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[minimujina]

“i was just reflecting on the notion of dying for love. i’d love to give it a try, if i ever got the chance.”

- lighter in a hangout event after you choose to watch a romantic movie where the two leads die for each other

“i’d like to give it a try too,” is a dialogue option.

then he says:

“…don’t say that, i might actually believe you. but let’s wait until we’re both tired of living first.”

. . .

this man quite literally just insinuated that should he ever fall in love with someone—should he ever fall in love with YOU—he would lay his life down for that person. he would lay his life down for YOU. we already could have guessed that, it’s surely not surprising, but this interaction basically told us that should you both choose it, YOU would be the person he falls in love with. perhaps you already are; perhaps he is already halfway there. perhaps lighter has already decided he would lay his life down for you, given the circumstance calls for it—actually, i am certain he has. i’m certain that whether he loves us romantically or not, he would die to protect us, as he would for anyone he holds close.

he did not have to say that second part of the first line. he could have left it at the fact that he was ruminating over the themes of the movie. but he didn’t—and because he didn’t, his words imply so much to the player, if you decide you want to interpret it that way😭

“i was just reflecting on the notion of dying for love. i’d love to give it a try, if i ever got the chance.”

— i would die for you. i think i could fall in love with you.

“don’t say that, i might actually believe you. but let’s wait until we’re both tired of living first.”

— i want to believe you. i already believe you.

that last sentence—let’s wait—is more of a joke to me than anything else; like haha if we’re going to fall in love and die for each other in a romantic fashion, let’s wait until we’re tired of living👅. but the fact that he said it at all basically affirms the previous implication—that he could and would fall in love with the proxy, and perhaps he is eager to. he wouldn’t make a half-joke like that if he weren’t serious about its implications.

i just fucking loved this dialogue scene. when you choose to watch the romantic movie it even gives you a trust boost with him. he likes romantic shit. he’s a fucking sappy boy and a loser. i’m so in love with him i hate him so much

[minimujina]

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HELLO YOUR TAGS JUST ALMOST MADE ME CRY?? you seriously made my fucking day. i love you thank you that is all. im sobbing

@minimujina

hello, dear!!! WAUGHHH you have no idea just how much this fic shaped the trajectory to my brain. i love you too MWA U deserve all my words in the tags because i genuinely love the way you write and how you characterize scara hnnngdhdhjs

[minimujina]

sunday is so admirable. he is facing the shame and guilt of his actions with humility; he is somehow grappling with his identity in such a graceful manner. i just loved seeing his goodbye to penacony so much. welt witnessing all of it and how much they connected was so lovely. i know sunday is not an official member of the express, but he has so much fondness that he’s finally allowing himself to express again like when he was a kid and the astral express is such a good place for him i don’t want to think about him leaving i might cry lol. i know he has his own goals and wants to find or create a paradise, but i want him to also find a home in the astral express family bc that would be really awesome sauce. he already has specific things he deeply appreciates about each member and how they have impacted him even though he has barely been a passenger for long. he recognizes how different each of them is, how they all have had their own journey and motivations for being a nameless, and he is so contemplative and compassionate i just. ugh. i really really love his character. we were shown every side of him, not only all of these qualities ive mentioned but also the not so nice things, his flaws that remain and will continue to remain. but i just love nothing more than redemption arcs in characters. wanderer and sunday have me in a chokehold they’re so beautiful and heartfelt and sincere im going to cry

[minimujina]

it felt like heaven, the first time lighter kissed you. he kissed you as if he were replacing the oxygen in your lungs with his own, as if he could reach inside of you and get a taste of your soul, a taste of something divine, all for himself. you were his, he was yours, and he was kissing you and kissing you and his hands were so warm on your face; you were dizzy in love. soon, one hand trailed down to the small of your back, pulling you closer than close and holding you tighter than tight, the lingering hand fitting snugly against your jaw.

small breaks to breathe, but they were used as opportunities for him to find other places to plant his lips; kissing the corner of your mouth, your cheek, your jaw, your neck—all with reverence and something so earnestly gentle. you had learned lighter was a romantic, but he had yet to truly show the length of the sentiment until now; it was clear to you that he must truly hold you dearer than dear to show this much affection, for all his movements to be imbued with so much meaning. everything so intentional, so full of patience and respect that the champion almost seemed hesitant.

returning to your lips, his forehead absently knocked against yours in an affectionate manner, his eyes shut tight as he couldn’t bear to feel the weight of your gaze, much less let it pierce his soul. not yet, not now, while he could show you how much he loved you for the first time. not yet, not now, while he bore the nakedness of being without his sunglasses, not having come to terms with the discomfort yet.

and when it was over, it was hardly over; you remained in each others’ embrace for a long time. he couldn’t look at you, he just wanted to hold you, hold your head to his chest, curl around you as if to protect you from the world. he wasn’t ready for the feeling of your arms around him to end.

