#my bordoy... >:)

[hot-evil-vibes]

its my bordoy and I feel like garboye

[kitekki-khaos]

HELLO LITTER HOUSE, IT'S SCHEDULE TIME AND THIS WEEK GONNA BE EXTRA FUCKIN WEIRD!

I revealed the secret last night on stream but for anyone who didn't catch it, WE'RE DOING A 24-HOUR BIRTHDAY SUBATHON THIS WEEK!! It my bordoy, so we strem. As such, I have a lot of prep work to do so streams might be a little extra touch-and-go.

Schedule Tuesday on Youtube: Turtlehead VOD at 6AM PT / 9AM ET Wednesday: [In the Void] Thursday on Twitch: To Be Determined Friday on Youtube: Cooking Companions: DLC VOD at 6AM PT / 9AM ET Saturday on Twitch: BIRTHDAY SUBATHON!!! Starting at 5PM PST / 8PM EST Sunday on Twitch: SUBATHON CONTINUES

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I am 23 now lets GO‼️‼️‼️

[arthurs-farm]

ew a stitch boi

[blookmallow]

hi i binged through all of salad fingers for the first time in like 8 years and im fixating again here are. My Theories. pls talk to me if anyone else has Thoughts or wants to discuss things. this is really long i am sorry :’ ) 

also shout out to the salad fingers wiki for helping me keep track of details and also for this 

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thought: salad fingers is not violent on purpose he did not mean to kill that kid 

this is less a theory and more “if you slander my boy with accusations i will Get you” but listen. i see people going “but he mURDERED A CHILD!!” because of the oven incident but listen. listen to me. he didnt mean to and cannot be held to the same standard of morality and understanding consequences as a. person who isn’t..... in whatever situation and mental state he has going on

- yes, the kid getting trapped in the oven was his fault. but it was not intentional or malicious and i sincerely doubt he understands what happened or why. 

he was asking for help reaching the fish (there’s no reason to believe he wasn’t just genuinely asking for help. he tears up in gratitude. theres no evidence of him Tricking People Maliciously in any other context i do not believe he would do that) and was distracted by the rusty nail, causing him to let go of the door. it wasn’t “he cares more about rust than about a child’s life” or something, i dont think he can actually hold “hey look at that i gotta check that out” and “i need to hold the door open so the child doesn’t get hurt” in his head at the same time, rust is his favorite stim/an impulse thing that takes over everything else and his perception of reality and the things going on around him changes very quickly and easily. more on that later. but the important point here is it wasn’t a malicious plot, or a neglectful careless action, he literally did not realize letting go of the door would cause harm 

he stabbed himself accidentally with the nail and passed out for a while (the fact that he immediately bled that much is concerning too, he probably has hemophilia which is. a medical condition outside of his control, as well) and after all that he had completely forgotten about the child altogether (and says “i must have dozed off” so he doesn’t even understand he passed out. and might not remember the nail thing in the first place) 

we don’t see what happened after this, we don’t know how he responds when he investigates the fish and inevitably finds an unexpected charred corpse in there, but i guarantee he won’t remember why its in there or understand that its a corpse. we dont see it again so its. entirely possible he didnt recognize it as a person and either just disposed of it or, uh, ate it. but if he did, it wasn’t with the knowledge and comprehension of it being A Corpse or the memory of how it got there 

theory: on salad fingers and memory / comprehension of death and consequences 

more on that subject

- we see him frequently doing things and then immediately forgetting he did it or forgetting what was happening. he accidentally squishes the bug (which also was not malicious or intentional, he intended to pet it but just. went too hard) and has no understanding either that its dead, or that he killed it. she has gone flat and gooey for some unknown reason. that’s strange. she needs to go have a wash, that’s no way to be. 

he eats the jeremy fisher puppet at one point and then immediately goes “where have you gotten to??” 

he even briefly forgets hubert cumberdale’s name and immediately comes up with another one without realizing it, and then later goes back to hubert cumberdale again with no mention of barbara logan-price 

he refers to the same little yellow guy as “young child” and also Auntie Bainbridge later on. he keeps up the fantasy of... whatever the fuck yvonne was being his child for a pretty long time but then when he arrives at “auntie bainbridge” ‘s house he suddenly forgets why he’s there, and even apparently forgets what yvonne is and uses  ‘her’ as a window rag instead and never mentions it again (I also don’t think she was in the sandwich at the end either. it’s hard to see but the sandwich contents are vaguely brown and theres a visible lump in the black goo behind him. i like the idea that the lil yellow guy made the sandwich for him) 

salad fingers is constantly subconsciously adjusting his reality to fit Whatever Makes The Most Sense At The Time and does not consistently remember things (sometimes even major things. he remembers his puppets the most consistently and still even forgets hubert’s name) or have a concept of cause and effect 

i think he possibly has some sense of recognition, “I’ve seen this person before,” but doesn’t always remember Why he knows them, and his mind just automatically fills in the blank with whatever makes sense to him. he doesn’t remember who the yellow guy is, but knows he knows them Somehow, so, ah, of course, it must be auntie bainbridge out for her sunday stroll :) and he knows he’s there for a reason, but not what that reason was, so he decides it must be time to clean the windows 

