#my fave is when “omg you listen to that band? they are racists they once said something inappropriate in a group chat with their

[beastblade69]

do people actually research how problematic the band is? all I do is check the country of origin (have to know, I ain't listening to no russians). I don't have energy to research every damn band member like shut tf up. if the fuck-up-ness of the band ain't a known fact (like w burzum, still tho many people just ignore the awfulness of varg just because "uhm I'm not into politics, I just love the music". even some ukrainians (idiots) are like this while knowing damn well he's a nazi pro russian dick. some people are dumb by nature and we can't do a thing about it) or they don't sing about it in their songs I have no way of knowing (forgive me that I'm not gonna waste my time on a dumb research instead of listening to music)

[baekhvuns]

This comeback is really successful I'm proud, maybe they get more wins, apparently they have a chance. Seonghwa calling Nicole from KARA "an original Hallyu queen" wasn't on my bingo card, but 😭💗

The downside of Hwa having longer hair is the possibility of him cutting it unexpectedly. Last time at least he went pink so the pain wasn't that bad...PUT THE CAMERA AWAY BESTIE I'm only saying this because I'm too far up Seonghwa's ass 🥴

Is the panther gonna eat Hwa? 🤔 cause I wouldn't be shocked. Jduwugsgshdhdywwyys ok so I'm gonna melt alright???

Omg wait at first I thought my whole life was a lie and Noddy was a girl 😭 the gay misogynist racist is taking me out wtf

I'm trying to find some photos of me in that hanbok, but idk where the fuck are they... but it was sooooo pretty

Seonghwa will never leave me, he's a loyal man. That's lowkey creepy, but I don't mind <333 I'm glad Mingi appeared so many times too. The POBs were from Synnara (the green background white outfit ones) not my faves tbh, but the other ones were holos from Kpopstore I think! For some reason I can't upload a picture now, but A ver 1, diary limited, Z limited (this one is my fave ahhh) and the Synnara POB. Manifesting Hwa's for you, which version did you get?

Yeah sign me the fuck up Baek, love that rivalry AU already 🔫 I just know there'll be a lot of sweat involved, but unfortunately Seonghwa looks divine all sweaty so I have to simp anyway 🤡 idk I just had ADHD bestie, had to do something otherwise I was bored, plus initially my marks weren't outstanding so at least I did sports and music 😅

I think one of the reasons I'm a water anti is actually because no one ever told me drinking water is that crucial? Ushsbdhbshsgdha like I drank water when it was the only liquid available, but at home I was always given juice, soda, flavoured water etc. I was afraid you're gonna make that jopping joke 🔪

I SAW WTF PARK SEONGHWA WHAT'S WITH THE ARMS (I only hope he ate well and felt ok in a tight shirt, cause he always worries about his stomach sticking out 😭) goodbye world. Anyways the arms will be devoured now <3

I had to show you that throughout research because??? I'm both amazed and baffled lmao. What fic?! Actually I DON'T WANT TO KNOW

Hahaha I saw that UK band I recognised them from somewhere, people were too ruthless towards them, but also wtf it was so random 😅 and Conan Gray will be there next week

Ugh can't upload a photo still, but you hit me with the deep one once again, wbu?

Coffee & Cream: It is rare that you are disliked, little adventurer. Your body never gives in to sleep; you can sleep when you're dead, after all. You love to take risks, and dance in the rain. You try to see the positive in every situation, and that can sometimes be perceived as insensitivity. You tend to forget the people around you in favour of the world beyond, but not for lack of trying. You make friends and lovers so easily, but have trouble keeping them, for fear of commitments. Your love is plentiful, but thinly spread. Don't be afraid to confide in someone, once in a while. It's okay to cry, little hero.

Also Shakira miss girl pls, thought you'd be free from your dumb man, but now the jail thing... she'll probably get away with it, but still - DV 💖

hi hello!!

This comeback is really successful I'm proud, maybe they get more wins, apparently they have a chance. Seonghwa calling Nicole from KARA "an original Hallyu queen" wasn't on my bingo card, but 😭💗

it rEALLY IS I HOPE THEY WIN TODAY AS WELL 😭😭 NO BUT HES SO TRUE I WAS LISTENING TO HER ALBUM BEFORE AND???? ADOPT ME MOMMY 🤚🏼🤚🏼🤚🏼 omg bestie did u see GG’S comeback teaser?? it’s itnw instrumental 😭😭😭😭 cHILLS

The downside of Hwa having longer hair is the possibility of him cutting it unexpectedly. Last time at least he went pink so the pain wasn't that bad...PUT THE CAMERA AWAY BESTIE I'm only saying this because I'm too far up Seonghwa's ass 🥴

no you’re so right bc we’ll end up being upset about it 😭😭😭 LMFAOOOO BFWNFBWMFND FELT YES

Is the panther gonna eat Hwa? 🤔 cause I wouldn't be shocked. Jduwugsgshdhdywwyys ok so I'm gonna melt alright???

I HOPE HE DOESNT 😭😭😭🤚🏼 i think maybe a bite that’ll make hwa run to y/n BDNSBDD YES YOU ARE YES

Omg wait at first I thought my whole life was a lie and Noddy was a girl 😭 the gay misogynist racist is taking me out wtf I'm trying to find some photos of me in that hanbok, but idk where the fuck are they... but it was sooooo pretty

?????? NODDY IS A MALE?????? WHAT THE FUCK?????? bro do u rmr this guy 😭😭 NO BC FBWNFBEK OUT OF EVERYTHING ITS A MISOGYNISTIC RACIST 😭😭😭 SO BAFFLED????

omg when u do! pls do sent if ur comfy!! CHANNELING SCARLET HEARTS

Seonghwa will never leave me, he's a loyal man. That's lowkey creepy, but I don't mind <333 I'm glad Mingi appeared so many times too. The POBs were from Synnara (the green background white outfit ones) not my faves tbh, but the other ones were holos from Kpopstore I think! For some reason I can't upload a picture now, but A ver 1, diary limited, Z limited (this one is my fave ahhh) and the Synnara POB. Manifesting Hwa's for you, which version did you get?

