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theres-an-impulstor-among-us · 3 years ago

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I'm sorry I promise this is my last request for tonight but I am SOBBING laughing over the Etho Jester round, I don't even have a coherent story idea for this just more Etho Jester content please if you can spare it I can't BREATHE DHHFJDKS

god tht was the funniest round i've seen in such a long time, i hope i did that justice here lmfao

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At the start of the round, Etho wanders around aimlessly outside the dropship for a while, before heading down to the left to see if he can find anyone. What he discovers is a body just inside the room underneath O2, but instead of reporting it, he just giggles and dances around the room, looking forward to having a little fun.

When Impulse shows up and gasps, Etho finally reports the body, still giggling like a child as the meeting starts and shows that Evil and Astro are both dead. “Okay, so I just saw Impulse kill Evil,” Etho says through his giggles.

“Oh, please!” laughs Impulse. “You know it wasn’t me. I just came up on the body and you were dancing around it like a madman.”

“I definitely saw Impulse kill Evil. He was like “Etho come over here so I can kill you” and I was like “no way, you’re the imposter!” and he was like “nobody will ever find your body” and I was like “you killed Evil, you monster!” and he was like-”

“Okay, so I think we’ve established that Etho is the jester,” Tango states, chuckling in confusion. “Right?”

“No no, I’m just a crewmate,” says Etho. “Don’t let Impulse get away with this or he’ll come kill me next!”

Impulse lets out a laugh. “Dude, I almost wish I COULD kill you. You’re being so weird.”

“If I’m being weird, it’s cuz I just watched you kill Endless- I mean Evil right in front of me.”

“Oh my god…”

“Okay, do NOT vote for Etho,” Tango says firmly, unable to stop grinning at his friend’s antics. “He’s 100% the jester and there’s no way I’m gonna hand him this win when he’s being like this.”

The meeting ends with nobody being voted off. Everyone leaves the room one by one, including Etho, who wordlessly follows Tango down to decontamination.

“What are you doing?” Tango asks warily.

“Just following my bestie cuz I know you’re innocent.”

Tango frowns. “Uh… okay…? Thanks…?”

Etho follows him all the way into the specimen room and hovers at an uncomfortable distance away from Tango, watching him silently as he does his task.

“Okay, Etho, you’re creeping me out, buddy,” Tango says slowly. “Can you back up a few steps and chill the hell out?”

“I can’t chill out; there’s no freezer on this map and I can’t get to the snow outside.”

“I…” Tango tries to find a reply to this but can’t. “Okay.”

Once he’s finished his two tasks in specimen, he heads back towards the office, followed again by Etho. The two go through decontamination and Tango heads down to the left, while Etho peels off into the meeting room and hits the button, bringing everyone to the meeting table. He finds himself looking at seven irritated faces.

“For the love of God, Etho, this better be good,” Tango says irritably.

Etho beams. “Hey, everybody! I missed you guys. Also, I saw Astro vent.”

A pause.

“Astro is dead, homie,” Skizz states. “Did you mean Joker, or…?”

“What?” Joker yelps. “Why me?”

“Cuz you’re both green. I dunno, I thought he might’ve just confused you two.”

“Nope, I definitely saw Astro vent,” says Etho happily. “And Tango definitely killed Evil last round.”

A pause.

“You- Didn’t you say it was Impulse who…?” Skizz blinks several times, his confused gaze darting from Etho to the others and back again. “I’m so confused!”

Tango bursts out laughing. “Etho, I have no idea what this is, but I both love it and hate it at the same time. I almost hope you’re NOT jester, cuz this is hilarious.”

“I’m a crewmate,” insists Etho.

“Uh huh, sure.”

At the end of the meeting, Skizz goes into the office to do the card swipe and finds Etho waiting for him. “You’re the jester, right?” Skizz asks warily. “Please tell me you’re the jester.”

Etho teasingly pokes Skizz in the arm. “Maybe. Maybe not.”

Skizz stares at him. “Boy, I really hope you are the jester cuz otherwise, you’ve totally lost your mind. Either that or you’re overplaying jester and you’re actually imposter.”

“Well, there’s only one way to find out, isn’t there?” says Etho mischievously.

“Okay, I’m actually really nervous right now, cuz you’re definitely big-brain enough to fake being jester,” Skizz says nervously. “Please don’t kill me.”

“Don’t worry, I’m not gonna kill you right here in broad daylight. Too risky.” He takes a step to the side and beckons. “Come down here so nobody will find your body.”

“Noooooo!” Skizz takes off running.

Giggling, Etho chases Skizz out of the room and up towards the laboratory, the latter screaming the whole way. They bump into Impulse just inside the corridor.

“Whoa, what’s going on?!” yelps Impulse.

Skizz hides behind Impulse. “Etho is being weird!”

“Impuuuuulse, go away!” whines Etho. “I’m tryina kill Skizzle.”

Impulse blinks. “Wh-What?”

Etho gives an innocent smile. “Stabby stabby!”

At that exact moment, a body is reported, and the three appear at the meeting table with everyone else.

“I saw Impulse kill Skizz right in front of me,” says Etho solemnly, before the person who reported the body can talk. “Impulse just walked in the door to O2 and murdered Skizz right in front of me.”

“Bro, I’m alive,” Skizz responds. “I’m not dead.”

“And we weren’t in O2, we were in lab,” Impulse adds.

“Oh.” Etho pauses. “Then I killed Skizz. In lab. Sorry, I got confused.”

Skizz stares at him with wide eyes. “I’m ALIVE, dude!” “Everyone else shut up,” snaps Brody suddenly. “Tango, you reported?”

Tango nods. “Yes, I found Endless’s body down in weapons.”

“Oh yeah, I forgot to mention I killed Endless in weapons,” Etho says happily.

Tango scowls at him. “Etho, I swear to God-.”

“Can’t we just vote him off and be done with this weirdness?” Skizz demands.

“No, I refuse to give the world’s most obvious jester the win,” responds Tango. “Imposters, whoever you are, if you kill Etho in front of me, I genuinely will not report.”

Etho pouts at him. “That’s very mean, Tango. I’m gonna tell the teacher on you.”

“I-.” Tango breaks off, unable to think of a response to this.

“Okay, does anyone have any actual information?” asks Brody. “If not, we’re on seven so we should skip.”

Nobody has any information, so the meeting again ends with nobody being voted off.

This time, Etho follows Brody out of the building and up towards electrical. Spotting this, Brody sighs and beckons Etho into security. “Okay, you’re the jester, right?”

“I might be the imposter,” says Etho with a grin. “Or I might not be.”

“I KNOW you’re not the imposter. Sorry, buddy, but you won’t be getting this win. You never were.”

With that, Brody whips out a knife and stabs Etho in the chest.

Etho drops to the ground without a word, watching Brody leave the scene of the crime, before letting his eyes close. It doesn’t matter that he’s not going to get this win. He had fun letting loose and being a little silly for once.

And that’s all that matters to him.

#friday night stabby #etho #impulsesv #tangotek #skizzleman #vaunna’s requests

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naturaldisasterfanfiction · 4 years ago

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16.

I am sad that I had to leave Robyn in Mexico and come here, now I am exposed to idiots like always. I left Keeis to look after my home and of course, I mean why not. Sinko and Hoody have been staying here, I didn’t know but to my surprise they have been “nigga comes back with a tan and all in a daze, are you ok?” Sinko “just figuring out why you all in my home, Keeis I said no but why? I don’t want these niggas in my home?” I pointed at Keeis, I am not going to shout or get angry just ask why “why not? We have always done this, what is different now?” Hoody laughed “where have you been though? Like you come back with a tan and shit, you immigrating? Or you seeing the German?” shaking my head “it has nothing to do with you but I just came to gather some clothes, I am going to see Royalty’ game” walking off to gather some clothes “we will come with” I wish they wouldn’t but I don’t want to start acting all brand new with them, they going to start to try and dig into shit, I am not saying I went Germany because that bitch would have posted that and she hasn’t so they will then know I am lying, I am just going to slowly cut them off “aye, breezy” Hood said behind me, I abruptly stopped and looked to him “you good? Like I know you been taking hard drugs, I know riri got a baby now. You took it hard; I saw that on you. Now you are disappearing. I am here for you, I know you love her a lot and now she pregnant but just know she was for everybody, you know how it is. She was going to fuck a nigga and get pregnant, she wanted that, but you got yours! You got two kids and the mothers are loyal to you” My fist balled up, he does not know fucking anything and he is talking shit “loyal to my money, that is it. Just leave me alone, I don’t want you coming at my home when I am not here, I asked Keeis to be here, that is it. Just don’t” walking off, I need to pack some things but also punch a wall because I am so angry.

Hood and Sinko followed me here, not going to lie but I punched the wall because I was angry. But I got in my car and drove off and they came along, I don’t even know where to stand. I mean I can see Nia’ wide back from here so I guess I will stand there. Manoeuvring around the crowd of people, Nia bought her whole family here “hey” I said standing behind her “woah, wait!? I thought you wasn’t coming!?” Nia turned around in shock “well what happened, you are here!? Roro is going to be so happy oh my god” Nia’ mom moved out of the way as I stood next to Nia “why, I just came here. I thought what the hell. I didn’t want to upset her; it did upset me a lot. Where is she?” I mean clearly she is not here “she didn’t want to play today at all, I said to her that you would be upset if she didn’t. She has been sad all morning, but she is with her team preparing” my poor daughter I feel bad “I need to speak to you in private after, probably when it’s started. Like being straight up about shit” Nia looks all nervous now “oh yeah” looking behind Nia and at my mom “decided to come like you’re father Christmas, why did you upset her and do this?” shaking my head looking away from my mom, I don’t want to know and she better just stay away from me.

I am waiting for my baby to come out, nobody cares about that other team at all. My smile grew seeing Royalty’ team come out, clapping my hands “come on Roro! Let’s go baby!” I shouted while clapping, I whistled out too. Royalty clocked me, her face lit up “my dad! my dad is here!!” she screamed and ran away from her team “my dad came!” she shouted, moving away from the crowd and rushing over to Royalty “you came!” she screamed out, catching her as she ran into me “I made it for you stink” picking Royalty up, she is getting too tall for me to do all this “I am so happy dad! You came!” she wrapped her arms around my neck “of course I came, I made it. I am sorry” I felt bad on how I upset her so much, Royalty moved her head back “you going to score a goal for me now? If you wack I am not claiming you” Royalty yelped out “stop it! I am so happy you came” she kissed my forehead “I am happy too, you go back now ok? I think you going to get in trouble” placing Royalty on the ground “I will score a goal for you dad! Watch me!” she ran off, I swear I love that girl so much, she never lets anything hold her back, not even me. I know I be stressing my own daughter out with the shit I pull.

Nia laughed “Royalty stop looking over here! Look at the ball!” Nia shouted, she keeps looking at me to check if I am watching, of course I am watching her “come on baby!” I shouted “I always worry that she will break a bone that girl, she is clumsy at times” crossing my arms across my chest smiling “I am shocked she kept up with this, she be doing so much and did what I did when I was younger, got bored of it. I would be happy if she became some soccer player, I don’t care what she becomes, minus anything club related” I ain’t finna have my daughter do that shit “same, I don’t agree with that either, she is super happy you are here. I am happy you came, you didn’t say either?” shaking my head “what if something else came up and I let her down again, couldn’t do that at all” you never know with me “you seem like you have a lot on though, anything I should be concerned about that will affect Royalty?” I chuckled “uhm I don’t know yet, will talk to you after though. Less ears around” I mean my mother because she is just stood there listening to everything I say, I feel she hates me or hates what I have become or the simple fact I don’t obey her wishes when she is a hypocrite, she says it’s me but never takes fault for my childhood.

Holding Royalty’ water bottle as she ate her snack at half time, this girl is eating her lunch at half time “did coach say you could eat like this?” I asked, she shook her head “nope but you want some dad? Mom made them” she held her sandwich up at me “nah, she poisoned them” I laughed adding “be quiet, are you going to hurry up before coach sees this” Nia said, Royalty stuffed her sandwich in her mouth and got up from the floor “no pictures please” I said some random fans taking just that “little princess you doing good ain’t you” yes Hoody has come, he is waiting around for me or trying to stay close to me to see what I am doing “drink!” holding her bottle out to her “what you say?” I asked “thank you dad” smiling at my daughter “I have decided, I need to claim another child. You ain’t scoring, you are embarrassing me out there” Royalty moved her drink away in shock “stop it dad! I will do it, watch me” I chuckled “I will be watching but your team is losing, I am supporting the other team now” Royalty pushed me laughing “silly butt!” she spat.

Clapping my hands “Royalty! Come on, kick the ball” she is playing silly today “Jesus!” I groaned out, she is being terrible and I wanted to shout that but I didn’t, feeling my phone ringing in my pocket “little homie being bad on purpose” Hood said, I laughed shaking my head “on purpose and I came back for this” looking down at my phone, my baby calling me. Oh my god I am so happy to see that “hello” answering the call “I was expecting you to call me dumpling, how is you? Enjoying yourself? Was she happy to see her dad, I am missing my daddy now” Robyn’ voice goes straight to my dick “why is you talking like on the phone, I hear it in your voice little lady. You are my dumpling, but I am good just watching Royalty play her game, she was so happy to see me, but I am happy. How are you and little crumb” Robyn snorted laughing “little crumb, nigga you are making up words now. But mhm, I am missing you though, I want you in bed also check your messages, I sent you a little something. I thought she would be done but call me when you are, I am actually missing you though” I cooed out “I will be back soon dumpling, love you” my eyes bulged out, Hoody is just staring at me as he heard every word “I am going to kick your ass, love you too” she put the phone down “oh shit! You really got a new girl!? This is it” he shouted “fuck you, seriously. Get out of my face” walking away from him, let me see what she sent. Opening the message “oh yeah” she actually looks so sexy pregnant ‘Just a lil something’ is that kinky lingerie she got on, tilting my head. She got the lace lingerie on and suspenders, oh she is going all out “Go Roro!” hearing Nia shout, locking my phone looking behind me “yesss” I just saw my baby score “that is my baby!! Royalty!” I ran towards her “I scored for my daddy! I did it! I did it” my baby really did it for me.

I am super proud of my baby, she scored for me. Crouching down to Royalty “look over here now” Nia said, kissing Royalty’ cheek “my baby scored! Look at this award, so proud of you” putting my arm around her “awww this is so cute” holding my phone out to Nia “take one on mine” Nia took my phone “look at my medal dad, I told you I would score. And we won!” she yelped out “you did, I am so happy” looking at Nia smiling, Royalty kissed my cheek. I cooed out smiling “you two” getting up from my position and grabbing my phone from Nia, unlocking my phone and tapping on my messages. I sent the picture to Robyn ‘She won it!’ pressing send “you go and stay with meme; I need to speak to you mom. I won’t go, don’t worry” Royalty wasn’t happy I told her to go “just there, let me speak to your mom in private, it’s grown talk so move” Royalty stuck her tongue out at me “and you” I laughed, putting my phone in my pocket “after you” I gestured for Nia to walk ahead of me, I am scared that I will get a no because it is out of the country but I don’t know, it depends on what she says about this.

We walked a little away from the group “my baby is so happy you came; I think it gave her so much life to win. I am glad you came; you made the effort to break away from what you were doing. You go to just do it sometimes Chris, it’s just one of those things but to see her happy, I bet it was worth it?” nodding my head “it was, I just wanted to speak to you about something. This has nothing to do with my mom. I feel like Royalty is growing, she doesn’t care to go to meme home anymore and whatever. I am trying to do better by my kids, by myself and with you trusting me, that helps me so much. I enjoy spending time with Royalty. I am not sure if she told, I did promise her we would go away, daddy and daughter thing, Just us” Nia let out an oh “she didn’t but when she was upset she did say, he promised daddy and daughter but like didn’t go into it. So you mentioned it to her that you would take her away?” nodding my head “but I won’t do anything behind your back, I want to make sure you’re ok with it. If I can take her away with me, I am currently in Mexico just spending time thinking. I have nobody there, just me. I would enjoy the company but if you think it’s just too much, this is between me and you now” Nia nodded her head slowly, she is not sure how to take it, I get what she is feeling and with her having her doubts “I have this feeling that you are doing some soul searching, it is the holidays and she is at that age where she can do everything herself and, if you are ok with it. All I want is my daughter happy and is ok, she is happy with you. Royalty questioned why she had to go to Joyce’ home and not yours, she wanted to go to yours but she had to get second best, what I don’t get is that you don’t want your mom to know anything, why is that?” this is positive “she is negative, she will put doubts in my mind making me feel like I can’t look after her, it will be just in Mexico for a few days if you are ok with it? Royalty is going to be so excited when she hears it, this is the first time I will be taking her away on holiday on my own too” I ain’t ever done this before “she is going to be pretty excited, she is independent as it comes now but her happiness is what I care about” nodding my head in agreement.

“I want this to be raw, I want to be me Dennis. I am doing it my way so if I release this, it will be on my terms. I want to be personal to my fans, I want them to be included in my life but also not included so if I control what is being fed then I can control the information. So we have the pictures, we have some footage of the baby shower and gender reveal, not so much the scans but we missed that, I didn’t think life would have taken me here right now. We must start now, also I want you to ask me questions, questions you think my fans would ask me. I want you to get moments, so you better get your camera rolling. We going to edit this shit together too” watching Dennis write down things “that is a good idea” Tina greed “I want it to be mine and also Chris’ thing so like we can collectively post it but he can have his version too, I know I am working you but I know you can do it. I don’t want a big crew, just you being with us, doing what you need. Mobile videos, I will have some things, he may have some things, we will collate them. Just raw things, I want you to ask me what I am doing, what is happening. It will be like my personal blog I guess, a long one. I am putting this out for free because I will not have no price on my child’s head. Them motherfuckers won’t get to see her” I laughed “but that is it, my goal for now. My Fenty lines are fine right now, we are backed up with things flowing until I am truly back on my game” Dennis nodded his head, I know I have put a lot on him right now.