- milford cubicle was already dead when salad fingers opens the door, but he has no idea that hes dead. this isn’t even a cause for concern. my, he must be tired, that’s all. he kept milford there until he rotted away, too, so there was never a point where he realized anything was wrong (until he became skeleton. more on That later too) 

- he finds a corpse buried in the yard and rather than confronting the confusing and alarming reality of that situation, why it must be kenneth, back from the great war! at no point does he understand kenneth is definitely dead

theory: kenneth vs glass brother

i think he really did have a brother named kenneth who probably died in the war. could be some subconscious connection between “recognizing” a corpse as his brother, but i dont think he realizes any of that. i think the glass family is probably a trauma based hallucination, but a... well, reflection. pun not exactly intended lmao. on how his real family was and how they treated him

i dont think glass brother is the same brother as kenneth, since salad fingers interacts with them completely differently 

kenneth is a corpse that salad fingers projects a personality on and speaks for, while glass brother seems independent and malicious toward him. i think he had a good relationship with kenneth (so, when salad fingers imagines that he’s here, it’s cause for celebration and he’s projecting onto something inert and “safe”) and also had another brother (who was probably his twin) who bullied him and acted violently, so when that trauma resurfaces, he hallucinates a vicious Other that he cannot control or speak for.

it also tracks that the abusive brother was his twin - he sees himself reflected in the mirror, and something in his own face reminds him of that lost brother until it “becomes” him

he refers to kenneth as his younger brother, and sees him as a being that does not look like him, while glass brother is literally his reflection, so it would make sense if he had one identical twin and one younger brother 

ive seen theories that he had a real sister named bordois too, but i think him calling the bug “little sister” was just. a term of endearment or one of his little odd language quirks, he seemed to be talking to it more like a pet than like a sibling 

theory: regarding mable

- ok people are saying salad fingers killed mable at the picnic but i Really Don’t Think He Did

we never see him acting out violently when he gets scared. he tends to try to escape situations that stress him out, he shrinks, he cries, he goes into his cupboard (which is. incredibly upsetting given the fact he was almost definitely abused by his family) 

he takes on a kind of Authoritative Tone often, he gets sort of ruffled up and disdainful toward things, but that’s not what he does when he’s scared

when he’s actually distressed (rather than irritated) he tends to break down and retreat. this includes when other independent beings act in ways that unsettle and upset him 

so i dont know where the “he freaked out and killed her” idea is coming from. he suddenly goes from outside at the picnic to having a breakdown in his house so. he most likely just ran 

i think the Only time we see him act out violently is when he decides he has to punish marjory for not getting a haircut like he asked - he tears her hair out, but for me that scene was particularly concerning because it was so unlike him. that was an anger response, not a fear response, though, and he tends to be harsher toward things that he’s actually controlling (I don’t think we ever see him decide to Discipline something that was independent from him other than the horses, and he didnt hurt them) 

ordinarily when something irritates him he just goes “hmph! so distasteful. how rude. i shan’t have this behavior, you know” but doesn’t really actually do anything about it, and moves on

anyway we never see mable again so i think either he freaked out and ran away and she just didn’t come back, or he scared her and she ran away, or both 

there’s a dress visible briefly when salad fingers is making his Flesh Boy which could be mable’s (he did comment he liked it) but it’s not 100% clear, and that doesn’t necessarily mean he KILLED her for it. she could have changed into something else and left it somewhere and he found it. she could have died under unrelated circumstances, and salad fingers found her - he doesn’t comprehend death, so. probably he decided they’ve made amends now and she’s given him her dress as a token of friendship, or something 

i dont think it really looks that significantly like hers but the fact that it stands out so distinctly from the rest of the Pile could mean something 

but i just feel like if he had killed her we would’ve seen her corpse again, he doesn’t have a concept of murder, or death at all, or consequences, and his memory doesn’t hold out that consistently, so if he killed her, he probably would have calmed down later and then forgotten what he did and came up with a new way to explain the corpse in front of him - oh, how rude of me, mable’s here dozing right off and i havent even offered her a blanket. let’s get you to bed

like, he probably would have dragged her home with him, with the intention of being a good friend/host to his guest, not understanding what happened. he kept milford cubicle around a really long time  

it wouldn’t be like him to have any concept of hiding the evidence

speaking of milford 

theory: regarding milford cubicle 

salad fingers keeps milford’s corpse around until it starts rotting, and then after a very confusing series of events, the corpse is suddenly a skeleton, which surprisingly alarms salad fingers considerably, and then he goes out to find a whole bunch of himselves eating various bits of gore. they give him a present, which is a hat very clearly made of milford’s skin 