[minimujina]

wanderer in his season of healing makes me so happy. i love that he is safe enough to become softer again, that he is regaining some of his previously “weak” attributes and finding peace with them. he is becoming measured and introspective, and thinking before he speaks, perhaps a result of both his healing and his melancholy; i think it’s beautiful that he is finally able to safely feel his sadness and process the things that have happened. he is simultaneously finding peace and feeling all the difficult emotions he previously consumed with anger. it is painful, but right.

his sense of humor is still intact, certainly rough around the edges as you’d expect, though much less biting than before. it’s easy to tell that most anything aggressive he says is a front, a front that he is no longer concerned with presenting as absolute truth. perhaps the front is his sense of humor, and his affection is all thinly veiled behind jabs and sour grumbles—he is not willing to divulge the intimate details of that, however, preferring to leave it up to interpretation.

i just think of him and his healing and i feel like if he were to fall in love, it would be such a sweet and gentle and quiet sort of thing, just like his newfound peace. he ponders over many things, brooding by himself as much as he can, though he occasionally allows space for others to brood with him. that, i think, is something unique he may grow in. there are people who cannot tolerate strong emotions in themselves and certainly not in others—but he is the kind of person who can. he is the kind of person you could sit with and exist in your sadness and just be sad, and that’s okay. he’s not offering words of comfort or anything, but he doesn’t need to. anything he’d say would be useless anyways, he knows what it’s like and knows that a presence is enough and existing in your emotions safely is enough. he can appreciate someone who is straightforward about feeling unwell, who doesn’t seek pity, who is alright with sitting in the mud. he will gladly sit with you, then, as long as you don’t expect him to get all mushy about things.

he would do well falling in love quietly, not having to beat around the bush. naturally, pieces would fall into place, and he’d find himself yearning to be in the presence of another in a way he’d never before experienced. he had never really wanted to be around anyone, had never sought out anyone’s presence. but once he has been treated gently, has fallen softly into the arms of a likened soul who has the patience and understanding to touch his rough edges without recoiling, he finds his third space being with this new safe person.

and despite his reluctance to be anything but mysterious and nonchalant, i believe wanderer in his healing season would become quite the romantic. not in the sappy sense, but in the quiet love sense i’ve been talking about. firm and protective, subtle and gentle, almost gentlemanlike if it weren’t for his falsely rotten attitude he enjoyed projecting. romantic in a princely way, in a reverently respectful way, in a grotesquely wholesome way.

only the most chaste touches and kisses; he’s still getting used to affection, and would abhor pda. in private he’s much more open to being touched, because he is safe. if he is not safe, he is deeply conditioned to be conscious of his vulnerabilities, and it’s something that will take a lot of time to override, if even at all. but it’s a massive and beautiful step that he is even willing to receive affection at all, that he would want it from a partner in any amount.

hates eye contact, likes playing with hands. likes tracing veins and creases in skin and freckles and scars; he finds them fascinating, as he has nothing of the sort on his artificial body. one of his unique ways he shows affection is what could be called “studying” you. he likes to brood (with you there; perhaps it could be called parallel brooding) and take your arm and trace all the splotches, imperfections, veins, tendons he can find. he likes to touch more than he likes to be touched i think. perhaps he becomes amusingly selfish in this way. perhaps he is more averse to receiving than giving the affection because his disgust towards himself still lingers. perhaps he still has harmful core beliefs to unlearn.

i think he is full of a love that is strong and quiet, a love that he gives so sparingly, and only in pieces, never all at once. unless, that is, someone comes along and manages to drag it all out like a magnet—his carefully crafted exterior is in pieces, just like that! but oh, once someone is in possession of his love, he begins to know them so intimately, more intimately than he lets on. he so deeply knows who he loves and he knows how to give and to take action and so he does it, silently, for he is adept at perceiving the needs of his loved ones. reading body language and facial expressions is second nature to him at this point; nothing can get past him.

