#my askbox is empty and it makes me sad

[signedjehanne]

dear white bandom tumblr, what the hell do you want us to say?

i’m tired. i’m really, really tired. 

look, what do you want us to say at this point? this was supposed to be a safe space, for the freaks and the outcasts, but we’ve long established that it is very much not safe. it’s crystal fucking clear.

and honestly, pretty much every white user on here is actively contributing to the hostility here. whether you like it or not, it’s not good to only reblog empty reassurances of anti-racism that do more service to yourself than to others. it’s not good to see poc on the dash trying to educate the white majority and doing everything possible to educate you, and either A) ignore it, B) like it, but don’t reblog it, because god forbid you sit with your discomfort for more than five seconds, or C) send racist anon hate to the original poster, or try to deflect their points. it’s not good to see something racist and let it slide. let me get this straight: none of these fans of color owe you anything. fans of color don’t owe you the time of day, fans of color don’t owe you education, and fans of color don’t owe you the dignity of a levelheaded reply in response to your racist comments. 

often times, we try to educate because we want this space to change. i mean, i didn’t have to write a five paragraph essay dissecting anti asian racism in mcr’s content. i did it because i was angry, and tired, and frustrated, and wanted the space to change. the same reason that every other ignored dissection and analysis that spent blood, sweat, tears, and emotional labor to make was created. a lot of the time you guys just don’t understand how much effort things like that take. and to be clear, this is not just the usual “oh my post didn’t go viral and i’m not a celebrity i’m so sad,” this is “i poured all of myself into trying to educate people that turned out to never care. i have been blatantly shown that the people around me aren’t interested in changing, no matter how much they claim to be.” 

and like, do you want me and countless other users to go in depth again? do you want us to jump from racist incident to racist incident? to hold your hand through explaining why making art of ray being arrested is bad, why gerard’s fetishization of asian people is bad, why making rising sun art and designs is bad, why reducing all of pete wentz’s work to being about mikey way is bad, why shaming people with non-european features for “not looking emo enough” is bad, why insulting and degrading pete and ray for their natural features is bad, why cropping ray out of tour videos is bad, why calling people slurs in their askboxes is bad? (and so much more that i didn’t add.) do you want us to go over the history of racism in alternative spaces as a whole? do you expect us to do all of those things for you on a whim, to make it palatable to you, as if we weren’t real people with real feelings behind the screen and as if we had infinite time and emotional energy? really? when there are many resources already out there, both online and offline? 

what all this tells me is you don’t see us as human. simple as that. you expect us to be able to take the abuse, to be able to silently let your racism pass, and if we ever speak up, you ignore the work we give to you and demand inhuman feats of patience and generosity, answering your every question and responding to your every debate and coddling you as you refuse to sit with the reality of the space you’ve helped to create. and that’s only if you claim to be on our side. 

it’s insane hearing you try to placate yourselves. trying to mindlessly agree without looking inward. i know this sounds harsh, but i know that most of you need to hear it. i just want this space to actually change, like i was begging for back in january and february. of course, i was foolish to believe that it ever would. and i’m foolish now, writing this as if people are ever going to pay attention. even if it does break a few hundred notes, it’s not like the message is going to stick around. sure, you’re “doing the work”, “listening and learning”, but how am i supposed to know that when your responses never change, and this scene stays the same as it ever was?

[struggle-but-its-all-ocean-floor]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who reblogged something from you! get to know your mutuals and followers ୨୧

Hi!! I had no idea who you were at first, but when I looked at your blog and saw you're @golden-jeon-jungkook, I fangirled for a moment! I was so honored you sent me this ask! I really like your blog! Bless you for the Jungkook content!! I feel like there aren't that many Jungkook biased accounts creating their own content here!

Ok, so, five things that make me happy! I'm going to cheat a bit since some of these are connected to each other...

Jungkook? And BTS (obvious answer, sorry, but it's so true, they are on my mind 24/7). Fun fact, I finally, fucking finally, saw a poster of Jungkook's third CK campaign (you know, the photo when he's leaning back against the wall, all pouty), on a CK store near me! I fucking flipped and made my mom stressed thinking something bad had happened, lmao. Nope, just finally saw a BTS member in Portugal... I took pics and everything. I'm pretty sure the store lady saw me... I also saw one of the jackets JK wore in the campaign, and it's like I could picture him wearing it - like holding the jacket was like holding Jungkook or something. I'm not crazy! but it's amazing how something so small, like a poster or clothes like the ones Jungkook wore, can brighten my day... That's BTS's power... I know that when get sad now, I'll pass by the store if I can and it'll make me feel proud of Jungkook and BTS, and happier to see my baby. Just like randomly hearing LC play on a playlist at that same shopping mall melted away the irritation and anger I was feeling at the time, leaving only pride and excitement behind...

My parents (should probably come first, lmao)

Having dinner and time to myself after a long day at work (there's nothing quite like it, I'm like 'no thoughts, head empty', just wanna chill; it's honestly the only thing that makes work seem meaningful, although that's a lie)

Going on longs walks during the weekend (it's a great way to burn calories, build muscle, and force myself out of the house! I'm all about building muscle), and, tbh, just working out in general and getting stronger (I'm proud of my arms but they should be bigger! I wish I had JK's body lmao)

The vegan pastries, cookies and sweets I buy on Friday and during the weekends (hence, why I need to work out so much)

I know it's supposed to be 5 things, but I want to add my sustainable and ethically curated wardrobe and stuff...

Anyway, thanks for the ask!!! Sorry I ramble so much! Love your blog <3

[itterasshai-eren7]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who reblogged something from you! get to know your mutuals and followers ♡

Hello, I kind of don't understand but come on, the things that make me happy and that I also like. It's listening to music, reading books, Fanfics or anything that catches my attention, pictures of kittens and bunnies and cute puppies, and sleeping because when I'm sleeping I don't feel sad or empty. Now tell me what are your five things that make you happy?

Now about sending it to the question box of my followers or those who follow me, I kind of don't like sending anything without purpose, and I also don't like to disturb them. but thank you for sending me an ask, you are the second person to do this. 🩷🩵

[void-star]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for people who reblogged something from you recently! get to know your mutuals and followers (ू•‧̫•ू⑅)♡

Aaaaa okay

Sunlight

Summer-time night driving on empty highways with the music blasting

Engaging in the process of artistic expression in all its forms

All the ways my friends show me they think of me ♡

All the worst bad sad characters in stories, especially if they're villains nobody likes

[starlitfunkster]

New Years 2024 Updates List

Hello! It's the first time I am ever doing this. It's because.. well, how do I put this? I got distracted. Very distracted. And also very unmotivated with my writing skills. Which is why there will be updates for EVERY blog. It will go in order of "how big the update is". In order it's "Not that bad" to "Oh god, the blog is on a long ass hiatus". I apologize in advance to Melody, the only other person who's helping work on Objects in Orbit!

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@lonelystarmenagerie - "It's no surprise that we are being ignored now. Obviously. Blogs with OC's that aren't based on the currently trending topic are very unpopular. Especially if they aren't fuckin' mary-sues/gary-stus. It sucks, but that's just how the world of Tumblr is right now. So yeah, that's our update for this year." ~Piko (Oh yeah, my resolution is to actually be out there more. You can figure out the rest.)

