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sword-of-summer · 4 years ago

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All of them answer every question fuck you

ahahaha no i respectfully deny your "fuck you" and i accept the ask and so-

i am 5'10", and i don't wish to be taller or shorter- i am the perfect height for hugs and messy hair, and yep, i like it here-

dream pet would be a mix of golden retriver and a husky called Holly and a chonky cat called Loki- yes ofcourse my future kids have names everyone should name their future pets-

ripped jeans/black pants with a Darth Vader tshirt or a Ethnic Fusion Kurta with black sneakers/artificial leather slip-ons, and if it's cold, a black jacket open obviously- and a black wristwatch i love my black wristwatch.

favourite video game was Clash of Clans and going even back, GTA Vice City and, the og- MARIIOOOO

three things/people are Oreos, Nutella and Pizza. The Holy Trinity-

"Beware me my fingers are smeared with chicken popcorn grease"

you didn't mention an opinion, @chunkybirb, so imma give my opinion on Vanilla ice cream and Nutella- ANYONE WHO HADN'T COMBINED THESE TWO COMBINE THESE TWO THEY ARE FUCKING AWESOME

im either phlegmatic or melancholic bruh idk maybe ik or maybe not

im v v v v ticklish

not an allergy, but an intense hatred for ketchup- i vomit if it gets too close to me fuck you ketchup

im heterosexual

any between tea and coffee but full milk coffee (ik, kill me), never had cocoa- but i love a chocolate or nutella milkshake

both. both is good. (cat and dog)

i would be an elf cause hell yeah, knowledge and wisdom

favourite youtuber is Samay Raina, a stand up comedian turned youtuber who is just awesome-

as i mentioned in 1., i am 5'10"

i would not change my name cause it's the coolest fucking name ever, i am Tanay, and Tanay in Hindi means Son, and my parents literally named their son Son, and hell yeah i like it

i forgot how much i weigh- last i checked it was 75 kilos, but ive gained weight since 2019 so yep, gotta walk in the mornings

yes i believe in metaphysicality cause one- it seems cool- second- me and @theclassyghost discussed a metaphysical life theory that i really really like and metaphysicality gives preservation of knowledge so i believe in spirits

SPACE. SPACE. SPACE.

im not that religious, no

pet peeves no well nah not really

nocturnal def nocturnal i sleep at 4.50 anyway hehehehe

fav constellation is Cassiopeia

fav star is Sirius tho

what the fuck are ball jointed dolls

i do have a fear of losing people that's just anxiety i guess

yep, global warming is real

never thought that much about reincarnation tbh but maybe, i do

fav movie is Spider Man : Into The SpiderVerse and Inception and The Dark Knight Rises and Revenge of The Sith and yes, for my indian gang, 3 Idiots and Gully Boy

yep i get scared v v v easily

i have had no pets but i plan to once i grow up

@chunkybirb 's blog is fucking cool awesome and *chef's kiss* a masterpiece

blue calms me. i love blue.

live in Norway cause pretty lights, snow, and less people than this overpopulated country i am in

born in Mumbai, India

v v v dark brown like it's almost black but no it's dark brown

introvert

horoscopes and zodiacs, i do read them, never believed that much tbh-

HUGS I LOVE HUGS

i really wanna visit my brother i haven't met him in a long time i really wanna play cricket w him just like old times

my sister- she's annoying but well i care for her

nah

tattoos idk bruh im okay idk may get one or may not get one

nope, smoking is ewwww *vomits*

ah my crush- she's cool [ if she exists

when the chalk doesn't write on the board but goes iiiiiieeee I HATE THAT

a sound i love is rain pitter pattering i just hhhhhh sends me into happiness

nope fatass here

favourite actors have to be eddie redmayne, oscar issac and pedro pascal- and margot robbie and winona ryder in the actresses section also yes, elliot page

bruh already answered in 30.

im okayish!! spotify and tumblr, cool combo-

my hair are okay being black for me

yesterday, monday, from 6.40 to 6.50

music

uhhh naah not that i know of

well in Rick Riordan's Magnus Chase books, the sword of Frey aka Sumarbrander TALKS and demands to be called Jack, so here i am

bakwaas, music and comfy

yep, i believe in evolution

unfollow on hate and when they dm me sending nsfw pics ugh why are people like that

follow, well, i like people and they seem cool, so i follow them

fav kind of person is the one who'll sit with me for hours not even talking and just vibing to music

fav animals are beavers, doggos and cats

three fav blogs are @chunkybirb, @theclassyghost, @little-boats-on-a-lake, @aredhel-of-gondolin, @sue-me-imbadass, @alleenkaas, @my-ackerman, @brrrrrrrrrrzone

fav emoticon has to be ☹ this me seeing my stupidity outrank others

fav meme has to be Butternut is a master of psychological manipulation

INTP

Libraaa let's go

no dog, i have

black darth vader tshirt, black pants, black sneakers and black wrist watch

i have no selfies my phone has no cameras i live in eternal darkness

what the fuck are platform shoes

i, uhhh, i remember weird things like what i drew in class in 3rd while i was supposed to be doing english

lazy ass here, no front flips possible

i like birds they fly

nope i don't Iike swimming i like blankets

wrapped up in blankets reading books sounds better than both

ketchup

hyperspace travel

nope none

reading writing eating sleeping

my friend

tumblr seems cool

i have around 60-70 idk

yes i can run but why

yes they do but what's the fun in that

nope I'd fall over

sapphire let's go

koala bear or panda

sunflower or the one on a lemon tree

ketchup store

one cup of coffee is enough, tysm

read minds that sounds cool cool yeaaahh

nope never wore it a black clothes guy here BatMan

winter winter all year long

i don't know and i don't wanna try

i don't know and i don't wanna know

everyone cause they are better than me

bookstores cause bookstores any bookstores

sneakers, black onez

apparently some gas bitches mixed up to form a planet

non vegetarian but i partake meat just twice or thrice in two weeks

i don't know they don't seem like liking

naaaaaaaah

bugs ew

spiders ew

about the fact that i come off as arrogant and overconfident while in reality it's just that my communication skills suck

i can draw averagely whenever im in a mood

this thing im answering but i like answering it

uhhhhhhh brain freeze- idk bruh questions are good they give knowledge

yep, while sleeping

ahh yes calming, they are

cloudy days cause fucking cool vibes

hehehe wouldn't you like to know, weatherboy

CumuloNimbus i really like it's name yknow nimBUS

dark blue, dark blue always or black

naaaah no freckles

fav thing is when they laugh and it's just happy and we're both laughing like shitheads but who cares we're rebelling against depressing life and we laugh

both. both is good [ fruits and vegetables

sleep but i have to answer 170 questions cause @chunkybirb

sky sky sky it's my blog's header duh uh sKy

sweet and sour candy. SWEET AND SOUR CANDY.

dim lights it makes me feel cool

ahhh so here we go- Mooncalfs, Thunderbirds, Phoenixes, Sphinxes, Dragons that seem to be Space Nebulae, and more and more and more

i really feel like a boomer sometimes

i love everything about this site/app it makes me feel happy cause i like the people and the posts

uhhhhh i think too much about everything cause i just do. i like thinking

"He's dead, guys. For the sake of The Force, please watch Star Wars now he wanted to discuss it with you" actually no i would just say "A big shoutout to Garlic Bread he loved Garlic Bread"

myself cause i should be sleeping but sleep is for the weak and i am the weak and the strong i am a paradox-

that i obsess too much on things and try involving people it never works out

nope. had braces for 4 years, that beat out teeth showing smiles

i prefer computer-tv ahahahahaha

never tried them, so IDK

naaaaah not motion sickness- never travelled by sea so idk seasickness

lobed ears

yep i believe that deeds do count in life and beyond

idk bruh i don't believe in physical attraction too much- bodies are fake- mentally/metaphysically tho, im a 7

ahhhhh many many Stupid Genius, Tani, Tanu, Tanya

i still do-

i really want to talk to a therapist. converse. and discover.

im both, i am both.

10:1 is the ratio- giving 10, receiving 1

uhhh nothing just when i am right and people use the old "disrespect" argument

3, Hindi, Marathi, English

girls

uhh no i am not

my hair i love them everyone says things about my hair but i love them

knowledge vibes i give, someone tells me- and that's all i ever wanted

anyone i know tbh, my mutuals, my friends, my discord friends

ahhh no i wouldn't but i wish i was born 20 years earlier

bleh bloo, neither like nor dislike

i don't know if i have one

i don't know, haven't had physical contact in a long long long time in a galaxy far far away

the above point stands but i would like to ig

anything i write, 3 hours later, i instantly hate just idk why

anything i write

that i am normal no i am not and i am not okay hahahahaha

65-70 ish people

somewhere around-

many many many don't ask please but okay if you do ask

somewhat

uhhhhh idr exactly but i won't tell in public duh uh

mediummm hairrrr

last year lockdown i became harry potter

i don't know buddy i seriously don't know

yep i do cause knowledge i like knowledge

naaah never tried

no i definitely cannot stand on my hands or my head for more than 30 seconds

yep, im pretty sure i answered most of them correctly-

og link-

#personal #ask #tumblr

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an-american-teen-against-crime · 5 years ago

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Get to Know Me Tag

I was tagged by @professorhotchkissesta ! Thanks Maddy!! :)

Name: Cambria

nickname: Sometimes I get called Cam or Cambie (that second one is by my family), Bones by my brother, and rarely I get a Bri. I mostly go by Cambria, but if you wanna call me a nickname that’s fine! :)

zodiac sign: Pisces

height: 5′ 7′’

nationality: american

languages spoken: english, a spot of Latin from when I took it for two semesters lol

what time is it?: 1:24 am oof ( 2am at the end now big yikes)

celebrity crush: Chris Evans, (also a lot of marvel actors loool) Timothee Chalamet, Jensen Ackles, and Justin Min (probably others but I don’t follow celebs craaazy close so)

favorite fictional character: *get ready this be long* Nancy Drew, Hardy Boys, the Doctor, Merlin, Percy Jackson, Batman (and co.), DEAN and Sam Winchester, Steve Rogers, Peggy Carter, Natasha Romanov, Matt Murdock, Aragorn (and Legolas and a basically the whole fellowship) Spiderman Peter Parker but a lil bit more Miles Morales, Gansey from the Raven Cycle, them lovely peoples from the many Star Wars movies (ok tbh kinda enjoyed Ben Solo. But the others are cool too including of COURSE og trio and prequel trio) and you don’t know him but Jason Whittiker. There’s a whole heckin lot more but this is me keeping a minimum lol.

