#my endings are alway sappy

[starflungwaddledee]

happy birthday. you are so, so loved

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Redraw of my first post on this blog. Oh how far we've come B'*)

[Now with it's own redraw!]

[vargaslovinghours]

And never let you go ♥

Bonus without the overspill lighting:

[byemambo]

The night before falling Out of what we thought love is A tangled story that no words can untangle Hoping to leave behind the ending that will be too painful Let's just leave it tonight It's the time, the last hour of love

202401014 | Xdinary Heroes - Night before the end 5th Mini Album <LIVE AND FALL>

Xdinary Heroes Music Videos [4/?]

[mars-ipan]

some postgame doodles for pride month

[silverselfshippingchaos]

husband.. I love him

[xxplastic-cubexx]

sorry if you've already mentioned but what (re?)ignited your love of comics/x-men/cherik? curious because there are so many different adaptations of them

i think im gonna speak for a few (or a lot of) people when i say that TL;DR the wolverine x deadpool movie that came out this summer is what pulled me back into comics and i COULD leave it there but i will go into excruciating and unnecessary detail instead because i love an origin story and i love oversharing.

under the cut tho because im nice sometimes (there's also wxdp doodles in here. if you want to see that)

ironically (and probably commonly), growing up i was more of an avengers kid. Kinda. Loosely <- binge watched the cartoons and movies and read copious amounts of comics and fics and i am hoarding fanart in my old dresser as we speak ok 'loosely' is a modest lie.

embarrassingly i remember getting into discus cause of captain america LMAO so yeah needless to say i was a Humble Fan- me joining my school's comic class/club didnt help either (shoutout to my teach from that she was the realest one out there for. A Multitude of reasons). she definitely is was inspires me to even draw still and make comics and i often think bout the tips i learned from her class tbh she was great

back to the movies t and comics tho, i got into em because my brother would offer to take me and that's how we'd hang out (i rarely saw movies in theaters and i even more rarely went anywhere as a teenager. still kinda like that today tbh ooops) and yk. it just snowballed after that.

my brother and i have always liked comics- he just more than me for a while (though he still very much loves comics and As We Know From My Posts we still talk about them whenever i see him To An Exhausting Degree)

durin then i was really into stony and i have a few surviving doodles i made but those are between me and god. and anyone who asks tbh LOL

'snap can you make this related to x-men again this is long' ok so fast forward to This Summer again I Still Don't Really See Movies but my brother offered to take me and this was the first time i'd actually seen an x-men movie in full

as a kid i only remember seeing the 'perfection' scene between erik and raven in first class while i was channel surfing. pretty sure i changed the channel after seeing mystique naked cause i was scared my parents would get mad at me if they caught me watching it LOL

BUT MOVING ON As A Kid i think it's also natural you'll sometimes watch 92 if it's on And I Did though evidently it didn't stick too hard (i do remember really liking beast and gambit though.... still do really): my knowledge of x-men was. INCREDIBLY sparse. like diabolically so so i didnt have too much expectations (aside from the fact i vaguely liked deadpool beforehand).

tbh i dont know why my bro never took me to see any of the x-men movies. it's not like he doesn't Also like x-men (90% sure nightcrawler's his favorite but my brother will be caught dead saying he has absolute favorites like that)- he owns a bitch load of deadpool comics/omnibus sets too (of which ive read over the years and reread this year) but Shrug moving on

Much Like Most Of The Internet i fell down the rabbit hole that way. i have some doodles i made a couple days after seeing WxDP that i now have an excuse to throw at all of you Look And Perceive

and so. As I Do. i got curious and told myself i'd binge watch all the x-men movies the week before i went back to school And Then I Did ft. My Brother Sometimes and then i said i'd binge watch all of '92 and And I Did That ft. My Brother Sometimes But Less So and now we're here. currently watching Evolution...

once i got to school i realized i lived near a comic shop and started getting into the comics that way (the first ones i got since going down this rabbit hole was Magneto Was Right!, The Resurrection of Magneto, and The Trial of Magneto. if you were curious !!!!! clearly i didnt care too much about context i just needed to see My Guy jelvejlkvj i have no regrets and Evidently ive read more since)

i'm pretty sure what dragged me into cherik specifically was the fact i saw a clip of The Famous ending to 92 where erik's aghast at the notion jean even has to question his love for charles. i think that was what officially had me refocus my lens on them: not a single poolverine thought after that LOL (all the cherik posting i saw on twitter definitely helped too but that was the nail in the coffin for any other interests i had: i was locked into cherik and x-men in general now)

that clip specifically, i was surprised at the fact they- frequently even- have the x-men franchise say erik loves charles and vice versa so bluntly. even if it's not meant to be romantic, i fear im just a fan of how casually the word's thrown around with them two and i got tender bout it all. Then Yk. i just live for the drama. the hilarity even. the sincerity .... they make me sick if i think of them too long so im gonna end it here

before i go tho ironically enough, the first x-men issue i owned was This one (story a this is that while stuck in some wacko dimension charles accidentally gets himself trapped in logan's mind while utilizing his astral projection. if you were curious). pretty sure i got it for free with another comic set i got years ago since our old comic shop loved to do that, but it's poetic aint it. maybe ill doodle something referencing it..

i should probably look into finishing this arc someday im Dummy curious to even know how it started and how it ends.....