@starsoscsonas - "My my! We are also being hard ignored. It makes me very sad, though that's just because we are not truly out there yet either. I think my resolution is to make the blog much more interesting by bringing in some contestants that have been eliminated from my show! (It will uh.. come back eventually, from what Aria has told me.)" ~Star Lamp

@aibmonsterau - "I am.. honestly not surprised. Guys, this is AIB we are talking about. The one the community no longer posts about because the series is most likely dead. I hope it isn't, for the record! My resolution is to be there when Starlight Espresso comes out with the others. We wish you well, Groink." ~Recycling Bin

@pokemon196, and also @eeveelutionsdoingreviews - "I am 100% sure that the review blog is dead. I will go and delete the Discord Server, Application, and Blog. I will still be here on my own blog, and Kuro can do whatever she wants to do with hers! My resolution is for there to be people watching the blog's plot grow!" ~Sunny the Espeon

@askdusknfriends - "God, the images look cringe. Fuck it, we are doing whatever Quint's doing. My resolution is to get Aria to start doing that." ~Sugar (And don't worry, I'll see to it that there's no profile images b/c they look bad. ~Aria)

@asksomerobotmasters - "I think we are just going to stick to doing sketches, and have full-colored refs in the Characters page. I honestly don't want Aria to be stressing herself out. To be honest, I am worried for her. I shouldn't be, but I am. My resolution is to get Aria some therapy of some kind." ~Quick Man (Also I am not the one you should be saying this to. ~Aria)

@towermaidenpiz - "Guys the plot isn't going to start on its own." ~??? "Golly, this blog sure has been inactive, hasn't it? You guys do know I can still answer questions, right? I really want to! It's getting boring here. :(" ~Aria (PT)

@askiireplacements - "We're still here, the blog's just been very inactive without any questions to move the plot along. It's sad, but it is what it is. Also, my resolution is to find out what's in that mansion. No more fear.. I need to." ~Bamboo

@lrgs-tboiau - "Although the askbox is going to be emptied out, we will be accepting new questions! H-Hopefully this gives everyone more to do!" ~Lazarus (If a question gets ignored or deleted, just assume its for plot reasons. And most likely spoilers to that plot. ~Aria)

@asktheshadow - "I think I should just link it to the main blog.. maybe that'll give the poor guy some attention." ~Aria

@objectsinorbit - "Objects in Orbit will be on permanent hiatus until I can get over my writers block and write Episode 2, Episode 3, Episode 4, and Episode 5. Then I can go back to taking a break from there. Until then, stay tuned for the new year." ~Aria

@dailydoseofditto - "…That blog's been dead for a while. It's still going to be up for archival purposes, just like eeveelutionsdoingreviews." ~Vi

[twelves]

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[twoidiotwriters1]

🍒 with Gilbert in a place where they could be discovered (congrats for the followers!)

This has been sitting in the askbox collecting dust bc I HAD to make it justice. This is a modern!au btw and you’re both adults -Danny

Good to Him - (Gilbert Blythe xGN!Reader)

"You're going to take it all," He mutters right next to your ear, grinding against you, "and you're going to be quiet about it, otherwise someone might see you... You don't want that, do you?"

You don't answer, to be honest the thought of someone finding Gilbert fucking you into oblivion isn't exactly what you'd call a nightmare. His hand tightens on your hip and you suck in a sharp breath.

"Unless you do want it?" You can almost see him smirking, his buldge rubbing up and down behind you. "Would you like that, love? Want me to fuck you in front of everyone?"

You turn slightly to palm his dick over the fabric of his pants. "Please Gil... Please, touch me..."

"I am touching you, dear..."

"Gilbert," You groan, hastily unzipping his pants. "If you don't fuck me right in this instant, I swear to God I'll fight you."

"I've always known you like it rough," He jokes.

Your boyfriend turns you around roughly, forcing you to face the wall, you're not a fan of this position, watching Gilbert as he falls apart is one of your favorite things in the world, but you're so needy you can't bring yourself to protest against it.

Gilbert pumps his length a few times before yanking down your clothes and placing the tip in your entrance, he moans at the feeling, you're warm and inviting, he kisses your neck and you let out a whine that makes his knees weak.

He doesn't waste time before quickly pounding into you from behind, if you weren't in such an open space, he would take his sweet time to get you ready for him, but he's desperate, and you don't have all night.

"You're perfect," He pants, Gilbert's hands move all over your body in a frantic attempt to ground himself, one of them ends up on your throat. "You'll be good to me, won't you, Y/N?"

"Yes," You moan, hand closing around his gently. "Yes Gil, I'll be so good..."

"You take me so well..." He grunts, pressing his hips tighter against your ass. "Be good, Y/N, give me a kiss..."

Your head moves to the side and his lips land on yours instantly, it's a sloppy movement, both of you focused on your releases, your free hand moves to his bum and you give a little squeeze, pushing him deeper inside you, Gilbert groans.

His hand leaves your throat and seizes your own, pinning it above you, in a quick movement he grabs the other one and places it on the same place.

He's rough, and you can feel his cock deep inside you every time he thrusts back in, you feel yourself floating in bliss, you're so close...

"Let go," Gilbert kisses your temple, short and beautiful noises come out of his mouth between each word he says. "Cum for me, Y/N, you're doing so well..."

Your orgasm arrives abruptly, triggered by his praise, you squeeze him and he can feel your walls spasming around him. His movements turn erratic, and with a loud groan he cums inside you.

Gilbert keeps you close, hips sttutering as he slows down, he doesn't stop until you're both too sensitive to keep going.

"I love you," You sigh dreamily, behind you Gilbert chuckles.

"That's awkward, I only see you as a friend."

You swat his arm playfully and his laughter increases.

"I'm sorry, but I find that hard to believe when you're still inside me."

"You're a very close family friend."

"Oh, fuck off!" You snort, pushing him away.

He moves out of you, leaving you empty, you don't have time to get sad about it though, because as soon as you turn around he cups your face and kisses you deeply.

"I love you too," He brushes some hairs away from your forehead, "more than words can express."

You smile, pecking his lips once more before looking over his shoulder, now that your horniness has vanished, you feel a little selfconscious.

"Can we please get dress and go home now? I keep thinking a bee's gonna sting my ass if I stand in the garden for another minute..."

Gilbert chortles, but he nods. "Let's go home, love."

Forever Taglist.

@just-here-to-escape-from-reality @i-am-scared-and-useless-bisexual 

ANNE Taglist (All Genders).

@ninizkd @http-itsrebecca @aleksosoto

ANNE Taglist (GN!Reader).

@fuckthisshitimoutyall

[missmouse25]

Oh bestie I’m back 😈 so I have another request for max f. I might’ve requested it you before I’m not really sure I can’t remember but the request is that the reader is American and doesn’t have a visa yet and in the uk if you don’t have a visa you can only stay for 6 months so the reader stayed her 6 months and now she has to leave and it’s really sad and she’s crying and max keeps saying stuff like “baby don’t cry” “I hate seeing you sad”

Bestie I am always glad to see you in my askbox! 😘I hope you enjoy this one

Don't Let Me Go - Max Fewtrell

gender neutral first person pov // 625 words // no warnings but the reader is a sobbing mess

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“But I don’t want to go!”

I sat on the bed with my face buried in one of Max’s hoodies. Unfortunately, for him, it was the one he was wearing.

He kept his arms wrapped around me as I sobbed my heart out.

It was been the most wonderful six months in the UK. Max and I had been to all the tourist sites that I could think of. And then we’d been to all the tourist sites he could think of. We’d spend time at home together, cuddled on the couch watching movies and eaten so many sweets treats that we’d felt sick. Watched so many Grand Prix’s and yelled so loudly that I’d lost my voice the next day.

Even when Max had been working, it had been fun to go exploring myself and be able to come back later and tell him all about my misadventures. He would sit back and let me ramble on about what id done and he would look at all the pictures I’d taken.

