#my FIFTH rewatch and I CRIED

[off-traveling-in-the-stars]

"come with me. I need you. we can be together."

[king-zacharyy]

IF YOU HATE HELLUVA BOSS, HAZBIN HOTEL, AND/OR STOLITZ, DO. NOT. INTERACT. (WITH THIS POST OR MY PAGE)

Okay, I am currently rewatching Helluva Boss, and I just finished S1 Ep7: OZZIE'S, and... How do some people genuinely believe Stolitz is one-sided?

From what I've seen, Blitzø absolutely returns Stolas' feelings, even if he refuses to acknowledge/accept that he does. A lot of people, from what I've seen, have been using Blitzø' words to Stolas in OZZIE'S and his words about Stolas to Fizzarolli in OOPS as arguments for why Blitzø "clearly" doesn't love Stolas back, but my question is, do some of y'all not have basic media literacy?

Sorry if that’s rude, but seriously. There are plenty of clues to how Blitzø is actually feeling during and after these scenes.

1. Blitzø was literally holding back TEARS as he said that in the van scene.

2. He says that Stolas has made it very clear that all it is is Stolas wanting to be fucked. That wording is very distinct and, honestly, says that Blitzø does NOT want it to just be a Fuck Buddies things.

2.5. May I remind everyone that Stolas literally calls Blitzø his "Impish little plaything" in Truth Seekers? And that that likely just confirmed the insecurities we know he was already feeling? (We know he was feeling insecure about his and Stolas' relationship already because of how he reacted in S1 Ep5 to Striker goading him)

3. Literally ALL of what happens after the van scene. Including all of Episode 8. He goes home and cries himself to sleep, and then goes and self-destructs at a party. Bee said it herself that he wasn't drinking to have fun.

4. In S2 Ep6: OOPS, His face when he said it was nothing more than Stolas being horny gives away how hurt he actually is. He is desperately trying to convince Fizz and remind himself that Stolas doesn't want anything more.

Honorary mention that I'm not sure is really a fifth point is him calling Fizz and Ozzie hypocrites.

Moving on from those scenes and onto Blitzø's insecurities about love and his self-worth issues. Blitzø does not believe he deserves love. He does not believe anyone does or can love him. We can see this in how he acts with the people in his life. He pushes them away. He is obsessed with M&M's relationship because they're the only model of a healthy relationship he's ever had, and he wants that with someone. We also can tell because of how he reacts to what Fizz and Verosika say in OZZIE'S.

Blitzø hates himself. He crosses out his face in the pictures hung up in his apartment. He blames himself for an accident that caused his mother's death, his best friend to lose his limbs, and his sister to hate him.

No one was truly there for him after the accident. Fizz may have been crippled, but he had a support system. Blitzø did not, and no one was there to tell him it wasn't his fault.

Not to mention the fact that up until the accident, he was CONSTANTLY being put down and told Fizzarolli was better than him. Even his own father cared more for Fizz than him. Honestly, I'm surprised there isn't any actual animosity towards Fizz on Blitzø's part.

Speaking of the fire and Fizz, Blitzø was planning to confess romantic feelings to Fizz that night before the accident (We know this because of the letter and flower he was holding before the fire started). That likely made it difficult for him to confess his love to someone because if you think his brain wouldn't connect love confessions to the greatest trauma of his life, you're dead wrong.

Brains make weird ass connections when it comes to trauma/traumatic events.

In conclusion, Blitzø loves Stolas, Stolas loves Blitzø, and they both need to heal and get their shit together. Stolitz forever.

Kloveyoubye ❤️

[beanghostprincess]

Running in circles in my room while I rewatch One Piece Fan Letter for the fifth time because this has changed my life in a way I don't think I'll ever be able to explain with words and I need someone to get what it means to me just by hearing me scream incoherent cries of "I love Nami so much I want to keep living forever just for her"

[unpopularly-opinionated]

Beyond Barbie, I’ve watched a fair amount of movies since I last updated y’all against your wills. So many in fact that I’m not going to do a whole ass write up of each because that’s just a complete waste of time. Plus I write reviews on my Letterboxd page, but they’re not entirely fit for public consumption. But I’ll give like a one-sentence review/my thoughts of each, so here we go:

So for context, the last film I posted about in my last list was The First Omen.

Since then I’ve seen:

- The Omen: Keep that woman away from ledges, god dammit.

- Damien: Omen II: I don’t know if this movie came before or after the movie about the crows, but either way this movie did it better.

