#my final word. goodbye

[bnuuys]

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[i-dreamed-i-had-a-son]

There is a brutal contrast in how Megatron and Optimus's stories end. Optimus nobly surrenders his spark, along with the Matrix of Leadership, having been sent off by his dear and trusted friends after giving them a fond farewell. He has accomplished his life's greatest goal; now he is able to rest. He dies willingly, at peace, bringing hope and giving life to the next generation by restoring the Allspark.

Megatron had already been killed, and was told that he can never join that very Allspark. Having been enslaved, and only released because of Optimus's actions, he is now reanimated, inhabiting his own corpse. His only remaining ally, who has constantly betrayed him, does not understand him. He flies off, alone, having lost all his forces and failed in his mission, and realizing that his life's greatest purpose was misguided. He is left, we can only assume, to live a hellish and hopeless life--a shell, consumed by the past.

And he did not tell Optimus goodbye. He knows that Optimus will leave him behind, will obtain the heaven he can never enter. He gives him the parting gift of his repentance, to acknowledge this. But in his refusal to say farewell, there is an echo of his own wretched endurance. He does not get to rest. Megatron will remain, eternally alone--eternally waiting for a reunion that will never come.

[zukkaoru]

i need. ranpo to call dazai pretty. and dazai to immediately get so flustered he wants to die

[swagmaxxer]

tommy tommy tommy tommy tommy tommy tommy tommy tommy tommy tommy tommy tommy tommy tommy tommy tommy tommy tommy tommy

[mrs-gauche]

I beat Veilguard.

It's 4am. I'm a mess. I'm in tears.

[likethemtrashy]

Sometimes I envision there would be an announcement from kieron that he's finally retiring from hollyoaks. He would act out his exit storyline. Sometimes I envisioned his exit storyline would be one lost on screen row of sorts with Brendan but his last scene remains the same.

Ste would be wearing his little jumpsuit, a bag pack on one shoulder with a duffle bag in hand walking along that little square on his way out. In the distance there would be Brendan/Emmett standing in front of a black cab, in that large gray coat Brendan owns with his hands in his pockets. His hair is long and all pepper grayed-beard just standing there looking at Ste/Kieron. He looks disheveled yet resolved in some way. There aren't any words really exchanged, just a look of longing and home. Sometimes I envision Brendan just saying to Ste "let's go home" but it's usually not actually voiced, just like resolution in some way. Kieron's just happy to see an old friend smiling at Emmett's out stretched hand.

He just grabs his hand firmly, Brendan takes Ste's duffle bag in one hand and they enter the cab, driving off in the distance as the camera pans out to the wide road ahead.

[icelogged]

Psalm 73:26, Psalm 46:10

hey uh i’ve been extremely unwell recently, was at the hospital for 12 hours last wednesday. um i’m genuinely worried about about my body being able to withstand the what is dubbed the “escalation of my symptoms”. so i just want to thank everyone for making this tumblr experience the best yet. thank you for treating me like a person and for your encouraging words.

for all the bodies in the pit for the knees on the floor and in bush that sides rural highways for all those in the lake those frozen by winter or frozen by freezer for those whom cling to the rock the ones burnt and those who never stopped screaming

i love you and it was never your fault. god loves you and it is the free will of man, our greed that has allowed for great evils to brand our backs and infect our lungs. you are meant to be here in this moment so please live. i hope life unfurls like a rose for you. it takes time. don’t let your anxiety or shyness bar you from opportunities. find the divine in simple pleasures.

[faaun]

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

[enterstellars]

i feel like i should just keep the trademark i have going and do a ___s___s for my new blog url.

[bataranqs]

"nobody is allowed to hurt me but you." abandoned and hated by her family? betrayed by her fiance? literally gives up her heart to a demon and is forced to relive the same week of suffering over and over until the apocalypse comes? raviel casting that all away for gongja. raviel etching the moment of killing her lover into her heart because she needs him to remember her. raviel saying that being saved isn't worth it if her epilogue isn't his.

[adriftwoods]

more men should be wearing lingerie

[bruisedloverr]

oh and btw i wrote a kylar/player bloodplay fic some days ago. in case anyone's interested.

[deus-ex-mona]

here’s to hoping that hw manages to correct their typo in noontea’s post-chorus bg lyrics in time for the full release—

[anx13ty-astr0naut]

"Ligma my balls."

