#morning log

[dimadimoo]

I’m jealous... So, I just saw some posts from another Indonesian tf writer on Tumblr, and I haven’t interacted with him yet cause, honestly, he gives off intimidating vibes. Plus, my blog’s still pretty small, only a few stories and not many followers. I’ve followed him, I like his stories, but… I can’t help but feel less than him. I don’t know why, but I’m jealous as hell because of it. I mean, I use the same hashtags, like #indonesianmaletf and #maletransformation, so this writer probably already seen my stuff... But something about him just gives me this vibe like he’s superior or "better than you", you know?

Plus he’s got a ton of followers and interaction, and I’ve got... well, not that... And I saw one of his anonymous ask posts and I have this sneaking suspicion it’s from "him". I hope it’s just me overthinking, but honestly, I’m like 80% sure it’s him... And that just… bums me out honestly.

I get it yeah, I’m probably being childish and insecure but that’s just where I’m at... Even if it’s not that deep for anyone else, it is for me. I know I’m being dramatic, but fuck it, this is how I feel.

I think I’ve figured out why this hits me so hard. I’m used to people leaving. Every friend I’ve ever had eventually bails, no one sticks around. It’s sad, but that’s just how it’s always been for me. And there’s nothing I can do about it. It makes me realize I should focus more on myself.

Dealing with insecurity it’s a real pain in the ass. It’s not like there’s some quick fix for it, sure therapy’ but it’s still not a magic bullet. It’s a freaking long process, full of lessons and realizations. And yeah, I think insecurity is valid. Everyone has it, it’s just about how we deal with it. Being insecure it's normal.

And another thing I’ve realized now is that I need to completely stop seeking approval from anyone and anything. Especially "him". I just need to write for myself, for my own entertainment. Before this whole jealousy thing hit me, I admit I was writing to get attention, hoping people would like my stuff. But look where that got me now.... Absolutely nowhere. Not even from him. So fuck that.

So from now on, I’m done caring if people react to my stories. Whether they appreciate it or not, I’m not gonna give a fuck. And here's a thing, when I acted or said that I don't give a fuck, I notice that I actually give a fuck. But when I acknowledge my feelings, process them, letting me feel the feelings and then try to heal it then that's when I stop giving a fuck.

And at the end of the day, I’m never gonna be their number one, their favorite, or even their friend. I guess I have to face the harsh truth that I’m always gonna be the background guy. The NPC in my own life. That’s just the way it is. But for today, let me feel this jealousy, so I can feel more like human....

[thisischeri]

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[porto-rosso]

(14 year old tim drake voice) guys i’m so excited my anthrax from bruce just arrived in the mail ^-^ it’s part of a new training exercise to improve my constitution and help me recognise the symptoms of various diseases and poisons :) can’t have me getting sick if i’m gonna fight by batman’s side!! actually did you know that dick grayson (the first robin) has only been sick twice since he was 13. yeah first was when he was living with bruce but the second time he was up in new york and i had to break into his apartment to bring him soup so he wouldn’t starve to death. he kept crying and calling me jason which was honestly really pathetic but happens to the best of us if you know what i’m saying. hey is that a joint you know if you light that you’re going to hell righ

[becca-e-barnes]

Cannot stop thinking about making a really submissive Bucky cum until he can't anymore 😵‍💫

I love the thought of working load after load from him and the way that he'd go from being pretty quiet and composed to whimpering and writhing, unsure if he needs more or less of your touch.

Getting him to a stage where he feels empty. He feels like he has nothing left to give you. You've made him watch as you jerk him off with a delightfully lubed hand, squeezing and tugging until his cock is twitching and throbbing and shooting thick, messy stripes of cum against your palm. You don't stop after he's finished though. His release only makes the glide of your hand smoother and the sight of his own pearly cum being worked back over his cock makes him hard again in no time.

"Please." He groans, throwing his head back, exposing his beautiful throat. Your hand tightens around his cock involuntarily and you find yourself almost wishing you had your other hand around his neck. "Please don't make me cum again. I-I can't."

