#my horseshit

[ylva-syverson]

So I’m likely to be offline for awhile due to fucking Hurricane season. Let’s see how it goes lol. Hopefully it’ll be fine.

[thesovietonion77]

Sorrow.

[secretarysong]

unrelated to the art but i think Zuke isn't necessarily a singer or an all-out karaoke person HOWEVER. In his head there's a very small list of really specific songs he'd cause a scene over of his own volition & his favorite is Perpetual Fool by Spacehog

[sleepnoises]

i hung out with my dad yesterday and today and both times he used the term "boomers" (not inaccurately). today i said dad I've never heard you say that before, did you learn it recently? and he said yes he learned it from his brother who has been complaining about boomers. my dad was born '54 and his brother was born '57. i think this lens of analysis is not serving them

[legionofpotatoes]

I know the discourse well is poisoned and no one hates bioware games more than bioware fans, but I am just 🫠 having so much fun with veilguard it's unreal. It is selfishly the dragon age game I always wanted. with less emphasis on cRPG, a more focused story, curated mission based design that spotlights the high fantasy stuff, slowburn structure with companions, significantly less sidequest bloat, and a fully real-time action-oriented combat system that isn't riddled with the growing pains of previous titles. when I first played origins I imagined something almost exactly like this as my ideal version of a sequel; and it was one of those dirty, selfish thoughts that I knew was disrespectful to the then-established DNA of the thing, but I can't help but feel giddy about having it here and now. like down to the shift away from the childishly dark tone and to something more inherently flexible with a baseline aspirational quality. I hate aesthetically depressing games so much. am I not alive right here and right now already

When I say "aesthetically" there though I do mean it. I'm fully on the opposite side when it comes to tone and positions expressed in the story itself. I am just not including that in my analysis because I am not done yet - so please no spoilers! I think I am where most people consider to be the second act, and I definitely have my gripes with the narrative framework and some of the optics, but I won't put the cart before the horse and will see how it wraps things up first. Above that level, in terms of how it presents itself, of how it plays, of how it balances its core pillars - it is such a bioware-ass game and I could not be any cozier in it. So grateful it exists

[solradguy]

Hunt 102 and Hunt Drawing 99 nibs, maybe Joseph Gillott's Ultra Fine 303 too. I forget. The 99 (used mostly in the bottom panel) is interesting; flexible brass, almost handles like a brush with how varied the weights get. I had a hard time controlling it here, but this was only a test/doodle run anyway.

My nibs are beat to shit. Tempted to run up to the art store and grab a bunch of random ones to try out. They're like $0.99 each.

[ylva-syverson]

15 questions & 15 Mutuals 🌸

I was tagged by: @cardierreh15

Were you named after anyone?

No.

When was the last time you cried?

Probably not too long ago. But I don’t remember exactly when.

Do you have kids?

Nope.

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

All the damn time. I’m considered to be dry as sandpaper by people.

What’s the first thing you notice about people?

It’s usually a combination of things I pick up because I’m fairly observant. But usually it’s the mood they’re throwing off. Or rather I notice their vibes I guess.

What’s your eye color?

Green 💚

Scary movie or Happy Endings?

It really depends because I love horror movies but I also love a good happy ending too. So let’s go with both.

Any special talents?

I can really sing. I also am very good at taking care of others.

Where were you born?

New Jersey. But I was raised by two New Englanders so that is more culturally relevant to me. And now I live in the South.

What are your hobbies?

I used to do all the artistic stuff! I used to sketch (draw), paint, sculpt, write (both stories and poetry), digital art (not ai), sing, dance, etc. I haven’t much time for them but I’d like to eventually do more when I can.

Have any pets?

Yes! A tuxedo cat who’s part Siamese, he’s an absolute furry goblin but I love him with all my heart. He earned his name too, it’s Loki.

What spots do you/ have you played?

Lacrosse (casually because we didn’t have a team), Gymnastics, Ballet, Martial Arts (Wing Chun, Animal Styles and Capoeira), and Yoga. I need to get back into Yoga actually, it helps quite a lot actually.

