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a bisexual is forever, not just for christmas!
#911 abc#evan buckley#some of you need to calm all the way down - he’s bisexual no matter who he is/isn’t dating#be so ffr right now!!!#my art#we havent ‘lost’ any representation unless you want to count nepo babies who can’t act 🤭
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RealAgeAU Drabble - Birthday Planning
SO! Fun fact. I was kinda running out of ideas.
Then I had THIS idea.
And well. After the last ride? We deserve cuteness don't we? ;)
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"Horror! Wait up!"
Horror blinks as he turns back around and searches the crowd. It only takes him a moment to spot the excited bunny monster. He tries to give a smile while he waits for a moment for the other to catch up.
Ellie stops before him panting harshly as she leans against him "Oh god." more pants and weezes.
Horror tilts his skull as he keeps the other steady "Hello Ellie... something wrong?" Maybe she needed help or something?
Ellie manages to pull herself upright again adn smiles brightly "Nothing is wrong! It is just I had something very important to ask you guys and saw you so i sprinted all the way over here."
Horror nods and gives her a look "What did you want to ask?"
Ellie grins widely "When is Nightmare's birthday? Like. No worries! I get that you guys havent been here for quite a year yet and with everything going on especially the whole kidnaping thing. we get you guys want the first birthday to just be you guys but Dani realised we still had some of our better quality cherry jams left over and I got the amazing idea to use those in a birthdya cake but! Well.. you know... gotta know when the birthday is. and we both figured it hadn't happened yet as you guys hadn't mentioned yet... so... When is it? And all you guys birthdays for that matter."
horror needs a moment to process all the information she just dropped on him. When he realised what she was asking he realised a tiny problem.
They all come from different universes and the calanders were not the same.
Worse.
Horror isn't even sure if Nightmare even has a birthday he celebrates. They never celebrated it as the castle.
Horror looks down at the groceries in his arms before looking at Ellie "Is it... okay I give an answer later?"
Ellie frowns before her eyes shoot up to his skull and hole and she cringes and rubs her neck as she looks abcka t his face. sheepish smile on her face "Right... sorry. That... that was a lot at once wasn't it? Just... think about it okay? And you guys got our number!" she takes a few steps backwards, almost bumping into someone before she disappears into the crowd again.
Horror sighs in relievve, crisis averted. Now.
When the fuck are their birthdays in this world anyway?
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Horror returned home to his datemates and their kid. Horror still feels his soul pulse happily even at just the thought.
They sit together in the nest while their dinner cooks slowly in their oven. It is an old stone oven and Horror loves it. it is sturdy and takes up a lot of space but he love using it.
Killer frowns as he is still staring at his phone "I mean... We can just pick dates and call it a day? It isn't like I was still celebrating my own birthday back in my universe anyway. I only started that up again with you guys in the castle."
Dust hums his agreement and Cross nods too "True! XTale also wasn't big on birthdays unless it were the once which marked important ages. I am down to just pick one and call it."
Nightmare frowns as he looks between them before pushing closer to Dust "Not like it matters. It isn't like i am growing and stuff."
Dust nudges Nightmare's skull with his own and mutters softly "Hey... what did Fauna say?"
Ngihtmare doesn't say anything and just pushes clsoer to Dust.
Dust doesn't look like he is bothered by this at all as he just nudges Nightmare gently again "Come on... what did the nice deer doctor lady say?"
Ngihtmare grumbles but actually answers this time "That I won't grow until i am healed."
Dust nods "exactly. As long as you are healing you won't grow. Which, she told us is a normal response for children to have as their bodies and magic are much more fragile." he bonks their skulls together softly "Which means. You will stay our adorable six year old until you are healed fullly. Including physical, mental and magic health."
Nightmare looks down embarresed and mutters "should be healed by now... I am a god..."
Dust looks unimpressed "You are also a six year old who lived his whole life being abused and hurt and when you finally had the power to defend yourself you had to do an adult god's duty." he nuzzles him "Take your time. We aren't in a hurry and any monster knows what it means if a child isn't growing."
Nightmare relaxes a bit and nods. accepting Dusts words.
Dust looks content as he glances up before looking slightyl embarresed as he tubs his hood closer around his skull "what?"