favorite musician: Adam Young or Taylor Swift

favorite sports team: Sports?? What is this thing you speak of

favorite season: ummm...late summer? Spring too maybe. Fall is dope. Only thing I like about winter is the first snow, Christmas, and the clothes ha

favorite flower: unlike francis I do not have favorite flowers to put on my favorites, because I don’t know enough about flowers. Maybe sunflowers, those make me happy.

favorite scent: Cherry blossoms, lavender, lakeside, the lakehouse I go to every summer, the smell of someone grilling, that buffy body butter from LUSH, a new book’s pages, that new spring smell

favorite color: lots of shades of blue, like a very rich, purple blue maybe? idk the name lol. I like purple too!!!

favorite animal: *prepare for another list* Dinosaurs, ducks, lots of birds (owls), dolphins, whales, horses, deer, cheetahs, elephants, lions, penguins, polar bears, bears, hedgehogs, probably more I can’t think of rn

favorite food: I love a ton of food, but the first thing that comes to mind is these bacon wrapped dates I had one time and I have never been the same since

dream car: ‘67 Chevy Impala, because I know nothing about cars and it looks cool

dream trip: I wanna go a lot of places, but I’d like to go to Japan, Korea, Australia, the United Kingdom, and Italy to name a few. One trip I spent a day in Iceland and then three days in France, and I’d like to go back to both!

instruments: Learned like 7 songs on the piano and forgot them all. I have an old hand-me-down guitar that I need to learn to play but haven’t yet.

coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: aLL ! Seriously though, love hot chocolate, coffee is good but it heightens anxiety so I gotta watch it. Tea is awesome too!

dog or cat person: boTH but technically who knows cause I’ve never owned either

following: 61

followers: 60

other blogs: @justa-smalltown-gargoyle and @spot-the-three-heads

blog established: March of this year :0

do you have a tumblr crush?: nope, but I wanna be friends with everyone on here, ya’ll are pretty rad and I love ya!!!

do you get asks?: sooooometimes not often tho

what is your lucky number?: not really a lucky number....but 11 seems common for me.

what are you wearing rn?: a MAssive Marvel t-shirt and blue sweatpants + llama socks. I’m wearin’ pjs

drink of choice: any kind of good juice

number of blankets you sleep with: four....? If it’s summer though probably none or like one. However I am a cold person and lots of blankets are cozy

average # of sleep hours: Dunno. I have a really bad sleeping pattern haha. Maybe six or seven hours??? idk

random fact: I took a Karate class in highschool and I had to make my own black belt kata (a kata is an organized performance/dance/acting out? of moves all put together) to pass the test, and I created it with inspiration from the four different forms of bending from Avatar: the Last Airbender XD

Thanks for the tag!! This was super fun!!

@thejoeisthejoe @hardyfrank @nancydrew428 @irinyaclockworker I tag ya’ll unless I missed the fact that you were already tagged for some reason- also I tag anyone who sees this and wants to do it!!!

#tag game #get to know me #clue crew

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mentalcurls · 6 years ago

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2. Sei uno str***o

I’m back with my thoughts of episode 2 of the first season of Skam Italia. This was much quicker than analyzing episode 1, but there’s still a lot of stuff I hadn’t caught or thought much about the first time I watched the season, like pre-Luchino interactions between the boys, sexy times and the earliest mentions of Marti’s mom. Bechdel test results at the end. Warning for gratuitous use of italics.

I’m still not over Skam Italia doing that video of Gio and the chat between him and Eva, referencing and overturning Skam og’s “No Norwegian boy would go down on a girl”, that shit was savage, bless LudoBesse

Oh, the song that plays while Gio and Eva are getting to the cabin! “It’s gonna be you / And me / It’s gonna be everything you’ve ever dreamed” is 100% referring to Eva, to her wanting to be with Gio, in peace, for a while, to her anticipation and plans for this trip

seeing the cabin again, though. I mean, intellectually I know this is the first time it’s ever seen on screen, this was the first time I saw it as well cause I watched all of S1 that weekend after 3.5 Ammucchiate, but now the magical triad of “Sto a Bracciano”, “Due ore” and “Patatine e marmellata” colors my experience of it so much, I almost teared up when Gio and Eva got inside

I had kind of forgotten how much they actually show of Gio and Eva having sex, I get why people drew the comparison after the Nicotino sex scenes, BUT “DUE ORE” AND “TU NON SEI DI MILANO” ARE PERFECT ANYWAYS

still not over the absence of any fic in which Gio gets to properly show off his oral skills (with Eva or anyone else)

Marti moaning and complaining about how he’s scarred and traumatized after he walks in on Eva and Gio kills me; tbh his problem is mostly that he saw a bit too much of Eva (not a lot I think, because that sheet was pretty strategically placed) and not enough of Gio

I can’t focus on Eva when there are proto-Contrabbandieri interactions going on, I just cannot

ok, so, Marti. He says his mom “freaked out” because she decided to do housework and that he had to run. So, like. Given that he uses that same wording “sbroccare” that he’ll use in later episodes to talk about his mother’s mental illness, what’s happening here? Because while I see how a person would “freak out” about cleaning (like if they suddenly started obsessing over everything being dirty), I think from what we’ve seen of Mrs Rametta that’s not likely and she probably simply tried to do the spring cleaning. So is that what Marti considers a “freak out”? Does he put spring cleaning on the same level of what I’ve always assumed were, like, panic attacks? And then of course there’s the fact that we have a boy who runs like a bat out of hell as soon as household chores are mentioned. Now. We know in a few months Marti is going to pray for his mom to want to do the chores 💔

“C’mon Eva why are you being like this?” are you really asking Gio?

Marti is at peak 🐍🐍 here: he hijacks Eva’s time with Giovanni, stops them from having sex and keeps Gio busy with a thirteen-hour-long game of Risk Eva doesn’t take part in at all. And Gio lets him! He doesn’t even appear to stay mad about not being able to have sex for more than those two minutes when he hits Marti with his sleeping bag, is he even a teenage boy

that build up to Elia’s appearance, with the creepy music, gets to me every time and Gio going for the fireplace log lifter kills me

Elia Santini is a living meme from his very first line (“Ammazza che accoglienza”)

I mean that chuckle + “Che, davero?” combo is ICONIC

Eva’s unimpressed face at Gio is also iconic.

“C’mon, what could I do, he asked if he could come, should I have said no?” ahem, OBVIOUSLY YES, since you promised your girlfriend it’d be the two of you (honestly, Gio, how did you expect to have sex, with your best friends in the room next to yours, only separated by a door??)

Notice that Eva walks away (only a few paces), fully expecting him to follow her and try to placate her more, so she can properly scream at him, except he doesn’t, he goes inside with the guys

so we get to the beach scene and what I can’t help but wonder is how long the two schemers, Gio and Elia, spent coming up with a suitable excuse to feed Eva for going back to Rome, something she wouldn’t question… and she actually questions it anyways for a minute

and God, the suspicious look Eva gives them as they walk away

in this proto-Contrabbandieri dynamic, I can’t help but notice that Martino fills that Luchino-ish role, obviously he’s not treated the same because he’s much more likely to have a sharp comeback to mocking and he’s not as naive as Luca, but he’s the one that gets left behind while the trouble duo goes to get the weed; and I think that if a Bastardata-like situation was to happen in S1 Marti would be the “victim”

and of course this episode has this big gaslighting incident, where Gio tells Eva he’s going back to Rome for his brother, Martino covers for him pretending he knows nothing (and encouraging Eva to drink and forget 😑) and when Gio comes back they all act like it’s fine, like it’s normal that he was gone most of the day and the whole night and like she’s totally overreacting when she’s mad

ok, but Marti is really really invested in Gio’s sex life, this boy is gone, desperately looking for any and all scraps. I think I’ve seen fic do the “Marti never wanked over Gio, he couldn’t have faced him afterwards” thing and while that’s valid, I think that he actually fantasized a lot about him, basing himself on the sexcapades Gio has told him about, like Villa Sciarra, because this boy has shown he’s thirsty af from day one, first telling Eva “c’mon, zozzoni, let me see” on Skype and then in this episode asking Eva outright what Gio’s like in bed

I can’t even describe Marti’s face during the conversation, first he fakes nonchalance, then he goes for a nice-guy-encouraging-reassuring smile, then he smirks and wiggles his eyebrows, then he’s smug, when Eva seems to be mustering up the courage to speak again he’s kind of hopeful, then smug again, then he softens when he starts cuddling Eva, but in the last shot from that clip he’s looking in the distance, he stops smiling and has a slightly disappointed expression

that conversation with Eva, God. Aside from any and all speculation of Marti’s motives, she is obviously embarrassed and uncomfortable, yet Marti keeps pressing; she clearly states she asked Gio not to talk about their sex life (not too in depth at least), yet Martino confirms he’s ignored her request and quotes some notable examples that prove his knowledge, which embarasses her further, to the point she stops the conversation; finally, Marti justifies Gio and himself by saying “You know, we’re like this.” like that excuses anything (or means anything, really)

those shots of the lake in the early morning and of the trees *insert Poetic cinema meme here*

Gio has the gall to come in like nothing’s happened and announce he’s brought back brioches, then to shake his head and sigh when Eva storms off, like dude? You left her alone with your best friend for a whole day and a whole night, no answers to her calls and texts, she woke up hungover on the couch and in the arms of a boy who’s not you and you’re surprised and exasperated by her being mad at you?? Honestly, Gio, you might be il mago dell’amore cause you’re half decent at matchmaking but you’re shit at doing relationships, at keeping them healthy and working

at least Eva finally gets him to follow her where they can talk alone, she finally gets him to choose her over his friends for a few minutes

Eva’s paranoid and controlling behaviour is not healthy for her or for Gio or anyone else, really, but I get where she comes from. Her relationship began with cheating, her boyfriend is currently hiding something, so trust is not something that comes easy here. Still, asking to read your boyfriend’s messages to someone else is not something conducive to a better relationship.

