#my final for one of my art classes is making me wanna Cry

[sea-of-dust]

Phantom theif boys x GN! Reader

Dating headcannons!

N: Adding comfort headcannons to knock two asks in one stone, they got changed to just comforting headcannons mostly. Ur not escaping pastel*pallette with this.

He's ready to fully wake up as soon as he hears your voice downstairs or just your footsteps. Morgana is not a fan of suddenly feeling his leg pulled out of bed.

Super ready to tease you. The guys smiling hard before he responds with something stupid. "I dare you" trying to hold off his chucking, he places his hand ontop of yours and spins you, stopping when you face him. "Are you a cheeseburger?" "no"

Let's you brush his hair, in fact you should. Curls are hard, ya know. His wrist can use a break, plus you're the one brushing it he sees it as a win. Ignoring the times you decided to give him pigtails

He can be super romantic at times, especially the most random, "I'm sorry I took so long, your beauty distracted me" he smirked twiddling a bit of his hair, you sigh, after a pause beginning to chuckle "I don't like you" "you love me" kissing your cheek he goes behind the counter "anything you wanna eat?"

He's always gonna be there to comfort you. Holding you close as you cry into his chest over something that had been bothering you, hearing you out while he cooks or staying by your side while you rant. "And then she was like," Oh well you need to go to extra help TO HELL WITH THAT!" You rub your temple "sorry she's just been getting on my nerves" "have you tried dropping or switching classes?" "She would reject the request everytime" you'd wonder why she suddenly accepted the following day. Maybe she finally thought you were just bad at chemistry

Will tell you he's a phantom theif trying to rizz you up. "So like we use these things called personas to fight these shadows" "woah, that's cool, Ryuji." You didn't believe him, but you let him cook, he's trying his best

Embodiment of the YIPPE sound. He loves seeing you. Could be walking to class, and he'd stop midway. "Yo!" "Hey Ryuji" great now he's gonna repeat that 3 more times a day, won't even start a conversation, sometimes, just likes hearing you say hi to him

He's super cuddly when sleepy. "Where are you going" "I told you I'm going home" "nooo" he wraps his arms around your waist "you aren't allowed to leave" trying to slip out he tightens his grip. You had to call your parents to tell them you had no choice but to stay longer

He'd get so excited when anything sport related comes along. "I wanna watch the track team compete this weekend. You should come" "do you need me to bring snacks?" "You bring them every time, though! I'll bring them this time" He'd get super hyped up about someone from the school taking the lead he almost fell off the bleachers at times.

He would buy you snacks, and you two would talk about it on a bench. "He's so annoyingggg" "I know, right!" "Like he can't shut up everything's quiet and this mf 'I HAVE A BUISNESS' shut up" "like at the end of the day he's still an incel" "EXACTLY" you two would end up ranting with eatchother so much you end up calming eatchother down, this would also translate into you just being too sad to even make funny comments. "He's just so draining, kinda makes me wish someone just told him to be quiet" "for real I almost cried at his voice" "it's too squeaky right" "totally" laying your head on his lap you look up at him just thinking. "You're staring into my soul here." he strokes your hair with a nervous expression "good" In the end, he still comforts you the same way

"Oh, it's you" turned to "it's you.." REAL quick, as soon as you started dating, he got shy

He's gonna ask you to help him with art. "Y/n do you mind posing?" "With what?" "These live lobsters I found" ".... no thank you" "but!" "I'm gonna buy you those little wooden dolls just for that" "you're better than any piece of wood!" It turns more into a praise sesson he forgets about the lobsters he's basically keeping as pets at this point

You tried to teach him how to cook, or atlesst follow the recipe. "OK so we have the custard" you grab his hand, holding it up. "Don't use that we need it for later." "My Appologies" "it's alright it's your first time making this" He's fine the first time but gets way better with practice. He'd make you jealous with how nice he'd make his food look

Tried pick up lines they were good, but the execution could use work. "Y/n! Do you have a map? " "For what?" He pauses, looking down as if thinking for the next line "because i can't help but get lost in your eyes" you smirk, watching him get more bashful than you from his own line. "Are you a painting?" You cup his face making him look at you "because I can't take my eyes off you"

He isn't very good in this field...but he has spirit! You'd sigh while watching him paint after a few eye rolls, vacant stares,leaning on him. He's gonna sense it even if you don't do all that. "Is there something on your mind?" You look down to his paints before answering "a friend of mine moved away, and I found out recently she used to steal stuff from others" crossing your arms you continue "I kinda get why some of my stuff went missing now but just to think" "that does seem rather unfortunate" "she's lucky the stuff she took was all under 10 bucks or I would have asked the phantom theives to do something" he pauses his brush for a secound before continuing on "via the website?" "Yea! They'll probably handle her if it genuinely gets outta hand" he smiles as he puts down his paint and brush. "How about we go for a walk for you to let out some steam?" "sounds great"

"I'm alone. Would you like to join me?" "Do you realize how that sounds?" "Do you realize how dirty your mind is?"

He'll be resistant to cuddling at first but then slowly realize he likes it. Won't ask for it tho but he will be a little peeved when they aren't given. Subconsciously learn the way he stares at your arms, how he grips his own, and the way he tries to get a bit closer to you, you've learned the secrets to a touch starved akechi

Would be a bit annoyed when you bring up another dude. "And then Ryuji was shaking the vending machine and the guard thought we were trying to steal snacks" "I see" "I ended up getting em though" "mhm" "you're so aggressively disinterested" "yes I am" You pause before letting the smirk take over your face "so then akechi rubbed my face and asked for a kiss" "I should" he stops typing to press his lips softly on your cheek.

He'd take you everywhere with him. Not a choice, it's only when he's at his job that he's away from you, everywhere else? Same class right next to you. Eating lunch with you, would ask you to play darts with him after school. He'd wonder why you'd look so tired when you two finally got home after school, atleast he helps with homework.

"Akechi" you move hair from his face. "What is it?" You continue touching his face as he watches as your hands move around his face. "Is there something on your mind" "is it that obvious" you pull your hand away, but he takes his into yours. There's a short pause before you decide to speak again. "A person close to me stopped coming to school after an argument we had. I'm pretty worried" "you didn't try contacting them?" "I have, but I think they'll just get more annoyed" you sigh "I just don't know what to do" "let them have their momment they'll contact you when they feel like it, in the meantime" he covers you in the blanket he shared with you momments ago "you could stay here until it leaves your mind"

"So what is skibbity toilet?" "Zen no"

He'd always order for you at places, unless you changed your order he'd get you everytime. "You gotta stop doing that" "Why you jealous I know you better than you know yourself?" "Yes"

He tries to ask you for advice on Akane. "She got upset she couldn't play and eat" "did you try making it a tea party" he scoffs, giggling a bit at the suggestion. "I'm serious. Do you have any tiny tea cups?"

He's definitely touch starved when he gets home. Barely awake, he'd cling onto you, mumbling into your ear. He's fallen asleep for a few seconds on your shoulder. "Let's get you to bed, Zen." "it's comfortable here though." "it'll be more comfortable in bed." "ugghhhhh"

He's gentle when it comes to you, especially when you get home more upset than usual. "So how was work" in a slightly annoyed tone you respond "draining they tried to give me unpaid overtime again" you sigh "hmm" without much words he lays down with you hugging you "do you want anything?" "Sleep" he smiles fondly "this house will be so quiet it's like it was haunted" The next day, do expect most of your chores to be done already, as well as breakfast. It was made with love, not with skill

[rbarrysncream]

Ey yo, not to get cheesy on my blog, but in the spirit of the Baftas, I wanted to genuinely thank a few of the blogs I follow here for keeping me wrapped in the GO and DT fandom, and subsequently, having my art improve a TON because of it.

(this is gonna be a long one, so strap in, or scroll if you don't wanna read my ramblings, lol)

Tw: mentions of depression, art block, and unmotivation

For a bit of background, up until October of 2024, I was in a nearly seven month long (honestly, probably more like 1 year) stretch of unending art block. I was feeling really bad about my art style, and I started doubting my future as an artist. I was barely putting any effort into any of my college projects, and I stayed up late crying and panicking because I just didn't enjoy making art anymore, and I was afraid I'd end up with a job I hated because I don't have any other skills. The only source of comfort I had at the time was David Tennant media. I was teased a lot about my special interest by my family (it was all good natured, don't worry), but I was the only one that I knew personally who liked David as much as I did. Which brings us to the first person I wanna mention: @davidtennantgenderenvy

I can't pinpoint when or how I discovered their Youtube channel, but when I did, I honestly felt more seen than I ever had about my insane special interest with this actor. And she was a musical theater nerd who maladaptive daydreamed all his characters to different musical songs??!? It was genuinely like finding my twin, and made me feel just a bit more normal about my love for David's projects. I then clicked on her Tumblr link and began looking around the website (without an account, mind you, I was just browsing), but when I did, I eventually stumbled across the art blog @hg-aneh, and fell in love with his style and how he drew Aziraphale and Crowley.

