#my heart says soft and overprotective Tarn but my mind says tough love

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Gonna leave some thoughts here cause I probably won’t be doing anything with them sooner or later

Anyway while I can see ratchet sorta just coming in and taking FA away, I can also kinda see something happening to Pharma and FA kinda just coincidentally ends up in ratchets care. Ex; Delphi arc/tyrest/tarn. Everything in mtmte and ll makes me want to think that the timeline would have first aid be born near thes start/middle of the war but a small part of me wants first aid to be made maybe somewhere near the Delphi arc and the lost light crew will just have a sparkling First Aid running around their medbay lol. Then again, we have Tarn in the mix and then there isn’t really a use of Tarnma meeting. (Unless you want to count Damnus in the mix as well which is just as juicy)

But I can see First Aid being a sort of unwanted sparkling especially if Pharma is having him during the Delphi arc. Ambulon would probably help babysit him when Pharma’ll go out and give Tarn his cogs. Not that Ambulon knows of course. Pharma I imagine is very soft with First Aid but Tarn I’m kinda iffy with. Not too sure if he would also be softer/overprotective or the same self aka mass murderer. Both sides are surprised when they find out about First Aid however.

First Aid would obviously be quite clueless about the whole red rust. I mean his carrier has been locked in a space where he can’t hold him, everyone around him is dying sooner than later, Ambulon is stressed, so he’s stressed—it’s all a mess really. He becomes torn after Delphi—going into a similar state like when Ambulon dies. With Ambulon being the only person close enough to get him out of such a state. Ratchet will try to tell him that it was for the better I imagine. That Pharma, his own carrier was someone who helped kill and gave no mercy to the ill and bedridden patients of Delphi. By all means, First aid should hate Pharma but First Aid loves his carrier. And in memory of his carrier, he sees Pharma. In a younger FA timeline, he probably doesn’t know what happened or how but he knows that his carrier is died. Or at least in a similar state. Add in the sensitivity of carrier/sparkling bonds and you have a damn lot of angst lmao.

In turn, Ratchets and First Aids starting relationship is very strained. He doesn’t know who this mech is or why he’s here but all he knows is the Ratchet killed his carrier. Eventually they will become close but First Aid will still hold that grudge. Even when the soft and gentle words guide and teach him through a surgery or procedure. First Aid can’t help the boil in his blood when he watches Ratchet relax his optics and looks at him with something so tender and parental. He yearns that where Ratchet stood, there was a jet frame colored like a painting with reds, blues, and whites. He’s remorseful and I want him to be like forcefully adopted by dratchet like a kitten hissing their heads off when you try to pick them up lmao.

I haven’t thought to much about the tyrest arc but when Pharma meets Aid again, his voice suddenly turns fragile. His wings’ll tilt down in an inviting manner. It’s unsettling due to the fact that he was just talking crazy to a body less ratchet. But Pharma is crazy. Pharma is a bad person. Pharma is his carrier. If Pharma were to continue with ambulon’s death then I can definitely see First Aid becoming resentful. Now he holds resentment towards both his REAL creator and his current caretakers. Talk about mommy issues…(he just like me fr)

Maybe his sire is a better person..? WRONG! Because apparently his sire is TARN of all people…Who would have known. I think that Tarn and First Aid’s meeting would make most sense if the whole sparkling + creator bond stuff were especially established. Because I genuinely have no idea how Tarn would find out. Maybe they meet when Tarn is flying to rip Megatron and his crew in pieces on that flower planet(can’t remember name) idrk I haven’t thought too much about it.

AU IDEA

An AU. Listen. Vague posting till I actually get all the details laid out somewhat on discord. An au where Pharma is First Aid's carrier and Tarn is his sire. Tarn is NOT involved till later on and Pharma is a struggling single mom. Ratchet comes and fuckes everything up like he likes to do, and basically CPS's First Aid and takes him against his will. Pharma gets depressed and goes into denial about having a son till the events with Tyrest where they reunite for a while. And thats all im saying for now