“You-you change when you’re around them.” hello “7 things” by Miley Cyrus!

And here we go again: “Eva, do you really think I’m hiding something from you? Eva, I’m not hiding anything from you, okay?” and he kisses her, trying to placate and distract her with physical affection

poor Eva walking to a place that is as isolated as she feels

I mean, this trip must have been devastating for her, she’s been anticipating it for weeks, it should be her occasion to be with Gio, to strengthen the one relationship in her life that’s going well, to placate her fears and to forget all the stuff that’s going to shit in her life for a few days; instead Gio’s friends gatecrash the trip, Gio spends half of the time going back and forth from Rome, she gets stuck with Marti who’s a good guy, but inappropriate, she finds out her boyfriend discloses info about their intimacy without her consent, and there’s the whole Laura thing. The only pinprick of light at the end of the tunnel is that kind-of-weird, a bit too touchy-feely girl from the Easter party befriending her on Facebook, how sad is her life?

Bechdel test: this episode doesn’t pass the test. There’s a brief conversation between Eva and her mom at the beginning, but her dad intervenes, plus Eva’s mom is still unnamed so the conversation doesn’t count for the test.

This post is part of my complete series of meta about Skam Italia season 1. If you’d like to read more of my thoughts about the other episodes, you can find the mastepost linked in the top bar on my blog under SKAMIT: EVA. Cheers!

#skam italia #skamit meta #giovanni garau #martino rametta #eva brighi #elia santini #eleonora sava #martino's mom #skamit #skamit s1 #1x02 sei uno str***o #a. writes

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spotaus · 8 months ago

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Self rbing with a bit of tired design rambles (might hit on topics about his AU which involve cannibalism, death, and body-horror, so beware!):

So, Pretender was an Old Old oc, and I low-key wanna write this out, so I am!

He was inspired, back in the day, by my old Amino aesthetic:

(If u knew me there, which I doubt, then hello lmao-)

But his OG design was meant to be a monster entity who transformed to appear like other AUs in the multiverse. At the time he was called Imposter (but. Uh. Among us kinda murdered that name for me) and all he did was worm his way into stories he didn't belong in until he was driven out. For a while, he was a four-armed blue Dream Clone. And this was about 3 years back I think.

Now, fast-forward to a few months ago when I hopped on amino to salvage some old references and ended up having flashbacks to this weird half-baked AU I designed. I had to do him justice!

I wanted Pretender to be his own universe, that was for sure. When I made him, I wanted him to give off Ruins vibes to be entirely honest. I love the aesthetic of characters who look like they belong in a setting of worship or a traditional garb (Catacombtale, I'm looking at you) but I also wanted to challenge myself to a new shape and coloring style.

Pretender, to start, has LAYERS. I rarely design a character with how their outfit works in mind. I think the last one I did so deliberately like that might've been Techie!Blue, but even then I worked in reverse. For pretender I really wanted his outfit to feasibly exist irl and be functional. So, the robes and hood. I've seen how large hoods sit (SimikaiHoodies my beloved) and I wanted to use a lot of Triangles in his shape language. Pointed shoulders, the hood isn't too sharp, but still juts out, his heels and wraps end in points, etc. But then Circles. His glasses, his sleeves, the markings on his clothes and the train that follows him. He IS softness tucked away in danger. You have to reach past the thorns to see his bloom, that kinda thing.

BUT. When I drew him, I didn't know that yet. All I knew was that he wasn't a dream clone anymore, abd the shapes were soft on my eyes.

There are a few minor things too. The marks on his temples represent the old "circlet" He had in the old design. Each side has a save star on it, with two longs circling the back of his skull to connect them. Then there's the marks under his eyes, which I forgot to add above, but they reference the Alt version of my aesthetic where I used an Error pfp instead. Both are homages to my old energy and faves that inspired him. (Of course Dream and Error are still two of my absolute favorites 🙏🙏🙏) Then his sockets. They're a bit Sad shaped. I just wanted to do something unique from my usual thin and pointed or large and round. His eyelights, though, are a reference to my favorite bit on my art. Almost all my OCs (Ichor, N, etc.) Will have this pupil shape where it's an oval, a circle in the center, and a line through it. It's a stylistic choice usually, but it was nice to use for Pretender since I rarely get to draw them anymore.

Taking a moment. The boots. I took a full 180 from my old days recently and I really enjoy puzzling out footwear. These boots in particular were inspired by Wizard 101 boots that I use on my main wizard tbh (the ones I'm referencing look nothing like this, but they are intricate and inspired me lol). I just thought it'd be funny to give him heels, because he has such simple clothes Until you see the shoes 🙏

And then the personality started developing. Him placing his hands together was at first a nervous habit, a quirky default pose, but it quickly added the fact that it was a self-restraint tactic. If he doesn't touch someone with the hands that Snap Necks and dig into flesh, then he won't hurt anyone again. He comforts himself with it, but often only does it when around someone whom he might hurt. (When Kale was brought onto the scene, I realized that Pretender would likely not unclasp his hands in fear of slipping and trying to lure her in with a handshake.) And so that pose, the proper one that initially was meant to give off 'yep. That's just a Guy who's praying or smth' became a discipline much more heavy and filled with symbolism. And along with all that, his maturity shines through. When he was on the surface he was a bit arrogant, and he was Young. (Layer 1 outfit/unseen outfits). Then Underground he stuck by Gaster, until the very end. (Adapting, still himself but under a new role, ex. The lab coat, which is generic and not quite matching his original clothes). Afterwards Asgore gives him the task of becoming Judge, and he is given his coat and robes. He can do that. He takes solace in the role after all he lost. It fits him. (Layer 2 and Layer 3) Then he gains Paps, and Paps knows him best wearing his robes, abd so they stick. Pretender makes them his own, and rules his own life despite the famine and pain. He Perserveres. Then on the surface he isn't just surviving. He's not trapped. As much as he can shaoe-shift, he's always been himself, but now he can grow and change again because he's safe.

I wanted his Surface clothes to get varied. He still wears his robes, he'll mix them into modern outfits, sure. He also gets brand new clothes with K's input. He values what she and Paps say, and he's willing to try new things. Ultimately he's not fashion oriented as much as comfort/practicality oriented, but he tries. He compromises. He's growing, and finding what He likes again. Pretender is Healing. That's why I chose such fluffy and baggy clothes. They're secure, and fashionable, and mostly make him blend in better. He has to relearn his disguises in the Era, and has to adapt. His clothes reflect his Hope returning. (Plus, Cat Beanie??? He likes the texture and pressure, sure, but it's also self-indulgent.)

Extra: Pretender also kept his robes, because it was a sense of Duty to cling to. Couldn't lose your mind on the clock, y'know? It was comforting to others to see something familiar, too.

Extra: His later clothes are rectangular and a lot less triangular. It's a sign of how he's more compassionate at the end of the story. Not eating Humans outright, and no longer starving, Pretender was able to grow more into his role as a guardian of his siblings rather than a guardian of the Underground. He didn't have to he as prickly, though he retains the depth and time it takes to really get to know him. Just, now it's less abrasive. (Like walking up to a full-garb priest on the street versus Just Some Guy. Who're ya gonna invite out for a beer, y'know? Neither, that's unsafe, but you get my point.)

Hello @oodlesndoodles and @mylackofgrammaristerrifying I thought you guys might appreciate this thing I was doing:

A layer-guide for Pretender's usual outfit! (And a bonus outfit too-)

This applies to his Human/Gaseous forms too, the skeleton was just the easiest to figure out as a base lol-

His outfit is pretty heavy and thick (think old European royalty style) so it buts "weight" onto his figure when he adds them.

Along with that, his 1st Layer is what he used to wear when he worked in the lab sans the Lab Coat, so anything from that Era can be Layer 1 + Generic Lab Coat. It's thin and stretchy to match his shape-shifting, but he's rarely seen only wearing this unless he's with Paps, K, or someone else he actually trusts. Oh, and he uses it to train (fighting, shifting, etc).

Layer 2 isn't exactly seen on its own? I think if Pretender ever went for the typical "Sans Lazy Guy" thing this would be it tho. Just enough effort to throw on the jacket but not enough to put on his wraps overtop. It's the first heavy layer! It also has the Deltarune on the back of it, but it gets covered by the wraps later on.

Layer 3 is just some weird ribbon wraps secured by the belt (same with the train that drapes behind him). Sometimes he WILL sleep in the entire ensemble claiming he doesn't want to have to put the outfit hack on later. (Paps will sometimes do it for him.)

And then the Bonus is a Post-story/Surface outfit to give an idea of his fashion sense! (This is also AFTER K, MTT, and Blooky force him to go shopping properly and not just wear someone's old mothballed cardigans from the funeral home.) Baggy, thick, clothes are his jam for outdoor wear when he's just going out. Usually multiple layers, he's never without his gloves (or boots. MTT tried to get him to try other shoes but he refused) and a few jewelery pieces that remind him of people he cares about. Also he has a stupid hat that K jokingly offered him, but because it's a similar texture to his hood he actually got really attached. Plus he loves mortifying her by wearing it and doing the "Nya~" thing. Paps thinks it's really fun, and therefore Tender has -20 shame of the damn thing.

His usual outfit is the go-to, but he is *willing* to wear other clothes, especially if an occasion calls for it. He's awful on Halloween the first year he's on the surface. Goes full-out for costumes, and abuses his shifting so hardcore. (Kale, Paps, and MK had SO much candy that year. Pretender just seemed to disappear for a little 'walk' and said he stopped by some houses, y'know?)

#doppletale #pretender!sans #pretender #dopple!sans #figured I'd dissect him a bit #idk...#oh and I have no clue why I did the purple mist vobes #there was just too much Blue and I love a good solid Purple (again. Ochor's rabdom purple arm??? it's a trend ig)#oh and when I say Pretender's 'imposter' versuon had a design? i mean I sketched him once at like 4 inches tall in a random sketchbook then #abandoned the idea lol #I'm building from the ground-up >:)

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a-halfblood-named-coin · 4 years ago

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With Korra coming to Netflix, there’s been this whole WAVE of “no more korra hate!” And I’m gonna be honest here, I do, I do hate the legend of korra. Not because it’s more sexual or because Korras a headstrong women but I feel like they tried to be so different from ATLA, more mature and realistic that it lost a lot of the charm. It has other charms but I just don’t like them as much. So to prove I don’t hate the show without reason here are 3 things I liked in concept that they handled poorly in my opinion.

