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rabbitprintart · 6 months ago
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"¿Que paso mi güero, necesitas otra bendición?" ⛪📿🚬
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secrettreestuffidk · 15 days ago
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i wsa abouta make prollymy Real Bad Post but mayeb theyreere are Bad IDea legally speakin so um
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motherfricker · 8 months ago
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READING ISNR GIVING ME BRAINROT
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ramayantika · 5 months ago
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Since I am newly nineteen now, here are 18 things I learnt hehe
1. Sometimes life is shit but you got to hold on with all your blood, sweat and tears, with hopes still illuminating your eyes in the darkest night, because better days do come. My world did not end when I did not crack those entrance exams and saw the house be so disappointed with me. Another course and college chose me, and I found my calling and happiness.
2. Grinding is needed. Youth demands hardwork if you want to make it big, but listen fucking listen to your body and rest at times. Your dream life will never let you enjoy if you do not have the health for it. Exercise, be hydrated, eat and sleep well. As students, I understand it gets hard at times, but try maintaining a habit slowly. It pays well later.
3. It is okay to not know shit about what you want in life. If you know, amazing! If you do not, good, because life is going to surprise you with some real amazing things. You will find your story. Wait.
4. For young girls, for my younger self, you are amazing, smart, talented, wanted, admired and a beautiful human. You can be anything you want, and no matter what the world says about you, what your family says about you, you absolutely have the power to build and live the life you want for yourself. It's hard, but it can be done.
5. Just because you are naturally a quiet and reserved person, it doesn't mean you are boring, less confident and no fun. You value your energy and people. It's good. You are a good listener and a good observer. People need listeners too and your observation skills do actually help you socially when needed.
6. Just because you are extroverted, it doesn't mean you are loud, cringe and irresponsible. Heck the quiet ones like me need you all and of course we do need someone to keep the party and conversation interesting. But even then, you can absolutely be vulnerable and have someone to share your mind and heart too.
7. Follow your HOBBIES!!!! dancing, painting, singing, writing, sports etc whatever is your pick, keep doing it. You need them. You don't have to monetize it or be so skillful to make a job out of it. You can follow it because you love it and it makes you happy and not because you must make a career out of it. Life gets busy, and even difficult at times. Hobbies will help you take you mind off from difficult things. Do it for 15 mins or 30 or even an hour. But DO IT.
8. For young people, do NOT get into romantic relationships because everybody else is getting in to. Life doesn't comprise of romantic relationships. Learn to build and value friendships, relationships with classmates, older people (relatives, teachers, seniors) and with people near and around you.
9. Money is needed and money does help buy happiness. You get to watch your movies, buy your favourite pizza/momos/biryani, go to your fav cafe, buy books and art supplies, buy that lip gloss or that new shoes model with money. Paisa bhai sab kuch nahi hai yes but paisa bahut kuch hai.
10. Cherish little moments of peace and find gratitude for the things that you have. You are alive, you get to do art, play a sport, read that fanfic on the internet, afford eating at a good restaurant, afford an education etc. There is still so much you need but at least you get to have some good things in life. Some don't and have to struggle immensely for things which we have.
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samstclair · 5 months ago
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Joel Miller's Survivor
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Joel Miller X Reader
Anonymous Request
"Hey Sam! Hope you're still alive. You've been like ghost, and I'm getting worried about my request not being fulfilled, AND your health, of course or whatever! Yeah so can you get to it already? Joel X reader, simple. Can you make Y/N be like traveling with them or some shit? I don't know. But do your thing when you've crawled out of your hole!"
Word Count: long bro
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As you lied in your bed, rotting (you have not gotten up in the three hours you've been awake [so now it's almost 12 in the afternoon]), feeling like absolute dog shit for:
1. your empty tummy, 
2. not having showered in a week despite you paying your water bills, 
3. your internet running at the speed of a geriatric snail so no more fan-cam edits, ALSO despite paying your internet bills, 
3. just feeling like an overall ball of grease and oil that could, if necessary, fill a car's gas tank, 
4. not having gotten up in those three hours, 
and 5., perhaps most importantly, the world ending :(
you gazed out your window into the morning (afternoon, actually), light that peered through. It was scenic really, little puffs of dust, some asbestos tinkled in, gliding softly in the air. It hit you - this is not fun or fresh. This sucks dick, actually. 
You rose, stretching, a big big biiiiigggggg stretch, cracking every conceivable bone in your body, trying to avoid looking in the mirror that could potentially reveal your physically-troubled state. You didn't even have to look to know the condition your hair was in - actually let's not talk about the hair. You'll spiral. If we can't see it, it's not real :D
"Fleabag said it best. Hair IS everything," you thought to yourself, thinking about avoiding the mirror. "Oh my god I could SOOOOO binge Fleabag right now -"
But you knew that wasn't an available way to veg out. As mentioned before, your power, water, and internet were out. You supposed it came with the world ending and all. 
"Grrrjsdjaksdfnbdsjdskjjfs," your tummy said. You cradled it like a mother holding her child. 
"Mama needs to eat soon...", you thought wearily.
You rose and peered out the window - and it was the same old shit. Those cracked-out girlies were still on the prowl, being the biggest cockblocks you've ever encountered in your life for some good food. 
"But girl, we gotta eat! We have to soon," your brain said. "You can't keep this shit up! REAL calories and shit actually do matter!"
"But bitch how? Those fat asses on the street are gonna try to toss up with you again!" the other side of your brain said. 
"So what? You're gonna keep living off three-month old Halloween candy?? Those Twix's are tasting more like the processed chocolate that they are every DAY! Stop playing around and gaslighting yourself into thinking they're good, girl!" the other side argued back. "THINK about it. You bought those to sneak in to watching Dune in theaters. And not even the second Dune, the first. They're literally vintage." 
"What's stomach gotta say?" the other side shot back, quite angrily. 
"Grhjdkajdjsjdfoifdiosiojf," your stomach replied. You knew what that meant a little all too well - your stomach couldn't take it anymore. She wasn't even sentient enough to respond.
"FUCK!" you bursted aloud! So loud that the cracked-out girlies out on the street got startled and did a little jump! 
You absolutely HATED being hungry. If this experience had taught you anything, it's the appreciation of a good ass fucking meal. You were, after all, a self-proclaimed 'fat ass bitch'. So how were you gonna live up to that now? 
You began to reminisce about your favorite dishes, even though you knew it wasn't gonna be a good idea for your mental health. 
Bandeja paisa...
Pickles...
McDonald's cheeseburger with Big Mac sauce...plz McDonald's worker, don't forget the sauce........
Publix sub...
Mango chunks with tajin...
Provolone cheese and salami...
Korean corndogs...
A fat ass burrito...
Little Caesars breadsticks...
Auntie Anne's organic cinnamon rolls...
Vodka pasta...
Coconut chickpea curry...
...a bowl of assorted fruit but none of that honeydew cantaloupe bullshit...
"FUCK!" you yelled again. They also jumped! again. "How the FUCK did I go from drinking tiki cocktails on the beach to the WALKING FUCKING DEAD?!?!?!?!??!!!!! I DON'T EVEN HAVE A FUCKING RICK HERE PROVIDING FOR ME!!!"
You slammed yourself back on the bed, ready to cry - both from the acceptance that this was your new reality and slamming yourself a little too hard that you felt a spring bust up into your thoracic spine. You hated yourself for talking shit about that cantaloupe and honeydew. Yeah they're ass and should NOT have a place in a fruit bowl but that was real fucking food. Real SUSTENANCE!!! And what did you do? You fed it to the fucking seagulls on the beach and used it to pelt those fuck ass middle schoolers who wouldn't stop quoting Adin Ross, when you could have enjoyed it yourself. Had it been now, you would've Iron Clawed those birds and children for those two dookie ass fruits just for a taste of something REAL. Not moldy chocolate from a Costco bag that you snuck into Lynch's Dune. (Yeah girl, I'm not talking the Timothee one. I'm taking the Kyle MacLachlan one. I said they were vintage!)
How did we get here?
Well, we'll revisit this question later, cause right now you have come to one FINAL decision - food. You. Need. Food. 
"Fuck it bro," you told yourself, tears welling in your eyes as you climbed out of your bed and made your way downstairs to the exit. "If there's no fine-ass cowboy police officer with a big ass nose to do it for me, I guess mama gotta do it herself." 
You slipped on your old-reliable Crocs (the Lightening McQueen editions so you could go fast), then opened your back sliding glass door as to avoid the crackhead girlies on the street out front, the sun nearly blinding you solar-eclipse style. You felt like a hostage released from a hole after months of being, well, held hostage. 
"Is this what Saddam felt like?," you thought.
A wave of complete euphoria went over you as you heard the birds chirp, the wind fly by, the smell of green grass with a little hint of deteriorating carcasses - it felt GOOD to be outside. Though you have had some bouts of homebody phases, you were never not missing the great outdoors. Besides the mosquitoes and the balls-hot sun, and the occasional dead bodies. But, you reminded yourself, we have to make the BEST of these types of situations. 
You closed the glass door, quietly, cause those electric-chair looking victims had the most insane hearing, (making, admittedly, quite jealous since you're sure you lost a percentage of your own hearing prematurely after the introduction of AirPods.)
You then walked across your now overgrown garden, which under any other circumstances, could have passed off as a big whimsical fairy garden with the grass now being several feet tall, little ladybugs and shit nestled between. But now, shit made you feel like you were in a jungle back in 'Nam, circa 1970, pushing the foliage out of your face as you got across, bracing yourself for running into a spider web or a gnat smacking you in the face. 
Once you saw the backyard gate, you opened it quietly and peered out onto the street - it was quiet, ODDLY quiet, with not one of those cockblockers in sight. You knew better, however, looks can be deceiving. We all thought those Polly Pocket outfits looked pretty good, but the gastrologist telling your parents that their elementary-school child has a rubber dress lodged in one of their intestines actually isn't pretty good. 
You crept out, tiptoeing like a cartoon character or Drake sneaking past Travis Scott to whisper his verses on MELTDOWN, making sure to stay EXTRA vigilant of your surroundings. You needed to master the art of NOT disassociating, which basically meant undoing all your previous masterings of the craft. It was extremely difficult, but it was needed - slipping up LITERALLY means death here. On some for realizies shit. On some getting eaten out by and not in the good way shit. (That was disgusting I apologize - Sam)
As you crept down the street, passing down the backdrop to your average end-of-the-world surroundings with moldy houses and charred cars, you tried to remember the way to the Target. You were shit at directions and there was no Apple Maps to help you now. You just had to rely on your primal instincts of location - which, suffice to say, were usually not that good. But, when food's involved, you could track like a Neanderthal holding a spear hunting a fat ass mammoth with a posse of your fellow Neanderthal girls, you know, like, primal. 
You turned the corner, sure of where you were going and worried about your luck thus far. No zombie in sight oh shit never mind there's one across the other side of the street. 
It kept twitching in its tweaked state, continuously running into a fence since it was blind with that ugly ass toe fungus all up in its face. 
"Oh shit oh shit oh shit oh shit," you told yourself. Asshole clenching, toes squeezing downward, you calmed yourself down. It was the blind one so girl you're good! Just creep by quietly, ain't nothing to it! 
You took in a deep breath - tap in tap in tap in girl! Just walk on past! 
"Okay, okay," you told yourself. "Girl CHILL! Let's go okay, one, two, three - oh fuck I'm fucking shitting myself -" 
But then, it hit you - you literally had no reason to be scared. You literally lived in New York. You took those subways, you knew how to handle characters like that. 
Like a light switch normally does, you switched. You felt all that fear drain out of you, like the shit you took earlier - quick and easy (it was diarrhea, so, not really a good analogy metaphorically). You walked on down, even giving a friendly wave at the fungus girl. They're people too! You remembered to tell yourself, you CANNOT judge someone by their appearance! They're just going through it, I mean, after all, we've all been in that depressive episode/state before. Why hate when you can relate? Exactly!  In all honesty, your hair right now probably isn't making you look well-adjusted. We all have our bad days <3 Just don't look at them too long and you're good! 
As you passed by, it occurred to you - you have not been out in a MINUTE. All that hubbub and for what? You just had to wave and walk past. This brought a refreshing smile to your face, happy that you were grounded back to your reality. 
"Pharrell was right. Look at the birds," you told yourself as you strolled along by, "look at the bees."
Though there were no birds or bees in sight, and the possible thought crossing your mind that you hallucinated the birds' chirps earlier, you thought it best to live in this pretend state. It helps being fake happy sometimes, after all! More and more that carbon dioxide leak in your house was sounding less like a theory and more like a fact!
You continued on, now remembering the area - Target was only a block or two away. Just in and out and oh shit there's another depressed tweaker right in front a couple feet away from you. 
This time, it wasn't one of those fungus girls. It was the one who could see AND hear. Talk about double fucking whammy. And she clocked your ass, head swinging inhumanely fast to look you straight in the face. 
"DAMN BITCH! YOU UGLY AS FUCK?!" you thought to yourself, unfortunately your instant, innate reaction.
"Hey, girl!" you said, friendly, trying to maintain your mindset from earlier. You waved and walked past, she seemed so taken aback from your friendliness that you left her stunted. She just stayed behind and watched. And on you walked on blissfully. 
But you weren't walking for long when you heard the pitter patter of those steps RACING behind you. You whipped around. Again, you were shit at directions and feet and all, but you were PRETTY sure that you'd walked several feet farther away, so why was the ugly fungus-but-no-fungus girl HELLA close to you right now?
"What?" 
The girl stopped, now confronted. 
You waited for a response. 
Apparently, so did she.
Y'all just stood there, silent.
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"Girl, I said what?"
Nothing. 
You shrugged, rolling your eyes and turned back. But again, that pitter fucking patter. 
You whipped around, quicker. She stopped her running, caught again. 
"Bitch, chill. I know your ass is not chasing at me," you warned. 
Nothing. Again.
You turned back around, walking a little faster. "Flaka drug ass bitch," you said under your breath. 
Pitter. 
Patter.
You whipped around again so fast you gave yourself whiplash and vertigo at the same time. 
 She stopped. 
"Bitch," you said, annoyed. 