Bless him, his strong thighs are twitching, his muscles tense, trying to force his body to listen to his brain for just a second.

"Sweetheart, I don't think you're empty yet. You gave me so much cum just a few minutes ago." You let yourself give in just a little, leaning over and kissing along the column of his throat, enjoying the light salty perspiration against your lips.

Bucky rolls his hips but it's hard for him to tell if he's trying to lean into your touch or away from it. In truth, he loves feeling like this. He loves having his cum milked from him and having no choice but to enjoy the mind numbing pleasure of your body.

His thighs are streaked with evidence of his own lust and he's almost ashamed that he's still hard. Not just as hard as he was when you started though.

"F-Fuck." The slick sound of your hand pumping him quickly is overwhelming. Your grip is tight on his shaft while you cup his balls, squeezing and teasing them gently, encouraging them to work overtime for you.

"I can't cum again. I can't." Bucky pants, whimpering when he forces his eyes to meet yours again.

"You told me that last time. I'm not sure when you decided it would be a good idea to lie to me but I promise you, it isn't." Your tone would make him tense but he's tense already, trying to hold back an orgasm he truly doesn't need.

"This is the last orgasm I want from you. You can manage it for me, can't you?" You sound so sincere this time, he can't help but agree.

"Good boy. Now cum nice and hard for me. I want to hear how pathetic you sound."

For the next few minutes, there are no sounds except the delightfully wet sound of your hand working lube and cum against his dick and the frantic moans of a man reaching a level of pleasure that verges just nicely on painful.

When he does cum, you let it splash against your palm once more and you notice how little he's able to provide you with. He's entirely empty, legs shaking but babbling how grateful he is for the way you touch him.

Now that he's spent, it feels like your turn to enjoy yourself while he watches and nothing sounds better than touching yourself with the hand that's covered in his cum.

[shotmrmiller]

Obsessed and drooling over red-headed-good-with-cats-ugly-as-shit-won't-fuck-off König. Matching his freak by dragging him to a courthouse to get married immediately after his proposal. Calling his Oma to let her know the great grandkids are in the process of making. We're dropping by with a pie on Saturday to let his family know the loser didn't just make me up

SO fucking funny omf his oma is like plz i love u but you gotta stop lying about you getting a spouse it isn't healthy :(

and then he's dragged home by you with a golden crusted and lattice topped pie. surprise! the photo albums come out at dinner and the only thought running through your head is that the scars did him a favor.

[merakiui]

Can we hear more thoughts on self-aware skully in a halloween-themed otome?? I think it's such a fun concept! Thinking of him, loving us knowing that he will never have us<33

:D the basic idea is that the love interests are everyone in TNBC event and it focuses on you and them planning the perfect Halloween celebration alongside the residents of Halloween Town. Spend a week getting closer to and raising the affection meter of your beloved and perhaps he might confess on Halloween night under a brilliant moon! <3

Skully is a side character who is merely there to progress the plot; he doesn't have any real route for himself, nor does he have any of the mechanics the other characters have (affection meters). But if he did perhaps he might be the secret yandere route most otome games have...

Unfortunately, most of his scenes with you are very short and he's often there to make the love interest shine brighter. When Leona warns you not to listen to a fanatic like him, that only misfortune can come from readily believing everything he says, it's meant to make you fall for Leona and his protective charm. Or when Jamil asks Skully if he's doing okay when he notices how downcast he seems, it's to make you fawn over how considerate and observant he appears. But all of this is just part of pre-programmed characteristics. It's all part of a script. Skully plays his part in this drama, almost like a ghost as he floats through whichever route you choose to pursue, and with every replay he begins to realize there's more beyond the world he's confined to.

You can't actually like these characters, right? They're just caricatures. They're programmed to fall for you, but Skully's love for you is a natural progression! It's real. Sure, you click through some of his dialogue when it's too long, but please don't ignore him. >_< surely you don't agree with the others on their idea for Halloween! You think a somber Halloween is better, right? One that's quiet and solemn. One that's meant for reflection. One that's better spent alone. He knows you're a sweet, considerate person at heart. Surely you share his feelings on this matter.