100% HE’S A SIMP AND HE’Ll NEVER LET U GO FBFBFB LMFAOOOO 😭😭😭 nothing’s creepy with hwa fbwnfbsndhwk,,,, omg u got the green ones???? 🔫🔫🔫 FUCK OFF IM RUNNING TO U RN THAT LIMITED PC IM BEGGING FOR IT BC I ONLY GOT THE Z VER! IM BOLTING LOCK UR DOORS if i get the album before this posts ill update with the pc! oKAY I pulled a hwa ID card dbdbdhdhd sCREAMED WHEN I DID,,, a jongho yeosang and wooyoung 😩😩 my vv first jongho!

BESTIE FUCK SYNNARA WHAT IS THIS ?????? WITHMUUU???? IS THIS THEM DAMN NFTS???

OKAY BUT THE REAL QUESTION DID U GET A POLA 🔫

Yeah sign me the fuck up Baek, love that rivalry AU already 🔫 I just know there'll be a lot of sweat involved, but unfortunately Seonghwa looks divine all sweaty so I have to simp anyway 🤡 idk I just had ADHD bestie, had to do something otherwise I was bored, plus initially my marks weren't outstanding so at least I did sports and music 😅

oH ABSOLUTELY LOTS OF SWEAT and hwa purposely hugging the mc with it or chasing mc around while she rUNS,,, DHJDDJ NO BC ILL PUT THIS IN MY DRAFTS FOUND A COOL PLOT SO ILL WRITE IT!!! 😭😭😭 I FELT THAT TOO always had to do something or it felt useless nO FR HELLO SAME marks go 📉📉📉 from A’s to C-‘s 😭😭

I think one of the reasons I'm a water anti is actually because no one ever told me drinking water is that crucial? Ushsbdhbshsgdha like I drank water when it was the only liquid available, but at home I was always given juice, soda, flavoured water etc. I was afraid you're gonna make that jopping joke 🔪

iM gonna have to sit ur mother down and chat about how u don’t enOUGH drink water 🔫,, LMFAOOOO FBWMFBKWHFWK DID U LAUGH FBFBDB ur knee’s will jop from now bestie ur not a regular old person, ur a ✨cool✨ old person <3 we love to see this <3 jOP MORE DBDB

I SAW WTF PARK SEONGHWA WHAT'S WITH THE ARMS (I only hope he ate well and felt ok in a tight shirt, cause he always worries about his stomach sticking out 😭) goodbye world. Anyways the arms will be devoured now <3

GOOD BYE DID U SEE TNQNDHKWHDKW close the god damn gyms it’s time we barricade them (omg i hope he ate so much after the rehearsal or at least wooyoung takes him this time fbfbfb)

AND THIS HIS NEW OUTFIT??? 😭😭😭 gONNA D WORD TN FBFB

I had to show you that throughout research because??? I'm both amazed and baffled lmao. What fic?! Actually I DON'T WANT TO KNOW

LMFAOOOO I AM VERY MUCH AMAZED CANT LOOK AT HIS NOSE THE SAME WAY 🥰🥰 aND THE FIC??? ☺️☺️ dONT WORRY ABT IT I WILL MAKE EVERY USE OF THAT RESEARCH IN IT <33

Hahaha I saw that UK band I recognised them from somewhere, people were too ruthless towards them, but also wtf it was so random 😅 and Conan Gray will be there next week

omg fr???? what’s the news about them 👁👄🤌🏼👁 LMAO WHAT???? WHATS GOING ON IN KPOP PLS IS CONAN ALSO GONNA DO THE FINGER HEART 😭😭 this is nct hollywood innit 😭😭 & THEY MET ATEEZ??? 😭😭

Ugh can't upload a photo still, but you hit me with the deep one once again, wbu? Coffee & Cream: It is rare that you are disliked, little adventurer. Your body never gives in to sleep; you can sleep when you're dead, after all. You love to take risks, and dance in the rain. You try to see the positive in every situation, and that can sometimes be perceived as insensitivity. You tend to forget the people around you in favour of the world beyond, but not for lack of trying. You make friends and lovers so easily, but have trouble keeping them, for fear of commitments. Your love is plentiful, but thinly spread. Don't be afraid to confide in someone, once in a while. It's okay to cry, little hero.

hIT U WITH THE DEEP JDJD,,, “Your body never gives in to sleep;” yOU AND YOUR 100 JOBS omg.

exhibit a : “and dance in the rain.”

is this one of your reasonings to like bodyguard hwa bc they have 2 rain scenes 🔫

“Your love is plentiful, but thinly spread. Don't be afraid to confide in someone, once in a while. It's okay to cry, little hero.”

bestie…that’s so well written omg,,, nO THEYRE RIGHT YEAH MISS HERO 🔫🔫

Also Shakira miss girl pls, thought you'd be free from your dumb man, but now the jail thing... she'll probably get away with it, but still - DV 💖

LMFAOOOO FBWNFBWMDJS THE WAY IT CAME OUT ONLY AFTER PIQUE’S STUFF 😭😭😭 miss girlie gonna serve in court too, her hips won’t lie dbdb

2/2 BAEKKKKKK HAPPY GUERRILLA 2ND WIN! BUT ALSO WELCOME TO OUR FUNERAL! 😭😳🥴😬😩 I just saw it and thought you must see it as well 🥰 /// So many oiled arms today, wow... but Hwa's outfit obliterated me - DV 💖

EXCUSE ME AND???? AUDACITY??

DV ARE U SURVIVING HOW IS IT FOR U FBFBF LMFAOOOOI SEE THAT “🥰” UHUH UHUH DBDDB 😭😭😭 so many oiled and glazed arms would 100% BITE

quiz!!