"Ahfsjjdshhuweuifw," she mumbled. 
"I'm sorry?" you asked, genuinely confused at her mumbling. 
She had a dumbfounded face, despite not having the greatest ability to make expressions (half her face looked like those Barbie dolls Shane Dawson used to incinerate back on old YouTube). You inspected her closer. She definitely needed some Accutane treatment, cause apparently everyone ALL gave up skincare this year. 
"Sadjksfjdksjc," she snarled again, "sdfhjdsf, sdfhuwjsjioisd?" 
"Girl, I don't know," you replied, sassy. "I don't know what the fuck you're saying, to be honest."
"Sjdklasjfoijdjdisjfids," she mumbled.  
"Girl, speak the fuck up!"
The zombie huffed. "SJDJDFSAFIDSD!!!!" She put her hands on her waist, annoyed too.
You felt bad. You genuinely had no idea what she was saying, and it didn't sound like it ended in anything you could just reply with a quick and safe, 'yeah' or 'thank you' to. You couldn't even fake laugh. Awkward. Awco fucking taco. 
You two just stood there, face to face. A little standoff, perhaps? 
This encounter reminded you of the first time you encountered one of these girlies. It was on your walk home after you left your White Lotus resort from your month long stay....
"Ghrskjdsksfs," the girlie said from behind. It made you jump.
"OH MY GOD!" you yelled, both out of fear of her popping out of nowhere and of course, her appearance. "Girl, I don't wanna be rude, but you look BUSTED as fuck!"
She didn't respond. You soon found out she took offense to that.
She began to follow and chase you all the way home and up to your doorstep. High key on some harassment shit. You had to barricade yourself in, cause girl was trying to hug you or something and you love being nice to strangers but didn't wanna contract bed bugs, so you pushed the bitch down the porch in time for you to lock that door. She fucked up your Ring camera too from banging on the door, so shit was personal. 
You did NOT want to get physical with this girl now, but if push comes to shove, LITERALLY, then it'll have to do. 
And that was your mindset from then on. Anyway, back to the Western standoff:
"Okay, girl, look just back the fuck up, okay?" you warned. "I'm being like - soooo serious right now." 
You turned back around and continued down, a little hurriedly and checking behind yourself a little more often, but that girl got the memo. For a few more blocks, she was out of sight. 
You hated being rude, but, that's what being a girl entails sometimes.
"Horror nights came a little early this year," you told yourself, shaking your head, "some people don't have any self-awareness at all. So sad." 
Finally making it, you saw the big ass red target signaling it was a Target up above, with some extra cute greenery and mold growing inside of it. You liked the whole post-apocalyptic aesthetic, actually, but we keep that to ourselves. Other people's disadvantages are not cute to make an aesthetic out of, after all.
Inside, shit was ran SACKED. Others had gotten there before, the shelves wiped clean (figuratively, cause the shelves were filthy). It gave you STRONG COVID flashbacks. But, you were not here for toilet paper, you were here for FOOD, remember? 
You went to the back, avoiding broken pieces of glass and other unidentifiable and possibly tetanus-infested objects, looking for the produce and dairy section. It smelled of dampness and poop. Not great. 
"While I'm here, I wonder if they have some tampons, maybe? Actually, maybe they have some ZYN?" you wondered. After all, no one was readily available to supply you with an Elf Bar, your original being LONG dead. A girl still needed to tell her nicotine craving to chill out. You weighed your options: 
Having reciting gums > not having ZYN
Hmm.
Yeah.
Options seemed to talk for themselves. 
Anyway, you kept searching for any remnants of a SEALED package of food, but, unfortunately, there was none. If there were, it was moldy to the house boots down and def not edible to most people. You rummaged through and through, over and over - nothing. 
You took a deep, shaky breath in, feeling those panicky tears coming in, your hunger more unbearable. 
"Dude it's that, it's that I'm about to lose my fucking mind, bro," you mumbled manically to yourself as you continued to rummage like a raccoon. This made you sympathize with them, those girls live hard lives. If you were RJ, you would've stolen that bear's food too.
You picked through the remaining bags, inspecting the see-through plastic while holding it like it was an object from Chernobyl - at the very tip with the most minimal amount of skin to package contact possible. You held them up to the light and god forgive you, gave them a little sniff. When you made that mistake once, you assured maybe it was best not to do it again, the mildew-rotting scent so horridly offensive to your nasal passage that it nearly catapulted you into the ether. 
You sat down, ready to welcome that panic attack breakdown, but soon shot yourself up after smacking your ass right into a cold septic puddle of rainwater (or so you hoped) dripping from the rotted ceiling. In just in your "I <3 ORLANDO" Spongebob-themed PJ shorts, you were never more sure that you just contracted yourself a yeast infection. And by the way you also caught a glimpse of your hair in the reflection of the puddle. 
And this was it. 
You broke. 
Your hair looked like Beetlejuice. 
You looked like Beetlejuice.
YOU LOOKED LIKE BEETLEJUICE?!?!?!?
"I'm losing my mind? I'm losing my mind. THIS IS SO FUCKED!" you exclaimed, oddly enough in the exact likeness of Shane Dawson's freakout in that one instagram live reacting to Tati Westbrook's YouTube video. (What's with Shane today?) "Oh my god? Oh my god?"
You were manic. This was it. This was it - 
But wait - you forgot the canned food section? 
A lone Chef Boyardee ravioli sat on the shelf, waiting, seemingly, just for you. She looked beautiful. Stunning. Heavenly. 
You feverishly snatched the fuck out of that can, and in such power popped the lid off wide open, the colors of that red tomato sauce and surfacing ravioli packets swimming delightedly. You did it. You tapped into your inner Neanderthal, strength and all.
You downed that shit all in one go, feeling its room temperature-ness sink from your throat down to your intestines, down past that lodged Polly Pocket dress, into the acidic pit of your belly. You felt all your stomach cells jump collectively with such joy, imagining the cheering sounding just like what Horton heard on that speck. 
You smiled so happily and genuine, with the exact likeness of Mark Weins. 
You moaned, quite audibly. It was delectable. 
You had to hit it, you NEEDED to hit it, just like Mark - 
"Mmm, woooowwAAAGAHAHAH - "
"- SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEECHCCHCHCHHCHHC CRAASH BOOMMOMSMDF JSAFJSDSFHSJDHFJS - "
" - OH SHI -"
-You ragdolled onto the floor -
"- WHAT THE FU -"
-Fragments of cement bursted all around you -
"-BRO WHA-"
-You went blind-
And then, it was all silent.
Your moment of bliss completely evaporated, by a blue pick-up crashing into the Target, right into the produce and dairy section you were in seconds before, in another world...
Your ears rang, you were covered in dust, with the remaining red Chef Boyardee sauce all up on your face. 
The entire building SHOOK with more pebbles and asbestos from the roof dropped onto the floor, along with the rattling of the glass windows.
The sound of insane gunfire soon followed. 
You remained soldier-style onto the ground, like one taking it for the team by taking in all the impact of a land mind, belly to the ground. Though you couldn't see it what was happening, your soy face was NASTY. 
"Bro whaaatttt????" you whispered. "All this for toilet paper????" 
"TA-TATA-ATATATATATA," said the gunfire. "PPAPAPAATATATATTAAAA!!!!"
You crouched up, peering a little outside, to see a car on fire, along with more of that loud ass fucking gunfire and people ducking for cover. Shit was a real Call of Duty game. Shit was a real war zone. You were stupefied, stunned, SAT! Then, to the right -
"SCREEEECHCHCHHCHHCHCH BOOOF BOOOM PAPRATATATATA!!!!" More cars whipped around the corner outside, like for real Fast and Furious shit! 
"Uh," you thought to yourself, no longer wanting to watch like a noisy pedestrian, "uhhhhhh, yeah this ain't for me. A girl like me is NOT supposed to be here! This ain't my business! War is for boys <3"
You quickly made a go for the exit, only to find it blocked by some grown ass man and child. They quickly clocked you, safe to say, both parties knowing that seeing another person this close right now is not a great sign. 
The man pointed his gun to you as he stayed down with the girl, avoiding the incoming shots. 
"Wait, THEY'RE the ones being shot at?" you realized, "nah bro I'm good."
"Oh, don't mind me!" you quickly said in your sweet, customer service voice, "I'm just gonna, gonna go ahead and, yeah," you inched closer to the back door and saw yourself out to the alleyway behind the place, managing to casually dodge every incoming bullet at you by a hair. After shutting that shit behind you, you stood straighter, dusted some of the dust off, and thought it best to go on back home and pretend that nothing happened, as always.
You actually ended up knocking out NASTY in the alleyway. Like, unbeknownst to you, multiple of those fungus girls walked by you thinking you were already dead. 
You stirred, delirious and confused, like an old person snapping out of a moment's dementia. It was nearing sundown by now, with the sunset casting its glow on the desolate alley buildings. 
You rubbed your slept-swollen face after you cranked yourself up with shaky ass arms, genuinely trying to remember the events that brought you here in the first place. You were like a shell-shocked vet. 
"Bro...where the fuck....?" you looked around, trying to piece everything together - but you thought that might be too much work, so you opted to doing your own version of the Irish goodbye and leaving without addressing the previous events <3. 
"I get those frat boys. Last night really WAS a movie," you thought as you walked out of the alley, looking left and right trying to remember how the fuck you were gonna take your ass back now - like NOW cause nighttime is not the place to be around these girlies. You played Minecraft. You knew the vibe. They seemed to be more rabid and unpredictable, which safe to say, is NOT your fave combo. You could so fuck up a bag of Combo's right now.
You dusted more dirt from your SpongeBob shorts, and tried to fix your botched hair, but was briefly and heavily distracted by a dust particle getting into your eye - causing such emergency and panic. 
"Oh fuck oh fuck no get out get OUT!" you worried, trying to pry whatever foreign conspirator of a dust particle that was currently committing espionage in your eye socket, albeit looking quite disturbing doing so. 
After prying that bitch out, you wiped your face and to your fucking dismay, spotted red stains all up on your hands. Your heart fell to the empty distilled pits of your stomach, to the pits of your gooch - 
"IS THAT FUCKING BLOOD? OH MY GOD AM I FUCKING, LIKE, HURT?!" you freaked - you were quite literally wounded in battle. You took a sniff. "Oh, just tomato sauce. I'm so silly!" 
You smiled to yourself happily, slowly remembering that ravioli - the one highlight of this mess. Your tummy rumbled. 
"If only there was a cart full of foo - oh my god there's one right there," in front of you was a shopping cart that apparently spawned out of nowhere filled with goodies. Literally perfect!
You approached it, mesmerized by its contents - more canned ravioli, Dolly Parton's buttercream frosting, a tub of fresh watermelon, some bags of gummy worms, some bags of Wingstop wings (with fries and ranch!), tubs of water (of which you credited this random shopping cart being sent from some higher power because it wasn't Dasani or Zephryhill), Combo's and, perhaps most importantly, a jar of spear dill pickles. 
You could've cried. 
And you did. 
But you stopped after like ten seconds because remember it's nighttime a girl needs to GO!
You took that shopping cart and began walking down the scene where that Fast and Furious ass scene went down, now lifeless of any activity but bullet-riddled crashed cars, piles of broken cement, dead bodies, and random spouts of smoke. You felt like just a girl, walking down an average street in New York, living a single, nepo-fueled and quaint life. 
"If only I had my headphones," you thought, now saddened that your phone and sound-proof headphones had been long-dead. "I LITERALLY pay my fucking bills, like?" 
You continued walking, just a girl with her shopping cart, when you spotted a clearing in some forest area, which seemed very familiar to you. 
"Lowkey, I think this is a short-cut to my house?" you said to someone, apparently. (There's no one around you but that's never stopped you.)
You went down into the wood, like a girl with just her shopping cart going through a magical Studio-Ghibli-esque forest that sprouted between two demolished buildings into some portal into the spirit world. Though it was pretty difficult to push the lowkey-broken shopping cart on anything but flat flooring, causing you to have some bouts of intolerable anger so powerful it helped you yank the wheels stuck on uprooted roots, you thought, "hey, things could lowkey be worse? Like, let's just remember what Vanessa Hudgens said, 'Like, yeah, people are gonna die which is terrible but like...inevitable?' "
And people did die, BUT, you did have Wingstop fries, so. 
And now, it wasn't just a whole shopping cart of goodies that you would return home with, but some granola?!
A pile of perfectly placed granola sat pretty on the ground in front of you, with some berries and yogurt bits scattered in - just fucking delicious and any vegan mommy's dreams.
"Oh my god," your mouth salivating, inhumanely - a Kubrick stare fell over your face as you eyed the fuck out of that horse feed.
"I could lowkey fuck UP some granola," your stomach said, the only decipherable thing she's said in a loooooooong time. Long time.
When you clocked out of your gaze, you walked on over, ready to scoop up the entire pile, relishing in the self-fulfillment and satisfaction you imagined was what those Neanderthals felt way back when. This little hunting and gathering thing we got going on here? Ain't that hard. 
You stood over it, grabbing the pile that happened to be conveniently sitting on a plastic mat, attached with some strings that went places you didn't really give a fuck to know about. All that mattered, was that the stars were aligned for you tonight, the moon must've been in your favor. You didn't need a tarot reader to know that life, well, was good now. Life laugh love even through apocalypse <3
"Man, mama eaten GOOOOOOD tonight!" you bellowed, giggling, dancing slightly back and forth like the fat ass you are, "I wondered if the Neanderthals ever dabbled in a little grano - "
"Grhasjdhfsdsknfjs."
You froze. 
Ain't. No. Fucking. Way. 
You looked up slowly. 
"Biiiiitccchhhhhh," you said, in disbelief. 
"Grajsdhfsajdsk," she said, more sassier than ever. 
"No - NO! This is MINE!" you warned the same fungus girl from earlier. She stood, several feet away, creepily standing in the dark now that the sun was pretty much set. Let's just say, HELLA liminal spaces-core. HELLA ominous with it.
She didn't reply. Instead, she began creeping closer to you, looking at you up and down like an old man checking out a girl walking by who HAPPENS to be in a tank top. You loved your LGBTQ+, but girl needed to be a little smoother in her approach! 