How tall are you?

5ft, 7” or 170cm; is that considered tallish?

Favorite subject in school?

English, Art and History.

Dream Job?

I don’t really have one honestly. The closest I get to that is professional artist of some type or multiple types.

Tagging: @mrs-solo-walker, @raccoon-eyed-rebel, @geralts-yenn, @ladykardasi and @identity2212

15 questions and 15 mutuals

I was tagged by @mexicangela @boobiebaguettebouquet @hart-kinsella & @movrings 💖

Were you named after anyone?

I was almost named after someone but it changed because the name 'sounded too old'. I was almost an 80 year old baby 😂

When was the last time you cried?

Full-on cried? Probably months ago. I got a little teary watching Black Panther: Wakanda Forever recently though.

Do you have kids?

No, but I'd like to one day. But that's a whole other complicated issue.

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Yep. If I ever stop being sassy, assume I'm dead.

What's the first thing you notice about people?

Physically? Their eyes. Personality-wise, their sense of humor and the way they laugh.

What's your eye color?

Blue.

Scary movies or happy endings?

Both. Both is good. I like being scared, but I also hate being scared...and I think I speak for everyone when I say you can't beat a good rom-com!!!

Any special talents?

Hmmm, apparently I can throw my voice and it freaks people out - that's my theater training in action babyyy!!! 😂

Where were you born?

In the words of Bruce Springsteen, I was born in the USA (sorry).

What are your hobbies?

I hate this question so much because I always have this moment of staring wistfully into the middle distance like 'what is a hobby?' lmao BUT I guess I'd have to say writing, playing the piano, video games (just finished Resident Evil: Village and about to get onto the DLC)

Have any pets?

Three chaotic dogs - one of them has emotional problems so fireworks are his arch enemy (but so are trucks, the doorbell, wine corks, balloons, the vacuum....I could go on)

What sports do you play/have you played?

Tennis, badminton, lacrosse, hockey, but not anymore! I'm more of a yoga/pilates gal these days.

How tall are you?

5 ft 2. SMOL.

Favorite subject in school?

English & Drama.

Dream job?

Writer for TV & Film, although I have a few novels left in me yet - although I do think about getting into interior design staging every now and then. Either way it comes down to something creative & flexible (like me 😏)

I'm tagging (if you feel like it!): @existential-labrador @biscuitboxpink @stephaniejuhnay @angelofmusings @targaryenvampireslayer @babyjakes @winter2112rose @cardierreh15 @whiskeyncoke-redux @iguessweallcrazyithinktho @sarcastic-coffeedrinker @thelastsock @sillyrabbit81 @inlovewithhisblueeyes @gyllenhaalstories

[ylva-syverson]

Gotta love when tumblr glitches like an absolute asshole.

[peppermintquartz]

Given my own family denying my bisexuality and some of my oldest friends breaking off the friendships over me coming out, I would also be deeply hurt by someone dragging me back into a closet without my permission. To be rejected or forcibly hidden by someone I care about is incredibly painful.

Which is what Evan basically did when he said that they would be picking up hot chicks after the meal. And yet Tommy didn't correct him, he was just a little snarky about it.

You wanna stay in there, fine. Don't pull me back in when I've fought so hard to come out. I wouldn't be in the mood to continue a date either.

What if he sees someone else he knows? Would he drag Tommy back into the closet again, every time? Better to cut it short while they were still friendly than to let Buck think this was an acceptable way to treat Tommy.

Buck wasn't ready. Tommy saw that, and he was protecting his own peace, which is entirely fair, and I don't see why anyone should give Tommy shit for it.

[eightyfours]

DANIEL LARUSSO

December 18th, 1966.

[ylva-syverson]

Last Song:

Last Show: The Rebel Princess (Monarch Industry) it’s a C-Drama

Last Movie: I rewatched Mission Impossible Fallout

Currently Watching: The Witcher and Outlander( that one can be really rough to watch at times)

Currently reading: Rereading ETS by @just-chirpin and As Sweet As Honey by @angryschnauzer because I need something comforting and Captain Syverson just exudes that. That and it just makes me happy.