my conclusion: salad fingers, in some kind of dissociative fugue state, skinned and ate the remains of milford cubicle himself and turned the remaining skin into a hat. he also saves some of it to make hubert cumberdale (the real boy) later as well, probably forgetting where it came from. he does not realize he’s done this or remember doing it, so his scrambled mind tries to make sense of it with other selves eating unknown flesh, and a lovely hat appearing (which he doesn’t seem to notice is made of flesh) 

you can also see milford’s original name tag in the drawer later on when he’s building the flesh boy, so. he kept that after the mysterious disappearance of milford’s flesh, apparently. more evidence that that skin is probably also his

some other scattered thoughts regarding the most recent string of episodes and salad fingers’ mental state: 

ive been trying to figure out what the fuckhell happened with the yvonne incident and everything that happened in the birthday episode

im really concerned for salad fingers’ health and mental state, as it seems to be deteriorating 

some yvonne theories ive seen:

1. he ate the burned corpse of the kid who died in the oven, and it made him very sick, which ultimately resulted in a charred mass he couldn’t digest - he steadily gets worse, until his body finally ejects it (yvonne’s “birth”) and after that his health starts to recover again. since the oven incident happens really early on, all the times he mentions his stomach being upset after that until he becomes deathly ill would make sense, so i think this is plausible 

2. the hair he found in the cupboard was actually a parasitic worm that grew in his stomach after he ate it and became yvonne. i think this is Possible, it is a really strangely wormy looking hair, but it doesn’t move and he mentions stomach pains before this, so it seems less likely to me 

3. i also saw the concept that salad fingers is a trans man who suffered a miscarriage at some point in his past and yvonne represents that, and i can definitely see where the idea is coming from but i do think something really physically happened to him in the present time, i dont think it was all a trauma-based hallucination, since the yellow guy reacts to the black ooze and something was definitely making him severely ill 

so. i Don’t Know what the fuck that was about but i think the burnt corpse theory makes the most sense 

on that note: there’s a lot of cannibalism imagery in salad fingers 

we have no IDEA where he’s getting food from. im pretty sure its been confirmed that he is Not a zombie, we see him bleed, pass out, sleep, etc so it seems like he must be a living person who has ordinary needs. but we see him eat... his own puppets. hairs. sand. the soup glass mother instructed him to make, which made him very sick. he has a working oven but doesn’t seem to have consistent access to water. he had a fish somehow but who knows where it came from. it’s very likely he doesn’t get food often and some of his hallucinations and mood swings could be caused by starvation (and when he does eat, it’s things that are outright inedible or probably not good for him) 

the burned corpse disappears and is never mentioned again (though salad fingers is very sick afterward). milford’s flesh disappears and salad fingers violently hallucinates multiple selves gorging themselves on unknown flesh

and what concerns me the most about that is that he loses a lot of time in that episode 

he passes out in the woods and when he wakes up, it looks like a shit ton of time has passed

we don’t know how much is reality and how much is his warped perception, but it looks like a tree has grown and his physical condition has deteriorated 

he looks really, really unhealthy and haggard for the rest of the episode 

i think he had a huge dissociative episode and lost possibly weeks of time, probably due to starvation, and he ate milford cubicle and very possibly other people as well 

so my question is. how often does this happen to him

and what happens to him during that state? does he become violent and dangerous without being aware of it when he returns to himself again? or has he just been ravenously scavenging corpses when he gets desperate enough? 

its possible dr papanak is another personality he has, one that’s “buried out in the woods” that he becomes when he’s in a really, really bad mental and physical state 

he looks much better in the next episode (though that’s also when he has his outburst with marjory. could be that he’s still staving off the violent urges/hasn’t fully come back to himself after the last incident) and I’m really hoping the fact that he was able to finally stand up to his family (at least in some sense) and smash the mirrors could mean he’s making steps toward recovery after whatever the hell all that was 

there’s not really much space to do anything with his life or get much help given the circumstances but watching him slowly losing himself even more is Awful :( 

i hope we get more episodes im so desperate for more information now 

lastly, some random observations 

i tried to read this newspaper and it looks like it’s actually written in french, which is interesting given that salad fingers seems to be british (but fond of france, and seems to speak french or at least knows one phrase) 

i wonder where he got this, or whether it ever meant something significant to him

theres a lot of evidence that he can’t read (takes no notice of the “harry” nametag and immediately names him something else, “reads” a letter that is actually a newspaper clipping in another language he’s holding upside down, “writes” a letter that is just scribbles) so i dont think he learned his one french phrase from this or anything but, still. vaguely interesting. maybe he has been to france before and brought this back with him for some reason. maybe he’s actually in post apocalyptic france and was just originally from england. We Don’t Know 

theres a weird little face in the. heater? whatever that is in the background for a second and i dont like it  

salad fingers leaves horace in charge, but then sees him (as a live horse) in the woods, but then comes back to find him both still on the shelf (as a toy) and in the room (as a live horse, now with his, uh, surgery scars) but doesn’t seem to notice this and doesn’t comment on it 

i dont know what the hell that means other than possibly his reality is even less consistent and logical than usual/a reflection on his mental state deteriorating 

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BORDOIS MY BELOVED!!!