While Chris is not here, I thought I would start the little interview or whatever while I am outside on the lounger “is the camera rolling yet or nah?” Dennis out here just preparing and shit, taking his time. I forgot that I had a message from Chris actually, grabbing my phone “it’s rolling now” Dennis said, unlocking my phone and opening the message “awww she won her little soccer game” zooming into the picture, Chris looks like a proud dad “who has?” Dennis asked, turning my phone to him “I have not met this girl yet but Royalty Brown, she won her soccer match, look at that” holding it to the camera “how do you feel to be a step mother, I mean that is what you will be?” moving my phone back, locking the phone “I don’t know what that entails until I have my own daughter here with me, I can only think what it will be like. Did I think I would be a step mother? Hell no, but I myself had half siblings and I didn’t know how to handle that, I didn’t like it at all so I know how it feels to be in that situation. I would like different for my daughter, a different environment. I always felt like they saw a different side to my dad then I did, it wasn’t good. I mean I still see them but it’s just one of those things where you think did you get the better side of my parent; I just don’t want that. I am nervous about all that” Dennis nodded his head “what made you want to marry Chris; is it love still?” Dennis is making me laugh “he asked, and I said yes, if you know me then you know the love I hold for him. It was one night which has turned into this, I think we are both at a different points in our lives where we are adults, I mean sometimes. I want to do this for her, she is the love of my life. I want her to have the best. I don’t want to go into detail with what Chris and I spoke on, but it’s been an emotional ride with him. It is our time, it’s time for Chris and Rihanna to be happy. People will have their opinions but what does it matter when you’re happy, I am happy. It’s been the most natural disaster thing to happen, and it’s funny because it just happened. And you all can hate Mel” I laughed “I am joking but when my daughter is older, she sees this. She will say my mom did what she needed to do, that is all that matters to me” they going to hate me so much.

#Chrianna FF #Chrianna #Chrianna Fanfiction #Fanfiction #Fanfic

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acioo · 6 years ago

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MASTERLIST OF 1000 VERSE IDEAS ! ( 2 / 2 )

under the cut are exactly 1000 verse tag ideas under the following categories: brotp, enemies, exes, fwb, otp, parents, siblings, toxic relationship, unrequited, & wanted connection with exactly 100 tag phrases per each one. please like or reblog this if you found it helpful !

BROTP :

you ask if i think it’ll hurt like this forever

we’re not those kind of kids

one can’t function without the other

people are good at heart

the kids with no religion

nobody hates the truth like we do

endless dumb fun

they turned her into a nightmare so i’m going to be theirs

for her i can try to be human

we are syrup in coffee and hands that bite

more than friendship but less than dating

we make the king scream for mercy

extensions of each other

all the gods, heavens, and hells are within you

this time we are not afraid

we win because we do not know how to lose

we will be monsters alone in this world with only each other

you look at me with this heady mixture of awe and love and bottomless trust

a sweaty summertime tangle of lips

our nights are perfumed in obsession

he’s lighting a cigarette even though he would never let you touch one

i took care of that thing for you

let them remember me

the only one who really knows anymore

all you have to do is ask

the best at making me feel better

piggeypack rides & inside jokes

living in each other’s back pocket

the impractically rebellious & the impractically kind

the best thing that’s ever happened to me

all you need is love

i will remember. will you?

i like you more than i planned

but we hold on

i love you inside & out

best friends with an idiot

not used to people sticking around when things get bad

here comes trouble

sitting on the library floor

sending out emails for the cult meeting

strange women society

making forests quiver

my one kin

where i go you go

our meeting was bad for society

a true friend & hot piece of ass

to a fading friend

a dynamic duo

then we fight together

don’t tell anyone the big bad wolf is a puppy in disguise

ideas that seemed good at three am

i know i’m a shit friend but oh god i’m trying

the gang screws the government

dead boys club

friends can break your heart too

can’t stop us

there is thunder in our hearts

bro homie man calm down

bored & covered in paint with an idea

i could be your family

we can be heroes

teenage feelings

i can’t live without you

i want to be loved but don’t feel like i deserve it

don’t give up! you’ll be great someday

i tolerate you

who made you think you weren’t worth it

if we fall we fall together

we are the kids you can never kill

we hurt & burn & bloom

friends that became family

alive by spite alone

as long as we don’t die this is going to be one hell of a story

local dumbasses knew what they were getting into but did anyway

just children thrust into war

it’s like being friends with a five year old child who’s also an alcoholic

double trouble

i’m pretty cool but also i cry a lot

unity ; standing together as one

you’re pretty neato

in the end you’re my very best friend

just get in the fucking blanket fort

oh for fuck’s sake here we go again

please don’t leave me like the rest

something about you made me feel alive

sitting on a rooftop at two am & talking about life

whatever you do you’re still my best friend

i’d do anything to keep you safe

so what are you doing this weekend?

let’s be miserable together

trouble usually finds us

my annoying best friend

i’d do anything to make it up to you

all we have is now

down for whatever

we’re good at surviving

death doesn’t discriminate

you suck less than most people

platonically calls you babe

so i did a stupid thing again

ENEMIES :

better him than me

always ready to argue with you

the only thing that comes easily is the anger

laughing at your worthless jokes

awe-inspiring & ferocious & terrible

hell is other people

the game was getting a little old

plenty of monsters know how to play at being human

dream on fucker

you and me now! for worse or for better

she tears at my lungs

still working on going to hell

tangle them in bedsheets & take their heart

stop brewing up wicked things

fucking unbelievable

are you done yet?

you should be scared of me

the problem is you

monsters aren’t meant to live happily ever after

testing my patience

leave or die

this a warzone

give me a break

can you take a punch?

let my thorns prick your fingers

made of threats

you were an iceberg & i had no lifeboat

fighting & fucking

see you in hell

sinking my talons into your neck

bang bang you’re dead

keeping you at a distance

a fire blazing between us

i will taste the copper tang of your dying breaths

don’t growl at the wolf

the only thing she makes me feel anymore is rage

try to scare me, i dare you

what does it take to make you angry?

you are dumb and an ass: dumbass

sorry you evil prick

you look like shit

a lifelong rivalry

please stop talking

seeing them brings only pain

i’ll swallow my blood before i swallow my pride

i choose violence over peace

stupidity isn’t cute

i’m not cutting myself up for you again

sometimes hearts are vacant

i can’t stand a mess of a person

no enemy is safe

using poetry in a street fight

i don’t care if you burn

i tried to be kind

rot in hell

you want battle? i’ll give you war

hate spitting out of each other’s laugh

choose your last words this last time

not to sound bitter

true evil is above all things seductive

basically i’m a badass / basically he’s a moron

i hope the halo burns when i shove it down your throat

we should really have angry sex sometime

i liked your nose before

allergic to you

he’s not a monster, just a villain

stop making others suffer for your personal hatred

aren’t we all sinners

am i an asshole?

i’m going t hell anyways

do not tell me what i can and can’t do

you don’t know shit about me

they paid the price

you underestimate my power

an eye for an eye

people are poison

wanted: dead or alive

as mad as a dad in traffic

to make out with you or kill you

martyr me i dare you

i hate you more than you hate yourself

please stop framing me for murder i didn’t do that one

do not touch me

sorry you’re an asshole

throwing rocks evolving to throwing insults

asshole of the year & competition

you tried to cross the wrong person

if i’m cute when i’m angry you must find my phenomenal

done being a brat yet?

you are the villain of this story

bringing a murderous rage

an abomination among us

everything about you is wrong

i’ll be nicer if you’ll be smarter

gay judgement

some people should get punched in the face

better than you

a strange game of chess with only two royals

what doesn’t kill me might make me kill you

pain is but fuel to my rage

EXES :

suddenly we are strangers again

we deserve a soft epilogue

you changed everything

she didn’t realize she was saying goodbye

we are good people and we have suffered enough

it’s never been rustier

the people you love don’t stay dead

healing takes time

maybe it was the timing or the toxicity or the lifetime

you haunt me

your relationship will one day dazzle a psychologist

suddenly, everything is okay again

you say you hate him (but it’s so clear on your face)

i know i’ll see your face again

still overthinking why he stopped caring about you

when i think of january i think of you

everything is just so wrong!

part of why you can’t trust men

sorry to my unknown lover

i forgot just why i left you

he doesn’t believe in anyone but himself

he never saw himself the way i saw him

they haunt her dreams

she now knows the trouble of underestimating troublemakers

i’d hold her like she was china instead of plastic and she’d get oh so bored

somebody always has to love more

being apart from your soulmate hurts

i hope you’re thinking of me

you will always fall in love

our love did not know how to die quietly

if memories could bleed, if dreams could scream

taste of broken trust

we have fallen a long way

your love should be unconditional for one person or nothing at all

the devil’s love song is for the rest of her kind, not for you

all the signs screamed stop, but we could not see them

i see you holding hands and i feel angry

i’d give anything for you to hold me one last time

now i’m alone in the dust

if you ever fall in love again please fall in love with me

i don’t want us to be strangers again

still looking as good as i left you

i can’t find you in the body sleeping next to me

losing her was different from the usual pain

you couldn’t patch up the holes in his heart

i’m sorry for coming in and fucking up your life

you wonder if you knew him once ; you cannot remember

the world doesn’t stop for any of us

love is but a neurological con job

not heartbroken

no more love notes

love will tear us apart

you made me think i was good

girlfriend from hell

i don’t know if you noticed but i’m long gone

left in the dust with the taste of broken trust

the people i’ve left & the ones that i kept

send my love to your new lover

you know you should have stayed

we really cared for each other

do you still think of us

your name is synonymous with hurt

it still hurts

she didn’t learn how to love early enough

i hope hurting me haunts you for years

i feel sick when i remember how i opened up for you

loving you has fucked me up

you don’t fall until it’s over

i miss you so much it hurts me every day

you both think the other is staring at the ground

it always gets worse before it gets better

he isn’t coming back you thought

all the sparks were gone

i should hate you

you chose to burn me

sometimes endings are made of teary eyes & the saddest of smiles

i never really got to say goodbye

you used to call me baby

maybe one day i’ll feel nothing

me so sorry

you broke my fucking heart

who said i stopped loving you?

picking up the mess you left behind

the boy who broke her heart is the only one who can make it feel whole again

you tried to love me & i tried to let you

what i do isn’t up to you anymore

what’s a soulmate to a rebel?

it was never like that

what if your heart’s a liar?

what was i supposed to do?

accepting the love we think we deserve

maybe i’ll meet you in another life

she could’ve been your moon but you were focused on dimly lit stars

stay i whispered as you shut the door behind you

i don’t want anyone else to ever touch you

we outgrew each other in angry uncoordinated ways

you left & the world kept going

a letter to the boy who stole me

this thing was a masterpiece before you tore it all up

she’s no longer your girl

FWB :

him and his pale long fingers tangled in your hair

same kiss & lips ; never the same touch

his cold lips against your neck

slender fingers on your upper thigh

nothing sets you off like how you want him

free sex training lessons

can’t differentiate between lips & hearts anymore

his mouth is your confessional

he’d never let anything real happen

what we do is secret

this is no longer safe ground

“ my parents aren’t home ”

the only legacy we’ll leave is the graffiti beneath the high school bleachers

we are the avoiders

just us ; you find out

desired but never loved

you lost track of the rules

you taste like sunshine

it’s so different when we wake up

thrill chill fulfill me

with both of his hands, his eyes, his mouth

star-crossed knuckles at breakfast time

marking you the darkest shade of red

she’s the breathe on the back of your neck

i draped her thighs over my shoulders and drank

the kiss was a one time thing

the possibility is electric

the lie: it doesn’t mean anything

chapstick that started on someone else’s lips

and i keep waking up in your bed

it was supposed to be just once

is it the alcohol or the taste of him

she tastes like every dark thought i’ve ever had

she touches you like you're fragile

he tastes how he sounds: honeyed and warm

countless one-night stands

we say that it is just sex but it’s getting blurry

my heart is too big just for one of you

i’ll seduce you with interesting scientific facts

shining every night

our chaos is what sets us apart

no feelings he said

passionate as a sin

we keep telling ourselves that nothing is happening

just friends don’t kiss like that

i’m in like, she’s in love

me you and the moon

two girls one bed

this sort of lust isn’t allowed

the signs scream do not touch

her gaze is too gentle for your hard fingers

we didn’t get the chance to get past that bed

you’re in my veins, you fuck

it hurts ; lusting after the lion boy

vulnerable and yet still strong

touching everything but her heart

we don’t speak besides assurances

i taste good & bad in you

we call this bravery

this started as friends

drinking her in

lost in translation

maybe i asked for too much

what’s love to a fuckboy

i’ve never even kissed you

yes but only because you asked

they were a poem in four parts

go somewhere with me

you are my two am thoughts

please don’t use me i am broken

eat me! love me! consume me! devour me!

be a slut do whatever you want

feelings of detachment

there’s more where that came from

you are what i desire

you already know how this is going to end

sexual history: often

catching feelings like a disease

don’t get attached

send nudes

everyone winds up kissing the wrong person

gets turned on by danger

i bruise like a peach & i’m twice as sweet

the warmest light is your body

that's fucked up but i like it

that’s gross! (unless you’re up for it?)

gay hooligans

i will gladly slam you against a wall and make out with you

suck my dick written in pretty calligraphy

a best friend who occasionally gives you orgasms

you look cute when i’m doing you

in the gay way

come over and eat what my mom made

i want to respectfully have sex with you

seducing you with interesting science facts

teasing you is what i’m best at

i know what i want & i’m gonna get it

desired but never loved

can we just be strangers again

do you feel like a young god

OTP :

love her, but leave her wild

i lived to love, my darlings

you are my sunshine

tell me i’m good for you

you’re my mess

of all the things my hands have held you are the best

it was like loving the sun

how sweet it is to be loved by you

he makes you feel like when you were at the top of a hill and your bike’s brakes stopped working

the overwhelming desire to kiss

i want to hold hands & waste time with you

i wanna spend the rest of my sunsets with you

we loved with a love that was more than love

i want to be in your arms

your heart could fill an ocean

a love that is not easily buried

you love like the world ending

i find your laughter in the softness of humanity’s neck

i want to explore haunted houses with you

no one’s made my heart beat this fast before

i’ll steal you the moon

sometimes i feel like i’m going to collapse under the weight of your eyes

you understand now why they lost their minds

heaven’s a place on earth with you

he loved you like he discovered fire

did my heart love till now?

your smile lifted the world off of me

i care what you think

a love that makes the god’s jealous

you can only think of his name

no butterflies in my stomach: just shooting stars & supernovas

please i beg quietly don’t give up on me yet

known as something the star’s made

a roaring war when you touch

in her kiss i taste the revolution

the thoughts of him kick drum your veins

touching him feels like a leap of faith you didn’t know you had

tangled in each other

the lies & truth of love

people can read it in your eyes & how you hold each other

he makes you immediately sober up

making your blood tremble with something you don’t understand

he loves you so much more than you do

just kiss me again

one love two mouths

i fell in love with a heart that beats so slow

holding moonlight in your hands

i wanna come home to you

you don’t ever have to go

kiss me like you miss me

fuck you’re beautiful

that star reminds me of you

acknowledging the bad, embracing the good, & growing

my whole sky craves an island of tenderness

she was the moon & i was the stars ; our sky was glorious

he’s not just a boy and that scares me to death

sunlit lovers

spilling like honey from our lips

way too in love

my first & last love

she is what keeps me going

only a fool for you

you’re my future

love comes slyly like a thief

3rd base is when they see you having an anxiety attack

wrapped in your arms i felt like everything could be okay

you have the sweetest soul i have ever seen

i’ll suck your dick if you take your meds

grab the monet & let’s gogh

and i’d choose you ; in a hundred lifetimes, worlds, any version of reality

in the end they died

tragic backstories & height difference

may we meet again

in love with an idiot

you’re so weird (don’t change)

i love you fucker

wanna go to hell together

finger guns but like with emotional attachment and a lot of love

you’re a disaster wanna date

lonely for only you

i can’t believe you’re real

you’ve shown me the light

i wasn’t even looking when i found you

i always think about you

my partner my soldier my fault

worth your weight in gold

my favorite piece of art

we deserve happy

i’ve always belonged to you

great things take time

baby be my lollipop

he was pretty cute for a monster

stopping time one kiss at a time

can’t meet your soulmate if you don’t makeout with strangers

take me back to the night we met

you complete me

soulmates aren’t just lovers

a montage of love

when is a monster not a monster? when you love it

loving you because of & despite the bad

PARENT :

please stop destroying what is left of your heart

laying on the roof of your ‘97 pontiac

he inherited his mother’s charm

knowing how it feels to be cast away

they say: you’re a little too much for me

daddy issues written on your forehead

cosmically impossible

who would want a kid like me?

a letter to my daughter

please don’t give up on me

repeat after me: everything will be okay

her father’s daughter

blood of warriors

anxiously waiting to call that line

a bad childhood doesn’t equal a bad life

we’ve made it this far

her mother cried the day she was born

we didn’t think the monsters could ever be like us

even though there were tears there were tissues too

fearless children who love the light

they forced her into greatness

she calls her parents by their names

i will love you & love you & love you

wasn’t working well from the starter

so afraid of an empty nest

are you proud of me, mama? papa?