But better than all of that was falling asleep at night, having the person I loved be next to me in the same bed. Even if he did steal all the blankets.

But in a few days, it was all going to be over and I wasn’t ready to say goodbye.

Max slowly ran his hand along my back, trying his best to soothe me. As much as I appreciated the gesture, it wasn’t really helping.

I looked through blurry eyes at the room: clothes strewn about everywhere. I had been packing some of my things away, thinking about the empty apartment that was waiting for me back in the US and gotten angry. My clothing had been the easiest victim to attack and they didn’t stand a chance.

“Baby, please don’t cry like this.”

Very gently, Max lifted me off of his body, ignoring the wet patch on his chest.

“Look at me,” he said, trying to catch my eye. “Hey, hey, love. Look at me.”

Reluctantly I did as he asked. If the sense of comfort could be a person, it would’ve been him; I so badly wanted to go right back to how I had been not seconds before.

“Let’s just take a breather.” He physically breathed in and nodded his head.

I followed his lead, much less enthusiastically.

“I know that this sucks. It sucks for me too, I promise.” Max brushed his thumbs over my cheek, wiping the tears away. “But I hate seeing you sad. I don’t want your last little bit of time here to be like this.”

His kinds words just made me want to cry more. And he could see it.

“So!” He quickly continued. “We’re going to leave the packing for now. Ok?”

“Yeah, ok.”

“Come on,” he said holding his hand out as his stood up. “Let’s get out of here, baby.”

The parking lot was almost empty and the sky was starting to turn darker. Quietly, I nibbled on my chocolate, finally getting a grip on my emotions for the first time today.

“Before you know it, you’ll be able to come back here,” Max said. “And I’ll come visit you for a bit as well, love.”

“Want to see what life is like on the other side of the pond?” I teased and watched as the smile appeared on his face.

“Feeling better?”

“A bit.”

He took my hand in his and brought it to his lips for a sweet kiss. And with that simple gesture I knew that even though leaving would be hard, seeing him again was going to make it all worth it.

“No matter where in the world you are,” Max said. “I’ll always love you.”

[septembersghost]

i started watching bcs when it first aired but stopped when i got to season 5 because life got busy for me. i started watching again this year because i relapsed in my addiction and my mental health is literally is shambles and i found your blog and kimwexlersstrap and laloslayamanca's and it was a distraction from m pain to read your posts and memes and such so i started watching again to read your live blogging and feel a part of it even though i never post anything. now that i finished im like ok what do i distract myself with lol i feel so stupid and empty it's insane how something like a tv show is the only thing holding someone together

🥺 anon i am holding you tightly in a hug right now (@kimwexlersstrap @laloslayamanca i hope you both see this too 💗)

did you read what i linked from the sub in my post yesterday? if you didn't, i want to copy the text for you here, okay?

I just wanted to make this post because I was thinking about how very soon better call Saul will be over. And I know for a lot of addicts, and people who suffer from depression and suicidal thoughts, the ending of a tv show can be a huge trigger.

For some of us, the idea that another season of a show is coming out is a reason to stick around for another year. Sometimes it can feel like the only reason.

So I just wanted to make this post to remind those people to stay strong. There are always more shows, works of art and other aspects of life to fall in love with and provide us with passion. I know that these passions can sometimes be what keeps us alive. And regardless of all that, it does get better and recovery is never too far out of reach.

While Better Call Saul may end, life goes on. This show will always be in our hearts and we’re gonna be okay even after it ends.

I’m so glad we all got to connect over our passion for this phenomenal work of art. Much love to all of you and stay safe <3 (x)

reading that spoke closely to me, as someone who also very much stays alive for art. bcs has been such a dear and vital anchor for me for years. i've written about this in the past, but as someone chronically ill/disabled and homebound (entirely since dec. 2019), stories and music are my absolute lifelines and my connections to the outside world, and being here on tumblr is my window to it and the way i'm able to express it and reach other people. it is not stupid, ever, and it is not empty, it's vast. it's no small thing, it is profoundly important and real. they're the things that quite literally have kept me alive and given me a light in dark times. i struggle with anxiety/depression/suicidal ideation going along with my chronic illness/pain conditions, and the reprieve i have is in the art i dearly love and am passionate about. maybe i over-invest because of this, but i find i'd rather care too much and at least have something to hold onto. whenever i'm hurting, those passions keep me here.

this year has been a hard struggle and full of fear for my mom and me, and having bcs to look forward to and bond over/discuss has been dear to us, we're both feeling its loss heavily today.

when something ends, there is always a sadness. it's never silly to feel the depth of that grief, we need the time and the room to process that. it hits especially hard when it's something that's helped keep us going. nothing you're feeling is wrong, and i hope you know you're not alone at all.

i'm very happy you rediscovered the show and joined us here! even if you don't post anything, i promise your presence is appreciated. this message itself means so much to me, and i'm glad you're here. i'm sending you love and any strength i can, please remember that you matter and know that my blog is here and my askbox is always open to you. 💙💙💙

[kirric-the-fan]

Encanto fic masterlist (and Pirate!Au links below)

Yo, so I've put together a crib sheet, sortable by character and how much of a main character they are in any specific fic for all of my Encanto fics! Just to make it a little easier to find the fics with your favorites! (alas, the curse of a huge cast)

(There's a couple of WIP's in there too, I'll link them when they're up!)

Grab the filter on the left here, and you're good to go!

(Tumblr sometimes monches the links. Please give me a shout if any of them are awol)

ENCANTO PIRATE AU TREASURE content list below!

(Search tag #kirric's encanto pirate au)(All of the drabbles can be read in any order really atm, and is all pre-'movie' unless otherwise indicated)

I will be writing and posting a actual au movie-alt fic: Wind in my sails, (don't break me on the shore). I am currently in the process of writing said fic, but am aiming to have it all completed or a significant chapter buffer ready before I start posting. so it might be a little while in coming. In the meantimes, please enjoy all of these drabbles and shortfics from the au! :

Short of time/just want the essentials?: Read the posts marked *

**Intro post here

Doloriano ask

The siren's siren (Dolores + Mariano ficlet)

Alma @ the triplets

*The empty part of me (Mirabel backstory, failed gift ceremony- Antonio's gift ceremony)

Business as usual (The business of their trade, and some of the downsides. Mainly Pepa + Julieta)

Isabela's hat: the introduction

*Triplets headcanons (mainly hc's for the young triplets)

Isabela's gift (Julieta and Agustín helping young Isabela practice with her gift)

She takes after you (Felix feeling sad after Dolores' birth that she isn't a merperson like him)

The triplet's gifts (Appreciation of how well the triplets gifts fit a pirate au)

*What. Is. that? (Isabela and Mirabel pre-Antonio's gift ceremony scene)

Is there a doctor in the house? (hc's for Julieta & a little bit Dolores)

The dreamer (Agustín sometimes get distracted by his wife)

Some things don't change (Agustín is still an accident magnet)

The rat's nest (Mirabel and Antonio go visit Bruno in the crow's nest)

Deadliness ranking of pirate Madrigals

Pepa & Alma, and Alma & Mirabel relationship ask

Down time/ sports

Dolores mermaid transformation? Ask

Julieta powers side effect

Julieta drabble: Scars

Grandkid Gift ask (how grandkids first used their gifts)

Armour (Follow-up to Scars)

Family dynamics Q's round 1 Abuela other fam relationship ask (+Pepa gift/giftless Q and Pedro death Q)

Most likely to throw self into danger Q

Family dynamics Q's round 2!

