#my blog would have constant SUPER long posts that probably dont make sense

[everseeing-eyes]

✨ spread the positivity ✨

these have been in my inbox for months, which i apologize for !! i really just didnt have that much to be happy about. recently, things have been improving, so i’ll try to spread some positivity ✨instead of sending this message to just 10 of my followers though, i’d like to ask all my followers to reblog with 5 (or more) things that make them happy, divine or otherwise!!! ✨

(sorry mine are so long, i got a little carried away)

1. when i have random surges of positive energy, things like love and confidence and motivation. whether the feeling is passive or directed at something specific, its wonderfully refreshing and usually continuously motivating as well.

2. when i wake up on my own from vivid or lucid dreams, and i can remember whatever i dreamed enough to think about and/or process it. being able to have enough time to process and explore what my unconscious mind shows me is more important and helpful than not.

3. being able to walk people through their own divine or otherwise metaphysical experiences is something ive only begun to do recently, but im already extremely grateful for it. being the first to “awaken” and watching zac go through the same things is extremely validating, and he has a bit of help where or when he needs it. we’re both still learning, and now we’re able to learn together rather than separately, which benefits us both.

4. something that i dont think i’ll ever truly get used to, that cant not invoke a strong reaction, is being on the end side of a premonition. when they first started, i would see something in my head and then see it again irl, sometimes almost immediately. now though, theyre getting a bit more interactive, rather than me just watching. i’ll feel a door open, i’ll be talked to about/shown something thats going to happen, and sometimes another voice will interrupt to talk to me. when i see that situation happening, be it days or months later, i’ll feel the door open again, i’ll know whats happening, and im the voice yelling back through the door. words i couldnt understand before now made clear, answers snapping into place. its empowering, its breathtaking, and if we’re being honest, its definitely one of my main motivators to stay alive.

4.5. recently i had a psychic experience validated (literally repeated back to me, two weeks later, through tumblr) by someone i do not know, that ive never met before, who was able to look through one of these doors to me just by feeling the energy from my blog/online presence. its something i’ll never forget, it’ll never stop giving me chills, because its the most intense and “real” thing that’s happened so far. and by real i mean that no one could possibly explain that shit away, not even the biggest skeptic. its no delusion, or daydream, its some real, beautiful shit.

5. i think one last thing that makes me happy, to be honest, is how my life is going, offline. im living with my newly awakened boyfriend, i have a job and im thinking about looking for one closer to his house. ive recently been able to begin to change myself both physically (piercings and tattoos, working out), and metaphysically, which in turn has helped my emotional and mental health quite a bit. having my metaphysical energy grow and get stronger and being able to talk about it and get actual real feedback from someone who doesnt think im crazy is probably the best thing that could’ve happened to me, because when this shit gets scary, its hard to handle alone. even the things i know i cant or shouldnt tell/talk about with zac right away, knowing we’ll get there eventually is wonderful.

waiting for the next shift, or a premonition, a sudden burst of knowledge, knowing theres a fire in me just waiting to be ignited,,, when im feeling and watching the veil to lift from my senses and im holding zacs hand to keep me brave and confident because the things i hear are too loud and the things i can see are too overwhelming, i couldnt be more grateful. when the fire is too bright and the divinity feels more like poison than anything else, he’s here with me.

i think this last one (and the others tbh) can be summed up with “i’m happy this is happening to me, and i’m happy i dont have to go through it alone.”

[inevitably-johnlocked]

Weird q..but i really dont understand why most fans hate season 4, especially the last episode. Why? I think it gave us a deeper look on both sherlock and mycroft! I felt it tells a lot about mycroft how he had to step in and take control of things ever since he was a kid himself. Also he is not a robot or a killer. Also redbeard thing. It was an appropriate deep psychological trauma (cause most shows usually disappoint in that area). I am not trying to impose my opinion. Just want to understand

Hey Nonny!

It’s all good, and I totally respect your opinion and how you enjoyed S4! It’s totally okay! I know that there are quite a few who got a lot of of S4, and who genuinely enjoyed it.

