kids would you like to dance too? they were immediately on their feet and spinning. i love when people dance with abandon, the wild and leggy fervor of childhood. i think it is gorgeous.
their adults showed up eventually, and a few of them said hey, let's not bother the nice ladies. but they weren't bothering us, they were just having fun - so. a few of the adults started dancing awkwardly along, and then most of the adults. someone brought down a better sound system. someone opened a watermelon and started handing out slices. it was 8 PM on a tuesday and nothing about that day was particularly special; we might as well party.
one time i hosted a free "paint along party" and about 20 adults worked quietly while i taught them how to paint nessie. one time i taught community dance classes and so many people showed up we had to move the whole thing outside. we used chairs and coatracks to balance. one time i showed up to a random band playing in a random location, and the whole thing got packed so quickly we had to open every door and window in the place.
i don't think i can tell you how much people want to be making art and engaging with art. they want to, desperately. so many people would be stunning artists, but they are lied to and told from a very young age that art only matters if it is planned, purposeful, beautiful. that if you have an idea, you need to be able to express it perfectly. this is not true. you don't get only 1 chance to communicate. you can spend a lifetime trying to display exactly 1 thing you can never quite language. you can just express the "!!??!!!"-ing-ness of being alive; that is something none of us really have a full grasp on creating. and even when we can't make what we want - god, it feels fucking good to try. and even just enjoying other artists - art inherently rewards the act of participating.
i wasn't raised wealthy. whenever i make a post about art, someone inevitably says something along the lines of well some of us aren't that lucky. i am not lucky; i am dedicated. i have a chronic condition, my hands are constantly in pain. i am not neurotypical, nor was i raised safe. i worked 5-7 jobs while some of these memories happened. i chose art because it mattered to me more than anything on this fucking planet - i would work 80 hours a week just so i could afford to write in 3 of them.
and i am still telling you - if you are called to make art, you are called to the part of you that is human. you do not have to be good at it. you do not have to have enormous amounts of privilege. you can just... give yourself permission. you can just say i'm going to make something now and then - go out and make it. raquel it won't be good though that is okay, i don't make good things every time either. besides. who decides what good even is?
you weren't called to make something because you wanted it to be good, you were called to make something because it is a basic instinct. you were taught to judge its worth and over-value perfection. you are doing something impossible. a god's ability: from nothing springs creation.
a few months ago i found a piece of sidewalk chalk and started drawing. within an hour i had somehow collected a small classroom of young children. their adults often brought their own chalk. i looked up and about fifteen families had joined me from around the block. we drew scrangly unicorns and messed up flowers and one girl asked me to draw charizard. i am not good at drawing. i basically drew an orb with wings. you would have thought i drew her the mona lisa. she dragged her mother over and pointed and said look! look what she drew for me and, in the moment, i admit i flinched (sorry, i don't -). but the mother just grinned at me. he's beautiful. and then she sat down and started drawing.
someone took a picture of it. it was in the local newspaper. the summary underneath said joyful and spontaneous artwork from local artists springs up in public gallery. in the picture, a little girl covered in chalk dust has her head thrown back, delighted. laughing.
#writeblr#warm up#this is longer than i wanted i really considered removing that part about myself and what i went thru#but i think it really fucking bothers me that EVERY time i talk about being an artist#ppl assume i just like. had the skill and ability to drop everything and pay for grad school.#like sir i grew up poor. my house wasn't a safe space. i gave up a FREE RIDE TO LAW SCHOOL. for THIS. bc i chose it.#was it fucking hard? was i choosing the hard thing?? yes.#but we need to stop seeing artists as lazy layabouts that can ''afford'' to just ''sit around and create''#when MANY - if not MOST - of us are NOT like that. we have to work our fucking ASSES off. hard work. long and hard work#part of valuing artists is recognizing the amount we sacrifice to make our art. bc it doesn't just#like HAPPEN to us. also btw it rarely has anything to do with true talent.#speaking as someone with a chronic condition i hate when ppl are like u have it easy. like actively as i'm writing this my hands r#ACTIVELY hurting me. i haven't been posting bc my left hand was curled in a claw for the last week#this isn't fucking luck. after a certain point it's not even TALENT. it's dedication & sacrifice.#''u get to flounce around and do nothing with ur life'' is a narrative that is a direct result of capitalism#imagine if we said that about literally any other profession.#''oh so u give up 10 yrs of ur life to be a doctor? u sacrifice having a social life and u get SUPER in debt?#u need to work countless hours and it will often be thankless? well i wish i was that lucky''#we should be applying that logic to landlords ONLY#''oh ur mom and dad gave u the money to buy a house? and all u did was paint it white and rent it? huh.''