1. Korra herself

Having a headstrong, egotistical, women waterbender with lots of muscles and bravado was AN AMAZING choice to constrast from Aangs pacifist, peaceful and calmer mindset. I loved that part of Korra. But my problem is in her character development, or how I don’t think the writers remember what development means, development =\= pain porn. A lot of Korras ‘development’ was her getting beat to a pulp, having her bending removed, being wheelchair bound, etc. and by the end of the show she becomes more wary and scared of everything around her. Instead of what I personally wanted, which was for her to be underestimating the effort and work it takes to be a good avatar, get knocked down a few pegs by Tenzin or someone and come back stronger and more grounded. Still cocky but now she has the power AND understanding to back up her claims. I never wanted her to lose her ego entirely, or to fall so far she never comes back the same. Speaking of avatar stuff...

2. The removal of an avatars journey

This one is hard, because I understand why they did this but also removing it took a lot away from what made avatar so good. I think they removed the journey as to not just repeat the structure of the OG show, they didn’t want to seem like it was just Ctrl+ v with a new lead. But a big part of ATLA’s charm came from the world building , expescially since it drew so much from different parts of Asia and other groups, making a fantasy world with that backing and exploring it was SO cool. In Korra most of the show is set in Republic city, they leave a couple times to visit the various bending nations but they always go back to that damn city. I don’t hate the idea of modernizing bending, I wouldn’t place a show there but the thoughts are cool. Stuff like electric benders being 9-5 workers is funny and pro bending is an interesting thought but I think the overall setting is...tired. I have read/seen so many pieces of media set in either 1920s America or INSPIRED by 1920s America it isn’t even funny. It was an aesthetic time that’s for sure but I have seen it before and I’ll see it another million times. I don’t know why they would take a fairly unique setting and make a mainstream, Americanized version of it that is arguably more boring and less compelling. But this point is supposed to be about the avatar journey I hear you say and yourre right. The lack of a journey adds to the boredom, in ATLA they could continually have new locations and new people to keep the interest of that episode because they were almost always on the move. In Korra everything comes back to republic city, I got bored of looking at those city streets after the first season! Plus I think Korra as a character could have really benefited from a journey of her own, less focused on bending and more on connecting with the people she’s supposed to protect. In my dream version of this show, Korra gets knocked down but tenzin or smth and as a last ditch effort he sends her on a shorter version of the avatars journey to help her connect with the people and the spiritual realm. She could bring her merry band of idiots (except you bolin) and they could bond over their travels, learn about each other and actually have some meaningful conversations outside the parameters of the weird love thing they all have going on. We could see an updated but familiar world space, run into some familiar places and get into plenty of trouble and Korra could really bond with her people. Learn that understanding and listening are important skills for the avatar to have just as much as bending all four elements. It could all culminate in a trip to an air temple, she could speak her piece in a cool but honest rant about herself and her life and maybe as she leaves the wind could pick up and it would just...click. She would get her air bending in a hopefully more satisfying way than what was shown in the show,speaking of...

3.Changing up the bending/AS . Listen the way the treat bending in Korra is so fucking weird. 1st of all I cannot come up with any reason why a 5 year old Korra would be able to bend 3/4 elements. The thing about bending is that it is a lot harder than some of the characters make it seem (because they are all using their skills at an extremely high level) part of bending is innate skill, that’s true but you would be awful at it if you only relied on instinct. Take Katara from season 1 of ATLA, she can bend of course but it’s shaky and poorly balanced, she can’t do it for long and can barely move any water. This is because she has never been properly taught, once she gets some teaching she becomes one of the best waterbenders in existence, it took training to get her there. So I could buy (kind of) baby Korra bending them innatly when she is found by the white lotus, but a 5 year old who has only ever interacted with water benders should be bending all the elements as if they were water. Bending is all very different, each form is based on a different form of martial arts. The styles are different and require different points of concentration and movements to execute properly. Our little tyke is seemingly doing actually fire/earth moves...now where the hell did she learn those?? Anyway continuing into probably my biggest gripe with Korra is the treatment of Air bending. I like the fact that it is emphasized how much of air bending is about spirituality, more so than other bending forms. I like the struggle there for Korra. But I feel like she never actually listens to Tenzin, never admits he is right and takes on his teachings properly. She ignores his advice and fucks of during training (which is very Korra behavior) but there is never a point when she has to listen to him. She gets all her bending taken in another form of pain porn and when she gets it back, instead of having her realize how much her bending means to her and finally fucking listening to Tenzin and learning air bending the real way, she just goes into the avatar state (which is the least satisfying version of that display) and just...has airbending. And now for my last point, wtf was up with the avatar state?? In ATLA the AS was a dangerous state to be in for Aang and everyone around him, it caused him to lose control, kick ass yes, but lose his sense of self and him struggling with those complicated feelings about his biggest trump card was amazing. Korra however uses hers to beat children in racing games...I am not joking. They toned down its abilities so that Korra could use it more often but not beat the crap out of everyone... you could have just not had her use it for stupid reasons and kept it a power level at 3000?? Like why? Why does the fucking avatar need to have weakened avatar state so she can use it more often, should she be powerful enough on her own?? Maybe it could be harder for her to activate (because Korra does seem like the type to use it too often) maybe she has to talk to her past lives to figure out why she’s having such a hard time using it and it’s revealed that Aang in specific locked it away because she couldn’t be trusted. It could be a whole thing!! But no she just uses for stupid shit and never learns...

So that’s the end of my rant, 3 things I could get behind in theory that, in my opinion, they handled pretty horribly. If you like Korra, that’s great! Tbh I’m kinda jealous, I wish I could enjoy it more because I love ATLA it was a huge part of my childhood and I’d love to have more of that world. I have so many other feelings on Korra if anyone cares. Like the romance fucking with the show, the half assed rep, explaining the magic, side characters being wet paper towels with 1 character trait or Bolin being highkey romantically abused and no one caring but that’s for a different extremely long tumblr post.

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survivormontenegro · 5 years ago

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Episode 8: “#StayLowAndGoGoGo” - Tom

I MADE IT WOOOOOOOO MILESTONE NUMBER 2

WE MERGED. THANK THE LORD, THE STARS AND EVERYTHING ABOVEEEE.

okay and thoughts. so evan went byebye, which was what needed to happen, super sweet, but him leaking stuff was really a mess. Merge is so exciting, I already love Caeleb, Jones & Mo, three legends already yay!

IM ALSO BACK WITH BENJ MY KING! I HAVE MISSED HIM SO MUCH.

MERGE I AM SCREAMING!!!

I am sorry Evan, we did 100% throw this challenge but hey ajdjdjf even tho we threw this challenge it was a freaking 5-4 points LOL thank god I didn’t do more than just put Marcus Lehman.

Let’s go merge, thank god I didn’t turned into pre merge flop!!

MERGE!!!!!!

IM REUNITED WITH ALI!!!!!!!! KING!!!!!!!!! im so excited omg so we had a HUGE catch up told each other all the tea of each others tribes

He suspected I was the flipper but doesn't care LOL so yay!!! Ugh I have missed him its so great to have him back as someone I can fully trust and rant to about everything! I also had Jones queen to help get me thru the tribe, just wish she replied more lol! ily guacamole . mitch also great, so glad he survived the budva decimation that I caused oops

I don't think anyone suspects me n ali are close, and everyone thinks Julia/ian/Jason are a trio and either ian or Jason have the idol LMAO this is so funny. I was even on call w the tribe and we were discussing it im thinking lolllll ik ali has it and no one else rlly does wowow

we think alex has durmitor idol bc . apparently it was not found pre swap, caeleb claims he made the end but it was gone, jones and mo don't seem active enough to guess

reunited w ian king aswell hes great, gonna meet some new ones like jules aka almia queen and tom the Australian he was cool on the call so its good ik everyone so far on this tribe except 2 ppl really, while 8 people on the tribe have not meet 4 others so I hope im connected well?

I honestly don't know what will happen from here . like is it og vs og tribe? swapped tribes? something new? IDK! All ik is my top 3 allies are ali jones mitch and I want to try get us far !! but idk how to do that so...… stay tuned

Still can’t get over that I made merge AHHHH

But wait...

THIS IS A CONSPIRACY THEORY BUT THE FREAKING COLOR OF THE MEEGE TRIBE IS SIMILAR TO MEEGE IN SWITZERLAND???! AND THE TWO STARTING TRIBES WERE LITERALLY ALMOST THE SAME COLOR. THIS WILL NOT END LIKE SWITZERLAND, IF IT DOES I AM GONNA CRY.

Anyway I got in touch with Mitch and Benj. I talked with Mitch first then I learned it was Benj who flipped during the Noah vote. I mean I honestly thought it was Mitch ahsjdjd but I guess the talk I had with Benj about rocks/ties back then was an omen. Anyway Mitch tells me he forgives Benj so I guess that’s something? Julia confirms to me that Mitch is saying the same thing to her so ok. I then chatted with Benj and he did tell me he was the one who flipped because he was not close enough with Noah to go to rocks for him which is understandable but I’m still weary on Benj.

Tom then tells me Mo and Caeleb are grilling him for JJ and Evan’s demise. Right now Tom feels that Mo/Caeleb/Alex/Jones are a thing and that they’re just using Benj. That’s kinda a good info to use to get benj on our side??

Anyways I don’t know if this is alarming or what but on the tribe call Tom told Mitch and Benj he knew about the Budva idol being found because Julia told JJ and then told everybody. I think Mitch and Benj were shocked that Tom knows? Idk I maybe paranoid but let’s see

Right now me, Julia, Jason and Ali are trying to hide the fact from Benj and Mitch that we made sort of a pact with Tom and Jules to vote together come merge. I trust Tom to know that I think he will vote with us but idk about Jules. Tho Julia and Jason seem to trust her so I hope she sticks with us!!