[beezlebubcustardbath]

my thoughts while watching the livestream (oops this ended up being rly long, but i have a lot of thoughts ok? this is what happens when u wait 7 years for an ep):

haven’t heard the muse in soo long what a throwback! also that performance was flawless 

hearing the whole human ep with the band like he had always meant for it to sound was truly amazing. my favorite was probably don’t you, and also human

basically on all the songs in the beginning when it was just him and the guitar or him and the band on these old songs, he sounded really really good. his voice was just perfection and he played guitar beautifully and i got a new appreciation for those songs, which i haven’t listened to in a while

 brotherhood of man/midnight radio?!?!?!?! aaaaaaaaaah! that moment when he went from the one to the other i was like wait whaaaaaat? that was fucking stunning 

btw i know we only saw like the first row of the audience and we didnt rly hear them but it sounded like a weird audience to me? like they went crazy for the glee stuff but not for the broadway stuff and his own songs:/ but i wasn’t there so what do i know

“darren that song is like the hardest song to sing ever” i can totally see lea saying that haha

 THIS IS AN EMMY LOOSING SONG. oh darren. but rly he seemed so psyched that it was nominated for an emmy, which is cool bc hes never rly talked about it in a non-serious way

ok he messed up the lyrics twice in this time and once i think at the end of cough syrup but all times he pretended like nothing happened which is such an improvement lol

when you think about how he’s self-taught piano and guitar, it’s actually ridiculous how talented he is. of course i don’t know the first thing about either but it sounds amazing to me 

i love how he’s made teenage dream completely his own! katy has nothing on this 

the way he walks before singing hopelessly devoted! is he doing a blaine parody? that’s cute

i love that he’s doing cough syrup live now but it is a rly straining song and in the middle of a 2 hour show? idk if that was the best idea.. cause he looks/sounds pretty tired by the end of this show lol

darren not knowing what to do when singing without an instrument aw

it’s unbelievable how he manages such a long concert with so many super different types of songs, but it rly shows how good of an actor he is since he says it’s the same process to him. so in that sense it’s not so unbelievable after all

crash course omfg! how he struggles with explaining starkid and avpm without context! brian is doing not only cedric diggory but also hermione granger lol!

aw joey and darren singing ron and harry is sooo cute they are the best bromance! reminds me of the good old days of starkid 

“that’s actually cool cause being smart is hot” omg joey is my hero 

everything he says about the slightly racist and offensive part omg that killed me. and yes out of context darren i’m afraid your song is not only a little offensive but also super weird 

this “short-staffed” version of going back to hogwarts is honestly one of the best things i’ve seen in a while. and i love dylan aka dumbledooooore! and now we’re only hearing dylan cause his voice is louder than all the others 

darren sounds great on his own but when there’s other people and a lot of music you can barely hear him:/

oh god of course you have no time left darren. he’s like oops forgot this song is 10 minutes long 

his friendship w ryan lerman is now my fave thing in the world they are adorable 

darren i know you’re stressed but stop talking so fast! he’s totally rushing at the end poor guy

“they’ll be like you shouldn’t have played hogwarts, we’ll be like that was totally worth it” yes you’re right, that was worth it. honestly he should have cut idad and done i don’t mind instead bc the point of this show was to promote his own new songs? what an idiot lol. but i still love him and i don’t mind not getting i don’t mind. 

this was overall a rly great concert and so fun to watch the livestream (even tho i didn’t watch it live) but it did seem a bit rushed in the end.. too bad but he’ll learn from it and do better next time. i guess he forgot how much he talks again, some things never change. but honestly every song was so good it’s insane how much he has improved over the years! 

[hopelesscobwebs]

92 Asks Game!

I’m finally doing this. I thought it would be fun and i’m bored af so here we go:

Tagged by: @just-a-crazy-nerd love you <3

LAST

1) Drink: Water (gotta stay hydrated y’all)

2) Phone call: My Dad.

3) Text message: “My legs are dead. All I wanna do is sleep but I have to do music homework” to my friend like a week ago (I don’t text much lmao).

4) Song listened to: Sumertime, By My Chemical Romance

5) Time you cried: Maybe 2 days ago? (I was really sad over MCR), but the last time I really, like really cried was maybe last week.

HAVE YOU EVER

6) Dated somebody twice: ahaha twice? You’re so funny. I haven’t dated someone once...

7) Been cheated on: My cat once slept on my sisters bed instead of mine so that counts.

8) Kissed someone and regretted it: What don’t you get about FOREVER ALONE HERE.

9) Lost someone special: Perhaps, It kinda depends really what you count as “lost”. But yeah, unfortunately.

10) Been depressed: I have been in dark mindsets a lot lately.

11) Gotten drunk and puked: Never been drunk before (I am so cool like that)

THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS

12) Probably Blue, But to narrow it down: Teal

13) Rich purple

14) Probably black

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15) Made new friends: Tons (ilysm guys)

16) Fallen out of love: no (kinda yes... but William doesn’t count)

17) Laughed until you cried: Yes, Yesterday (we were bottle flipping and then someone made a seal noise, don’t even get me started)

18) Found out someone was gossiping about you: Hopefully not, there’s not much to gossip about when it comes to me.

19) Met someone who changed your life: If Discovering MCR counts... then yes.

20) Found out who your true friends are: *Ahem*... yes...

21) Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Haha this list of asks is so funny. what don’t you get about NOT BEEN KISSED EVER... *cries*

HOW MANY/MUCH

22) Facebook friends: like almost 400? idek. (I know them all in person btw, i’m not one of those weirdos that just friends anybody). I barely use FB tbh

23) Pets: oh boy.... I have 6 cats guys... thats right, you can call me the crazy cat lady.

24) Want to change your name: My last name yes. Quick, somebody marry me

WHAT

25) Did I get for my birthday: A Spongebob birthday cake, a Vampire Diaries pillow, depression  um what... I got to eat all my fave foods in one day, that was pretty special even though i threw up at the end of it

26) Time I woke up: like 9:30?

27) Were you doing at midnight: Watching Frerard video edits...

28) Can’t you wait for: FOR ME TO ORDER MCR MERCH AS A TRIBUTE ON MARCH 22 *cries and dies*

29) Was the last time you saw your mom: like 4 hours ago.

30) Was something you wish you could change about your life: I sometimes wish I was born 10 years earlier but then I remember... there’d be no quality memes for a long time...

31) Are you listening to right now: MCR, what else honestly...

32) Gets on your nerves: When people make up those shitty things like “ UR NOT A TRUE FAN UNLESS YOU HAVE THIS OR DO THIS BLAH BLAH” like stfu, I am a fan in my own way. Racists, Homophobes, just basically anyone who thinks they have the right to tell you not to be yourself, like seriously, fuck off.

33) Talked to a person named Tom: My cat is called Tom, so that counts.