His art was so cute and simple and it just made me sadder that I was stuck in this never ending artist's block. However, one day, I was looking at one of his works (I can't remember which one it was, im sorry), and I was like, "You know what? Just to humor myself, I'll make a quick sketch in his style. Cuz its cute! And it won't be too detailed. So I did. Sure, I quickly erased the sketch, but that was the first time in MONTHS that I had made my own art outside of school work. It must have kicked something off, because I started sketching on my iPad again, slowly but surely making more and more little pieces. Which again, isn't much, but it was such a huge step for me. Yeah, I started focusing more time on my personal art than my school work, and my grades suffered because of it, but I was SO happy that I was finding some joy in making art again.

I finally got Tumblr around the middle of October, thanks to some persuading by davidtennantgenderenvy when I told them I wanted to show them some Macbeth fan art I made, but I didn't have any social media. I asked them if Tumblr would be worth getting, and they assured me it was, so I made an account and almost immediately started getting likes. It honestly made me want to cry because I always thought my art was boring and uninteresting. It doesn't help that around this time, I was barely getting any feedback from my peers during class critiques, so I just assumed my art wasn't anything anyone wanted to look at. But then the first Macbeth piece I posted on here got so many notes, that I was like "eh, I'll post my Good Omens fan art too. What could go wrong?" Nothing went wrong, and I continued getting notes on the pieces that I posted, and I was almost confused by it? I can't really explain it but I was like "wait, so is my art good, or are these people just taking pity on me?" (I have a huge complex about pity, but we don't need to get into that LOL)

Anyways, I started making art primarily just to post on Tumblr, but I guess the practice was beginning to pay off, because when I would barely get any feedback on my classwork pieces, people in class started speaking up a bit about my work. Giving compliments and critiques, which helped so much. Wanted to cry when it happened again lol.

Can't really write out a good segue between these two points, but another person I wanted to thank was @depraveddame . If you don't know who she is, she is an insanely talented writer who, I think I discovered back when I was just browsing Tumblr without an account. I started reading her ao3 story Vine Slips of a Strange God, which is a human AU Good Omens fanfic, for those who have not read her work yet. First off, I am NOT a reader. Like, you could not pay me to read a book in my spare time, so idk what drew me to this fanfic (it was probably the mention of 'hurt/comfort' in the tags, ngl.) But I ATE THAT SHIT UP OH MY GOD IT WAS SO GOOD. It took me a bit to click with the story, but when I DID?!?! It genuinely took over my life in the best way. There was also BEAUTIFUL art in the chapters, made by the very talented @zivilzz .The way they colored and shaded their pieces made me want to practice on my coloring and shading, and it has improved so much because of it. I ended up reading all of her works in the span of like, a week or two. I also made a small sketch of her gardener Crowley around the time I started slowly getting back into making my own art. I ended up loving Vine Slips so much, that I'm currently planning on making a comic of one of my favorite scenes in the story. Also, while depraveddame is an amazing writer, she also informed me a TON about the BDSM community. (btw, if you don't support the bdsm community, and you think its morally wrong, or that it should be illegal, unfollow me rn.) But anyways, I used to be a bit judgy about the idea of bdsm. I knew of it, and I never thought it should be illegal, but I would just ask myself "why? why would you do that to another person, or why would you just let that happen to you?" Luckily, I don't think that way anymore, and it is very much thanks to her insane writing.

Also one more person I want to thank, that doesn't really have anything to do with my art improvement was @aq2003 for prayer circling for me to be able to watch Macbeth at my nearest cinema *cough* 50 minutes away during a snow storm *cough*. Genuinely, thank you, dude, that recording changed my life

OOH!! and also, thank you, @davidtennan-t for chubby Fourteen 🥹

Damn, this was a long post, sorry y'all, but basically, the point of this post is, while I have many things to thank for my latest improvement of art, I really dont think it would have been able to happen as quickly as it did without these blogs, so thank you guys so much, you'll never know how much it meant to me.

yes, I cried while typing this, shhhhhhhh

[choccy-milky]

1. your fic is absolutely amazing. Have been bingeing it and I’m literally obsessed. The way you write just itches my brain in such a good way, literally cannot contain my love and appreciation for your work👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 cheers to you!!! Can’t wait to keep reading

2. As I was reading I found out you also deadass drawing the art to go w/ the fic?? Literally you’re living my dream 😭 plus your art is so so so well done!!!!! It’s added so much joy to my reading experience

Cannot wait to see what else you have in store!!’ Hope you have an amazing, AMAZING day, week, year, etc.!!!! 💞🙌🏻🫶🏻

OMG IM GONNA CRY 😭😭 BAHAHA U SENT THIS AT SUCH A CRAZY MOMENT cuz i just checked my ao3 comments and was down about a rude comment i got, and then i come to tumblr and like, a few mins later/literally AS i was venting about it, u send this BAHAHA your choccy senses were tingling. IM SO GLAD U LIKE IT THO AND THAT YOURE ENJOYING IT (and my drawings, even if youve defs seen spoilers by now BAHHA) hope u have a good day too, u defs brightened mine!! THANK UUUU💖💖💖

@kaviary-blog this looks so funny bc i censored u just to keep it (mostly) spoiler free BUT AW THANK U DAMN IM HONOURED THAT MY FANFIC WAS THE ONE TO MAKE YOU CRY?? IM SO HAPPY HOW INVESTED YOU ARE 😭😭💖💖 im also super happy with that chap and its so satisfying like you said to finally be able to tie of all those threads so IM GLAD IT WAS WORTH IT💖

@lovesicklovermia ONE DAY???? OMG. FIRST TWO DAYS NOW ONE?? ITS JUST GETTING SHORTER AND SHORTER. next thing i know someones gonna be like yeah so i took some highly experimental drug that lets me read at 1000% the pace of a normal person, and i finished ur fic in 2 hours 😍omg loved it!!!😍😍 BAHAHAHA but omg i totally see what u mean, they do HAHA. AND THANK U💖💖 IM GLAD UR LIKING IT💖

YEAH so in my fic fifth years are 16, and by the time things get....explicit....clora and seb are 17. im not against consuming media with teenagers depicted in sexual situations like euphoria or riverdale or w.e else bc i get that its fiction and these are just real things that happen so its fine to write about them, but their canonical ages of 15 was still too young for me and i wanted them to be 17 before it got the E rating (which is why clora and sebs birthdays end up being so close, bc i was RUSHING for them to turn 17 BAHAHHAA)

BAHAHA clora and seb secretly being together is like the most poorly kept secret in my fic, like im sure her parents technically KNOW, but due to old fashioned traditions and whatnot (and it being 1891) seb wants to be able to propose properly and with a proper ring, bc clive is intimidating and he doesnt wanna just be like "yeah so im dating your daughter and weve already fucked and i plan to marry her" LOOL he wants to do things properly and be with her with her dads permission(even tho its a bit late for that HAHA) BUT WE CAN JUST PRETEND. tldr its basically just out of some sense of chivalry on sebs side, a fear of her dad, and wanting to do things right LOL

ALSO WAIT OMG STOPPPPP I WAS LITERALLY JUST ABOUT TO POST THIS BUTI HAVE TO INCLUDE THIS NOW

YOU SAW MY POST AND IMMEDIATELY DREW THIS AS A RESPONSE WHILE IN CLASS?? BAHAHAHA IM ACTUALLY SO TOUCHED RN IM TEARING UP WTF THATS SO SWEET OF YOU WTFFFFFFFFF THANK YOU SO MUCH😭😭😭💖💖 (NOW PAY ATTENTION IN CLASS!!🤬🤬)

[illbegottenfaith]

Hiiii :]

I just wanted to let you know that I absolutely love you, like pls kiss all those wrinkles in your brain, cuz your works hit that specific spot that nobody could eVER reach

No kidding, you're my favorite Theo Nott writer, I love you so much I'm literally crying, like just thinking about your works makes me tear up cuz of how good they are ugh shut upppppp

And look, I'm complicated, if I see someone getting one tiny detail wrong, my entire brain just shuts down and refuses to keep reading, bUT YOU??? Nah, girl, you get him so so so good, it honestly makes me cry that I cannot physically bite your works and break them and inhale them and just make them ink so I can get them tattooed under my eyelids to still read them while I sleep

So yeah, I'm obsessed, maybe I have a problem but I'm just a girl :(

Anyway, the only thing I hate it's that I just found you and I'm literally dying cuz I'm on my finals and I don't wanna study, I wanna read your works and kick my feet and giggle and blush and twirl my hair and throw up and cry and bite and-

