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[minimujina]

wanderer in his season of healing makes me so happy. i love that he is safe enough to become softer again, that he is regaining some of his previously “weak” attributes and finding peace with them. he is becoming measured and introspective, and thinking before he speaks, perhaps a result of both his healing and his melancholy; i think it’s beautiful that he is finally able to safely feel his sadness and process the things that have happened. he is simultaneously finding peace and feeling all the difficult emotions he previously consumed with anger. it is painful, but right.

his sense of humor is still intact, certainly rough around the edges as you’d expect, though much less biting than before. it’s easy to tell that most anything aggressive he says is a front, a front that he is no longer concerned with presenting as absolute truth. perhaps the front is his sense of humor, and his affection is all thinly veiled behind jabs and sour grumbles—he is not willing to divulge the intimate details of that, however, preferring to leave it up to interpretation.

i just think of him and his healing and i feel like if he were to fall in love, it would be such a sweet and gentle and quiet sort of thing, just like his newfound peace. he ponders over many things, brooding by himself as much as he can, though he occasionally allows space for others to brood with him. that, i think, is something unique he may grow in. there are people who cannot tolerate strong emotions in themselves and certainly not in others—but he is the kind of person who can. he is the kind of person you could sit with and exist in your sadness and just be sad, and that’s okay. he’s not offering words of comfort or anything, but he doesn’t need to. anything he’d say would be useless anyways, he knows what it’s like and knows that a presence is enough and existing in your emotions safely is enough. he can appreciate someone who is straightforward about feeling unwell, who doesn’t seek pity, who is alright with sitting in the mud. he will gladly sit with you, then, as long as you don’t expect him to get all mushy about things.

he would do well falling in love quietly, not having to beat around the bush. naturally, pieces would fall into place, and he’d find himself yearning to be in the presence of another in a way he’d never before experienced. he had never really wanted to be around anyone, had never sought out anyone’s presence. but once he has been treated gently, has fallen softly into the arms of a likened soul who has the patience and understanding to touch his rough edges without recoiling, he finds his third space being with this new safe person.

and despite his reluctance to be anything but mysterious and nonchalant, i believe wanderer in his healing season would become quite the romantic. not in the sappy sense, but in the quiet love sense i’ve been talking about. firm and protective, subtle and gentle, almost gentlemanlike if it weren’t for his falsely rotten attitude he enjoyed projecting. romantic in a princely way, in a reverently respectful way, in a grotesquely wholesome way.

only the most chaste touches and kisses; he’s still getting used to affection, and would abhor pda. in private he’s much more open to being touched, because he is safe. if he is not safe, he is deeply conditioned to be conscious of his vulnerabilities, and it’s something that will take a lot of time to override, if even at all. but it’s a massive and beautiful step that he is even willing to receive affection at all, that he would want it from a partner in any amount.

hates eye contact, likes playing with hands. likes tracing veins and creases in skin and freckles and scars; he finds them fascinating, as he has nothing of the sort on his artificial body. one of his unique ways he shows affection is what could be called “studying” you. he likes to brood (with you there; perhaps it could be called parallel brooding) and take your arm and trace all the splotches, imperfections, veins, tendons he can find. he likes to touch more than he likes to be touched i think. perhaps he becomes amusingly selfish in this way. perhaps he is more averse to receiving than giving the affection because his disgust towards himself still lingers. perhaps he still has harmful core beliefs to unlearn.

i think he is full of a love that is strong and quiet, a love that he gives so sparingly, and only in pieces, never all at once. unless, that is, someone comes along and manages to drag it all out like a magnet—his carefully crafted exterior is in pieces, just like that! but oh, once someone is in possession of his love, he begins to know them so intimately, more intimately than he lets on. he so deeply knows who he loves and he knows how to give and to take action and so he does it, silently, for he is adept at perceiving the needs of his loved ones. reading body language and facial expressions is second nature to him at this point; nothing can get past him.

he studies you wordlessly with the expression of a cat who loves and reveres its human, except it’s the kind of cat who believes it owns the human, not the other way around. you’re his responsibility that he has taken on like an extension of himself because he loves you, and you have loved him, and now he hardly wants you out of his sight. his journey of rediscovery and learning self acceptance has been mentally and emotionally arduous, but ever since you came in and made loving him seem so easy, he’s felt much more at peace, and has had the capacity to reflect and process with much more freedom to sincerely feel.

stupid fictional character i hate him i hate him so much he is not real and i hate him

[minimujina]

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HELLO YOUR TAGS JUST ALMOST MADE ME CRY?? you seriously made my fucking day. i love you thank you that is all. im sobbing