34) Is your most visited website: Tumblr, no doubt (or YouTube or guitar tabs, or Putlocker lets be honest)

35) Elementary school/primary school: I can’t even remember tbh and I ain’t tellin you

36) High School: The one I’m at now. Ha, got ya

37) College: n o , I am too young, gosh

38) Hair colour: Brown/ Blonde (streaks, naturally from sun lmao)

39) Long/short hair: I just cut it all off this year. Think 1920′s hair and that’s me.

40) Crush: There’s a cute guy in my chem class but that’s about it #foreveralone

41) Do you like about yourself: My final wakeup call of music interests. I used to be so shallow in that department. Um.... I guess I like the fact that I get on better with older people (I skipped a year at school so all my classmates are a year older anyways) idek. There’s not really much to like.

42) Piercings: 1 on each ear (i’m thinking of getting a second set) But I barely wear earrings tbh

43) Blood type: Idk, it would be cool to know tho

44) Nickname: Some of my friends call me Em but barely. Emy / Emz by family (if any of you call me that, it’ll be weird lmao) PLEASE START A TREND...CALL ME EM

45) Relationship status: single as a pringle and not ready to mingle please i have anxiety *daydreams about meeting perfect boy*

46) Zodiac: Scorpio yeah boi

47) Pronouns: she/her

48) Favourite show: Supernatural, Miraculous Ladybug (don’t call me a kid for watching it I swear I’ll end u ahaha), Rick and Morty, The Vampire Diaries... I could go on for days

49) Tattoos: I always think they’re a cool concept but i’d probably chicken out at the last minute, so no

50) Left or right handed: right

FIRST

51) Surgery: I got a tooth removed quite a few years back, I went under genral anaesthetic and everything.

52) Piercings: Ears

53) Best friend: Gabby, We don’t talk anymore sadly but I still love her <3

54) Sport: Ummm well i’ve always loved badminton but i’ve never taken a serious sport class before lmao

55) Vacation: I’m pretty sure it was to Melbourne, Australia, We saw some really cool outdoor art and went to see Wicked at some theater, that’s all I remember.

56) Pair of shoes: Say wat?

RIGHT NOW

57) Eating: I wish I was eating

58) Drinking: the dead souls of my enemies wait what

59) I am about to: Rearrange my sitting position and continue to write this long ass ask thing.

60) Listening to: The End, My Chemical Romance

61) Waiting for: My sis to get home so I can use her credit card to buy MCR merch, no really, this is the truth. I n e e ed it

62) Want to see: MCR get back together in 2019 for at least a reunion song or SOMETHING PLEASE. Also, a Panic! concert because I missed the last one in my country. ALSO a Supernatural Convention

63) Want to get married: Well it would be nice, gotta find a guy first, there’s the hard part

64) Career: I never know... I like to think that my dream is to be in a band but that aint ever gonna happen. I really wanna do something that can help people idek.

WHICH IS BETTER

65) Hugs/kisses: Well i’ve never kissed anyone and I lOvE HuGs, THEY ARE JUST SO NICE, LIKE AHHH GIMME UR LOVE, GIMME HUUUGGSSS. If I ever meet any of you in person, I’ll be really shy, but know deep down that all I wanna do is HUG YOU SNDKJGSND.

66) Lips/eyes: Eyes hold secrets, I love them

67) Taller/shorter: gimme da toll peeps, But I love the smol beans too

68) Younger/older: It depends

69) Romantic/spontaneous: probably spontaneous just to keep me on my toes.

70) Nice arms/nice stomach: um wat? idek i dont pay attention to that

71) Sensitive/loud: Sensitive

72) Hookup/relationship: Relationship definitely 

73) Troublemaker/hesitant: Hesitant alien

HAVE YOU EVER

74) Kissed a stranger: W h A t  D o N t   Y o U   g E t   A b O u T  i T... I AINT KISSED NOBODY BEFORE. gosh, way to rub it in *cries*

75) Drank hard liquor: well. i’ve tried some heavy stuff before but it was a sip and I spat it out coz it literally tasted like p o i s o n. Alcohol is so gross

76) Lost glasses/contact lenses: Don’t need glasses

77) Turned someone down: ??? There hasn’t been anyone to turn down god damnit

78) Canoodling on a first date: They gotta earn that, so no

79) Broken someone’s heart: I sure as hell hope not.

80) Had your own heart broken: mcr breaks my heart E V E R Y GOD DAMN DAY

81) Been arrested: no, I am a good gal

82) Cried when someone died: yes, my grandmother

83) Fallen for a friend: Oh boy, yesyesyes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

84) Yourself: Not really, but I want to.

85) Miracles: I wish for them but I don’t really think they occur

86) Santa Claus: No, I actually never believed in him when I think about it

87) Kisses on a first date: YAS when it’s been all perfect and he walks ya up to your door ABJISLBHDLBHLA

88) Angels: um... Castiel???

89) Love at first sight: Yes but not like first sight, more like first discussion, when you can instantly click with someone in that first moment idk.

OTHER

90) Best friend’s name: Can I just list all my tumblr friends names? Because YOU GUYS ARE ACTUALLY ALL MY FAVES, YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU <3

91) Eye color: Grey Blue

92) Favourite movie: idek there are so many but: The Abduction Club, is one of my faves, Singin’ in the Rain, Sing Street, and that’s all that’s coming to mind atm.