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Last minute additions -

I got a vote cover from the choosing thing!! Drew didn’t really tell me what it did but if I had to guess what it was I’d say it’d be like,, a dark week thing where votes won’t be revealed? Who knows tbfh

SO I KNOW I'M TERRIBLE WITH WRITING CONFESSIONALS, but this is my first Survivor game, I'm not used to using Skype and it's weird having to type it to a whole other window just to get a confessional but WHATEVER ILL TRY TO DO AT LEAST ONE A DAY. Even if it's just like about random shit! Even it's just an astrology lesson! Anyways JJ, I mean, Alex is coming at me saying he thinks it's 6v6 now and i'm like......who's gonna tell him. BECAUSE EVEN IF IT'S ME NOT DOWN FOR OG DURMITOR ( i love them but game wise idk if i can hang with them ) I DAMN WELL KNOW other people might not be down for that. I'm just tired of the assumptions though I know Alex means well I'm just TIRED ugh he's a pisces moon too so he'll sense it from me so I better act NOT ANNOYED but I can't help it UGH. Did I miss the people from OG Durmitor? YES! Did I miss the gameplay and none of them calling out JJ on his shit and being surprised that JJ got out for being a crackhead? NO. NOT AT ALL.

okay so merge and I have lots of thoughts, i am gonna do it person by person so i cover it all ahh.

Alex C: Okay he lowkey terrifies me ahh. Like he is quite gamey, and both Mitch & Jules have said he is kinda leadery and potentially a bit pushy? I see him as an early merge boot (ideally), because I think he'll get a lot of attention on himself? He is fun though, and I like talking to him - we will see, maybe if idk Jones/Mo/Caeleb goes he will be a more workable ally from an underdog spot?

Ali: trash, disgusting, send him home, I never want to see that mess...

Benj: a KING, I have missed Benj so MUCH. He is such a, SUCH A KING, i love him, I'm so happy we are back together. I think he could be a great duo for me, since us two being close can be kept quite lowkey ha! We will figure it out, but he is going NOWHERE on my watch

Caeleb: Okay he is like... one of the only other newbies left in the game, and is potentially quite lowkey, so I'd like him to stick around for a while I think ahh! He seems super sweet, and could be someone to go to the end with if my faves go bye bye.

Ian: I've said it since round two, and I will continue to say it. Ian is the biggest threat in the game, I've been knew and I'm not dropping it. I will not allow him to go far, like he is super nice, but also... we are not allowing a threat like Ian to walk to the end.

Jason: Similar to Ian, I'm really feeling duo vibes with him and Ian, maybe even a trio with Julia I'm not sure? He scares me less than Ian, and I'd probs want Ian out first versus Ian? He still is also a king tho, even though I always get vibes that he doesn't like me eeeek

Jones: A legend! I can tell already, I fully get legendary vibes from her. But like... it makes me upsetti spaghetti that I really don't think I can let her get too far, like she... is someone I could see as a season winner, so she might need to go sooner rather than later, although getting her out might be easier said than done tbh

Jules: Okay an icon. Jules we LOVE in this house. I literally stan Jules with my 100% full heart, they know ALL and on my watch? they go NOWHERE. my clout is being used to keep an eye on Jules, even tho they are a much better player than me, and they will be able to watch their own back and go super far

Julia: Witch queen. I want her to go really far too tbh, like I love her and am so happy we have actually been able to work together this season. She told me about her self-vote thing she got from the merge feast, which is a big trust display. I think if I can get her woke about Ian/Jason, she could be a big ally and super important about my game long term. I think if we can get Alex C out particularly (since apparently they have history), then maybe she will be more willing to FINALLY make a move on them.

Mitch: I'm always sketched out by him KASDFA. Like I think he would work with me for sure, but I also like... don't know sometimes, like... he knows I was gonna vote him out premerge, can that go away? I think he could be a good ally moving forwards though , we will have to see.

Mo: MY SON. I MISS HIM. I'M SO HAPPY HE DOESN'T HATE, I THOUGHT HE DID. Its super exciting and like I said before, he is doing super good this season and I'm super proud of him. I wanna go far with him, but I think not being on a tribe with him till merge could be an obstacle to that ahh :(

Tom: Tom is a mega-cracked king. Like he is SO entertaining, and on a personal level I really vibe with him. I will not do him dirty, and I wanna go to the end of this game with him. We will see what happens, would love to be a juror voting for him at the end.

So overall final thoughts. I have a dream F4 alliance of 'The Flippers and the Flop' aka me, Tom, Jules & Benj, since those three flipped on their original tribe and I'm a flop. So I want that as F4, Julia at F5 (but maybe further, I love her too), and then for the rest:

6th: Mo 7th: Caeleb 8th: Mitch 9th: Jones 10th: Jason 11th: Ian 12th: Alex C.

We will see and figure it out and be flexible. Its gonna be a mess, but we will see. I just wanna make confirmed jury, then I just wanna play a bomb game, like finalist-schminalist, i just wanna end the season and my game not being an actual joke KASDFLAS.

hi i just wanted an idol

Okay so i dont know like when the last time i did one of these was but lets just start at last tribal council; I am lowkey so glad that evan is gone and we didnt try anything too fancy he really would've made merge that bit messier. But uhm also why the heck did he have to vote me grrr i wanted to try to not get any votes for a really long time but oh well cant have everything good happen in life.

M E R G E!!!!!!!! Yesssss finally merge has happened the playing field is even and i am ready to rumble. Bit nervous to see where abouts i stand in the tribe because i didnt feel very included in the original durmitor tribe and there are two people i havent met in benj and mitch.

Okay so like wtf is going on right now, sure say hello and all that shit but why is Mo, Alex and Caeleb like proper interviewing me, who do you think you are ELLEN? No youre not please stop investigating on what happened between jj and evan vote offs like i do not owe y'all anything..... i was probably going next if we didnt have that first swap! I am more than happy to tell them like what happened just it will be altered in favour of myself and they wont get the full indepth explanation.

Sorry I don’t have a vid confessional today laid ease

But um ya I think I’m getting TARGETTEEEEEEEEED or at least someone within the durmitor dominators group is. WHich is SKETCHY!! Idk it just feels really obvious since that core group of 4 literally,,, tag teamed all 4 of us first ,,, hello??? Mam?? I get we just met like 2 days ago but you could be a lil more discreet ab everything 😤

But ik we can’t just assume based on that,, If we’re just going by that logic then their hitlist is Alex, Caeleb, myself, then Mo. but idt it could be that,,, concrete?? They could just be playing us like Noah/Michael/Mitch TRIED to do before,, but we got them so ya 🥰 anyways,,

If we can somehow get a plan out of them or at least a name then we’ll be ok,,, that way we’ll at least know what’s going on for SOME PART. Mitch and julia seem kiiiind if close? So hopefully she’ll tell him some shit and come back to me ab it - if I have to play the idol then,,,, I guess,,, I will,,, but I don’t want to. Like let me save it for when IM in trouble at least sksksk who knows,, maybe I AM in trouble and I’m just a crackhead 🤷🏻‍♀️

But ya that’s my rant I’ll be back soon laid ease mwah

Okau so like woo! i won the first immunity of the season how bloody exciting! I honestly was confident going into the challenge however i didnt know whether or not i was going to win. I love the fact that i got shot 0 times so i literally could've gone asleep and potentially still won lol. But at this point my mission of staying low and go go go'ing has to be intact i cannot seem like a big threat in this game it doesnt get me far. So im telling everyone that im surprised and that it was really just based on luck and based on nothing so my target does not grow! So glad to have immunity in this game honestly first merge boot probably wasnt going to be BUT i know this round can get fucking messy so anything could've changed #StayLowAndGoGoGo

okay this is a grr grr angry confessional. WHY IS EVERYONE BEING DUMB AND JUST BEING ATTACHED TO TRIBE LINES. Like I messaged Jones, Mo and Alex about it yesterday, and Jones my meme queen gave like a good response, but Mo particularly I was like... wut?

Like Mo is my org son from all the way back in Azores, so I always have his back... but like... when someone messages you about being uncomfortable with tribe lines and not wanting to stick to them, giving the HEAVIEST HINT POSSIBLE that I'm not attached to like Ian and Jason, your response should not be 'I'm just accepting my fate'... Like that is such a red flag to me, no player should just... be resigned to stuff? Like Mo PLEATHE.

In other other news, we love Jules still. Tom is being weird recently, I think he doesn't trust me anymore, so I think my dream at the moment is a F3 of Jules and Benj, Tom 4th and Julia 5th? Mitch terrifies me (and he knows I shot him, which caused even more distrust), Alex is super nice but is like... evidently not trusting of me, Mo is my son but I wanna SHAKE HIM, Jones is my fave I love her already, really like Caeleb too he is so nice.

I'm just frustrated, I feel like.. people aren't willing to do enough and its making me frustrated I just wanna scream. Like at this point, I expect to go midjury, like 9th, and I'm thinking who I'd vote. I would vote Jules, because they are always on the ball and their read is unmatched, I'd vote Ian because he has playing smart since round one, I'd vote Benj because he is one of the few that has his head screwed up about not blindly sticking to tribe lines.

Of the rest? I'd like to vote for Tom/Jones, but would probs need to see more gamey game from both. I could respect Mitch's story to get to the end, but don't necessarily see myself voting him. I could vote Julia or Jason. The one who is currently least likely to get my vote is probably Mo, I am just... frustrated with him. Like he could do SO GOOD, I just wanna give his head a proper wobble, like.... LISTEN TO ME. I am telling you I would flip just READ KSALDFA.

I ranked who I'd vote for in FTC if I was a juror so far and its currently:

Jules > Ian > Benj > Mitch > Julia > Tom > Jason > Jones > Alex C. > Caeleb > Mo

And the order in which I trust people is:

Jules/Benj > Julia > Tom > Ian > Jason > Caeleb > Jones > Mo > Alex C. > Mitch

I have thoughts. I know its been a hot sec since I have sent one in but I have been just busyyy. So this one might be long and it'll have all my thoughts post-merge.