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it my bordoy 🎂🎈🎁

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A glimpse into a jam-packed day! It was the day to discover the man island of Kalsoy. Woke up early enough, filled our tummies and we headed off to Klaskvik on the neighbouring island of Bordoy. It’s advisable to get to the ferry station early enough as the ferry only holds about 16/17 vehicles. The first row is for the citizens and the 2-3-4 for the tourists, buses, etc. We got in 2 hours prior to our departure time of 10 am. Got over to the island in less than 20 mins. Getting off the Ferry was quite something. The cars are lined in a very specific way as they are gestured in by the ferryman. The same way they are instructed in, they are instructed out.

Exploring Klaksvik before boarding the ferry station on the opposite side

Well, we were waiting for our turn but then this car lined parallel behind us decided he wanted to get out first. The ferryman gestured us to wait and started instructing this white Toyota out. When the car came neck to neck with us, we realized there was no driver in it. The ferryman noticed it at the same time as us. With his two hands holding the car in place, while his colleague went around looking for the driver of this white Toyota, he gave us a little head nod of disbelief. Of course, it was a woman!! I had predicted it, I am a woman, yes and I am going to say this. Women are the worse drivers ever. They won’t cause crashes but they will, however, cause daft mistakes that might lead to a blunder and they probably wouldn’t even know of the damage they caused coz they will be so oblivious. Miss Curley tops came down and finally turns off her engine and put her car in park! Our side-view mirror barely managed to live.. and we decided to stay the hell away from her and drove out, on our way over to to the village of Trollanes ( way up north).

Parked the car in the tiny village and hiked our way over to the Kallut lighthouse. The weather was treacherous and the hike fairly intermediate. let’s just say it kept us on our toes with the heavy winds either pushing us forward or pulling us back. We were at the lighthouse in less than 45 mins… couldn’t stay long as there was no point being slapped mercilessly by the winds. Enroute I met this black sheep, who by far is the most defiant little creature I met. Normally you can never get in very close proximity of sheep, I was convinced that he was blind as I was in touching distance – almost at an arm’s length from him. He definitely wasn’t blind as whenever I would extend my arm out to touch him or even gesture to touch him, he would move an inch backward but would never keep his eyes off me.

Clicked this picture right in his face, no zoom needed- he was quite brazen, or maybe it was me Afterall, I was the one visiting his territory!

We had a face-off and in the end, we both decided that it was enough time wasted at staring at each other. The lighthouse hike is lovely, it is short enough and keeps your focus all throughout as certain areas need your attention and skill. Way down was faster and of course easy enough and it was time to head over and say hello to the Selkie. The seal woman or the selkie is a steel statue of the seal wife, right on the Mikladalur harbor.

This is the story of the Selkie :

The legend of Kópakonan (the Seal Woman) is one of the best-known folktales in the Faroe Islands.

Seals were believed to be former human beings who voluntarily sought death in the ocean. Once a year, on the Thirteenth night, they were allowed to come on land, strip off their skins and amuse themselves as human beings, dancing and enjoying themselves.

A young farmer from the village of Mikladalur on the northern island of Kalsoy, wondering if this story was true, went and lay in wait on the beach one-Thirteenth evening. He watched and saw the seals arriving in large numbers, swimming towards the shore. They clambered on to the beach, shed their skins and laid them carefully on the rocks. Divested of their skins, they looked just like normal people. The young lad stared at a pretty seal girl placing her skin close to the spot where he was hiding, and when the dance began, he sneaked up and stole it. The dancing and games went on all night, but as soon as the sun started to peep above the horizon, all the seals came to reclaim their skins to return to the sea. The seal girl was very upset when she couldn’t find her skin, though its smell still lingered in the air, and then the man from Mikladalur appeared holding it, but he wouldn’t give it back to her, despite her desperate entreaties, so she was obliged to accompany him to his farm.

He kept her with him for many years as his wife, and she bore him several children, but he always had to make sure that she didn’t have access to her skin. He kept it locked up in a chest to which he alone had the key, a key which he kept at all times on a chain attached to his belt.

One day, while he was out at sea fishing with his companions, he realized he had left the key at home. He announced to his companions, ‘Today I shall lose my wife!’ – and he explained what had happened. The men pulled in their nets and lines and rowed back to the shore as fast as they could, but when they arrived at the farm, they found the children all alone and their mother was gone. Their father knew she wasn’t going to come back, as she had put out the fire and put away all the knives so that the young ones couldn’t do themselves any harm after she’d left.

Indeed, once she had reached the shore, she had put on her sealskin and plunged into the water, where a bull seal, who had loved her all those years before and was still waiting for her, popped up beside her. When her children, the ones she had had with the Mikladalur man, later came down to the beach, a seal would emerge and look towards the land; people naturally believed that it was the children’s mother. And so the years passed.