inherited her mother’s black anger

a figure in the distance, a movie reel of old pictures

everything my mother prayed i wouldn’t be, i became

you taught me so many things about myself didn’t know

i never did learn much of anything from my mother

the wolf in this fairy tale

loved the point of madness

master of fate

raise hell, kid

he came out of the womb like hannibal sacking rome

didn’t your mother ever tell you not to leave a good thing waiting

to love to the point of madness

when i was just a little girl, i asked my mother, “what will i be?”

he loved her more than his whole life

when will i be good enough for you?

it’s all good when i have you by my side

maxing out daddy’s credit cards

i took nine months to form your heart, do not let anyone break it in seconds

mother says there are locked rooms inside all women

my poor mother begged for a sheep but raised a wolf

every place my mother prayed i wouldn’t go, i went

mother, know, i have pasts inside me i did not bury properly

mother never taught me that just because someone desires you doesn’t mean they value you

born with a thick skull

the people who were supposed to love you more than anyone in this world

spoken to with corporate coldness or demonic tongues

parents who loved them the way we once loved angry gods, leaving offerings and praying for gentle winters

birthed in the form of cherry blossoms

hiding from their dark clouds, boarding up the shutters

kid, you’ve got to love yourself

what came first: humans or despair?

legacy was more important than anything

a lonely child born to lonely parents

it feels so scary getting old

i’m but my mother’s daughter & because of this i can do anything

my parents strength & anger lives in me

original family disappointment

sorry i’m a shit daughter

i love you baby

please come home (i hope you’re okay)

demonic possession & daddy issues

fight for her

just like her father

until every last galaxy dies you have me

which to ask forgiveness for: what am i or what i’m not

i will always stay with you

family first

fairytale childhood

those raised in glass houses

daughter of smoke & bone

one love one house

to die knowing your life was my life’s best part

gay on my mother’s side

nobody’s ever going to love me this much

a collection of horrible people

using “heir” like we are in a shakespearean play

cursing me with happiness

following a set of unwritten rules

this was not the boy they used to know

it just made him kind

to have a precious few people back

you hurt. it’s okay, i hurt too

thank you for always being there for me

was that a compliment?

she was overpraised as a child

better / not bitter

somebody somewhere cares

the oldest or coolest person on earth

fuck you dad

i’m so very proud of you & how hard you’re trying

thank you to someone who always saw the best in me

it ends or it doesn’t

i swear i’m trying my best

they could never see eye to eye

SIBLING :

comparing the twin scars on our forearms

let’s run away together

i love you even though i shouldn’t

two types of the same fool

well used to tragedy

merry band of weirdos

to my siblings: please stop

hurt my sibling & i will kill you

broken dreams club

world’s okayest sister

future cellmate

a force to be reckoned with

your smile lifted the world off me

don’t even think of touching her

a good bro

we may not have had a lot but we had each other

the scorned brother & the only one to make it still

the one with it all

you think you deserved the pain but you didn’t

i can’t remember who the dead one is anymore

i love you / you are not alone / you are daylight

it makes me so mad that they did that to you (and me)

she holds up my sky

always together

i am aware of who you are and what you do

i’m coming for all the monsters that ever touched him

we have blood made of gods and heroes

take back our skin

six am sunrise shining down on us

take back our streets

it’s time to tear their castle down

you don’t know what it’s like to not be wanted

built on the same pretty lie

we learned the truth too late

as golden as they come

no matter what i have you

a drop dead moron

together they’re a fucking hurricane

sour milk children who hiss and spit in father’s eyes

burning down the streets we used to roam

entitled to financial compensation for all this drama

neverending bickering

you used to be so kind

“ even her mugshots were cute “

we have claws for a reason

not mature enough for this

he tried to make everything okay (but he failed)

raised to give themselves a reason to be prideful

they only inherited the same sad eyes

born into needless wealth

carbon copies of one another

sometimes… i can’t even recognize you

the only person that appreciates the irony of legacies like her

the looks she gives him when she sees how he’s tearing himself apart is too much

together they paint an imagined picture of their long gone parents

we were only ever told how to tumble not how to fly

we trust the siren song to call us home

born into the silver of the moon

we are not like the others

i like being alive at the same time as you

your voice is the only answer to my problems

thank you for loving me through it all

if your life must be a battle, don’t fight it alone

promise you’ll come back for me?

never fall for one of them

our old man is a bad man

we’ve all got our secrets

billionaire boys club

sorry i’ve been mean

afraid together

rich girls don’t have hearts

everything is changing

don’t tell them i killed my old self

watch your fucking language little one

why are you always so mean to me

mayhem caused

born to think like martyrs

i’ll find the bad dreams off if they come to get you

something that happened a long time ago and continues to affect us today

there’s nothing wrong with being different

an unremembered bond

don’t touch him

remember you can’t save everyone ; but have to try

no longer making our parents proud together

a golden cage is still a cage

surrounded by idiots

where’s all the time that heals

the hippies

like realizing stuff

you were alone before they left you

please don’t leave me

we met evil when we were only children

the kids with the big big plans

why the fuck do you put up with me?

i feel at home with you

have you seen her?

fighters but not by choice ; by heart

not totally useless, possibly a bad example

star child are you listening? i died that day

i might be an asshole but i’m your favorite asshole

TOXIC RELATIONSHIP :

every time she knocks i can’t help but let her in

in these empty church halls religion shifts and turns and blurs

you feed me small bits of your petrified heart

our love is a monster

lulling me to a hundred year slumber with your kiss

love from the lips of people who don’t understand such a thing

just pretending you don’t know he’s going dark again

a love that’s not easily buried

you were never a saint: i loved in shades of wrong

dipped my hands in holy water just to touch her

they wanted you to save them first

i don’t have any more control

how do you still love me after i’ve broken you

he doesn’t feel anything much less love

you have to let me go

make an altar of this stolen flesh

i love you even with your hands around my throat

i call her the devil cos she makes me want to sin

at least it’s something

these violent delights have violent ends

you were crying, but it was beautiful

i will never know who you were supposed to be

the crazy kind of love

pretending to forget how our scars got there

when love kills

he’s suffocating you but you don’t want to breathe

i will make you crumble to the ground

my heart beats in starts until the spell is broken

there’s a body lying next to him

just let me cry a little longer

i did not know desire does not mean value

killing each other with toy guns

it was a lesson in listening to your head over your heart

i wanted too much and you wanted too little

we weren’t meant for each other

he’s bleeding out

you filled up where used to be empty but only with black

you made me lose my softness

the ones who like me the most are always bad

they threw each other to the wolves

we pretend this works

you say my eyes are getting too dark now (boy, look at my mind)

someone could love you more

you’re my today & tomorrow & i am your yesterday

something about you makes me want to do things i shouldn’t

you taught me how to love wrong

you watch her crumble under the weight of your sins

maybe you were the poison and not the cure

loving him was your destruction

you don’t know why you jumped after her

you always tasted like blood a little too damn much

cities fell when you left me

you make my heart shake bend & break but i can’t turn away

i may not know what love is but i know this isn’t it

it’s easier to destroy something you love than let it leave

did you ever really love me at all?

oh god i am bleeding oh god i am bleeding oh go

i don’t want to be alone

why did you clip my wings

this is breaking my heart

you made me cry you fuck

self destructive tendencies aren’t a relationship quality

i’m a bad influence but damn i’m fun

fear makes the wolf look bigger

don’t believe his lies

not everyone you lose is a loss

i’m so scared loving you was the only good thing i ever did

you still feel like home

i love you (not delivered)

set a fire down in my soul

heartbreak is not beautiful

i should have trusted my trust issues

kiss the boys and make them die

i think i need you because you don’t need me

they broke the wrong parts of me

i could tear you apart if i wanted

we both wish this was better

and in the end all i learned was how to be strong alone

this destruction will be your rebirth

so the poem hurt you (it was supposed to)

he looks at you like your his entire world

i’m an entire person not a vague concept you dreamt

a perfect match but sadly matches burn

never fucking good enough

loving you could be so fun if i wasn’t so blue and you weren’t so numb

i call your name but it’s fading

you were nothing before you met me

everything i didn’t say

this girl wasn’t like wildfire — she was wildfire

it hurts

teenage tragedy

please could you be tender

a wolf will never be a pet

always disappearing on me

nothing ever ends poetically

why do i still love you?

we are the monsters

am i the villain in your story?

i’m sorry i stabbed you. i love you.

i can’t do this anymore

UNREQUITED :

i’ve fallen in love with someone who can’t be reached

cosmically impossible

just one kiss would solve it all

you’re looking at me how you used to before i broke your heart

what do you know of loneliness? of heartbreak? of biting your tongue to draw blood?

i could never regret meeting you

you don’t even realize how amazing you are

the story still ends

you’re all that’s left for me

i’m so glad someone so beautiful exists at all

i can’t ever believe that anyone ever really starts to fall in love with me

even though you want to speak you say nothing

you want to ask if he meant it when he kissed you

something hurt in you the same way rainclouds hurt before they break open

i’ve been in love with you for so long

unable to stop worrying what she’ll say when she finds out

no proof & one touch

killing me silently

god you hated me or hated that you loved me at least

an insatiable desire

i don’t want to be your friend i want to kiss your neck

the ones you love become ghosts inside you

can’t shake the memory of the summer you stomped my heart out

time doesn’t fucking heal anything

i just needed you to know once

never enough

you sit there & your tongue is tied

the best i can do is a fake smile & dead eyes

maybe one day i’ll stop thinking about you

give me a try

god grant me serenity to not destroy myself with want for this boy

i yearn for her to see past the veil

your glance lingers too long

please look away ; you are too much

a warmth i am too numb to feel

i just don’t want to get hurt

like pandora’s box

a love that makes the moon blush

you don’t have to say anything

our lips do not cannot never will touch

if they don’t come back, you sleep in the middle of the bed, make enough coffee for yourself alone

is it just that you’re not good enough

when he leaves you stay behind like always

she said i love you so damned much, just not like that

the world around you is all knives and chipped teeth and she is too soft to not save

you could never hold her like she deserved

i never needed anyone (until you)

in dreams i meet you in warm conversation

to bathe in one’s own blood

i’ve never felt more alone

we wake in lonely beds in different cities

i probably couldn’t live with or without her now

like a sun is trying to escape me

you consume me

if i told you i loved you what would you say

eventually but not today i think it will stop hurting

i’m drowning myself in alcohol when i really want to drown myself in you

i always think about you

i can’t imagine not loving you anymore

i’ll be your slaughterhouse

i don’t want realism, i want magic

i loved the idea of you more

how to unlove someone

i love everything you hate about yourself

the truth is i’m in love with you

i woke up wanting to kiss you

in a room full of art i’d still stare at you

you made me forget myself

there was just something about you that made me feel special

warning: you must fall in love with me

platonically hurting hands / burning

this bed was fit for two

treat her better

does she hold on to you the way i used to?

i just want to pretend

you make me feel lonely & loved at the same time

holding onto your call

i’m sorry that i fell in love tonight

i can barely breathe

maybe if my heart stopped beating it wouldn’t hurt so much

still sleeping like we’re lovers

maybe it wasn’t you but the idea of you

there’s nothing i can do except bury my love for you

it was all fun and games until i fell in love

you’re looking through me & i can’t see past you

you’re never gonna love me so what’s the use

you hurt me so why the fuck am i apologizing

somebody catch my breath

learning to live without you

please don’t say you love me

my love for you was never much of a choice at all

meeting you felt like wandering into a dream

i’m sorry i couldn’t hold myself back anymore

this is me letting you go

just waiting to feel your touch

living with a shattered heart is hard

you can’t love a legend

i know what we are & what we are not

all that’s left are echoes

my memories were loud enough to drown the silence

WANTED CONNECTION :

you want them to fill the void in your heart

you want them to take away the emptiness

you want them to make you feel complete

i can feel it under my skin

i might really become somebody someday

we are in daylight now

too rich & divine

a whole universe in my mind

a wildness in you

desire is the kind of thing that eats you and leaves you starving

full of heartache and poetry

i am worthy and powerful

we do not perish

let us be reborn in the morning light

her eyes are closed

someone will strike a match on it and they’ll explode

they have something bad inside of them

hurricanes of thoughts

some quality content

desire washes over in waves

the beauty that is yet to come

six feet deep

i cannot afford luxuries like rest anymore

this body's a curse

it’s a great day for being sad

love is love is love

partners in crime

a short story on indiscretion

even a curse sounds holy

biting down upon my lips

a queen’s rise

the words that burn my life

an amorphous kind of reality

your life was a long line of fine

like hell you’re doing that

not violent or malicious: a result

softness as a shield

he can’t fake that

begging for a second of time

thank you for your interest in a life full of pain

please try again & again & again

the person you were & the person you became

no maps of the change

the right way to fall in love

can we just live in the moment?

living life on a line

an ex-almost

my braveheart

it’s always more with you

stay alert & stay alive

come on baby light my fire

ballpark music

am i making sense?

coming out of my cage and i’ve been doing just fuck

everybody knows i’m a mess

murder! intrigue! sex! drugs! classics!

forget about it

you still hurt

do not go gentle into the good light ; rage rage against the dying light

i don’t want to relate to anyone

we should talk

we will be gods

don’t forget me

water in vodka bottles

taking trains to nowhere in particular

say you love satan

just trying to not get arrested again

in the sewers again

the devil’s music

who’s going to stop me?

a date in hell

only the good die young

survivor riddled with arrows

i have seen the future

talk to me (i’m scared to speak)

drive him wild with hints that you know when he will die

are you afraid of yourself?

you are necessary i need you

i like you more than i planned

the sun will come up

i got by own back

help the ghost find his past life

sent here to make shit worse

and all i loved i loved alone

survival mode is not meant to be how you live

your thoughts kill you, don’t they?

as far as anyone knows you do not feel anything

i am so in love (please do not break my heart)

i hope you know how loved you are

fifteen minutes late with starbucks

alluring like wildfire and summer storms

wake up

not afraid to heal

don’t panic

i took care of that thing for you

i made me

midday criss not midlife crisis

just survive somehow

what are some of the ways you’ve died?

the hero of this story

#rph #masterlist #rpt #tag inspo #tag masterlist #mine: masterlist #ml

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noexit-ff · 7 years ago

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39.

I have a one more week to go and then the tour is over, I am not complaining because this tour has been a blessing I wanted, I enjoyed every moment. Every fan I saw or met, Europe is always so good to me and the love here is amazing. I think I am going to do another tour again overseas, I feel like I didn’t get to do as many dates as I could because of the rush. I am in Switzerland and I have the concert date today and then I am at Belgium tomorrow but I got a day off before the Belgium date, I can’t thank the production team enough because they work so hard. I am tired though but I just want to get home for Robyn, that is my goal now. Stretching out my body, I hate sleeping in hotel rooms, especially when I don’t have anyone to hold. One big empty bed and I need to get out of bed for soundcheck and Sinko is now coming, it’s been two and a half weeks when I asked him to come, he is coming now. I am pissed, I think I will attack him. Robyn thinks I should just watch him and catch him out but no, I want to beat his ass. He purposely tried to fuck up my marriage and then Robyn has been in my mind, why the fuck am I letting a guy that hates my wife near her, he could have hurt her. He don’t respect any female and I am stupid enough to allow him to be near Robyn. I am fucking so stupid, he could have done anything stupid. I have so much going through my mind, it worries me but I am glad she is fine and he is coming out to me.

Pulling the chair back at the table “you look rough, are you getting that beard trimmed?” touching my little beard growing “yeah, maybe. I need to find someone to come out to me Ant” sitting down as I groaned out “I had a horrible night, the bed was wack and Robyn didn’t call me. I don’t know why, I can’t call her now because she will be asleep” rubbing the back of my head “you worrying about Sinko?” nodding my head “I am not worried, I just feel stupid. I had him near my family, I knew he didn’t like Robyn and I continued to have him around. He is coming now but I want to beat his ass, he is the one that been doing shit. The fuck as he got to do in LA? He follows me” Ant placed his fork down “from what I know of him, he hangs on to your ball sack every day, he doesn’t do anything without you so it does make me wonder why he stayed behind, he is coming now. I think, don’t wait. Say it to him, if you beat him then do it. He fucked with your future which is not good, what if he put drugs in your drink? He seems like a jealous person also” Ant is telling me to beat him, Ant must be angry too “he’s blood gang right?” nodding my head “blood gang don’t like snitches right? They down for their people yeah? Get Lo, tell him. Pass word on what he is like, nobody will fuck with him when we get back, let him rot but still beat his ass” Ant is right, I think I will do that.

Watching my phone ring out, seeing Mijo calling me as the I.D “you not going to pick it up?” Ant questioned, I guess I better “bro” answering the phone “I thought I would call you, erm Mel has gone into labour” not like I care “then why are you calling me? Go and meet your son” is he weird “not allowed in the room now, her mom and Jen are in there. Her family threatened me but Robyn ain’t here” that’s weird for Robyn “hmmm she ain’t called me either, I’ll check on her. Just hang tight Mijo, stay there. They will let you see him, what is your other baby mother having? It’s like babies for everyone with you” Mijo chuckled “she is having a girl” he got enough kids now “that’s sweet, just hold tight at the hospital. Let them speak their shit and see your child. I was supposed to ask you, do you know about Jessica fucking with Sinko during the time we didn’t speak, do you know anything?” the line went a little silent “I saw them together, they looked mad cosy and I walked away, I thought you gave your blessing for him to have her?” pulling a face “its not that, Robyn had a fight with that bitch because she kissed me out of nowhere, Sinko been setting me up all this time while fucking her? I don’t get why?” I am so angry “wow, ok. Sorry, I be in my own bubble with stress but that is fucked up. Chris, I told you that Sinko loves you when you were snorting a line and high as fuck, he wants to be you but now you have settled, he is jealous of you but he hides it well” rubbing my face “so what do you think I should do?” I think I will go with what Ant said though “beat his ass to show him who’s boss, he fucking with your family so do what you need to do” I can’t wit to see his ass now, that motherfucker.

