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they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?
they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.
you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.
you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.
mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.
you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.
#writeblr#warm up#to be clear let me state again: i think you should id however you fucking want if it helps you seek peace#but there is a HUGE difference between being like '.... im undiagnosed but i think i might be X'#and a person who is like ''omg my intrusive thoughts made me buy a birkin!!!''#babe mine made me throw up bc they disgusted me so much <3#mine made me hurt myself evenly. even when i wanted to stop. i have had to put my hand on the stove MULTIPLE TIMES#and again i'd rather have 10000 people get help for something they don't need help for#than have 1 kid NOT get help#but there has GOTTTTT to be a middle ground here#bc at this point it isn't ''raising awareness''#it's . fucking misinformation. and ''what this picture says about you!!!!!''#& yes! im mostly talkin about ppl who are actually disgusted and offended by signs of mental illness#but use it to defend THEIR actions#like babe you hate when kids start yelling in the walmart? but you YOuRSELF can yell?#you are depressed so it's fine you were cruel to your spouse?#but if your spouse spends too much time in bed she's a lazy fuck?#your partner needs to do everything for you bc of your history in trauma? but when SHE has needs she's being clingy and gross?#HUGE difference here between whom i think most of my followers are btw. like#all it takes is fucking anyyyy empathy or kindness . like.#anyway it's hard to explain im hoping we all know the person im talking about lol
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Drew this real quick because I fucking love these two so much ???? Especially Bee. I wish they interacted more so badly. PLEASE.
Also learning how to draw these guys.. slowly.
#IT WILL NEVER NOT BE FUNNY TO ME HOW DELIGHTED B GOT ??? FOR VIOLENCE?#the brainrotsreal's art tag ✧˖°:*♡#like okay you have d17/megatron okay#d17 got consumed by vengeance. iconic of him. you SEE him grow more ruthless/ violent........AND THEN YOU HAVE B 127#he got knife hands for 0.00937 seconds and immediately KILLED PEOPLE SO EASILY IM SCREAMING SDJKJSDS#did by accident and then did it gleefully. AND SO WELL TOO LIKE ???? bro got that hunger for violence ig. got that delight.#i wish we got to see d17 and b127 interact more cause imagine b got his knife hands early and d17 was like.... alright start stabbing#and b127 is LONELY. mf is deprived of interaction and CLEARLY clingy. i see him telling d17 to stand down so he isn't hurt.#not necessarily because he has the SAME morals as orion/optimus#like look me in my eye. tell me if d17 didn't say something like “needing an ally not a leader” (friendship bait)#AND UR TELLING ME BEE WOULDN'T FOLD AND HELP HIM? HM? HMMMMMMMM?#like i feel like b's morals are mostly match whoever he's around. if he was around d-17 more? WELP? let's assassinate together bestie!#anyways optimus and elita gotta watch b fr cause mf is already an incredible ally on the battle field SDKJKDSS#like just tell him where to go and that place would DESTROYED. NO WITNESSEES LEFT. LIKE HELLO#transformers one my beloved#d 16#megatron#tf one#tf one megatron#tf one b 127#b 127#transformers one fanart#never know how many actual tags to use istg.#imagine being isolated for years and all that shit went down like what is going on in b's brain rn. mf got 3 friends and then lost one#SO QUICKLY
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tha funny siblings
if you ship scc and/or kr/alsei go Away from me
#deltarune#the art gallery#scc#a few of these are older doodles that a couple of them i just didn’t feel like doing anything with anymore !#the rest were cleaned up/colored doodles from My Mouth Hurts im gonna draw something to turn off my brain#i. havent done any drawing since the amoxicillin rash started. i think i wanted to do more but this is already 11 images so Whatever#the rash is On My Hands im allowed
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ok i swear i'm not going to talk about my breakup forever but the thing that just keeps bothering me:
i know that not getting what you need in a relationship is a COMPLETELY valid reason to end it but also. i feel like having a very vulnerable moment where i opened up about my struggles with intimacy and being relieved that i didn't have to keep doing things i wasn't comfortable with, then being dumped a YEAR later because of my lack of intimacy. is something i should be allowed to be very hurt by???