Horror then realises he is staring and a glacne confirms to are Cros and Killer. Cross looks completely enchanted and Killer is straight up cooing. Yeah no wonder Dust is getting shy. He was the same when the four of them spoke about dating.
Horror smiles at Dust before taking his chance to say something "Well. We better pick a birthday for him." Horror smiles at Nightmare "Or do you have one we don't know about Night?"
Ngihtmare shrugs and mutters "Dream and I were born on the longest day of the year... I don't know which date it was in our universe and when it is in other universes."
Killer groans "Of course it was on the sunniest day of the universe- ugh." Killer shoots Cross a glare but Cross jsut sends him a warning look back.
Horror agrees. Killer would have no doubt said something about either Dream or Nim and neither of them matter. At all. Not when they have a babybones that probably never even had anyone celebrate his birthday.
Dust stays on task as he hums in thought "Well... we could figure out when the longest day is here... and say that is your birthday? usually those fall in summer."
Killer shoots upright "or! We can pick the day when the longest night happens! Go right to the other side of it all!"
Horror watches Dust and Killer debate the options while he watches their tiny charge think. and that is why he sees Nightmare blink and looks up a bit as he no doubt gets an idea. Then the doubt sets in wihtout him saying anyhting.
Horror speaks gently "Did you have an idea?" luckily Killer and Dsut shut up right away.
Nightmare shrugs and mutters "maybe... I thought... you know... I became six again... and you guys picked me up so second chance and stuff... so shouldn't that count as the day? Because it is the day this whole thing started?" he tugs himself clsoer to Dust.
Dust hums as he rubs his spine oh so gently "I think it is a great idea." he glances at Killer "Kills?"
Killer grins as he taps away on his phone "already on it! lets see..."
Horror smiles at Nightmare "I think we all agree it is a great idea."
Nightmare smiles a tiny bit and Horror sees a tine glimps of that confident monster Nightmare had been with his powers. Which is good. This means they are guiding him alright towards a future where he is confident in himself, and hopefully happy and healthy.
Killer sits up and holds up his phone in triumph "Figured it out! We got here near mid summer and we had Ngihtmare for two months at that point. Ngihtmare become his true self a month before we got him. meaning!" Killer grins at Nightmare "You are a spring baby!" Killer shows the date to them all.
Ngihtmare looks away embarresed and Dust nods "Sounds good."
Nightmare however looks a bit anxious "But that is so soon already?"
Dust nuzzles him "That is okay. We will just do a small party with us five. Well and Crop and Straw if they want to come."
Horror sees Nightmare looks surprised and just chuckles "It will be nice. Something nice to focus on and enjoy together." he rubs the tiny cheek and Nightmare closes his sockets to lean into the touch.
The five of them relax and eat dinner soon after that as they casually discuss when everyone wants their own birthdays. Horror makes a point of picking up their housephone and calling Dani and Ellie to give them an update on the birthday situation and to invite them the party if they want to and have time. Horror also gives Crop the same update and invitation.
They are together. They are healing. The are happy.
And they have a party to prepare. They have to make sure Nightmare enjoys his very first birthday party after all.
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#utmv#realageau#nightmare sans#deaged nightmare#killer sans#cross sans#dust sans#horror sans#Horror my beloved <3 I love his POVS. They are so calm and relaxed <3 Love him#Not as much as his datemates love him though YOOOOO!#Yes the four are dating.#(Maybe that will be a drabble on itslef but at the moment i don't have the mental energy to write them having that convo at the moment)#INSTEAD!#The baby. Needs a birthday day!#These four menaces who have been jumping both universes timelines and cheating physics: ....#them: right! A birthday! Which we have! Of course!#They rush off to converse and figure out when the fuck they would technically be born here and what could work.#Not baby though <3 baby gets first pick and priority because all of them realised that either.#Baby never had a birthday. which is CRIMINAL!#Or. Baby got hurt on his birthday. WHICH!! is even worse?!#The conclusion? Get baby the best birthday ever! which they are getting to work on planning RIGHT NOW!#(One of them will eventually update Error when Error checks in on them again.)#(They aren't encouraging Error's behaviour. Which is why they don't just leave a note for him to find. if he wants to know he has to ask)#(Like a normal person isntead of just CREEP ON THEM!)#But a short drabble! I still got it! I can write short drabbles!