The phone pressed against my ear, ringing Robyn for the third time. I don’t know why she ain’t picking up, I mean it is like the middle of the night but I want to know she is safe “Christopher” Robyn sighed out, she is half asleep “I’m sleeping” she mumbled “good but why didn’t you call me last night? I get worried you know. How come you are sleeping? Your bestie is giving birth” Robyn moaned out “ok that is good for her, I am tired. I just feel so tired Chris” I know Roby has her eyes closed talking to me “how come you don’t care?” stepping off the elevator “I do but I just don’t feel good, my back hurts and it took me so long to fall asleep. I was going to call you but I kind of lost it when I fell asleep, sorry. Just in some pain” I can’t blame her “ok, I just want to know you’re safe that is all. I will let you rest, I am just going to do soundcheck. Not long left” unlocking my hotel room door, the phone fell so eerily silent “Robyn?” I said, hearing light snores come through the phone. Let me put the phone down before those light snores turn loud, my baby.

Passing my mic to the sound engineer “all good homie” sounds good so then I am good to go, just that this place usually has bad sound with echo and shit so I had to do soundcheck “Sinko is here” Ant said passing me my water bottle “you tell Lo?” he asked, nodding my head “they all know, I said it on the bus. You fell asleep” drinking the water making my way to the back of the stage “ok, and Robyn called your phone” Ant passed me my phone, let me call her back quick “she sound upset?” I questioned “just a little” passing the water bottle back to Ant, placing my phone to my ear “long time bro!” Sinko spat, smiling at him “good seeing you” dapping him “I will be two minutes” hearing Robyn crying in my ear “baby, what’s wrong?” frowning hard, I am concerned as fuck now. Hearing her sob out and snort while crying “Seriously? What the fuck? Talk to me” why won’t she speak “don’t shout at me!” she said through her cries “I miss you and I want you back!” she is having her moment “you know I am out here” rolling my eyes “nobody was here to rub my back” she sniffled “I want you here with me Chris, oh god. Why won’t you listen” she is so spoilt “I am listening to you but you crying like a brat with me, I can’t be there. Why cry?” I know she has boogers coming down her nose, these tears are deep “because I want you here Chris, I miss you” hearing her sniffing her boogers back up her nose “that shit is nasty, come on. Please stop crying, you make shit hard for me. I am hurting too, there is not long left and I will be back” Robyn sighed out “I bet you look different, I bet you look so beautiful. Tell Ant he takes rubbish videos and I can’t see you properly” she sobbed out again, my eyes bulged out “help” I mouthed to Ant, she is crying all over again “ok, Ant. You take shit videos, she wants better videos. She wants to see the sweat on my forehead, can you do that for me? Please thanks” Ant walked off busting out laughing “thank you” Robyn said, rubbing my forehead “I ain’t changed, I am still the same nigga. Just stop crying” Robyn is hard fucking work “I have got you something nice, I will give it you when I see you” I need to make her feel better “I just want you back” she mumbled “you get me and some new heels and dresses I bought you babe, I got them in France for you” Robyn groaned out “my feet are swollen and boobs leak so I will look horrible” I cringed “no, these are for special occasions only” I lied “not every day use so you good” Ant is dying laughing at me, I am walking on a thin ice with Robyn, she about to have another meltdown if I say something stupid.

I breathed out and fell on the ground with my arms out, Ant ran to me laughing “what the fuck was that” I said to myself “nigga, you was sweating, oh my god. Rihanna got you sweating, she legit with that” Ant got his hand out, taking his hand and he pulled me back up “this is so funny, women are a whole different breed. This break away is good for you too though, hearing the shit every day is depressing” listening to Ant shaking my head rubbing my chin “don’t ever get married you hear that shit? If you get married don’t get her pregnant, oh my god!!” I shouted, my videographer busted out laughing behind me “god!” I shouted “you can only show some parts of that but wow, women!” I think I could pull my hair out, I need a blunt. Running down the hall, I need a blunt quick “nigga!” Ant shouted still laughing at me, pushing the exit doors open and feeling the breeze hit my face “the hell you doing you monkey?” Cass said, I think I half scared him “I needed air and I need a blunt, you best believe I am not getting Rihanna pregnant again” Cass looked at Frank and they both laughed “I ain’t going into detail but she was crying, over nothing! I mean nothing!” no wonder she is tired, she be crying over stupid shit.

After all of that, I can now just concentrate on this motherfucker “I am free, mentally that is” I am glad Sinko wasn’t around for that conversation “what you been up too? Family good?” I asked Sinko “yeah, yeah. All blessed now” nodding my head “cool, let’s speak. Alone that is, I have some shit to speak on, you know you can’t trust niggas” I lied, he is the snake “hell yeah, phoney ass niggas around” Sinko said, looking at Cass he opened the door for me “I need to go and check on Frank, I’ll walk you” Cass is going to wait outside the door really “it was a shame that you couldn’t be here, it’s coming to an end and you here now, it’s a shame nigga” acting like I give a fuck “you know when shit come up there ain’t nothing I can do” he is never busy the liar, walking into the room “least we got snacks here” the door closed behind Sinko “I am actually hungry, long flight and shit” it’s kind of hitting me, I don’t need this nigga. I should have listened to when my wife didn’t like him, she says she doesn’t like my friends but Sinko, she always had issues and he actually would be disrespectful.

Drinking from the Red Bull can and then placing it down on the table, taking the last of the blunt before putting it out “you didn’t even share that?” Sinko pointed laughing, blowing the smoke out “I don’t share with snakes bro” his face changed into total shock “you what?” he is so confused “you snaked your way into OHB, I accepted you as a friend, as my best fucking friend and you have been setting me up all of this time” Sinko stared at me, he still has this shocked look on his face like he is masking the fact he has been caught “I wouldn’t do that shit to you” he shook his head in disbelief “Mijo, Rihanna, Jen they all saw you with Jessica. How did Jessica know where I was huh? In the lobby, waiting for y’all. Why was I on my own at that moment? How did she know where I would be shopping, how the fuck did she get through? You, it’s been you all of this time. Now I fucking can’t trust you” Sinko got up from the couch “I just fucked her, that is it” shaking my head “so you admit to it, why!? Why was you setting me up?” Sinko has been caught, he doesn’t know what to do “to blackmail you, I mean Jessica. She wanted to do it” letting out an oh “I thought you would have fucked, you’re a nigga like me. Fuck bitches, Rihanna is annoying as fuck and I thought you would have took the bait” shaking my head hearing the truth “so this was for money? Are you kidding me?” is he being real “look” he went silent after saying look “I just wanted to make more money, I want to be better than you. Your fancy ass clothes, wife, cars, home. How can shit come to you in your lap when you are just a nigga like us!” rubbing my face, he is so jealous “so you a jealous snake? There is blood gang rules about snitching on your own right? You just did that for money? Nigga you are done” I chuckled.

The room is so silent, I didn’t see it for him like that “you are so lucky you live in a gated community” those words hit me, now he is really pushing it. I turned to face Sinko, I balled my fist up and punched him square in the face he stumbled back, and his face darkened. The look of shock and anger, as if he didn’t expect me to hit him. I kicked him in the stomach before he could throw a punch. A trickle of blood as escaped his nose “get up!” I spat “come on blood, get up” this nigga is weak as fuck, Sinko wiped his nose and charged at me “you fucking dead” he body slammed me into the wall, I cringed in pain. Using my knee to jab him in the stomach, I am taller than his small ass. He staggered backwards, I managed to punch him again, and I instantly heard his nose crack “why am I lucky!? Tell me, you trying to harm my family!?” seeing red “I will kill you, if I hear one word my home been hit by anything” I hit him again, Sinko held his face crying “damn breezy, ok. I didn’t expect this” looking down at my knuckles “you over nigga, Cass. Take him out of here, you done. Don’t step in LA again, nobody likes a snake, everybody knows” Ant looked at me and didn’t say a word “I guess those boxing classes taught you a little something” nodding my head “get some ice for that” it’s really bugging me, I mean my family is safe. They can’t do shit beyond that gate.

The room is so quiet now, nobody knows what to say “what happened today just stays here, I don’t want to know. Mijo and I don’t have beef, shit was said but he didn’t try and fuck me over. I won’t even tell my wife this, she don’t need the drama and also she is already dramatic with her emotions. Just know that if you going to fuck me over then you will get the same treatment, Sinko is done. He knows it, his ass done. The niggas in this room are the ones I am rolling with and want to roll with and Robb, don’t say shit to anyone, not even Aaron. Just keep it here, Lo just make sure word gets out” moving the ice pack from my knuckles “we got you” Lo said, I am glad they do “what made you go crazy, you gave him a new nose” hood asked, I chuckled “he mentioned my family, he said I was lucky I live in a gated community, that shit got to me. Was he trying to hurt my family? If I wasn’t, was he going to do something but I am glad we moved and Robyn pushed for it. If my hand is noticed because it is fucked, just say Ant was teaching me to box and shit happens” that will be the thing I will be saying “oh yeah, while he was being removed. I took the chain and ring from him, we don’t fuck with those” Hood passed me the OHB chain and ring, I actually forgot about taking it from him.

#Chrianna #Chrianna FF #Fanfiction

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vizhi0n · 7 years ago

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Sundown - Part 5 (End)

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OOOH okay so I hope you guys don’t hate me, but after going through like 50 revisions and ideas I figured out how I wanted this all to end. This is a long chapter, but I didn’t want the fic dragging on. Thank you guys so much fo reading this random post-premier fic that i thought up XD

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Warnings: Gore, Negan’s potty mouth, and le’ good ole smut.

Our bodies were slick with sweat — we’d discard our clothes in a pile in the corner. Negan had been right — he had fucked me more than once. Twice, actually. I was surprised he wasn’t sated yet as he pinned my arms above my head, mouth descending so he could swirl his tongue around my breasts.

I wasn’t complaining. His fingers were careful not to jostle any of my injuries. Nevertheless, I was even more sore afterwords as my recovering body endured more stress than it needed. He’d slowly worked any sexual awkwardness out of my body, ensuring that it didn’t hurt when he entered me.

“You ever been fucked in the ass before?”

“No? What the fuck makes you think that I have, or that I’d want that?” Negan chuckled at my response as I rolled my hips against his, already used to him filling me up. I was marked — I’d never be able to get his scent off me. Cheap cologne, sweat, blood, a musky sweetness that only he possessed. I wasn’t sure if it as the smell or the flick of his thumb against my clit that had me finally whining for him.

“There you fucking go,” Negan praised. He chuckled, burying his nose in my hair. “Holy shit, you’re so nice and fucking warm for me.”

“Why wouldn’t I be?”

Negan pressed two quick kisses against my lips, mumbling, “We really need to work on your sex talk.”

“I’m just…making an observation,” I grunted as he bucked his hips. His thumb continued to assault my clit with even more vigor than before, inching me towards my release. He was holding out well, grunting with each thrust of his cock.

I came first, clenching around him and releasing a series of rather pornographic moans that even I was ashamed of. My nails dug into his shoulders as I held on, pressing my mouth against his bare shoulder to stifle my next few cries. I stayed there even as he pulled out and released onto my taut stomach, muttering curses. He rolled over and I nestled against him, burying my face in his neck. He held me, trying to catch his breath.

“You are going to be the fucking death of me,” Negan groaned. I smiled and ran my fingers through the nest of matted dark hair on his chest. He grasped my hand, stopping me. After a quick squeeze he whispered, “Stay here with me. Please.”

“Negan—”

“Nothing will ever hurt you again. I fucking swear it,” he said, “Because you’ll be by my fucking side.”

“You’re joking.”

“Do I look like I’m fucking joking? What the hell else am I supposed to say to you?” Negan’s lips curled into a grimace. “When I say shit, I fucking mean it. What reason would I have to lie, after everything that’s fucking happened?”

“I know you.”

“You don’t know me. Not all of me — fuck,” Negan pinched the bridge of his nose, jerking his chin towards his faithful barbed baseball bat, which rested against the wall, stained with blood. “Lucille? She’s…Lucille was my fucking wife. She was the one who always liked bringing me chocolate covered strawberries and shit like that. She was the greatest fucking thing that ever happened to be. Even if the world hadn’t gone to shit, she still would have fucking died. I still would have lost her.”

“How’d she die?”

“Cancer. And my pathetic ass couldn’t even put her down. I had to get some fucking kid to do it for me,” Negan gazed up at the ceiling. “I fucking admire you, okay? I respect you. You’re fucking ballsy, you have an attitude, and you’re way smarter than you give yourself credit for. Kind of like her.”

“We would have been homies, then. I like smart women. I like women in general. Hey, we have that in common,” I patted Negan’s chest, leaning over to give him a quick kiss. “Now get up. We’re actually in a bit of predicament here.”

“I thought I was on vacation?” Negan chuckled. “Toss me my fucking pants and then I’m ready to fucking go.”

“We only have one shot at this. It’s now or never.”

“I trust you,” Negan said. “You’ve done this shit before?”

I nodded, peeking out the window. The walkers were just milling about, and the horde didn’t look as dense as before. We had a chance. A slim chance, but a chance.

Now or never.

“Shit,” I cursed, squeezing my eyes shut before opening them. I shut the blinds, gesturing for Negan to stay while I slowly opened the door. Several walkers turned at the noise, shuffling towards the stairs.

I gripped my crowbar and swung twice. One walkers toppled, head caved in like a fallen pie crust. I quickly and carefully grabbed the corpse’s arm and began pulling, feeling Negan assist from behind. We dragged the bleeding, unmoving walker into the trailer, shutting the door behind us.

I dropped the body, panting. Negan looked over at me once more, and then down at the walker corpse. Sighing, he began gathering supplies while I knelt over, feeling a tight pain in my ribs and in the back of my head. I tugged the huge flannel that I’d salvaged closer against my body, feeling a bit dizzy.

“You sure you’re up for this? You’re concussed, Rachel,” Negan asked. “Drink this before you do anything else.”

He tossed me the bottle of water. I tried to catch it but my depth perception was off and it landed on the carpet. Wincing, I reached down and picked it up, wasting no time before I began taking massive gulps.

“There’s only one left,” Negan said. “Shit.”

“Another reason why we need to get the fuck out of here.”

Negan huffed, tugging an oversized, old sweater over his head. He reached down to grab Lucille before limping back over, standing by my side as we observed the corpse.

“You wanna go first?” I grimaced.

“Fuck no. This was your idea, not mine.”

I rolled my eyes. I shakily got to my knees, gesturing for Negan to hand me his long bowie knife. He did, sliding it from his pocket and handing it to me hilt first. Without hesitation, and trying to remember what I’d seen Rick and Michonne do back in Alexandria, I sliced the walker open from neck to hip.

The stench was unbearable. The cramped trailer smelled like rotting flesh, bloody, a sickly-sweet odor that, even after being around the undead for years, I’d never gotten used to. Negan held his nose with one gloved hand, waving for me to hurry.

I did. Ignoring the horrible texture of flesh, intestines, and sinew, I began dousing myself in walker entrails. It was in my hair and on my face, turning my dark skin a brilliant red.

Negan went next. I helped him, coating his head and working away at his sweater until it turned from cream to black with blood. He slipped his knife back into its sheath while I grabbed my crowbar and then, finally, the assault rifle. I slung it over my shoulder — I was halfway to the door when I stopped.

Negan was watching me. He had Lucille clutched tightly between his fingers.

“I never did thank you for not killing me,” I said softly. “You trusted me.”

“I didn't really have a fucking choice. But I’m glad that I did."

“Yeah,” I glanced at the ground, watching his boots as they came into view. When I looked up he was staring down at me, skin matte with dried walker blood. Without even thinking I reached out and grasped his free hand, murmuring, “If I choose to stay with you, I…I don't want to fight. I can’t fight. I can’t hurt anyone. What I want to do is negotiate — talk with Rick, Ezekiel, Maggie…no more bloodshed and no more death. Nobody has to die. Not anymore.”

“If they try and kill you, I’m sure as hell going to fight back.”

“I know. Shit, Negan. I think I might actually have a thing for you.”

“A thing?”

“A thing, thing. Like…I feel it in my stomach. I feel warm when you touch me or when you talk to me. I want more. I deserve more after the shithole of a life I’ve had. You make me feel good.”

He brushed his thumb across my lower lip, smiling. His kiss was chaste, gentler than I’d ever felt from him.

“God, you’re fucking beautiful.”

I grinned.

“You’re pretty good looking yourself,” I replied. “Let’s go. Now or never, remember?”

We waited until we had a pretty good, clear space before we walked down the stairs of the trailer. I stuck close to Negan, our fingers intertwined. I had the gun and the crowbar while he held Lucille, her barbed ends pressed against his bloodied sweater. We walked slow — we had to. Negan’s injuries prevented us from outright running, and my concussed head, sore ribs and aching arm had made it very clear that breaking into a sprint was not an option. Our slow speed made us seem authentic, and I prayed that no Saviors would mistake us for walkers and snipe us from above.

We made no sound. The groans of the undead made it impossible to whisper to one another. We weaved our way through, and the entire time, I felt dread within me. Those teeth, those unflinching eyes, were too close. Each time a sinewy, dead hand would brush against me I’d flinch—

Don’t be scared. Fear gets you killed.

I stayed as close to Negan as possible. I had no clue where he was leading me — I, of course, had no in-depth knowledge regarding the layout of the Sanctuary. But I knew the longer we stayed disgusted amongst the dead, the more chances there were for things to go horribly wrong.

Like right now, for instance.

I heard shouts from the balcony, though they weren’t directed at us — I looked up and saw one of the Saviors — Gavin — pointing and instructing several armed Saviors to begin firing.

Firing at what?