Yeah, I love you so so so much and wanted you to know that you, your art and your creativity are heavily appreciated and loved and I hope you have a good day and know that you are important and loved and that I'm happy you exist :]♡

And sorry for the spam cuz I've been reblogging your stuff like it's my last day alive, but it's cuz I wanna read as much as I can (and I'm sick of my classes atp >:þ)

Also sorry if something didn't make sense, English is not my first language and I'm literally studying dead languages rn, my brain is not working 😭😭

I want to start off by saying how reluctant I was to answer this, even now I just want to selfishly keep this in my inbox and stare at for the rest of my life for only me to see 😭😭😭 I feel so so touched and honoured you like my characterisation of Theo, I feel like with every piece of work I write I get a little closer to nailing him down and although I enjoy the process enough for it to be a reward itself, it feels so heartening that someone else gets him the way I get him so thank you SO much for that 🥹🥹🫶🫶🫶💕

I coincidentally haven’t been feeling very great lately. I’ve been a little stressed with this project I’m doing over the summer, I had a small run-in with another creator on here a while back, I have this internship I need to start grinding for, some of the fics in the fandom glorify certain toxic tropes etc., basically a list of reasons that made me consider just quitting writing here altogether. Other than all that I still feel a little insecure in my writing abilities at times, like any other writer, so this ask was really so heartening to read. I appreciate it and I appreciate YOU so so much. I have so much fun writing here and I really didn’t like the idea of stopping, so thank you for giving me one more reason to keep at it.

Also no worries about the spam hehehe and all the best for your finals!!! You got thissss 💯💯 I’d be more than happy to have more fics ready for you once ur done ☺️☺️

[loganslowdown4]

Sanders Sides Anime Intro

All The Details Part 1!

Just like last time, I’m just going to list all the fun stuff I noticed or jumped out at me! Enjoy!

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When dad gives his son bunny ears in a photo—

I know that is not what’s happening but yeah also it’s happening, intentional or not lol

SUCH a dad thing I’m gonna cry /pos 😂

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I need more of whatever is going on here

It keeps happening and I’m here for it

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This single shot f*cking me up SO BAD

Where is his allegiance?? I MEAN REALLY??? None of us can be completely sure. Like I wanna trust him. I do. So much.

Or does this mean he’s in a class all his own? Is my theory of Grey/Neutral Sides finally going to be addressed??? 😳😳😳

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Oh this shot! I loved this sooooo much because it reminded me of that one Ouran High gif that’s been floating around in the fandom FOREVER 🌹

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I distinctly remember in one of the bloopers Thomas saying he HATES Granny Smith apples and yet here he is, suffering for his art. Look at his face when he bit into it 😂😝

And you know why???

To remind us that the colour of the apple 🍏 is IMPORTANT. To show us just who Janus has his TEETH sunk into

Please please read my Orange Side theory, and big chunk of it is why that apple is important. 👀

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The return of the purple eyeshadow aaahhhh 🪻🪻🪻🪻🪻

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Here’s the songs used in the video!

Way You Make Me Feel / Adelyn Paik

Melt Away / Adelyn Paik

Continue To Part 2!

[tiny-banana-time]

Last week, @favoriteblogonthecitadel @mtreebeardiles and @theoriginalladya all tagged me in a 15 questions for 15 friends thing, and I'm finally delivering lol.

Are you named after anyone?

- my middle name is a family name 

When was the last time you cried?

- um... 🤔 Not sure honestly. I cry a lot less frequently than I used to. It was probably when listening to music or something 

Do you have kids?

- nope. I would consider adopting or fostering older kids some day, but otherwise I'm okay being an uncle

What sports do you play/have you played?

- oh man, let's see... Tee-ball, soccer, and basketball when I was in elementary school. Marching band in high school (fuck you, it's a sport - fight me). I did discus for... Maybe two weeks before I decided track and field wasn't for me lol. 

Do you use sarcasm?

- oh all the fucking time. 

What is the first thing you notice about people?

- vibes I guess? I'm always looking for whoever seems to feel as awkward as I do lol. 

What is your eye color?

- blue, baby

Scary movies or happy endings?

- usually happy endings, but I like a good spook, too

Any talents?

- figuring out how shit works, cooking, writing, gettin' crafty

Where were you born?

- USA in the Great Lakes area

What are your hobbies?

- video games, fanfic, book binding, drawing, puzzles, old lady games (gimme that sudoku bby)

Do you have any pets?

- 2 beagle mixes! Both are adorable idiots and bed hogs. One is wee and one is medium.

How tall are you?

- uhh 5'6"?

Favorite subject in school?

- hmm history was good depending on the teacher, but art class for the win

Dream Job?

- man I dunno. There's nothing I dream of doing as a job y'know? I wanna be able to do the things I enjoy without having to worry about doing it to make enough money to survive 😭

I am... Not tagging 15 people I'm sorry 😂

[cricketnationrise]

Congrats on the followers milestone!! Here's an idea:

16h30

Reading Room

Lardo

for you, a little expansion of Shitty's Dibs. Thank you and enjoy!

catch up on the rest of Ficlet Fest 3 here

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reading room, 4:30pm

Lardo flings open the door and makes a beeline for Shitty’s bed so she can crawl out onto the Reading Room. She doesn’t even make it all the way onto the roof before she’s continuing her rant from their text chain.

“And like, I’m sort of shocked they waited till now to ask me, like, it’s almost finals? Did they think I just didn’t have my shit figured out already?” she asks, dumping her bag to one side and settling into her customary spot.

“Well—”

“Leaving aside the fact that I don’t have a living situation figured out yet, it just feels like a desperate move. Doesn’t bode well, you feel me?”

“For sure. Bear?” he asks, holding out the biggest bag of gummy bears she’s seen in a while toward her.

She raises a single eyebrow. “Did you accidentally buy a bag with the pink ones again?”

“...Maybe.”

“Bear me.” He passes over the bag and they take a moment to just watch the street, soaking up the breeze rustling through the leaves and the sounds of Beyoncé from the kitchen below them. The first taste of grapefruit makes her wrinkle her nose – she’s not the biggest fan of the flavor – but she’s not about to let Shitty absently snack on something that he’s mildly allergic to, so she keeps eating.

“So did you give them an answer already?” Shitty asks eventually, a weird expression on his face. Lardo squints at him, but lets it go in favor of answering.

“I told them I had to think about it,” she says, picking out the last few pink bears. “It’d be like, fine, but – ‘kay, I ate all the gross pink ones for you—”

“Brah,” he says, fake tearing up in gratitude. She punches him in the side of the arm and Shitty falls to the side with a dramatic groan. Lardo just rolls her eyes and continues her thought.

“—But, it's on the other side of campus. Plus, Claire's gonna sexile Lara weekly, and I don't wanna Judge Judy all senior year.” She leans back on her hands, more glad than ever she doesn’t have to use her brain any more today. “Man. Why the printmaking kids gotta be so damn horn a bajillion percent of the time?”

There’s a beat of silence where Shitty would normally make fun of her (admittedly strange) art friends, and then—

“So, Lards, ‘bout housing…I’m thinking you should have my dibs.” Lardo freezes at the words. Surely she didn’t hear correctly. He can’t have offered her his room in The Haus. He can’t have.

“I mean it makes a whole lotta sense, right? I mean, first, you practically fuckin’ love here anyway,” he says, ticking the items off on his fingers. “Second, it should be your right as manager. And third—” he meets her gaze squarely, more sincere and earnest about this than he ever was for hockey or any of his classes. This is important to him, maybe the most important. Suddenly, she’s fighting down a lump in her throat.

“You’re one of the best teammates I’ve ever had. So like. You know what to do to seal the deal…if you want ‘em, that is.” 

Apparently he can have been offering his room – offering her a chance to live with some of her favorite people in the whole damn world – as though it was a given, a right, a done deal. He holds out his hand for the customary Dibs Shake, but to her horror, Lardo sniffs, and there’s a tear dripping down her cheek that she has to hide in her elbow.

“Shitty…”

The wobble in her voice sets him off, and now they’re both halfway to ugly crying on the roof of the Haus like dumbasses. “Oh no-no-no, dude,” he says, furiously blinking to ward off tears. “If you waterworks, I’ll w-waterworks…”

She launches herself at him with a strangled AGGGHH!! – throwing her arms around him and squeezing as tightly as she can, hoping that her message gets across without actual words.

Shitty squeezes her back, and his words sound a little relieved (did he think she’d say no???) and a lot wet when he manages to speak. “Hugs count too.”

Fuck right they do.

When they finally break apart, Shitty’s beaming at her and she can feel her own smile widening in response.

“I guess I better tell Claire and Lara I’m already set for next year then,” she teases, striving for her normal dry tone.

“Brah, you’re gonna eat a million pies next year.”

“‘Swawesome.”