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"The Boy With The Thorn in His Side"(x) - The Smiths × 2023 Strollonso moments + pundits' reactions
#baby's first web weave please be kind#frankly i could make a giant masterpost on my opinions on which Smiths songs fit which drivers/ships#i like their music a very healthy amount and I don't spend countless hours daydreaming to it...no....#but this particular song has been haunting me bcs i think it fits them super well!!#with their relationship dynamics and then the way everyone doubts their relationship#though its been hilarious watching the f1tv commentators kind of resign themselves to 'ah well ig this is what AMR/Fernando is like now'#went from being confused and shocked at their on track comradery to just accepting it for what it is#now theyre like 'ah yes lance dutifully lets fernando pass' compared to the previous ouright disbelief and denial#yeah thats right...theyre in love...what are you gonna do about it...#i think one day itd be fun to make a vid comp of all the times the commentators were ?????? at strollonso's lovey doveyness it is fun TO ME#it was really funny to look through shitty articles for negative comments#but the funniest part is that istg all of the articles just quote this one singular man who is hellbent on being a hater#i am in your walls peter windsor.#i think its silly when they bring in 'f1 experts' for their opinions ona drivers motivations and mindset#they act like such armchair psychologists like bruh your degree is probably engineering or journalism calm down!!#hehehe anyways happy with this!! i wrote it out on paper like a whole ass essay draft to brainstorm what to put#and then i scrolled thru the draft while listening to the song and im just EEEEEEE IT FITSSSSSSS#f1#formula 1#formula one#we do a little bit of f1#lance stroll#fernando alonso#fa14#ls18#1418#1814#strollonso#alonstroll#normal posts that catie normally makes in a normal fashion
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genuinely i am fucking speechless after seeing that art and cassie confirming it as a scene from tlkof like
#i dont even know what i could say right now#other than what the fuck??????#like she just went and did that#DURING PRIDE#like this is NOT on#my emotions cannot take this any longer#stop playing with my feelings cassie#i will genuinely sob so hard when i read that scene#(just as i have cried about this art just now)#<- im a fucking cry baby but seriously this shit made me so emotional#my sister made me tea to calm me down#she the real mvp#kit herondale#ty blackthorn#kit x ty#kitty#the dark artifices#the wicked powers#tda#twp#tsc
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#currently on the worst road trip of my whole entire life! well. i don't want to jinx it lmao but#today i popped TWO TIRES at once in the middle of the Katy Freeway in Houston TX (the widest highway in the US; 26 lanes btw)#managed to make it over to the shoulder without DYING but then had to sit there for like an hour? and panic called a tow truck because duh#I know how to change a tire but I was – again – sitting on the shoulder of the widest freeway on the continent so#anyway I called a tow; a guy showed up. I assumed it was the tow! turned out it was not. but he helped me put on the spare and then was lik#“follow me to my shop I can do the tires for you” and I was like okay! 👍 but then the ACTUAL tow called me and I realized this was#just a random guy (very nice up to that point but then I got scared about following him to a secondary location?) and so I didn't lmao#I just kept driving and didn't follow him but the guy on the phone was then mad at me because I wasn't where I said I would be because#AGAIN – I thought the original guy WAS the tow company that I called? but anyway guy 2 on the phone was like “YOU OWE ME $200!!!!”#and I said for what? also how would I pay you? and he tried to get me to cash app him lmao?? I didn't. I hung up on him#he called me like 6 more times yelling at me until I finally just blocked his number 💀#however NOW at this point I'm driving on one spare tire and one rapidly-flattening second tire and I still have 3 hours left to get where#I was going for the night and to top it all off I'm in the middle of a city I've only been to one time before? so I manage to get to a hote#like a nice-ish one where I'm like “okay if I get stuck here this won't be the end of the world”#because keep in mind today is a national holiday so basically everything is closed!!!! btw!!!!!#but eventually I'm sitting there and it's literally 100F outside and I remember oh right lol I have car insurance which pays for a tow#(a normal one; not a random one I panic-found on google who calls me screaming at me to cash app him $200)#so anyway I call my insurance and the guy on the phone is very nice and is like “it's okay; we'll have someone to you in 45 min”#and I'm like okay. OKAY. 🙌💪 I am a strong independent woman who is figuring this out and no longer on the side of the highway#but instead in a nice calm neighborhood and all I have to do is wait 45 min and everything will be okay#one hour goes by. I call back. get redirected to the tow company that was dispatched. guy says oh! is my guy not there yet?#I say no. he says okay – I'll have him call you. hangs up.#okay. 20 more min go by. guy finally calls me. says “I'm 20-25 min away” at this point I've been waiting about an hour and a half#I say. okay? okay. 30 more minutes go by. I try to call the guy back. straight to voicemail. three more calls. three more no answers.#I call my insurance back. sit on hold for 15 min. eventually get put through to a different person who's like “okay let me check on him”#get put on hold. eventually she comes back and says “okay he says 15 minutes” I've been waiting over 2 hours at this point. I have to PEE#I just... burst into tears. on the phone with this poor random woman from Geico Insurance. I'm bawling my eyes out.#she was trying to get claim info from me but I'm crying so hard she's like “oh baby no. okay. okay. we can get that from you tomorrow.”#when you cry so hard that even the insurance company is like “you know what we're just going to let this one slide”#anyway guy eventually shows up. he's very nice even though I hate him a little for being so late. he drives me to an OPEN TIRE SHOP