"No. Back off NOW!" you shot back, now standing straighter. After some time out in this life, you learned it's best to approach these girls like you would a bear, if, ideally, you were able to keep yourself calm enough so much so you could think clearly - just stand straight and tall. Stand your GROUND stand your GRANOLA if you will. 
"I'm warning you, girl. No means no. I found it first, fair and fucking square." 
She kept coming, now closer than ever. She wasn't taking no for an answer. You almost gagged at her peeling face, icked the fuck out, but didn't wanna be THAT outwardly rude. She was looking you up and DOWN. (It admittedly boosted your ego up a little, like, were you lowkey hot right now?)
It was clear she wasn't backing down. Your bear tactic went down the toilet. 
She began running. 
Full. 
Speed. 
"Jesus, fine we can share, girl, okay?"
Let's just say, she meant business. Bitch was about to pimp-slap you across the face for that granola. 
"Bro it's that I said we could shaAAAAAAAAAAA - "
But itt was too quick. Too sudden. 
One moment you were about to post-up with the fungus tweaker and the next you were plummeted to the ground by an unseeable force, every ounce of wind pushed out from every crevice of your body, the granola popping into the air like confetti that became shrapnel against the fungus girl, lodging itself into her already fucked-up face.
You gasped for air, in complete shock, whatever force holding you down to the ground - you looked up to see what actual 200+ pound of muscle football fuck just tackled you. Is the granola like the football right now? Did you just touchdown or whatever right now? 
It was him - the same guy from earlier. 
You were too exasperated to speak, literally non-verbal. All he saw were your wide ass eyes, gaping open mouth begging for air like a fish out of water (fish don't breath air, little fun fact! :D) and Beetlejuice hairdo, some tomato sauce still crusted around your lips. 
He suddenly lifted himself up, whipped out a bat from his side and beat that fungus girl to DEATH. Like, BEAT. 
"Oh fffff - uckaaaa," you were able to muster, "there go my Chiro sessions -" 
You rose up, struggling, feeling physically and spiritually like a stomped-on roach, watching this man absolutely go ballistic on the girl. She wasn't even identifiable anymore, just a big mess of red gross goo and shit. 
The little girl from earlier stood closely, like you, just completely entranced with the very ugly and quite frankly inappropriate violence for a child like her to be witnessing. It was like the Reddit 50/50 challenge all over again. (P.S. so like if you look up what that challenge is DON'T press images like I absentmindedly just did literally right after typing that to see if it was still up - Sam <3).
After he was done wailing, he stood straight, caught his breath, bringing himself back to reality from that outburst. He wiped blood off his dome and looked to you, a face of both complete disappointment and disgust that only comes with a man 50 and up. 
Your short-tempered, therapist-diagnosed anger flew over you - physically raging like a boy who got his house blown up by a creeper in Minecraft. Again, what did we say about nighttime???
"You. Fucking. DICK!!!!" you spat, your control now completely lost, "DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT FUCKING COSTS FOR A CHIRO SESSION?! DON'T YOU KNOW THEY DON'T EVEN EXIST ANYMORE, APPARENTLY?!??! DO I LOOK LIKE TRAVIS KELCE?!?!? DO I LOOK LIKE A QUARTER POUNDER OR WHATEVER THE FUCK?!?! ARE YOU TRYING TO ROLE PLAY AS TAYLOR WHEN THE CHIEFS WON?! I AIN'T A FUCKING SWIFTIE LIKE THAT!!!!!!"
After your spewing, you took a deep breath. It felt pretty good, you even smiled. 
His face fell. 
"Are you fucking crazy?" he bellowed back, "Are you out of your mind?! What were you thinking?!"
"I was literally JUST sharing food. I had that handled. I was like, breaking - breaking bad. Like Jesus..?" you knew there was something wrong there. Now you felt embarrassed. "No, wait - that's bread. Whatever fuck it I FUCKED THAT UP! But I'm NOT meth head, I'm NOT LIKE HER!" you pointed at the now mass of flesh and fungi. Gross. 
"I just saved your fucking life," he now came in close, towering over you and pointing, intimidating and furious. His southern drawl was in full action. (Uh oh you found this hot little does he know). "That granola back there was a fucking deer trap!" 
"Well," you started, biting your tongue like a mom, "it seems you've trapped my 'deer' ol' hear -" 
The girl stepped forward before you could finish that not well-timed flirt. "Wait, aren't you from the supermarket? Earlier?" she asks, now laughing, "That was crazy!" 
"Ellie, don't." The man stepped back, guarding the girl from you. He was weary. "Who are you?"
"I'm me," you said, arms crossed, unplucked and overgrown eyebrows raised. "Who are you?"
"Joel....?" the girl named Ellie said, worriedly. He seemed to chill out a bit. He looked over to her with a face that read: Don't worry. I know this bimbo means no harm." 
During that moment, you really took the scene in - and that scene? This man in front of you with the hick ass name Joel. Joel? Well, 
"Why he kindaaaaaa," BOTH sides of your brain said. "No, no I can't. Not here and not again, like time and place," you thought to yourself, but unbeknownst to you you said aloud. Safe to say, they looked at you oddly.
But you couldn't control your thoughts or your emotions. They are, after all, your thoughts and emotions which are usually, like Vanessa said, inevitable? 
He was tall, burly, and graying - with such a masculine aura it was insane. The strong, silent types, as your ex-boyfriend/ex-sugar daddy, Tony Soprano, would've adored. His whole rugged look - dirt on the face, unkept hair and facial hair, tired eyes, somewhat smelly...
Then it hit you. 
Is this it? 
Is this him? 
Is this your RICK?????
You didn't realize it, but you were staring. Not in the Kubrick this-bitch-fucking-crazy way, but in the, this-bitch-out-of-it way. You shook yourself back to reality. If you were going to bag this man, you needed to act indifferent. 
A moment went by, no one spoke.
"Well.... y'all gonna eat this?" you asked, motioning to all the scattered granola.
They didn't reply.
"Okay slay!" You bent down to start picking up all the pieces. You weren't, after all, gonna let all that go to waste like these bozos would. 
You popped one in your mouth, chomping that stale piece. "Mmmm. Mhm. Yeah. Sprout's. Def." 
You continued to pick them up, the man named Joel now scoffing in disbelief of the situation. You perked up and turned to the Ellie girl. "Hey girlie, you want?" 
Ellie the girl happily grabbed some, chewing on it for what looked like the first time. You were confused, judging, but thought it best to not judge. 
"Ggrjsdfjsakjdfska."
All three of you stood straight, frozen. 
Another fungus bitch pulled up, arms out and perked up at the sight of y'all - his possible little buffet. He had on a Vineyard Vines t-shirt and a pair of Sperry's. In summation? Ugly. His face was also fucked up.
"Oh, my god," you said, over it, "what ever happened to finders fucking keepers? Y'all getting on my damn NERVES! Hold this girl," you passed the collected granola into Ellie's arms. Joel, getting prepped to probably curb stomp this once-private and probably racist schoolboy, soon stopped once he saw you step up to the ring. 
As mentioned before, you never liked to resort to violence, but there comes a time...
You grabbed that zombie by the hair, and began to wail on it with one punch after another, grabbing it's man-bun ponytail and slamming its body onto the ground, continuing to obliterate it's my-daddy-has-a-boat ass, completely disassociating with anger. 
Joel and Ellie watched in both horror and amazement at your abilities. 
"You fucking bitch back the FUCK off bro!" you muttered. The last time you fought with this same manner and vigor was in the school bathrooms over a juul. Those cookie-monster PJ pants girls taught you well. 
Once you landed him in an induced coma, you rose up, took in a deep breath and searched his Bermuda short's side pockets, feeling for the all familiar shape. And there she was. 
You pulled it out - there she was in all her beauty. 
"Speaking of!" you said, examining the blueberry fume. As mentioned, it was just like those bathroom fights. "Yes YES! I used to know a girl who FUCKED these up! I just KNEW he'd carry!" 
Just then, the rich boy moved. You clocked it, and kicked it on its side. It rose and quickly ran off, frightened, as you continued to yell some more obscenities. You hit the fume - shit was still kicking. 
You turned back. "Sorry guys, I'm just, I try to be patient with them, and I am, don't get me wrong. I know COVID has everyone acting, you know, off their shit but," you looked to the now deceased fungus tweaker. "Poor girl. She just wanted some granola bits." 
Joel furrowed his brows, very confused. "Why would you be 'patient' with them? They're infected!" 
"Hey! That's not a nice way to characterize victims of diseases - drugs are real, like don't you know about fenty? And I'm not even talking about Rihan -"
"They're runners! They're not human!"
You turned back to the limping 'runner', now confused too. 
"Runners?" you asked, turning back. 
Joel nodded. "Yeah. Infected. Undead." 
"You mean, like, zombies?"
Joel took a minute, seemingly embarrassed that he hadn't thought of something so obvious as that sooner. 
"You know," you shrugged, tired, blowing out an obnoxious cloud of smoke from the fume, a cloud, if you will, "they're just going through it." 
Ellie looked to Joel, unsure of what to make of your comments. 
It was now nighttime, and after massively failing to locate or find your way back home, Joel, out of pity that you were a bit of a bimbo, allowed you to stay with them for one night. 
You all were camped (ew I know) in the middle of a forest, it was pitch black outside all except for the small fire in front of you all where Joel had baked beans cooking. Apparently, your perfect shopping cart with the goodies vaporized into the air, because it was nowhere in sight after the whole shabackle and hubbub. Joel suggested in a, what you swore was, passive-aggressive way, that you were so starved you began hallucinating it. You knew that was most probably the case but would've rather eat a fungus off one of those 'runners' or whatever's faces than admit that. And you would've, again, rather eat that toe fungus than mentioned your probable house's carbon dioxide leakage.
Anyway, back to the scene - Ellie is knocked out in her sleeping bag, leaving you and Joel to sit across from each other in a pretty awkward silence as you ate those gross ass beans. There were some moments you caught yourself about to complain about them and claim they tasted like 'dick', but thought it best not to. But, you needed to say something about this, you couldn't just hold it in. 
"How's the beans?" Joel asked, quietly and moodily as usual.
"Tbh," you said, the first thing spoken in like an hour, "...I just want, like, sushi, man."
His face fell a bit.
"But this isn't bad! Trust me!" you quickly tried saving yourself, feeling very quite bad, "look, I've had beans in England. Some say the bean capital of the world, there's literally a dude from there named Mr. Bean. And this is so much better."
He was too confused to reply.
You felt a fly buzz by your ear - one of your number one hated sensories to be crossed - and smacked it. You HATED the outdoors too, as much as you hated these beans. It reminded you of when you had exited your home after months being inside and how quickly that 'touching-grass' shit got old. 
But still, no complaining. 
You glanced over at him, and you couldn't help but think - man this dude looks familiar. Very familiar. You weren't sure if it's just cause you haven't seen another person in some time, or in this case, another man in so long that your brain basically said: "man = every other man" and that's the reason you thought he looked 'familiar'. But, no, no - you'd SEEN this man before. Did you have a dream about him? No, that was Rick. Actually, now that you thought about it, he lowkey looked like some of your ex's? 
"What's your name?" you asked, trying to break the awkward silence. You knew, but had forgotten. 
He hesitated, his grumpy ass chewing on those beans. "Joel. Joel Miller." 
"Oh my god, you're real?" And that was it - THAT'S why he looked familiar! "I literally wrote a fan fiction about you in class, and submitted that as my final! Everything really does come full circle when you think about it." You went back to eating your beans, waiting for him to respond, which he didn't really do a lot. You thought it best to move on. 
"Well, Joel. Can I tell you something?" 
He hesitated again, a little longer. "What?"
"So like, I've only been out here for like, a week? Or two? To be honest I don't remember. Could be a month, but like, what happened?"
"What do you mean what happened?" that southern drawl coming out more now that he was annoyed/mad that you'd even ask a question like that. 
You shrugged and looked around. "Like, all this?" you said, obviously. 
He let out a tired breath.
"Well, there were this fungu -"
Just as he was about to explain, you interrupted, unknowingly, going on more about your cluelessness. 
" - Like, one minute I'm in a resort, you know, the White Lotus one, sipping marg's on the beach, for like a month? My ex-boyfriend slash sugar daddy at the time, AND I only say ex cause he hasn't gotten back to me since all this shit happened so I just assumed he broke it off with me but whatever, that's not the point, Tony - Tony's his name - paid for my stay. It was great, I was living pretty, you know, lavishly? VERY lavishly, actually. I was tanning, being massaged, going through a whole cleanse, you know? No phone, no internet. I had a bunch of books recommendations from TikTok, but to be honest I didn't really read them cause the words just don't process, you know? You just need to bring it with you to make people THINK you read, you know? Anyway, I'm there, and who do I see? Fucking Jared Leto! Yeah, that creepy ass bitch! He had his whole cult there, like they're weird Jonestown retreat or whatever, and I wanted to join cause it looked fun but I knew I probably couldn't be married to him, you know, how all those cult leaders are. Anyway whatever, it was great. I was having a great time, Big Ange was even there and she left me her green glasses and I've been meaning to give them back to her - "
"- Where'd you say you were staying at again?"
"White Lotus? In Jersey?"
"There's a beach resort in Jersey?"
"No, I know what you mean. It's where Tony was from, but it's a faux beach. The beach? It's faux. Stops the smell of rotting 'whacked' bodies, you know, cause that's not very resort like?"
He nodded, he understood. 
"Yeah. Anyway," you said, annoyed he interrupted you, "I'm there, in my room, sleeping, and there's a knock at my door. I go and it's the lobby guy or whatever, he's like rushing me out telling me about how my stay is over cause there's a cold going around and I have to leave, like? I'm sorry, I paid - well Tony paid - for the whole month and a half? But what am I gonna do, you know? So I'm like fine fucking party poopers, and they kick me out, like a fucking cartoon, down the steps of the place and toss my luggage. At first I was mad, cause like, what's a little cold? And then I look outside where they kicked me out and the world is like, over? Everything ended? Over a fucking cold? Shit was like, demolished. And then they shut the door behind me leaving me to fend for myself, like I'm sorry? Do I look like Bear Grylls? Do I look like 'Survivor'? Like I got this shit handled? So whatever, I walked back home and let's just say: Culture. Shock. Insane. Like, whaaattttt? Covid was worse than I thought! Then I get home, my power's out, my water, everything. And shit was DIRTY! Like as if I'd been gone for twenty fucking years. I couldn't check Twitter or anything, it wasn't loading so I couldn't find out what the big deal was. Like, guys, can we talk about the political and economic state of the world right now? AND I had a blister on my toe from the walk! It sucked!" 