#ramble#sorry i'm currently in a phase of 'of course this happened' and 'oh i deserve this because i didn't give him what he wanted'#like he knew i was grey ace since the start. and he let it go on for SO long after i said i might be vaguely aro as well#if that's a dealbreaker for you bc of your love language then FINE but NIP IT IN THE BUD#he said he put it off because he didn't want to hurt my feelings but it only hurt me MORE#like you're an adult. grow the fuck up and communicate like one#holding your negative feelings in hoping somebody notices you're hiding them is what TEENAGERS do#and also i told him VERBATIM: i didn't think anyone would ever love me because i'm not comfortable with xyz. and he just confirmed that#idk i still feel like i'm being selfish because how could i expect someone to be in a relationship with me when i can't give them anything#also tmi but it's not like we did NOTHING. we still held hands/cuddled/were close. he just didn't have his tongue down my throat anymore#so obviously i'm assuming by 'missing affection' he just meant sex and as an ace person that just fucking sucks#also oh my god i HATED how much he would imply we were going to have sex. i would have to keep SAYING 'i don't like doing this'#he always spoke like it was inevitably going to happen and it didn't click how GROSS i felt about it until recently#also ALSO not to go there but i never told him WHY i struggle with it (it's sensory issues)#and like. what if something had happened to me that made it hard for me and i just wasn't ready to tell him. and then he did this#again sorry to overshare this is still just a lot for me and i have no idea if i'm being unreasonable#if you're ace and in a relationship please let me know bc i'm starting to think it'll end this way every single time
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i wasted 3 hours of my life trying to make a new render for him
#tenka willow#my sona#my art#my fingers hurt. my hands hurt. my shoulders hurt. my spine hurts. my eyes hurt#but atleast he has a new render YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#the other one started to show its age + he had that old ass design so#god his shoulders were so small. it's like he took T now#good for him
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some uprooted ep 2 doodles
#legends of avantris#uprooted#booker#grumley#peggy#bitsy#hazel#my art#mojo art#its fun to doodle with pens on some nice paper until you realise you cant erase it but if i use a pencil i need to press more#and then after a bit it starts to hurt my wrist because my death grip is apparently hard to control#so i either get thick lines and hand horty or i get the lightest barely visible lines so pen it is but then i cant erase it#and i dont wanna bother sketching with pencil first because its a doodle
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Based on a scene from The Constellations Within Us! I read this part and immediately knew I wanted to sketch it out 🥺 I highly recommend reading it! I’m constantly rotating the series around in my brain lmao
@cloud-somersault
#I was planning on drawing more of the scene (THE HUG 😭) buuut my hand started hurting 😔#maybe one day I will… hope so!#lego monkie kid#lmk mk#lmk wukong#lmk macaque#lmk sun wukong#shadowpeach#sunburst duo#my art#constellations fic#constallations fic fanart
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do you guys think serizawa has seen reigen somewhere before in passing
reference + another version under cut!