“Shit,” Negan hissed. “Shit, shit, shit.”

The herd began shifting towards the noise, inevitable tugging us along with them. The minute we tried to divert towards a different route was the moment the facade crumbled.

“There’s a safe place just around that corner,” Negan shouted through the roar of gunfire. Gavin hadn’t seen us, and his men were busy firing at whatever walkers moved. I heard the noise the moment Negan and I began swinging our weapons.

Shattering glass. Flames. Alcohol.

Those dumbasses were throwing molotov’s!

They weren’t dumbasses. They were smart — molotov’s were smart. But of all the times they chose, now could have been the worst possible opportunity for them to grow a pair and start doing something. I felt Negan shove me forward from behind, dragging his leg behind him as he did his best to run.

“Go, go, go!” he swung Lucille in a wide arc, catching two walkers in the head at once. I shoulder past a walker before bashing one with my crowbar. There was no time to grab my gun and begin firing.

“Negan!”

“Go,” Negan roared. He began limping, teeth clenched as he struggled and pushed his way through the undead.

I didn’t go. I reached for him, bloody hands grasping his sweater and tugging him forward. I slung his long arm around my shoulder, doing my best to support his limping form.

Grimy hands grasped for out clothes. I saw it first — a wide fire escape just a few feet off the ground. Negan gasped, “Fucking there! Go there!”

I released him. He turned, startled, as I engaged the first walker I saw, smashing my crowbar down twice against its head. Blood splattered across my face and I bellowed, swinging again and again and again —

“Rachel — shit, get over here!”

I thrust the crowbar forward. To my dismay I felt it sink through the decaying neck of a walker, coming out the other side. This slight mishap gave the creature enough time to grasp my shoulders.

No, no, no —

I released the crowbar and shoved. Not even bothering to grab it, I clambered up the fire escape, still toting the assault rifle.

The sound of gunfire had ceased, but I could smell burning wood and flesh. Negan let out a breath, still limping as he used Lucille to bash open a glass window.

We were safe.

Negan gestured for me to go first, sliding down against the wall, clutching his thigh in agony. Even in my concussed state, I could see that he needed medical attention.

Shit.

I climbed through the window, discarded onto the floor. The room was empty, so I dropped my guard, peeling off the sticky, blood soaked flannel and tossing it to the side. I knelt down, poking my head through the shattered window.

Negan was sweating, voice hoarse as he spoke.

“Holy shit. Holy shit this feels like a fucking dream,” he groaned, shifting so he could face me fully. “Don’t ever say that I doubted you.”

“You doubted me like fifty times, dude, don’t lie. But I would have doubted me to so I’m not, like, mad or anything. And it helps that you’re so damn charming.”

“Well, I apologize for my fucking transgressions.”

“Apology accepted,” I smirked, extending my hand. “C’mon. Do you need help getting through—”

“Hey!”

A hard female voice pierced through the air. I turned away from the window, standing. One of the women from before — Regina — stood with a gun clutched in her hand. I went to speak, raising my hand in a placating and calming gesture to let her know that I wasn’t an enemy—

She shot once. Then again. The first bullet hit right below my left breast while the other struck my hipbone. I heard a bellowing male voice — Negan — and the sound of shattering glass, and a woman’s scream. Footsteps as more saviors approached.

And then I hit the floor, hard, my legs unable to support my weight. My entire body felt twitchy and out of control. I went to feel the wound and felt nothing but blood.

I had a clear view of Negan as he pounced on Regina, gripping the screaming woman and, in a shriek of pure, unadulterated rage, hurled her through the window and over the fire escape. Her body fell several feet before impacting the concrete with a sickening thud before being consumed by those below. I heard Simon yell at the Saviors not to shoot.

All the while I lay as crimson stained my clothes and the floor beneath me. There was so, so much of it, like a river. I tried verbalizing it but found my lungs filled with the sickening liquid. When I tried to speak I convulsed, mouth flooded with blood.

“Get Carson! Fucking get him, now!” Negan bellowed, eyes bloodshot. A few Saviors obeyed while the others watched.

Take a picture, boys, it’ll last longer.

I desperately wanted to make the joke, but I could barely talk. Negan propped me up, hastily removing his glove so he could press a clean hand against the wound beneath my breast as it sucked the life out of me.

You’re dying.

There was no pulling away or coming back. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t stop the pain or the blood, or Negan’s pleas. I could only relish in the feeling of him holding me, cradling me in his arms and lifting my head so I could try and breathe.

“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. Shit,” Negan squeezed his fist together. “I’m so fucking sorry. Listen, Carson is coming. Harlan Carson. He’ll fucking fix you. Look at me, okay? Fucking don’t move. Look at me! You’ll be okay.”

No, I won’t.

Fucking say something!

I fought through the mouthful of blood, managing to push out a few garbled words.

“No. This is what happens to humble foot soldiers, remember — I get it now,” I smiled, holding it as long as I could. I didn’t want his last memory of me to be of some expressionless corpse. “Thank you.”

Negan’s begging and cries dissipated. They were nothing. I was nothing. I couldn’t see or smell or hear. I was gone, sinking beneath the horizon like the setting sun. But I wouldn’t come back.

Hush.

It’s sundown.

#negans thirst squad #negan #vizhi0nw

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paniccord-ff · 7 years ago

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25. Part 4

I am going out of my mind right now, who the fuck was at my home. Staring at the picture speechless “Chris!?” Rylee shouted my name, looking up from the picture. Looking around us again “let’s go” folding the paper up, I don’t want to say anything to her now “but what are you staring at? What is it?” unlocking my car door “just get in the car” stuffing the paper in my pocket, pulling my car door up. I am so angry, someone actually watched Rylee and I have sex, how did this happen and who was it. I always have the place on lock down, I know I do. Getting inside my car “what is wrong?” Rylee questioned sitting in the car, pulling my car door down “we will talk when we get back, just let’s get back home” a nigga don’t feel safe anymore, someone was at my window. What do they want, I have my daughter in that home and my fiancé. I don’t care at all but I don’t want my girl’ body being exposed, I will kill someone “you look so angry Chris, what is it? Is it Daniel? Let’s just move on from it please” starting my car engine “just hold tight babe” I don’t even know what to do, I don’t want nobody to see her like that.

I feel so paranoid right now, what if someone is in my home “what are you doing?” Rylee questioned as I walked so slowly, I am just looking for clues in case someone is here. Unlocking my home door “we did put the alarm on didn’t we? You know when we left?” I asked Rylee before pushing the door open “yes we did” pushing the door open even more, another folded white paper flew across the floor in the lobby. Someone slid that under the door, I am not sure if to go inside now “Chris, come on!” Rylee pushed me inside a little “shut up for one second” slowly walking inside, reaching down picking the paper up. Opening the folded paper, another picture of us but this time Rylee is on her knees. This looks good actually, needs to be framed “what is that?” folding the paper back over, I need to just make sure that this home is safe. The home alarm starting sounding and I jumped “fuck!” I shouted, I didn’t shut it off and I took too long. Jogging over the pad and tapping in the code, it shut off instantly luckily.

My phone is not blowing up with messages so it hasn’t leaked, nothing has leaked to the public and I checked the whole house “are you going to speak to me now? And please get the dog’s out of this place, I don’t like it” she really hates my babies “they can do what they like, stop it. Sit down” Rylee pulled a face “have you seen the dog’s balls? They are bigger than yours” side eyeing Rylee “you won’t be laughing soon Rylee, trust me” sitting down on the couch “I really just want to spend time with you Chris, I am sick of drama. I have missed you so much, this is a new chapter for us. I don’t know why but I feel so happy, crying it out and then speaking to Maria. I just see a better future and then you’re home” Rylee sat next to me, I feel so bad but I don’t know how this happened. I need to look through the cameras, shuffling off the couch a little turning to Rylee “I don’t know how this has happened and I am panicking right now, not for me but for you. I personally don’t care but I know you’re going to be devastated” how do I say this to her.

Pulling both of the papers out “someone has posted this” holding the folded papers out to her, Rylee stared at the papers and then at my face “look at them” Rylee reluctantly took the papers from me “is it scary?” Rylee questioned “I mean it’s a pretty sight for me, I love it. The recent one I want framed but that is besides the point, just look” Rylee placed one of the paper’s on her lap “stop staring at me like that, I am actually nervous” I can’t even help it, I just want to know her reaction. She opened the paper, staring at the first picture of me eating her out on the kitchen counter “oh my god!! What!?” Rylee looked up at me “no, this is wrong. Oh my god, no” her eyes started to tear up “this can’t be right, Chris. Someone took this!?” she spat, nodding my head “somebody saw me naked!?” Rylee placed her hand over her mouth, looking down at the picture “no!” I didn’t want Rylee to cry but she is “who did this Chris? I am so scared, now you know why I was scared. Someone saw us!? Someone watched us have sex, oh my god! Why are you not freaking out” taking the papers from Rylee.

Rubbing my face, I am not even sure what to do “I don’t know, if I go to my lawyer? If I go to the police they will see this and I don’t want that either, we will go to a hotel for a while” Rylee sobbed out “oh my god! People will see this. My body, my ugly body. I don’t like it” I don’t want her to degrade herself “the hell you mean!? Your body is straight fire, I love you. I don’t care what you saying right now, you are so perfect” Rylee placed her hands over her face “oh my god, Chris. My family will see this” rubbing her back, I don’t even know what to do. I think I will call Mark but I will not show any picture “please stop crying” she is making me so sad “I don’t get why someone would want to do that to me, I am just me. I don’t do anything to people” Rylee looked up at me “baby, stop this” wiping her cheek with the back of my hand “this is so degrading Chris, someone watched us. Someone saw me naked, I am not a hoe” shaking my head “you’re not Rylee, I will see what I can do. I will do anything for this not to leak out for you. Just do me a favour, pack a few things. I need to call Mark, I need to sort this out” Rylee nodded her head.

I don’t really care about myself but I care so much about my girls, they are in danger and I don’t like this at all “come on, pick up” I said at the phone, I just want to speak to Mark and I refuse to show the pictures to anyone right now. Waiting for the security cameras data to download, I need to see every camera “Chris, I want to go” Rylee said behind me, she won’t stop crying now “Chris, my boy” Mark finally picked up, opening my arm to Rylee “Mark, homie. I need you to help me so much, what is happening with the restraining order?” Rylee held on to my body, placing my arm around Rylee “I am still waiting for the judge to give it, Jordan is saying he is not but clearly he is. I am on it Chris” I feel like Mark is being lazy “Right, I got another issue. Someone has been at my home Mark, I was having sex with Rylee and someone has taken pictures of us! I don’t know who it is and I don’t know what to do” I am so stuck, Mark fell silent “someone blackmailing you or what? What is happening?” Mark spat, sighing out.

“So on my car window screen I see a piece of paper and then I open it and I see a picture of us having a sex, they left no note and then I come home to another one. It was slipped under my door, Mark I don’t know what to do. I am looking through the security footage now but I feel like my family are in danger, the fuck?” I am stressing so much right now “you need to look through it, we will both look through them. Are you home now?” Mark asked “yes but I ain’t showing you the pictures, my girl is heartbroken. You need to sort this out, he should be locked away. Sort this out before I kill him, I will do it Mark” he playing with the love of my life “we need to get the police involved” I snorted laughing “they do nothing!! Rylee told them and they don’t listen, fuck them Mark. I am taking my girl to a hotel and I will be back home, we will look through it together” disconnecting the call, Mark be annoying my life sometimes “come, let’s get Royalty. You know if this comes out then Nia will use this against me and I don’t need that” pressing a kiss to Rylee’ head, I love this girl too much.

Rylee won’t stay in the car, so I bought her inside Mijo’ home “are you uncle Chris’ wife?” Mylen asked Rylee “erm, yes I am. You look just like your father” Rylee said to Mylen “I look better” Mylen is so cheeky at times “where my daughter at, go and get her” I just feel so uptight, I don’t like to know someone is out there aiming for us, they out to upset us. I am trying to think who would do this, I am trying to think back to that night. I know for a fact my dogs didn’t bark, it was quiet and everything was locked and the security cameras were on “nigga” Mijo hit my arm, looking up from the floor “you daydreaming, you good? Roro was just about to fall asleep” Royalty grinned at me “my little monkey, you can sleep after” taking Royalty from Mijo “was she good?” I questioned Mijo “fine” I would say it to Mijo but I can’t trust anyone, I just want to put my family in a hotel and then I can rest a little easier.

I need to go back home, I need to go through those cameras “Royalty, why you not sleep?” she is being a brat, she ignored me and continued to watch the cartons on Rylee’ phone “shall daddy lay down too? Shall I go sleep too?” placing my phone on the side “daddy sleep too” moving the phone away from Royalty’ face , holding it out to Rylee to take “no, baby. You go sleep now” Royalty whined out, she is not happy at all. Laying down at the side of Royalty “come, let’s go sleep” Royalty shuffled over to me and laid her head on my stomach “you want to sleep here?” I questioned, she nodded her head smiling at me “my beautiful baby, you sleep here. Close eyes then” stroking her cheek “my family will hate me Chris, this can’t happen to me. I am sorry, I bought this trouble to you and your daughter” Rylee said laying on the other side of the bed “stop it, we will get this fixed. I just need you to be strong for me, you have been the biggest blessing so stop” Royalty is in a playful mood, she ain’t about to fall asleep at all.

I have been laying here for a while and Royalty is jumping on the bed “I can’t wait for us to have a baby of our own, a child with your eyes” I said, Rylee flashed her eyes at me before looking down at her hands “I want the baby to have your ears, just like Royalty” Rylee smiled “I love you Rylee, no matter what I will always protect the both of you. I just need to go back to the crib and see the cameras, I am not sure who would do this but from what I remember that night the dogs didn’t bark, they would have if they saw some intruder. I am just so confused, it has to be someone that doesn’t know about the cameras or doesn’t care to be caught. I was thinking though, what a way to die if that person was to kill us, my head between your legs” that thought came to mind, Rylee giggled “stop it, oh god” laughing to myself “look babe, if this get released then do not be ashamed. Your body is so beautiful, you are so lucky. I promise you, you have the prettiest pussy and the perkiest boobs ever. You sucked dick like a queen, people will be jealous. I just right now want you to be safe” holding my hand out to Rylee “I love you too much Chris, I feel like people really hate us” nodding my head “they want to be us” I grinned saying.

I think I know Rylee’ little game, she is trying to make me stay back for longer. She don’t want me to go but won’t say it “you know what Rylee, I didn’t think you had issues about your body, like when you just be fucking me and sucking my dick like a pro, I just didn’t think? I mean at first you were shy I guess but you are so beautiful and it amazes me that you are like this” Rylee wrapped her robe around her body “I have never been loved, guys say I am pretty but I never felt it and I was scared because after everything. My ex actually said he hated my body but Bailey said, when we used to talk. He just didn’t want other men to love you, I just hate myself because I ruin things and I have only opened up to you. When we have sex Chris you make me feel sexy, you stare at me and make me feel so sexy. The look you give me just turns me on so much, thank you for making me feel sexy” waving Rylee off “stop it, I love you for you. Just be strong for me, I will fix this ok?” hugging Rylee close to me.

#Chrianna #Chrianna FF #Fanfiction

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The crash/chapter two

Chapter one

Chapter two: I’ll stomp your ass

Info: Glenn, Rick, Daryl and Dakota go on a trip to save Merle.

Warnings: swearing, blood

“Nothin I haven’t seen before. Gotta get that crystal before ya kill yourself”

I nodded knowing that was the truth. As Glenn and Rick got in the truck, Shane closed the back on us. Leaving a long hot car ride into Atlanta together with a redneck, cop, an Asian and meth head.

“He better be okay” Daryl threatened Rick “It’s my only word on the matter”

“T-dog said he padlocked it and only we can get through that” Rick spoke.

Daryl wiped his mouth and shot a death glare at Rick. The breaks squealed and engine stopped rumbling.

“We can walk from here” Glenn spoke.

Daryl hopped up and opened the back of the truck. He jumped out and I followed suit, shutting the door behind me. We ran across the train tracks into the city where Merle was left.

We climbed through a hole in a chain link fence into an underpass of a bridge ahead.

“Merle or guns first?” Rick asked as Daryl was climbing through the fence.

“Merle” We both said simultaneously.

“We ain’t even having this conversation” Daryl continued to speak as he walked past Rick.

“We are” Rick said and turned to Glenn “You know the geography, it’s your call, Glenn”

“Merle’s closest, guns would be us doubling back. Merle first” Glenn explained as we jogged further into the city.

We walked through the lower level of the department store. Keeping quiet and staying low. The store had barely been touched aside from the shattered windows. Rick signaled to Daryl about a walker lingering. He quickly moved, but was still quiet, up behind the lone walker.

“Damn, you are on ugly skank” He mumbled as he raised his crossbow, firing an arrow right through its’ skull.

He retrieved the arrow, wiping the blood on his pants.

“It’s the end of the world and still disrespecting women” I said as I walked past him “She wasn’t even alive for Gods sake”

“Don’t matter what I call em’, they’re dead” Daryl scoffed.

We ran up a stairwell after clearing an alley. I ran ahead with wire cutters and Daryl was a close second. I broke though the chain and Daryl kicked the door open.

“Merle! Merle!” He yelled as he ran out onto the roof.

I followed behind just to see nothing. Daryl packed back and forth as he shouted in disbelief. A bloody saw, amputated hand and pair of bloody handcuffs was all that was left. Fresh crimson pooled and stained the ground below. I stared in shock while I shook my head.

“No! No!” Daryl yelled in the background.

It felt like my world was coming down. Daryl lost his brother but I felt even deeper sorrow, I lost my drugs, they were my family and friends.

“Fuck!” I shouted and kicked the pipe on the roof and the handcuffs rattled against it.

