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Behind Closed Doors pt 3 My sexual experiences with men after experiencing sexual trauma were not always the best. A lot of the times I went home feeling the lowest I’ve ever felt about myself because of the way I’d get treated after the fact. It brought me back to how my immediate family treated me after I told them about my trauma, either it didn’t happen to them or they ain’t give a fuck. It took me a VERY long time to actually feel good and embrace my body and love the skin I’m in. Especially after giving birth to two little girls. They are the reason I’m doing this, cause my fear is they endure the same pain I went through. That’s why I try my very hardest to not have anyone around them that I don’t trust. Men who are sexually persistent lack boundaries, can’t accept rejection, and don’t respect when no means no. They’ll keep at it til they can have you. My problem was, I wasn’t strong enough to stand firm on MY respect. Yea, I may write the shit that I write, I may post the pics that I post, but that doesn’t mean I lack self respect, not speaking up for yourself, is having no self respect. Not fighting for you, is having no self respect. Most of all, I’m slowly forgiving myself cause had I been protected my life would have been different. #esteepolanco #musingsofabutterfly #poet #poetry #poetrycommunity #poetsofinstagram #poetrylovers #love #loveyourself #expressyourself #amazonbooks #kindleunlimited #kindle #nookbook #explorepage #followme #womensupportingwomen #womenempowerment #healing #healingjourney #writeyourheartout #divinefeminine #spiritualhealing #innerpeace #letgo #unpacking #healyoursoul #wombhealing #wombanhood #womanhood https://www.instagram.com/p/CKXXnytpZem/?igshid=1lw313ti37ly4

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Behind Closed Doors Pt. 2 This is the second part poem to my experiences and this is only a snippet. In due time I’ll share the full poems when I’m ready. I was able to share this experience with my mom for the first time over the summer. I didn’t say anything to her not because I was afraid, but because the people who were supposed to be my protectors in my life failed me. And the fact that they failed me as a child, when I opened up and spoke my truth, I was called a liar. The sad thing about the Hispanic culture, and I think with ANY culture really, when it comes to any type of abuse towards women, we’re expected to just take it. There’s no empathy for the women who experiences trauma. We’re expected to live life graciously and carry the burden of the pain on our chests until we can’t carry it no more. And when we lash out we’re called crazy. But this is my truth. This is my experience. And ima let it out, so I can let go of this pain, so I can sleep better at night. #esteepolanco #musingsofabutterfly #poetry #poetrycommunity #poet #poetsofinstagram #poetrylovers #healingjourney #healing #loveyourself #liveyourlife #divinefeminine #unpacking #letgo #spiritualhealing #explorepage #followｍe #expressyourself #free #freedom #liberty #liberation #latinapoet #womanempowerment #womensupportingwomen #womanpower #childhoodtrauma #amazonbooks #kindleunlimited #nookbook https://www.instagram.com/p/CKWu5xpAJpA/?igshid=11cd0frm5vkkb

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Behind Closed Doors I normally write a lot of erotic poetry, but I felt like getting deep tonight. I’ve been through a WHOLE lotta trauma in my life, especially as a kid. And reading these words to myself makes me realize that I have a lot of hate that I need to let go of for myself. It makes me realize that although the closure is there I need to forgive them, and myself for being so afraid to speak up. This isn’t the full poem, this is just a snippet but I plan on writing a three part poem to my trauma so that I can fully let go of that pain, cause it’s what keeps me up at night. #esteepolanco #musingsofabutterfly #poetry #poetrycommunity #healingjourney #healing #poetsofinstagram #poetrylovers #womanempowerment #latinapoet #womanpoetry #healingpoetry #pain #selflove #letgo #loveyourself #beyourself #childhood #poetrylovers #poetryofinstagram #poet #dominicanpoet #explorepage #followme #beauty #beautiful #amazonbooks #kindle #nookbook #lulubookstore #unpacking https://www.instagram.com/p/CKVhA_LAqon/?igshid=s0wl4fydg0t

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The Facade This poem is dedicated to releasing my inner child pain, and to remind EVERYONE who’s been through trauma to use their voices. Because you need to be heard too! #esteepolanco #musingsofabutterfly #poetry #spokenword #writersofinstagram #selfcare #selflovejourney #healingjourney #poetsofinstagram #poetrycommunity #poetrylovers #selflove #freedom #authors #authorsofinstagram #loveyou #womanauthor #womansupportingwoman #expressyourself #letitgo #release #breathe #speaklife #speakyourtruth #butterfly #writerscommunity #poet #latinapoet #befree https://www.instagram.com/p/CLgITkCA1wE/?igshid=uj758ce5ddao

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I Don’t Trust You #esteepolanco #musingsofabutterfly #love #loveyourself #poetrycommunity #poetry #life #writersofinstagram #writersofig #explorepage #followme #amazonbooks #kindleunlimited #kindle #nookbooks #womanempowerment #latinapoet #beautiful #expressyourself #loveandpoetry #womanhood #divinefeminine #feminineenergy #letgo #livelife #happy #poetrylovers #poetryofig #selflove #musicandpoetry https://www.instagram.com/p/CJ-QwjgAt2k/?igshid=92krds5jrl5t

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Musings of A Butterfly is now available on Lulu, Amazon, Kindle, Barnes&Noble, Dymocks, Bookbub, Indigo, Rakuten. It’s available GLOBALLY via EBOOK! Go grab your copy and enjoy a good read! #esteepolanco #musingsofabutterfly #womanauthor #amazon #amazonbooks #kindleunlimited #kindlebooks #kindle #amazonbookstore #lulubooks #barnesandnoble #authorsofinstagram #authorsofig #eroticpoetry #poetrycommunity #latinapoet #womanpoet #love #life #beautiful #ropebondage #explorepage #followｍe #expressyourself #devinefeminine #musingsofabutterfly #photographyandpoetry #photography #selflove #finerwomanhood #motherhood https://www.instagram.com/p/CJ1NDGzJXza/?igshid=1ji2vjpwjwzfz

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Capture This #esteepolanco #poetrycommunity #poet #positivevibes #poetry #writersofinstagram #writerscommunity #writersofig #authorsofinstagram #amazonbooks #kindlebooks #kindleunlimited #love #loveyourself #musingsofabutterfly #beautiful #life #bookstagram #booklover #book #womanauthor #womenempowerment #womensupportingwomen #soul #poetrylovers #poetryandsoul #explorepage #expressyourself #loveislove #letgo https://www.instagram.com/p/CJL1wrpgH4I/?igshid=12qwo8z8y5jhs