Sadly, I am not one of those people, and I’ll try to be as diplomatic a possible in my response, but PLEASE know that I don’t think you’re “terrible” or “stupid” for liking S4 because I DO get passionate sometimes in my responses, and I’m just merely speaking as someone who studied the series very closely for quite a long time before S4 aired, and as someone who knows Day-One-ers (ie., people who watched Sherlock on its day one airdate) who also are a large majority of the people who did not like S4. This is just me simply stating why I didn’t like it, but it’s different for everyone.

Stating what I DO like: The acting and cinematography of the first two episodes were brilliant for what they had to work with, and I’ve never faulted any of the actors for the flaws of S4. And for TFP, they did the best with what they had to work with.

That’s… pretty much all I really liked about S4.

Now, here’s my problems with S4:

Nothing made a LICK of sense to the narrative that they were telling in Seasons prior. 

This series was always based a bit in reality, and suddenly everything became comic-book rules: X-Men villains, shitty “redemption” arc, destroying favourite characters just for drama, ludicrous physics, explosions that only destroyed one small room in an apt where in previous episodes one explosion destroyed an entire block, etc.

Sherlock was OOC.

Mary was being built up to be a fantastic villain? Ah, nope, here’s the lacklustre twist where tee hee Mary’s just an assassin with a heart of gold that still emotionally abuses Sherlock and John and just won’t fucking stay dead.

And speaking of this, the DVD’s make NO LOGICAL SENSE unless she was planning to kill herself

AND she tries to make her death equatable to Sherlock’s??

Everyone was RIDICULOUSLY out of character in TFP, I’m so sorry: Mycroft is a bumbling coward for the most part, Sherlock disregards John when he gives the Vatican Cameos warning, the Holmes Parents are assholes because Mycroft COULDN’T SOLVE A PROBLEM WHEN HE WAS 12?? ARE YOU SERIOUS???? And that creepy Moriarty / Eurus thing, and LITERALLY they’re implying that EVERYTHING HAPPENED BECAUSE EURUS DIDN’T GET A HUG. Like, I’m so sorry, but that’s lazy writing.

And don’t even get me started on the ridiculousness of the entire character of Eurus. She LITERALLY had X-Men powers, and like… just nothing made sense. Her involvement in the entirety of S4 MADE NO SENSE. Why go back to prison if you can get out?? WHAT IS THE POINT?? AND I repeat: She did all this because she didn’t get a hug. Yes. I’m oversimplifying, but at the base level, that’s what it was, because she wanted Sherlock’s attention. Welcome to the club, kid, stand in line, everyone on the SHOW wants his attention.

The ENTIRE plot of the first 2 seasons got wiped out all because it wasn’t Moriarty who was interested in Sherlock, but Eurus?? What… What about Carl Powers?? Like…. the ENTIRETY of season one and TGG makes no sense now, because of that one 5 minute scene where Eurus “enlists” Moriarty. I… ugh.

The SUDDEN tonal switch from kind-of Sherlock to James Bond, for some fucking reason.

And on that note, how terribly lazy and cheap TFP looks in comparison to the other two episodes. The whole episode looks like it was filmed in a small house with 4 identical rooms.

EVERYTHING that was etablished in 2 episodes prior were COMPLETELY forgotten when Mary was “shot”.

The complete character assassination of one loyal blogger John H Watson in favour of Mary for some fucked up reason, even though AT HIS OWN WEDDING HE COULDN’T STAND BEING AROUND MARY. I’m sorry, but I don’t believe for one damned second that John would EVER forgive Mary for murdering his best friend after seeing what it did to him. That’s not love from her, and that’s NOT John’s character EVER in the ENTIRETY of the series.

And speaking of character assassinations, Molly’s character being devolved to S1E1 Molly, where instead of giving her agency like they were doing with her the ENTIRE series, so much so that Sherlock picked up on her dominance enough to give her a big role in his mind palace in HLV and TAB, only to make her a sad little self-insert Mary Sue pining for the main character, and in turn made Sherlock a TERRIBLE human being for MAKING HER say what she did. It’s gross.