i knowww it's an old redraw thing but i wanted to redraw serizawa in it for so long... here's a version without the vignette
#redraw#kind of#it was definitely inspired by it#serizawa katsuya#reigen arataka#suzuki toichiro#serirei#mp100#mob psycho 100#mp100 fanart#mi art stuff#artists on tumblr#art#okay tags out of the way time to ramble#hey guys...........#i know I haven't posted art here for a while now and i'm so sorry.............#i started playing pokemon and......... i'm fixated on it so bad........#it did end up with me giving my hand a long break from drawing so it barely hurts anymore when i draw for long periods!!#also my birthday came around a while back im 20 now my bones are disintegrating#anyway i know the bg looks so plain 😭 thats why i did the dark circle focus HSBSJDKS
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she under on my tale till i [TITLE SFX]
#undertale#toriel#sans#utdr#afonyart#been doodling a bunch these past two days my hand is starting to hurt a bit LOL
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Mr. Edgeworth and his boy
#doctorsiren#ace attorney#gregory edgeworth#miles edgeworth#ace attorney fanart#art#digital art#my art#fanart#procreate#sketch page#the grayscale one was referenced from a photo of Atticus Finch 🤭#my hand hurts so much bc I was using the wrong pencil brush to darken my sketches and so I put too much pressure on my hand rip#I’ll be fine tho haha#I’m so in love with this man I need to actually start AAI2 so I can get to his case
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when are you going to post more lore content on your au?
Aaa sometime soon I hope! There’s still details I haven’t shared with my AU, but I can’t for the life of me get myself to draw them lol I have a few mini comics that have been in the works for awhile 😭 I’m sorry for the lack up updates 💔 life’s getting busier. Also going on a trip in the next few days, but hopefully thatll help my creativity/motivation come back? Idk but I’m glad to hear someone’s still interested! Think I’ll share a few WIPS
#ask answered#welcome home#wally darling#clownillustrations#welcome home puppet show#my art#fanart#digital art#puppeteer wally#human wally darling#sketch#oof I’ve been asking myself that question as well#my hand is also starting to hurt#so I gotta take a mini break from drawing#or at least cut down
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the unspoken broflovski family curse
#added the doodle late oops#taikko art#dont ask me what happened to my old sketchy painted ish style when i first started making sp art#did you know?? that i enjoy?? not? hurting???????????#its south park let me take it easy ugh finally i can draw in a style thats easy rottmnt artstyle kicked my ass#'why is kyles son wearing a different outfit?' i headcanon that kyles daughter is actually wearing hand me downs from him!!#i desperately need confirmed names omfg#I LOVE CHARACTERS WITH BARELY ANY CHARACTER TO THEM!! IT MEANS I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT!!#me when i get to slap personalities and headcanons on characters that were on screen for less than a minute <3#i need to read peoples headcanons on them please im so uncreative and i need to eat i am NOT self sustaining#south park#south park art#south park fanart#sp fanart#sp art#sp fandom#south park fandom#south park post covid#sp post covid#post covid#kyle#kyle broflovski#sp kyle#south park kyle#pc kyle#post covid kyle
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Yapper x yapper rq from twt today
#hades game#hades supergiant#hades 2#hades fanart#hades#hades 2 fanart#hades ii#icarus#melinoe#waxwitch#more !!! soon!!! i have many ideas#but first i take a break my hand is starting to hurt LOL
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It isn’t just nauseating/The things that I could get away with?
[WOE.BEGONE Episode 36: Respite, lyrics from "Can I Stay Here Awhile?"]
#woe.begone#w.bg#mike walters#woe.begone fanart#apologies for my handwriting on this one... uhhhh my hand has started hurting when i try to grip things
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The way he's looking straight ahead and then moves back, has to close his eyes and look down to recollect himself. He can't bear what just came out of his own mouth. God. I think he hurt himself with that one. and us too
#link click#shiguang daili ren#lc thoughts#this isn't the face of a man thinking ''god my bf is a handful and this will hurt the timeline''#this isn't even the face of a man who's bad at saying no to cxs when it comes to serious stuff (which I think he is)#the mess that comes later is bc both of them underestimated how much this mission was gonna get to them#''well cxs didn't know anything'' he's my darling too but he was in over his head the moment he started playing basketball#ep5 remains the hardest I ever cried in lc. but this scene in specific is from ep4
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old makima doodle i forgot to post here too
#csm#chainsaw man#makima csm#my hand hurts i cant draw anything new errmmm#probably gonna start posting old stuff i never shared while waiting for my hand to heal
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