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Key Character info post links:

Pepa Madrigal

Julieta Madrigal

Bruno Madrigal

Alma Madrigal

Félix Madrigal

Agustín Madrigal

Isabela Madrigal

Dolores Madrigal

Luisa Madrigal

Camilo Madrigal

Antonio Madrigal

Mirabel Madrigal

Casita, the flag, and the magic

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(I'll continue to update this as I go along. Askbox always open :-) feel free to send in any thoughts, questions or headcanons at any time! (I HAVE TURNED ANON ON) I will also consider requests with the au.)

[translightyagami]

James “translightyagami/avoidfilledwithcelluloid” Death Note Fic Masterlist

Hello to all you guys out there. Here is my full masterlist of allllll the Death Note fanfic I’ve written: There are over 120 fics contained within this entire list. I’m going to split it up by chapter fics, one-shot fics, short fic compilations, and gift fics I’ve done for fandom exchanges. The descriptions will tell you what the pairings are (mostly Lawlight, but there’s other stuff too). There are several posts of mine that are loosely defined fic, but I won’t be adding those in this post as they are just … hard to organize lol.

Fics are marked with E if they have explicit content and T if there are textual references to transgender characters. Chapter fics are marked as either complete or currently incomplete. Okay! Here we go! 

[UPDATED 11/20/2021]

CHAPTER FICS

sit and stay awhile https://archiveofourown.org/works/31032719 complete Light has a fantasy of sitting in L’s lap, and he’s got a plan to make that a reality.

the art of ink and flowers  https://archiveofourown.org/works/35106943 currently incomplete, E, T Light needs an apprentice and thinks he's found the perfect one in young firecracker Mello. Now to deal with Mello's uncle, the strange, mysterious, and - oops! - super hot florist Ryuzaki, who doesn't want his nephew near a tattoo parlor. What could possibly go wrong?

i could write it (better than you ever felt it) https://archiveofourown.org/works/13913043 currently incomplete Light works in the To-Oh university library, where he meets his favorite romantic mystery author, Eraldo Coil, who later reveals himself to be the great detective L. Through the course of their working together to solve a crime, Light finds he might have feelings for L and those feelings might be shared by the detective novelist.

your heart is an empty cup https://archiveofourown.org/works/13027707 currently incomplete Light is the assistant manager of a Starbucks in NYC, and L is one of his most annoying customers. When L accuses Light (correctly) of being Kira, as well as mysteriously asking for his help on a different case, the barista has to decide if he’s ready to get in bed with the enemy – maybe even literally.

the forest holds strange creatures https://archiveofourown.org/works/16442660 complete, E, T Light, a paranormal research grad student, comes to a small town trying to find a mysterious cryptid. He finds L, a 10-foot-tall tree creature, who helps Light discover the greatest cryptid of all: love. The only reason this one is in the chapter fic section is because it includes a Halloween special chapter with the intro of Beyond Birthday into the cryptid AU.

At Your Service https://archiveofourown.org/works/19229524 complete, E, T The Yagami family owns the sprawling, exclusive Hotel Kitsune where all sorts of international espionage agents make their temporary home. That includes the great detective L, whose romantic tension with Light comes to a boiling point when he comes to stay after a long absence.

best practices https://archiveofourown.org/works/21113519 complete, E, T Light has been working his way to the top of the corporate ladder thanks to his own hard work, and his more-than-close relationship with L, the company CEO and founder’s son. Their relationship comes to a head when L challenges Light to open himself up, making him vulnerable to showing the true depth of what he feels for L and his own desire to explore sexual power dynamics.

ONE-SHOT FICS

tell me the truth https://archiveofourown.org/works/12592320 E, T Light and Matsuda hit up a bar after work, and then Light hits up Matsuda for sex, praise, and a distraction from the deep emptiness inside him.

constricting https://archiveofourown.org/works/13721580 E, T Light breaks L’s favorite tea cup in their kitchen, and L eats him out because he loves his husband so much.

tell me I’m good https://archiveofourown.org/works/13986861 E In the middle of the night, L receives a drunk call from Light, hiding in the bathroom at a party. The call, turning from desperate to horny, reveals more about Light than L wanted to know.

if at first you don’t succeed https://archiveofourown.org/works/15119816 E, T Light gave his first blow job and accidentally bit L on the dick. He tries to make up for his mistake by trying again.

let me work on you https://archiveofourown.org/works/15884799 E, T As the result of losing bet to him, Light has to be L’s computer desk – naked and laying over his boyfriend’s lap. Of course, when L gives him another sexy challenge, Light can’t help but rise to the occasion.

alterations https://archiveofourown.org/works/17945957 E, T Light comes to visit his boyfriend Mikami at his fancy law office and suggests they have sex there. When Mikami reacts unfavorably, Light has to do damage control, and it smarts a lot more than he expected.

lizard https://archiveofourown.org/works/18552499 E, T Light meets a beefcake guy at a bar on the anniversary of L’s death, and lets him take him home (Lizard is my death note OC, and the fic was a wonderful commission from @queerical​)

Buried Alive https://archiveofourown.org/works/19705540 L and Light live together in L’s underground bunker after the apocalypse scorches the Earth. They watch some VHS tapes and do some gardening.

Our Little Secret https://archiveofourown.org/works/23822881 E After getting his memories, his freedom, back, Light wants to give L a gift: Kira tied up at his mercy. But L isn’t so sure if that gift is the one he really wants.

The Light of the Moon https://archiveofourown.org/works/25052722 E, T L is a vampire and accidentally bites Light, who is haunted by dreams that make him question why he wants L to bite him again (and maybe … something more …)

little animals https://archiveofourown.org/works/26829778 E Light and his werewolf boyfriend L fuck in their backyard garden.

Change OR the one where L and Light get married https://archiveofourown.org/works/27748159  E, T A gift/commish fic for @ohgodplsdontlook​. Six years after the Kira case closes, L and Light go have a wedding in the mansion where L spent his childhood summers. They bring the Yagami family, their baggage, and vows to share each other’s secrets.

a divine power https://archiveofourown.org/works/28018197 E L has a particular power that has helped him get confessions from even the most hardened, tight-lipped criminals, and he offers to use this power on Light to get an honest answer to the question "Are You Kira?" Not really believing L's power is real (and also smelling an easy way to lie his way out of being caught) Light agrees to submit to this bizarre investigative power - not realizing that L is about to make him a *very* honest man. (TL;DR, L has a Magic Cock That Makes Anyone He Fucks Fall in Love With Him AU.)

Possession https://archiveofourown.org/works/29232294 E After being killed by his family for being Kira, Light makes a deal with the demon L to get back to the mortal realm - a very, very sexy deal.

24-Hour Gym https://archiveofourown.org/works/29415480  After the yellow warehouse goes (mortally) in their favor, Light and Mikami frequent the same 24-hour gym. Eventually, after seeing all his work out skills, Light asks Mikami if he can bench press *Kira*.

Fantasy of a Fantasy https://archiveofourown.org/works/29729685  E, T While monitoring the Yagami family home for suspicious activity, L catches Light getting off to a dirty magazine and projects what he thinks his main suspect's fantasies might be.

the chains that bind us https://archiveofourown.org/works/32051299 E, T  Obligatory post-Yotsuba arc fic where Light is released from the handcuffs, and wants desperately to be back in bondage with L. Features a very creative use of the handcuff chain.

Kept https://archiveofourown.org/works/33334282 E, T Omegaverse AU where Light cooks up a horny evil scheme so that L won’t throw him in jail, and also lets him get that alpha lovin’ he so desires.

so glad you’re home https://archiveofourown.org/works/33977605 E, T L returns from a solo case and he and Light have a purr-fect homecoming together - including some spanking, cat ears, and a shower of sappy affection. 