AND speaking of Molly’s character, they’ve been setting up Mollstrade since as early as ASiB, but I guess that plot line got shafted. Look I LOVE Hopkins, and I am ANGRY they didn’t give her more than 3 fucking lines in the entirety of ONE episode after HEAVILY promoting her actress and character, but they essentially reduced her to a piece of ass for Lestrade to chase. AND THAT’S NOT HIS CHARACTER EITHER. EW GROSS.

The constant plot holes being gaped wide open, and the Chekov’s gun moments where they bring up shit but do nothing with it!! 

TD-12? Nope, just a lame reference to a story we like. 

John got shot at the end of TLD with a VERY REAL FUCKING GUN? Nope, it was a dart gun. 

John not suddenly knowing how to be a doctor.

The TGG one I mentioned up above. 

What was in the letter? And who was Anyone??

Moriarty essentially being erased as anything other than a hired thug and had no part whatsoever in Sherlock’s history. 

Eurus… Just all of her character is asinine. 

Everyone in T6T suddenly not knowing John’s the blogger, which is in direct contradiction to literally the entire series. 

The AGRA plotline was ridiculous, in the end.

Baby? What baby? It was only there when convenient.

They dropped whatever plotline they were going to do for Mycroft: He was being set up as either dying, or the villain.

Redbeard. I’m sorry, I disagree with you on that. Mofftiss is trying to tell me that a little boy fell down a well and went missing, and that WASN’T the first place searchers / the police wouldn’t have looked? Sorry, no. And then. AND THEN his parents just… go along with this thing where Sherlock shuts down and they DON’T get him therapy? Yes, I agree the mind is a funny thing, and we can be traumatised into forgetting or dissociating from traumatic events. I GET IT. But… like I don’t believe the Holmes are so heartless as to just never grieve or have memories around about their supposedly dead daughter. It’s another OCC thing for me.

John’s cheating.

Disappearing and reappearing characters, like this scene, and the entirety of the aquarium scene.

Mary and John being terrible parents

OH GOD THIS FUCKING SCENE. That bomb SHOULD HAVE DESTROYED THE ENTIRE BUILDING.

What… who was this girl on the plane? What? Like I know WHO, but if she’s supposed to be Eurus talking to Sherlock, why don’t we see Eurus… talking to Sherlock? I … Ugh.

NORBURY. 

The glass SUPER SECRET GOVERNMENT ROOM THAT NO ONE SHOULD SEE INTO in T6T.

Sloppy camera work that some believe was intentional, but if it wasn’t, jesus c’mon.

The RIDICULOUS amount of 4th Wall Breaking. Like… even the actors didn’t give a shit.

Essentially, everything on this list here and in this blog tag here.

And everything mentioned on these three posts:

T6T: 10 Revealing Things That Haunt You Late at Night 

TLD: 10 Revealing Things That Haunt You Late at Night

TFP: 10 Revealing Things That Haunt You Late at Night

There’s SO much more I can go into, but please go through my “something’s fucky” tag in that last link.

Notice how probably 90% of that has NOTHING to do with “johnlock not becoming canon” because the Johnlockers get MONSTROUS accusations as to THAT being why we didn’t like S4, even though it was, like critically panned by the GENERAL AUDIENCE who have NO investment in the series other than “I liked it in the past”.

Two of my fave YouTubers have interesting (not perfect, but still good) takes coming at the series as casual viewers:

‘The Day Sherlock Died’ by The Closer Look

‘Sherlock is Garbage, and Here’s Why’ by hbomberguy

So it’s NOT just Johnlockers. I’ve talked to Sher1011ies at 221B con who didn’t like S4 either, because most of them realized how shitty Molly was treated in the last episode. So yeah, a big middle finger to those who think I dislike S4 because of  “no Johnlock”. No, I disliked it because I need my stories to make logical narrative sense. I disliked it because I love John and they ruined his character all for the sake of drama and because Moffat has a “hurting Ben” kink. I disliked it because Mary should NOT have been “redeemed” because she was an abuser. I disliked it because Moriarty was turned into a cartoon villain, even though he was already overused in the series. I disliked it because the core of the show – the FRIENDSHIP of Sherlock and John, and their solving mysteries together – did not exist at all. I disliked it because John got sidelined. I disliked it because TFP was a ridiculous episode that, if you replace ANY of the characters, it wouldn’t make a difference, because it didn’t feel like an episode of Sherlock. I disliked it because everyone was OOC.