- Joker: I’d already seen this, but lately I’ve been tossing in some rewatches so I can keep a thorough log/review of them on Letterboxd. P.S. this one is still good.

- The Final Conflict: Omen III: A decent enough ending for its time, to a decent enough franchise for its time.

- Challengers: The single hottest, gayest soft core porno I’ve ever seen, fucking incredible.

- Once Upon a Time… In Hollywood: Went in with zero context, thought it was mid. Read up on the context. Now think it’s pretty OK.

- Idiocracy: Terry Crews as President of the United States, please and thank you.

- Saw I - VII: Progressively got better over time, ashamed to admit one brutal murder scene did kind of turn me on. I need help.

- The entire Pirates of the Caribbean franchise: Obviously a rewatch. First three are literally perfect. Fourth is when we start to see cracks, but it’s OK. Fifth is unwatchable.

- Ready or Not: Went in thinking it was meant to be horror, not a comedy. I was wrong. Pretty funny movie though. Neat premise. Adam Brody is hot.

- Signs: Shamalyan’s God sends aliens to kill hundreds of thousands of people because one man lost faith in him. Shit story. Liked Joaquin Phoenix and a young Kieran Culkin though.

- The Happening: Shamalyan’s God decides to make hundreds of thousands of people kill themselves because the worst romantic pairing in the universe won’t fuck.

- The Sixth Sense: Shamalyan continues to prove that he is a one hit wonder, and this is his hit. That being said, I haven’t cried that hard in a while upon rewatching this.

- Skinamarink: As someone plagued with waking nightmares, this movie spoke to me. It didn’t say much of anything at all, but it certainly spoke to me. Do not recommend.

- Slotherhouse: A dumb bad movie that knows it’s dumb and bad, and is really really good at being both, but in a good way, you know?

- Barbie: An alright cutesie movie so long as you’re willing to accept that it’s not based in reality.

Overall, I’ve been watching a fair amount of movies since my last post, and I plan to watch a whole lot more. Also a lot of rewatches as well I think.

[shortpplfedup]

Rewatched the episode to organise my thoughts and I really wanted to share my understanding of the emotional journey Pat is going through this ep. I do feel, like @lurkingshan and @ginnymoonbeam in particular have been saying to me, that Pat's journey is sliiiiiiightly harder to follow, and it hinges on the conversation on two levels that he and Jeng have near the middle of the ep (which, more on that in a moment). Like always, this ep could have used a little nip/tuck, and maybe a montage to show the passage of time, but I'd like to present to you...

PAT'S EPISODE 9 EMOTIONS: A STORY

First movement: absolute cringe, totally embarrassed. He was drunk and weeping, hanging off his boss who had to answer his MOM's phone call and get him home. Said boss is also gay which...we're not processing that right now because it adds an entirely new cringe level.

Second movement: starts to think about the fact that JENG IS GAY AND ONLY JUST TOLD HIM which feels like maybe Jeng has been laughing at him a bit and messing him about. Because he thought they were bonding somewhat all this time but Jeng didn't share this when he knows Pat is also gay. Shoves the stuffie in the drawer because he feels betrayed.

Third movement: Here is where things get wibbly because time is clearly passing between the day after the bar and the day Pat's dad shows up, but we don't really understand how much. Pat is actively avoiding Jeng. Jeng is asking Chot where he is, Pat is taking (multiple?) days off...but no idea of when this falls in the timeline so hard to follow the throughline.

Fourth movement: Pat is back at work and clearly DEEP in his feelings, he has been stewing over this for who knows how long at this point (feels more weeks than days or months). Chot is noticing (and likely misunderstanding the source of the churn as a lovers' tiff rather than a not-lovers' tiff). He thought he wouldn't have to see Jeng because Chot is standing in for him at the screening but Jeng shows up and he kind of panics. So he's feeling embarrassed, a little betrayed and like Jeng has been toying with him.

Fifth movement: This is where they have the convo on two levels. I say that because Pat was clearly saying one thing while Jeng was hearing another. Pat is saying: 'stop doing these things because I can't say no when you're sweet to me.' Jeng is hearing: 'stop doing these things because I can't say no when you are my boss.' The language is deliberately vague, and the idea of two meanings could get lost, but the show makes it clear in the two follow up scenes where Jeng and Pat have separate vents about what's happening. Jeng is crying to Jaab that Pat only sees him as a coworker, while Pat is fuming to Jen that Jeng is playing with his feelings. Pat said 'I don't want to misunderstand' and Jeng said 'you're not misunderstanding' and Pat said 'no I must be misunderstanding because it don't even make sense, so leave me alone please.'