Current Obsession: it’s a three way tie between

The Cranky Teddybears!

Honorable Mentions:

I’m looking at you @geralts-yenn you are responsible for converting me to the Mikey love team.

I tag literally anyone who’d like to do this, no pressure!

Rule: tag 9 people you want to get to know better

I got tagged by @deandoesthingstome and @mayloma

Thank you so much for thinking of me, ladies! 😍

Last song:

Last show: The Last of Us

Last movie: The Sea Beast (movie night with the kids, somehow got reminded of @raccoon-eyed-rebel 😁)

Currently watching: Daisy Jones and the Six

Currently reading: re-reading Eyes that see by @just-chirpin before I can read the new chapter

Currently obsessing over: some cocky bastard without a first name

No-pressure-tags: @ellethespaceunicorn @evansabove1981 @peachyvulpixie @keanureevesisbae @ylva-stark @catierambles @dedicated-to-mr-cavill @peyton-warren @cavill83

[brittlebutch]

you have a safe food for over 20 years and then one day the company just decides to make it completely different. and you can’t do anything about it. brutal.

[ghouldtime]

The entirety of the MW3 campaign is honestly such bullshit and the more I think about it the more pissed off I get.

Refusing to believe that Price would've let Makarov live for even a second. Captain John Price, who has had the goal of killing Makarov for YEARS and hunting him down just... lets him live???????

The only reason I would accept him not letting Soap kill Makarov is because he wanted to do it himself For starters... they just... trust that Makarov will stay in the prison??? He's like "ah this always works out, no one has ever escaped from prison ever :)". Okay, yeah, right, sure. That's NEVER backfired at all what so ever, and y'know, obviously no one would eveeeeeer come to free him and the group that he heads definitely wouldn't swarm to get him back.

I don't give a shit if he got orders to stand down and to not do it - I'm refusing to believe John Price, after everything he's sacrificed and done, would accept that for one single second. Why on EARTH would he let Makarov live when he KNOWS that in no way, shape, or form would that ever be a good idea. I don't think there's a single order that would get him to not kill Makarov - not my Price

"Oh oh but Makarov can provide intel!" SINCE WHEN. Since when would he actually cooperate. Since when would he do anything other than gain information for himself, play mind games, and then INEVITABLY escape. HE KNOWS THAT. Everyone knows that. It's just COMMON SENSE

Makarov is nearly just telling them everything, legit point blank. TO THEIR FACES what he's going to do. And they're just like :) HE CANNOT BE MORE OBVIOUS PLEEEEEASE

There's just. So much utter bullshittery in every corner of the campaign I really wonder if the people behind it knew anything about narrative story telling or the characters they're writing for. I can slap a wombat on a keyboard and whatever it wrote would probably make more sense than the slop we were given. I can dump a can of alphabet soup in a bowl and it would make more sense

(And yes, I'm aware of the original plans of it likely not being a full game on its own but that doesn't excuse the writing or what we got. I'm AWARE of the background)

Honestly am expecting "It's Makaroving time" and he Makarovs everywhere to be the next step we're getting

[s0lemnhypn0s]

By all means, Crocodile is only implied trans and not yet confirmed as a trans man. However, the fact the entire fandom talks about him in such creepy and transphobic ways is reason enough for me to refuse to budge on him being a trans man. Nope. Not just a theory, thats a trans man. As far as I'm concerned it's canon.

[still-breathing-au-p3r]

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He finally manages to hunt down the error Kirijo had pointed out and wrangle the equation into submission. Which means he can– for now at least– put math behind him, where it belongs.

He pushes the worksheets towards Kirijo and rolls out his wrists and shoulders while she shuffles them into order and tucks them neatly away. She immediately produces a new stack of paper, flourishing a little like she’s doing some kind of magic trick. And hell, maybe she is– he’s got no idea how she never seems to run out of fresh work to throw at him.