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*shaky thumbs up* I just finished ch5...... y-you were not kidding about it being a heavy one.....
:)
(how's that going so far, Mal)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 5 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 5 spoilers#malleus: i'm going to save my dad!#malleus: (forces his dad to relive his most traumatic memories) (accidentally reveals no less than three tragic life-altering secrets)#malleus: (is on the verge of causing the entire world to be destroyed)#malleus: wait. no. hold on. i can still fix this --#good job honey you're doing greeeeeaaaat#let's be fair though sebek is actually doing...weirdly okay?#sure he turned into electricity but. he meant to do that!#(this is dedicated to the person who said they like it when sebek is featureless except for a screaming mouth)#(truly it is his essence)
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she learns to walk and realises she can just Leave now
#this post dedicated 2 the like 3-4 people who have been writing byrne fics in the ao3 tag this entire time. i owe u my life //#ace attorney#dl-6 au#kay faraday#aai1#byrne faraday#manfred von karma#long post
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Some Yveltal sketches (curated from my main blog, there's some lore in the tags if you're interested.)
#Feel like my pokemon followers here would enjoy some good eats.#Yveltal are very dedicated parents. They sometimes care for the chicks even long after they've fledged.#But they have some god awful sight and don't have the best of scent receptors.#Adult Yveltal don't eat in the traditional sense. They don't need to hunt or scavenge. They passively consume the life force of the well. L#So over time those senses have just degraded.#Which leads them very vulnerable to brood parasitism.#A pokemon whose chick is black and red can easily be passed off as a Yveltal chick.#Due to this their population is horrifically low.#Legendary as they are. They aren't that well off considering how things are going.#my art#pokemon#Yveltal#Pokémon but worse!#Pkmn#Pkmn fanart#pokemon fanart#pokemon art#pokemon XY#pokemon yveltal#all the tags buster.
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he’s very special to me
#i’m only halfway through season 3 but i’ve already dedicated my life to this boy#sabeldraws#bbc merlin#merlin#emrys#merthur#fanart#merlin fanart#artists on tumblr
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when rykard declared war on the gods do you think he ever thought about the possibility that he’d meet his father in combat at the end of it all… imagined himself killing him…. can anyone hear me
#when the order you loathe and dedicated your life to destroying is personified in the father who raised you……..#my art#rykard#radagon#elden ring#just a doodle inspired by my poll results lol
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Sublime Equine.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#little apple#Did I *need* to dedicate a whole comic to little apple when I'm trying to economize my scenes?#Well! I did start this whole blog with the dreams of one day being able to draw better equines. So Yes. I did need this.#The true benchmark of my art progress is actually the quality of how I draw Little Apple.#(no seriously go look back at my little apple tag. Then come back here).#Hey welcome back! I know right! What was I even doing at the start? That was *not* a donkey!!!#That aside - I really am thrilled that I can draw her more. Even if she's only *really* in two more comics for season 2.#I wish I had more thoughts here. I'm so distracted by the donkey rotating in my brain. I missed her so monch.#Oh! Yeah I really like the parallels here between WWX and Little apple.#Specifically the sense of how we get a nod to how he's changed.#Little apple and WWX have both grown a little less lean and hungry (one literally the other metaphorically)#This whole episode is basically about WWX's desire for something peaceful and domestic in his life.#and here is little apple - his first companion from the start of his new life - changed to something softer.#Very much a 'look how far we have come moment' that is rather subtle but enjoyable.