Sixth movement: Pat exposits those feelings of being toyed with to Jen, who is like 'solidarity sister, these brothers be doing that.'

Seventh movement: Chot tells Pat Jeng is quitting and that's when Pat starts to realise that maybe the man was Not Fucking Around, but the WHY ME? is strong because Pat is aware that Jeng is An Adult and he is The Hot Mess Express. Then the man plans him a damn birthday celebration but stays away like he asked.

Eighth movement: At this point, Pat is the SpongeBob crab meme. THERE IS JUST TOO MUCH HAPPENING AND HE CANNOT PROCESS IT HE HAS SOMEHOW GOTTEN LOST IN THE SAUCE. He breaks the fuck down and cries to his mommy and daddy, because it's all too much.

Ninth movement: Pat experiences the miracle of birth up close and fucking personal and like many of us cannot believe that a human can actually do that and what the fuck is he actually caught up about. His good sis MADE A PERSON IN THE STREET and then posted it on Instagram like it was light work, and he is skressed because a gay man likes him, another gay man.

Tenth movement: And then Pat gets home and said gay man has sent him a BOX of snacks just because he said he liked them once, and then sends him a text that basically says 'I LIKE YOU DUMMY, SO MUCH, BECAUSE YOU'RE YOU.'

Look, all I'm saying is my man Pat went on a journey ok?

[melina-mellow]

I love when Spidey and Stephen interact in the comics because Stephen gives off such tired, disappointed dad energy whenever he finds out that Peter almost lost his soul to a demon for the fifth time that week.

Whenever Peter fucks up and goes to Stephen for help he always has that "I'm not mad, just disappointed" attitude.

I rewatched peak fiction No Way Home and almost cried because Stephen clearly cares for and loves this kid very much, but he also simultaneously wants to strangle him and toss him into another dimension.

I love them so much. I want the MCU to get its shit together so that I can see them reconcile in the next Avengers movie.

That's my emotional support Wizard and Spider, thank you very much.

[ralibo14]

TPN season I rewatch:

This post will contain many and I mean MANY SPOILERS from season 1. Please if you're new to Promised Neverland do not read this🥺🥰. (There might be multiple parts of this but I don't care😅)

Crazy how many things you can find to the fifth rewatch. Crazy how thrilled and emotional f-ed up I can still get after this. Not my first rodeo, but oh boy... Did I ugly cried. But that's not what we're here for... So let's get into the things what the rewatch made me realise. I paused like in every 3 minutes, there will be many screenshots.

Breaking down the episodes + the fricking foreshadowings:

Crazy how many things first watchers miss. I feel myself stupid just by thinking back that I was also this clueless. (past me would call me crazy if I told her what will happen 🤣🤣🤣)

Episode 1;

Starts idillic, then slowly you start to realise that something is off. What are these overcomplicated tests? Why is there numbers on the kids neck? What is going on? These are most likely the questions first watchers ask themselves (at least I did back then). Now I start to get it how Ray might felt as he began to realise the Houses's secret.

Through this episode you can feel that something is off, then everything goes south once Emma and Norman goes to the Gate.

Now as a rewatcher I saw Little Bunny left on the table and my mind immediately thought of the manga (chapter 180.1), which made it way sadder. Also Ray's reactions makes so much more sense like this.

Not to talk about the test scores.

First picture the older kids and the second is Norman's list about the younger kids. Of course Full Score Trio on the top of the list. Norman most likely never made a mistake, not even in his first test. My personal opinion that Ray had one 'bad' test and Emma had not more than two. I find it so unfair that Gilda and Don are rarely mentioned when we are talking about the scores like... Their scores are pretty good too. But the biggest suprise for me was Phil's archivments (2nd picture). Only spotted now, but damn... Make way for the next genius. No wonder Emma decided that she tells Phil about the escape. She knew what she was doing and who to thrust with the information. After all she was raised by Isabella and just like Norman's and Ray's case, she also developed similar mannerisms as Mom. In Emma's case that would be manipulating others, only difference the she uses it for good.

Episode 2;

Is full of foreshadowing if you know what you're looking for. The tone of the series is not as intense here than it will be around episode 9 or 10, so clues can easily fly under our radar. Take this scene as an example.

