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[noturlondonboy]

Headcanons for genderqueer Kate coming out to Yelena?

I feel like queerness in general is still a bit of a learning curve for Yelena considering her oppressive upbringing (but that’s my headcanon! All good if you don’t see it that way)

No you are so correct my friend let’s see what I can cook

WALL OF TEXT GO

-we could start on her coming out as gay first honestly. She’s not exactly nervous about it but she’s already crushing on Yelena and doesn’t really know how to go about it

-plus the internalized homophobia is strong and horrible. Yelena knows about Gay People, yea, but she’s convinced herself that nobody she knows personally is queer and there’s no excuse for her to be attracted to women

-Kate decides to just casually drop it into a conversation by mentioning a past girlfriend or a woman she thinks is really pretty (cough cough Florence Pugh)

-Yelena is just giving her A Look and asks is Kate is attracted to women, and her tone isn’t exactly very nice because she’s freaking the fuck out on the inside

-Kate gets all quiet and nods and gets ready to be rejected in some form or another but Yelena is completely silent and just leaves

-she goes to Natasha immediately and kinda just has a meltdown because she realizes that yes, she is massively into Kate and yes, it feels awful and wonderful at the same time and she’s terrified and wants to run away

-Natasha says the right things but is also just kinda like “…you know that I’m dating Wanda/Maria/Peggy (choose your favorite) right?”

-she eventually decides that she needs to see Kate and apologize for how she left and heads back to her apartment

-Kate meanwhile is NOT having a good time. Miss girl is kinda just crying on the couch with her dog because she’s just like me actually

-Yelena knocks on the door for the first time in her life because she feels bad. She calls out for Kate when she doesn’t respond, but still the door doesn’t open for her and she knows she doesn’t have the right to pick the lock like usual

-she apologizes through the door and explains why she reacted the way she did and that she doesn’t think Kate is disgusting and maybe lets it slip that she’s kinda into her

-which of course prompts Kate to open the door immediately

-Yelena can see that she’s been crying and nearly bursts into tears herself “oh malen’kiy yastreb… I’m so sorry”

-unclear who moved first but suddenly they’re kissing and obviously it’s the fucking best cuz duh

-they’re dating for a whileeee before Kate starts to explore her gender. (Pretty similar to it went in some of the other posts I’ve made) but it makes her panic a little when she realizes that she should probably talk to Yelena about it

-Yelena knows something is up but doesn’t want to push it

-Kate is trying to work up the courage to just blurt it out but accidentally goes “would you still love me if I was a worm” and Yelena just goes of course stupid because Kate asks her that like three times a week

-except when she looks over at her Kate is on the verge of tears and looks so distressed and disconnected and something is clearly actually wrong

-Yelena asks if she’s ok and Kate just shakes her head and starts crying and Yelena is kind of expecting the worst because yes, Kate gets upset about things, yes Kate has cried before and struggled and had a hard time but this is clearly different

-“I don’t think I’m a girl, Lena”

-Yelena does NOT know how to respond to that but she can see that Kate is kinda goin through it so she just nods and says ok and they cuddle

-she takes the night to think about it, and meanwhile Kate is just panicking and stressing and trying not to cry herself to sleep but it also feels so good to have finally just voiced it

-they talk in the morning, and Yelena apologizes for not really saying anything but assures Kate she still loves her and doesn’t want anything about their relationship to change

-she’s never given gender much thought in the first place and she’s gotten so much more comfortable with stuff that’s lgbtq related and honestly if Kate needs something to be different in order to be comfortable Yelena will make it happen

-Yelena would explode buildings and dismantle governments for Kate Bishop ok

[yxlenas]

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I think Yelena thinks the American food system is heinous and thinks that the standard American diet is basically poison. She will eat a dorito but she will absolutely tell you that doritos aren't food while she is eating them. She is one of those "Shop the perimeter of the grocery store" girlies lol.

She is decently picky (food aversions and trauma) and has a similar list every week.

Kate will eat whatever but Kate sucks at remembering to write down what she actually NEEDS so they're going off Yelena's safe food list and Kate's vibes. Yelena is also the only reason Kate eats a vegetable most days. The thing that Kate IS super fastidious about is remembering the reusable tote bags to save 10 cent on the plastic bag at Sprouts, which makes Yelena laugh because Kate has a whole trust fund and is concerned about 10 cent bags.

"You can't eat pizza every night" "Watch me" is a regular conversation.

[billybobby88]

@MissDaniDaniels and her little shark dog with an innocent victim. #jaws #cutedog #dog #MustYouDoThat

[noturlondonboy]

Two questions (oops):

Does genderqueer Kate have bottom dysphoria? If so, what does that look like for her?

And do you post fics on AO3??? I need more genderqueer Kate in my life and there aren’t enough stories.

Hi friend!! This is a good one to think about… my original immediate response was no, she doesn’t have bottom dysphoria, but then I stopped and started thinking a little bit more, andddd…

-I would say yes, genderqueer!Kate has bottom dysphoria here and there, but not merely as much as she did about her chest. It’s the occasional where she wakes up and gets punched in the face with MAN and it feels like it hurts to exist if he can’t be perceived correctly.

-(I once work up and was feeling so they/them I couldn’t get out of bed?? It was weird)

-When this happens, Kate wears a packer that she bought on a whim. Kate also always tells Yelena when he’s wearing it, because it’s a silent and immediate indicator about where he stands today. That’s a he/him/his right there. That’s Yelena’s handsome little himbo boyfriend. That’s Kit Bishop, wam bam done.

-to say further, Kate has absolutely no desire to get bottom surgery. Her usual goal is to have a body that is as genderless as possible, and she is succeeding after her top surgery.

And two answer your second question- I do! I have both an ao3 and a Wattpad. Still no genderqueer Kate fics from me, but once again, I have a small one in the drafts.

[noturlondonboy]

I see someone saw Wicked recently 😂

(Apparently it’s implied in the books that Glinda is gay and never got over Elphaba and I’M FINE EVERYTHING IS FINE)

DUDE NO I HAVENT EVEN SEEN IT YET 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[yxlenas]

Ooooh okay this is... complicated

Sometimes Kate just can't? Like, especially if it's a trigger related to sex or physical intimacy a lot of times Kate has to step away and let someone step in (Antonia or Bucky, normally), because even though she didn't mean to, she caused the situation.

I don't think Kate buys Yelena bracelets. Yelena likes jewelry but is incredibly weird about bracelets because of the whole "red room handcuff shit" so Kate sticks to necklaces and earrings when she wants to buy Yelena nice jewelry. Kate likes to spoil Yelena, sue her. She has to use all that money for something.

Yelena does not do crime shows, especially not SVU or Criminal Minds. Kate likes them, so when she watches them she does it on her laptop and with headphones.

I think Kate has generalized anxiety and nightmares about her dad dying, her mom, about Fisk. Yelena typically wakes her up gently and makes her tea, then they sit on the couch or lay back down together and watch something calming until Kate drifts off. When Kate's anxious, Yelena makes her run or spar until she's tired. Yelena also keeps fidget toys that Kate prefers ALL OVER lol. She's like here stop picking your nails play with the sensory slug.

Yelena's nightmares honestly need their own post.

Also never feel bad for asking more questions I love them.

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