[adreamingofguns]

Reverse Unpopular Opinion: tell me what you love about Saw

Takes your hands. We are going on a journey. I'm probably doing the reverse unpopular opinion thing wrong but ❤️ it's 5 am by me. we deal.

Personally I like that some of the traps are done with practical effects, much to the detriment of the VERY ENTHUSIASTIC cast who are surprisingly chill with almost drowning IRL and/or having to suffer through wearing 30+ lbs of jagged steel while having the flu and/or actually being stuck in the shackle prop because there was a malfunction while everybody else goes for lunch and/or requesting real glass for the stunt scenes and insisting on throwing real punches in the stunt fights because they're a masochistic freak of an actor (the masochism isn't the bad part, the EVERYTHING ELSE about him sucks) Some of the worst traps and effects are when they use cgi. Looks bad, tom.

I also appreciate that the through-line of the movie is not only justice (and the malformations of it) but also love. Love is what drives the characters to do what they do!! At least three of the apprentices/jigsawers do what they do because they are doing it for love of another person!! And not even romantic love for most of them. I love that the fandom has led me to more friendships and sparked more creativity in me that was lacking for a while. I love that the cast list is just random b-c list actors and also Greg Bryk is there and every time I see him I get jumpscared. I love that it gave me an idea for a tattoo (original idea do not steal!!!) where it'll say "do you like how brutality feels?" but in the shape of a spiral and I kinda wanna get it on the inside of my forearm.

As the adage goes, one must cultivate their online experience because there are some WEIRD ASS headcanons out there. That being said, I love and appreciate the people who are normal about the fat characters. I love that people banded together against an artist who was very adamant and weird about drawing fat characters (which there are a few) like twinks. I wish they kept that energy going. I LOVE that seeing a specific fat character and the way he's built/the way people draw him voluptuously (😂) gives me so much gender euphoria. I love when people acknowledge this character as an erudite and well-dressed man with an art degree and a secret passion for home remodeling (this is canon) who also happens to be a fat man. Like fat people are real three dimensional human beings or something. He's also super deranged and mows down like 70+ people at once in a spree that ends in him stuck and trapped, possibly killed and possibly just held captive by a cunty evil doctor in the basement of his own home like how in the Sims game where you make somebody live in the basement and paint constantly so you can make money selling the paintings.

I love how a few months ago on Twitter the fandom came together to mourn as the bot that goes through the script line by line came to a particularly devastating part and that stupid image of the cat puppet from the OLD Dr Who

(this image) was the only thing keeping me sane while I was in the trenches of crying in school over stupid bullshit.

I did my final in my religion in film class about Saw and used the following image. My professor and classmates were wowed.

Sadly the accompanying paper sucked major ass (I wrote it in the span of an hour and it's ADHD core topic jumping like HELL) but it got me an A and the respect of my asshole professor 😂

I ALSO LOVE HOW SAW FANDOM POSTS KEEP ESCAPING CONTAINMENT AND GETTING POPULAR AMONG THE GENERAL NON-SAW FANS LIKE THAT 50 GUNS AND VIBRATOR IN THE CAR CUP HOLDER DASH THING MEME THATS A SAW POST

I kinda rambled a bit sorry 😂 here's a gif of Peepaw Jigsaw himself zooted off his ass and staring at a fishtank in his ex-boyfriend's office.

[ripe-lily]

CHAPT. I: Oh, Marianne Ja… What Was It Again?

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Marianne Janina Schäfer—or MJ, as she decided to call herself one random afternoon after binge-watching Spider-Man as a kid—loves joking about how her life literally feels like A24 movies. You’ll figure out why, eventually.

The girl grew up in Berlin with a family where she is a sibling to two big brothers and one little sister. Moving to Manhattan for college was supposed to be her cinematic coming-of-age moment like every other teen who’s severely obsessed with the show Friends or has listened to Empire State of Mind on loop. Strutting through the city that never sleeps while caffeinating herself with overpriced coffee was high schooler MJ’s constant pre-bed scenario. The reality is a bit heartbreaking, though: the cumbersome healthcare system, crappy subways, but somehow falling begrudgingly in love with the city anyway. Nero (Brother the Second™), who’s been a senior Manhattanite for college too, has been her guide during the stay. Or, major revision: her go-to emergency ATM when she’s broke and too scared to ask their Papa for more money.

Now being a college student (Class of 2026), MJ is majoring in English & History, which is a combination she swears makes perfect sense because understanding history helps you write better stories, duh. Her love for what she fondly calls “writing gibberish” earned her the position as an editor-in-chief of AXIS—her university writing dept’s official literary magazine—which she celebrates with a literal scream of joy. She loves the job most of the time, especially the perk of tossing out comments like this imagery is FIRE omgggg.

She somehow manages to have business with just about everyone on campus. Between her classes, her AX duties, and the various student orgs she’s loosely involved in, there’s always someone who owes her an email or the other way around. Need advice on your creative writing piece? Ask MJ. Trying to organize a campus-wide fundraiser? MJ’s name is somehow on the committee list. The taurean claims to love being busy, but the occasional passive-aggressive tweets (e.g. I WANNA GO BACK TO BERLIN) prove otherwise.

For MJ, life is one messy Notes app entry at a time. In a TikTok video she once watched, someone declared that a girl’s notes are the equivalent of a zoo. Hers is no different. Here’s a few from MJ’s, even:

March 25, 2024 | A list of my all-time favorite films, ranked by how much they made me cry

1. Dead Poets Societyyyy omfg he was good he was really good

2. Chat is it socially acceptable to sob during In the Heights or am I just mentally unwell

April 29, 2024 | Miss Kyoto as hell. I’d sell my soul to Satan to go back to 11th grade and relive my exchange semester in Japan bc WHY is the U.S. like this

September 15, 2024 | AX-Specific Brain Dumps

• Niel suggested experimenting with multi-format submissions (e.g. text, photography, audio? Could be cool thank God he’s my co-EIC)

• Shalom proposed a collab with the theater dept. for a lit showcase (YEEEES)

• Email Prof. Garcia about the creative nonfiction workshop (don't chicken out, MJ) (and DON’T accidentally send a meme this time)

• Proofread submissions. Specifically: that one about time travel (needs better pacing but WOW), Cal’s poetry (needs zero edits, must hype her up), the allegorical vampirism piece (genius or confusing? Idk but art is up to interpretation is it nooooot)

• REMINDER!!!!!: Lit Mag Social next month (organize icebreakers that aren’t cringe)

September 17, 2024 | Reminder: breathe. It’s fine. I’m fine. (??? Am I?)

September 21, 2024 | TO-DO LIST (MUST DO FOR REAL)

• Meal prep something that isn’t instant noodles (unlikely but aspirational)

• Read up on 20th-century political movements for Monday’s history seminar

• Finally do laundry please MJ don’t rewear the same shirt to class again tmr

• Look up exactly how to file taxes in the U.S. (??? still confused)

• Start outlining for next week’s debate bc somehow I’m on the committee again

• Create playlist for AXIS writing night.. maybe add more Phoebe Bridgers?

October 1, 2024 | Went to Nero’s band’s gig last night and a random stranger said my boots were bangers omg thank you thrift gods they were only like $10

October 12, 2024 | URGENT COLLEGE TASKS

1. Finish research for my essay on post-war European reconstruction

2. Finish the said goddamn essay before Saturday (or make peace with failing)

3. Prepare presentation for Modern Lit class on the role of existentialism in contemporary writing (oh God I’ll have to read so much Kafka won’t I)

4. Read for upcoming seminar on the French Revolution. But actually just watch documentaries lol

October 15, 2024 | Learned a bit of French instead of working on my assignments but at least I’ve found new favorite words of wisdom and that is je ne sais pas

December 31, 2024 | New Year’s Resolutions (pls manifest this):

• Write at least one short story that doesn’t feel like garbage

• Keep AX running without losing my sanity (amen)

• Actually set a budget and stick to it

• Survive whatever this semester is

• Call family more often bc Mama has started quoting Gloria saying “I’m losing my children to America!” and she might be right bc I fear I’m forgetting my Deutsch now

• Sleep before midnight at least once a week (lol good luck)

[sashkapi]

This is my first time sending you an ask because I was shy, but I was just binge-scrolling your profile (again), and I just wanna say never apologize for making more beautiful content about kbsd, especially the kindall ones :'3

Like, mygosh, you have no idea how many times your updates have made my day because I am also STARVING for kbsd and kindall content kebdjshwjdbsjsjc You're honestly such a blessing for that special place in my heart reserved for just kindall HAHAHAHAHA Like damn, where you've been after all these years T-T

But anyway, I super love your headcanons about kindall, and also just kbsd in general. I wanna ask you so many stuff like how tall do you think Kick would be compared to Kendall when they grow older? Do you think Hansel would like Kick when Kindall finally gets a little closer to the friendship side of things or will Hansel be super overprotective over Kendall and basically hate Kick' guts lol ALSO, what do you think of Kendall and Gunther as friends? Or their dynamic as fellow class officers? It's been a while, but I remember there being an episode where Gunther won as president to the student council I think? And like, I'm lowkey sad that this wasn't ever mentioned or referenced again in another episode. Because on one hand, I do think Gunther is smart in certain aspects and this is a good way for him to show it, BUT ALSO, IMAGINE IF KENDALL SHOWED GUNTHER THE ROPES FOR ALL THESE STUDENT COUNCIL STUFF AND THAT'S HOW THEY GOT A LITTLE CLOSER AS FRIENDS? Sorry for the all-caps, I just think it'd be super cute if there was more content about the other friendships and connections between the side characters (especially for Kendall, cause I remember her celebrating her birthday alone on that one episode where Kick babysits Oscar I think, AND THAT'S JUST SO SAD AND SHE DESERVES BETTER)

But anyway, sorry for the super long and messy brain dump hahaha, but endpoint to all of this, just wanna say that I love the content you make and I'm super excited to see your other headcanons and comics. That's all, thank you so much for all that you do and I wanna send you virtual hugs (with consent) <33 Byeee!