(Told you we'd revisit! Now, we're revisited!)
Once you were finished with your impromptu story time, Joel intently listening, he went onto explain after the whole lore of the political and economic state of the world right now, how it wasn't even political or economic, just a virus. Shit was crazy. Fungus, coffee beans and spinach, Fire fly people, rations, explosions, the whole deal. You were tapped in, realizing you didn't space out cause he was just so fine to look out you genuinely cared about what he had to say. And he said it. 
A sullenness came over him, and you hated to say - it was pretty hot. But time and place! It just occurred to you that he didn't seem like the type to open up, so him being vulnerable just made you think, wow, he's a human! And he's hot! 
After he finished, there was a sad silence in the air. 
"Man....covid really was worse than I thought," you replied. 
"Now do you get it? They're not real people or 'girlies'. They're infected," he said. "Do you have any experience with them? Besides the one you beat on and scared away today?"
"What makes you think I don't have any experience?" you replied, with a little flirtatious-sass in your voice. You knew you didn't have experience. 
"Cause no experienced person would have willingly beaten up an infected the way you did without fear of being scratched or bit. It was reckless and stupid what you did."
"Yeah but I fucked his ass up," you said, hyping yourself up in the process. "But lol you're kinda right. Nah, yeah the most experience I have with zombies is Black Ops. Those bitches give me the heeby JEEBIES!" 
"You think this Tony is still alive?"
"I don't know, actually," you said. "We got into a pretty bad argument before I left, that's why I left, you know, to the resort, for some space and a break between each other. So I doubt he'd call me back now." 
"What about?"
"He's like a big animal guy, you know? Whatever, his fucking horse died and I literally didn't know, no one told me. There was a candle lit at the vet when they were putting him down and I was like, as a joke, 'guys! It's lit right now!' and he was all like, 'what he fuck is wrong with you?'. He was annnnggrryyyyyyy. I didn't read the paper beside the candle saying to be quiet, that they were putting it down," you said, shrugging. "Really sad. She was a pretty horse, you know? Cunty." 
Joel nodded. This was all a very serious affair for him. It bummed you out, everything was so serious and sad out here. 
"So these zombies aren't girl's girls after all? They're like, anti-girlies?" you asked, mainly as a statement of fact you were coming to terms with rather than a question. 
"I guess so," he said. "Whatever the fuck that means," he also said, not as audible. That explosion earlier left you more partially deaf. 
He looked down and continued to fiddle and play with his beans with his fork, not taking much interest in his appetite anymore.  There was a moment of silence between you guys, more comfortable than before. You both felt the bond of this shared experience bring you guys together a bit, in this very moment. He didn't feel much of a stranger anymore, and neither did you to him. You felt, truly, he was a man who lost something too...
The solemness on him, again you hated to admit, you found very attractive. EXTREMELY attractive, actually. The last time you saw a relatively attractive man was months ago at the resort, and he was, unfortunately, (but not unfortunately for the gays) a gay man. RIP ARMAND <3. So safe to say, you were rabidly horndogging. He was the type of man that has a LOT of shit going on, but doesn't talk about it, but DOES look like it. 
But you knew how to handle this - it wasn't your first rodeo. 
"So are you, like, single, orrr...?" you asked, sheepishly, acting like you are so not trying to get at him right now. 
"Why do you ask?" he replied, somewhat guarded. 
"Well cause you got a daughter and all, like is there a wife orrr - ?"
" - She's not my daughter." 
"Damn. Okay. So you're like babysitting orrr?"
He thought for a moment. "Sure," he replied, cautiously. 
"Man, you're just triggering my daddy issues!" you joked but it horrendously didn't land, "just kidding!" You giggled, casually and nervously. What happened to time and place?
TIME JUMP!!!!!
Remember how I said Joel just let you stay with them for one night? Well now it's been like six months and you're halfway across the country, in another truck! Yay!
Despite him giving clear signs that you two were to part, (not wanting to outright DIRECTLY say so cause he didn't wanna be rude), it was clear you weren't able to those read social cues that well. (Actually, you did, you read them quite well, but wanted to pretend not to because he was now your Rick and you lowkey mentally imprinted on him on some Twilight shit). He eventually gave up all hope, pitying you in a way. The only positive he saw was how you did all the talking with Ellie, since his ass is basically mute.
You became a sort of bigger sister/cool aunt for her, which you ate the fuck up. You had to fill her in on EVERYTHING: the Dramageddon lore, the Challengers summer experience, Ariana Grande/Spongebob fiasco, Kendrick v. Drake beef, Jojo's Karma's a Bitch and how she's the first self-proclaimed lesbian to ever exist, Colleen Ballinger's ukulele apology, finding out about the Queen's death and Twitter, the Montgomery riverfront fight, and more that aren't too important to mention. You thought it best to fill her in on shit a girl her age would fuck up, like what kid cares about the political and economic state of the world right now? Anyway you two got along very well, she made you giggle and you made her giggle, the perfect vibe! Joel lowkey admired you for, (and found it hot), the way you were with her. What could you say? All those years in early childhood back in high school meant something after all! Not just D grades and getting caught with a cart in your backpack!
Speaking of Joel, he definitely wouldn't show it, but like I said, he began to like you a bit. Actually, fuck that middle school shit and 'liking' - he began to FALL for you! On some romantic period piece shit! And who wouldn't? Besides those moldy Spongebob shorts, crusty yet fast Lightening McQueen Crocs and Beetlejuice hair, you were a natural beauty! Girl you were bad asf!!!!
Now in another pick-up, y'all were moving cross cuntry. You had your feet out the window, letting them get that breeze as you watched the Microsoft Windows default wallpaper-esque landscape pass on by. Ellie was in the back reading her nerd ass comic books, while Joel drove, of course, in silence. You were literally his passenger princess. If only you had a phone and AUX, cause your Spotify roadtrip playlist would so hit right now.
But again, what's in Ohio?
All you knew, was that they needed to get to Ohio. What's in Ohio? Who the fuck knows. Logan Paul? London? Yes, there's a London in Ohio, you knew that all to well when you accidentally booked a flight there instead of the actual London in England high off a Benadryl pill. But you wouldn't mention that to Joel.
You weren't sure what the fuck was up with Ohio, all he said was that they needed to get there. You thought it best not to question too much, afraid of losing that passenger princess spot.
(hey! it's Sam and my dumbass just realized that it's Utah they're going to, not Ohio. Apparently they wanna meet up with the Mormons, not Prime's own, Logan Paul. Whatever same hick ass states anyway I'm not gonna change it so proceed!)
"I wish I had my phone or AUX right now," you said, sadly. "I have this Spotify roadtrip playlist that would sooooo hit right now."
He gave you a side eye, his normal response.
"What song would you play?" Ellie asked.
"Hmm, let me think," you said, now thinking. "Probably like, Lana's cover of 'Take Me Home, Country Roads'? You know, cause we're like on country roads right now."
Joel gave you another side eye. You peeped. This was a perfect prying moment!
"Do you know that song?" you asked Joel. Y'all barely spoke anything personal (actually, YOU spoke at lengths, without being asked, about your personal stuff, but not vice versa. He was a great listener, though).
"Yeah. I know it," he said, quietly. You knew there was more.
Just as you were about to say something, he interrupted.
"But I don't know who that 'Lana' is."
"Oh, Joel, you'd fuck UP Lana! She's like the bridge between girlies and middle-aged men, not for the same reasons but a bridge nonetheless!"
You all then began to talk about music, but it usually involved just you and Ellie pairing up to bully, in a friendly way, Joel. It was fun to make fun of him, in a friendly way. You got so much enjoyment out of bugging these grown ass men, cause their egos were so fragile. You also just kind of found it hot that you could do that, with Joel as NO exception.
As mentioned before, he was very quiet. And you're a talker. See the problem? You were waiting for the right moment, when after all this buildup and trust would, well, buildup into trust, enough for him to open up to you. And when that day comes, it won't be just his mouth opening up!
You also got pretty good at learning how to defend yourself against the zombie girlies. Not that you didn't know before, but now, with Joel's help, you were able to take down multiple at once. You ate that shit up, feeling like one of those hot Resident Evil characters. Joel was even impressed, which made you pretend more like it was 'no biggie' as you'd usually say. What you didn't say, of course, was how your asshole clenched from fear every time you saw one and how you ached all over from fighting! But why would you?! Appearances are lowkey everything!!
The skyline of the city finally came into view. Fuck if you knew which city it was, you lost track. Your stomach rumbled. You cradled it as if you were "so I'm thirty-four weeks today", softly and longingly. You needed to eat. The rumble was loud, causing Joel to look over.
"You okay?"
"Does it sound like it? I'm hungry," you said. "Where's my fume?" You began to pat yourself down for that appetite suppressant, having an addict's moment of panic that you may have lost it. You didn't, she just thought she'd be funny and slip between the cracks of the chair and armrest. You pulled that bitch out and envisioned it was a Five Guy's cheeseburger as you inhaled that faux blueberry chemical.
"Guys, what's this?" Ellie asked, reaching over to the front, pointing to a roll of sushi illustrated in her comic. You didn't know Batman had time to eat sushi, but,
"Oh, FUCK!" you bellowed. "Sorry, Ellie. Excuse my French. I could so eat that right now."
You then caught a glimpse of a rather large scar on her forearm. Shit looked crazy.
"Uh, Ellie," you said. "I don't wanna like, overstep or be rude, I know it's none of my business."
Joel and Ellie suddenly tensed up. At this moment, they both knew the mistake Ellie had just made. You didn't, of course, which was why they were concerned.
Ellie backed up softly, quickly covering up her scar. Joel shifted in his seat.
"Uh, yeah? What is it?" Ellie asked wearily.
"That scar," you said.
Ellie gulped. Joel tightened his grip on the wheel.
"You should slap some scar cream on that. Like, Mederma? Ever heard of it?"
"Mederma?" Ellie asked.
Joel let out a relieved breath. He raked his hand through his hair, self-soothingly. They were good. Thank god for your lack of social cues.
"It's, uh, a scar cream," Joel answered lowly.
"It helps, trust. Once, I was on a city bike in Miami Beach, fell right onto the concrete and ate shit. It was bad, but once that scar closed, I lathered that cream on, and that's it. Now I don't even remember where the scar is. The doctor said it was from memory loss after smacking my head on the ground, but I really think it was the Mederma. So yeah. Get some if you can," you said.
"Uh huh. Okay," Ellie said. She wasn't really listening, instead trying to relax herself from you almost finding out about what was really in Ohio (Utah). And you wanna know something? It's not Logan Paul (Mormons).
"Anyway, yeah that food? It's sushi. It's sooooo good. So good," you said, reminiscing about those rolls. "So good. So so sooooo good."
"What's sushi?"
"Anything you want it to be, honestly. But usually fish," you said.
You took a moment.
"FUCK!" you yelled again, the anger of craving sushi so animalistic, "Sorry, sorry. I just, I just really want sushi. I wish you could try it Ellie, I think you'd like it. Joel, do you like sushi?"
"Never had it."
"What?"
"I've never had it."
"How have you never had sushi?"
"I just haven't."
"Well, you should."
"I can't."
"Why not? You allergic to fish?"
"No."
"Why?"
"Cause we're in a goddamn apocalypse," he replied, this time quite irritated.
"Well, if you do, let me know. I want a piece," you said, a little sassy, looking back out the window.
He then turned to give you a hard look. It was a mix of anger and confusion, the usual.
"You know," he started, trying to think of the words, "you're weir -"
" - JOEL WATCH OUT!!!!!!!"
Joel shot his head straight forward, to see a zombie standing in the middle of the road.
BAMBOOMSD AHSDFJKASJDFKSJSKLDJFAS
He swerved, causing you're not-wearing-seatbelt-ass to slam into the passenger car door, then rag doll as you held on for dear life on the grab handles above as you flipped over and over and over and over and over and over from the sheer power and magnitude of that swerve.
BOOM CRASH BOOFS FJADSJJDASKDSAADS CRASH BOOM POPSJDKFJASFAS
"OH SHI -"
You looked like Jay Leno in that one video where the car repeatedly flips over and over, with Joel holding his arm out trying to keep you down (didn't work).
BOOM CRASH POWEBSDAJFJSAKDA BOOF BAM POWBOOMSADJF
It just kept going.
CRASHBOOM JSDHSIFHJSA CRASH SJDFLSAFDKL FLIPSD FASKJDFSSDOAFLIP SADJFKSAJFD
Kept going.
BOOM CRASHDJSAKDFJSALDJ FAS
Yo lowkey when this gonna stop?
BOOM CRASH BOOFS FJADSJJDASKDSAADS CRASH BOOM POPSJDKFJASFASSDJFSKAKDADAS.....
SJKDFASKLJDFS boom pop.....crash...
It finally stopped!
You groaned awake, feeling FUCKED up your shit was ROCKED.
"Get up! GET UP!" Joel yelled, already having been out the car with Ellie.
"Oh my god okay chill I literally just flipped?"
"It's a trap! They're raiders!"
"What -"
"TA-TATA-ATATATATATPPAPAPAATATATATTAAAA!!!!"
You rolled your eyes bro not again.
All three of you took cover behind the now dilapidated truck as the raiders shot from the other side of the road.
You weren't even scared now, just over it like? Likeeee???????
Joel started shooting back, and so did you and though your aim was pretty shit you managed to take out some of them. You found that not looking and just shooting overhead and all over the place was the best tactic! Let the bullet find its own way <3
"Oh my god, Joel, I got an idea!" you said.