I turned to Rick with anger. I could feel my face turning red.

“You locked him up here, alone! With no weapons!?” I yelled as I came at him “Now he’s gone, fuck you, fuck you! He’s gone” I screamed at the top of my lungs.

I felt myself being pulled back but I thrashed against that force. I soon realized Daryl was pulling me away.

“Fuck you, officer Grimes!”

“Calm down!” Daryl yelled “W-we’ll find him. I swear to ya”

I calmed down and he let me go. I turned to him and looked him in the eyes.

“You don’t find him and I swear to fucking God I’ll murder you when that crash kicks in. You find him or you find his stash” I spoke dead serious.

“You got a cloth or anything?” Daryl asked Glenn, ignoring my threat.

Glenn handed him a blue bandanna. He walked to the hand and crouched down.

“Saw blade too dull for the handcuffs” He picked up the hand by a finger “Ain’t that a bitch” He grimaced.

He stood and placed the hand in Glenns bag while he looked uncomfortable. Daryl returned and picked up his crossbow.

“Must’ve used his belt to tie off his arm, would’ve been more blood if not” He commented while following a trail of blood.

I followed as well as Rick, Glenn stayed behind to pick up the tool box. We moved into a stairwell on the opposite side of the roof. Daryl led us, crossbow raised calling out his brothers’ name. Rick had his Colt Python in hand and I carried whatever gun I had picked up a while back.

“Merle! Ya in here?” Daryl yelled and no response followed.

Out of the stairwell we landed in an office of some sort. One lingering walker, no lower jaw, turned to us slowly. Daryl shot her down in one strike, only walking to her to get his bow. Rick cleared through another entrance as Glenn caught up with us. We all met back up shortly in another part of the office. Two dead walkers laid on the ground.

“Had enough in him to take out these two” Daryl commented walking over the bodies “One handed” He changed positions to load his bow “Toughest asshole I met, my brother. Feed him a hammer, he’d crap out nails”

“Any man can pass out from blood loss no matter how tough” Rick said as he walked past Daryl and then taking lead of the group.

More blood led into a kitchen.

“Merle!” Daryl yelled.

“We aren’t alone, asshole” I spoke.

“Screw that” Daryl brushed it off.

In the kitchen, stove burners were left on with the flames out. Blue flame turned into a yellow at the top. Blood on the stove, dripping onto the oven and on the counters. Smelled like burning flesh, reasons I knew brought back the past but that was over now. Rick picked up an iron with flesh remains and blood on it.

“What’s that burned stuff?” Glenn asked naively.

“Skin” I responded.

“He cauterized the stump” Rick noted.

“Told ya he was tough” Daryl remarked, sadness in his eyes finally breaking the tough front he had going “Nobody can kill Merle but Merle”

“He’s lost a lot of blood, don’t count on that”

“Yeah? Strong enough to bust out of this death trap” Daryl spoke walking away leading us to a broken window.

“He left?” Glenn asked in disbelief “Why the hell would he do that?”

“Why wouldn’t he. He’s alone as far as he knows, doing what he’s gotta do, surviving”

“Call that surviving? What are his odds out there?”

“No worse than being handcuffed and left to rot” I mumbled.

“You couldn’t kill him” Daryl spoke now inches away from Rick “Ain’t so worried about some dumb dead bastard”

“What about a thousand dumb dead bastards? Different story?” Rick responded.

“Why don’t ya take a tally? Do what ya want, I’m gonna go get him”

Daryl continued past Rick and towards the window but Rick stopped him with his hand to Daryls’ chest.

“Get ya hands off me! You can’t stop me” Daryl shouted getting in Ricks’ face again.

“I don’t blame you, he’s family. I went through hell to find mine. I know exactly how you feel”

“You know a brothers need to find his other half? A druggies tweak for another batch? You know that feelin?” Daryl spat.

I shifted from one foot to another trying to keep my cool at Daryls’ reference to my drug habit. Didn’t help as Glenn looked back at me, either because he knew or he saw me move.

“Just, listen, he can’t get far with that injury. We can help check a few blocks but only if you keep a level head” Rick turned to me “You too”

“I could do that” Daryl spoke after a brief pause and then turned to me.

I looked at Rick, I didn’t want to give in but Daryl did. I looked back at Daryl. I nodded in the end.

“Guns first though, as a precaution” Glenn spoke.

We settled into another room and cleared to floor. Glenn opened the cap of a dry erase marker ready to draw a map. Rick and Daryl were off to the side, Glenn and I waiting for their attention to start.

When they joined us he started.

“If I’m alone, I can move fast. In a group, we’re slow and drawing attention” He spoke.

He placed a binder clip on a road.

“That’s the tank, five block from here”

He then placed a balled up piece of paper near it.

“That’s the bag of guns. There’s the alley I dragged you in when we first met, that’s where Daryl and I will go”

“So I’m with Rick?” I scoffed and rolled my eyes.

“Listen, Daryls’ crossbow is quieter than a gun” He clarified why.

He then placed a soda tab in that alley.

“This is Daryl, he’ll wait in the alley while I go and grab the bag”

“Dakota and I are where?” Rick asked.

“Yeah, you’ll be here” He dropped down a pink eraser.

“Two blocks away, why?” I asked.

“I may not be able to go back the same way, walkers can cut me off and I can’t get to Daryl. So I’d go forward instead to the alley to meet you guys. Whichever direction I go, I got you three to cover me. Then we all meet back here”

“Hey, kid, what’d you do before all this?” Daryl asked.

“Delivered pizzas, why?”

“You’re smart” I commented.

Daryl took the little time we took as a break to sit next to me. Rick and Glenn sat near a window, looking into the city further going over the plan.

“You got china man and I got sheriff. This isn’t fair” I scoffed.

“Don’t matter, we want Merle back, right?”

“Yeah” I nodded with a half smile.

“It’ll be over before you know it. Just, do what he says”

“Merle has that blue sky” I whispered as to keep myself focused.

As Rick and I waited in our alley, there was a commotion. Rick wanted to wait it out but I went and looked instead. it was where Glenn and Daryl were posted up. Gun shots and yelling.

“Shit” I mumbled.

Rick and I ran through back alleys, past walkers in the main street. I prayed that Daryl was okay. When we arrived, Daryl had a scrawny teen pressed against a wall and Rick has to push Daryl off the boy.

“I’m gonna kick your nuts up in ya throat!” Daryl yelled.

“Daryl!” I shouted in an attempt to bring him back down.

“What happened here!” Rick shouted tersely.

“They took Glenn. That little bastard and his bastard homie friends. I’m gonna stomp your ass!” Daryl explained.

“I got the boy, you get the guns, please” Rick told me with a hand on my shoulder.

“Yeah” I nodded.

I went back and grabbed the bag. I turned around and Daryl was waiting to make sure I was good. I hadn’t eaten, drank or really slept more than 5 hours in a few weeks. I was running out of energy and he knew it. From times I had crashed at the Dixons’ house and also with his brothers own addiction.

I nodded to let him know I was fine and we kept going to the office. When we got there Daryl pulled me aside.

“You, sleep, Rick and I will talk to this kid and get you when there’s a plan. Gonna need some energy for this” Daryl took the bag of guns from me.

“Thanks” I smiled.

He nodded as I left to find an empty sofa. Made myself comfortable and slept.

#the crash twdixon #twd #daryl dixon fanfic #daryl x reader #twdixion imagine

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loseitall-ff · 8 years ago

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10.

I honestly want to get the hell out of New York but my manager keeps giving me these jobs to do, he has a point and said to get the promo pre-recorded which I am doing. I am like a mad man just getting it all out of the way, I just feel like I need to get back. I have this last interview with Angie and a club performance that was added, they paying good money so I will be doing that and hopefully get my ass out of New York after. I have been here for three days now “I know you want to run but trust me, getting this all done now will make your life easier” my manager said “I understand, I just have things on” side eyeing him “what could possibly be making you busy, you came to me about the album now you’re doubting it” I am not about to argue with this guy again, we already had an argument about it because I wanted to go back on the day. I feel so irritated by stupid things, it is just me trying to control my emotions though. I am a man that has sex all the time and now I am not having any so I am dying inside “be good to have your daughter with you for the promo tour, it’s a good tool kids” my eyebrows knitted together “my daughter is not promo, get that shit straight” I am so glad we are here finally, let’s get this shit done with.

Biting my bottom lip, I am waiting on Angie to ask me something stupid just because she always does. They always try and get the exclusive gossip from me and then they leak the shit early for views, I have been through this before “so the album Chris, tell me where your mind-set was at. I have heard this and there is a lot of” she paused thinking “home truths I would say” nodding my head “yeah yeah, I mean I was in that mind-set of being hurt” I froze realising what I said “who hurt you?” she spat smiling, I chuckled “uhm life hurt me, at that moment in time I locked myself away in VA and did this. I got some songs that I know a hell of a lot of people will understand and feel me on it” Angie nodded “I agree with you, there is some real good songs on here but Chris, there has been some rumours around. Now I know your album is coming out, but you and riri? What is happening? Now I am only saying this because there has been pictures around, there has been hero stories. You guys have bodyguards but it seems like you both are holding hands, are you together?” shaking my head smiling “I wish to not speak on it, Rihanna is my baby mother and I will protect her at all means. I wish to not speak on my personal life because it’s not anybody’s business, I think if me and shawty were to get back together that ain’t got nothing to do with the world” I don’t want people to know anything about us anymore “Mychal Kendricks, he said that she left him for you” clenching my jaw “Angie, if you want me to stay in this interview then you to quit with that shit, all I am going to say is that he a bitch nigga and you can keep this on there” rubbing my hands against my jeans, I am so angry.

Angie knows I am about to lose my shit “you know what Chris I understand you, you want to keep it to yourself then I applaud you” smiling at her lightly “on to a lighter subject, Liana Brown?” she let out a laugh “my god, she is beautiful. Those picture of her in London!” Now this is a subject I can speak about for hours “yeah yeah, that my girl” I said “fatherhood has really bought the good out of you, do you feel it? What is she like with you? You and Rihanna don’t live together so she sees you when she can right?” nodding my head “erm yeah, it’s been a big learning process for me, I kind of stopped making music and stopped going away. When I find out I was having a daughter I was like oh shit, a daughter. From then on I said to myself, I want to make sure I am Liana’ first love and I do feel I am doing that just right” smiling to myself “do you ever feel scared of fatherhood at all?” she questioned “I think I was, actually I am now. I worry about my daughter all the time, I think what scares me is people. I don’t want to suffocate her but I also want to keep her safe, it’s hard” rubbing my forehead, I miss Liana so much now “she is a bundle of headache and joys, I say headache because I already can see what she is going to be like but I love it, she is a Rihanna. She has my big ole ears, she is me but her personality is Rihanna. A diva” I groaned out, Angie laughed “you love it, don’t roll your eyes” she pointed “you ain’t been to a Liana tea party god dammit” I said while laughing “tea party? Did she dress you up?” shaking my head “nah, we had a tea party because I called her doll ugly and it was like make daddy suffer party she had. She had me apologising to her baby” shaking my head laughing.

“Make daddy suffer party” Angie repeated laughing “I would have love to see this, I really would” rubbing my face “she is my heart, I learn new things all the time. She loves chicken, we have chicken dates. She loves Beyonce, she loves girl songs. If I put my songs on and she don’t hear me sing she be shaking her head like no dad, girl song. She can accept boy songs but it has to have my voice in it, she is a child model now. I mean I don’t know because I am in between with that. Just because I want her to have her own, if my daughter wants to be a doctor then so be it or work with kids. She don’t need to be a singer or an actor, I feel her being in the limelight she don’t need. Shawty and I are trying to keep that away from her, she deserves a normal childhood where she can be a child and not have Chris and Rihanna screamed at her all the time” I honestly wish Liana didn’t have that headache because of us.

All interviews are done, thank god. I just want to get on that jet but I need to go to the club first which will be easy for me, sing a few songs and then stand there and dance. Opening the car door as I stepped out, I have honestly been feeling so bad being here. I have been calling Robyn but she is a straight up liar, she lies about shit that I wish she didn’t do like the fact she been keeping herself in her room. Mel been telling me the truth, Robyn been telling how she is ok and stop calling, I am not her problem, she is a burden. I don’t like her saying that, just scares me that shit. She is clearly depressed but Mel said she rather Robyn keep her ass in the room because she just keeps on crying and then she did odd shit like keeps on checking if the doors are locked, she is paranoid. She needs to fight this, she can’t let him win. She needs to tell, she needs to get him locked up because I am ready to kill him already. I know that motherfucker is in New York and I will flip a table, I will beat his ass and I don’t care for it.

I feel hormonal, is that even a word for men, but I feel it. I just want to release myself inside someone, I need release myself. Seeing Lo and Hood getting out of the second SUV with females, I have kept myself away from all that “cool” I said to Mijo, he placed his arm on my shoulder “over here” the security team for Marquee waved me over, this club is packed outside, are they not letting anyone in or what “move out, move out. Come on” Big D said trying to move people out of the way, my phone ringing in my hand. Looking down at my phone seeing Robyn’ name, I will be picking this up “babe” I said down the phone, it is so loud out here “sorry, I just wanted to speak to you” she would call at this moment in time “love you boo!!” this female screamed, frowning as I tried to listen Robyn’ voice “you good yeah?” I spat “I keep having nightmares” I just managed to hear “the fuck is taking so long” someone shouted behind us, looking behind me with my phone pressed against my ear “one minute” I said, seeing this big white guy “I think you need to back the fuck up homie” Lo stepped in front of him “come on Chris” Lo said acting all cool “right whatever” shaking my head “Chris I love you” Robyn said “I am so sorry I didn’t listen. Please come back to LA, I need you” swallowing hard hearing those words from her, it’s been so long since I heard those words “please stop crying” I said, this is not the time and place for this “you know I do too” finally we are moving inside “babe, listen to me. I will call you back, I just need to do this ok?” the music blaring as I got inside “please” she said before disconnecting the call.

Dancing on my own in the club with a blunt in my hand, I am not really on my own but I am trying to keep away from the hoes surrounding me, just the fact the very usual girls I fuck with are here. You have to be so careful because one slight move or look at these girls and then the blogs will say I am fucking them, I do not want that, not when Robyn is in this mind-set. She will take it literally, she already feels she has nobody and I hate that she is feeling that. Smiling to myself, look at me thinking about Robyn when I am in the club supposed to be enjoying myself but I can’t. I personally feel like I did nothing to help Robyn at all, I feel like I allowed it to happen and ran off to VA. Rubbing my chin feeling the chick in front of me just gyrating on me, my eyes widened looking like what the fuck. Lo laughed nudging me “nah, nah” holding my hands up moving back “I’m good” moving back, I am not here for that and I am struggling as it is so that cannot happen “come on” the female mouthed waving me back over “have him” pushing Mijo, he can have this.

Passing the bottle of Ace back to Mijo, I am done with drinking for the night. I have so many urges around me, stepping back as the three female dancers came to our VIP section thanks to Lo and Hood “come on nigga!!” Hood held out a shot to me, shaking my head “nigga!! We all having it” seeing the photographer taking pictures, the female dancer held the lemon for me to have and salt on the side of her hand “I hate y’all, seriously. Last drink aight” I said, Mijo laughed at me. Taking the shot from him “I want my own salt” I shouted, holding the side of my hand out. Lo rolled his eyes pouring the salt “y’all ready, 3,2,1” licking the salt and then downing the shot, scrunching my face up and the next thing I knew the female placed the lemon in my mouth, sucking on the lemon as we just stared at each other, she winked at me and moved the lemon back, she blow me a kiss walking off. I forgot all about having that shot now, shaking my head, they are just hoes.

Licking my lips looking ahead of me, seeing both of my bodyguards talking to each other. Seeing Big D pointing, looking to where he is pointing “we have Kendricks in the building” the DJ shouted, I felt the fun get sucked out of me instantly, it was like the lights shone down on both me and him at the same time. His eyes met mine and I saw red, he knows this is my night here the smug bastard. Balling my fist up, every ounce of hurt and trauma Robyn is going through right now seeped into me, a fucking rapist. Slowly walking off, a hand pressed on my chest “no!” Mijo said, I don’t care who is here. Pushing Mijo, he fell back into the crowd. Seeing Mychal run, he ran towards the front entrance. He going to catch this fade, I am going to beat his ass and I want the world to see and find out what he did.

Walking out of the entrance door, seeing Mychal waiting for his car, he has nowhere to go “fuck” I heard him say, he started trying to wave a cab over “you motherfucker! Why you running for!?” stepping off the sidewalk and onto the road “why you running!? Fight me you motherfucker, you pussy ass bitch you fucked her life up” a hand grabbed my arm “get the fuck off me, the world needs to know what he is! You sick fuck, you want to go home with him? I may be many of things but I am not you!” snatching my arm away from my bodyguard and running towards Mychal, Mychal dragged open the cab door but I kicked it back shut “you want her so bad, have her. She wants you!” he shouted, I want to scream the word rape so bad but I know Robyn will not forgive me “so you ruined her?” he put his hands up “come on fam, we good. Just let me go” he called me family, my fist met his face and that is when I felt myself hit the cab as Big D held me back “calm the fuck down” Big D all in my face, Clay pushing Mychal back “just go” Clay shouted at him.

I am just so angry, I feel so hurt because Robyn is hurting. He fucked with her and then had the nerve to say have her, punching the SUV window “holy fucking shit, Chris what the hell?” I don’t even feel the pain “he had the nerve to say that! To say have her!!! Like she is a piece of meat, oh my god. I want to kill him” I shouted, Mijo stared at me in shock “we will pay, just leave us everyone” I had to get the driver to stop the car because I wanted to be sick but it wasn’t that, I am just so angry “what is happening Chris? You look crazy” I need to calm down “from what I can hear and the parts you are telling me, he did something to Rihanna?” waving Mijo off “I want to walk, leave me be. Stay away from me, I want some air to think” I need to walk this off and be on my own, I feel so hurt for Robyn, if I feel this hurt I can only imagine on how she feels. Looking down at my phone “where you going?” Lo asked, I carried on walking opening the message from Mel.