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Anxiety is exhausting as fuck and can fuck right off
#i am trying to organise a cattery for princess poopybutt#and my wife is STRESSING#baby i love you but shes a cat#she'll be fine#if shes shitty ekth us a few days after we get home so be it#i am trying to be understanding but i simply do not have the patience for anyone else's mismanaged mental situation right now#occasionally i very much want to yell#i know its not your fault but take a big fucking breath and hold my hand and we'll get through it#just because your brain is insisting its the end of the world#calm the fuck down it will be fine#i would not wish the hell of anxiety on anyone but sometimes the urge to grab people and shake them going NO ONE CARES AND ITS NOT THAT BAD!#bites really hard
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My mini contribution to @echoes-lighthouse's Evil Slasher Orphanage! My wife Anna and I are here to help, and brought a few more kids of our own.
I really thought I was a horror fan until I sat down to draw this and came up blank. I guess I'm not a slasher guy, because a LOT more Monsters and Beasts came to mind, so it took a while to form a list. Though I did include Sam who is certainly a Creeture but.. They're human enough.
#Emile's Arts#Proud Parent Posting#Slasher Orphanage#I'm stealing the Entity's abilities from DBD and giving them to me#And then immediately using them on accident to bring all these kids into one reality#That doesn't have to be canon to the orphanage obviously I just love being an Eldritch Being but Stupid#Also Friday the 13th is a movie in the Scream franchise so I thought this was a fun way to explain that fkjsdfkdfdkj#Honorable mention goes out to Frankenstien's Monster he is my baby but I could not for the life of me choose a design for him#I knew I KNEW I wanted Brandon immediately amazing concept that movie horrid execution#What if you had the powers of God in Middle School. You'd kill people right??? Right.#Also Sam Trick R Treat my beloved amazing Comic series that I love their design and energy#Spirit of Halloween little guy#One year I will dress up as them.. one year#ALSO BUBBA#I was so surprised Bubba wasn't in the original Orphanage cast he's SUCH a sweet pea I love him#Do not let him in the kitchen I don't care how big and wet his puppy eyes are do not let him in there#I also included Billy Trick R Treat because I wanted to the kid who plays him in the movie adaptation is very cute#And I LOVE a murderous little kid it's incredibly funny to me#More honorable mentions I considered;#Fran Bow and Misfortune but neither of them are Slashers on Purpose really#Misfortune is just a victim and IF Fran did kill her parents it wasn't her own choice#Six LN as well I love her but again... Not really a slasher. Also she's like two feet tall#I also though M3gan but eeeeeeeeeeeh I dunno I might come back to that#I was thinking about Rin Dead By Daylight as well and she's still on the table I think she'd fit in#I was also originally going to do The New King from Chzo Mythos but changed to John just because he's more Slasher Child than DaCabe#And again I kept running through Monsters like from Crypt TV and such and decided against them#Me my children my wife and this random person who's farm we stumbled across and are now crashing in#It's fine Anna's very use to Farm Labor she'll be a great help#And she is VERY calm comforting mother-y when she eventually calms down#She's gonna dote all over those girls
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#i love you so much the things you said to me meant everything to me and still do i still think about the ways you said i love you to me#i think about them all the time i think about how you would comfort me and calm me down i think about how you new things about me i shared-#with few i think about how patient you were with me when no one else was patient. few still are i can count them on one hand#you told me you werent ready to be dating. you told me you felt you werent in the right space to be in a relationship#and i believe that was true when you told me but it still hurts to see you with someone else#and i hate that it hurts i hate that i still have this feeling of jealousy and possessiveness. it hurts my heart it tires me out#it makes my skin feel hot is makes me head feel like my frontal lobe is boiling#i hate how i miss you still it's been almost 6 months#that's longer than when we dated#you made me feel like i had nothing to worry about and that i was truely desired and wanted and loved#and then it crashed. and then i couldnt get over it. and i'm still not over it. and now your happy with someone else and i'm still thinking#about you. i'm sorry i'm so sorry#i truly hope you're happy baby
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*advertisement voice-over*: feeling anxious? need to calm your nerves? try googling pictures of bukayo saka for instant relief! recommended by professionals worldwide.