Purplish lightning? Isabella and Ray on the screen during that? I wanted to bang my head into the wall when I connected these together. Lots of things hidden in this episode from Ray's and Isabella's relationship to the clues of the season's ending.

Also the Full Score Trio already deserves an Oscar for their acting. Norman and Emma for being able to change their expressions in the matter of seconds and Ray for making them believe that he only discovered the truth now.

Emma being strong enough to hug Mom after discovering the truth and being a total girlboss with the "I wonder what Connie is doing right now" line. It will always be one of the MOST ICONIC lines in this series!

While Ray in this episode being like: “Act fool. Act fool. Act fool” 😂😂😂

Episode 3 - 10;

Why did I separated ep 1 and 2 like this? Because those episodes deserve their own spotlight. They give the base tone of the whole season. I don't say that ep3 to ep10 is not important. Heck no! All episodes deserve the spotlight but I don't want to bore anyone to death😅.

In episode 3 the arrival of Carol and Sister Krone. When I first saw this episode, I just froze into my spot. Now I realise how useful it was to the team. And since Isabella requested a helper, she unintentionally (or maybe intentionally) helped the Trio's plan and helped them, so they make it to the excape.

Sister Krone was a dangerous enemy but also a useful ally. Her motivation was a bit selfish (to become a mom) but I justify them because being a Sister or Mom means that your life is always on the line. [Please check out @fullscoreshenanigans page, her posts and reblogs can explain it better than mines] Also is it just me or does someone else think that Krone had a miscarriage? I don't know why this crossed my mind. Maybe it's the way she shares everything with her old doll somehow made me think of that.

Interesting how the Sister got threatened by both Isabella and Ray in the same episode.

Isabella using the Mom position as a bait for Krone was just perfect. She has years of practice in how to manipulate people's emotions so holding this bait out for the Sister was child play for her.

That Tag where the Trio was against Krone... Oh the memories... The Sister accuratly listing their strengths and weaknesses and also hinting that she knows about their plans. That gave me the thrills when I first watched. Then she lost the game when Ray told her that her time is up (One word; FORESHADOWING!) Actually double foreshadowing at that.

Firstly Ray's pocket watch; That was a gift from Isabella, (like Connie's Little Bunny). He got that gift so he can count the time until his shipment... or at least that's what Mom told him. I think we can all agree that deep down she didn't meant it. Isabella is a good actor but she just pretended to be their enemy.

[Side note: Is it just me or does anyone else thinks, that Ray's pocket watch and Isabella's tracking device looks awfully similar?]

Second foreshadowing? Krone's death. Oh how painful it is to know that it was Ray, who unintentionally, but sentenced her to death.

Why do I think that? Well, in the later episodes, when they have to get Krone out of the picture, Ray writes down something for her. It took me a couple of rewatches to realise that he wrote down his and Isabella's biggest secret... that they are related. Now that the secret got leaked Isabella had to permanently get rid off Krone.

I think Isabella told Grandma in advance that the Sister knows her secret and let Grandma do the dirty work. (But my logic is not flawless, since I only have the tpn artbook and not the mystic code book).

There's many think I could and should talk about... Like how underappreciated Gilda, Don, Anna, Nat and the others are in this season, but I will leave that to the Character Brainrots. However there's one thing which I must talk about regarding to season 1.

Saving Norman!

This two! They only had to exchange one look to let each other know that;

“Yeah, there's no way we let that smart, stupid idiot sacrifice himself”

Oh boy, they were desperate. Emma and Ray are soulmates and right now I don't mean romantical soulmates, because friends and family also can be someone's soulmate.

What I meant to say with this is, that they would try anything in their power to get Norman safely out of the House. They are focusing on the same goal and would do anything to archive it.

So when they plan out loud between the three of them and Emma says that;

“Ray, let's break your leg too”

(Btw, For me this is the third most iconic line from Emma XD. The reactions from the boys is hilarious too🤣)

The black haired boy immediately, without zero hesitation agrees. This is how desperate Ray was. He would have gladly broke his own leg or arm just to make his version of the escape plan succeed. Which plan of course fully crumbles when Norman comes back from the wall, telling them that there's a huge Cliff and it's impossible to go through.

Their last hug in the House is so bittersweet as I rewatcher, because I know it's not the last time they see each other but still... I bawled my eyes out again.