Then one day it happened that the Mikladalur men planned to go deep into one of the caverns along the far coast to hunt the seals that lived there. The night before they were due to go, the man’s seal wife appeared to him in a dream and said that if he went on the seal hunt in the cavern, he should make sure he didn’t kill the great bull seal that would be lying at the entrance, for that was her husband. Nor should he harm the two seal pups deep inside the cave, for they were her two young sons, and she described their skins so he would know them. But the farmer didn’t heed the dream message. He joined the others on the hunt, and they killed all the seals they could lay their hands on. When they got back home, the catch was divided up, and for his share, the farmer received the large bull seal and both the front and the hind flippers of the two young pups.

In the evening, when the head of the large seal and the limbs of the small ones had been cooked for dinner, there was a great crash in the smoke-room, and the seal woman appeared in the form of a terrifying troll; she sniffed at the food in the troughs and cried the curse: ‘Here lies the head of my husband with his broad nostrils, the hand of Hárek and the foot of Fredrik! Now there shall be revenge, revenge on the men of Mikladalur, and some will die at sea and others fall from the mountain tops until there be as many dead as can link hands all round the shores of the isle of Kalsoy!’

When she had pronounced these words, she vanished with a great crash of thunder and was never seen again. But still today, alas, it so happens from time to time that men from the village of Mikladalur get drowned at sea or fall from the tops of cliffs; it must, therefore, be feared that the number of victims is not yet great enough for all the dead to link hands around the whole perimeter of the isle of Kalsoy. THE END

In the evening we decided to explore the village of Leirvik, a neighbouring village to Nordagota which is where we are staying. Enjoying the ice cream and walking through the tiny streets admiring the Faroese way of living and discussing their charm and hospitality. The evening was then spent in the company of my Faroese friend – Flovin who is an aspiring YouTuber, the best one by far. Here is the link:-

For a kid who is hardly 10 years of age, he is extremely gifted in editing and putting together a video. I think he did a fine job. Please like and encourage.

  I think I found heaven on earth

  The Faroe Islands diary Day 4 A glimpse into a jam-packed day! It was the day to discover the man island of Kalsoy.

[www-xms-ro]

Green And Gloomy

While it looks a bit gloomy at the moment, most of the time it was actually quite pleasant and beautiful. The North Atlantic can be a bit broody at times, but for my summertime visit I can't really complain. Sure there was some light rain, but nothing that really dampened any of my plans.

Continue reading: https://www.aisleseatplease.com/blog/green-and-gloomy

#Bordoy #FaroeIslands #landscape #travel #photography #turf #scenic #gloomy #green

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*opens up my isopod container* hello there, bordois. i've been thinking about you. what have you been gathering today, little sister?

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Why do you want to do this?

Things are not always as simple as they seem. Turns out my first post, the misspelling of ‘mojar’ as ‘mujar’, actually translates as the verb ‘to make wet’, and is often used in a sexual way. It is related to the mopping up of the juices, in that one makes the bread wet, but it doesn't really mean ‘to get the most out of’, as I was using it.

This example is a clear demonstration of my behaviour. Hear about something, think it’s fantastic, wholeheartedly adopt it in full swing without really looking into any of the details.

It happened with veganism, Hare Krishna, and trying to follow the Buddhist doctrines during University. Not that there's a lot bad to be uncovered within those things, I was just very enthusiastic about them without fully thinking anything through. Good ideas versus realism. Being vegan and loving travel = being hungry = being upset and tired = not a good idea.  There was also this thing called Mooji in Portugal which I applied to thinking it sounded spiritual before finding out it was actually a kind of money making cult which Louis Theroux really needs to investigate.

Life choices can be easy to make, but deeply thinking about them and seeing them as a part of life, not just a choice, is where it stops being so easy. Think about some choices you have made in life. Before deciding upon them, did you ask why? Then why again? Then why, again?

We were asked “why?” to the max in the week ofApril 24th-30th. It was a so-called bootcamp near Barcelona facilitated by Classroom Alive!’s previous pilgrims. I say so-called because bootcamp normally conjures images of doing star jumps by a lake whilst someone cheers at you to keep on going, one more set. But this boot camp was different, very different.

Not unlike boarding school, we all stayed in a great mansion called Can Bordoi in Llinars del Valles. The subjects were economics, self development, travel logistics, and life planning. We learned about U-theory and absenscing; which is when you are not seeing a situation clearly or using your ego to avoid reality (as I understand). Coming through the U threads the eye of the needle, where one arrives at a balanced outcome.

The main premise of the boot camp was that we design a journey, ranging from 2-6 months, where we walk and study each day to travel by foot and learn more. In previous journeys some travelled from Greece to Sweden, or Budapest to Amsterdam. Some studying finance, some medicine, some solely meditation. Our plan was to travel across Asturias in Northern Spain, winding our way through farms, eco communities, permaculture workaways and crop fields with the idea to create a network between them.