Anyway. Sorry. One too many accusations my way over the past 1100+ days LOL.

As for your assessment of TFP, I’m going to have to respectfully disagree with you. There was no growth and actually it implies something far more sinister: That the Holmes are and were terrible parents that gave no shits about their daughter, their traumatized son, and expected their eldest to essentially be a parent. It implies that Mycroft, at 12 years old, orchestrated the ENTIRE Sherrinford thing… Look I can suspend my disbelief, but there’s limits, and this is one of them. A LITERAL CHILD. Perhaps Uncle Rudy had a hand in it somehow, but then why not shit on Uncle Rudy? Why is Mycroft blamed for it all?

Look, I don’t doubt Sherlock had a traumatic experience regarding “Redbeard”. But then why play into the fact that he was a dog? Why bring another character into the series just to have a gotcha moment? Because Mofftiss wanted a “Shyamalan twist”, that’s why. They threw EVERYTHING away for a twist ending either because they GENUINELY thought it was good, or they got tired of doing Sherlock. ALL of TFP is LITERALLY a really bad plot twist because reasons. TFP makes no sense to the ENTIRE narrative structure of the previous 12 episodes. It erased EVERYTHING from the previous episodes, and coated it with a gross closing by a character no one wanted in the series, and then tried to convince us that it’s a new beginning – “a journey they had to go through” – but it SOLVED NOTHING.

Anyway. I have big feels about S4, and the only way I can enjoy it is to watch it subtextually, but even then, I cannot sit through TFP without cringing. 

That said, Lovelies, please do not attack Nonny for enjoying S4! I know you guys won’t, but Nonny came out with an olive branch and they just want to understand why the fandom is passionate about S4′s… whatever it was. We can have a civil discussion about it, and point out – without attacking – why S4 is universally panned. It’s okay to like things no one else does, and Nonny was respectful to me in this ask! 

So with that, feel free, lovelies, to express why YOU didn’t enjoy the series, or why you did! I’m interested in both “sides” / pov’s whatever :)

[ironghoul]

(hey yall)

(So its been a while and im v sorry ive been away so long!!!! ;; my mental health has crashed and gotten really, really bad over the past few months (my bipolar disorder+manic depression in specific) and its been very hard for me to function on a daily basis, and unfortunately the act of writing things, from general messages to RP posts to fic to ecen this post, has become very VERY hard for me bc of the brainfog I endure from my bipolar 2. My ghost muse in general has also kind of gone to sleep in a sense LMAO and i cant be 100% certain as to why it did, though i have some p clear ideas on what at least contributed (from the state of this fanbase being, to put it bluntly, complete Scheiße and also i got super into the Suspiria remake anskdkdshusjdj). Im making this post today bc a) i honestly really miss this blog a lot and b) i wanna get back into rping again...really bad. Im just not really sure of what my brain is gonna do next and how capable of keeping up w replies im gonna be bc of that ;; so I dont wanna rush into smthn I cant dedicate to again yet nor like.....push myself back into RPing if im not ready yknow???