Emma being utterly shocked, refusing to let Norman go. Which causes her to almost ruin their plans at the final goodbye. Trying to deactivate Norman's tracker when Isabella was watching was a really risky idea. But that's what makes Emma, Emma. Just like Krone said, her weakness is caring too much for the others.

Norman on the other hand already accepted the fact that he will die (Spoiler: he won't). Although his calmness is just an act, deep down he wants to escape as desperately as his friends want it. Norman keeps his calm for Emma's and Ray's sake.

And at last but not least Ray. He is clearly on the verge of a mental breakdown. First thing I noticed was his eyes. Maybe it was a conscious action, maybe it was just because of the yellowish background, but his eyes look more purple here.

Ray tries to gatekeep his emotions and fake indifference but fails miserably. I think this was the moment he decided to truly give up the whole "I escape with them" part of the plan.

For our luck Emma and Norman didn't let Ray's suicide plan succeed.

[Side note: I totally forgot Ray cried during this hug. Poor boy. I wish I could tell him that everything will turn out just fine]

Okay that's all for now, mostly because I reached the picture and video limit. I hope it was interesting, even for something this long😅😅. See you soon everyone 🥰.

[lqtraintracks]

I've kind of lost track of who's tagged me on this one in particular: @nv-md @citrusses and pretty sure @basicallyahedgehog? <3 Thank you for the tag! Or if you didn't tag me, thank you for your patience. LOL.

three ships: This is cruel. Drarry, certainly. Harry x Teddy x Draco, for sure. Then, as a total snub to my beloveds, Damen/Laurent and Ginsy, I'm going to say my own original novel characters. I love them so much. <3

first ship: In preschool, I shipped these two female clowns on my favorite TV show, The Electric Company. LOL.

last song: I Want You (She's So Heavy) by The Beatles

last movie: Dune

currently reading: Andrew Holleran's beautiful queer novel, Dancer from the Dance. After I finish it I want to reread Pacat's Dark Rise to get ready for the release of Dark Heir next month!

last thing i wrote: I could tell you but then I'd have to kill you. Technically the last thing I wrote was a text to my friend to whom I just sent my novel in three Google docs, and I was thinking to myself, I bet that jerk would read it out of order just to be a complete asshole, and was texting to tell him not to, when I receive his text to me: 'def. going to read it out of order', to which I replied, "I was JUST ABOUT TO SAY DON'T FUCKING READ IT OUT OF ORDER DOMINICK!"

currently writing: My Erised

Are you named after anyone: Just a place in Ireland.

Favorite subject in school: English

Do you have kids: I have a wonderful step-daughter who I raised and who flew the coop a few years ago and is out there adulting in her own unique way.

When was the last time you cried: Night before last when I got through my (fifth or sixth) rewatch of Sense8 and I got choked up with joy at the end, per usual.

Do you use sarcasm a lot: Not a ton, actually. Only if it's going to be really good, you know?

What sports do you play/have played: Soccer. Badly.

What's the first thing you notice about people: Their vibe, I think. Are they friendly in a genuine way? Do they have a great sense of humor? Are they kind? Do they seem approachable? Do I reserve myself and my energy around this person or are they worth taking a chance on?

Any special talents: *see the dream job question

Where were you born: a south plains state in the u.s.

What are your hobbies: writing and more writing; also reading

How tall are you: 5'9" ish (I might be shrinking)

Dream job: ballet dancer (which I was professionally for ten years); published author (which I'm working on being); choreographer (we'll see)

I'll tag: @julcheninred @capipuff @maesterchill @starquestingfordrarry @skeptiquewrites @floydig @basiatlu and @getawayfox

[bisamwilson]

15 questions, 15 friends

tagged by @roguecassians! thanks maggie :)

are you named after anyone?

i am not, but my middle name was inspired by brooklyn on general hospital (not brooklyn, but close-ish)

when was the last time you cried?

thursday night bc margaret and i rewatched two towers and sam's speech never fails to make me bawl like a baby

do you have kids?

i do not, nor do i plan to! i do have two very cute nephews tho

what sports do you play/have played?

lmao. i was a dancer as a kid/younger teen (stopped when i was 15 bc of the pre arthritis in my ankle) but other than that in high school i lettered in the great sports of academic team and orchestra lmao

do you use sarcasm?

probably too much

what is the first thing you notice about people?

this is probably gonna sound weird, but their teeth? i tend to zero in on people's smiles and their teeth bc i love the different ways that people smile! i think there's so much personality hidden in a person's smile so it's what i tend to latch onto first

what is your eye color?

blue!