#i'm not ready for the match y'all#as the hours pass by i can feel my heart rate increase#i'm actually looking at pictures of baby b to calm down right now#but when 3am comes idt even that can save me#if yall need pics of baby b lmk and i'll drop one in your inbox sksk OR feel free to send me any if yall have!!#ice talks#bukayo saka#arsenal fc
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Can my twin and I have matching knitted outfits!? I think we'd be so cute wearing them when you're pushing us around in a stroller!
Love,
(one of) your new babies 🍼
Well I'll need to see if I have enough yarn! As for knitted I am.......terrible at doing anything but very simple blankets so everything will be crocheted. But I will totally make the cutest little matching outfits for you both!!!!
Gods is anyone else imagining the teeniest tiniest baby cardigans with hand mits and booties??????????? Can you IMAGINE THE CUTENESS??????
#;you have questions? i have answers!#my baby💕#;OR SOMETHING DUCK THEMED??#;CAUSE I AM DUCK OBSESSED THERE NEEDS TO BE A COORDINATING DUCKY OUTFIT FOR THE TWINNIES#;ooooooooooooooooo i need to put babies in cute little outfits right now to calm the brooding HOLY SHIT
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HI BABIES i hope everyone had a safe weekend! i’m sorry for dropping off the face of the earth, i spent the long weekend with my family and it is very very hectic down there!!!!!
life update teehee
i saw carla webhe and peach prc live and lost my voice 🫶
my partner got their name legally changed!!!!
they also got their tongue pierced and they’re being such a baby about it (i unfortunately love them so i’m going to continue to take care of them)
i did a 3 hour hike with my partner, TWO twelve year olds, my sister and my 18 month old nephew (he was having a blast truly, the moment there was stairs he was gunning it)
basically it never stopped the 5 days i was down south lmao
i’m sorry to everyone i’ve ignored the last week LMAO but how are u all!!!!!!