@minimujina

hello, dear!!! WAUGHHH you have no idea just how much this fic shaped the trajectory to my brain. i love you too MWA U deserve all my words in the tags because i genuinely love the way you write and how you characterize scara hnnngdhdhjs

[minimujina]

ok listen. hear me out. neuvillette x arrogant attorney who wont shut the fuck up enemies to lovers slowburn 6263837k words

[minimujina]

pride and prejudice au, wanderer as darcy and childe as bingley. hear me out ☝️

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i want to make an oc who is younger than piper who looks up to her because she’s always talking about the “youngsters” and how “old” she is because of her experience driving. i just think it would be adorable and piper gives off massive older sister (but middle child) vibes, like you know when kids have younger siblings and they often just have that really sweet protective vibe with the still-childish flair. i can’t shake the feeling that she would be a great (and comical) older sister considering her age compared to the rest of the sons of calydon and how she acts like she’s a seasoned grandma

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OKAY MAN.

[minimujina]

kinktober day 5: my guttural prayer to God begging that it’s part of his plan for me to have a husband and children

[minimujina]

I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS TO WRITE FOR KINICHAHEHHWUAHWHEHD I LOVE HIM SM HE MAKES ME FEEL ALL FUZZY ITS THE SPIDERMAN EFFECT IDK WHY BUT ANY SPIDERMAN-ESQUE CHARACTER JUST TICKLES MY FANCY . ANYWAYS I JUST NEED. TO WRITE. I CANT BUT I WANT BUT I CANT AND OH MY LORORERREDDD

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bro idk what to call the wanderer when writing anymore cause like it feels weird to call him wanderer, but i also feel bad if i call him scaramouche or kunikuzushi cause like those are names he’s renounced and☹️☹️☹️☹️MAN I KNOW HES JUST A FICTIONAL CHARACTER but hes our littl meow…. ☹️ at this point its gonna b like “and [redacted] kissed ur face lalalala [redacted] love u so much ehehe”

[minimujina]

anybody else just sick of it all. just really over it. i have uranium poisoning

[minimujina]

you ever just want to kiss someone so bad. not a specific person. i just need to experience it with fucjign anyone idc at this point i wanna know what it feels like so bad

yknow what poll time

rb fir bigger sample size :3

[minimujina]

WRIOTHESLEY

i w,ant ,..hi m..

[minimujina]

so i dont think ive ever mentioned this on this blog before, but i have this headcanon where sayu is sort of like heizou’s assistant/partner/errand-runner/what-have-you and i think about it literally all the time. (if you are interested in looking at the true dynamics that im too tired to explain, my blog @adventures-in-teyvat has …a lot of incorrect quotes lmao. the tag is #anemo detectives, and if you scroll all the way down to the first one, the tags sort of explain my reasoning i think? or one of the first ones idk)

im actually planning on writing about them. today at school i wrote like 5 pages of crap about them to cope SNDGDJDH so that really inspired me like “hey this is something that i would actually love to write about” so yep im gonna probably try to make a series maybe? i think it would be really fun and then i can convert you all into sayu + heizou lovers :)

im really sad that they dont really have in-game interactions because i think they would be so hilarious. i have so so many things planned and they make me so happy and im really excited😳so yes anyways thats all i have to say, just wanted to make a post for it because its really different from anything else ive written so far. (and just in case this needs to be said, im not shipping them romantically haha, this is all pure fluff and found family and all that)

I MEAN LOOK AT THEM this is probably like.. the only fanart i have Ever seen with them in it together but its perfect and describes part of whats funny about their dynamic oh gosh i could go on a whole rant rn but i wont anywyas yeh that will maybe be coming soon woop yeh

[minimujina]

so the boy is my boyfriend now abusheuueeggrhr that is muuuuch of the reason ive not written anything in so long. i have 16 drafts that ill try to keep working on😭😭😭once again not making any promises, this is just an update on where i am. who knows, maybe having a bf will just make me more inspired to write because im so disgustingly sappy literally all yhe time pglsmjfjg

[minimujina]

i dont want to overhype because it will probably be Long before i post it, but i’ve got a wriothesley piece coming up that i’m especially proud of. i wont spoil it yet but :3 i think it will be long long.. like long. we’ll see. i may post it on ao3 as well, since i’ve never done that. anyways just wanted to say this since this blog has been about as dry as my flaky ass skin

once i graduate this year i hope that i can pick my hobbies back up again (which includes writing) and have them be actual hobbies rather than just coping mechanisms during school. wishing anyone who sees this well!! :) we will make it through

[minimujina]

i NEED rizzley to let me trace his scars I NEED IT RN AND I NEED A HUG and also he should make out with me. this is are my coniditons