Sounds fantastic, yes? I was taken away by the dreamy idea of floating between farmers to families talking about organic veg and camping in the summer air. This is the kind of vague plan I would usually come up with. Classroom Alive, however, encouraged us to really think about these ideas. How could it work in practice? Why do you want to do it? What is the long term goal?

Unavoidable questions, and so important. After a long think I realised it would be neccessary to take another year before beginning said journey; as currently my Spanish is below intermediate and small-scale conversational at best, so the idea of entering Spanish homes with the aim to discuss local and larger networking is far fetched with a limited vocabulary.

This was okay though, because we met a fantastic man, previously mentioned for his stone masonry skills, named Klas who lives in the mountains and co-runs immersion courses with a mystical woman named Nar. The idea is that you stay in the village for a month, everyone in the community partakes in the course and refuses to speak in any language other than Spanish, even when they are able. It's almost universally agreed that immersion is the best way of learning, so this made me more than happy to postpone our journey for a year, leaving time to plan and learn and maybe create an online network to direct people to; similar to gen.com but initially just for Spain.

I also decided that I wanted to do a Vipassana before going on such a journey, as I don't trust my up and down state of mind enough to fully commit to so long walking and talking with others. We originally teamed up in groups but soon found ourselves breaking away as ideas differed and the energy between us was difficult to calm. Lots of bubbling enthusiasms but an underlying struggle to release and collaborate harmoniously. People wanted to do what they wanted to do, and I felt the same.

It was around Thursday when Caleb, one of the leading organisers, spoke the realisation that Classroom Alive wasn't really about planning a journey, but planning your life. The questions asked were so invasive, so penetrating, that many people changed their minds about their original ideas. It was fantastic.

I’ve never had such a concentrated experience of self analysis and questioning. It was tough, but it enabled everyone to reach the right conclusions for them at that time. It was funny how at the start of the week we hopped in the car with Madalena, wholeheartedly spouting about the definity of staying in Spain, living and travelling on the go, and at the end we were in a different car, with the same Madalena dropping us at the station to get the train to the airport, our flight departing to England later that Sunday.

Self analysis and ‘why’ lead us to the conclusion that more planning needs to be done. Roughing it with 25kg suitcases plus backpacks is not roughing it. It’s tough. We had so much fun with two months of workaways, moving around and learning things, but also realised we had no real plans for the immediate future, and money was becoming a worry. People were asking what our plans were post-boot camp and we said we’d figure it out. We did, but in a way that wasn't expected.

Nik and I are now sat opposite each other in my old-new house in Alsager. It's the new build next to the old house that I grew up in, so it’s on the same grounds. We’re both typing frantically about what's been happening in the last month, as a detailed way of informing friends and family of the situation. We’re spending just over a month gardening, healing and planning. We’re even looking at temporary jobs to save more money before returning.  

Classroom Alive recently posted something on Facebook wondering how our outer journeys, but more importantly, inner journeys had developed. At this point, I feel so much more balanced than I did more than a month ago.

Weirdly coming back to England has been less of a step back and much further forward. We have plans to live in the ecovillage featured on Grand Designs in Pembrokeshire, Lammas, and volunteer for a month before working on the Green Team at Boomtown. From there we’ll get the ferry to Gijon, hopefully get on to a week long English-Spanish immersion teaching course. Then go our separate ways for a month whilst we each take to our own immersive Spanish learning.

Having space from travelling and uncertainty has provided so much time for planning and organising, developing certainty and more calm. Nothing is set in stone but the vague structure has made us both feel more relaxed in the present and excited about the future.

I’ve had acupuncture, cranio sacral therapy, and probably most healing of all, lots of lovely times drinking with friends. England, you have been magical.

(I’ll maybe mention the disasters and political unrest another time..)

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fun dumb human au fact// Salem’s siblings were like 14/15 (???) and 8,,And in that neat theory video Matpat did he babbles about how Lettuce man turns away from babies/children,,,,And Salem’s siblings were basically children specially Bordois....And he basically got Kenneth killed by not going to war and instead having him go for him,,,,,and he was just thinking like “I’m horrible I got my younger brother killed” and after everything went boom bad when he started going loopy and loosing his hair he kept mumbling to himself and kept telling Bordois he’s alright which he’s clearly not,,,,,she got so worried and went out to find something that might help him and got herself killed (she got crushed by rocks)

And in the heckin series,,,,,that’s why he’s scared of child looking things (besides that yellow thing i guess) because he somewhat remembers getting two kids basically killed and he doesn’t want to get more killed even though he doesn’t even remember his siblings that good,,,,,

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//human au// my favorite thing about my dumb lil au,,,,,,,,,is that all the mutants //like stitch-head and that yellow thing// remember salem/salad is because of his clothes.......

like that yellow thing let salem, bordois and stitch-head //what they nicknamed him in this au after they saved him woah// in it’s house and it memorized salems clothes,and so did stitch-head,,,,woo??