My first thought: Being reconnected with old tribemate (Jules and Tom). I love Jules. She's so kind and wonderful, might be hard to reach occasionally but when she messages its always full and heartfelt. I think that can go a long way in this game as she's fun to talk to and makes you feel like she's with you. So that also mean shes very dangerous of course. Tom is less so fun. He's kinda sarcastic kinda hard to read kinda edgy. He always acts like he's a little too busy for things. But he is fun and he has fed me a lot of information about Budva post swap, so thank him for that. BUT I'm like lowkey really annoyed with him. Losing that last challenge on purpose was dumb as hell. I know Evan is deceitful and hard to work with, but like hell keep that in your head and get him off as an easy vote right after merge. Because If they hadn't lost and instead we had gone to tribal (Durmitor), then we hopefully would've lost Mitch, secured the dynamic as 7 OG Durmitor vs. the 5 OG Budva, and it would have been much harder for Tom and Jules to chose the Budva members over the numbers. Obviously this works best for me and OG Durmitor but that just means that I don't know what Tom and Jules are thinking and overall that means I can't really trust them.

Second thought: That challenge was actually really fun. It put this merge into perspective and CLEARLY showed where people are at right now. The fact that OG Budva was so organized in their slaughter and got out Alex like hella fast and then me before we got out any of them was so showing. They are tight and they will remain to be tight. The fact that they were able to be so coordinated seems scary as well. AS it might mean that Tom or Jules or even Mitch or Benj is actually working with them to make sure we didn't win that immunity. Plus Tom won it and that is scary to me because I already was wary about trusting him in the first place. Putting thought one and two together makes me wary overall, because that means that together Tom and Jules and Mitch and Benj might be choosing to work with old Budva (I mean Tom and Jules don't have any inhibitions about voting out old tribemembers so) and old Durmitor might just be screwed.

Third thought: Annoyed that I was shot and destroyed second. I thought I was making a good impression with everyone. Maybe its not a good indication but also sad face.

Fourth thought: New tribe members! I love them all to an extent. Ali seems to be fun to talk to and likes chatting back and forth. But also he did say he was surprised I was out so early and since I know that Alex didn't shoot Julia then he was definitely shooting me. So I don't think I trust that all too much and he might be too sneaky. Jason seems nice. Not much to say our conversation has been pleasant but only so. The same with Ian tbh. They seem cool but thats it. Julia is fun and her background makes her seem like a total bad ass and a really cool lady, but she's been soooo hella dismissive of me. I don't like the way she's playing the game. I think she's putting on an act and playing a character to throw people off. I heard she was like sad or crying(?) that someone shot her and Tom confronted me about it. And sure I shot her but like hell thats the game. I'm 90 percent sure she was shooting me. I'm annoyed, and people seem to love her which just makes me think she's being dismissive to me because she thinks I won't be around too much longer and she doesn't have to put in the effort. And that's dumb, like if I do go I really hope this is the start of the Jury because I will have something spicy to say to her in the event she makes it to Final Tribal. Or maybe things will change and I will learn to really like her and stuff.

Fifth Thought: Game plan for tomorrow. My strategy going forward is simply to be not targeted tomorrow. That is truly the crux of it, because at this point I think I might get votes. I know that apparently I have a habit of getting votes in a new tribe (David and then Noah) so honestly I can see it happening, especially if they are worried about Alex having an idol and they got him out of the challenge first just to vote me. But if I can survive then I think I can go a little farther. The power struggle right now is 3 groups of 4 battling. There's the total Budva members, the total Durmitor members, and then the middle ground (Jules, Tom, Benj, and Mitch). I asked Tom who was more important the original tribes or the new ones and he said he wants it to be old but most likely will be new which basically means that he will vote with Budva. So in the event I survive with numbers I'll ride that until I need Alex (and his idol that I'm prettttty sure that he has but I can't be sure) out and will try to rally that we need him to be gone. If I survive but I'm not on the side of the numbers I wanna create a good bond with Ali and Jules as were all newbies and work that until we can start eating Budva from the inside. I'll see though DKSDSKDSK. I don't think it would be wise to concrete that before this first vote because their reasons for voting off JJ and Evan was apparently that they were making alliances with everyone. I don't want them to see me that way.

Sixth Thought: Okay another Idol Bridge BIG OOF. Those are hard as hell, and I am so confident that both tribe idols are gone which means there might be 3 idols out there pretty soon which is scary as hell. Durmitor Dominators are hoping to work together to get it and maybe we can actually use that together rather than having it hidden like this time. (Which I really think that Alex has it but whatev). If I'm idoled out imma be so sad but like also okay thats an okay way to go.

Have fun with this. Feel free to chop it up into mini confessionals or use it in its entirety. Up to you! Love ya hosts ur beautiful

okay a gamey and a dumb update.

julia proper wants to flip on ian and jason which iconic... its truly time. I wasn't necessarily going to vote them out first, but if that's what is gonna happen, that is what's gonna happen.

in a memey update, JJ just got cast in another game and it reminded me of a JJ-ism I never confessed about. JJ was on call and showing me... a pet in a glass box, but i didn't know what the pet was or what it was supposed to be, because I couldn't see it. but he was like wow isn't it cute, so i fully called a stick which was the only thing i could see, cute. a STICK.

anyway so like.... back to game. i think the merge boot will be ian or jason which dun dun dun! its probs overdue and will happen, or it'll be me! we will see anyway

why am i drinking white wine with julia on call at 3am, we are truly the wine mum duo drinking our way till the end

I think I'm in the middle of everything atm, which is a weird place for me to be. I'm not in the center, I'm not looking from the outside in, I'm not really a part of anything major or in any alliances and it's an odd feeling. I know I need to do something to secure myself in something but everything in this game just feels up in the air, it's odd. I don't know if it's just how Survivor is, but it's a very strange feeling not having a proper grasp on what's going on with EVERYONE. I have ideas but not a lot of real confirmation for much besides Jason/Ian, Mo/Jones, etc. Anyways. IDK WHAT ELSE TO SAY OKAY I'm boring AF this game

Ok so for starters the immunity challenge ended after 2 hours of its posting adhgfjgs Tom won so big woo for him.

The Budva baes agreed to target Alex/Mo/Caeleb/Jones in this challenge and we got Mitch, Tom and Jules to work with us. Well kinda because the four (Me, Ali, Julia and Jason) of us were the ones who did most of the shooting to eliminate the Durmitor four and we just like went back and forth eliminating one another. I was the first to die in my group so big yikes!! I don't know if that's an omen idk but I do know that I was killed by grandma jones. So I killed grandma too oops!

Anyway, fast forward to today. I got an idol clue from the Hamburger but idk if this will help me get the idol hfjhsgf. So I shared it to Budva Baes and with Tom. Who knows we might get it idk.

In other news, on call Jules flipped because of an earthquake jgfjshgf

A tribe call happened that had almost everyone except Jones and Benj join which lasted about like 3-4 hours?? Anyway, me, julia, jules, jason, ali, mitch and alex played cards against humanity so that was fun!

After Alex and Jules left the call, the five of us who remained then proceeded to plan for the vote. As of now I think we're gonna throw our votes towards Caeleb because apparently he doesn't talk to them that much? I do talk with Caeleb but nothing game related so I guess I'm on board with that. We're not gonna target Alex rn because Julia mentioned that Alex might wanna work with budva people? or that maybe just a ploy, either way Julia and Mitch thinks Alex has the durmitor idol so that's something to be weary.

If I had my way I want to target Jones because during the call, Mitch and Julia expressed how they want her to stay and how they insta love her and to me that's kinda dangerous. But rn I don't think the numbers are their for me to go after Jones. Another hot topic on the call we had was Benj. I'm really becoming more weary of Benj because umm idk even tho we talk I feel like he's hiding something.

So far, the plan is for Julia to approach Jules about voting Caeleb. Jules is important for this vote because she's like in the middle rn and we need numbers. Also ghasgdd julia got a freaking auto-vote on herself for this incoming tribal council so we are screwed if they vote for Julia. Tom is also important but me and Jason have an alliance with him that Ali and Julia are not aware of so he's good hopefully.

Anyways as of now, the plan is Caeleb (which kinda sucks because I kinda like him) but who knows whats gonna happen. Just hope things go in my favor for this vote.

Apparently I’m a secondary target for the vote, but I’m like oddly at peace? Maybe it’s because I’m super tired but being anxious is never fun so I’m relieved that I’m so calm.

This tribal is so freakin messy. Literally everybody be crackheads and I am a freakin crackhead. I knew Mitch was gonna do me in again, I am sad that JJ blew up chances with Tom working with us, and I can't trust Jules because she's right in the middle. I think Benj is still with us. But gosh they'll vote me tonight and I wannnnna survive. If only I could like strongarm whoever has this freakin idol into playing it for me.

Anyways, I love Grandma's boys. They're all sweet and nice and wonderful and I want us to get this to work out. I hope Alex can work his magic, but also I hate that this has turned me into someone who is just riding the coattails at this point. Maybe I need to do some FREAKIN crackheadidness but hell we'll freakin see.

ALSO

Jones has the IDOL OOOOOOOOOO. I think she might play it for me if things are looking bad. Literally my grandma is the most amazing I love her. Things be crazy and cracked here in Podgorica but the spice is nice.

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okay this confessional is a call out post, to basically the entire cast except for jules and benj. like its negative and mean, so I'm gonna scream, and then write some actually strategy and smart stuff KLDSAFAS.

Julia. I LOVE YOU WITH MY WHOLE HEART, but. You have got us into such a pickle and are playing the middle too aggressively, dragging me kicking and screaming with you. Why would you make a Budva chat yesterday, to flip on it TODAY, that is such, SUCH a quick turn around

Alex. You are so sweet, and I really enjoyed the call yesterday, but you are already terrifying as an ally and are giving off JJ game vibes. This 'alliance' I'm in, of Jules/Julia/Me/Alex/Mo/Jones... terrifies me, WHY IS NOBODY TALKING. And then I love how Alex was like 'lets vote out someone from each side across two rounds' and then like... suggests Jason, a) one name b) one vote. And then it's like... he goes okay maybe Mitch the following round? Another OG Budva? I have to laugh, I have to LAUGH, this alliance is so fake askdlfaf. I love everyone in this alliance as people, but as allies I'm not feeling it.