Shinjiro can only sigh in defeat. He did ask for this, after all.

Okay, so not nearly as bad as it could be. That might explain her little burst of showmanship, actually, if she’s presenting him with something that might have a chance to be interesting.

He’s joking, mostly, but Kirijo sighs with real disappointment.

He takes the packet from her and starts to read– it’s mostly about the political pissing contests of various Roman emperors. Not as exciting as he’d hoped; he’s always been interested in what regular people were up to more than anyone who lived in a palace, but he’ll definitely still take it over math. 

As he gets to work, Shinjiro finds himself dwelling on how nice it is, having their verbal fencing matches again. 

Back when S.E.E.S had been brand new, he’d found it incredibly annoying how Kirijo always seemed to have a prim and witty response to anything he might say. He'd thought at first that she just couldn’t stand for anyone else to get the last word, then that she couldn’t stand to let him, specifically, have it. 

It had taken him an embarrassingly long amount of time to clue in to the fact that that was just how she played. Sure, he and Aki bickered for fun more than a little often, but usually as more of a lead-up to a good, hands-on scrap. For Kirijo, though, trading banter back and forth was the whole entire game.

Once he’d figured out that he was supposed to play along, chasing after the upper hand in a conversation became fun instead of frustrating. Knowing that it was always a toss-up whether his teasing would get deftly parried or if he could manage to land the hit and fluster her enough to disrupt her pristine image– it was all part of the game to him. 

He’d tried not to let himself settle into that rhythm again when he’d come back to the dorms, and he’d done an even worse job of it than he had of avoiding his other old habits. Kirijo’s just too good at pushing his buttons, just like Aki. 

But now– Now that he doesn’t feel the need to keep himself at arm’s length anymore, falling right back into step is the easiest damn thing in the world. He doesn’t even need to think about it.

It feels good to have this back. Living his life, whatever’s left of it, means building connections and rebuilding the ones he had purposefully bulldozed before. He’s lucky Kirijo is even giving him a second chance at friendship at all, so he’s not about to waste it. 

There’s absolutely no way he’ll ever say that out loud, though. Especially not to her. 

“Given you’re reading about Rome, that reminds me.” Her voice is a little too light and airy. Someone who hadn’t been on the scheming end of that tone before might have missed it, but Shinjiro can tell right away that she’s trying to get something out of him. 

“Akihiko mentioned that you found his second awakening to be quite amusing,” she continues.

“Yeah, Aki didn’t get it,” he snorts, unable to help himself. “Bet you did, though.”

“There is a certain irony present, yes.” The face she puts on is demure, but the way she flicks a little of her hair over her shoulder looks suspiciously like preening to him. He has to squash down a smile. “You could have filled him in yourself, you know.”

“Sure. But where’d the fun in that be?” The grin he was fighting off wins and Kirijo lowers herself enough to roll her eyes at him in response.

“Yamagishi’s new Persona is Roman as well,” she tries again, casting another line. “Juno.” When he laughs, she frowns at him, apparently not a fan of his reaction. “What’s so funny, Aragaki?”

“Nothin’ at Yamagishi’s expense,” he says. “I just wouldn’t’ve guessed that for her. The whole ‘queen of the gods’ thing would’ve made me think of you, actually.”

Kirijo clears her throat a bit and pointedly does not preen again, just like how he does not feel stupidly pleased with himself over the reaction that she definitely didn’t have.

“Guess it does make sense though," he continues. "If you think about the whole ‘eyes of Argus’ thing. She have peacock feathers?”

“After a fashion, yes.” Kirijo purses her lips thoughtfully. “They are… somewhat abstracted.”

“Well yeah. Almost wouldn’t be a Persona if it didn’t get a little weird with the details, right?”

“No, I suppose it wouldn’t.” She flashes another short-lived smile and then goes back to looking thoughtful. He can practically hear gears turning as she weighs whether or not to make another attempt. “Amada’s was something of a surprise. She's called Kala-Nemi.”