SHORT FIC COMPLIATIONS

hand in unlovable hand https://archiveofourown.org/works/15025058 E Okay so I’ve been answering Tumblr askbox prompts for over 2 years now, and this? This is ALL of the Lawlight fics. There are over 70 Lawlight fics in this compilation, with all the nsfw fics marked as such. Here are somethings you’ll find in this horde: an AU where L is fat; dirty talk; ghost sex; phone calls about buying a house; early morning tea; kissing; spanking; bondage; L’s hair being brushed; and much, much more. If you have wished for a particular type of Lawlight fic, it is probably in this bunch.

Containing Multitudes https://archiveofourown.org/works/17570645 E Like i said, I’ve been answering all types of Tumblr prompts. These are all the multi-pairing fics that are not Lawlight. In over 20 fics, you’ll find Mikalight, Light/Misa, Misa/Takada, Misa/Rem, Light/Namikawa, Beyond/Light, Light/Matsuda, and even a few ones with Light and my DN OC Lizard. All nsfw fics are marked as such.

hereditary https://archiveofourown.org/works/17159354 All the Tumblr prompt fics I wrote specifically about the Yagami Family. About 4 fics long, includes a really nice couple of Sayu and Light sibling sadness fics.

bottom shelf erotica https://archiveofourown.org/works/20899706 E These are the 5 fics that I wrote to fill Death Note kinkmeme prompts. They are few frills, dirty, sloppy, all bottom Light smut fics. Also, since I didn’t want to give myself away on kinkmeme they’re all cis stuff. (because really who else would have been throwing trans smut up there?)

something between us (anyway) https://archiveofourown.org/works/30304620 T, E a slowly updating collection of 10 tumblr fic requests I received for the pairings of lawlight and (my DN OC) lizard/light, covering prompts including omegaverse, coffee shop AU, sexy lingerie, and much, much more.

kinktober 2021 https://archiveofourown.org/works/34235686 E, T updated each saturday of Oct. 2021, these five fics all revolve around lawlight and specific kinky prompts.

GIFT EXCHANGE FICS

your father’s son https://archiveofourown.org/works/15115568 T A Secret Shinigami 2018 gift for AbbodonAbandon. Light and Soichiro have a talk about why Light quit the tennis team. Lots of trans shit in here.

in your shoes https://archiveofourown.org/works/22405516 E A Sexy Enquirer 2019 gift for @pashmina-dhaage​. L is a professor who is having a quiet relationship with one of his grad students, Light. When he sees Light through his office window stepping in mud, L rushes to give him the shoes off his feet.

wash it out https://archiveofourown.org/works/22405648 A Sexy Enquirer 2019 gift for @complicatedmerary​. Mikami and Light, a pianist and violinist respectively with the same opera company, are carrying on a passionate affair while Light remains married to the opera’s soprano, Misa.

Thank you for Reading, Commenting, and Being Nice to Me About My Silly Fic!

[franzsiska]

ao3 interview

tagged by: @cyanoscarlet thank you, dani 🥰💕

how many works do you have on ao3?

— 18.

what’s your total ao3 word count?

— 39.2k, haha. I mostly write short one shots, and quite a bit of my work has been exclusive to twt/tumblr and zines, so that's why.

how many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

— three.

bungou stray dogs (10)

haikyuu!! (5)

jujutsu kaisen (3)

as you can see, i am. very picky about what fandoms and what subject matters i write about sfhskdk

what are your top 5 fics by kudos?

emptiness to melody (bsd; kunikidazai)

this brief tragedy of flesh (jjk; nanago)

let me tell you a story about love (haikyuu; miya atsumu character study)

you are what happens after the war (bsd; kunikidazai)

leave the ruins where they fall (bsd; soukoku)

what are your top 5 fics by comment thread count?

love me just a little longer (bsd; odazai)

you are what happens after the war (bsd; kkdz)

this brief tragedy of flesh (jjk; nng)

salt/water (haikyuu; iwaoi)

emptiness to melody (bsd; kkdz)

do you respond to comments, why or why not?

— yes, absolutely, although it might take me absurdly long to get around to it lol. unless it's a comment that doesn't warrant a reply, i do make it a point to reply to all of them eventually.

what’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

— ahh, this one is complicated. i love angst actually, but only of a very specific brand. my fics aren't so much angsty in ending as they are just. pervaded with a sense of sadness throughout—fluff coloured with angst, as i like to call it. pick up literally any fic of mine, there's always angst interwoven throughout.

that said, i did once write a fic (without you) that ended in major character death and it disturbed me so much that i ended up orphaning it lmao

have you ever received hate on a fic?

— no, thankfully, not as of now. that might be attributed to the fact that my body of work itself is not very big, but i like to think that i attract a more civilized demographic with my fics 😉

do you write smut? If so, what kind?

— no. never have i tried and never will i ever try, i think. the most i can do is make out and fade to black. i don't actually have any interest in writing the nitty gritty details, thank you very much.

have you ever had a fic translated?

— uhhh, yes, i think. i've been asked for permission multiple times but have only got back the completed link from the translator once or twice. this here, for instance, is a tumblr askbox fic that got translated into chinese.

have you ever co-written a fic before?

— no, but i'm open to the idea! it just has to be with someone whose style and ideas i click with.

what’s your all-time favorite ship?

— ahaha, this is hard. it keeps changing but iwaoi seem to have passed the test of time <3

what’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

— ouch, okay. there is more than one. that one dazai-centric skk wip that's been lying in my drafts for almost an year now. it's a study into dazai's relationship with food and with the needs of his body in general (read: his very thinly-veiled eating disorder). i really fucking want to complete this, but it isn't looking likely at the moment :'(

what are your writing weaknesses?

— longform, multichapter fics, definitely. i cannot, for the life of me, plot out a proper three act structure with a subplot and a climax and all. i really wish i could, and i greatly respect the people who can :')

what are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

— only if it fits the situation. otherwise it just ends up looking pretentious and pedantic. i used a couple of spanish dialogues in salt/water as well as my iwaoi zine fic, for instance, bc they're both post timeskip and set in argentina

what was the first fandom you wrote for?

— bsd! that was two years ago, and i'm so grateful to my hyperfixation sdfshfk

what’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

— a tie between you are what happens after the war (bsd) and with your face towards the sky (haikyuu; kagehina)

tagging: @wctercress @awinterborn @my-one-true-l (only if you want, ofc)

[hanii-rose]

•Because I can't send anon ask in askbox, can I submit it on here instead? So I have this thought:

Garou and the s/o were childhood friends but separated after Garou began to train himself in Bang's dojo. Now after Garou was defeated he comes to visit s/o's house for temporary hiding and also to rekindle their relationship.

Expect both of them getting closer after that. It mostly fluff sfw but you can throw some hot nsfw stuff for the thirst 🔥🔥

But can I request that the s/o is gender neutral, please? It's kinda sad that I rarely find a writing for gender neutral or male s/o, so I will be very grateful if you write the s/o as a gender neutral.

Thanks so much and have a nice day! ❤•

Yay another request ☺️ I tried to write reader as gender neutral, I'm not that great at it, but hopefully it's good enough to post haha

____________________________________

Reunited

Garou x GN! Reader

It had been a few weeks since Garou had inexplicably showed up at your front door, bruised and weakened. When you first saw him, you instantly recognized his signature hairdo and blazing gold orbs.

It was that kid from school! You occasionally played with him in your younger years, and the two of you had become particularly close, talking, pulling pranks and acting out other childish activities. But as you grew older, you focused more on your books and slowly started seeing less of him, ultimately drifting apart in highschool. You never saw him again, until two weeks ago that is.