I tag: (all my BEAUTIFUL AMAZING tumblr frens I mentioned before) @omg-i-cannot-even @shipsareamazing123 @mychemicalchinchilla @potterlock5ever @immacrazyfangirl @trashholeofshittybandstuff @shadowgirl077 @that-awkward-fangirl @lizbeth-loves-bobear @anyone i forgot and anyone who wants to do it! go ahead! <3

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #67

“i wanna grow up, i wanna be, a big rockin’ roll star!”

did you pay attention to anything you were being taught in health class?  i always listened, yeah, but it scared me a lot because my anxiety around that time was mostly health-focused. i was afraid i was going to get everything somehow lmao. what are your feelings regarding shopping?  i like shopping for myself, but not for vitals. like grocery shopping, nah man. shopping for stuff like clothes, bueno. do you think people have any misconceptions about you? i'm not certain about many things, but i am certain about that. have you ever worn fishnets? no, but dey sexy. do you go somewhere to get your eyebrows done? occasionally i'll go to get them done, and the woman who does them is actually my hairdresser. do you believe prayer really works? boy, isn't this relevant to some things going on... the answer is, i don't know, but i'm leaning towards "only if god for whatever fucking reason deems you more worthy than someone else who's prayed for something for a fucking year but i don't want her to have that." the people whose prayers come true just seem so fucking cherry-picked. do you have one best friend who is always there for you? apparently not. only when she agrees my issues are "valid." describe one of your most emotional farewells. well, the one that affected me the most was certainly when jason left, but it wasn't the most emotional in that moment of all my farewells. the one i would define as most emotional was when my lizard shadow died. he was old (i had him most of my life) and wasn't moving much, but i finally realized he was dying. it was so. fucking. slow. and he was obviously in agony the last day (yes, this shit lasted days), as he kept writhing and opening his mouth to gulp in air... oh my god, i don't even like talking about it. i sobbed and sobbed and talked to him so much, and any time i sat by his cage, he always looked at me. he was such a sweet little boy. have you ever been tied up? no. i really don't know how i'd feel about that. how many times have you been cussed out? online, PLENTY. irl, i only remember one occasion. does it bother you when people ask personal questions? who's asking? do you know anyon​e who’​​​​s been in jail? i do. have you ever considered acupuncture? noooo. have you ever watched the same sex undress? she undressed in front of me, but i didn't watch her. have you ever seen the last person you kissed cry? i've seen him tear up, but never totally cry. have you ever seen your mom or dad drunk? my dad's a recovering alcoholic, so i saw him drunk a lot. i'm pretty sure i've seen mom drunk once, but she denies being drunk. do you enjoy mario games? not particularly, but i mean, i'd play something like mario kart for family fun. do you think that necessities should be free? (ex. food, toilet paper) hm. debatable. does it bother you when dogs lick you? no, unless they're licking my face. do you feed your pets human food? occasionally. which is worse: being sexist or racist? oh jeez. do you think suicide is selfish? i mean, yeah, it is, but if this makes sense, it's not a damnable kind of selfish? like you truly are thinking about yourself and not how it would affect others, but sometimes, y'know, you need to think about yourself. i'm not saying suicide is ever necessary, but i understand why it happens. would you take a dirty picture of yourself for someone you are dating? heh, probably. what are the most embarrassing songs in your itunes library? lmao i think i have one taylor swift song. OMG I DO IT'S "PICTURE TO BURN" KILL ME. how picky are you when it comes to choosing who to kiss or not kiss? VERYVERYVERY. i have to be sincerely interested in you. do you feel that having sex anywhere but a bed is more exciting? i'm sure you've heard this enough in my surveys, but never had sex, done sexual things. but i mean sure, doing things in places other than the bed was usually more fun, but i ALWAYS felt way, WAY more vulnerable and paranoid. in your opinion, is it ever okay to get back with an ex? of course it is. people change/learn. what's the first animal you go to see at the zoo? it would be a meerkat if my zoo still had them, buuut... what's the strangest or rarest creature you've seen at a zoo? a white (not albino) alligator! o: what animal is at a zoo that really, in your opinion, shouldn't be? oh, i'm sure there's many if i was more knowledgeable about this subject. do you like zoos or aren't you bothered? i have mixed emotions. i offer you a cigarette, you say... "no thanks." why do you think you were put on this earth? i go back and forth between god planned me very intricately and uniquely to my parents just decided they wanted a kid. is it ever okay to hit a child? when is this? NO. YOU DO NOT. TEACH YOUR CHILD. THROUGH FEAR. do you think violence in video/computer games influences the nation also? oh boy, this question. no. it doesn't. pretty sure we didn't have video games since humanity began, and we've had violence since the start. are you in any shape or form, racist? no, i'm not. are you in any shape or form, sexist? no, i'm not. how do you think the world will end? the world itself, or humanity? humanity will end whenever god feels like it. the earth itself, well, i guess if it explodes somehow. what natural phenomenon do you find the most beautiful? WHAAAAAAT, I HAVE TO PICK ONE?! would you kill someone who killed a child? how about YOUR child? i know without a doubt you killed a child, mine especially, i kill you. what is your favorite cover of a song? "hurt" by johnny cash. bar none. have you ever been in love with someone who was fatally ill? holy fuck, thank god no. have you ever received or given a make-over? ... oh god... yeah... i gave jason a make-over lmfao and got him to pose for a picture after like 30 minutes of pestering him. i'd show the picture, but i have too much respect for him ha ha ha. do you know anyone who is HIV+? not to my knowledge. have you ever been to a desert? nope. do you know any trans* people? not irl what is your favorite beatles song? "hey jude." i'm honestly not a big beatles fan whatsoever. what is the poorest you have ever been? probably now, really... i'm sure you know of the gamer fad on youtube. who's your favorite? markiplier! is there something written on your shirt right now? "we're all mad here" what is your favorite song to play on guitar hero or rock band? "king nothing" by metallica!! \m/ where do you find the surveys you take? as of right now, i've been getting my surveys from a lad over at livejournal who has a good 2k surveys stockpiled up. i'll occasionally pick some up from tumblr, too. if i'm truly desperate, i'll just google search and find random webpages. what's one weird/annoying thing your pet(s) tend to do? OMGGGGGG YAAAAAAA'LLLLLL. okay so my dog teddy has this super weird habit of, totally out of the blue, trying to climb onto me and lie directly over my face. like i have to physically hold him back to stop him, and he still fights against me to try and get on me. i haven't the slightest idea why he does it, but it's super annoying... i always have to bring him to his room so he'll stop and calm down. what's your favorite song by your favorite artist?  