#it’s a 15 hour round trip to my parents so we did that drive down and then i was helping my partner work and just lordy#i don’t think it ever stopped#i was either hanging with my mum and the two kids there who are just INSANE too much energy#i know ur like 6 but PLEASE calm#or hanging with my nephew who’s like nearly 2 so he’s just being annoying at this age LMAO#no he’s cute he just likes to push the rules LMAO u say no and he will stare at u and walk backwards#or tries to eat DOG FOOD and cries to his MOTHER that i didn’t let him#SORRY FOR CARING#no jk he’s a cutie i love him#he’s also teething so he’s just a big ol baby right now bjt tbags okay#「mercury speaks」
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crystal gem 🥺🥺💎🩷 i hope you’re sleeping well at the moment my dear princess fairy of crystals 🥺🥺🩷 i can’t wait to see how your hair looks after your appointment!! i already love your hair as it is but since it’s not comfortable for you im excited 😚🩷 you’re gonna look the best no matter what 🥺🩷
this time my moodboard won’t be ruined by the app >:3 i did it on picsart!! and omg i can’t believe i never used this pic of taehyun as if he isn’t super cinnamoroll coded there?? he’s so cute, and you’re even cuter my sweetie pie 🥺😚🩷
mommy ;3; my period cramps aren’t great ;; i think i’m going to try resting some more but i really wanted to write you something for when you wake up 🥺🩷 i wish mommy was here so i could be in your arms and we could chill together~ we will definitely do that later 🥺🥺🩷
darling >\\\\< i loved our recap and i forgot to tell you that in my response i just loved getting to see you yesterday in our video call, i felt so blessed and i still do 🤭🩷🩷 my beautiful mommy with her beautiful face and body 🥺🥺🩷 you’re the one who makes the dress look beautiful as i’ve said 🥹🩷 you’re my dream woman i feel like i can’t believe it and yet you’re with me 🥹🥺🩷 i love you so so much mommy 🥺 i’ll definitely try to sleep some more and feel a little less sick from the cramps >\\< i miss you aaah ;///; need you mwah mwah 🥺🩷 idk if i’m making much sense anymore 😖 i love you my pudding~ hm~ my crystal mint chewing gum 🥺🩷
my sweet cherry bear~ 🥺🥺🩵🩵 i slept so well my love~ i'm still a little bit sleepy but i'll be okay :3 i can't wait to finally have my hair done i'll send pics 🥺🩵 the fact that you already like my hair makes me so >///< like that makes my heart so warm 🥺🥺 i love your hair it's always so pretty especially when you let it air dry it's so gorgeous you're always so beautiful to me~
AAAAA THIS MOODBOARD 🥺🥺🥺🥺 that's one of my favorite cinnamoroll pictures ever he's such a sleepy fluffy boy 🥺 my sleepy fluffy boy right next to our cutie cinnamoroll coded boy~ he looks like a baby bottle pop (idk if you have those where you are here's what they look like for reference dhjshg)
you're even cuter my little cutie pie 🥺🥺🩵🩵🩵
i'm so sorry about your cramps baby :(( i hope you're getting plenty of rest now and staying hydrated 🥺 you're so sweet for writing this for me anyway my love 🥺🥺 i wish i was there so i could hold you in my arms and keep you warm and comfy :( mhm we definitely will 🥺🩵🩵
i loved being able to see you too seeing your face makes me so so happy 🥺🥺 you're so beautiful from head to toe my love~ 🥺🩵 i feel so blessed by your warm presence baby you wear everything so well i can't stop thinking about you in that comfy little night gown hehe >//< you're so sexy and beautiful and so dreamy~ babyyyy 🥺🥺🩵🩵 of course i'm with you! i love you so much you're my dream come true and my ideal type i'm so in love with you 🥺🩵🩵 i love you so so much my little flan, my sweet cherry princess~
i sincerely hope you're getting some good rest and healing from your cramps 🥺🥺 my poor girl i wish i was rubbing your tummy ;3; 🩵 mwah mwah mwah~
#sometimes i wish i could shout to the world that i love you#every time one of my friends asks about you i can't stop myeslf from going into motor mouth mode and talking their ear off about you#you're just so lovely and sweet and amazing and you're so calming and you're cool in your own way i love that so much#you're simply the best 🥺🥺🥺#i wish we were holding each other right now ;;; 🩵🩵#i miss you so much baby 🥺🩵#cherry bear 🍒
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me having one of the absolute worst days of my life after the best night of my life
#it has been. a TRIAL.#i have surgery monday it’s the first surgery i’ll ever remember having (the other was when i was a wee baby) so i’m freaking#the fuck out. and my mom decided to make my anxiety abt it Worse so now i’m just. trying to stop freaking the fuck out and calm down but#i can’t breathe right so. UGH. and also i backed my sisters car into a tree and i started my period and i dropped a casserole all over the#floor of my sisters car and it kept getting worse and worse from there#vent
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another vent, don't mind me. just need to get things out
#vent#don't mind me#i think i may be developing postpartum depression and anxiety#which yes. i had an appointment with the midwife today to talk about it and we have a plan#but having a plan doesn't get rid of the feeling that i'm drowning#i just feel like all of it is too much. everything. i can barely get myself to feel excited about things right now#i look at my son and want to cry because i feel like i'm failing him. and my husband is being such a great support and assures me i'm not#he says that as long as i'm trying my best i'm not failing him. and i am. i really am trying my best. but it doesn't feel like enough#my husband seems to be doing the majority of baby care and i can barely manage to change a diaper right now#i'm here taking a bath and trying not to sob while he's out there watching the baby and seems perfectly content#i can't sleep without having a nightmare that something happened to my son. not even a nap. and that anxiety transfers to my awake hours#i broke down sobbing today and my husband had to calm me down because i could barely breathe#i just don't know what to do. i have a tiny human relying on me and i'm not even producing enough breastmilk to feed him#i don't regret having him. he's the best thing that's ever happened to me. but i hate feeling like this. like i'm failing horrible mom#i just don't know what to do anymore
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oh no the guy you dated for less than a year before having a kid with most of which was spent doing coke and smoking inside is not a good father, the guy who went to prison for crimes against a child, the one you’re completely financially dependant on and have no way to leave, who has physically abused you before and refuses to communicate until he explodes at you, he’s not a very good man maybe. who would’ve guessed, who could’ve possibly seen this coming.