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Special mix for Luminosity Broadcast 2020

My guest mix for Luminosity Festival as part of their online event is available on Soundcloud and here with a full tracklisting:

Daniel Lesden — Luminosity Broadcast 2020

00:00 Anton Maiko — Save Me (Original Mix) JOOF Aura 04:09 Phil Martyn — Come On (Kastis Torrau Remix) Perspectives Digital 08:33 Allan McLoud — Make It Possible (Original Mix) Bonzai 14:14 Into The Ether — Aurora (Grazze Extended Remix) Songspire Records 18:06 Dezza, Rolo Green — Sunburn (Original Mix) Anjunabeats 22:13 Joy Marquez — I Watching You (Rick Pier O’Neil Remix) 76 Recordings 26:21 Ettica — Athena’s Silence (Original Mix) JOOF Aura 30:56 Planisphere — Nothings Slave (Original Acieed Mix) Green Martian 33:59 Dousk — Acrobatics (Original Mix) Mashtronic 39:25 Stiv Hey — Memories (Spektre Remix) Loose Records 43:19 Gabriel D’Or & Bordoy — Zephyros (Original Mix) Alleanza Records 47:21 Cory Goldsmith — Office Face (Original Mix) Blue Monkey Records 52:08 Dido, R Plus — Those Were The Days (Cristoph Remix) Loaded Records 55:10 Rodg — Want Love (Extended Mix) Statement Records

Источник: Daniel Lesden Blog - Special mix for Luminosity Broadcast 2020. Опубликовано с помощью IFTTT.

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Live @ Open To Close 2020

Wow, Open To Close last Saturday was on fire! I feel very grateful for being able to play the music I love and get such an amazing response from the crowd for every track and twist I played during this 6-hour set. Thank you everyone for your support, dances, and smiles ❤️ Also, a massive thanks to Rave People team for making it happen.

For those who weren’t able to join us that night, here’s my full 6-hour set available on SoundCloud to stream and download. Enjoy