scary movies or happy endings?

definitely happy endings! it's the life of a hopeless romantic who doesn't believe in love to fall for every cheesy rom com i can find

any talents?

i am very good at balancing things on my head! when i was a kid my mama made me walk up and down the stairs multiple times in heels with a bible on my head without it falling off before i was allowed to wear the little wedges i wanted to my fifth grade graduation ceremony and now i've just got a knack for balancing stuff on my head. someone once put a connect four board flat on top of it while i was sitting down and stacked all of the chips in a column on top of each other one by one on my head and i held it for like five minutes

i'm also a half decent writer when i actually write i guess

where were you born?

kentucky! bluegrass girlie

what are your hobbies?

i watch a lot of movies and go to the movie theater a ton! i haven't gone a bunch this month bc i was finishing up my oscars a thon but generally i go to the movies 3-6 times a month probably? if not more?

do you have any pets?

my beautiful rat who is not actually a rat but a 15.5 year old chihuahua who definitely served in the infantry in world war one and has zero thoughts in her head. i love her <3

how tall are you?

5'4! but i seem shorter bc my proportions are wacky

favorite subject in school?

high school? math (especially ap stats) for sure with latin as a close second. in college my favorite class was called star wars and religion and my second favorite class was and economic introduction to game theory

dream job?

a job that i enjoy and keeps me satisfied intellectually where there's a good work culture and work/life balance that allows me to like. take care of my needs and wants and be comfortable enough in life, which is what i have! i'm not want to want a specific generally unattainable career, i just like. want something to keep me fulfilled and financially stable yk?

i never actually tag the number of people i'm supposed to but no pressure tagging @firstelevens @logicheartsoul @writerkenna @apatheticjoy @livingincolorsagain and @thatmexisaurusrex

[plumcoloredblazer]

15 People, 15 Questions

tagged by @redaynia (cheers, bruv)

1. Are you named after anyone?

My naming seems to have been a nonchalant affair. Biblical. The fifth most common boy name in the US of A the year I was born.

2. When was the last time you cried?

A movie, certainly. I believe it was when I was rewatching "Nimona" while I was disconcertingly drunk.

3. Do you have kids?

No, and I don't think I will at this point.

4. What sports do you play/have you played?

I played soccer in grade school (football GoooaALLL! YELLOW CARD! for my offshore acquaintances). I've never been a "joiner" or gotten myself heavily invested into athletic institutions, so I'm a severe disappointment for this one.

5. Do you use sarcasm?

I don't know, do I? (Generally, I don't in text form, but I employ all the linguistic tools at my disposal)

6. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

How empathic they are and how well they adapt to the vibes, needs, etcetera of others.

7. What’s your eye color?

Green.

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

Scary, I suppose. But I'm always hoping for fulfilling happy endings.

9. Any talents?

Writing (to some regard). Tidiness. Deescalating situations. I don't know. I'm boring.

10. Where were you born?

KILL-ingly, Connecticut.

11. What are your hobbies?

The usuals: reading, writing, vidjagames, contemplating thematic structures...

12. Do you have any pets?

Rest in peace Basil and Briar, my darling Labradors (Especially Briar, my literal pick of the litter). Welcome, Arugula, the puppy I'll probably be getting in February.

13. How tall are you?

180-ish cm. 5'11''

14. Favorite subject in school?

English. It's the language I speak, innnit?

15. Dream job?

Creative director of an animation studio. Novelist: my New Years resolution is to finish a book this year. To be rich and beneficent.

Don't have many people to tag, but: @thehiddenbaroness, @pmmdj, @cajolions, @combustibabe

[oatmealmika]

so, i am just deciding to answer questions on these (because i can), ik that’s not how the game works, but whatever, lol.

orchid ⇢ what’s a song you consider to be perfect?

like 80% of the population, “bohemian rhapsody” by queen would have to be one of my all-time favorite songs

cactus ⇢ something you’re currently learning (about)?

i’ve been talking to this girl recently and, just yesterday, i found out she used to have her head shaved.

bamboo ⇢ do you change into a different outfit when you get home?

yesss, out of school, i live in my pajamas

abelia ⇢ do you have a particular piece of jewelry you always wear or can’t part with?

nooo

daffodil ⇢ do you have siblings? if yes, in what ways do you think you’re similar to or different from them?

yes, i do. they are similar to me by the fact we are related and our humor is all stupid asf. and we are different because they are more violent than me (i try my best to not get violent when angry).