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dichotomous plants are so weird man. like they’re not even weird it’s the becoming the dichotomous that’s weird. i went to a talk once about a population of strawberries that were accidentally slowly becoming dichotomous and they didn’t even have sex chromosomes, like they had like a bunch of genes across a bunch of chromosomes that did a little bit of sex but not a lot and it added up to one whole sex kind of but not enough that they had all collectively decided to be one sex or the other, so there was still like, a sizable chunk of the population that was producing flowers of both sexes. like they were microdosing it. taking the sex genes for a spin in the strawberry patch
#the conclusion of the talk was like#what if plants are slowly become more dichotomous over time because it’s more advantageous?#and I was like. that would be interesting but I feel like they would have done it already if it was that good#sex genes are really only as good as the creature or life form you are I think#making the sex genes work for YOU#and for those wild strawberries in the American west. they were just being silly about it you know#and my assumption that having dedicated sex chromosomes that hold the majority but not all sex-related info. turns out that’s kinda weird
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"I like quite small and cute things" | dedicated for @aprylynn tiny tan (5/7)
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#bts#btsgif#dailybts#btsedit#namjoon#kim namjoon#bts namjoon#rm#bts rm#rékagif#usersky#tinyoon#apryl - a set for you was long long long due and i am happy i could dedicate this set for you!#i love you and i am thankful for your presence in my life#please be always happy and i hope this comp will bring you as much joy as it brought to me#love u <3
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do you think when cherik fuck all metal items in the room an maybe in the house starts to fly..... bc i do and i can't imagine what's going on with charles's powers help please
idk what happens on charles' end but this was my immediate first thought regarding erik
#nsft#xmen#xmen tas#cherik#In Essence theyre the subject matter vjaelvkjla#morph#wolverine#was this just an excuse to draw logan and morph And If It Is. Sue Me About It I Love Them#snap sketches#but charles... rather maybe i dont want to think of what might happen on charles' end .....#if i think about it i might just start laughing ohmy god#maybe hes just really careful about his powers and nothing happens beyond the room ... one can hope#unrelated note i think ima dedicate saturdays to drawing asks and sundays to personal stuff .. that might be my schedule#depends on how busy life gets but anyways. poor logan this is a weekly occurrence#it's why bro don't hang round the mansion </3
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bts + make up a guy pt.2 | for @cordiallyfuturedwight
#horrifically overdue shitpost from yours truly#a christmas miracle.. if you will#dedicated to love of my life kayla for annie's giftmas <3#because she's been an absolutely irrepressible light this year and we're all the better for it#so i'm sending all my love and then some packaged the only way i know how - within a shitpost#annietrack#boongietrack#usersky#heyryen#usermaggie#tusercelia#userkelli#trackofthesoul#dailybts#dailybangtan#textsfrombangtan#makeupaguy#make up a guy#bts#huge shoutout to annie for being as exceedingly wonderful as ever and organising this distribution of loveliness#- please do consider taking part if you haven't already!!#anyway. alexa play bring them home
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heeey guess what, I'm obsessed with this idiot flamingo now
#art#ride kamens#ride kamens spoilers#maybe? i don't know when to stop tagging for main story stuff#i took a while getting through it but my god has gambit win taken over my entire brain#especially this moron. he fascinates me#he won't tell anyone his age and the only name he'll give is fralio#he's never had a job in his life. he paints his toenails but not his fingernails. he dresses like a comic relief yugioh villain.#i 100% believe this man taught himself how to speak six different languages but doesn't know what a fraction is#an evil cult brainwashed him into being a villain but couldn't stop him from constantly being distracted by shiny plastic toys and anime#his special skill is animal impersonations#i want to put him on a slide and study him under a microscope. he's everything to me.#kakeru will be the first person to tell you how much fralio sucks and he still spent five whole years pining after this dipshit#then decided to just up and dedicate his entire life to rescuing his stupid friend and bringing him home#and honestly i get it. i've only had not-evil fralio for like two chapters and i'm already ready to pledge my life to him#and i was pretty ready before he got his memory back tbh#give 👏 him 👏 an 👏 audition 👏
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i can finally post my silly little two-part wallpaper / blog banner merch pieces i made for the @hotguycomiczine !!
phone wallpaper ver. & some cursed hgc universe doodles under cut
[ START ]
[ MERCH | MISC ]
one discussion on offbrand hotguy & cuteguy merchandise really captured me.
i wish they were real ...