I have however had a couple thoughts abt Irons character recently, and esp after having so much time away from her, ive begun to realize that I might want to change quite a few big things about her???? After thinking abt it some ive come to realize that im not really sure that like....i want to keep her so much how she is now, which is still very coherent and humanlike with a few inhuman traits here and there, so just super fucking depressed and angry and grieving all of the time, etc. For one, I honestly had more of the intention when I first made Iron to make her wayyyy more feral than I have been depicting her in my RPs, and as well, idk if its just a moodswing or something or other but I have found myself growing very weary of iron's horrible neuroses and constant sadness; maybe ive just been through too much recently or its my mental health but Im so sick of having this character just be literally so horribly fucked up and tragic and sad all the time yknow??? Like im just...im weary lmao i dont seem to have the perserverance anymore to have that be her set character bc like its starting to hurt me too at this point and im sick of it, and so what Ive been thinking about in specific is that I think I would like to make some kind of marginal changes to her character. I always ended up forgetting to make iron more feral and animalistic most of the time bc i myself am a...human LMAO and so thats the only life experience i know, obviously, and I think i was so afraid when I first made her to make her meaner or more monstrous bc she might not have really "fit in" well with everyone elses OCs and also I was afraid ppl just wouldn't wanna interact w her if she was Too Mean ahsjdnbdhdhsk but now at this point i think im ready to say fuck that to all of that bc Ive definitely learned now that yall will really interact w just about any character with any personality type or behavior or whatnot, and also, i think it would not only make iron more interesting but more fun for me to write if she was more of a....you know...Awful Gremlin LMFAO and life is short, OCs and RPing were made for fun too and i dont have Time to worry abt that stuff and end up having to sacrifice half of my preferred vision for this character in the process. So basically i think she would definitely still be pretty sad abt Papa 3 but she abolutely wouldnt be constantly haunted and tortured by it anymore, and I also think I want to remove that whole little tidbit abt her always being kind of violent post-ghoulification, even before 3 died. She would also act a lot less human on a regular basis, like i would have her still being perfectly capable of walking upright, talking, being neat and having critical/articulate thinking skills & emotions etc, however there would be a new quality to her of her primarily being, well, again: feral. Not speaking much, probably running around barefoot quite often and sometimes crawling/moving around on all fours, having that sort of primal timidness with whatever new things she experiences, putting things in her mouth off the ground that shouldnt be there, etc you know how it is. She would basically be like fucking Spongegar (Irongar if u will) most of the time LMAO but again she would still be perfectly capable of acting more "humanlike", and staying in line with that Iron Brand Personality(tm) she would absolutely pick and choose who she would decide to act more 'composed' around VS who she wouldnt and would also definitely purposefully act way More feral than she rly is around (to spite some of them im sure). She would probably be more prone to (gasp) Actually Smiling and being happy on a reg basis too, not just being this dark cloud of an awkward troubled depressing fuck tbh. Which fits in more with how im thinking I want to portray her now.

So thats all that, sorry this went on so long and i cant put it under a readmore bc im currently on mobile ahsjdjdjdndjd but like i hope i said what i needed to say well enough. I also wanna know yalls (esp my mutual RP partners!) Thoughts and Onions on the changes I might make to Irons character!!! Ty all, ily 💙💙💙)

[battleofmind]

New Post has been published on http://blog.battleofmind.com/how-to-achieve-great-wealth/

How to achieve great wealth

It is human nature to always want to progress and to pursue comfort, happiness and freedom and most people think that there is only one way to achieve these 3 things… money. Money and the pursuit of ever growing wealth is the pursuit of most of us, we go to work to pay our mortgage/rent , to raise our children and to buy our food and the constant weekly working torment to achieve these important commodities of life never ceases to end. In this blog post the founder of BoM John discusses the importance of not focusing on what we don’t have but on appreciating the things we do…even the poorest person can be extremely wealthy!

  Our perception of the rich man, is it right?

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They’ve got it all, they can do whatever they want when they want, they are admired and highly successful, they must be really happy having no worries right? Wrong! In my time working as a brand and web designer it gave me the opportunity to work closely with several wealthy CEO’s. The observations I made was yes, they had some beautiful material objects, a nice home, nice cars, the ability to buy the latest gadgets and the most expensive vacations. It may appear to many that they are fortunate, comfortable and happy but being successful or rich, it doesn’t give them special rights to being some kind of super human, they still have problems but of a slightly different ilk to us.

With all ‘wealthy’ people I have met over the years and got to know on the personal level it appears sometimes they dont know what to do with their money once they reach the comfortable level. One of them bought lots of cars but why do you need lots of cars when there is only one of us? Another had to buy the latest gadget before anyone else so he felt some sense of importance in his life but within 6 months to a year it was no longer the latest thing and so had to buy something new and show it off to everyone…this may sound like I am being envious but it isn’t. These people bought things that they didn’t need because they almost have no need for money. What do you do if you no longer have a need to pay your bills??