mahonia ⇢ what place, thing, activity inspires you most and how do you express yourself when it does?

math class. in math class, i am the most creative version of myself and i can’t help but world build for all my writing projects.

chia ⇢ what’s an inside joke you have with someone else?

ummm… this photo :

sage ⇢ what ‘medium’ of art (poetry, music, fiction, paintings, statues etc.) is the most touching to you? why do you think that is?

writing tends to touch me the most. it is so enthralling how people could write people they made up so realistically. and, it’s so awesome that viewers of a media can dissect the work so beautifully, discussing allegories, characters arcs and development, etc.

edelweiss ⇢ how’d you think of your url/username? what’s it associated with to you?

my name’s levi, and i went to new york this summer. in the hotel i stayed in, there was a huge painting of new york, and there was a ginormous rat on it. hence, levi-the-sewer-rat.

camellia ⇢ what were you like when you were younger? do you think you’ve changed a lot?

well, in case if anybody’s wondering, i have been a fanboy/fangirl since birth. i’ve always been a little too interested in shows and movies… but, i was a fairly nice kid. i sure was sensitive and cried a lot, tho. i wish i was still so upfront about my feelings.

jasmine ⇢ do you have a movie or book you loved but will never watch/read again?

idk, i love doing rewatches of my favorite things. i have scheduled rewatches for banana fish, which the next rewatch (the fifth one) will be in december.

ivy ⇢ what are your ‘tells’ for your emotions and moods? how can someone tell you’re happy, annoyed, upset or tired?

no? maybe? idk. my face isn’t very expressive and it doesn’t show how i am feeling, really. people probably think that i think i am better than everybody else. news flash, i don’t.

chamomile ⇢ what kind of things do you like receiving as gifts?

i would be touched if somebody made me a playlist like ‘these are songs that remind me of you’ and it’s 2+ hours long and all the songs hit just right. the songs are perfectly chosen, no lyric or sound feeling like it didn’t fit me and the person who made the playlist’s relationship. ummm… maybe my expectations are a bit high…

aloe vera ⇢ what’s something (mundane) you really want to experience in life?

idk if it’s mundane, but i want to go out for dinner with a tight, small (4 people), healthy, and good group of friends. then, when we get back home, we do intense karaoke.

palm tree ⇢ do you have a fictional villain you shouldn’t like but love regardless?

uhhhh… i don’t necessarily love him, he’s done awful things, but i really miss eren when he wasn’t season 4 him. but, aot doesn’t really have a villain, soooo….

nutmeg ⇢ how’s your room/home decorated? do you have a specific theme or style going on?

i have a shelf of my books, a bulletin board, and a few posters, otherwise, it’s not quite decorated.

papyrus ⇢ if you put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle, what’s the first song that comes up? what do you like about it / associate it with?

‘creep’ by mxmtoon… and the banana fish fanfic i will never post or finish, but it still has a near and dear place in my heart.

taro ⇢ if someone called you right now to catch up, what’re the things you’d tell them about?

well, if i am willing to share, i would talk about how shitty school is.

hehe, what.

 ﹟random get-to-know-me ask game  !! 

orchid ⇢ what’s a song you consider to be perfect?

cactus ⇢ something you’re currently learning (about)?

bamboo ⇢ do you change into a different outfit when you get home?

abelia ⇢ do you have a particular piece of jewelry you always wear or can’t part with?

daffodil ⇢ do you have siblings? if yes, in what ways do you think you’re similar to or different from them?

mahonia ⇢ what place, thing, activity inspires you most and how do you express yourself when it does?

chia ⇢ what’s an inside joke you have with someone else?

sage ⇢ what ‘medium’ of art (poetry, music, fiction, paintings, statues etc.) is the most touching to you? why do you think that is?

edelweiss ⇢ how’d you think of your url/username? what’s it associated with to you?

camellia ⇢ what were you like when you were younger? do you think you’ve changed a lot?

jasmine ⇢ do you have a movie or book you loved but will never watch/read again?

ivy ⇢ what are your ‘tells’ for your emotions and moods? how can someone tell you’re happy, annoyed, upset or tired?

chamomile ⇢ what kind of things do you like receiving as gifts?

aloe vera ⇢ what’s something (mundane) you really want to experience in life?

palm tree ⇢ do you have a fictional villain you shouldn’t like but love regardless?

nutmeg ⇢ how’s your room/home decorated? do you have a specific theme or style going on?

papyrus ⇢ if you put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle, what’s the first song that comes up? what do you like about it / associate it with?

taro ⇢ if someone called you right now to catch up, what’re the things you’d tell them about?