#I love this person I genuinely love my friend#and I would do anything for him and his child#but JESUS FUCKING CHRIST WHY DID HE HAVE A KID WITH THAT GUY#like were the signs not all there?????#I feel responsible somehow#for not idk for not encouraging him more to leave the man who hit him#to please calm down on the baby fever and idk spend a year without trying to kill himself before he has a fucking kid#at the same time that wasn’t my decision to make. it’s his body his choice to have a child#but MAN#he’s in such a fucking bad situation#like his life was never good. he navigated crisis to crisis to trauma and more trauma#but I always had hope that he could make it out. that he’d find stability. health. peace. heal#now I genuinely don’t see how it’s gonna get better#cause he can’t put himself first anymore. he has a child#which yeah ofc he should. thats his responsibility as a parent and he gets that#he’s a damn good father#but . we’re in our 20s we’re meant to have fun and heal from our teenage years#its like he skipped that part to have a midlife crisis right now#I feel terrible I hate his man and I resent his choice to have a kid#and seeing him (my friend) makes me fucking depressed cause all he talks about is how bad things are#but I can’t abandon him#but I also kinda. don’t like to see him anymore.#it just fills me with regrets and rage and despair#and I can’t even really be happy when he talks about his kid and how much he loves him#cause all I see is how he’s trapped in this life now forever#I miss when he’d ask about my life too tbh#all I do is listen and listen and listen to all his problems#and he keeps repeating them like a broken record like he hasn’t told me the same stories a thousand times#my life is easy next to his so I kinda. feel like it’s not my place to interject when he cuts me off to talk about himself#idk man I’m stuck. stuck in his life along everything else. trapped in the mess.
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while im in an oversharing mood last time my baby cousin was over I heard a phrase yelled at her from upstairs and I haven't had that level of a panic attack start to set in as quick as it did since I was in school!
People who know know. My breathing was fucked and I dipped in my parents room and no amount of telling myself to get a fucking hold of us was working B)
#i got a distraction enough but I was on edge for a while after that bc it really was just like I got put back into little mes shoes and we#were being yelled at again for not reacting perfectly like how people wanted#At the time of yelling for my baby cousin the mindset I was having could have been comparable 2 when id be locked in my room or sent away#and screaming I was sorry for whatever wasn't being talked over and I would be ignored until I calmed down#once I was throwing literally throwinf written apologies and sobbing and being continually ignored bc I acted out poorly#younger me had. he had a lot of big boy emotions as a little kid and no one dealt with it right you know? it wasn't my fault but I was lead#to it. bc I was being a brat. always always a brat.#I would get told that through closed teeth and being grabbed hard by my mom usually a lot growing up#fun fact though the way I apologize now and how I handle upsetting people is directly bc I was severely ignored in childhood! No I don't do#well with conflict thanks for noticing#I do really bad with it. I had a thing happen with a friend once and I spent hours screaming and belittling myself bc I was convinced I was#the bad guy and fucked up another good thing (bc I was led 2 feed that thought pattern early) and I convinced myself I wasn't good for him#it got solved fine but I was NOT nice to myself at all
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