YOU SHOULD NOOOOT BE ASKING ME THIS QUESTION OH GOD. i have a very, very difficult time picking favorite songs. i'll go through my fave artists regardless though and try... ozzy osbourne: probably "trapdoor." metallica: oh god. uhhh. "king nothing," i assume. otep: eeeeek!! i really, really love "special pets" and "apex predator" like the same!! marilyn manson: yikes. errr. "heart-shaped glasses," maybe. WAIT. "angel with the scabbed wings," perhaps. cradle of filth: i guess their cover of "mr. crowley." rammstein: "donaukinder," pretty easily this time. a day to remember: "i'm made of wax, larry, what're you made of?" fuckin' rocks!! do you have an "original character?" well, as a forum role-player since i think 2007, i think last time i counted, i have over 200, lmao. and yes, i'm attached to them all too much to kill off half of them. fuck my life rip rip rip. what about a persona/fursona?  ye, ozzkat. do you ever MAKE your own surveys?  not an entire survey, no, but once in a blue moon i'll think of a question i think's really good and add it onto a survey. why's it the woman who have to give birth anyway if the man is physically stronger in most cases?  i mean, besides the obvious, are you asking why it was ever made this way to begin with? *shrugs* who really knows? do you get good internet there? nnnnnope. it goes out pretty frequently. ever had a cavity? how many? i sure have, but idk how many. ever broken a tooth?  indeed. when i passed out as i was scrambling out of the shower because i felt dizzy, i landed dead on my chin. a good number of my molars shattered. the feeling of all those broken fragments in my mouth when i woke up... ewwwww. ;D; for a while, they went untreated as they were not causing much issue. eventually though, they needed to be filled, i think because the microscopic cracks that were formed were expanding. it could've ruined those teeth. what did you do on the playground at your school as a child?  for a long, long time, i mainly swung if there were any swings open. it was the one thing i actually enjoyed doing outside. in my older elementary school years, i actually started a trend, ha ha: digging tunnels with our hands in the sand pit. idk why exactly i liked doing it, but i did. my friends and i would always be the weirdos digging the entire time we were outside. i remember once we made a pretty intricate system. are you into comics? no, i don't read them, but i still sometimes enjoy who the subject is. ex. i like batman, but i've never read his comics once. would you ever like to work on a farm? i would not. i don't like outdoor labor, honestly. did you ever have computer disc games you played as a kid? sure did! we had "putt-putt," "freddy the fish," "i spy spooky mansion," "odell down under," "oregon trail," i personally had vet-oriented games, and i remember there was one about going up the amazon river, and it was the third in the series. that one was my all-time favorite. OH OH OH! and i had this wicked cool dinosaur game that taught you about various dinosaurs and looked sooo realistic!! what do you think of people who have therapists? i think they're brave as fuck to admit they have a problem and need help??? like what else would i think??? do you have any of those adult coloring books? i do. i don't use 'em a lot, though. don't enjoy coloring like i used to. ever ridden an elephant?  no, but that'd be REALLY cool. deserts: dreary or beautiful?  beautiful!!! ever seen a panda?  i don't believe i have, even in a zoo. what kind a camera do you have?  nikon d3200 do you have stretch marks? where? don't be shy, they're tiger stripes! i'm much convinced they're not tiger stripes. all they tell you is i'm overweight, not that i'm a warrior. and honestly, the better question is where don't i have stretch marks. i gained weight way too fucking fast when jason left, so... they're kinda all over the place. they're fucking gross and i've tried so hard to get rid of them using bio oil (which was working, but we don't have the money to keep buying) and another cream that doesn't do much. ugh. lobsters: cool or scary?  both. they're honestly pretty creepy, but i do believe they're still quite cool, too. opposoms: total vermin or cute? CUTE AS FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK what tv channel dominated your childhood?  ha ha animal planet!!! if nicole was picking what to watch it'd be disney channel, but me, animal planet. (: it's such a shame how much animal planet has changed, though... now it's all about people and how to survive a fucking animal attack... ever actually seen a snake in the wild?  here in the rural south, plenty of times. i have two noteworthy occasions, though. once, when i was being dropped off at home from school by a family friend, we stopped short because of something in the driveway. my sisters and i got out of the car to see a rattlesnake- a HUGE one- curled up, head raised, hissing, and rattling its tail vigorously. we called for our mom and dad, who came outside and immediately called somebody; i don't recall who, but they were not going to harm the snake. they came quickly and, with a shovel i think, moved the snake to the large tobacco field right across the road of our house. the snake was quite compliant, i was surprised. second, also many years ago, i was taking a walk and found a pretty small snake in the middle of the road, which is just a gravel path. it didn't want to move, but it seemed perfectly alive and healthy. i couldn't identify the species, but i don't think it was venomous. regardless though, i refused to be stupid and touch it, but i still stayed by it and directly a car once around the snake because i didn't want it run over. my friend came over, however (they were whom i got around the snake), so i abandoned the serpent and went home to play. after she left, i went to check on the snake, and he'd been run over. :( i was sincerely sad. have you ever had a PET snake? what kind? i've had two! my first ever was a ball python named mona lisa, and wow... i never knew it was POSSIBLE to love a snake so dearly. i mean, "it's just a snake," right? no, she was family. she was going to play a big part in my senior project actually, but she sadly died due to the pet store's own negligence (there was a tick on her when we adopted her, and it apparently made her ill). after mona, i adopted another snake quite a while later; it was too young to distinguish gender, so i gave it a neutral name: cato. it too was a ball python, and we had little cato for a very short period of time... it never deficated, and when it passed and its tailbase swole up, we took its corpse right to petsmart because i had a feeling they were to blame. again. apparently, we'd adopted a sick snake: something was wrong with its bowels, no doubt, and the employee assumed it had to do with bacteria. i absolutely refuse to ever adopt a reptile from petsmart or petco ever again; they just don't treat their reptiles and rodents (i've got a gooood story about rats...) like family in my frank opinion. i've located a ball python morph breeder instead, and i plan on adopting from him very, very soon. (: ever had an encounter with a snapping turtle? they're scary!  