[one-of-tankhuns-neurons]

Let's talk Friends Forever

Honestly, because the My Universe directors are all different it is kind of a hit or miss with the storytelling and whatnot. It ranges from absolute fucking masterpiece (with Right Time Right You) to what's arguably a fifth semester film student project (with Fake Love) but let's focus for a second on this story in particular.

I'll focus only on what I believe to be the good parts, as I am in a goOd moOd todAy.

1 The Message: it doesn't take long

We all know My Universe is tackling some serious topics, one of them being abuse, in different ways. We saw in RTRU with the alcoholic ex and how it destroys a relationship, then in Lucky love where we see the abuse and how people run away from it and now we get Friends Forever. The buildup is quite subtle. We are given a relationship to root for, but then it becomes slightly uncomfortable. Form the moment I saw the scene in the stairs where the coach runs off angrily and pushes Pun I felt it in the pit of my stomach. "He's gonna kill him". My mind immediately went there. Basically this show said 'You cannot wait to get out, because the next time might be the one that ends your life'. You feel somewhat guilty for rooting for them in the beginning, and as it progressively gets worse... When he hits him w/o his consent, to the sneaking around, to the pulling him away from his friends to finally claiming he LOVES HIM and has done everything for him. Violence is not something we should tolerate, no matter how pretty it seemed at first. It's not always poetic and human, sometimes it's destructive and pure obsession.

2 The way it's presented to you

I kinda went into this in the first point but the way this is showed it kinda turns the viewer into one of the friends, just slightly more aware of the situation. You know about the relax but you're still there with them when they follow them, you would've done the same. When they ran off to talk and they didn't check on them, you're part of that. As the fight isn't initially shown, you're still with the boys when they wake up, and when they find out their friend was murdered by this boyfriend you're the guiltiest of all... Because you knew. You saw the signs yet you remain in this passive role where you're a mere witness who wanted them to be in love and now he's dead. And as viewers we live on with the boys. We see them struggle with the loss and the guilt and the sadness. The main character was always the friend group, and the main point is.. in real life, would you have noticed? Would you have checked on your friend during the night?

3 The MEMORIES

It is obvious that all of the memories that are shown in the episode are from the first part. We get that, but when they keep getting replayed over and over again it gets a bit tiring. I was getting slightly annoyed by having to rewatch them every two minutes when a new character appeared at the locker room. In my head I was already planning out how I would've constructed the character by showing how every friend remembered a different aspect of his personality but then it hit me like a ton of bricks. They keep replaying the same three moment, the same memories be a the main character is still the friends group, it not about individuals, and they keep repeating those scenes because... IT IS WHAT THEY GET. The memories they made together... That's all they get to remember him, and it's gonna be the same memories over and over again bc they don't get to make new ones. Just like in History 3:MODC... That boy is stuck in that moment forever.

4 the ghost shit.

I cried sO fucking hard. I mean we all knew My Universe was obviously gonna pull some outta pocket shit but this goodbye was bittersweet. It is just there to give them relief, to lighten the weight of the guilt they've carried for the last three years and they'll probably carry forever (I even have my theory that Phols personality change was triggered to some extent by the incident). I love the fact that they didn't make him a bitter ghost, he didn't blame his friends, he just wanted to say goodbye to them. For one last moment they can see their group together and they were gifted something most people don't get: closure. We get that as well, we get to see the character one last time as we couldn't do anything either. That moment is for us as well.

I really love this show, even if some of the directors are better than others. It's a great project to showcase new talent, to experiment with complexity and style. It's literally my No.1 Show of the year. Hands down.

[the-algebra-thing]

finished rewatching she ra and I have just been sitting on the couch scrolling through my old collection of she ra posts. I MUST go to bed tho I don't have any more crying in me dude.. cried a bajillion little times reading shadow scale all evening and then later for like over half an hour while I watched heart parts 1 & 2. I am not immune to groundbreaking lesbian representation despite it being three years old and the fifth time I'm watching

[funkybongos]

love doesn’t exist. there is no such thing as love. therefore, there is no sorrow.

[learn-and-accept]

I've spent the last two weeks watching movies and tv shows and it's been great

[apple-sider]

anyways i finished my depression rewatch of haikyuu so i guess we’re watching the 150 episode baseball anime again