Sonic T. Hedgehog, 09/11/01

[izuris]

yeah this is my art piece it's called "oh my god it sucks so bad" enjoy

[pumpkin-the-girlie-girl-vixen]

DONT WORRY ABOUT ME, I PROMISE IM OKAY‼️

I want to take a moment to reassure you that I am okay. This message is not a sign of distress but rather a precautionary note to express my feelings and thoughts in case anything unexpected happens in the future. Life is unpredictable, and I believe it’s important to share my love and gratitude for each of you while I still can. Please know that I cherish the moments we've shared and hold you all close to my heart. If you’re reading this, it means I wanted to leave you with comfort and understanding, not worry. Remember, tomorrow is never promised, so let’s embrace every moment together with love and appreciation.

My Dearest Loved Ones,

As I write this letter, my heart is flooded with emotions—love, gratitude, and a bittersweet sorrow for the words I may not get to say in person. If you are reading this, then I am no longer with you in the way we have always known. I want you to know that as I reflect on my life, the love I hold for each of you shines brightly, illuminating the path we have traveled together, despite the struggles and challenges we faced.

To My Mother:

Mom, our journey has been anything but easy. We have had our share of struggles, misunderstandings, and moments of pain. Yet, through it all, I want you to know that my love for you has never wavered. You are, without a doubt, the strongest woman I have ever known. The resilience you have shown in the face of adversity is a testament to your character, and I have always admired that fierce determination within you.

There were times when our differences felt insurmountable, and I struggled to understand your perspective. But I now recognize that beneath it all lies a profound love and an unwavering desire for my happiness. I am grateful for the sacrifices you made and the strength you instilled in me, even when I didn’t fully appreciate it. You taught me the importance of perseverance, and that lesson has shaped me in ways I will carry with me forever.

I hope you find comfort in knowing that I am at peace. The love we share is a bond that transcends any struggles we faced. I will always be a part of you, and you will always be a part of me. Please remember the good times, the laughter, and the moments we shared. Hold on to those memories and let them bring you solace. You are loved deeply, and I will always be with you, whenever you look up at the moon, I’ll be watching over you.

To My Best Friend, Mack @softsatinskies:

Mack, you are the sister I never had, the confidante who has stood by my side through thick and thin. From our childhood adventures to the late-night talks during high school, your friendship has been a constant source of joy and comfort in my life. I want you to know how profoundly grateful I am for every moment we shared. You understood me in ways that others couldn’t, and our connection has been a gift I cherish dearly.

There were more times than I can count when you lifted me up when I felt defeated, reminding me of my worth and strength. You have shown me the true meaning of friendship, standing by me without judgment, offering your unwavering support. I hope you remember the laughter we shared, the dreams we chased, and the countless memories we created together. You played an invaluable role in my life, and I want you to carry that love with you always.

As you navigate through life, remember that I am still with you in spirit. Every time you feel a breeze or hear a song that reminds you of me, know that I am there—cheering you on from wherever I may be. Continue to embrace life with the same passion and kindness you’ve always shown. I believe in you, and I know you have the strength to overcome any obstacle. Carry our memories in your heart, and let them remind you of the bond we forged. You are never alone; I will always be a part of you.

To My Partner, Mikey @bigmikeyde:

My love, from the moment you entered my life, everything changed for the better. I loved you with every fiber of my being—my blood, my sweat, my tears, and every ounce of my soul. You have been my anchor, my confidant, and my greatest supporter. The depth of my love for you is something I can’t adequately express, but please know that it has been an honor to share my life with you.

We have navigated challenges together, and through it all, I have never felt so cared for, understood, and cherished. Your love has been a source of strength, and I am eternally grateful for the way you embraced my flaws and celebrated my victories. You have seen me at my best and my worst, and yet your love remained unwavering. I want you to remember those moments, the laughter, the quiet evenings, and the dreams we shared. Those memories are a testament to the love we built together.

As you continue on your journey, I hope you carry my love in your heart. Remember that it is a powerful force, one that will always be with you, no matter the distance. I want you to find happiness and fulfillment in life, to live freely and pursue your passions. Know that I will be watching over you, cheering you on every step of the way. My love for you transcends time and space; it is a bond that cannot be broken.

Final Thoughts:

To each of you—my mother, my dear friend Mack, and my beloved partner Mikey—know that I have never taken any of your love for granted. You have all played a vital role in my life, and I am thankful for every moment we shared. I struggled with my own demons, but I also had a big heart that overflowed with love for those I cared for. My fiery temper was often a reflection of my passion, and I hope you can forgive me for any harsh words I may have spoken in moments of frustration.

Though I may no longer be physically present, I will always live on in your hearts. The love we shared will echo through your lives, a gentle reminder of the bond we forged together. Remember me not with sadness, but with love and gratitude for the time we had. I am gone, but I will never truly leave you. Carry me with you, and let my spirit inspire you to live fully, love deeply, and never forget the beauty of our connections.

With all my love,

Dreama Rain