he studies you wordlessly with the expression of a cat who loves and reveres its human, except it’s the kind of cat who believes it owns the human, not the other way around. you’re his responsibility that he has taken on like an extension of himself because he loves you, and you have loved him, and now he hardly wants you out of his sight. his journey of rediscovery and learning self acceptance has been mentally and emotionally arduous, but ever since you came in and made loving him seem so easy, he’s felt much more at peace, and has had the capacity to reflect and process with much more freedom to sincerely feel.

stupid fictional character i hate him i hate him so much he is not real and i hate him

[minimujina]

DUDE LIGHTER IS SUCH A FUCKING SAP😭in a friendship encounter when you find him at orchidea’s shop he’s buying flowers for a memorial, and you talk about flowers and stuff and he asks what your favorite kind is, and when he leaves you find out he bought a bouquet for you just before he left . &&:&792&1!3)$4&;&($5

[minimujina]

just had a thought of reader who works with kids (either teaching or just childcare, however you imagine it would work better in inazuma) and kazuha

kazuha accidentally stumbles upon you and your kids playing, and he ends up getting roped in and being assigned to play the role of a pirate, because he tells so many stories of the sea and his travels with beidou. they even procure for him a fontaine-style pirate hat (because of course you have a costume bucket for your kids, and of course it has things from all different cultures over teyvat). and you, you are now the princess, and kazuha is the good pirate who saves the princess from the evil bandits! but the bandits board the ship and begin to close in on the pair, so the pirate must climb the mast with his princes in his arms, fending off the bandits with the very power of the wind! and when each bandit has been cast into the sea, the pirate floats back down to the deck with his princess, and they live happily ever after and get married :) and the bandits’ actors now reassign themselves the role of children again, and now you must play family. and the kids make kazuha promise to come play again the next time he is around, and also to take you out on a date (they ignore your mortified expression). kazuha assures them he will be around much more often :)

[minimujina]

ok listen. hear me out. neuvillette x arrogant attorney who wont shut the fuck up enemies to lovers slowburn 6263837k words

[minimujina]

while i completely understand the violent thirst over lighter i just hope we all don’t let it overshadow his character. this happened to wriothesley with his ass, and now we’ve got lighter and his ass. like yes i understand it’s big, and i too wanna kiss him all over. but also we should also recognize that he’s not a sex symbol and should not be reduced to a sex symbol. i have a hard time even with the official arts from his time in the ring, seeing people sexualize them so much. those seem to me like depictions of his worst, depictions of him when he was considered nothing but muscle and all he did was fight; he was just a body being used for entertainment and profit. he literally described himself as a zombie. idk like does this make sense that i find it uncomfortable to sexualize him sm or am i crazy? i know it’s probably not that serious and it’s ok to be absolutely down bad for him, i just sometimes get uncomfortable with the lengths people go to, especially considering his past. don’t get me wrong i like injured bloody men as much as the next girl but i can’t find it in me to see the art of his past as hot or sexy because that was the worst time of his life and im not sure he even saw himself as human then

[minimujina]

pride and prejudice au, wanderer as darcy and childe as bingley. hear me out ☝️

[minimujina]

i want to make an oc who is younger than piper who looks up to her because she’s always talking about the “youngsters” and how “old” she is because of her experience driving. i just think it would be adorable and piper gives off massive older sister (but middle child) vibes, like you know when kids have younger siblings and they often just have that really sweet protective vibe with the still-childish flair. i can’t shake the feeling that she would be a great (and comical) older sister considering her age compared to the rest of the sons of calydon and how she acts like she’s a seasoned grandma

[minimujina]

OKAY MAN.

[minimujina]

be still my heart lest i bite the furniture bc i joined zzz specifically for lighter, ended up falling in love with the game so hard i didn’t play genshin for a month, and now he’s finally almost here and immmmm hhdbbfnfjsnfhsjndjfsjjfnfnfnfn shhehehhehehehheeee

[minimujina]

kinktober day 5: my guttural prayer to God begging that it’s part of his plan for me to have a husband and children

[minimujina]

I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS TO WRITE FOR KINICHAHEHHWUAHWHEHD I LOVE HIM SM HE MAKES ME FEEL ALL FUZZY ITS THE SPIDERMAN EFFECT IDK WHY BUT ANY SPIDERMAN-ESQUE CHARACTER JUST TICKLES MY FANCY . ANYWAYS I JUST NEED. TO WRITE. I CANT BUT I WANT BUT I CANT AND OH MY LORORERREDDD

[minimujina]

anybody else just sick of it all. just really over it. i have uranium poisoning