Me, after I red this ask /pos

KSJDJFKDFJGK PLEASE I"M SO HAPPY I MADE SOMEONE HAPPY WITH MY SILL KBSD ART I SWEAR IT SO AAAAAAAA

Ok i'm gonna put the rest under the cut because OH I HAVE A LOT TO SAY

I actually drew their designs for like mid/late twenties for a quick joke and didn't put as much thought into that BUT KJGKDJFGJK

Ok so adult Kindall

I feel a bit embarrassed by just how strong of a grip those two have on me but chvyf I'm still gonna make content with them of course >:D

Also

We stan short king ayooooooooo

About Hansel and Kick

I like the idea that she's not overprotective over Kendall or likes Kick right away but a secret third thing: sees him as a rival for the rank of awesome's first place. Like whenever he visits Kendall Hasel goes "aight boy, square up!" And just starts acting cute and adorable because that what somewhat gave her first place in the past.

Her cuteness doesn't work on Kick of course but Kendall? She already loves Hansel very much so whenever Hansel "competes" with Kick by rolling on the floor or rubbing against Kendall's legs you know that Kendall will be borderline crying from how adorable her kitty is.

The fact that cat can easily take all of Kendall's attention like that doesn't makes Kick mad tho. But he sure is irritated by that. Frustrated even.

GUNTHER AND KENDALL'S FRIENDSHIP IS SOMETHING THAT I THOUGHT ABOUT ADGCJVJV

Hansel counts that as a win btw jfnfnnfkfk

Before this ask I just thought that they're neutral. Not friends, Gunther is also kinda wary of her but generally sees her as just a classmate. BUT YEAH THAT EPISODE ABOUT ELECTION. IT WOULD BE FUNNY IF THAT WAS AT LEAST MENTIONED BUT AAAAAAA

Now I kinda like the idea that Kendall was scheming to take Gunther's place after the episode. However, Gunther kinda realized that student council position? Not very hype. Barely any time to hang out. So Gunther genuinely asked Kendall for help. Like, Jacky is wack (affectionate) but Kendall is pretty much known for her love for the rules and academics so it's only logical. And at first Kendall wanted to use that to completely "overthrow" him but Gunther, being an absolute lovable funny guy he is, made her go "Ok, you can stay actually"

I like the idea that Kendall keeps Gunther from turning the school into a Nordic funny land and Gunther keeps her from turning the school into a literal prison. It's a win win situation

ALSO I TOO WISH THERE WAS MORE ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIPS BETWEEN CHARACTERS SVJVJBL

It's kinda implied that Mouth and Ronaldo are friends. Ronaldo had goons too (where did they go :( ) Also I really warming up to the idea that Kyle and Jackie became chaotic besties or even romantic partners (sorry Gunther x Jackie people, but Kyle x Jackie has more comedic potential to me)

I also wanted to see Kendall interact with more with her peers like jjdjgnjdndjfjck even if not friendly, just lemme see my girl being a menace

JFJJCJC PLEASE YOUR ASK LIGHTEN MY DAYS SO MUCH LIKE I CANT PLEASE KNOW THAT I THOUGHT ABOUT THIS ASK EVERY DAY SINCE I GOT IT

IM SO SORRY FOR LATE REPLY I WAS BUSY BUT SHGUFYCHV NOW ONCE IM GETTING MORE FREE TIME IM MAKING MORE CONTENT ABOUT THIS SILLY LIL DARDEVIL BOY

(Please know I am returning that virtual hug :) )

[fainthedcherry]

IT'S NEW YEARS OVER HERE SO LET ME LAUNCH MY BABIES AT YOU FOR IT!!!!

In case you want their backstories, I just recommend you go over to their Toyhou.ses respectively, as- typing on Tumblr is a pain for my PC. My PC hates Tumblr in particular for some reason, whenever I format text, and I can't LIVE without formatting text as a hobby-author man. xD

LINK TO MARCO'S STORY

LINK TO ZORRO'S STORY

For new users; Marco was made by Heavenly-Hellfire and Hollowed-Hartlocke. I bought him back in 2019! Still love him like it's day 1. My best, most adorable boy <3, he's become my actual role model, I love him sm ;:

In case you never read them before, hopefully you enjoy the reads!!! I hope you can forgive the older grammar on Zorro's. I def plan to rewrite it, once I finish working on my raider-code. (It's been taking so long bc I'm trying to learn to use the CSS mixin z-index class-type. I still can't figure out image borders for the life of me, but I learned rotation class-types LOL.)

I've wanted to redraw both their reference sheet for almost YEARS now. Ever since I've gotten Marco, I continuously evolved how I draw him, over and over, to a point his old ref had become a detriment, due to how differently I draw him nowadays LOL. One thing that desperately needed a redo for him especially, how his hair is supposed to be drawn + his wings. His wings looked like floppy chicken nuggets on the old one LOL. PLUS! I added a section of details, where I see artists I commissioned, struggle with or fail on. Hopefully the detail section is sufficient in fixing that! I'm not sure, if I should also add a mention, of Marco's dot details below the pink pattern, as even the distance between the dots is different. + I LOVE DRAWING EXPRESSIONS. So to also add a small box of extras for Marco's cool glowy eyes was a treat. <3

I plan to redraw his refs for his magic wind attacks perhaps, as for now, I have a shabby drawing, and I got a free animation program lately, so I can FINALLY unleash my years of experience animating, in the appropriate program now LMAO. My own limitations of using SAI to animate, was making my animations look choppy and bad for years unfortunately, so my art always looked very amateur-ish when I actually know how to animate..

Speaking of that, for the attentive...Yes, I plan to possibly try and draw a 360° turnaround of my characters, as the next natural progression of refs next. I am SO close, so so SO close to making my art finally look like it's part of my project I've been working on for years in private. Ever since this year, people have proven, that you CAN start an animated series on the internet, and it will receive an audience. I also wanted to start an animated series when I was a teen, and now that I'm an adult I can make it happen for sure, with the right talents. When the time comes, I might seek out a music producer and perhaps, if I'll have the money, hire animators, so that I'm not the only one who has to work on the series I planned.

For Zorro....He had it coming. Last time I drew his ref, he looked like a 16 yo/ mobian child, it pissed me off for so many years, once I learned how to properly make adult characters look adult lol. THE CEREAL SPITTER NOW ACTUALLY LOOKS ADULT AND LIKE THE BASTARD SELF HE SHOULD BE. I don't have too much to add to him, but I consider him still a WIP in my brain bc- RAIDER PAGE CODE. I WANNA FINISH. GRABBY HANDS. I CAN FEEL THAT IF I LEARN Z-INDEX FINALLY I CAN REALISE THAT CODE. I've wanted to make a code for my raiders 3 years ago already y'all it's painful to be patient w/ myself sdgkldslgdsg

I'm so satisfied, with my ref sheets finally looking, like a professional drew them imho!! If you disagree w/ that notion, feel free to tell me what's missing or where I need to improve on! :D

My 2024 started amazing and with laughter and appreciation for my friends, I'm so happy finally. 3 years in a row, all I did was cry each new year, and be in pain. 2024 feels like it could be my year. Year of the dragon, bless me with your energetic and powerful spirit please,, 🙏

ANYWAY. Forgive me in advance for watermarks, but I kind of? Am paranoid now over my art a bit bc my work is good now? Like I think I'm in the final stages of my artistry. I can feel, that I might find the perfect style soon. I need to experiment just a bit more. Just a bit more...I might consider loosening up my linework in 2024. I honestly still? Hate lineart? Like..My lineart looks good now, don't get me wrong but. I just love sketchy artwork so much more??? Sketching is so fun, creating is so joyful, when it's a sketch..But lineart kind of.....Ruins my art. I think I should loosen up. It's why I might change my approach a millionth time, but my artstyle has potential now. I don't feel, like my art is awful anymore or worth nothing, it now HAS worth, I now HAVE the right to have an ego about it, but some pieces still are missing, to give me the ultimate happiness and relief in my work. Perhaps if I do some more commissions, I might unlock my final potential? We'll see.