He wracks his brain and comes up empty. “Don’t recognize that one. Doesn’t sound like a Roman name, though.”

“I was unfamiliar as well. And you’re correct– she’s from Bronze Age India, from a tradition that predates Hinduism. It took quite a bit of effort to find any information about her, actually. She shares her name with two other male figures from Hindu texts, and references to them are far more plentiful. From what I understand, though, she was a spirit associated with the Wheel of Time and the changing of the seasons. 

“As a Persona, she excels in healing and protection magic. The new Theurgy Amada gained from awakening to her is– it’s extraordinary.” The way Kirijo says the word makes it clear that it’s a gigantic understatement.

Healing and protection, huh? 

“That’s better for him,” Shinjiro says softly. The image of Amada from the other day, hunkered in on himself with guilt and nerves, is still fresh in his mind.

“It is,” Kirijo murmurs. She’s silent for another few seconds, clearly hoping that he’ll take his cue at last. 

And sure, he could talk about his new Persona, like she’s been nudging him to. He could also speculate about whether he’s got his own new Theurgy. But what would be the point? The next full moon is just four days away, and then none of it is going to matter anymore.

Kirijo sighs, accepting defeat. “Pardon me for distracting you from your reading. I’ll let you get back to it.”

“No worries.” He means it, too. Kirijo might push, but unlike Aki, she does know when to call it quits.

It’s yet another thing Shinjiro appreciates about her.

[crystalbeastsquidney]

Wish I was more eloquent to make this post, but It continues to infuriate me how mortal kombat as a franchise has completely fumbled the bag on recognizing Bi-Han as the immense, gut wrenching point of tragedy that he should be. 

By all accounts, he’s someone who's been denied any real semblance of meaningful choice throughout his entire life. He’s someone that was kidnapped as a child by what is ostensibly a cult, and made to do their bidding lest he be killed or worse. Then he’s murdered only to be denied freedom in death.

I think it’s in the original game’s endings where he mentions intending to leave, but then that brings to mind the question of why hasn't he done so sooner? He’s certainly capable enough to do so, even with the threat of being hunted down by the Lin Kuei for abandoning them. Did he stay for Kuai Liang? Could he even stomach the mere idea of leaving him behind? Was he afraid to risk his safety in either case; that he would die too if they left together, or that he’d be used as a bargaining chip to claw Bi-Han back if he went alone.

Do you think it ate at him knowing he was the only thing standing between Kuai Liang and the full brunt of the Lin Kuei’s manipulation and coercion? That for the longest time he was one of the only sources of genuine love and kindness in his life? 

Do you think the Grandmaster held that over his head? 

Maybe that’s why it was him chosen to retrieve the map of elements and later Shinnok’s amulet, he was the best they had because he couldn’t afford to not be.

And even then, when he did get a chance, and chose to do the right thing by stopping Shinnok and Quan Chi, he’s punished for it. A man already denied so much of his autonomy has it stripped further away until he’s nothing more than a mindless pawn. Further still, I have to wonder, was his line to Kuai Liang in mk9; that they share blood, but are not brothers, another layer of Quan Chi’s twisting of his mind to his own means—to drive a wedge between him the brother he held on for, the one person he knew truly cared—to twist the knife further for daring to delay his and Shinnok’s plans? Noob Saibot’s too cartoonish, often too over the top, practically intoxicated in how evil he is (or at least that's how his writing comes off) to be a genuine expression of Bi-Han. I wonder if some semblance of him remains trapped and vaguely conscious under that dark veneer, forced to watch himself lose what little he had left.

And even if he had survived, then what? He likely would’ve been cyberized as well, probably even killed like nearly everyone else in mk9, and turned into one of Quan Chi’s undead lackeys anyhow. It’s as if fate (doylist: I know it’s the writers…) won’t let him simply be… him.

I’d bet that when Kuai Liang remade the Lin Kuei after destroying the cyber initiative, he wanted it to be something that—if he could be so fortunate as to have his brother back—was kind enough for Bi-Han to truly call home.