#mr. ewing

[the-remarkable-mrs-smith]

10/1/23

I’m still here. Sometimes I wonder why and what for. It’s a thing navigating this world alone, yet down the hall my daughter is home for the weekend. She’s here for a game, her boyfriend is here. I drove home from a few days away to see my extended family and returned at 1:30 am and I haven’t greeted my daughter yet. I’m tired. The cat woke me at 5:55 am meowing outside my door, and I looked at my phone to see that the man who I had been excited to have a first date with today, cancelled. Family stuff. He’d call me later. He’ll be unavailable for several days.

💔

You know I’ve been lonely. I’ve been trying to be cool. I’ve been trying to adjust to not dating, to being alone, and then…

… bam. A new man falls into my world, but I think it’s a trick. He’s not here. Don’t get excited. Go back to your regularly scheduled alone time.

Daughter is down the hall, but will probably wake up and take off.

Me. I don’t know what to do with myself except TRY to get OUT of this funk. It would help if it were cooler. I hate the heat.

My mind is neg. Am I creating my neg world? Is this all a simulation? Why am I here?

Fuck. I need to yoga and coffee. Fucking this world. Can I get to the happy part? Can I get to the part of my commercial where I am being held by the man that I love, a gentle breeze blowing my hair, we’re smiling and the world is our oyster?

Or am I to be alone in this world because I am meant to be alone… or is this temporary… or is this a simulation… or is this me struggling on the brink of insanity or is this me on the brink of waking up to a fucking new dimensional reality and I’m struggling to get my egg shell off?

Both?

Neither?

Get coffee?

Have the people in my life kept me in my egg? Eggs would be lovely for breakfast. lol

Alfred E Newman once said, “why so serious,” and maybe the Joker, too.

Is everything a joke? Our struggles? That we choose to struggle? That my ass is still in bed when I could get my robe on and make some fucking coffee and start enjoying the damn day… maybe that’s the joke.

My intention: to enjoy this day, whatever it may bring.

And fucking get up and get some coffee.

[letsgetitblog]

The way he got UP????

Ew, brother ewwww 😭

[panicc-attacc]

Oh, oh that’s gore of my comfort character

[baconcolacan]

Sooo can you tell us about Tord and Edd's "friendship?" Or current status with each other idk

More detailed rambles below

In the Stay AU, after the accident, Tord actually wasn't aware that Edd survived the bombing, he couldn't check because at that point his mind was on Tom and Matt who had sustained the most injuries as well as his own injuries. Tord in this universe is a very avoidant person, so when he found out that Edd was alive, he was too afraid to reach out and tell him that he, Matt, and Tom had survived. He meant to, but kept pushing it back until it was too late. Edd suffered a really bad psychotic break due to his belief that his friends had all died, he went down a very self-destructive path until Eduardo found him and took him in. At this point in time he didn't take care of himself much, and wouldn't have if not for Eduardo. When Tord came back into the scene, Edd was livid. He spent years believing his friends were dead, he mourned them, he agonized repeatedly over what happened. So when Tord made contact, he lashed out at him. He doesn't quite know if he can forgive Tord any time soon.

[frigid-m-grim]

new fixation new yumeship to peddle ahehe

[electricpez]

he should have LIVED !!!!!

[veeepawoon]

What the fuck

[biposi]

Ichitord Meet - Part 2

[tangyyrine]

God they make me so ill

[salad-006]

SOUND THE EDDSWORLD ALARMS

I HAVE MADE A BREAKTHROUGH

After hours of strenuous and meticulous research, I have found the most solid explaination for Tom's eyes

My magnum opus

And here , ladies and gentleman ,is my proof

FACT NUMBER ONE: TOM DOES NOT HAVE EYEBALLS

We are given several signs his sockets are empty, these being the most prominent ones

In 25ft under the seat he goes to proclaim "Life flashing before my eyes!" However stops before the final word, implying there are no eyes there to be flashed

In Zanta Claws II he receives a set of eyeballs, which he sticks inside his already empty sockets

In spares the clones of Tom have their eyeballs completely removed.

I do not need to explain

FACT NUMBER TWO: SOMETHING IS IN THERE.

Despite proof his sockets are empty, we are given scenes that would suggest otherwise. For example the intro to Moviemakers, where he presses his face against the glass and we can see something squish up against it

However the most important example of this is in Hammer & Fail part 2, where Tom attempts to rub his eyes only for them to sink in when pressure is applied

Obviously regular eyes cant physically do this, this would only happen if there was some sort of thin layer in front of an empty space

For example, a set of inner eyelids.