My aspirations for 2024;

Pass the prep-exam for my workplace (I LOVE MY WORK. I SINCERELY WISH I'LL PASS. I love work so much omg I don't wanna be fired so badly)

Draw more art of Finn & Marco so they finally pass Chloe in most images on TH (I REALLY DON'T WANT HER TO HAVE THE MOST IMAGES STILL. It should either be my comfort boys or C.I.Ta)

Be more experimental with mixing medias traditionally (I wanna start mixing mini craft-projects + my drawings or mix more pencils + markers and also glass pens + watercolours. I rlly rlly wanna experiment and go loose.)

Animate more and possibly even post said animations. I know animation takes me HELL OF A LOT of time, as I lack so much time to do so, but I'd love to do that

Stop stressing so hard over OTA's and commissions. I know I tell myself each year, "this year will be the year I wanna finish all my owed art!!" But every once and a while, I need to be a realist to myself, my optimism may be good, but it sometimes..Is a little over-eager. But I noticed in 2023, I really heavily strangle myself out. I haven't drawn any private art since 2020, really.....It says a lot about an artist, if they now haven't drawn a personal drawing and finished it, in the same quality of their owed work for 4 years now. I haven't been really honest to myself and my heart, and I'd like to forgive myself slowly, by allowing to both work on owed work, and start creative, passionate art-projects again, again, where I can let loose and just. Experiment. Do something new. Push the boundaries of my art. Combine medias, collages, etc, anything under the sun I wanna try. I limit myself so hard, over chasing a goal, I can't achieve, if I won't acknowledge, I'll cause my own death as an artist, if I continue to chase unattainable goals, I can't achieve, if I won't be gentle to myself.

Finish revamping my commission sheet. It requires, I draw new examples of course. The big thing I need to warn ahead; I will have a fat price-increase, due to work taking all the time I can have now. I can only work around 4hrs a day on art. My art takes around 20 hours to be finished. Every piece is done with love, with time, with effort. I'm not an artist, who adheres to algorithms. I'm an artist who lives with passion, with freedom in mind. I have an endless amount of ideas, I have an infinite amount of space and ways to create it. I am not a machine, I am, what an artist strives to be. To simply...Create. AI can go to hell, and drag NFTs along with it. I to this day get attempts to be hacked, by tech bros, believe it or not. I pissed off BAYC on Twitter once, and some butthurt idiot, is still trying to get to my Insta and Steam to this day. Won't happen anymore with 2FA idiot, lmao. I won't allow a 2nd hack to happen.

Finish giving ALL my characters on TH a floatie icon. I know w/ 100% certainty, that I got this task in the bag. This one is of no problem at all.

With that, thank you for reading my world-salad! Almost as tasty, as mom's olivier-salad. Yumyum. Btw secret lil teaser ig below here lmao. I started Finn's sheet too, and I've got it 1/3rds done, but I don't wanna burn myself out on ref-sheets, so perhaps you'll see Finn also reworked in a few months! ✨

[radipede]

Video transcript:

[Voiceover of a miniature painter. The speaker is painting carpeted steps leading up to a lavish throne. He has a measured and careful voice.]

Carpets are useful for indoctrinating little boys into white supremacy, and I'll explain that in a moment once I get you started painting this one.

First, use Luxion Purple contrast paint, or mix up something similar like I'm doing, and give the area a once-over. Then, grab some Flow-Aid and use that going forward in place of water. We're gonna mix Warlord Purple, then pink, then white, and make tiny little ticks, getting lighter and lighter towards the edge of the steps.

Watch the demo. No blinking. I'll know, I can hear it.

We were at a trade show, and my dad pointed out a small, handstitched rug that was incredible. He mentioned that people made these kinds of things for kings and rich people, but they took so much time historically that they likely didn't get to be enjoyed by their makers. Or were doing it as slaves. I looked pretty galled, I imagine, and my father reassured me that not everyone can afford incredible and beautiful things, so unless we wanna live in a world without monuments, and works of beauty, then… sometimes that's just what has to happen.

I remember being comforted by this. I didn't consider, not for an instant, that I'd be the one stitching the rug. No one challenged me to think on what those people would be doing, what feats of art and science and human kindness they'd wrestle into the world, if they'd had comfort, space, and time to do so on their own. And my station as the one enjoying the rug has always been implicit.

These moral justifications for expecting the fruits of white authority aren't always intentional, but they bleed from one generation to the next. They are poison at the root. I held onto that comfort for a long time.

Text on screen: (Not my mom thought, she rules. Love you mom)

If my dad didn't turn out to be the kind of person he was, driving me away, causing me to question everything, I wonder if I'd still be enjoying that comfort. Content and unchallenged. Passing it along to my son.

My father, for all of his faults, was someone else's little boy, once. And he was failed, too.

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A screenshot of the accompanying comments under this tiktok.

Wodar9: Has a public library never been incredible or beautiful? The idea that beauty is limited to the "ruling class" is diabolical.

Veyoncé: wait, I finally found the "scale model painting to leftism" pipeline

Vic_299: "my dad was someone else's little boy, and he was failed too" bruh why you got me crying on a mini painting tutorial 😭😭

creator TreeRatTabletop replied: gotta follow your abc's (always be crying)

CatnipChapstick: I've never really felt pride in humanity looking at huge monuments, or massive infrastructure, but I never really knew why. I think you may have offered me that answer.

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You'll have to turn sound on for this one

[peunkzilla]

awesome songs in this spectacular april season

AHHH So this month has been honestly amazing so far. I've met more amazing people, I've begun to make sense of myself, and best of all, I've heard more amazing beautiful fabulous music!! Clairo is saving my life with the charm album and I'm being so serious when I say that.

Snowpath by Jonah Yano and Clairo. This song takes my heart right out of my chest with the gentlest hands anyone could manage, injects rays from the yellow morning sun into it, and lays it back down through my ribs. "When my eyes meet the window, will the world get bright?" DON'T EVEN JOKE LAD. MY WORLD IS BRIGHT CAUSE OF THIS SONG. I LOVE IT.

Partridge by Clairo. Yes. Another Clairo song. And there will be more. I love this song. THE ALBUM ITSELF IS A WORK OF ART. "Comfortable, unmotivated always." That line is playing in the background of my mind at all times.

This Love of Mine by Alex Amen. This song makes me so freaking happy every time I listen to it. Like I get that feeling when you're looking around outside and all of a sudden there's this almost overwhelming burst of love for everything around you. "I ask the sun and the moon, the stars that shine, what's to become of it, this love of mine." MY QUESTIONS FOR THE UNIVERSE.

Little Girl Blue by Nina Simone. So in honor of jazz appreciation month (or whatever it's called) and also an episode of Pen15 which I finally finished after leaving it on hold for like 2 years, I listened to a bunch of jazz songs like the entire day in which I came across this one. I swear to whatever god is up there every time I hear Nina Simone sing my body morphs into something else. Don't ask what, but trust that's it's a good thing. This song in particular is just so sweet and it does make me feel loved. "All you can ever count on are the raindrops that fall on little girl blue." See I have no idea what this means, but I'm clinging to it like a monkey on a tree.

Stabilisers for Big Boys by Panchiko. Big change from the others, but this song is so unbelievably fire. I literally just looked up the lyrics and woah, but I fuck with it. It's super noisy, but I feel like puberty is too. Everything comes together to make this song wonderful and I LOVE IT. "I wanna kiss like a girl, I wanna fuck up your world." Like damn, but okay hell yeah!

girlfriend by hemlocke springs. Girl yes. I really do love everything about this song and I love hemlocke springs. This is the type of song I can listen to anywhere and enjoy just the same. It's so upbeat and cute and bubblegum princess and it is everything I want. Also, those lyrics are incredible and all I can think of most days as well. "Secretly I'm aiming for a rhythm that exceeds my expectations." I LOVE HOW THIS LINE ASCENDS AND HOW QUICK IT IS AND HOW IMPACTFUL IT IS LIKE ITS A REVEAL OF WHAT THE SPEAKER IS REALLY FEELING AND I LOVE IT.