"What?!" he bellowed, very busy with the whole gunfire and all.
"We should make a bomb!"
"How?!"
"Mazel tov cocktail?"
"You mean molotov?!"
"Why are you correcting me? We have to think fast not be correcting each other get your priorities straight Joel oh my god?! Am I the only one taking this seriously?!?!?"
You dropped that gun on the floor and began to craft the bomb with such efficiency and grace, you felt like a little brainiac. You thought this may have been how the Unabomber felt like if he actually succeeded. (Thank god he didn't though lol right?? btw fbi I'm not a terrorist sympathizer!!! - Sam)
Let's just say - the pressure was on! As you were crafting the bomb, shots continue to fly by overhead, blowing comically large holes in Beetlejuice-esque hair. Joel kept rushing you, which you didn't appreciate like no shit I'm trying to go fast? Why would I not be trying to go fast dumbass?
Once you finished, you lit the cloth's end and turned to Joel and threw it at him, "THINK FAST JOEL!"
He, petrified, grabbed it in midair and looked at you with a look of complete awe. And it wasn't the good kind. More a look of horror, actually. Offended horror.
"WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU THROW IT AT ME?!?!?!"
"UH, DOES IT LOOK LIKE I HAVE GOOD EYE-HAND COORDINATION?!?! YOU THROW IT!?!?!"
In disbelief, he threw the molotov on the other side of the car and took cover.
You all ducked, and you took out your Dollar Store sunnies to cover your eyes from, essentially, the war crime you've just committed.
Let's just say - Oppenheimer would've been jealous. It wasn't your first time making a molotov, but something was different in the air that day, because you pretty much made the equivalent of one atomic bomb in that little glass Jarritos bottle.
The light from the bomb was so bright, for a second's moment, everything seemed still and dead silent, muted almost, as the bright glare lit everything around you all - you all braced yourselves, readying for the sound - the boom.
And girl.
Did it boom.
"Boom," said the Jarritos bottle.
The bomb? Yeah, pretty big. The effectiveness? Yeah, pretty and literally groundbreaking. The sound? Yeah, deafening.
Shards of metal, glass, unidentifiable body parts, and other mumbo jumbo flew right past you all from behind the truck, as you all huddled together, still tense from the impact.
If it wasn't for the fact that, as previously mentioned, you were already lowkey deaf from AirPods, you'd definitely be a mute. The sound riveted through all y'all's ear drums, sprinkling in a little tinnitus behind.
You guys crept up to see the damage. You pretty much did more than enough, they all literally died. The coast was definitely clear and y'all were good to go!
You three then grabbed your bags and started to walk down the road into the city, all in a stunned silence. You weren't that stunned, really, (it wasn't your first time making bombs as you did notably do some freelance work for Escobar), but Ellie and Joel had the same look like that one pic of that thousand-yard-stare soldier.
Joel was also quite pissed off, he just had that grumpy ass face he always has, but more intense. You assumed it was cause of the whole shabackle, but couldn't understand why he didn't see a reason to smile right now like? We're literally walking alive! Yeah, walking instead of driving, but alive!
"Uh, what's with the long face girl?" you asked, trying to spread your happiness.
He didn't respond.
As you got closer to the city, your patience was running thinner. The big ass backpack you had on kept slipping cause one of the straps was fucked up, causing you to have to constantly shift it upwards. It was reallllyyyyy starting to tick you off. You felt like a middle schooler who hasn't learned it's cooler to just bring a folder and chewed up pencil to school. It was also heavy as fuck with a ton of random bullshit like Joel's Linda Ronstadt CD's and Ellie's nerd ass comic books. Look, you were all for physical media, but you were also all about setting the bag on fire and catapulting it Ancient Rome style for another raider's battle. You kept this to yourself until then, though, like mama's lil secret <3.
Now in the city, you guys took a shortcut through some random building. You weren't sure it was a smart shortcut, cause it's a random building, but you were too exhausted to really gaf and ask. Plus, Joel didn't seem in the mood. He never was.
You were all creeping through the abandoned, smelly, rotting, moldy hallways, finding out it used to be a dispensary, and thought you could find some, you know, good loot or whatever. So you mentioned to Joel and Ellie that'd you look around and split off. Joel knew you were going to look for any scraps of weed like a raccoon feign, (your blueberry vape died during the battle)
You turned a corner, into a room, then looked around carefully. The place seemed pretty empty, so your guard? Very down.
"Slippppppping I'm slippingggggg," said the bag.
"Oh. My. Fucking. God," you said through gritted teeth, feeling a rise of deep anger. You violently thrusted it back on your shoulder, sore from the weight as you turned a corner. "Fucking dumbass back pack -"
You then hit the wall, as you were too distracted and fixated on the bag.
"Oh fuck," you said, rubbing your head. You looked up.
"OH FUCK!"
It wasn't a wall, it was actually the fupa of a giant bloater. You stood, petrified, stunned - almost collapsing onto the ground from the fear that plummeted into you - you were Wendy Williams as the Statue of Liberty.
Then, it burped, just staring down at you.
"AY DIOS MIO!!!!"
Like a cartoon, you jumped in the air, turned the other way and hauled absolute ASS out of there.
"GUYS!!!! GUYS, WE GOT A FLOATER!!!!!!" you screamed, running and running, doing what you perhaps always seemed to do best.
It started to chase you, it's fee fi fo fum ass stomps echoing from behind. This was some temple run ass shit.
"Feee....Fi.....Fo.....Fummmm.....," the bloater's steps said.
You then felt that all too familiar feeling, down there. And not the good kind. You had to shit. That bloater? Yeah. Scared you so much it made your butthole say,
"I need to shit."
The anxiety of 1. a bloater, 2. your need to go shit, and 3. you not being able to locate neither Joel or Ellie, filled you with such dread. You really did now gaf.
"Feeeeee....Fiiiii.....Foooooo.....Fuuuuuummmm....."
"GUYS??!?! GUYS LIKE WHERE THE FUCK ARE Y'ALL?!?!? NO LIKE FOR REAL?!?!?!"
Every thought raced through your mind - did they die? Did they abandoned you? Or worse, did they stop somewhere to eat WITHOUT you????
"Feeeeeeeeeeee....Fiiiiiii.....Fooooooo.....Fuuuuuuuuuuummmm....."
"Ohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygod," you rambled, holding one hand on your ass to keep the shit in and the other on that backpack strap.
"Slipping I'm slipping again!!!!" the bag said.
"OhmygodIHATETHISFUCKASSBACKPACK!!!!!" you screamed, then proceeded to grab it and yeet it full force at the bloater's fupa.
The power of your thrust was so monstrous it caused the bloater to fly mid-air backwards for several feet and land right through a glass window.
You didn't stop to check it out, now instead enjoying the free weight literally off your back and your faster paced running. Those Lightening McQueen Crocs were now in full force, in sports mode and ready to go. With every step, the sounds of tiny yet serious little engines squeaked out from below the heel.
You then spotted the pair, and to your relief they hadn't died, left you, or were eating. No, instead they were huddled in a corner, crouched down and holding their fingers to their mouth. It looked as though they were telling you to be quiet.
"Do you guys want me to be quiet?" you asked. At that moment, Joel's spirit died. He let his head fall in general disappointment.
Turns out, an entire group of clickers were in the room next door, overstimulated, triggered and ready to pounce, triggered from your maniacal distant screaming.
"Ohhh," you mouthed, nodding overtly your head in full understanding. You crept on over, now huddled with them.
"Where's your bag?" Ellie whispered.
"What bag?" you asked, then looking away as if disinterested. You thought the best way to explain the absence of the bag was to gaslight them into thinking there was no bag in the first place. "So what now?"
"Joel?" Ellie asked.
Joel thought for a moment. "We're going to walk across the room, quietly and slowly to the exit on the other side. No fighting, no shooting," he whispered.
"Okay lieutenant," you said, biting your tongue like a white mom. This was again your attempt at flirting but it didn't work. You really needed to better your timing.
You three began to creep down the hallway, and at first it was working great, up until two random stray clicker girls were hanging out at the exit doors.
You three stopped, Joel thought for a moment on how to handle this.
You couldn't stop. You still needed to shit, and you needed to shit now. You felt your asshole gaping for air, knowing that a fart was the last thing needed now. You held that shit in, but alas some things cannot be held in forever....
"Joel," you whispered in his ear, "I like, have to shit, bad. Like, emergency. Can we speed this up?"
He heard you and decided to ignore you.
He took out his gun, then turned to you both. "I'm gonna shoot, but then you two need to run through those doors. Don't stop and don't look back."
You two nodded.
He aimed, but at that moment, you had no control.
You couldn't hold her in anymore.
This was it.
You can't control nature's course.
You farted.
And he shoted.
But your fart was like a silencer? It worked? It was so subtle and swift, and its duration lasted long enough for two shots that the clickers took it as another one of their co-clickers farting.
The two fungi bitches dropped dead and nothing followed.
"Did you just fart?" Joel asked, breaking the silence.
"No, no - that was the bloater?" you turned behind, again using the gaslighting tactic. He looked behind, too, confused, and since you knew that bloater was probably busy reading comic books and listening to Linda Ronstadt some ways away, you thought it best to move on.
"So like we gonna go orrrr....?" you asked.
"We need to run," Joel said.
"Don't need to tell me twice!" you said before hightailing outta there, your Crocs doing wonders, and leaving them in the dust, (it was actually asbestos).
Running? Running was what you did best. It was so basic, so innate, there was really nothing to it. You always thought, had it not been for all these setbacks in your life, these side quests that just kept side questing you, you lowkey could've been a runner? Not the crackhead Flaka drug ones but, the other type of runner. But oh well c'est la vie.
You three made it out and ran for what seemed like miles and miles (it was across the street), before you stopped from the force of your imminent shit. Joel and Ellie ran past you, not waiting to save your ass, and climbed down some rubble. You tapped back in.
"Joel! JOEL!"
He turned to you, flustered and annoyed as the group of zombies echoed behind y'all like the sounds of minions.
"WHAT?!"
"I CAN'T CLIMB DOWN!"
"YES YOU CAN?!"
You looked down the rubble - you theoretically could, but didn't wanna make one wrong move and ledge your asshole open. Of course, though, you couldn't tell him that, boys aren't supposed to know that girls shit. So you hoped that maybe you acting as a girlie who needed a guy's unnecessary chivalry could so hit right now. He wasn't biting.
"WHAT?" he yelled, literally less than three feet below you.
It wasn't gonna work. The zombies incoherent ramblings grew louder and louder behind you. Looks like plan B - you needed to give him no choice.
He started to run back towards Ellie, before you stopped him.
"JOEL! CATCH MEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Like a baby who's dropped into the pool for the first time to 'learn how to swim' without any sense of physical agency or control, like a manic person running with their hands up and mouth agape, like a true damsel in distress, you hauled yourself off of that three-foot ledge, aiming for Joel's heroic yet un-consenting arms, all in a slo-mo.
Joel literally had no choice but to catch you, so he did, and your fat ass made him fall backwards onto the ground where it really fucked up his 50 year old, seniors discount breakfast-ass back.
"Oh fuck," you said, like a wounded grandma.
Joel groaned. You two looked at one another in the face, quite close, cause you were literally on top of him? Like omg this is so rom-com! Enemies to lover's type! Except you were always his enemy and you always thought he'd be your lover <3
Time stood still as you looked into one another's eyes. It was as if the whole world had stopped, and it was only you two - you inspected every wrinkle, gray hair, blackhead - he was beautiful.
"Uh, guys! We need to go?!" Ellie shouted.
"Oh shit I forgot -" you said and bounced right up, remembering your shit, and back to leaving.
You three were back to running, since it was not only your favorite activity but a common pastime in apocalyptic worlds. You were up ahead, again fueled by your natural instincts needing to shit, its adrenaline pumping through your veins as if you were the Flaka fungi people. It caused you to momentarily ponder - is the real reason why all these zombies are irritable is because they need to shit but can't, so they've been backed up for YEARS? A shiver went down your neck at just the thought.
You turned a corner between buildings, before stopping again in your tracks. A whole fucking HERD OF THEM BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!
You were frozen, petrified, stunned, silenced. Your face couldn't help but go into its natural fight or flight state - the soy face. And a mega one at that.
Joel stopped, looked at you frightened.
"What? What is it?!" he asked desperately.
But there was no time. Cause guess what? There's now bandits!!!
Then THEY started to chase you. Fuck the clickers. Fuck an iClicker!
You couldn't help but giggle. You couldn't help but be amused. Why are a bunch of bandits chasing a girl in SpongeBob shorts? Like they think you got the goods like that?! What's a girl with Spongebob shorts got? A probable yeast infection?
You didn't realize it, but your giggles were actually audible. You sounded like Pops from Regular Show.
"I'm just a girl, like whaaaaaa?" you giggled and shouted, running still. "Like, leave me alone what the fuck?!?!? This is crazy omg!!!"
Even Joel was confused, running beside you, thinking, 'why is this bitch giggling?'
Even the bandits took notice and got weirded out. So weirded out they actually stopped chasing y'all. You were treating an ambush like a frolicking sesh in the garden.
You supposed it was your brain trying to protect you, seeing that you were in actual danger of being killed. Maybe you genuinely couldn't believe it? Who knows. (I'm not a psychologist I'm sam st. Clair)
You all finally made it to a supermarket, where you boarded yourselves up once you scoped the place out. It was nighttime now, hella dark out and you couldn't guess shit where y'all were at. You just relied that Joel knew, it was your default since he's the self-proclaimed Rick of this little posse y'all got.
Anyway, you three split off, maybe because you all were tired of all the socializing you guys did back there. You didn't mind being alone, it gave you the opportunity to fart without anyone around to sniff or judge, or both. Speaking of farting, you took your shit the moment you slammed your ass on the toilet in the back, where the manager's office was. Shit was monstrous and you were sure you might've contracted some of the fungi since you were so determined to sit down that you didn't notice spores all up on the seat. But oh well. Your ass did start to itch, but you relied on your body to figure it out.
You got so bored you decided to walk up and down the smelly aisles, then found a pack of untouched, one of a kind, rare finds, vintage ZooPals. You remembered that Joel was making dinner, so thought these would be perfect!