Another person I know was born into wealth, a middle eastern woman who although from a very comfortable background in terms of wealth she has no freedom to do what she wants. It is a sad state of affairs that even though materially comfortable she is unable to experience the real wealth of true freedom to be who you truly are and have the option to travel the world when we want.

These two examples of the successful person and the person born into wealth shows that being rich is relative and doesn’t mean that they are completely content.

Our perception of the poor man

On contrast, our perception of the poor man/woman is a person who has failed at life, has got nothing, is the lowest form of person within society, is a person who has no friends, no recognition, no intelligence and no money, a person who no one wants to be. But is a poor person really not ‘wealthy?’

A poor man is only poor if ‘he’ or ‘she’ believes themselves to be. Just because a person doesn’t have the latest gadget, or a big house does not mean they are not wealthy. How is that possible? Well real wealth is more than just material goods…

What is real wealth?

Real wealth can only be valued by how happy or contented a person is. As previously mentioned, the rich men I spoke about were definitely NOT contented.

Just because someone is wealthy materially does not equate to a happy person. The way to measure how wealthy a person is is how they see the world and how they treat others they come into contact with.

How to become wealthy

But how do we become wealthy? Being happy, living with peace of mind, or achieving our perceived abundance needs to be studied, mastered and worked for.

Firstly, learning how to set and a hold a thought that is positive in its intention so at to develop your conscious desires, rather than unconscious fears is where your wealth begins. How do you do this if suffering with depression? It is extremely difficult, I know, because I had to do it.

I recommend starting with goal setting ( read this goal setting blog ) and writing a short list of what you’d like to change ( or achieve ). Do this, no matter how unrealistic you think it might be, having that goal at least written down will give you a focus to look at as you attempt to change your thoughts.

Next, is to keep a book about gratitude ( read this blog about gratitude). This is a book, similar to a diary where you write 10 things that you are grateful for every single day. It can be tricky at first but they don’t have to be big things, just small things like enjoying a tv program, having a comfortable bed, having more motivation this day. Continued repetition of this process can begin to give you a more positive outlook towards life.

Lastly, but it could be most important is…

How can we achieve this thing we believe could change our lives for the better?

Where you are right now, if reading this, is probably near the bottom of your personal mountain…it looks a long way up to the top from where you are standing but it is completely possible to achieve your goals to make you a more ‘wealthy’ person but you must make a list of how you can achieve your goals.

I can give an example of my own life…

For those of you who do not know about me…after I reached rock bottom at 27, having no money, actually I was in debt by £30k, completed 2 degrees with little opportunity, a fiancee left me, my immediate family where not happy, I had n car, no house and my only blessing was I had a family. I was actually assessed at high risk of suicide. I was very depressed, I hardly went out, only when it was very dark. I slept a lot, I mean, a lot and motivating myself was hard at first but i knew something had to change so I started by setting goals, writing them down.

I knew Id put on weight with my depression so one goal was to loose weight, secondly, I felt the UK wasn’t giving me opportunity so I thought id learn Spanish to expand my opportunity in the world for job opportunities and also, I had always liked latino women so would have that benefit too, thirdly I dreamed of making millions and decided to learn web design in order to be able to reach out to the world.

So setting these goals, things I really wanted to achieve deep down helped me to get more ‘wealthy’. I used wii fit and walking a dog to get fit and managed to loose 2 stone in 6 months, secondly I met a Colombian woman who I did date for a while until I met my wife, thirdly and finally, I had made web sites for several people, created a portfolio and secured my first job…in London.

I did all this within a year of first falling severally ill with depression and it wasn’t all a smooth ride, even after I’d achieved these goals I was still feeling depressed and anxious to fairy high levels for years afterwards, but I guess the most important message is is to start.

Start today, write down up to 4 goals, one of them can be extreme but please do it! Set goals and then think….how can I acheive these goals, what thing or skill do I need to get it?

Your life can change, your life can be happy! Good luck and please let me know about your journey by commenting below!