Jones. You are a legend, and naming my plants was so fun, but you go so crickets its really scary, like it just looks SO sus. I wish you were more open gamey, I really wanna work with you grrrr.

Mo. Mo is my son, and I love him, but oh. my. god. is he frustrating to play with JLSAKDFAF. I have never played with someone who is so passive and who literally... does not say anything. Like on calls, he is so fun because he is the sweetest and a great guy, but his only comments and contributions have been 'I think I am going' and 'I have accepted my fate'. mo, MO, you can't be doing this and pulling these shenanigans, you are so likable just... give it a go and play the game HNNNGH.

okay that was mean and negative but I fully needed to scream. To clarify my situation, last night Julia made a chat of all the Budvas - Benj after the call, and we settled on voting Caeleb? But Julia wants to flip, and formed this group with Alex of them two, me, Jones, Jules & Mo. Like Julia, I get playing the middle, but this is playing. the. middle. I didn't want to be in such a middle position I hate this so much SKADLFASF.

It's really frustrating. I want Ian/Jason/Alex out because they all terrify me on a game level. But Julia has put us in the middle in a way that we are gonna have NO NUMBERS TO MAKE A MOVE UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Like I just wish she ASKED me before she made a group with Alex that I got dragged into.

I feel like me and Jules have to just... get in with Mitch. Its the only way. And Caeleb too I guess? Like I think the alliance I'm going to need is like... Me/Tom/Jules/Caeleb/Benj/Mitch... like that's a 6, and with Julia might be the numbers we need going forward.

I'm like... not gonna win this season I know it already. Jason is gonna be furious with me, as is Ian. And then I'm gonna have to flip BACK in two rounds. This is literally the exact game I've played before that hasn't worked.

Having said that, the main thing I did wrong before was that I didn't own my moves. So I need to own it, when I vote out Jason I need to talk to Ian and pull me in, so we can just... remove Alex. I just want everyone gone already askdlfa, its so so so tiring.

Here is what I want to happen now:

Ian > Alex > Jason > Mo > Jones > Mitch > Caeleb > Julia > Tom > F3: Me/Jules/Benj

but like... its just... im in such a bad mood about all this, its really... just enough.

Also for the funsies, if I was a juror, at FTC from most to least, this is who I'd vote for so far:

Jules > Benj > Mitch > Ian > Julia > Jason > Tom > Caeleb > Alex > Jones > Mo

So this tribal is shaping up in our favor... hopefully. I think Jason's for sure going now at least. It should be a 9-3 vote if everyone's telling the truth... which would make it so easy to split the votes because I'm pretty sure Jason or Ian have the idol. The most we can hope for is make them think Caeleb is going home for sure.

Pray for me. I don't wanna be a merge boot. I feel like I have a lot more game to play.

im about to save jason and fix all my problems.

i'm gonna push the vote onto ian, saying jason is very nervous and seems like he will play an idol, pushing the vote onto ian. Then I will tell Jason before/after (to be decided) the vote that I saved him, thereby securing his trust so that we can make a move on Alex next round.

I have NEVER played so aggressively, and tried to take control so much in the vote, but Julia put me in a crap situation. But I'm not gonna like... sit here and have it happen, I am here to play a good game, I said so in my application.

I think this is the way of ensuring minimal blood on my hands, and I've wanted Ian out since round two KLASDFA.

I wake up and I then learn that HOW IN THE WORLD ALEX KNOWS THAT CAELEB IS A TARGET THIS ROUND???

Mitch told him? Like what the hell is happening???! I talked with Alex and he says he’s ok with Caeleb which is really weird??

Tom then goes online and tells me Alex has been going around telling people different names and he told Caeleb my name >.>

AND NOW JULES AND BENJ ARE MIA AND ITS REALLY SKETCHY

I am gonna get voted!! I can feel it ahsjdiff so much for my never voted out status :(((

50 minutes till tribal and the plan is to vote out Jason but make Jason think it’s Ian or Caeleb? Unless I’m getting blindsided which in that case, well done. I’m really tired and I just want some Mac and cheese and a nap.

why is the one time alex and jones pip up to squash my beautiful plan. like go back to being crickets at all signs of game talk thank you very much.

alternatively... tom and jules could come in clutch, flipping caeleb to vote out alex that works too.

i'm annoyed with jones/mo/alex they can go. like i've wanted jason and ian out as a duo for ninety-five years, but maybe i wanna keep them around.

Jones is fuckinf PISSED

THESE BUDVA ARE CRACKED AND WANNA CHANGE THE VOOOOTE SKSKKSJSJSKSJ WE HAVE LITERALLY 40 MINUTES

If Jason idols himself, I’m idoling Caeleb and I’m gonna gonna kill someone

If Jason idols Ian and we get Jason out I’m laughing my ass off

If Jason idols himself and I idol Caeleb and I’m SOMEHOW IDOLED OUT then fuck that shit I’ll literally kill someone

I just wanna tell these Budva in space jam then it’ll be ok

I DO NOT WANT TO BE VOTING JASON AT ALL THE FUCK I WANT TO GET ALEX THE FUCK OUT OF HERE BUT NO CAELEB APPARENTLY WANTS TO VOTE JASON I HATE THIS THEY REALLY ARE TRYING TO GET MY HOMIE JASON OUT!!! WAS I CONSPIRING AGAINST HIM AND IAN ALL WEEK? MAYBE SO! BUT I DON'T WANT HIM OUT YET!!! I DON'T!! WE ARE TRYING TO BLINDSIDE ALEX BUT THIS AIN'T WORKING UGHGHGHGHG *STOMPS ON THE GROUND* UGHGHGHGH I HATE THIS GOODBYE

me flipping my vote to make it a 5-4-3-1 sending Ian out... I'm either the second coming of Natalie Anderson or 11th place.

The moment Mitch, Julia and Ali stopped responding to me and Jason I felt it. That we were being bamboozled and it looks like we did.

Tom and Jason were true to me and the end and I love them for that. Screw snake Julia because she really fucking played me like a fiddle lol and fuck Ali, mitch and benj hahahahahahahahaahahahahahHaha Because it really hurts! Alex is a scheming lying bitch and at least Mo half lied to me oof

At least my vacation is saved. I love the hosts, Drew, Seamus, Johnny and Asya for having me. I stan Nicole G forever. Bora Bora will always be my home. Goodbye tumblr survivor!

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Ep. 6: Send Help to 123 Internet Street Pleathe ~ Jay

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Excuse my French but fuck Ashley

Alex was blindsided and is now the first member of the jury. I was not expecting that. But now we're merged and officially on jury! Ive got Ashley on my side, Kevin on my side, hopefully LA on my side, and hopefully Drew as well. I'll have some explaining to do to Drew about why Alex was voted out (should be easy enough). I still have my idol, thank god. Now to just power my way through the merge. I can do this. I'll stab everyone in the back if I have to.

The peak of this game will probably be me naming the merge tribe. It's all downhill from here for me. I'm super glad LA survived because I didn't want a Taranaki to go home and out of the two over there I definitely didn't want her to go home. I think/hope this sets up things good for me. We have 4 OG Taranaki's, and even if Keegan strays away we have a core 3 in an alliance together. Then we have JD with us, and then Drew wants to work with us, and then we also can probably work with our swap tribe together since Jack will probably just follow whoever gets to him. That makes our options between...2 people. Ashley and Steven. I don't have much to go on, but seeing how Ashley flipped it that makes her seem untrustworthy. Steven is fresh off of a blindside so he's probably looking for allies, and I can be that for him. Of course, and I know I say this like every round, there's the possibility of voting for Drew... But I don't think I'll be in danger this round. I don't think I'm a threat to anyone but I'm still in a good position to carry myself farther into the game. But there's no doubt that someone's gonna shake the game up sooner than later.

OMG! Thank GOD!! First off I am so happy that LA is still in it and I am sooooooooo happy that Alex is gone. I was actually trying to think of who I would get together to vote him out, I think we could have done it but it's nice not to have to worry about it. If I were Drew though, I would be feeling a little worried. Who are left: Ashley LA Drew Kevin Jack Steven Jay B Keegan Me Out of that group I am working with.... LA, Kevin, Jay, Ashley, Drew, Jack and Steven... Yikes. I mean my final four right no is still Me, LA, Kevin and Jay and Ashley for the final 5 I guess. I'd like to see Drew or Keegan going home next, preferred Drew too I think so long as Ashley is okay with it. I'm not sure if she wants to leave that whole group but since she voted Alex I think so. And me and LA tell her that we have a f3 with her then I can see her sticking with the chicks. Anyway, bless Alex but glad you're gone <3 I'm sure it wont be that last game I see him in though~~

im scared and confused and being held hostage by amanda pls help i just wanted to win

I can't believe that worked. I was content just going for Steven and saving myself but Alex just blew me off after going to him and said he think he had his group. Like this is survivor, don't tell people you're good, you lie and hear people out. Thankfully, his cockiness saved me and Ashley was willing to make a big move. Now I'm in an alliance with her and JD along with Charlotte's Angels still. I shouldn't have to worry too much, but that was only the first blindside.

Omg! I forgot about Steve! Steve is left too!! >.< I think I'm almost disappointed that it's not a lip syncing challenge. Just because I've been playing this song for like.... Hours now but this is better I think, less embarrassment anyway XD ________________________________________________________________ I don't think I really have anything to say sayyyyy.... The guy I like got a hair cut?? Ummmmm bought new shoes...... Ummmmm don't think I did too well at the challenge but I'm trying to get my alliance and Ashley to spill where we have been looking to narrow it down, assuming someone didn't already find it Annnnd assuming Amanda actually put another one in. I guess we'll see.

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Amanda: confess... Confess.... Confess... Confess... Me:

Listen up, kids. Children. Infants. This is Athena Second Chances. This is your time to come back to prove yourself, and show that you've learned how to play, and you're not going to make the same mistakes you once did. You're better than all that now, right? Well for all your learning and going back out into the world to grow, you missed out on a rather important lesson. There are two things you NEVER give me: an enemy and a cause. So thank you, Ashley and Keegan, but especially Ashley. I may not win this season. But now, neither of you will either. You write Alex's name down, you die. It's literally that simple. Amanda would have put it on the rules page for me but we really thought y'all would be smart enough to pick up on it, but oh well. LA, babe, I see you too, but like do I really? Have you done anything besides search for Maui? Eh whatever, you can go too. Steven, you're aces, you're good people, I'm having you at my wedding and my FTC. I was barely here for this season, but you know what? I think I'm gonna start playing now.