You grabbed them fast, then went to present them to him. He was not so impressed.
"Joel, check it," you said, acting as if you were Christian Bale in American Psycho showing off your business card.
"That's extra weight," he said, dismissively and went back to cooking the beans.
"Are you kidding me?! This is some fine China right here," you protested. "Your boomer ass might be having a dementia episode or something not remembering the sheer value of what it is to eat off a ZooPal's plate."
His demeanor got sadder. You feared you might've crossed the line with the dementia comment.
"No," he mumbled solemnly. "They remind me of my daughter."
Your face dropped.
"Yikes. Sorry about that luv," (when you felt awkward you opted to go British). You then walked away. Best avoid that <3
That night you guys ate the beans and left in the morning, since Joel said apparently a supermarket isn't the best place to hide. You weren't sure why - if they carried ZooPal's, who know what else they could be hiding?
You kept walking down the street until you found a car that looked recently used. Joel tried starting it with the cables and shit whatever they do in the movies when they jumpstart a car. Red wire blue wire green fish two fish one fish blue fish.
"Can I drive?" you asked. You weren't sure what got into you, you literally don't have a license. Not that traffic violations mattered in these parts, but because you couldn't even tell left from right.
He gave you a look. "Fine."
"That was easy," you said.
As he began fixing it up, Ellie pointed to an object on the dashboard.
"What's that?" she asked.
You looked.
Oh no.
Not on my car.
"No. Not on my fucking car."
You grabbed that octopus stuffed animal dashboard bullshit, swung and threw that shit so far that it broke a nearby high-rise apartment window and exploded. It was a bomb and you inadvertently just saved everyone's life.
"How'd you know that was a bomb?" Joel asked, incredulously.
You knew the answer was that you didn't know it was a bomb, it was cause you actually hated nothing more on this earth than those octopus dashboard plushies, because every bad driver in a BMW happens to have one, so you thought you should go with the flow.
"I told you. I worked for Escobar. I can smell a bomb," you said.
"Wow. That's a crazy nose you have. It's like your superpower," Ellie said, geeking out.
"If it really was a superpower, I'd been able to stop Oppenheimer," you said.
She didn't get it.
Joel looked up, again, confused why you would say that in the first place.
"Sorry, it's before your time," you said, moving on quickly.
The car started and you three hopped in, ready to drive y'alls asses OUT OF HERE! You were excited, feeling that this was gonna be like a little roadtrip movie.
It was only two miles since you guys have driven and you had to contain your giddiness. Joel definitely wasn't happy and Ellie was to herself in the back reading her nerd ass comics. You just looked crazy laughing to yourself. You were just looking forward to the roadtrip vibes, FINALLY you guys found an actual working car so no more walking no more dilapidated backs no more annoying backpacks and oh shit there's a spider.
"OH SHIT THERE'S A SPIDER!!!" you freaked, seeing it dance slowly from the roof, hanging onto its web and literally three inches away from your face. You began to move yourself away, moving the steering wheel with it and thus moving the whole car off the road.
"Okay, calm down I got it -" Joel said.
"No Joel it's that I can't dude no Joel get it GET IT!" you demanded, feeling like an entity just possessed you with how deep and demented your voice got from the fear.
"Just keep the damn car still I can't grab it!"
He really couldn't, the more you turned the car, the more the spider swayed into your face, causing you to turn the car more and causing Joel to have trouble actually getting it. He was getting frustrated.
"Joel, we're gonna crash!" Ellie cried, trying to hide behind the seat.
The screaming and shouting also wasn't helping the vibe at all.
"I can't dude no Joel it's that I can't BRO FUCK! GET THAT BITCH!" you kept crying, "I'M NOT JOKING BRO!"
"KEEP DAMN STILL -"
Y'all crashed.
The random light post just HAPPENED to be in the way. Thankfully you guys weren't hurt, you just fucked up the car bad. And Joel was pissed. When he's mad, he's quiet. And he was QUIET.
"Well that was short," Ellie said as you three just stood looking at the demolished car. "So what now?"
The 'what now' was actually that you guys found a safe house literally less than a mile away. God finally gave y'all a little break!
It was down the road, in a little suburb. It seemed to have belonged to others, since it was all boarded up and defensed up and the only sign of life left in the house was a infected fungi girl strapped to a chair in the bedroom, placed in front of a tv screen playing a VHS tape of Friends.
You thought it best to put it out of its misery, so you turned off the tv.
You patted her on the back, caring and lovingly as she snarled at you, "No one deserves to be forced to sit and watch Friends, not even in the apocalypse."
You closed the door, leaving her at peace and again, out of her her torture.
Time passed. Joel was about to start cooking beans and Ellie left to go take a much needed power nap in the guest bedroom. You offered Joel to rest and that you'd cook instead. Little did he know how much of an exclusive this was with you, bitch you didn't cook. But you felt pretty bad for the whole spider thing and thought, hey, what's a little cooking? What's a little meal prep?
Joel said his very weary 'thanks' and went to rest on the couch, while you went into the kitchen. He looked genuinely happy to see you take the responsibility. And you were genuinely happy in other places too at the idea of you cooking for him <3 and Ellie ofc. And yourself, who could forget your fat ass?
Time passed, maybe a little too long of a time to make beans, when you had finally finished. Though you were pretty sure all the garnishes left in the kitchen were expired and no, those are not flakes of oregano but flakes of mold, they actually came out pretty good. You prepped three beautiful plates, on the fine China (ZooPal's, Ellie got the duck plate, Joel the ladybug, and you the frog), and went to push the kitchen door to present your dish as if you were battling Bobby Flay on that one kitchen show with the other woman with white hair that looks like she'd be one of the emotions from Inside Out.
"Dinner's ready! -" you said cheerily, until you realized - it wasn't just Joel who would see your dish. Not Ellie. Not even Bobby Flay - it was the raiders. Again. They were all up in your living room, def crossing the maximum capacity. They just couldn't seem to get enough of you and you didn't want to come off as narcissistic but guessed your personality had to be addictive.
You all took a minute, assessing the situation. Actually, you ALL took that minute. You just stood there, plates filled with beans, and they stood there, guns filled with bullets, with Joel and Ellie on their knees with their wrists tied behind their backs.
The silence kept going.
You just stood there.
"Wait, so -," your bimbo ass said, very Trisha-esque, not even able to come to form a conclusion. You were just so confused. "Wait -"
And there it is again.
Someone tackled you. AGAIN.
Not only did your body go flying underneath the massive weight that just sumo slammed itself into you, but so did the beans. The beans? Yeah, they were airborne. The ZooPal plates? In flight.
The mass was actually a man who was attempting to zip tie your wrists now that he had you pinned down. However, he underestimated your irritability when you were hungry.
Mama's hungry.....and mama wants her beans.....and what mama wants...........mama GETS.........
You had just about had enough.
You threw him off with such strength that could only come with a girl's rage. A rage so deep, so visceral and seemingly uncontrollable, one that could set you back on all the self-help and patience exercises that you've practiced. No. That's it. She's gonna pop, and just like the shit from earlier - some things just cannot be held in forever.
You rose up, looking briefly over at the man who's back slammed against the window, where he then tumbled and tumbled to who knows what fate, but a fate just the same as that bloater earlier.
The raiders were too aghast at your abilities.
"I just, I can't," you started, panicky. "I can't hold it in anymore."
You almost started crying from the mania. You looked very unstable, cause you were.
You took a deep breath, but knew one thing - you've been holding this anger, this wrath in for so long, now it's time for her to be released.
One of the raiders caught on and began to back up. His buddies followed, scared, almost like watching a Jack in the box as a grown adult, but that childlike fear still imprinted in your innermost being.
"Hey listen, we'll just get out of -"
" - do you KNOW HOW FUCKING HARD IT IS TO FIND ANY FOOD OUT HERE WITH NO FUCKING MOLD ON IT?! YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO COOK ROOM TEMPERATURE FUCKING BEANS ON A DINGY LAPTOP RUNNING ON SIMS 3?! IT TAKES A LONG FUCKING TIME!!!! DO YOU KNOW HOW HUNGRY I'VE BEEN?!?!?! I'M THREE DAYS LATE ON MY FUCKING PERIOD AND I'VE BEEN FEIGNING FOR SOME FUCKING BEANS!!!! BEANS, BITCH!!!! DO YOU KNOW HOW DESPERATE I'VE GOTTA BE FOR FOOD TO WANT BEANS?!?! I'M CRAVING ROOM TEMPERATURE BEANS LIKE A SOLDIER IN THE CIVIL FUCKING WAR!!!!! - (you lost them) - DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT THE FUCK THAT IS?!??! THAT'S LIKE, ONE OF THE BIG DEAL WARS!?!??! WHATEVER AND NOW MY BEANS ARE ON THE GROUND LIKE DO I LOOK LIKE TRAVIS KELCE?! DO I LOOK LIKE A BITCH TO BE TACKLED ONTO THE FUCKING GROUND??!?!! DO I HAVE A SIGN ON ME THAT SAYS I'M A QUARTER BACK?!?! NO BITCH I WANT A QUARTER POUNDER!!!! AND NOW LOOK!!! 'UH, GUYS, WE HAVE COMPANY!!!!!'"
After your spew that gave you the same catharsis akin to rapping a Nicki Minaj verse word for word, they put their hands up in surrender and backed on out, suddenly becoming overly-friendly while you followed them out to the porch. You had the same aura as a a 'get off my property or I'll shoot' type.
"Sorry for disturbing you, ma'am."
"Have a nice day, Ms., sorry about that."
"Lovely house and beans."
"Have a good day."
"Bye bye now."
"THANK YOU, YES!! FUCKING LEAVE!!!! RED-COAT, QUARTERING ASS FUGLY ASS BITCHES!! OR Y'ALL DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT IS EITHER?!?! GO FIND A BOOK ON WARS THAT DON'T INVOLVE TOILET PAPER AND LEARN ABOUT THE IMPORTANCE OF BEANS YOU FUCKING SKID MARKS!!!!"
"Great plates."
"I like what you did with your hair, ma'am. Very unique."
"AND STAY OUT!!!!!! THIS IS MY OWN PRIVATE DOMICILE AND I WILL NOT BE HARASSED!!!!!!"
You turned back around into the house, overhearing one of their conversations as they got farther and farther (not only are you partially deaf, but you have super-hearing).
"I think that's the same girl from earlier, with the weird giggles from earlier?"
"Really?"
"Yeah. The Spongebob shorts, remember?"
"Oh, fuck. You're right."
You couldn't help but not smile hard. You like, lowkey did that? No violence or anything. MLK was lowkey right.
But that smile soon fell once you got back into the house, remembering what literally just happened. Seeing your hard work splattered all over the floor was like seeing your own world end. By then, Joel was already untied and had just finished Ellie's.
"That was INSANE!" Ellie said, excitedly. "Did you see their faces?! That was so sick!"
"Thanks, Ellie. I'm lowkey gonna cry now, so those words of positive affirmation do help."
"Wait, don't," Joel said, oddly caring.
"Of course I'm gonna cry! I'M FUCKING HUNGRY oh my god what's that?"
Joel had reached into his bag, pulling out three very familiar containers.
"I'd, uh, hope we could be eatin' this, too," he said sheepishly, as he revealed they were perfect condition, ready-to-eat, beautifully displayed fat rolls of sushi.
You at the very moment became a belieber in spontaneous combustion, because you'd never been so hot so quick, it was just too hot. Joel was too hot. Sushi was too hot too, and he got you sushi?! That's like double the hot! This is Hot Ones DA BOMB!!
"Oh my god, Joel - you didn't," you held your hands to your face, in such happiness and surprise. It looked as if Joel had just proposed to you and the ring was a singular spicy tuna roll.
Joel smiled softly, a rarity around these parts. You found that glimpse of another side of him so interesting, intriguing - attractive. You always knew he was hot, and knew you wouldn't say no to your bestowed Rick, but DAMN like Kendrick's 2017 hit-album he was fine as FUCK right now.
"Contain it girl, contain it," the voices told yourself.
"How'd you get this?!" you asked, taking it as he reached them out for you. You inspected them, you weren't sure if it was because you were hallucinating from the hunger, but they looked exactly like Studio Ghibli food, your fat ass was about to feast. You felt the salivation like those rabies victims outside.
"I'm a smuggler. It's my job," he said, which you swore was flirting-ly but unfortunately didn't have any of your girls around to tell this too and get their opinion :( so you decided to live with your delusion that it was!
You wanted to kiss him so bad for that, you could've cried. And you did.
You three sat around the campfire, eating, talking, laughing, all good vibes. Ellie had finally tried sushi for the first time and loved it, as you went on to explain the days of the Barbenheimer summer. (You thought she needed to dip her toes into Oppenheimer lore somehow already.)
"Hey, sorry you guys had to see me like that," you said, finishing your roll. "I just get like, really annoyed when people stop me from eating food when I'm hungry. Like, that's me time, you know? It's personal."
"What are you talking about?! That was so good! They were shitting their pants!" asked Ellie.
"Lol me," you spat. You hoped they didn't catch that.
"You - you really scared them off there," mustered Joel, impressed.
"Thanks," you said, taking whatever compliment that man could give to heart.
"If only we had you during our shootout, back at the Target," Joel said. "I thought you were a runner, first time I saw you."
"Why's that?"
"You had all that," he motioned to his face, "red stuff, all on your mouth and chin. Thought it was blood."
"Oh, that was Chef Boyardee! You know him?"
Did he know him.
Did he know him?
Girl he was a single father once of course he knew him.
And what else did he know?
He knew he was in love with you, in love with Y/N...
"I, uh, love -"
"- Joel loves Chef Boyardee. He got all excited when he found a can, once," Ellie said, interrupting him.
"Because that's what the Chef intended with his creation," you said, not really one hundred percent sure what that meant. And neither did Joel or Ellie. Anyway,
Time passed, you guys cleaned up and Ellie had gone to sleep.
You and Joel were sat on the swinging bench on the porch outside, passing your blueberry fume back and forth like a blunt (it actually wasn't dead, contrary to popular belief). He wasn't really a fan, but didn't want to tell you no.