Tracklisting

0:00:00 Matter, Universal Harmonics — Re Entry (Original Mix) Particles 0:06:20 Golan Zocher, Mila — Shush (Alex O’Rion Deep Dub Mix) Clubsonica Records 0:10:01 Anton Maiko — Luna (Original Mix) Deepersense Music 0:14:44 Sealine, Stereo Underground — Flashes (Gai Barone Remix) FSOE UV 0:18:56 Matter — Indica (Original Mix) Replug 0:24:09 Dosem — All Locations (Original Mix) Anjunadeep 0:27:48 Collective States — Azumi (Original Mix) Selador 0:30:57 Chris Sterio — Zen (Matter Remix) Balkan Connection 0:35:37 D-Nox, Kalil — Stingray (Paul Thomas & White-Akre Remix) FSOE UV 0:40:18 Daniel Lesden — Breaking From The Shadows (Original Mix) JOOF Recordings 0:44:58 ID — ID JOOF Recordings 0:50:55 Andre VII, Jaaw — 303XX (Original Mix) Sincopat 0:55:34 Andromedha — Perpetuum (Original Mix) JOOF Aura 0:59:10 Rick Pier O’Neil — Tys (Original Mix) Forescape Digital 1:02:00 Cyan Aura — Distortion (Original Mix) IbogaTech 1:06:38 Dosem — Evidence (Original Mix) Truesoul 1:08:41 Pete K, Walden — Gotten (Extended Mix) Release Deep 1:12:48 Monococ — Dark Warrior (Original Mix) Cerebro 1:15:25 Nosh & SJ — 17.17 (Ziger Remix) Eat My Hat Music 1:20:02 Emok, MVMB — Pathfinders (Original Mix) IbogaTech 1:24:39 Ettica — The Serenity (Original Mix) JOOF Recordings 1:28:25 Mr Bizz — Big Clean (Spektre Remix) Natura Viva 1:32:39 Marco Bailey, Tom Hades — Bonistia (Original Club Mix) Toolroom Records 1:37:00 Andre Sobota — Lost Cause (Original Mix) Zerothree 1:42:22 Damian Mazzeo — Recollections (Subandrio Remix) Massive Harmony Records 1:46:59 Draso — Strum (Cid Inc Remix) Wide Angle Recordings 1:52:21 Fuenka — Sirius (Original Mix) FSOE UV 1:56:58 Dylhen — Genesis (Extended Mix) FSOE UV 2:01:33 Estiva — The Maze (Extended Mix) Statement Records 2:07:32 Grum — U (Original Mix) Anjunabeats 2:10:35 Dulcet — Truffle Hustle (Original Mix) Techburst Records 2:14:39 Relaunch — Night Train (Techno Edit) Bonzai 2:18:58 Sohn — The Wheel (F-Act Bootleg) 2:24:07 Union Jack — Cactus (Jonno Brien Remix) Platipus Records 2:27:54 Ronnie Spiteri — Rough Rider (Original Mix) Tronic 2:32:10 Monococ — Tornado Road (Original Mix) VapourTrail Records 2:36:56 Andrea Frisina, Slackers Project & Pirania — Wave Of Madness (Alex Di Stefano Remix) Gate Null Recordings 2:41:27 NHB, Sisko Electrofanatik — My Black Line (Original Mix) Binary404 2:45:26 Umek — Ravaged (Original Mix) 1605 2:49:42 Bakke, Gaudium — Misophonia (Original Mix) Iboga Records 2:54:26 Hollen, Mr Bizz — Parthenope (Original Mix) Prospekt Records 2:58:04 Heerhorst — I Feel It (Original Mix) Redrum Music 3:03:04 Durante, Enamour — Taos Hum (Original Mix) This Never Happened 3:07:06 ID — ID JOOF Recordings 3:10:06 Airwave, Phi Phi — A Breeze On the Nile (Philthy Chit & Superlifter Remix) Bonzai 3:15:06 Enamour — Catalyst (Extended Mix) Zerothree 3:18:21 Andy Ling — Fixation (Relaunch Remix) Lost Language 3:22:21 Rolo Green — Music Saved Me (Extended Mix) mau5trap 3:26:21 Rodg — Tell On Me (Extended Mix) Zerothree 3:30:26 Kalden Bess — Cold (Original Mix) Phobiq 3:33:42 Anza Off, Sopik — Air Force (I’Gor Remix) JOOF Recordings 3:39:12 Tkno — Nameless Point (Original Mix) Selected Records 3:42:26 Roel Salemink — My Body Is My Temple (Nakadia Remix) Intec 3:45:27 Spartaque — Making Sense (Original Mix) Codex Recordings 3:48:56 Loco & Jam — Cell Structure (Original Mix) Octopus Records 3:52:11 Kaiser Souzai — Zug Der Liebe (Fifteen Bullets Rehab) Ballroom Records 3:55:42 Desna, Metodi Hristov — Call If Found (Original Mix) Set About 4:00:09 Dino Maggiorana, Sisko Electrofanatik — Desolate (Original Mix) AnalyticTrail 4:05:48 In Verruf — Too Much DMT (Original Mix) R Label Group 4:10:03 Christian Cambas — Drop Out (Original Mix) Autektone Records 4:14:29 Jay Lumen — Razor (Original Mix) Drumcode 4:18:55 Spektre — Opus (Original Club Mix) Toolroom Records 4:23:21 Gabriel D’Or & Bordoy — Tasio 25 (Original Mix) Selected Records 4:26:03 Tom Laws — Crazy (Spartaque Remix) Loose Records 4:30:15 Drunken Kong — A New Light (Original Mix) Tronic 4:34:55 Dok & Martin — Synthetic (Original Mix) VapourTrail Records 4:39:21 Leo Lippolis — Drone (Original Mix) Throne Room Records 4:44:31 K-Hate, Roby M Rage — Floating (Original Mix) Dreizehn Schallplatten 4:46:00 Shaun Mauren — My Dream (Eric Sneo Remix) Naked Lunch 4:49:08 Rudosa — Behind The Lens (Original Mix) Underground Audio 4:54:03 Bruno Aguirre — Alarming Situation (Original Mix) AnalyticTrail 4:58:00 Carara, Kreisel — Model CK89 (Original Mix) VapourTrail Records 5:02:55 Klangkuenstler — Supernova (Original Mix) Outworld 5:07:36 Mycer — Das Tier (Heerhorst Remix) Not Equal Records 5:11:02 Gary Burrows — Programme Of Control (Tom Laws Remix) Eclipse Records 5:14:48 Jens Lissat — Brothers on Acid & Sisters in Love (Original Mix) Studio3000 Records 5:18:29 Darmec — Oxygenic (Original Mix) Eclipse Records 5:22:55 Don Ruijgrok — Awake (Original Mix) JOOF Recordings 5:24:34 Beico & Mt93 — Kosmos (Original Mix) Suara Records 5:30:07 Transcode — Eternal Gateway (Original Mix) Prospekt Records 5:35:00 DJ Ralph — Bobun The Drum (Cosmonaut Remix) 852 Recordings 5:37:56 Cj Bolland, The Advent — Camargue 2019 (Enrico Sangiuliano Remix) Drumcode 5:42:49 Nineteen Sines — Keys (Original Mix) JOOF Mantra 5:46:46 Brennen Grey — Les Dieux (Original Mix) Respekt Recordings 5:49:22 Awex — It’s Our Future (Asys Alternative Acid Remix) Plastic City 5:53:55 John 00 Fleming — Healing (Original Mix) JOOF Recordings

Источник: Daniel Lesden Blog - Live @ Open To Close 2020. Опубликовано с помощью IFTTT.