After he came hobbling through your doorstep, you let him in, fed him and even bathed him. He took care of his own injuries and he's been staying with you ever since. You assumed he remembered you due to the fact that he called you by your name multiple times without you telling him. When you asked him why he showed up here and now, he explained his situation. His hero-hunting, the Monster Association, Bang's dojo and his pathetic defeat at the hands of a bald guy in a yellow jumpsuit. He told you he needed sanctuary for two or three months, at least until the search for him died down.

You understood his reasoning, albeit feeling a bit sad that he didn't come to you mainly to see you. Truth be told, you had developed quite a crush on the silver haired Adonis, even back then. But in the past, you were much too busy with your studies and his sudden disappearance left your desires unfulfilled. But now he was back, taller, stronger and much much more handsome. It reignited a little spark in your core and you constantly began to crave his touch and attention, often picturing him in the most lewd scenarios you could think of. You touched yourself so many times that you lost count. You tried not to most of the time, in hopes that he wouldn't notice your arousal. Little did you know that Garou was going through something similar.

>>

Presently, you had just returned home from work with a bag of store bought food. You hung your coat and scarf on the coat hanger and neatly discarded your black office shoes on the wooden shoe rack. You walked all the way to the kitchen, placed the bag of food down and rushed to the living room in hopes of finding your wolfish guest.

You walked in on him, shirtless, crouching on the floor and fiddling with something. His back displayed all of the hard work he had put into building himself these few years. Littered with bumps and crevices that most people could only dream of in their lifetime.

You, unbeknownst to him, gently pressed a finger down onto the back of his neck and slid downwards, following his spine to the middle of his gorgeous back. He visibly tensed and turned his head, staring deep into your curious eyes.

"You're back..." he stated, turning around and getting back to work.

"Yeah, had a long day today. What have you been up to?"

He shook his head softly and muttered, "Fixed yer damn side table. The wobbly piece of shit almost fell over when I walked by it."

You chuckled at his words while patting his defined shoulder and replied, "Well you're pretty nifty, aren't you? Maybe I'll keep you around longer, huh?"

He smirked and stood up straight, taut muscles glistened with sweat and biceps flexed as he scratched the back of his head.

"Yeah, you'd like that wouldn't ya? A personal slave to do all of yer work for ya?"

You replied with an obnoxious 'MHMMM' and exited the living room, walking yourself to the kitchen.

Opening the fridge door, you grabbed the large 2 litre bottle of coke and two large sets of glasses and decorated them atop a tray.

Holding the tray and kicking the fridge door shut with your foot, you treaded back to the living area and set the tray down on top of your now fixed table.

"Sit down, I'll fix you a drink."

Garou complied, sitting himself comfortably on top of your black couch, the leather making scratching noises as he shifted around for the perfect spot.

"Thanks for the table. I've been trying to fix it for ages."

He nodded and grinned, "No big deal. It's the least I could do."

You sat down next to him on his right, leaned forward and poured the chilled coke into the two cups. Closing the cap, you handed him a glass and sipped on your own coke. You relaxed back into the couch, your shoulder brushing his ever so slightly as you unwinded. Work was getting frustrating, even for a desk job, not to mention your desires for the wolfish man would not relent, leading to many restless nights.

"This feels way too good." you lazily stated, stretching back and leisurely taking small sips from the cup.

"Yeah..." Garou agreed softly, his cup already empty.

You noticed the lack of substance in his hand and offered a refill.

"Hold your cup right. I'm gonna give you some more..."

You grabbed the large plastic bottle from the table and twisted the cap open, pouring carefully, a good enough amount of the sweet liquid.

Unbeknownst to you, Garou had outstretched his arm behind you, resting it at the headrest of the couch. His right knee brushed up against yours gently as he scooted closer to you, inhaling your intoxicating scent. Somehow, your smell was so much more stronger when you came home from work. He noticed it once, after you had accidentally bumped into him. And that unique smell drove him absolutely wild.

You turned back after filling his cup and placed the half empty bottle down. You again leaned back getting even more comfortable, somewhat leaning against him. From this position, he could trace your body through the white flimsy fabric of your office shirt.

It was turning him on more than anything.

He chugged his cup until it was completely empty, savouring every last drop of the fizzy drink. He placed his cup down and his now empty hand found purchase upon your clothed knee. His right arm still behind you, wrapped itself around your shoulder, trapping you.

"So tell me about work." he suggested, rubbing your tired shoulder.

"Oh my gosh, you have no clue how annoying some of my desk mates are!" you began.

"They constantly take things from my desk without asking and they are so unorganized, like at least learn to number your reports when you give em' to me, ya'know?"

He hummed and sighed with whatever you said, but honestly, he didn't give a crap about your asshole co-workers. Just let him stare at your stunning legs for a while longer. He could feel his cock twitching in his trousers, your lips trembled as you angrily ranted about your fellow employees. Those same lips he wanted to ravish with his own.

"-And then I said, I'm not going to your fuckin' baby shower and..." you suddenly quieted down.

Why was he staring at you like that?

"Umm Garou, you okay buddy...?"

He ignored your question again. He was so close, you could feel his breath on your cheek! You tried scooting away, but you were held in place by his left hand on your knee, gripping with force and his right arm wrapped around your shoulder.

You placed your palm on top of his hand and he snapped out of his trance, face red and pouting.

"... Is something wrong?"

He vigorously shook his head and scratched his cheek, the blush still faintly prominent under his chiseled cheekbones.

"Are you sure?" you asked, thoroughly concerned. You placed your open palm on his back and rubbed languidly, relenting your weight on top of his. Before you could get up from your position next to him, he yanked you downwards and you plopped down onto the couch, your back hitting the foam armrest.

"Yer so fuckin' sexy, ya'know that?" he asked, sounding somewhat angry.

"Huh?"

"I said, yer so fuckin' sexy. Such a fuckin' turn on!"

Before you could protest, he swiped his hand down your middle, swiftly popping off all of the buttons on your shirt and exposing your chest and stomach. You tried to push him off but to no avail.

"Garou! What are you doing?" you inquired, feeling absolutely embarrassed. Your cheeks dusted with red and you swallowed hard.

"Fuck... What the fuck am I doing?"

He sighed exasperatedly and got off of you. Standing up, he started walking towards the guest room, no doubt to put on his shirt and leave. But before he could turn the corner, you grasped his hand tight.

"Where are you going?"

"I'm leaving. I shouldn't be around you anymore. I can't fucking control myself..." he replied, sweat dripping from his temple.

"What do you mean?"

You strutted closer to him, placing two hands on his bare chest.

"I like you, a lot. And I wanna fuck you all the time."

You were surprised, pleasantly. You giggled at his confession and leaned closer, almost falling on his hard chest.

Rubbing your hand down his stomach and over his delicious abs, you wiggled in his sight.

"I don't mind..." you spoke, tone awfully sly.

Your expression gave away your intentions and Garou found himself grasping your hips, bringing them closer towards his.

"Oh really?" he asked, equally mischievous.

You made a lusty 'mhmm' noise, confirming his suspicions.

Wrapping your arms around his neck, you leaned closer to his smirking face, and whispered, "I want to fuck you all the time too..."

"Fuck, yer such a tease!"

Giggling, you brought your mouth upto his and waited for him to place his on yours.

When your silent request was met, you closed your eyes and revelled in the passion.

He feverishly gripped your waist, slid his hand downwards, giving your ass a quick squeeze.

Breaking the kiss, he kept his face near yours, taking in your form.

"I've wanted to do that for so long..."

"Me too." you replied.

"So you wanna fuck me all the time too huh?" he asked.