ha ha ha omg guys my older sister ashley once fished up a HUGE snapping turtle!! it was liiivid! i can't remember how my dad did it, but he got it off suuuuuper-duper carefully. wait, or maybe he just cut the line, i don't remember. do you like oatmeal? eh, i have to be in the mood, and it needs JUST the right amount of milk or it's too liquidy. i also only eat it with milk, not water. wherever you live, have you ever seen your national bird? i have once in the wild! :D i live in north america, so it was the bald eagle. it was SO BIG. ever had a reptile as a pet that you had to feed crickets? did you ever pick up the crickets? i sure have: a chinese water dragon lizard named shadow. for a very long time, i couldn't touch the crickets, no. eventually though, i would pick 'em up and drop them into the cage. later in shadow's life though, it was much easier (and convenient for him) to just dump the whole bag of them into his terrarium. it was so cute how he'd get so excited every single time he saw a cricket! i miss him. :( ever play hearthstone?  i have, but only to get the "i won three games" mount in world of warcraft, lmao. it's an okay game, but i don't love it. i'm not the best with tactic games like that. ever gone hunting? biggest thing you've ever shot?  i do not go hunting, no, i can't stand the idea of killing an animal for sport. my little sister does sometimes, though. i don't think she's been in a few years, however. coolest place you've ever been hunting? n/a. how about fishing? biggest thing you've ever caught?  heeeeeell yeah, man! been fishing since i was a little girl! :D i never keep anything i catch though: i kiss my hand, touch the fish's head with it, and gently place it back into the water from whence it came. i caught my biggest many summers ago while catfishing one night... i hooked a blue catfish in the eye. whoooops. o.o; i ended up catching it, and it was huuuuge! wish i had the picture dad took to show you guys. with its size, dad said i could certainly keep the fish to cook up for dinner, but i said no, to let him go. watching dad take the hook out though was horrid; the fish ended up losing its eye. :( so i called him "'ole one-eye," hehe. 'ole one-eye was just fine when he got back in the water, thank goodness. i almost caught something i KNOW was even bigger once, though. same fishing spot, catfishing again. fought with it for a while, and holy SHIT i wish i'd seen how big it was. ended up breaking my line pretty quickly. i wanna go catfishing again. :( coolest place you've ever been fishing?  i've never been fishing outside north carolina, and not far from home, either, so i haven't really been anywhere necessarily "cool." there's two places i consider quite interesting, though. the catfishing spot, for one, is at a dam. i don't know what about it, it's just real cool there. the second spot, though, is much more wild. it's in the middle of shitfucknowhere and you have to brave through some pretty thick woods to get to the river. It's also connected to a dam, but you can't see it from where you fish. it's a great place to fish for striper. boy, is it pretty there, too... wish i had pictures. i love how untouched it is. i watched a mink, i think it was, dive into the water once. this fishing talk is making me so nostalgic! which is cooler: african or asian elephant? i wouldn't say one's "cooler" than the other, but i find an african elephant to be more proportional with the size of its ears. the asian elephant's ears look too small. craziest thing you've ever eaten?  i honestly don't think i've ever eaten anything considered strange. i'm VERY picky and don't really risk much with food. i mean i guess the "weirdest" thing was i took the smallest, smallest bite out of deer jerky once. what's in a camel's back? fat. it's not water, if that's what you wanted me to say. do you believe in any cryptids?  i think i do, yes. there's just been too, too many sightings, and i don't believe that many people are liars. i think i believe in sasquatch, chupacabra (not the "omg it drinks blood" bullshit, but the coyote/??? mixed creature), the dover demon, mothman, hellhounds/the many ghostly hounds people have seen in the world, olitiau if i spelled that correctly, i'm iffy with the jersey devil, and i'm sure i'm forgetting some i think are plausible... i am VERY interested in learning about any cryptid. i mean c'mon, a good portion of our world is entirely undocumented! who knows what's out there! "lost tapes" was my shit back in the day, until like the last season where everything looked too fake. steve irwin: foolish for messing around with animals or brave for teaching us? steve irwin was anything but a fool. he was an inspiration for all us people who love and are fascinated by animals. he was my teacher, despite never meeting him. he put his safety aside to teach the world about creatures big and small so we could respect and honor them. god bless that man, and may he rest in peace. you were and still are my hero. what do you think of people who put their whole life on social media? some things need to be kept quite, sure. like i'm not gonna go on facebook and proclaim, "i just had sex boiz!!" or "just took a shit, ya'll!" some things, keep a mystery. your whole life isn't everyone else's business, you know? if you post a lot, i have no issue with that, just know your boundaries. don't you think it's a bit deceptive to wear a push-up bra?  no??? is wearing certain pants to make ya dick look bigger deceptive, too??? perhaps some people are more comfortable with the cushioning. or maybe they could only find their size as push-up. or, just maybe, a woman likes to feel better about herself. do you truly believe we came from chimps? why? no, i don't. and i have a plethora of reasons, but the underlying belief of mine is that it's just implausible and i don't believe our body can "pick" the "right" trait to pass on to increase odds of survival. to believe we all came from one organism just seems... very unlikely. well, what do you think of extra bones and even organs in our bodies? why do we have them?  if you're talking about the appendix, it actually does have a use. it's vital to survival in the fetal stage. I don't remember what it does, though... extra bones, i can't entirely tell you with certainty. my own sister had an extra bone in her hand, gross stuff... i like to think of them as god fooling around in the sims creation page *wink* if you could choose anyone to be your mother, who would it be? i honestly don't think in any case i'd want another mom. if you could choose anyone to be your father, who would it be?  ... i honestly want to say james hetfield, but i think incest might be a problem because fuckshittits i'd fuck him and he's in his 50s kill me pls end this madness. weirdest video game you've ever played? hmmm. i personally don't think i've ever played a "weird" game. the first "silent hill" is pretty damn whacky, but far more in a scary sense than weird. it just really throws everything you've ever thought about the world into chaos. we're having a pig-pickin'! whatcha eating?  oh god... i hate those... please no... D: ever been on a scary hay ride? i have indeed, at the old church-oriented cheerleading and basketball place ever been to a castle?  i have n- wait! i've been in cinderella's castle in disney world! :D what's your favorite kind of penguin? i think they're called emperor penguins. they look very majestic but silly simultaneously! whales. should they be allowed in sea world?  i don't think so, honestly. if so, they'd need a WAY bigger aquarium than i remember seeing them in... ever seen an albino? whether it be human or animal?  