CONCLUSION: TOM IS A LIZARD PERSON.

The only logical explaination is these inner eyelids that can be opened or closed whenever he wants. (This would also explain why he can consistently touch his 'eyes' without any sort of discomfort, and why his they seem to stick out like eyeballs most of the time)

I have done it.

I have solved the greatest mystery of eddsworld

[marmalade004]

my turn (crack ships are fun IM SORRY)

[the-remarkable-mrs-smith]

Why do I feel like the a-hole?

Broke up with boyfriend back in September, TRIED to reconcile with him in October. Unsuccessful because I couldn’t go along with his plan of yelling at me and him deciding that he didn’t have to listen to anything that I said.

Okay. It sucked. While things weren’t great, I loved him PLUS I think we were very codependent and that works for me on a lot of levels.

He was my person. I was his. But we had to part.

UNTIL RECENTLY… I reached out to him on a whim. He’s a mess. Unemployed. Broke. He got a sub while we were broken up, admitted he loved her one day, yesterday he discovered that she had taken photographs of all his credit card info and racked up $5000 worth of debt. Her reaction to him calling the police on her for trying to extort him for money.

He’s also been diagnosed with emphysema and is dying.

Even with ALL the bs going on in his life, I was going to be there for him. Last Thursday he told me he didn’t didn’t have the same feelings for me and wasn’t attracted to me. I was devastated. By Saturday he invited me over and had lots of sex with me.

Last night, we met. He had spent all day dealing with the credit card fraud that his 6’5”, bipolar sub committed. I met him and bought him pizza and beer. I was consoling him. We were having a nice time. He looked beat, but I loved seeing him. My person.

But then, he turned. He remembered how I had caused him a past hurt, accused me of something I didn’t do, and in front of the waitress who was looking embarrassed for me, started yelling at me. I asked for the check. Double the amount I had planned on spending. He stormed out.

Grabbing the rest of my pizza, which will be my lunch today, I walked out. In the dark of the parking lot, he was waiting for me.

“I thought you’d follow me out.”

“I had to pay the bill.”

“I swear to christ, I am sorry.”

Me- nothing. He kept yelling at me apologies, I don’t know what, but he was begging for me to engage with him. And me- still nothing.

I walked home. Calling one of my guy friends and vented on the way. Finished text arguing with exbf. Texting the ONLY way to get a word in with him because he never wants to listen to me when he’s upset.

Exbf finally texted-

“leave me alone and go life your life you deserve better”

So I left it at that. Climbed into bed and fell asleep at 9 pm.

This morning, I feel conflicted. I know he’s hurting. He’s ill in every way. It’s so hard for me to let him be. I love him. It doesn’t make sense. He’s all alone here. We are each others persons, but he has issues.

I do too, but while we were broken up, I’ve been seeing a therapist.

I was preparing myself to take care of him until he passed, but… the drama… the yelling… the getting shut down because he won’t or can’t hear what I have to say. He’s so fragile right now.

I feel bad for him. He’s a mess. I don’t want to abandon him, but I can’t do the drama. And in such a short time, I can see that I was falling into the same behavior patterns with him… putting aside the things I enjoy… getting high with him (which is something I stopped doing as much once we broke up.)

It conflicting.

Does it seem weird that is conflicting?

Probably not… emotionally unstable dad who was the provider, emotionally unengaged mother who just ignored his outburst and would patch the holes he had punched in the wall, and then would go about her business… cooking dinner, doing laundry, cleaning house. Our normal.

Can I walk away from the man I love in his time of need?

It’s raining. The cat is on my lap. I have a few sips of cold coffee left. I wrote this because I didn’t want to forget this moment. It seems important. Plus, I wanted to update Mr. Ewing, and it was too much to write via messages.

Why do I feel so guilty when I know this was the right thing to do for me?

[ovium-sheep]

Outdated favorite character trend I FINALLY finished about a week ago.

Very proud of this one, but it could use an update since my preferences have changed 🙏

[theodoresmustache]

he scares me

[baconcolacan]

So, How are you today Tom? Any exciting things happening right now?

[magical-girl-hell]

"So when, thirty years and change later, Wil Moss asks me what I think of Thor -- and if I'd like to pitch for his solo book -- there are two things I know for sure before I think of anything else. One is that Thor shouldn't be like other heroes. He should be more. He should shatter mountains, stand in thunder that kills, turn back ancient winters, defeat death itself. And the other... is that I like him best when he smiles."

-- Al Ewing