"Yeah, you're the only one who can take my mind off of my demented office."

"Well then, should we get started?"

You nodded, lustfully looking into his eyes.

>>

Sitting down had become an issue for you these days. As the days progressed, so did your monster boyfriends hormones. But you two got by. You had to buy a new shirt though, and everyone at your office could tell you'd been fucked out of your mind. But nothing bothered you anymore, not even your moronic deskmates.

It seemed life had gotten better for the two of you, except for the severe back pain you had after Garou finished his dubious acts. Other than that you were fairly content with what you had right now.

[euphoniumpets]

Can u please do a Arvin Russel platonic one where they have been best friends their entire lives she is super religious and when pastor Preston comes to town he is kinda obsessed with her and manipulated her like he did Lenora but she goes believes he says and Arvin finds out and try’s to talk her out of and tells her it isn’t right and is really protective of her.

ok, so this probably isn’t that great and i saved this request last because i’m emptying my askbox lol. so sorry that this one was a short one but hope you liked this one! 

‘‘Arvin, listen, you’re being paranoid, he’s not gonna do it like he did with Lenora,’‘ You tried to assure him as his grip tightened around your arm while he stared intensivly into your eyes. You knew that he was worried about you. Ever since Lenora’s death, Arvin was becoming paranoid over how he was afraid that you were gonna end up like her. 

He didn’t blame you, honestly. He knew that you were a sweet girl and had a pretty face but you were his best friend who he loved. He was afraid to loose the only good person he had in his life. And when pastor Preston arrived into town, he knew that he couldn’t be trusted. After what he had seen what he did to Lenora, he knew that his victim was you. 

He didn’t hesitate sometimes when he wanted to follow you in the church and pray with your family. It was because your family was super religious and he knew that his life would come crashing down when he saw pastor Preston talk with you. 

Anger bubbled inside his chest whenever he would see pastor Preston talk with you. And he wanted nothing to protect you but you were too blinded by his kindness. ‘’Y/n, he can’t be trusted, ‘’ He explained as he walked closer to you. 

You sighed as you cupped his cheek. ‘’Listen, I know that you’re still grieving after Lenora, and I get it, Lenora was my friend but she was just...’’ you trailed off as sadness formed. 

‘‘lonley,’‘ Arvin muttered. 

‘‘But I have you, you were there for me since we were children,’‘ 

‘‘I was always close with you than Lenora, maybe I should’ve been harder on myself to get to know her...’‘ You replied as he shook his head. ‘‘It isn’t your fault, the person who we should blame on, is pastor Preston,’‘ 

‘‘Are you still on that?’‘ You questioned as you gave him a look. 

‘‘You know that I’m stubborn, I’m gonna let him pay for her death,’‘ Arvin sneered. 

‘‘Arvin, please, don’t make a stupid decision where you are gonna regret doin’ ,’‘ you pleaded. 

‘‘The only thing he is gonna regret, was stepping into this stupid town,’‘ 

[thepandapig]

Ateez reaction to you being unhappy with some body parts

A/N: hey! I hope you guys like this reaction. My askbox is open. Feel free to send in requests for Ateez,Blackpink.TXT,StrayKids,Twice or G-Idle. If you want another group let me know and maybe I will write it. Also I did not specify the body of the reader to much ( like the weight or height or wide of some features) Enjoy:)

HONGJOONG

You looked at youself in the mirror. Gosh all the things you did not like about yourself were more visible today. How weird did your nose look ? You touched it lightly and turned your head from side to side. Your side profil did look sooo weird. You could cry on the spot. You did not notice that your boyfriend Hongjoong had entered your room. He looked at you curious and when you noticed him and turned around he could see tears in your eyes.

“ What is wrong ?” he askled and pulled you in for a hug. At first you did not want to speak about it but than you opend up about your insecurity. He looked at you with a frown and you let your head hang loose. “ I do not think it looks weird at all ! It looks like your nose and your nose fits perfectly into your face” He will pull you closer and kiss the top of your head.

SEONGHWA

You touched the sides of your thights. They were very ugly. The more you looked at them the more frustrated you got. How could someone love this ? It was such a weird feeling looking at them. You felt like they could be the reason Seonghwa could leave you. Why would he date someone with such ugly thights?

“ Babe are you still here ?” He asked and looked at you. You and Seonghwa sat on a blanket and just enjoyed one of his days of. You looked at him and nodded but he noticed that something was wrong and he asked you that. “ Nothing it is nothing “ You said and he did not believe you. “ You can tell me Y/N I do not want you to be unhappy” He said with a soft smile and you told him that you did not like your thights. He looked at you and than started to touch your thights. “ Well I myself think they are beautiful “ He would make sure to praise your looks more and make sure that you are feeling alright.

YUNHO

When Yunho walked in in your shared closet he could not believe what he saw, You were sitting there and touched you belly. He looked at you in confusion and than asked you whats wrong. “ My stomach does look weird in this pants “ you told him and pointed at you belly. He blinked a few times and looked at what you were wearing. “ I do not think so.....You look normal as usuall. Very pretty “ He smiled at you and waited for a respons from you. You on the other hand couldn’t believe him. The pants made you look weird and you knew it. He should not lie at you and that is also what you told him.

“ I did not lie to you !” He said and looked angry. Why would you not believe him? For him you were the most prettiest person in the world and he was so lucky to have you by his side.

YEOSANG

Yeosang was confused when you entered his apartment with a cap on your head. It was the middle of July and he couldn't believe it. Soon after entering the apartment, the idea seemed stupid to you. How funny did it have to look when you wore a cap in such heat? Yeosang asked you even after you didn't take off the cap if everything was okay and you said yes. He didn't need to know that you were unsure about your ears.

When your behavior continued for several weeks, Yeosang decided to ask you to talk again. The two of you spent a relaxed evening at his place with a bottle of wine (which you had emptied on the side) and he asked you again. You told him everything and he started to laugh. He thought it was funny that you think something about yourself is not nice. He would tell you that he thinks everything about you is beautiful and then he would cuddle up with you in his bed. He will spend the whole time telling you how much he loves you. Even when you are already asleep.

SAN

San stood behind you as he saw you looking at various social media posts. You looked at the people who seemed to exist without any flaw. Every time you look in the mirror, you discover something new about yourself that you don't like. Every time you looked in the mirror, you felt as if your body was getting uglier and more disgusting. You did not notice San who was still standing behind you. Tears rose up in you at the images of the persons. Your tears dripped on your jeans and San could no longer hold himself back. He sat down beside you and put his hand on yours. "Baby? What's wrong?" You look at him and hastily wipe away your tears. You try to explain to him that nothing is wrong and that you only have something in your eye. But San knows that look. He has seen it on himself often enough.

He will make sure to distract you and spend more time with you. He doesn't want you to have bad thoughts and he never wants to see that look on you again. He loves you so much and you do not deserve to be sad. However, he will not keep on asking you for fear of making things worse.

MINGI

When you tell Mingi that you didn't like your eyes, he stares at you in a very confused way. Your eyes were the most beautiful thing to him. He could see your emotions in them, and he also thought that they were the gateway to your soul. He couldn't understand that you didn't like them and he was more than just angry about it.

"Honey you are beautiful! Your eyes mirror your soul and your soul is what I love! The words of your next sentence got stuck in your throat. Surprised you looked at him and saw how serious he was. "Really?" He nodded and took you in his arms " You must not think like that. " he kissed you and tried to scare away the bad thoughts.

WOOYOUNG

Wooyound did not know how to react. You looked so sad and frustrated and it broke his heart. Why did you think that about yourself? His head couldn't handle that you thought your shoulders were a problem. He was so confused. Since when were shoulders a problem in any way? Shoulders were just shoulders. He caressed your hair and told you how beautiful you were.