From: Mel

To: Chris

Sorry to put this on you Chris but she is crying again, I managed to stop her mom from coming but you’re needed. Sorry.

Locking my phone letting out a sigh, this is going to be a battle with Robyn, but I owe this to her. I know that Robyn is there, I will bring that Robyn back but emotionally this is a rollercoaster, he is damaged her so much. I always do know how to make Robyn not cry, I just be speaking about the good times, she usually falls asleep while I do. I may have to stop this whole album release, my daughter and Robyn need me, I also need to find someone for Robyn to talk too, somehow sneak this person in, I am going to help her.

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21. Part 4

Staring at my phone, Rylee hasn’t picked her phone up for the second time. Is she dodging me because it’s true or something has happened to her, the fuck is she doing. I felt it, I knew something was wrong “you need to add your verse bro” Tyga said to me, shaking my head staring at my phone “I need to go, I need to handle something” walking towards Mijo, hitting his arm “get up, I am going” Mijo woke up in a daze “where?” he spat scrunching his face up “I am sorry, I need to go like now. Just put everything on hold” grabbing my backpack, my phone buzzed in my hand “hold up, I am coming” Mijo chased behind me as I ran out of the studio, my mind is going crazy right now and I don’t know what to do “Chris!? Wait up” I am using the stairs because fuck this shit, looking down at my phone seeing a message from Hood. Jogging down the steps unlocking my phone.

From: Hoodie

To: Chris

Hope you good bruh! You know I wouldn’t do you like that, shit is fucked up… bitches ain’t shit family

Locking my phone not answering the text back, I don’t understand and I am confused. Seeing Usher walking into the studio “hey family” dapping him, I couldn’t wait because I feel like I am going to go crazy any minute right now. Mijo grabbed my shoulder “where are you going?” Mijo asked stepping in front of me “what are doing now huh?” staring at Mijo, I don’t even know what I am doing. I don’t even know where I am going “what happened?” he questioned “Hood called me, he said Rylee been flirting with other niggas in the club, I don’t get it Mijo. I know I upset her earlier but I feel like there is something wrong before this happened, I am confused. She won’t pick up either” I don’t know what to do at all, my phone started ringing in my hand. Seeing Joe’ number, he can tell me more “yo” answering the call, I forgot about Joe “one minute” he said to me, who he telling one minute too “you can always stay in my room Rylee? I don’t think we should go anywhere else?” Joe said, my heart fell hearing Rylee crying “please don’t cry Rylee, you want me to go? I will wait out there for you?” dropping my backpack to the ground, rubbing the top of my head “Mijo, get the jet. I need a flight now, do it!” I spat, why is she crying “sorry” Joe said, god my heart is hurting me so much “what the fuck happened Joe!? Speak the fuck up now, I am about to kill someone right now, who made her cry?” walking off slowly “leave your backpack here I would” Mijo said behind me “I am not sure Chris, her ex was in the club. I think she is upset about that. She won’t speak to me really but she wants to get out of this hotel room, what can I do?” swallowing hard “did Rylee not cry? Like Run out of the club crying!?” I spat “nah, she came out from VIP and grabbed my arm saying she wanted to go” this story doesn’t add up, I am confused “don’t lie to me Joe? She just said that?” verifying the story “no lie homie, she said she wanted to go home, I honestly don’t think she saw her ex. She only broke down crying after I said it to her, look boss I am way over my head with this. What shall I do?” hearing Rylee cry is making my blood boil “keep her there, text me the room. I am coming. Please hold it down for me, I am coming” disconnecting the call jogging towards my car.

I am not answering anyone calls right now, Hood and Lo keep calling me but I don’t need to hear anything right now. I need to speak to Rylee and that is it, something just doesn’t add up. Joe said she came out from VIP wanting to go, Hood saying she was flirting “you thinking really hard on this ain’t you?” Mijo said, looking up at him. He came with me on the jet “it’s eating me up inside, you know when you don’t know what’s happened. I felt it Mijo, like before she was going to the club” I should have known not to trust anyone with my girl, I never wanted her to go in the first place “you’re really in love bro, wow. She got you hopping on Jets in the middle of the night, I just think you need to think straight” hitting the table in front of me “think straight? Whoever upset her is getting something from me” Mijo sighed out “what makes you think anyone did anything?” Mijo came with me as support so he better shut his mouth “the way Hood called me and told me a lie, you know when you feel something isn’t right?” nobody going to stop me, I can’t even rest because I am sick with worry.

Looking down at my phone for the hotel room number, tapping the top floor on the elevator keys “come on! Fuck” slapping the elevator keys, I need to see her. Pacing my way into the corner “breathe nigga” Mijo said “I am trying, just like she is hurting so am I” someone is going to get hit today and I don’t know who, I am just going to take her home today either way. Looking up at the numbers, why did they have to be at the top “you are so in love bro, it’s crazy to see you like this. This is something you have yearned for, I know it’s not the right time to talk about it. It’s like you have found something worth living for, you always sung about love but you are actually feeling it” I want to cry and I don’t know why “love hurts, I don’t know what to do” it feels like I haven’t seen Rylee in months but it’s only been a day, I just want to take her in my arms.

Mijo knocked on the room door, I kept punching it so there’s that “we were coming” the door flew open “hey guys” Mijo said, Munchie gasped seeing me “where is my girl” pushing Mijo out of the way “she-” Munchie didn’t get to finish off her sentence as I barged passed her “that is rude as fuck Chris!” she shouted, walking into the living area “yoo, my nigga. You came?” Hood said getting up from the couch, why is everyone sat here like this. Looking at everyone “I have no idea why she is crying” EJ said “you do EJ!” Hood spat “the hell I don’t” I can’t stand to hear them “down the hall, the second door on the left” I will deal with these last, I just need to see Rylee for myself. Power walking down the hall, this must be the door. I don’t want to seem like a mad man towards her so let me knock nicely, knocking on the door “Hood will you just go away!” Joe spat, pulling a face at the door “it’s me Chris” I said confused, hearing shuffling.

Joe opened the door “you actually came, she is in the bathroom” looking in the room, seeing the floor “where is there clothes on the floor?” I asked, Joe stepped out “she went crazy on me because I said we not moving, she wanted to go” letting out an oh “stand out here for me, don’t let anyone come here” stepping into the room, closing the door behind me also locking it. I wonder if it is safe, seems like Rylee is on crazy crying mode. Slowly walking to the bathroom door, I was about to open the door but it flung open. Rylee gasped in shock slapping me “woah!” I moved back “it’s me” grabbing her arms as she tried to hit me again “Rylee it’s me!!” I shouted at her, her body softened and her arms slowly weakened. She stared at me in shock, pulling Rylee slowly towards me. Wrapping my arms around her torso, hugging her tight. Rylee let out the most heart-breaking cry from her lips, closing my eyes as Rylee sobbed out.

Looking down at Rylee, I haven’t said a word to her but she cried out in my arms. Broken gasps escaped her lips, moving back from Rylee. She is quivering, placing my arm around Rylee walking into the bathroom. Seeing some painkillers at the side of the sink, grabbing the pack “you didn’t did you?” holding it up, Rylee shook her head “I can’t top myself right anyways” placing the packet down, grabbing some tissue from the side “just calm down” placing the tissue over her nose “blow” looking at her, her beautiful eyes all sore from crying. Rylee blew in the tissue, wiping her nose “I am here now, calm down” she got to stop crying, it’s hurting me so much.

Placing my hands on Rylee’ legs as I got down onto my knees across her, pulling the chair closer to me “I am sorry I hit you, it’s just I thought you know” she shrugged “you thought what?” I said, she shook her head in silence “why did you come?” she mumbled “why?” I said “because I would travel to the ends of the earth for you, you were hurting and I was too” looking down at her hands “where is your ring?” I questioned “at the side of the table” she pointed, frowning at her “why is that? Is it because I upset you?” Rylee shook her head, her lower lip quivering “because Munchie said I ain’t that special and that Chris has done this before, I am just like every other girl” she let out a sob, tilting my head “I would do this for any girl? You think I would care if you are crying? You think I would wipe anyone’s nose? Why did she say that to you?” Rylee’ eyes are so sore, she needs to stop crying “because I was upset about us disagreeing and she said he does it with all the girls, I felt like just a regular bitch and I took it off” that bitch Munchie “you got to learn to not listen to people, I don’t anymore because they are evil baby. They want to see you down, I don’t know why she is saying that to you” Rylee sniffled “Hood said some things” I said wanting to know what has happened, Rylee shuddered.

Clearing my throat “I know my girl, and from what Joe said something didn’t add up. I will tell you what he said” looking at Rylee’ face intently “he said that you were flirting with other men and he caught you and you would ring me crying, which you didn’t but that is what he said” Rylee stared at me in shock “me flirting!?” She spat “he touched me Chris, he made a pass at me. He touched my leg and then my butt and he said that!?” she shouted as tears fell “he wanted to rape me!!” those words hit me hard, I froze staring at Rylee thinking back to the words Hood said to me, when he said he wanted Rylee “stay here, just don’t leave this room” getting up from my position, I am going to kill him but I need to be clever with it because he is a big guy. Clenching my fists together, I might kill today at the thought of her going through that after everything she has been through.

The room suddenly fell silent when I entered, rubbing my chin trying to keep my composure. Looking down at the ground playing with my nose ring “is she ok?” some guy asked, cleaning my throat looking up at him “yeah she good, just trying to find out what happened you know. She won’t say anything” I lied, looking at Hood “what happened then… Homie” walking around the couch slowly “whatever she saying is a lie, she straight up lying. She was flirting with another man, like in front of me and I was shocked” looking at Lo “why was you calling me? Didn’t you see your sister flirting with another man?” I questioned, he put his head down “I don’t remember anything” they don’t remember anything, look at the two fucking idiots “why are you acting like they have done something?” Munchie said, glaring at her “how about you shut your mouth?” kissing my teeth “so you telling me my girl is cheating on me yeah?” Hood nodded his head “the bitch is a hoe” it is killing me inside to not do anything “a hoe you wanted to share, I remember correctly. You really wanted to fuck her” clenching my jaw in anger “once you are done with her, oh come on Chris. It’s just some chick” my hand turned into a fist on its own “Rylee, I thought you was staying here?” hearing Joe say, everyone looked down the hall.

I really wanted Rylee to stay in the room “see, I told you. She would be crying because she is going to be on the streets again” Hood laughed “you was flirting with a man and now you crying?” I see red, slowly walking towards the table not saying a word “that is a lie, you touched me!” Rylee spat pointing “Antone saw” Rylee said, who the hell is Antone “you saw it?” EJ looked at the guy that asked about Rylee earlier, everyone turned to look at him “spill it out, did you!?” Hood got up from the couch and so did Lo, Lo is more closer to me but I got a feeling that Lo is about to switch on me “well I just saw him touch Rylee’ leg and she freaked out, she slapped him. She got up and he pressed himself against her and touched her butt, I panicked for her!” EJ gasped “you never said!” EJ shouted, grabbing the table lamp and yanking it off from the wall before throwing it over Lo’ head. The lamp hit the side of his head which disorientated him, Hood looked at Lo in shock before I charged at him. My fist met his face as he fell back onto the couch and I also fell.

Hood threw a punch to my cheek, wrapping my hands around his neck. Hood pushed at my face “you trying to rape my girl! After everything she been through! After you knew I am with her! I fucking told you!” Hood punched my face again, feeling someone’s arms wrap around me yanking me off Hood. My hands lost their grip from around his neck as I got pulled back, Hood choked getting up from the couch “oh my god, Chris please stop!” EJ said, pushing Joe out of the way. I am not finished, Hood was about to get up still coughing holding his neck. Kicking his face so he fell back “no, please not my brother” Munchie threw herself over her brother, I can’t fucking hit him now “move! Now! You bitch, you fucking made my girl also feel like shit didn’t you? Talking mad shit, I do this to every girl? Oh wait, you the same bitch that wanted to suck my dick but I told you no. We are friends, you the same bitch that wanted me! Don’t ever downgrade my girl again, any of you motherfuckers. Don’t forget Hood and Lo, I know niggas. They will get both y’all asses” turning around, seeing Lo bleeding but I don’t care.

I am out this bitch, grabbing Rylee’ hand. Walking back down the lobby to get the ring, walking into the bedroom “get the ring” letting her hand go, my face feels so sore “what about my things?” Rylee questioned “do you want the things? I can buy you more” Rylee nodded with tears in her eyes, licking my lips sighing out. Placing my hands on her face “please stop crying, you making me want to cry. It’s going to be ok, we just need to leave ok?” I got choked up “I am sorry, don’t you cry” Rylee said, moving my hands from her face and hugged her close “I am crying because you’re hurting, I don’t know. Please stop beautiful, I’ll keep you safe” taking in a deep breath, stepping back “just to hear all of that. I am just angry still” wiping the tear that fell, turning around “stay back” hearing Joe say “get your bag, come. We need to go” leaning down to pick her clothes off from the floor “I just want to say sorry” hearing Lo say “say that to Blake” Rylee spoke up, did she tell Blake or something “did you tell him?” I whispered “I will be, I just right now can’t speak without crying” placing her clothes in the bag.

Stood in the elevator “Rylee, this is Mijo. Mijo this is Rylee” I mumbled, touching my face lightly “nice to meet you” Mijo said, Rylee smiled at him lightly “he ain’t no crazy nigga, don’t be scared of him” Mijo chuckled at me “happy with my ghetto baby mother” he said smiling “she ain’t kicked you out for a while though” Mijo hit my arm lightly “I been good but after dropping Mylen off she was cussing me out but oh well, I just wanted to know you was good though. I was going to stop you but I stood back and watched you, pretty fucked up. I did think you was going to kill him at one point” I shrugged shaking my head “fucking assholes” looking over at Rylee she is already looking at me “your face looks so sore” she said in a whisper “it will go down, we just need to go. We about to use my lawyer Mark and get your ex a restraining order, I got you Rylee” I need to protect my girl.

Rylee fell asleep hugging my arm, she must be mentally drained. She literally wrapped her arms around my arm, laid her head on my shoulder and fell asleep “she seems really nice” Mijo said pointing “she is, she wouldn’t harm anyone or upset anyone. She is wifey, I would kill for her” pressing a kiss to her head “you said after everything happened to her? What happened” resting my head back “her ex nigga is crazy for Rylee, he wanted to keep her to himself. Wants to kill her actually, he is now stalking Rylee. The guy is crazy, he kidnapped Rylee when they dated” Mijo blew out air all shocked “that is crazy, keep her close to you. A lot of jealous niggas out there” I am going to keep her very close to me now.

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12.

Back at the studio again, I have done nothing but features. I haven’t attempted to touch my album yet “I think I am going to call it a night homie, did you upload the song on Soundcloud though? So I can post it on my page?” It’s like six in the morning, I need to go home and sleep some. I did call Rylee when it just turned her twelve on her birthday so I don’t want to call her again, not at this time of night. She will scold me for being awake, Barbados is like three hours ahead of me but I can’t do it “it’s uploaded, you just need to post it on your page” my sound engineer said “cool, cool. Thank you, same time tomorrow. I am finna go now” I have nobody in the studio with me, I don’t bother because after all that shit, I am still annoyed with it. I also want my mind not clouded, grabbing my backpack “you want me to send the tracks?” he asked, placing my backpack over my shoulder “yeah send them, I will wait on the pay check now, send the beat to Tyga for me too” opening the door to the studio to leave, I am tired as hell.

I find it funny that niggas want to get jealous, just because I am keeping clean, they don’t like it. It’s weird, I see it for how it is, it’s like they want me to be bad. Pressing the elevator button, I haven’t checked on my phone in a while. Getting my phone out from my pocket, I am mad jealous of Rylee. She seems to be having the best time, her spirits are high after all that with her mom. I am glad she is having fun in a bikini, showing her body off, I mean I love it. That is a lie because I am seething, I hate it. She keeps baiting me with these pictures on Instagram, it is my fault. I did complain and now she won’t stop, she has text me twice. Unlocking my phone and tapping on her messages, stepping onto the elevator “wow” I said to myself, she done it again to me. Talking about do my legs look good in this, she knows my weakness. Looking ahead of me taking in a deep breath, the elevator doors slowly closed “hold up!” placing my hand between the doors so they didn’t close, I know this face “Bailey?” I said shocked “Oh, Chris” she stepped onto the elevator “what are you doing here?” the hell is she doing in this place “I was with Lo, he is in a different room” that nigga is really pissing me off “right, but he knew I was in there” I am feeling I want to go in there but I won’t “he did, you said you wanted to be alone” I remained silent, I just want to go now.

Stepping off the elevator “Chris” Bailey said behind me “what’s up?” turning around, I don’t wish to speak to a snake. I haven’t had the chance to speak to Rylee about it either, why ruin her time away “have you spoken to Rylee at all?” what a weird question “yeah, we talk every night or day. Whenever” I shrugged “oh, she hasn’t spoken to me since she left” why is she telling me this “she has a lot going on right now, maybe” I am glad Rylee doesn’t speak to her, she is a snake “are you both together then? You seem to be into her a lot?” licking my lips “you might want to speak to your friend about this, but if you was my friend I would tell you nothing” her face dropped “you have no right to say that, she is my friend. You have just come out of nowhere, you just want her for her face. Lo said you will get over it soon” I snorted laughing “right, Lo is slightly obsessed with Rylee. I am beginning to notice this a lot, how about you and him stay out of mine and Rylee’ relationship. I am about sick of people saying shit like that, you don’t know me. Leave me alone” why do people like to talk shit, leave us the hell alone.