#kostik draws#hotguy comics zine#hgcz#stressmonster101#stressmonster#fanart#hermitcraft#hermitcraft fanart#the opportunity to try to Freehand Backgrounds and practice my colours#hooly fuck#what a learning experience#definitely taking this with me#please check out the comics and stories and covers if you havent already!#i did intend to make more for the zine... but it didnt work out. mentals and spotty motivation and all#i wanted to make some cute tiling wallpapers ...#oh well. this is life#im still very glad i took part and i want to extend a huge thanks to everyone who worked with us and on the zine#as well as everyone who supported us#blown away by everyones dedication for real
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More random Nimona headcanons
Bal is one of those people who isn’t allergic to anything except one random medication that no one uses
Ambrosius calls him a lucky bastard every time it’s brought up because he’s allergic to everything
His allergy list is at least three pages long and he doesn’t remember a single thing on that list
Whenever they go out to eat Bal has to remind him “No you can’t eat that it has olives” “Not that either love it’s got lemon” and so on
Most of his allergic reactions are pretty tame so he’ll eat it anyway
And it gives Bal and Nimona so much fucking anxiety
One time Bal walked in on Nimona chasing Ambrosius around the kitchen yelling “Spit out the carrots Nemesis you don’t even like them that much!!”
Whenever he eats alone he refers to it as a game of Russian roulette
Bal refers to it as the reason he has high blood pressure
Because Bal and Ambrosius grew up in the limelight (for very different reasons) there are a million pictures of them through the years
And they use those videos to bully the hell out of each other
Bal can quote the video from the beginning of the movie not because it was an important moment in his childhood
But because Ambrosius will quote it at the most random times throughout the day
Bal will do something small like kill a bug or chase out an animal that Nimona brought in
And he’ll hear Ambrosius mumble “I’m here to slay monsters and protect our kingdom”
He was a little worried Nimona would react badly to this habit but he started joining in
One time he killed a spider and Ambrosius asks “Are you slaying monsters moonbeam?” Nimona yells from the other room “I’m so proud of him he’s truly protecting our kingdom”
There are a million photos of baby Ambrosius on the internet
And Bal made a PowerPoint presentation ranking their cuteness factor out of 10 (100 was the lowest score he got and it was a picture of him with the ugliest bowl cut you’ve ever seen)
And made Ambrosius sit through it
That was the most loved and mortified he had felt in a long time
Nimona uses low-quality pictures of them as reaction photos
There have been times when Nimona asks “Can we eat out tonight” and Bal tells her no and she sends him this
He’ll text back “Is that my fucking wanted poster?!”
She asked Ambrosius if there was any ice cream left and he said no he expected her to call him and complain he didn’t expect this
He calls her yelling “When the fuck did that happen?!”
And she hangs up immediately to let Bal deal with it
#nimona 2023#Nimona movie#nimona headcanon#nimona#ballister boldheart#ambrosius goldenloin#ballister x ambrosius#goldenheart#im dedicated to destroying Ambrosius cool guy image#that man is a dork#a feral fucking loser#and I’m in love with him#when they were tricking the director Bal records it all#you can here him rewinding the video#which means he has a video of Nimona disguised as Ambrosius getting stabbed#and you think she wouldn’t use that as a meme?#you’re joking#someone take this movie away from me#they've invaded every part of my life#I cant even listen to music#I was listening to Hozier's new album and thought wow this is like Bal and Ambrosius#I just know Ambrosius was the sick kid growing up#I could write so much angst about that#I might do that next
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