pretty sure i've seen albino mice, but that's it, i think. what do you think of the song "miss jackson" by panic! at the disco? good song very good a++ what is the wallpaper on your best friends cell phone? i'm pretty sure her lock screen is she and her husband, and her home screen is a bible quote. do you feel comfortable singing in front of others? nope, no one. do you like using big words when you talk? if i believe this word to be more descriptive/accurate when explaining something, sure? do you EVER use caps lock? yes, i do, for emphasis. i'm extremely passionate and talk exactly how i type, so there's gotta be emphasis!! are you loud when you’re having sex? i wouldn't know, but i was always quiet doing sexual things because i was sooo nervous about being loud, even if no one was around. have you ever wanted to drop out of school? definitely. i was suicidal in high school partially because of school, and i really considered it in order to potentially save myself (i ended up having to drop all but one class when the issue was brought to my principal). i did drop out of college. when was the last time you watched south park? well over a year ago. i watched it with jason occasionally, he enjoyed it. are you italian? i am not. are you interested in photography at all? well, i'm hoping to be a photographer, so. any survey takers that annoy you on tumblr? not at all. there are some whose answers i disagree with very much, but honestly, every survey taker i've seen seem pretty cool. do you like bob marley? OH MY GOOOOOD NO I HATE HIS VOICE can you talk to your parents about anything without them judging or bickering at you? i don't think so, honestly. are you interested in art? very much so. don't you think we're spending too much money on exploring the mere theory of climate change? lmao who made this, donald trump??? no. climate change is important as fuck and if we keep this shit up, could very well end or nearly decimate humanity. everyone always wants to know your favorite animal. what's your SECOND favorite? probably rhesus macaques. very mischievous and social. who’s your favorite disney character? probably mulan, but i have no real preference. have you ever taken the eharmony personality quiz? YES AND I HAD ZERO MATCHES GG do you take vitamins? if so, what kinds? not anymore, no. how much was your prom dress? what’s the most you’d spend? i'm not sure how much either of them costs... and i really don't know how much i'd pay, but not too much, i mean, it's just prom. would you marry someone of a different religion?  depends on the religion, really. like some religions have beliefs i would never respect, such as some religions believe the woman is far lesser than the man. i wouldn't marry someone with those beliefs. how did you learn the word “fuck”? school, i'm sure. if you could make one of your enemies your best friend, who would it be? why would i want to be friends with my enemy, as anyone who i consider my enemy is obviously so for a reason? what is the last movie you saw in theaters? trolls. soooo cute. (: have you ever got into a wreck?  i've been in an accident, not a wreck, i'd say. do you think you are an argumentative person?  no. to avoid confrontation, i usually just keep my opinion to myself to avoid this whole issue. can you admit when you’re wrong?  i'm quick to admit that honestly. i doubt myself. are you easily confused?  VERY VERY VERY do you think you would make a good wife/husband?  i hope... have you ever caught a butterfly?  omg i forgot this story... a few days after jason left (it may have even been the next day, i don't recall), i found a yellow-and-black, crippled butterfly. i tried so hard to nurse it back to health, but it was useless, it was going to and did die. i buried it in my back yard among crysanthemums (i probably murdered spelling that). honestly, part of me getting my semicolon butterfly tattoo relates to that butterfly. have you ever deliberately tried to get someone drunk? no, that sounds... really wrong. do you like being kissed on the neck? if you want your clothes ripped off, sure. favorite song by the band the offspring? uh-oh, i'm not sure! i reeeaaally love "why don't you get a job" and "pretty fly for a white guy" about the same. how many times each morning do you press the snooze button? i never use an alarm, so. when you go out to eat, what sides do your order with your food? fries because i'm a fat american what video game or computer game are you best at? am i best at? idk, really. how do you normally come across new music? youtube's recommendations what subject in school do you feel is the least necessary? it depends on what you want to do in your future, really. they all have purpose, just not for everyone. do you enjoy power outages or do you get annoyed? i wouldn't say i "enjoy" them, but i'll usually get excited a bit for like a minute just because something different is going on. are you pretty politically correct? yes and no. have you ever behaved like a stalker?   ... i think so, honestly. do you appreciate other people’s opinions?   appreciate, yes.  it's part of what makes us unique. if you could pick your own pet name, what would it be?   *shrugs* do you care what’s going on in the world?   i'm one of the idiots that lives on it, duh i do. how many partners is too many?   having any more than one do you examine the tissue after you blow your nose?   yeah, ensure there's no blood or anything. do you prefer boys to shave down there?   no preference.  whatever they're comfortable with. how much does your mother know about your sex life (or lack thereof)?   all she knows is i almost had sex once but didn't.  i talked to her about it because i felt VERY guilty. are any of your siblings married? what are their spouse’s names?   only ashley is married, and her husband's name is nick. have you ever had a pet bird?   no, i wish. how many times have you moved in your lifetime?   i've moved twice. if you could get one piercing and one tattoo, where would you want them?   piercing, labret.  one tattoo... ohhhh man... i think it'd still probably be what i'm starting next: the painting "denialism" by da's tatchit on my right upper arm.  it doesn't have a personal meaning to me, honestly, i just think it's fucking awesome. would you consider yourself to be adventurous?   depends, really.  what're the risks of what i'm doing? has any part of your house ever been flooded?   no, only our yard. is there anyone that you're worried about right now? who and why?   well, jason is the obvious.  i always worry about him, whether or not he's happy and moreso if he's being loved enough... because i can guaranfuckingtee ashley will never love him like i do. if you won a lot of money, would you donate any of it? to what organization would you donate it?   i'm sure i would, but idk where. describe the best friend you've ever had, or the best person you've ever known.   jason, quite easily.  he was both my boyfriend and best friend.  he just kinda... changed one day. have you ever adopted a stray animal?   MANY cats, yes. if you were seriously ill and couldn't find the necessary help or treatment in your home country, would you ever travel abroad to get treatment, expenses aside?   who wouldn't, honestly? what time did you wake up this morning?   i'm woke 24/7, motherfucker. ever wonder if you’re someone’s everything?   i have.  apparently, i wasn't. would you ever bleach your hair platinum blonde?   i actually kinda want to, but it's another hair color mom won't allow.  my hair is like supremely healthy and she doesn't want me to ruin it. what is your mom’s middle name?   marie do you know the color of your ex boyfriend/girlfriend’s eyes?   yes, a very mellow dark brown. have you had your wisdom teeth out?   no, but it looks to be inevitable soon. your appendix?   nope, i still have it.