Banging my car door shut, she done pissed me off. I feel like I am always the topic of conversation, I just want to be happy and clean. Placing my backpack down on the empty seat, watching Bailey walk off. I guess she ain’t got a ride, but if she wasn’t such a bitch I would have given her a ride home “fuck em” I said to myself staring down at my phone, tapping on Twitter after copying the link from my Soundcloud. I am missing Rylee like crazy, I can’t see my daughter because it’s not my time and my mom is in VA. Pasting the link on a tweet and writing a little something out ‘Today is a special day for you Sweetheart’ sending out the link.

Feeling the weight of someone’s arm on my forehead, lazily reaching up and pushing the arm away “stupid” I grumbled turning onto my side. And again, my phone is ringing “my god” reaching over and grabbing my phone “what?” I don’t like being woken up “Happy Birthday bitch!! Wake that ass up, I miss you so much beautiful” Bailey screamed down the phone, a smile formed on my face “awwww Bailey, I will forgive you for waking me. Thank you” let me stop being lazy, it is my birthday. Turning onto my back, seeing Kyrie asleep next to me. I do love staying at family houses, we have to share beds and I have this boy with me “how can you be sleeping in Barbados, girl I seen your tan. You are looking bomb, who been taking those pictures? Cause you can’t be taking those ass pictures” letting out a giggle “my cousin, she is like my personal photographer. My grandma caught us taking pictures and told me to hide my skin, someone might kidnap you. I am like really? But anyways, it is so nice out here, I love it. So much happiness, just to be with my family” feeling a foot kick me, looking to the side of me “kick me again, I will break your feet” Kyrie smiled at me “who you cussing out? Do not tell me you are bullying poor Kyrie again?” she knows me well “he brings it on himself, he kicked me but anyways. Sorry for not keeping in contact with you, just so much is happening” I am happy she called though, Kyrie jumped out of bed and ran off.

Some privacy, at last “how is work? Is Daniel still upset with me?” he is forever upset “it is the usual at that place but they have moved us all, they put you somewhere else too. They wouldn’t tell me, Daniel is fine. He said he will call you later, he is a little butt hurt after seeing the pictures of you leaving the club with Chris Brown. He likes you so much” he is so annoying “I’ll be sure to ignore that call” I rather he just text me “so I saw Chris today, in the studio” she said, pulling a face “how?” I asked all confused “I was in the studio with Lo, he invited me” letting out an oh “oh that is nice” I know Chris was in there “Rylee, Chris was so rude to me, he really talked down to me. I mean I know the guy has no respect for women but I am your friend, I only asked how he was” my mouth fell open, that doesn’t sound like Chris at all “really? Was he drunk or high? That is not him” I don’t accept that “it was just him being him, I asked if you was both together and he snapped at me saying Lo has a thing for you, it was weird. He also had a female in the studio, he made us all leave and it was just them” I don’t need to hear this, I don’t want to know this “what did she look like?” I wonder if it someone that I know “erm she was pretty” is the only thing she said “like model? Was it Rosa Acosta?” he seems to fuck with her a lot “uhh yeah it is, he is a dickhead Rylee. Such an ass to me” I spoke to Chris, he told he was in the studio on his own. I believe him because it was so quiet, why would he do that.

I am not even going to deal with that, I am just in shock. I am reluctant that I am here and he is there but I do trust him, I really don’t know and will need to speak to him but what the fuck, why on my birthday. I am so sad now, I am so not in the mood for anything at all “she is coming!” Kyrie shouted, why is he being so loud “morning baby” my mom said, I couldn’t help but smile “hey mom” I am a mess, I only put on a loose sweatshirt “Happy Birthday my baby” getting down the last step, hugging my mom “thank you, I am just going to get some water” moving back from the hug “no Rylee, the family are waiting” my mom pulled me into the living area, oh god. The family are awake “Happy Birthday” they all said at the same time, I don’t know why I am getting so shy “thank you” hate it being all eyes on me.

Sitting next to my dad “you’re getting old now Rylee, you need to get married” here goes my grandma “mom, please leave her alone. Leave this conversation for another day, but look what I got my baby” my dad pulled a large bag out “this is from your mom and I” I am so excited for gifts “oh you didn’t have too” I grinned dragging the bag closer to me “I hope you like it” looking into the bag “oh my god! You both got me Louboutin’s, oh my god. Thank you so much!” hugging onto my dad “anything for you princess” moving back from my dad “thank you so much mom, this is all I wanted” clapping my hands, I got a pair now. Pulling the box out from the bag “I don’t know why these girls want all this” my grandma waved her hand around “just because you can’t walk in them anymore woman” my grandad said, these two are about to cuss each other out again “these are beautiful! Yes!!” holding up the heel “now you need a man” my grandma added, I sighed out “don’t sigh at me, you need to wear that bikini and those heels and get you a man. Unless you a lesbian” my dad is getting so annoyed with his mom.

Even though I am not speaking to my brother’s they did buy me a designer handbag, I had to say thank you to them. I am just going to let it go, for my mom’s sake that is “well I am glad you like your gifts, we will be having a little party for you. More family to come, you are happy aren’t you?” my mom asked “of course mom, you bought me to Barbados, I have got some new heels. I am seeing family, I love it. I have had a party in LA, stop thinking I need more. This is perfect” holding my mom’ hand “your dad said we have to get those heels, he was determined and why don’t you tell Grandma you have a man? I can’t believe you are dating that Run it Run it boy” I busted out laughing, my mom calling Chris the Run it Run it boy.

Touching my Black Pyramid chain lightly, this really makes no sense to me. Chris wouldn’t be rude to her, he would if she did something to him. I know him, I have spent so much of my time talking to him, or maybe he is not taking his medication but he has been really good with all that. I just don’t get it, why would he do that and why is he with Rosa, this makes no sense to me. I mean it will continue to make no sense to me if I keep on ignoring his calls, he knows I am awake. I logged on to WhatsApp and then posted the picture of my heels, why would Bailey lie to me too. What if this was all true and now my parents know about Chris “god” rubbing my face with my free hand “Rylee!” my mom bursts through the door “yes!?” moving my hand away from my face “come down, cousins are here. They all want to see you” smiling at my mom “that smile can’t hide the sadness, what is wrong? And who got you that?” she pointed at the chain in the box, looking down at it “Chris got it me for my birthday, it’s his clothing line” my mom held the box “oh dear god, this is so nice of him. He is spending money on you already? This must have cost a lot” nodding my head “it did, mom. I will be down soon” closing the box, I need to speak to him.

Three missed calls, a text. Didn’t really help that I posted that picture, he knows I am ignoring him. Sliding across to call him back, I will be devastated with him if it’s true and he is still fucking with her “it’s your birthday! And you called me back!” he seems really happy “yeah, I saw the missed calls. I was just a little busy” I lied, I was just busy thinking if he was being a dick or not “you busy? You can call me later, I have just woke up. Still in bed and shit” I hate these conversations, why can’t he just be good “late night at the studio then?” I said, that was my que to say something slick there “yeah, I had so much to do, I ended up leaving at like six in the morning. I do feel tired still” tired from fucking Rosa’ fat ass “hmmm, you should sleep then” I decided, I can’t be bothered to be speaking on this right now “Rylee, is everything ok? You seem a little off with me?” rolling my eyes “was you in the studio with Rosa last night?” the phone line went silent “what!? No? I was in the studio alone, you know this” he could be playing me off “do I really though?” which is true, I am already insecure because he is Chris Brown, he is a fucking player.

I can hear my family outside, I need to go and spend some time with them “who told you that shit Rylee? I tell you everything” biting on my nail “Bailey called me in the morning and told me you was rude to her, you snapped at her. Said that there is something between Lo and I, and then you had Rosa in the studio, you kicked everyone out to have her in there, what is happening? What are you not telling me?” I am upset from this “wow! Just fucking wow. I didn’t tell you any of this shit because I wanted you to have a good time, I swear Rylee that shit is a fucking lie. That bitch is a fucking liar, she is trying to break us up. Fucking wow. That is all lies. I didn’t tell you anything because of everything you are going through, you didn’t need to hear my shit. I have been having a pretty shit time here but I kept that to myself. Bailey and Lo got it fucking coming” rubbing my forehead with my free hand “then you tell me what happened?” let me hear his side.

I feel I am between these two now “what is the point? You ain’t finna believe me, I am the guy that had sex with Rosa in the beginning like an idiot I am. I am the same guy that nobody likes and is a player as you say, what is the point?” pulling a face “if you think this relationship ain’t worth fighting for then it says a lot Chris” what is even wrong with him, I speak to him everyday “I ain’t say that! I am just saying why explain, you will believe the lies. You will still blame me anyways” he is so annoying “I am not even blaming you in the first place, trust me if I did I would have called you as soon as I got the call. I want to talk to you like an adult, I don’t believe anything. So tell me now” if he doesn’t then I am just going to put the phone down on him until he can act right “fine, so I have had a pretty shit time here. Just seems like everyone wants me to be that bad Chris, everyone seems to want to bad mouth me to make me angry. I was in the studio with the boys the day you got to New Jersey, Rosa came in and said I see you got some new chick. I didn’t want to know, I ignored her and she didn’t like it and then said maybe I should speak to my friends because they been talking shit, so I did. I spoke to them, Bailey been talking shit to Lo. She said that you told her that we didn’t have sex so I goes look, this shit ain’t got nothing to do with any of you if we did or not. So from that moment I knew that Bailey is a snake telling shit about us, so I saw her in the elevator mind you. I didn’t even know they was there, she came at me. Asking me if I am with you, I said ask Rylee. She got funny with me when I told her we talk every day and then said you never call her. She said Lo thinks we won’t make it, I swear down Rylee, that is it. On my daughter’s life, I love her so much. I never had anyone in that studio, I was busy making a song for you”

I didn’t even realise any of this was happening to him, he seemed so fine with things “why didn’t you tell me this before? I told Bailey that we didn’t have sex, just because we didn’t then. I didn’t think she would have repeated it” shaking my head lightly “I believe you Chris, I do. Just you know, she is supposed to be my friend. You was suffering, why didn’t you tell me this?” I am sad he didn’t share his problems with me “because I want to be here for you, I don’t know why Bailey told you that. I am so shocked because I don’t know her, you do. I promise you Rylee, I was busy writing. My problems are minor, we just have haters” fucking Bailey, I am not going to deal her until I get home “this shit happened on your birthday, I am sorry” Chris apologised “no, you didn’t do anything. Don’t say sorry, something that I am going to have to deal with” fucking bitch Bailey.

Sitting outside in my bikini, I did wear the chain Chris got me. I am with my man, I believed him as soon as he said about the not having sex thing. I took a picture of the chain and me, she can digest this shit the vindictive bitch, I would be happy for her, why can’t she be happy for me. Looking at my grandma, she is staring at my grandad “what is you secret?” I asked her “to what?” she has the same eye colour, I get this from her “keeping the marriage alive” she side eyed my grandad “I always keep him on his toes, your grandad was a handsome guy. Not so much now but he was, he had girls flocking. But I have the bomb pussy, he came back for more” I gasped “grandma!” my hand over my chest “don’t give me that, I never loved him. He made me fall in love with his charm, he treated me well” smiling at her “you have been out in the sun for far too long” my grandad interrupted us, you know what. Let me facetime Chris, I miss his face.

Hopefully he picks up that is, it says connected but no picture “ayyeee!” Chris spat “don’t you dare say anything stupid” let me warn him first “oh yeah, I got you. I am dying to put your picture up on my IG, you look so good in the chain. I am happy you facetimed me beautiful” he always makes me blush, it’s the way he stares at me “I miss you and also, I don’t want you to think I am upset with what happened. I do not blame you at all either, things like this will make us stronger. And also don’t ever think I won’t believe you. I just like us to talk about things” he looks so cute, he can’t stop smiling either “I get it, I just don’t get why people don’t want us together. I think we good you know; we don’t need people. I am still going to beat Lo, he needs it” side eyeing Chris “please don’t, you are better than that” placing the phone further down, so the camera is between my boobs “I thought we keeping this PG? You can’t do that” I shrugged smiling “who you speaking too?” my grandma spat “my boyfriend” I said “my mom calls you the run it, run it boy by the way” oh god, she is walking over to me “let me see this boy, come on. Don’t you lie to me” she said, I can’t stop laughing “oh is this the boy? Rose, it’s the boy. You told me you had no boyfriend” Chris is getting so shy, this is hilarious. He moved his face away “where is he?” my mom ran over “Hey, run it, run it boy. Come back” Chris bought his face back on to camera “hi Rylee’ mom and grandma” he waved, how adorable is he “he is handsome, Rylee he is a beautiful man” my grandma is so close to the camera, she needs to move back.

My mom and grandma are obsessed, I have to walk away with my phone because they was taking over “my mom took over back there, you see her. She even got her glasses on” Chris is still laughing “they cool, you should have left me with them” he thinks I would do that “Rylee, I can’t find my shoes” Kyrie said to me “uuuhhh, have you tried looking outside? I am sure I saw them outside, I am not doing it for you so go and do it and find them” he is asking me because he thinks I will go and find them for him “you mad mean to him” hearing Chris say “mean? I am not, he wants me to be his slave” walking up the steps “I want that too” Chris wishes I was his slave “right, if I am your slave then I will be walking around in my new heels in just my bra and panties on, you can’t touch me at all” closing the bedroom door behind me “No, if you are my slave. What I say goes, I just want you to sit on my face constantly” flicking the camera around while pointing my phone at the long mirror “why you doing this to me!?” Chris spat, he really can’t control himself.

I already miss Rylee, we just spoke on the phone and I want to call her back. Placing my phone at the side of me, Rylee’ family seem really cool. Her brothers are dicks but other than that, they seem really nice. I just know that Rylee is the apple of everyone’s eye, she is the loved one, but it shows. I can’t wait for Rylee to be back in LA, I don’t mean to be clingy but she seems to be the only person to understand me. I am angry that Bailey lied on me like that, she could have cost me Rylee. It may be a bad thing to expose my relationship with Rylee to the world but then again, I am proud of her and I want to show her off. Blowing out air, Rylee’ grandma is crazy. She was checking me out, I think I have the family approval.

Staring at my Instagram, contemplating on whether I am making the worst decision or the best decision in posting a picture. I want to celebrate her too, I can’t hide Rylee forever though. You know what, fuck the world because that is my girl. Tapping the camera, scrolling down on my camera roll. I have the perfect picture for this, I kept that picture I took of Rylee when we went to Six Flag’s. Her side profile and smile, she is so damn beautiful. Tapping the picture, she will probably say that she hates the picture but it’s actually really nice. Pressing next to put a caption under the picture ‘Because you're my greatest gift, I seal it with a kiss! Happy Birthday beautiful’ I don’t want to write too much, that is just perfect.

Now I can’t help myself, I am posting a second picture. The selfie she took of us at Six Flag’s, I would post so many pictures but I need to stop ‘She called me a corny nigga after this picture was taken! Can’t wait for you to come back’ I just remember every moment with her, it is funny that I do but I treasure every moment with her. Locking my phone, I guess that is it now. I just want to be happy and that is with Rylee of course, I just noticed that I have not left this house all day. I need to actually go to the studio, I might ask if Mijo will come with me. If I ever see Bailey, I won’t even look her way. Just because she will twist my words, I am just going to walk by her.

Just as I was about to call Mijo, Rylee’ name popped up. Picking the phone up “hey” she has called very quick after the picture posting, I hope she ain’t going to say why did you do that “oh my god Chris, thank you so much. My emotions are everywhere, I just listened to the song and then the pictures. What did I do to deserve you, thank you so much baby” she called me baby “it’s cool, the least I can do for you. I just want to make sure you have a good day, we are official to the world now” rubbing the top of my head “I don’t even care anymore, you made that song with me in mind? I don’t deserve that! I can’t wait to see you. Thank you, honestly. I don’t care about anybody else, it’s about me and you” I am grateful she is happy after all that bullshit.

Today could have really gone to shits, I am just happy Rylee is not like the other girls with the dramatics after she heard the lies “I’ll be back soon, how are you feeling now? You should have really told me if you was feeling that way Chris. I am always here for you, I know I told you about my mom but you should have said something” why is she so sweet, I don’t deserve “because that is mad selfish, making it about myself. I just want to do everything I can to make you happy, believe me Rylee it hurt me to hear you cry. My issue is just minor, I just get to see the real niggas for who they are” I can hear the music in the background, she should be celebrating her birthday “I am embarrassed that I did cry, I appreciate you for listening to me. I need to be happy for my mom, she is having the time of her life with everything. Oh yeah, you know my mom doesn’t know that I told you about this, she actually wants to meet you before she has her treatment. Now I told her that it’s a little too soon but she don’t want to look ill in front of you. It’s up to you but my family are inviting you to their home before that” I am shocked, they want to meet me “really? They want to meet me? I am shocked, I don’t mind. I am free whenever” meeting the parents, this will be different “we will figure something out, god. I can’t wait to see you Chris” I think I should let her go, I am taking her time “same, struggling without my girls. I better let you go though, it’s your party. You have fun, I am going to the studio and if I see them I will be good, for you that is” I still want to punch Lo in the face “ok, call me whenever you want though, I do miss you like crazy but goodnight noodle arms, if I don’t get to say it later” letting out a little laugh “you are just jealous that I have long arms, fool. Goodnight beautiful” the phone line went silent, it is like we didn’t want to disconnect the phone call. Let me do it, I am ruining her day already. Sighing out as I disconnected the call.

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