He asked his Hyungs if they knew why you couldn't find his shoulders beautiful and they didn't help him either. However, he decided that he would not let you be sad about something like that. Whenever he saw how sad you were, he would try to distract you and act similar to San. It was still a mystery to him even months later how you could not find yourself beautiful.

JONGHO

"How you don't like your hands?" he looked at you in amazement and wondered if you were serious. Your hands were quite normal. You had fingers and fingernails and skin and they fitted well into his hand. They worked and everything was fine. So why were you so upset about your hands?Angry you threw away the ring. It didn't fit you anyway. Your hands were so funny and it was no wonder you would never find jewelry that would fit you. Sadly you looked at Jongho who looked at you confused. "Oh man the ring doesn't fit and I was hoping it would fit and you..." You stared at the floor and couldn't believe you spent money on this. Jongho giggled and asked you if you should exchange the ring and get a new one. But you didn't feel like it so you both stayed home and spent the afternoon together.

[faerielleart]

✨I feel you! I can already smell the angst from way over here. Fluff for the soul it is! I’ll throw in some comfort (maybe!) for good measure!

Are you leaning towards modern AU or Canon universe?

Also you have any little HCs or tropes you like🥚?

🤍, 🐇

me already feeling my heart burst from joy [virtually pets the bunny emoji]

aaa i’ll leave you to make that choice bb 🥺

let me rant about a few headcanons let’s GO

for canon era, i like to think that hanji probably skipped a ton of meals (not on purpose, they were just SO engrossed in paperwork and research and whatnot), so levi took a trip into the kitchens every single night and cooked a nice meal for his commander, even super late at night, entered hanji’s room without knocking, tool all the papers and sat his ass on them, refusing to move until hanji finishes all the food lol i like to imagine he’d cook hanji’s fav dish a lot, something with potatoes maybe? like baked potato cakes with cheese and greens on the side with a warm cup of tea, or a warm soup for cold nights. according to chuugakkou levi’s a great cook so i feel like he’d be good in canon too :’D

also i like to think that they probably slept together (i mean literally, like in the same bed, not having sex) A LOT due to night terrors, just hearing each other’s breathing and feeling the other’s body warmth close to them is enough to calm them down so i feel like it became a habit for them to just sleep in the same bed, not necessarily cuddling; at least, not voluntarily lmao they’re far too awkward 😩 but in the morning they ALWAYS wake up holding esch other, cue them being awkward as fuck i might be tearing up a little at the thought of levi being a lil spoon and being half awake half asleep cuddling closer to hanji bc “oh who cares it’s a dream” AND THEN NOTICING THAT HE’S AWAKE LMAOOO HIS SOUL WOULD LEAVE HIS BODY especially bc hanji wakes up in that precise moment and is literally holding him super tight around the waist, legs thrown over his, my god they would both DIE from embarrassment they’d jump away from each other so fast- bye this is too adorable for me i’m going to have a heart attack

hanji probably cries every now and then at night and tries to be as quiet as possible, levi sneakily grabs their hand just to let them know he’s there, no words exchanged between them bc they don’t need it. just falling asleep holding hands. maybe when levi’s brave enough, maybe after emptying a bottle of whiskey in his evening tea, he’d even rub his thumb a lil over hanji’s palm just because it’s ticklish and he wants to hear hanji laugh. also if he’s asleep and having a nightmare, tossing and turning, hanji would stroke his hair and maybe hum a melody because levi once told them his mother used to do that. LITERALLY THE THOUGHT OF THESE FOOLS BEING ABLE TO DO BOLD FLUFFY SHIT ONLY WHEN THE OTHER’S ASLEEP MAKES ME SCREAM I HATE THEM SO MUCH god i hate them

onto the angstier shit bc a sprinkle of angst is always good, they definitely cuddled in the forest. hear me out, it’s absolutely realistic to assume that their clothes were soaking wet and being in a forest at night is cold as fuck, realistically they would’ve had to strip and make skin-to-skin contact or they would have died of hypothermia. it’s what happens in real life, it’s safe to assume it happened off screen. just like the cpr come on? you don’t get water out of your lungs without cpr

oh i might have said this already once, but i think they were mistaken for a married couple all the time tbh? like onyankopon in the first months of knowing them would suddenly say shit like “hanji-san your husband is a bit scary i hope you’re not offended” and hanji would get the blue screen of death in their brain “??£]£>${£>£{£{$> HUSBAND????? HUSBAND, LIKE MARRIED HUSBAND? HUSBAND THAT I MARRIED IN A MARRIAGE??????” levi too probably would get teased by yelena “i don’t understand how hanji-san married a short fucker like you you’re as ugly as a butthole and unpleasant in every single way” levi would not answer bc his brain is too busy processing the word “married”

ONTO MUSHIER STUFF let’s say they overcome the awkwardness and a kiss or two happen,,,, i feel like there’d be a lot of casual pecks??? like waking up in the morning KISS or “i’m going to take a shit wait for me” kiss, distracted kiss when hanji’s doing paperwork and levi needs to leave the room, just them being so comfortable around each other that physical contact happens without them even thinking about it

for modern era, hear me out, they’re totally childhood friends. probably neighbors. levi’s maybe 2 years older, but hanji gets a growth sprout in middle school and now you’ve got levi, a highschooler, shorter than a middle schooler difjsmek

in elementary school hanji gets picked on a lot, levi is their personal bodyguard and scares away all the bullies, but pretends he only did it to build a scary reputation, tsundere child blushing and stuttering “I-IT’S NOT LIKE I DID IT FOR YOU OR ANYTHING,,,,, DUMBASS,,,,,,,,,” but hanji knows lmao and calls him “my knight” and levi Dies every single time. kuchel teases the fuck out of him

hanji gifts levi the most random things and levi keeps EVERYTHING he has a secret special box under his bed and he has kept everything hanji’s ever given him since the day they met. even candy wrappers. everything. hanji finds it one day and levi Dies inside but it’s the cutest most endearing thing in the world and holy fuck they’re so in love literally soulmates

hanji probably has a family cat who is really really ugly and old and grumpy and absolutely HUGE who hates everyone but for some reason he got super attached to levi and always sits on his head. levi pretends to hate it more than Anything but hanji’s seen him tons of times giving him treats despite how much he says “get this fat sack of fleas off of me it’s UNSANITARY”

they probably start to date out of high school bc they were too awkward to do so earlier, even if they probably kissed quite a few times “just to see what the fuss is all about”. their parents probably knew they’d be married one day as early as elementary school ☠️ they’re too obvious

i feel like they’d definitely have children tbh 100% as an accident tho, just to make this completely self indulgent imma say they have triplets, weird uncommon pregnancy for the weirdest most uncommon of couples LEVI BEST DAD he’d be a stay at home dad while hanji works as a scientist in a lab and please. please just imagine three tiny daughters who look just like him but have hanji’s nose and attitude who have him wrapped around their little fingers i’m going to lkterally combust

yeah parents lh having cute tea parties with their bbs??? sign me the FUCK up

my fav tropes are hurt/comfort literally anything that involves character A being sad and character B doing the most to cheer them up [chef’s kiss] plus disgustingly mushy mutual pining and slow burn that makes me tear my hair out waiting for the fucking tension to be resolved i love torturing myself,,,,, i really fucking love forehead kisses okay i feel like levi has a permanent indent in his forehead due to the gargantuan amount of fat smooches hanji has given him in his life

thank your for visiting my askbox again dear bunny 🐰 i hope to hear from you again soon hehe ✨