[dawnthefluffyduck]

Last drawing of my summer class, we were only given an hour but I think I made good progress (this was a test of sorts)

This will be the last time I'm studying under this professor, so I'd like to share his art page (I think it's neat to see how his approach to art has influenced my own)

[dahldahlbills]

just hit 50k in cryptids wip :’)

[sugoi-writes]

Just want to say I really like how you write Alastor in your smutty pieces! I see him more often than not written in full control, which is fun, but I also love seeing him fall apart. 🥲 You bring a really great balance to him actually being in control and slowly slipping out of it as the story goes on.

I just read the scent fic and the Saint Alastor one as well and they were both *chef’s kiss*! Do you post on AO3 as well or just on Tumblr? Keep up the great work, I’m excited to read through the rest of your masterlist! x

That's it, that's my reaction

Jk jk, of course ♥️

Firstly: I'm framing this. We are holding hands. I am your friend now. Please accept my love.

Secondly, thank you? 🥹😭 I love seeing the Fall of Man, especially HIM. I may be alone in thinking this: but Alastor isn't perfect; he's still a lil ole sinner at the end of the day. His shell is penetrable, I just KNOW it. I work with and know people of all types, ages, backgrounds, professions. No matter how perfect someone seems to be, or how "in control" they are... there's always a tipping point! So I enjoy exploring that too! Besides, if Alastor got his way all the time, he'd be bored! Extremely so!!! So why not spice up his life with a bit of a challenge, yknow? (If you balance it with his victories, you got yourself a very, very happy Radio Demon).

Also: sadly, I don't have an AO3! As old as I am, I totally should. Maybe I'll join the waitlist and hop on there too! 😭 (may be an easier was to archive my random BS... LOL)

I'm so glad you enjoyed those works, too! They're always fun to write! I'll be rolling out some larger-scale works very soon. ♥️🥹 I hope you'll be around to see, but if not, as my blog bio always says: please enjoy your visit!

[ohh-fiddlesticks]

“even if you… balloon up, or… shrink down, i’d still love you” “even if i shrunk down to 2 inches tall?” “i’d carry you around in my pocket :-)” THEYRE SO CUTE 😭 i love when chandlers sweet and genuine

[circlesroundthemoon]

diska just ended????

[hamiltonsf1]

love and life is leaving a meeting to pick up your sister in a parking lot because she busted a tire while your brother (who is also at work) calls a tow truck (bc connections) and your dad assesses the situation via pictures because he too is at work and can’t be there for support

[mo-ok]

Dengeki Sentai Changeman

[noneuclideangarf]

Hey, I know I’m just a random person that follows you, but for what it’s worth, I think your music is fantastic.

The first few months of this year were really rough for me but discovering your stuff has helped me so much since then. That untitled ambient track you uploaded to tumblr a while ago moved me to tears when i heard it. I listened to the F:/Misc ep whenever my anxiety was bad. I don’t really know where I’m going with this rant, I just want you to know that you and your music are cool as fuck and I wish I could do more to get more people to pay attention to your hard work.

Sorry if this was too sappy or I’m overstepping or anything, you don’t have to respond, I just wanted to express my thoughts on the matter

I just want to say off the top, genuinely, thank you.

Thank you so very much for your kind words and for enjoying what i make! I was in the middle of my shift at work when I first read this, and it really made my day.

The posts of mine that your ask is related to was me voicing my own issues finding meaning in what I am doing, and the my own frustration related to. I'm at a transitional point in my life: I'm looking for a new job, I moved out, and I finally finished my music degree. Lots of things have changed/are changing, and one of those things is how I am approaching creating stuff. I now have slightly more time to dedicate myself to creating and releasing music and take the process more seriously (in between working my shitty job, of course). This means thinking a lot more about what I am making, who it is for, how i am putting it out in the world, and what it means.

Meaning is really the tough part of that equation because it's hard to feel like things matter when you are in a state of flux, even moreso when your means of putting out your art is social media which often can feel like a void you drop things into.

It gets to you sometimes.

When it does, it's like there is no meaning to what you do. That's how i felt when I made those posts. But that's not the truth. Because a counter displaying 50 views does not reflect the reality of how people interact and are affected by a work. You can't really just base meaning purely off of metrics. Deep down I knew that, but it's easy to lose sight of things online, and your message was a nice reminder to me that people can connect to your work in ways you might not see or know.

I first started writing this reply when I got your ask, but it took me a little while to respond because I wanted to properly express myself in a good response. It turned out a little bit long, but it's a lot of words to essentially say:

"I wrote some posts because I felt like what I was doing was meaningless because of life stuff and the woes making stuff online for an algorithm and your message reminded me that wasn't the case"

Once again, I appreciate your kind words and I am glad you liked my music. I also want to say that you don't need to "do more to get more people to pay attention" to my music, but I am thankful for the sentiment. As much as a big platform would be nice, I am happy just knowing there's people who are listening to it like you - not just faceless numbers on a view counter.