If You Rescue Me (Chanson de Chats) by Jean-Michel Bernard. This song has been creeping its way up my mind scale of favorite songs and I love it. It's so peaceful and also so imaginative! Like, I think the speaker is supposed to be a cat (they literally say "someone will look into my eyes and say "hello, you're my very special kitten." I know they sound like a discord kitten but I promise you it's not about that! From what I know, this song was made for a movie called "Science of Sleep," which basically follows this guy or group of people as they begin dreaming about some wild stuff. I don't know the details, but I assume this song is apart of one of those dreams! Anyway, this song makes me very joyful. "If you rescue me, I'll never have to be alone again." I will start crying right here right now.

Finally, that's the end. This one is much longer than my other monthly song posts, but it deserves to be. All these songs truly have found a special place in my heart. I have to read 4 chapters of a book for english class and I have to practice for all-state choir, but oh well. This is much more important 😎

[happygslfreedomcore]

Guys.. you don't want a yandere bf irl 😭 he's everything I love bc hes a 6ft handsome Russian boy that reminded me of tartaglia and he saved me from kms but a year later in the relationship he used to show up at my school after school so no other ppl talked to me, told me he'd k word anyone that I got too close to, made me block everyone including my gal friends who were my only support, basically isolating me... I didn't wanna stay with him but he made me believe I needed him and that I can't do anything by myself, my body and soul was always rejecting him but my delusions about him from romanticizing our relationship to cope clouded my vision, I don't wanna neglect myself no more... He also had homies and he kept telling me that he was always watching me thru the city cameras... And that people were always watching me... He didn't like that I went to an "opp" school... I'm not affiliated btw but he made that my problem.. there was this emo skater boy that liked me and he found out and he was so mad and scary, he took my phone when he saw that the guy texted me and recorded a video of him trying to claim me... that was embarrassing asf btw.. he didn't let me text anyone actually..... He had access to my accounts too and would judge me on my past conversations with people and put me down, he'd call me stupid dumb and slow, when I'd get offended he'd get all soft and cuddle me... And I have ADHD (diagnosed) and BPD symptoms that make me forget what I'm feeling... He never let me stay away from him for more than 2 days max... So I never had time to process anything

He was always paranoid... Cheated on me hha... Wasted my teenage years bc he didn't wanna break up with me n kept leading me on, and tried to move on while never letting me know, I found out when his sisters told me when I was babysitting them... I thought he loved me bc I rlly fucking loved him, the whole time he was boomin this cokehead whore. I neglected my best friend and family and myself for him...

He made it my problem anytime he felt a person had a crush on me...

Guilt tripped me alot n used my emotions against me, would tell me I'd never see him again if we broke up and implying he'd khs........... argued with me in class/school and the teachers were genuinely concerned.. would mistreat me, I hate that he put me in those situations where I shouldve just been at school and socializing, but he just wants control, broke me mentally... One time we argued over the phone for 5 hours and I just woke up.. after we were done bc I was genuinely tweaking, I called my friend and I realized I actually lost brain cells bc I could barely speak normally and i felt sped. he'd show up to my house and force me to talk to him... I hate him so much... He stole my energy and my passion, sometimes I wish I'd let him die from those drugs... He's always assuming I'm going behind his back n cheating but in reality he's projecting onto me bc he's a whore, unlike me bc I'm pure and clean... I also don't like sex anymore, I feel dirty and unhappy after. mentally I regressed to 13 bc of all the trauma he's caused me... I always wanted someone to save me... There was this girl that liked me and I liked her too but I was scared to leave him and she said she'd save me from him but he manipulated me into blocking her and staying with him... I eventually found god and Jesus and healed enough to function and be able to smile and laugh again, got my passion for art and anime back and went back to my first love tartaglia.. I feel better writing everything down, I'm crying but I'm finally free...

[joslincox]

Animated Teen Movie Songs

When the main character falls in love

Hello - Calabasas

Fill Me In - Craig David

Love Story - Taylor Swift

I'm a Believer - Smash Mouth

What's Your Name? - Jesse McCartney

Why Don't We Fall In Love - Amerie

If You Had My Love - Jennifer Lopez

What's My Name? - Rihanna

Accidentally In Love - Counting Cows

Dilemma - Nelly and Kelly Rowland

Open - Brandy

(You Drive Me) Crazy - Britney Spears

U Got It Bad - Usher

Angel Of Mine - Monica

I Wanna Be Down - Brandy

Clumsy - Fergie

When the main character argues with their parents

Don't Be Mad - Sunshine Anderson

The Worst Day Ever - Simple Plan

You Freak Me Out - Girls Aloud

Just Let Me Cry - Ashlee Simpson

Grow Up - Simple Plan

Just Like A Pill - P!nk

Brutal - Olivia Rodrigo

Learn The Hard Way - Brandy

Take Me Away - Lash

When the main character hangs out with their friends

Rider Like Me - Ezekiel Lewis

Plastic Pony - Mxmtoon

Wannabe - Spice Girls

Best Friend - Doja Cat and Saweetie

Do It - Chloe x Halle

Back & Forth - Aaliyah

Come On Come On - Smash Mouth

It's The Weekend - Lil J

Where My Girls At? - 702

What I Like About You - Lillix

When there's a party and the main character doesn't show up

It's My Party - Lesley Gore

Get the Party Started - P!nk

Party Rock Anthem - LMFAO

Yeah! - Usher

Pity Party - Melanie Martinez

Low - T-Pain ft. Flo Rida

I Gotta Feeling - Black Eyed Peas

Moves Like Jagger - Maroon 5 ft. Christina Aguilera

Aaron's Party (Come Get It) - Aaron Carter

Bad Idea, Right? - Olivia Rodrigo

Moon Man - Balu Brigada

Wait a Minute - Ray J

When the main character hits puberty

Growing Up - The Linda Lindas

I Believe - R. Kelly

Teenage Dream - Olivia Rodrigo

Age Ain't Nothing But A Number - Aaliyah

Why Did You Have To Be - Debelah Morgan

Live Your Life - T.I ft. Rihanna

A Thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton

What's My Age Again? - Blink-182

When we meet the queen bee

Solo Star - Solange

Rip Her To Shreds - Boomkat

Miss Thang - Monica

Milkshake - Kelis

Who's That Girl? - Eve

Naughty Girl - Beyoncé

Mean Girls - Rachel Crow

Buttons - The Pussycat Dolls

BO$$ - Fifth Harmony

Beauty Queen - Lash

Drama Queen (That Girl) - Lindsay Lohan

Whip My Hair - Willow

Hollaback Girl - Gwen Stefani

Nasty Girl - Tinashe

Video - India.Aire

Material Girl - Madonna

When the characters play sports

Take It To Da House - Trick Daddy

All I Do Is Win - DJ Khaled ft. T-Pain, Ludacris, Snoop Dogg, and Rick Ross

Class Fight - Melanie Martinez

Basketball - Lil Bow Wow

The Art Of Losing - American Hi-Fi

When the main character listens to their favorite song

Sunflower - Post Malone

Nobody Like U - 4*Town

Larger Than Life - Backstreet Boys

It Gets Dark - Sigrid

I'm Not Okay (I Promise) - My Chemical Romance

Buddy Holly - Weezer

Dancing With Myself - Billy Idol

When the main character starts rebelling

Take Me To The Backseat - The Donnas

Me Vs. The World - Hallo Friendlies

It's Gonna Be Me - *NSYNC

Rebel Girl - Bikini Kill

The Anthem - Good Charlotte

Breakin' Dishes - Rihanna

When there's a conflict with the main character and their friend over a love interest

The Boy Is Mine - Brandy & Monica

Don't Mess With My Man - Nivea

We Need a Revolution - Aaliyah

Case Of The Ex - Myá

It Makes Me Ill - *NSYNC

Baby One More Time - Britney Spears

2nd Best - Cherise

Ex-Factor - Lauryn Hill

Foolish - Ashanti

Love Me Or Leave Me - Ms. Toi

When the main character gives up on their goal

Try Again - Aaliyah

Just In Case - Nivea

Key To My Heart - Craig David

I'm All About You - Aaron Carter

It's Over - Jesse McCartney

Never Say Never - Brandy

Tomorrow - Lillix

When the main character goes to prom

Pieces Of Me - Ashlee Simpson

Get Your Shine On - Jesse McCartney

LoveGame - Lady Gaga

What Makes You Beautiful - One Direction

Praising You - Rita Ora

Everybody (Backstreet's Back) - Backstreet Boys

Formal Invite - Ray J

Dancing In The Dark - Rihanna

When there's a final battle

Break U Off - Uncle Kracker

Eye Of The Tiger - Survivor

Big Ball - Drama

Mama Said Knock You Out - LL Cool J

Seven Nation Army - The White Stripes

Stronger (What Doesn't Kill You) - Kelly Clarkson

Battlefield - Jordin Sparks

Burning - Yeah Yeah Yeahs

Hot N Cold - Katy Perry

When the characters get out of school

Summer In The City - St. Lunatics

Walking on Sunshine - Katrina And The Waves

Summertime - DJ Jazzy Jeff & the Fresh Prince

Island in the Sun - Weezer

California Gurls - Katy Perry

When we meet the bully

Racist Sexist Boy - The Linda Lindas

Adam’s Song - Blink-182

Mean - Taylor Swift

Dem Haters - Rihanna

[les4elliewilliams]

Ellie is away｡｡｡ ⸝⸝⸝ e.williams

Chapter 5 – 2006, Senior year college

⊹ ࣪ ˖ a/n ﹕I'm so sorry this took me ages to post. it was actually ready I just kept forgetting to. this is the last chapter, BUT I'm considering making an alternative last chapter. why you may ask? figure out on your own. MDNI.