Amanda Me after reading Drew's latest confessional

So I just got back from a weekend away with my boyf and I'm just catching up on the game tea, but the biggest thing is that Drew messaged me to say he wants to gut Keegan and Ashley, which is pretty much my dream in this game. He also said he wanted to go for LA which I don't want to do, but he's given me a couple rounds to worry about flipping on my alliance. I don't want JD and LA to stay in the game together too long, so stay tuned.

Whew. Time for thoughts on what's happened. So I searched today and got my final stamp. Of course, someone else already has the idol. Out of the people in my alliance, I could definitely see LA getting the Rainbow Idol, because in Taveuni she went pretty quickly through the stamps. Outside of my alliance... Well, definitely not Jack. He wandered through the reef like a bull in a china shop. I could see Drew doing well. Steven, nah. It's a low possibility. And then for Ashley and Keegan, I don't know much about them so I have no idea. Sooo, yeah, that's out of the window. My best bet is to just ask for the Rainbow Idol after every tribal and hope that the person who had it was blindsided? Not the best strategy but it'll have to do. So I went to my alliance and told them someone has the Rainbow Idol. Unless one of them's a snake this is new information to them. now my alliance is going to collab on the Rainbow Reef, fun times. And after we decided to do this I realized I forgot I could keep searching after I found a stamp, so then I do that. And then I find an idol. Unfortunately the puzzle was ugly because half of it was sorting different shades of grey like what the fuck. Now if I were a true teammate I would tell my alliance it's there and then we could still have it in our power. But I don't know about thaaaaat. Because there's still one more day to get the idol, so I'm gonna take another chance. If I fail...I might not tell them still, it'll depend on my mood. ALSO, the latest news in the anti-Drew-even-though-we're-allies show: he comes to me and he's like "I hate Keegan" and I'm like "why" and he's like "he killed Alex" and I'm like "who the hell is Alex" And basically he wants vengeance for this "Alex" person and I'm like that sounds nice but I like Keegan. If they butt heads this tribal...uh, yikes. I don't know who I would choose. So...yeah! ________________________________________________________________ Of all people to win immunity... Sigh. I don't think I want Keegan to go. But who do I want to go? Well, Drew's out. And Keegan's out, which leaves 6 people. And then there's my alliance, which gets rid of half of them. And why would I want to get rid of Jack? So...Steven versus Ashley. The obvious choice is Ashley, but that's for me... Hm. ________________________________________________________________ I FOUND AN IDOL BITCHES!!! KELLEY WENTWORTH SHOOK. RUSSELL HANTZ SHOOK. BITCH IM SHOOK TOO WTF. Whew. So. This will probably be useful. I don't think I'll need it right now, and I'd like to hang onto it for as long as I can anyway so. Also...Drew officially has the Rainbow Idol. Of course. Sigh. But...he apparently trusts me, bc he suggested an alliance of me Jay and Steven. I think we can use this alliance to make him feel even more comfortable. Now that I know he has the Rainbow Idol I want him gone ASAP, and maybe (if we do everything right) we can do that next round. This is plan is tentative, and it relies on three people not winning immunity. Basically since he wants LA and JD out we can ~split the votes between them~ and then Jay and I can flip and get rid of Drew. Buuut again, it's tentative, and it's best not to plan too far ahead right now. But if I do send Drew home I can get my hands on the Rainbow Idol (maybe (if i'm quick enough idk)) and then I'll have two idols??? God I'm most certainly gonna fuck up but that's okay it's the effort that counts

I'll open by saying that I love LA and JD a lot. I really enjoy them both and think they're wonderful people, but as players? I HATE WORKING WITH THEM. SO MUCH. They're both relatively inexperienced players, especially when compared to me and Kevin, but they both have this 'I know exactly what I'm doing' attitude that makes me want to fucking SCREECH. I know Keegan and Ashley. I've known them longer than JD and LA have been playing ORGs. They're dangerous players. They're not going to work with me. Keeping them in so that JD and LA are comfortable means that I'm going to repeat my placement from FVF5, tbh. I don't like being strong armed by players who know a lot less about strategy than me. And I've watched JD play first hand as a host. I know how overthinking and crackedt she gets. I can't work with that. Drew suggested that we could go for LA. And I'm. Considering. That. ________________________________________________________________ Okay another update! Drew has the rainbow idol, he says it functions as a topaz idol and he had to choose between a bunch of idols with different powers. I might believe it I'm not sure. Basically I need to choose if Drew is going to beat my meat shied or if JDLA (wish they had a better pair name since they're literally one person) is going to be my meat shield. I think Drew is a better meat shield because he's more powerful. I don't want to be on his bad side. I don't want to be on anyone's bad side. On top of everything, Kevin has an idol. So the two of us are trying to figure out what kind of thing we want to do. No matter where we vote, we're choosing a side and making enemies.

Oh my God i HATE this round. I would try to recount the countless scenarios I've gone over, but quite honestly I can't remember. As of now, here's the current tea and plan: I told Jay about my idol. Jay and I are kinda in the middle, and it seems like we're like the only people not on anyone's radars. Legends only, or something. I had this crazy plan that involves giving my idol to Steven and fake flipping on Steven just so we could comfortably take out Drew next round? Yeah I don't even know. It seems like there's no way to vote someone out without leaving one side mad. So, it seems like the best course of action is taking out LA. This does a few things: it weakens JD, who's now duoless but also has less connections, and it also (probably) weakens Keegan and Ashley who I think are aligned with LA (probably)? I don't really know. Keegan and Ashley might be harder to work with since they're not close with Jay or anything. But... I don't know. Fuck! There's still...7 hours left to think. God I hope this works.

Okay so I guess Drew is a little snake and targeting me because I voted out Alex. Jokes on you Drew, I'm not going home. Pick your battles better next time. Like I have a hidden immunity idol, and then I've presumably got JD, LA, Jay, Ashley and maybe even Kevin on my side, that's 6-3. You ain't winning this battle Drew. We could have had something but you threw it away to be petty and vengeful

Apparently JD and LA are a pair, and so are Ashley and Keegan, and those 2 duos are either voting me or Steven, so Me/Steven/Drew/Kevin/Jay are voting LA and I hope it works bcuz I DONT wanna get 9th again.

Apparently Drew wants to get back at me, Ashley and Keegan for voting out Alex. And he has the idol. At least this is what I'm hearing. I don't know if I trust Jay or Kevin, they really wanted Keegan gone which seems stupid to me but I guess there is bad blood there. But at the same time when we started Kevin, Keegan and I were in an alliance so why the sudden flip on him? I'm worried Drew is going to flip Jay or Kevin and either blindside me or JD or just vote out Keegan anyways.

O.M.G why was it so hard to see! I would put 5 bucks on it, Kevin is working with drew. I would also bet that the yellow stone idol thing drew told jay was also bull, I think he's just using it as a way to scare people into not voting him. I will not be bullied! Not that drew isn't a nice guy, it's just the way he plays like an ass... Or at least when your not on his side cus I never noticed this before.

Anyway, me, la, Keegan, Ashley, Kevin and jay are supposed to be voting for Steven and from what I know, drew, jack and Steven are meant to be voting for Keegan. So if it all works out then we will have the numbers and it should all work. Next round we work it out so that drew goes home next round. I think we can do it and I haven't told anyone that I have the idol yet ether so if we can use it to take them him out and that's all I need it for. Me and Lori can decide who we want to go with after that but if we do go with Keegan and Ashley, assuming everything works out the way I want it to, if we do work with it them then we need to make a long term plan because we are all so busy. I can't say I'm comfortable enough in this game not to play the idol but I don't want to waist it and then be able to use it later. I don't know, we'll see.

Being the swing vote sucks dick. Legitimately Jay and I have been talking over like every possible scenario and basically just running in circles because of this vote. But we're voting Steven. I think. Because betraying Steven only pisses off Drew (and Jack but like), while betraying LA pisses off JD, Ashley, and Keegan. That's 3 people, and 3 is more than 1 (or 1 and a half if you count Jack). I think we're gonna tell Jack shit got messy (which is true) and we pushed for Steven instead of him and it got switched last minute. And since we know Drew has the Topaz Idol that'll be easier to work around. I think. I don't think we should tell the others about it bc they'll get paranoid that they'll be voted out. I think (think is a common word in a lot of my recent confessionals bc lately I don't know shit) that we can make Drew vote for Keegan? But all of my expectations and predictions have been blown out of the water in the snap of a second so who knows Also, JD and LA, I was wrong when I called you Walmart and Dollar Store Charlotte's. No version of Charlotte would treat me like this :,(

I'm playing a lot of games with a lot of people right now. Kevin and I are definitely together forever after this vote because it's been BATSHIT. We're trying to figure out a way to vote wherein everybody will still be willing to work with us next round. I'm going to Drew to see if I could get him to play his magic idol to save Steven and send LA home, which would be ideal because I could vote with the majority and still have Drew in my pocket. I'm dying. Send help to 123 Internet Street pleathe

Apparently Ashley wants an alliance with me Jay and Keegan??? Like girl ily and you're super sweet but also girl what the fuck??? I'm already stressing out over managing two alliances, three will be the death of me. Popularity is such a curse. On a side note, if we did enter that alliance the only person we wouldn't be in an alliance with would be Jack. This is hilarious and also horrible.

Okay yall so I think Drew hates Keegan and I cuz like we got one of his homies out.... And that's terrifying. And maybe letting JD have her main love LA was a bad move... But like now I am in an alliance chat with JD and LA and I am trying not to fuck myslef over in the process. Tonight Steven is supposed to go home but Drew wants Keegan out. AND Drew has the Rainbow Idol! He could easily just play it on Steven and get Keegan or I out! I am shakin in my britches. But like now I am tryinggto get Jay to want an alliance with Keegan, Kevin and I.... Wish me luck

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