You'd been out for some time, enjoying the warm (lowkey hot) breeze and of course, Joel's company. He was a man of few words, unfortunately, but it did make him hotter. Like, why so mysterious?
"So how'd you really get that sushi?" you asked, after some unimportant small talk.
"When we were at the supermarket," he said. "Wanted to surprise you."
"That's so hot," you said immediately.
"What?"
"It's so hot right now, that's what I meant," you spat and took your fume from him, taking in an unnecessarily giant hit.
"Well, wanna go back inside?"
"Nah."
"Okay?"
Another silence.
"You know, I wanted to uh, thank you, for being nice with Ellie and all," he said, "it's uh, it's nice."
"No probs. She's funny. Reminds me of a younger TikTok-obsessed cousin, you know? The kind you're excited to see on Christmas?"
"Yeah, yeah. I understand," he said. He didn't.
The silence continued. And you had to admit, it was getting awkward. Something needed to happen. And your pervert mind knew what would be perfect right now -
" - My daughter loved Chef Boyardee," Joel then said, really out of nowhere.
You turned to him. For a moment, you genuinely forgot he had a daughter. You didn't really like comforting people when you were horned up, but there was no escaping this. Who knows if he's ever said this before? Maybe you're the one - the special one - that gets to hear this exclusive tidbit. So you complied. Sometimes people needed a shoulder to lean on, so you decided right there and then, (and apparently Joel too), that you'd be that shoulder...
"That's crazy," you said. So little words, yet so much meaning.
"It is," he said, smoking the fume.
"My ex-sugar daddy, the guy that I told you about, do you remember?" you asked, he nodded his head. He did remember. "Well, yeah, he actually had a health scare once. Chef Boyardee, specifically the ravioli, was all he ate when he was separated from his wife. She used to cook all these real pasta dishes, so when he was living on his own he was pretty much incapable of cooking anything besides a bowl of cereal. He just ate Chef Boyardee ravioli all day and his cholesterol went up. It was crazy."
"Huh."
"Yeah. And it was kinda weird, you know, because he was Italian. I didn't think Italians accepted the Chef as one of their own."
"I guess he did."
"Yeah. I miss him."
Joel turned to you.
You realized your mistake. You DON'T bring up an ex on the first date hello?!?! HELLO (@ALL THE BOYS IN THE WORLD HELLO?!?!?!)
"I mean, I miss the old world, you know. Like, how you miss your daughter," you explained. "Association and all."
"I'm sorry if I'm a little, you know," he said, "If I don't come off very - personable. You've, uh, been a great help to us both. To me."
"Of course! It's okay. It's kinda hard to keep manners going when more than half of the population are demented cannibals and the other wanna rob you all the time."
You both smiled softly. You provided him the warmth he needed, the warmth that could always greet him at the end of the day, reminding him that there's always room for warmth. You are his sun, his warmth. You're his heating pad, the warmth of a heating pad.
"I don't, I don't say this much. Not at all, actually, not until you brought up the 'association' thing, but - you remind me of the old world," he said.
Your ass couldn't help but smile.
"Oh my god Joel that's like so sweet!" you said, before jumping on him to give him a big hug! He hugged tightly back, he then threw you back on the bench and you felt his member pressed against your leg. He then began kissing you, his tongue licking your lips for entrance. You let him in. Your tongues fought for dominance but you let him win. He eventually started going down on you, taking your "I <3 ORLANDO" Spongebob-themed PJ shorts off, and started kissing your labia.
"This...this is a labia," he said, his southern drawl coming out in full force.
"Oh my god this is just like my fic!"
"What?"
"Nothing!"
You lifted your legs as he began to eat you out, his wet breath on your cooter. He held your foot up and raised himself, ready to press his member into your entrance. Your eyes were closed, ready to take the man from Austin, Texas in. This is it. No Flaka girls, no fungus-infested toilets, no Chef Boyardee-obsessed raiders, nothing - just you and Joel.
Hope you enjoyed!
xoxo,
~Sam St. Clair
P.S. - I'm not actually dead! I've been in hospital. So, almost. I've now learned that sanding your tires down to make them look cleaner and smoother and prettier is actually quite dangerous.
xoxo, again,
~Sam St. Clair
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ayupimqueen · 4 months ago
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Toughts on Red dead redemption 2 so far as someone who is playing it for the first time with really few spoilers pt.2
I just started chapter 4 and got jack back
-I fucking hate Micah
- I also hate the odriscolls
-I’m so sure Micah is like a spy or something
-my poor guy Arthur got kidnapped😭
—SEAAAAAAN 😭😭 (I suffered so much and he wasn’t even my favourite)
-I’m starting to have emotional damage
-WHERE THE FUCK IS JACKKKK???
-give me a break Jesus 😭😭
-Arson☺️ ok the braithwate manor mision is so sick
-hmmm pollution
-we got the boi back yippeeee
-they are singing cielito lindo 😭 *happy mexican noises*
-Javier mi paisa te quiero un chingooo, such a talented fella
-Dutch you better get a plan 😭
-Arthur gets kidnapped, Micah was there, Sean dies and Micah was there again, i hate Micah >:[
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msbhagirathi · 6 months ago
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IPKKND LIVE BLOG SEASON 1 [Epi. 7]
Hi. Aa jaao. You already know what do we do here. Baith gaye? Chalo start. Acha. Ruko. Saath mein popcorns liya? Lol. :P Chalo aao ab start karte hein, serious :)
1. Bitwa's face tho. He seems to be so damn irritated. Anyways.
2. Uhhh.. Bitwa.. Your wife Khushi is talking about the harkat that you did back in Lucknow, a day or two ago. Don't play ignorant now, okay? I know, you very well understand what is she tryna say, uhh-huhhh. Acting smart.
3. And what the freaking hell was with that line, Bitwa? "Toh mere har kaam mein taang araana band karo." When did SHE taang araao in your 'kaam'? I don't remember. Is she already disturbing you in your sleep? Have you already started falling for her? I am so sorry to say this. But. You are such a gone case, Bitwa. Lol. Whatever.
4. You are tryna intimidate her but I think the one getting more intimidated is YOU, alone my dear Bitwa. She is very much at peace right now. Whatever.
5. Look at that two seconds satisfying smile, Bitwa flashes, when Khushi says, "Phir paisa?" Lol. He is definitely enjoying this.
6. Tryna provoke her, are we, Bitwa?
7. Look at his face when Khushi is giving her monologue of khuddari and udhaar nahi lete and all that. He is so freaking enjoying this. His face's like 'Her whole life is gonna feel like a lie to her once she knows the price money.'
8. Khushi ~very confidently so~ picks up her basta to fish out 'the price money'. She is actually ~oh so innocent~ y'all. Sometimes I feel like pulling her cheeks so hard. Kucchi pucchi ku you kiddo, you haven't even seen your neighborhood states, forget about seeing the world.
9. Actually, this fact might have further intrigued him more, that she is an eighteen year old, fresh out of school, middle class girl ~a literal nobody~ in front of him and yet her zeal, confidence and enthusiasm is unmatchable.
10. "Pacchis hazaar." and all the color rushes out of her face and she gives him a side glance like 'Duh. Really!? This giant oldie will take THAT MUCH for repairing?'
11. Arnav feels like he should cut some slack off for this girl, after all she have had to endure a lot because of his tape fiasco as she subtly hinted at when the conversation had begun.
12. So. Instead of further taking money from her, he decides to help her in his own ~I am the knight in shining armor for a damsel in distress like you~ (In one word: ARROGANT) way. He. Read it carefully. He GRABS her arm ~with that haq~ (excuse me sir? care to explain?) and places a new crisp one thousand rupee note and closes her palm. Uff. I will die of the intensity of haq he is exercising over her and the way she lets him do so without snatching away her hand. (Note that she would always snatch away her hand whenever Shyam would try to do something of that sort.)
13. "Khuddari ki baatein humesha bohot sasti hoti hain aur paisa bohot mehenga. Tum bhi yahin ho aur main bhi. We'll see." Kyun Bitwa? What happened to your two second old suggestion for Khushi to return back to Lucknow with the 'leftover money'? Do you not want your wife her to leave? Do you already want your wife her to stay around you as much as possible? Tum kya see karoge Bitwa hum tohka see karihein iske baad se haan.
14. "....Haan ab theek hai..." Kya theek hai Bitwa? Ya phir more like kaun theek hai? Tum? Ya woh fashion show wali ladki? Kya janna chah rahe the tum Bitwa? That Khushi is fine or not? And what happened to your 'das minute mein pahunch jaunga wali meeting' for which you couldn't 'waste' your precious time for the puja this morning? Who oh who will answer my goddamn questions? BTW, so men really do forget everything after meeting their wives huh? And I see our Bitwa is no exception. Lol. Whatever.
15. Wah wah 'tuuu ruru tuutuu rururu'(Lol. I have no fucking idea why did I add the bg sound for her here. Lol. Please bear with me.) MAMIJIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII. Belcome Homes Mamiji.
16. Hahahaahahaahha. See y'all I seriously lost it jab mamiji ne touchwood bolke apna sir hi touch karliya. Lol. Whatever.
17. Vyjanthimala, huh? Really? Mamiji? Ok. Wait. Y'all. Lemme show you who is Vyjanthimala.
*runs to google to search up her name coz has no idea herself who she is*
*skims through the photos*
*is awestruck by her beauty*
*debates about the selection of photo*
*decides one and takes screenshot*
*adds it here along with the link*
Presenting y'all.
Vyjayanthimala.
Indian actress and dancer.
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This is Vyjanthimala. Of course, this is an old picture (She is ninety years old now. Wow. Can you believe it? This young beauty is ninety years old now.)
So. Yeah. Now you can see for yourself, who is she comparing herself with. Such heights of flattery for your own self, mamiji? Not good. (Utkarsha ma'am is of course very beautiful. I am just pointing out the character flaw, given to her, of over-glorifying herself and her sun and her huzbend and her phamily.)
18. She really 'thued' at her own reflection y'all. Lmao. I can't-*wheezes away for the next four business days*
19. Lol. I love mamaji and mamiji's banter y'all. The way mamaji compliments her and keeps his mouth shut when she gets irritated. Lmao. One of the relationships I so love throughout the show.
20. "Itni muskil se toh auda banaye, usko aise hi jaane de?" A little glossary here. Ohada means (as explained by my friend @phuljari di) (pad/sthaan/padwi in hindi) status like we see here mamiji had to do a lot to gain/earn a place in the Raizada Household. So it is actually very important for her to always look 'tip-taap' as she believes that only then, she would be accepted as a Raizada bahu if she 'looks' like it. I hope I was able to make it clear.
21. And here comes naniji. Looking for some Lakshmi.
22. Okay. So. One more thing. See how mamiji literally acts like a teenager as she kind of rebels against her order of coming down immediately. So she refuses to follow her order and tells her husband that she would arrive a few minutes later. Hmm. Speaks a lot about the kind of relation mamiji and her saas-o-maa share.
23. And look how naniji dismisses her as well saying that she isn't waiting for her but for the children.
24. See? You noticed how Bitwa tossed away Aakash's question about 'uss din wali ladki'? This also means nobody except Anjali Di know about the Lucknow fiasco. Also, look how he shook his head when Aakash offered to take legal action against her? Ufff. I will die of this protective-ness and possessive-ness already.
25. Do you too find Arnav's face particularly hot and delicious in this scene where he is talking to Aakash? Also I am kicking my legs and squealing at that dent wali line. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. God. Oh. God. Please save me.
26. And we are immediately taken to that 'uss din ladki' who has just returned from her trip to the pharmacy shop.
27. Shut up buaji. She had gone out running, only FOR YOU. Show some grateful-ness. Dammit.
28. We are again taken back to Shantivan.
29. The smart-ass Raizada brothers walk in, with full tashan. Everyone quickly dismiss themselves and nani and Arnav are left alone.
30. Wait. Look at nani's expression. Arnav gets the hint that she wants to speak to him about something. And the atmosphere quickly turns awkward as Arnav struggles to maintain small-talk. Asking about her trip and the facilities provided.
31. Nani explains him that she went to a pilgrimage, a place where one needs to do some hard work in order to receive the fruits of their prayers. Then she continues to say that this time she had gone there for him and Arnav is surprised, "Mere liye?" Look at the way he asks it. He definitely did not expect it.
32. But then nani continues to speak cryptically. "Jiss raftaar se aap chalat hain, uss raftaar per swayam ke alawa sab kuch dhundlaiye jaat hai." Arnav counters back, "Nani mujhe sab kuch saaf-saaf dikh raha hai." "Galat jagah dekh rahe hain aap. Sirf aage hi nahi nazar ghumaakar piche bhi dekh lijiye. Har pidhi aane wali pidhi ko kuch sikha ke jaat hai. Lekin jab raftaar thodi dhimi ho tabhi sahi galat ki pehchaan hui sakat hai." I want to process these lines some more then will let you know my views on this monologue.
33. Anjali di brings a white kurta for him which will undoubtedly go to the un-used collection of ethnics Arnav has.
34. She somehow senses his mood which is still sour from the lines nani spoke to him a few moments ago and the encounter he had with Khushi on the road. And di yet again reminds him of her. She tries to know about the incident but Arnav dodges it away by saying, "Kuch khaas nahi."
35. Khushi again has to bear the brunt of buaji's anger.
36. Buaji tell me one thing. Uncle ko koi uncle nahi bolega toh kya bolega. Uff. Somebody please help her.
37. And the moment she reminds her of 'paisa'. Khushi again immerses herself in the world of Laard guvunur and his pacchis hazaar(her oh-so-sweet escapism y'all ;) ).
38. Both the sisters go to the market to buy some sabzi. But Khushi cannot think anything else other than her woh. She literally said it. "Jiji WOH phirse mila tha." At this point, Khushi is just a lost case. Payal rightly points out her 'chain' has been 'chhined' by that LG.
39. Khushi explains her that her 'chain' will not be back until and unless she pays back the pacchis hazaar that she owes him.