⊹ ࣪ ˖ wc/cw｡｡｡﹕ 1.3k , mention of alcohol, angst.

⊹ ࣪ ˖ summary｡｡｡﹕ A time before Skype and Facebook. Windows XP just came out, and Windows Messenger was the thing. You finally got a computer just to chat with your friends.

➙ part one, two, three, four, alt happy ending ˎˊ˗

brickmaster has signed in

ynshere: babe hiiiii

brickmaster: hiii brickmaster: how's it going gorgeous?

ynshere: better now ynshere: i missed you :(

brickmaster: i know baby brickmaster: we'll see each other soon, promise

ynshere: will you come over? ynshere: this weekend i mean

brickmaster: sorry baby, can't brickmaster: going out with Riley and her friends brickmaster: if that's okay?

ynshere: oh ynshere: but you already hung out with her last friday…I haven't seen you in a while

brickmaster: ugh brickmaster: come on, i promise. next friday i'm all yours brickmaster: i really wanna go out, i am allowed to have fun once in a while… i study my ass off every day, i'm stressed as hell

ynshere: i know, i just miss you. that's it

brickmaster: maybe you could hang out with us? i'm sure she won't mind

ynshere: you sure?

brickmaster: yeah, positive

ynshere: if i'm not a bother then yeah ynshere: i just wanna be with you :(

brickmaster: you're never a bother baby brickmaster: see you this friday?

ynshere: see you this friday :) ynshere: call me later, maybe? If you got time

brickmaster: yeah, will do brickmaster: i love you

ynshere is typing…

brickmaster is away

ynshere: i love you too

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ynshere: mi amor hiii ynshere: babe? ynshere: hellooooo???

brickmaster: sorry angel brickmaster: i'm here brickmaster: was chatting with Riley lol brickmaster: how you doing?

ynshere: yeah. Riley. of course i'm gooooddd ynshere: missing you tho ;(

brickmaster: me too, pretty

ynshere: wanna go out on a date this weekend? ynshere: just you and me ynshere: no Riley around… we haven't spent time alone in like forever

brickmaster: yeah sure brickmaster: what do you wanna do?

ynshere: hmmm not sure maybe go out for dinner?

brickmaster: sounds like a plan brickmaster: Riley almost got in trouble today in class

ynshere: it's always about Riley lmao what did she do?

brickmaster: basically she snuck alcohol in class brickmaster: she just put it in her water bottle and goes around with that thing brickmaster: art teacher almost caught her today, we were literally crying brickmaster: i was laughing so much that my stomach started to hurt

ynshere: oh lol

brickmaster: yeah it was hilarious, you should've seen her

ynshere: did you drink as well? ynshere: in class

brickmaster: just a bit..i mean everyone was, sooo

ynshere: you shouldn't drink in class ynshere: you don't have to do something just because everyone is doing it

brickmaster: please don't give me the mom attitude brickmaster: this is why i can never tell you anything

ynshere: :/ i'm just looking out for you because i care. you do you

brickmaster: yeah whatever, see you this weekend

ynshere is typing… ynshere: no wait i'm sorry i love you

brickmaster is away.

ynshere: where's my i love you :(

brickmaster has signed in

ynshere: baby ynshere: hi

brickmaster: howdyy

ynshere: howdy? lol is this Joel

brickmaster: lmao no, Riley says it every second brickmaster: i thought it was funny

ynshere: oh haha ynshere: happy 1 year and 5 months together :)

brickmaster: oh yeah shit brickmaster: i forgot. sorry, pretty girl brickmaster: happy anniversary-monthiversary brickmaster: i love you

ynshere: i love you toooo ynshere: i just realized i haven't heard it in a while :(

brickmaster: well yeah i mean you're not supposed to say it every second

ynshere: haven't heard it in months, El

brickmaster: oh please brickmaster: always so dramatic brickmaster:  anyways, i'm going out brickmaster:  i'll call you later brickmaster:  i love you!!!!!

brickmaster is away

ynshere: are you sick of me? love you too

ynshere has signed in

brickmaster: omg babe babe

ynshere: love of my lifee ynshere: what's upp

brickmaster: i'm going to a concert this weekend brickmaster: i'm so happy omgoomg

ynshere: oh really? let me guess ynshere: deftones?

brickmaster: yes!!! Freaking Riley surprised me with a ticket this morning, i genuinely cried brickmaster: god she's the best

ynshere: what about me? that's so sweet of her :) ynshere: think i can tag along too?

brickmaster: sorry babe, i doubt it brickmaster: thickets are all sold out

ynshere: aww shame :(

brickmaster: i knowww but shit fuck i'm so excited

ynshere: i'm happy for you Els ynshere: think it's okay if i come see you next friday? haven't seen you in a month

brickmaster: of course angel

ynshere: yay okay ynshere: my roommate needs my computer real quick ynshere: i'll call you later alright? i love you soo much

brickmaster: talk to you laterr, love you

ynshere is away.

brickmaster has signed in

brickmaster: babe hi

ynshere: hey

brickmaster: how's it going?

ynshere: good, currently studying for an exam. what about you?

brickmaster: just chilling in my dorm brickmaster: it's been a hell of a week

ynshere: right

brickmaster: hey, you sure you alright? you seem off

ynshere: i'm good

brickmaster: no youre not. what's up?

ynshere: it's just ynshere: last week...when i hung out with you, Riley and her friends, i noticed you act so different around them ynshere: and i've been wondering which version of you is the real one

brickmaster: i think you're overthinking it brickmaster: i'm just me

ynshere: you're just distant idk ynshere: you seem more cold, like you don't enjoy spending time with me

brickmaster: it's not like that though brickmaster: you're overthinking

ynshere: alright then, forget it ynshere: i'm going out

brickmaster: thought you said you were studying?

ynshere is away.

brickmaster: alright then.

brickmaster has signed in

brickmaster: hey

ynshere: hey El

brickmaster: how are you doing? brickmaster: it's been a while

ynshere: yeah i know, i've been busy ynshere: i'm doing okay though, thank you for asking ynshere: what about you? brickmaster: yeah me too

ynshere: got plans for tonight?

brickmaster: i think i'm going out with Riley

ynshere: ah cool.

brickmaster: what are you doing tonight?

ynshere: going out with Emma

brickmaster: that's nice

ynshere: yeah

brickmaster: Dina came to visit a week ago brickmaster: she asked me about you

ynshere: oh really? ynshere: what'd you tell her?

brickmaster: well, the truth brickmaster: that we broke up months ago brickmaster: i've always assumed she already knew

ynshere: haven't talked to her in a while actually ynshere: i barely catch her online ynshere: and i'm always busy, so

brickmaster: yeah right brickmaster: i guess that's why she asked about you

ynshere: most likely

brickmaster: i gotta go now, going out in an hour

ynshere: alright, see you

brickmaster is away.

ynshere has signed in ynshere: Ellie hi

brickmaster: hey

ynshere: how's everything going for you?

brickmaster: everything's alright

ynshere: can you believe that college is almost over?

brickmaster: yeah it's crazy

ynshere: we're almost adults

brickmaster: doesn't feel like it's been 4 years

ynshere: do you miss high school?

brickmaster: not really brickmaster: i'd rather not think about the past though

ynshere: well, okay ynshere: what are you doing after graduation?

brickmaster: probably moving in with Riley brickmaster: i don't know if i told you, we started dating a couple months ago

ynshere: ah congrats

brickmaster: sorry maybe it's too much?

ynshere: i'm still in love with you nah it's fine ynshere: was i too boring? was i not good enough? how's your week been going?

brickmaster: it's been alright, just busy

ynshere: what'd you do today?

brickmaster: just school and now homework

ynshere: so, how's school?

brickmaster: it's alright. same old same old

ynshere: gone to any concerts lately?

brickmaster: not really, i've been busy with school you know

ynshere: will we ever be the way we were watched any good movies lately?

brickmaster: no, not really

ynshere: is this it for us? how's Joel doing?

brickmaster: he's doing alright, thanks

ynshere: i miss you that's great :)

brickmaster: i think i'm going to go. goodbye

ynshere: please don't leave me okay, bye Els

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