The game has a feature where one of the love interests will visit you each day you log in during the seven-day timeframe, and it gives you chances to either raise or lower their affection meter when you interact with them. Imagine your surprise when Skully, who isn't a love interest and thus shouldn't be here, forces himself into the spotlight, hoping to have a private chat with you. He's so excited! Oh, what should he say? He isn't confined by the laws of the script, so he can say and do whatever he wants! It's how he's able to be so much more expressive than the other characters.

You watch in surprise as the blank bubble fills with a dialogue you've never encountered before:

Lovely person beyond the screen, I greet you with a kiss! Allow me to remind you of what the real Halloween is.

[logan-the-artist]

idk if you still do requests but uh. loceit. they're my sillies. perchance??? /nf

the sassy sillies

[ivxliwh]

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[izzyspussy]

universal basic income save me. universal basic income. save me universal basic income.

[dimadimoo]

It's been what? A week, two weeks maybe? Yeah, it's been a while since my last journal entry. And in that time, a lot has gone down. It’s been a mixed bag of revelations, lessons, some pretty low moments, discovering more about myself, feeling overwhelmed. It's just… A LOT.

I made a habit tracker spreadsheet and set some goals to hit before the end of 2024. But honestly, I’ve only managed to knock out a few so far. My goals are to be well read and knowledgeable, but not in that annoying "uhmm, akshually 🤓👆🏼" kind of way. Though, let’s be real... I’ll probably sound like that sometimes, hahaha.

I guess I want to be healthier, focus on taking care of myself more, be gentler with myself, no more beating myself up, be more grounded with my surroundings cause I always in my la la land a lot of times, and write more stories, and journaling, whatever. Basically, I want to be a healthy Pinterest It boy + cultured gentleman, if that makes sense.

A few days ago, something traumatic happened. It was so scary that I had a mental breakdown afterward. But I’m better now. I just wish I wasn’t so emotionally sensitive sometimes. And I don’t mean like, “Oh, I want to be a stoic man who doesn’t feel anything because men don’t have emotions.” Not that. I do want to feel things deeply, that’s one of the things I love about myself.

But when I see something traumatic, I wish it wouldn’t hit me that hard. You know what I mean? That experience was one of the most traumatic things I’ve ever witnessed, and I just want to be in control of my emotions, not a slave to them. That’s what I really want.

Today, I finally took a bath after… well, a while, washed my hair, clipped my dirty long nails, put on some skincare, and read two WSJ articles and one on Chinese mythology. I still haven’t finished reading that paper on Shanghai’s urban city planning from 1989 to now, though. It has a lot of words that I don't understand.

Oh, and I sang today, haha, it’s been a while since I last sang! Funny enough, the song made me tear up... I guess the lyrics just hit me right in the feels.

I also slept a ton, which I’m gonna call a win because I’ve been restless as hell lately and seriously needed it. As for writing tf stories, I’m taking a break from it for a while. Got a bit overwhelmed. But my brain’s buzzing with new ideas, so I know I’ll get back to it soon, just gonna take it slow this time.

Please, Friday… be easy on me....

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

Miles Kane backstage at Pukkelpop 2024 🖤

[smooth-noob]

[invisiblerambler]

I want to make one thing abundantly clear. Sydney staying at The Bear especially if Carmy decides to do his part in getting his shit together is not her "accepting less than she deserves" it's her deciding that to her the work required is worth it and sometimes the best things do not come easy. Life is not that cut and dry and it's not always about leaving to pursue the easier thing. If she stays it's because she believes it will be the best choice based on whatever priorities she has, you may not see it as the right choice but it doesn't mean she is automatically accepting less than she deserves

[blighted-lights]

we have reached new levels of mental illness (<- going through all of idw to get every single ravage panel ever)

here, have one of my favorite panels!

and another favorite, which is,,, also kind of a least favorite as well, lol. the duality of man.

[adamsvanrhijn]

posted on Facebook by Wm Fazioli to the HBO The Gilded Age Fan Page (August 13, 2024)

[elegyfortherings]

happy outer wilds switch release day!