40. Ew! Shyam enters with an umbrella. Ew. Ew. Ew. His cryptic words irks me to no extent. So maybe he had indeed planned the fight with those rogues in order to ensure that her parents would send her to Delhi. Whatever. Bye. I don't watch precaps.
P.S.: No P.S. Ghar jaao. Bye.
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wagairah-wagairah · 10 months ago
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aur ye ram bhakt hai. You just proved my point, thank you
बंदउँ संत समान चित हित अनहित नहिं कोइ।
अंजलि गत सुभ सुमन जिमि सम सुगंध कर दोइ॥
may modi ji bless you with a scholarship
Babygirl shut the fuck up
Meine tujhse certificate nahi manga hai ki mein ram bhakt hu ki nahi
Also scholarship ki meko zarurat naa mere papa ke pass bohot paisa hai ;)
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raysletters · 1 year ago
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hello hello! question for you: if you could only eat 5 foods for the rest of your life, what would they be 🩷 also, what's your go to coffee or tea order?
HIIII, this is such a good question but also im an indecisive mf so i might not choose only five sjfbdkabdnsjsdbsk
some of the foods here are colombian dishes and yall might not know them, so im gonna attach images about it
im gonna act like diabetes and my health in general are unaffected by the food i eat bc if not then my endocrinologist might haunt me at some point for this, but
1. bandeja paisa (colombian dish, it would absolutely NOT help me on my health whatsoever, but gosh its so fucking good)
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2. ajiaco (colombian dish, see above for same disclaimer 💀)
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3. popcorn (this is like my to go comfort food ao i wouldnt be able to leave it behind, even though i can hear somewhere at the back of my mind the voice of my endo going "why are you like this?")
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4. pasta in whatever form and with most of its sidings (except anything with mushrooms, goodbye) (spinach is on thin ice idk) (HAVE YALL TRIED TUNA SOAGHETTI?? its not as fancy as it sounds but its the easiest thing to cook and im absolutely a fan) (re: the photo. if you ever put anything green on my salad besides, idk, pesto, i'll feel like you're offending me and my entire bloodline, and might end up crying or never talking to you again, but that is just a personal opinion)
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5. idk how to explain that theres this typical lunch that my mom cooks gloriously and its rice, lentejas (idk how its called in english im sorry), slices of platano maduro (salad or an avocado are optional but not required),,,,,, and sometimes, when the stars align and some deity takes mercy upon myself, mango juice. idk how to explain yall that this is the most glorious lunch ever and i will literally go to your house and cook it for you if you ask me so bc everyone deserves to try it at least once in their life (the photo isnt how my mom prepares it but it was as close as i could find)
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little tiny bonus bc i told yall i couldnt decide for shit: any kind of arepa, but either arepa de choclo or arepa boyacense???? i would sell my soul for those at any given chance
arepa de choclo:
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arepa boyacense:
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(no, they're not the same but both can be/are filled with cheese and its the best thing ever)
little tiny bonus dessert bc i couldnt help myself: theres a milhoja without sugar that an specific cafeteria in my city sells and i would commit crimes for, just to have it all my life, even though it is fucking expensive
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fun fact: i just found out its also known in other parts of the world as "mille-feuille", "napoleon", "vanilla slice", and "custard slice" and it was originally from france sjsksjsksjsksjsksjsksjs
also also, about my to go order, it depends on the store, bc theres this kinda famous tea shop in my city and even though its incredibly expensive, i found a milk berry tea with the bubbles thingy that i love and im absolutely a fan. in my favorite cafeterias (im in colombia, so theres a lot) an iced coffee (like where they put the ice in the blender, and not coffee with ice) will always be my first choice, except if its like too early and im freezing, or in coffee vending machines, i will absolutely go for a cappuccino.
this went on for too long, but i have so many thoughts about food i could scream about it for ages, thank you so much for this lola ily 💕💕
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abstractshit101 · 4 months ago
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Im feeling so suffocated kuch smjh nhi aara. I hate myself so much kya batau mai mann krra h khudko chaaku se marlu. I hurt the person i love kyu karti hu mai aisa mai kyu saara frustration nikal rhi hu uspe woh nhi rahega agli baar kiya maine aisa toh. At this point maine itna zyada hurt krdiya h ki sorry means nothing in our relationship. At this point i feel lost i feel so guilty that mai same galtiya krre jaari hu. Its like im trying to hurt myself by making myself feel more n more guilt. Im full with guilt i want someone to hit me for the things i did to him. I am the worst gf on this damn planet. Tears in my eyes rn and the only person jisko fadak padta usko maine khudse itna dur krdiya h dilse ki now he probably hates me the most in this world. Ekbar gale lag jaana h uske aur pair chukar maafi maangni h. I dont know what to do im broken bas zor zor se rona aara h. I hate the way im built
I promise
I am sorry
I love you
These 3 things mean nothing for us now because of me
Agar abhi mere paas jo bhi h ghar gadi paisa sab leliya jaaye na toh bhi the only thing i wish for right now is looking at him and saying sorry with all my heart. When i meet him this time, mai yeh msg padke jaungi jisse i revisit all the things i have done. Maine itna hurt krdiya haina usko andar se ki my subconscious is relentlessly saying that you dont fucking deserve any kind of love. Kehna bhut aasan hota h yeh smjha maine kyuki jab khudpe aati haina toh gaand fatt jaati h. mai sabse badi hypocrite hu.
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unchartedmusings · 4 months ago
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While the game is postponed due to lack of poor planning and abhorrent behavior, my mind began to drift off.
I fucking love being a woman who’s blood runs Amarillo, Azul, Rojo. When I’m asked where I’m from the it’s not possible to reply with a one word answer. “I was born in Florida, but my family is Colombian on both sides.” The part of me that is American just does not encompass enough of my identity to suffice as an answer.
I’m Colombian, my nose mirrors my ancestors that are native to the mountains, plains, and coasts.
I’m Colombian, my hips will find the rhythm in any sound, and my feet will always dance in the direction of accordions, drums, and gritos heridos.
I’m Colombian, mi “cabello indio”just won’t hold in a pony tail, it’s slick like water and prefers to cascade and flow like inky rivers.
I’m Colombian, “Ay Ijoeputa”is an all encompassing expression that is so irresistible and soothing in irritating situations.
I’m Colombian, Panaderias are a beacon to all wandering Colombians. In these portals to the motherland we gather for morning cafecitos, una fria on days when our seleccíon plays, and when we’re craving algo dulce.
I’m Colombian, I may not make it for weeks or months, but if I’m sick I need caldo de pollo, sancocho/ajiaco or un calentado before I wither away. Western medicine just doesn’t cut it.
I’m Colombian, these curves are painted by Botero.
Parces, with my bandeja paisa and Colombiana in hand all there’s left to say is happy game day❤️
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anoutletmaybe · 1 year ago
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I have started something. I have started talking to myself in the morning, loving myself, encouraging myself.
I dont know what's up with me. Okay. So let's stop gaslighting myself. How do I feel?
1. I feel pretty nornal right now. I am not thinking of anything else but I'm not fully present either. Like my head feels cloudy.
2. How do I feel about my current workplace? Umm if this was a scene, I'd be slowly backing up from this place. I certainly don't like going there everyday. I go becauseI have to. Also because it gets a little boring at home, being alone and working. Certainly don't like the work culture.
I strongly feel I'd love chamber practice. If not love, I'm certain that I'd like it better than whatever this is.
3. How do I feel about work? Umm I don't mind the work. It's tough, sure. We definitely depend way too much on the internet. How did things work before this? Also, I don't like how unstructured sometimes it is. Or how unending. I feel tired sometimes. But I also feel that might be a consequence of me not actually relaxing. Like what do I do that I truly enjoy or anything that really relaxes me? Nothing. I smoke. I eat. Sometimes I go out and smoke and eat. And I watch reels and shit on Netflix. So it's no wonder that I feel tired.
4. Personal life? Non existent.
5. My relationship? I really do love Ashwin. I'm happy with him. I feel safe with him.
6. About myself? Aah I touched a nerve here. I know I'm smart. I have figured that out. But I feel that I'm really lazy. I don't want to get up. I don't want to do stuff. I feel like I don't have the energy, sometimes I don't have fucks. So I do the bare minimum and it keeps making me depressed. Such a vicious fucking circle.
What do I want?
A life. I want something. Some peace and happiness and a sense of purpose. I know everything is meaningless, everybody is playing a role blah blah. But abb jungle mei jaake toh nai reh sakta na mai? Toh kuchh toh karna padega na. So what game do I want to play? Kya farak padta hai bhai? End mei toh paisa aana chahiye, paisa ayega toh free time khareed paunga. Point utna hi reh jata hai.
7. Business or law?
Business. Yes. Business.
Business karne mei mazza toh ayega. Law padhna achha lagta hai because I like reading and figuring things out and shit. Sure, it's a noble profession. You are in the know how of a lot of things people don't know about otherwise. I can write about it. But I don't reaaaally see myself practising it all my life.
Ugh see...and I start thinking about law and I get confused. But still, I think somewhere from inside it's business. But is it? Will I ever get out of this?!
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ramayantika · 1 year ago
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Bhai ghanta acha jaa rha hai I am absolutely worthless na ek college dhang ka hath laga bits ke liye paisa nahi hai mere paas aur iiser ka meine apna hi katwa diye bc 30k ke rank mein ghanta hath aayega
Niser bhi manlo chutiya bannungi usme ouat bhagwan jane and bsc mein hoga ya nahi meko nahi malum
Maa read that mathura nagarpati story yesterday aur boli acha likha sundar hai meri beti ka itna talent hai writer bhi bann jayegi
Abhi ek ghante mein meri behen ka birthday party aur mein rote baithungi kyunki meko apna talent ghanta dikh raha hai na kuch khaas likha hai aur nahi koyi khaas level ka dance aata hai meko aise hi exams ke chalte practice hua nahi mera ghanta naachungi phir konsa talent ka muh uthake chalun mein ab?
God why do you do this to me i swear meine kya bigada hai aapka
Doston ko kya muh uthake jawab dungi sab saale college mein hai 2nd yeat start hoga mein velli na koyi book likha na dance performance na kuch. (Dekho journey in the arts is a lifelong thinf I know and I understand bas meko idhar rona dhona karna hai kyunki merese kuch ho nahi raha)
Bhagwan I know I am fucking stupid you don't have to prove me through my entrance results okay plij
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weirdly-specific-but-ok · 9 months ago
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This sounds dreadful. The situation here in India is different, from what I know, and it has its own problems. Almost nobody who's middle class or richer goes to public hospitals. These government hospitals, though, are extremely subsidised in comparison and actually have some of the most skilled doctors in the country. The problem is, well, the population and the funding.
The queues are insane. The Indian population is huge (more than 1.4 billion people) and the majority of them are poor. And as to how poor it can get, I mean... Once in Pondicherry I passed by some flower sellers at the end of the day, and they were begging people to buy their garlands for ten paise. A paisa is 1/100 of an Indian rupee, and isn't even used anymore aside from decimals in transactions. It's 0.00012 USD. So you can imagine the crowds at the government hospitals.
And while the doctors are skilled, there's very little money in the upkeep, the infrastructure, the security. Violence against doctors is a nightmare. When I was studying to get into medical school (thank fuck I changed my mind about that, I'm in design now) I would have panic attacks thinking about the compulsory rural postings that would be there after med school, not because I didn't want to work there, but because I was terrified of being attacked. There are horror stories.
On the other hand, the private hospitals are unaffordable for the majority of the population, technically, but since it's usually within the limits of middle class people's budgets, and obviously entirely affordable for rich people.
I think that's why it isn't talked about as much as the US healthcare system is. Because in the US it's a nightmare to get appointments and pay the medical bills even if you're well off. I have relatives and friends there who've had to wait six months for a crucial heart or endocrine appointment. Here, the well-off people get all the healthcare they want and more, and they point out how the government hospitals are subsidised, and people think everything's all good. It's really not.
There are also the whole insurance fuck-ups and pushing unnecessary tests and surgeries, etc, and that's a whole different set of nightmares. I'm not educated enough on that topic to speak about it, though, but my close friends and family have had experiences with it.
But yeah. A fucking nightmare. If I've made any errors in this post please correct me, by the way, I have no general knowledge, I'm speaking mainly from experience, and obviously my experiences could be an outlier.
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Just found this tag on a good omens fic and I'm more than a little concerned
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ramayantika · 2 years ago
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Bakbak time kyunki mein dukhi chiz hu aur merese expectations rakhna bakwas kaam hai
So I had my bnat class after a month due to shifting and stuff. And ma'am told me about a central govt programme which she wanted me to do as it will give me a good exposure. My mother heard her say.
I tell you I wasn't sad that I was missing out this. I know once I crack neet I am going to give everything to dance and be that dancer my six year old self dreamt of
What did my mom do?
Bring out the same ramayan of how I destroyed myself, my studies went in depression. Idk if I ever was in depression but I have heard her say it so many times that I think now I did have depression and then maybe still have it.
She brought out my friends who are going to abroad and other colleges saying ki sab set hogye your friend is now going to uk. Paisa bhi hai aur uska profession bhi se. Tum kahi ke nahi
Thanks mum. I love you.
I am so fucking tired. I am never going to be enough right I am so sorry I could never be like my friends, could not get neet, wasted myself and everything. I am so fucking sorry.
I was completely okay. Now I am in my online chem class. I was excited to do chem and solve question to do better in my tests
But what happened? I ak crying, my head is aching
I am not sad about missing on my show but I am sad about her repeating all that again. I want to move on. I know what being a dancer looks like and the amont of work involved. I know there is a lot of lobby to get shows and if you aren't backed by money and a teacher with connections it's difficult to get ahead with a dancing career.
It is true that I decided to be a dancer later in my life like around 16 when I discovered about myself but i am from a middle class family. I know that for us we need to have a stable job and then follow our passions and later lucky ones makes a profession out of it.
Here I know my dad's money, my family expectations every thing is at a goddamn stake. My brother can get into a private engineering college but that is not how medical will work for me.
But fuck this shit. I am not 14. I may have depression like my mother says but yeah I still grew myself from my self hurting self loathing phase. I will get through that exam get a seat make my parents finally live in peace and go work hard for dance
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